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I got a tarot reading from someone over on Gaia, and I have to say I'm 100% certain they are right on the money
Yes, this is all 100% correct - my boyfriend is trying his best to come visit me, as he is states away. And tbh, both of us are waiting to see if the relationship will be true or not (I have been extra worried that he may not like me once we actually meet even though he says he can tell I'm a genuinely nice person, and I get the feeling he assumes the same with me).
Here's to hoping that my boyfriend genuinely likes me, and that he sees I genuinely like him <3
#gaia online#tarot reading#relationship drama#older boyfriend#I must reiterate that my boyfriend is 20 years older than me#and we are both adults so it's consensual#and yes we do sexting and video chats hehe#I genuinely love him#he makes me feel like I have hope again#seriously my brother has been more on edge lately#and I am scared he will destroy my stuff or kick me out#I really wish my boyfriend was here#at least to give me a place to stay when my brother has a tantrum
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Were Peter and Harry properly a thing? Or was it more of a spur of the moment hook-up?
in 9319? it was just two sordid nights – and sweet, sweet lingering trauma...
harry so nice, peter had to have it twice.
#sci speaks#ask-spiderpool#the fic is non-explicit! and kind of vital reading to get into peter's head and all his baggage.#this fic honest to god caused me so much psychic damage to write. and i've been trapped in peter's brain ever since.#i can't get out. let me OUT. it's such a horrifying MESS up in here.#i'm really glad i wrote this because. god. peter has so many more dimensions now than he did prior.#peter levelled up so much in the ask-spiderpool revival#it's so funny because if harry didn't rear his head then peter was going to be relegated to the supportive boyfriend role.#but no sir. he's got his own messes to clean. and he's kind of become the pov character now.#which is so fun! because wade always used to be the pov character before. how the turntables...#i think boys night might be my favourite bit of writing i've done for 9319. in some messed up sort of way.#i really wish everyone'd read it.#the harry stuff in 9319 is some of my most favouritest stuff. it's so juicy. it's so juicy !!#i love the osborns kind of existing solely to get peter to question himself and face uncomfortable truths.#the osborns just being able to worm out everything that peter parker supresses. all his anger and all of his... ugly.#delicious. smacks lips.
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What illegal downloads from sketchy websites and someone you miss leads to
#I think this could be a very good au#Y’know. To make fugo suffer. When have I wished him good. Fuck him. He ruins my life. (Affectionately)#Virus Nara….. Is he a virus tho….. bc wdym there’s a virus of ur late best friend out there in the internet#Maybe he possessed fugos pc bc he let him play games on it… idk… I added a file icon w his games in the drawing just bc I thought it’d#Be funny but. Who’s to say it’s not a FNAF animatronic possession thing. Without the agony.#Actually no there is agony from fugo. I mean. Isn’t it like bad energy and strong emotions. Just that the animatronics also had melted meta#hold on lemme cook here#Jjba x FNAF except narancia is literally just in FNAF AR pc version (doesn’t exist) and haunts fugo#(I promise imma try to take it a bit more seriously 😭)#Still sobbing and I haven’t even finished watching tomb of the fireflies or whatevz.#Literally played my feelings. Snatched my heart. Tore it in half. Cut the halves to pieces. Boiled it into soup. And fed it to me.#Do not watch this fucking movie. Ghibli I hate you for this. Stop making me cry.#Also this au might just be sad fugonara. Maybe platonic maybe romantic. I do not know#But I really like the idea of Nara forever haunting fugo. Like yes guyboss torment ur boyloser after death ‼️#Narancia prob thinks he’s just being silly and funny like before he died but fugo is absolutely terrified having a mental breakdown over it#Actually that gives me so many ideas. I have more sadness to cause (to myself and my kitty witties).#I love the word digital. Digital bath. Digital footprint. Digital torment from your dead best friend.#(or crush. Or boyfriend. I don’t know what they are. It’s just fugonara. /p /rom (is /rom a thing))#I JUST REALIZED I YAPPED SM IN TAGS HELP#jjba#jojo no kimyou na bouken#jojo’s bizarre adventure#narancia ghirga#au#alternate universe#fugonara au#also ignore the fact I will mainly be drawing in my agenda I don’t have anything better to draw on in school#(I do have loose leaf sheets but I hate how thin they are and it’s easier to get caught drawing on them :/)#I wish I had more time to live#Traditional art
