#I was thinking about leaving where I am right now and this is kind of the nail in the coffin for that decision I think
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More Lucanis rambles because Iâm still thinking about it and got nothing better to do :P
I am not here to tell anyone how to feel but putting words into peoples mouths who criticize the Lucanis romance (or Lucanis in general) for being unsatisfactory by saying;
âYou donât know what a slow burn is/ itâs because you expected zevran / you donât get it heâs traumatized/ you just wanted something spicy and didnât get it so now youâre madâ etc.
Is completely disregarding the fact that his lack of reactions and lack of content actually led people to believe he is bugged. Most DA fans didnât expect spice or steam or whatever but they did expect an effective story, one they didnât get.
This is at the end of the day a visual storytelling medium and implication will only get you so far, if i have to start thinking up entire plotlines in my head to make sense of the story or relationship progression then they failed at good storytelling. If i have to write paragraphs of explanations that the game doesnât even remotely touch on then that isnât a slow burn, itâs just a lack of content and poor pacing.
If he is traumatized and reluctant because of it you have to give me a scene where i can actually read that. If he is awkward and doesnât know how to react to flirting you have to exaggerate to an extent for people to tell. If there is longing and angst give me banter that reflects it.
A romance in a game should give me some kind of deeper personal insight into a character and if i have to do the writers job and in my head think up those insights then the actual romance is mostly moot. Iâm not saying give me all the details iâm saying at the very least give me a jumping point, some info buried in the game i wonât get otherwise. His romance fails at this.
Mary Kirby was fired yes and itâs awful what happened but unfortunately the product still remains and it leaves a lot to be desired for a big amount of people. When players are straight up going back on saves to romance someone else itâs a real problem. For me, it soured my first playthrough, especially later when i saw how Davrin and Emmrich had content, convos, specific romance outings and at the bare minimum actually had a noticeable reaction to flirting dialogue.
Again Iâm not telling anyone how to feel, if it works for you thatâs awesome, but to disregard his obvious lack of content by calling other fans basically stupid is incredibly disingenuous.
I love his character, loved it since The Wigmakers Job and he is still my favorite after my first playthrough. I think the beginning of his romance was very promising and the end is great but everything else is missing Iâm sorry. His romance was not well executed and i honestly donât think his character really was either. (But i wonât vent about that right now)
I know what a slow burn is, i was not expecting Zevran, i did not want a steamy romance. I wanted a well executed story and i didnât get one. I am critical because i think it couldâve been great, i still love the game and i am not shitting on it, his character or other fans i just hate wasted potential.
#I STILL REALLY LIKE THE GAME#i promise i am not hating just to hate#datv spoilers#dragon age the veilguard spoilers#datv critical#dragon age#lucanis dellamorte#lucanis dragon age#lucanis#lucanis romance#rookanis
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Wasnât going to go on a big rant but you know what since that other post is gaining traction yeah I think I will. So big long rant under the cut. Lolll
I feel like. A lot of people might tell me âitâs not that deepâ but to me it is that deep.
I donât have a problem with JayVik or itâs shippers like. At all. I just think some of them are Ă really good demonstration of like. Every bad thing when it comes to fandom ever LMAO.
Once again I am (supposed to be) writing a whole big long essay about this already so I will try and keep this kind of short and sweet and it might be a bit lacking but wtvr.
I think a lot of JayVik fans tend to be white queer people. Someone left a tag on my OG post that said basically âmy take is Iâm a faggot and I donât have to care about a character if I donât want toâ and no hate to that person cuz youâre right, but this is exactly the kind of stuff that made me make that first post.
I feel like a lot of white queer people have an issue with seeing outside their own identity? If that makes sense? This is seen time and time again with the way some of them behave when big movements happen online, some have a tendency to centre themselves and whatnot so i think itâs kind of the same thing.
It makes total sense that a queer person would prefer queer ships and would prefer JayVik over MelJay, that is not a crime. But I do think part of that is because they canât relate/identify with Mel or see themselves in her like they can with Jayce or Viktor.
I hate to also make it about feminism but i think a lot of you guys are super like. Male centred, like just in your attraction which once again, not the issue not a crime. But i think itâs also why CaitVi, which is a canon queer ship, although popular is still not quite as popular as JayVik despite being canon. Women fetishizing gay men in fandom is not something new, which I think might play a small part in it- Iâve seen a lot of people especially back in s1 infantilizing Viktor and acting like he had no agency or independence and that he NEEDS Jayce to take care of him (thatâs another thing. Ableism(looks at you with my eyes)) and they also do the same thing with Jayce where they act like he had 0 agency with any decisions he makes and that heâs like a big dumb baby who doesnât know anything politics. Hey, guys. Thatâs a grown man.
My main issue isnât that people prefer JayVik over MelJay itâs just that some shippers demonize Mel to an insane degree, blame her for getting in the way of their ship (this is also happening right now with Maddie- thereâs a leak going around saying that she gets with Caitlyn and people are so upset that this character is getting some INSANE hate and I feel like thatâs the same thing going on.)
they blame her for âstealingâ Jayce etc etc like. Idk. You donât have to ship MelJay but I wish more people would appreciate Mel just as a character- imo she is super interesting and has a great story but sheâs only ever seen and âthe other womanâ. Iâve seen people say she isnât like, well characterized and that her story entirely revolves around Jayce which. Yeah sheâs definitely heavily involved with him in s1 but sheâs clearly got a lot more going on than just that and you would know that if you GAF đŁïžđŁïž
for just being. Who she is. I think Mel deserves more attention just in the fandom and itâs just frustrating. People making memes about Jayce going insane over Viktor leaving but like. Mel also just got fucking kidnapped guys. His lover has just vanished without a trace why is nobody also talking about that !!!! Why canât he care about both these people at the same time !!!!!!!
Anyway Iâm not nearly well equipped enough to talk more in-depth about like. Any of this but I do think the demonization of Mel and refusal to see her relationship with Jayce as it is can often times be boiled down to racism like straight up. And also things like the fetishization of gay men in fandom and just things like that are sometimes what can lead to female characters- even the well written ones to be shelved and pushed aside in favour of their male counterparts.
Obligatory ânot all JayVik fansâ obviously a lot of you are awesome, shouldnât have to say this. If Iâm not aiming for you, you shouldnât be getting shot.
#hope this doesnât ruffle up too many feathers eek#I was scared to make the first post I was worried JayVik fans would come at me#also idgaf about whatever was going on in league that lore has been retconned again and again and again#and as far as Iâm aware Viktor and Jayce didnât even like eachother that much#league and arcane are very much separate identities#Iâm p sure theyr changing the league lore to match wtvr is going on in arcane#if you prefer JayVik because itâs always been a thing thatâs fine but that doesnât excuse the mistreatment of a black female character#Yâknow?#idk#nobody kill me for this#arcane#arcane spoilers#MelJay#Mel Medarda#jayce talis#I won balls
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#reblogging for the âsee: girlfailureâ tag#caus I have opinions on the insular fandom memeification of characters but I don't - as this post highlights - have the words for it#but I keep those to dms caus anytime I or a friend has challenged it in a public space it gets shot down#it reeks of my troubles with the general fear of using the word woman these days and how it's girldinner this girlmath that#also what do you call as intentional character traits vs a flopped dice roll
(via @distant--shadow)
so I agree and this is interesting to me because what always frustrated me about "girlfailure" outside the more general issue of "um, coquette/bimbo/girl dinner/uwu soft divine feminine cottagecore domesticity don't you mean u want to braid her hair is actually TRUER feminism than being the surly woman who loves math and sword fights and hates sewing" and the fact that, as you said, it mostly came from bungled dice rolls and no real intent, is that the same people who call her a girlfailure insist that Imogen is the main character. And like, she kind of is! And yet - and I've said this about Imogen and Laudna in the context of their relationship but I'm going to not include that because I actually don't think that's even relevant, it's about them as individual characters as well - people want them to simultaneously be The Main Character or at least heavily in focus and also never, ever have any agency. Like, they want "capable" to mean that everyone likes you, and not that you are a person who makes hard choices for the better.
Maybe it's because I'm playing Baby's First RPG right now, but the deal with RPGs and I think(?) especially this one, is you must make every choice and it is laden with consequences (not that I as a D&D player, or, you know, a human woman, am unfamiliar with that already) but what drives me nuts about the just a silly guy! girlfailure! she chooses to be good and therefore is good narrative for Imogen, and the "stripped of choice" (another highly repeated turn of phrase) for both her and Laudna is that it's untrue and it means nothing. For all my criticism of What Doesn't Break, Laudna makes choices. I frequently dislike them and wish they had more gravity, but she does make them. She doesn't make every choice - notably, her death and Delilah's presence are huge things that happen to her without her input - but even while barely herself she frequently brushes off Delilah. You can imagine the dialogue trees and the paths she takes, to intervene or not. She decides to renew her pact; she decides to run into the desert. Imogen decides to attack the villagers with lightning to defend Laudna. She decides to leave, she decides to keep burning their rivals in the Twilight Mirror Museum, she decides to tell her mother that she won't join her, she decides not to help assassinate her mother.
Fearne has a wonderful line when she's talking with Chetney after shardgate, in which she explains that she's terrified of making bad choices. Not of being a bad person, but of making the bad choices. And that's the thing. You cannot choose to be good. You cannot choose to be bad. At least not in any general sense. You can, however, make choices that harm people or help them. You constantly must do this. You can stray, or change the type of choices you've made, but they do accumulate to a point, eventually, where it becomes harder and harder to stray. However, the premise of D&D is very much that your character hasn't become locked in, yet. Is Imogen making choices that will be better for other people? If the world rests on her shoulders, is she making better choices for the world?
This is perhaps the core theme of this campaign, dating as far back as Downfall. Aeor made their choice - many, many choices. The gods made theirs. Ludinus kept making his, over, and over. It's particularly resonant among the women of the campaign. Obviously there's Fearne, and I've covered Imogen and Laudna, but going over to the Crown Keepers, Morrigan becomes a paladin in a few short weeks - an immense choice. Fy'ra advises others on what they are going to do. And Opal is where she is now because in one moment she put the crown on her head - and in doing so, ceded further choice in the long run. The deities of both fate and free will in this world are given considerable presence in this story, and both use female pronouns.
Maybe I'm making a mountain of a molehill, but I don't think I am. I really do think people cling to "girlfailure" and act like we're just being meanie haters who don't believe Imogen is good because she can be the central character who has power to change the world and the narrative; or she can be pure and innocent of all wrongdoing. she cannot be both. No one can. And deep down I think the "girlfailure" proponents prefer a useless innocent girl to a powerful woman who sometimes makes choices or does things that hurt other people. So I don't think that one's just harmless meme-ing, and if you want to see Imogen as an exceptionally important part of this narrative I think you have to reject the girlfailure, and anyone saying "oh it's just a joke" is either unthinkingly repeating or is pushing a story where Imogen is just a MacGuffin without agency, and neither is worth, in my opinion, listening to. Someone "stripped of choice" in real life is worth our pity and deserves our assistance but they make for a pretty terrible fantasy protagonist, and it's maddening to see a woman in the center of the story and then to be attacked if you want her to be treated like a person who, as a result of being a key protagonist, holds particular power and isn't just a girlfailure.
#cr tag#anyway. if you're using girlfailure#ask yourself if you've ever in your life used the term boyfailure and consider stopping. we gotta get back to old school#don't use the word girl unless it's for actual children or if you're doing this to underscore the point eg Just A Girl by No Doubt
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When I was in England, I wrote to Johnny Martin. He wasnât there when I got hit, and I wanted to tell him what happened, tell him I was alive, and to take care of the men. He wrote me back January 12, 1945: âDear Bill, I received your letter todayâŠAnything you asked me in the letter Iâll do. You know that. As far as what went on after you left, youâve probably read it in the papersâŠit was plenty roughâŠand Iâll tell you later about who got it and who didnât. Well, BillâŠIâm going to see you whether it be soon or a long time, but Iâm going to see you no matter whatâŠBill, when I got your letter, I was at the CO. CP. Of course, everyone was interested to hear from you. Well, they said read it out loud. Well, the CO and the rest of company headquarters were there. I got halfway through and started to cry in front of all the guys. I just had to take off, Bill. Boy, I never felt so hollow inside in all my life. From now on when you write, pleaseâŠleave anything about your leg out of my letters. Just do it as a favor for me. I guess Iâm not near as good a man as I thought I was. Boy, for the first time, I never had any control of myself. When I heard you were hurt, I got all the poop I could, but you know where we were, and I couldnât possibly get to see you. All the guys told me how you took it cooler than anybody yet. Laying there shooting the shit when you were hit like that. Some guys about shit when they get nicked with a bullet and you get hit like that and just shoot the shit. Well, I just want to tell you right now, youâre so much better of a man than I am it isnât even funny. I donât mean only in combat either. Youâre better than any officer or EM Iâve ever seen or ever will. Youâre the first guy whom Iâve ever met I could hit it with and itâs just because youâre such a swell guyâŠFor Godâs sake, Bill, donât let it get you downâŠI know youâre the kind of guy who will see it through to the endâŠI expect to have a lot of fun when we get back to the States. Buddy, weâll rip her apart when I get back. When I go to bed tonight, I am going to pray that I get a furlough to England. I hear they are going to send them outâŠWell, I suppose you want to know what changes there are in the battalion. Our CO is now Lieutenant Speirs from D Company. I think heâs the best one weâve had yet. There is a new officer in charge of 2nd Platoon. Welsh is S-3 and we have a new S-2 officer. Nixon is Regiment S-3âŠIâll close now, and if I donât get a couple of letters a week from you, Iâll be disappointedâŠSo long for now. Your pal, âJasonâ Martin.â When I read the letter, I couldnât believe it. That was a side of Johnny I never seen. We were in and out of trouble together, me and Johnny. He was a good soldier and a good friend. I guess it shook him up.
~ Bill Guarnere
#band of brothers#bill guarnere#johnny martin#Brothers in Battle Best of Friends: Two WWII Paratroopers from the Original Band of Brothers Tell Their Story
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Learning about my Rook through banter. Just a little self-indulgent writing.
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Bellara: So...you're Dalish, right?
Rook: Yep.
Bellara: But...you don't have Vallaslin.
Rook: I don't.
Bellara: Did you leave before you could get it?
Rook: No. My father isn't Dalish, and I was born in a city - I joined my mother's clan later. Didn't feel like the Vallaslin would suit me at the time.
Bellara: Oh.
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Lucanis: Rook, what foods would you like prepared?
Rook: Anything really. Dalish, Free Marches, Tevinter, any kind of sea food.
Lucanis: Good to know.
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Rook: You know, Taash, you don't have to choose to be Qunari or Rivaini.
Taash: What, you think I don't know that?
Rook: Hold your dragons. I'm saying - I'm Dalish and from a city. I respect the Vhenadahl and the halla. I sang prayers to Andraste and to the creators...before, you know, we knew shit.
Taash: Okay.
Rook: It's all important, and...you're all of it, put together into a unique experience of yourself.
Taash: I'll think about it.
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Neve: Alright, your accent is not Tevinter, Antivan, Fereldan, or Orlesian. You're a Marcher.
Rook: She's found me out!
Neve: Now to figure out where.
Rook: Do you want me to tell you or is it more fun for you to put the clues together?
Neve: Don't tell me.
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Rook: Fucking Venatori!
Harding: You really hate them.
Rook: Assholes kill people and use my gods as a fucking excuse.
Harding: You made that one explode.
Rook: Yeah, well, sometimes we deal with personal shit by exploding an evil shithead.
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Neve: I've got it.
Rook: Oh do tell!
Neve: Kirkwall - Varric recruited you, told you to keep where you're from a secret.
Rook: Good thought but nope. Not from Kirkwall, and thank goodness for that.
Neve: Dammit.
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Lucanis: You're quite good with that blade Rook. Who taught you?
Rook: My mother. She's a very skilled swordswoman. All of her kids are mages but she insisted we all learn how to defend ourselves with weaponry against Templars.
Lucanis: Smart woman. You have siblings?
Rook: Yeah, two older brothers.
Lucanis: Why am I not surprised you're the baby?
Rook: Because I am baby.
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Bellara: I don't understand. Why not get the Vallaslin?
Rook: My clan was informed of its true meaning. My keeper started offering everyone a choice.
Bellara: True meaning?
Rook: Slave markings, apparently. Makes sense now with what we know of the gods.
Bellara: That's horrible!
Rook: My brother decided to get his despite that. He said "Whatever they were, they are now how we find each other. How we take pride in who we are." I didn't feel ready. I don't know if I will ever feel ready.
Bellara: That...makes a lot of sense, actually. Thank you.
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Davrin: You saw the Inquisitor, right?
Rook: Yeah. For someone who has been fighting for so long, she looked great.
Davrin: She's like you - Dalish but no Vallaslin.
Rook: There's a few of us out there.
Davrin: I wonder how she got rid of it.
