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#I would say he becomes olivia’s too; something you can really start to see in the back half of season one
cakeyouareoh · 3 months
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peter’s name really is extremely fitting to both his character, and his character’s role.
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khunyuki · 3 months
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"I've lived my life with blade and you always in my mind"
ꜱɪᴅᴇ ꜱᴛᴏʀʏ: 𝚋. 𝙹𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚘𝚞𝚜𝚢, 𝙹𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚘𝚞𝚜𝚢
Synopsis: Uzui Kagami admires Captain Ashiro Mina but that doesn't mean it didn't bother her whenever she hears Soshiro talk about her all of the time. Meanwhile, Hoshina Soshiro doesn't really think of Captain Narumi Gen as a threat but with how clingy he is to Kagami, boy does it feel so annoying.
Pairing/s: Hoshina Soshiro x Fiancee!OC
Notes: Sorry I posted this late, I had a hard time writing it but enjoyed it in the end. I love jealous Soshiro who acts like he isn't jealous at all <3 Also, stop being so negative, Kagami! Soshiro loves you with all his heart😭
Warning/s: Side-B manga spoiler, overthinking, jealousy
Genre: Song-inspired (kinda), Angst? (kinda), Hurt/Comfort (kinda)
Masterlist: TOC, Previous, Next
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𝓒𝓸-𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓹𝓪𝓻𝓲𝓼𝓸𝓷 𝓲𝓼 𝓴𝓲𝓵𝓵𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓶𝓮 𝓼𝓵𝓸𝔀𝓵𝔂
𝓘 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓴, 𝓘 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓴 𝓽𝓸𝓸 𝓶𝓾𝓬𝓱
'𝓑𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓴𝓲𝓭𝓼 𝔀𝓱𝓸 𝓭𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀 𝓶𝓮
𝓐𝓷𝓭 𝓘'𝓶 𝓼𝓸 𝓼𝓲𝓬𝓴 𝓸𝓯 𝓶𝔂𝓼𝓮𝓵𝓯
𝓘'𝓭 𝓻𝓪𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻 𝓫𝓮, 𝓻𝓪𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻 𝓫𝓮
𝓐𝓷𝔂𝓸𝓷𝓮, 𝓪𝓷𝔂𝓸𝓷𝓮 𝓮𝓵𝓼𝓮
𝓜𝔂 𝓳𝓮𝓪𝓵𝓸𝓾𝓼𝔂, 𝓳𝓮𝓪𝓵𝓸𝓾𝓼𝔂
𝓢𝓽𝓪𝓻𝓽𝓮𝓭 𝓯𝓸𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓶𝓮
- Jealousy, jealousy by Olivia Rodrigo
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Ashiro Mina, the Captain of the Third Division of the Defense Force, is someone Kagami admired starting from the day she joined the force. Just like how she looked up to Shinomiya Hikari when she was still alive.
A charismatic, strong and determined, kind yet strict woman. The one who initiated the change in kaiju neutralization for the better, as well as someone who a lot of people idolize.
It would certainly be strange if someone dislikes her, no?
Said woman was the topic of Kagami and Soshiro's conversation in the study room.
"Captain Ashiro is so amazing! She neutralized that honju from this morning with such ease. That precision, power, and accuracy was so excellent it's like..."
Kagami rambled on and on about how great Captain Ashiro Mina is and how she wants to be someone like her who gives people inspiration etc, etc...
Soshiro just watched his fiancee fondly, nodding his head whenever she looks his way, agreeing with her sentiment. Whenever she talks about something she likes, she could talk for hours on end about it.
"You sure do like her that much, huh?"
"I do! I know it's still too early for me to dream of becoming/doing something as close to what she's done but someday I want to be able to stand as her equal in terms of greatness"
Soshiro loves it whenever she's like this, she's willing to admit that she still need to work hard in order to be what she wanted to become. Her confidence in saying that she'll someday be able to do just that with such assertiveness makes him think that she really can do it in the future.
"Somehow, I'm getting jealous of Captain Ashiro who you like so much. Just joking"
He rested his chin on his hand as he showed her a teasing grin. He was just joking, of course, but seeing her red in the face after was really cute. He ruffled her hair as a sign of affection.
"You're the one I like though"
She muttered those words as softly as a whisper, so silent that he didn't catch it. He had to stop his actions to ask her to repeat it again.
"It was nothing"
"If you say so"
With her firm denial, Soshiro relented and fixed her hair. Her straight and silky hair wasn't really tangled much but it still has to be fixed in order for her to look presentable. He gently used his fingers as a comb, massaging her head slightly while doing so.
"By the way, I have to head to the Third Division tomorrow for a meeting about the goodwill kendo match that'll take place in a month. So I'll have to pass your compliments to the captain myself"
"Noooo"
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The next day, Kagami bid him farewell fully expecting him to come back later into the night. She gradually became worried when he doesn't answer her texts or calls. She wasn't able to catch some sleep at all until she received a report about him getting injured while helping with kaiju neutralization.
Immediately, she asked for permission to take the day off in order to look after him. It took a while to get permission but fortunately they allowed it after seeing the bags under her eyes and the increasingly anxious look getting worse by the second.
Kagami immediately got changed and prepared necessary things before going. She didn't use the their division's car, preferring to commute by train or taxi as it was a private affair. After arriving at the hospital he was admitted to, she hurried to his room.
Stopping suddenly after seeing two prominent figure entering his supposed room. It was no surprise that Captain Ashiro would visit him after he got injured under her care.
She didn't want to eavesdrop but she also didn't want to interrupt their conversation. She was about to leave to give them space when she heard the captain thanking her fiancee. Curiosity got ahold of her making her erase her presence and listen to their conversation in the hallway.
"Hoshina, you are indeed a blade specialist. You undoubtedly saved that child's life. Now then, I still haven't heard you answer."
"My answer?"
"Will you join my force, Hoshina?"
That question struck Kagami like lightning.
"I appreciate the offer, but to be honest, I am quite torn. My only talent lies in the blade. But in our last mission, not even those blades were able to be of any assistance."
"Hoshina, will your power not evolve any further?"
"Huh? Oh, no... That isn't... what I meant"
"Then you just have to further polish your swordsmanship, Hoshina. Join my force and master your craft."
"Up till now, I've been treated no better than a tumor in my division. If you're saying even someone like me can be of help... Then I would love to join the Third Division"
"Then it's settled..."
Kagami stopped listening any further and was occupied by her thoughts. Was he... Was he leaving her? No, him leaving their division was fine but couldn't he gave at least talked to her about it first? Her mind was filled with questions and an unsettling feeling.
Due to her zoning out, she couldn't her them talking about her after. With Soshiro asking if she could join them too and Captain Ashiro agreeing as she wanted to ask her to join too if given the chance to talk to each other. She could only settle for requesting that he passed her message to her for now.
Sensing the people inside moving, Kagami snapped out of her thoughts and ran away. Captain Ashiro and Platoon Leader Ebina could only see her long black hair before disappearing in the corner.
"That person seemed familiar"
Captain Ashiro referring to the running female from earlier.
"Maybe it's someone you know, ma'am?"
Platoon Leader Ebina asked, in which Captain Ashiro shook her head.
"Must've been my imagination. Let's go"
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Currently, Uzui Kagami was at a cafe resting after shamefully running away. There really wasn't any reason to do so but somehow, she doesn't want anyone to see her. She didn't know why she felt so upset despite them only talking about their mission... And him accepting her offer of moving divisions.
She was happy for him, of course. But deep inside, something was bugging her and she didn't quite know what.
Was it because her fiance was leaving her alone? No that wasn't it. She was fine with him leaving if it meant he could improve even more.
Was it because he was complimented by her idol, hearing her greatly acknowledge her strengths? No that wasn't it. He deserves to be complimented by everyone, not just by Captain Ashiro, because of how amazing he truly is.
Was it because she knew what he meant when he called himself a tumor in their division?...
Or was it because her words couldn't touch him compared to the words of someone greater than her?...
Kagami pinched her skin to snap out her bad thoughts. She shouldn't think too much or else she'll lose sight of herself and the truth.
But what if he's leaving because he no longer wants to be with her? What if he wanted to be by the side of someone stronger like Captain Ashiro? What if it was an excuse to get away from her and break their engagement since he finally realized he could be with someone better than her? What if--
Ah... She was starting to hate herself again and it was her own fault. Kagami used to think negative all of the time but Soshiro always reassured her by being by her side. And now he's leaving...
'Pretend. Let's pretend, Kagami. If we continue to pretend that everything is fine then we'll believe it eventually. It's fine. Everything is fine.'
She thought as she ordered a Mont Blanc for takeout like she wasn't experiencing a mental breakdown.
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Bracing herself, she rehearsed her words in her mind. She'd tell him she's late because of the long line at the cafe then she saw Captain Ashiro leaving the hospital. Yes, that's fine. She shouldn't tell him she eavesdropped on their conversation and thought the worse. Taking a deep breath, she knocked on the door and smiled like it was nothing.
"I'm sorry I'm late. There was a long line at the cafe so it took a bit too long to buy this"
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After joining the First Division, Kagami participated in joint trainings with the rest of the Eastern Division. In the corner of her eyes, she could see her fiancee, now Vice Captain, arriving with Captain Ashiro and the rest of the Third Division.
Somehow, the bubbling and unsettling feeling on the pit of her stomach was starting to resurface and she felt virtually uncomfortable. She'd already forgotten all about it so why did it come back?
"Are you okay? You look pale"
Her friend now superior, Shinonome Rin, noticed her feeling under the weather.
"I'm kinda nervous about being around this many people"
She made an excuse and Rin took her words at face value, knowing how easily nervous she was.
"You can rest back inside if you want. The fun part's for later, for now, it's just formalities"
"Thanks"
Kagami thanked her friend and slipped inside the building. The Ariake Maritime Base is huge but having multiple divisions visit at the same time felt like the atmosphere was cramped. She rested inside for a few minutes before a familiar voice disturbed her.
"Kagami~ Hide me"
Behind her, she could feel the presence of her Captain pressing against her back. His arms were now enveloping her as he is playing his switch, with his chin resting on her head.
"I don't feel the sense of urgency in your voice Captain. Also, aren't you supposed to be with Vice Captain Hasegawa and the others?"
Kagami tried to slip off his grip but failing. Ever since she joined the First Division and got involved with her lazy captain, he's been clinging to her nonstop. Maybe that was her fault cause she kept picking him up and transporting him somewhere, saving his games for him, and hiding him. She reap what she sow.
She bent down and took his knees on her hands and gave him a piggyback ride. Used to it, Captain Narumi Gen rested on her comfortably.
"Captain, did you know that this is an abuse of power?"
"I do but do I care? Nope"
Kagami just sighed as she carried him back to where he came from, the meeting room where all captains and vice captains were present.
The door was being guarded by the platoon leaders of the First Division so they knew to let them in without asking. Her friend, Rin, was shaking her head once again.
The sound of the door opening stopped the conversation the people inside were having, thus bringing the attention to the two of them. The attention and multiple eyes on her was enough to fuel her anxiety and also make her red from embarrassment. She was used to the First Division seeing their antics but not with other divisions, especially her fiance, around.
She hurriedly placed him down besides Vice Captain Hasegawa, who threw her a grateful look, and confiscated his switch. Captain Narumi whined at her betrayal, wanting to sneak out again but was forced to stay put by the hand on his shoulder. Vice Captain Hasegawa begged her to stay and watch over him to which she reluctantly agreed. She was just an officer who had absolutely no right to be present in that meeting but here she is, babysitting her captain.
She couldn't bear to look at her fiance as she didn't know what to do or how to explain her situation to him. All she ever told him was that she's babysitting her captain and not the extent of it. That's why she couldn't see the glare and killing intent he's sending on Captain Narumi's way.
Captain Narumi clearly amused with his rival's expressions couldn't help but feel smug despite not knowing what he's annoyed about. He just felt like he won against Soshiro for once... Not that he ever lost to him. Chuckling, he motioned for her to come near and whispered.
"Look at how pissed Hoshina is. I don't know what I did but it's hella funny"
Kagami was confused for she had never seen her fiance pissed at all. She took a glance at him to see him smiling sweetly at her then back to her captain.
"I think it's just your imagination Captain Narumi"
"Like hell it is"
Hearing Kagami refute him, Narumi Gen just sulked but still relished in his rival's obvious display of irritation.
Kagami turned back to listening to the meeting and focused her attention on the voice of the person currently talking, Captain Ashiro.
Captain Ashiro has now grown into a fine woman but her charisma was still the same. Her face has gotten even more prettier with her silky straight, long black hair placed in a high ponytail.
Kagami touched her own hair styled in a loose braid cascading over her shoulder. She used to style her hair in a high ponytail just like Captain Ashiro's whenever there were missions then let it down when there aren't. Hearing it being compared to each other after Captain Ashiro grew hers made her feel like she had to change her style hence the braid.
She didn't want to admit it but Captain Ashiro became one of the sources of her insecurites and she hates herself for it. Just how could she feel jealous of someone she used to admire the most, still admire until now. Someone she and her fiance admires and deeply respects. Maybe that's why she didn't accept the offer to join the Third Division back then. Or else she'd fall into a deeper rabbit hole of complex emotions she no longer wants to feel.
