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𝕀: 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕟𝕠𝕥𝕖 (when the world went to shit | pre! and post!outbreak joel miller x reader)
complete masterlist | joel miller masterlist
“𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕨𝕙𝕚𝕝𝕖 𝕞𝕪 𝕕𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕞𝕤 𝕞𝕒𝕕𝕖 𝕞𝕦𝕤𝕚𝕔 𝕚𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕟𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥” - last words of a shooting star | mitski
words || 𝟚.𝟚𝕜
series masterlist || when the world went to shit
previous || i: the prologue
summary || in which the reader and joel reminicse on times gone by
a/n || first fic of 2024!!
➵ part of a series; check the masterlist ^!
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➵ not proofread
➵ heed the warnings in said masterlist, this series is 18+
➵ send me requests if you have ‘em. enjoy!
warnings || really harsh angst
➵ character death
➵ suicide
➵ suicidal ideation
ellie had been quiet the past few days, and joel wasn’t sure he could blame her.
he’d tried to make it better - if that’s any consolation. he’d read that book of puns with her cover to cover about twice, he’d tried to get her to go out and meet other youth in the jackson commune, and even spoke privately with maria to see if the older women could help him liven ellie’s spirits. one night, he’d take her out on one of the horses, citing a perimeter check to tommy as the reason and, though one had been carried out that day itself, his brother seceded, seeing the desperate look on joel’s face and the contemplative one on ellie’s.
she’d liked it, he thinks. they’d sat just a kilometer or two from the commune, such that if they both went really silent and tuned out the bugs and wind, they’d still hear the distant buzz of electricity coming from the beacon that the commune was. the horse ride was quiet, but she’d hugged onto his back, maybe tighter than she’d done before, and her head rested against him, causing him to try and move as little as possible, so as to keep her comfortable. he’d introduced her to the concept of constellations, and she’d cracked a few smiles - maybe even a laugh or two - as her imagination concocted wild shapes over the stars. she’d fallen asleep on the way back, her light breaths sometimes catching and turning into small snores, making joel’s still tough exterior crack just slightly, a smile delicately resting over his features.
carrying her had become practically second nature to him now, easing her into her bed in their small house - one they could call their own. she looked peaceful - happy, and he hoped it would carry onto the next day. settling into his own bed - not far from hers, feeling paranoid should it be - he gazed up at the blank wall above him, deep breaths and a quiet night allowing him to practically feel the oxygen coursing through his body.
a sudden sense of deja vu overtakes him, and it’s so powerful that it physically overwhelms him, making his head spin and his breath catch. it was so strong, it was almost as though he could feel her, hear her next to him, telling him to stay another moment, wrapping her legs over his and her arms around him. his mind has wandered away from ellie, resting instead on… her. the one that got away.
what had she said again? that morning… something about movies? mornin’ lovin’? he couldn’t remember exactly what, but he did remember her - how she made him feel.
it was just before all this. the last time he was really content, before the contentment he found in jackson.
he wondered about her.
she sometimes wondered how she made it so far into the end of the world.
maybe she was more hardy than she made herself out to be - a fast learner, with an adaptive personality.
but really, what she had was support.
when the world went to shit, she had hidden in her bathroom. and - perhaps the only person in the world she believed remembered her - her neighbor, a few doors down, and also her closest work friend. she heard the grating horn of a car, but did it sound sweet when the voice that accompanied it called out for her.
she ran outside, shielding her eyes from the explosions occurring in the distance, and she runs up to the door of the car. inside, bella: the girl who sits in the cubicle across from her, who seemed so sweet, if not a little mouthy when they gossiped about their boss, always-rememebered-everyone’s-birthday bella, sitting in the driver’s seat with a determined, cold look in her eyes, a pistol peeking out of her half-opened glovebox.
“get in.” bella orders, and she immediately complies, sliding into the passenger seat, and nearly screaming when a hand places softly on her shoulder to reassure her. whipping her head back, as bella begins to drive, she sees ryan, their other coworker - who bella was a bit closer with.
“what the fuck is going on?” she whimpers, and ryan swallows harshly.
“fuck if i know? people are going crazy - we have to get somewhere isolated.” bella hums in agreement, eyes trained on the road.
“can you use a gun?” her heart clenches.
“a - what? no - no, i can’t-”
“learn.” bella’s tone is sharp, and it shuts her up.
ryan squeezes her shoulder again.
