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nottheweirdest · 2 years ago

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Your stories are...emotionally life-changing.

I've come to learn so much about myself through your writing like learning to take care of myself mentally; value the friendships I have; enjoy the little moments I share with my family; embrace my flaws and improve myself because I want to.

Particularly, your take on Shadow's character is the most impactful because I sometimes see some of my faults in him, so when you put him through challenges only to see him triumph with the help of a partner, friends, and family...it's a welcoming feeling to know change is possible. That life is really worth living no matter how hard it can get.

Your fics taught me I'm not the only one that needs to make sacrifices for someone who said they loved me; if things aren't going well, I am now comfortable expressing that to my partners. A healthy relationship means the love goes both ways and never ends.

And without getting too into detail. some of your other works helped me experiment with things I never thought I end up liking, so thank you!

Your works are world treasures, but you're the best gift to us, Holly💖

I don't even remember what the question was asdgjkgkgl sorry

I've been reading, re-reading, and just processing this for days. You always have a way to render me absolutely speechless with your notes and comments Sam. You're so genuine, kind, and supportive. I count myself very lucky to have met you in this fandom and to call you friend. 💖 I never imagined anyone would feel this way about my writing. I never imagined it would have a real impact on anyone. I think maybe sometimes, even when I don't intend it, some of my life experiences and feels bleed through in my fics and I end up learning and growing right there with the characters and with you. It's honestly kinda of cool you know? To share that growth with you and others. What you mentioned, that life really is worth living, no matter how hard it gets. That rings really true. For both of the boys. I think that's part of what drew me back to Sonic after 20 some years away. Both Sonic and Shadow inspire people to keep going, even when things are at their darkest. Writing them, leaning on them as characters and holding those traits of perseverance, hope, and determination close have had a lot to do with getting me through the past couple of years. I have a feeling that's true for a lot of us.

It warms my heart so much that you've taken that out of my fics, that love goes both ways, that's it's not all riding on one person and their sacrifices. It took me a hell of a long time to sort that out myself and sadly I've not actually experienced it. I know it's out there though. And that it's something we all deserve. 💓

As for the other stuff 😅 😋

#you're the treasure sam i stg #you come in and make me cry happy tears like it's nbd #you're an angel 💗#i actually forgot the original question too lolol #I was too overwhelmed by FEELS #gonna be one of those things i come back to when i feel shitty #thanks for making me feel like a million bucks <3

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starry-bi-sky · 3 months ago

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on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.

Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.

Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.

Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.

There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.

#svsss #luo binghe #svsss au #scum villain #scum villian self saving system #shen yuan #shen qingqiu #disciple shen yuan #lbh. visibly exhausted and with twitchy eyes: im fine :) | everyone else: ho no the fuck you ARENT.#SQQ was hysterical not because he found out LBH was half-demon but bc he was having a long-awaited mental breakdown over his autonomy :)#or (limited) lack thereof. he was having a sudden onset crisis of mortality and was handling at quite literally the WORST time. oops #im thinking very hard that LBH would never push his disciple into the abyss especially with no system to force him to. so SQQ either #had to goad him into it (failing always) or throw himself in. he ended up doing it himself but not before some very impressive hysterics.#BUT ALSO. IF THIS HAD BEEN WHERE SQQ WAS THE HALF-HEAVENLY DEMON INSTEAD IT WOULD'VE BEEN SO GREAT.#and by great i mean horribly angsty bc SQQ is NOT doing too hot and has. in very SY-like fashion. convinced himself that LBH will kill him #when he finds out he's a demon. so when it comes out i have this mental image of him lunging at LBH and LBH flinches back. but SQQ wraps hi #hands around the blade of Zheng Yang and yanks it up so the tip of the blade is digging into his chest where is heart is. LBH can't yank th #sword away without risking slicing into SQQ's hands. SQQ's hair has fallen out of its tail/bun and is now messily spilling down his #back and its NO helping the kinda deranged look he has going on. he's visibly shaking and his eyes keep flittering away and back at LBH's #face. SQQ is looking at the messages from the system warning him that he has to go into the abyss or punishment will occur. he's like.#rambling though. talking about how shizun doesn't *like* unclean things and there is nothing more unclean than a demon. like he is #INSISTING. LBH can't?? get a fucking word in. actually. SY isn't listening that much either anyways. too overwhelmed with the system and #the amount of stress he's under and his crumbling mental state and the innate and primal desire to live even when he's standing in front of #his own executioner. it all ends with him sitting on the ground at the lip of the abyss with his hair falling in his face. he looks so #unkempt and fallen apart and so distinctly *non-Shen Qingqiu* that LBH feels physically ill over it. tears are streaming down SQQ's face #and despite everything he is smiling. its not a nice smile. its a very frayed falling apart at the seams about to crack smile.#he tells shizun not to worry about staining his blade with this disciple's filthy blood because this disciple will take care of it himself.#and then he falls into the abyss before luo binghe can so much as grab him. the only reason LBh doesn't literally jump in after him is bc #he was numb with shock and the abyss was already closed before he could feel his legs again :]

