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RealAgeAU Drabble - Starcrossed
Here we go! the next Drabble :D @spotaus
As the poll ended it gave me two options and I wanted to write a Cross POV. So. Starcrossed :D
First: here Prev: here Next: here
Timewise?
We are about... a Month and like three weeks in. So a month of Nightmare being alone. Three weeks of him being with the gang. about a small week after Killer soul-adopting Nightmare (with Dust adopting Nightmare in the first week as the madlad he is).
Okay? We good timeline wise? okay.
As always, unedited and unbeta'ed. This is not ever going to change unless i one day decide to make a full story of these drabbles and add extra stuff and change the chapters up.
Anyway!
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Cross rubs his face as he continues to walk "Dust."
Dust just hums to let him know he heard.
Cross shoots him a look "He has legs. he can walk." with he, Cross obviously means Nightmare.
Dust doesn't even look at Cross or look in anyway surprised by that sentence. Instead he just keeps walking as he holds Nightmare in his arms "I know."
Cross stares at him but Dust doesn't continue to speak.
He groans "So why isn't he walking?!"
Dust shrugs and instead bounces Nightmare up a bit to enable Dust to have a more secure and stable hold on Nightmare.
Nightmare for his part does not look bothered as he just relaxes against Dust as he looks back over Dust's shoulder and watches other people go about their day.
Cross rubs his face "honestly what is the deal with you and carrying him?"
Dust shoots him an amused look "I want to."
Cross throws his arms and hands out "That can't be the only reason!"
Dust shrugs "Don't need more reasons."
Cross glares at the ground as they continue walking. He looks up and points at a store "This one?"
Dust looks at it and shakes his skull.
Cross groans loudly "What is wrong wit this one?!"
Dust raises a brow "Wrong style."
Cross crosses, heh, his arms as he glances at Dust "You know. this whole clothes shopping thing would be a lot easier if you actually picked a store to enter."
Dust shrugs again "Not good enough." and he gently bonks his skull against Nightmare's.
Cross can't believe this is the same Dust that got his own clothes by walking into the frist store he saw and grabbing the first set of clothes he saw. before calling it a day. Dust's wardrobe was hardly ever actually his size.
Now? The first store was too low quality; then not the right colours; then wrong materials; then too bland; then too sexy, with this one Cross had agreed and questioned why they would need a shirt for a six year old with the words 'lady killer' on them; then to tight and restrictive; and now just 'not good enough'.
When Cross agreed to help Dust get Nightmare new clothes instead of breaking and entering a place wiht Killer he had hoped it would be the less stressful option.
Cross rubs his face "Wiht you being this picky he is never going to get clothes that fit him."
Dust shrugs again and seems fully unbothered. Which may just be because Nightmare primarily still wears his stuff.
Cross doesn't get it. well he kinda does. Babybones are cute nad he also notices the need to take care of him but. It is Nightmare! It is a matter of time before he is an adult again and then none of this will have mattered! Or maybe they will have and then what? How would he recover from this?!
It is best to remind himself that this may be Nightmare and he may be six but Nightmare will one day become that powerful and formidable monster again and so to keep treating him with the respect he deserves!
They walk silently through the twon for a moment and Cross can see that Nightmare is dozing in Dust's hold. completely content and trusting.
Cross shoots a look at Dust. "I just don't get it...."
Dust blinks nad looks over "What?"
Cross feels himself grow warm with embarrassment. He hadn't meant to say it out loud and he says as much.
Dust rolls his eye lights and waits with a raised brow.
Cross grumbles but tries to explain "How can you... treat him like a babybones that easily?"
Dust tilts his skull and glances down at Nightmare before looking back at Cross "Because he is one." the way Dust says it implies it is the obvious answer.
Cross groans as he tries to explain more "But he used to be big and an adult. Or at least look like one? How can you jsut... switch to seeing him as a babybones?"
Dust tilts his skull adn snorts "easy. people change. people you watched grow up or grow older, do you still treat them like kids even though they are adults. because you knew them as kids?"
Cross blinks nad speaks "This is different?"
