#I use Distraction to cope

[muzzlemouths]

hey y'all.

I know fic updates have been slow and I've been kind of here and there recently but I wanted to give a heads-up that I may disappear for a while longer. Tomorrow my partner and I are committing to a difficult decision concerning our fifteen year old dog. The days of and after will be especially difficult so, though I don't forsee me going entirely MiA, I thought y'all deserved an explanation for me going quiet.

I'll still be around, just not as active. Thanks all 💕

[bluedrawsomething]

Roman's Character sheet!

close ups (cause i dont trust tumblr to keep the image quality-) :

[stardustedknuckles]

So uh. I've said many times that ADHD can be seen and diagnosed as anxiety (especially inattentive type) largely due to the fact that your brain would rather be dead than bored, and if there's not enough stimulation it will simply begin creating awful scenarios because it's easier to provide itself bad stimulation than good stimulation.

I do still think this can be true, but I feel like it's important to add the disclaimer that. Um. Well. Apparently ya boi has a smidge of ocd and maybe that's. You know. A factor.

It turns out that constantly imagining yourself being shot, unable to protect a loved one, or otherwise completely helpless and vulnerable - and importantly, sometimes being unable to stop even though you know it's ridiculous and it's hurting you - has a fairly specific cause. Especially if the golden tool in your arsenal to pull your brain out of a spiral is to start manifesting the words to Weird Al Yankovic's "The Saga Begins" in your head like a 2009 YouTube lyric video and when it's over you feel like you just finished fighting for your life but also like you've been reset.

And especially especially if you've been using that song to combat bad or stuck thoughts since you were seven years old.

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

hate when i see a youtube video that's like 'analyzing why [thing] is bad!' and you watch the video and they just say nothing for twenty minutes

[which-qsmp-egg-would]

Before Home

(Note: this will contain canon typical allusions to child death, injury, experimentation, dehumanization(?) etc. Nothing more intense than you would see in a QSMP cutscene I think)

"Poll." Tequilla says quietly, breaking the silence of their game.

Poll hums in response, focused on stacking the rocks in front of them. It and Tequilla are trying to see who can build up the highest tower, and despite the score being 0-3, they're still trying their best. Papa made sure they bundled up before they came out, since the cold weather was coming in and they're still hatchlings. Tequilla has his face half buried in a weirdly patterned scarf while Poll wears a big sweater.

"You remember, ri-ight?" Tequilla asks, laying freshly fallen autumn leaves around his tower. Poll refrains from poking fun at him for decorating instead of building.

Instead they tilt their head towards him. "Remember what, TQ? Th' score?" they ask.

He shakes his head. "From before."

Poll whines, "Before whaaaat?"

Tequilla struggles for words, pulling on his fingers out of frustration. "From... before home." He finally settled on.

"Oh!" It exclaims, flapping its secondary wings. "You mean before we found this place? Yeah I remember a lot'a stuffs! Like that time Papa took me to the flower field and I made this," They point to their flower crown excitedly, "and this other time when it took me to th' ocean. It was scary bein' underwater but papa was really quick. Oh and there was this other time-"

"mm mm." Tequilla interrupts, shaking his head and hands. "Before, you said you came from f... fe.." His eyebrows furrow hard. Poll already knew today was a hard word day for their brother, so they stayed patient. "F-from Feds. The ba-ad people."

Poll feels like they've been dropped in the ocean again, a cold icky feeling spreading under their scales. They open their mouth, trying to respond, but clam up instantly. It looks away from its brother, trying to bring its attention back to the pile of rocks.

Tequilla's tail shimmies onto their ankle, their brother's quiet way of showing affection.

"I was curi-curious. You told me yyou were from there, bbut you d-don't talk about it. Tell?" Tequilla asks politely.

Their wings pull up higher onto their shoulders, shrouding them slightly as they curl into themselves, tail thumping against the dirt and ears pinning to clearly telegraph their upset.

"Why don' you tell me about your nightmare fr'm last night?" Poll bites back.

His wings flare out unconsciously. "You... know." Poll DOES know why. Tequilla's nightmares are scary, even scarier because he doesn't know what is happening in them. "But y-yyou don't tell me your night--mares either."

