#I only wanted to do a impression of the chapter fever and it ends up being a character summary of Claude towards the end of the book

[josh-lanceero]

Fever

[jackoquako]

Burning from the Inside

Yan! Batfamily x neglected! male! meta! Reader

Chapter one: Enter the Manor

I do look through the interactions with my fic and block profiles that only use she/her or say “cis girl”.

Summary: The first few months of living in the manor and your impressions of the inhabitants. Word Count: 2805 Reading Time: 11:14 (mins:secs) Notes: Uh yeah this was meant to be maybe like 1000 words max. Oopsies 😬. I thought I’d do an honorable mention of @sitepathos and their series Gold to Mold bc while the influence may not be obvious, that story was one of my main influences to finally write the story in my head. Also any OOC behavior can be chalked up to the characters being emotionally inept (Bruce), not fully capable of raising a child that’s not Robin (Bruce again), or deal with their own emotional baggage of not being Robin anymore (dick). Also it’s important to note that I do look through the interactions with my fic and block profiles that only use she/her or say “cis girl”. The idea of being used as a tool for someone else’s gratification makes me uncomfortable and this is my blog, I do what I want. No current release date for the second chapter, it’ll get done when it gets done I guess.. 🤷‍♂️😓 Warnings: written in first person, talks of a young child (11) dealing with depression but the word isn’t used. Aggressive behavior from an adult to a child, and neglect from a parental figure.

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The first week in the manor was actually rather.. nice. The car Alfred had taken you to the manor in was a shiny black, the interior coated in an oil-like black leather that made noise when you moved on it. There’d been a bag of fast food waiting for you in the back seat of the car when Alfred ushered you in. You’d devoured the meal hastily- not out of any sort of food deprivation or malnutrition, but because it never seemed like you could sate your appetite. No matter what, you were always a little hungry, a little more ravenous than the other boys your age. He’d talked sparingly as he drove, rarely talking his eyes off the road. It seemed like he understood. Unlike the cops and the foster families and the social workers, Alfred didn’t say “I’m sorry” or “that must hurt”. He didn’t really say anything about it at all. 

He’d asked you what your favorite color was, what style of decoration you’d want for your room, if you enjoyed your current clothes and style or if you’d rather have something else, and other similar questions. It was slow going, moving your mouth to form answers. Since the house fire, you’d grown to be unlike your past self, retracting into your shell like a snail, and barely speaking unless absolutely necessary. He didn’t seem to mind silence, though. It made a knot in your shoulders, that you never noticed, come loose.

The ride wasn’t very long, or maybe it was, you didn’t pay much attention to the time. It didn’t feel like a long ride. You’d spent the majority of it resting your head on the car door and staring out the window, watching buildings and trees pass by. The squat, brick buildings of mom-and-pop businesses of the town you’d been moved to gradually gave way to towering skyscrapers and bustling streets, although that eventually fell away to a thinned forest and big houses that stood proud among manicured lawns. The houses faded away too, leaving miles of sprawling woods the only thing to look at. Watching the trees pass by was a rather calming experience, your heartbeat slow and steady in your chest. You closed your eyes for a moment, feeling that ever-present heat under your skin settle, like a cat laying in the sun. It never left, like a permanent fever, but it could calm down, it could go dormant for the moment. 

The car rolled to a stop and you opened your eyes. A mansion stood alone in the middle of the woods, a driveway leading up to it and ending in a roundabout with a fountain in the middle. The front of the house was framed by well-loved hedges and flower beds which bloomed with brilliant white and red flowers. The house- mansion- itself was a deep red brick, the stone worn by weather, and framed by snow-white columns of marble. It was imposing, looming over the surrounding trees. Alfred stepped out of the car and moved around to the side, opening the door for you.

“Master yn, we have arrived.” He said with that same kind, elegant manner he’d greeted you with, back at the social worker’s office. 

As you climbed out of the car, Alfred moved back to the trunk and opened it, grabbing your singular bag of belongings before closing the trunk. He walked to the pristine marble stairs that led up to the tall mahogany  doors, the gravel crunching under his shiny black shoes. You followed loosely behind him, looking around at the outside of the house. The thought hadn’t quite managed to break through the fog that always seemed to cloud your mind nowadays, but it suddenly dawned on you that this isn’t exactly a normal foster family. You hurried to the door when Alfred held it open for you, stopping only for a moment to glance down at the outdoor mat resting outside the door. It was black with a gold logo printed onto it; the logo looked like a highly stylized W with an E beside it. An unsettled feeling rested in your stomach at the sight of it and you couldn’t quite grasp why. 

Entering the mansion, you were struck with the smell of cleaner and, very faintly, cologne. It smelled like an expensive store, the kind of place you and your mom would walk past on the way to your usual shopping area. The entryway had an open doorway that offered a small glimpse into the rest of the manor. A grand staircase ran down the side of the wall, the room entirely lit by a chandelier hanging from the high vaulted ceiling. Alfred moves past you, closing the door behind you both, and talks while gesturing for you to follow him up the grand staircase.

He’d taken you down a long hall that was lined with closed doors, explaining where everything was located whilst walking.

“Now, Master Bruce’s bedroom is.. further down the hall.”

You must’ve given him a curious look as you both arrived at your new room. Alfred opened the door for you, allowing you to enter in front of him.

“He wishes to give you space during this time.”

Your stomach churned at those words. They were perfectly designed, like what a PR team would tell their talent to say after screwing up massively. It left a sour taste in your mouth and you couldn’t quite meet Alfred’s gaze after hearing that. You looked around the room as Alfred set down your bag on the bed. It was much larger than anywhere you’d lived before, considering both foster homes and your real home. 

Despite the size, though, the room was bare of any decoration. A single twin bed laid under the brightness of the single window in the room, only blinds blocking the sunlight. Along the far right wall stood a sturdy wooden dresser and mirror. The walls were a blank white wallpaper and the floor was the same shiny deep-colored wood as the hallway outside. There was no side table for the bed, no carpet despite how cold the floor would definitely get, no posters or paintings, just the bare necessities. It was the picture of utilitarian. Alfred spoke up, clearing his throat as if he was embarrassed.