She always tried to stop that feeling. Never once addressing it as to not let it interfere with her daily life and how she interacts with them. But whenever she and Soshiro talked, he would be praising Captain Ashiro nonstop with how honored he is to be chosen to be by her side.
Still, she pretended that it was fine cause he always reassured her that he only admires Ashiro Mina as his captain. With the same admiration that she felt before that disgusting feeling bubbled up inside her.
"You feeling okay over there?"
Captain Narumi noticed the sad expression on her face that was hidden by her bangs from people in front of her but not the person under her. He expressed his concern towards her and she could totally see that in his eyes.
"Wanna sneak out and play?"
That was his way of comforting his as it is the only way he knows himself. Giggling at his attempts, she karate hopped his head and told him to stop getting distracted. She felt better now than earlier so she gave him back his switch as long as he behaved.
She stopped thinking about her jealousy and just focused. She was given the chance to attend a meeting she would normally not be able to be allowed it. She should take this seriously. Well, at least she should acknowledge her fiance with a smile first after ignoring him for so long.
With a shy smile, she finally gained the courage to look at her fiance who has long since been staring at her and Captain Narumi. She gave him a discreet wave, something only they could see then turned back to listening.
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"Hoshina, are you alright?"
"Of course I'm fine Captain. Never been better"
Ashiro Mina isn't really afraid of anything, rather she stopped being afraid. But the way he smiled when he said that gave her a bad feeling to which she just ignored, feeling sorry for the recipient of that smile. She remembered how he started getting annoyed when the two came in and recognized that the woman who brought Captain Narumi inside was her vice captain's fiancee. How could she not when she's all he ever talked about when he had the chance. Still, she felt sorry for the beating Captain Narumi will experience later by the hands of the man beside her.
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Hoshina Soshiro didn't like the way Narumi Gen clinged to his fiancee. Ever since they went inside with him on her back to how she kept placing her hand on his shoulders to keep him still. He didn't like his smug smile as he noticed him glaring and when he made her lean closer to him. He didn't like how he made her smile after seeing that there was something bothering her.
That's fine though, for she finally smiled at him after ignoring him the whole time. That discreet wave of hers that only the two of them could see before the focus back on the meeting again. Despite feeling shy and anxious at a place where she shouldn't be, she still made the effort to notice him.
The problem was that lazyass captain of her that kept clinging and making her babysit him. He guess he should punish him by beating him up during the 1v1 activities later. He has to show him just who is better amongst the two of them. Of course while showing to his girl, after all that is the most important agenda.
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Waiting Room
Pairing: (Platonic but you can view how you like, but it's better platonic because there is a mention of Annabeth) Percy Jackson x Clearsighted! Mortal! GN! Reader.
Summary: Percy goes to therapy (🥳🥳), in the waiting room he meets someone a bit...different from the normal mortals.
Warnings: Swearing. And that's just it I guess? Ohh I almost forgot it has a mention of Gabe. (🤢)
Notes: Okay I don't know how hospitals and medical services work really well in other countries. But in mine this is how private hospitals work in Portugal. So this is just how I know. 😭😭😭 And hope you all like it! (And my Clarisse work was on fire, really happy!)
1.
Percy gets out of the car with Paul driving and Sally sitting on his side.
"Do you need for us to enter with you honey?" Sally asks smiling.
"Nah, it's okay mom." He kisses her cheek and waves at Paul.
"See you at home." Paul nods and waves back, Sally looks at him until he passes the door of the hospital entrance.
She relaxes as he does so.
"You need to relax." Paul says as he starts driving, after he tells her that he turns on the radio.
Sally nods. "You're right." She says and holds his hand that isn't in the steering wheel.
2.
Percy enters and goes to the balcony.
He waits for the register to even look at him, she is making gum balls and looking at a magazine, after he coughs to get her attention she looks at him, her ball gum going to her red lipstick lips in suprise.
"Hello there." Percy says as she looks at him. "I have a session with Doctor Brenner." She looks at her computer, he hears the sound of the offline 'Dino Game', but he hopes he is becoming deaf instead of that.
He coughs again.
"Oh yeah, I'm sorry." She makes a forced smile with full teeth, wich has some of the red lipstick she is using. He makes a mental note to not say anything about it.
"So here it is." She talks to herself in the computer and points at the customer service password machine.
He goes and takes one: 'A458'.
'I hope that is good.' He thinks. She coughs at him to get his attention. He suddently feels the pressure to yell to all the people that she has lipstick in her teeth, but he doesn't.
"Yes?" He tries to make a smile.
"Doctor Brenner has a lot of people today, so the wait may be longer than the normal." She says now really playing the 'Dino Game' as he can see trough the reflection in her eyes.
"Thank you." He says, not very thankfull.
He goes sit in the waiting room, looking at the sides. The girl was right it is kind of full today, and isn't just because of the therapy sessions.
He goes sit at the place who has less people, a person reading a book, a mom who looks tired of life with two kids (he can tell that they are twins), and and emo kid in the corner who looks like could pull his phone out of his pocket and the people in there would think it is an AK-47. He sits beside the person reading the book. He waits for his time and looks at the TV who says the customers password. He sees that it is in the Q457 and W231. He has no idea if that is good, but it doesn't look like it, because he is A and it is in Q and W now?
"They are random." He hears the person next to him say. He looks at you as you look at him too.
"...What?" He asks suprised.
"The numbers...you were looking at them right?" You ask.
"Yeah I was." He makes a embarassed smile. "I was just suprised that you knew."
You shrugh your shoulders, now closing the book putting the marker in it.
"You were looking at the TV like an idiot." You smirk. "It was likely to knew." He smirks back.
"Very funny." Percy says mockingly.
"Thank you." You say and continue. "So what brings you here? I never seen you here before. Not that matter of course."
Percy thinks of it for a minute but he decides to tell. "Therapist." He says and looks at you.
"Doctor Brenner right?" You ask smiling.
"How did you know?" He asks again suprised.
"Wow, for you I must look like a wizard or something like that." You chuckle and tell him."I'm going to the therapist too."
"Oh." Percy says.
"Oh." You say mockingly but smiling.
"Soooo..is Doctor Brenner good or..?" Percy asks.
"He is." You say. "5 stars, I recommend." Percy chuckles with that.
"So sorry to ask. If you don't feel okay to answer I understand. Since we met now and whatever." You say. "But is there a specific reason you need a therapist?"
'Lots of them.' He thinks.
"Nope. Just a shitty ex-stepfather." He says and you nod.
'Hey, I'm not lying at least.' He thinks again.
"I see." You say and sigh.
"You seem disapointed." He says.
"It's not that." You pause for a moment. "It's just that...my reason to be here is kind of...rare."
Percy nods. "Can you tell me what it is?" You nod. "Yes, it's only fair...you answered my question." You pause again and sigh.
"I see things that other people can't." You tell.
Percy thinks for a moment. "So...you're schizophrenic?" He asks and as he sees you become tense he adds.
"I'm sorry...I didn't mean to be rude."
"I understand." You say and make a small smile to him. "And no I'm not schizophrenic...I don't know what I suffer with." You add and he can see your hand tremble. "They are there for me, and not for others, I don't know why." You say.
"Did you already made the tests to see what you have...?" Percy tells carefully.
"Yes...and nothing, it looks like it's rare, I don't hear voices, nothing! Just see strange things." You say looking at your lap as another man enters our section of the waiting room and sits besides the emo kid, the man looks at the kid and almost jumps in suprise as the kid takes a book from his bag, after that he goes sit across one of the twins.
Percy and you almost die in laughter but after some seconds it finishes and you say again.
"Doctor Brenner says that maybe it's because of stress. But I don't know." You sigh and Percy looks at you sadly.
"Well, what strange things you see?" He asks.
"Okay, it is really strange so don't alarmed." You sigh.
"I won't. Can't you see that we are at the hospital?" You two chuckle again.
"Okay.." You sigh again. "Flying horses, with wings... And giants with one eye and sometimes...I see people with swords and strange weapons." You look at him carefully.
"Wow." He says, he didn't expect to meet a clearsighted mortal right now, but here you are. He thought of his mom and Rachel and how they must have suffered when they didn't know of the godly world..like you.
"Wow." You repeat, this time not mocking. "I feel like I'm crazy, more than the emo kid." The emo kid looks at you and you wave nervous, and mutter a sorry.
'If Nico was here.' Percy thinks and chuckles to himself.
"Well, it might sound suprising but I know some people with the same condition as you..." He smiles.
"Really?!" You smile with full teeth. "OMG, I could kiss you right now!" You look at your hands still smiling.
"No thank you, I have a girlfriend." He smirks.
"Shut up and give me they're contact." You smile at him.
"Ouch, but okay." He gives you his mom and Rachel contact, writing on a paper. "Wow, one of your friend name is Red? Kind of cool."
He tries not to laugh. "Noo, it's Rachel Elizabeth Dare: R.E.D."
You nod. "That makes more sense."
And then Percy remembers something. "I don't know your name."
"Neither do I know yours." You smirk.
"Okay then. I'm Percy." He smiles at you.
"Hello, Percy. I'm Y/N." You shake his hand and smile aswell.
"Can I ask you something?" You tell.
Percy nods. "Well is Percy a nickname or your real name, because the only Percy I can think of is Percy Weasley form Harry Potter." You chuckle.
"It's a nickname, but it's what everyone calls me." He tells you.
"Why? Is your name that bad." You ask.
"I don't know, tell me you that." He pauses for a moment and tries not to laugh, he take your hand again and shakes it. "Hello Y/N. I'm Perseus."
You look at him suprised. "Percy it is then." You laugh at his face and then the TV makes a sound and shows 'A458: room 23.' Percy smirks and gets up.
"How the hell is yours first than mine." You hiss.
"No idea." Percy shrughs his shoulders. "But it's not like you are going to need it again." He points at the paper with the numbers and you smile.
"Right..." You get up and hug him. "Thanks again." You sit again and open your book.
He smiles to you one last time and goes to his designed room.
3.
After you're own session you go out of the hospital and wait for your parent at the entrance, while you are waiting you see a car pass by you. Percy is in there with an older woman and man, maybe his mom and another stepfather that isn't shitty? You shrugh and look at what he has in hand. A sword.
You look at him and he looks at you
trought the window, he looks at you with a smirk and you look back angry.
The car goes away and you yell at it.
"Fuck you." You sound angry but you have a smirk in your face.
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dickheadcanons · 7 months
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Your brain is literally gynormous. Do you think Damian's and Dick's relationship is paternal? Because, as someone who has actually had to raise their sibling (do not recommend) it looks more like a guy that had too much in his plate trying to be the best caregiver he could, but not really being a parent, if that makes sense. I feel like the idea of him wanting to adopt him feels like kind of a retcon, couldn't really see it in the og run. But of course, it could be because it's not exactly the same as my experience (abusive father, incapable mother, yknow the drill). What do you think? All your posts are so good.
Also while you're at it, what do you think of Dick as a parent? Some elseworlds have played with the concept, and main continuity did something too with Olivia but T*m Tayl*r fucked that up too. I also wonder how Damian would be as a dad, but I don't think I've ever seen any stories with it.
omg anon thank you and thank you for asking!! this is literally one of my favorite topics!! i was thinking about making a post on this and now you gave me the excuse for it!!
Long story short, I don't think that “parental” is a binary thing. I mean, I know several bio-parents who are just guys with too much on their plates, trying to be the best they can, you know? And people can see parent figures in all kinds of relationships that aren’t blood or traditional moms/dads, especially with people who didn't know each other from birth. There are a million ways to be parented, and a million ways to act as a parent.
The way I think about it is, is Dick Damain's John Grayson? No, I don't think so.
But is Dick Damian's Bruce Wayne? Yes. Totally. Absolutely.
More under the cut bc I have a lot of thoughts.
I think to talk about Dick and Damian, we have to start with Dick and Bruce. So much about Dick and Damian is a reflection of the original Dynamic Duo, and I think that's very much the case with this element as well. From the start of their very long comic history, Dick and Bruce have been dancing around their relationship. We get early comics that say they're "like" father and son, we have Bruce saying he couldn't care about Dick more than if he was Bruce's son, but we also have places where they call each other their best friends, where they act more like brothers, etc etc.
When it comes to who our parents are, I think there is the responsibility, and the result. Certain people have the responsibility, the duty, to be our parents, and sometimes (because death or illness or being shitty people), they aren't able to meet those responsibilities. That never removes the responsibility; they don't stop being the parent. But they aren't able to create the result of us becoming good stable adults. That's where other people can step in, where the parental figure appears, and those are the people that we actually point to when we say "they made me the person I am today."
In fandom, we see a lot of Dick not wanting Bruce to replace his father, of him asking not to be adopted. I think this is a fine characterization that works with who Dick is, but Bruce is actually the one to say that he is not going to replace Dick's father. He says it completely unprompted, too. This is withholding the responsibility of being Dick's parent from Bruce, keeping him at a distance and reserving it as an honor for someone who can't hold it anymore, even as Bruce demands responsibility for literally everything else about Dick.
