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I feel like I’m dying.
#chronic illness#chronic pain#exhaustion#dissociation#autoimmine disease#I just want to stand in the shower#I just want to braid my own hair again#I want to be able to work myself#I want to go back to school#I want to get a proper degree#I want to skate again
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“Take my hand” pages 12-15
1 - 2 - day 3 - 💙free day❤️ - 4
#nmweek23#narumitsu#wrightworth#they’re so in love in this it makes my stomach turn because OOHHHHH MY GOODDDDDDDDD#I WANT. WHAT THEY HAVE! WHEN WILL IT BE ME#SMOOCHES#YALL SHOULD HAVE KNOWN IT WAS COMIN FROM ME#phoenix wright#miles edgeworth#aa#fan art#fan comic#past me wrote this comic like YEAH IM GONNA PUT IN ALL THESE THINGS I LIKE#and now im like [sets myself on fire] [sets myself on fire] [sets myself on fi#I’M SO EMBARRASSSSEEEDDDDDDDDD how the hell do any of you share your work i literally feel like im cutting out my heart for you#my two favorite panels are the 4th one on page 12 and the 3rd one on page 15…. framing them#i hope i was able to make it worth the wait! everyone’s support has meant so much to me as i worked :’^)#rendevok#please imagine them making out from now until the time it takes me to share the next part bc that is what they will be doing in my head
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#cw pregnancy#ts4#ts4 gameplay#sims 4 gameplay#postcard legacy challenge#postcard: gen4#art’s a style influencer. in my head he works for a successful magazine in sanmy#as of right now he’s doing whatever he can remotely but he’ll have to go back to his place eventually#which is something they haven’t really talked about#he wants to be able to relocate to the del sol branch (which to me is like a 45min drive from chestnut ridge)#changed art’s tattoos. i’ll probably change them again bc i realized how don’t like the red as much. so mind your business if he gets#different tattoos again 🫵🏽😡#i’ve also been thinking if art is short for something. if i’m playing and he’s doing something i don’t want him to i find myself calling him#out his government name 😭 which is arthur to me#sim: karlee kamealoha#art by bonneblah
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smoke music film 08.26
#nctinc#jaehyunnet#mine*works#gifs*jaehyun#useroro#userresa#userjsuh#userpeach#jadeblr#useranusia#rhitag#baekwin#tuseral#melontrack#heyykass#albalook#eritual#oorieri#ninqztual#itsnctsworld#i don't want to be up at 3 am before work bc that makes the entire day a living hell but i also know i wont be able to let myself miss this#but having to go a whole work day knowing this is out and his music is out but not experiencing is another living hell#experiencing quite the dilemma here
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You deadlift? What's your PB?
My current max is 250 pounds! Gotta catch up to Tony, he's at 300 now 😤
Also someone else asked about how deadlifting doesn't kill my back, and the answer is that weightlifting with proper form is good for back pain >:]
Strengthening your stabilizer muscles is so good for your bones and posture! It doesn't mean accidents don't happen, as we will all decay in time, but it definitely helps me draw all day and night without crumbling into dust 👌
#liftposting on main#my routine is roughly 20 min of cardio then 30-40 min of freeweights#focusing on a different muscle group each time#this is how i have zero wrist problems#you can also do farmer's walks where you hold a weight in one hand and walk around#which is less potentially dangerous than deadlifting and so good for your forearms!!#anyway my whole perception of working out shifted as soon as i started seeing it as maintenance vs something designed around losing weight#i may not be able to control whether i get sick or have a major injury that stops my body from being able to do what i want it to do#but i can give myself slightly better chances of being able to climb stairs into my old age!#art tips
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OVERANALYSIS OF THE BURNING SPICE UPDATE TRAILER BECAUSE YOU KNOW I HAVE TO
we open up like this. pretty ominous words ... and you wonder which one is the demon and which is the god. burning spice and golden cheese seem to be very similar, possibly the most parallels that one could draw from the ancients and their respective beasts.