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spending my whole life trying and trying and trying and trying to be good enough for people who don't give a fuck about me
#im so tired living seems pointless why am i doing this what is the reason#the firm i work at is going thru a merger so it's releasing all the interns except 2#i went into her office and said that id like to stay here bc my dad said so bc i got in cause he was friends with the head#and she said ill think about it based on performance ive not decided yet#and this other guy he went in to tell her that cool he'll leave and she told him that she was hoping that he'd stay#he literally does nothing but play games on his phone he doesn't work at all#i have no idea what he has that i don't#but just. im stuck like this forever right never ever good enough for people i like or care about#not for parents they have a diff fav child not for ex gf not for bestie who has a boyfriend much better at loving her than me#not for that one guy who rejected me in interview bc i don't read the newspaper and didn't know the date of the finance act#im so fucking sick of this i never even wanted to this fuckinh course and obviously even my best isn't enough and ofc im not good enough#for anyone in this field and ill just struggle and struggle and struggle all my life just to earn some fucking money so i can live away#from my sociopathic parents#and the worst part is that i can't stop feeling like maybe it IS me yk maybe i am the problem maybe im not trying hard enough#but how else am i supposed to handle this i prioritize my studies and lose all my friends i prioritise my friends and fail in d#exams#and the trauma keeps on coming every fucking day bc sociopathic parents but i jsut push it down and say not rn i will cry at night anx then#never cry#i wish someone would just tell me that idk you're wrong you're not made for this you really do have some mental illness and you're really#trying your best and do something that's easy and that you love doing#oh god this is now a ventpost#mes
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the holiday malaise is getting to me a little bit
#despite my efforts#last year i was happy and i had a boyfriend i loved to bits and i was looking forward to the future and happy with where my career was goin#i had little things to look forward to on holidays for the first time ever and big things to look forward to in the following year#generally a lot more hope and happiness and looking forward to things after many many years of working hard at getting to that place#this year im..... just trying to keep myself busy and distracted#i don't have someone to celebrate big and little things with anymore or events in the year#things are still incredibly caustic with my dad so i can't spend the holiday with family (same as it's been since i moved out)#i don't know what next year is going to be like for me much less my future in general#trying to have hope and make it what i want it to be but i'm still struggling to find a trail that feels passable#also really feeling more and more like i'm just a passing single note in the symphony of other people's lives and not in a good way#ah well#gotta keep trying#a life and future i'll be content and happy with will come to me.... just... a matter of when#i hope it's easier to be optimistic next year and every year that follows#it really doesn't help that politics are so fucking dire here though#personal stuff#waugh sorry to be a downer#holidays are back to being miserable times of the year for me#events and holidays always bring out the malaise ™ in me fr#i'm doing fine being single again i don't feel like i'll never love again or something (impossible for me- i'm a lover after all)#just been a lot of change all at once and a lot of really bad luck all at once and other realities settling in (my age) (my unemployability#a lot to grapple with#i wish i could just live in the woods and spend my days baking and rockhounding/mudlarking and foraging
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Tough day rambles
In a world with a different setting id be a prophet or a person with cool visions, id be a person worthy of protection and trust and friendship. Here im just paranoid and i worry about the wrong things. Somewhere else when i dance on my way to a shop everyone thinks im full of joy and whimsy and they dont think im drunk or childish. Somewhere else i can be around people for more than 5 hours before i shut down for the rest of the day. Somewhere else i dont remind everyone im stupid and dumb and i dont describe everything i do and feel as "slight" and "little" and "a bit", im able to love romantically and dream of tenderness and give it and recieve it. Idk i just hate myself a lot.
