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purplepeptobismol · 4 days ago

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The urge to quit my job and become a full time fic writer is strong. I was born to do this.

#just finished my monthly therapy sesh (literally only see her once a month because of financial issues)#and we were talking about how I love creating fanfiction because I enjoy creating in general #like #you guys don’t understand how much I enjoy sitting down in front of my screen and draft all the stories #and planning all these scenes and emotions #the underlined meanings and messages #the passion and love #THIS IS WHAT MAKES ME FEEL FULLFILMENT #THIS IS WHAT MAKES ME FEEL ALIVE #What makes me feel human #and its one thing to say ‘well you can just become a writter and write your own stories’#which yeah #I get what you mean but that’s not it #I don’t want people to pay for these stories #and majority of it is mainly focused because I LOVE the characters and I want to explore their dynamic in different settings #all I want is for other people to enjoy these things with me #I want to talk about my niche interest #my deep dives #and other ideas I have in my mind #i genuinely believe that I have both the passion and the skill #the only problem is that I don’t have the financial stability #oh </3 to live a life where you don’t have to worry about surviving and just let yourself BE [human]#(<< wait this is a banger too #im adding this in TOTYAM)#uta blabs

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godblooded · 3 months ago

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so like… controversial opinion but… if you agree there should be more female muses or lesbians… uhh… write them?

#ooc. o kaptain.#[I totally get write what you want. but as a writer for a long long lifetime if you only write your specific niche… you will never grow as a #writer. if you only focus on what you yourself are obsessively interested in… it’s going to repel people from wanting to interact with you.#you literally can’t improve if you don’t move outside your comfort zone in a sane way. and frankly? I’m just off my ass exhausted about #going ‘man I wish I had more female muses to write with’ and getting a bunch of agreement. but no one ever actually writes women. much less #queer ones. and those of us who do just go 🙂 haha that’s nice thank you for being supportive. and it’s never going to change anything. and #that’s exhausting. but at some point? it’s honestly just so disheartening and practically upsetting that I’ve been here since I was 19 and #it has only become more and more voraciously malecentric. in a WILD way that’s completely unselfaware. half this community wouldn’t pass the #bechdel test which isn’t even a real actual thing more than the bare minimum. and frankly? as the writer of mostly female muses? it’s #shitty. it feels a lot like a consolation prize half the time just to be written with and that… sucks. I’m just talking honestly because #this? I hate it. I so hate it. it’s half the reason new interactions feel exhausting. because FINDING them is hard enough.]#negativity /#negativity in tags /

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icewindandboringhorror · 10 months ago

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boy in silly sitting positions compilation

#cats #I especially like the last one where he just has one single paw poking out of that box for some reason lol #I still have costumes to post and like a billion other things.... grr... constantly failing at staying active on social media aughh #I think because currently my Main Focus is on trying to get my game done and stuff.. which basically just means sitting and writing all day #so there's not much to post about. Though I know the Good At Social Media thing to do would be to post about the #writing and share progress and talk about the game and characters or whatever to try to build interest or something but that is SOOO weird #to me.. I could maybe get it if it was like a tiny tiny discord groupchat of playtesters with like 5 people in #it.. But something about talking openly about things before they happen is weird to me?? Like presumptuous feeling or something #''oooo guess whats gonna happen LATER!!!'' like.. how do you know.. what if it doesnt. what if you dont finish it. what if its not the way #you think it's going to be. what if something changes. etc. Like I literally avoid movie trailers and game trailers for the same reason ghj #Even if it's not ME doing it it just feels... weird.. Maybe it has to do with my OCD and how I just don't like talking about ''future''#things in Certain Terms. Like if I was going to say ''Oh yeah sure. come over to my house in a few months''. I would have to follow it up #with like ''HOPEFULLY you can come over to my house in a few months'' or 'They'll come over in a few months MOST LIKELY''. Because just #stating that something will happen matter of factly takes for granted like.. what if somehting horrible happens and I DONT have a house #in a few months? or what if something bad happens to me. or to the person coming over? I can't ever DEFINITELY say with 100% certainty #that one could ACTUALLY come to my house in a few months. anything could change. So I have to allot for that in my phrasing. hbjjkn #There are a lot of situations where you're expected to just Assume Things but for some reason that bothers me. My brain literally does not #even Assume the most basic things.. like how do *I* know that just because it's someones birthday that they want to be wished a happy #birthday? what if they dont? everyone is different and has different preferences. I should check with them first. or wait until they public #ly announce that theyre accepting birthday wishes. I have to allot for all 5034859069 rare possibilities at any given time and never take #anything for certain. etc. ghjbjhbh.... ANYWAY.. I have been feeling a bit sick lately as usual.. but still slowly making progress on some #things. Moslty I need to edit costume photos. make sculptures. and work on the game. Going back reading some of the old writing from like #2018 and suprisingly I don't have to change that much of it? In fact I like it mostly. so that's good. I would be very interested if I were #playing the game myself. Though that doesnt mean much since my tastes are so niche lol..#Still really want to clear some of my million tumblr drafts as well... alas and aughh and ooughh and so on and so forth. Between all of my #evil appointments other such things...why cant I have one billion dollar to retire into relaxed hermit artist life of no stressors.. bleas