And then we get this shot. Obviously it's showing the soul jam, but there are also some things behind it. One resembles a snake ... APOPHIS ANYONE? this has THE most Egyptian mythology symbolism ever. if golden cheese represents ra, which makes one hundred percent sense considering her kingdom and wealth and radiance and all that, and the fact that she resembles a falcon, then the snake on this wall HAS to represent apophis. it can't not. heck, in some versions of the story apophis was A FORMER SUN GOD. like crk def knows what they're doing.
there's also this tiger character ... nutmeg tiger I'm pretty sure? something like that. they seem to be under the influence of burning spice, as well as all the creatures around them. they seem to be at a higher "position" than all these other guys, though. maybe a willing host?
and there is this. this is really interesting. the fact that Golden Cheese is the one to say this is very intriguing. as far as we knew, the ancients had no knowledge that the beasts even existed until pure vanilla's trip. he wrote the letter to dark cacao, and it was all "you won't believe this - but the place called BEAST-yeast has BEASTS in it!!!" and dark cacao was equally surprised. they didn't know. they thought they were the first ever wielders of the soul jam. but golden cheese ... seems to know a bit more than she lets on to the rest of the group. and a bit more than us. what the heck is the spice swarm?
also, the return (and release) of smoked cheese!! man I missed this guy. he seems to be working with golden cheese in this shot, but then what was his little deal at the end of the first teaser about? it does make sense, though, that he would try to at least be against burning spice - his entire goal is to get the soul jam because he thinks the current wielders aren't worthy - but to me it seems like he might have his own third side in this battle. he'll probably convince both sides he's working with them, knowing this dude. he wants the power of abundance and destruction, a second half he knew nothing about, the ability to make a change in the kingdoms and the lives of everyone in them.
and these two images are probably the most interesting of them all. they seem to be part of some sort of ancient papyrus or prophecy or something like that. golden cheese is yelling about the "great destroyer." could it be possible he was some sort of legend in their kingdom, a prophecy just waiting to unfold? could golden cheese have known about this threat since the beginning? could the beasts' corruption have been inevitable from the start, written in the stars ... and could the witches have known about it?
#im way too hyped for this update actually#if you couldn't tell#burning spice's ability to bring others under his influence is a CRAZY power tho. I thought that would be more of shadow milk's thing#but its kinda unclear HOW burning spice's power works.#and that nutmeg tiger or whatever their name is ... what's THEIR role in all this?#and this isn't even the entire trailer!!! I covered like four frames!!! THERE'S SO MUCH!!!#anyways super excited to pull burning spice first try as an f2p#hey look. I did it w/ wind archer. twice. I got mystic flour on my first 50. it's POSSIBLE.#buuuut if there's anything I want it's shadow milk.#anyways SUPER EXCITED FOR OCTOBER!!#“THE GREAT DESTROYER!!” whaaaat does that mean?#also one more thing: this doesn't seem to be taking place IN beast-yeast? it looks like we're just at the fallen gc kingdom#do we go there eventually? what's goin' on?#the fanartists will be going craaazy (including myself)#crk#cookie run#cookie run kingdom#beast yeast#burning spice cookie#smoked cheese cookie#golden cheese cookie#also that whole Egyptian mythology thing is INSANE. I love mythology it drives me nuts about everything when im able to make a connection.
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My comic is so pretty...
The hiatus is letting me take a little extra time on these episodes, and I'm definitely putting it to good use!!!
#almost done with my 8th episode... which will give me. two weeks. of buffer...#id really like at LEAST a month... but to be more comfortable id like two#which means 2-6 more episodes before I come back!#I've got about 7 weeks so its possible. but i do still have to finish book 4#so much to do ..........#I decided for my next comic im doing 3 updates a month.#having 10 days instead of 7 to make an episode is such a huge huge huge difference...#difference in quality and in my health!#anyways the comic is really pretty im really happy with the work im doing rn#the environments especially. im getting to spend a nice amount of time on them and theyre turning out so nicely#its nice to be able to write with a lot of different environments and not have to redo panels when I get to them cause of time#cause every time theres a wild angle? you need a new background...#so sometimes. often actually. there just isnt the time to make the backgrounds for those and i have to make them more flat...#which is fine. it doesnt really affect anything narratively. but. idk. it's kinda sad right?#anyways yeah! 10 days will be much better.#36 episodes a year is about what ive been uploading with my hiatuses on the weekly schedule anyways!#so might as well cut out that super stressful middleman and just commit to that#52 a year is just such a huge difference and i have to accept its not possible to me#i will hurt myself trying to do that. and i want to make comics my whole life!#so i cant push myself that hard now and sacrifice my future. we're gonna go slower after this...#anyways yeah cant wait to come back but also time. if I could get an extra week like a secret one just for me#where theres no chores no nothin just me and my work#thatd be great! so go ahead and do what you gotta do to give me a little pocket dimension#me: ugh i want to return right now...#the more logical me: NO we need the time to finish everything!!!!!! NOT right now!!!!#time and time again#ttawebcomic#comic panels#hiatus stuff#adam and steve
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"Mams...you okay?" You grin tiredly and teasingly ask your First Man, who is currently in the process of tearing up, his lips wobbling silently as he attempts to keep it in.
