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dabihawksluvr · 7 months

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I got a tarot reading from someone over on Gaia, and I have to say I'm 100% certain they are right on the money

Yes, this is all 100% correct - my boyfriend is trying his best to come visit me, as he is states away. And tbh, both of us are waiting to see if the relationship will be true or not (I have been extra worried that he may not like me once we actually meet even though he says he can tell I'm a genuinely nice person, and I get the feeling he assumes the same with me).

Here's to hoping that my boyfriend genuinely likes me, and that he sees I genuinely like him <3

#gaia online #tarot reading #relationship drama #older boyfriend #I must reiterate that my boyfriend is 20 years older than me #and we are both adults so it's consensual #and yes we do sexting and video chats hehe #I genuinely love him #he makes me feel like I have hope again #seriously my brother has been more on edge lately #and I am scared he will destroy my stuff or kick me out #I really wish my boyfriend was here #at least to give me a place to stay when my brother has a tantrum

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sciderman · 10 months

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Were Peter and Harry properly a thing? Or was it more of a spur of the moment hook-up?

in 9319? it was just two sordid nights – and sweet, sweet lingering trauma...

harry so nice, peter had to have it twice.

#sci speaks #ask-spiderpool #the fic is non-explicit! and kind of vital reading to get into peter's head and all his baggage.#this fic honest to god caused me so much psychic damage to write. and i've been trapped in peter's brain ever since.#i can't get out. let me OUT. it's such a horrifying MESS up in here.#i'm really glad i wrote this because. god. peter has so many more dimensions now than he did prior.#peter levelled up so much in the ask-spiderpool revival #it's so funny because if harry didn't rear his head then peter was going to be relegated to the supportive boyfriend role.#but no sir. he's got his own messes to clean. and he's kind of become the pov character now.#which is so fun! because wade always used to be the pov character before. how the turntables...#i think boys night might be my favourite bit of writing i've done for 9319. in some messed up sort of way.#i really wish everyone'd read it.#the harry stuff in 9319 is some of my most favouritest stuff. it's so juicy. it's so juicy !!#i love the osborns kind of existing solely to get peter to question himself and face uncomfortable truths.#the osborns just being able to worm out everything that peter parker supresses. all his anger and all of his... ugly.#delicious. smacks lips.

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delicatetaysversion · 1 year

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spending my whole life trying and trying and trying and trying to be good enough for people who don't give a fuck about me

#im so tired living seems pointless why am i doing this what is the reason #the firm i work at is going thru a merger so it's releasing all the interns except 2 #i went into her office and said that id like to stay here bc my dad said so bc i got in cause he was friends with the head #and she said ill think about it based on performance ive not decided yet #and this other guy he went in to tell her that cool he'll leave and she told him that she was hoping that he'd stay #he literally does nothing but play games on his phone he doesn't work at all #i have no idea what he has that i don't #but just. im stuck like this forever right never ever good enough for people i like or care about #not for parents they have a diff fav child not for ex gf not for bestie who has a boyfriend much better at loving her than me #not for that one guy who rejected me in interview bc i don't read the newspaper and didn't know the date of the finance act #im so fucking sick of this i never even wanted to this fuckinh course and obviously even my best isn't enough and ofc im not good enough #for anyone in this field and ill just struggle and struggle and struggle all my life just to earn some fucking money so i can live away #from my sociopathic parents #and the worst part is that i can't stop feeling like maybe it IS me yk maybe i am the problem maybe im not trying hard enough #but how else am i supposed to handle this i prioritize my studies and lose all my friends i prioritise my friends and fail in d #exams #and the trauma keeps on coming every fucking day bc sociopathic parents but i jsut push it down and say not rn i will cry at night anx then #never cry #i wish someone would just tell me that idk you're wrong you're not made for this you really do have some mental illness and you're really #trying your best and do something that's easy and that you love doing #oh god this is now a ventpost #mes

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pikbro · 5 months

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average daily activities for boyfriend fnf

bonus parappa doodles under the cut

im a little obsessed

#i bought parappa remastered and parappa 2 on my ps5 recently Can You Tell?#figured i might as well post these here if im gonna spam rb hdo shit #ive been really trying to fight off this hyperfix but its so easy to feed into unfortunately.........game fun................#wish me luck #parappa the rapper #friday night funkin #fnf #boyfriend fnf #boyfriend friday night funkin

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dilfkuza · 1 year

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okay i feel like im going insane and making a red string board in my head but I've watched that Ichiban and Kiryu conversation way too many times and i swear Kiryu has to be lying to seem cool or the "proposal" he's talking about isn't a standard proposal. a man with nothing to hide wouldn't have his face shift from being this smug

to being this caught off guard when he's asked to give details

that's not the look of a man who's been asked to reveal something personal that might be emberassing or uncomfortable, that's the face of a man who got caught in a lie and doesn't know how to follow up.

i know Kiryu is pulling a story out of his ass to hold up a manly persona. he's looking around trying to come up with something believable because he didn't think through his gut reaction of "I need to seem cool in front of this younger guy who (maybe) looks up to me". man's looking around the skyline as if his childhood idea of a tough, macho yakuza is gonna float down and give him a story to tell.