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thigh-inspectors · 9 months ago

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oh no, accidentally awake at 4am which means it's feel-weird-about-things time 🤡

#fandom behavior and archival tendencies are both inherently weirdo behavior but also so very important #so many niche interests of mine just vanish into the depths of time and the internet as accounts get deleted and websites go down #so many videos i used to love that I'll never see again. so much of my own art and writing gone with old fansites in the 2000s #so many things i wish i could see or read or experience again just gone forever and it makes sme want to hoard EVERYTHING #but then i feel SUPER WEIRD for hoarding stuff about bands because they're just... some dudes. across the planet. I'll never meet.#like why am I doing that??? its weird??? i feel weird about it????#anyway i promise that even if I stop posting to this blog someday that I won't deactivate so people can still access it!!!#mod talks

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sunfloweraroace · 3 days ago

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I have the opportunity to do a presentation night for the sociology/anthropology society at my university but I don’t know what topic to pick

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mecha--maniac · 5 days ago

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A dump of some Mephiles concept sketches for my Frostbite AU (working title)

No context unless asked for; I am autistic and have too much to say about it.

#mephiles #mephiles the dark #sonic au #frostbite au #light gore #light bodyhorror #at least I'm guessing that's an ok way to tag it? I dunno if bones count as gore or if this is body horror #guess I should also tag #bones #hos face looks dumb in the last one. completely defleshed face doesn't work super well for toony characters does it #maybe it'd look better if there was less receding flesh so he still has eyebrows and lids to cover the eyes a bit #I think that one was a test to see what I thought of exposed-skull FB Meph and the answer is 'meh' at best I think #I want people to talk to me about au things but I don't market them enough for anyone to be interested :[#my aus are weird and niche and autistic and only rarely have any shipping in them #I thought about about Evil Sonadow (Meph/Metal) for this but I don't think this AU's Metal fits great with grumpy gay dad energy Mephiles #maybe I can just make a new Metal that's a bit more stoic than the kinda bratty one I have currently #but not *too* stoic because that's TeamDarkAU!Metal's thing #anyway

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asfdhgsdkjhgb · 15 days ago

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guys i need to be dancing at a house party tipsy with someone im attracted to so bad btw. ive never been to a house party in real life (though id quite like to at least once) but i really have been desperately needing that specific (probably awful for me) sensory and social environment so bad lately