And I think that it's very telling of what Bruce's idea of a father is. The thing about having a dead parent at a young age is that the person of your parents is still tangled in the role of parent in your life; Mom is mom, not Martha, and because she's dead, the image of both Martha and "mom" is frozen. For Bruce, the relationship of father and son is frozen in the relationship of specifically his father and him. Of course Bruce is not Dick's father; Bruce himself is so different from what his conception of a father is. And as a fellow son, for Bruce, someone who just got back from 7 years abroad studying to be Batman, for whom the nearly 20 year old wound is still fresh, the idea of even wanting another father doesn't make sense, particularly for a boy that Bruce identifies with so hard that he becomes the third person ever to know who Batman is.
This looming memory is even worse when it's Dick's turn to be Batman. While Bruce looks at Dick and sees the memory of his own loss, the shadow of his own grief, Dick is looking at Damian and seeing Bruce. Dick knows very well who Damian lost; Dick is grieving what Damian lost more than Damian is. Bruce couldn't conceive of replacing a father, but Dick is struggling to imagining himself replacing Bruce at his job, much less who he was in his personal relationships.
But even if Damian isn't Dick's responsibility, Dick doesn't hesitate to care about Damian's future. "Who's going to save him if we don't?" At the start of the DickBats era, Dick isn't looking at Damian as a family member, really. He's looking at Damian as a victim, abet a very involved, very dangerous one. It's how Bruce looked at Dick too, before he had any reason to know that this kid would become something more to him. But, like Bruce, what Dick does to save Damian is bring him into the thing that is most precious to him; Batman. The mission. Saving people. A way to live in the world.
I know saying someone is the Batman to their Robin is like, a joke at this point. Something unbelievably cheesy. But you google "iconic duos" and Batman and Robin are one of the first responses. There's a reason for the joke. So imagine you are Robin, and your Batman is dead. And you have to go and find a new partner. Dick making Damian his Robin is heavy, just as heavy to me as adoption papers. Bruce made Dick his partner without any idea of what that meant. Dick, and the audience, had 70 years of expectation on what Dick and Damian could be. Dick making Damian Robin was a very specific claim, far stronger imo than just claiming him as a son would have been.
Because, to be honest (and speak to your other question), I don't think Dick thinks a lot about being a parent. I don't really think it's that important to him. Dick is a leader, a mentor, he deals with a ton of teenagers and kids through his vigilante work, he goes to Tim's sidekick parent's meetings and takes Jason skiing and more than that, he's also young. He's in his 20s. He should be at the club. I think he probably thinks he'll have kids in an abstract way, but it's not something he's looking for, consciously or unconsciously. He's not searching for connection, or to fix his mistakes or his past, the things that lead Bruce to adopting sidekicks. He'd be a great dad, and I think we see him being pretty good with his Elseworlds kids, but Dick is a very practical person, and him taking a kid in (vs finding somewhere else they can go) is not really the practical choice.
Except for one kid. There's just been one kid with legitimately no where else to go, where Dick is truly the only option, because going home meant only bad things for him. Dick made Damian part of his family in the ways that mattered to them both in that moment. With their lives, adoption doesn't really make a huge material difference on custody (if Damian wanted to leave, Dick couldn't have stopped him; Damian has access to basically unlimited money and can feed and clothe and wash himself. and possibly already has a phd.), and Dick wanted Damian to choose, anyway. If I recall correctly, Dick says he didn't think about taking Damian with him until Bruce comes back. He thought about taking Damian with him, thought that Damian might be better with Dick (his partner!!!!) than even with Bruce, his dad, the person Dick loves so much, only in the face of them being separated.
Meanwhile Damian, for all his blustering about how Dick needs to "earn" his respect, warms up to Dick startlingly quickly. For Damian, who had never known a father, who in his initial run hadn't even known his mother for more than two years, whose other male family is Ra’s al Ghul, his father is Batman. Even in Tomasi's kinder depiction of Damian's childhood, Damian only knows the Bat. And when he meets Bruce, the first thing he expresses is disappointment. Bruce the man is underwhelming and then goes and dies. So much for the mythic hero!
And then he meets Dick. Who manages to teach Damian something, who doesn't discount his skills even when he's wrong. Who proves that he is better at being Batman than Damian, and shows that he wants Damian around. And, even more importantly, who doesn't die. Dick is stable in a world constantly in flux. Damian screws up a lot in that run, and he leaves for long stretches of it, but Dick is always there when he gets back. There's no blame here, but the truth is that Dick is the one who stays.
Bruce was Damian's father, but what does that mean to someone whose never met a father at all? Bruce might have tried to connect with Damian before he died, but he doesn’t do it in a way that works. He doesn’t give Damian trust, he doesn’t encourage him in the ways Damian finds important…the first person to do that is Dick. Dick gives Damian responsibility, makes him part of the team. It could be argued that Damian didn’t deserve it, but we’re not talking about deserving. We’re talking about what worked. It sounds like as good an idea as making a tiny 8 year old acrobat a sidekick, but it undeniably worked for both Damian and Dick. Does that mean that either of these relationships were parental in the way that we think of it in the real world, in the way that a child psychologist would say is good and healthy? I have no idea. But they are the most parental in the absence of any other parents, and I think that means a lot.
Unfortunately, we don't get to actually see the dissolution of Dick and Damian's partnership. DC conveniently skips over showing us Bruce coming back and Dick becoming Nightwing again; preNew 52, Dick is still Batman with Damian even when Bruce returns, and in the New 52, he's been Batman "Before" and we don't really see the end, just a vague aftermath. But if it did take that kind of change to make them realize their relationship had a flavor of "parent and child", had the makings of something like a father and son, well, they'd just be following in the original Batman's footprints.
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Frat! Headcanons
Frat!Ghost, Soap, and Gaz x Soro!Reader
This is so short and I just I don’t know, as someone who was really into greek life I felt a need to. Not proofread, talks about their sex life briefly, and mostly includes partying. Not the complete soro/frat life but I thought this would be more interesting.
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Being in a relationship with Frat! Simon, Kyle, and Johnny. You belong to the sister sorority on campus. Your sorority and their fraternity have lots of events together from toga nights to casino nights.
No matter what the party is Simon always sticks close to you. Call it your scary dog privileges as no one dares to approach you either him one step behind you.
At parties you can be a bit of a lightweight and tend to put your drink down a lot. Well you used to but whenever you feel the need to put your drink down you hand it to Simon, “hold please.” Simon will literally guard it with his life even if you only handed it to him to hold hands with Johnny.
Johnny normally doesn’t hold your drinks as he has a tendency to drink it. He gets curious about the mix you have in your cup and drinks it or assumes you made it for him. “How was I supposed to know you just handed me a cup, baby.”
Kyle was also a good option to hold your cup as he would hold it close. If anyone walked up to him he would assume it was for the drink. “No you can’t hold this, so you can spike it? I’ve seen movies I know how this goes down.” Truthfully he means well, when you walk back over to him it would be like a puppy seeing its owner. He would hand you back your cup smiling when you say thank you.
I’d like to think that Johnny and Kyle would rope you into beer pong games as much as they can. They like to watch you play even if you’re not the best at it. But anytime someone gets a pong ball into a cup during your turn one of them would drink it. Their only excuse is, “I was thirsty.” But deep down the reason was because they didn’t want you to get completely wasted.
The aftermath of parties would always be the best. Since the parties usually took place in the fraternity you would sleep there. It was convenient that Kyle and Johnny share a room.
If you were drunk they would take care of you. Well take care of you and Kyle, he’s not the greatest at pacing himself and tends to go beyond his limits. You all would push Johnny and Kyle’s beds together and cuddle.
But on the nights you didn’t drink or barely drank let’s say things would go differently. It would usually start the second Johnny’s lips were on yours. Pretty soon you’d have Simon’s hands on your hand as he thrusts into your mouth. With Kyle and Johnny sharing your cunt as they kiss. Even when you weren’t drunk it was always an intoxicating experience.
I’m an avid believer that these guys are the kind to be into public sex, face fucking, double penetration, degradation, and boob jobs. They’re always willing to try something new which is usually brought up by Soap, “so I saw this thing on like tv or something and wanted to try it.” “You mean pornhub?”
Prepare for jealous girls to show up to the frat parties hoping they have a chance with them. You never have to worry they’re too loyal to do that to you. Kyle is usually says something loudly to deter them from him, “I have a wife, she knows how to fight!” Whether you know how to fight or not that’s always his go to statement.
Johnny chooses a different approach he tends to call over one of his frat brothers and introduces him to her. “Hey Gary, this is…what’s your name again? Oh, yeah Olivia, yeah this is Olivia. Enjoy.”
Simon wouldn’t even let a girl speak a word before he was walking away like he didn’t hear a thing. Actions speak louder than words sometimes.
Your sorority sisters rarely see you during weekends as you’re always with your boyfriends. It becomes a tradition for the four of you to lock yourselves away in Johnny and Kyle’s room for the weekend and hangout. Most times it involves old horror movies and your own versions of drinking games. It can’t be helped you’re all hormonal university students.
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junnieverse · 1 year
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LOGICAL ➳ Y. JUNGWON
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➙ synopsis: you had known from the beginning that your relationship with jungwon was far from perfect, many would simply put it as toxic because of how manipulative he was but you were too blinded by love that all the lies and deceit felt meaningless. it was too late before you realised how dysfunctional it all was, love wasn't logical after all.
pairing: yang jungwon x gn!reader
genre: angst, lovers to exes au
word count: 1.1k
warnings: not proofread, jungwon is toxic (and so is your relationship with him), reader cries at some point
a/n: this is officially the first one done for the series! I hope you guys enjoy it, reblogs are highly appreciated too! :)
— GUTS X ENHYPEN SERIES MASTERLIST !
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Everything had seemingly came crashing down and you were stuck right in the middle of the storm.
It felt like everything you knew that he'd told you was just acid burning through a surface.
Yang Jungwon was no saint. He may have looked like one but, looks can be deceiving.
Everyone had warned you about him and his manipulative ways but you were smitten.
You had fallen for him and hard, nothing anyone said could've stopped you from letting go of him and the deep connection you had.
You were brainwashed, yes, but what made you feel stupid was how long it took you to realise that your relationship with Jungwon really meant nothing to him.
He simply drew you a picture of everything you wanted, the picture perfect relationship with the most perfect boyfriend but you couldn't see the cracks in this little fantasy.
You were mislead into a fake reality that seemed so perfect that you were afraid of losing it.
Only after you saw the truth behind it all did you realise how much control Jungwon had over you.
He made you doubt the obvious and simply believe and stay in the fantasy he'd painted out for you because 2 + 2 actually equals 5 right, it didn't make sense at first but then again nothing in your relationship did and so you just chose to blindly believe whatever and every grain of critical thinking seemingly dispersed slowly.
"I really am a fool huh. I could've stopped it from going on for so long but I let that master manipulator have his way." you say laughing bitterly as your best friend sat beside you rubbing your back comfortingly.
Constantly seeing the signs that he was never a good influence to have around and yet you ignored the warning signs because he made you 'happy'.
You had heard all the rumours about him and yet it went through one ear and right through the other choosing to not believe the truth behind everyone who was trying to protect you from getting hurt.
"Jungwon, who was that girl I saw you with the other day with your friends?" you ask him looking down nervously.
"Hmm? Oh that was... a friend of mine." he says monotonously as he walks past you not bothering to say anything else.
You knew deep down that it was better to trust your gut instincts and they were telling you that he wasn't being completely truthful yet you once again turned a blind eye to your boyfriend mistreating you because the following day he would shower you with gifts and tell you how much he loved you.
He deserved just that much forgiveness right.
You were blind in love and this little world you both had was enough for you.
All you needed was Jungwon to feel complete you thought.
It was evident that you were holding onto something that wasn't pure and sincere, your relationship with Jungwon was nothing but lies and deception but you still saw 'the good side' in him.
How he lead you to believe he was changing, becoming a better man for you.
And yet, the more he lied to you, the more you started believing the things he'd say.
"It's possible for people to change. Jungwon is changing just for me, don't you guys see it?" you tell your friends thinking fondly of him as your friends shared a knowingly worried look between one another.
"(Y/n) snap out of it, Jungwon keeps messing with your feelings, he's gaslighting you." one of them says trying to calmly express herself.
Leaving him wasn't any easy either, you'd been committed for a solid two years now and you weren't willing to throw that away.
He would call you less, he was less affectionate, he was staying out with friends more and he was gradually gravitating away from you.
Everytime you finally had enough of him and would call him out, he somehow found a way to win you over to give him another chance.
"You know I would never hurt you baby. I had too much to drink and did something stupid but you know I'll always love you." Jungwon said holding your hand in his as he wiped your tears with his other hand.
He sure was convincing you thought, he knew which exact poisonous words to use just to have you running back to him.
It was nothing but broken promises and the same story.
He would mess up, you would call him out, you both would get into an argument and he wakes up the next morning begging for forgiveness but never owning up to what he did.
You couldn't let yourself keep suffering like this anymore.