“Unfortunately, we were unable to source more furniture before your arrival.” He said with the same elegance as everything else he’d said, despite his expression figuratively shouting how upset he was about what he was saying. 

It intrigued you more than it should’ve. You shrugged and went to the window, pulling down one of the blinds to look outside.

“It’s fine.”

It’s not. You didn’t turn to look back at Alfred as you spoke, nor did you look back when you heard his fancy dress shoes shuffle against the floor. You heard the door creak.

“I’ll let you settle in, sir.”

You heard the door shut behind Alfred as he left. The minute you were alone, you fell back into the bed, staring up at the ceiling. 

The first few weeks had been rather boring, admittedly. You’d often stay in your room for days at a time, only wandering out to explore the house when you got bored of staring at the ceiling. You’d stroll up and down the halls, discovering the library, the private study that Bruce Wayne used, the various staff quarters, and more guest bedrooms than you thought was possible. None of it really excited you, though. A numbness had invaded your mind and made you into a living ghost, something human in name only. You no longer looked in mirrors and spoke very little, if at all. Not like there were very many people to talk to.

Bruce Wayne was as elusive as rain in the desert. He flitted about the manor, only ever coming home very late at night and leaving in the morning. You didn’t really want to know what he was doing so late in the evening, but you figured you’d find out about it someday. Secrets between you and your mom didn’t last very long, so most family secrets should be the same. 

The very few times you interacted with Bruce Wayne, he seemed distracted or discomforted by your presence, like he was seeing your mother, not you. If you happened to be in the kitchen when he came in, he’d stare at you for a long moment before attempting some sort of small talk. When you didn’t respond, he’d just leave. After the first three days, he avoided you completely. Maybe it was because you were both orphans or maybe there was just something unsettling about you, but Bruce Wayne didn’t want you in his house. Maybe he saw the same in-humanness that the foster families saw. Whatever was wrong with you was palpable, apparently.

Bruce Wayne wasn’t the only person in the manor who avoided you. 

Richard Grayson was, according to google, an orphan Bruce Wayne took in. Grayson didn’t care for your presence either. He was eighteen and seemed to be genuinely disgusted by you. Maybe he saw something too. Or maybe he was just a dick. The first incident with Grayson happened not too long after you moved in. You’d been wandering towards the direction of the kitchen when the front door burst open. He’d stood in the doorway, framed by the light around him, like an action figure in a commercial, all stoic and proud. You stopped to look at him and he looked back, like two animals spooked by the other’s existence. He’d scowled and glared down at you, crossing his arms as he approached. The rude dick left the door open behind him. 

“What are you, another one of Bruce’s new bratty orphans?” His words dripped with anger and annoyance, like you were ruining something just by the virtue of being here. He scoffed before you could even respond and stomped off. 

Luckily for you, though, Grayson didn’t live in the manor. He had his own apartment he’d disappear to for weeks. It was bliss, not having him around constantly. Living with Bruce Wayne already had your blood pressure high and your fuse short, but having someone as outright about their dislike of you- over something that you didn’t even understand- that made your blood boil. You had to physically stop yourself from launching yourself at Grayson every time he looked at you like you were a cockroach. 

But there were redeeming inhabitants in the manor. One of which was Alfred. He never forced you to talk if you didn’t feel like it, which you often didn’t. When you crawled out of your room for food once a day, he’d prepare a meal for you whilst telling you a story. You enjoyed his stories; the stories reminded you of your mother.

“Once, when I was in the SAS,” He’d begin, chopping vegetables into fine little cubes and tossing them into a pan. He’d grab fresh herbs from somewhere and begin chopping those as well.

“There were two new recruits.” He focused on what he was doing as you rested your head on your palm and stood leaning on the dinner table. “And they thought they were just the sneakiest men in the platoon.”

Once the herbs were diced, he’d add them to the sizzling pan, and stir the concoction. The action sent a flurry of floral scents in the air, filling the kitchen with an inviting aroma. 

Alfred continued whilst stirring the contents of the pan. “So the rest of us had dared them; said ‘if you’re really that good at sneaking around, then sneak up to one of the rabbits on base and put a ribbon on it.’”

“And by god, they did.” Alfred chuckled to himself as he turned off the burner and continued to stir, reaching over to the spice rack and picking out multiple bottles and sprinkling the contents into the pan. “They snuck out of the barracks that night and went out into the woods without any of us knowing.”

He gestured for you to sit at the bar and grabbed a plate from a cabinet, snatching a fork from an adjacent drawer. “By the time we all woke up and began our own duties, there were about twelve rabbits running around the base with little ribbon bow ties tied around their necks!”

Laughing softly to himself, Alfred scooped out the cooked vegetable stir-fry onto the plate and brought it over to you along with the fork. He’d sat with you as you ate, talking about other stories from his time in the SAS and his time working for Martha and Thomas Wayne. His genuine kindness made it almost worth it to be living in the manor.

The other inhabitant who didn't mind you being in the manor- and even seemed to like you being around- was Jason Todd. You’d met him while wandering around the manor like you often did. You’d just found the library for the first time when he popped up out of nowhere, appearing from behind a plush seat like a character from a horror movie. He’d bounded over to you like an excited puppy and began speaking a mile a minute. At first he’d put on this hyper-masculine deep voice that didn’t match his face or his age at all.

“Hey! Who are you?” He’d looked down his nose at you and you quickly realized that he, despite already being the same height as you, had stood on his tiptoes specifically so he could look down his nose at you. 

Fixing him with the same blank stare you’d used on everyone, you answered simply. That numbness you’d grown accustomed to made it hard to put energy into your voice. “(Y/N).”

He blinked once, then twice, and then the facade broke. His voice softened into what you assumed was its normal state and he slowly lowered himself to his usual height. Tilting this way and that, he examined you with an almost-suspicious expression. 