He looks up at you from where you lay exhausted in the hospital bed, attempting to blink back his tears. "Oh aye..." He replies shakily. "I-...I've never bin 'appier....Y-you should g-get some sleep...MC...get yer strength back..."
You grin stupidly at him, eyes closing sleepily as he watches you from the seat beside your bed, his attention drifts to you and his eyes water even more, the sheer lightness of the small weight in his arms making him dizzy as he leans further back into the armchair.
He looks down at the sleeping newborn in his arms. His baby girl. Her little yellow hat sitting perfectly on her little tiny head. He's sure she could fit on just on of his hands.
His bottom lip trembles, heart so full of love for the tiny thing in his arms it feels like it might burst. He holds her to his chest, bringing one finger up to gently caress her tiny tiny cheek. He sniffles, holding back happy sobs as he whispers gently. "Hiya little baby....I'm yer papa....I'm gonna take well great care of ye...I-I..I promise...Íosa Críost...yer tiny..."
Mammon looks over to your sleeping form in the hospital bed and slowly inches his chair even closer to you, so as not to jostle your daughter too much. He grabs his phone off of the nightstand and makes an order for your favourite food to be delivered for when you woke up. He chuckles softly as he texts the groupchat, telling them that you and the baby are okay.(albeit slowly seeing as he's only able to use one hand)
He asks for Lucifer to send over the cake he made with the horrible icing saying 'Congradulation COngratulations, MC, Your You're so amazing' so he could celebrate with you when you woke up from your much deserved nap. He turns off his phone and sets it back on the bedside table next to yours which is charging.
He could celebrate with you after, you could laugh at how he looked like a deer in headlights when the nurse asked him if he wanted to hold his baby for the first time. He could spoil you more than he ever has before (which isn't humanly possible considering how much he spoils you.)
But that could all wait for when you woke up, right now he was content just watching over his favouritest girls in the whole wide world, making sure you were both safe and sound.
But you should never trust a scheming scumbag, MC.
Oh no, fuckhead was already coming up with plans to spoil your daughter silly. That was his little princess, God dammit! She deserved the three worlds combined! And even then she deserved more! And don't get him started on you, you weren't going to even think about doing chores for at least 6 months. You just preformed a miracle. You get rest time. No buts.
In the softening light of the sun through the windows, Mammon holds your baby girl with so much gentleness, as if she'd crack at the smallest touch, his loving gaze flickers from you to her with so much tenderness, you would've thought he was an angel.
#idk mams being a dad is so cute to me idc this man would go to the ends of the earth for his kids (and for you)#íosa críost means jesus christ but i feel like you guys could figure that out so idk#Mammon to his daughter: Right princess; if ye ever meet a small gremlin blob who's callin' me papa tha's Lil D No.2 he is insane. run away.#this is very much self indulgent i want a baby so baf omg#but in this economy? + im 15 + childbirth and pregnancy is scary? not ever gonna happen for atleast another ten years.#ATLEAST.#unless the economy magically fixes itself + nonces stop existing + worked on myself enough to feel like im able to acutally be a good pare#okay i'll shut up now night night#cw pregnancy#cw childbirth#obey me mammon#obey me mammon x reader#female reader#obey me x female reader#mammon x female reader
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Wait so how do you know for sure the sprite is Ralsei? No hate, I do believe you haha, but I too am a lore scientist and I wanna know your evidence. Does it show up in-game? I could definitely believe that I saw it in-game and forgot about it :P
YES. Finding legitimate sprites directly from Toby Fox games can be surprisingly difficult. There are so many fan-made character sprites, that it can be hard to differentiate from the real ones!