Dust shakes his skull "I don't agree. it is the same concept. just slightly different. he used to be a child. magic gave him the body and brain of an adult. but his soul was sitll a child and once the magic was gone he is a child again. So you treat him as a child."
Cross frowns as looks to the side "What if he becomes on adult again?"
Dust starts to grin "I mean. that is usually how growing up works."
Cross knows he is blushing again and glares "You know what i meant."
Dust chuckles and shrugs "The same still implies. We will just be lucky we managed to skip the teenage years with him."
Cross wasn't sure what he expected as answer but maybe he should have seen something like this coming. Dust was after all all for this parentship thing they have going on right now... and Dust is a very smart and logical person. Of course he managed to find comparisons to normal day life and managed to accept it more easily. Hell Dust probably has even more examples ready to use if Cross asks for it.
It is still just... difficult to accept for him. Cross will need more time. Luckily none of them seem to mind him lagging behind in this case. Killer had also taken longer than Dust to accept the situation fully, but Killer managed to work it out.
Horror is much chiller about what is going on. He didn't seem surprised at Dust's reaction and even less at Killer joining the 'parent-camp' with Dust.
Maybe there is just something wrong with him... it wouldn't be the first time...
Cross sighs as they stop by the plaza and manage to just see the house that Horror and Killer should be robbing. "well, either way we are soon out of time and will have been unsuccessful" great. the one thing they had to do was get Nightmare a spare outfit. They didn't even need to try shoes and-
Dust freezes "fuck."
Cross turns "what is wrong?" as he says it he sees Dust eye the plaza around them, all while he ducks further and further behind the fountain as Nightmare shakes.
Dust looks around the plaza "Stars. All three." he glares "empty... can't make a break for it using the crowd as cover..."
and a teleport would be too loud and will clue them in on them being here. Fuck indeed.
Cross sneaks a look and sees the three skeletons talk and converse casually. the rattling from Nightmare is a sign of pure fear and Cross feels himself grow worried even as he texts Horror and Killer about their emergency.
How... how would they react to Nightmare being a child? Dream had already made it clear that he thought Nightmare was corrupted and none of his brother had remained. What would he do if he saw Nightmare?
Best case scenerio would be him kidnaping Nightmare and locking him away... Worst case just... dusting him. Make sure Nightmare never becomes the powerful being he can be.
Cross notices that they have been seen as Dream looks shocked while Blue waves and starts to shout "Hey! DUst and Cross!" Cross acts as if he didn't hear or noticed them.
Cross stares at Dust "What do we do-"
and Dust just, undoes his own hoody. he pulls it over his head and even ignores the red scarf that falls to the ground next to Nightmare- wait when did Dust put Nightmare down.
Dust puts the hoody on Nightmare with one smooth motion and pulls the hoody up, he next uses the strings to make it tight and tests to make sure it doesn't come off easily.
Dust stares at Nightmare as he quickly puts on the scarf again "You just keep your face and skull against my shoulder and neck okay? Don't glance, don't react. Just act shy or asleep. Nothing will get you." and Dust picks him up again. Nightmare, without a single word, pushes his face into the soft scarf and together with the large hoody there is nothing visible that could be used to indentify him.
Holy shit that is so smart-
"Hey you two! We didn't expect to see you just hanging- what... is that?!" Blue looks beyond excited as he stares at the tiny bundle that is Nightmare. Cross feels his anxiety and panic turn hotter into a raging fire. Dont. get. near. him.
Dust just shoots Blue a look and speaks in a quiet voice "sh. quiet."
Blue gives a sheepish look and speaks much softer "oh. I am sorry. The kiddo is tired?" Dust just nods.
Cross sees his change and nods as well "We were taking a quick break but were going to leave again." he can see Killer and Horror look through the window of the house they are robbing and sees them see their situation.
Blue looks sad but nods "Yeah. I get that-"
Ink interrupts him "How did you two get a child?!"
Dream looks suspicious but doesn't say anything.
Fuck, he can probably feel Nightmare's fear doesn't he? and he wouldn't know it is fear directed at the Stars... Oh no.