“Oh.” He suddenly light up with recognition. “You must be the other kid B took in. I’m Jason.” He pointed to himself with a prideful smile. “How come I haven’t seen you around?” The question was innocently curious, only prying on accident. 

You stared blankly, no response leaving your lips as you stood still. He tilted his head and frowned, shrugging as he looked away, feigning disinterest.

“Strong and silent type, huh?” He nodded to himself as he said the words, still looking at some random book on the bookshelf. “I can work with that.”

And he did.

Jason’s friendship was unlike your relationship with Alfred. In the fogginess of apathy- depression, you realized- he cut through the clouds like a lighthouse. He’d follow you around when you left your room, finding you every time like he had a compass implanted in his head or something, and it exclusively led to you. You’d be just wandering, sometimes taking paths you already walked before, sometimes carving completely new wear patterns in the carpet, and he’d sidle right up next to you and begin talking.

Just like Alfred, he did the talking for the two of you, but he was different. Jason would pause occasionally after cracking a joke, glancing at you to see if you laughed, smiling if he saw you reacted at all. It was like he understood you in a way Alfred didn’t, like he’d been in your shoes before. Sometimes while walking through the halls of the manor, he’d take your hand and lead you to some unspecified place. Occasionally it was the library, but most of the time it was places you’d never gone before, like the rooftop, the garden, and the theater room. 

Eventually, you learned through his one-sided conversations that Jason was only two years older than you at 13, and that he’d lived in crime alley. You didn’t really know where that was, but it sounded like a rough place to live. After a few months of being Jason’s unofficial sidekick, you began talking again. He never made a big deal out of it, but you could see his eyes light up when he finally got a response, even if they were one-worded at best. He’d cracked the hardened shell of emptiness that formed around your heart. The constant rejection by Wayne and Grayson didn’t help, neither did the gentle approach from Alfred, if you were being honest, but Jason had cracked it. He’d pulled you out of a ship you didn’t know had already sunk. And the first embers of happiness began to spark up again once more, even if it was faint. For the first time in a really long time, you had a friend.

And you had all the time in the world to get to know each other better. 

[penkura]

last forever [5/13]

Summary: Zoro only offered to marry you to keep you out of an arranged marriage with a man much older than you. You agreed with the caveat of ending it via annulment once you received word from your parents regarding the original engagement, despite your growing feelings for your close friend.

Pairing: Zoro x Fem!reader, mentioned Sanami later (like epilogue later so chill)

Warnings: Marriage of Convenience, Fake Marriage, referenced sex (waaaaaay later on), mutual pining, Zoro is bad at feelings but what's new there, eventual romance I promise, mention of past attempted assault (I'll warn in that chapter), creepy older dude later on

Note: Only three hours late, that's not so bad haha. I had fun with this one, adding in how our couple met, I was going to do it as a flashback but I couldn't get it to work in my head how I wanted, so it's here differently. I'm a little mean to Reader at the end, or, well, Zoro is, but he has his reasons. Things will be okay, I promise.

[Ch. 1] ● [Ch. 2] ● [Ch. 3] ● [Ch. 4]

Honestly, at this point, you shouldn’t be surprised at Zoro’s tendency to get badly injured from his own stupidity at times. Little Garden ended up being more than just an island you all passed through, with giants and more Baroque Works agents, you’d even been caught by Mr. 3 and nearly turned into a wax statue, joining Nami and Vivi shouting at Zoro that he was being an idiot with his threats to cut his own legs off at the ankle to fight the agents there.

You were relieved when Luffy and Usopp showed up, stopping your husband from doing anything ridiculous. Once the four of you had been freed and Sanji showed up, explaining where in the hell he’d been, you grabbed onto Zoro’s shirt, making him look at you while you give him a blank stare.

“…what?”

“Sit down. You need stitches. Again.”

Rolling his eyes, Zoro does listen to you, sitting down nearby the rest of your friends as they discuss your next course of action and Dory and Broggy offer to help you all leave. Vivi comes over and watches you as you stitch up Zoro’s ankles, looking impressed by your quick work and how you don’t even look a bit squeamish about it.

You just shrug when she comments.

“I’ve gotten used to it. This guy’s an idiot—”

“Hey.”

“—so I’ve had to learn to fix him up.”

Vivi laughs a bit and nods, seeming to understand. Once you’ve finished and out your small kit away, you just give Zoro a smile when he quietly thanks you, before you walk back over to the rest of your crew. You hang close to Sanji and it again causes a strange ache in Zoro’s chest, he has to bite his lip to make it stop.

You’ve started spending so much more time with your cook, he should be happy about it, maybe you’re starting to have feelings for Sanji. Some of your free time is now spent in the kitchen, if Zoro walks by he hears you laughing most of the time. The weird feeling in his chest moves to his stomach when he hears you, he’s still not sure if it’s annoyance at you and Sanji getting close or jealousy at the situation.

Shaking his head, Zoro pushes the feelings away and goes to join you all to leave.

What the hell is wrong with me?

+!+

When Nami comes down with a strange illness after you leave, leading to your crew trying to find an island with a doctor, you all take your turns watching over and caring for her. You hope and pray you all reach an island and find a doctor quickly, you don’t want to lose one of your best friends. The boys freaking out about it doesn’t help at all, leaving you and Vivi to really care for Nami and try to help her get better. Every second her fever doesn’t go down scares you, it’s worse if it’s gone up even a tiny bit.

You know nothing about medicine, it’s something your mother thought was useless for you to know. All you needed to know was how to bandage yourself or your future kids up, that’s it. She really treated you like you were made of glass at times, you always wondered if that was due to how late in her life you’d been born. Whatever the reason, you’re happy to help Nami right now, to try and make her feel better.

When you and Vivi switch off one night, instead of heading to bed like you should, you choose to go up to the crow’s nest where Zoro’s taken the first watch of the night. You stopped in the kitchen before heading up to bring something to drink with you, grabbing a coat on the way since you’re in a colder area right now.

Once you make it up the ladder, you poke your head in and give Zoro a smile when he looks at you with a raised eyebrow.