#period moment#im unable of feeling any positive emotion currently#but its true i am worthless#i always promise myself i wont enter new fandoms because in the end theyre just reminders of how ill never be cool and enough etc#i wish i had a confirmation that im not that bad#old man journalist who came to our uni said oooh i thought you were american with your accent and how much u use the word 'like'#i told him my vocabulary is just really really bad and he laughed but yeah omg what a way to tell me im dumb#and also guy from class texting me transphobic pro trump stuff just cause he wants me to give him arguments against what he says#why#just why#and im bad at german#and i havent started writing my article even tho i have over a month to do it#and i dont understand in between wars economics in germany#and i cant write my coalecroux and theres no point of continuing there are much better writers#everything i do is wrong and i dont understand what i should understand#disgusting uh i feel disgusting#my mom told me that her boyfriend got a “beautiful” christmas gift for me#dude why WHY would you buy me things that can be described as beautiful#i hate christmas#i just want to be somewhere else in a different world#i want to be in avantris i want to use magic i dont want to be human#i wish i was older because maybe when youre like 27 your opinions and feelings matter#but im over here rocking back and forth and sucking on a necklace like a fucking baby watching wizard of oz#how do you stop hating yourself i dont get it#i dont fuckinf understand anything#everything is clouded with my desire to be dead or somewhere else and its been like this for a decade i just want it to stop#goodnight i hope i dont fucking wake up i hope my cat scratches my stomach open and eats my body so im useful for something
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Of course when I’m not even trying for an Astarion romance I’m SWIMMING in getting his romance scenes. Honestly, I don’t think I had two of them on my first run!
I love Astarion, he’ll forever be my bbg and the loml but I’m trying to do a Gale romance and I find myself going ‘WHAT DO YOU WANT’ whenever Astarion needs to tell me something lol
#shitpost#baldur's gate 3#bg3#astarion#astarion ancunin#lol#like please sir I wasn’t even choosing dialogue options that I thought you’d like#if anything#my approval rating is higher NOW than before!#Sorry but this really is a vampire boyfriend dating simulator#this game is killing me#To be honest I kind of wish that this WAS my Astarion romance because how this is all playing out feels more natural#like#I turned down Astarion twice before the Tiefling party#then at the party I got that line about him not liking feeling like a hero#then it was pretty flirty and I made him say please#then I met him later and had vavoom#then when I was in the Underdark and long rested there he gave me that line where he’s like ‘here’s my little treat with their cheeks#… all flushed’#and he asked me if I was going to bed with him#and I told him maybe some other time#then he said he’d be yearning for me until I was ready#then I got the mirror scene and told him he had a sharp smile#dangerous eyes#but wasn’t as good as Gale#AND HE APPROVED#he said he needed to get his beauty sleep if he wanted to#catch up with the competition#THIS SUCKS ASS I LOVE ASTARION SO MUCH BUT IM REALLY TRYING FOR MAGIC MAN#and my approval is EXCEPTIONAL for Gale and only very good for Astarion
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okay i feel like im going insane and making a red string board in my head but I've watched that Ichiban and Kiryu conversation way too many times and i swear Kiryu has to be lying to seem cool or the "proposal" he's talking about isn't a standard proposal. a man with nothing to hide wouldn't have his face shift from being this smug
to being this caught off guard when he's asked to give details
that's not the look of a man who's been asked to reveal something personal that might be emberassing or uncomfortable, that's the face of a man who got caught in a lie and doesn't know how to follow up.
i know Kiryu is pulling a story out of his ass to hold up a manly persona. he's looking around trying to come up with something believable because he didn't think through his gut reaction of "I need to seem cool in front of this younger guy who (maybe) looks up to me". man's looking around the skyline as if his childhood idea of a tough, macho yakuza is gonna float down and give him a story to tell.
I can't even think of who he could be referring to unless he's exaggerating his relationship with Yumi or Kaoru? or if it has something to do with the woman he's protecting in Gaiden but I wouldn't think so since that's just a side story. of course it's not impossible that he could have tried to have a relationship during one of the gaps in time between games (à la Majima having an ex-wife between games), but that would be a really cheap way to write themselves out of Kiryu being generally uninterested in women. in conclusion?
