#I want to stress they all DID move on
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Visit Tumblr Blog
Explore Tumblr blogs with no restrictions, modern design and the best experience.
Last Seen Tumblr Blogs
Fun Fact
Tumblr Inc. is funded by 13 investors.
Text
bird in her gilded cage 💙🪽
#ref/pose is the vogue italia cover from nov 2005 by bruce weber#i realized as i was drawing this that it turned out super similar to the last painting i did of them (the kiss) BAHAH oop#just in a different font#what can i say... i just have a tried and true dynamic/cliche that i like LOL#aka super sane fictional men who just want to keep a girl all to themselves (and also to keep them safe) no red flags here move along#hogwarts legacy#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow x mc#sebastian sallow x oc#sebastian x mc#hogwarts legacy sebastian#choccyart#clora clemons#i painted this in black and white and then added colour afterwards and o my god it was such a pain NEVER AGAIN!!!#i was so stressed bc i liked how i painted it but i was like WHENEVER I TRY TO ADD COLOUR IT SUCKSSSS#idk how some artists paint so well by adding colour later but i SUCK at it... i need to paint in colour from the very start#lesson learned#thank god for gradients they saved me BAHAHA#i still dont know if im happy with this but i am done looking at it
868 notes
·
View notes
Text
I should probably actually finish The Folk of the Air series one of these days...
#aristocratic witterings#i read the cruel prince/the wicked king back in 2019#started queen of nothing in 2020 but then the everything happened and i forgor about it#honestly i haven't felt compelled to finish it bc it was the series that made me realize i was probably getting a bit too old to read YA#at least not at the frequency i was. when you're looking at the teenage characters and shaking your head bc they're just SO STUPID#that's the sign it's over for you i feel lol#i did really like jude as a main character. she wasn't kaye but i still found her entire concept compelling.#but yeah...the fact i kept wishing all the characters were older was my sign that it was time to move on.#(want to stress that i think it's ok to occasionally read ya and middle grade books as an adult. good even.)#(howl's moving castle is a middle-grade book and one of my favorites of all time!)#(but they shouldn't be all or most of the books you read)
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
i miss her…
#cant believe i forgot about her till the photobook q&a im so sorry witch mona~~~~~~~#press f for honeypre atelier gachas it was gone too soon™️#(currently e x t r e m e l y worried and stressed for tomorrow like never before b u t i have to appear like im fine sobs save me monachann)#(can i go on a stress-prompted tangent here about something inane? no? toooo bad im gonna go off anyway~~~~)#ok so. like. since witch mona is the image i have up ‘ere and since it’s still 七月… today’s tangent will be on irl spooky stories!!#s o. presenting a decently repressed memory from my childhood that resurfaced while i was hibernating at home:#anyways. well. thoughts about the afterlife can vary from person to person yes? there’s no one true correct belief after all#but the one question that unites us all is probably the one and only ‘are ghosts real?’#and well. for personal reasons i think so. i mean i’ve seen this one dude i hate get possessed a couple of times so welp. cant deny it ig.#wild story about that actually. back in the day my family’s finances were allegedly doing so badly that [dude i hate] had to pick up#a *c e r t a i n* side hustle for extra cash. that side hustle? literal grave digging at the cemetary. at night no less#and *ofc* he wasn’t respectful about it in the least so ofc some spirits followed him home. yay. free roommates.#one(?) of them even took residence in my room at the time and im 80% sure they ate my history textbook :( much sads#anyways well once that guy had too much to drink (which was rather often tbh) he’d get possessed. fun!#the only possession i ever saw was the n-rarity angry ghost who’d just huff and puff in silence with unfocused eyes most of the time#he’d occasionally put on a leather jacket too. but that was like a r-rarity event that didn’t happen that often#my mother had the chance to also witness the mosquito (who tried to barge into my room for fresh blood) and the 姑娘 (self-explanatory)#which is kinda unfair tbh. i wanted to see the ur-rarity ones too :( mostly bc it’d be funny to see a guy i hate act ooc (impure intentions)#oh right. how did we get the dude out of his possession? we just shook his arm really hard. prolly caused some lasting effects but who know#i think he could also just sleep off the possession but idk i was asleep for the ur-rarity incidents.#cant ask the one witness of it bc i dont want to bring back unnecessary flashbacks of [guy we hate]#anyways it’s been years since we moved out from that place and i still want my history textbook back. mostly for the principle of it but—#and so that’s the tangent of the day. i feel weirdly less stressed now thanks witch mona#i do wonder how my grandparents are faring on this 七月 though…#b u t !!!!! tomorrow’s date on the lunar calendar says it’s an auspicious day for wishful activity and starting a new job!!! so… maybe~~~~?#hauauauauauauauuauaaaaaa anyways insane tangent over stream mona’s new album ok bye#oops forgor to disable rbs i hate how easy it is to forget to use this function man