“bella, calm down. guys, we’ll be okay. we’ll figure it out.��
somehow, they had. the three of them had managed to get out of the city, driving through the farm lands - where few people stayed, and once they were far enough away from the suburbs and the city center, they found an abandoned farm.
that was the first safehouse.
they had gone through… perhaps over a thousand - now, 20 years into all this.
they worked together well - bella had a gun license, and had taught the other two - both now armed with their own guns that they had pulled off different houses. she used to be a scout, and had some lifestyle experience and first-aid knowledge. and ryan was strong and aware - he was the main reason they had escaped approaching infected or - in many cases, worse - people.
it was difficult to be a woman in the apocalypse - and he knew that. he took his job very seriously.
she doesn’t remember exactly when it happened, but bella and ryan got together. of course, maybe she always expected it, but it was a symbol of hope - they were a show of normalcy in a world of horror. bella confided in her a lot - about finding somewhere to possibly begin settling down, setting up defenses… maybe having a self-sustaining farm. it was quaint, it was sweet, it was homely, and best, it was starting to seem realistic.
but that’s when their luck ran out.
waking up to sharp clicks coming up the stairs, stuttered steps clacking against the wooden floor. she jolts awake, immediately cringing at the slight squeak of the bed. luckily, past the only slightly ajar door, the muffled sound is only enough to cause the clicker to pause and curiously angle its body in the direction of the sound.
she looks up in horror at bella and ryan - both also up, and trying their best to be dead silent. bella gets up, with only the smallest creak of the floorboards, as she signals to ryan to grab the bag, and for her to get up. both comply, joining her. they all know there’s no shot of getting out through the front door, and bella points to the window. ryan and her both procure their pistols, aiming at the clicker, and she remembers the way her stomach churned in horror.
as bella opens the window, there’s a loud creak as it opens, and for a quarter of a second, they all glance at each other with blown out, horrified eyes.
immediately, the clicker bursts through the door, snarling and clicking loudly and wildly. ryan shoots at it, causing it to only stagger a little.
“get out!” he shouts, and she complies, forcing bella to come with her - though she knows the other woman desperately wants to stay and help ryan.
but she’s not too worried - he’s handled this stuff before. he’ll get out.
right?
they flee off the roof, jumping down from the short height to the floor, and hiding in the nearby bushes, as they wait for ryan to join them, but then, at the sound of screams…
bella begins to sob.
it’d been a year since.
bella hasn’t been the same.
she’s tried to keep them both alive, keeping a much lower profile, and trying to be more brave when looting and encountering infected and raiders. keeping the both of them afloat was not what she’d signed up for, but she tried her best to step up to the task.
today was ryan’s death. it was as if the day knew it - gloomy, and raining when she woke up that morning. bella was turned away, pouring over her belongings in the corner of the bedroom of the abandoned house they were currently settled in.
she decided not to bother her.
looking around, they were low on… well, everything. luckily enough, the area was a ghost town. perhaps she could go looting - seeing what she could find. she’ll do it herself, she decides, and maybe bring back something to soothe bella’s troubled mind.
“i’m going out, okay?” her voice is soft, and bella doesn’t look up, instead humming dejectedly in response, and she swallows thickly.
she appreciates the fresh air outside. overgrown with plants, each building is lush and green, as she looks around at the landscape.
first, she picks off the houses. decent medical equipment, some ammo, and some food. it was a good haul, and for the first time in a long time, her bag feel heavy.
there’s a bar across the street. sounds promising. swinging the belled door open, she hears it ring behind her as she stalks in. she slowly looks around. it looks… worn. but it’s oddly warm, compared to the other houses.
she glances at the shelves, and there’s a few unopened bottles - one or two stronger liquors. smiling softly, she takes one. she’s not greedy - one is enough for now. for tonight.
walking back to their shelter, she’s careful to walk up the creaky stairs of the house, avoiding the tripwires she’d lined with attached pots to note the presence of her intruder.
“bella!” she calls, “look what i got!” no answer.
“bella?” she continues, “the bar had some goods!” still no answer. reaching the door, she inhales deeply as she prepares to try to help bella feel better.
“bella…” she slowly swings open the door.
bella’s in there. as is a rope hanging from the ceiling. her feet aren’t touching the ground, and her head is lolling to the side, eyes closed - chest… still. she’s not breathing.
she gasps in shock, horrified, before she suddenly shuts the door. she can’t look inside. she can’t breathe. her chest clenches painfully, and she falls to her knees, eyes welling - blurring her vision.