Nothing made sense, you thought he was the perfect guy you fell in love with in the beginning but now you don't know who Jungwon became, better yet maybe this was a side of him he hid from the very beginning like everyone warned you about, but you were slowly losing yourself through the dysfunctionality of your toxic relationship with him.
The fantasy world he'd created for you was crumbling down and you started to see him for who he really was.
You started to see how distorted everything he'd say was only after you finally chose to see the truth.
You thought it was a bright and magical island but this fantasy had it's faults, from the green skies to the red grass... how didn't you see this all before.
"God I'm so stupid." you say thinking back to your past relationship.
You tried making him happy, that was your main goal your entire relationship, to see Jungwon smile and be the reason behind it.
It made you blame yourself thinking you couldn't even keep your own boyfriend happy.
He trapped you.
It all felt like endless drowning and you didn't know when you'd hit the bottom.
Jungwon made sure he had you wrapped around his finger just so he could use you as he pleased and wiggle his way back into your life by painting a false picture of someone he never was... and you fell for it each time.
You both had so many problems in your relationship, very clearly your problems were unsolvable and you just kept trying to make something out of nothing.
Who was to blame but yourself.
You put yourself in this position, you could've stopped it all from the beginning when you realised how all Jungwon did was mistreat you but you didn't.
Because you 'loved him' ?
He couldn't even give you just that much back so why did you put yourself through so much heartache.
"This whole love thing is fucked up." you say looking at your best friend who nods beside you.
Love was never logical but you had to learn it the hard way.
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SERIES TAGLIST: @enhastolemyheart @jungwonscafe @firstclassjaylee
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yannaryartside · 1 year
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THE MEANING OF THE FORKS IN "THE BEAR"
Like many things on this show, the forks have a literal and symbolic meaning inside the Berzatto family and for Richie. 
Richie spent many days staring at them, superficially cleaning them like he didn't want to touch them for too long. What he literally thinks about the forks is that taking care of them is not useful, not the worthy purpose he has been looking for, which is contrasted to Olivia Coleman's character at the end of the episode, spending time pealing some tiny potatoes, something that you would think is a waste of time for somebody as high in the chain of command as her, (doesn't she have already a bigger purpose?) and what does she say? "I think time spent on this is time well spent" Richie learns that every step in the process deserves care, every person in the chain of command has a purpose, and that purpose deserves respect; that's the reason he becomes the rock that many people end up relying on, as part of his role as general manager. 
Now, the symbolic meaning. I think the forks represent negative responses to trauma, the most visible effect of a wound, but sometimes so polarly opposite of what the person really feels. The dinner madness begins when Mickey, upset, insulted, and drugged, decides to throw a fork at Lee (after Donna does the same). Mickey then goes asking for forks and no other utensil, not a knife, because the intention of the hurtful comments in the whole family dynamic is never to kill or seriously hurt people, just to pinch; it's inoffensive enough to keep the family for actually erupting and falling apart, but damaging enough to leave scars if applied with pressure, enough so the people in trauma can feel they are saying something they actually mean. Lee's comments on Micke's failures, Micke's comments on Lees's failures, Donna giving Nat shit about the sugar incident (still), Carmy's admitting how abandoned he feels, why he didn't want to come home, just to be shut down and demanded to show affection so they can continue being a family. It is a symbol of "not so passive" aggression. 
Forks have the same meaning for Carmy and Richie, at least on a subconscious level, but they have different approaches to it.
Let's start with Carmy. The last thing Carmy looks at in Fishes is the fork stuck in the food, the symbol of care in their family, stabbed by aggression, a fracture so big it cannot be ignored anymore, pushed away or hidden under the intention to love. He just had a terrifying moment with his mom ("Do we have a problem"?). Now he is just staring at the fork with that dead look in his eyes that we see every time he almost burns his house or the restaurant down. Carmy is terrified of forks, so he didn't order more than the other utensils, even if it makes sense logistically; too many forks are dangerous. 
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Richie didn't want to spend too much time touching and handling the forks (the trauma, the "mild" aggression, the behavior he learned from Mickey). Still, once he spent enough time with them (for the narrative), he was promoted to service people (hospitality). And that is the role he plays at the restaurant; he handles Carmy being trapped (the result of his decisions based on trauma), and they buy more forks because, under Richie's orientation, they don't have destructive power anymore. His ultimate purpose. After all, he can "handle them." All of this is proved when he is actually able to point to Carmy what is wrong with him; he is the only one, as a person that was closed enough with the family to see all that violence happening, but not an actual Berzatto, so he can see the aggression/trauma for what really is. His assigned growth duty was to "clean" the forks, acknowledge them, and take responsibility for them, not run away from them as Carmy did. Richi had also grown from the phase of his life when he was condemned by the necessity to fit in the Berzatto family, basically coping with his personality from Mickey, so when Carmy starts trowing forks (insults) at him while he is stuck in the freezer, Richi doesn't need (really) to trow forks back at him, he responded "I love you" which is the answer a responsible parent should give when their kids react a certain way when their necessities are not meet. He is breaking the cycle of violence and the perpetuation of trauma. Richie still calls Carmy on his bullshit, saying that if Carmy keeps running away from his pain, he will end with fucking nothing because Mickey ended up dead for doing the same. Richie is the support that Carmy dreamed his brother would give him. I am gonna cry into a corner.
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Like he literally was replacing Michael in the "new" holy trinity of Berzatto siblings. He was, to some extent, raised by Donna "My best friend's ma was like my ma."
So much love already from the people in this fandom. Again, thank you for reading, reblogging, and adding commentary or just commenting. This show has so many details you can never see the whole picture, and everything makes sense. Thank you for your warm welcome.
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I love your champion Petra art so much so I have a fun question: How do you see Romeo convincing Petra (or Jack) to be his champion during their training? Because they were both VERY reluctant to go and I think Romeo would be smart enough to realize that “hmm a willing champion is a better champion so I need to convince them that this is a good thing.” I’m very curious to hear your thoughts. :] Would he offer them something, prey on insecurities, etc?
thank you for asking this... in my universe, petra is champion, so i will focus on her. but i will give my idea for what it was like for jack too.
for petra, romeo would prey on insecurities. petra was the first one to know romeo's name because he said "we're friends now, call me romeo". now when he brought her to the terminal space, he tried to talk with her. though she tried to attack him multiple times he kept trying to convince her... talking about how alike they are, how he had friends once who abandoned him for "their people" just like jesse was abandoning her for beacontown. he tried to make a point about how people in her life just leave her behind but him and petra can be friends forever, and he throws petra into one of her memories as a kid to relive it. petra tries to convince herself he's just messing with her and romeo offers to show her what her friends say about her when she's not around. romeo shows axel and olivia talking about how needy petra is, jesse telling lukas that they feel trapped with her, that theyre afraid to leave her because she's angry and aggressive. jesse telling jack that they'd be more than happy if she left town with him.
and none of this stuff is anything her friends have actually said- romeo again is just making shit up. but petra doesn't know this, she genuinely thinks because romeo is all powerful that he was able to see their conversations and that this is the truth, this is honestly how her friends see her. at this point shes broken over this but not enough to want to be his champion, so romeo is like how do you not get it, your friends dont want you nobody does but me, and he opens a battlefield and turns into jesse and starts talking a bunch of shit and fights her, she knows THIS is just romeo and not the real jesse but it still hurts to hear his words knowing the real jesse honestly thinks this way.
romeo stops the fight because he senses a disturbance in the sunshine institute, so he teleports over and petras by herself. and when he teleports her to the battlefield, shes crying. jesse immediately tries to run over to her to check if she's okay and she thinks he's romeo trying to jump her again so she gets scared and swings at him lol. so thats the background behind that picture. when she realizes its the real jesse, she feels terrible and tries to help him but gets zapped by the gauntlet.
now for jack... if it were him, i think romeo would go with threats. like, if it were jack as soon as romeo shows his face again he'll demand to know what he did with petra. and romeo will be like "oh i just sent her to my inescapable prison" and jack gets pissed off at this and starts going on about how hes not gonna be romeo's champion, how romeo is a monster and he'd rather just be killed than serve him, and romeo's like well okay if that's the attitude you're gonna have then i guess we'll have to try something else. and then shows jack petra and nurm in the sunshine institute, and he's like "if you refuse to become my champion, i will have them killed in front of you" and then jack is like "bullshit" and romeo snaps his fingers and the two of them are zapped a bit and jack is like WOAHHH OKAY OKAY ILL DO IT
now i really prefer the champion petra route because i think its sooo good for the narrative, and in the final battle when romeo tries to make jesse feel guilty about their friendship with petra getting rocky, ITS SO COOL. i love this game and i love making it more dramatic than it already is
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Forever And A Day (KTH x READER) series ♡ The Art Exhibit (Chapter 6)
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Summary: your lifelong friend is forced to face his true feelings for you once he breaks the number one rule of becoming friends with benefits: dont fall in love. He knows he loves you, but you on the other hand need more convincing of the most important thing: the right decision.
Genre: fwb. Roommates, friends to idiots to lovers, fluff, angst, smut, the whole 9 yards tbh.
Pairing: taehyung x female!reader
rating: 18+ (minors dni!!!)
word count- 5k
chapter warnings!- swearing, alcohol, this is kind of a fluffy ass chapter, but the end is a little frusterating. NO BAD VIBES THOUGH! reader is finally happy rn. tw: annie.
a/n- Hi guys! first of all, HAPPY SPRING! Also happy Ramadan to anyone who is celebrating!! I really wanted to publish this by last Monday at least, but I ended up getting a cold, and then I had an exam this week too that I crammed studied for. I wasnt happy with the ending of this chapter and wanted time to fix it up a bit!! we are getting to the good stuff now so I really hope you enjoy! (ps. another thanks to all the likers, rebloggers, commenters, it means so much to see feedback, ily guys.
The song of this chapter was on repeat while I wrote it !!
This week had been good.
For the first time in what seems like forever, life was actually giving you a break....sort of.
"Kwan, cmon! I promise French isnt that hard if you just sit and let me teach you!" you exhale with a wide smile, looking at the 6 year old who was now running around the living room.
Since Tae quit his job, you decided to start picking up after school shifts to tutor your neighbor, Mrs.Chin, and her bratty 6 year old. You used to tutor her other child, Mimi, who was always well behaved, but she went to study abroad, leaving you alone with the devil reincarnated.
"I dont wanna! its stupid!" the younger child yelled back, making you take a moment to breathe before responding. "Kwan, I would appreciate if you let me teach you, or at least if you even sat down and listened to me read." you said calmly.
You looked over at the pouting boy and his action figures, arms now crossed over his chest as he glared. You sighed and ran your hands over your face, lets just say if the pay wasn't $90 an hour, you probably wouldn't submit yourself to this.
"Kwan." you said, getting up with your textbook and sitting on the floor next to him "your mommy hired me to help you learn, I really want to be able to teach you something here, because whether you realize it now or not, learning a second language is a really beautiful thing" you show him all the pages of notes youve taken from your own classes, watching him view it over.
"I wanna be here for you, we can be buddies, ok? no more fights, no yelling. How about this-" you turn around to him "If you let me teach you for a half an hour, 30 minutes, you can have 20 minutes of playtime, yeah?" you spoke softly
"mmkay.." he looked at you, nodding gently.
"aw, see, you are a good boy I knew you were, cmon, sit and i'll teach you how to introduce yourself in French, so when you go to daycare tomorrow, you can show it off to everyone" you smiled and gently tickled the boy, making him giggle loudly.
You really did enjoy teaching and learning, something about it just made you feel incredibly intelligent, and yes, you loved acting too, but the idea of being able to offer something new to someone genuinely got you excited. If you could go back and change your major to anything, It would probably be French or some other foreign language, teaching abroad doesnt sound too bad.
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At the apartment, Tae had been cleaning a little bit more. He figured if he was going to have more free time, then he needed to learn to help out around the house....He also needed a distraction from the fact that tomorrow night is the art exhibit, and to say he was nervous was a complete understatement.
The work he'd been creating is done, but like always, he wanted to change it last minute. You sat with him last night and explained that it didnt need to be changed, and he needs to be more confident with himself and his art.
His thoughts were interrupted when you walked through the door, offering a quick smile at him before walking off into the kitchen. He put down his broom and walked over to you, "How did tutoring go?" He asks softly, watching you pour coffee into a mug. "It was okay" you shrug, looking at the clock and internally sighing, it was dinner time and you hadnt prepared anything.
"You okay?" he asks
you look back at him and lean against the counter, "yeah...Kaito was supposed to pick me up at 8, and I sat outside texting and calling him until 8:30, when I decided to just get an Uber home"
"why didnt you call me? I would have drove over there" he frowns, leaning against the opposite counter. "ah, didnt want to bother you" you shrug.
He sighed and looked down. "I made you dinner, by the way" he spoke, making you look up at him warily. "by made, I mean bought, dont worry theres no food poisoning here" he rushed, making you giggle.
"thank you tae, I really appreciate that" you walk over to hug him gently, telling him you were gonna wash up and shower before eating.