Rook: Ah. Don't like Ghilan'nain's design upon you?
Davrin: Most days it doesn't bother me, but some days...it makes my skin crawl.
Rook: I'll try to ask her next time I see her.
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Neve: Alright. You don't have Vallaslin because your clan found out information about them from ancient times. You showed an odd familiarity with the inquisitor. You said you are both Dalish and from a city. You hate the Venatori. You're from Wycome.
Rook: Huzzah! You discovered it!
Neve: You were there when the Venatori tried to take over.
Rook: They poisoned our wells. Blamed the elves in the alienage. They killed so many.
Neve: That means your mother was from clan Lavellan - the same clan the Inquisitor was from.
Rook: That would be my clan.
Neve: No wonder Varric gave you a code name and made it so hard to find anything out about you.
Rook: I was twelve when Miriel, I mean, the Inquisitor, left the clan. We were so proud of her, and so worried for her. When she came back...without her Vallaslin...there was a lot of heartbreak that day.
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Solas: You knew the Inquisitor.
Rook: I did. And you broke her heart.
Solas: I didn't have a choice.
Rook: From what she's said - you did. You just chose wrong.
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Just wanted to let you guys know that I might be a bit slower to post ATRF than I thought. Had some stuff happen yesterday (got a long text from my old roommate that was basically kicking me out of our friend group and now none of them are talking to me and are blocking me everywheređ), and now Iâm in my feels era, so motivation to write is coming more slowly than usual.
Anyways, because Iâm feeling particularly emotional rn, just wanted to say that you guys are awesome and Iâm so glad to have mutuals and followers like you! You really do make my day better, and Iâm so grateful for that!đ
#itâs been a rough past three days to say the least#I was thinking about leaving where I am right now and this is kind of the nail in the coffin for that decision I think#so will be moving soon I think#seriously though I love you guys#đđđ#normally I donât like to post personal stuff but this is weighing on my pretty heavy#and also I donât want you guys to think Iâve deserted atrfđ#personal
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hmm. had an actual conversation with nightmare coworker today that seemed mutually productive. she apologized for saying some bullshit that hurt my feelings and i clarified that my intentions are to help not to undermine her, and we both agreed that there's no competition against each other and that it's the lack of growth in our role that's the problem. it was...productive.
and further cementing for me that it is time to begin making my Exit. i will be sending out my resume to a few places this weekend.
i'm still processing the conversation, and am struggling to place myself in where i am responsible to better my behavior. because i genuinely don't want to be an ass, even though i really don't like this lady and will jump for joy the day i never have to see her again. she stated that she knows my intentions aren't to hurt her, and that she thinks i'm very kind. i apologized for if my behavior came off as undermining her, and said that my intentions are only to better my own growthâand that i know she's trying to succeed too. i validated her feelings, and complemented the effort she is putting in.
where i'm struggling with is: am i in the wrong/causing harm and needing to change if the issue is that her feelings are incongruent with what she knows of my intentions? her feelings are her responsibility (WOW i almost typed "her feelings are my responsibility". i feel like that's a freudian slip) and she states that she knows i don't mean to hurt her. i'm going to try to be more clear in wording my intentions with her (she feels like me trying to take work off her plate is to undermine her. when really, i'm caught up and see her getting overwhelmed, and i want to help and also have something to do since i'm bored).
but i'm really struggling to look at my role in this and pass judgement on myself. i can and want to do better, and i don't think i did anything wrong, but i'm always so hesitant to say it's not my fault or i didn't do something bad. like i can't trust my judgement on that. my intentions were good, her bad feelings are ones caused by her insecurities, which she more or less has expressed to be aware that they are not trueâthe hurtful thing she said to me, she acknowledged was said out of hurt and not what she actually thinks. so, is it fair to say i'm not the bad guy? i'm not in the wrong? i know good intentions that still result in harm don't absolve anyone, but when the things that are clashing are insufficient communication and reactive insecurities... i'm not a monster, am i?
#well. i AM probably a monster for how much i dislike this lady#but i don't ACT on it#and i genuinely couldn't care less about her. i participate in decent human pleasantries because i am a decent human.#and at work we're stuck together#the thing that's irked me so much about this conversation is just.. her self centeredness#that she thinks everyone is out to get her. to undermine her. whatever.#bitch nobody cares about you enough one way or the other to put in that kind of effort. i sure don't#i empathize but i do not sympathize. to feel that pit that makes you feel like the worst kind of center of attention#i get it. but genuinely you are not the main character and no one is going to spend their limited time and energy to slowly attack you#you are not the cat with all the knives pointed at it#it's a terrible feeling to feel like you are! but when it influences your behavior to the point that you are making snide comments#to people who have no option not to interact with you then uh. then you're in the wrong buddy#and the people around you (who cannot easily leave! bc work!) should not have to bend over backwards to assure you#that they're not pointing knives at you. to protect themselves from your feelings making you say mean shit#like yes. i can be more clear with my intentions. i'm generally not the greatest at that. but my baseline that i want to#modify my behavior from is NOT one that a regular well adjusted person would take as anything but kind#and if a regular well adjusted person got a little offput by me volunteering to take work off their hands we would've had a very chill#3 sentence conversation about it MONTHS AGO.#i understand and respect (even if i find it annoying and overbearing) the need for me to announce my intentions like im working in a kitchen#and saying 'hot water' or 'knife' as i move around other people but we shouldn't have reached this conclusion this way#and frankly who's to fucking say me being more clear with my intentions will only feed the flames of her thinking i'm out to get her!#'i caught up on my stuff and your plate looks full. i'm bored. anything i can do to help?' could be a pointed knife for all i know!!#and if it is- and my actions still hurt her in that scenario- am i still responsible for the hurt caused??#like WHERE DOES IT FUCKING E N D ?#personal#*exhales* okay i feel better now#i just hate talking about my interactions with her bc i just want NOTHING to do with it. i want her out of my head!!#but until i process it i can't let go#and i'm still going to have to go over all of this with my shrink tomorrow#it just makes me mad how much of my time this bitch takes up. i'm not getting paid to think about work right now!!!!
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#things i am excited about at my new job#it's nice to SEE AND INTERACT WITH PEOPLE EVERY DAY#jesus between covid and working from home that was getting seriously hard for me to achieve#i find the subject matter interesting (it's medical stuff and helping patients which is way more interesting to me than the finance shit#i was doing at my last job where i just like helped financial advisors get richer)#my bosses are kinda young and cool which is nice because mostly i have worked for boomer men older than my dad#i get to people watch and learn new things and it's challenging but not TOO overwhelmingly difficult#it's admin stuff which i kinda enjoy in a dorky sim management job sort of way (i do that kind of shit for fun in video games all the time)#the one thing im worried about rn is that the person who's training me that im filling in for is leaving soon and they're my fave part#of coming to work right now because i just like hanging out with them and they have like this hypnotically soothing aura#and sweet kind personality so im afraid once theyre gone (a) i will suck at doing it all without them and#(b) it just wont be nearly as nice but#i must think positive thoughts and hopefully i can use their mentorship as inspiration too#i spent all last year failing at being a self directed online student and juggling random part time shit so i am SO GLAD#to have full time work and work that isnt horribly boring and lonely like the finance work from home one before it#ps the person who is training me worked for 12 years as a 911 emergency phone operator if you want a picture of how calm and nice they are#like they can make anything seem ok and fine and remain calm no matter what and their voice is the gentlest thing on earth lol#i get free asmr all day basically#p
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my dad has threatened to kick me out so many times it equally means nothing and worries me constantly at the same time LMAO
#cant wait to move out and then ill worry about landlords kicking me out instead#i think this time he means it though but in a 'the second u get a stable job im just going to b waiting 4 you to leave' kind of way#im like super excited to finally move out at some point next year but also so scared???#like om i am going to STRUGGLE yk and spiders#but yk thousands of people have moved out and probably been scared and they all lived so ill probably b ok#right??#yeah ill be ok (I am panicking)#om i get to decorate an apartment all alone though#and when i am rich ill have a really big one#i want a warm apartment#ill get a three room one like a kitchen / bedroom / bathroom type of thing#ive been searching even though i wont be out for months#and like i cannot lie it was a bad idea because i found these not so pricey ones i liked and now im sad cause obv i cant get them#theyll be gone by then#but its ok i know where to look i think#i havent actually seen any in person#london flats r such a mess its honestly fun to look through#some guy shoved a bed in the kitchen and tried to rent it as two bedrooms lmao#i dont have irls tumblr is my irl you all have to listen to my moving out thoughts
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Tonight, the night before Election Day 2024 in the US, I am thinking about my stepkid.
I am thinking about the phone call they made to us earlier this year, the one where they told us they'd gone to the hospital thinking they had appendicitis and found out, instead, that a zygote - a tiny splodge of cells - had taken up residence not in their uterus but in a fallopian tube. The one where our kid said they were waiting for their partner to arrive, hoped that said partner would get there before the docs took our kid back to terminate that pregnancy, & assured us that they'd be okay.
After all, our kid lives in a state with choice measures embedded in state law. That pea-sized blot of tissue doesn't have more right to their health than they do. Nobody is standing between them and their doctors. They made a decision, and that was that.
In this tiny tragedy, the kind that plays out dozens of times a day at minimum across the country, we only had to worry about the small risk of surgery complications. We didn't have to worry about Ken Paxton threatening to charge their doctors with felonies. We didn't have to think, "What if the hospital's legal team doesn't think an ectopic pregnancy - which is never ever viable and must be terminated before it kills our kid - is really that big of a deal?" We didn't have to worry that they live in a state where ob-gyns are fleeing, leaving few experts behind, as has happened in Idaho.
We didn't have to watch our kid vomit up black blood before dying the day after their baby shower the way Neveah's mom did. We didn't have to pray in a waiting room (while doctors took our kid apart until their heart stopped because the doctors waited too long out of fear of anti-choice laws) until a doctor came to tell us we'd have to bury them the way that Amber's mom did. We aren't having to pick up our lives after fully treatable miscarriage-related sepsis took them from us the way that Josseli's husband and daughter must.
I could go on for far, far too long.
Listen. If you are a single-issue non-voter and have already decided that "both parties are the same" or whatever other thing you've told yourself so you can sleep at night, smug and secure, then I can't reach you and I can't help you. But if you genuinely think that your votes don't matter, if you're just suffering from a bout of overwhelm or apathy, if you're too young to remember the 2000 election and can't see that Dobbs is a direct result of that election and every one that's followed, please, I am fucking begging you.
I didn't really talk about this when it happened. I mentioned something briefly, maybe. The posts I've started writing about it are still in my drafts. It was too fresh, too frightening. It's not any less frightening now, honestly - because if this week doesn't end with President Kamala Harris, we're headed for a national abortion ban, at the minimum - but it's not about how fucking frightened I was or how sad and bewildered I was to realize that my kid was going through this crisis in a nation more hostile to them than when I needed a D&C for an abortion at 21, in 1998.
It's about stopping this chapter of this fucking bullshit and at least finding some new fucking bullshit.
Vote, dammit.
Do the other work on Wednesday. Tomorrow, the work is to vote.
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#wahhh just feeling overwhelmed and bad rn#i feel dumb saying this but i will say it. I'm thinking of like abandoning playing video games for a bit#i just feel really annoyed talking about them so much. i want to get into something nobody else i know is so i don't have to talk about it#i feel so discourse brained rn and i just want it to stop i want to stop talking about video games its so annoying rn#also feels like i am not being listened to and i am thinking i want to be in my own little hole#i think this is partially cause im reading blood sweat and pixels and its rewiring my brain completely#like. oh i actually know a little bit about how video games are made. oh. nobody im talking to knows anything about video games#damn. but like also just i dont care about so much of the dumb bullshit people say#im over caring about gamer discourse and people complaining about woke in video games. its sucking all the fun out of things for me#like i just want to play a game without people getting smug at me for doing so#how are you better than me for not playing mario?!!! its mario!!!!!!! fuck!!!#yeah i just think the current climate of games discourse is so bad rn i hate it and do not want to be a part of it rn#im just like. what if i quit gaming. because i kind of want to right now and i think it would be awesome#and just like seeing where that takes me for now#i really want to read house of leaves and i just feel like I'll never have time if i don't force myself to just do it
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#this really just happened#I have been obsessed with my purpose#so I decided if I show up as her everyday#something has to happen#I will see how that goes lol#I quit vaping and energy drinks#kind of caffeine in general but I am not insane#my body is in the phase where junk food tastes gross#and I basically live on fruit#but never a whole bag of oranges again#speaking of which I took a magnesium bath#and purged a burger from the arcade I took my kids to#my body was like what the fuck do you think you are doing right now#but I've been having intense spiritual experiences#that I haven't talked about yet#hydration and sleep are still things I'm working on#but when I'm up all night meditating and removing trauma from my body#I don't think I could ever get enough sleep or water right now#I can't explain the process my body has gone through#and if I could most people wouldn't believe me#I'm really lucky they do music a lot#but I'm also crying all the damn time happy sad all of the things#like you did not just say that to me right now lol#I'm leaving soon to go on an adventure#I'm not sure exactly where yet#but all I know is that I am in the antsy stage of waiting#to see him and jump on him because I miss him#I don't mean that how it sounded but that too#I think he will be proud of me
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yoo rose I started following you a little while ago and I really liked you. I saw that your requests are open and I would like to ask for a scenario where Nanami arrives drunk and his wife takes care of him while he talks about how he loves her I liked all your stories with my businessman <3
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kento stumbles slightly into your house, catching himself against the wall before you steady him, âkento⊠youâre drunk.â
he blinks down at you, the usually serious expression on his face replaced by something softer, more relaxed. thereâs a faint flush coloring his cheeks, and he lets out a low, rumbling chuckle.
âI am not drunk,â he declares, his voice slurred just enough to betray him. âIâm... justââ he waves his hand vaguely in the air, searching for the right word. â...enlightened.â
you suppress a smile and guide him to the couch, sitting him down gently. âsure, âenlightened.ââ you shake your head, amused. âstay put, Iâll get you some water.â
as you move to the kitchen, you hear him muttering to himself. âcanât believe Iâm drunk,â he grumbles, almost like heâs scolding himself, âwhat kind of a husband does that?â
when you return, cup in hand, heâs sitting with his head leaned back against the couch, his eyes half-closed. but when you approach, he perks up immediately, watching you with a soft, slightly dazed look.
âyouâre so beautiful,â he says. his voice is quieter, more sincere, and it catches you off guard for a second. nanami isnât exactly shy about how he feels, but this is a side of him you donât see often.
âdrink,â you instruct, handing him the water to avoid the sudden rush of emotions his words bring. he takes the glass without complaint, but even as he drinks, his eyes never leave you.
after a few sips, he sets the glass down on the table and leans back again, sighing contentedly. âyou take such good care of me,â he says softly, almost to himself, âI donât deserve you.â
you chuckle at the sudden sentimental turn. âkento, youâre acting like Iâve just saved your life. you had a few drinks. you will be okay.â
he shakes his head, looking at you with those hazy, half-lidded eyes. âit is serious. youâre always here for me. always... my constant. myâŠâ he trails off, struggling for the right words in his drunken haze, âyou make everything better. I love you.â
his words are raw, unfiltered by the usual restraint he keeps on his emotions. thereâs a vulnerability in the way he says it that makes your heart tighten.
âI love you too,â you reply, brushing a strand of hair from his forehead. ânow, letâs get you cleaned up.â
but before you can pull away, he grabs your wrist gently, pulling you closer. âno, you donât get it.â heâs more insistent now, his eyes fixed on yours with an intensity thatâs surprising given his state. âI really love you. I think about it all the time, allâthe time.â
you laugh softly, though his words tug at something deep inside you. âyou can tell me all about it when youâre sober.â
he doesnât let go, though, his grip still gentle but firm. âI mean it. you make the worst days worth it. you... youâre everything.â
a soft laugh escapes you, touched by his sincerity but also aware of how much the alcohol is loosening his tongue. âI know, kento. youâve told me before.â
nanami poutsâa rare expression that looks so out of place on his usually stoic face. âbut I donât say it enough. you deserve to hear it.â
he blinks sloppily as he stares at you before murmuring, "I need to marry you."
you let out a soft laugh and kiss his cheek, "we are married, you silly man."
in a once in a lifetime incident, your husband stares at you, eyes wide, face reddening by the second. he looks down at his feet for a few moments, then you see him hum, "that's nice."
his seriousness is almost comical given the state heâs in, and you canât help but tease him a little. ây'know, youâre awfully chatty for someone who insisted they werenât drunk.â
he lets out a sigh, leaning his head back again and releasing your wrist, âfine, fine. maybe Iâm a little drunk. but it doesnât change the fact that Iââ
before he can finish, he shifts too quickly and almost topples off the couch. you rush to catch him, but you fall with him, and he blinks, disoriented, before breaking into a lopsided smile. âmaybe a lot drunk.â
âyeah, maybe,â you say with a laugh, helping him sit back up. âcome on, letâs get you to bed.â
as you help him to his feet, he leans heavily against you, his arm draped over your shoulder. you guide him down the hallway, his weight familiar but the situation still amusingly foreign.
normally, heâs the one doing the taking care ofâyou canât help but relish this rare moment where the roles are reversed.
once youâve managed to get him into bed, he pulls you down next to him, refusing to let go of your hand. his eyes, though heavy with sleep, remain fixed on you with that same soft, adoring look.