“What?”

“Wanna share a drink?”

You aren’t surprised when he seems to light up briefly at the mention of sake, nodding you over to sit by him, handing over the bottle you’d gotten from Sanji while you made yourself comfortable beside Zoro. You’re still not used to the burn of alcohol but still take a big a drink when Zoro hands the bottle to you, passing it back to him. The only reason you started drinking was because Zoro had bet you to do so on your eighteenth birthday, promising you he’d give you money if you did it, so you took a few shots that were given to you, quickly regretting it when you threw it all up outside the tavern you two had been in. He may have lost the bet but at least he was nice enough to hold your hair back and get you to your hotel room without much trouble, and you did get your money a few days later.

“I meant to thank you for the other day.”

“Huh?”

“In Loguetown when we ran into Elias,” Zoro barely looks at you, but you pay him no mind, instead watching the light snow fall against the midnight sky, “For not telling him the truth about, you know, us.”

Shrugging, Zoro takes another swig of drink, before offering it back to you which you decline.

“Wasn’t any reason to tell him. Don’t need him telling your parents the truth.”

“He wouldn’t have, but I get what you mean.”

Zoro nods, partially believing you just from the one meeting with your brother and the things you’ve told him. You were a surprise to your parents, coming along when Elias was ten-years-old, your parents in their late thirties and not planning to have another child. Elias was enthralled with you once you were born, he’d protected you from everything, especially once you turned fifteen and your parents started to sift through possible suitors. According to you, he was pissed when your parents chose someone even older than him, promising he’d never leave you alone with the man and eventually helping you run away in the dead of night.

You two were close despite your age difference.

“You know,” you draw Zoro back to paying attention to you when you speak again, “Taking care of Nami reminds me of how you took care of me when we first met. Remember?”

Your smile as you ask makes him feel like his stomach is doing flips, it must be the alcohol doing that he thinks, but he still nods a bit.

How could he forget that?

You were unexpected to him too, running into a rundown bar so quickly you’d slammed into Zoro, making him grab your arms to keep you upright as you tried to apologize but your mouth felt like it was full of cotton, you don’t even know if actual words came out. You were burning up from a fever and passed out while Zoro kept you upright. The bar owner was nice enough to put you up in a room while you recovered, and he still isn’t sure why he did it, but Zoro took care of you the entire time. Johnny and Yosaku had been there at the same time, helping out by bringing any medicine they thought would help, getting a doctor to come check on you only to confirm you had pneumonia but that you’d be fine after a few more days of medicine and rest.

Once you were better, you were so grateful to the three men that you offered to give them whatever money you had on you, which they all rejected, you definitely needed it more. You kept the truth about why you were running into a bar in your state to yourself, eventually making an offer to Zoro only that you could travel with and help him, but he'd only agree to that if you beat him in a small sparring match, he’d noticed your sword right away.

Of course you lost, but you both had a great time, to the point Zoro let you tag along the last year and a half, he helped you improve your skills and you’re still so grateful to him for everything.

The second you shiver form the cold you’re about to go back down to sleep, before Zoro moves his arm to open the blanket around him and nod you over again.

Smiling again, you scoot over and sit right up beside him, practically flush against his side when he brings his arm back down around you. You’re both used to this, used to coming to each other for simple things like warmth or food, even with the rest of your crew. It’s leftover from when it was just the two of you.

Zoro doesn’t want this to go further past your friendship and being crewmates, not now. Neither of you can or should be thinking about romance, that’s Sanji’s job.

So why does he feel disappointed when you finally go down to the bunks?

+!+

After leaving Drum Island with Nami well and Chopper aboard as your doctor, you’ve started to have a tiny second shadow following you around. The reindeer taking a liking to you right away, starting to follow you around the ship after you’d given him the initial tour. He's started staying close to you and showing you how to make medicine and dress wounds, teaching you more than you ever could’ve imagined knowing.

Chopper has also started bringing you with him to nap with Zoro, your swordsman almost rejecting it at first, before Chopper pulls you to sit beside him while your doctor lays across Zoro’s lap. It makes you laugh as Zoro tries not to have any eye contact with you. Can’t let you see him being all soft and stuff about Chopper now.

You don’t say anything about it, especially once you all make it to Nanohana and do your shopping to find desert and heat safe outfits, though you feel like you’re going to suffocate at times, you’ll be glad to avoid a severe sunburn or heat stroke.

Then you all met Luffy’s big brother Ace.

You remember seeing him in the paper before back home, briefly, the thought in your mind that wow, he’s attractive but it’s not like you’d ever meet him.

The universe laughs at you constantly, you swear, especially when it seems like Ace starts to flirt with you as he joins you all for a bit on your journey to Erumalu. You feel like you have a never-ending blush on your face and it makes Ace laugh when you shove his arm after he says something to you about how shy you seem.

“You’re so cute! I can’t believe you’re on my brother’s crew!”

“Stoooop, you’re making me blush even more!”

You do laugh alongside Ace, he’s easy to be around. Comfortable and almost familiar, you’d say. It reminds you of time spent with Elias, though, without the flirty comments. Ace throws an arm around your shoulders, trying to keep his voice down even though your crewmates are all over the place at this point either partying or sleeping nearby, in Zoro’s case.

“So, you got someone special to you or do I have a chance?”

You hum, pretending to think before giving Ace a smile after you take a sip of your fancy drink Sanji made for you girls.

“Sorry, I got my eyes on someone else.”

“A shot to the heart!” Ace throws his head back as you laugh, double checking that Zoro’s still asleep in case Ace asks you for details, “Just don’t say it’s Luffy, I couldn’t handle losing out to my brother.”

“No, no,” Shaking your head, you watch Ace as he seems to perk back up knowing it’s not your captain you’ve got the hots for, “Definitely not Luffy.”

“Is it a secret then? Promise I won’t tell nobody.”

Ace leans on close to you, your face still warm from either the sun or your blushing you aren’t sure, but the few glances you take towards Zoro tell him the answer, making him grin.

