#I really can't hide for long I'm a Capricorn

[cartoonsinthemorning]

Since I'm posting on here again after so long, I'm rediscovering the joy of reading tags.

Thank you so much guys, you wrote some very sweet, very enthusiastic and hilarious tags, they truly bring me joy!

But just so you know

I'm am not a chill person. I get irritated easily.

I just blocked a person that made fun of my drawing in the tags. In general, I will block anyone that leaves snouty, "playfully" rude commentary about the content or style of my art.

Mwah~

[astrologylunadream]

Their Feelings for You This Month 💌🖤💬 (Pick a card/Tarot love reading)

Hey it's Lunadream♡ It's the first month of 2024, This is your love reading set for the current month! Let's see what's going on with their heart this month.🩷 (This was posted in January, but the reading can be timeless <3) hope you find your message💌

Notice: Only take what resonates because the most important thing is your own judgement!♡ If anything doesn't resonate, don't worry! It's not your message right now <3 (Entertainment purpose only. All rights reserved)

Now, shall we begin~? ^w^ Think of the your person, and pick whichever pile that fits the energy you're feeling~🌸🖤

Pile 1👥️

Pile 2🥈

Pile 3💒

Pile 4🎱

Take your time and choose carefully with the heart~♡

On to the readings —> 🖤

Pile 1👥️

Sign energy: Attempt, Universe, Addiction, Mental, Synchrony, Libra, Vertex, Lilith, Neptune, Capricorn,🧽🍰😘🎤

👤Your person's energy: Okay there is some soulmate energy in this pile, This is someone with a dreamy mind and omg you guys think so much alike🫢💭 Prominent Libra, Pisces, or Capricorn placements. I feel like this person prefers to have control over their love life or their situations regarding relationships. I'm hearing that they really want to be on the same page as their partner, working together and cooperating in harmony. You may daydream of this person often, or you two could be thinking of eachother at the same times.💓 Your person is very dedicated to their partnerships, they work hard to mantain them. You may feel obsessed with this person, for some of you pile 1's this person is your addiction. You could be addicted to the sound of their voice👄🖤 Some of you this person drives you crazy, good or bad. I'm getting that you two have a dark infatuation with eachother, your shadow sides could be really attracting eachother. It could feel wrong in some way, but also really good. The universe recognizes you two as a couple, a pair of some sort. It is a fated connection, for some of my pile 1's it's twin flame or soulmates. I feel like you or them morph into thinking like the other person, you might try to copy them ot vice versa (It's so sweet). This person has a very attractive and serious energy, they treat love like a full time job I'm hearing.

🩷Their feelings for you: True feelings, True intentions, Less, Watch your back, White, North node, Saturn, Water, Leo, 2nd house,🐅⚔️📆😂 Wow there is a lot of honest and straightforward answering for their feelings towards my pile 1's. I'm seeing that your person's decisions are set and in motions right now, they aren't shifting the path they have chosen for this connection. They have a lot of genuine feelings for you guys, like honest love for you they aren't faking it.🥺 But you know what, your person might be messing themselves up with this one. They could be prone to telling white lies because they think it's for the better of the future, so they're definitely guarding their romantic feelings from my pile 2's. They could be in a tiger energy, fiercely on edge and keeping out anyone who makes them show their vulnerable or loving side. Now can I just say this person has big intentions with you guys, they want a future with you. Omg and they're so attracted to you, especially your back and shoulders.🙊💞 But they're hiding this pretty well right now I'm hearing, their attraction to you might be scaring them. They're trying to give less and restrict themselves from you, It may even be laughable to you as you watch them try so hard this month to hide their feelings. Lol it's so obvious, I can't see this going on for long either not any more than a month. Because they honestly can't hide their true love for you guys, it will be torture if they keep going like that😢❤️ I feel like they just now realized what love can do to them and it makes them so confused like "So this is love? I want my money back!" Lol that's them😂 They're trying to hit a reset button on these feelings for my pile 1's but I don't see this working for them, once they make up their mind they will finally admit how much they want this.💞

💌Messages from your person: I hope you feel better, Don't get it twisted, I should stop hiding my feelings, I've been so busy, I went to far, I had it coming, Let's have fun, I'm holding back (Omg they're really admitting it🥹) Extra cards: Spoil, Princess, Warm, Imagination, Waist (Ohh my pile 1's they want to spoil you so badly😫👑💋💋💋 I'll let you put together the rest😏)

Thank you my pile 1's! If you feel this resonated, you may tap the heart to claim this message!♡

I hope you enjoyed your reading! ʚ(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )ɞ If you did be sure to let me know pile 1 with the shadow couple emoji~👥️ Thanks for scrolling through, Hugs hugs hugs!! See you in the next reading🖤

Pile 2🥈

Sign energy: Miss, Technology, June, Mental, Playful, Fire, Cancer, 2nd house, 11th house, 5th house,🖌🎰🙋‍♂️💭

👤Your person's energy: So this is someone you had some huge feelings for, definitely a no contact situation right now. You really miss this person, I feel like you guys got separated somehow🥺 Cancer, Taurus, Aquarius and Leo placements are likely, Fire placements. They're a caring and fun individual, omg they are so creative and sweet. Smart too. My pile 2's person thinks a lot, they may play games a lot or used to. This could be a friend or someone you dated for a short amount of time or there was just a sudden flame that burnt out very quickly.🕯💔 My pile 2's may be holding on to the relationship somehow, most likely through technology or social media. I feel like you guys still think of this person often, and when you're like scrolling through your phone some random thought of them pops into your head.💭🫢 Could be an artist or enjoy drawing. June is a significant time for this relationship, it could be when something will happen or something that did. Maybe you guys met in June or lost contact in that month. They're a social and curious person, you may think of their voice or remember it often. The way they smile is so sweet, and they have a lot of different talents. A bright and uplifting person.✨️

🩷Their feelings for you: On, Scratch, Illusion, Prove, Destiny, Juno, Jupiter, Taurus, Gemini, 3rd house,💍😔🤩😓 Omg this is so sad. They want to marry you straight UP😭 And they wanna show you that it's not just a silly relationship between you two, they see you as their other half.. their destiny.💘 My pile 2's your person feels like they have to talk to you, it's so important to them. They want to prove their feelings to you, and show you their heart. They want to unveil the illusive surface of the relationship and have you see that it's not what you think at all, they're actually really patient and set on being with you for a long time my pile 2's.🤧💌 They want to talk about marriage, and commiting to you. This worries them so much, because they think you won't want it. They have a big picture of the future with you, it lights them up inside but it also makes them feel already so disappointed expecting that it won't happen. They think of you very often, sometimes they're optimistic about you and other times they're hopeless. You mean so much to them, all they want to to put that ring on your finger!!💍😩💗 Literally so many thoughts of marrying you, they want to have you be theirs for good.♡

💌Messages from your person: Open your heart, I'm desperate for your touch, You're my addiction, I can't tell, I won't tell anyone (Ohh they're taking that to the grave🫢💞) Extra cards: Devotion, Offer, Siblings, Practice, Peace (You guys they wish they could show you how much you mean to them and show their devotion to you💍)

Thank you my pile 2's! If you feel this resonated, you may tap the heart to claim this message!♡

I hope you enjoyed your reading! ʚ(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )ɞ If you did be sure to let me know pile 2 with the (totally an ornament) metal emoji~🥈 Thanks for scrolling through, Hugs hugs hugs!! See you in the next reading🖤

Pile 3💒

Sign energy: Crush, Suffer, Balence, Let go, Stay, 6th house, Gemini, Mercury, Taurus, Neptune, 💀🤹‍♂️🦄👈

👤Your person's energy: This person is definitely a romantic interest for my pile 3's💗 Virgo, Gemini, Taurus and Pisces, lots of Mercurial influence in your persons chart perhaps. A lot of my pile 3's have a crush on this person. You may daydream of this person often, could be a regular thing for you guys💭 Your person is more quick witted and a sharp thinker, they think a lot. But I feel like it is a burden to them sometimes, like they think too much. For some of you this person may have lost a sibling or grown apart from them. Omg they are really juggling a lot right now, I'm hearing that they multitask way to much.🤯 They have a lot on their mind a once. Your person probably has headaches a lot or they're more prone to it. This person could be someone you wish you could keep, like a valuable possession you don't want to give up. I'm hearing you want to stay with this person, or they may wish to stay with you but also feel the need to let go. They want to feel at ease and seek balence in their mind, my pile 3's your person wants some peace and quiet for once!😅 They want to let go of all the thoughts they have and calm down.

🩷Their feelings for you: Innovation, Bad, College, Night, Zoo, Libra, South node, Jupiter, Uranus, Juno,💜🧠🚷💀 Okay so your person may be weary or trying to avoid you for some reason right now, definitely romantic tension from you guys.🫣 One or both of you may be in college or that could be a significant change in their feelings. The skull emoji has popped out twice so that's interesting, maybe this is a connection you thought you cut off or they did and it came back from the grave. They definitely don't feel good about you my pile 3's, you're making their head spin! I feel like they're thinking of a wild night with you guys it's so strange, like they might be having some really crazy thoughts of you and it's stressing them out further.😬🌋 You are stuck in this person's head, they see you as a long term partner in their eyes. But this also freaks them out so they like wanna believe you're bad for them.🙉 Wow your person definitely has an imagination about you, they try to convince themselves they don't want you in their life. You may have done something in the past that left a mark on them, or perhaps something they are judging you off of. They want you but don't want you at the same time. Very indecisive right now. But my pile 3's they low key wanna marry you wtf, then all of the sudden you're the devil reincarnated in their head oml😭🫣 They are mentally obsessed with you though, lol idk if it's even their fault😂 Pile 3 this person is so into you that they're having to convince themselves they aren't🥵❤️

💌Messages from your person: Let me in, You make me lovesick, If it's what you want, Just us two, Just talk to me, Please don't be sad, I want to avoid you, You make me wild (It's so true, literally exact😭❤️‍🔥) Extra cards: Audience, Price, Ring, Mars, Rise (Some dominating energy coming through🫣)

Thank you my pile 3's! If you feel this resonated, you may tap the heart to claim this message!♡

I hope you enjoyed your reading! ʚ(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )ɞ If you did be sure to let me know pile 3 with the wedding church emoji~💒 Thanks for scrolling through, Hugs hugs hugs!! See you in the next reading🖤

Pile 4🎱

Sign energy: Past, Performance, Toy, Guardian, Shine, Vertex, Sagittarius, 3rd house, Mars, Sun,💫💚🕊👥️

