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Bird anon here!! Hi uhm. In celebration of me seeing the robin nestlings more often recently I want to throw more headcanons here. And not just ANY headcanons. No no no. (I open up my Google Docs and look through them before finding the one I need and squinting at it.) Pigeon Taph headcanons? Pigeon Taph. (Would this count as an AU?? I'm not sure.) Anyways. Prepare.
• OKAY SO you know about messenger pigeons, right. And a part of why they were often used was because they could memorize stuff quickly if given the opportunity. YEAH. So Taph is actually extremely good with memorizing directions and new areas. If not actively being chased, he tends to make a map in his head about the different areas that he's in and takes note of different landmarks in order to memorize the area. If someone needs to guide a fellow survivor away from whoever is chasing them, if Taph is nearby, he'll be one of the more likely survivors to do so.
• Taph does not like being alone. He'll be willing to if it's for his safety (I personally headcanon that as robloxians got more violent towards demolitionists and going outside became more dangerous, Taph sort of like. Isolated himself and stayed inside. Unless he absolutely had to go outside), but once forsakened, Taph often can be lurking in the presence of other survivors, especially ones that he trusts. When he enters a round, he also tends to stick with whoever he spawns with, or he'll flock over to the first person he finds (no pun intended).
• On the topic of this, sometimes after particularly rough rounds, since pigeons will flock together for safety in numbers, Taph will try to round up as many survivors as possible.
• Pigeons can be curious, and Taph is no exception. If something is of interest, he'll often go investigate it. Albeit, when forsakened, he tries to take another survivor with him to investigate stuff so that if something goes wrong, death isn't guaranteed. If the thing of interest is something another survivor is doing, Taph will walk over and observe. He won't announce his presence, but if he is noticed, Taph is willing to sign to the survivor that he's watching (if they know sign language. I actually have a list of different survivors who I believe known sign language and how well they know it. I'll submit that eventually!!)
• The other survivors refer to the areas where Taph sets up his tripwires and subspace tripmines as "nests". This is inspired by the fact that on the wiki, some people actually call these areas "nests". At the very least, they did the last time I checked.
• Sometimes, Taph will like. Tilt his head or puff the feathers on his wings in order to communicate. He'll also flap said wings. The force used and the context survivors can pick up on let them know if the flapping is a good thing or a bad thing. If he's angry, he also might nod his head up-and-down extremely quickly (which some pigeons will do!! Mainly when they feel defensive, especially over their territory or their nest). When angry, he might also stomp a foot alongside another trait of defensiveness or anger.
• Before being forsakened, Taph would sometimes laze around in the sun if he had free time. Nothing too much, honestly. It feels nice. He'd do this with other robloxians if he could, but if nobody was available, he'd do it alone. It's one of the things from his life pre-forsaken that he misses, honestly.
• I already talked a little bit about this one before (see previous post), but Taph can often be found in elevated areas. He'll often be in the rafters or trying to climb up a tree inbetween rounds. In maps that he can have a slight height advantage, he'll usually take said height advantage unless it's too risky and his health gets put at extreme risk. I'd like to think that for survivors that he'd be close to, he'd also be willing to help them into some of his favorite areas of the rafters or into some of his favorite trees, and just. Sit with them. Even if not having a conversation.
Thanks for attending!! Get pigeon Taph'ed. Heh. Anyways have a nice day, birds are neat. Birds are super cool. Bird anon out (for now).
Pigeon Taph,,, I love birds and I love Taph therefore I absolutely love all of these. I need to hold them in my hands and pat their head omg. I'm gonna be yoinking some of these
YOU get pigeon Taph'ed /silly
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My favorite animal is me getting struck with more and more bkdk aus and getting progressively more frustrated about it lmao










#part of me kinda wants to donate my aus to someone who’ll actually do smth with em lol#but the other part of me is like ‘ewwwwww cringe noooooo they suckkkk’#and the other other part of me wants to hoard them in the hopes that one day I’ll actually do smth about them lmao#I think I have even more in my google docs…#bnha#mha#bakudeku#bkdk#🎶song sings🎶
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my tes secret santa for @anotherclassicpretence! truth be told I've been having a tad bit of writer's block lately but some of your prompts were VERY interesting (I liked the idea of writing delphine before the main quest a lot... this more or less counts) so I hope I've done them justice. hope you're having a splendid holiday season!
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“Steady on, Hilde,” Delphine says with a brusque, manufactured sort of calm. “You’ll do yourself a mischief.”
It's a relief, she thinks, that the day Hilde has elected to barge in with world-upending news is a convenient one; it isn’t as though Riverwood is the kind of place to attract crowds, most of the time (part of the reason she chose to live here at all) but the inn is unusually quiet now. Orgnar is nominally organising something in the cellar, which means that he’s spending an hour swapping two bottles around and calling it a day, and the dining hall is warmed to a swelter with the ever-going hearthfire, and utterly empty. No-one’s come in for lunch yet. No rooms rented out last night, either, so it’s all silent on that front; it’s just Delphine and her wet cotton cloth, wiping down the stained tables till they shine, and Hilde with her hair wrapped and her string of beads tangling round narrow, hard-knuckled fingers. She’s sat herself on the chair with the wobbly leg; it needs fixing soon. Ordinarily, Delphine would herd her onto another, but right now she doesn’t think there’s anything in the world that would get Hilde to listen.
“Hark at her!” she complains to the bead-string - all marbled glass dyed blue and red and yellow, clinking together on their leather cord. “Do a mischief - do a mischief - it’s as if she can’t bloody hear me -”
Delphine swipes the cloth over the chip in the corner of the table. “I hear you,” she replies (does she ever hear her). Hilde’s hands are white where the necklace bites into her skin; her lips are pinched into a puckered line. Her eyes are red-rimmed and fierce. “Hilde. I’m going to get you a drink to calm your nerves, and then we’ll talk it over properly, all right?”