“Ooh him huh? Yeah, I can see it.”

“S-See what??”

“You guys, together. Does he not like you back?”

You wish you hadn’t been so obvious, but you shrug a bit, shake your head, then groan and hide your face behind your drink.

“I…don’t know…he’s not really the romance type.”

Nodding a little, Ace keeps his arm around you and pulls away just a bit, he’s probably making you more nervous that you already were by being so close to your face. He hasn’t known you for more than a day at this point, but he’s been able to see you and Zoro seemingly drawn to each other most of the time, or Chopper does it for shade or to be carried by one of you because of the heat.

Maybe your face is warn more from a blush than from the sun after all.

“I bet he’ll come around. You’re cute, he’d be lucky to have you.”

You almost drop your glass at that.

When Ace leaves you all the next morning, you feel sad at the fact he’s going on his own again, but when Luffy says you’ll all see him again, you agree with a smile. Zoro watches you, wondering how you’d gotten so close to Ace in such a short time, but he realizes that’s just you.

Despite your past with your parents, you trust far too easily at times. Granted, Ace is a good guy, but Zoro worried that it’s going to get you, all of you, into trouble one day.

Though, it’s more likely to be because of Luffy than you.

+!+

Alabasta is finally free from Crocodile a few days later, thanks to your crew and Vivi’s work. You’ve all been granted stay at the palace to recuperate, all of you sustaining major injuries though some were starting to heal faster than others. Luffy spent a couple days sleeping but was now up and ready to party as Alabasta celebrated their freedom.

Your worry for Zoro at the time had kept you attached to his side for the most part, latching onto his arm enough that he’d gone from flinching at the contact to quietly removing your hands from him, he doesn’t want you that attached to him, you get it, kind of.

It still hurts when he does it, Sanji sees it on your face more than anyone else. Zoro had protected you at points during the attacks going on, until you all separated to battle different members of Baroque Works, you ending up trying to stop several of the fights between Alabastan army members and the rebel forces, a few of them not taking that kindly and turning their weapons towards you. Most of your wounds were stabbings or slashes, a deep one on your abdomen that Chopper fixed up no problem.

After you’ve all healed enough to join in the celebrations, that’s just what you do, even with the Navy around. Sanji drags you along to dance with him, trying to keep you distracted from Zoro, though you gravitate towards him anyway. It’s like in Cocoyashi, you just lean against the wall Zoro’s placed himself at, giving a smile while you talk to him, brushing your arm against his whether by accident or on purpose. You’ve brought him another drink too, it makes Sanji scrunch his face in annoyance, only because it seems like Zoro just doesn’t care, like he’s that oblivious to your crush on him.

And maybe he is, the blond isn’t sure, even when you look a bit dejected and return to his side for a just moment, to tell him you’re going back to the palace to up to rest for a bit. You’ve gotten tired from the party and need a few minutes. Sanji promises to come get you after a little while, which you thank him for as you leave.

He has a half a mind to tell Zoro to go with you, but by the time he looks back, the swordsman is gone.

+!+

“Why are you up here?”

You hum a but, turning and giving Zoro a smile. Yes it was late, normally you'd be asleep, but Alabasta was still awake, having a party to celebrate the end of the their war and the rain returning to the country. You had chosen to return to the palace, watching your crewmates outside the window. Luffy and Usopp were celebrating in disguises to keep the Navy off your tails, Nami was laughing with Vivi, Chopper and Karoo nearby asleep, and you haven't seen Sanji or even Zoro until now, when your favorite swordsman found you.

“Just…wanted to rest a bit.”

Understanding, Zoro nods a bit, leaning against the wall beside you, arms crossed over his chest while he watches you.

You know that he heard you talking to Ace when he was with you all, telling him you've developed feelings for your legal husband. Honestly he's had his suspicions for a while, mainly after you all left Drum Island and you acted so odd at times, but he never wanted to confront you about it before.

It was harmless, a crush didn't mean you really believed the two of you would be a couple or anything. Despite your actually being married, since it wasn't meant to last forever, he figured he'd leave you be and maybe your feelings would fade over time. You spent a lot of time with Sanji, Zoro fully expects at one point for you to bring the annulment papers to him, saying you liked the blond or that your parents finally responded to you.

Neither of those have happened, and seeing your constant smiles and little blushes at him, Zoro feels the need to say something about it.

"Listen."

Zoro sounds so serious you can't help but sit up straighter, keeping your gaze on the still partying city outside the palace, but you nod to let him know you're listening.

"Whatever…this is between us," he's staring right at you, but you don't dare to look at him, knowing what he's going to say, "it's not going any further than our being crewmates. Whatever feelings you may have, I'm not returning them any time soon. We need to focus on our goals and helping Luffy, not romance. Got it?"

Despite the ache in your chest at that, you nod, the softest agreement coming out of your mouth in return. You knew this was coming, from the way Zoro started to distance from you after your time on Drum Island and the recent events in Alabasta, you could tell something was up and you guess this was it. Zoro was trying to put a stop to your feelings for him, he couldn't be caught playing romance with you right now, maybe never.

Of course, even with your half-hearted agreement, you know feelings can't be squashed so easily. You don't want to stop them, but Zoro wants you to so you can focus on your goals. You weren't going to become a world renowned swordswoman if you were busy focusing on a relationship with someone. Zoro would never become the greatest swordsman in the world if he was focused on you.

When he finally leaves you alone, you can't help yourself and the quietest tears start. You knew this was going to happen, Zoro doesn't like you back, he’s only still married to you because you haven't heard a thing from your parents, but damn it still hurts to basically get a rejection like this.

It feels worse when Sanji comes into the room a few minutes later, having kept his promise on bringing you back down to the party with him, and he knows you've been crying without having to see your face. He wants to go after and curse out Zoro for making you cry, whatever the reason, but chooses to quietly pull you into a hug instead, telling you that you don't have to say anything, but he's here for you.

Honestly, having Sanji around, someone who was willing to listen to you and just let you cry over something that felt stupid at the time, you felt like things would be okay after some time.