👤Your person's energy: This person is more dominant to my pile 4's. You may have a set image of them being amazing or well recognized. Sagittarius, Gemini, Aries, Scorpio and Leo placements😘 Ohh now the 8 ball if a perfect symbol for this pile's energy since the number is connected to Scorpio, some of you may have picked up on that when choosing this pile. Your person is are very assertive especially verbally, dominant in most conversations I'm hearing. They probably have a really attractive voice, for some of you their voice is more masculine or rough. Aww I feel like this person is sort of like a big brother to you guys, or that's the dynamic I'm seeing with you two🥹💞 They may protect you or just their very presence makes you feel this way. Omg they could tease you? Like they enjoy playing around with you in conversations, and maybe they say something that makes you blush and they tease you for it😳 I can totally see that happening between you guys. They are the type to make an entrance, especially when delivering a message or telling a story. I feel like they converse with a lot of people, everyone views them as fun and unpredictable.✨️ They may get in arguments easily though, as they are very straightforward in communicating. Ngl I feel like dirty talk is their specialty but I'll leave it there🤫 They gain attention and praise effortlessly, they probably don't even want it. Also I'm just getting physically they are just, wow, okay??😂

🩷Their feelings for you: Submissive, Chains, Longevity, Fashion, Intimacy, Juno, Libra, Air, Aries, Venus,🎰🤗🐏🦉 Oh god.. my pile 4's this just got intense.🥲 I'm going to try and keep it as light as possible. So yeah, they want you. Definitely very into you my pile 4's, the way you dress is very attractive to them. They find you very pretty and cute, they really want to see you in a wedding dress I'm hearing. (Yes marriage definitely💍🫠) There is a LOT they want from you guys, I don't know where to start honestly. This person really wants intimacy with you, they want physical interaction with you. I feel like they won't take their hands off you though!😫🥵 They see you as someone very delicate and feminine, someone they can surprise I'm hearing😭 Your person wants to dominate you, I mean take you OVER. You bring out a monster in them ngl, the things they want with you..😰 They like being the more experienced one with you, I'm leaving that there. They know a lot about you too, probably everything you like. They want to be aggressive with you, so they can gain dominance over you completely. Because they love the idea of you submitting to them, so they may purposely start little arguments to make you nervous. But it's really because they want to kiss you when you're caught off guard💋 My pile 4's your person has some INTENSE feelings for you🫣 They like being unpredictable with you, the rest is very 🔞 since this isn't that type of reading I'll let some of my pile 4's put the rest together :'D

💌Messages from your person: You know better than this, You have no boundaries with me, Are you for real? Like you would know, Don't wait for me, We don't need boundaries (Oh my😳) Extra cards: Want, Unhealthy, Present, Beach, Fine

Thank you my pile 4's! If you feel this resonated, you may tap the heart to claim this message!♡

I hope you enjoyed your reading! ʚ(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )ɞ If you did be sure to let me know pile 4 with the 8 ball emoji~🎱 Thanks for scrolling through, Hugs hugs hugs!! See you in the next reading🖤

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Thanks for reading! \(*^w^)/💌 -Lunadream <3

[heartlilith]

My Placements and How They Manifest

Capricorn Ascendent:

My mother told me that when she gave birth to me, it was worse than my other 3 other siblings by far. She had to be induced because there was no sign of me wanting to come out into the world (lol). She said she was in labor for hours and when I finally came out, she started hemorrhaging. It wasn't fatal obviously because she's alive today but yeah, I kind of associate that with my Capricorn rising. Still to this day, change is very uncomfortable for me especially if I have no control over what's happening. My childhood was great until my mom divorced my dad and remarried, that's when shit went south! I had new siblings, a stepfather, and had to see my dad heartbroken while also battling melanoma and being laid off (2008 recession). My sister stayed with him and I went with my mom. They were always fighting and spiting each other but it was my sister and I that missed out. It was always "what is your father saying about me?" yada yada yada. Growing up, I was bullied by my sister a lot, in my opinion, it was more than the usual sibling fights. My mom also took a lot of her anger out on me; she ended up getting a divorce not too long after remarrying, became an alcoholic and filed for bankruptcy. Being a Capricorn rising and dealing with the backlash of that, I always have money saved, ALWAYS. I'm like a squirrel hiding nuts I stg. If I'm completely broke I'm an anxious mess. It's also why I strive to be independent and self sufficient. It's why I manifest being filthy rich. High school was terrible tbh and I battled with depression and anxiety. College was a lot better and moving away from my mom and chaotic family did me well, I went from a 2.6 GPA in high school to 3.85 in college. Rereading this it sounds kinda like a sob story and that's not what I'm trying to accomplish so I'm just going to move on.

1st House Neptune, Uranus, Lilith:

I made a separate post either on here or Reddit about how my features have changed so much over the years. As a child, my hair was blonde then it turned blonde/red in late elementary school. Since then, it's turned darker and darker through the years. Now it's dark brown. My eyes were dark blue as a child and now they're light green - I attribute this to Uranus and Neptune being on my Ascendent. In my opinion, I'm not photogenic at all (Cap rising?) and I think I look different in every picture I take or is taken of me. With Lilith being in my first house, I was sexualized a lot growing up by older guys/men. And also bullied by boys my age; I remember they thought I was "too girly". Guys, I shit you not after I had enough of it, I started showing up with boy shorts and those tank tops guys wear HAHAHA to be more of a "tomboy"... I'm not really sure what that is but yeah, I must've been 10 or 12 or something. People would always say "it's because they have a crush on you/because they like you!" and I would be so confused. Nowadays, I think I rub some people, specifically men, the wrong way and they dislike me for "no reason", or maybe they have a reason but they never come out and say it. My Uranus in the 1st shows up as being quirky I guess? I'm not really sure. Maybe it's that my parents were never disciplinary at all, I could do whatever I wanted. At the time I loved it but deep down I think I wanted to them to care, so I would act more and more reckless. Today, maybe that sets me apart. One last thing about Neptune/Uranus in the 1st is that I can't stand to see people treating people/animals/or what have you, the wrong way. I can't even watch Youtube videos of animals starting off abused... even if the videos end with them being happy and healthy, I CAN'T DO IT. It deeply disturbs me.

Side Note (1st House Lilith):

As a small child I was obsessed with being naked all the time and skinny dipping LMFAO like it was a problem. Luckily there were no creeps and I was fine but would this placement indicate that in anyway? Let me know because it doesn't really fit with my Capricorn rising.

(I'm really sorry this post is so long and detailed I think I'm having word vomit)

Virgo Moon:

As a child I was really reserved and "chill". I already talked about my relationship with my mom and she was critical and whatever. One thing that sticks out about this placement is that she would always push the idea on me to "stay pure" and to "stay innocent", especially when I was a teen. Always pushing this on me. Always telling her friends I was "naive" and yeah maybe I was in a sense. I don't know it's weird how that fits. My mom wasn't all bad though. She definitely had many faults but she was a great mom in certain aspects. Growing up, I realized she's just a human like me, with problems of her own. I don’t hold it against her. Today, my Virgo moon makes me sooo anxious and worrisome. I definitely see the negative qualities it brings but the good qualities out weigh them. I love buying people gifts and I'm a great gift giver if I do say so myself. With my Capricorn rising and Virgo moon, I hate PDA and it can be hard for me to be lovey dovey (even with all my Leo), so I show love by buying gifts - kind of like my dad. My parents were never there for me emotionally but they bought me great gifts hahaha, I guess that's why. Also I tend to "mother" my partners; I do their laundry, do the cleaning, make their doctor appointments, and take care of them in a sense - like my mom did for me. Writing this out I can now see why I am the way I am lol.

Moon square Jupiter, Pluto, and Saturn:

Ooooff. Well I won't dive into it too much. I will say it affects my mental health greatly and I've had a lot of trouble in that department. My Moon square Jupiter really makes my moods go up and down. Like high highs and low lows for sure. I try to look at it positively even though it's hard sometimes. Having the high highs brings out my inner child (Jupiter in the 5th). When I'm happy I'm really happy and giggling and silly. And of course the flip side is low low :( But I like the high highs so I deal. Also with this, I tend to avoid being sad at all costs. All costs. I'm a true escape artist when it comes to emotions. With Pluto and Saturn squaring my Moon, I am infact a MOODY BITCH. LOL, hey at least I can admit it. It brings intrusive thoughts, obsessive thinking, insecurity, and guilt with it too - all that great stuff. Moving on.

Cancer Mercury:

I like my Cancer Mercury a lot, even though it's paired with my all my Leo placements which can make me a ~smidge~ dramatic. I wasn't the best student in high school but I did take the hardest English courses they offered, which in hindsight saved my GPA lol. In college, I studied English with a concentration in creative writing. I mostly wrote and studied poetry which I loved so much. I'm a great listener and if I could write an advice column I would. I love how my Cancer Mercury makes me empathetic and how I'm able to put myself in anyone's shoes. One negative about this placement is that I get hurt easily (paired with Leo Sun and Virgo Moon esp), but I won't let you know I'm hurt, I'll just get angry and mean. I don't like that about myself and I wish I was more vulnerable in that aspect but it's easier to be angry than sad... right?

Leo Venus and Mars:

After talking about all the above placements, my Leo side is definitely my ray of sunshine in a way. I feel like with my Virgo Moon and the aspects it makes, it kinda settles my Leo ego. That's not to say I don't have an ego, I definitely do... just look at this post it's all about meee :) I have pictures of when I was 3-6 years old and flexing my muscles hahaha and I thought I was so strong I would go around and show everyone that I could pick my mom and older sister up. So weird. Other than that, when I dislike someone I tend to go on rant for awhile about everything I dislike about them. My least favorite thing is when someone makes me feel inferior or small, that will put me on 10 easily. I don't get mad all that much, it takes a lot but when I do get mad, I see red. Maybe cause I have Mars at 0 degrees. I do get over things quickly though, emotionally anyway, but I do hold a grudge. Also yesss, I have Leo hair. It's long and thick and hard to manage. Growing up, my mom would never let me color or cut it and I'm kinda glad now looking back on it.

8th house Moon & Venus:

This is why I hold grudges hahaha. In my opinion, the 8th house can be hard to understand/put into words until you experience it (in synastry, transit, natal, etc), then you just know. With Venus here, every person I'm romantically involved with transforms me but also takes a piece of me as well. In my experience with the 8th house, you can gain a lot of good things but it comes with a price. Whether its a mix of my placements or just these placements specifically, love really hurts! Break ups have put me in dark dark places. When I do love someone, I want to merge with them, like become "one" if that makes sense. So when it comes to an end, I have a huge hole left. In my life, this has manifested as when I ran away from home to a different state and ghosted my family and friends just to get back together with my boyfriend, all on a whim. I'd give it all up for someone I love. With Virgo Moon being in my 8th house, my anxiety mixes with my obsessive behavior which manifests as dermotillamania. I struggle with it so bad. I'm working on it but yeah that's kinda interesting looking from an astrological sense. Moon in the 8th house gives me great intuition though... I'm always right about the vibes. But this comes at the cost of feeling things extremely deeply.