âyouâre the best thing that ever happened to me,â he mumbles, his voice thick with exhaustion and sincerity, âwe have to go to malaysia together.â
âsure,â you smile, brushing your fingers through his hair as his eyes finally flutter shut. âgoodnight, kento.â
just as youâre about to pull away, his hand tightens around yours once more, and he whispers, half-asleep, âI love you.â
his words are softer now, less dramatic than before but still brimming with emotion.
you watch him for a moment, his features relaxed in the dim light, and feel a warmth spread through your chest. this side of himâunguarded, affectionate, and a little sillyâis one you cherish just as much as his usual seriousness.
as he drifts off, you press a gentle kiss to his forehead, letting his words linger in the air, âI love you too.â
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Summary: You accidentally send a very suggestive text to your awkward coworker, and he replies...
Pairing: Spencer Reid x fem!reader
Category: smut (18+), fluff
Warnings/Includes: smut (18+) additional warnings under the cut, awkward tension
Word count: 6.1k
a/n: has anyone ever sent a sext to the wrong person?? i've only ever sent them to my friends on accident and for that i am so thankful
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Additional warnings: oral (fem receiving), mild breast play, soft dom spencer
You sit on your bed, the soft glow of your phone illuminating your face as you type out a rather suggestive message to the person you've been casually hooking up with. A smirk tugs at your lips as you hit send, confident that the message will hit its mark.Â
I've been thinking about you⊠Can't stop imagining what I'd do if you were here right now. I want to feel your hands all over me, the way youâd make me moan⊠Letâs make fantasy a reality?
But within seconds, your heart stops as you realize the terrible mistake you've just made.
Youâve sent the message to Spencer.
Spencer.
Your coworker. The brilliant, kind, and awkwardly charming genius who youâve always had a friendly, professional relationship with. And, of course, the one who has been harboring a massive, secret crush on you. A fact that, unbeknownst to you, has led to countless daydreams and wishes that you might feel the same.
The blood drains from your face as you stare at your phone, horrified, praying that somehow the message didnât actually go through, or maybe, just maybe, Spencer wonât read it and will simply delete it. But you know betterâSpencer is meticulous about everything. Of course, heâll read it. Youâre absolutely mortified, every worst-case scenario flashing through your mind.
Meanwhile, in his apartment, Spencer is settling down with a cup of tea, ready to dive into the book heâs been reading. When his phone buzzes, he picks it up absentmindedly, assuming itâs just a work-related message or something mundane. But as he reads the words on the screen, his eyes widen in shock, his breath catching in his throat.
His thoughts run wild, heart pounding as he rereads the text, each time wondering if it could possibly be real. Could you, the person heâs admired from afar for so long, actually want him in the way heâs secretly yearned for? The idea is intoxicating, and before he can second-guess himself, he responds with a message that matches your energy, his pulse quickening at the boldness of it.
Wow⊠I didnât know you were into me like that. Iâve been thinking about you too. If you want, we can definitely make that happen.
The moment you see his reply, your stomach drops. You can't believe this is happening. Youâre completely mortified, your mind spinning with the implications. How could you ever face him again? You donât respond, the fear and embarrassment paralyzing you, leaving you in a state of panic.
The next day at work, youâre a bundle of nerves. Every step you take towards the bullpen feels like youâre walking to your own doom. When you finally arrive, you try to act normal, but the tension is palpable. You canât even bring yourself to make eye contact with Spencer, every interaction feeling like itâs laced with the humiliation of last nightâs mistake.
Spencer, on the other hand, is caught in a whirlwind of emotions. At first, heâs elated, thinking that maybe, just maybe, there was a chance you were into him. But as the day drags on and you remain distant, the excitement turns to confusion, then a sharp sting of rejection. Did he misread the situation? Was it all just a mistake? Heâs left feeling awkward and exposed, unsure of where he stands with you now.
â
The tension between you and Spencer had become a nearly tangible thing, a thread pulled taut between the two of you, ready to snap at any moment. At first, your glances in his direction were purely out of necessityâquick, fleeting looks to gauge his mood, to see if he was as affected by this as you were. But as the days passed, those glances became more frequent, more lingering.
It started innocently enough. Youâd look over and notice how effortlessly his hair seemed to fall into place, the soft waves framing his face in a way that made him look almost ethereal. Youâd never paid much attention before, but now you couldnât help but admire how it suited him, how it added to his charm.
Then, it was his forearms. Youâd catch him pushing up the sleeves of his button-down shirt, revealing the sinewy strength beneath the fabric. There was something about the casual way he did it, the way the muscles in his arms flexed ever so slightly as he worked, that made your heart skip a beat. It was such a simple thing, but it had a profound effect on you, stirring something deep within.
And then there was the way he licked his lips when he was focused, his eyes narrowing slightly as he concentrated on whatever task was in front of him. You couldnât help but imagine what it would be like to have his attention focused solely on you, to feel the intensity of that gaze as he looked at you, not with confusion or uncertainty, but with desire.
The more you noticed these little things, the more conflicted you became. This was Spencerâsweet, brilliant, and awkward Spencer. The idea of seeing him in a different light had never really crossed your mind before, but now⊠now it was all you could think about. The memory of his bold response to your accidental text played on a loop in your mind, taunting you with the possibilities.
What if you responded? What if you stopped overthinking everything and just⊠saw where it could go? The idea terrified you, but it also excited you in a way you hadnât expected. There was something thrilling about the thought of exploring this new dynamic, of seeing if there was something more between you and Spencer than just a shared workspace.
You found yourself daydreaming about it, wondering how he would react if you sent him a message, if you matched the energy of his reply. Would he be as nervous as you were, or would he surprise you with a confidence you hadnât seen before? The thought of it made your pulse quicken, a flush of warmth spreading through you.
But with the excitement came doubt. What if this was a mistake? What if you were reading too much into things, and responding to his text would only make the situation worse? The fear of making things awkward again, of possibly ruining your work life further, held you back. Yet, the thought of doing nothing felt like a missed opportunity, like you were letting something potentially amazing slip through your fingers.
As the day dragged on, you found it harder and harder to focus on your work. Every time you saw Spencer, every time you noticed another little detail about him that you hadnât before, the urge to reach out grew stronger. It was like there was a tug-of-war going on inside you, with one side urging you to take the risk and see what could happen, and the other holding you back out of fear.
Finally, as the workday was winding down, you made a decision. Maybe you were overthinking thisâmaybe it was time to just go for it and see what came of it. After all, Spencer had responded positively, hadnât he? There was a chance, a real chance, that he felt something for you too, something more than just a workplace friendship.
Sitting on your couch with your heart pounding in your chest, you pulled out your phone, your fingers hovering over the keyboard as you debated what to say. You didnât want to be too forward, but you also didnât want to be vague. After a few moments of contemplation, you typed out a message, your hands trembling slightly as you reread it.
Hey, about that text⊠Maybe we should talk. Or⊠you know, not just talk. If youâre still interested.
You hit send before you could second-guess yourself, your heart racing as you watched the message deliver. There was no going back now.
The rest of the evening was a blur of anxiety and anticipation. You couldnât stop thinking about what his response might be, what it could mean for the two of you. When your phone finally buzzed with a new message, you hesitated for just a moment before opening it.
Iâm definitely interested. Letâs talk⊠or not just talk, whenever youâre ready.
The words were simple, but they held so much promise. You couldnât help the smile that spread across your face as you read them, a mixture of relief and excitement flooding your senses. This was happening. You and Spencer were about to cross a line, to explore something new and thrilling.
Just as you were contemplating what to say, how to navigate this sudden and unexpected turn in your relationship, another notification lit up your screen.
Come over? Now?
The message was short, simple, and completely electrifying. It sent a jolt through your system, leaving you momentarily speechless. The implications of it were clearâSpencer wasnât just thinking about this; he was ready to act on it, to turn this accidental confession into something real and immediate.
Your mind raced as you considered what to do next. Just minutes ago, you were agonizing over whether or not to even respond, and now he was inviting you over, as if the decision had already been made. The sheer boldness of his message left you breathless, your heart pounding with a mix of nerves and excitement.
You couldn't help but imagine what it would be likeâshowing up at his place, the air thick with the unspoken tension that had been building between you all day. The thought of being alone with him, of crossing that line from coworkers to something more, sent a thrill through you.
You took a deep breath, your fingers hovering over the keyboard. This was a pivotal moment, and whatever you decided now would set the course for what happened next.
Finally, after what felt like an eternity of internal debate, you typed out a response, your heart racing as you hit send.
I'll be there in 20 minutes.
â
You parked outside Spencerâs apartment building, your heart racing as you took a deep breath to steady yourself. The 20-minute drive had been filled with a whirlwind of thoughts and emotionsâexcitement, anticipation, and a lingering thread of uncertainty. You werenât entirely sure what to expect when you arrived, especially considering how different Spencer had seemed over text compared to how he usually was in person. The Spencer you knew was shy, adorably awkward, and hesitant when it came to personal matters. But his texts had shown a side of him that was bold, confident, and unafraid to take charge.
As you approached his door, your nerves started to get the better of you, but there was no turning back now. You lifted your hand to knock, hesitating for just a moment before finally letting your knuckles rap against the wood. The seconds that followed felt like an eternity, your mind racing with possibilities of how this night could unfold.
When the door finally opened, you were taken aback by the sight that greeted you. Spencer stood there, shirtless, the soft glow of his apartmentâs light highlighting the lean lines of his torso. He wore nothing but a pair of low-hanging gray sweatpants, the waistband slung low on his hips, revealing a tantalizing glimpse of the defined muscles and trail of hair beneath. His hair was slightly tousled, as if heâd run his hands through it moments before opening the door, and his eyes, usually filled with a mix of curiosity and gentle kindness, now held a smoldering intensity that you had never seen before.
For a moment, you couldnât find the words, your breath catching in your throat as you took in the sight of him. This wasnât the Spencer you were used toâthis was the man who had responded to your accidental text with a confidence that had both surprised and intrigued you. The awkward, hesitant Spencer you knew seemed to have taken a backseat, making way for someone who knew exactly what he wanted.
And what he wanted, it seemed, was you.
He leaned casually against the doorframe, a small, knowing smile playing on his lips as he watched your reaction. There was a heat in his gaze, a silent challenge that dared you to step inside, to see just how far this newfound confidence could take him.
âHey,â he greeted, his voice low and smooth, sending a shiver down your spine. âIâm glad you came.â
You swallowed hard, trying to gather your thoughts, but the sight of him standing there like thatâso effortlessly confident, so unapologetically enticingâmade it difficult to think of anything but the rush of desire that was quickly building within you.
âHey,â you managed to reply, your voice a little breathless. âYou⊠uh, look different.â
Spencerâs smile widened slightly, his eyes never leaving yours as he stepped aside to let you in. âWell I should hope so,â he said, his tone teasing, but with an underlying seriousness that sent your heart racing even faster.
You stepped inside, feeling the warmth of his apartment wrap around you as the door clicked shut behind you. The atmosphere between you was charged, electric, every moment filled with unspoken possibilities. Spencer moved closer, his presence almost overwhelming in its intensity. The scent of himâa mix of something clean and masculineâfilled your senses, making you even more acutely aware of the heat radiating from his skin.
âIâve been thinking,â Spencer began, his voice soft yet steady, as he reached out to gently brush a strand of hair behind your ear. âAbout what was said...â
Your breath hitched at the light touch, your skin tingling where his fingers had just been. You nodded, not trusting yourself to speak, afraid that your voice might betray just how much his presence was affecting you.
âI donât want this to be awkward,â he continued, his eyes searching yours for any sign of hesitation. âBut I also donât want to pretend that nothingâs changed⊠because it has.â
He was rightâeverything had changed. The air between you was thick with tension, with the unspoken acknowledgment of what you both wanted but were too nervous to voice. And yet, here he was, standing so close, shirtless and confident, laying it all out in front of you.
Taking a deep breath, you finally found your voice. âSo⊠what happens next?â
Spencerâs lips quirked up into a small, almost mischievous smile. âI think that depends on what you want.â
His words hung in the air between you, a challenge and an invitation all at once. You could feel the pull, the magnetic attraction drawing you closer to him, and in that moment, you knew there was no turning back.
With a boldness you hadnât known you possessed, you stepped even closer, your body nearly brushing against his as you tilted your head up to meet his gaze. âI want to find out what happens when we stop pretending.â
The last remnants of hesitation melted away as Spencerâs smile turned into something moreâsomething hungry and determined. His hands slid around your waist, pulling you flush against him as his lips descended on yours in a kiss that was anything but hesitant. It was fierce, consuming, a release of all the tension that had been building between you.
As his hands roamed your back, pulling you closer still, you couldnât help but think that maybe, just maybe, you had only begun to scratch the surface of the side of Spencer Reid you were about to discover tonight.
The world around you blurred as Spencerâs lips moved against yours, his kiss deepening with every passing second. Time seemed to lose all meaning as you lost yourself in the warmth of his touch, the taste of his lips, and the way his hands gripped your waist with a possessiveness that sent a shiver down your spine. It felt like you had been kissing for an eternity, and yet when he finally pulled back, you found yourself gasping for breath, your mind spinning, and your body aching for more.
Spencerâs eyes locked onto yours, dark and intense, filled with a heat that made your pulse quicken. Without saying a word, he took your hand, his grip firm yet gentle, leading you down the hall towards his bedroom. The anticipation thrummed in your veins, every step heightening the tension between you. But just as you reached the doorway, Spencer suddenly stopped, turning to press you against the doorframe. His lips found the sensitive skin of your neck, trailing kisses that made your knees weaken and your breath hitch.
You barely had time to process the sensation before he pulled back again, a playful gleam in his eyes as he gently but firmly guided you into the bedroom. With a swift motion, he pushed you onto the bed, and you bounced slightly, a surprised giggle escaping your lips. The unexpected shift in his demeanorâthis newfound confidence, this playful dominanceâleft you both intrigued and a little off-balance. Youâd known Spencer as the quiet, reserved, and somewhat shy genius, but this side of him was something entirely different, and you couldnât help but be captivated by it.
As you lay there, still trying to wrap your head around this change, you found yourself blurting out a question that had been lingering in the back of your mind. âDo you do this a lot, Reid?â
Spencer chuckled, the sound low and deep, sending a ripple of warmth through your body. He shook his head with a smile that was equal parts reassuring and teasing. âNo, not ever really,â he admitted, his voice soft but steady, as he reached for your ankles and pulled you closer to the edge of the bed, positioning himself between your legs. His hands rested on your thighs, the warmth of his touch seeping through your clothes, grounding you in the moment.
âCall me Spencer,â he added, his voice dropping to a near-whisper, his gaze locking onto yours with a mixture of vulnerability and determination. There was something intimate about the way he said it, as if this wasnât just about physical attraction, but about letting you see a side of him that no one else had.Â
Your heart skipped a beat at the request, the simple act of calling him by his first name in this context making the moment feel even more personal, more real.Â
âSpencer,â you repeated, the name slipping from your lips like a secret, a promise. His smile widened, a spark of something almost wicked flashing in his eyes, and you realized that you were about to discover a side of him that youâd never imagined existed.
Spencer leaned in, his hands sliding up your thighs, his breath hot against your ear as he whispered, âIâve been wanting this for a long time, you know. I just never thoughtâŠâ He trailed off, as if realizing that words werenât enough to express what he was feeling. Instead, he captured your lips with his again, his kiss searing and insistent, as though he were making up for lost time.
Spencer's hands, warm and steady, slowly trailed up your sides, his fingers grazing the soft fabric of your t-shirt as they moved. When he reached the hem, he hesitated, his touch gentle but deliberate as he curled his fingers around the edge. He looked up at you, his expression a mix of desire and tenderness, but there was something else tooâa careful consideration, a need to ensure that you were just as willing as he was.
âCan I take this off?â he asked, his voice a low rumble that sent a shiver down your spine. The intensity of his gaze held you captive, his eyes searching yours for the reassurance he needed.
For a moment, you were too caught up in the heat of the moment to respond, your heart pounding in your chest. The way he looked at you, with such raw want and yet so much care, made it hard to think clearly. You nodded quickly, your eyes wide with anticipation, but Spencer didnât move.
His grip on your shirt tightened slightly as he leaned in, his breath hot against your ear as he whispered, âIâm going to need you to use your words, sweetheart.â
The way he said itâhis voice rough, almost gritted out with barely restrained desireâmade your head spin, the sheer force of his need for you sending your pulse into overdrive. There was a command in his tone, but also a gentle reminder that this was your choice, that he needed to hear you say it.