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nova-rpv · 6 months ago

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a redraw of the first drawing i posted here to celebrate the fact that ive been in tumblr for more than a whole year posting my shit and havent deleted my blog in panic yippee \:D/ (mushy rant in tags)

#i realised too late that it has been more than a fuking year (august 9)#and for context: ive had 3 different intagram art accounts and i deleted all 3 of them a few months before creating them. anxiety amiright #here it has been so different bc people are so nice??? it has been a pretty plesant experience here w all of u really #im so glad to have found myself in such a wonderful part of the fandom and amazing mutuals that i never talk to bc im shit w texting #the atention has been overwhelming ngl. i have over 2000 followers which. holy fuck???#it doesnt feel like a real number and for my own sake im nnot gonna treat it as one #like i apreciate the support and ppl liking what i do but im not here to make number go big yk? im here to connect w other humans #and yall have been amazing humans ^^ thank u for all the wonderful tags and comments and the support overall #it has been so cool sharing my art and finding other artist whom i respect oh so very much. some of them even follow me back wtf #i hope to continue being here for as long as i can and keep growing as an artist and sharing that process with other without fear #also my amy redesign actually goes so hard idk why i forgot about it nxnfbcncb #sth #sonic fanart #sonic #amy rose #nov.aart #nov.junk

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 3 months ago

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In the world of heavy metals, love is denser than hate!

#Poorly drawn SVSSS #SVSSS #luo bingge #luo binghe #ask #Is that right? Two different character tags? I think that is right.#I'm calling myself out with screenshotting the asks with the dates because my full ask box has become a problem I'm determined to solve.#I promise you that if I did not respond to your ask it was because I 1) *really* wanted to hold on to it to make a doodle reply #or 2) really was so touched by the message and got overwhelmed #So expect many year + old asks suddenly gaining a reappearance! I'm going to get to them ALL.#Back to Luo Binghe (both versions). You see...the substance he is made with has a chemical reaction to affection.#Like how a pokemon has multiple paths to evolution depending on it's friendship points or exposure to random stones #so to does he evolve into various forms. I feel like Bingge (Ht) would be a noble gas. Unable to form bonds #I could also see him as a Halogen-type of element! Highly reactive and only truly found in manufactured environments.#And Binghe (Lv) would be an alkaline earth metal (+2). Sturdy. Forms bond better but not freely giving them away.#this is the second time I've related characters to elements - and I am far less familar with Scum Villian so please feel free to chime in.#I could be way off base here and I am very down for someone to talk chemistry and character themes.#Thank you all for the love you have given my silly little LBH. It means a lot to me B*)#Don't...don't look too hard at the lack of mark on his forehead here. I gave up. It's just...hidden behind his bangs.