Scorpio MC:

This is another placement that I like about my chart because my Capricorn rising makes me come off as intimidating and my MC makes people see me as powerful and mysterious. I don't know if people actually see me this way but even it being a possibility gives me like Olivia Benson vibes. I love her. Anyway, one thing I will say is I don't have social media anymore and haven't for years (besides Tumblr and Reddit) because I really value my privacy. I don't like people knowing things about me unless I decide to share it with them, even small things. Tumblr and Reddit are okay in my mind because I don't know anyone in real life. But even this post I'm already thinking of deleting and I haven't even posted it yet lol. When I did have social media, I would overshare and then delete the post an hour later. I was always deleting pictures and revamping my aesthetic. I became obsessed with likes and comments and scrolling that it was too much and I didn't like the power it had over me. Something else that I think manifests from my MC is that I love psychology, astrology, and things that tie into personalities.

5th house Jupiter & Saturn:

It always confused me on how to interpret having Saturn, the planet of limitations and responsibility, and Jupiter, the planet of expansion and luck, in the same house. I thought that they canceled each other out in a way, or level each other out... is a better way of putting it.  I actually messaged @astrosky33 and asked how they interpret it. Her (?) answer was interesting and made a lot of sense. Jupiter and Saturn in the same house gives off both energies at the same time (why didn't I think of that? lol). So for the 5th house, in terms of my hypothetical kids, I would be a parent that has fun and is silly but also strict in some ways and responsible. One way Saturn in my 5th house manifests is that I don't want to do anything creative unless I feel it's productive in some way, which I don't like about myself. Meaning, I don't want to read a book if the genre is fantasy, I would rather read non-fiction or a self help book; something that I can learn from. Also, I really like hobbies where I can produce something, like making candles or making spell jars. If I can make money from a hobby that I love then even better. Jupiter in the 5th house manifests as being child-like and also loving kids. If things are going well and I'm happy, then I can be excited and goofy like a child. If things aren't going well, then I can throw a tantrum like a child. I love kids because my early childhood was the best time of my life before life hit me upside the head (lol). This past Halloween, I made goodie bags for the trick or treaters and got so excited when the doorbell rang. I don't know, I just want to protect kids and shield them from the bad in the world. Kids, out of everyone, deserve to be happy.

Sun sextile Jupiter:

Things tend to work out for me, well, as of lately anyway. I struggled a lot growing up and I was always wishing my life were different. I couldn't wait to leave home. Now, I have a boyfriend who I love very much and we live very comfortably. I have a great job and I am so much happier than I was before. Of course, life isn't always perfect and there are problems at every turn. I wish I could go back in time and tell 15 year old me that everything is going to be okay, more than okay actually. I have a dog and two kittens who I love very much and I'm very fortunate to have the life that I do. I try to stay positive because there's no point in being negative and sulking all the time. Plus, you never know what can happen so be thankful for what you have, even if in your eyes, it isn't enough. I believe in being nice to people, you never know how far one act of kindness can go. Lord knows I needed it during some pretty tough times in my life.

Venus square Saturn (TW: Eating disorder, drug use, phobias):

Going back to having fear of abandonment and being uncomfortable with PDA... well here is the culprit. Or some of the culprit. Since Venus is in my 8th house, I feel like this aspect plays into my fear of my family dying, more specifically, my parents. Whenever I visit home and I see they look a little older, move a little slower, I get really sad. Their birthdays are supposed to be for celebrating but I can't help but get sad. It takes over me and I obsess about what I'm going to do when the day comes and they're not here anymore. I put on a brave face though and I buy them nice gifts and send flowers on holidays... but it's always in the back of my mind. This aspect also manifests as having low self esteem and growing up this was very prevalent. I didn't care about myself at all; I did drugs, I put myself into bad situations that I get anxiety just thinking about what could've happened. I had an eating disorder, dated boys that were awful. I'm fortunate that I made it out okay. I still have insecurities today but during that time in my life it was so intense because even as a teen without this aspect, you deal with insecurities. It was like double trouble.  

If you read this far, thank you. I hope it was semi-interesting and Im really curious to know what you guys think. Should I make a part 2? I’m feeling a little “out there” by posting this so I hope it's not too much. Thanks again for taking the time to read this.

(let me know what you think!)

[wrotelovelytears]

😜P Power😜

Personal... You freaks🧐

Saying this now, unless I specifically GENDER something assume it is automatically gender (and sex) neutral. Gender, sex, and expression are not, and never have been the same.

🤩I think Pluto in Pisces will show both an exasperation and increase focus on mental + spiritual health. Besides the spiritual and metaphysical properties of Pisces, it's also the sign of the unconscious and the fears that we have. Last Pluto in Pisces we saw a lot more asylums built, increased paranoia, and cases of mass hysteria. There was a vast increase in social stigmas related to certain spiritual beliefs and straight up massacres in some areas of the world. Pluto is still a planet of extremes and whatever it gives a boon in socially/ spiritually, it also grants a struggle with on a physical level.

🤩I have no idea if it's because my Pluto is conjunct my Venus, but 10th house Venus definitely have issues with women in authority. It's been a constant theme in my life were women in positions of authority have abused their power and some have even try to sabotage my own endeavors (work wise, socially, even school wise).

🤩Another Pluto/Venus note is that men will have the opposite reaction. They tend to want to give more, be kinder, or over all be more protective over you. It might be that because Venus is a feminine planet and Pluto is the planet of extremes, Women (regardless if they are more masculine or feminine) tend to struggle hiding their feelings towards the native more, while men (regardless... Again), tend to be more expressive around the native and find comfort in that.

🤩The degree of your Saturn shows the personal energies, places and thoughts you may struggle more with.

😍You would look to the sign that's correlated to the degree and the themes it holds for the energy/place/thoughts that bring discomfort.

😍19°-> Since this degree is linked to Libra, one might find that beauty and relationships are a big focal point in their life. They struggle a lot with there perception of: what is beautiful? What is a healthy relationship? Why certain people just don't like them? Might find discomfort in countries (and people from) France, Fiji, Nigeria and Japan.

🤩Since Saturn is exalted in Libra and Japan is ruled by it... it makes sense that looks, rules, and even history is very important to Japan. The whole (mostly) homogenous country is known for geishas (beauty and rules) AND it's part in WW2 or colonization {mostly in the Asian Pacific region} (history).

🤩I now believe Saturn is less about restrictions and more about discomforts. Restrictions straight up not allowing certain things to happen or belong. Discomfort is more our personal view on how something doesn't bring immediate comfort/joy.

🤩Yet another Saturn note, with discomfort brings discipline. To get pass discomfort you must have the discipline to sit with it. You can't ignore it because similar situations will constantly come up. And vice versa with discipline bringing discomfort.

🤩Neptune-Venus placements might find people are really comfortable touching them. Even strangers who have never met them. It could be that these natives don't come off aggressive so people don't see the need to respect their boundaries.

🤩I'm starting to be more convinced of Virgo being a high fame indicator (remember fame isn't always good, nor does it mean celebratory status). Virgo rules over daily activities and work, it just makes sense those who work/ do more in their daily life tend to get recognized more.

😍Also many famous people that are highly loved/known (and still alive) have a ton of Virgo/6th house placements. This also goes for Virgo degrees.

😍Long story short.. Leo is fame that gets recognized more after death, Taurus is fame during and after life, Capricorn is fame before life and a while after it, and Virgo is living fame.

🤩Earth signs and their ability to attract attention is down played a lot. Despite how relaxed they are compared to other signs, they still have a strong presence. And yes it is related to their physical (money, looks, items etc)

🤗Not a complete Astro observation but more of a spiritual one. (You can ignore it if you want)

The ego is not bad nor needs to be destroyed. 🤗The ego is what makes ones personality; the likes, the dislikes, behaviors and fears. To destroy that is to destroy what makes a person an individual. I know it's a popular belief that the ego needs to be changed, and not sorry to say I don't agree. I believe it needs to have things added and taken away at different stages of life. If you destroy it, are you truly the same person?

🤗In astrology the Sun represents the ego. And the Sun is you at your core, your default mode and being (in this lifetime). When we speak on ego deaths it's not you destroying your individual essence, it's you removing the parts that no longer work for you. Ego deaths aren't true deaths if you think about it, it's more of a reawakening to other aspects of your being.

The ego exists to protect, not harm. You are only harmed by it when you don't want to let go of the parts that no longer protect you.

We are all born with the skills and ability to learn more as we age, it is when others tell use certain things aren't useful that we surpress and disengage from them. We are all born with egos and that is what makes us distinct from each other.

🤩I said this in a reply to a question and I'll say it here as well. Venus is the outward feminine expression of a person. Lilith is the inner feminine expression. What I mean by that is Venus is the social and personally accepted displays of femininity (regardless of gender). It's the things people are okay with seeing. Lilith is not the "dark" per say but less socially (and even personally) aspects of femininity. They both exist in all people and both get treated differently by all people.

🤩You might actually see that Venus doms and Lilith doms tend to hang around each other a lot.

🤩That being said they might not always like each other and be envious of how the other is.

(Venus is more accepted in society but jealous of how Lilith doesn't feel the need to have to fit in. Lilith is more expressive of themselves but jealous of how Venus just seems to fit)

🤩Saturn is the outward masculine expression. Chiron is the inner. I know someone is like "Um AchTuallY", and let me explain. Saturn is where we tend to fall in line with what (Western/Westernize) society sees as the masculine role. Saturn nutures but not overindulges. Saturn provides but doesn't overextend. Chiron does the same thing but more gentlely. Chiron nutures all, from what they know. Chiron provides for all, without taking from personal reserves.

🤩Like Venus and Lilith doms, Saturn and Chiron doms might find themselves in the same circles a lot. And of course the jealousy is all the same.

🤩Saturn is naturally given the role of the provider but is jealous of how Chiron wasn't forced and chose to be one. Chiron is naturally a nurturer and stepping stone in life but is jealous of how Saturn gets to stick around to see what the nutured grow.

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[tarotbubbletea]

✨ PAC Reading: Random messages you need to hear ✨

Hey everyone!

I haven't been regularly active on here for a while but I'm slowly trying to ease back into tarot readings. Here's my comeback attempt at a pick-a-card reading. It has some really random messages. You may resonate with just 1 or all in your pile.

As is standard in most PACs, I intend these readings to be timeless. Take a deep breath and clear your mind. Then pick the sparkles that you feel most drawn to. If you feel drawn to more than one, feel free to read those piles. If you feel drawn to none, perhaps I don't have a message for you at this time, but hope to have something for you in the future!

Going from left to right, we have piles 1, 2, and 3.

I'd love to hear some feedback, as I'm coming back from a pretty long hiatus. I'm also open for paid personal readings ($3 and up) or exchange readings (free) via DMs.

Pictures used are not mine.