14 notes
·
View notes
Text
getting that art happenstance in which i reeeaally thought if i finished a long-form project and made gains in the indie comic scene i would feel like what i was doing wasn't totally aimless and yet now that 2024 (objectively my best art year in my life probably) is drawing to a close i feel the exact same way that i did about my art in 2022 (totally aimless). what gives. 😭
#txt#coinciding with having had a few stressful experiences w folks i was acquaintances with thru reani....#which is of course how all fandom experiences shake down eventually. so i should not be shocked.#but its killing my buzz for that particular well of inspiration. which i wanted to move on from anyways.#but i feel like this month ive been like well i did finish that comic. and i even sold it. and people even told me it was impactful.#and yet did it actually mean anything. why did i do that. the ecosystem is identical to how it was before i made it.#i may just be burnt out. is the thing. 😭😭#idk. go my tags essay. i release you
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
when i was in highschool one o my biggest coping mechanisms was drawing all the kids i hated getting killed and eaten and killed. and well. time is a slowly ascending spiral. you will find patterns.(i work as a blackjack dealer. gamblers are FASCINATING
#cw blood#luckys original content#ITS SMALL BUT ITS ART SO IT GOES ON THE ART BLOG#also wwaooooww its meee its my lil persona!!! i dont draw myself enough....#anyway i have bigger things in the works. im slowly but surely chipping away at a pd thumbnail for that pd thumbnail project#FINALLY COLORING. BUT COLORING IS SO HARD AND I HAVNT BEEN IN THE COLORING MOOD#SO IVE JUST BEEN MAKING RLY DUMB COMICS INSTEAD... OOPS..#idk if anything finished n polished will be posted here anytime soon. BUT i post wips of everything on my twitter#and i post jrwi exclusive wips on my slucky blog. you may look at those if u have Truck Art Wishdrawls. as many do. as many do#THIS BLACKJACK JOB IS RLY AWESOME BTW DONT GET ME WRONG#i work three 12-hour days ina row. i gotta take an hourlong bus up to the depths o the mountains and then#i get to stay in this delightful lil hotel that was built in an ooold hospital. its a whole casino town. and an OLD one at that#ITS GORGEOUS HERE. last week my bus home was delayed for 2 hours#so i finally got the chance to head to other casinos and try drinkin n gambling. lost ten bucks to a pretty girl. NOT the first time#i rlly wanna try it again!!! i love interracting w ppl and i love being inebriated in public bc im just so sweet and pleasant and friendly#and pretty girls LLOOOOVEE MEEEEE i think i just need to go to gay bars more#but theres fucking NONE HERE. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im collectin comrade queers up here tho#we wanna make a Group but we just gotta come up witha name first. i need something weird and strange#yknow i remember being in highschool. and being miserable n unmedicated. my mommas ultimatum was that;#if i dont drop out of highschool; i dont need to move out. she probably wouldntve kicked me out anyway bc my mommas sweet like that but#she REALLY wanted me to graduate. and i remember dreading that i might never do that#i remember feeling like the Resident Idiot. sweet but so so fucking dumb. it took me 7 years of strife n stress before i finally graduated#i remember worrying back then that i might not ever be able to handle myself out there. that i'd be too dependant on others#AND HERE I AM. DID U KNOW I WAS LOOKIN AT HOUSES A WHILE AGO? IM AN ADULT AND IM WWINNINNNGGGGGGG#IM RUNNING OUTA ROOM BUT HERES MY ADVICE TO YOU. BC I KNOW UR FUCKING SCARED TOO. THE ONE THING THAT SAVED ME.#THAT KEPT ME FROM SINKING INTO DESPAIR IS REMEMBERING ONE THING: ITS LITERALLY JUST LIKE VIDEO GAMES#MOST PPL YOU CAN JUST WALK UP TO N ASK A QUESTION N THEYLL ANSWER. THEYRE ALL NPCS THEYRE NOT REAL#LIKE IF U WALK INTO A BANK AND ASK HOW A DEBIT CARD WORKS THEY WILL HELP YOU#AND IF YOU THINK THEY HAVE ULTERIOR MOTIVES RELATING TO MONEY. YOU CAN ASK THE CUSTOMERS TOO. ITS JUST LIKE VIDEO GAMES#ANYWAY STAY SAFE KIDS HAVE FUNNNNN. IM GOING TO GO DO DRUGS NOW. HOPE U CAN DO DRUGS SOON TOO. I LOVE YOU
19 notes
·
View notes
Text
The consequences of my poor financial decisions are here!!