#personally i hope it either flashes back to something he said as a kid or that this is a big fake out/ out of context scene#where he immediately quotes something he said to someone in the clan instead#yes i want him to quote something he's said to Majima but I'll settle for literally any other guy in the clan#he's getting phased out of 'main character' status for Ichiban and the new gang anyways right?#what better time than this to confirm that our beloved Kiryu isn't straight?#wishful thinking i know I KNOWWW i just really dont want them to slap another woman that we 1. dont know or#2. never got to see the relationship develop with#set Kiryu free please rgg studios. i see the posts yall make on Valentine's day and boyfriend day it would be hilarious to drop it in here#yeah i did obsess over this video for my entire work shift And What Of It. i feel like a youtube detective analysing his body language#and my conclusion came out to this: he's very autistic and is trying to stick to the image Ichiban must have of him ->#but in doing so backed himself into a corner and is panicking. thank you for ur time im going insane <3#bulletin board#kiryu kazuma#yakuza 8#like a dragon 8
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You know. I'm part of the fraction "to each their own and let people handle their lives however they see best fit". But I do feel the need to say that I have seldom seen such an idiotic assumption as that breaking up with someone four days before someone's birthday when you also want that someone to do something for their birthday even though you know you and your soon-to-be-ex will both have to be there won't end with that person just not doing anything with anyone for their birthday. Partially because nobody wants that kind of awkwardness after a fresh breakup and also because the soon-to-be-ex has the lovely habit of wallowing in self pity and making everything about how they have it so bad. You know I just think in such cases you should've waited a week with the breakup. I don't care how much you want to fuck that other guy but I really think you should've waited a week.
#delete later#sigh why always me...#can't somdone else get the complicated people for once#annoying#the soon-to-be-ex complained today in the group chat that nobody wouod ever go to a pub with him#when that is literally not the case#we would all go? he just never asked? and anytime someone else wants to go party or jusz out 90% of the time the answer is no?#I've known that guy for 13 years now and somehow it just does not get easier#like? anytime someone else asks him it's always “no i don't want to” but then you complain about how nobody would want to do anything#the call coming from inside the house is all I'm saying#'' oh but I couldn't go anyways I wouldn't fit“ ''why? nobody cares about random strangers thats usually not how people work''#'' thats not true'' ''they literally don't care though.'' ''not when that person looks 13'' ''yeah no they still literally wouldn't care''#''they would'' ''they wouldn't. people never do. why would they make an exception for you?'' and then no answer to that#because you can't argue against that anymore without having to confront the fact you're wrong#but then I'm getting told im not empathetic enough#i know i lack empathy I'm aware but I do make an attempt for serious situations. i just don't think stuff like that is serious.#especially when i once mentioend i think my father thinks I'll end up living off of state wellfare and become a disappointment#and the only reply to that was ''how did he arrive at that really likely assumption?'' my brother in christ do not complain to me about lack#of empathy I'm not the one telling people their fears of becoming the family disappointment are well founded and realistic#I'm not even going to excuse that through some ''oh autism'' stuff like no thats just tactless and mean#or all the condescending comments whenever i go out to ''party''#it's just drinking with some people i know it's not really partying#but I'm not the one looking down on people for experiencing stuff#contrary to popular assumption I'm actually really cool and i know that. that's why people ask me to do stuff with them.#because i don't say no 99% of the time and then complain that nobody would ever want to do something with me when that's just plain wrong#i also totally get why she wants to break up#how do you actively refuse to meet your partners friends for half a year and expect that to not become an issue.#how do you actively say you're not interested in doing anything for your partner and expect that to last#how do you whine about being a bad partner but never attempt to do better#i wish i could defend him here but i can't that dude is a horrible boyfriend
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I don’t cry often but dear god. I’m crying over her.