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andro-dino · 5 months ago

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thinking a lot abt how grumley hardly ever takes his armor off. I just want him to be safe and comfy

#legends of avantris #uprooted #dimwits of dimwood #grumley uprooted #booker uprooted #peggy uprooted #bitsy uprooted #hazel uprooted #they mean. so much to me #I just like the idea of grumley being taken care of and not really being used to it #and just being so overwhelmed with happiness and love #THEY MEAN SO MUCH TO ME #I FEEL THE NEED TO CLARIFY THAT THIS IS MEANT TO BE POLYROOT #I mean like read it however u want but this is grumley and his husband and his two wives #I don’t include bitsy in the ship but she’s there too bc I wanted to draw her

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devasdiary · 10 months ago

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fashionistas cosette and courfeyrac and their sad little loser boyfriend marius <3

#cosette fauchelevent #courfeyrac #marius pontmercy #courfius #marisette #marius x cosette #les mis fanart #les miserables #marius feels overwhelmed by all those puffy clothes #don't worry marius soon you'll have cute outfits too #my art #here's a proof i don't only draw hot yaoi base #JUST REALIZED I FORGOT TO DRAW MARIUS'S FRECKLES NOOO

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mossy-aro · 5 months ago

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ultimately i think my insistence on aro positivity honestly is as much a political stance as a personal one.

when i say aro positivity is crucial and that i dislike doomer-ist posts that express sentiments like 'I hate being aro so much I wish I was dead instead’ it's not because I don’t think there can and should be a space for negativity and acknowledging self-hate, or the many ways being aromantic can really suck sometimes. i find that to be very important!

that being said. there is smth here about how self-hate posts are sometimes just arophobia that we inflict on ourselves. and when we put that out into the ether it (intentionally or not) can become arophobia that we inflict on other members of the community. i think there absolutely needs to be a place for negativity and the expression of anger and frustration and self loathing even - these are all good things to talk about because these are things that we experience. that being said, it can also be genuinely upsetting and triggering to people to have what is essentially arophobia shown to them and then have that be validated by other aspec people. your personal thoughts can affect your wider community on a level you may not anticipate. and i understand it i truly do! it took me so long to be able to recover from accepting being aroace - it threw my entire world off kilter and made me question everything about my place in the world.

but my insistence on aro joy and positivity is because ultimately i do believe that building is at the core essence of it all. that ultimately discussions and the purpose of community should be about construction, not destruction. and this is both a personal and a political stance. talking about how much you hate yourself and cultivating online discussions/spaces where negativity about aspec identity is the main and only theme is destructive - if that’s where we let the conversation end. these thoughts can and should be used as a vehicle to look for a path forward!

joy and positivity create a space where the focus can become on forging a path forward, on construction, on community building instead of tearing ourselves and others down with negative thoughts. it’s not productive or healthy when it stops at a place of negativity - it becomes actively destructive to the essence of community.

and i do think that this is especially poignant considering the fact that being any kind of queer, but especially aromantic (and/or asexual) means forging a path for yourself and making your own happiness where there is no obvious way forward. our communities exist mostly online (right now, anyway), there is little recognition of our existence in the real world, the effects of amatonormativity are both pervasive and actively dehumanising, and there are legal, economic and social structures in place actively making our lives more difficult. yes that all sucks! it’s good to acknowledge that. we need to in order to change it. but more importantly, that’s not the end. we are still here and our happiness, our future is for us to determine. even if we can’t change the laws or society, loving yourself and understanding aromanticism as a political identity (as well as personal), as a radical worldview, and as a protest against amatonormativity is essential for both community and personal well being. the personal is political.

tldr. i guess my point is that as a community, we should focus on building, improving, and nurturing ourselves and each other (construction) as opposed to destruction. we should recognise aromanticism and asexuality as political identities as well as personal ones and rely on community and self-love in the absence of anything else as a form of protest and political power. destruction (the recognition of everything that is wrong) is essential as a starting point - but where do we go from there? we rebuild.