“Talk it over,” Hilde repeats, high and scornful, and then her face screws up quite suddenly as if all the fight has fled it - the wrinkles in her cheeks deepening to uneasy valleys, knuckles pressed to the thin slat of her mouth, beads digging hard into her cheek. “Nine have mercy… thank you, Delphine.”
The inner corner of Delphine’s lip snags, near imperceptibly, between the blunt ends of her canines. She nods once, and she ducks behind the bar, folding the cloth with damp precision as she goes. The cask of ale is near empty, the mugs lined up on their shelf, sparkling clean, cutlery rattling around in its tin. It's not fancy - Riverwood is a small, old town, built on the bones of an older one, and no matter how well-run the inn has been since she bought it it's not exactly a prime destination, but it's a good sort of a place. And innkeeping is decent work. Keeps you busy. Keeps your ear to the ground. Gives you something to focus on, in the meantime -
When Delphine grabs a tankard, she notes with some incredulity that her hand is trembling. She stills it. She pours the ale until the cup rim is flecked with froth.
(Gives you something to focus on in the meantime, in between real work, while you're waiting -)
(There is a feeling rising in her body, foaming like the ale; a sour, stomach-turning excitement, as if she's in her twenties again and wet behind her ears, biting back all the intrigue. Like she has an unlined face and fresh armour and is standing again in line for her induction ceremony. Like she's staring something in the face and thinking, finally.)
Delphine caps the cask. She is not in her twenties, and she is not staring anything down; bar Hilde, a seventy year old woman with tannin-stained hands and the latest in a line of tall stories. Delphine didn't get this far (how far?) (still alive, isn’t she) through credulity. She's a pragmatist through and through - won't believe anything she hasn't seen evidence of with her own eyes; and yet.
And yet.
She sets the mug down on the table; a pale and lukewarm drop slides down the pewter, just next to the handle. She'll need to wipe it all down again, after this.
Hilde takes it, absent-minded; the beads slither from where they’re strung around her hands to rest in a smooth curve over her chest. Her hands are shaking - she doesn’t seem to notice, or if she does, she doesn’t stop them. There is a look about her, all of a sudden, that seems dreadfully, fixedly haunted, like a woman looking down the barrel of a cannon, some rapid-rigged explosive, something to level the town. Like she’s caught the apocalypse’s eye. Delphine reaches out, perfunctory, and pats the back of her hand; Hilde grimaces and downs half her tankard in one long, desperate swig.
Light’s coming in through the window-slats up by the rafters, dull and gold, dust motes in the shafts of it. It makes the white wimple of cloth swaddled hastily around Hilde’s head shine in places.
“Big as the mountain,” she mumbles into the lip of the tankard, fingers wrapped tight around its handle, “black as night - flew right over the barrow like something fit to block out the sun.”
Delphine’s teeth scrape over that spot at the corner of her lip. She can’t help but say, “Are you sure -”
“I know what I saw,” Hilde snaps. Her knuckles and lips are blanched and colourless. Liquid sloshes over the edge of her cup with her sharp, abortive gestures. “I saw a dragon.”
Delphine is very careful not to let her face do anything at all, there.
(It’s adrenaline, she knows; the pointed, muscle-coiled readiness to move - to act - to make a plan in service of a solid end and carry it off perfectly; the comfort of seeing possibility roll out before her like a long many-doored hallway, like a road she might be able to walk instead of these four walls she’s circled for too many years. Innkeeping is decent work - keeps her ear to the ground - keeps her busy in the interim, but it’s not what Delphine does, not what she’s been trained to do; not a purpose, not something to strive for, and oh, Divines -)
(None of this is substantiated. Delphine is not a rash and green youth, not anymore and not again, and she will not start running away with silly fantasies before she’s checked anything at all; she has had her fill of disappointment, and should know better than to invite it - should know better than to start spinning grand plans, before she’s even sent out some missives to the pale cobweb of contacts she has left - over the barrow; west, then - is there a significance, to the barrow? Does she have anything about it in her side room? Nine, it’s times like this she misses the old library and the mad old codger that kept it, and, no. No.)
(Yes.)
“It’ll come back,” Hilde’s saying with fearful certainty; lips flecked with spittle and beer-foam, hands still shaking. “It’ll come back, and it’ll kill us all, and then you’ll believe me -”
“I believe you,” Delphine tells her, and it is inexplicably, regrettably true. (She’s thinking about the library. She’s thinking about the dragonlore. She’s thinking that if dragons are back, someone will have to do something about it - and oh Divines how she has missed being the one to do something about it.)
Her hands are still, but only through some effort.
She feels like she’s been dozing for twenty years and only now has been shocked awake.
Hilde looks at her, white-mouthed and white-scarved; she frowns, a tense, sour thing, and she says doubtfully, “You look like you need a drink.”
Delphine laughs. It’s a short, gruff bark of sound. Her hands are flat on the tabletop; her hair is coming loose in thin wisps from the tight knot at the base of her skull. Sunlight trickles through the windows, golden-fresh. “No,” she says. “No, thank you, Hilde, I'm good."