Dust raises a brow and doesn't even bother to answer as he starts to take a few steps back, away from the Stars. Cross cna see that Horror is climbing down the side of the house as Killer glares at the Stars.
Ink gasps "I knew it! You two kidnaped a child!" he holds out his hands "Hand the child back and we will find their parents!"
Dust growls as he steps further back.
Cross panics and answers without thinking "We didn't steal him! He is Dust's you idiots!"
dead. silence.
The three Stars look shocked at Cross and Cross can actually see both Horror and Killer also stare at him in shock.
Ink snorts "Really? and who is the other parent?"
Cross huffs "First off, you don't nessesarily need two parents to make a child, learn basic monster biology first before making claims. second, obviously it is" think think think think think just say something! "me." NO NOT THAT!
The silence of before is NOTHING compared to the silence now. Cross is actually sure he can hear a pin drop in one of the stores around them at the moment.
No one moves and it doesn't help that Cross can see both Dust and Nightmare shoot him incredulously glances.
Oh please someone shoot him because Horror even pauses his own climb to shoot him a raised eye brow while Killer is ACTUALLY wiggling his eye brows at him.
Just end him. Please his mind did not work with him. He had just been thinking so much about how everyone had been treating Ngihtmare and how he saw the situation.
Dream is the one who coughs and looks to the side awkwardly "oh. wow. euh... congrats? I didn't realise you two were... you know... an item." please please please please shut up. "and a babybones as well! Wow! That is... unbelieveable!"
Blue nods "Yeah! No one knew!"
Cross still can't find the words and is actually afraid of what he will say next. Dust however shrugs and has managed to pull his face back in his normal bored look "prefer privacy. it is no ones business." and he raises a brow at them.
Blue smiles brightly "of course! We won't tell others. stars knows everyone wants a quiet moment nowadays..."
Dream nods before quickly changing the subject "right! We were just curious what you two were doing out and-" he looks horrifed "Oh stars... you two are on a date! A fmaily date! and we crushed it and interrupted it and we are so sorry!"
Cross suddenly understands why Chara and Gaster would use the reset and overwrite power. please just let him change this moment to have been anything else. please.
Dust hums and shrugs. Not really answering any question.
Dream still looks embarrassed "anyway! we... euh... well... were wondering what you were doing. Now we know that that is great! euh... So... my brother just... doesn't mind this?"
Any embarrassement disappears. Hot rage in his body. Cross glares as his crosses his arms.
Dream sputters but continues "you know... be is so against positivity... and this... this is a beautiful and wonderful thing! Doesn't he...isn't he..." he smiles sheepish.
Cross glares "no. He doesn't. In matter of fact. He is very fine with the situation at hand. very willing to help in a way he can." Cross isn't even lying. While Nightmare doesn't like having been changed back he isn't diffficult anymore and more than happy to stick with Dust, and them all, now. Nightmare is also not fussy when out and about on missions and aside from being grumpy he is a perfect good babybones.
Dust nods "you should stop talking about people you know nothing about." he looks at Cross "lets go. he is tired."
Cross nods and sees Horror sign at Killer to get down as well. Killer shrugs and just lets himself fall from the third floor right into Horror's arms. The two disappear into some side street.
Cross nods and looks at Dust "you first." Cross will just walk behind Dust and make sure the Stars don't get any glimbs near the end.
Dust nods and turns easily as he walks away, Cross can see how Dust changes the hand mid turn and Nightmare sinks a little lower. Making it that his skull doesn't even peak over Dust's shoulder.
They walk away in silence and take many turns to get some distance. As soon as Cross is sure the Stars can't hear or see them he says so. Which causes Dust to nod before sprinting, Cross is quick to follow.
They reach the edge of town in record time and Cross glances back "okay. we are good. we are fine... we got out."
Dsut nods before looking at him very amused "we made a babybones?"
Cross feels himself grow warm for so many reasons as he sputters "I panicked! I am sorry I implied we were- that we did!" he hides his face.
Dust chuckles and pats his shoulder "It is fine."