You swallowed hard, your voice catching in your throat as you tried to find the words. The air around you felt thick with tension, every second stretching out as you stared up at him, the look in his eyes making it impossible to deny himâor yourself.
âYeâyes, please,â you finally managed to say, your voice a little breathless, but full of the same want that you saw reflected in his eyes.
Spencerâs eyes darkened with satisfaction at your response, a small, almost predatory smile tugging at the corners of his lips as he began to lift your shirt. The fabric slid up your torso slowly, the cool air of the room hitting your skin as he revealed more of you. He took his time, savoring the moment, his eyes never leaving yours as he pulled the shirt over your head and tossed it aside.
For a brief moment, you felt exposed, vulnerable under the weight of his gaze. But the way Spencer looked at you, with a mixture of awe and hunger, made all your insecurities melt away. His hands roamed over the newly exposed skin, his touch both soothing and electrifying, leaving a trail of warmth in its wake.
âYouâre so beautiful,â he murmured, his voice thick with sincerity and desire, as he leaned in to press a kiss to your collarbone, his lips lingering against your skin.
You had forgone a bra that night, thinking nothing of it when you slipped into your comfy clothes after a long day at work. After all, you hadnât planned on anything like this happening. But now, with Spencerâs hands on you, his eyes filled with something that looked a lot like awe, you found that you didnât care in the slightest. If anything, it added to the intimacy of the moment, the rawness of it, making you feel closer to him than you ever thought possible.
His touch was slow, deliberate, almost as if he was savoring every moment, every reaction he elicited from you. His fingers brushed over your skin, exploring you with curiosity and desire, as if he was trying to learn every detail, every response, to what he was doing. When his hands cupped your breasts, his thumbs brushing over your nipples, you couldnât suppress the soft gasp that escaped your lips, your body arching towards him instinctively, craving more of his touch.
âSpencerâŠâ you breathed, your voice barely more than a whisper, but filled with so much emotion that it felt like a confession. There was something in his name, in the way it rolled off your tongue, that made the moment feel even more intimate, more real. It wasnât just a name anymoreâit was a declaration, an acknowledgment of what was happening between you, of the connection that was quickly forming.
Spencerâs eyes flicked back up to yours, the intensity of his gaze making your heart race even faster. There was something almost primal in the way he looked at you now, a hunger that was barely restrained, but also a tenderness that made your chest tighten with emotion. He leaned in, his lips hovering just above yours, his breath warm against your skin as he whispered, âYou have no idea how long Iâve wanted this⊠how long Iâve wanted you.â
His words sent a shiver down your spine, your body reacting to the sheer weight of them. It wasnât just lust in his voiceâit was something deeper, something that made you feel cherished, desired in a way that you hadnât felt in a long time. The realization that Spencer had been holding back, that he had wanted you for so long, made your heart swell with emotion, your need for him growing even stronger.
He kissed you again, his lips capturing yours in a way that was both gentle and demanding, his hands continuing their exploration of your body. Each touch, each caress, was filled with passion and care, as if he was trying to show you just how much you meant to him without needing to say the words. And with every kiss, every brush of his fingertips, you found yourself falling deeper into the moment, your own desire for him becoming overwhelming.
You reached up, your hands finding purchase on his shoulders, pulling him closer, needing to feel the heat of his body against yours. The way he responded, the way his hands gripped you tighter, as if afraid to let go, made it clear that he was just as lost in the moment as you were. There was no more hesitation, no more awkwardnessâjust the two of you, finally giving in to the feelings that had been simmering beneath the surface for so long.
Spencerâs hands were warm against your skin as he gently laid you back on the bed, his eyes never leaving yours as he hovered above you. The intensity in his gaze was almost overwhelming, his pupils blown wide with desire, but there was something else there tooâcuriosity, maybe even a hint of vulnerability. His fingers trailed down your sides, the touch sending shivers through your body as he slowly leaned in, his lips brushing against the soft skin of your chest.
âTell me, Y/NâŠâ His voice was a low murmur, filled with an edge of something deeper, as he kissed his way down your chest, taking his time, savoring the feel of your skin beneath his lips. âDid you think about me too?â
The question hung in the air, making your breath hitch as you squirmed beneath him, the sensation of his kisses igniting a fire deep within you. Your mind was spinning, every nerve in your body on high alert as you felt his breath ghost over your skin, his lips moving lower, leaving a trail of warmth in their wake.
âI did,â you admitted, your voice a little breathless as the confession slipped out. It was the truth, after allâyou had thought about him, more than you ever wanted to admit. The idea of Spencer, sweet, awkward Spencer, being the one to push you to this point had always been a secret fantasy, buried deep within you. But now, with him here, in this moment, it was no longer just a fantasyâit was real.
Spencerâs lips curved into a smirk against your skin as he reached your hip, his teeth nipping playfully at the delicate flesh, making you gasp. The sensation was a mix of pleasure and surprise, and you couldnât help but arch your back slightly in response. His hands moved to your shorts, his fingers hooking into the waistband as he tugged them down slowly, teasingly, his eyes flicking up to meet yours as he did.
âThat text wasnât for me though, was it?â he asked, his voice laced with amusement as he watched your reaction. The smirk on his face was something youâd never seen beforeâconfident, almost cocky, as if he knew exactly the effect he was having on you.
You froze for a moment, your heart skipping a beat as the realization hit you. You hadnât expected him to catch on to that detail, but of course he hadâSpencer was nothing if not observant. The thought that he knew the text wasnât meant for him, but was still here, still wanting you, made your pulse quicken even more.
âUh, no, it wasnât,â you admitted with a whine, the words slipping out before you could stop them. There was no point in lyingânot when he was looking at you like that, his gaze full of heat and understanding. âBut Iâm glad I sent it to you,â you added quickly, your voice filled with sincerity and a hint of desperation.
Spencerâs smirk softened into a small, almost tender smile as he leaned in, his lips brushing against your navel. âMaybe your subconscious wanted you to,â he suggested, his voice low and smooth, each word making your head spin. The idea made you dizzy, the thought that some part of you had always wanted this, had always wanted him, even if you hadnât fully realized it until now.
âUh huh,â you breathed out, your voice floaty and airy, your mind clouded with desire. The sensation of his lips on your skin, his hands on your body, was intoxicating, making it hard to think clearly. All you could focus on was the way he made you feelâalive, wanted, and completely lost in the moment.
Spencerâs fingers continued to work on removing your shorts, sliding them down your legs with deliberate slowness, his eyes never leaving yours. There was something almost worshipful in the way he touched you, as if he was savoring every second, every inch of skin he revealed.
As he finally discarded your shorts, leaving you completely exposed to him, he took a moment to just look at you, his gaze filled with a mix of desire and admiration. âYouâre perfect,â he murmured, his voice thick with emotion as he leaned in to press a kiss to the inside of your thigh, his lips lingering there for a moment longer than necessary.
The words made your heart swell, a wave of warmth washing over you as you reached out, your fingers tangling in his hair. There was nothing left to hide now, nothing left to hold back. This was exactly where you wanted to beâwhere you were meant to be.
âDo you always skip out on bras and panties, Y/N?â Spencerâs teasing comment sent a ripple of laughter through you, the sound mingling with the rapid beat of your heart. The playful banter between you only intensified the electric connection that was already sparking between you both. His bite on your inner thigh was both a tease and a promise, igniting a fire that made every nerve in your body come alive.
âNâno, only at home,â you managed to scream out, the sensation sending waves of pleasure coursing through you. The combination of his touch and the vulnerability of the moment made it impossible to hold back any longer.
He chuckled, the sound deep and resonant, echoing softly in the room as his fingers continued to explore your skin. âBut you didnât put any on before coming over?â His tone was light, yet there was an undeniable edge of desire that underpinned his words.
You took a moment to catch your breath, the playful challenge in his eyes urging you to respond. âAre youâare you complaining?â you asked, your voice wavering between breathless laughter and the growing urgency of your emotions.
Spencer shook his head, a mischievous glint in his eyes. âNot at all, althoughââ His sentence was cut short as your hands found their way into his hair, pulling him fully into you. The sudden, decisive movement left no room for hesitation, and the world seemed to narrow down to just the two of you, entwined in each otherâs embrace.
âOh my god, Spencer, just shut up,â you laughed, the sound filled with a mixture of amusement and desire. âPut your mouth to use.â
His response was immediate, his lips finding your core with a fervor that matched the intensity of your own longing. The way he ate you out was everything you had been waiting forâpassionate, deep, and downright filthy. His hands left their place on your thighs, tracing the contours of your body with a reverence that made you feel both cherished and desired.
As he sunk his mouth deeper, sucking your clit into his mouth, Spencer guided you gently but firmly onto the bed, the softness of the sheets a stark contrast to the heat that radiated between you.
âSpencer,â you moaned, the name slipping out like a sacred vow, sealing the moment between you. His response was a dirty smile, his mouth shining with your juices, making your pulse throb.
He paused for a moment, just enough to look into your eyes, âYouâre fucking delicious,â he murmured, his voice thick with lust. âIâve wanted to taste you for so long.â
As Spencerâs mouth continued to work its magic on your core, a whirlwind of sensations overwhelmed you. Each touch, each stroke of his tongue, sent waves of pleasure radiating through your body, making it nearly impossible to focus on anything but the intense feeling of being completely consumed by him. The way he moved, so skilled yet so attentive to your every reaction, left you breathless, your hands clutching at the sheets as your head swam in a sea of ecstasy.
But amidst the pleasure, a fleeting thought crossed your mindâhow close you had come to letting this moment, this incredible opportunity, slip through your fingers. You couldnât believe that you had almost dismissed the idea of responding to his bold text, that you had almost let fear and hesitation keep you from experiencing this side of Spencer. A side that was confident, passionate, and utterly devoted to your pleasure.
How could you have been so close to missing out on this? On him? Spencer, who had always been there, quiet and thoughtful, had somehow managed to unlock a part of you that you hadnât even known existedâa part that craved the connection and intimacy he was now offering with every caress of his lips.
You let out a soft moan, your hips arching towards him as the pleasure built to an almost unbearable level. The sounds you made only seemed to spur him on, his grip on your thighs tightening as he pulled you closer, his tongue working with a precision that left you teetering on the edge. Every nerve in your body was alive, the world narrowing down to the feel of his mouth on you, the heat of his breath against your skin.
âSpencer,â you gasped out, your voice trembling with the intensity of your emotions. It wasnât just the pleasure he was giving youâit was the realization that this was Spencer, the man you had known for so long, who was now showing you a depth of care and passion that you had never imagined.
The way he responded to your every movement, the way he seemed to know exactly what you needed, made you feel cherished in a way that went far beyond the physical. It was as if he was attuned to your very soul, using his touch to communicate something deeper, something that had been building between you for far longer than either of you had realized.
As you felt the tension within you coil tighter and tighter, ready to snap, you couldnât help but marvel at how easily you had fallen into this moment with him. All the hesitation, the uncertainty, had melted away, leaving only the pure, unfiltered connection between you and Spencer. A connection that had been there all along, waiting for the right moment to be brought to life.
And now that it had, you knew you could never go back to the way things were. Spencer had opened a door to something new, something beautiful, and you were ready to step through it with him, no matter what the future held.
With a final, skillful flick of his tongue over your clit, Spencer sent you tumbling over the edge, your body trembling with the force of your release. The world around you seemed to dissolve into a haze of pleasure and warmth, your mind barely able to process the overwhelming sensations that flooded through you.
As you came down from the high, Spencerâs hands and mouth softened, his touch becoming gentle, almost reverent, as he coaxed you through the aftershocks. When he finally pulled back, he looked up at you, his eyes filled with a mixture of pride and tenderness that made your heart skip a beat.
âIâm so glad youâre here,â he murmured, his voice soft but filled with a sincerity that left no doubt about how much this moment meant to him. He crawled up the bed to join you, his body pressing against yours as he captured your lips in a slow, languid kiss, allowing you to taste the remnants of your own pleasure on his lips.
You smiled against his lips, a sense of contentment and excitement washing over you as you whispered, âIâm glad Iâm here too, Spencer. So glad.â
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Do-Over
Logan Sargeant x Andretti!Reader
Summary: Logan drowns his sorrows after being dropped by Williams and passes out in 2024 ⊠he wakes up slightly hungover and very much in 2022 (aka the time travel fix-it fic)
Loganâs hands are shaking.
Heâs staring at the email on his phone, reading it over for the third time, hoping the words will somehow rearrange themselves into something different. But they donât. The screen doesnât lie, and neither does the cold, detached tone of James Vowles.
Logan, Iâm sorry to inform you that Williams Racing has decided to terminate your contract effective immediately. Your performance this season has not met the teamâs expectations, and the decision has been made to move forward without you for the remaining races. We believe this is in the best interest of the team as a whole. Youâll find the details of the termination and the necessary steps moving forward in the attached document.
His eyes blur, and he forces himself to blink, trying to hold it together. He knows what this means â his F1 career, the thing heâs worked for his entire life, is over. And itâs not ending with a bang, but with a fucking email.
A knock on the door snaps him back to the present. He looks up, swallowing hard as James walks in without waiting for permission, just like he always does.
âLogan,â James begins, his voice calm, almost clinical. âWe need to talk.â
âI got the email,â Logan mutters, shoving his phone into his pocket. âIs this really how itâs going to end?â
Jamesâs face is unreadable. âWeâve discussed this at length. The crashes, the lack of progress ⊠itâs just not working out. The engineers and mechanics are frustrated. Weâve been more than patient.â
Logan feels a wave of anger rising in his chest, but he pushes it down. He knows it wonât help. âSo thatâs it? Nine races left, and youâre just ⊠dropping me?â
âItâs not an easy decision,â James replies, crossing his arms. âBut we have to think about the team. We canât afford any more setbacks.â
âSetbacks,â Logan echoes, almost laughing at the absurdity of it. âThatâs all I am to you? A setback?â
James hesitates, his expression softening for just a moment. âLogan, youâre talented, but this sport is ruthless. You know that.â
âDonât,â Logan snaps, his voice sharp. âDonât try to soften the blow now. You couldâve at least told me in person, before sending the damn email.â
James sighs, running a hand through his hair. âI know it seems cold, but this is the reality of Formula 1. Youâll land on your feet. Youâve got potential.â
âPotential,â Logan mutters under his breath. âThatâs not going to get me back in a car, is it?â
Thereâs a tense silence, the weight of the situation pressing down on both of them. Logan feels like the walls are closing in, the air in the room growing thicker with each passing second.
âIâm sorry,â James says finally, and for the first time, he sounds genuine. âI really am.â
âYeah,â Logan replies, his voice hollow. âMe too.â
James lingers for a moment, as if searching for something else to say, but thereâs nothing that can fix this. Nothing that can make it right. Finally, he nods and leaves, closing the door quietly behind him.
Logan stands there, staring at the door, his mind racing. This canât be happening. It feels like some kind of nightmare, one he canât wake up from. But the harsh reality is setting in. Itâs over. All those years, all that effort, and itâs over just like that.
He sinks down onto the couch, his head in his hands. His chest feels tight, like he canât get a full breath. He needs to get out of here, but he has no idea where to go. Where do you go when your dreams have just been crushed?
His gaze falls on the bottle of whiskey sitting on the small kitchen counter. He bought it a few years ago, intending to open it after a win that never came. The irony isnât lost on him.
Logan pushes himself up and walks over to the kitchen, grabbing the bottle and a glass. He hesitates for a moment, then shrugs and puts the glass back. Whatâs the point of pretending thereâs any dignity left in this?
He twists the cap off the bottle and takes a long drink, the burn of the alcohol offering a brief distraction from the pain gnawing at his insides. He leans against the counter, staring out the window at the darkening sky. How the hell did it come to this?
Heâs replaying every mistake, every missed opportunity, every race where he couldâve done better. Itâs a torturous cycle, one that he canât escape. He takes another drink, then another, hoping to drown out the thoughts, to numb the ache in his chest.
But it doesnât work. The alcohol just makes it worse, amplifying the guilt and the regret. He feels like a failure. No, he is a failure. The team didnât even have the decency to let him finish the season. Thatâs how little they think of him.
The room starts to blur around the edges as the whiskey takes effect, but he doesnât stop. He canât stop. Heâs spiraling, and he knows it, but he doesnât care. This is the only way he knows how to cope, the only way to forget, even if itâs just for a little while.
Hours pass, or maybe minutes â heâs lost track of time. The bottle is nearly empty now, and heâs slumped on the floor, leaning against the kitchen cabinets. His phone buzzes in his pocket, but he ignores it. He doesnât want to talk to anyone. Whatâs the point?
The apartment is silent except for the occasional sound of cars passing by outside. Itâs eerie, this quiet, and it makes the emptiness inside him feel even more profound.