#i would have liked to edit this one a bit more but fussing over it was just making it turn to GIBBERISH BEFORE MY EYES so.#it's polished enough!#will go back and fix the hyphen/em-dash situation later. im using google docs atm and it's giving me HELL#this one was fun to write bc it made me laugh to think about how drastically differently these people are reacting#delphine (intelligence agent that thrives in high stress situations. desperately bored traumatised lonely and searching for purpose)#vs hilde (random old nord woman whose culture draws a direct unambiguous line between Dragon = The Literal End Times)#hilde has SEEN THE HARBINGER OF DOOM and NO-ONE BELIEVES HER. except delphine - against her better judgement - and she#is saying FUCK YES#(even better than it's literally alduin. she saw the god that will consume all the world and nobody care)#(this is what HAPPENS when we don't listen to women!)#tessecretsanta2024#tes#fay writes#my writing#skyrim#delphine#my beloved... woman of all time
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So my Sonic Underground rewrite. I’ve been novelizing it and my sister (my One Avid Fan) is an extremely busy person who has no time to read it. If I were to, perhaps, post it on here, would anyone person read it. I’d gladly do it anyway, but I need motivation to keep writing it between work and school.
feat. this drawing of revamped!Sleet that I did like two months ago
#my art#underground: revamped#sleet#sonic underground#like I have probably 16 pages in a Google Doc rn#maybe more#and I would like feedback if anyone wants to give it.#all it would take is one like or something#I think I might even post it to ao3#keep up my streak of taking years to update things 😎
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The biggest hurdle i have to actually sitting down and writing a fanfic is the cringe factor , which is kind of ridiculous when you see some of the other things ive created but for some reason something about writing fanfic really gets to the little worm in my brain that goes “this is so lame and also cringe you should cease immediately”
#and i say this having read like millions of words of fanfic in the past six months#and an uncountable amount through my entire life#i <3 fanfic#i am so afraid of writing it though#one day I’ll be stronger than it though#i got as far as making a google doc and naming it#next step is writing more than two words without closing the app in embarrassment#I don’t think it’s even the idea of fanfic itself I have an issue with#just me specifically writing anything serious about my blorbos is inconceivable#thoughts
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so i have a problem & its called rereading this fic i just quickly doodled these 2 thingss but ill prolly make an actual piece bc i think about this a lot
sunshine. falling.
u can decide which part of the convo theyre on kfjsdh
gift 4 @radioactive-earthshine
HERES THE FIC AGAIN BC I REALIZE THE LINK MIGHT NOT LINK? ignore mefjksdh\
((idk y the quality is so badfjsdgf BUT THE DIALOUGE WAS CUTE OK ik part of it was from superboy & the ravers (#7) but just ok just))
this is like a couple weeks old @ this point idk y i never posted it
#like i cant discribe how emotioons this makes me feel#that was not a sentence#this fic makes me spin like i am in the dryer just psinning!!!#i do have a google doc separate from my other comment doc bc of how long this is turning out 2 b#like ohnofkjdshfks MOST OF IT IS ME SCREAMING I FEEL BAD BUT LIKE FDJKASHK#LISTEN LISTEN THIS FIC IS JUST IF U OSMEHOW R READING THIS & HJAVENT READ IT PLS READ IT PLS#ik this is only art 4 the 1st 2 chapters but i AM planning more#specifically w/the kids & 1 w/preston + thad bc omg i didnt think i would find them as cute as i do rn#spoilers im totally drawing them sk8ing & u CANT STOP ME#u dont even want 2 know i mean im ogin 2 say it anyways but im totally planning on drawing when kon & bart go through the files#y???? uhmmmmmm bc BC I CAN man idk im still so caught on capt 13 & the emotions from it just#anywaysfjkdshfk#srry 4 the tag :'3#kon el#bart allen#konbart#kart#dc#puppee art
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For the director's cut fanfic thing: ⭐⭐⭐ (these are THREE stars valid for whatever. I'm giving you blank checks)
thank you again <3
blank check 2/3 goes back to as you like it again! but this time i want to talk about my shadow designs for the akechi bossfights we've encountered in the preceding chapters >:3 there are five - the Puppet, the Singer, the Bard, the Dancer, and the Magician.
but this got really ABSURDLY long this time so ill stick to mostly the Puppet, and just do a brief ("brief") overview of the others for now.......
(for context: this is my palace au and akechi's keywords are akechi goro, the world, theatre.)
the Puppet (photos of giant puppets below if that freaks you out!)
the first Wing the thieves encounter is the puppet show, and the boss shadow is a giant marionette:
For one thing, it’s huge—maybe three or four times the size of a human being. It’s also gleaming, carefully polished and buffed, reflecting light more viciously in the areas where it seems the wood might be chipped or worn. The polish throws the lines of joints and pieces into sharp relief, giving the puppet the general impression of something whole that had been cut up and pieced slowly together with hinges and nails. Behind it, mostly concealed by its limp bulk, is a door. As they might have gleaned from the chatter of the audience, the show does not yet seem to have begun. As such, the puppet on stage is limp on its strings. Most disturbingly, it’s draped backward, not forward, snapped unnaturally at the spine and giving it the extremely uncanny look of a corpse on uneven ceiling hooks. They can just make out the side of the thing’s eyes from where they’re standing. Gravity has not been kind to them: the puppet’s eyelids are dropped open, bulging eyes left wide and staring up as far back as the build will let them. They haven’t rolled all the way into the wooden skull, presumably because they can’t. Instead, the unseeing yellow eyes remain fixed on the back corner of the stage. The puppet is entirely still. “I think I’m going to be sick,” Makoto says faintly.
i think the Puppet is my favourite of the five because he's so disturbing. i imagine he looks a bit like the giant marionettes by the french street theatre show royal de luxe:



but i really love these guys, so i think it's uncharitable to say akechi's shadow looks exactly like them. i know giant puppets are always a little freaky but i genuinely love the royal de luxe puppets and i think the workmanship on these does genuinely do a ton of work to dispel that uncanny vibe.