Poll huffs. "Do I gotta?"

Tequilla nods quickly. And Poll can't argue with their little brother. Papa said they're grounded if they did that.

It thumbs the bands on its arms. "Can we still build?" They whisper.

Tequilla nods, grabbing more pebbles from the pile.

Poll sighs, forcing their big wings to return to a more neutral position. "Before papa adopted me, I lived in white walls.” A lab, it's memories supply, the scary people said it was a lab.

“I was a little egg at the time, an’ I didn’ even have my flowers.” They had a number, not a name. It's burned into their mind still. Egg J-3.

“I think… that there were others there too. I don't remember their names. There were exactly a dozen of us.” They place 12 stones within the stone walls. “The scary lab coats said that they needed t’make sure we were healthy so we could be adopted. So we had to go through a bunch of tests n'stuff.” The phantom sensation of a surgical blade against their shell makes them shudder.

“It wasn’… always bad. There was this fun colorful room we would go t’ after tests. I think there were big people there too, but I don' remember them very well. There was a spot where another egg and I would play with Linkin Logs.” It was Egg J-4. it's sparse memories taunt them, you can hardly remember her handwriting.

“Th’ tests weren't very fun.” Poll struggles to place their next stone correctly. Part of the wall crumbles under their claws. “We would do brain puzzles ‘nd compete to see who could climb the fastest. My least favorite was writing.” They avoid telling him about the bad ones that even they struggle to remember. The fights. The water. Hide N’ Seek. The samples. They remember one of the younger kids getting a chip in their shell during that. They remove a stone from the center of their build, adding it to the walls.

“Um…” They wrack their memories for anything else that doesn't sting. “I think after a while the other kids started getting adopted.” They remove two more stones and add them to the walls. J-10, J-6. They chuckle hollowly. “I remember one of them played tag with a lab coat. They ran out of the play room!” Another stone removed. J-1. “I think some of them got adopted while I was gettin’ my shell checked..” J-4, J-5, J-9, J-12. The walls get higher. “The um. The nice lady that sang us to sleep sometimes said that a few got sick and had to sleep elsewhere. J-8, J-11. Two more stones gone. “I don't remember what happened to the rest,” Poll removes one stone, leaving one in the center. J-2 just never returned from testing one day. The lab coats never talked about them. “But I was alone when they said I was gonna to take a nap until my parents arrived. But then I was adopted by papa! A-and now everything is okay! I have a home and a family just like they said. A-and I'm.. I'm…”

The walls of their tower crumbles, burying the center pebble.

Poll hiccups, blue hands reaching up to paw at sudden tears.

“It's okay now,” they sob, “I ha-have a home and a family. I have you and papa and our friends.” It curls in on itself, wings shaking like the leaves in the trees as it cradles itself in its arms. It whines. “Hurts…”

Tequilla crawls over to them quickly, knocking over his own tower and barreling over theirs. He pulls them into a tight hug, wings wrapping protectively around them. He headbutts them gently, drawing a wet giggle from their lips. “No cry.” Tequilla demands, muffled by his scarf. “Y-you are okkay. No scaries. M’ your b-big brother, So I have to protect you.”

Poll laughs through tears, pushing Tequilla away with no force. “N-noooo you're my baby brother, I got to protect you.”

“Nuh uh.”

Poll smooshes Tequilla's face with their dirty hands. “Nnnn, I'M older-”

They squeak, suddenly feeling a hand on their shoulder. They crane their neck upwards, now staring at their glowering papa.

It paws at its eyes again, trying to hide the evidence of their meltdown. “We weren't fighting papa, we were just playing!”

Poll looks at Tequilla, who glances between them and nods. “Just playing, S-stardust.”

It's gaze softens, taking in Poll's condition. Poll can see a calm ocean in their appearance and soft features shifting on.

Poll still doesn't know how they can understand Papa when Tequilla can't, but they're definitely too tired to figure it out. They just know that papa is offering uppies.

Papa lifts both of its slightly shivering dragon children into many arms and walks them back to the house. Poll rests their head against papa's chest, and relaxes to the distant sound of crashing waves.