Finally, he reaches into his pocket and pulls out his phone. The screen is cracked from a previous fall â one of many â but it still works. There are messages from friends, from his family, but he doesnât open them. He knows what theyâll say. Theyâll be supportive, encouraging, but it wonât change anything. They canât fix this.
Instead, he opens his camera roll and scrolls through the photos. Pictures of him in the car, of the team, of moments that once meant everything to him. Now theyâre just reminders of what heâs lost.
He stops on a photo of himself, taken just after he signed with Williams. He looks so damn happy, so full of hope. He barely recognizes that person now.
âWhat a joke,â he mutters to himself, his voice slurred. âWhat a fucking joke.â
He takes one last drink from the bottle, then tosses it aside, not caring as it rolls across the floor. He feels the darkness closing in, pulling him under, and for once, he doesnât fight it. He lets it take him, lets it drown out the pain, the regret, the fear.
And as he finally drifts into unconsciousness, the last thought that crosses his mind is that maybe â just maybe â he deserves this.
***
Logan wakes with a start, his head pounding, the taste of stale whiskey thick on his tongue. He groans, squeezing his eyes shut against the assault of the light streaming through the windows. His whole body feels like itâs been put through a blender â sore, achy, heavy. But itâs not just the hangover, itâs the weight of everything, of what happened yesterday.
He takes a deep breath, bracing himself as he sits up, his hands pressing into the bed beneath him. Except, the textureâs wrong. Itâs not the rough fabric of his apartmentâs couch or even the smooth, cool sheets heâs used to.
Loganâs eyes snap open, and he looks around, confusion crashing over him like a cold wave. Heâs not in his apartment. The walls are different â cleaner, the color a familiar light blue he hasnât seen in years. The bed is narrow, uncomfortable, with plain white sheets. Thereâs a desk pushed against the far wall, a locker in the corner with his name printed on it in block letters.
This isnât his apartment. This is ⊠his driverâs room. The one he used when he was driving for Carlin in Formula 2.
âWhat the hell âŠâ Logan mutters, running a hand through his hair, trying to make sense of it. He must still be drunk. Or maybe heâs dreaming. But no â he can feel the dull ache in his temples, the dryness in his throat, the uncomfortable press of the mattress beneath him. This is too real to be a dream.
But it doesnât make any sense. The last thing he remembers is passing out in his apartment after finishing nearly a whole bottle of whiskey. He was a mess. He is a mess. But here he is, waking up in a place he hasnât seen since 2022, a place that shouldnât exist in his present reality.
Panic starts to set in. He fumbles for his phone, which is miraculously still in his pocket. The screen lights up, showing the date and time.
September 10th, 2022.
His heart stops. Thatâs impossible. Itâs been two years. Two years since this date. His mind races, trying to piece together what the hell is happening, but nothing fits. Heâs not in 2024 anymore. Somehow, heâs back in 2022.
Itâs the only explanation, but itâs insane. None of this is possible. Itâs not even like those vague dreams where everythingâs familiar but distant. This is his life two years ago, down to the worn fabric of the team jacket hanging on the back of the door.
Before he can spiral any further, thereâs a sharp knock at the door. Logan barely has time to react before it swings open, and Gary Catt, his manager, strides in with his usual briskness, already talking before the door is fully open.
âLogan, I just got off the phone with Jost Capito,â Gary says, his voice all business, not noticing Loganâs stunned expression. âWilliams wants you. They want to lock you in for next season. Itâs the best possible scenario. This is it, Logan â this is what weâve been working toward.â
Logan feels like heâs been hit by a freight train. This conversation â he remembers it. It happened. Gary, standing in this very room, telling him the exact same thing, with the exact same excitement in his voice. The memory is vivid because it changed everything. It was the start of his F1 career. And also ⊠the start of everything that led to that email.
âLogan?â Garyâs voice cuts through the fog in Loganâs mind, pulling him back to the present. âAre you even listening? This is huge, mate. Youâre going to be in F1.â
Loganâs throat is dry, his mind racing with possibilities, with consequences. He remembers how he felt the first time he heard these words â pure elation, followed by a rush of nerves. But now, with the knowledge of whatâs to come, all he feels is dread.
This is his chance to change things. To make sure it doesnât end the way it did yesterday. Heâs been given a do-over, a second chance, and he canât afford to mess it up.
Logan takes a deep breath, forcing himself to stay calm. âGary,â he says, his voice rough from sleep and the alcohol, âI donât think I should take the offer.â
Gary stops mid-stride, turning to face Logan with a look of utter disbelief. âWhat did you just say?â
âI donât think I should take the offer,â Logan repeats, more firmly this time, even though his heart is pounding in his chest. âItâs too soon.â
âToo soon?â Gary looks at him like heâs just sprouted another head. âLogan, this is Williams. Itâs F1. There is no such thing as âtoo soonâ when an opportunity like this comes around. What are you talking about?â
Logan stands up, pacing the small room, trying to gather his thoughts. How does he explain this without sounding completely insane? He canât tell Gary what he knows â what heâs seen, whatâs happened. But he also canât go down the same path again. Not when he knows where it leads.
âI just ⊠I donât think Iâm ready,â Logan says, finally turning to face Gary. âIf I rush into F1 now, it could end badly. I need more time. More experience.â
Garyâs expression shifts from disbelief to concern. âLogan, listen to yourself. Youâve been preparing for this your whole life. Youâre as ready as anyone can be. If you pass this up, thereâs no guarantee another chance like it will come along. You know that.â
Logan shakes his head. âI know it sounds crazy, but ⊠I have a feeling that if I take this now, itâll be a mistake. A big one. Iâll end up in a situation where Iâm not able to deliver, where the pressure is too much. And thatâs not good for anyone â me, the team, my career.â
Gary is silent for a long moment, studying Logan with an intensity that makes him squirm. âWhereâs this coming from? You were over the moon about this before. What changed?â
Logan hesitates, searching for the right words. âI just ⊠Iâve been thinking a lot about the future. About what I want my career to look like. And I donât want to be one of those drivers who gets rushed into F1 and then crashes out because they werenât ready. I want to do it right. I want to be fully prepared.â
âYou donât get to be fully prepared in this sport,â Gary says, his voice dropping to a more serious tone. âThis is Formula 1. Itâs sink or swim, and you know that. Youâre not going to get a better opportunity than this, Logan.â
Logan feels a knot of frustration tightening in his chest. He knows Gary is right, in a way. This is F1. Itâs not supposed to be easy. But he also knows that if he takes this offer, if he goes down the same road, itâll end in disaster.
âI get that,â Logan says, his voice firm. âBut Iâve made up my mind. Iâm not going to take the seat. Not this time.â
Gary stares at him, his expression a mixture of shock and confusion. âLogan, this could be career suicide. You understand that, right?â
Logan nods, swallowing hard. âI do. But Iâd rather take that risk than go into something I know Iâm not ready for and crash out in a blaze of failure. I canât do that. I wonât.â
Gary runs a hand over his face, clearly struggling to comprehend whatâs happening. âThis isnât like you. Youâre not one to back down from a challenge. Why are you doing this?â
Because I know how it ends, Logan thinks, but he doesnât say it out loud. Instead, he takes a deep breath and says, âBecause I want to do this right. I want to have a long career in F1, not a short one that ends in disappointment. And to do that, I need to be smart about the choices I make now.â
Gary lets out a slow breath, clearly conflicted. âThis is ⊠I donât even know what to say, Logan. Youâre turning down a seat in F1. Thatâs not something you do lightly.â
âIâm not doing it lightly,â Logan assures him, though his heart is racing. âIâve thought about this a lot, and itâs the right decision for me.â
Thereâs a long silence as Gary processes this. Logan can almost see the gears turning in his head, the calculations, the weighing of options. He knows how hard this must be for Gary to accept â hell, itâs hard for Logan to accept, and heâs the one making the decision. But he has to stick to his guns. He has to believe that this is the right choice.
Finally, Gary lets out a resigned sigh. âAlright, Logan. If this is really what you want, Iâll back you. But you need to understand the risks. This could close doors for you. Big ones.â
Logan nods, his stomach twisting with anxiety. âI know. But I also know that if I take this now, it could end up closing even more doors in the long run.â
Gary studies him for a long moment, then gives a slow nod. âAlright. Iâll let Jost know. But donât expect him to be happy about it.â
Logan feels a mixture of relief and dread. âI wonât. But thanks, Gary. I know this isnât easy.â
Gary gives him a tight smile, still clearly grappling with the decision. âNo, itâs not. But youâre the one driving the car, Logan. Just make sure you know what youâre doing.â
Logan nods, watching as Gary turns and leaves the room, the door closing softly behind him. He stands there for a moment, taking in the silence, the surrealness of what just happened. Heâs just turned down a seat in F1. The one thing he thought he wanted more than anything. But as the anxiety ebbs, a new feeling takes its place â determination.
This time, things are going to be different. Heâs going to do it right, even if it means making the hard choices. Logan takes a deep breath, feeling a strange sense of calm settle over him. This is his second chance, and heâs not going to waste it.
***
The 2023 F2 season ends in a flurry of champagne, confetti, and flashing cameras. Logan stands on the top step of the podium, the P1 trophy clutched in his hands, a grin splitting his face. Heâs done it. Heâs proved to everyone â most of all to himself â that he was ready. This time, he didnât rush, didnât let the pressure consume him. And itâs paid off. Heâs the Formula 2 Driversâ Champion.
But as the celebration winds down and reality sets in, Logan faces a new challenge. Despite his victory, the F1 grid is full, and F2 champions canât return to the series. He could take a reserve role, bide his time, wait for a seat to open up. But thatâs not what he wants. Heâs not willing to spend another year on the sidelines, waiting for an opportunity that may never come.
So when the offer from IndyCar comes, Logan doesnât hesitate. Heâs heard the stories â about the speed, the fierce competition, the thrill of racing on ovals. Itâs not Formula 1, but itâs still racing at the highest level. And right now, thatâs what he needs.
The decision surprises everyone. The media buzzes with speculation, but Logan remains focused. He knows what heâs doing. This is a new path, one that heâs chosen for himself, not because it was expected of him. Heâs determined to make it work.
A few weeks later, Logan finds himself in the heart of Indianapolis, standing outside the office of Mario Andretti. The legendary name still carries a weight of history and reverence, even in this new world of racing. It feels surreal, like stepping into a different era of motorsport.
Inside the office, Mario is all business. The contract is laid out on the table between them, a simple piece of paper that represents Loganâs future. Mario goes over the details with the kind of thoroughness that only comes from years of experience, but Logan can barely focus. His mind is racing, thoughts darting between the past season, the unknown future, and the thrill of what heâs about to embark on.
âEverything looks good?â Mario asks, breaking Logan from his thoughts.
Logan blinks, then nods, forcing himself to concentrate. âYeah, itâs perfect.â
Mario slides the pen across the table. âThen letâs make it official.â
Logan takes the pen, feeling the weight of the moment as he signs his name at the bottom of the contract. Itâs done. Heâs an IndyCar driver now.
Mario nods in approval, leaning back in his chair with a satisfied smile. âWelcome to the team, Logan. Weâre excited to have you.â
âThank you,â Logan says, meaning it. This is a new beginning, and heâs ready for it.
They shake hands, and Mario stands, motioning towards the door. âIâd love to chat more, but Iâve got to head out. My granddaughterâs picking me up for lunch.â
Logan heads out of the office, his mind still reeling from the whirlwind of emotions. Heâs so caught up in his thoughts that he doesnât notice the person rounding the corner until itâs too late. They collide, and Loganâs first instinct is to reach out, steadying the person as they stumble backward.
âWhoa, Iâm so sorry,â he blurts out, his hands gripping her arms as he helps her regain her balance.
âItâs okay,â you reply, laughing softly as you look up at him. âI wasnât paying attention.â
Loganâs breath catches in his throat as he looks down at you, the apology dying on his lips. Youâre beautiful â stunning, even â with eyes that seem to sparkle with life and a smile thatâs warm and inviting. For a moment, all he can do is stare, struck by how perfect you seem, like someone whoâs stepped straight out of a dream.
âYou alright?â You ask, tilting your head slightly as you study him.
Logan snaps out of it, quickly releasing his hold on you and stepping back. âYeah, sorry again. I didnât see you there.â
The door to Marioâs office opens, and the man himself steps out, his eyes narrowing slightly as he takes in the scene. âEverything okay out here?â
You turn to your grandfather, smiling brightly. âJust a little bump, Grandpa. Nothing to worry about.â
Marioâs expression softens as he looks at you, the sternness replaced by affection. âGood. I donât want anyone getting hurt before lunch.â
You laugh, the sound light and carefree, and Logan finds himself smiling along, despite the awkwardness of the situation.
âLogan,â Mario says, turning to him, âIâd like you to meet my granddaughter.â
Loganâs heart skips a beat. This is Marioâs granddaughter? Of course, she is. It makes sense now, the confidence in your stance, the way you carry yourself. Youâre part of a racing dynasty, just like Mario.
âLogan Sargeant,â Mario continues, introducing him to you. âHeâs going to be racing with us next season.â
You offer him your hand, your smile never faltering. âItâs nice to meet you, Logan. Iâve heard a lot about you.â
Logan takes your hand, feeling a jolt of electricity as your fingers brush against his. âUh, yeah. Nice to meet you too.â
You glance at Mario, then back at Logan. âWeâre heading out for lunch. You should join us.â
Loganâs mind goes blank for a second, and all he can do is blink at you, trying to process what you just said. âLunch? With you and ⊠Mr. Andretti?â
You laugh again, and Logan thinks it might be the best sound he has ever heard. âYeah, with us. Unless you have somewhere else you need to be?â
âNo, no,â Logan stammers, trying to regain some composure. âIâd love to join you.â
Mario claps Logan on the shoulder, his laughter booming through the hallway. âLooks like youâve made an impression already, kid. Come on, letâs get out of here before the press catches wind of this.â
Logan nods, still somewhat dazed as he follows you and Mario out of the building. His mind is a whirlwind of thoughts â about the contract he just signed, the new chapter heâs stepping into, and now, about you. He canât quite believe his luck. Not only is he starting a new adventure in IndyCar, but heâs also just met someone who, in the span of a few minutes, has completely captivated him.
As they walk to Marioâs car, Logan steals glances at you, trying to be subtle but failing miserably. You seem so at ease, chatting with your grandfather, your laughter punctuating the conversation. Thereâs a lightness about you, a warmth thatâs infectious, and Logan finds himself drawn to it, to you.
âLogan,â you say, turning to him as you reach the car. âSo, what made you decide to join IndyCar? Itâs not every day an F2 champion makes that leap.â
Logan pauses, caught off guard by the directness of your question. âWell, uh,â he begins, trying to find the right words, âI guess I just wanted something different. F1 wasnât an option, and I didnât want to sit around waiting for a seat to open up. IndyCar seemed like the right challenge. Something new, but still competitive.â
You nod, clearly intrigued. âThat makes sense. Itâs a bold move, but I think itâll pay off.â
âBold,â Logan repeats, a smile tugging at the corners of his lips. âIâll take that as a compliment.â
âIt is,â you assure him, your eyes sparkling. âI admire people who take risks. Especially when theyâre as calculated as yours seems to be.â
Mario clears his throat, a knowing grin on his face as he watches the two of you. âAlright, kids, enough shop talk. Letâs get some food.â
You and Logan exchange a smile before sliding into the back seat of the car. The conversation flows easily, despite Loganâs initial nerves. You ask him about his time in F2, what it was like racing on the different tracks, how he handled the pressure. Logan finds himself opening up more than he expected, the words coming easily under your encouraging gaze.
Mario chimes in every now and then, adding his own insights, but itâs clear heâs content to let the two of you do most of the talking. He watches with an amused glint in his eye, as if heâs already figured out something that Logan is just beginning to realize.
By the time you reach the restaurant, Logan feels like heâs known you for much longer than the short time youâve actually spent together. Thereâs an ease between you that heâs rarely felt with anyone else, a connection that seems to have sparked almost instantly.
Inside the restaurant, Mario insists on taking the head of the table, leaving you and Logan to sit across from each other. As you settle in, you continue to ask Logan questions, but now theyâre more personal â what does he do outside of racing? Whatâs his favorite movie? Does he have any hidden talents?
Logan answers as best he can, though heâs still reeling a bit from how quickly this day has turned into something he never expected. Heâs just signed with IndyCar, but more than that, heâs sitting across from someone who makes his heart race faster than any car ever could.
âYouâve got a good head on your shoulders, Logan,â Mario says suddenly, breaking into the conversation. âIâve seen a lot of young drivers come and go, but you ⊠youâve got something special. Just keep your focus, and youâll go far.â
âThank you, Mr. Andretti,â Logan says, his voice sincere. âThat means a lot, coming from you.â
âCall me Mario,â he replies with a wave of his hand. âWeâre family now, after all.â
Logan smiles, feeling a warmth spread through him at the word âfamily.â Itâs strange, how quickly things have shifted, how heâs gone from a solitary driver trying to make his way in the world to someone who might actually belong here, in this new place, with these new people.