#We were friends for five years you dumb bitch.#The fall fr started over Halloween costumes bc she said we could match then when we were actually shopping#She prioritized her boyfriend over me but not even in a way we still could have matched#And she said I was unreasonable for being upset#But I finally had friends who would have done it#Then EVERYONE FUCKING FLAKED#and crush still tried but things wouldn’t have been shipped in time#Then this girl had the audacity to say everything she did when we argued#One of the girls who she claims is her best friend recently got home from a half year in the mental hospital#And they have had a total of two outings or hangouts#Then her other friend. Who she really only hung out with during her fight with cancer and not after that#But she would see me regularly#Until a month before we argued#And now I’m crying because I thought she was good#But looking back#And looking from an outsiders perspective#She’s horrivle#I know she doesn’t know my account here but gods I wish she did#L if you’re reading this. You’re a bitch. You’re a terrible friend. So unless you’re willing to change and be honest and better.#Dont talk to me. Don’t message me. Don’t come to see me at lunch or ask me to hang out.#Because I’m unwilling to work on a relationship where I’ll always be second to her boyfriend.#Sure. I have crush. But that doesn’t mean I prioritize her over my best friend. I hold them equally.#But you don’t and you never did.#L if you see this#know I’ve cried too many times over you#And I don’t think I could stop myself from arguing if I ever actually talk to you again
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ive been ok but i have been dissociating really hard. i feel a bit overwhelmed
#my posts#im meeting some friends this evening and i am incredibly anxious about getting triggered#i have to walk home in the dark and someone is coming with me so it should be ok#but it just feels like a recipe for me leaving the planet and vanishing forever#i hope not. im just afraid#maybe itll be great. maybe itll end up being all about me because i have a visible breakdown#i dont really mind either of those possibilities because at least i exist#im just afraid that ill go and never come back#dissociative disorder is frightening to me. i am afraid#if i really have to i can cancel but. i dont know#i dont want to#so ill go afraid#but im so afraid#and im afraid itll be too much and i shouldnt have been brave#i wish my boyfriend was here i need grounding contact#maybe i can hold my friends hands#maybe i can regress to feel safer (and ill take a stuffed friend)
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#as a side note i had a moment of horrid irony when i thought suddenly that I WISHED mr knight were there#because he was at the vigil last year and used to be a part of my church. and i suddenly missed all my old housemates#who were here last year! went to hug people during the peace and a good friend asked if i was okay#i was like 😭😭😭😭 not really and then turned around and SAW the boy and was like well this is a twist in the plot i truly dont care for#anyway all's well i just cried buckets more my heart's been wrung OUT#he lives fae away. he was not supposed to come. anyway he did and i shook his hand formally because he offered to (???)#*far away#it was totally bizarre#he did not stay for long which. thank God. i wouldve been so much more tired if he had#but he wished me happy birthday which irked me because we'd had an unspoken agreement to not wish each other happy birthday (for fear of#mixed signals) which. happened i guess#it was INCREDIBLY bizarre. the safest ive ever felt in my life was when he was holding me#and now he's a familiar stranger i know too well whom i dont WANT to know#anyway it has been a heartwrenching and soul draining Lent and past six months or more and i was ready to cry#and so i did. bawled like a baby after certain readings and songs. cried and cried and cried#re: reasons for that concerning the ex boyfriend: it is SO weird and i dont know how to deal with it#like. i still have so much love that it feels like grief and the grief bleeds into that love too#but that love isnt for HIM anymore or at least not the person i found he was. so now it really does have nowhere to go#ANYHOW IT'S LATE BUT THE POINT IS. HE IS RISEN AND THERE ARE MORE IMPORTANT THINGS#THAN SEEING YOUR EX BOYFRIEND AT CHURCH AND BEING LIKE ?????? HUH????????