puppet akechi on the other hand is absolutely drenched in uncanny valley, so i guess imagine these puppets but much scarier. the main thing is those places where different pieces of wood are joined, in the joints / on the limbs / etc, because that's very key to puppet akechi's look in my mind, hence "something whole that had been cut up and pieced slowly together with hinges and nails". the Puppet is a marionette, but the way he's been constructed and set up on stage almost calls to mind the imagery of a corpse that's been reconstructed to perform. the way he moves is really unnatural:
Ren is beginning to think they might be able to get past and slip through that door without a fight when the whole creature rears up, back strings going taut, and lashes wildly out at him with a horrible clack of its arms—he leaps back and crashes directly into Haru, who catches and dips him like a princess before twirling him frantically into Ryuji and the puppet gouges a deep gash in the stage floor. As they watch it screeches, howls an unnatural shriek, eyes suddenly wide and bulging larger. They ‘blink’ a few times, eyelids flipping, then the puppet Akechi goes limp on its strings again, though decidedly more upright than before, like whoever’s pulling the strings is now on guard. Its eyes stay open this time, bright gold and piercing.
very much not like something exercising its own agency, but like a body on strings being operated by someone who did not care to practice in the artistry of operating a puppet to make it look like a live thing - the puppet is literally just a tool to be flailed about.
this also shows in the way the puppet sits when it's at rest. guys do you know how god damn hard it is to find normal pictures of puppets? when you google marionette it just comes up with a bunch of fnaf shit. anyway check this guy out

at rest, they usually just kind of dangle innocently, or might slouch forward if given too much slack, right? it was important to me that puppet akechi look very wrong at rest, as if he's not "at rest" so much as he's just been left to hang. hence: "it’s draped backward, not forward, snapped unnaturally at the spine and giving it the extremely uncanny look of a corpse on uneven ceiling hooks." i'm basically imagining meat hooks, like, in a slaughterhouse or something you know? like he's just dangling from those.
that imagery was inspired by persona 5 dancing, actually - akechi's finishing pose in his dance is this:
this is just such an unnatural pose. when i saw it for the first time, i just couldn't get the image out of my head of a string puppet who'd been hung up and left to dangle without any regard for how it might look or feel (lol). not to mention that blank look in his eyes. i think a lot of the Puppet was born from this dance because the dance itself is so dynamic and silly but then the lead-up to the end suddenly gets very jerky and puppet-like. i really like his dance!
the Puppet's battle mechanic is that the applause will continue as long as the Puppet is either acting or getting hurt (kind of like the mettaton fight in undertale actually?). if the applause stops, then the Puppet will be inflicted with Despair - in p5 the Despair effect means you lose SP for each turn and then instantly die on the third turn. makoto ends up healing the Puppet and yusuke mercy-kills it before it can commit suicide:
Fox silently raises his gun. The Thieves collectively flinch as the Puppet dissipates. The applause starts back up. “If we’d left things silent,” Yusuke says, “it would have only happened again.”
because this is the first shadow bossfight the thieves encounter in the Theatre, i needed it to have some broader implications (vs some of the later shadows who have more specific interactions). so obviously the analogue for akechi is that the performance needs to continue and he needs to continue receiving acknowledgement from the public / from shido / etc because if he's not useful and entertaining and noticeable and such, then he's nothing - his life doesn't mean anything. obviously, if he doesnt perform for shido (perform in the sense of working, but also in the sense of showmanship) he'll probably be killed. but also, akechi really externalises his sense of self to an insane degree. the conceit of the palace is essentially that his entire internal world is the show, it's just this shallow performance, the backstage is empty. if he stops existing in the cognition of the masses, he essentially "stops existing".
i think a lot about third semester akechi in royal and how completely he's faded from public awareness. he doesn't care because he's a dead man walking and has locked into nihilism at that point. but if you look at what akechi says in the engine room:
his voice when he says this says a lot to me. akechi's envisioning the world as it will look when he has to return and face the consequences of the world discovering what's behind the curtain and realising his credibility was all a show. to be honest, i think this also plays a role in his decision to sacrifice himself in this scene. i don't think he wanted to die, but i think he did realise that the post-thieves, post-truth world wasn't a place that held anything for him anymore, and his desire to return to that reality was dramatically weakened, so it was an easier decision for him to choose to make that sacrifice than it otherwise might have been.
um, i had a point. okay, so, i was saying that once the applause stops, the Puppet begins to despair. the Puppet also is the most direct representation of akechi as someone who is being used. all the shadow bosses correlate to some aspect of akechi's need to perform and to the varying reasons why they all have that sense of desperation:
“Kinda feels like they’re just defendin’ themselves, you know,” [Ryuji] says. “Or somethin’. Look too much like him. It’s weird they can’t talk, cos it’s like fighting a dumb animal. Don’t they all seem real scared to you?” None of Akechi’s Shadows have delivered grand speeches about conquering the world. Even Futaba’s Shadow had given them a fairly strong indication of what was going on with her, that overwhelming guilt which had given birth to a resolve to lock herself up in her mind and die. Akechi’s Shadows have lashed out, tried to destroy them, sure. But it feels different in a way that’s growing more and more impossible to ignore. Desperate to fend them off, more than anything, like each one is the final bastion standing for a world that could crumble at any moment.
that's why once you figure out how to stop each shadow's "show" from going on, they instantly die:
ripping the Singer's mask off causes him to cease to exist (see below)
silencing the Bard, who relies on the power of his words to manipulate others, removes his power and reveals that he's pretty easy to take down
the Dancer's feet are always bleeding because he can't stop moving. he's hard to catch, but the moment he stops dancing, he's revealed to have extremely low defence and can be taken out very easily
but the Puppet is literally being manipulated by a puppetmaster. because he no longer has any use when the applause stops, he no longer has a reason to exist. i also just thought this would be a fun effect to start on because it's so drastic as an introduction to akc's psyche and really gives the thieves a sense of what they're working with by throwing them directly into the deep end.
ok let's leave the puppet behind for now. im gonna be more brief with the others i promise (maybe)
the Singer
LET'S TALK about. beneath the mask. a song about ren. but it's also a song about goro.