As the lunch continues, Logan finds himself growing more comfortable, the initial awkwardness fading away. You keep the conversation lively, sharing stories about your grandfather, about your own life, and Logan canât help but be drawn to your passion, your intelligence, your warmth. Itâs clear that youâre not just Mario Andrettiâs granddaughter â youâre your own person, with your own dreams and ambitions.
Eventually, the meal winds down, and Mario excuses himself to take a phone call, leaving you and Logan alone at the table. The silence that follows isnât uncomfortable, but charged, filled with the unspoken things neither of you have quite put into words yet.
âSo,â you say, leaning forward slightly, a teasing smile on your lips, âwhat do you think of Indy so far?â
Logan grins, feeling a boldness he didnât expect. âWell, it just got a whole lot more interesting.â
You laugh, your eyes twinkling with amusement. âIâm glad to hear it. I have a feeling youâre going to fit in just fine here.â
âYeah,â Logan says, his voice softening as he looks at you, really looks at you. âI think I am too.â
You hold his gaze, the connection between you growing stronger with each passing second. For a moment, the world outside seems to fade away, leaving just the two of you, caught in this moment that feels almost like fate.
Before the silence can stretch too long, Mario returns, his phone call finished. He glances between the two of you, his eyes twinkling with a knowing look that makes Loganâs ears burn. âReady to head out?â
You nod, standing up and giving Logan one last, lingering smile. âIt was nice meeting you, Logan. Iâm sure weâll see each other around.â
Logan stands as well, feeling a mix of excitement and nerves. âDefinitely. Iâm looking forward to it.â
As you and Mario head out of the restaurant, Logan lingers for a moment, watching you go. He canât quite believe what just happened, but one thing is certain â his life just got a lot more complicated, and he wouldnât have it any other way.
As he walks out into the bright sunlight, Logan canât stop the smile that spreads across his face. Heâs taken a leap into the unknown, and it feels like the start of something incredible.
***
The roar of the crowd is deafening, vibrating through the very core of the Speedway as Logan crosses the finish line first. Itâs the 107th running of the Indianapolis 500, and heâs just won it. The realization hits him like a tidal wave, almost knocking the breath out of him. Heâs an Indy 500 champion. In his rookie season, no less.
The engine growls as he coasts to a stop, and for a moment, all he can do is sit there, hands trembling on the steering wheel. His heart pounds in his chest, adrenaline coursing through his veins, and he lets out a breathless laugh, disbelief and elation mingling into something indescribable.
âLogan Sargeant wins the Indy 500!â The announcerâs voice echoes through the speakers, barely audible over the cheers of the crowd. He hears it, but it still feels surreal, like something out of a dream.
The pit crew rushes over, the celebration already in full swing as they haul him out of the car. Heâs immediately surrounded by a sea of people â team members, media, officials â everyone wanting a piece of this historic moment. But through it all, thereâs one thing on his mind. One person.
You.
Heâs searching the crowd, trying to spot you among the chaos. His vision is blurred with sweat and tears, but then he sees you â pushing your way through the throng of people, a look of pure joy on your face. Youâre clapping, laughing, your eyes shining with pride, and all Logan can think is how he needs to get to you.
But first, thereâs tradition to uphold.
One of the crew hands him the iconic bottle of milk, the symbol of victory. Logan takes it, still in a daze, and tilts it back, taking a long swig. The cold liquid is refreshing, cutting through the heat of the moment, and he canât help but laugh as he lowers the bottle, milk dripping down his chin.
Without hesitation, he lifts the bottle above his head and pours the rest over himself. The milk runs down his face, soaking into his race suit, and the crowd goes wild, the noise level somehow reaching new heights. He feels on top of the world â unstoppable, invincible.
And then he spots you again, closer now, just on the edge of the crowd. Logan doesnât think, doesnât pause to consider anything else. He just moves, pushing through the throng of people until heâs standing right in front of you.
Youâre smiling up at him, eyes bright with something that makes his heart race faster than it did on the final lap. Before he can stop himself, Logan reaches out, pulls you in, and kisses you.
Itâs the kind of kiss thatâs been building for months â the culmination of all the moments, all the glances, all the unspoken words between you. You taste like the victory heâs just claimed, like the adrenaline thatâs still pumping through his veins, like everything heâs been chasing since he first set foot in this world.
When you finally pull back, youâre both breathless, milk dripping from Loganâs face and onto yours. You laugh, and the sound is the sweetest thing heâs ever heard.
âYouâre lucky Iâm not lactose intolerant,â you tease, licking the milk from his lips with a grin thatâs both playful and suggestive. âBut honestly? Itâd be worth it even if I was.â
Logan laughs, a deep, full-bodied sound that comes from a place of pure, unfiltered happiness. He feels like heâs floating, like nothing in the world could possibly bring him down from this high. Not now, not ever.
âBest win of my life,â he says, his voice rough with emotion, still holding you close, as if afraid that letting go might make this moment disappear.
You tilt your head, still smiling up at him with those eyes that have captivated him from the start. âIâd hope so,â you say softly. âYou just won the Indy 500.â
He shakes his head, a playful grin on his face. âNo, I mean this.â He gestures between the two of you, the words hanging in the air, heavy with meaning.
For a second, you just stare at him, the noise of the crowd fading into the background, the world narrowing down to just the two of you. And then youâre laughing, throwing your arms around his neck, pulling him into another kiss.
This one is softer, sweeter â less about the heat of the moment and more about the connection between you, the way everything just seems to fit when youâre together. Logan loses himself in it, in you, in this moment that feels like the culmination of everything heâs ever wanted.
When you finally break apart, the noise of the crowd floods back in, the celebration continuing around you. But it doesnât matter. Nothing else matters except the way youâre looking at him, like heâs the only person in the world.
âCome on,â you say, tugging him towards the podium. âYouâve got a trophy to collect.â
Logan follows, still holding onto your hand, not willing to let you go just yet. The team is waiting, cheering him on, and as they hoist him up onto their shoulders, Logan realizes that this â this moment, this feeling â is what heâs been racing for all along.
Standing on the podium, the trophy in his hands, Logan looks out at the sea of faces, at the fans cheering his name, at the team celebrating their victory. But his eyes find you in the crowd, and thatâs where they stay.
Youâre smiling up at him, and Logan knows, deep down, that this is just the beginning. The beginning of something incredible, something he never saw coming but canât imagine living without.
As the anthem plays and the confetti rains down, Logan lifts the trophy high, his heart full to bursting. Heâs done it â heâs won the Indy 500. But more than that, heâs found something, someone, who makes all of it mean so much more.
And as he looks down at you, standing there with that bright, beautiful smile, Logan knows that heâs not just a champion. Heâs the luckiest guy in the world.
***
The soft hum of the office fills the silence as Logan sits across from Mario, the weight of the moment pressing down on him. The past year has been a whirlwind â plenty of IndyCar wins, that unforgettable victory at the Indy 500, and the life heâs built with you by his side. Itâs been everything he didnât know he needed, but now, as he sits in Marioâs office, thereâs an air of something significant, something life-altering in the way Mario looks at him.
Mario clears his throat, leaning forward on his desk, hands clasped. âLogan,â he begins, voice steady, serious. âIâve been doing a lot of thinking â planning, actually â and I need to talk to you about something important.â
Loganâs heart skips a beat, the weight of Marioâs words sinking in. He nods, leaning forward slightly, feeling the anticipation coil tight in his chest. âWhat is it?â He asks, voice steady despite the flurry of nerves.
Mario takes a deep breath, then looks Logan squarely in the eye. âWeâre buying Haas F1 Team. The dealâs already in motion, and weâll be restructuring everything from the ground up to make our entrance into Formula 1 in 2026.â
The words hang in the air, heavy with implication. Loganâs breath catches in his throat, and for a moment, heâs not sure if heâs heard Mario correctly. âFormula 1?â He echoes, almost disbelieving. His mind races, a thousand thoughts colliding at once. âYouâre serious?â
âAs serious as it gets,â Mario replies, his expression unwavering. âIâve wanted this for a long time, Logan. And now, with everything coming together, itâs finally happening. But hereâs the thing-â he pauses, his gaze locking onto Loganâs with an intensity that leaves no room for doubt, âI canât think of anyone better suited to lead this team as our driver than you.â
The words hit Logan like a freight train. He stares at Mario, unable to speak, his heart thudding wildly in his chest. Formula 1 has always been the dream, the pinnacle of everything heâs worked for. The chance he thought heâd lost â twice, if he counts the strange twist of fate that had brought him here in the first place.
âLogan, I know this is a lot to take in,â Mario continues, his tone softer now, understanding. âBut I believe in you. Youâve proven yourself time and time again, in F2, in IndyCar â hell, you won the Indy 500 in your first season. And I know you still have that fire for F1. This is your shot, kid. And I want you to take it.â
Logan feels the lump in his throat as Marioâs words sink in. The room seems to close in around him, the gravity of the moment pressing down like a physical weight. Heâs had a lot of success in IndyCar, more than he ever imagined, and it brought him you â his reason to smile, his anchor in the storm. But Formula 1? Thatâs the dream heâs never fully let go of, even when he tried to convince himself otherwise.
He swallows hard, forcing the words out past the emotion threatening to choke him. âI-I donât know what to say,â he admits, his voice thick. âI mean, this is ⊠I didnât think Iâd ever get another chance like this.â
Mario smiles, the kind of smile thatâs equal parts pride and encouragement. âI know itâs a lot, Logan. And itâs not an easy decision, especially considering everything youâve built here in IndyCar. But I have no doubt in my mind that youâre the right person for this. Youâve got what it takes to succeed in F1, and Iâm not just talking about talent. Youâve got heart, determination, and the ability to learn from your mistakes. Thatâs what makes a champion.â
Loganâs mind races, the possibilities spinning out in front of him. He thinks about everything heâs worked for, everything heâs achieved. And then he thinks about you â how youâve been there with him through it all, supporting him, believing in him even when he doubted himself.
He takes a deep breath, his decision already forming in his mind, solidifying with each passing second. âOkay,â he says, meeting Marioâs gaze head-on. âIâll do it. I want this, Mario. I want to prove to myself that I can do it right this time.â
Marioâs grin widens, and he stands up, offering Logan his hand. âWelcome to Andretti F1 Team. Weâre going to do great things together.â
Logan shakes his hand, the reality of it all starting to settle in. Heâs going to be a Formula 1 driver again. Itâs terrifying, exhilarating, everything heâs ever wanted all over again. As he stands there, absorbing the magnitude of whatâs just happened, he feels a strange mix of emotions â elation, fear, anticipation, and something else that he canât quite name.
Mario walks him to the door, still talking about the next steps, the plans they have for the team, but Loganâs mind is half-focused on something else, someone else. As the door swings open, the conversation comes to a halt. The sight that greets them both brings a grin to Marioâs face and a burst of laughter from Logan.
Youâre standing there, your ear pressed to the door, looking guilty as hell when you realize youâve been caught. You straighten up quickly, trying to play it off, but the blush spreading across your cheeks gives you away.
âEavesdropping, huh?â Logan teases, crossing his arms and raising an eyebrow. Thereâs a lightness in his voice that wasnât there moments ago, the news already settling into a place of excitement rather than apprehension.
You bite your lip, trying to suppress a smile, but failing miserably. âI, um ⊠I might have been curious,â you admit, your eyes twinkling with mischief.
Mario chuckles, shaking his head. âLooks like weâve got a new team spy, Logan. Better watch out.â
Logan canât help the grin that spreads across his face. He steps out of the office, wrapping an arm around your waist and pulling you close. âYou know, you didnât have to spy,â he says, his voice dropping to a softer tone. âI wouldâve told you everything.â
You look up at him, your smile fading slightly as something more serious takes its place in your eyes. âI just ⊠I wanted to know if it was good news,â you say quietly. âI know how much F1 means to you.â
Logan feels his heart clench at your words, at the sincerity in your voice. Youâve always understood him, always known what drives him, what keeps him going. He cups your cheek, his thumb brushing lightly over your skin. âItâs great news,â he says, his voice barely above a whisper. âIâm getting a second shot at F1, and Iâm not going to mess it up this time.â
Your smile returns, bright and full of the same determination he feels. âI know you wonât,â you say confidently. âYouâre going to do amazing things, Logie. And Iâll be right there with you.â
Loganâs chest tightens with emotion, the intensity of the moment overwhelming him. He leans down, pressing his forehead to yours. âIâm so lucky to have you,â he murmurs, his voice thick with gratitude. âI donât know what Iâd do without you.â
You laugh softly, the sound like music to his ears. âGood thing you wonât have to find out,â you reply, your tone teasing but laced with affection.
Loganâs heart swells, and before he can stop himself, he lifts you off your feet, spinning you around in a circle. You yelp in surprise, then burst into laughter, the sound filling the hallway.
He sets you down gently, your laughter fading into a soft smile as you look up at him. Thereâs a moment of quiet, the world around you fading away as the reality of whatâs happening sinks in. Logan leans in, capturing your lips in a kiss thatâs both tender and passionate, a promise of whatâs to come.
When you finally pull back, breathless and smiling, Logan feels a sense of calm settle over him. Everything is falling into place, and for the first time in a long while, he feels like heâs exactly where heâs meant to be.
With you by his side, he knows he can face whatever comes next.
âReady to take on the world?â You ask, your voice light but your eyes serious.
Logan grins, squeezing your hand. âAs long as Iâve got you, Iâm ready for anything.â
And with that, he leads you down the hallway, the future stretching out before him, bright and full of promise.
***
The sun is barely up, casting long shadows across the Albert Park Circuit, but the air is already alive with anticipation. Itâs the first day of preseason testing for the 2026 Formula 1 season, and the paddock is buzzing with the usual mix of excitement and nerves.
Teams are unpacking crates, engineers are huddled over laptops, and the unmistakable scent of burning rubber is already in the air. But for Logan, walking through the paddock with you on his arm, it feels like stepping into a dream â one heâs worked too damn hard to make a reality.
He adjusts the collar of his Andretti jacket, the weight of the moment not lost on him. This is it. His second chance â though, thanks to the bizarre twist of fate, no one else knows itâs his second. Everyone around him sees a rookie, an American hopeful making his debut with Andrettiâs new F1 team. But Logan knows better. Heâs here with experience that no one can fathom, and heâs determined not to waste it.
As you walk beside him, your hand resting lightly on his arm, he canât help but steal a glance at you. Thereâs a brightness in your eyes, a mix of pride and excitement that mirrors his own. âYou okay?â He asks, squeezing your hand gently.
You look up at him and smile, the kind of smile that makes his heart do a little flip. âIâm more than okay,â you reply. âIâm with you, and weâre about to watch you live your dream. What could be better than that?â
Logan grins, feeling a warmth spread through his chest. Youâve been his rock through everything â the highs, the lows, the strange, unexplainable journey that brought him back here. Heâs never been more certain that youâre exactly where youâre supposed to be.
As you make your way through the paddock, heads turn. Itâs not just because Logan is here with the legendary Andretti team, but because of the woman at his side. He catches a few curious glances, some surprised, others appreciative, and he canât blame them. Youâre a sight to behold, and heâs proud to be walking in with you.
But then, out of the corner of his eye, Logan spots a familiar face. Oscar Piastri, decked out in McLaren colors, is standing near the entrance to the pit lane, chatting with a few team members. Itâs been years since they last spoke properly â back when they were both climbing the ranks in the junior series, fighting tooth and nail for every inch of track.
They were close once, but life pulled them in different directions â Oscar to McLaren, Logan to IndyCar. And now, here they are, both in Formula 1, albeit on different paths.
Logan feels a wave of nostalgia, and before he can overthink it, heâs steering you in Oscarâs direction. As you approach, Oscar looks up, and for a split second, thereâs a flicker of surprise in his eyes before it melts into a wide, genuine smile.
âLogan Sargeant,â Oscar says, his Australian accent as thick as ever. He steps forward, hand outstretched, and Logan takes it, shaking firmly. âIâll be damned. You actually made it.â
Logan chuckles, the sound more relaxed than he feels. âYeah, I guess I did. Itâs been a long road, but here I am.â
Oscarâs smile widens, his grip on Loganâs hand lingering for just a moment longer. âItâs good to see you, mate. I was wondering when youâd show up in F1. Figured you were having too much fun in IndyCar to come back.â
âThere was a lot to love about IndyCar,â Logan admits, glancing at you with a fond smile. âBut F1 was always the dream, you know? Couldnât pass up a chance like this.â
Oscar nods, understanding clear in his expression. âI get it. And with Andretti, no less. Thatâs a hell of a team to start with. Youâre going to shake things up around here, I can tell.â
Logan shrugs, trying to play it cool even as his heart pounds with the reality of it all. âThatâs the plan. But enough about me. Howâs life at McLaren? You guys ready to give us a run for our money?â
Oscar laughs, the sound light and easy. âAlways. McLarenâs been working their asses off, and Iâm feeling good about this season. But donât think Iâll go easy on you just because weâre old friends.â
Logan grins, feeling the competitive spark thatâs always driven him reignite. âI wouldnât expect anything less. Besides, itâs been a while since weâve gone wheel-to-wheel. Iâm looking forward to it.â
Oscarâs gaze shifts to you, his curiosity evident. âAnd whoâs this?â He asks, his tone polite but genuinely interested.