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damn we really got shafted by funnay long ass fight scenes and dead dad cop b (c?) plot............... i havent looked at the producers and what theyre all about etc but seeing the queer angles get shafted (like its all at once not heavy-handed enough but the next step would have been on-screen making out sloppy style like. tenderness? or something) due to whatever the fuck else that all was...... man
i appreciate that this is a new and fun interpretation and i do love receiving little lgbtq+ pellets but idk. some ingredients in this soup arent doin it for me
#renfield#renfield 2023#i give renfield 2023 the movie the film a GAY MINUS!!! /joke#also not saying theres anything wrong with ambiguity. u dont NEED labels#maybe theres room for a next time and for more queer thangs to happen#i kind of wish there were just *something* yaknow#not enough weed smoking girlfriends or boyfriends#not enough little boyfriend dates where theyre all boyfriends and girlfriends#dracula said here now my beloved twink a mechanism for you to do so much labor for me teehee and also 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀#reminds me i really love teddys full commitment to starting a cat fight over that old man#also just watched beau is afraid. narcissim heavy on my brain#thinking a lot about what makes a person want to execute a story like that and make it abt as real as it gets. but anyway#npds emergence in major media pieces is intriguing 2 me#theres so much to explore that didnt get a chance due to lots of nameless men with guns#and quincys dead cop family i guess#re: the cops#while i appreciate that theyre all corrupt its still a background sentiment bc its just lip service (they dont actually do evil)#once again asking for cage dracula reprise. he killed it (punintentional)#and nicholas hoult was great as well!!!#thx for coming to my ted talk#ill do more prabably
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IF LORE UPDATES APPLIED TO PEOPLE I WOULDVE JUST GOTTEN ONE OF MY HAPPIEST LORE UPDATES TODAY
#FUCK YEAH WE GOT MY FIRST EVER MURAL LOOKING SICK AS SHIT SO FAR#TORTUGA AS BIG AS ME AND DETAILED ENOUGH THAT STRANGERS COMPLIMENTED IT MY BELOVED#HUGE SHOUTOUT TO THE GUY DRIVING BY THAT ROLLED DOWN THEIR WINDOW AND SHOUTED “dude that’s amazing!” AS THEY PASSED#CAME OUT AS TRANS TO MY AUNT THAT IM PAINTING THE MURAL FOR AND SHE IS NOW OFFICIALLY MY FIRST BLOOD RELATIVE TO BE SUPPORTIVE OF ME OUT TH#GATE#HER ONLY THINGS WERE THAT SHE WASNT GONNA BE PERFECT ABOUT MY PRONOUNS AND THAT SHE WISHED ID COME OUT TO HER SOONER SO I WOULDNT HAVE#GOTTEN ATTACHED TO A NAME THAT I DIDNT REALIZE WAS LINKED TO MY REALLY SHITTY BIO DAD AND WANTED TO COME UP WITH A GENDER NEUTRAL NICKNAME#FOR ME THAT WOULD WORK NO MATTER WHAT I IDENTIFY AS FROM HERE ON OUT AND WORKS AROUND PEOPLE IM NOT OUT TO#AND SHE GAVE ME A CHAMORRAN NICKNAME!!!! A SIDE OF MY HERITAGE THAT I DONT GET TO CONNECT TO A TON!!! SHES GONNA CALL ME TAKKA (WE MESSED#WITH THE SPELLING OF “TOCA” A BIT TO SOUND LIKE “TALK-A” SO WE CAN MAKE JOKES ABOUT HOW I TALK A LOT IT HAS BEEN SO FUCKING FUNNY SO FAR I#LOVE IT)#AND SHES GONNA TEACH ME HOW TO MAKE KELAGUEN (A CHAMORRAN DISH) SOMETIME#AND SHE GAVE ME AN OVERSIZED SHIRT THAT BASICALLY SAYS FUCK T-MOBILE#AND TOLD ME SHE LOVED ME NO MATTER WHAT AND TOLD ME THAT SHE LOVED HOW I PRIORITIZED KINDNESS ABOVE ALL ELSE AND I GOT TO TELL HER ABOUT HO#I THINK KINDNESS AND CRUELTY ARE TRAITS BEYOND GENDER AND SEXUALITY AND THAT I WANT TO BECOME THE ADULT I NEEDED AS A KID AND THAT I NEEDED#SOMEONE KIND THAT FREELY GAVE HUGS AND TOLD A LOT OF SILLY JOKES AND WAS FORGIVING WHEN IT COUNTED AND THAT WHEN I GROW OLD WHETHER IM AN#OLD MAN OR OLD WOMAN OR OLD SOMETHING ELSE I WANNA BE A GEEZER THAT LIVES ACROSS THE STREET THAT YOU CAN PLAY CARDS WITH ANYTIME AND#SAVES YOU CHOCOLATE BECAUSE THEY KNOW YOU LIKE IT AND I WANNA BE THE TYPE OF