I'm a shape-shifter at Poe's masquerade Hiding both face and mind All free for you to draw
the fic goes over some of my meta about this:
[Yusuke] I have done some research. [Makoto] Oh? [Yusuke] I believe when the Opera Shadow sang of “Poe’s Masquerade”, he was referring to a short story by Edgar Allan Poe, entitled “The Masque of the Red Death”.
eternally grateful for the scene during the pyramid arc where yusuke loredumps about egyptian mythology so i have precedent to do this
yusuke summarises the story in this chapter (chapter 4), but basically: the story is about rich people abandoning the common folk to a plague, until a personification of the plague wearing a red mask enters the castle. when his mask is removed, it's revealed there is nothing underneath. everyone in the castle then succumbs to the plague.
the superficial connections to akechi are pretty obvious - red mask, plague doctor. etc. but this song is really, really telling for both ren and goro. i briefly went over this in my last dvd commentary post about the palace fic, but this relates to my meta around both of them as mask wearers. the line "all free for you to draw" is a big one - ren is "all free for you," the player, "to draw" - he becomes who you need him to be, and because you need to max out your confidants, he becomes (via you) who his friends need him to be.
goro is similar on a different scale because he moulds his personality to what the public expects him to be. he takes it one step further, because it's less utility for him and more foundational - as i said, to an extent the performance is the substance of his personality, which is the core of the distortion. so both ren and goro are wearing the mask, malleable in character, their actual personality being somewhat questionable, but that emptiness is only true for goro. ren's definitely got something underneath it, but goro feels like he doesn't.
brief cw for suicidal ideation, but i also generally take it as a given that goro doesn't really expect to live past 18 after defeating shido. not that he's actively suicidal, but i think literally or figuratively he knows after shido's downfall, his own life will pretty much be over, and that's part of what drives the emptiness. the show really only needs to go on until that point, and after that there's no need to build a real thing underneath to return to. he's very much living for that goal.
anyway: so the Singer starts out singing the Phantom of the Opera - the Shadow is very much modelled after the phantom - but swaps to beneath the mask and begins to connect with ren. the Singer wears a red mask. i really like this mask! i envision it as looking like someone pouring blood over his face and then the blood freezing in place, so it just looks very molten and liquid but fixed over half his face.
ren defeats the Singer by ripping his mask off:
[Ren] Please don’t take off my mask, revealing dark [Ann] OMG!! [Ann] THAT’S WHAT HAPPENED WHEN WE TOOK OFF HIS MASK!! [Ann] HE REVEALED DARK!!!! [Ann] HE DISAPPEARED!!!!!!!!!!
(i love the thieves because i dont have to be subtle about my symbolism i can just make them say it)
anyway, just like the figure in the Masque of the Red Death, ripping off the Singer's mask reveals "dark" underneath - he ceases to exist.
Just a cage of bones There's nothing inside
the Bard and the Dancer
when i was first plotting this fic, i was actually designing the palace not as a written environment but as though it would be a playable place. so a lot of it is informed by me picturing what this palace would be like to play through and explore, building it out as a video game environment in my mind's eye and then trying to describe it from that point. i took the same approach to the bossfights, so they're all designed around central gameplay mechanics which are largely based on status effects and how the player would strategise around them. (to that end, a lot of the design stuff in my doc never made it into the fic...)
the conceit of the bard was a shadow who can manifest abstract concepts into being by manipulating reality with his words. so the status effects he uses are brainwash and sleep, mostly. his monologues are modified versions of shakespeare's works.
part of the reason why i started writing this fic was specifically to challenge myself in aras of writing im not very confident in: so longform planning, progression of plot, environment description, and action scenes being major ones. writing all the boss fights was and continues to be a real challenge. the chapter that the bard shows up in (chapter 5) ended up taking ages and ages in part because i kept putting off writing this fight. now that it's done, though, the bard fight is actually maybe my favourite fight scene i've written lol. it always turns out that way!!! the reason i like it is because i realised the physical action wasn't the fun part of writing a fight like this. since it was focused on status effects, it meant i got to crawl into ren's headspace when he got brainwashed, which i really really enjoyed doing because i got to drag out some trauma that joker has lovingly repressed.
to set my fellows, phantoms in the wings in deadly hate the one against the other… This isn’t the Casino. This is somewhere else entirely. The Casino, and everything that came with it, that was months ago. How did he forget? The cottonwool that had crept so slowly into his blood dissipates in a mad rush that leaves him dizzy with disbelief. His hands, now that he can feel them again, are trembling. The knife between his fingers, trembling. The cool floor beneath him, the air in his lungs. How close had he come to never feeling that again? Had he really just been feeling safe about that plan? Had he really felt everything was going to be okay? If anything had gone wrong—anything at all—he’d have been gone. He’d have been dead. How had they made it so he felt okay with that? A trick? A ruse? How blasé they’d all been, when it was his life they were gambling with like a worthless set of poker chips! And they’re here—all around him. Safe? He’s never been in more danger. “Joker!” Surrounded. He’s surrounded by the ones who left him for dead.
the Dancer doesn't get as much attention in text because i didn't want to slow down the pacing of the story every few minutes to do another huge scene tgat doesn't really serve a purpose, just like the exploration of the Globe Wing didn't. all that mattered was that he was shown to be adaptable, agile, and resilient - the Dancer needs to be in top condition at all times and ready to dodge any threat. the imagery that came through to me the strongest was the idea that his feet are always bleeding, so he leaves bloodstains all over the floor.