He finished cleaning the living room before finally crashing on the couch, watching as you left your room with a towel on your head, making him laugh. "are you gonna tell me my fortune"
You scoff and grab your bulgogi, sitting onto the couch next to him.
"yummy?" he asks, searching for something to watch, "mhm" you smiled and offered a bite which he gladly took.
"oh also, Because tomorrow night is the art show, I was thinking afterwards we should get dinner or something..." he trailed off, avoiding eye contact.
you turned your head to him, smiling softly, "hm that sounds fun. are we thinking Mcdonalds?" you giggle, making him laugh as well.
"nooo, no" his head shook, "I dont know yet, I'll look around."
"we can go to that Korean barbecue place that just opened, and celebrate your win" you shrug
"we dont know if Im gonna win, there are many talented artists participating. I have like no chance, y/n."
you scoff and shake your head, "you are telling me, that THE Kim Taehyung has no chance? I dont believe this!"
He smiled and watched as you rambled about how he has worked for this and deserves it, laughing quietly.
"yeah...I dont even care for the money to be honest. I Just want to go to Paris again...it was fun when we went last time" he sighed.
You chewed your food and nodded, standing up in front of him with your hands on your hips, "Mr.Kim, I am putting it into the universe now, that if somehow you dont win, I will make sure we both go to Paris once more"
"really?" he spoke after a moment, unable to take you seriously with the towel head.
"really"
"I dont think Kaito would like thattt" he sung jokingly, getting up and grabbing the blanket from the other side of the couch, covering himself in it.
"I dont careeee" you sung back before jokingly jumping onto him, squeezing his face as you continued to speak. "I dont even know where he is right now, probably drunk or something"
"does he get drunk a lot?" tae asked, smiling as you poked around his face with your hands. "yeah....kinda. He can handle it most times but.." you cut yourself off, not wanting to say anything else.
"but what?" tae asked, head turning to yours as you laid on him. Your eyes simply scanned over his face as he did the same with you. The urge to kiss him was there, but you knew better.
You got up and off him, making him sit up and look at you. "but what?" he repeated
"nothing" you smiled before stealing his blanket and running off to your room, making him get up to chase after you.
You were both laughing, but Tae was still catching his breath. You looked like you wanted to kiss him, no? His mind ran around in circles, ultimately convincing himself that he really does need to drop this and stop over analyzing everything.
He sat into his bed that night, looking over at his painting which leaned against his desk. He so desperately wanted tomorrow to be perfect, he wanted to win, but he also wanted to impress you.
His mind wandered down the rabbit hole. was it too clingy to ask to go to dinner after? was he annoying you and you didnt have the heart to tell him?
He rolled his face against his pillow, sighing heavily as tannie ran up and jumped on the bed, cuddling with him.
Across the hall you paced your room, glasses on as you tried to memorize your studying and figure out an outfit for tomorrow.
You gently hummed to yourself before moving the coat hangers around to see what you had, you dont exactly have 'art show' worthy clothes. You knew that ultimately it didnt matter, it wasnt about you, it was about him.
You climbed into bed and wrapped up your homework, deciding to pull your phone out and see if your boyfriend called or texted.
0 notifications
you sighed and opened up messages, texting him quickly.
you: hey....I hope you are okay? You havent texted or anything, im a little worried. you were supposed to pick me up today and then go for like coffee or something. did you forget? its okay if you did, just hope you are safe.
you bit your lip as you sent the message, waiting for a few minutes for a possible reply, but ultimately receiving nothing.
-
"ah, Yun Y/n, you really have impressed me, this is amazing"
you looked at your theatre teacher with hopeful eyes, glad that she appreciated the project script you stayed up to finish last night.
You bowed politely, "thank you so much, that means a lot"
"of course" she responded, taking her glasses off, "I really do hope you decide to take this class next year, you are one of my best students and I think the incoming freshmen would love to learn from your writing skills"
you smiled and nodded, "I dont see any reason why I wouldnt stay" you laughed lightly, making her nod, "good!"
she handed you your papers back with the received grade, allowing you to walk out into the hallway to see a certain someone.
"um...hello?" you spoke, aggravation evident in your voice. Kaito looked up from his bag at you, a guilty expression now showing.
"y/n, baby im sorry about yesterday"
"Look, I dont care about the pick-up thing, why couldnt you text me this morning even? I thought you died or something"
he laughs yet you were not amused. "My phone broke" he cleared his throat. You sigh and look around. "you know how many phones are on campus? you also have so many classes with Chae, would it kill you to relay the message?"
"im sorry, ok?"
you glared at him. 'Sorry' had become his broken record repeated phrase lately, and honestly, it didn't sound all to genuine anymore.
"yeah" you shrug and begin to walk away before he stops you. "Oh, are you free tonight?"
you stop and turn, shaking your head, "no, I have plans"
He scoffs, "doing what?"
"I have an art show with Taehyung and its late, we are going right home after"
"I see" he nods sarcastically, obviously pissed off. "are you going to the party that Jungkook is throwing at least?" he adds
"oh yeah....Dahyun invited me, I'll be there I guess" you mumble
"good" he smiled and held your cheek, making you look up at him. "dont bring him, okay?"
you look over his face before rolling your eyes and turning to walk to your next class.
Things lately with Kaito havent been as well as you had planned. When you two first started dating, the romance was there, there was a spark within sharing similar interests and likes, there were cute dates, late night conversations. As you find yourself walking down the hall, you wish that perhaps you never got to know the quiet boy in your acting class. You ponder about what would have happened if you two just remained friends, strangers, even.
His drinking was something you had been made aware of by a few classmates, but you can only blame yourself for ignoring them. As much as you hated to admit it, you didnt care in the moment. You are a young girl, who has vulnerabilities and of course wishes to find someone that makes her feel special....but given that....you also deserve pride, and the power to know, or to walk away from situations that arent helping you grow.
You dont ask much of kaito, he couldn't even pick you up on time and let you know why. It was borderline pathetic. He was pathetic, and the marks still evident on your wrist were enough to prove it.
you dont know what you had done in a past life to get such shitty treatment from men, but you could only pray that either the universe sends you in a different direction, or fixes the broken path you are currently trying to fight through.
-
"I called the restaurant, they take walk ins" Taehyung cheerfully spoke, barging into your room to see you sitting with your back towards him, papers sprawled around your desk surface.
"thats good" you mumble, refusing to turn around at the excited boy.
Taehyung notices the shift in your voice, the way your back is slumped over as you hid yourself in the piles of paper and homework. As he walked over, small droplets of tears resting on the wooden desktop below you are visible. You had been crying. A gentle hand comes up to graze against your back, remaining still for a moment before he spoke. "Y/N, whats going on?"
You sniffled, wishing that you could just be alone but also refraining against sending the boy out, he just wanted to help. "Im just stressed" a simple shrug and a blow of the nose make taehyung sit on the end of your bed as he faces you, deciding its enough distance from you, but not too much. "do you wanna talk about it?" he asks softly, his hair resting in front of his eyes, its grown so long these days.
You looked back at him and remained quiet for a moment before opening your mouth, "no" you shook your head. "I just....I just want tonight to be fun, I want you to have fun, I want this for us, just one day without anything pulling us down, okay?"
Taehyung nodded slowly, not sure what could have sent you into a spiral like this, but respecting your decision to not speak on it. "Okay, yeah, we will have fun okay?" he whispers, hand now holding yours as he got closer to you, wiping away your tears. "don't cry, everything will be alright sweet girl" he brings you into a tight hug as his words are close to brining you to cry again. You can blame it on being hormonal, but something about the comforting nature of the boy in front of you made you just want to constantly be there, support and love him for what he is. You would cling to him like a koala if you had the chance.
but he wasn't yours, and you were not his.
You had not been the best friend to taehyung for the past few weeks, something youve tried to make up for by either cooking, or buying him new art tools. You even stayed up late with him a few nights ago just letting him rant about all the shit on his plate. It made you realize that this boy would tell you every little detail about his life, he trusts you so much, yet you couldnt even be honest about the kaito situation.
Guilt was the best emotion to describe the feeling in your chest.
The best thing you could do tonight is to treat him like he were king of the world, he deserves a break, and it would kill you to have to be the one to ruin it again.
You sniffled and looked back at him, "so are you gonna show me the menu of the restaurant or what?"
Taehyung laughed lightly, squeezing your hand as he helped you up and led you out into the living room with him.
-
Every time Taehyung see's you upset, he feels as if those emotions transfer to him. If he could snap his fingers, or wave some magic wand, he would make it so you never cried again. A part of him was upset that you didnt feel comfy enough to open up about what exactly was bothering you, yet at the same time, he was able to understand your reasoning. You two fought more in the past few months than you have in your entire lives, it felt like walking on eggshells every time he spoke, he was fearful of losing you as a friend, so he made sure each word that came out of his mouth was nothing but delicate, kind, and loving.
He buttoned up his suit, smiling at himself in the mirror as he sprayed on some cologne you bought for him last Christmas. He remembers how much you loved to cuddle up to him when he got home from work, hiding your face in his neck, complimenting how good he had smelled.
Seems like those memories are so distant, in a way he almost mourns them. He is grateful to even have you at all, but as time goes on he truly believes he may never get over you, that you will always just be the one that actually got away.
He looks down at his drawer in his bathroom, the drawer that had been shared by you whenever you had used his bathroom. It hadnt been open in a while, but as he looked through it, he couldnt help but laugh.
purple nail polish.
You asked him if you had left it in his bathroom and he told you no. He thought it was cute that its the shade youve always worn. He even bought you a new bottle just so he could keep the one you left behind.
His mind flickers back to when you had begged him to let you paint his nails, after about 30 minutes of pestering, he finally gave in, letting you give him the full spa treatment.
He softly smiled as he examined the polish, carefully putting it back before walking out and into the living room.
"AHH you look so cute!" you giggled and ran up to him, squishing his bread cheeks. Tae had never worn a suit before, but you took him shopping a few days ago and convinced him he would look really good in one, and he has to admit he feels pretty well fit in it.
You fluffed his hair up and smiled softly, watching his eyes scan over you, something that made you blush. "You look really good, is this a new dress?" he asked quietly
"wow you noticed" you teased
"Of course, you look so pretty in it" He wanted to go on, he wanted to tell you how beautiful your smile looked and how it didnt matter what you wore, because in the museum full of brilliant art, he probably would only be able to look at you tonight.
"thank you" you shyly spoke, "are you ready?"
He held up his canvas, smiling brightly and nodding. "Here" you placed a plastic bag over the art so it wouldnt get destroyed or ruined in any way, especially since it was raining out.
"thank you" he spoke, lifting it up again before grabbing the umbrella and walking towards the door. "Lets go win that prize and rub it in everyones face" you tease, cheering as you made your way down the hall, tae walked behind and watched your childish nature, giggling to himself.
-
It was crowded.
You didnt even know there was this many art students in your school.
"just stay with me, its okay" Tae whispered to you after dropping off his artwork at the front table so they could enter it into the contest. He noticed your fidgety state, gently grabbing one of your hands with his own. You offered a light squeeze in acknowledgment.
"Taehyung!!!"
You both turned around to see Annie running up, smiling brightly with a glass in her hand. "Uhg Im so glad you made it, did you submit your work??"
"yeah I just gave it to them" he pointed at the adults working the table. "great, I seriously cant wait to see your work hung up, I know whatever it is will be beautiful."
"ah thank you, you are too kind" he spoke softly, feeling your grip on his arm tighten.
"Hi Annie" you spoke, annoyed that she chose to ignore you. "Oh hi!" she waved. "Im sorry, I forgot your name, what is it sweetheart?"
Taehyung scoffed quietly, stopping you from speaking before him "Her name is Y/N, I only talk about her all the time" he looked down at you, offering a reassuring smile.
"Oh, I forget everything im sorry" she giggled loudly. "cmon, lets go get something to drink" She tugged on his other arm eager to get him away from you.
"do you want anything?" he mouthed to you, making you shake your head. "no, go have fun" you offer, watching him give into annie's aggression with a sad smile, walking away.
You took your time walking around the exhibit, stopping at each frame to read the small descriptions and notes. You were never super artsy like Taehyung was, but it was impressive to see how dedicated he was.
you made your way through the large crowds of chatter, searching for taehyung before spotting him in the corner by the food stand. You walked over and gently hugged him from behind, it wasnt an act of anything, you just hated being in crowded areas, so you clung to him as best you could. His hand gently grazed along your arm before turning, a audible scoff from Annie is heard as he turns to face you.
"Hi sweet girl, You okay?"
"yeah" you nod, "I was just looking at all the art, which is beautiful but I think they have nothing on yours"
"Youre biased" he chuckled
"tsk tsk, I tell the truth" you giggled, hugging him as you rested your head on his chest, his arms around you loosely. To any onlookers, you two were a couple.
You both are naturally cling people, perhaps it can be to blame for how you both fell so easily into the friends with benefits thing.
"I didnt know you guys were dating" annie took a sip of her wine, gesturing between the both of you.