[swadloom]

Snapcube has an insane grip on my echolalia there's literally nothing else like it

[butchnavi]

actually so glad I learnt morse because now I have a stimming outlet that is NOT subconsciously singing in class and throughout the breaks all day lmfao

[nururu]

That scene post dressrosa where luffys sleeping off his fight and Zoro wants to wake him up so bad.... makes me think about how Zoro only rlly sleeps(not naps) 4hrs a day. so, he's up late a lot and sometimes gets a spike of energy and just gets bored and goes to luffys bed to wake him up bc he knows luffys always down to clown

[heartshattering]

I SLEPT (⁠ﾉ⁠◕⁠ヮ⁠◕⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠*⁠.⁠✧

[hussyknee]

I need to really focus on figuring out what's wrong with me and unfucking myself instead of burying myself in humanitarian crises and novels. Whenever I'm really struggling to get through the most basic tasks, I keep thinking it's because I'm not pushing myself harder, rather than the fact that something is clearly critically wrong. Even after all this time, disabling myself more and more trying to push myself past breaking point, my knee-jerk response is to feel like I'm failing everyone around me, instead of having the self-compassion to realize I really, really need help. And I know that it's because there never seemed to be any point begging for help, knowing I'd be ignored at best and punished for it at worst. Maybe I avoid thinking about it because it breaks my own heart when I do. I can't figure out if that's self-compassion or self-pity.

[linagram]

[ 𝚑𝚒𝚖𝚞𝚛𝚊 𝚛𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚊'𝚜 𝚝𝟸 𝚟𝚘𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚍𝚛𝚊𝚖𝚊 ] 𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚗𝚎𝚛 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚜𝚊𝚟𝚒𝚘𝚛

and with this, we're finally done with all the second trial's mvs and vds! woooo! this trial surely was. something.

after reina's vd, there's gonna be two post-t2 vds (similar to this trial having two pre-t2 vds), the first one will be jackalope explaining some stuff (and miki finally getting to meet him) and the third guard's full name reveal and the second one will be about everyone's second trial verdicts.

Warnings for Reina's VD: None

Warnings for Reina's MV: None

(sounds of footsteps)

Miki: "It's Himura-san's turn already.."

Miki: "This trial has been so stressful and we also have to judge everyone later.."

Miki: "Wait-"

(footsteps stop)

Miki: ".. Will Eiji-san even be able to judge someone this time?"

Miki: ".. I don't think he will. No, actually, it would be better for his health if he didn't participate in the trial this time."

Miki: "But if he can't vote, then-"

Miki: ...

Miki: .. Hehe..

Miki: W-wait, why am I-

Miki: Why am I.. laughing?

Miki: I should feel sorry for him. I should hope that he gets better.

Miki: .. What has this place done to me?

Miki: Wait, is that-

(sounds of other person's footsteps)

Miki: Huh?..

Miki: W-who's there?!

Miki: "Is it one of the prisoners?.."

???: Calm down, calm down!

???: Here, do you recognize me now?

Miki: .. Are you..

Miki: Hiyuu-san?

Hiyuu: Yeah, that's me.

Hiyuu: Sorry for scaring you like that, haha.

Hiyuu: Well, at least now we finally get to meet each other in person!

Hiyuu: Ah, right, I should probably take this off..

Miki: What-

(sounds of Hiyuu taking his mask off)

Hiyuu: Here we go.

Hiyuu: Wow, breathing sure feels easier now.

Miki: ...

Hiyuu: Hm? Is there something wrong with my face?

Hiyuu: Hold on, let me-

Hiyuu: .. Ahaha, I still have some ice cream left on my face..

Hiyuu: I should wipe it off..

Hiyuu: Wait, do I even have anything to wipe it off with-

(sounds of Hiyuu talking to himself in the background)

Miki: "CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE-"

Hiyuu: Is everything okay, Miki-san?

Miki: I'M FINE!

Miki: .. Oh my god, sorry, that was so loud, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry-

Hiyuu: Don't worry, I just wanted to make sure you're alright, haha.