the Magician
this was another scene i adored writing. i think environment-wise, the House of Cards is my favourite Wing in the palace because it's the most unique structure. it's not a styled theatre like the others, it's more on-theme to the Magician, like he's set up his own performance environment. so it's just a huge house of cards made of crumbling playing cards which is really difficult to navigate and which joker kind of blends into.
the premise for the Magician was someone who needs to perform miracles and present impossible illusions as reality with a flair for drama. the Magician fools the Thieves over and over and over again, because they are good-hearted people who want to save him.
did you ever see that unused mementos request in royal where akechi tells the thieves about a target to save someone, and doesn't tell them that the someone in question is dodgy themself, and watches to see how quickly the Thieves immediately trust them?
i don't think i based this fight off this request because im pretty sure i had it planned out before i ever saw this, but i was really pleased to see it because it's very much the same idea. even in the engine room, akechi calls the thieves idiots for inviting him back into the team. of course, this isn't a good or healthy worldview lol and it's something he has to unlearn because he literally trusts no one and that's not an extreme anyone should be endorsing, but he also has a point in that the thieves are willing to throw their faith into things way too easily and don't look critically at people or situations. so the magician fools them, victimises them, tricks them into considering him a victim, fools them again, traumatises them, but they all continue to feel empathy for him and try to save him when he's in trouble. akc's cynicism vs the thieves' faith is a big theme of this one i think and the question is like, when to doubt vs when to trust even when you have evidence to the opposition. i think the right position is somewhere between thesis and antithesis (which iirc is not actually the wording hegel used when describing dialectics? lol... i might be wrong. i never studied hegel so my knowledge is pretty superficial. but i think this was a translation thing anyway because allegedly goro doesnt refer directly to hegel in jp? someone can confirm or deny idk)
anyway those are the bossfights we've had so far!!! just the VIP Box to go now......................... :3
#this writeup took like 3 days of returning periodically to yammer#it's a real relief to actually have these written somewhere#again me writing these is really more for me than anything else i just like being able to keep track of and publish them Somewhere i can#refer to them instead of just like... trapped in my skull... or a google doc that lags to hell every time i try to open it#rookfic#rookthots#p5#asks#i had so much fun designing the wings and shadows#impossible dreams of akc's palace being theoretically playable made me really zero in on like#how to make all of these story features work mechanically#what each fight would look like#i even started composing a palace theme (+ a variant for different areas) which i think ive posted portions of on twitter#the main theme isnt finished. the variant is. i have no formal musical training#just one stupid little bird doing his best. wading thru the fixation puddle#i dont think those snippets are on tumblr right now though. remind me#anyway#AYLI
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i have LITERALLY no idea how to make my oc stuff a "presentable"* form and i was hypothesizing a visual novel the other day which primarily got shut down by the fact that quote 'i dont want people playing as [my ocs]'. i would be making the player read a picture book. you get no choices here
#juno speaks#*“presentable” -- my writing is currently compiled into google docs totaling 300k+ words#but its all very informal and i.. do not think anyone would really want to read that. i understand that long writings are not peoples–#–favorite ways to process information#we can thank 2-3 years ago juno for working their ass off two summers in a row and now ive opened those documents maybe five times since.#sigh#this isnt a 'i want suggestions' post for the record i have a lot of things to work through about my writing bc of various things–#–that Happened#im just pointing out one of the pitfalls of translating it to a more palatable medium.#i have thought of all the main ones and i really have not come to a decision. and thats even if i decide to share my ocs at all. yknow#this is also not me complaining abt people not wanting to read my docs its happened a lot and im aware that its a lot to go thru.#thats not a bad thing! as long as you just say that its cool. i wont get upset
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What do you use for your writing?
I use google docs! Though sometimes it does mess up since it likes to autocorrect things for some reason add on words I didn’t want-
Really simple and all I have to do is copy and paste on here! if you were talking about what I write on, it’s my laptop! (I just bought a new one and the battery life is amazing)
thank you for the ask anon!
#Duck asks#Yeahhh google docs is my way to go#It’s just more simple#even if it adds on these weird little symbols to tumblr that I have to go and edit#Idk how to fix that#but thank you for the ask!#this makes me wonder if you’re going to start writing anon… (assuming you don’t already write-)#But I would love to be tagged either way if you’re thinking/ doing writing!#I loveeeee reading new things#love you guys ❤️
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you ever grin and bear it so hard you not only give yourself a health condition but stimulate additional bone growth? no?? just me??
#was looking up this thing in my mouth cause i was like I don’t wanna fall down a Google rabbit hole until also im convinced this wasn’t here#a few years ago and lo and behold bruxism can stimulate bone growth in your jaw#I honestly think everyone with unexplained chronic pain connected to mental health should get their jaw checked out cause damn does mine#seem to have a lot going on#(I lowkey need to find a new doc to look closer at this cause I need more treatment plans but even having a cause is so epic)#boom blogs high
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i am making great strides with my exocolonist cook book. next step: try to make soysweets!