#just me rambling again #i keep looking through ao3 to try to find smth with the exact vibe im looking for but cant :(( might have to grab hold of some old or some #half made ocs and write it myself idk. or just like. find a way to experience it irl #oh btw ! tmrw night slumber party w one of my friends who ive been wanting to hang out with more + also happens to be the one i recently go #to smooch on the mouth :3333 #the stated purpose is ive been trying to get her to yap at me abt her biggest fandom / interest for ages and just explain all of the lore #and story and characters to me bc ive been wantign to hear abt it from her but we just havent had a good time #and also i cannot lie i hope that i can smooch them on the mouth again! theyre such a lovely person and so very pretty #ive been meaning to tumblr tag ramble abt that for a bit and forgot anyways i have straight up told them and also one of our other friends #that if they get invited to a party ever they should please please lpeaseeeeeee see if they can invite me along #my brain has a half assed hope at maybe getting the teen party experience (most likely not oging to happen for me but it is a real life #possibly grounding for little daydream of wants) bc a somewhat popular guy the year below me (guy i fancied when i was in the play fun fact #for any loyal frog lore enjoyers) put smth on his instagram story like if i throw a bday party is anyone interested ?? with like a story #poll and obviously i picked the affirmative bc i dont know him super well but he knows a lot of ppl i know and i did a cool photoshoot with #him once idk im hoping if its a big event i have a shot at going (as aforementioned--not going to happen in real life but a man can dream)#sigh i recently made a new playlist of the weird yearning ive got going on rn and the flavor of my minds niche longings #its a good playlist #idk ive been so nothing recently im just excited that i get to see my friends this weekend i get to hang out w some of my besties tmrw #through the day too im very excited #OH ALSO omg im just throwing every single diary update i have into one post now ig but erm #ive realized recently (last week or two) that i think im finally 'over' my most recent relationship?#like im still sad abt the fact that my high school best friend.. doesnt talk to me anymore #and im still coping with all of the nightmare insecurities i have deep in my mind being proven correct within the past however many months #but like i only just registered oh hell yeah at the very least i dont have like. romantic feelings of any sort still towards her? i do #love my wonderful ex gf shes such a lovely person and for a long time was an amazing friend to me #but it feels like a weight is off of my chest i straight up was sitting in the feeling of well i'll be missing her forever and i just have #to live like this forever oh well but like. no im chilling in that regard actually we're clear.#idk ive had like nothing going on lately i work and school and i think about my feelings SOMETIMES #i try not to generally but they always get in somehow you know how it is.

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fictionadventurer · 1 year ago

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Who wants to see one of the dumbest purchases I've ever made in my life?

An actual 1881 copy of a book with all the info your average American could possibly want about the recently-assassinated President James Garfield. It was just sitting there at the used bookstore! I didn't even have to fight anyone for it!

As far as I can tell, it includes:

the campaign biography that was written for his presidential election

transcripts of some of his speeches, including the speech to nominate John Sherman at the 1880 Republican Convention, and his inaugural address

a full account of the assassination

recountings of his final moments and the funeral

the autopsy

a history of the Lincoln assassination for some reason

accounts of the world's reaction to the assassination

a list of all the prominent world figures who'd recently been assassinated

a whole lot of eulogies by some people who knew him and probably a bunch who didn't

This gets detailed. There's a full chart of every single round of voting from the 1880 Republican nomination convention.

A short bio of our boy Chet Arthur (with astounding illustrated sideburns).

And lots of illustrations!

As a book, it's not something to sit down and read (or to trust with much historical accuracy as a biography). As a historical object, though, I'm going to get an absurd amount of delight out of this stupid thing.

#history is awesome #presidential talk #and with this post i've fulfilled 50% of my reason for buying it #i should have been content to know this exists #and just left it on the shelf #i paid more than i wanted to for it #but for a book this old and obscure it's actually a steal #do i need it? no #does anyone? not unless you're writing a biography #but this is not about practicality #it's about the fact that i find it hilarious that this exists #in a random used book store #and fits in with one of my historical niche interests

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lesbiansayaishii · 1 year ago

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meddison a league of their own au. claiming this for myself

#no this is not just so i can combine two of my very niche interests. except it is. it really is #i want to put them in the 40s. does anyone see it #meredith as carson... addison as greta...#the thing lupe says about the legs and the height. yeag #callie as jo!!!! greta&jo besties turns to callie&addison besties #oh i can see it. brb #a league of their own #grey's anatomy #meddison #meredith grey #addison montgomery #callie torres #kinda #thea talks #bailey would be the maybelle of the equation btw. or maybe arizona if we're going the jobelle route

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born-to-lose · 4 months ago

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Hot guitarist who flirted with me and put single as his Facebook status despite being in a relationship for 8 years sent me an invitation to a gig in the middle of Lower Bavarian nowhere 💀