Even when he says he'll kill Zoro for making you cry once you tell him why.

[amethystfairy1]

(I keep sending asks so I dont remember if I've told you this alr or not if so feel free to just delete one of them lol)

Anyway just got back from a really long trip overseas and during that trip I downloaded a buncha chapters of your works to read in various Ubers, and because of the fact that my family has 5 people and most ubers only carry 4, my (ten-year-old) sister ended up on my lap in most cases. So she ended up reading a LOT of TTSBC and a biiit of TT. She wanted me to let you know her commentary on the things she read so here's that (chapters in the order she read them):

TTSBC:

Little birdie - "I think that that one was the most boring out of the ones I read, which is impressive cause it was really interesting. So I was like; 'its good... OMG WHAT IS HAPPENING' in a good way for the rest of the book.

Snickerdoodle - "I likey. Its one of those things that when you read it you feel like you wanna start doing push-ups but you cant read and do push-ups at the same time. It was also really cute." (take that as you will, no clue what it means lol)

Freezer-burned Fever - "That's a chapter?! It was so short... wouldn't putting ice on your back hurt your spine? Also arent their feathers really sensitive, why would he be okay with them being wet."

Hopeful Hero - "Makes me think of that one Christmas song, 'grandma got run over by a reindeer'. I loved the part where he couldn't do anything and Grian flew away and came back as an avian (still, he was already an avian but like now he was cool) and then everyone was like 'Avians arent that bad... or are they?' I liked that he let Grian push him because it showed that they were getting more comfortable with each other, it was cute, like Snickerdoodle. [holds up french fry Christmas squishmellow] also look, its like the chips they ate!"

TT

- I see the danger, it's written there in your eyes: "Scar is very cool. Mumbo... he's there. Grian is Tom Stoltman cause he's flying all night. The storekeeper... let me think of a way to say this nicely... GET OUT!!!!! [all caps, five exclamation marks]. It made my heart sad and my tummy hurt, and then the happy part hurt more because Grian was sad."

"Also... she's in college? [yes] What's she in college for? [I don't know] How'd she find time for writing a book? Isn't college for ten years? Did she write in her free time? I thought there's no free time in college? Did she do it in class? She clearly put thought into it." Message from her:

Hello! What are you doing college for? Where did you go to school for to get writing this good? I like your books. Please write 50,000 more words about Grian and Scar. Actually, add three more zeros to that. Okay. Thank you!

Awhhh???

That's so cute????

I DO get your asks I'm just so behind in my askbox I'm sorry! 😭 I love all your asks, I swear I LOVE the super long asks, I just always take long to answer them because I wanna answer them properly and take my time and I always end up taking too longggggg...

I'm so glad both you and your little sister are enjoying my stories! Thank you so much! I loved all your little comment!

Ah, to answer those questions, I'm not going to school for writing! 😆 I just write for fun and I guess I've done it so much that I managed to get pretty good at it! I'm actually a masters student, so I already have my undergraduate degree! And I'm getting my degrees in history! I'm so glad you like my stories, thank you so much!!! I dunno about 50k more Desert Duo, but I mean, stranger things have happened!

As for when I write, I do it in my free time! Which I don't have a ton of, but I'm pretty quick at typing and writing is my favorite way to relax so I manage to get a lot of it done even when I don't have a ton of time for it! Thanks so much for your nice words!!!

[starfall-spirit]

Read on Ao3 // Chapter I

Summary: After one last screaming match and a good cry, Feyre is finally ready to move on from her lousy ex and rebuild the life he took her away from. She didn't imagine she'd be right back in the thick of it, reviving buried feelings for her best friend's cousin.

OR;

Feyre dumps Tamlin, moves back to big city life, and gets herself an alpha who will treat her right.

AN: The ending of my short fic for @whatishowedyouinthedark

CW: Somnophilia, breeding kink

Chapter II

Hot. Sticky. Aching. Heavy.

And oh so full. 

That made the rest of it bearable—enough so that she could settle again, drifting into a half-there daze. “That’s it,” she heard from somewhere far away. Felt her hips lift to rest on something soft. Another stretch, the catch of a knot. She couldn’t mask her whimper—tried to push back to meet the feeling.

A calloused hand pressed into the small of her back. “Shh. Lay still, darling. Let me take care of you. Get this fever down.”

A fever.

Feyre’s heat had been relentless. Between the constant hot flashes and pains with only one cure and the utter destruction of her sleep cycle, they’d both hoped the intensity would fade through the remainder of her heat, but she knew after coming into her designation nearly five years ago that it was wishful thinking.

The one mercy through it all was that her body was physically drained enough for her internal clock to push back a couple of hours, granting them both a bit more rest than they expected. Of course that just meant she woke to find herself sweating out a fever.

And now… now Rhys seemed to be taking care of it. Taking care of her. She really shouldn’t put so much stock in an alpha’s actions again, but it wasn’t exactly easy to dismiss the fact that he was helping her, if only for the week. She doubted longterm was in the books for him and wouldn’t open herself to get hurt by assuming as much. It was too risky.

His hand glided up her spine to clamp down on the back of her neck at the same moment he gave a sharp thrust into her. Whining, she gripped the pillow beneath her. “Stop thinking so hard, pet. All you need to do right now is take.”

“I can’t,” she whispered.

“You can and you will. You don’t need to think, you don’t need to act, and you don’t get to resist this.” He leaned down close by her ear, his long fingers tangling in her roots so he could angle her head slightly. “You want to be good for your alpha? To please me?” She nodded. “Words,” he scolded.

“Yes, alpha. I want to please you.”

He chuckled. “So eager, pet. If you want to please me, you’ll stop overthinking this. I intend to keep you, Feyre. To mate you, mark you so no one dares to think you’re searching for an alpha again. You are mine,” he snarled. “That’s the only fact I want floating in your pretty little head right now. Understand?”