thank you @elvexen for making the inspiration for this project!! (this post)
I've decided to make them flavored like various ingredients in the game. only mango soysweets are said to exist i think, but why not have some fun!!! :)
#posts!!#exo cook book!!#i was a teenage exocolonist#iwatex#iwatec#teenage exocolonist#I am going to make dustmelon ones. I just couldn't find anything to help me when I do#because I'm thinking of making them with like. honeydew or cucumber??? maybe even some grape??????#idk yet. they're described to be put on rex's eyes like cucumbers#which led me to believe they have similar properties to cucumbers#and then they have melon in the name. and they're summer fruits because their name leads me to believe they are dust fruits in game#ALSO ik that bristleslug berries are technically eggs. but they look like berries. and again I'm just having fun!!!#one more thing#if ANYONE has ANYTHING they know about the in-game food I would appreciate it soso much if you shared it with me!!#I have 3 google docs for this so far#the “cook book” itself. all of the foods alphabetically organized and color coded with their variations if they have any#(ex: I've found 6 different cakes + cupcakes)#and all of my recipe references + notes for each food#I am very much enjoying this project!!!#one last thing I promise#user @mayyak. sponge cake will be in the cookbook#love you all! <3
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somehow for all our supposed advances in ai there is still no word processer that can reliably tell what language i'm typing in at any given time
#ESPECIALLY if i'm changing in the middle of a paragraph. which is often. and then it tries to CORRECT me like i dont know what im doing#the amount of times that word has tried to capitalize “i” (and in catalan) bc it assumes im in english. or even when i AM in english but im#writing a catalan name. gah#ive just started to turn off editing suggestions full stop until im finished writing something#i think google docs is slightly better at this but the downside is having to work in google docs for everything#at least word is like. on my computer and i can work offline more easily#txt#ari adventures
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I’m just gonna write a little thing! A little thought for Bloom, nothing too intense, just so I don’t forget it!
1000 words later? Whoops
Writing below the cut, major spoilers for the end of Heart of Thorns and implied End of Dragons spoilers but nothing explicit from EoD :]
Bloom
“Kill me, Commander.” Trahearne could hear his own voice tremble, as horror overtook his dear friend’s face. Around them all, their friends— Rytlock, Caithe, Canach, Marjory, Braham— were exhausted. Worn thin by the fight against the jungle dragon, both physical and within the Dream.
“What? No! Mordremoth is dead. We destroyed its mind from the inside.” The commander protested, their fingers curled around the hilt of Caladbolg.
“But I still hear its voice.” Trahearne looked down at his hands, twisted and blighted as they were. His body was not his— he was corrupted. It was only cruel fate that he had kept his mind this long. Or perhaps something more sinister.
“Mordremoth is alive. One last hateful vestige… a terrible seed, planted deep in my mind.”
Trahearne’s hands curled into fist, as he took a deep steadying breath.
“You must kill me, Commander, before that seed grows. Before… before Mordremoth reclaims what it has lost.”
He reached out now, hands on his friend’s shoulders. The tears streaming down their face broke his heart. He did not want this. He didn’t want to hurt them, to see them suffer so.
Trahearne wished there was another way.
“What is left of me can’t survive on its own, my friend.” He croaked, and felt the Commander tremble beneath his hands. Were they always so small?
“Strike now or—“
Against his will, a rage rose up. A sick bile that boiled in his stomach and burned through his chest as his mind lurched.
Through his mouth, Mordremoth spoke.
“I am the future! I am this world! You cannot destroy me!” The dragon roared, hands tightening around the commander.
“Run while you can!” It took everything he had left to force his fingers to uncurl, to release the commander even as the dragon wanted to tear them to shreds to be remade anew.
Caladbolg flashed in the corner of his eye.
“No!” The commander yelled. Strike true my friend! Trahearne wanted to yell. But he couldn’t, and his mind went dark.
There was no great explosion. There was no dying scream.
If you asked those present what happened, none of them gave any concrete answer.
Canach hesitated to answer, but would confirm that Mordremoth was no longer hounding his mind, or any of the sylvari.
All Rytlock would say was that the confrontation wasn’t pretty.
Caithe mourned Trahearne, in her quiet and melancholic manner, and asked not to push the matter further.
Braham would scowl, shake his head, and shove his way past, unwilling or perhaps unable to describe that final blow.
Marjory Delaqua, normally so elegant and clever with her words, who could see the twists of a plot before anyone else— when she was asked, she could only shake her head and reply ‘I don’t know’.
The Commander didn’t answer at all, because no one was able to find them to ask.
Eventually, researchers at the newly established lab of Rata Novus confirmed what the entire world held its breath to hear.
Mordremoth was dead. He had to be, to explain the slow steady trickle of magic escaping the jungle, supposedly as the dragon… decayed wasn’t the right word, but it conveyed the idea well enough. It was a slow death, they said, not quite the explosive reaction from Zhaitan, who had gorged itself on magic before its death, but a gradual decay. It changed things, about magic, about how the people of Tyria and the soon to be established Dragon’s Watch understood the flow of magic around and through the Elder Dragons. But it was dead.
It had to be.
He woke up. His body ached, as it always did, as he woke. A consequence of being too bigsmall. He stirred slowly, limbs stretching out and tail dragging behind. He had buried himself beneath massive vines this time, the weight of them both familiar and restricting. These conflicting sensations, the constant disagreement with himself… it was the only thing he could rely on. Even his name escaped his memory, although he could hear whispers of it on the edges of his mind.
Traherdremaneth.
It didn’t matter, really.
He moved slowly, not truly wanting to rise, but knowing he must.
He was something in between, and there was no stillness for him. No place of his own.
His one companion, if you could call it that, would be upon him soon. A dogged purserer, both a thorn in his side and a trusted ally, trailed behind him. For a time he thought they left him— and the feelings that had wrought left him stationary in a deep cave for nearly a week before they had reappeared.
He didn’t want them close, he knew that much, but they were one of the few things he had, a consistency. He couldn’t see them well, not with the distance between them, but he could always make out the broken blade at their hip. The one that made the scar across his chest ache.
He wondered what would happen if he let them get closer. Would they strike? Would they know him?
They were his enemyfriend. What would they make of him? Caution kept him at a distance from them.