My kofi ☕

Pile 1

Tarot: The Chariot, 6 of Pentacles, Knight of Cups, Justice

Oracles: You and your loved ones are safe (New Moon in Cancer) and Expect powerful change (New Moon Eclipse)

🌟 In one word? NEW. Expect NEW, NEW, NEW energy coming your way! Could be people, opportunities, places, things... you name it.

🌟 Heard BDE lol.

🌟 One (or some of you) need to get your driver's license. It's time. Get up. Get it done.

🌟 You were nice to someone recently. It's not gone unnoticed. The Universe is about to bless you.

🌟 However, you may have taken someone at home for granted (mom, perhaps?) Be nicer to them, whoever they are. Some of you aren't getting your manifestations or are seeing delays in your wishes (especially if they involve inviting new people into your lives) because you're not physically thankful for the people that are already here.

🌟 If you've been worrying about yourself or your loved ones recently, perhaps due to a health situation or money-related matters, a message coming through is you can take it easy. The Universe has your back. Keep it at with your earnest and consistent efforts and let go of the paranoia gently. You're good. You'll be good. You'll stay good.

🌟 Brush your hair.

🌟 Thinking a bit too much about boys/men? Relax. Please. Just relax. You might be good at hiding that desperate energy from others but the Universe sees all.

🌟 Be careful when you walk. Look out for bumping into things and hurting your knees/ankles.

Pile 2

Tarot: The Magician, 3 of Swords, 6 of Swords, 5 of Wands

Oracles: Emotions are running high (Supermoon) and Your hard work is paying off (New Moon in Capricorn)

💫 Some of you recently got into your dream school. Perhaps even an Ivy league school. CONGRATS! You worked hard and you deserve your success!

💫 Your manifestation powers are amped up right now. UTILIZE THEM!

💫 Some of you may be going through a bittersweet moment in your life. Perhaps you're moving away from home for school, work, or another reason, or your closest friends are. Might be a breakup for some of you. It's okay. You know it was time, though. Mourn the loss, say your thanks, but be ready to keep moving forward.

💫 Anxiety may be getting the best of you or of those around you. It's just a phase. Don't let it get to you, but also keep your own tongue in check. You don't want to say something while emotional and then deeply regret it.

💫 A part of you is tired of having worked your butt off and now wants to rest and party. Party if you can! But prioritize rest.

💫 Drink some juice, if you can't get yourself to drink water on the regular.

💫 Some of you have been swearing a lot recently. Uncharacteristically so. Stop it.

💫 Some of you may have lost some weight recently. Good job! Keep going!

💫 If you're struggling to find a way to rest (typical Capricorn energy) just watch a movie. Trust me. Sit your ass down and watch a movie.

💫 If you've been stuck between buying 2 options, go with the green one.

Pile 3

Tarot: The Hierophant, King of Swords, The Devil, The Hermit

Oracles: You are good enough (Full Moon in Virgo) and A new romantic cycle begins (New Moon in Libra)

💖 This is my fashionista pile. You know this but some of you may be too modest (or too perfectionistic?) to admit this LOL but GURL. SLAY.

💖 Also, do you like dancing? Or have you been thinking of taking up dancing? Go for it!!!

💖 This is going to sound silly if you’ve seen the Rider-Waite versions of these cards but trust me, it's honest advice: Get up. Get your ass up. You've been spending way too much time sitting. Get up a move around. DO IT. Especially if you've been spending way too much time on Tiktok.

💖 You might have some really opinionated and, frankly, judgemental energies around you right now. Perhaps a lot of expectation weighing down on you, or just criticisms being thrown at you that are in no way constructive, useful, or warranted. Breathe. It's unfair, I know, but just breathe. Don't waste your breath retaliating. It shouldn't be happening, but it is. No, it's not your fault. There's no real reason as to why you're having to bear the brunt of this. Maybe it'll make sense down the line, maybe it won't, but for now, just breathe. Be like a rock and let these waves wash over you. They can't break you down. Trust me. You're GOLD. This season too shall pass.

💖 Also turn on the goddamn light in your room. Your habit of sitting in the dark is doing some potentially irrepairable damage to your eyes, hun.

💖 Love is coming your way, and in a pretty unexpected way *wink wink.* Your next date could be a sushi date (for some of you).

💖 Read a book. Some of you were ardent readers but haven't had the time/chance/motivation lately. Try reading again; it'll ground you. Go for something nonfiction or historical, but steer clear of philosophy/religion for now.

💖 Spend more time with your dog; it'll do you both good.

I hope you found a message here today! And if not, I hope to have a message for you next time. Wishing you all love, light, and success! 🤎

Don't forget to leave feedback if your reading resonated in any capacity.

My kofi ☕

[sinkingquail]

an analysis of taliesin through the lens of astrology

DISCLAIMER: i don't claim to know everything about taliesin (i haven't beaten the game with him yet, oops). or astrology. nor is astrology for everyone. please take everything with a heaping spoonful of salt, thank you /gen. tl;dr at the end.

when you first meet taliesin, he's a cornered animal. he's surrounded by people he killed, about to bleed to death (and is hallucinating lol). then, a stranger comes up and sees a thalmor agent next to a ton of corpses. and what does he do?

he very matter-of-factly states that he did, indeed kill all the people around him and laughs about it. he insults your outfit when you call him a "monster". he tells you that he "carved out the heart" of a man because he insulted his dagger. what the heck, bro??

(this is of course not the most normal of circumstances)

holy fuck, if that doesn't scream deflection i don't know what does. this is a guy that is doing everything in his power to not show weakness, especially in such a dire situation.

for this reason, i believe taliesin is a scorpio rising. scorpio is what we call a "fixed water sign" which is essentially ice, so think cold, calculating, takes a while to warm up. scorpio risings are known for giving off stand-offish, dark, yet magnetic vibes. they're also known for putting up tons of walls when they're feeling vulnerable.

as you travel alongside tally, he opens up. he's still his sarcastic, incredibly straight-forward self (if you're playing an argonian, he will ask you if you're related to... smaller lizards lol). but he'll also make comments on how beautiful the night sky is, he'll tell you about how he wants to visit raven rock and elsweyr after exploring skyrim, he'll likely leave if you weren't adventuring, this mer wants to GO PLACES after being stuck doing lord knows what with the thalmor for who knows how long. i'm not quite sure if this guy has ever had the chance to just be his own person for once. ANYWAYS

i think a sagittarius sun best describes taliesin. they're what we call a "mutable fire sign" which combines the passion of the fire element with the fluidity of the mutable modality (this is basically a fancy way of saying "going with the flow"). these natives are known as "truth-seekers" for their inexplicable desire to understand and do not give a fuck if challenging the status quo is frowned upon (ok, with the thalmor it's a bit harder to do that). they're really philosophical, adventurous, and absolutely detest being tied down.

okay, now we're gonna move to the moon sign which is arguably the side of taliesin we see last: his emotions. i'm going to start byanalyzing this quote from him:

"Ah, a fellow insomniac. Seems you and I might have more in common than anticipated. My nights will be less lonely now."

what a roundabout way of saying "i can't sleep and i'm alone with my thoughts, i would really appreciate companionship". he's blunt about other things (this man does NOT pull punches... especially when it comes to your clothes lol) but when it comes to opening up further about his loneliness? nope nope not happening lol. it's like he's hinting at his emotions instead of flat out saying them. this sort of detachment also comes up in the next quote:

"To think, I could be bleeding to death peacefully in a pristine forest"

except this time, it's less about being emotionally vulnerable and more about thinking about his own death, but like, he's prodding the idea with a six-foot-long pole. regardless, he leaves the "wow, i would have died without you" part unsaid. he's using humor to neatly skirt around the part where without the player's intervention and random luck, he would've died. (he also has a quote about haunting you if he dies, which is a lovely example of his dark humor)

to me, this is indicative of a capricorn moon.

these guys are compartmentalizers. they want to push all their emotions into little boxes and hide them in the attic but forget that everything will break down eventually from the sheer weight. they are PRACTICAL, and they don't really believe that there's room for emotions when it comes to getting shit done. and they do indeed get shit done. they also tend to have incredibly high expectations for themselves and kinda just assume the worst in others? this makes a pretty weird dynamic with his sagittarius sun, which absolutely does want to be optimistic and open-minded. there's (probably) a lot of conflict there on his world outlook.

deep breath

okay, so for taliesin we have sun in sagittarius, moon in capricorn, and scorpio rising. the moon in capricorn + scorpio rising both contribute a lot to his seemingly cold and detached exterior, especially in the beginning. it's hard for him to open up ("well this has been fun, making myself emotionally vulnerable") but at the same time, makes his emotions run deep. once he opens up it's a whole new story.

he also has a self-proclaimed "lust for life", which i believe is the influence of his sagittarius sun. i think that taliesin really does want to go out there, explore the world, ponder life's questions, and grow, which of course he couldn't do with the thalmor.

okay, last one i swear:

we're gonna talk about my favorite, which is the asteroid chiron. it symbolizes what we call the "wounded healer" in astrology, and gives insight on where your "life wounds" are and how to heal from them.

his… less than kind childhood thanks to a shitty father points to chiron in the fourth house, which is essentially indicating some sort of wound that is related to his home life (the fourth house concerns home, family, and security).

but how does this manifest in him?

aside from struggling to find a "true home" or place where he's accepted for who he is, i think taliesin also (especially as an older sibling) feels the need to take responsibility (aka: stop the ldb from doing stupid shit), probably struggles with feelings of inadequacy, and is fiercely protective of the dragonborn ("You want them? You'll have to get through me first!", he also says something along the lines of "don't go too far ahead, i don't want to lose you in the fog". he also latches onto them very quickly which i'd love to talk about, but alas)

as a result of this, i believe his chiron is also in capricorn. people with their capricorn in chiron feel a constant need to prove themselves - when you combine this with chiron in the 4th house, it basically says:

taliesin grew up in an authoritative household that placed incredibly high expectations on him. as a result of this pressure, he struggles with deep-rooted self-esteem issues (i have the feeling his aura of self-confidence is a way to convince himself of his positive traits, fake it til you make it ig) and perhaps, a need for control in his environment. the ldb is so so so important to him. they bring a sense of stability, purpose, companionship, and genuine acceptance of him, which are all things that he hasn't really experienced. brb, crying

i might just be pulling all of this out of my ass, so again, don't take this too seriously lol i barely know what i'm talking about

TL;DR taliesin's scorpio rising gives him a somewhat cooler exterior that hides his emotional vulnerabilities (cough chiron in capricorn) that is further swept aside by his capricorn moon. however, there's a deep passion for adventure and a quest for truth from his sagittarius sun, which helps balance out the more cynical sides of him, especially when you take into account all the trauma this mer has. this has to be the weirdest crossover of my interests i've seen. i know not everyone cares for astrology, but i find it to be a really interesting way to analyze characters and is an excellent tool for introspection. taliesin is doing a great job. he's really respectful about boundaries, i like to think he's gone to therapy at least a little. keep it up, tally <3

[elminx]

Energy Update: March 2023

March is a "1" Universal Month [3 (March) + 7 (2023) = 10 = 1+0 = 1] in a "7" Universal Year. 1 is the number of beginnings but this is a 10/1 - this is the type of beginning that only comes after great trials and hardships. Rejoice (in a way) - you made it to the other side. Maybe you even beat the bad guy. This is also signified through the astrology of the month as Saturn, our planet of responsibility transits from the fixed air sign of Aquarius into the mutable water sign of Pisces. This is a big gong crash that demarcates time as we experience it. Something is over. The Set Up

We begin the month with the Sun and Neptune in Pisces, Mercury and Saturn in Aquarius, Venus Jupiter and Chiron in Aries, Mars in Gemini, Uranus and the North Node in Taurus, and Pluto in Capricorn. All of our planets will travel in forward motion all month long - it is go time. We will experience a number of planetary ingresses this month, the most notable of which is the aforementioned switcharoo of Saturn from a sign that it traditionally ruled (Aquarius) to the utter wilds of Pisces. Saturn entered Aquarius on March 21, 2020 and has been a major player in the last three years of our life. Saturn is a planet that is already quite hidebound and it can become deeply locked into place when transiting a fixed sign. That so many of us were stuck at home for months as Saturn entered Aquarius was no coincidence. This transit is going to be a huge release of energy - circle 3/7/2023 on your calender.