Cross relaxes and smiles in thanks.
Dust raises a brow "Killer will never let you live this down."
Cross groans "just end me."
Dust hums "I don't know. I don't think killing the other parent of my child works in my favour." he grins so goddamnit amused.
Cross is never going to hear the end of this.
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Cross was so close to soul-adopting Nightmare but then the Stars interrupted and Cross panicked.
Also, important. Noticed how Cross only apologised for implying he and Dust made the babybones together? But not that he is a parent? Cross is getting there. It will just take him a while.
#RealAgeAU#utmv#Cross sans#nightamre sans#dust sans#deaged nightmare#the gang#bad sanses#blue sans#swap sans#dream sans#ink sans#Hints for bad Sans poly (obvious nightmare not included because hs is the baby)#*checks the tags* I think i got them all#Also. I want you all to know you guys sometimes scare me#you reblog so quickly#drabble#anyway#Cross will eventually figure it out himself#He jsut needs to mentally accept that it is okay for him to want to parent nightmare#that is the last hurdle he needs to clear#meanwhile dust is unapologetic about it#he knows what he is now and he accepted it the second he first found nightmare#ngihtmare has all four wrapped around his little finger and he doesn't even know it#horror and killer as the drama unfolds: 👀#Cross who is about to have six different type of panic attacks at the same time but will also lie to two gods in their faces:#This is what we call a powermove#fun fact i had been hoping this drabble would be shorter#it wasn't#What even is Cross Dust ship name? Duss? Doss? Dross? Crust (lmao) Crost? We will workshop it... or not lmao
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we've had fireworks every single night this week. then it'll be halloween and then bonfire night. :/
#when are they going to finally ban them for personal use#:(#thankfully my dog is on holiday#my grandma's old dog was here on new year's eve one year and she got so scared by the fireworks she was never right after that#i still think that's what caused her to deteriorate so quickly :(#plus theyre setting them off in the field and of course leaving all the litter 👍#have i mentioned i love where i live 🥰#lol the other night i woke up to someone screaming 'he's got a knife he's got a knife' and blue flashing lights#i did dream that i got stabbed when i went back to sleep that night 😭 but honestly it wasn't a nightmare it was kind of chill#and sort of cool to see how it would feel#even though dream logic means it's totally unrealistic#anyway#that wasn't the point#my point is GET ME OUT OF HEREEEEEEEE#and ban fireworks ‼️
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Let death be a lesson to you.
#I absolutely love this cat skull mask#it's more subtle than the deer/ram masks but very effective#it scares the npcs so bad#I was going for a “the devil wears a suit and tie” vibe#the contrast of the white snow against arthur's black suit and horse is perfect#poldark is a good horse I love him#mick squeaks#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#arthur morgan#poldark my horse#red dead redemption community#animal skull#I had a dream that the strange man visited arthur and made him an offer like he did with herbert moon#you know the “I offered you two generations” line in the strange man cabin#anyways so the offer was either arthur finding out how he and the gang members die or working as a temporary 'grim reaper'#so arthur chose to be a reaper because he was to help people pass to the other side he wasn't killing anyone#and after doing that for a while it made arthur appreciate his life better so he could make better choices in the future#there's way more to it but I think it would be a sick fanfic#if anyone wants me to expand on it just let me know <3#yap over#micks pics
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Hey did I ever tell y'all about the time I dreamed that I had a baby daughter called Ellie that began with my finding out I was pregnant and ended on like her third birthday?
I legitimately woke up thinking "I should go check on Ellie" and then realised she was never real and when I tell you I SOBBED. I've been haunted by an implacable sense of loss ever since. Did I travel to another dimension? Wtf happened because that was insane.