His tongue dragged up the length of her neck before his mouth returned to its center, teeth pinching down on the tender flesh just tight enough to leave an impression. Feyre clenching the sheets tighter, part of her itching to feel him clamp down and break skin. She wanted his bite desperately, she realized. The little crush she had suppressed in the years he was away had rapidly bloomed to something greater after their reunion and with her hormones skyrocketing—

There was a sharp nip at her ear and she jerked in surprise. “I asked you a question, Feyre.”

“Yes. I understand.” He pinched her thigh. “Alpha.”

“Good girl.” 

The lazy roll of his hips began to pick up again, the drag of his knot in and out of her near torturous. Still, she knew better than to try to push back into the feeling now. “Look at my sweet girl,” Rhys crooned, his free hand falling to stroke her clit. Feyre’s eyes fluttered shut as the new attention brought her that much closer to the edge. “So pretty when you’re cockdrunk, Feyre. I’m gonna have to keep you filled up, aren’t I? Keep this hot little cunt nice and full with my cum.”

“Yes. Please, Rhys.”

“I’d have to start working from home,” he continued. “Keep you right here in this nest until I know you’re good and bred.” She could only manage a choked sound, hips jerking back on instinct. “Oh yes, I think that’s just what we’ll do, pet.”

“Rhys—” But she didn’t need to finish the thought, as he seemed to read her mind, latching down where her neck met her shoulder at the same time his knot swelled inside of her once again. She wailed in frustration as she came. Though she had found the release she was desperate for, though she was happy he had marked her, the position he had put her in was infuriating, depriving her of the privilege of marking him in return until he was able to pull out. 

Sensing her unease even as she quieted, Rhys purred, leaving just enough weight on her for the pressure to soothe. “Want to mark you too.”

“I know, darling. Soon.” Several minutes later, he drew back, pressing a kiss to the back of her neck. “Let me run the shower for you,” he murmured. “Then I’ll make breakfast.”

“Rhys.”

“I’ve known I’ve wanted you for years, Feyre. Rejected any other match my father threw at me because I knew you were the only one I’d ever come to feel something for. You just broke up with your ex. If the marking isn’t mutual then my bite will fade in a few days. Don’t rush a decision so permanent if you aren’t ready to make that call.” 

She frowned, but nodded, remaining silent when he left the room to start the adjoining shower. She wasn’t quite sure how to take any of this, if she was being honest. The man had gone from claiming he wanted her marked for others to see and knocked up with his baby to now saying he had no interest in rushing things. Maybe she wasn’t ready for everything he’d suggested moments ago, but she was still confident in where this would be starting. She knew what she wanted, didn’t she?

“It’s ready,” Rhys called over the sound of the shower and vent. “You can test it yourself, of course. I’m going to start breakfast.”

She grimaced. “If you wait, I can help you fix something.”

“That’s alright, darling. I’ve got it under control.”

A new idea sparked and she reached out to guide him by the hand, taking a step backwards towards the standing shower. “What if I need your help here first?”

He gave a strained chuckle, seeming almost surprised by the invitation. “In that case.” He followed her under the spray, reaching for the bottle of shampoo shelved on the wall and starting a lather he could work into her tangled hair. His fingers teased her scalp with each pass and she shivered under his touch. “Feel good?” he asked, guiding her head back before rinsing it to apply the conditioner.

“I’ve always enjoyed people playing with my hair. There wasn’t much in the way of intimacy in my childhood. At least my sisters and I had that much in the mornings. For a while. We got older and… drifted.”

Rhys hummed softly, but didn’t pick at the old wound she’d revealed, moving on to clean her body. Every motion was damn near perfunctory, scrubbing her clean of sweat, semen, and God knew what else. And yet the steady motions of his hands, the tenderness of every stroke that was so at odds with this morning’s claiming—it was its own sort of intimacy, sacred in its own right.

“Can I…”

Giving her a soft smile, Rhys ducked his head enough she could return the favor, first tending to his hair, then the hard planes that made up his god-like form. He seemed to wind a little tighter with every touch. Still, he remained a perfect gentleman. That was until she slid to her knees, her hand closing over his hardening length. “Feyre, what are you doing?”

“What does it look like I’m doing, Rhys?” Dipping her head, she flicked her tongue along his slit, tristing his broader form would continue to block the water from hitting her. “You told me last night I’d get a taste of you too and you’ve yet to deliver on that. My pleasure doesn’t always have to come first, you know.”

“Darling,” he groaned.

But she already had her mouth around him, hollowing her cheeks and taking the first few inches, slowly working the rest with her hand. A jagged breath rushed out of him when she shifted forward, taking him deeper. One hand was braced on the wall, the other half-open and hovering just over her head as if he was determined not to touch her yet. Another inch and he cracked, jaw clenched tight, one hand stroking through her wet hair before twisting into the dark strands and sweeping his thumb across the back of her head in a soothing stroke. “Good girl,” he crooned. He always seemed to know just what she was waiting for. “So precious, trying to take care of your alpha.” 

This time he was the one to push closer, easing in until he nudged the back of her throat. Tears stung her eyes even with the gentle shift, but she managed to suppress her gag, taking a greedy breath when he drew back a moment later, raw pleasure scrawled across his handsome face. 

Something like pride fluttered to life inside of her at the sight of it, and she was eager to be the cause of it again. “God,” he hissed. “I knew this sweet little mouth was going to be the death of me.” Rolling his neck, he seemed to master himself enough to take control of the situation with a little more clarity. Rocking his hips, he stroked his thumb across her jaw on one side, accentuating the ache there. Though he smiled down at her, there was an edge to it that brought her focus back. “It was wrong of me to tease you so long, wasn’t it, darling? You told me from the beginning what you really needed. Now look at you.” Another sweep of his thumb and she shivered, feeling the smear of her own drool across her cheek. “Daddy’s cock made it all better, didn’t it?”

A violent shudder racked her body and he chuckled, but didn’t make any remark on it. Enough had been said through action and reaction alone. “Hands on your thighs, little one.” Cupping her face, he increased his pace, growling out a sharp curse when her lips slid back from her teeth, tapping her cheek in reprimand even as she watched the edge of pain light something in him. Still, the sharp thrust to follow caught her off guard, hands flying up. “No. You’re fine, pet. Breath through it.”