Additionally, we experience the expected personal planetary movements. Our sun will enter Aries as the astrological year is reborn at the spring equinox on 3/20 and Venus enters her home sign of Taurus on 3/15. Mercury is moving fast and enters Aquarius on 3/2 and moves on to Pisces on 3/19. Additionally, after a full retrograde cycle, Mars enters Cancer on 3/25.

The Nitty Gritty

This is definitely a new beginning but it may happen in stages as the planets all step into place to play their parts. The lunar nodes are in play as those close-moving personal planets (Sun, Mercury, Venus) move along - the South node will be activated in trine as they transit Pisces and the North Node in conjunction as they continue on to transit Taurus during the spring. Some of us may be held back by the things that we haven't offloaded, if that's you - do the work and let that shit go.

Our big days are: 3/2, 3/6, 3/7, 3/20. 3/21, 3/25

Any one of these days are huge power days that can be harnessed for many types of magic. Do the work on yourself and the energy will be doubled. This is the planetary "right time" to make a change in your life (whatever that means for you). If you work with this energy and use it to your advantage, there is less chance that you will be at the mercy of it.

This is a month that sort of demands that you put one foot in front of the other, always moving forward, to do the work. But we may have less incentive as Saturn transits into Pisces.

Pisces is just so damn dreamy. And no, I don't mean it in a "He's a dreamboat" /hystericalscreaming sort of way. I mean in the chronically avoids reality by creating intricate fantasy worlds sort of way. That's all well and good if you're an author of any kind but if you're just a human and you are locking your Others in your stories, well, we know that can become problematic, right? Right?!? Saturn is a dose of realism that even a Pisces can't hide from. This could be a good thing. We all have seen the rise in "misinformation" (let's just through that whole thing into one big blob, I'm not even going to try and define it more - all mutable mush here) that Neptune has inspired through its Piscean travels these past years. But the people whose bubbles are about to get burst aren't going to be super happy about it. In Pisces season, it's really easy to get stuck in the mud. We can all get a little bit dysregulated when forced to confront the things that we are hiding from, so maybe cut the Others a bit of slack and we are all going to have to endure these transits. We are all travelers on this planet together even when we don't want to admit to it.

Venus, who is leading the way ahead of the Sun and Mercury at the moment, will start the month conjunct to Jupiter and Chiron in Aries and end the month conjunct with Uranus in Taurus. There is pain close to the surface but this time around it looks like it may be there to compel change. In between these, she meets up in conjunction with the North Node and we get a brief glimpse into eclipse season and her future retrograde cycle in July.

The Virgo full moon on 3/7 will bring in the energy of Uranus in Taurus and happen on the same day that Saturn enters Pisces. This is the perfect day to set intentions around making changes (Uranus) that will improve your life (moon in Virgo). Leave an offering to sky-daddy Saturn to add some extra oomph.

Stay aware of your actions around 3/12-3/14. People may be betting beyond their capacity (Jupiter conjunct Chiron) or a past indulgence may come back to bite you in the ass. Mars in Gemini is also square to Neptune in Pisces for the third and final time as part of his retrograde cycle. Have you learned to just own up to it and tell the truth yet? Nah, I didn't think so...

Mars in Gemini shirks his lessons, that's for sure. He seems to get away with it though, so?

The Sun and Mercury are involved, too. They may shine enough light on the situation to illuminate it despite Gemini and Pisces's best attempts at looking in the other direction. Beware the Ides of March? I've mostly just wanted to be able to say that but its also not wrong.

A story is coming unraveled. I hope that it's not one of yours. I'd watch the media around the middle of the month - there could be a big reveal (or two).

At the same time, Venus slips into Taurus which would normally come as a relief but the beginning of Taurus is pretty weighty at the moment. She immediately falls into a sextile with Saturn which is quite constraining and then meets up in conjunction with our North Node of fate. Normally the party begins when Venus enters Taurus but this transit may be quite austere in the beginning. You may what to keep an eye on expenses during this time - especially if you're prone to excessiveness in that regard.

Venus conjuncts the North Node on the new moon on the first full day of the astrological new year - this is highly auspicious, again, for intention setting on new beginnings. Harness the energy of the spring towards your new projects. Work with Sun magic or seed magic for enhanced effectiveness during this time.

A few days later, on 3/25, Mars ends his long stay in Gemini by entering Cancer. If you haven't managed it before now (I get it...no judgment, starting things can be hard) this is another chance to start again and set new intentions. It's spring - time to go and time to grow.

The Details

3/2 - Mercury conjunct Satun 29° Aquarius, Mercury enters Aquarius, Venus conjunct Jupiter 12° Aries 3/3 - Venus conjunct Chiron 13° Aries 3/6 - Sun in Pisces sextile Uranus in Taurus. Mercury in Pisces trine South Node in Scorpio 3/7 - Full Moon 16° Virgo, Saturn enters Pisces 3/11 - Mercury in Pisces sextile Uranus in Taurus, Venus in Aries sextile Mars in Gemini 3/12 - Jupiter conjunct Chiron 14° Aries 3/14 - Mars in Gemini square Neptune in Pisces 3/15 - Sun conjunct Mercury 25° Pisces, Sun in Pisces square Mars in Gemini, Mercury conjunct Neptune 25° Pisces, Venus in Aries square Pluto in Capricorn, Venus enters Taurus 3/17 - Venus in Taurus sextile Saturn in Pisces 3/18 - Mercury in Pisces sextile Pluto in Capricorn 3/19 - Sun in Pisces sextile Pluto in Capricorn, Mercury enters Aries 3/20 - Sun enters Aries, Spring Equinox 3/21 - New moon 00° Aries, Venus conjunct North Node 05° Taurus 3/25 - Mars enters Cancer 3/26 - Mercury conjunct Chiron 15° Aries 3/30 - Mars in Cancer trine Saturn in Pisces, Venus conjunct Uranus 16° Taurus

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ptsd in romantic relationships 12/18/23

this is not fair to you and i apologize. there is nothing you have done to me as far as i've known. this weight coming onto you is not what you deserve. i should be sorry that i am the one you love*. you don't even know it! you have no clue and as much as i'd love for it to stay that way i don't know if i can keep hiding these panic attacks. but how am i meant to tell you. it's not a good thing and i'm meant to be good. i am as good as i can be because you picked me an made me yours. you gave me something i've been searching for for years and i have to nerve to feel any sort of way? it's been a very long time since i've been in therapy. i think that you can infer from some things. you aren't dumb, in fact you're a capricorn. with a cancer moon. god you are great.

i remember when we were in the car and you said you've never really had any sort of real emotional turmoil. you've never thought of suicide. never been abused to a degree that was severe. that is so nice. i was so grateful that you never had to experience something like that. you don't have any sort of weight on you. then immediately after i thought to myself. i have thought of it. there were days, weeks, months, years where it's all i thought of. more times than i'd like to admit that i've tried and for some reason unbeknownst to me all failed. all of them failed for me to come to you like a battered puppy inside.

you don't know what happened to me. how they hit me and what i was forced to take and how i was manipulated. i was meant to feel like i wasn't a person. that is what love is to me. i am scared everyday that you are going to do the same and that is not fair to you. you are nice to me. such a great partner. how could i ever think that way. i feel so horrible about myself when you say something stupid and i think about how you could be trying to manipulate me or trying to do something to me. when we got high over the phone and u joked about gaslighting i laughed it off but i almost went into a panicked frenzy.

i don't deserve you. i can't pretend like i am not who i am. you don't know me at heart and i don't even know if i can tell you. how is this gonna work. you don't get it and i don't want you to. no one has ever really loved me without repercussions to my psyche. i have scars on my body from everyone i've ever loved, whether self inflicted, inflicted by them, or mental. im so tired. i dont deserve you i should kill myself. you don't deserve a girlfriend like me. you deserve a girl that is okay mentally, no attempts under her belt, a normal girl. so you guys can love each other and you don't have to deal with this. i don't even want to deal with it. i don't want to tell you but i think after we break up i may do it. i got the love i've been longing for and i've been so tired of keeping going. you don't deserve a dead girlfriend. maybe i'll do it a few years after we break up so u don't think its your fault. if anything its the opposite. you're delaying the ineviatable by being such a good person.

i haven't been good at all. i'm a bad person. i can say that the world molded me this way but that is an excuse i chose not to take. there is something wrong with me in the soul after being thrown around the way i have. you don't deserve someone like me. if i had a gun i'd do it right now and leave you a long letter about how you were such a great boyfriend and how you helped me through what i'd never tell you about and all the things of that sort. i think that i was meant to perpetually be abused so that i can take all i can possibly take and then reach a breaking point where my method of choice actually goes through. i'm sorry that i am me.

gray text: ohh, guessing u don’t wanna talk about it

blue text: i don't want it to seem like i don't tell you why i feel some ways sometimes because of anything against you. there is just a good amount of things you don't know ab yet and eventually you'll know ab it all but i just get anxious that you won't look at me the same plus i don't wanna like burden u with this stuff i can deal w myself. i trust you a lot and rlly do appreciate you very much.

im so sorry that we met and you liked me.

[pierrotguru]

Title: Baby Firebird

Author: Serpent at Sunset

Rating: T

Fandom: BNHA

Genre: Romance

Pairing: Dabihawks

Word Count: 765

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Keigo's stomach was so big now. Hawks sighed as he sat down.

Unbelievable, he had a craving for barbecue chips again. Apparently, this kid growing inside him had his appetite.

