#I should talk in Polish

[tianhai03]

oh hey look it's april 1st again. happy trans day of visibility 💙💗🤍

[katabay]

original thief series basso & garrett :)

ngl, it's about quality over quantity for me. an npc can have a total of three minutes of screen time, but if they have a cool name, they can live rent free in my head and I'll spend several hours trying to decipher drawable features from a blurry screenshot of pixels

there is a vague hint of a story here, and that's because every time I try to play thi4f, I get incredibly frustrated with how Not Fun the game play is. like, is the story good? well. but it has a PLAGUE. that should've given it instant 'I'll replay this once a year' status in my heart, but the game play sucks so bad that I've never finished it. I can't believe Not Fun gameplay beat out my obsession with narrative plagues.

anyway, the idea is basically if the original era had a game with a plague centric narrative and some other stuff I liked out of thi4f thrown into a narrative blender, with a heavy dash of horror thrown in because some parts of the thief games were scarier to me than entire dedicated horror genre games.

⭐ places I’m at! bsky / pixiv / pillowfort /cohost / cara.app

[glassrunner]

man the past few weeks sucks in terms of the sheer disappointment that comes from highly-anticipated media revealing itself to be shallow and poorly-written :/

[maggins]

post WaD headcanon time: Hunter probably didn’t carve Waffles as she was, per se. like, he still had so much baggage about “getting replaced” from his GG days that he probs felt if he carved another bird it’d be kinda like replacing Flapjack and how terrible would he feel abt it

i’m thinking he’s some time into his apprenticeship under Dell and has already gotten a hang at carving palismen for other folks and he is really good at it and FEELS good about it, but the thought of making one for himself kinda still makes his stomach turn. but bit by bit, he feels he’s able to move on and thinks about getting one for himself, but there’s still so much doubt and guilt that he’s not sure what to carve

it’s at this point that Luz suggests he carve an egg like she did with Stringbean, and that way he can sort of let the palisman decide for themselves what they want to be, and also give Hunter some time to reflect about it and to grieve and talk to them about his doubts and fears, but also his hopes and wishes

i think it would take much longer for his palisman egg to hatch than Luz’s did, but it was okay, they were giving each other time to get to know each other, even without actually meeting in person

i’m imagining his surprise when another bird breaks out of that egg, but it’s alright, because she decided what she’d be and look like, and she chose to be with him at the right moment and accept everything about all he’s ever told her while she was still in that egg, and he’s so happy and grateful for this beautiful little blue bird 🥹

[giantkillerjack]

Uh-oh! You are like, SOOO awkward!!

You're so awkward that it is occasionally mildly uncomfortable for people!

You're so awkward that sometimes people are confused by you and then there are awkward silences!

You're so awkward ...... that ultimately no one is harmed!!

Oh damn!!! What a vile crime you have committed! What an unforgivable thing it is to make a fellow human briefly confused!

Why, if *I* were ever briefly confused and kind of uncomfortable as a result, I'd be devastated.... by the absolute net zero change in my happiness and health! - From which I might never recover!! Yes indeed! No punishment can ever be enough for you!!

So you better absolutely hate yourself for it.

Better be SO MEAN to yourself about every single missed social cue so you don't forget your horrible crime! Meaner than you'd ever dream of being to someone else for the same thing! This is YOUR responsibility!

You need to show the world that you KNOW you are bad by punishing yourself constantly! After all, think of all the people who BENEFIT from you punishing yourself! - No, really! Think about it! Think about who benefits from your pain.

Think of alllllll the definitely-good people that your definitely-necessary self-torment definitely helps! I mean, you can't just cut off their definitely-life-sustaining supply of your suffering, right?? Sure, everyone else has a breaking point, but you're probably the only person in human history who doesn't, right? Best not to question it probably. Sure, it's a symptom that billions of people with trauma have had, but who knows? You could be a one-in-seven-billion exception. Anything's possible!

Instead, better just accept that idea that bullies carry like guns in holsters - the idea that people who have trouble with social cues deserve to suffer. Better carry on the burden they placed on you until you drop. Aid the cause of the callous by enforcing shame and suffering upon yourself extra hard; try your best to do their work for them. They're very busy.

Better not recognize that you need patience and kindness to heal from your trauma. Better not find out that it was trauma rather than personal weakness filling your head with self-hating thoughts. Better not find out it wasn't your fault.

Better not find out that awkwardness is not inherently harmful or unkind, and, in fact, the people who act like it is *are the ones enacting harm and being cruel.*

Better not get righteously angry when you realize just how much unnecessary damage this has done to you. After all, if you get mad, you might realize you deserve better. You might even feel brave enough to DEMAND better! You might build boundaries that keep you safe! You might make other people think they deserve to feel safe too! And we obviously can't be having that, so...