Hiyuu: I want to help you with interrogating the tenth prisoner, is that okay with you?

Miki: Y-yes, sure! Interrogations can be.. very tiring..

Miki: Ah, but only if you're okay with that-

Miki: H-huh?

(a sound of Hiyuu putting his hand on Miki's head)

Hiyuu: I left my room exactly because I wanted to help you. So of course I'm okay with that.

Miki: O-oh..

Miki: Wait, didn't you say that you can't leave your room?

Hiyuu: Ah, about that..

Hiyuu: That rabbit thing told me I can't leave my room, so I assumed that the door was locked, but when I tried to open it, I didn't have any trouble with it.

Hiyuu: So, uh, I guess he was just messing with me, haha..

Hiyuu: Or maybe I was supposed to interpret his words differently..

Miki: .. Rabbit thing?

Hiyuu: Y-you didn't meet him yet?..

Miki: N-no??

Hiyuu: .. Now I feel awkward.

Hiyuu: Okay, let's go interrogate the tenth prisoner now, haha!~..

Miki: "Oh no, is he going to turn out to be a weird guy too.."

Miki: "But he's still cute.."

Miki: .. You remind me of someone, to be honest.

Hiyuu: Hm? What did you say?

Miki: N-nothing!

Miki: "I'm probably just ovethinking it.. It must be a coincidence.."

Miki: "But they look and act so.. similar.."

Miki: Wait, Hiyuu-san, do you even know how to interrogate prisoners?

Hiyuu: I have watched recordings of your interrogations, so yeah, I know some stuff.

Miki: W-we were being recorded?..

Hiyuu: Of course you were.

Hiyuu: Now, are you ready for the final interrogation? We're already here.

Miki: ...

Miki: *nods*

Hiyuu: Great. Excited to work with you, partner~

(the door opens)

Reina: Ah, there you are-

Reina: Wait, what?

Miki: U-um, Himura-san, Eiji-san had to be replaced, I mean, not exactly replaced, but-

Hiyuu: Hello there. You're Reina-san, right?

Reina: .. (to Miki) I'm assuming you know what's going on here.

Miki: .. I know that better than anyone.

Reina: So, it's my turn now, huh?

Reina: Let's go then, yay..

Miki: *sits down* You don't really sound that enthusiastic, you know?

Reina: Really? Sorry. I got tired of waiting for you, haha..

Miki: .. What happened to you, Himura-san?

Reina: You have to be more specific here, Guard 002-san.

Miki: .. You used to call me "Miki-chan" before.

Reina: Well, I thought we were friends, Guard 002-san. I thought we were gonna get along.

Reina: But I was wrong.  

Hiyuu: .. Did something happen between you two?

Miki: I-I don't think so?

Miki: Himura-san, did I do something wrong? If so, please tell me-

Reina: Oh, I'm gonna tell you.

Reina: Innocent verdict, baby! Woooo!

Reina: *laughs*

Reina: *takes a breath*

Reina: What the hell, Miki-chan. What, do you want me to sing a whole villain song for you or something-

Reina: Oh, wait, you have my video for that.

Reina: Then why was I still forgiven, huh?

Miki: Because..

Miki: Um..

Hiyuu: Because the guards had their own reasons for that. And who exactly are you to question their judgement?

Miki: H-huh?

Reina: Wow, you're a smart guy, aren't you?

Reina: Well, I'm going to start sounding real smart right now too.

Reina: ...

Reina: (her voice sounds more emotionless now) Guard 002-san, what did I tell you last time?

Miki: Y-you mean the serial killer part?

Reina: Exactly. The "serial killer part".

Reina: Now, what are you supposed to do with serial killers?

Miki: .. P-punish-

Reina: That's right. Punish them.

Reina: But I still wasn't punished.

Reina: Would you say that it was a good decision? A wise one? A morally correct one?

Reina: And I have a lot of questions about the guilty prisoners too.

(sounds of Reina standing up and walking around)

Reina: Shun, who is now this close to just breaking Kei and turning him into a mindless puppet.. was voted innocent.