Loganâs grin softens as he looks at you. âThis is my better half,â he says, his voice filled with affection. âSheâs the one who keeps me sane.â
You smile at Oscar, offering your hand. âItâs great to finally meet you, Oscar. Loganâs told me a lot about you.â
Oscar shakes your hand, his smile warm and welcoming. âAll good things, I hope.â
âMostly,â you tease, throwing Logan a playful glance.
Logan laughs, feeling a lightness in his chest he hasnât felt in a while. Itâs good to be here, good to be surrounded by the familiar banter and camaraderie that heâs missed. He knows the road ahead is going to be tough â F1 is nothing if not ruthless â but with you by his side and old friends welcoming him back, he feels more ready than ever to face whatever comes his way.
Oscar steps back, his gaze shifting between the two of you. âWell, Iâd better let you guys get settled in. But hey, we should catch up properly later. Maybe grab a drink after testing?â
Logan nods, appreciating the offer. âDefinitely. Itâs been too long.â
As Oscar walks away, Logan watches him for a moment, the memories of their shared past mingling with the excitement of the present. Itâs surreal, being here again, but this time with the weight of everything heâs learned, everything heâs fought for.
You tug gently on his arm, pulling him out of his thoughts. âWhat are you thinking about?â You ask, your voice soft and curious.
Logan smiles down at you, squeezing your hand. âJust how different things are now,â he admits. âBut in a good way. Iâve got a second shot at this, and Iâm not going to waste it.â
You nod, your eyes shining with the same determination he feels. âAnd Iâll be right there with you, every step of the way.â
Logan feels a swell of emotion, gratitude, and love that he canât quite put into words. Instead, he leans down, pressing a kiss to your forehead. âI wouldnât have it any other way.â
The two of you continue walking, the sounds of the paddock fading into the background as you focus on each other. The day ahead is full of unknowns â testing, strategy meetings, the inevitable pressure of proving himself â but with you by his side, Logan feels ready for anything.
As you make your way to the Andretti garage, the team members greet Logan with nods and smiles, and he can see the mix of curiosity and expectation in their eyes. Theyâre all in this together, building something new, something that has the potential to be great. And Logan is determined to be the driver they need, the one who can lead them to success.
You squeeze his hand, drawing his attention back to you. âYouâre going to do amazing, Logan. I can feel it.â
He smiles, the confidence in your voice bolstering his own. âThanks. Iâm just glad youâre here with me.â
âAlways,â you reply, your gaze unwavering.
As the day progresses, Logan finds himself falling into the rhythm of the paddock. The familiar sounds of engines roaring to life, the chatter of engineers discussing data, the focused intensity that permeates every corner â itâs like he never left. But this time, thereâs a new layer to it all, a sense of belonging that he didnât fully grasp the first time around.
He exchanges nods and brief conversations with other drivers as they pass by, some offering congratulations, others sizing him up as the new competition. Itâs all part of the game, the unspoken dance of respect and rivalry that defines the sport. But through it all, Logan keeps you close, your presence grounding him in the midst of the chaos.
As the day draws to a close, Logan finds himself back in the garage, the car stripped down and the team poring over the data from the dayâs sessions. Heâs tired, the kind of exhaustion that comes from both physical exertion and mental focus, but itâs the good kind of tired â the kind that tells him heâs exactly where he needs to be.
Youâre standing nearby, chatting with one of the engineers, your laughter mingling with the sounds of the garage. Logan watches you for a moment, a smile tugging at his lips. Youâve always had a way of fitting in, of making everyone around you feel at ease, and heâs grateful for that â for you.
As if sensing his gaze, you look over at him and smile, that familiar warmth in your eyes. You make your way over to him, and when you reach him, Logan pulls you into his arms, holding you close. The noise of the garage fades into the background, leaving just the two of you in this moment.
âYou did great today,â you say.
Logan holds you a little tighter, resting his chin on the top of your head. âI couldnât have done it without you,â he murmurs.
You pull back slightly, just enough to look up at him, your eyes filled with a mix of pride and affection. âYouâre the one out there driving, Logan. But Iâm glad I can be here for you.â
He smiles, leaning down to press a soft kiss to your lips. âIt means everything to me that you are,â he whispers.
For a moment, the chaos of the garage and the world outside fades, leaving just the two of you standing together, ready to face whatever comes next. Logan knows the road ahead wonât be easy, but with you by his side, heâs more than ready to take on the challenge.
***
The media room is buzzing with the usual pre-race energy, a mix of nerves and excitement crackling in the air as the drivers settle in behind the table. Loganâs seated between Oscar and Charles, the bright lights overhead casting sharp shadows across their faces. The backdrop behind them, plastered with sponsor logos and the official F1 emblem, feels almost like a stage, the press in front of them the audience waiting for their performance.
Logan shifts in his seat, glancing down at the bottled water in front of him. The press conference has been the usual mix of questions so far â how the cars are handling, expectations for the season, the general camaraderie between the drivers. But thereâs an undercurrent, a sense that something more pointed is coming.
A journalist from the back finally stands, her voice clear and direct as she catches Loganâs attention. âLogan,â she begins, holding her recorder up, âthereâs been some observation that every time you see James Vowles, your expression seems to ⊠change. Almost like youâre not too thrilled to be around him. Any comment on that?â
Thereâs a moment of silence in the room, a collective breath held. Logan feels the gaze of every person on him, including the drivers beside him. He lets out a quiet laugh, trying to play it cool, but he canât help the way his mind flashes back to the last time heâd faced Vowles, the manâs condescending tone, the cold dismissal that had sent him spiraling.
Oscar shifts beside him, giving him a sideways glance, probably wondering where this is going. Logan catches the edge of his own reflection in the shiny surface of the table and forces his expression into something neutral, even though the old bitterness is clawing its way up from the pit of his stomach.
âBad vibes,â Logan says finally, his voice carrying just enough humor to keep it light, though thereâs an unmistakable edge to it. âThatâs what my girlfriend would say. He just ⊠gives off bad vibes.â
Thereâs a ripple of laughter through the room, the tension breaking slightly. But the journalist isnât done yet. âBad vibes? Care to elaborate on that?â
Logan shrugs, trying to brush it off with a casualness he doesnât quite feel. âYou know, itâs one of those things. Sometimes you just donât click with someone, right? Itâs nothing serious.â
Charles, on his other side, leans into his mic, flashing a grin. âYouâre not going to make us all paranoid about our vibes now, are you?â
The room laughs again, and Logan takes the opportunity to sip his water, hoping the moment will pass. But he can feel the weight of the past pressing against him, the memories of how it all went down before heâd found himself in this second chance. He knows better than anyone that this sport is a game of perceptions, of how you carry yourself, and he canât afford to let the past taint his future.
Another journalist jumps in, steering the conversation toward safer waters â questions about the new car, how heâs adjusting to the Andretti team. Logan answers on autopilot, the usual lines about feeling confident, about how the team has been amazing. But in the back of his mind, heâs still thinking about that flash of disgust he couldnât hide, the way his skin prickled when he saw Vowles earlier that day.
When the press conference finally wraps up, and the drivers are ushered out of the room, Oscar hangs back, falling into step beside Logan as they head toward the paddock. âSo,â Oscar starts, keeping his voice low, âbad vibes, huh?â
Logan lets out a breath he didnât realize he was holding, a half-smile tugging at his lips. âYou know how it is,â he says, trying to keep it light, though he knows Oscar can see right through him.
Oscar just nods, not pushing any further, and Loganâs grateful for that. They walk in silence for a moment, the din of the paddock growing louder as they approach, engineers and team members bustling around them.
âHonestly, mate,â Oscar says after a beat, âif anyoneâs going to bring some good vibes into F1, itâs you. Iâm glad youâre here.â
Logan glances over, and thereâs sincerity in Oscarâs expression that makes Loganâs chest tighten, the weight of everything heâs carried with him lightening just a bit. âThanks, Oscar. That means a lot.â
They reach the Andretti motorhome, where youâre waiting for Logan, your eyes lighting up the moment you spot him. He feels a warmth spread through him at the sight, a reminder of what really matters.
You push off the wall youâd been leaning against, falling into step beside him. âSo, howâd it go in there?â
Logan smirks, wrapping an arm around your shoulders as they walk. âLetâs just say my reputation for honesty might have gotten a bit more solidified.â
You tilt your head up at him, a teasing glint in your eyes. âThat bad, huh?â
He chuckles, shaking his head. âNot bad, just ⊠honest.â
You glance at Oscar, whoâs still walking beside you, and give him a knowing look. âHe always has to make things interesting, doesnât he?â
Oscar grins, nodding in agreement. âNever a dull moment with this one.â
As you make your way back into the motorhome, Logan feels the tension of the day starting to ebb away. The familiar scent of coffee and fuel, the low hum of conversations around him, and the comforting presence of you by his side â it all feels right. Despite everything, he knows this is where he belongs.
Once inside, the motorhome offers a brief respite from the chaotic energy outside. The team is prepping for final checks, and Logan knows he should be focusing on the task ahead, but thereâs something nagging at him, a need to explain himself, to make sure you understand.
You catch the way his brows furrow slightly, the way his grip on your shoulder tightens for a moment before he lets go. âWhatâs up?â
He hesitates, running a hand through his hair, looking for the right words. âI just ⊠I donât want to come off like Iâm carrying a grudge or anything. That comment about Vowles â it probably sounded harsher than I meant it.â
You step closer, your hand finding his, grounding him. âLogan, itâs okay. Everyone has people they donât vibe with. It doesnât mean anything more than that.â
He nods, the tightness in his chest loosening as he looks into your eyes, seeing the unwavering support there. âYou always know what to say, donât you?â
You smile, squeezing his hand. âItâs a gift. Plus, you make it easy.â
Oscar clears his throat, and both of you look over to see him trying not to grin. âIâm going to leave you two to it. Just donât forget we have a race to focus on.â
Logan laughs, shaking his head as Oscar heads out. âYeah, yeah, weâll be right out.â
When Oscarâs gone, Logan turns back to you, his expression softening. âThanks for being here. Really.â
You lean up, pressing a quick kiss to his lips. âAlways.â
As you both make your way out to the garage, the sounds of the team preparing for the weekend reach your ears, and Logan feels that familiar rush of adrenaline, the anticipation of whatâs to come. The memory of the press conference, of Vowles, fades into the background. What matters now is the race ahead, the chance to prove himself once again, and the knowledge that whatever happens, youâre right there with him.
He glances over at you as they approach the car, and you catch him staring, raising an eyebrow in question. âWhat?â
Logan just smiles, shaking his head. âNothing. Just thinking about how lucky I am.â
You roll your eyes, though thereâs a smile playing on your lips. âYou better believe it, Sargeant. Now, go out there and show them what youâve got.â
He nods, feeling more centered than he has all day. With a final squeeze of your hand, he steps into the garage, ready to take on whatever comes next, knowing that no matter what happens on the track, heâs already won in the ways that truly matter.
***
The roar of the engines reverberates through the paddock, a constant hum that thrums in Loganâs chest as he steps into the Andretti garage. Itâs yet another race weekend, and the energy is electric, a mix of anticipation and nerves hanging in the air.
The team is buzzing around him, mechanics fine-tuning the car, engineers buried in data, but Loganâs focus is on the familiar figure leaning casually against the back wall, arms crossed, watching the hustle with an almost serene smile.
Logan stops in his tracks, eyebrows raising in surprise. Itâs not that Mario isnât around â heâs a constant presence in the team, always keeping an eye on things â but he usually doesnât show up this early in the weekend, and certainly not with that look on his face.
Itâs a smile Logan recognizes all too well, a mix of pride and mischief that means only one thing: Mario knows something that everyone else doesnât, and itâs going to shake things up.
Logan weaves his way through the garage, sidestepping the organized chaos until heâs standing in front of Mario. âYou look like youâre up to something,â Logan says, crossing his arms to mirror the older manâs posture. âWhatâs going on?â
Marioâs smile widens just a fraction, his eyes glinting with a secret. âNow, what makes you think Iâm up to anything, kid?â
Logan chuckles, shaking his head. âBecause I know that look. Youâve got news.â
Mario doesnât respond immediately. Instead, he pushes off the wall and motions for Logan to follow him to a quieter corner of the garage, away from the prying eyes and ears of the rest of the team. Logan follows, his curiosity piqued. Whatever Marioâs about to tell him, itâs big.
When theyâre sufficiently out of earshot, Mario leans in slightly, his voice dropping to a conspiratorial whisper. âYou remember how I told you a while back that we were working on something big for the team?â
Logan nods, his interest fully captured. âYeah. Whatâs up?â
Marioâs smile turns almost wicked. âWell, it seems that James Vowles and Williams think theyâre going to secure Adrian Newey for next season.â
Loganâs eyes widen slightly. Newey is a legend in the sport, the kind of designer who can turn a good team into a championship-winning one. If Williams were to get him, it would be a game-changer. âWait, you said they think theyâre going to get him?â
âExactly.â Marioâs grin is practically gleeful now. âWhat they donât know is that Adrianâs already in talks with us. In fact, weâre just about ready to sign the deal.â
Logan lets out a low whistle, the magnitude of the news sinking in. âYouâre serious?â
âDead serious. By this time next week, Adrian Newey will be working for Andretti.â
Logan canât help the wide smile that spreads across his face. This is huge, a move that will send shockwaves through the paddock. With Newey on board, Andrettiâs chances of becoming a front-runner in F1 just skyrocketed. âI canât believe it,â Logan says, shaking his head in disbelief. âThatâs going to change everything.â
Mario nods, satisfaction evident in his expression. âItâs a big deal, no doubt about it. But weâve still got work to do. We canât get complacent, not with whatâs at stake. But this ⊠this is a big step in the right direction.â
Loganâs mind is already racing ahead, thinking about what this means for the team, for his own career. The idea of driving a car designed by Newey is almost surreal. âWhen are you going to announce it?â
âNot until everythingâs signed and sealed,â Mario replies. âBut once itâs done, weâll make sure the whole world knows. And Williams ⊠well, theyâre in for a nasty surprise.â
Logan laughs, the sound coming out more exhilarated than he intended. The idea of one-upping Vowles, especially after everything thatâs happened between them, is deeply satisfying. âI canât wait to see the look on Vowlesâ face when he finds out.â
Mario pats Logan on the shoulder, the gesture filled with a camaraderie that Logan has come to cherish. âNeither can I, kid. Neither can I.â
As they walk back towards the main part of the garage, Loganâs mind is still reeling from the news. Heâs been focused on the present, on making sure he performs at his best every time heâs out on the track, but this ⊠this opens up a whole new realm of possibilities. With Newey on board, thereâs no telling what they can achieve.
When you spot him from across the garage, the look on his face must give away that somethingâs up because you immediately make your way over, your expression curious. âWhatâs going on?â You ask as soon as youâre close enough.
Logan glances around, making sure no one is within earshot, and then leans in, his voice low. âMario just dropped a bombshell. Andrettiâs about to sign Adrian Newey.â
Your eyes widen in shock, and Logan watches as a grin spreads across your face, mirroring his own excitement. âNo way. Thatâs ⊠huge!â
âI know,â Logan says, still barely able to believe it himself. âThis changes everything.â
You reach out, placing a hand on his arm, your voice filled with pride. âYouâre going to be driving a car designed by Newey. Do you realize how amazing that is?â
Logan nods, the reality of it finally sinking in. âYeah, I do. Itâs ⊠I canât even put it into words.â
You laugh, shaking your head in disbelief. âYou donât have to. I can see it on your face.â
For a moment, Logan just stands there, soaking it all in. The garage is still bustling around them, the team oblivious to the monumental news thatâs just been dropped in their laps. But Logan knows that soon enough, everything is going to change. This is the kind of move that can define a career, that can take a team from being contenders to being champions.
But more than that, itâs a chance for redemption. A chance to prove to everyone â including himself â that he belongs here, that heâs capable of more than anyone ever gave him credit for. The past is behind him now, and with you by his side, and Newey in the garage, the future looks brighter than ever.
Logan glances over at you, seeing the pride and excitement in your eyes, and feels a surge of gratitude. For the second chance heâs been given, for the team that believes in him, and for you, the person whoâs been there through it all.
âWeâre going to do something amazing, you know that?â Logan says, his voice filled with conviction.