#aromantic #aro positivity #aspec #aroace #aro #aromantic joy #arospec #when i saw its important to 'love' yourself - pls understand i am in no way trying to exclude loveless aros from this #that was just the easiest way to express what i meant! when i say 'love' i mean positivity/respect/happiness. etc. i just used that word bc #it works for ME which is why i said it. but feel free to replace it with whatever works for you! <2 #also sorry if not everything im saying makes total sense i tried my best #this is something ive been thinking about for a while and have been struggling to articulate #i maybe should have read some theory for this abt community building but im too tired + overwhelmed w school reading right now so sorry.#if anyone has additions on that front though please do add them #also ngl im kinda scared to post this. i hope i explained what i mean well enough. like i get wanting to vent and express self hate BUT.#there is nuance to this and it is not unilaterally healthy i think. also i dont see any other online community fostering the normalisation #of selfhate the way the aspec one does! which makes me feel weird abt it especially.#anyway. this is basically my personal philosophy towards aromanticism #mossy posts #⚙️

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daeyumi · 1 year ago

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Broken oaths and forgotten dreams 💧

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crabsnpersimmons · 11 months ago

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"Slow down, Sunshine. You're not falling behind and you are loved for more than what you do for others."

#fnaf sun #fnaf dca #dca fandom #crab art #traditional art #self-insert #my OC Esther #please don't copy these tags i'm just going to vent a bit #it's just been one of those weeks #been feeling overwhelmed lately #like i need to keep up #like i'm not doing enough and i tire or lose focus so easily #and i don't feel rested after resting #so i thought i should go back to my roots of drawing the DCA comforting me with words i can't seem to give myself #was debating whether or not to share this #but perhaps it may offer someone else some comfort as well #i'll be okay #this too will pass #it's just been a particularly busy and out-of-control week

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buttercupshands · 9 days ago

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never say never I guess

had a sudden "I want to draw them"

Lyrics from "The Last Goodbye" by Billy Boyd

also a warm up that led to this, wanted to try drawing them again and somehow got inspired a bit

#fanart #my art #sketch #comic #isat siffrin #isat fanart #isat #in stars and time #act 6 spoilers #I just straight up took picture from Act 6 what did you expect #this was supposed to be just a silly-sad sketch #because I'm feeling silly-sad about isat #think whatever you want #did they just decide to go their own way? did they die or something?#who knows #I love this song so much so I cried a bit while drawing #idk makes me emotional #I HIGHLY recommend listening to it #also reading hobbit and lotr too because books are great (movies are great on a technical level)#anyway I guess I can't leave isat that easily #although I kind of not in anymore and all #too overwhelmed #artists on tumblr #siffrin #I just noticed that I drew Siffrin with same face expression as in “You love them” thing pff well they do love their friends after all!#so it fits

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raina-clipse423 · 1 year ago

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Doki doodle bunch 2!!

There's the Sayori one I really liked!! She's just the type to stim a lot to me when she gets really excited (which is lowkey all the time imo) zhaibwisw

Monika's colors giving seratonin, i dunno it just gives that vibe, and who wouldn't want to use her hair as a scarf at one point in your life even if just for shi's and giggles?

That baffled Yuri was actually the very first thing I drew in the sketch book too lol I like it as well

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deoidesign · 10 months ago

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#been a really long time since I drew milo #the other day someone called him my 'beefcakesona' and I-#AND WHAT ABOUT IT #anyways I love him and I love this text post #but also I'm scared to reply to text posts now cause the one time that one got fuckin BLASTED TO SMITHEREENS LMFAO #ok. anyways #drawing #milo #millennium #uhmmmm #my art #digital art #digital drawing #my ocs #ocs #art #ok thats enough I feel like I use way too many tags I SERIOUSLY have to organize them better its just like. overwhelming HAHAHA #I look at my archive and I'm like uhhhh maybe later actually

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sketchy-tour · 9 months ago

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HELLO HI HELLO I AM!!! RECOVERING CURRENTLY!!!!