Reina: Akio, who always said that his crime wasn't his fault, obviously trying to shift the blame, but who still mostly was just a nerdy 16 year old obsessed with attention, was voted guilty and now he looks like he can die at any second.

Miki: W-we had our-

Reina: Eiko, who feels no remorse for her crime at all and can easily tell anyone all the details if they just ask, was voted innocent.

Miki: But we-

Reina: And just a reminder, you don't know ANYTHING about Kei's murder, but you still voted him guilty-

Miki: WE HAD OUR REASONS, NOW SIT DOWN!

Reina: ...

Reina: *sits down*

Hiyuu: I don't think you understand how this whole system works, Reina-san.

Reina: Well, do you understand it then?

Hiyuu: Kind of.

Hiyuu: I was told that we are allowed to judge prisoners based on.. literally anything.

Hiyuu: So if you thought that our decisions have to be nothing but morally correct.. Sorry to disappoint you.

Reina: .. "Literally anything"?

Hiyuu: Yeah. It's possible that someone was forgiven just because one or both guards find them cute or attractive.

Reina: ...

Reina: Haha..

Reina: .. I don't have any energy left for all of this.

Reina: ...

Miki: .. A-are you okay, Himura-san-

Reina: So, I don't sound that enthusiastic anymore, Guard 002-san?

Reina: Well, as you can see, I'm not exactly satisfied with my verdict.

Reina: And I'm gonna be honest, I'm getting tired of the whole "most dangerous prisoner" act myself and I can see that it's not convincing enough.

Reina: So yeah, the show's over.

Hiyuu: Reina-san, do you want to be punished that badly?

Reina: Oh, I wanted it more than anything.

Reina: If I could, I would've just asked you to execute me even before the second trial starts.

Reina: But now..

Reina: It's a bit more complicated than that.

Reina: *laughs* But wow, I can't believe this. We're really letting someone like you judge us.

Reina: What, are you gonna vote me guilty now? Are you gonna vote me guilty because I'm not a "I'm the cutest serial killer ever!" type of girl anymore?

Reina: And I really thought you're going to still like me even after I show you my real self! You're breaking my heart, Miki-chan.

Hiyuu: When you say "It's more complicated than that".. 

Hiyuu: What do you mean by that?

Reina: Oh, right. What I mean by that is..

Reina: I can't let you two..

Reina: Or three?

Reina: Anyway, I can't let you all judge me and the other prisoners.

Reina: I already know what I deserve and what my verdict should be like. Who are you to tell me what to do and who I am?

Miki: W-well, um, we're the guards-

Hiyuu: Hold on, Miki-san.

Hiyuu: Okay, but what will you even do to stop us?

Reina: You know what's really bothering me about this whole situation?

Reina: .. You all aren't even trying to figure out what's going on.

Reina: How can you accept your new reality so easily?

Reina: Or is it because you hated your old reality so much that you were okay with anything?

Miki: ...

Miki: .. A-and what if we did?

Miki: I had my worries about this place. Of course I was afraid at first.

Miki: But now.. It feels like home.

Hiyuu: I don't really hate this place either.

Reina: .. I feel sorry for both of you.

Reina: But fine, whatever, I'm not going to share anything with you then.

Miki: What do you mean by "anything"?

Reina: ..  I have some theories about this place.

Reina: And, um..

Reina: How it works.

Miki: !

Reina: But I doubt that you two are interested, so-

Hiyuu: No, no, I'm curious. Come on, share with us.

Miki: But we don't have much time-

Reina: Well, let's see..

Miki: "Wait, didn't she just say she's not gonna tell us anything?"

Reina: .. So, we have.. what, three guards now? 

Reina: (to Hiyuu) Hey, can you tell me where have you been all this time? Why didn't we get to meet you sooner?

Hiyuu: .. I was asleep.

Reina: And when did you wake up?

Hiyuu: I think it was shortly after the first trial's verdicts were announced? But why?

Reina: .. Three guilty prisoners.

Miki: Huh?

Reina: There was only three guilty prisoners. Guard 001-san was the one who wanted to vote everyone guilty. 

Reina: (to Hiyuu) And you woke up after Guard 001-san had lost that round.

Reina: .. They're just going to keep switching you all until they get bored.