KIND MAN LITTLE GIRLS GROW UP HOPING ARE REAL AND LABELS ARE#CLOTHES THAT SOMETIMES FIT A MONTH OR FIT FOREVER BUT WHAT MATTERS IS THAT THEYRE COMFY IN THE MOMENT AND THAT I JUST WANNA BE HAPPY AND I#LOVE PEOPLE FOR THEIR PERSONALITY AND IM WEIRD ABOUT KISSING BUT I HAVE MY PARTNERS BACK AND THAT MATTERS MORE TO US AND WERE HAPPY#AND I TOLD HER WHAT IM PLANNING ON MY NAME TO BE WHEN IM AN ADULT AND SHE LIKED MY IDEA FOR MY NEW SURNAME#AND WE SANG TO SONGS TOGETHER AND BITCHED ABOUT HER BOYFRIEND AND DID A LITTLE JIG IN THE STREET AND LAUGHED TOGETHER AND SHE WAS SO HAPPY#BECAUSE OF THE TURTLE IM PAINTING HER AND BECAUSE I TRUST HER AND IM SO HAPPY BECAUSE BOTH OF THOSE ARE WORKING OUT AND THIS EVENING WAS A#PERFECT SUMMER EVENING TO BE ALIVE. THIS MAY HAVE HAPPENED ON MY PERIOD BUT WHAT THE FUCK EVER THE GOOD OUTWEIGHS THE BAD. THERE IS BEAUTY#IN THE WORLD IF YOU KNOW WHERE TO LOOK. THERE IS BEAUTY IN BEING TRANS AND BEING SAFE WITH YOUR AUNT AND TALKING TO HER HONESTLY ABOUT YOUR#HOPES FOR THE FUTURE WITH YOUR BODY AND YOUR GENDER. THERE IS BEAUTY IN MAKING SILLY POSES WITH YOUR MURAL IN PROGRESS WITH YOUR AUNT AS TH#PHOTOGRAPHER. THERE IS BEAUTY IN LISTENING TO NOSTALGIC MUSIC WITH YOUR AUNT THAT A LOT OF PEOPLE WOULD PROBABLY MAKE FUN OF YOU FOR LIKING#THERE IS BEAUTY IN WEARING YOUR BANGS UP IN A STUPID PINEAPPLE PONYTAIL SO IT DOESNT FALL IN YOUR EYES AND WEARING CLOTHES YOU DONT CARE#ABOUT AND GRINNING AND LAUGHING AND SINGING MORE ENTHUSIASTICALLY AND GENUINELY THAN YOU HAVE IN A LONG TIME. THERE IS BEAUTY IN CLEANING#PAINT BRUSHES AND MEASURING CUPS IN HER KINDA BROKEN SINK AND MEOWING AT HER CAT AND THANKING HER FOR HELPING YOU CLEAN UP THE PAINTS SHE
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I miss roleplaying with random people online cuz the funniest stuff would happen
#I really wish I had more lol. random public RPs and random ppl who dm u to RP are the funniest#I’m still not over ex boyfriend being a nickname plot twist tho. I didn’t know how to feel 😭😭😭#BRO WAS CALLING MY CHARACTER EX BOYFRIEND THEN WAS LIKE ‘what do you mean we didn’t break up?’ LIKE 😭#and btw YES the response was ‘yeah pretty much’ LIKEEE#for the first one I believe I have a screenshot of a very funny message from that one. loved it#‘lets get our drinks and hide under the table. seems like the normal thing to do around here’ LMAOO#I am 100% sure I have posted about the kindergarten Cold War one before cuz that was the wildest moment of my life#the fourth one I honestly just wanted more so I added a very funny moment from an rp I did online#love that his plan worked but the RPer just decided ‘no it didn’t’ and tbh it kind of made sense and also LOLL#just added the fifth one now cuz THAT WAS ALSO HILARIOUS. that persons oc was so banger that I copied it cuz all that became important to my#OC 😭 I hope they don’t mind.
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#i straight up dont feel like a real person right now#crying in my car at harris teeter because suddenly so so much is happening. had to comfort my friend because he feels bad that im stressed#i feel like an awful friend and i feel like ive managed to fuck everything up#im having to give up seeing my brother because i cant handle having any more company over and thats after telling him a few days ago that i#wanted to see him#i feel like a bad friend that i cant comfort my irl friends and i cant comfort my online friends either because they arent feeling good#and everything is just so much and i cant think and i have no help to fix things#i really want to cancel everything entirely but i want to see my boyfriend so bad#i still want to see my bf and have him over i just need everything else to stop and go away#i think my wife is mad at me because ive pretty much decided im not doing pride tomorrow but i *have* to go on sunday no matter what so i#dont know what else to do#i wish i could talk to somebody about all of this but venting more just makes me feel like an even worse person#i dont even like posting this here because people will see it and that feels manipulative and guilt trippy#i dont know what to do anymore
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