Finally getting together with Dabi had been unbelievable and getting pregnant just took the cake. Life was just so complicated, but at least it was entertaining. For the most part, he had no complaints.

He supposed that he was destined to be a wild year. Hawks knew that he should look at his Astrology. All he was aware of was that he was a Capricorn with a Virgo ascendant, and Dabi was a Capricorn also with a Scorpio ascendant which wasn't surprising considering his appearance. Scorpios could be considered fearsome. Just like Dabi.

Speaking of which he should look birth chart when he or she was born. Still, Hawks wasn't sure that he believed it.

"I guess the kid will be a Todoroki," said then. "From my side anyway."

Hawks looked down. "I worry if he'll have my wings," he said suddenly.

Dabi was chuckling "Maybe our son will be a badass phoenix bird. He'll have my fire Quirk too." Dabi said.

"Or a daughter would be fine too," Hawks said while rubbing his swollen stomach.

Dabi shrugged. "Well, yeah I agree. Did you pick any name?"

Hawks shook his head. "No, not yet."

But it was all right. They had time. This relationship itself was long continuation. Many ups and downs.

Well, I'll help we can both pick one."

Hawks held a finger up. "But, it has to be distinctive."

"Of course."

Dabi's tone was oddly respectful. Even Dabi could be kind or respectful if one got to know him.

"I still don't know how I got my wings," Hawks said from out of the blue.

Dabi was silent. Sometimes, Hawks hated when that happened. However, he knew that Dabi was still paying attention He was always paying attention

"Neither my father nor my mother have them. I'm an anomaly." Hawks shrugged. "They just appeared one day."

"Why can't we all be so lucky?" Dabi murmured.

The scarred man stared straight ahead

"But then would have thrown me out. My father wanted me to be a proper Todoroki after all."

Then again, if he hadn't been born with a proper fire Quirks, Dabi never would have forgiven himself. He couldn't have. Particularly as a child.

Hawks had never expressed regret for his Quirk. He was grateful for his wings, and they were damned useful out of that environment. Possibly, without them, he wouldn't be here. They were part of the reason now the second hero in Japan. They were probably even part of the reason why he met Dabi. Everyone wanted a government agent that could fly. Hawks was just so useful. Not just useful, but nonchalant and normal too. A bright personality to hide the darkness creeping inside. At times, Hawks just felt so...contrived.

But, apparently something about him attracted Dabi. The real him.

It was too late to ask Hawks if he wanted life to be like this, but in any case, it was too far late to change it. But, honestly, it wasn't that bad in this moment. It was his own decisions that created this life.

It wasn't a surprise when he felt his lips on his own. Immediately, Hawks returned the kiss. Dabi didn't like to be ignored.

...what a nice surprise

How pleasant it would be if everyday would be like this. And, who said that they couldn't be?

"Those chips are good. Really spicy." Dabi licked his lips and it was so...appealing.

Hawks felt a flush of heat rush through him. Distractedly, he bit his lip.

If the urges struck, it was a good thing that he could only get pregnant once. He was feeling too good right now.

But, what remained to be seen was if their child would be a hero or a villain. Only the world knew which father would really take after.

And, in this situation love was the greatest crime.

But in the end, Hawks supposed that they were both villains. With different tactics and histories. So, in other words, the kid would have a lot to deal with.

Their child would need protection and he and Dabi would provide it

In October, their son was born. On Halloween. A precious boy with white blond hair and Dabi's blue eyes.

And a pair of glorious red wings.

They named him Hokuto. "Ho" for flames "ku" for black stone and "to" for flight.

His parents hoped that he would wear the name well.

[1111jenx]

Astrology Notes

💎Magnetism Edition💎

part 1

part 2 is up!

Hey guys I'm back with another post! I'm so grateful for your support the past week for my blog! This is for all you guys who have been with me since the first day!

I often see a lot of people discuss magnetism to only a few signs such as Scorpio, Leo, Libra,etc yet I believe that there are great charms behind every sign:)In this post we'll get right into it💋

🖤Sex Appeal:

Pluto aspects to Sun/Moon/Mars/Venus/ASC – Scorpio/Plutonian energy – Scorpio Rising/Venus/Mars/Moon: no secret to people how mesmerizing Pluto energy is. sex, pain,death,power,money - what Pluto empowers can seem so raw and real, there is a "no bs" energy to these people. they mean business. extremely charming and cunning. Pluto fixed sensuality lingers and haunts. intimidating. the og gothics. people with harsh aspects are prone to self-destructive. the kind of beauty others acknowledge as someone who's been there done that. little do they know at night, plutonians people eyes can sparkle and a more childish version or them reside very deep down their hidden hallways of self. so real. domineering yet sensual.

8H ruler harsh aspects personal planets: same effects as Pluto but more sex related. People will literally blush upon their gazes. Controlling aura. Makes people want to win them over somehow. Ride or die. Exudes sexual pride. 8H ruler asp Mars literally gives off that Wattpad's mafia vibes, seems like no one can "save" them. beautiful fallen angels who see sex as a pleasure and hobby.(harmonious only as harder aspects may use sex as emotional outlet)

Cancer Sun/Rising/Moon — Moon influence/ Moon to Mars/ Moon to ASC: the sex appeal you get here is nothing similar to the one above. these people seem untouchable, as if they're hiding some kind of secrets(Moon). they radiate a vibrant glow to them. watery eyes. natural rosy cheeks. thick, beautiful and kissable lips. curves. soft skin. they're the one that people would put on a pedestal, the true "goddess". their beauty is so moody, its relatable yet so striking. their stares will make you soft.

Aries Rising/Mars energy/ Mars to ASC/ 1H dominant: beauty that you're scared to look at. similar to Pluto energy but more aggressive and less sensual. their eyes are so beautiful yet forever burns with their fiery energy. Athletic bodies. Abs sculpted like art. Smiles that brighten the room. They own the place and they know that. cut throat aura. GORGEOUS when talking about things they're passionate about. smirks. arrogant aura that people can't help but love. one thing others don't realize about them: they come off as assertive yet no one really knows them. mysterious like pluto.

✨Regal energy, classical charmers:

Leo Rising/ Sun-ASC ascpects/ Sun dominant/ 5H ruler to ASC/Mars/Moon/Venus: shocking beauty. people who radiate like they're born to be a star. stands out. effortless. the way their lips curve is intoxicating. in-your-face beauty. unexplained beauty. golden aura that illuminates. sexy without trying. theres this glow of confidence about them, this main character energy that ppl are drawn to. white teeth. healthy hair. gorgeous build. true royals.

Capricorn Venus, Mars, Rising/Saturn to Venus/Mars/ASC, 10H dominant/ 10H ruler in 1st: bone structures that can cut. beauty in simplicity. cold gazes. long eyelashes. paler sometimes. these people act like a puzzle. they know they're too good for anyone. not as showy with their sexuality as Pluto or Mars, they're just comfortable in it. addictive smiles. they move so graciously and carry so much pride with them.

Taurus Sun, Moon,Mars,Venus, Asc/2H ruler to ASC: captivating. they can literally wake up and look beautiful. soft and smooth skin. velvet lips. gorgeous legs and curves. once learnt to be comfortable in their bodies they make the best models. photogenic. full cheeks. GORGEOUS LIPS. literally can be mistaken for Leo/Sun dominant if not for their more timid nature.

love,

saint jenx💋

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[nonnnimous]

Venus signs as details I notice on them + some from my intuition

Aries : you don't choose them they choose you + if you challenge them? Maybe they'll give u a try. Really can't hide feelings (including ones of frds, not secret keeper) if they don't tell u bcs of their ego, their eyes will. Charm, always look good in sports wear, cat eyes or look good in cat eyeliner?

Taurus : stubborn. only love sugar daddy/mommy, ppl with class and money. If u smell good u're in. If u have a nice room u're in. Again they choose u (i notice this goes for first few signs in the wheel) most prob to have netflix & chill everyday. The body goals on Pinterest tho, those in sexy cocktail dress.

Gemini : what i just said - sorry they don't choose, they need stimulation so dye ur hair and change ur outfit like fast fashion. I'm afraid they love themselves more than ppl in general, but maybe they'll argue with me so🙊. I don't think cheating is a common theme but the logic is there. Smart flirty and win all the ppl in the room with that laugh, what i imagine ice cubes in cola would be as a person.

Cancer : CUTE, warm, picky af (they'll tell u how they love that person for 10 yrs but never told anyone, then complain how no one compares to that man) accepting to anyone, but I'm afraid they don't have a list of what they want, they only do so according to their last crush who's alr married. Secretly stubborn if u don't see it from the ex. I gave. Can u stop being secret, at least show u're jealous so we will see the issue.

Leo : charm af, girlboss/ big d energy, that smirk on ur resting face makes ppl drop their pants. BUT, don't be flighty cuz u think no one reaches ur level, great personality is more of what u need cuz ur bf/gf shd be ur no.1 supporter and help u hold ur chanel bag when u're in the fitting room. The most suitable person to have a simp or two. A great frd to have like, they'll stand up for u in a millisecond.

Virgo : stop hiding ur feelings and relationships cuz we won't judge so hard like u do. Why do i get feeling of businessmen from them, is that their cold ass heart? We'll never know if u don't tell the truth. Of service to ones they love (not to everyone) clean cut style slick hairstyle I'm in love. Yes it's subtle like puppy love. Sometimes it's interesting but not anymore as we grow up - tell as u mean it don't play the guessing game. Don't frown at me not gettinf ur hints.

Libra : ah fellow libra, flighty in love not bcs of one person but bcs of they see good in anyone : might just recruit them ALL into the simp army. Have the actual ability to charm ppl but won't if u're ugly. Won't actually flirt with ones they don't like. Libras are not fake they really don't give shit if they don't have feelings for u. Secretly chasing $$$, but most likely to earn it themselves. Fake sometimes, talk urself out of everything cuz u either play dumb or u flirt ur way out.

Scorpio : stop staring, stop being hyperaware as if someone's staring back (well most prob there is but relax) don't hide everything just bcs u think feelings are for the weak. And stop holding onto that one person, u really don't see the queue for application as ur bf/gf? Be confident cuz u shd be.

Sagittarius : hippies, or wise old man (least likely, but long hair beard vibe) commitment? What is that? Jokes aside, u prob need time to get all the lessons so most prob to marry late or not marry at all. Charming AF no joke, they don't take things seriously and for some reason it's attractive to many. Great frd to have, they'll prob take good pics too. Giving frat boy vibe.

Capricorn : feels like we're playing monopoly, stoic expression even to the most beautiful being but who knows, maybe an earthquake in ur chest? Giving honest vibes but also sugar daddy/mommy vibes - I don't rely u on romantic feelings or closeness but i know u'll save my ass from trouble. Venus in saturn signs = stable marriage. Cap is no fun, still will put u above gemini

Aquarius : the ones that never think of dating, or tell me that couples acting as best frds is goals af. Most prob to have fulfilling marriage tho (i mean libras may be too but not the first) secretly wealthy af, family is prob wealthy af, the most stable among all air venus. Maybe cuz they never put emphasis on love. It's the suns and stellium that's flirty and playboy, solely venus here do not give off such vibe. Calm, i like them.