#blame Kat for this lmao. she got the Yangchen novels first and I very easily give in to peer pressure (that wasn't exerted. but whatever)#three days earlier than scheduled too. which worked out perfectly bc I picked them up on the way home from grandma's#and carried them for 2 km. 2 hardcover books + the thick cardboard boxset they're in#+ the backpack full of food my grandma gave me#in the rain#I nearly fucking died#I'm not made for this level of physical exercise 😅#okay moving on#nia stop calling things like this poor financial decisions challenge#it cost like. the equivalent of 40 bucks#I have 30 times as much hidden away in my sock drawer#and I am usually responsible with my spending. I'm allowed a slightly more expensive treat every once in a while#also my dad doesn't know but I'm sure if I would him 'hey I spent 3.8k on a pair of books is that okay'#he'd be like 'why tf are you asking when have I ever said no to you spending money'#but again. I do try to be mindful#which is why as much as I want the lok art books and could probably ask for money for them. I won't#bc they cost an arm and a leg and I cannot morally allow myself to spend that kind of money#anyway. getting distracted again#do you know how hard it was to get these? I checked like 3 marketplaces before I did#and I was fully ready to get them in russian because non-classical english books are impossible to come by here#sanctions and all that. but somehow I did. and it only cost half the money in my bank account#I don't even know if Russian editions exist. these books were written before the war and before the gay propaganda ban but still#I didn't find them when I looked. maybe they don't sell them now that the law is in place or smth#I don't really care enough to look it up#the point is. I now own the books and can happily read about best girl kyoshi whenever I want#if the stress for an upcoming event doesn't kill me. that is#also I have read rok before but it was 3 years ago so my memory is vague. and I just realised how much thinner sok is?#I'll have to check the page count later
11 notes
·
View notes
Text
moving this blog is still happening it's just. going a bit slower than planned bc work threw me a hell of a curveball and I've gotta work on finding a new job So unfortunately the blog moving is moving down in priority so I am mainly on discord rn
#its bbkate to those who don't have me#and would want to add me#i love writing and plotting on there too so pls feel free#several bad puns later – out of character.#also i did not lose my job just. in case anyone was wondering and i Am fine rn#they're just forcing everyone in office and i Can't do that so i have until april to find a new job lmao#in all likelihood i'll end up using the blog move thing as stress relief so. it'll hopefully be done soon.