#I'm not even joking when I say it felt REAL#I have this baby doll (it was my mum's when she was a kid and I have it now) that sometimes I just hold and it makes me feel better???#Did I astral project into another life?????#Was it just a really fucking intense fever dream??????#For the record I was like fifteen I have never even done the do let alone had a pregnancy scare#But yeah my little Ellie#And she never fuckin existed#I woke up halfway through planning her birthday party like baking a cake or sm and I was thinking#“I'll give her the little green cardigan I knitted”#Woke up to a silent house and was like “she's never usually quiet this time in the morning”#Then realised what had happened and started CRYING#idk man it's insane#From a psychological point of view it's fascinating but I've tried and tried to analyse the dream and?????#I always come up with something different???? I can't pinpoint the actual cause and effect of the whole thing?????#Madness honestly#And it was just a normal day too nothing weird had happened it wasn't a coma and I wasn't knocked out it was just a Dream#A very very real one#For the record I don't think Ellie had a father#I think it was just an immaculate conception that nobody ever questioned#Might have been IVF now I think about it#That would make more sense#dream#weird dreams#Ig I should add a grief trigger warning???#tw grief#one time i dreamt#Very confused and it's been like two years so wtf yeah that was... Intense#The most dream of all time#Maybe I'm just fucking insane lol but yeah
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Last night i dreamt that caine was fighting a semi corrupted kaufmo and kaufmo grabbed caine's jaw and split it sideways, making a huge cracking sound and spewing blood everywhere. Kaufmo ran off, and Caine was left sitting against the wall, bleeding and panting. And Jax turned into a car
#tadc#the amazing digital circus#caine#caine tadc#tadc caine#caine th#caine the amazing digital circus#kauf#tadc kaufmo#kaufm#the amazing digital circus kaufmo#kaufmo#abstracted kaufmo#kaufmo tadc#kaufmo the amazing digital circus#dreams#dreams are weird#i wasn't even scared it was like just watching it on vr or something#jax tadc#tadc jax#jax#the amazing digital circus jax#digital circus
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Was on holiday to China and went to a knock-off DHMIS themed escape room. The poster advertising it was the Goya painting Saturn Devouring His Son, but with Yellow Guy eating a chunk of unidentifiable meat. The inside of the room was just an empty movie theatre.
#dream#horror#dhmis#don't hug me i'm scared#yellow guy#Francisco Goya#saturn devouring his son#I wasn't scared by any of this#I just criticised the paintwork on Yellow Saturn#I wasn't kidding about me just posting about my dreams
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of all the recurring dreams to have WHY does mine have to be Tornado While Stuck on a Rollercoaster Over Open Water
#talkin#alternatively Tornado While In the Car Escaping from it but the Road is Falling Into A Chasm#don't mean for this to sound venty it's not i'm just baffled#i wasn't even particularly scared of tornadoes until i started having these dreams.......?
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on a lighter note. mumbo talking about how he's been a smallishbeans fan for years made me happy because i too have watched smallishbeans since. idk. 2015? or something? i don't remember. i don't watch him anymore (WHEN DID HE CHANGE HIS SKIN??? WHEN DID THAT HAPPEN???) but ive got some great memories
on another note DOES ANYONE REMEMBER BEANBLOCKZ. it used to be my FAVORITE minecraft server. i played it every day. i was so so so sad when i found out it was abandoned and shut down. YEARS of work on the creative server. gone. i miss you so so so so so bad beanblockz fuck i'm gonna cry
#kez.txt#ok i promise not to post about mcyt anymore#unless it's mystreet/mcd. they get a pass#but other than that i feel embarrassed#it's not even the Embarrassing mcyt. but still i just read through old 2021 mcyt posts and im scared#i do not want to be associated with them....pls...i promise i was never a dream smp fan#my friends were but I WASNT!! even though i pretended to be#i wasn't even into it but with the amount of people i knew who were i was basically in the fandom by association#ok god i need to stop before i embarrass myself further
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actually On Your Feet gave us two good things (well. three if you like Realize which I do). Kohane's "it's frustrating" line and the great crack fic idea of Vivid Bad Squad getting cancelled online for skipping school to yell at The Kotaki Taiga as he was about to go back to America.