You nod, your smile soft but full of certainty. âI know. And I canât wait to see it.â
Neither can Logan.
***
Loganâs heart is still pounding from the rush of the race as he stands on the podium, feeling the weight of the Miami sun on his shoulders. The crowd roars below him, a sea of red, white, and blue as far as the eye can see, their energy pulsing through his veins. He can hardly believe it. A podium at his home race, in front of a crowd that feels like family, is something heâd dreamed about since he was a kid.
He turns, looking out over the crowd, his eyes scanning for you. Youâre there, as you always are, standing with the Andretti team, your smile brighter than the sun. The mechanics are cheering, patting each other on the back, but Logan only has eyes for you. Itâs like everything else falls away â the noise, the cameras, the pressure of the season â all of it fades into the background. All that matters is the way youâre looking at him, like heâs your entire world.
He takes a deep breath, the realization of what heâs about to do washing over him. His hands shake, just slightly, as he reaches up and touches the chain around his neck, feeling the weight of the ring thatâs been hidden there for weeks, waiting for this moment.
Without another thought, he drops to one knee, right there on the podium. The world seems to stop as he looks up at you, the crowd going silent in his mind. He hears the sharp intake of breath from the Andretti crew, sees the shock on your face as you register whatâs happening.
âHey,â he says, his voice steady despite the adrenaline coursing through him. âI ⊠I donât know if I can put into words what you mean to me. Youâve been with me through everything â the wins, the losses, the crazy twists and turns. And I canât imagine going through any of it without you by my side.â He pauses, the weight of the moment sinking in. âSo I guess what Iâm trying to say is ⊠will you marry me?â
Your eyes widen, and for a second, youâre frozen in place, staring at him in disbelief. Then, as if breaking free from a spell, you laugh, a sound thatâs pure joy, and nod vigorously. The next thing Logan knows, youâre being lifted onto the podium by the mechanics, tears of happiness streaming down your face as you launch yourself into his arms.
âYes,â you say, your voice trembling with emotion. âYes, of course, I will!â
The crowd erupts into cheers, the noise deafening as Logan slides the ring onto your finger. He pulls you close, his lips finding yours in a kiss that tastes like victory, love, and everything good in the world. The mechanics are going wild, chanting your names, and someone â Logan thinks it might be Mario â pops open a bottle of champagne, spraying it over everyone.
Itâs chaotic, itâs perfect, and itâs a moment that Logan knows heâll remember for the rest of his life. As he holds you close, feeling the warmth of your body against his, he realizes that this â right here, with you in his arms, and his home crowd cheering around him â is the true victory. The rest is just a bonus.
He pulls back slightly, just enough to look into your eyes. âYou know,â he says, his voice low so only you can hear, âI always knew I was lucky. But this ⊠this is something else entirely.â
You smile, the kind of smile that makes his heart skip a beat, and lean in to kiss him again. âWeâre both lucky, Logan,â you whisper against his lips. âAnd this is just the beginning.â
***
The paddock is buzzing with activity, the hum of engines and the chatter of mechanics creating a familiar symphony that Logan finds oddly comforting. Itâs the start of another race weekend, but this one feels different. Thereâs an undercurrent of excitement in the air, a mix of nerves and anticipation that has nothing to do with the cars or the track.
Logan slips away from the Andretti garage, his eyes scanning the bustling paddock as he makes his way toward the Williams garage. Heâs done his best to stay clear of them ever since re-entering Formula 1, but today is different. Today, he has a reason to be there â a reason that brings a small, almost mischievous smile to his lips.
The Williams garage is a flurry of motion, mechanics and engineers huddled over laptops, surrounded by toolboxes and tires. The sight brings a wave of nostalgia crashing over Logan, but he quickly pushes it aside. He isnât here for a trip down memory lane.
Spotting Alex Albon near the back, Logan weaves through the chaos, his steps light and easy despite the tension he can feel crawling up his spine. Alex is engrossed in a conversation with his race engineer, but when Logan steps up, he looks up in surprise.
âLogan!â Alex greets, his face splitting into a wide grin. âWhat are you doing here? Slumming it with the backmarkers?â
âSomething like that,â Logan replies, his tone light as he pulls a small, cream-colored envelope from his jacket pocket. He hands it to Alex, who takes it with a curious tilt of his head. âFigured I should deliver this in person.â
Alex flips the envelope over, his eyes widening slightly as he reads the names printed in elegant script on the front â his and Lilyâs. He breaks into a grin, already understanding what it is before he even opens it.
âNo way,â Alex says, pulling out the invitation and quickly scanning the details. âYouâre really doing it, huh? Getting hitched?â
Logan chuckles, feeling a warmth spread through his chest at the thought. âYeah, we are. And weâd love for you and Lily to be there.â
âWouldnât miss it for the world,â Alex replies, his grin softening into something more sincere. âCongrats, man. You two are great together.â
Logan nods, grateful for the genuine well-wishes. Heâs about to say something else when a flicker of movement catches his eye. Glancing up, he sees James Vowles standing a few feet away, his expression unreadable as he watches the exchange between Logan and Alex.
For a brief moment, the past rushes back â the frustration, the disappointment, the sense of being discarded like a broken part. Logan feels a familiar pang of bitterness, but he quickly tamps it down. He isnât that person anymore. Heâs moved on, and heâs got better things â better people â in his life now.
Still, he canât help himself.
He meets Jamesâ gaze head-on, his smile shifting into something a bit more pointed, more deliberate. âOh, James?â He says, his voice carrying just enough to be heard over the noise of the garage. âSeems like your invitation mustâve gotten lost in the mail. Real shame.â
Jamesâ eyes narrow slightly, his jaw tightening, but he doesnât respond. The tension between them is almost tangible, thickening the air around them. Logan holds his gaze for a moment longer, then shrugs exaggeratingly before turning his attention back to Alex.
âAnyway, hope to see you there,â Logan says, clapping Alex on the shoulder before stepping back. âTell Lily weâre looking forward to it.â
âWill do,â Alex replies, still smiling but with a touch of unease as he glances between Logan and James.
Logan doesnât linger. He turns on his heel and strides back through the garage, the small, satisfied grin still tugging at his lips. He can feel Jamesâ eyes boring into his back, but he doesnât care. Let him stew, Logan thinks. Heâs got more important things on his mind.
As he exits the garage and steps back into the sun-drenched paddock, Logan takes a deep breath, feeling lighter, freer. The thought of the wedding, of you waiting for him back in the Andretti garage, fills him with a sense of contentment that he never thought heâd find in the world of Formula 1.
He spots you before you see him, standing with Mario and a few other Andretti team members, animatedly talking about something. Your laughter rings out over the noise of the paddock, and Logan feels his heart swell with affection.
Itâs funny how things work out, he thinks. How life has a way of surprising you, of turning things around when you least expect it. Heâs come a long way from that lost, angry kid who thought heâd never get a second chance. And now, here he is, standing on the cusp of a future thatâs brighter than anything he could have imagined.
He picks up his pace, eager to get back to you, to tell you about the exchange with Alex and the little jab he couldnât resist throwing at James. But as he draws closer, you turn and catch sight of him, your face lighting up in a way that makes his breath catch in his throat.
âHey, you,â you call out, stepping away from the group to meet him halfway. âDid you get it done?â
Logan nods, a grin spreading across his face. âYeah, I did. Alex and Lily are in.â
âAnd Vowles?â You ask, a knowing glint in your eyes.
Logan chuckles, slipping an arm around your waist as he leans in to press a quick kiss to your lips. âLetâs just say ⊠he didnât make the cut.â
You laugh, the sound pure and full of joy, and itâs the best thing Loganâs heard all day. âGood. You donât need that kind of negativity at our wedding.â
âNo, I donât,â Logan agrees, feeling a rush of relief that youâre by his side, making even the most awkward encounters bearable. âAnd anyway, weâve got more than enough people who actually care about us.â
You nod, your expression softening as you look up at him. âYeah, we do. And I canât wait to celebrate with them â with you.â
Logan feels a warmth spread through him, the same warmth heâs felt ever since the day he realized just how much you meant to him. Itâs a feeling that never gets old, no matter how many podiums or victories he racks up. Because at the end of the day, itâs moments like this â simple, shared moments with you â that matter the most.
As the two of you head back toward the Andretti garage, Logan canât help but think about how far heâs come. From the chaos of that first season in Formula 1, the heartbreak of being dropped, to the wild success of his time in IndyCar, and now, back in the sport he loves, with you by his side.
He knows there will be more challenges ahead â there always are in this world. But for now, heâs content to focus on the here and now, on the love heâs found and the life heâs building with you.
And as you walk together through the paddock, the sun casting long shadows on the ground, Logan canât help but feel like the luckiest guy in the world. Not because of the cars, or the fame, or even the victories, but because of you â because youâre the one thing in his life that makes all the twists and turns worth it.
And he wouldnât trade that for anything.
***
The roar of the crowd is deafening, a wall of sound that crashes against Logan as he stands on top of the podium. His hands grip the trophy tightly, the cold metal grounding him as the reality of it all sinks in. Heâs done it. Logan Sargeant, the kid from Florida who almost lost everything, is now the World Driversâ Champion.
The first American to do so since Mario Andretti himself.
Heâs fought hard for this moment, clawed his way back from the brink of obscurity, and now here he is, at the pinnacle of motorsport. The champagne sprays around him, but all Logan can focus on is the sight of you, beaming up at him from the edge of the podium. Youâre standing beside Mario, whoâs wearing a grin as wide as Loganâs ever seen. Youâre bouncing on the balls of your feet, hands clasped together, eyes sparkling with a mix of pride and joy.
He barely registers the other drivers beside him, the interviews, or the flashes of cameras. Everything narrows to you and the overwhelming sense of accomplishment swelling in his chest. Youâve been there through it all, from the moment he took that leap of faith into IndyCar, to the sleepless nights before his first season back in Formula 1. Every high and every low has led to this, and youâve never wavered.
Logan canât help the way his gaze shifts slightly to the left, where James Vowles stands at the edge of the crowd, arms crossed, lips pressed into a thin line. Thereâs a tightness to his expression, a bitterness that Logan recognizes all too well.
But as much as heâd love to revel in that small victory, he finds that he doesnât care. Not really. The vindication is sweet, sure, but it pales in comparison to the sight of you and the emotions radiating from you like the warmest of suns.
You notice him looking at you, and you blow him a kiss, laughing when he pretends to catch it, holding it to his chest. Thereâs no place heâd rather be than right here, right now, with you by his side.
The ceremony starts to wrap up, and as the photographers move in closer for shots, Logan can see Mario nudging you forward. Youâre waving your hands at your grandfather, as if to say no, youâre fine where you are, but Marioâs having none of it. The mechanics and team members part to let you through, and Logan watches with an ever-growing smile as you finally make your way up onto the podium.
When you reach him, Logan pulls you into his arms without hesitation, lifting you off your feet as the crowd goes wild. He spins you around, feeling the way you cling to him, your laughter ringing out in his ear.
âYou did it,â you say when he finally sets you down, your voice thick with emotion.
âNo,â Logan corrects, brushing a strand of hair behind your ear. âWe did it.â
You roll your eyes playfully, but thereâs no hiding the way your eyes glisten. âYouâre unbelievable.â
âAnd you love me for it,â Logan teases, leaning in to press his forehead against yours.
âYeah,â you whisper, âI really do.â
The moment is interrupted by Mario clearing his throat, and Logan turns to see him holding a bottle of champagne, a wicked glint in his eyes. âNow, are we celebrating or what?â
Logan laughs, grabbing the bottle and popping the cork, spraying the contents over you and Mario, who both shout in surprise. The rest of the team quickly follows suit, and soon, the podium is a chaotic mess of laughter, champagne, and pure, unfiltered joy.
As the celebrations continue around him, Logan takes a step back, watching the scene unfold. His heart swells with a sense of contentment heâs never felt before. Heâs always been driven, always had his eyes set on the next goal, the next race, the next win. But standing here, with you by his side, he realizes that heâs found something even more important than all of that.
Heâs found a home.
A family.
And heâs never letting go.
The night carries on in a blur of congratulatory hugs, media obligations, and team celebrations. But as the crowd starts to thin and the energy begins to mellow, Logan finds himself sitting on the edge of the podium, his legs dangling off the side. The cool night air brushes against his skin, the sounds of the city in the distance providing a soft backdrop to the dwindling celebrations.
You find him there, sitting in silence, and without a word, you join him. You lean into his side, and he wraps an arm around you, pulling you close.
âItâs still sinking in,â Logan admits after a while. âI donât think Iâll ever get used to this feeling.â
You tilt your head up to look at him, your eyes filled with warmth. âYouâve earned it, Logan. Every single bit of it. Donât ever doubt that.â
He nods, resting his chin on top of your head. âIt just feels ⊠surreal. Like Iâm living in a dream.â
âWell, if this is a dream,â you say, a mischievous smile playing on your lips, âthen itâs one I never want to wake up from.â
Logan chuckles softly, his heart swelling with affection. âYou and me both.â
The two of you sit there in comfortable silence, watching as the final remnants of the celebration begin to fade. The stadium lights dim, and the night sky takes over, a blanket of stars twinkling above you. Itâs peaceful, a stark contrast to the chaos of the day, and Logan canât help but feel grateful for this quiet moment with you.
âI used to think winning was everything,â Logan says after a while, his voice barely above a whisper. âThat nothing else mattered as long as I crossed the finish line first.â
âAnd now?â You ask, your tone gentle, inviting him to continue.
âNow I know that itâs not just about the win,â Logan replies, his gaze fixed on the horizon. âItâs about the journey. The people who stand by you, who lift you up when youâre down, who make the victories sweeter and the losses bearable. Itâs about finding something worth fighting for, and never letting go of it.â
You smile, your fingers intertwining with his. âSounds like youâve learned a lot.â
Logan nods, turning his head to look at you. âI have. And itâs all because of you.â
You laugh softly, shaking your head. âI think youâre giving me too much credit.â
âNot at all,â Logan says, his voice firm. âYouâve been my rock, my anchor. I wouldnât be here without you.â
You look at him, your eyes shining with unshed tears. âLogan âŠâ
âI mean it,â he says, his voice gentle yet unwavering. âYouâre the best thing thatâs ever happened to me.â
You donât respond with words; instead, you lean in, capturing his lips in a soft, lingering kiss. Itâs a kiss filled with promises, with unspoken words, and with a love that has grown stronger with every challenge, every victory, every moment shared.
When you finally pull away, Logan rests his forehead against yours, his eyes closed, his heart full. âI love you,â he whispers, the words carrying the weight of all he feels.
âI love you too,â you reply, your voice just as soft, just as full of emotion.
The world fades away as the two of you sit there, wrapped up in each other. Logan knows that there will be more challenges ahead, more races to win, more obstacles to overcome. But as long as he has you by his side, he knows that he can face anything.
Because, in the end, itâs not just about the racing. Itâs about the people who make it all worthwhile.
And for Logan Sargeant, that person is you.
As the night deepens and the city quiets, Logan realizes that this is just the beginning. The beginning of a new chapter, a new journey, with you right beside him. And whatever the future holds, he knows one thing for certain:
Heâs exactly where heâs meant to be.
And with you, heâs already won.
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Imagine how curious about humanity Morax must have been when he first began ruling over them. Pre-Liyue and pre-Guili Assembly era. He probably didn't even have a human form then, so he'd lord his land in exuvia form.
"Why do you humans cover your bodies?" the draconic god asks you, eyes sweeping over the long tunic you're wearing. His elongated form coils nicely around the hilltop, with enough room still for his tail to swish around.
You're nearly sent rolling down this hill in surprise at your god's question. "Well, my lord," you squeak after a beat, "clothes protect us from the heat and cold. They also protect our modesty."
"Modesty?" he repeats.
Nodding, you continue meekly, "Our bodies are precious and certain parts are private. It's embarrassing for other people to see them..." Your face burns with every word you say.
The god mulls this over for a moment. "I see. It is a body possessed by all, yet it must be concealed...how intriguing."
Not wanting to let this drag on, you start to turn around. "I-if you'll excuse me, my lord, I need to go take a bath. It's been a long day outside..."
Morax seems to think for a moment. "Very well. Allow me to assist you." His tail wags.
Your eyes widen. "Assist with - with the bath?!"
"Yes. Why not?"
It feels like you'll explode from the mortification. "Modesty, my lord...I wish to protect my modesty!" You fret over whether he'll find it rude if you just took off and ran right about now.
Morax tilts his head, his fur whipping in the evening breeze. "But I am not a human, so you needn't protect yourself from me. And as a god, it is my duty to help my people where I am able."
"So kind of you, yes! But no thank you! Goodbye!" You practically tumble down the hill to get away, leaving a slightly nonplussed Morax behind.
Unfortunately, the river you go to bathe in is also the river Morax has decided to drink from today. He maintains eye contact with you the whole time.
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