Guess how many are NOT fan-made? .....only one 🗿
...(please don't question why google is in italian)
Official Websites like Spriters Resource (Ralsei's Offical Sprite Sheet) are very helpful in this regard :)
They may even include unused file graphics. Like this unused face of Ralsei.
Sprite legitimacy is a big rabbit hole that I personally don't have enough knowlege on :( ((BUT OH MY GOSH The internet is notorious for reposting fan-spriteworks without sourcing. It can be really hard to find the original artist.))
It's also HILARIOUS how many people have redone Ralsei's sprite. It is quite obvious from my Ralsei poll and through his mass of fan-redesigns, that many people in the Deltarune community REALLY LOVE his Chapter 1 sprite more.
Ralsei sprite fan-art is amazing and I personally want to mod it into my game bc it looks so good. Below I have some really cool fan-sprites I found and the artists who made them!
Left (Ralsei Ch 2 redesign- metr0nix727), Middle (Ralsei based off Ch 1- larituca), Left (Full Ralsei Chapter 2 Sprite sheet with Hat- artist unknown**)
**this sprite sheet was submitted through Sprites Resource but I traced it back to TaxeisNotOkay, who I presume to be the original artist. I could not find any other information regarding the full sprite sheet, so feel free to correct or inform me if you find anything!
Looking back at Ralsei's Chapter 2 head sprites..... they just don't look as good as they could in my opinion. I dont like them :(...uhhh NO HATE OF COURSE!!..ahklasdkflansdf I'll go jump in this hole now.
#I want to reiterate I do not hate people who like Ralsei's Chapter 2 design. But I myself have MANY criticisms for it-#I have a lot of other criticisms for Deltarune in general!! And thats okay!!! No game is perfect. <3#But Being able to voice my criticism definitely makes me feel less alone.... I want to feel comfortable expressing my thoughts and feelings#.....Idk I think its important.... QwQ...ahh sorry...anyways....#You got me rambling again uwu#This was a super interesting deep dive into sprite work! SO thank you to whoever asked!! <3#deltarune#deltarune fanart#sometimes its almost like the community itself makes better content and i get....conflicted... idk man..... :(#deltarune sprite#fanart#ralsei#ralsei deltarune#deltarune ralsei#ralsei sprite#bread#bread rambles
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chapter 1 trial
#i think my biggest achievements in making these was being able to condense the trials into a few basic panels#each trial ended up needing more n more dialogue but seeing how long the in game trials are im pretty proud of myself#i only did ever sketch out the first three trials tho my sketches have taken me just up to the chapt 4 trial which i ever started at all#oh also i made sure to always keep the order of the characters in the trials true to the game#everyone is placed in the exact same 'seats' as they are in the real game#that was tough at times bc sometimes i wanted dialogue between characters who were nowhere near each other#but it was also a good opportunity to make me use characters i normally wouldnt have thought to use#and i couldnt just give dialogue to my favourite characters lol#and sometimes it worked out really well where the characters i wanted interacting did happen to be next to each other#sdr2#super danganronpa 2#ok here we go#hajime hinata#teruteru hanamura#mikan tsumiki#chiaki namani#nagito komaeda#peko pekoyama#is that everyone#mahiru koizumi#there we go#my art
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#noivern#one of my all-dragon team's staples! thus i have a soft spot for this pokémon. not really for any other reason than that#just a cool badass design. big bat dragon. objectively badass#though i think it should be a dragon/dark type instead of dragon/flying. hydreigon typing#also hi it's me from the future. a few hours before this posts. i just want to complain a little bit#about how fucking difficult this is getting now that i'm getting into alolan forms in the queue#i don't. fucking. know how to use blender. this is kicking my ass. i spent like two hours this morning just trying to get those alolan form#working. and i didn't even successfully do that for two of them#so if you like alolan forms i am Really sorry but they are not gonna be up to par for the production value i have set for myself on this#blog. i've fuckin doomed myself by getting this much of a following and i know i can't get away with the same shit i used to#be able to so like. just fuckin bear with me please it's turning into a whole wreck here in the future in gen 7
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my favourite activity is writing an essay in the tags on all my posts
#wait I feel like I let people down by not writing something in the tags on this#I have been working so hard in this goddamn animation I’m working on and it’s so slow and it’s only five seconds but it’s taking a lifetime#I want it to just be doneeeeee I don’t wanna do clean up work anymoreeeee I don’t wanna make backgrounds and do crappy effects animation:((#but like… the start of it looks so gooodddddd heheeheeeheheee I’m proud of myself#I need to animate more I need to be able to be faster at this and be able to capture movement better and just in general be like 10x better#than I am now#this really shouldn’t be taking as long as it has and part of that is lack of focus#so I need to lock in fr
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Already trying to figure out how to draw the NPCs— starting with a handful of the children I expect we’re going to be seeing again. I’m excited to see how much my designs for them change as we go along!