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
guy trapped in a hell of his own creation: haha ive never done anything wrong in my entire life. and im always right:] anyway. why did my little brother move out:(
its so funny to me that at first glance tashi seems like hed be the most 'normal' out of all the clones but at least all the others are slowly healing n shit while hes just getting more and more insane each day and one day hell snap and explode and maim someone
#my art#my funky guys#HES SO FUCKING STUPID.#tashi im sorry ily but youre literally the dumbes fucking motherfucker ive ever seen. and a cringe loser. never change king<3#like. this guy realised he was a clone when he was a month old and decided to base his new personality entirely#on the idealised version of the original he made up in his head.#like he did this to himself!!! he chose to revolve his entire personality around being a 'perfect flawless mom friend'!!!!!!!#in his head hes like the most selfless & altruistic person to ever walk the earth but in reality hes a sad selfish mess who just wants to#be loved.#he started out as a pretty nice and level headed guy who wanted to help ppl but then it just spiraled when he made that his entire#personality bc of his inability to move on from a lie he really wanted to be true.#he percieves shiro as this perfect flawless leader figure and he wants DESPERATELY to imitate that. deep down its not enough for him to#simply coparent and share responsibility w the others. no no no he has to be The Leader and do everything himself!#this mindset results in him later on starting to dismiss and undervalue his familys work and commitment to keeping them all alive-#esp soup. like sHE WAS THERE W HIM FROM THE VERY BEGINNING THEY ARE EQUALS THEY ARE BOTH EQUALLY IMPORTRANT#AND HES SO FAR UP HIS ASS HE FORGOT. somewhere along the line he forgot. he missed the point. he spiraled too deep.#and he knows. he knows but hes so terrified of change and growth and admitting he CANT do this alone.#he wants to be a cool epic capable solo leader AND he craves family and connection soooo badly he cant live w/o his loved ones.#so yeah. hes an angry little pathetic freak<3 i love him#despite all that hes not a bad person. just a flawed guy thrown into a situation so stressful and traumatising that he clinged to the only#coping mechanism he had at the time and just sorta. ran with it.#dw he gets better tho! it takes a lot and his and sticks relationship is strained for a LONG time but he slowly gets better. good for him
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
it has been a long week here comes a tag rant
#personal#so on the 20th i get the news that i got full time at work so i officially have a new job#on the 21st i get into a car crash#on the 22nd i sleep and learn yay im not injured#on the 23rd its my last day at work and i receive $1500#that evening my dad decides to start fighting with me again#on the 24th i pack half my apartment up to move and learn that my cars officially totaled#on the 25th its christmas#today i get my rental car and then my stepdad decides to start a fight with me too#tomorrow i pack the rest of my apartment and fight my landlord#day after that i buy a new car. maybe. a dealer will ATTEMPT to sell me a new car.#its been ups and downs yall#i have made. so many phone calls.#and learned that when you tell someone 'yea my car got totaled : (' theyre always very nice and pity you very much#people on the phone get very sympathetic when you say your cars busted#i appreciate it#the sympathy has been nice. very relieving#i just want to rest?? thatd be nice.#i want one day where i do not have to make a phone call#i didnt have any to make on christmas bc it was christmas but i did spend the entire day in a state of stress#thinking about phone calls#so that didnt really count as rest#at least ive got some time off work before i start full time so this is a semi convenient time to be fielding all this#not convenient but like. not as bad as it could be i guess.#sigh#fluffle talks
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
WHAT THE HELL NOBODY EVER TOLD ME TWO OF MY FAVE VILLAGERS GOT A LINE STICKER TOGETHER. ive loved tabby for YEARS like since 2019 at LEAST. and these stickers are from 2018 how did i not know !!! i love tabby and boots so much 😭😭😭 TABBY AND BOOTS ANIMAL CROSSING I LOVE YOU SO MUCHHHHH OOMFS FOREVER AND EVER
#im so happy any official content of tabby is awesome shes my fave i looooove her so much SHES SO SILLY!!!#and boots was one of my starting residents on acnh so he holds a special place in my heart#in case anyone was wondering which im sure you were not. my other starting villager on acnh was rocket and shes soooo silly i love rocket#not enough people love her like shes so silly. u are all HATERS#anyway i love talking about my acnh villagers I WISH I HAD MY ACNL ONES WRITTEN DOWN. the only ones i remember are tabby and kyle#but my acnh ones atm (and when i say atm i mean they will be probably til the end of time)#are my guy sherb (found on one of the ticket islands)#stiches (who i also found on an island i think?)#chai (i have her amiibo card shes so cute.)