“no… no, no, no, this can’t be happening…”
she whispers it to herself, begging to someone, anyone that what she’d seen hadn’t been real. but it is. no one else is here.
she wants to scream, and wail tears streaming down her cheeks, but she can’t. she knows she can’t. someone will hear her, something will come for her.
her hand touches the bottom of the door, seeing bella’s shadow through the slit between the wood and the floor there.
she can hear her own heartbeat.
she wishes that she wouldn’t.
she was… angry at bella.
was it selfish? perhaps.
but she believed it was equally selfish for bella to do such a thing, and to strand her completely alone in the cruel world, with the knowledge that the only two people in the world who knew that she existed had died.
how do you move on from that? she wondered that for a long time. she wondered if there was a point. but then, she remembered bella’s hopes for her - unfortunately cut short - future with ryan. and that stability - that idea of a home, not the nomadic life she was forced to live - she yearned for it deeply, and it was the only thing that kept her going.
when she came to this conclusion, she opened that door that she’d cried in front of for the first time. she needed her things - she needed to start packing up. and, as she did, she noticed a note by the windowsill.
bella’s handwriting, one she could still recognize from the notes that bella would playfully hand her in passing back before all of this, sharing some new piece of office gossip.
of course, this was a different kind of note.
she walked downstairs, closing the door gently, before closing all the blinds and sitting on the couch. that was her bed for tonight, and tomorrow, she would move on.
she goes to sleep that night, reading through bella’s note to find some closure. it makes her head and eyes swim, but she powers through it. she’s less angry at bella afterwards. she’d cared for her until the very end, and it was only after a year of contemplation and anguish - that bella suffered through to stay with her - could bella no longer do it.
her cheeks, and the dusty cushion of the couch are drenched as she falls asleep, note clutched to her chest.
for the first time in a while, her dreams were vivid.
she dreamt of the world before, her old life, her happy memories of bella, ryan, and her other friends. she remembered her highs and her heartbreaks. at some point, a prominent face made a distinct appearance.
joel miller.
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watching death note with my family and after the college entrance episode my mom asked offhandedly if anyone had ever pictured L and light as a couple before. it felt like one single white dove had landed on a crystalline lake in a beautiful pure clearing. no i dont think anyones ever thought of that before
#she was shocked when i said yeah about 90 percent of tbe predominately female teen fanbase spanning 20 years. Mayyy eee#death note#lawlight#same thing happened when we watched sherlock
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Love it when Rolling Stone puts out an article about the 25 most influential internet creators and I've only heard of 7 of them
#kai rambles#god i feel old#but im not old#im 24#but im looking at this list like who are any of you?#why did this get 60k notes
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#someone suggested i turn off reblogs. to that i say. i’m not a fucking quitter#esp when i get to see my husband dancing in my notifs every time this gets a note#since this reached 30k notes i wanted to say that people in the notes saying you shouldn’t feel safe around horses are right#story time :) when i was very little i got kicked in the face by a horse.#obviously this is very dangerous and i could have been concussed but there was no bleeding or bruising or no teeth knocked out#so my family didn’t believe me and even tried to convince me that it never happened at all. accused me of lying about it#it was specifically my grandma (who i realized much later in life was extremely emotionally abusive) who insisted i was lying.#but i remember it clearly. i know that it happened. i know that it struck my front teeth and knocked me to the ground#and i have never felt safe around horses since <3 or my family actually#ahem. i always felt safe around my grandparents. ‘‘not anymore’’ said knife grandma#are you still reading this?#reality is an illusion the universe is a hologram#you just lost the game#speaking of loss#|#|/#||#|_
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Ignoring the real possibility he intentionally let himself be caught from the little we know so far Luigi Mangione's case is a fascinating combination of astonishing brilliance and confusing stupidity. This young man plans and executes his assassination and escape with such a meticulous care and calmness that it's suspected that he's a professional hitman. He comes up with Riddler-sque moves like writing his manifesto poetically on the bullets and leaving his backpack behind full of Monopoly money. He carefully wears a mask to avoid being identified but removes it because a woman who was checking him into the hostel was flirting with him and wanted to see his smile. He still manages to escape the most surveilled city in the country in the midst of ongoing national manhunt only to get caught in the middle of bumfuck nowhere Pennsylvania while eating at the McDonalds. Because for some reason he had the same clothes and mask as in New York and was carrying the same gun and suppressor. And when the cops detained him he showed them the same fake id he used in New York. And oh yeah he's a frat bro gym rat who has a masters degree in computer science from Penn but reads stupid self-help books about being on the grind and is 'anti-woke' while being bisexual suffering from anxiety and wanting to end oppressive capitalism. Not even god himself could invent a person like this