#no because. he went there to continue radder's dream yeah? the one about becoming world successful musicians#and they had a record label for a bit. they were definitely going to make it at least somewhat.#so we can assume taiga is at the very least a semi well known musician yeah?#one that someone about to either leave or enter japan might know about. who will see this musician they enjoy#being shouted at by a high school girl in her school uniform about how they will surpass him or something along those lines#with three other kids (in uniform from a different school) standing behind her#and then going onto sekai universe twitter to post about it and the taiga kotaki fans taking it by storm#taiga gets off the plane in america and finds he's trending and it's because people are making fun of a blurry picture of his ex pupil#meanwhile vivid bad squad just don't know because it was contained entirely on twitter and.#be honest can you see any of them having twitter because i can't. an maybe but akito doesn't have time for social media and toya is toya#and kohane is a tumblr girlie if i've ever seen one#however it does give the great concept of someone else seeing it and debating if they should say anything#because mmj definitely has an official account they could have seen it on and also there's ena shinonome and mizuki akiyama#but anyway this also means when they do put on the event to surpass rad weekend (or whatever their goal ends up being)#there will be a crowd of people looking at it and going “isn't that the group of kids that twitter made fun of ages ago?”#and then taiga kotaki stans on sekai universe twitter will be stunned because they did in fact surpass him#if it wasn't for the gcses i would write this but alas. enjoy my weird thoughts#bagel's rambles#project sekai#i am scared to main tag this one but. fuck it we ball
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every second i spend not making a twisted psychological horror is a second wasted
#my little fucked up brain wants to make little fucked up things but i CANT because i have no motivation to finish ANYTHING EVER#and i also have like zero of the skills required to make the things i wanna make#but the CONCEPTS wont stop FUCKING ROTATING AROUND IN MY HEAD:(((#growlllll#please i just wanna take the basic outline for a horror concept i really really like but then make it actually good#because they fucked it up horribly#well not horribly it just wasn't good#but theres SOMETHING IN IT PLEASE JUST LET ME MAKE IT GOOD#SHAKING YOU#IT HAS SUCH POTENTIAL:((((((((((#man if i had a nickel for every horror comic i read that had some aspect of EXCELLENT horror but they absolutely fumbled the rest#id have two nickels#well actually i dont know if theyve fumbled one they still have the chance to pull through (dont read this im talking about dont read this#the other being everything's fine#ofc#that is the one i REALLY want to take the general concept of and make it better#and by general concept i mean literally nothing in the actual comic and just the ads i got on youtube#i want THAT SHIT#that shit scared me SO FUCKING BAD IT WAS AWESOME#god the fucking dog scene im still not over that#that scene with voice acting + sound effects was HORRIFYING#ESPECIALLY without context holy FUCK#to instill the level of fear that gave me is a DREAM#the whole concept of everything seeming just slightly off#eventually ramping up to genuinely horrible senarios#and for everyone to just pretend it isn't happening#is SUCH. A GOOD. IDEA.#i will NEVER not think thats cool#i just WISH they had lived up to those ads man#the comic was surprisingly disappointing imo
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SHENHE'S WORKING AT WANMIN RESTAURANT??
#personal stuff#thorn plays genshin#HUH??#like good for her. but ganyu WHAT.#i know it wasn't intentional on her part but shenhe scaring off the two dudes wanting to ask her out. she's so real for that#every retail worker's dream.#CRYING SO HARD AT SHENHE AND GANYU JUST RECOGNIZING CLOUD RETAINER ON SIGHT. HEAD IN HANDS#FAMILY......#shenhe going i try to be civil and if that doesn't work i threaten them with violence.#and cloud retainer going yes. you've integrated so well into human society.#CLOUD RETAINER.#okay so the granny is obviously the white crane right. she was an adeptus who sacrificed her power and by extension her memory#to stop a disaster. like marchosius#nice to see xiao again! and guizhong mention augh.#finished the quest. SHUYU'S NEW OUTFIT IS SO CUTE WA.