So I haven't posted in a small moment and planned to get myself going again soon but right now I am recovering from an accident (I won't get into the nitty gritty) that has left me quite shaken. FIRST OFF I AM OKAY! Minor injuries so nothing alarming I am physically fine besides being sore for a bit and some scrapes and bruises that are still healing, including my arms which is making drawing a bit difficult. I'm slowly getting better but cant really draw for long periods and honestly I might not draw much for a bit till I feel better both physically and mentally. its the mentally part that might take some time. But I'm resting, rest assured!

ANYWAY this is more just an update cause I know i've been a lil absent. ESPECIALLY after this accident. I'm not abandoning the blog by any means, def still check on tumblr but couldn't seem to muster the energy to interact with much at the moment as my brain is a little rattled up.

I hope yall are all okay! I hope your days are bright and yall are taking care of yourselves!

I promise I'm doing what I can to take care of me!

#update #just rambling #my art #dont wanna really add this to the welcome home tags?#feels inappropriate? even with the doodle but the post itself is just to let anyone wondering about me know I'm alright #anyway #I probably shouldn't have pushed through drawing this but I mostly drew it for my own comfort if anything #and felt fitting to use for an update post #art looks so sloppy lol but thats okay....#Repeating that I am very much okay though! But I'm def needing some time. For my mind's sake. Too much noise around me gets overwhelming #so energy is low and I am taking my time #dandy leon #I dont mind adding my oc tag lmao #tw stitches

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puppppppppy · 11 months ago

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digital painting practice with my favorite pkmn

#im really happy with how this turned out....!!!!#idk if ill do this more often but its really good for rendering simple shapes #i dont really render because adding too many details feels overwhelming to my eyes + its time consuming #although i think i like what i did with the airbrushing and small highlights that are subtle enough to help it stand out #my art #myart #pokemon #shinx #painting #illustration #bright colors #eyestrain #i put a luminosity layer over it but just in case

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blooodymoon · 2 months ago

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A "RETURN of the Number of PERSONS FLOGGED in the BRITISH NAVY, in each of the Years 1845 and 1846; specifying the Name of the Ship, the Offence, the Sentence and the Number of Lashes Infficted." Parlamentary Paper, Number 661 of Session 1847

So after reading the Post about Jopsons Flogging by @handfuloftime I went down a research rabbit hole because I wanted to see if their exist sufficient & specific enough Data to accuratly compare his punishment and put it in the historical context.

I found this Website, which features the two tables from the Parlamentary Papers and their Source.

(Note: The tables on the website are incomplete and inaccurate in certain places. I compared it from top to bottom to the original source and corrected/added the informations in my table.)

I used that as a basis for my own table, where I also added Averages and Sliders so people can search the Informations!

(Apparently Sliders don't work on Mobil, and I don't know enough about Google Sheets how to fix it :/

If anyone knows or if you find a some kind mistake please let me know.)

This week I visited the University Libary, which has access to the Parlamentary Papers Online, to see if such tables also exist for earlier years but sadly 1845 was the first year where they went into such Specifics.

(I hope to add some of the Years after 1846 to the table, when I can.)

Earlier years only had these Informations per Year:

Total Number of Punishments

Total Number of Lashes

Highest Number of Lashes Inflicted at One Time

Lowest Number of Lashes Inflicted at One Time

This Information for 1839 - 1846 under the Cut.

Also under the Read More are some Graphs, Medians & Averages about Flogging for Drunkenness Alone, seperated by Seamen, Marines, Boys and Everyone!

Hope that someone find this useful/interesting !