#considering previous seasons I’m so excited to see how the dang kids get severely traumatized#not committing to any colors outside of Bibi’s blue— both for her name and bow#~~post cancelled i think the bow is pink~~#Bibi has a unibrow since that’s what it looks like on the cover art and i think she’d be able to make it work rn#i just saw a picture of Bibi that wasn’t my super crunched quality close up i think I’m gonna let myself die now#gonna redraw her for my own personal redemption#Milton is Milton. He sucks but tbh i like him#Hermie started weird too i believe in a Milton redemption arc /J#… /hj#Molly is uncertain— i wanted her to be punk but she’s like 12 so she’s like.#a 13 year old under the thumb of her parents trying to be punk when she can’t even buy her own clothes#I want Timmy to look the most like his mother out of all of the kids#anyways Timmy about to lose his bed privileges#dndads#dungeons and daddies#dndads spoilers#dndads season 3#the Peachyville horror#the Peachyville horror spoilers#Britannia Blue#Milton Grammar#Molly MacArthur#Timmy Trout
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the sunhawk, and sunwing
↓ wider version bc i couldn't decide:
i didn't really like the composition here (unbalanced and why? is the roof not straight???) but it gives more perspective on size of sunwing vs. lodge
#horizon forbidden west#hfw#talanah#sunwing#talanah khane padish#the sunhawk#hfw talanah#hfw npcs#hfw pc#(character swap mod)#(entity spawner)#hhhhokay so. book in the tags:#this is another one of those instances where. i had ~*An Idea*~ and i was like oh i should be able to do that#and then i start doing it and i realize yeah i'm dumb there is A Problem with executing this idea#thought process: sunwings look so cool sunning themselves! it'd be awesome to have talanah pose w/ a birdie in front of the hunter's lodge!#i think i can do this by spawning a wild sunwing (afaik overridden sunwings don't display this behavior) and then pausing ai processing!#it works! get shot lined up etc. then i realize. uh. wait. this isn't an overridden sunwing (OBVS) but i want it to look like one... :( >:[#so i have to get rid of that one and spawn an overridden one#and set up several similar-perspective same-lighting shots and then tortuously edit the override cables in. wow i'm so smrt#but usually once i start one of these edits i feel obligated to at least try to finish...#also these machines are so Big i couldn't even really set up the shot i wanted! always making problems for myself lol
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No i dont think its a good thing to make hating children your entire personality but can i please just say that i dont like them and dont want to deal with screaming temper tantrums and meltdowns from other peoples kids (especially, ESPECIALLY when the parents are absolutely useless in dealing with them) without 30,000 people crawling out of the woodwork to assume that i think all kids should die
#i dont like them. in fact i kind of do hate them#but i am also a mature adult who can control my actions and do not show it outwardly#i am actually very good with kids#but i dont want anything to do with them and my dislike of them doesnt mean im a child abuser#thinking of this after working the family and disability line at work today#and the amount of meltdowns i had to soothe myself because their parents just stared blankly at them#and how this happens all day every day in that line#its because you put their teddy bear into a bin and it disappeared. thats why theyre screaming. they dont know where its going#why is it my job to go 'dont worry! lions just getting his picture taken like you do at school :)) you might be able to see it if#you ask the officer very nicely at the other end of the line :))'#its 4 in the morning. dont make me do two jobs at once#vent post
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i'm ngl depicting thunder's prosthetic as a burden is pretty uncomfortable even if it is something some amputees experience because like. there's a huge stigma around prosthetics already you know? it's like having a parent forcibly strap a child into a wheelchair when they don't need it and having a horrible experience with it and that being your only character in a wheelchair. some full-time wheelchair users do resent their wheelchairs but when that's the only time you're bringing it up at all it feels like you're playing into our society's perception of wheelchairs and mobility aids in general as useless and best and divine punishment at worst. idk do let me know if i'm wording this wrong because i really do love better bones! it's just that this detail is... strange.