#interesting that he thought of me and how i asked him about upcoming shows while we were drunk back in early august #but i'm not going bc how the fuck will i get there and it's too close to his home so his gf will be there... where's the added value for me #i mean yeah it's closer than the cherie currie uk dates in winter but dude. you know i live at the other end of the state #ask seb to book your main band for a club show up here again 😭 it's got better vibes i get there easily and i can do what i want here #might text him about it actually like yo ask to be opener for one of the more niche shows in the next months #i need to tell my concert bestie about it omg i need to add on to the groupie lore how did i forgetttt #mel talks

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storybounded · 7 months ago

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That's right, I need to make a new main that separates Lisa and her horse from SSO and practically make them adopted oc's LMAO.

#&&. idk man my interest for SSO is like drastically waning because of how much of a mess it is and it doesn't help my #&&. my interest for the game has dropped below 0 #&&. I just hate throwing her at people in that verse if they know next to nothing about it #&&. and I don't even have the spoons to explain that well because I don't even understand it these days #&&. But Lisa won't go anywhere I love my country princess #&&. maybe make her a red dead verse #&&. and some other fun whimsy verses #&&. SSO will still be included as an secondary main for those #&&. who already know how much of a mess it is but still love it anyway LMAO #&&. it's just hard to get motivated to talk about a niche character to others when I can't even recommend to check out the story :C #&&. I don't want people to suffer through the confusion of how convoluted it is because I am suffering with it LMAO #&&. the author speaks ( ooc )#&&. idk man it's just weird feelingssss

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shikai-the-storyteller · 2 years ago

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The only thing that's stopping me from writing a ten thousand page essay on Zulu and the implications from today's lore stream is the simple fact that Luzu hit such a specific special interest niche of mine that if I think about it too much I'll cry

But I will say one thing

Do you think when Zulu went to sleep, curled up all by himself and trapped in a small dark place he couldn't get out of, all he could think about was the sun?

#i talk #qsmp talk #I'm not even kidding when I say I cant write out my feelings about Zulu because just writing THIS made me cry again #I try and keep my hyper empathy in check but like I said #the culmination of tropes + the scenario + special interest niche was a recipe of disaster for me #in the sense of ''I cried throughout almost that entire lore stream''#and not even sniffles I CRIED cried #and at the end I was like frickin hell man #I love Zulu though. hes allowed to be evil if he wants to be honestly #I'm so heartbroken over how he was treated #six days old.....#I gotta stop thinking about this it's gonna keep me up all night #Do you think he wondered if he'd ever see the sun again?

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readymades2002 · 1 year ago

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i do love analysing media and art and unfortunately this is where i am most confident talking and i am very bad at stuff like: talking normally and like a person fostering relationships in the world with other people

#it is easy for me to go on and on about media and art and themes and i love doing it #and ive had a lot of discussions that live in my head months if not years after the fact because of it #but it is also easy for me to hide behind because anything actually personal and friendly means #i have to be myself if i want it to mean anything and i want to do it but well i do not like myself #and i dont know how to interact with people as a person and not as a thought process. and it is both lonely (for me)#and DEEPLY annoying and offputting (for the other parties)#attempted to start a conversation with a friend id like to know better the other day and im pretty sure #i immediately scared him off by going on about the mechanics of a game and how they tie into the narrative and its good #for paragraphs. its so. UGH!!! UGH!!!!!#i want to connect with people i want to talk to people i want to engage in conversations with people so badly #but this is the only way i know how to do it. im fun if you want a quick and lively discussion about something niche youre interested in #but as soon as thats over...whats left? i dont know where to go after that #after that i am just some guy who is tired and in pain and doesnt draw much these days. looks at birds sometimes. BORING #annoying background character

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computer-boy · 1 year ago

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Stop shipping quality man Dazai Osamu with irrelevant flop side characters who absolutely do not deserve his greatness and beauty

@sad-emo-dip-dye @justsomewill @stlangels @noxious-amillion @sleepy-kitty-boy @b4ckr00ms-k4ndl3z @gempuff11 @kyoukamybeloved @hmmmmmhmhmh @friedoafauthoreclipse @jkookieflowers @astraltrain @kr0issant @daz4i @pricel0ss @babygirlchuuya @2383-lines-of-code

holy shit theyre still here ahfdhjsafsjhgjhsfsdfugsdf??