"oh no, we arent" you quickly spoke, "we are just really close"
"ah..." she trailed off and gave a knowing look to Taehyung, making him shrug. He didnt like to be mean, but he also liked seeing how jealous she got of you. He would never date Annie, and he felt guilty for maybe leading her on, but he feels pride in knowing that shes jealous of you.
you are his girl whether you were dating, friends, anything, everyone knew that.
"they have food if you are hungry" he suggested, patting your back to get your attention.
"Oh, thats okay, im saving room to stuff my face with Tteokbokki later" you both giggled,
"lets go look around, yeah?"
you nodded and grabbed his hand, leading him away from the judgmental girl watching you both like a hawk.
You noticed his frown as you sat in front of a canvas filled wall, "whats wrong, tae?"
"these are all....amazing..." he gestured towards a few, head lost in thought and self doubt.
"bubs, i promise you, yours is just as good if not better. remember what I said, no matter what happens, the outcome will be okay" you rubbed his shoulder, watching a small smile appear on his face.
"everything will be okay" he whispered to himself, taking a deep breath before nodding
-
As the night went on, guests were informed that the ranking and award ceremony would be taking place in just 15 minutes. Taehyung had been wrapped up in conversation with another one of his classmates, eyes absent mindedly searching around the banquet hall for you.
You told him a bit ago that you were gonna go grab a drink, and its been 10 minutes.
Across the room, little to his knowledge, you were wrapped up in your own conversation with a boy who caught you admiring his own work. "It took me a few months" the boy spoke softly, both of you standing in front of his painting. "You didnt want so submit it into the competition?" you asked, watching him shake his head. "I dont need people judging my art, it doesnt matter what they think. I like being able to just put it out into the world for what it is, I dont need a prize for that"
You were taken back by how well and soft spoken he was, unsure how to respond, "Whats your name by the way?"
"My name is Jung Hoseok" he bowed his head lightly, smiling brightly at you. "Ah nice to meet you Hoseok, Im Yun Y/N"
"pleasure meeting you" he spoke, shaking your hand. "so are you here tonight for your own art?" he added
"oh no, no, I am definitely not an artist", you giggled. "Im here with my best friend, he is the one participating tonight"
Taehyung finally found an out in the conversation and began his search for you, pushing through the room to see you standing next to some stranger. He would be lying if he said he didnt like to see you with other men, especially Hoseok, who was in his art class. He would rather you be standing with Kaito at that point.
"Oh taehyung!" Hoseok greeted the man you didnt even know stood behind you, making you turn and smile. "Sorry, I got lost" you giggled, taking his hand as he moved beside you. "Hello Hoseok" tae bowed his head.
"Y/N told me you are trying for the contest, good luck, I heard the judges tend to pick favorites" he laughed and tapped his arm, making him awkwardly smile. "I think he will be ok, wait until you see his painting, its beautiful" you spoke up
"Im sure" he looked at you both, bowing politely before walking off into a new conversation with his nearby friends.
"dont let his charm get to you, he isnt the nicest person" taehyung turns and speaks, gently leading you back to the front of the banquet hall.
"What? he seemed so sweet" you spoke
"I heard he is kind of....you know....like, he likes to play with multiple women at once" he explained as best he could, making you smile, "a man whore" you suggested, making him laugh. "yeah, a man whore"
"dont worry, Im not interested. Ive had enough boy drama to keep me away from any penis within a 5 mile radius" You spoke, watching Taehyung burst out in laughs. "speaking of him, is kaito mad you are here?"
"If he is, I dont care, tonight isnt about him, only you"
-
A few moments later, everyone had gathered into the front of the banquet hall, a panel of 3 judges proudly standing on the small stage ready to reward the prizes in rankings of the top 5 works of art submitted tonight.
"I am so nervous" Taehyung whispered, not directly at anyone but himself. You looked back and smiled, grabbing his hand and entwining it with your own. "Stop stressing, your hair is gonna go grey." you both quietly giggled before the lady on the mic began to speak.
"Thank you all so much for coming to our annual art banquet show, this is the 11th year we have been graciously welcomed back and we could not be more excited as the number of participants grow each year." she adjusted her glasses before speaking again. "Tonight is not about winning, or being the best, it is about recognizing talent of all unique levels, seeing things from other peoples eyes, its about the beauty of art"
The audience clapped lightly, making you smile as you looked around at everyone piled up together in anticipation.
"With that, I believe we are ready to begin the gift ceremony. The other judges and I graded on not only the art itself, but the impact received through it, we were looking for those who went outside the box, and we are happy to say we were not disappointed."
Taehyung looked at the black cloths that hung over the art work that was pinned on the wall up front, unsure if his was one of them or not.
"I'll remind everyone of the prizes, 5-3 place recieve a generous cash prize, as well as a discounted art session for next semester, 2 place recieves a larger amount of cash, while 1st place gets a visit to the Louvre Museum in Paris France, fully paid!"
The crowd happily cheers, the excitement in the room can easily be felt. You were nervous for Taehyung, not because you didnt think he could win, but you knew how much he wanted this trip. You wanted to see him happy, and most importantly, you wanted him to be proud of himself.
"We will now begin" The older woman walks to the lined up art, standing in front of one. "In 5th place, we will happily be awarding this to...." she gently pulled the black sheet off, revealing the art as the crowd clapped happily.
"Seo Yoon, with 'a walk with existence'"
you looked around to see the girl stand up and go to collect her certificate, bowing and thanking the judges.
"4th place, goes to.... Park Jimin, with 'serendipity'"
Everyone cheered as the younger man walked up to join the others.
You felt taehyungs hand squeeze yours lightly, as the 3rd person was revealed and it wasnt him, now he was eager. He either got 2nd, 1st, or none at all.
you gently rubbed his back as the woman went to reveal 2nd place. "In 2nd, we have..." the painting was revealed, "Kang Annie, with 'daydream'"
You both looked at eachother, "I didnt think her art was that good" taehyung claps but whispers in your ear, making you giggle and hold his arm for support. The tension in the room grew as the judge made her way to the remaining painting, the cloth gathering in her hand.
"and for first place, we, the judges have decided to reward...." the curtain felt like it fell in slow motion, taehyung quite literally on the edge of his seat.
"Kim Taehyung with 'Forever and a day'"
You jumped up immediately as his name was called, his beautiful painting on display for everyone to see as claps and "congratulations" were gifted his way.
"I won?" he mumbled, standing as you grabbed him close, hugging him tightly. "I fucking knew you could win!!! Im so proud!!!' you cupped his face and smiled, making him smile as well.
"get up there and claim your prize" you mumble, urging him up to the stage where he went to collect his prize and certificate. "Congratulations to everyone who won, and everyone who participated! lets get a round of applause for all the talent here tonight"
The room clapped loudly as you caught his eye, smirking and chanting loudly, maybe a bit too loudly for an art show. He laughed and congratulated the other winners, giving annie some bullshit answer when she joked about being his Paris plus one.
"You have no fucking idea how proud I am, Taehyung" you hugged him once more as you two started to get ready to head out. He made sure you took 10 million photos of his painting on display, making it your lock screen on your phone.
"I still cant believe I won.....it doesnt feel real" He joked, linking your arm with his as you both made your exit after saying goodbyes to everyone.
"wait until it hits, you are gonna be so proud of yourself. Paris....PARIS, taehyung, this shit is huge. Im not gonna lie, I almost cried when I heard your name"
"you did not!" he chuckled as you both walked to your car.
"Yes I did, you just dont get it" you teased "felt like such a power moment, you just know annie was pissed too....little bitch"
Taehyung bit back his laugh as he sat in the drivers seat, pulling his seatbelt on and resting his head back as you got in. "Thank you for everything, for coming....for just being my support" he spoke kindly, wide grin stuck on his face.
"dont thank me, im always gonna be here for you, seriously. Now, lets go eat until we get full, order dessert we cant finish, take it home and get drunk" You put your seatbelt on, car filled with excitement and giggles as he began to drive to dinner.
He really did feel excited, He was mostly in shock on how he was able to win something he threw together last minute.
Blame it on the alcohol, but some deep part of him wanted to come clean in this very moment, as you were now in the crowded restaurant, music blasted as you sang loudly, you looked so beautiful and alive.
The painting was about you.
Taehyung spent hours dedicating himself to that painting, and it was about you. It seemed like a perfect time to just rip the bandaid off right now, a night where everything was going right.
"y/n..." he mumbled, watching as you happily looked over at him, his heart now in his throat. you stopped dancing and made your way over to where he sat at the bar, your drunken self leaning forward to hear him over the music.
"I just wanted to tell y-"
"youre so handsome, jesus christ I hate you" you interrupt, words slurring as you look at him lovingly.
He knows you are drunk, but the comment still made him laugh, "thank you" he whispered as you walked back out to the dance floor, dragging him with you.
"ah y/n, im not really a dancer"
"you dont need to be, just listen to the music and feel it" you shout, jumping around and holding his hands. He has to admit, seeing you away from your usual tight knit persona was really attractive, of course he admired you always, but he never saw this side before, it was new and exciting.
He allowed himself to relax a bit, taking another shot before finally giving in and dancing with you in the crowded bar. "thats it!" you yell, jumping around with him as you both fell into fits of giggles. "cmere" you turned around and pressed your back to his chest, and even in his drunken state, his heart still fluttered at the sudden contact. You carefully danced against him, not in a promiscuous way, simply just a light sway.
You two ended up spending a bit too much money at the bar, making tae ultimately put a cap on the drinks for the night. You werent ready to leave yet, so he ordered a basket of fries and water, sitting at a table with you in the next room.
"we have to sober up just a little bit, I still have to drive home" he giggled and sat beside you, taking a few fries and shoving them into his mouth. "thanks bubs" you slur, eating the fries and chugging water like you havent had any in weeks.
"are you having the best day of your life?" you ask, making him smile, "yeah, I am actually" he held a fry up and fed it to you. "good, me too" you spoke, mouth open and full of food.
the two of you sat and spoke until you felt some of the alcohol waving off, "hmm, do you wanna go home?" you asked him, noticing how tired you both were getting.
It had been almost 5 hours youve been here, and you didnt want him to only stay because you wanted to.
"yeah...its kinda late" he smiled softly, standing up and helping you.
"youre okay to drive?" you ask, watching as he looked into the next room, listening to the jazz song that was playing.
"tae?" you walk over, watching him turn and smile. "wait, before we leave.." he held your hand and led you into the other room. "dance with me, just one last song" he looked down at you, and there was no way to say no to him.
You two were surrounded by some older couples, all of them turning their attention to you as you made your way into the center of the floor, saxophone blaring through the speakers.
Taehyungs long arms wrapped loosely around your waist, resting just above your butt, your arms reaching up to hold his shoulders as you two slowly swayed to the music.
"Why are you looking at me like that" you mutter, thankful for the dark lighting hiding the current blush on your face.
"Like what?" he smiled
You shrug, giggling softly, "I dont know" you bit your lip and looked at him, alcohol still able to be felt deep in your veins.
"whats so funny, hm?" he teased, looking directly at you with a wide smile, "whats my girl always laughing about?"
you shyly looked down, the weight of his gaze too much. Your head rested against his chest as butterflies filled your stomach. this was wrong.
"you cant say that" you whine quietly
"why not?" he stood back and gently spun you around, making you smile as your hands returned to his shoulders.
"because....im not your girl" you mumble, eyes fixated on both of your feet below.
He sighed and rested his head against yours, words not needed, yet actions saying much more as his hands squeezed your waist gently, rubbing up and down carefully.
you looked up at him finally as the song was coming to a close and allowed yourself to just be, smiling as he looked at you. "You will always be my girl" he whispered so only you two could hear, he quickly turned, grabbing your hand. "lets head home"
You felt breathless, and most of all guilty....but not in the way most would think. You were guilty about not feeling guilty. You had fun, and you werent going to apologize for the mindless flirting that occurred tonight.
-
The both got out of the car and jumped under the hood of your apartment complex, looking at the rain pouring.
"I had fun, tae..."
"I did too" he looked at you hopefully, his hand returning to yours.
"we need more time for just us, we've been so wrapped in other shit" you sigh, the sound of rain surrounding both of you.
"I agree, I dont care what we do, im always enjoying myself with you"
You smirk and jokingly jump towards him, embracing him tightly "ahhh tae tae...what will I do with you, little art boy" you smile as he laughs.
You both pull away, arms still on eachother as you stood outside your home. There was a moment of quietness, eyes scanning over eachothers faces.
"Tae...." you whisper, gathering your thoughts before he slowly leans in, nose brushing yours. The top of his lip grazes against yours as you lean in, suddenly realizing what was happening as you pull your head away.
He didnt react sharply, just watching you with sad eyes.
"we cant" you whispered, shaking your head
"why not?"
"because we dont know what we are doing tae, we know better than this." you firmly say
"do we?" he spoke calmly, eyes still fixated on you.
"yes.."
He looks down at your hands, squeezing them "please...."
You frown when he isnt looking, dragging your hand to pull his wet hair out of his face. "Im sorry" you softly spoke, rubbing your thumb over his cheek, "lets go get some rest, yeah?"
he waits a moment before nodding, silently following you into the apartment.
You werent sure what exactly was in the air tonight, but you knew something changed, and maybe it was the universe finally answering your call.