#tammi (another island find)#stella (man i really did just take the first villagers i found on an island and kept them huh)#rocket and boots (starter villagers)#tabby (I WAS LOOKING FOR SOMEONE TO TRADE HER TO ME ON REDDIT I THINK? and then they were like oh if shes ur fave u can just have her +#like for free. AND THAT WAS SOOOO AWESOME)#bea (i think she was also a ticket island thingy find)#and finally... tom (ok he has a fun story.#i think it was margie who lived on my island at the time and listen she was SUCH a sweetheart i wanted to keep her forever#(she replaced drift who i found on an island and he was mean to me so i have beef with him. still. like four years later.)#but them tom showed up as a camper and i got this crazy hit of nostalgia and i remembered my guy tom was in my childhood city folk town#and i was like. I MISS MY BOY. COME BACK TO ME. so he moved in)#umm only other villager we had was chadder which i think my little brother picked when we shared the island#i think i remember him saying he got chadder because of dantdm...? i dont remember the details#but i got the sanrio amiibo cards which i need to stress i had wanted for YEARS. i was so fucking happy when they got a rerelease#to the point where like. i couldnt get them at first because they sold out super fast. so#i bought them from someone in twitter dms im so serious. and it fucking worked thats how i got them#anyway i wanted chai to move in because shes my fave of that set (i love cinnamoroll) but i needed someone to move out#which i always get so sad about :( but my brother offered to take chadder so i felt a little better abt it#and then i think we forgot to like. have him come get chadder in boxes. so chadder went off somewhere hope hes living a good life#thats it i think. i wish i kept a list of all my villagers ever but considering ive been playing for a decade or so now that would be. crazy#muffin mumbles
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
my tummy hurts... and i don't wanna be brave about it anymore... ;;
#i think its purely from stress now#i want to quit my job. and i feel like i have to now#there's too much risk of re-injuring my back from having to lift and move heavy stuff for people#plus i already have thought about quitting before. but kept with it for other reasons#and. i was almost terminated recently. but it was absolute bullshit so i got a 'second chance'#im glad i did bc i got some sweet stuff right after that lol#but like. i can't do this anymore. its not healthy for me mentally or physically now#im mostly just. done with it. i've been doing this for 3.5 years. the exact same thing#i need something new. i need time to relax#i have realized that. i don't think i have had a moment of actual peace. in Years.#or like. ever djdgdjd#i have always been stressed out about something or other since moving out. since coming back home#and living w my parents again. back in college. back in high school. like All The Time#i truly do feel sick to my stomach rn... i just don't want to do this anymore. period. im sick of it#vent
2 notes
·
View notes
Note
May I share a small idea?
You could use the poll as some sort of list for some future WIP Wednesdays. The most popular choice is first and then the next in line comes on the next Wednesday when you got the time and so on.
It could save you plenty of time to prepare something and may lessen the pressure a little!
Obviously it’s up to you but I’m leaving the suggestion here for you to think about.
Hope you’re having a good time and remember to stay hydrated and take care of yourself~!
Oh this is a fantastic idea!! I think I will do this!! (Though I am hoping at least three of the options on there will be going up within the next several weeks, all of them are so so close to completion!!)
I will do this though!! Thank you very much for the suggestion friend, it’s a great idea!!
#i think I realize now why it’s taking so long to get all my fics out and why WIPs keep getting backed up#I have been going back and rewriting the initial chapters of HFBE#my earlier work is not my current writing style#and I know that is obvious#but I will flat out say it’s different because my earlier work was lazier#I remember telling myself all the time not to stress about my writing so much because with Uni I did not have the time to do that#so I’d post work even if I wasn’t happy with how it was#otherwise I’d never get any work out#but now I look at my current writing#and I feel like at least it’s more coherent#and more thought and work is put into it#and I am more proud of my current writing than my earlier writing by a longshot#but that’s coming at the price of almost paralyzing scrutiny#as it’s holding me up from posting#I’ve leaned a little too far into it#and I’ve begun to find a balance where I can move on while still criticizing my own writing and adjusting it a little better#work has been moving more consistently again on them#so I’m expecting that when I do finish my WIPs for posting#it’s going to be a lot at once#(does not help that so many of these fics are all tied to each other and I want to post all the connecting fics in between larger chapters#of my multi-chapter fics#haha)
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
No, I'm not okay. Thanks for not asking.