#asks #sorry to all the people im pinging but this is hilarious #therye still at it... its been at least half a year #chuugly tag #this is so funny to me. pleaseee please please just get a hobby #i can recommend some things! sewing. gardening. learn a language. crochet. yoga. whatever floats your boat #get interested in some niche science and bother everyone you know about linguistics or entymology or something. collect stamps.#learn an instrument even if the only thing you can play is nursery rhymes. make pins. you can get the plastic clipon templates for 4 bucks #butlike dear anon if you Actually Genuinely For Real consider putting this whole deal on the back burner my dms are open to be friends #im not kidding i want the best for you friend #um please stop harrassing people and insulting art because it has chuuya or soukoku in it though . have you considered you are being #a fucking asshole. or whatever. maybe.#ok talk over nice chatting to you!

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arsenicflame · 2 years ago

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i mean, i still don't actually talk to people, but my god getting back on tumblr has been so good for me. who knew interacting with people who share your interests could be so good for your mental health?

#the sense of community yall make me feel. im so emotional #most of my interests r. super niche so getting into a proper fandom where people interact and care about it???#like sure i don't talk to people but. yall are my friends. i dont feel so alone #like its so dumb but knowing even one (1) person might listen to my sewing ramblings because they WANT to is such a ????#it fills me with warm fuzzy feelings is the best way i can describe it #irl i always feel like i piss people off when i start going off about it but theyre too polite to like. not interact you know?#they aren't gonna tell me to shut up or anything but they would rather i did #but if i write a post on here. its entirely your choice to read it so if you do its bc you want to and the thought. that people want to #hear what i have to say??? in any capacity??? sobbing crying #nyxtalks

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nostalgia-tblr · 2 years ago

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If I could do Fics With A Plot I'd probably attempt An AU Where Lauffey Dies And Odin Goes "Oh Hey, Frost Dudes, I Had Your Heir All Along :D He's Urs Now :D" Except Because This Is A Shit Plan It Does Not Go At All Well. Because it does bother me. Because I worry too much about fictional monarchies having the 'wrong' rules. D:

#this of course means odin has also has to tell his son “btw we lied to you. GUESS WHAT THO!! I GOT U A JOB!!”#and he sends Thor along because a) characters need other characters to talk to and b) he does in fact expect trouble #and I reckon after some sort of tense Confrontation about how if Lauffey wanted rid of his son he should have the guts to make sure he died #instead of leaving it to fate like a COWARD #Loki would - by power of poshness alone - manage to convince one or two Jotuns that he does indeed count as the heir #meanwhile: existential crisis D: D: D:#but hey free kingdom nothing to sneeze at eh? let's go! we can do this!#except (obviously) no. you can't. there is NO WAY there's nobody out there with a counterclaim.#and if your WORST ENEMY raised your new king (who has a questionable claim) you absolutely manage to find a third cousin from somewhere far #off who also has a shaky claim but - here's the thing - he's not an obvious attempt to impose Odin's puppet on your realm #and then Plot would unfold which is why i cant write this despite my Weird Niche Interests being aroused (NOT LIKE THAT) by this idea #also i would answer the “was there no mother involved? did she not mind the infanticide thing?” (could go either way on that really)#essentially Loki does have Scheming Politician energy but sometimes the task really is just impossible #but perhaps surprisingly the ending is a heartwarming reunion and maybe - MAYBE - some sort of vague apology #because that really was The Worst Fucking Plan Of All Time #okay someone stop me making a new file (you-and-whose-army.rtf) and writing the extensive notes i've now got in my head D:#(but an AU so not really!)#do you want a civil war on jotunheim because this is how you get a civil war on jotunheim #...oh no DO you want a civil war on jotunheim?! D: D: was THAT the plan??? D: D:#i'd totally throw in an Ambitious Consort Queen because those are my jam <3 <3 <3 #fic-related #thor movies

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