I mean, I'm open to feedback if that's not something I should do-- but I do actually have other characters in prosthetics and mobility aids! A lot of them! Thunderstar's actually the only one who ends up rejecting his own, because I also wanted to depict that it's bad to force a device onto someone who does not want one.
Especially in circumstances like Thunder Storm's, where that sort of device would be actively unhelpful for his lifestyle. It might help in open field environments like moorland, but then I got more feedback and realized that it would just make a lot of unwanted noise in a forest (since cats have carpal whiskers to help them figure out where to place their paws). Then I figured it was a good way to show how BB!Clear Sky doesn't actually listen to his son's needs and acts differently when he's not "grateful" enough for his gift.
But he's far and away from the only one with a mobility aid or prosthetic!
I haven't figured out Frog entirely yet, but he's going to be the first cat with a "wheelchair" type device, to set up a long line of cats through the generations improving on it (Probably not much more than a reinforced canvas or durable leather, as this was the age of very early flax processing)
Wildfur's the next in the big advancements, even making the Great Journey in his own and getting a side story based around Littlecloud and Cinderpelt collaborating over this
The device is then improved upon by Jessy for Briarlight, giving her a level of independence and confidence that she needs to finally cut her mom out until she learns how to behave
Deadfoot has a brace for his front paw because the joint is loose (it was based on a friend's carpel tunnel bracelet) which is affectionately referred to as The Bonker; his name is also now an Honor Title (Old name: Hoprunner) for inventing a battle move by distracting with his good paw, and then SLAMMING his other limb down hard on his opponent. It's called "deadfooting."
I think mobility devices are super important, usually massively improve quality of life, and I just enjoy designing them, so the choice to portray Thunder Storm's as negative was a very deliberate one that I did in response to what I thought was a desire in representation. Even the fact it's a hind-leg prosthetic was thought out, since those have a much higher satisfaction rate in humans than hand prosthetics, but in a cat would probably be the opposite.
Still, I'm not missing a limb, so now with all of that context presented, do you still think the same thing? Should I just add even more limb prosthetics to make the ratio of satisfied prosthetic users vs Thunder Storm even steeper?
Sunlit Frost is actually going to have a bite on his good paw go septic (the other side has permanent damage from the fire). I could have that paw get amputated and have Thunderstar "return the favor" for how Sunlit Frost created the prosthetic he rejected by helping him build his own. A pawsthetic, if you will
OR would it be better to just remove the subplot of Thunder Storm grappling with/rejecting a prosthetic that is unfitting for him entirely, and have all prosthetics be 100% treated as positive in the narrative?
#I especially want to hear from anyone who happens to be missing limbs or uses some sort of mobility or accessibility device#Ultimately I consider myself a pretty confident and well-read person but I'm just a single guy!#So I'm open to changing stuff if it's not accomplishing what I wanted it to#I'm not perfect and don't know everything. So I try to listen.#Though I will admit that I am a little emotionally attached to Thunder rejecting the leg prosthetic#I WILL drop it and back off if it is unpopular#but in addition to just liking there being an example of a time where one is unwanted and being able to explore *why*#(with a very important and powerful POV character mind you)#I do like the symbolism of it#With him chewing it off after leaving with Sunlit#Like he's literally leaving the expectations of his father behind#And Sunlit complaining about good leather and hard work lmao#BUT that said. It wouldn't be worth it if I was doing something very insensitive SO lmk.#bone babble#disability#prosthetics
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