A/n: sorry ...
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If it’s okay to request, would you be willing to write dom!Liv (IZombie) where she makes you be quiet? 👀 (gn!reader is completely okay)
You got it, beautiful!
I present my very first iZombie ficlet, a dom!Olivia Moore x genderneutral!reader story:
Don’t Say Moore
It had been an unusually tame week in Seattle, leaving the SPD morgue about as lifeless as the few corpses kept cold there. Strolling in, you set your coat down on a nearby chair before quietly creeping up behind a man you’d gotten to know well enough with to startle.
“Got you!” you declare triumphantly as Ravi Chakrabarti jumps at your touch on his shoulder.
"Another busy day going out of your way to harass hard-working medical professionals, I take it?" he asks you, feigned irritation in the undertones of his East London accent.
"Yup!" you reply cheerily, "One down, one to go."
"I believe your second victim is rummaging around the supply closet somewhere," Ravi said, a mischievous grin on his face as he watched you quietly turn the corner.
It was your turn to be startled as the supply closet door swung open, revealing the exceptionally pale, blonde woman you had been seeing for about a week now. Olivia Moore had saved you from a close encounter with a zombie and the two of you had gotten close in the process - as close as a human and a zombie can get without becoming two zombies, anyway. The way she was looking at you today was different: the hunger that you usually saw deep in her eyes as she scanned your body - that definitely-too-sexual-for-work longing glance - seemed to instead have been replaced with the genuinely ravenous stare of an apex predator.
“Babe, you look like you haven’t slept!" you exclaim, surprised to see dark circles around her eyes. Then, upon seeing her shoulder, you began to panic, "Is that a bullet wound? Wait, when’s the last time you’ve… eaten?” your voice gets softer as she walks past you. Despite not having been together long, the two of you had already had your share of arguments about the realities of her investigative work. You had honestly expected more of a fight.
“Rough night helping Clive. I’m handling it," Liv grunts, setting out the medical supplies she had taken from the supply closet and missing the questioning look you gave Ravi, whose eyes seemed to plead you to change the subject.
“It’s just... the detective work you do is so dangerous," you continue, ignoring the doctor's animated grimace, "I know you want to help people, but you're already a medical examiner, right? So do you really need to keep putting yourself at risk doing this detective thing?” You look over at Ravi to back you up, but he stands up suddenly.
"I’ll just go update Clive on our progress, then. Be right back,” and with that he ducks out, looking for all the world like he couldn’t exit the morgue fast enough.
“Babe, I worry about something happening to you all the time-“ you start before Liv interrupts you.
“You don’t have to worry about me dying," she said bluntly, "I'm already dead."
Liv keeps her eyes on the supplies as she keeps talking, "Just a shambling zombie dealing with a slow week at the morgue. If I've learned anything working here, it's that the people of Seattle don't usually stop murdering each other for very long."
“Liv, I care about you. How am I supposed to not worry when you’re putting yourself in danger all the time?” you put your hand on her shoulder, wishing she would turn around and look at you - only to regret it. Her head whips around, eyes turning red before letting out a growl and putting her hand around your throat.
“Shut. Up.” she spat, pinning you down onto one of the empty exam tables. Knowing her nails were one small movement away from taking your humanity, you kept yourself as still as possible and your breath as shallow as you could manage under her grip.
"Say another word and I won't have to wait for a murder to get my next meal," she snarled, inches away from your face. Your own heartbeat pounded loudly in your ears and you had a moment when you were sure you were about to pass out - then, Liv's eyes shifted just as quickly back to their usual muted shades and she let go of you. Gasping to get enough air again, you clutch your chest before feeling your neck for scratches. Thankfully, you seem unscathed. Looking up, you notice Liv is smiling now and decide not to say anything that might change that.
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bokutosmochi · 2 years
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tendo satori boyfriend headcannons
what's it? fluff, some angst/reverse comfort
allergen warning/s? n/a
sugar level? 0.7k
regulars? @hanayanetwork​ @tahonet​, @tokyometronetwork​
bon appetit!
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♧ wants his partner to call him pretty. wants them to stroke his face, and trace his cheekbone with their thumb while they're at it. he completely melts onto the palm of their hand and become a pile of goo.
♧ likes recommending different media to his partner like mangas, series, movies, and animes and everything but was lowkey starting to rethink it when they developed crushes on the characters. it is kinda his form of acts of service when it comes to his love language though.
♧ has a corkboard filled with loads of pictures and memos in his room. the things tacked on to it varied from ideas for desserts he got at three in the morning, photos from his high school days, and photos of him and his partner. the latter took up most of the space as he had a picture for most of their dates in the past.
♧ lots and lots of movie dates! sometimes him and his partner will even watch movies they don't know the plot of. they'll just be strolling around town, come across the movie theater, see a really interesting looking poster and impulsively buy tickets. sometimes they end up regretting it, but other times they end up discovering a movie they treasure forever.
♧ loooves going into photobooths. would probably drag his partner into one if they come across some. he adds so much heart and animal stickers to the photo as well!
♧ farmer's market dates as well! he originally dragged his partner out of bed and into town because he was looking for some fresh fruits and high quality cacao, but after setting his eyes on them wearing such a pretty outfit and seeing how supportive they are of his dreams - they never gave him a lackluster answer whenever he asked for their opinion even though he woke them up two hours than what they preferred - he couldn't help but sit them down on one of the cozy chairs and buy them both a bowl of their favorite fruit.
♧ "paradise, olivia rodrigo released a new song. break up with me for an hour so i can reeeeally feel it"
♧ will drag his partner to do couples tiktok dances with him. they do not have a choice in that. however, what they do have a choice in is whether it is to be posted or not.
♧ maybe it's not very obvious, but he's so lovesick. he's in love with the idea of love, yet he does not let this characteristic of his lead him astray. he still has his standards, of course -- remains to know his worth. he'll be so happy when he finds someone who he thinks he's compatible with though, and he's even happier when they think he's compatible with them too.
♧ he doesn't like to make the first move because of his fear of rejection. getting bullied a lot and growing up mostly without friends does something to you.
♧ connected to the last headcannon, because of that, he needs lots and lots of kinds words and love. it may not look it from all the teasing he does, but he does get bad days too, and in tendo's case, when it's bad, it's real bad.
♧ tells his partner things like "aww you sure you wanna be stuck with me forever?" but it's just his unique way of asking for reassurance that they love him and wanna be with him.
♧ someone will never know what it feels like to be unloved if they're with tendo. well, unless he falls out of love with them, that is. but it's pretty unlikely to happen. whenever tendo falls hard enough he gets into a relationship with someone, he falls and he can't enough of them no matter how much time they spend together.
♧ if his partner boops his nose, he will bite their finger and not let go until they beg. he takes biting is my love language literally.
♧ very aggressive and exaggerated arm swinging when him and his partner are walking around outside. it's cute and makes him all giggly, until they hit someone 💀💀 and if that someone is behind them and is rude, he'd tell them off, saying something about how they should have seen the both of them, how they swung their arms, and how it's not really their fault. but if they aren't rude, he's the first to apologize.
♧ acts like he doesn't get jealous easily, but he does. it bothers him a lot and a lot of self-doubt comes into his head as intrusive thoughts. needs lots and lots of reassurance.
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i get: reblog
you get: a heart shaped necklace
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it’s my past
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warning! death, mentions of abuse and neglect, drugs, alcohol, and trauma.
Olivia Nicole Min was born June 10 2001 in Detroit Michigan. Born the second daughter of Nicole and Markus Min, and the middle sister of Miya and Austin Min. Olivia was raised in a free-spirited Christian household.
She began dancing at the age of 3 at The 32nd Dance Studio and competed from ages 5 to 12. Growing up, Olivia's father suffered from Colon Cancer on and off. When she was younger, all she knew was that her dad got sick a lot, so they often visited him in the hospital. But then he would get better until he wasn't better again. As she grew up, she understood her dad's illness more, she didn't understand why he was ill, but he was and there was nothing she could do about it.
She learned a lot about cancer from her dad's doctor, and a friend she made in the hospital when she would stay there for longer than an hour. Her name was Kaylyn. she was a year older than little Olivia. they met when she was 5, and Kaylyn was 6. The doctor had just explained more about her dad's illness, and this was when she began to understand that maybe her dad wasn't going to live a long time. she got upset so one of the nurses to her to the child wing of the hospital where there were toys and kids her age, in hopes to cheer her up.
"Hi, I'm Kaylyn" Kaylyn was a small girl with a pink scarf wrapped around her head, she looked cold but almost happy.
Olivia sniffled "I'm Olivia"
"What's wrong Olivia?" the little girl sits next to her, wrapping her arm around her.
"My daddy's really sick"
Kaylyn pursed her lips a little. She understood illness too well for such a young thing. "What kind of sick?"
"He has cancer"
"Oh... I have cancer too"
"Olivia looks the girl in her eyes now. She's pretty, she has these big round eyes and a small button nose. "I have uhm... leuk... leukemia. it's something with my blood. So i do these treatments that make my hair go away and stuff"
"I'm sorry," the younger girl says with sadness spread across her face.
"it's okay" she shrugs
Since then, the two were friends. Every time Olivia's dad was in the hospital, she would bring a flower and stuffed animal for Kaylyn, she loved lions.
The two made the nurses, doctors, and their parents smile. Anytime Kaylyn reached a milestone in her treatments, Olivia was there to hold her hand.
But one day, Olivia was told she couldn't visit Kaylyn because she has gotten worse over the month she's gone without seeing her. They were 7 and 8 at this point, and they got a little more of an understanding of death and cancer than they already had.
On March 3, 2008, Kaylyn Sawyer passed away at 12:25 in the morning with her family and nurses surrounding her room.
Olivia was crushed by the news. She didn't talk to anyone for a week. At the funeral, all the stuffed animals Olivia had brought her friend surrounded her casket, the girl added one last one to the collection, a pink lion with a scarf.
After only a year after Kaylyn's passing, Markus passes away in his hospital room. This was where Olivia's life started going down hill.
The kid's mom became neglectful, always drunk or doing drugs in front of them. This led Miya to become Austin and Olivia's practical mother, that was until their grandparents from Ohio took them in. Their grandparents were all that horrible. But they were strict. Every Sunday you had o get up to go to church, if you want to do anything over the weekend you have to clean whatever is dirty in the house before you go. Saturdays you had to be home for at least 4 hours for cleaning. You could never stay home from school, if you were sick, throw up at school then you can go home. No cartoons, only the news. and they could only play with toys for an hour out of the day.
It's safe to say the kids were miserable, but at least they had food and a roof over their heads. there were plenty of times when their mom got shared custody because she got sober, and then got it taken away after showing up high or drunk.
Olivia lost hope at a very young age because of this...
to be continued
taglist: @atolua @skzfairies @itzy-eve @cixrosie @stopeatread
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The Singer - Part 1 (Prologue)
Summary: Olivia James grew up in Small Heath Birmingham. Together with her brother Will, she is a regular at the Shelby family home. She is almost part of the family. When she gets involved with Tommy, not everyone is pleased at first, but Tommy becomes her dream. However, Liv has another dream that interferes with her relationship with the head of the Peaky Blinders - and then there was that war.
Warnings: In this chapter? Only language ;)
A/N: The prologue is kinda short, but the next chapters will be much much longer :) Enjoy!
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Small Heath, Birmingham, 1909
Surrounded by the shadows offered by the narrow alley, the young man stands in front of his girl. She stands with her back to the wall and he leans casually with one hand on the wall in front of her. Shyly, the 16-year-old blonde looks up at him. "We shouldn't be doing this," she whispers and he smiles at her. His blue eyes look into hers and he takes a drag on his smoke before throwing it on the floor. Then he puts his hand to her cheek. "I know," he whispers back and then leans forward. Hesitantly, he puts his lips to hers and then pulls her closer. As they pull away from each other again, the blonde can't hide a smile. "If Will finds out he's going to freak, I can guarantee you that," she then says and the black haired man starts to laugh. "Don't worry. I'm not afraid of your brother." "I know," she is still grinning. Again he leans in and kisses her again. Sighing into the kiss with relish, she wraps her arms around his neck.
- When Olivia pushes open the door to her parents' house, her brother is already waiting for her. "Where were you? Shouldn't you have come home right after school?" he asks with his arms crossed. "Oh shut up Will. It's none of your business where I am." Will stops his sister. "Yes i is Liv. I'm responsible for you and you're only sixteen, if something happens to you…" Liv rolls her eyes in annoyance. "I was out with Tommy, okay? You know as well as I do that nothing can happen to me when I have a Shelby with me." "Tommy? What do you have to do with Tommy fucking Shelby? Eh?" "Can you stop fucking doing that?! You may be my legal guardian until I'm eighteen, but that doesn't mean you have to interfere in my life!" Will pins his sister against the wall. "If it's fucking Tommy Shelby, I'll interfere anywhere, you understand?"