#once again I am useless to everyone unless I'm a vessel for their stress#my own doesn't count and doesn't matter#and when you all use me up and leave me a husk you wonder why I'm not moving when you ask me for help#has anyone asked me recently if I'm okay? pshht#I'm the Support Person I'm always okay I never need anything#and if I do it's my fault for not supporting enough#ah well que cera cera#this is just who I am#I'm a vessel and nothing else#I've never been anything else and never will be#nobody gives a shit about me except in terms of what I can do for them news at 11#did you mean: my entire life thus far?#I'm sick of it#I'm sick of screaming and pleading for help into the cold uncaring void and getting 'so? I have my own problems#leave me alone if you're not going to help me'#fine. i'll leave you alone#I'll stop asking#I'll stop offering#I'll see how long it takes anyone to notice#they won't notice they never do#or rather they will as soon as I can't be the support person anymore#and then they'll get mad at me for not supporting them because I'm not an autonomous person#I'm an on call therapist#with no problems of my own#how dare I pretend to be anything else#I want one (1) person to ask me if I'm okay without having to be prompted to give a shit about my wellbeing#one person. once.#but it's always started with 'oh how are your parents'#'how's your sister'#everyone asks me if everyone BUT me is okay
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
just got to call my squish for like 3 hours, life is wonderful I am thriving the birds are singing problems aren't so heavy etc etc :)))
#I couldn't stop smiling the entire time#I'm down BAD#I missed their voice so much <333 the amount of comfort just their presence brings me is incredible#I've been anxious as heck all day but now I just feel content and warm <3#fuck I miss xem :(#at one point we were talking about all the fun things we'll do once we move in together and just. wow. how did I get this lucky#I've been a little stressed about moving in together bc I was scared they'd get bored of me but now I can't wait :)))#like I'm still scared but also. I'm going to see them EVERY DAY!!!!! and we can talk and hang out whenever!!!!#and they're just as excited as I am!!!!#and maybe this is hella sappy but I want this for the rest of my life#hearing their laugh and their giggles.... the way his voice goes soft when we're talking about certain things.....#I hope I never get to stop hearing that#and maybe its naive but I want it SO fiercely#I love them!!!! I want to scream it from the roofs and I want to whisper it in the dead of night when only the moon can hear!!!!!#I cannot WAIT to hug them again. I'm going to have to be forcibly removed from their arms I think#this is the best thing that could have happened tonight <333#anyways I love being in love <3#cosmo rambles#queerplatonic yearning hours
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
kitchen table and desks and computer setups have been moved around so most of the heavy lifting is done for the time being. but i'm also tired!
more cleaning tomorrow, mostly regular basic stuff like vacuuming and the stove and then next week some more rearranging stuff but less moving furniture and more organizing things! I also need to rearrange my pin board but am tempted to hold off because i got a keychain of nathaniel i can add to it that should be here in a couple weeks...
#one of the rooms i'm rearranging is my own and idk what i wanna do just yet with it#like i'm just moving my bed and dresser around but i also wanted to reorganize the shelves a little and what's on them#no moving them around. only the books and little things on them#so my debate is i have. a few plushies on the way and a few already in my room. should i put them on the top of the shelves?#during all the stress that's happened i might've gotten some plushies lol#and a few custom ones i had been on a waitlist for are on their way. and fenris whenever he releases in the fall....#anyway yea might be good to put them on the tops and then use the regular shelves for like just the books and some little display things#idk i'll play with it a bit when i get to it next week#i did mess with a whiteboard i have that i made a bunch of stickers into magnets for and mom wrote a little message on. that'll stay there#it's kinda cute so there's like a few sticker magnets around the edges from various games i play and then mom's little note
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
another day another why must my mom make everything as difficult as possible
#girl i did not want you to be attached to my health insurance at all but unfortunately you made a decision w/o my knowledge that#meant i could only be claimed as your dependent! i do not want you do be involved! it was not in my plans to have to include you!#so stop getting mad over having to be involved already dawg i have medications i need to take and i cannot even Ponder top surgery (life#saving care btw) until i get it back. and even then its a year-2 yrs at least process. so. you canguess i may be eager to get it back#the whole reason i lost it in the first place was because my mom purposefully took me off after i moved out#(she lied and said she didnt but she did)#but instead its “ooohhhh why do you hate me so much ooohhh youre so selfish and lazy ohhhhh dont u care about my problems”#like girl do not act like i wasnt giving you ultimatums for like 2 years before i moved out u know why i dont want to be aorund u#the only positive is reading that text message at 8am kept me awake so i didnt overlseep today#which is a win. i would love to stop oversleeping. but i am so stressed
2 notes
·
View notes