The longer he was awake, the more memories he could half-remember.
The Orrian landscape stretches out before him and it reeks of his sibling, twisting beneath the dirt. The undead don’t notice him, not yet, and he can take a moment to look closer at the coral. It was neither alive nor dead. Not unlike himself and yet so different to him or anything he had ever encountered before.
He missed his siblings, their quiet talks among the then empty roots, among safe coils with their constant presence around him. They were too distant to feel or simply gone now and it unnerved him. This was wrong. Perhaps they could help him make it right.
There was one other thing, other than his sort-of companion and his unsteady roiling mind, that remained constant. And this was the true constant. A steady beacon, that he could not see or hear, but simply felt in a way that he could not describe. A magnetic sort of pull that had him orbiting closer and closer.
It drew him in, out of the depths and dark underbelly of the jungle and the cave systems, towards the strange golden stones, the elegant walls meant to keep out creatures that wished to destroy the beacon. He was not welcome there, not yet, even though he meant no harm. He just needed to be closer.
He didn’t know how he knew that. He just knew it.
#gw2#guild wars 2#batsy writing#bloom my beloved#i should sort out a proper tag for him#the bloom dragon feels too generic but I hesitate to tag it trahearne#even tho technically it is#in a sense#gw2 spoilers#should include that one#im on mobile and i wrote this on google docs in uhhh#two hours? two and half? give or take#tumblr doesnt like my formatting at ALL lmao#i will tag this but with#trahearne#gw2 trahearne#tho bc he does technically appear as himself. briefly#during the painful bit#that dialogue i did go to the wiki for to make sure i remembered it right#so thats. anet dialogue w some batsy flavor for the actions#i tried to keep the commander vague bc i still have no idea who bloom has as a commander#and if ppl wanna imagine their commander w bloom in the meantime then go for it#i used dyraoi for that one drawing but she doesnt fit bloom as well as i hoped#so he continues to just have vague commander shape#which#is a fun challenge#to write without giving too much detail about them#this could be so much longer but i both reached the end of my train of thought and havent decided how i want to handle some stuff#me? rambling in my own tags? more likely than you think#if youve made it this far in the tags hi
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dofp logan fic is probably actually gonna be up tomorrow night instead, due to the fact that i've been writing it and only just now reached the smut and haven't even gotten close to finishing yet (no pun intended)
#I've just now reached the smut#and i'm about to go all in#it ain't gonna be quick like that first smut i wrote#i want to make it like three pages long (on google docs)#and i'm probably gonna edit and add more to it#BUUUT i have an idea for a worst wolvie body worship fic that i'm gonna write when i need a break from this one so that'll be fun#van rambles#also ive noticed my writing that if there's any type of story in it i literally have to write nearly two pages of building it up before i#even get to the main part#i just like to write the backgrounds and set the scene but i think i want to try to work that differently
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Theyre going to think I like canon and purely canon if I keep going on like this
#i. despite my many complaints. do enjoy comics. and going into the Comic Reading Fandom#there is a shocking amount of people who are purely in the fandom but have never interacted with the source#while i do believe its fine to dabble in something you haven't seen the source for yet but plan to#being a creating active presence in fandom for something youre not a fan of. just doesn't sit with me#its just a bit baffling. to be a fan of the fandom amd never touch the canon#like lifelong christians who attend every service and judge others based on gods word. who have never even read the full bible.#its just all the pastors word and stories n verses they grew up with#thats exactly how i see it I fear#fanon dynamics and tropes heavily overwhelm the canon. and i tend to prefer the canon. so it gets frustrating#not to mention how many popular ones completely flip characters. reinforce stereotypes. have even more confusing timelines. etc#its like the online fan equivalent of years of domestication and breeding that turned wolves to pugs#not that extreme but you get me#i mess with canon. i like to get silly with it. i like to fuck around#plenty of things i dont like i Will ignore or rewrite! or make an au where i can do whatever on earth i want#i dont respect canon or think its the end all be all and if you step one foot out of line of canon ill maul you like an angry dog#its just like! maybe read the one singular comic issue youre about base your entire interpretation on the fanon version of#this is ending in just me complaining about titans tower yeah. sorry. its the prime example i fear#but at least its easy to filter out#man! if i just had a way to filter things out better..#sometimes it reaches the point where i consider just blocking the entire tim tag. sorry tim#i Will uplift the community i desire instead of focusing on my hatred and complaining!!#i just need to get out of art block and find cool blogs to follow that Get Me to help me out first!!#unfortunately i have a really weird complex about following people especially if they followed me first!!!#not sure what thats about!!#but ill get to the other things!!!#i am also just a complainer though !#and i get into arguments alot without realizing it because i love noting every detail and correcting people!!#i tried to put every william mention and appearance from tse in a google doc. and with ralpho. thsoe got much easier when i got#digital copies of the fnaf books. but what im saying is i LOVE having all the facts n details abt my blorbos. esp in over detailed notes.fu#havijg all the references on hand! and sharing my precious beautiful knowledge. carefully noted bc my poor memory. very delightful. fun!
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This is so funny actually. Tumblr time is perfectly believable, but apparently I spent 11 hours just chattin 😂
U can see when I wake up in the middle of the night and check my phone too. Inchresting...
#speculation nation#i think i will check this more often actually bc it's pretty interesting#and what better place to talk about my phone habits than. here!#i wonder how it's gonna change with school starting up. it'll be interesting to see !!#also i havent been in fanfiction reading mood lately. but whenever i get back on that shit#that internet app will shoot WAY up. just you watch.#the fact that ive spend even less than 3 hours on my google docs app tho...that is not a good thing........#this week. this week for sure itll be more. (it'll Have to be more.)#(for writing lol)
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