Liv takes a deep breath. "I just ran into him okay? He walked me home. Why are you acting so fucked up anyway? Tommy is your best friend!" "That's just it. He's my best friend Liv. I know him. And I know what he's like with women." "Fuck you Will. You really think I'd just let Tommy Shelby fuck me like that?" Will sighs and lets go of his sister. "I'm sorry. I just know what he's like. When he turns on the charm, they fall for him. One after the other. And I don't want that to happen to you. He's been known to break hearts. Besides, you're too young for him." "Now, hold your breath, little brother. He just brought me home."
A slight guilty conscience, forms in Liv's chest. She hates lying to her brother, but since their dad died, he's become very protective and it's getting on Liv's nerves big time. Will would freak if he knew Tommy Shelby and Liv were seeing each other in between. Tommy has always been Liv's crush since she was little, but he was only ever her brother's best friend. But a few weeks ago, after a drunken night at the Garrison, he knocked on her front door, which Liv opened, assuming it was her brother. However, he was not asleep at home that night. Tommy looked at Liv and then just kissed her. Liv thought it was just a drunken kiss that he would soon forget, but Tommy Shelby didn't forget.
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underground update 🖤🖤 oh my gosh each chapter becomes my new favourite, I'm sure.
the comparison between the physical damage in the aftermath of the storm and the emotional damage in the aftermath of Eddie and R fighting for so long was beautiful. One of my favourite parts especially was the mention of 'deep puddles that would soak you up to the knee if you happened to misstep' this feels so similar to her relationship with him at the start of the chapter. Like she's trying to dodge and hop her way around her interactions with him, stopping herself from drowning in a puddle. Such great analogy's.
I think how she has to keep reminding herself of what he did, how he messed up, is a great take on forgiveness. It's a super fine line to walk between forgiving someone and wiping the slate clean, but not letting yourself become gullible or naïve that they're never going to hurt you again. Where do you draw the line? She's gotta land somewhere between not holding a grudge for the rest of her life, and not becoming a total doormat. It's so hard. 'Someone could say a million of the right things but it doesn't excuse their wrongdoings or the harm they're capable of' Her thought process here explains that so perfectly. And you're so right about the Olivia Rodrigo song. It's 1 step forward and 3 steps back in her determination to hate him and hold onto those bad parts, not in the progress of their relationship.
The way she's describing his eyes like whiskey was really clever, how it can warm you up, relax you. but it could still leave a bit of a bite, how it's got some heat to it. Reminded me of the sugar comparison last chapter, just gorgeous.
And then how she can't stop ogling him! All while he's doing a crap job of making drinks but she's too zoned out on how he looks to care 😍 it's like their conversation during the storm has lifted her blinkers and she's seeing more clearly now. But she's still being stubborn and I love this about her because she's me and I cling onto the bad parts of people to stop myself being made a fool of again, even if I should let it go. Can't. No way. Major Meg from Hercules energy and I'm here for it.
Then theres Eddie's aftermath. He's practicing a bit more patience with little reward at that point, but he's only thinking of her peace and how to protect it. Especially from himself, straight up admitting to himself that a negative reaction was better than no reaction at all, because he just wants her attention. Just wants her to notice him. Which is heartbreakingly hilarious, she's noticing you well enough pal, don't you worry. But really, him questioning his place in her life? If he even has one now? Just cut me open and leave me to bleed out, my chest physically hurt at that point. He's so in love it's not funny.
The conversation between Eddie and Steve was interesting, he's got all the patience for R right now and none left for Steve. And so it should be. Still got zero sympathy for Steve, he even says to Eddie how much Steve knew of R really liking, then really hating Eddie, and he still doesn't know why he did what he did. Maybe just because you could Steve? But then I get that this whole story is hilighting relationships and how people fuck up with eachother, not just in a romantic sense, so maybe Steve will get his redemption. Eddie thinking 'get your shit together, please' though... pfft. Pot kettle black much?
And then Will's house! I love that Will is bringing them together. She's still trying to shield him from the bulk of what's gone on but I wonder if Eddie has done the same? Knowing that he also visits Will often and is his friend. They clearly talk about her a lot I'm guessing with the bad baker comment. And then Eddie's reaction to seeing her! Buddy. Dilated eyes. Your body is literally filling with happy hormone just looking at her. I can't. He wants her so bad it's making me sick. I love it 😍 the 'can't I be bad at something and still try?' line. Ugh. Love how you slipped that in there like it doesn't apply to nearly every character in this fic. Yes you can be bad at something and yes you should still definitely try. Cue 'this is me trying' on Spotify 🖤 then he stays and he wants in on the matching pjs and it's all too much for Will who just wants mum and dad to stop fighting and got his wish 😭 the cruel summer! The line they finish on!! I'm combusting! This was so perfect. Congrats on another amazing chapter, just perfection 🖤🖤
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AHH YAY🥹 it’s analysis time
ugh yessss she’s just so worn out and she sees the aftermath of the storm and is like ‘same’ like girl can’t catch a break. Ugh it makes me so sad cause she feels she has to dodge him like that but it’s like how can she trust anyone at this point she just keeps getting fucked over (but also relatable like she is me, I trust no one)
god yes, forgiveness is so hard because it’s like you can’t spend forever enraged cause it only causes inner pain but you can’t just let them off easy either so like you said it’s a super fine line. I happen to be too forgiving sometimes so it’s really liberating to write reader in this fic as so stubborn and not tolerating being walked on. And it’s only becoming more difficult for her with the way she sees him now so she’s in this territory of like ‘can I trust him?’ but quickly reeling back like ‘no no no he’s bad remember?’ Seeing him in a different light is def overwhelming so it’d really screw with your emotions
I think when I wrote the whiskey part I had been like two drinks in too and I was like god this is how she feels looking into Eddie’s eyes or even thinking about them like you’re just a little bit love drunk and leaning into that feeling and it feels a bit too good so your perceptions a little off but when you sober up those feelings are still there, you’re just not brave enough to confront them.
dude he’s such a shit barista but let’s be real, reader is pretty much responsible for basically making him train himself…so maybe she’ll show him the ropes for real some day 👀 but yeah now she can’t keep her eyes off of him and I like to think that before their conversation she kinda just tuned him out and didn’t even bat an eye in his direction, that’s how disgusted she was with him like ‘we can fight like no tomorrow but once we’re out of the ring you don’t exist’ so even when she would have to pay him any mind, it was always in a bad light so any attraction for him was just heavily blanketed in hatred. SHE IS SO MEG FROM HERCULES YOURE RIGHT OMG, the whole ‘no chance, no way, I won’t say it no, no’ is sooo this chapter
ugh yes, my dear Eddie 🥹 it’s def ironic he’s like PLS ACKNOWLEDGE ME EVEN IF ITS TO TELL ME YOU HATE ME but baby boy doesn’t even notice her absolute fawning over him literally ALL THE TIME at work. Like man makes cleaning look so hot but he’d never know. It’s so dumb they both stare at each other quite literally any chance they can get but the other one never notices and honestly we could even chalk it up to neither one feeling worthy of love or even like which is just 😭❤️‍🩹
LMAO Steve was never meant to be a villain but it just happened
the scene at wills house is honestly one of my favorite scenes I’ve ever written because I have such a soft spot for Will and Eddie, they just should’ve been able to have a friendship in canon but obvi it can’t happen now so I can at least write it 🥹 and yeah Eddie is such a lovesick puppy like he sees her and his eyes grow like 5x bigger, literally becomes the 🥹 emoji. I’m so glad you had this reaction to the line in cruel summer, it was never planned from the beginning and sort of came together as I wrote and i was like yesss!!! Like everything that happened in this chapter was pretty much unplanned and it was supposed to set up a completely different scene but it will have to wait…most likely for the next chapter but we’ll see
thank you for reading and taking the time to talk in such detail it gives me the biggest boost in motivation 😭💜💜💜
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Hello there how are you?
Uhm random question, you dont happen to still have your ladynoir fallout playlist and to be kind enough to share it or do you??? Asking for a friend : )
I don't have it as an actual spotify playlist, but I do have a list of the songs that I associate with that ladynoir era, which I am happy to share! Basically the playlist is half-canon/half-fanfic. It's like a season 4 AU where Ladybug and Chat Noir really did have a serious falling out that lasted a pretty long while. And while Chat did still help with akumas sometimes, he kept to his own mostly. Some of the songs only vaguely match up with it, but I'll put in little explanations for the songs here too so that you can know what I was thinking.
Waiting in the Wings from Tangled the Series [Chat singing this as he becomes more and more sidelined by Ladybug]
Drift Away cover by Caleb Hyles [Chat feeling like he and Ladybug are drifting apart]
Lovers’ Eyes by Mumford & Sons [Chat starting to be angry with Ladybug, but still loving her]
Waiting in the Wings (reprise) from Tangled the Series [Adrien about Gabriel]
Dead Mom from Beetlejuice [Adrien about Emilie]
Lost In the Woods from Frozen II [Chat Noir]
brutal by Olivia Rodrigo [Chat/Adrien as his anger at everything grows]
I Couldn’t Know Someone Less from Daddy Long Legs [Chat to Ladybug when she starts to be his “boss” (specifically the "why would you set me free only to imprison me?" line)]
Waving Through A Window from Dear Evan Hansen [Adrien feeling alone]
Head Above Water by Avril Lavigne [Chat feeling like no one cares]
Happier by Marshmello [Adrien thinking Ladybug will be happier without him]
To Build A Home by The Cinematic Orchestra[Chat before the fallout]
Life’s Too Short - Outtake from Frozen [Them fighting before the fallout]
Crossing the Line from Tangled the Series [Chat and Ladybug fall out]
I Won’t Hold You Back by Toto [Chat leaving]
Make It Right from Prince of Egypt [Ladybug saying she can make it right, but Chat saying there’s nothing she can do so she leaves]
Let You Go by Joshua Bassett [Chat saying goodbye]
The Next Right Thing from Frozen II [Ladybug after Chat leaves]
What Baking Can Do from Waitress [Marinette stress baking after the fallout]
Before You Go by Lewis Capaldi [Ladybug reflecting back on everything]
True Love - Ballad by Jordan Fisher [Ladybug realizing what she’s lost]
good 4 u by Olivia Rodrigo [Chat being angry because he thinks that LB is okay and has moved on when he hasn’t]
I Knew You Once by Hollie Allen [Ladybug after the fallout)
Wishing You Were Somehow Here Again from The Phantom of the Opera [Ladrien singing]
If I Could Take This Moment Back from Tangled the Series [both of them feeling regret for their actions]
Iris cover by Kina Grannis [both of them while they're "broken up"]
Learn to be Lonely from The Phantom of the Opera [Chat while he’s Rogue Noir]
I Don’t Wanna Love Somebody Else by A Great Big World [they still love each other]
I’d Give Anything from Tangled the Series [Ladybug wanting Chat back]
Did I Make The Most Of Loving You from Downton Abbey [Ladybug asking about Chat]
Payphone by Maroon 5 [Chat starting to regret his choices]
Far Too Late from Andrew Lloyd Webber's Cinderella [Ladybug feeling like it’s too late to get Chat back]
Always Remember Us This Way from A Star Is Born[During the "break up", them remembering the good times]
When We Were Young cover by Madilyn Bailey [After the ladynoir fallout Chat looking back...both of them stark back on the past]
Hello by Adele [them starting to call out to each other]
Meet Me On the Battlefield/Battlefield by SVRCINA [Them seeing each other in fights but no where else]
Life’s Too Short (Reprise) - Outtake from Frozen [Learning to see each other’s points of view]
Say Something by A Great Big World [them wanting to talk but not having the courage to]
Beautiful Ghosts by Taylor Swift [Chat trying accept the loneliness]
Wondering from High School Musical: The Musical: The Series [Both of them wondering what would have happened if things were different]
Pictures in my Head from The Muppets [Remembering the happy past]
Stay With Me by Sam Smith [Both of them thinking it but never saying it]
Just Give Me a Reason by P!NK [Chat looking at this point for any reason to stay]
Space Between from Descendants 2 [Them starting to reconcile]
What’s Up Danger from Spider-man: Into the Spider-Verse[Chat Noir returns]
I Still Have Faith In You by ABBA [Ladynoir come back together]
Confident by Demi Lavato [Ladynoir fighting Shadowmoth together]
Seventeen (reprise) from Heathers [After the battle]
After All by Michael Buble [them falling in love with each other again]
And that's it! Sorry I didn't have it as a real playlist! Hope it scratches the Ladynoir fallout itch! Happy (or sad) listening!
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Do you think Carolina and Michael will split up soon? They’re starting to become like the Italians where she slumps her shoulders to appear shorter than him. I think there are a number of strong male ice dancers in the US who she would do better with than Michael. She’s a strong skater but I think Michael holds her back.
No, why would Green/Parsons split? They are well matched in any aspect but height and they seem to currently make it work with the downside being she needs to slump her shoulders. It's not ideal but I can't say I think it will hold them back too much, just like the Italians eventually broke through.
I also really don't think Michael holds her back, I think he is the stronger skater of the two (she's good too). The one thing I can maybe see happen is something like what we see now with Olivia and Adria, where maybe Michael will retire after 2026 and she will continue longer. Though maybe she will want to stop or he will want to skate until 35, who knows.
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