#EDIT: this post got way bigger than i predicted so just clarifying no i don't automatically assume he's guilty#he's a suspect at this point and no of course i don't trust the police#also so many people in the notes saying they know guys like this okay i believe you clearly god could make a person like this#luigi mangione#.txt
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Guys I'm so glad everyone loves hit JRWI campaign: The Suckening so much. 12 thousand notes on just a thumbnail that's so cool. Anyone think about emizel pussy-out post revival
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#txt#35k charlespost#please check the notes to see a gofundme for a palestinian family!#Reblogs go back on when i have judged the catholic transphobe reblog chain has probably been stifled
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#and so milgram was born#milgram#meme#Jackalope#hope no one has done this already#this post broke containment. if you're here for tma this is about a music project called milgram where prisoners in a panopticon sing song#about their crimes . anyway . the warden is a talking jackalope .#which was edited into this post. so uh. he is on your blog now#i thought it was very obvious that this was an edited icon and display name but apparently some people think Twitter op was a milgram fan#I'm sorry to disappoint#this was supposed to be a 3 note post for niche jp music project fans#if you're reading my tags look at my Cosplays
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arcane ships be like
i love a show that teaches equality (😭😭😭)
#guys i don't actually ship jayvik but it was necessary for the reference#sorry for the quality btw i threw this together#timebomb#jayvik#caitvi#arcane#arcane spoilers#arcane season 2#EDIT: multiple people have pointed out that the labels i've used aren't the characters' real sexualities. and they're right#there's actually NO labels in runeterra so i shoulda said m/f m/m and f/f relationships#but you guys already gave this 13k notes so whatever bro#just know!!! they are more than whatever nathaniacolver post labels them as! :)#EDIT AGAIN AFTER THE FINALE: I DO INDEED NOW SHIP JAYVIK. DAFUQ#DOOM IS DOOM
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Well I like it but it’s not very well written. Also it’s a visual mess. The plot doesnt make any sense and the creators suck and its politics oscillate from mildly problematic to frankly baffling. I wouldn’t recommend it to anyone. However. the character
#warlock wartalks#too many to name..goodbye world#now that this is getting notes I would like to officially state I was thinking abt Torchwood and several comic properties when making this#also great cities which yall know is close to my heart but I have an entirely different set of issues w its politics#mostly that nkj can do better
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i feel like a lot of the 'i hate kids' crowd would be more tolerant if they understood that due to a kid's limited experience of the world that 4 hour flight might just be the longest they've ever had to sit still for or that trapped finger might literally be the most pain they've ever felt in their short life or they might not have ever seen a person with pink hair ever so of course they want to touch it or nobody's told them yet that they can't run around the museum and they only just learned cheetahs are the fastest animals so of course they want to put that to the test. how were they supposed to know etc etc.
#like majority of the time kids are not just 'being naughty'. they have big feelings inside little bodies it's a lot#also like.#it should be illegal to dye your hair fun colours if you aren't prepared for kids in public to ask if youre related to a my little pony#EDIT: the notes on this post are an absolute cesspool. i don't care about your reasons for hating kids you sound like a disney villain
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#american politics#us politics#2024 election#joe biden#edit i removed the caption cuz it was stupid lol#5k notes#10k notes#20k notes#25k notes#35k notes
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author’s notes today: hey guys so just a warning there isn’t 100% explicit verbal consent even though they’re both really into it so remember this is FICTION, also they don’t use a condom :((( but in real life safe sex is important!!! please be safe out there everyone
a/n back in the day: kept thinking about ____ stabbing knives through both of _____’s hands to pin him in place while they fucked so here you go lol =P
#i’m not saying it was better at all! i just find the contrast hilarious#no one posted stories with the belief that readers would use them as instruction manuals#kids today write author’s notes like they’re about to be sued for practicing without a license
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I turn to Ares.
Thanks to Tyler Miles Lockett who allowed me to draw inspiration from his ARES piece for page 2! Look at his etsy page it's SICK
⚔️ If you want to read some queer retelling of arturian legends have a look at my webtoon
#greek mythology#ares#athena#greek gods#dont get me wrong it aint athena slander but it sure is ares praise#on some level at least#man justly accused of bad things deserves some mid praise more at 11#thank you romi for helping me with words though i duly noted you insisted on ares not being cautious rather than him not being careful#romi be like “i want him to care” and honestly good you should say it#also EPIC led to this and i just..... i want to draw some animatics man i just need infinite time now#my long lost love for greek myths just will never stop coming and they dont stop coming and they dont stop coming#i want some vulture design in here for ares but not sure about this one#kochei doodles
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