Miki: Who? Who are you talking about??

Reina: No idea.

Reina: I don't even know how many guards they actually have.

Reina: .. I don't even know how many prisoners we actually have.

Miki: .. W-what does that mean, Himura-san?

Reina: Oh, I don't know. 

Reina: Maybe something like..

Reina: .. One of us isn't actually a prisoner?

Miki: Wh-

Reina: Anyway, the clock is ticking, right?

Reina: So, wanna talk about my crime?

Hiyuu: That was a sudden change of topic..

Miki: But Himura-san-

Hiyuu: Miki-san, please, let's talk about Reina-san's crime now.

Hiyuu: .. If we don't, I'm afraid I will end up wasting all my energy soon and I don't want that. I want to be useful to you.

Miki: .. Himura-san, do you have anything to say about your murder?

Reina: I guess I do.

Reina: But I wanna ask, what did you learn about it from my video?

Miki: .. I guess you really were a criminal in a way, but..

Miki: .. We never saw you actually kill anyone.

Reina: .. Haha.

Hiyuu: What's so funny, Reina-san?

Reina: So you haven't seen that part either.. Interesting.

Reina: Hey, but you saw, like, my victim or something?

Miki: .. I guess we did.

Miki: But we didn't see all the details, so we don't know what your victim actually looked like.

Reina: I see..

Reina: He was completely covered in blood, of course, you wouldn't be able to see it, haha..

Miki: .. You were laughing in your video too, Himura-san.

Reina: Really?

Miki: And crying. Both at the same time.

Reina: ...

Reina: Well, how else was I supposed to react after I saw my little brother's corpse?

Reina: H-he came there because of me too, haha.. He always was such an idiot..

Miki: !

Miki: LITTLE BROTHER?!

(bell rings, machinery sounds)

Miki: Himura-san, I'm begging you, please, tell us more!

Hiyuu: Miki-san, time's up. Let's calm down and extract the video-

Miki: BE A GOOD PARTNER, HIYUU-SAN, AND SHUT UP FOR A SECOND!

Miki: .. Your victim was your little brother, Himura-san?

Reina: Haha, what, now you're going to vote me guilty this time?

Reina: You don't want to save me anymore?

Miki: ... 

Miki: *starts crying*

Hiyuu: Miki-san, please, can you take a deep breath for me? Here, again, let's calm down..

Hiyuu: You're shaking.. Let's talk about it later, when we're done with this.

Hiyuu: I already have all the information we need. It was me who interrogated everyone yesterday, remember?

Hiyuu: Also, we're going to watch the video together, so we'll see everything that we have to know-

Miki: .. Himura-san, what are you doing?

Miki: HIMURA-SAN?!

(sounds of Reina throwing something and that thing falling on the floor)

Reina: Ugh, didn't work..

Reina: Should've seen this coming.

Hiyuu: .. Reina-san, did you just try to break the video extracting machine?

Reina: Yeah, kinda. More like wanted to see if that thing can even be broken.

Miki: .. You tried to break it with your shoe.

Reina: Yeah. I'm an idiot, just like my brother, haha.

Miki: ...

(sounds of Miki's slow footsteps)

Hiyuu: Miki-san, are you sure you can do this? If you need any help-

Miki: I can. Thank you.

Reina: Well, what's it gonna be this time, everyone's savior?

Miki: .. Prisoner 010, Reina, please, sing your sins.

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[MV Description]

The video starts with little Reina (most likely ten years old), sitting in her room and talking to her toys. Everything is black and white and it looks like an old silent movie. We can't hear Reina's voice, we can only hear the music and how it's slowly becoming more and more repetitive. Reina looks happy at first, but then she starts getting tired and when the music becomes almost unbearable to listen to, she throws all the toys off her bed.

It turns out that it really was a scene from a movie and now someone is interviewing little Reina and she's still smiling and overall looks like a very happy child. 

"Look at me, the little star of the show

Aren't you proud of me? Look at me! I'm such a good girl!

Except I don't feel anything at all

I'm not even proud of myself"

The scene changes and now she's older, she's still being interviewed, but now she looks and acts more like a "problem child": she doesn't want to be there and she makes sure everyone knows it and her parents find her embarrassing.