I can't even think of who he could be referring to unless he's exaggerating his relationship with Yumi or Kaoru? or if it has something to do with the woman he's protecting in Gaiden but I wouldn't think so since that's just a side story. of course it's not impossible that he could have tried to have a relationship during one of the gaps in time between games (à la Majima having an ex-wife between games), but that would be a really cheap way to write themselves out of Kiryu being generally uninterested in women. in conclusion?

#personally i hope it either flashes back to something he said as a kid or that this is a big fake out/ out of context scene #where he immediately quotes something he said to someone in the clan instead #yes i want him to quote something he's said to Majima but I'll settle for literally any other guy in the clan #he's getting phased out of 'main character' status for Ichiban and the new gang anyways right?#what better time than this to confirm that our beloved Kiryu isn't straight?#wishful thinking i know I KNOWWW i just really dont want them to slap another woman that we 1. dont know or #2. never got to see the relationship develop with #set Kiryu free please rgg studios. i see the posts yall make on Valentine's day and boyfriend day it would be hilarious to drop it in here #yeah i did obsess over this video for my entire work shift And What Of It. i feel like a youtube detective analysing his body language #and my conclusion came out to this: he's very autistic and is trying to stick to the image Ichiban must have of him ->#but in doing so backed himself into a corner and is panicking. thank you for ur time im going insane <3 #bulletin board #kiryu kazuma #yakuza 8 #like a dragon 8

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astral-catastrophe · 7 months

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I don’t cry often but dear god. I’m crying over her.

#We were friends for five years you dumb bitch.#The fall fr started over Halloween costumes bc she said we could match then when we were actually shopping #She prioritized her boyfriend over me but not even in a way we still could have matched #And she said I was unreasonable for being upset #But I finally had friends who would have done it #Then EVERYONE FUCKING FLAKED #and crush still tried but things wouldn’t have been shipped in time #Then this girl had the audacity to say everything she did when we argued #One of the girls who she claims is her best friend recently got home from a half year in the mental hospital #And they have had a total of two outings or hangouts #Then her other friend. Who she really only hung out with during her fight with cancer and not after that #But she would see me regularly #Until a month before we argued #And now I’m crying because I thought she was good #But looking back #And looking from an outsiders perspective #She’s horrivle #I know she doesn’t know my account here but gods I wish she did #L if you’re reading this. You’re a bitch. You’re a terrible friend. So unless you’re willing to change and be honest and better.#Dont talk to me. Don’t message me. Don’t come to see me at lunch or ask me to hang out.#Because I’m unwilling to work on a relationship where I’ll always be second to her boyfriend.#Sure. I have crush. But that doesn’t mean I prioritize her over my best friend. I hold them equally.#But you don’t and you never did.#L if you see this #know I’ve cried too many times over you #And I don’t think I could stop myself from arguing if I ever actually talk to you again

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thebirdandhersong · 1 year

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#as a side note i had a moment of horrid irony when i thought suddenly that I WISHED mr knight were there #because he was at the vigil last year and used to be a part of my church. and i suddenly missed all my old housemates #who were here last year! went to hug people during the peace and a good friend asked if i was okay #i was like 😭😭😭😭 not really and then turned around and SAW the boy and was like well this is a twist in the plot i truly dont care for #anyway all's well i just cried buckets more my heart's been wrung OUT #he lives fae away. he was not supposed to come. anyway he did and i shook his hand formally because he offered to (???)#*far away #it was totally bizarre #he did not stay for long which. thank God. i wouldve been so much more tired if he had #but he wished me happy birthday which irked me because we'd had an unspoken agreement to not wish each other happy birthday (for fear of #mixed signals) which. happened i guess #it was INCREDIBLY bizarre. the safest ive ever felt in my life was when he was holding me #and now he's a familiar stranger i know too well whom i dont WANT to know #anyway it has been a heartwrenching and soul draining Lent and past six months or more and i was ready to cry #and so i did. bawled like a baby after certain readings and songs. cried and cried and cried #re: reasons for that concerning the ex boyfriend: it is SO weird and i dont know how to deal with it #like. i still have so much love that it feels like grief and the grief bleeds into that love too #but that love isnt for HIM anymore or at least not the person i found he was. so now it really does have nowhere to go #ANYHOW IT'S LATE BUT THE POINT IS. HE IS RISEN AND THERE ARE MORE IMPORTANT THINGS #THAN SEEING YOUR EX BOYFRIEND AT CHURCH AND BEING LIKE ?????? HUH????????

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daculadaculadacula · 1 year

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damn we really got shafted by funnay long ass fight scenes and dead dad cop b (c?) plot............... i havent looked at the producers and what theyre all about etc but seeing the queer angles get shafted (like its all at once not heavy-handed enough but the next step would have been on-screen making out sloppy style like. tenderness? or something) due to whatever the fuck else that all was...... man

i appreciate that this is a new and fun interpretation and i do love receiving little lgbtq+ pellets but idk. some ingredients in this soup arent doin it for me