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i know we talk a lot of shit about being proud of being ~different~ and nothing is worse than being just like anyone else but if i'm being entirely honest i would give anything to be normal
#this isn't about being weird i know everybody's weird and everybody's special#i wish i wasn't sad and scared Literally All The Time and i wish i could fall in love and i wish i could talk to people like a Person#i wish i had dreams i wish i had ambitions i wish i had any hope of things changing#i should listen to you're not special babe again my individuality complex is complexing#leog
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Oh
Oh dear :((
Sending hugs..more poor baby /p
Thank you darlin mfnfjff/p /vvvpos
#I dreamed that I was being haunted down#to be killed#AGAIN#I had a dream like that sometime ago#but this time it kinda felt more desperate???#cuz in the end#I got to my grandma's house#to try escaping#(which btw the ghost or possession thing got to invade-#-her neightbors house that were john jack and patty for some reason)#and like.#they knocked on her door#pretending to be my grandpa#and then my grandma#while my grandma was inside#cuz they knew >I< was inside#my grandma yelled that I wasn't there#but they just kept yelling STILL IN MY GRANDMA'S VOICE#kinda angry#“OKAY BUT SHE STILL WANTS THE BALL”#just any excuse to open the door#jesus fucking christ it was horrible I'm still scared#HOT TO GO!!!#half vent
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Writing down whatever in the hell happened in my dream because I woke up in that Hieronymus Bosch painting
It was set in a garden of earthly delights-esque apocalypse but started in my house, where my family was going off outside to find supplies that we could live on. Juno had somehow sneaked into the house and was hiding from my family, so, I was trying to convince them to let me stay home, that way I could talk to him - and possibly lock my parents and my sister in the apocalypse outside.
It was specifically the sort of dream where you know it's a dream, but not in a lucid way? At a certain point after I realised I was dreaming, so not in any real danger, and I went outside myself - I couldn't act like in a normal lucid dream and decide what was happening around me, though. What I can best describe as Strange Happenings were going on, hence why I said this was like that weird Hieronymus Bosch painting, but I just took a stroll through like. Casual cannibalism, people being turned into stone and then back to normal every few seconds, gigant snakes with human faces, (I wrote down "tarantellla by spiders" on the piece of paper I wrote when I woke up and I don't remember what that was but. That too. Bunch more stuff like that. You know the drill. Devils flying and pits of fire and enormous snails.) And I think, because it was so strange and because none of it was hurting me, between thinking it was a dream and it not becoming a lucid dream I thought I was having the same experience as Dante and simply was witnessing hell as a tourist. And now I think if this happened to me back in the 1300s maybe I too would have written something like the Commedia instead of letting Alighieri have all the glory :/
#[.txt]#dreams#<- so I can attempt to find this later#the thing is after my dream hypothesys was discarded because it wasn't turning lucid thinking I was in hell didn't scare me#I was just looking around I was being a tourist. I should have looked for Paolo and Francesca dammit#btw if I see this on the onetimeidreamt page I will call for copyright. MY dream about going to hell as a tourist to look around#actually this is just a power all italians have I think. Like Dante and Enea
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I was told that last night I sat up in my sleep and with a serious loud voice said: no. No. No no. NO!
Then my friend asked: hey are you okay, do you need help?
And at that point I woke up from my dream and muttered with laughter: oh no it is nothing we just put the luggage in a wrong plane and our plane didn't have a floor so we had to walk on the wall.
And then I fell back to the mattres and kept sleeping.
#Sleep#Dream#sleep talking#Flying#Plane#Rambling#The flight went well but somehow I saw a dream about it :D but I wasn't scared in the dream / I was just saying:#No stop doing that on this second / lopettakaa heti tämä pelleily
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Goddd I am super anxious (almost avoidant) for a friendly meeting we planned like two months ago. This is insane
#and of course idk what to say and i am just resorting to basics#which i guess makes me look like a cold bitch#and i don't want to#i really don't know how to have real meaningful relationships with people#the mere thought of a possible deep friendship scares the shit out of me#in fact i burned all of my chances at it#in the past#i want to STOP doind this#idk how#and having a good deep frienship is literally my dream since forever wtf#man i should have said this in therapy#maybe i wasn't ready yet#and my therapist was not so good tbh i think#work life#bc this was triggered by a collegue (angela del merini)#and#i hate my family#bc i am 100% sure it's their fault
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