"Oh no, it looks like your little star has gone wild

She's rude, she's violent, she's going crazy

Except she doesn't feel anything at all

She's not even proud of herself"

Now we can see Reina and her parents going to see her new movie together and when it starts, it has even darker colors than the first one. 

"I keep achieving goals, I keep making accomplishments

But this story isn't going anywhere

Will my character ever change for the better?

No motivation, no backstory, no reason for me to grow"

Reina just sits there with her parents and watches her character kill so many people on screen without showing any signs of regret, but even though Reina looks bored at first, when you look closer, you can see that she's actually.. uncomfortable with that kind of role. 

"Is this who I am? Is this who I'm supposed to be?

The villain of this story was me all along

At least that's what I thought

But it looks like you see me in a different way"

Her parents eventually leave without even watching the full movie, meanwhile Reina stays and sees her character finding a dead body that we can't see clearly, but this is the first time when her character actually looks scared. Reina stands up from her chair, looks like she doesn't remember making that face in that scene. Actually, she's not sure if this movie even had a scene like that, she doesn't remember filming it. 

Reina continues watching the movie and she can see how her character keeps getting more and more emotional and how she yells at one of her "partners in crime" and throws her weapon on the ground. Reina turns around to see all people in the cinema enjoying the movie a lot more now. It looks like they really like the development this character is getting.

"Ah, so that's how it is

Am I a hero in your eyes now?

Have you forgiven me already?

You don't even know anything about me, how can you say those words so easily?"

Reina decides to leave, but before she does that, her character looks right at her and nods. Reina nods back with anger and hatred in her eyes and right when she leaves and closes the door behind her, everything starts to burn. 

The whole cinema is on fire now. Her character sees everyone running and screaming and smiles while trying to hide the dead body from earlier, meanwhile Reina sits on a nearby bench and watches the cinema burn to the ground. 

"So, who will tell this story: me or you?

Will you rewrite everything, will you decide how it ends?

I'm not against that, I just want you to know

You won't be able to forgive me until I forgive myself"

She looks relieved and she sighs while looking at the night sky.

[mad-hunts]

okay, so from what i've gathered, just for those who uhh. might be curious about what barton's type is for no reason in particular (yeah, it's for shipping purposes JSJSJ ) — he is probably simultaneously the least picky person whenever it comes to who he's willing to date out of all my oc's and i honestly find that kind of ironic, because of the fact that he's literally a SERIAL KILLER but... anyways, like i was saying (,: barton does seem to have a certain penchant for liking people / beings who are literally different in any way? and i mean different in a good way, OFC. oh, and he also seems to have a thing for redheads as well as blondes, but i'm going to be talking about the first thing for today 💀

this could also range from being just like different as in having an 'unusual' appearance / having mutant abilities or being able to practice magic. and, of course, being something a little bit more... significant, i guess you could say. because he would get with a supernatural being and fawn over them in a way that would make you think 'well, maybe they've known each other for a while, so that's why he's acting like he's completely whipped for them?' but nope. in reality, barton just sometimes seems to take one look at a being — who, for example, might be an eldritch horror creature or something — and thinks ' damn. i am in between wanting to study them in a clinical setting and wanting to study this species's courting rituals because i am trying to WIFE them up ' SKSKSK LMAO

nooo, but if any of my moots on here were to want to ship with me if you aren't already, but are nervous about asking me about me whether i'd be interested in doing so because they're like a supernatural creature or something... then please don't be afraid to HMU because barton is literally the most shameless monster hand-holder + monster kisser if i'm being honest

[arielluva]

days since the last time my mom told me im anxious because i dont eat well and sleep too late: 0

[queer-reader-07]

doomscrolling is overrated i'm instead choosing to spend my evening practicing rxn mechanisms

[byanyan]

byan disappears for two days but instead of emerging strung out and skittish like usual, their hands and arms are covered in paint and ink stains and they're a little distant but hungry as hell

[queenhawke]

i know we just got some mq pics but i need more. i need imani to leak the whole season