Corporal Punishment for Drunkenness Alone

Everyone:

Lashes Sentenced Median: 32,75 (1845: 36 | 1846: 31,4)

Lashes Sentenced Average: 31,07 (1845: 31,13 | 1846: 31,02)

Lashes Inflicted Average: 30,8 (1845: 31,02 | 1846: 30,58)

Seamen:

Lashes Sentenced Median: 36 (1845: 36 | 1846: 36)

Lashes Sentenced Average: 34,37 (1845: 34,62 | 1846: 33,86)

Lashes Inflicted Average: 34,33 (1845: 34,41 | 1846: 33,86)

Marines:

Lashes Sentenced Median: 31,4 (1845: 32 | 1846: 31,4)

Lashes Sentenced Average: 30,8 (1845: 31,09 | 1846: 31,09)

Lashes Inflicted Average: 30,8 (1845: 31,09 | 1846: 30,69)

Boys:

Lashes Sentenced Median: 24 (1845: 24 | 1846: 33)

Lashes Sentenced Average: 26,22 (1845: 24,4 | 1846: 28,5)

Lashes Inflicted Average: 25,33 (1845: 24,4 | 1846: 26,5)

Years

1839:

Number of Punishments: 2,007

Number of Lashes: 59,341

Highest: 60 | Lowest: 3

1840:

Number of Punishments: 2,026

Number of Lashes: 60,302

Highest: 48 | Lowest: 1

1841:

Number of Punishments: 2,066

Number of Lashes: 61,669

Highest: 50 | Lowest: 2

1842:

Number of Punishments: 2,472

Number of Lashes: 71,024

Highest: 100* | Lowest: 1

1843:

Number of Punishments: 2,170

Number of Lashes: 63,985

Highest: 60 | Lowest: 3

1844:

Number of Punishments: 1,411

Number of Lashes: 42,352

Highest: 72+ | Lowest: 6

1845:

Number of Punishments: 1,070

Number of Lashes: 33,511

Highest: 48 | Lowest: 3

1846:

Number of Punishments: 1,077

Number of Lashes: 32,360

Highest: 50* | Lowest: 3

*By sentence of a Court Martial.

+By order of the Commander-in-Chief for theft, in a shop at Chusan, and violence to the natives.

Sources: A "RETURN of the CORPORAL PUNISHMENTS inflicted in the ROYAL NAVY, in each of the Years 1839 to 1843, both inclusive, stating the highest and lowest Number of Lashes at each Time, and the aggregate Number of Lashes in each Year [ ]" Parlamentary Paper, Number 308, of Session 1845 + ABSTRACT of Total Numbers of CORPORAL PUNISHMENTS inflicted in the NAVY, and the Total Number of LASHES Inflicted, in each Year up to the 31st December 1846 [ ]. Parlamentary Paper, Number 661, of Session 1847

#british navy #the terror #thomas jopson #cornelius hickey #tagging him also because maybe some fan find this interesting too #good I hope this post is formulated okay #i tend to overthink that #also it's late BUT I finally need to post this #before terror camp next week #okay this week for me #but I havent gone to bed so I dont feel like it's monday yet #i spend lots of hours searching until I found that website the day the post hit #and when the Keynote was Anounced I knew that I had to finally finish the table #I spend SO SO Many Hours on this #I hope at least one person will find this useful #also the Admiralitys Capitalising really didnt help reign my german brain in #also this isn't all the maths I have in my notes #I calculated more Averages but I thought I might overwhelm people so I streamlined this Post a bit #Still mad that I worked so much to get this Sliders to work #even after they Broke #and they not even work on Mobile #need to fix that somehow in the future #i always had the Vibe that Floggings in The Terror might have been tuned down/adjusted for modern audiences

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neobastard · 5 months ago

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depression and chronic illness metaphor? in my neopets plot?

#neopets #neotag #i do get it ozzy i've been forced into a life of bedrotting by my overwhelming fatigue and depression #it's really hard to get out of that #and you build up some lingering resentment for able bodied people who tell you to just “push through”#and lingering resentment for yourself because you feel it's a personal failure on your part #or maybe i'm just projecting way too hard onto a yurble who knows

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