Pisces : manic pixie girl is that u? Stop daydreaming i know u know. Stop shoving love letters with no name and expect it goes down like the movie. But cute af like u must be from heaven. Romanticise everything, they be telling u the book is romantic but there's no love line. Most creative after pisces sun.

[al-hekima-madara-blog]

Hi there! 😁

I hope you don't mind me sending you an ask! I think in one of your posts you talked about the meaning of Madara being born on the 24th of December and not the 25th, right? And I was wondering if you would be so kind and share your thoughts on Madara being a Capricorn? I'm just curious if there are any charasteristics of a Capricorn that would go with Madara's character? And are there any characteristics of a Capricorn that don't fit Madara's characterization in your opinion?

Oh, and if you could share some of your headcanons/thoughts on Izuna and his astrology sign, that would be really great!

Lots of love,

Luny 😁

❤️Hello Luny !❤️

You are asking me to fuse my two obsessions : Madara and Astrology and you ask if I don't mind ? 🤩

I've been waiting my whole life for this moment !

I love this ask thank you for this, actually your timing is perfect I was already working on a headcanon birth chart where I'm guessing their 12 planets placements of both Madara and Izuna so talking about their suns can be a nice foretaste.

Both brothers if we are talking about their sign archetypes, in my opinion, got a relationship that I call Devil Twins. Capricorn and Aquarius are really close signs who can sometimes be mix up, because they are following one after the other. Capricorn 21st Dec-20thJan, Aquarius 20thJan-21stFeb. Both are located in Winter. One represents the darkest day of the year, the other is the coldest temperatures of the year. Both are ruled by the same planet Saturn. All 12 zodiac signs have a dark side but both Capricorn and Aquarius are classic choice for a good villain character. The Capricorn in popular culture is the cold dictator, while the Aquarius is the Mad Scientist.

But first what do we mean when we talk about someone's sun ? It's not exactly what you are(this is ascendant), it's rather what you aspire to be during your life time. The sun is your will, the social authority you project into the world, In a nutshell, it's your branding. And this branding can be more or less fragile since there is always people or situations ready to ruin this image of yourself by making you showing your emotion (Moon), or teasing your passion (mars) ect...

Back to our favorite villain. Madara embodies perfectly the Capricorn's Ego, it's almost a caricature. He is always trying to show a self-control image of himself in public. No superfluous manners, unbothered, introvert thinker, silent observer, sharp and concise comments only if judged necessary. Preference for practical and logical solutions over emotional ones. He remembers only names that matter. An absessive drive to competition. Go-getter. A frustration that he never had enough power. He's always complaining when people don't follow his plan. A fixation on planning and controlling future. And of course a crazy ambition with a very long-term strategy.

His limit is that Madara is actually a character very expressive and sensitive. As a child, he was loosing easily his temper, and showed a very caring and loyal nature for his family and friends. As adult, even if he gets better with hiding his emotion and keeping a stern facade if you know him enough you can guess his micro-expression , he still can't help himself and doing action for the sake of showing off. He appreciates a lot spotlights. And absolutely can't contain his passion for fighting strong belligerents. His keen knowledge of how manipulating darkness in people is actually a perversion of his sensitive nature. Because he had been emotionally hurt so badly, he knows exactly how to hurt others with the same intensity. Like a vampire's bite curse.

(When your moon is showing but you remember that you're in public)

For Izuna's headcanon, I based his personality as both complementary to Madara. It explains their closeness and the void his death has created. Izuna is also an alternative version of Obito. Zodiacal archetype is just a way for me to have a skeleton, then up to me to customise as I wish.

Kishimoto told us that both Obito and Izuna were born the same day 10th of February, I don't think it happened with any other characters so I will guess it was intentional, and both of them were in a tight collaboration with Madara.

Aquarius is one of rare signs ruled by two planets. Saturn and Uranus. For thousands of years, Saturn always has been the most distant planet you can observe in the sky with naked eyes. Thus it is associated with the limit of physical world, the bones, old age, time passing and ultimately death.

Uranus is a planet discovered in modern time, what is interesting is that ancient astronomers already noticed Uranus but thought it was a star. Thus Uranus represents the progress of science, a new astronomical lenses is needed to see Uranus. It's the only planet from the solar system with an horizontal axis tilt rooted its association with revolution, eccentricity, brutal changes, electricity, high tech.

So based on what I just said there is two archetypes of Aquarius. The Saturnian Aquarius and the Uranian Aquarius. Obito represents in my eyes the Uranian influence. More chaotic, unpredictable, with sudden change of personality. But I delve deeper on him here : Madara & Obito : awakening the Master of Chaos

So what About Izuna ? He's from a past generation, a traditional Saturnian Aquarius is quite fitting. This type makes me think of the idea of the Architect. Someone both well knowledgable of structures, rules but also a creative. Unless Capricorn who is most focus like an Engineer on dominating the structure pre-existing, Aquarius won't hesitate to twisted the rules, break it down and rebuilt a new one to serve their will. Their is as well in the Architect archetype a balance of hard sciences and genius inspiration to go ahead of his time. This Aquarius seems more detached, intellectual more inclined to abstracted concepts, more concerned about the collective.

In my HC :

Izuna is indeed calm and charming character on surface but elusive. Unless you're part of his close family, you're not sure about what he actually likes, but he can make you confess your whole life with kind words and a smile.

He is rationalise his emotion. Madara have intense emotions burst (hence the extraordinary power of his sharingan) but he just chose to hid them and locked them in his heart. Izuna just naturally put a distance of his own and analyse them. Contrary to his brother, he's got better social skills, and he's more approachable. In the downside, it makes him awkward to express his true feelings. He always escapes it through a light joke.

He's both fascinated and envious of Madara's charisma. How can he inspired authority without a single word? It's mystery to him. And in return Madara envies his abilities to always fit in society and expressing himself clearly.

They have generally an healthy competition, and Izuna knows how to irritate Madara. Younger they had endless fights for anything : first in shower, first to eat ect... Because he's the youngest and he needs recognition.

Adult Izuna is a die-hard supporter of Madara as a leader and an elder. Yet In private he is not scared to criticize and opposes him. It's actually coming from both side. If you are an Uchiha and you don't know how to roast people and answer back, you can't survive !

Izuna is a different kind of dangerous shinobi. Perfect for infiltration and spying. At the first sight, as soon as you catch his smile he is calculating your value. He can pretend being your best friend, a passionate lover for months without loosing focus on his mission. And when it's done, he comes back home with no feeling of attachment or regret. The only loyalty he hold strong is the Uchihas clans. The rest is temporary allies.

Warring state era is pushing people traits to the extreme. During missions Izuna is the one mostly responsible to extract information through torture. Not that Madara can't do it, but Izuna is more patient and got no limits in mentally torturing people and enslave them emotionally and as a result is able to extract more informations than his brother. To him in order to survive, in a war there is not distinction between shinobi and civilians.

Tobirama is the only known Senju who survive and escape his cruel dojutsu alive.

During a battlefield, his abilities to be cold blooded help him to always being aware of the bigger picture around him , even in a one on one sparring. He doesn't have the audacity of his older brother but he is better at thinking a strategy for a whole group.

Hence why I call them the devils twins, combined together, Madara is the destructive storm ready to conquer, Izuna the watchtower seeing all around, hearing everything.

When he advised Madara to not trust the Senju. It was not just out of curse of hate. While Madara was just talking to Hashirama as his friend. Izuna even deadly wounded can see clearly Hashirama, Tobirama, the Senju armies, the power of elders senjus, the Senju ascendance over them. He always put the clan first, the Senjus didn't give offer any assurance for the Uchihas' security.

Ladies, I'm sorry to say but Izuna is not the loyal type. I know he said you are the only one, I know he promises you to come back... but look at him : pretty face, sense of humour, irresistible charm, best liar, don't you think there is a queue? He manages to have different affairs in different cities he got a mission. And the audacity to call them secret sources but no one complain since they always give to the clan valuable information. And what's wrong with mixing work and pleasure he would say?

Madara is the only one who can detect Izuna's actor studio skills immediately. His tricks has no effect on him.

Oh and last thing if he promises you marriage. That's a lie. He is already engaged to his cousin.

I hope I've answered your ask and it was not too much technical ❤️

I went a little bit more further in explaining Capricorn vs Aquarius in here : The Devils Twins (bonus)

[tiredbutstillloveable]

WOOYOUNG´S RELATIONSHIP OBSERVATIONS - PART II

Hello everyone, it's been awhile since my last post. Life is happening and as I'm really excited and happy about it, I was feeling sad and guilty to not being around here anymore. So, I'm trying to take it easy and to start over one step at a time, so I'm not going to do a big post rn,ok? :) Well,this one should've been about his ideal type, but them I realized that I was talking more about his energy in the relationship and it was more focused on him than in his significant other lol so why not a part II right?! I hope you all enjoy the reading <3

Sagittarius Sun, Cancer Moon, Scorpio Mercury, Libra Venus, Capricorn Mars

-> The mixture between his Sun and Venus makes me think he would love someone who can be flirty and who can make him laugh. Someone who's intelligent, witty and a cheeky sense of humor is something that he could be attract to;

-> He's a Libra Venus, so having sense of style it's important here too. Elegance meets effortless + casual style it's more what can draw the attention here;

-> Emotionally open, warm and who enjoys intimacy. You can't be someone who avoids a real connection here, if is someone who wants to make Wooyoung feels the connection towards them, they must be open about things, you can't be a coward, you gotta jump towards yours feelings and embrace it. I can see this crazy mixture here going on since he's a Sag Sun, Cancer Moon and a Libra Venus and Scorpio Mercury.

-> And talking about his Scorpio Mercury, he can be really closed off about his real thoughts and ideas. So, you'll be able to only know the real Wooyoung if you open up too and talk to him about your life. After all, with this placement he wants to know every single detail, he wants to know you for real, all your nuances, and especially your dark side, your flaws. What you tell to people...this can be boring, he wants to know the side that nobody does.

-> Now observing a little bit his Cap Mars, we already know that he wants someone who's ready for a real connection, and on top of that this placement makes him even more in the energy to build strong and solid relationships. He can look really friendly and easy going but there's a side that he does not show much, that is more serious and down to earth. Who takes some time to really let someone in, bc they need to deserve that. He needs to trust this person, and in order to this happen, it takes time. If he thinks you are shady in some way...this is it for him. He can treat you politely but that's it. Nothing more.