Better not show yourself even a little kindness a little bit at a time.

Better not make a habit out of it after all that practice.

Better not get confident.

Especially if you can't first wipe out every trace of awkward. (And you probably never will. Because people who experience absolute social certainty at all times tend to be insufferable assholes that enforce the status quo. And you just don't have the stock portfolio for that.)

Better not be confident and awkward because then you might confuse and delight people

- you might accidentally end up making other people feel less shame for their social difficulties

- you might make isolated, traumatized, and shy people feel like they deserve to be included in social situations

- you might even make them feel they can be themselves around you

- you might start loving the effect you have on a room

- you might enjoy conversations more

- you might forgive yourself and bounce back from shame more easily and frequently

- you might come to enjoy some of those moments of harmless confusion you cause because NOBODY expects the Confident Awkward, and that can genuinely be an advantage in social situations

- you might stop apologizing so much.

- you might find that socializing is like a video game: it requires practice but also a safe space for it to be fun and positive.

Or if you can't become assertive and confident, better not remain awkward and shy and quiet, and then love and forgive yourself anyway!

Why, it would be carnage!!

In either scenario, you run the risk of finding out that it's not your fault that safe spaces full of kind people can be really hard to find, create, and nurture. You could end up building a skillset that helps you do those things if you're not careful!

If you start giving yourself even the tiniest amount of grace at a time, you will find that you've accessed a gateway drug with extreme long-term side effects:

- You might realize that it was never your fault that it took so long to like yourself.

- You might realize that you were always worth talking to, even when you didn't like yourself and communication felt impossibly difficult.

- You might realize that you'll still be worth talking to even if communication becomes harder as you age and/or experience disability.

- You might come to know that you deserve to be heard even on bad days when words come slow and blurry.

You might discover that you were always deserving of kindness, first and foremost from yourself.

So. As you can see, it's FAR too much of a risk to start granting your awkward self free pardons for your many heinous and harmless crimes. Better to just leave it there.

[itissadbutitsmy-artblog]

this is the deb family lore in my heart

hes desperately trying to keep them all straight in his mind but their name modifiers to cadebra are all just "aunt" or "uncle"

[perpetuallyfive]

I won't even say how much I've written because it feels fucking absurd, but Arcane is consuming my mind like nothing has since Pitch Perfect.

Not that I didn't care about other fandoms after that, just that this is the first time in so long I've felt this compelled to write and felt such satisfaction in doing it. A truly bizarre feeling.

[sparklee-gem]

So I’ve had a fic in progress for about *checks watch* almost a year and a half, and I finally got to a point where I got chapter one almost polished, and feel confident enough to post it. I’ve had fun writing it, but I’m usually only writing within one shots, so this will be my first multi chapter fic and that’s exciting but also nerve wracking lol

Figured I’d give a preview of the last writing session I had, and some older art for an idea of the neon sign Atem spots Yugi under one night.

Hopefully this will be out soon! I’ll be keeping y’all updated, and thanks for the love on my recent art 💖

[idanit]

I have flown too close to the sun drawing my Jeeves and Wooster genderbends. Now I desire a >50K epic "How the mouth changes its shape"-style

[deadwooddross]

speaking of stickers, guess what, i'm STILL hemming and hawing over patreon stuff...considering just letting all the sketchbook stuff hang out in the $5 dollar tier again bc man. whatever! I don't really care about price walling my doodles! I much prefer thinking of tier rewards as little thank you gifts of whatever I happen to have on me rather than products. like lovingly handing you my pocket lint and a cool rock SO ANYWAYS these would all cost roughly the same for me I think, which is the most tasty and delicious?

[jamietwat]

This is how easily distracted my writing focus has been in the last twelve hours

[prophecyofgray]

guy who can't go five minutes without having a Project. finished the second draft of my fantasy book back in june and wrote an entire first draft of my novella in july so im currently on hiatus from both of those and im losign my mind. i Need a Writing Project. yes i have a screenplay that i should start writing. no im not doing it

[skullzy20]

Not even a "Hello" ??? or "How are you"????

[em-b-sides]

I think about that tiktok trend where you like paint your partners eye color on your nails or make a bracelet or something with the color a lot actually

[ghostyolive]

I want more genderqueer bi rep and I want more bi rep where they're attracted to other incredibly genderqueer people. No more exclusively gender conforming bi people attracted to exclusively other gender conforming people. I want a couple that's a beautiful and weird butch woman with a beautiful and weird femme man and they're both incredibly bi4bi

[sleepy-stitches]

my brain is so evil. why do i have no energy to clean my room. why does it all go to writing weird fucked up yuri. like why am i sitting here enraptured heart and soul by a piece of writing that was meant to be a fragment at best but i am discovering has three entire parts to it. why is that where we are at. i need to clean my fucking room