-> Looking to his Venus, mars and moon those are in signs that love relationships, love, and to build a future together. His sun and Venus can make him liking to enjoy relationship in terms of just for today/tonight. Kind like going with the flow type of thing. Super and extremely flirty and naughty lol The type that likes to go to talk to the person he has his eye on, he is not afraid of that, because he knows he can charm them. And he is not to eager, he knows how to talk to them, how to build the right tension. He can be really suave, if he wants. And what I think is cool is that he is not really hiding his intentions,yk? he is there to have a good time.

-> But, when he feels he met the one, he knows he’s not letting this person go, and he is there for her/him for the long run. He’s planning the future. He can see them growing old together. And he wants a family and wants to be married. But until the right one does not cross his path... he entertains himself with the others ones lmao  

[tamquamalteradam]

Kevin Day x the Gangsey

self indulgent post in honor of being sucked into the aftg fandom... can we talk about how trc and aftg could totally be happening in the same world, early 2000s and all

Gansey

Gansey, standing in line in the cafeteria: hey, Kevin right? I really enjoyed your presentation in World Hist, would you happen to know anything about Welsh kings?

Kevin: you mean like, Owain Glyndŵr?

Gansey: *starry eyes*

They proceed to sit together and exchange history book recs

Kevin has never had anyone attentively listen to him talk about history before and actually care about what he’s saying, so he’s like *what is this feeling???* (the feeling was friendship, but neither of them had ever experienced anyth-)

Kevin helping Gansey in French

KEVIN AND GANSEY LATE NIGHT COMPANIONSHIP

They both can't sleep so Gansey does his ley line research while Kevin does his exy diagramming shit and all you can hear is amicable silence and the scratching of pencils and Gansey occasionally asking Kevin what he thinks about this or that theory

One night Gansey is in an anxious mood and Kevin's like *you know what helps me when I'm anxious? Exy.* so he takes Gansey to the court and teaches him some of the basics

Gansey has upper body strength from rowing but his balance and coordination are shit

So he kind of fails spectacularly but he's smiling by the end of it so Kevin's satisfied (although sorely disappointed in Gansey's lack of Exy potential and trying not to show it-- *one man can't have everything*)

KEVIN'S ONE FLAW, IN GANSEY'S EYES, IS HIS AVERSION TO THE CAMARO

Kevin: I am not looking at anything bright orange ever again.

Gansey: ☹️

Adam

ACADEMIC RIVALS TO FRIENDS. YOU CANNOT CONVINCE ME OTHERWISE. THESE TWO PERFECTIONIST WORKAHOLIC CAPRICORN RISING BITCHES-

It all started when Kevin took Adam’s long held seat as top of the class in biology

Adam is like *who is this new kid* and also *why are he and Gansey thick as thieves*

Of course Gansey introduces them, and at first Adam doesn’t really think much of Kevin given his background and attitude

But slowly they earn each other’s grudging respect

Much like Adam and Declan, Adam and Kevin see right through each other's guises

Also thinking of when Adam recognized the fear in Opal and gave her his watch to comfort her. I think he would recognize the fear in Kevin and post-TRK Adam would try to help (except it's not a Crying Club situation, it would be a much more equal friendship)

Ronan

Kevin: this kid could outlast Andrew in a staring competition

*why does he always carry around a RAVEN, of all animals*

Chainsaw, being a very smart bird, notices Kevin’s discomfort and tries to be extra entertaining (of course, her version of entertaining is singing the murder squash song in her eerily human voice. it does not help.)

Kayleigh Day was Irish right? Imagine them at the Barns, Ronan leading them through the house and Kevin sees a dusty instrument in the corner

Kevin, turning to Gansey: I used to play that

Adam, deadpan: you and Ronan should start a band: "The Bald Bagpipers".

Ronan: *death glare*

Henry

They would be besties. I can feel it in my BONES

Them at Exites geeking out and debating the merits and shortcomings of various Exy racquets

Henry would pretend to know more about Exy than he does but somehow get away with it because he's Henry and his enthusiasm wins Kevin over

As a product of hanging out with Kevin, Henry is now a massive USC stan by proxy and they stream matches on the Litchfield house movie projector (if I had a nickel for every time I talk about the Litchfield house movie projector I'd have two nickels)

Eventually they would rope Gansey in too and they become the unofficial Jeremy Knox fanclub

Blue

Blue meeting Kevin would be Blue meeting Gansey at Nino's INTENSIFIED

Somehow I feel like she would judge him less because he doesn't try to hide the fact that he's rich? (don't forget about the time Kevin was canonically like "yeah i'm expensive, coach should've known when he signed me")

However the mutual wariness would go on for a long time before they warm up to each other

I don't really see them becoming super close but eventually they start judging people together and boy would you get !!!roasted!!! by Sargent/Day

Kevin never lets on that he actually thinks Blue is hella cool but she knows

She knits him some fingerless gloves in the Foxes colors and he wears them occasionally. one day the TV is on in the background while the Gangsey's chilling at Monmouth and they see Kevin talking to a reporter and he's wearing the gloves

No one says anything about it but they're like *ah. blue likes you, therefore you are one of us now*

Noah

Can relate to each other because they are #deadinside and got their bones smashed to bits with long rectangle-esque objects by people who were supposed to be their friends

Ouch

Kevin can't get over Noah being a ghost and how everyone treats it like a totally normal thing

"So he just? Exists? And can? Appear out of thin- Ok. okAY."

Noah pulls his trick of seeing people's thoughts and he's like holy moly there is more to this man than he lets on

Scares Kevin half to death by materializing in the stands during his midnight Exy practices

Bonus: Noah and Andrew LMAO I can imagine Noah messing with him

Andrew: *throws knife*

*knife goes right through Noah and hits the ground*

Andrew: *squints ever so slightly*

[nyaitsu-writes]

ooooohhh another capricorn!! Nice to meet another one from our gang! Its near my birthday so I'll be your twin too 💗💗 inokori-senseiiii i really love how akechi became someone really really important to haruki like a stand-in for his brother 🤧 i love kimura ryohei too (he's the reason i started to play this otome game)! the one who made me go fall deeper into the series tho is kaji yuki (I'm such a big kaji yuki simp😅😅) i really love all the seiyuu they got for this~ the vocals~~aaaaa

It's fine even if you haven't caught up with everything in haniwa!! This time we're on the idol series, so there's few cameo for the love series cast bbut... everyone is dating or married already I'm feeling so old 🤣

I have read you're feeling under the weather, please do have adequate rest and eat loads of vitamins from fruits and veggies! Please hydrate well too💗💗💗 song recom to get better! LipxLip Romeo! https://youtu.be/00DPgfp7j3Y

~ ▶️

ohoho i see you're a person of culture as well! <- read the kimuryo part. i will keep quiet about it because my closest friends know i can write an entire book about how much i like his voice www i'm the type to jump into (otome) games no matter how much desinterested i am in them as long as he's part of the cast. on my eternal quest to date all the LIs voiced by him ( •̀ ω •́ )✧

also yuki kaji aaaaa. he's so. his range. his voice is out if this world his screams are too. i've been playing tears of themis ever since release day but i've been falling in and out of it,, but the yuki kaji ft kaito ishikawa combi always manages to pull me back. characters that are really nice but hide a darker side with cv: yuki kaji steal my heart on first sight ehehe <3

i think i'm subscribed to honeyworks in yt even if i don't check it out too often but! i remember seeing the love confession cast all grown up in like a big group pic? and then it hit me how long it's been since the songs released :') time to feel like an old lady! i get that feeling so often lately lol i love watching long series that have a lot of content to them but at the same time,, i can't concentrate for more than half a second and i lose my motivation to watch everything so fast aaa there's a couple of characters i've been interested in for a while so i should. find the wiki and watch some of the songs in order. yup!

i loved loved loved LOVED THE SONG SO MUCH <3 especially targetted at me www ohhh to be a princess and have such beautiful princes try to whisk you away aaaa (*/ω＼*) honeyworks really nails the soft vibes in everything they do <33 i also loved seeing the idol live! really cool <3

[soupbabe]

Hello, can i mabye get a match up? Preference would be Scream, i hope the text it not to long, thank you

I'm a Capricorn/30.12.2001/, and INTP, my name is Samantha but just Sam or Sammy please. My pronounce are She/They . Saying my full name is just weird and makes me feel insanely bad and guilty. I don't have a preference for my partner,I can love anyone. I have a normal body, I kinda dislike the size of my boobs, it's hard to find fitting shirts sometimes. I 'm 5.6 foot, my eyes are a grayish blue color, my hair is now a wash off dark red with black which is also washed out at the end. I leave loose hair at every place like a cat, its gos me to my boobs. It happens often that I find random bruises and don't know how they get here. As I have some small scares, even behind my ears. Now to my style,i dont have one but mostly go with alt , Gothic and punk? Sometimes i just pick things out from my clothes and I love oversized things and weirdly man boxers, man they are comfy. Although i try to went barefoot at ever time of the year. Than asking me why i am sick the same day. I like to wear necklaces and earrings,sometimes bracelet even. I will wear the stolen things outside and grin at the person

To my personality, I have trouble finding friends due to my shyness and social anxiety.I have trouble standing up for myself, and hate when people are rude to me. I will feel small everytime, sometimes I even start to stutter or just go away and complain to my friends. Because of my ADHD I'm forgetting things, or to sleep and have bad time management. I tend to space out when I am bored or it's just too much for me, sometimes I will start rambling on topics and will not let you speak, unless you shut me up. I am easy to scare and confused, with the right Person even a blushing mess. As i will not really talk about my problems like, or i make jokes of than. I tend to make jokes of myself. Over than this i have a bit of "fuck this, if they want to talk than talk." As i wont change my personality from someone. I like to annoy people, as i like to have a from attention others. I love to knuddels and physical touch,as i dont like getting gifts. I feel bad cause i don't have most of the times. You have to just give than to me.Sometimes i can have a bit of an attitude and angry issues.

I like reading books, horror, listen to music, cigarette smoke( i don't smoke), nights and my friends, good naps, fire, backing. As I have a soft spot for neck kisses and cuddles. But praise is on another level . As i love coffee and energy drinks I am uncomfortable with abuse and will stand up fro people i love, as i have an trauma from abuse and bullying. I even got an fear of being abandoned because my birth father left me and don't proper contact me for years. I got severe depression because if this since a young age. I hate pop music as well as romantic movies, as well as hiding me from others and lies ot to sweet things, and assholes.I tend to take my time about trusting someone and feeling fear of getting abandoned.

I match you with,,,

Billy Loomis ♡

Listen, you understand Billy more than most people! He relates to your own issues with abandonment and that leaves a bond that's insanely strong <3 While he doesn't like talking about it all too much, his affections for you are on the next level. Giving all the soft kisses and praise your heart desires to let you know you can't get rid of him <3

He thinks you're cute, your shy and easy to scare nature is found charming. Though be careful, it's very easy to imagine Billy choosing an extra scary movie so you can jump right into his arms <33