Though it took her a moment, she was able to master herself. Though she was disappointed by the lack of verbal praise, the look in his eyes as he brushed her tears away was enough—especially when that silver tongue of his finally seemed to be tied.

Keeping one hand locked in her hair, the other fell to wrap around the base of his cock. “I’m getting close, pet.” Feyre swallowed around him and he cursed, low and nasty. It pleased her all the more. “Cheeky thing. You gonna swallow Daddy’s cum, darling?” She whimpered around him. "I thought so. My perfect little omega. Always eager so please, aren’t you?”

Retreating just an inch, Rhys spilled onto her tongue, watching as she took every drop of it before pulling back until he slipped from her lips. “Perfect,” he repeated, voice barely audible over the pounding of the water above them. Reaching out, he wiped his thumb across the excess at the corners of her mouth, easing the digit between her parted lips in a silent demand and giving a low growl when her tongue swirled over the pad of it. 

“Good girl.” With that he hauled her back to her feet, clearly aiming to kiss her. But Feyre had already ducked her head, teeth latching onto his pectoral and clamping hard enough to break skin. He barked in surprise, but she barely heard it, lost in the taste of him—the feeling of that bond blooming. 

Alpha and omega, it seemed to sing. Two halves of a perfect whole. Man and woman, partner and friend. Mate, mate, mate, mate, mate.

There was a tangle of thought and emotion, far too chaotic to be solely hers, no matter how lost she was to the flourishing bridge binding their souls. “Feyre,” he groaned. “My mate.” She pulled back, panting against his neck. “Darling, you realize—”

“I want this," she told him, pulling his head down until their lips nearly brushed. “I know I said I didn’t want an alpha for a while, but I’ve always wanted you. When you left for New York...” 

His lips twitched upwards. “You were barely out of high school, just exploring your designation.”

“I knew what I wanted. But you left and I met Tamlin. I let myself be charmed by the first alpha I acquainted myself with, moved across the country. I convinced myself I didn’t regret it. That I had something good enough. But good enough isn’t enough anymore. So I’m here. And I’m taking what I want. For good.”

He tilted her chin slightly, granting her a soft, lingering kiss that sent their bond singing once again. “Breakfast, Feyre. Then we’ll discuss what you’ve staked your claim on.”

Biting her lip, she reached past him to shut off the water. “Better you show me, I think.”

~~~~~

“I’m right here, you know?” Feyre blinked, sliding her eyes back to Mor who sat beside her at the kitchen nook just off the main room where Rhys stood over the stove making them all dinner. Her friend scoffed, though it almost seemed good-natured. “I’m thrilled for you guys, don’t get me wrong. But could you maybe not eye fuck my cousin while I’m trying to have a conversation with you?”

She blushed, ignoring the soft chuckle she heard from the kitchen. Feyre’s heat had broken nearly a week ago, yet she and Rhys were still finding themselves nearly insatiable. Hell, just this morning he’d had her spread out on the very table she sat at. “Sorry,” she mumbled.

“I’m mostly teasing. I’m so happy you came home and got your head on straight about—”

“We aren’t discussing him, Mor. It’s done, I’m mated, and that’s the end of it.”

Her friend nodded, sipping from her wine glass. “Good. So, tell me about the studio you found.”

“It was so much easier to reconnect than I thought it would be. I thought I’d be starting from the ground up, but even with the new space I’m hearing from old patrons.” She sighed. “Things are looking up, even with…”

“What?”

She bit her lip, fingering the stem of her glass. “My sister called. She caught wind of my starting up my studio here somehow. She wants to meet for breakfast. It wouldn’t hurt, would it? Trying to mend bridges.”

“No, Feyre. I don’t think that would hurt a thing.”

~~~~~

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[itsjuststardust]

Heaven in Hiding - Chapter 17: The End of the Road

Heaven in Hiding Masterlist

Chapter Summary: The end of the road - The point beyond which progress or survival cannot continue.

Word Count: 13,761

Author's Note/Chapter Warnings: Y'all are seriously making me geek out with excitement over your love for this story. This chapter was not originally planned; it kind of came to me like a fever dream, and it reads a bit like one, which is all the warnings you get 😈 🎵Chapter soundtrack:🎵 ‘Runaway’ - Yeah Yeah Yeahs; ‘Glitch’ - Taylor Swift; ‘Cassandra’ - Florence + The Machine

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Chapter 17: The End of the Road

He held her head in his hands as he studied her eyes. Maker, those emerald green doe-eyes could get him to do almost anything. Alaina had been through so much that he didn’t think she could shatter at this point.

“You’re beskar,” he said, pressing his forehead gently into hers.

She blinked, staring back at him, but she was obviously less than impressed with his description of her. The roll of her eyes she gave him before she said, “Cold? Hard?” only confirmed his suspicion.

He sighed and shook his head. He was shit with words, but he needed her to understand how he saw her. 

“In its purest form, beskar is one of the strongest metals in the galaxy,” he tried again. “It’s only when you start trying to dilute it by adding other, weaker metals that it loses its integrity. That pile of osik,” he spat, not wanting to even dignify the pile of bantha dung by using his name, “didn’t realize what he had. He took you, thought he could forge you into something new by adding things to make you stronger, but couldn’t see that it was just making you weaker,” he finished quietly, moving to stand proudly over her.

Mando watched as emotion after emotion ran through her eyes. He looked down and smiled at the womp rat who decided he needed to butt his way into their conversation and bent over to pick him up so he could pass him to Alaina, knowing that the kid had a way of comforting her. He was reasonably sure his heart melted when they smiled at each other.

“I wouldn’t use you. Not like that,” Mando rasped. The fact that she even thought he would use her felt like a dagger to his heart. They’d become so close these last few weeks that he almost couldn’t remember what it was like not to have Alaina and the kid with him. “That’s not how you treat your partner,” he finished quietly, stepping closer to her.

Her face crumbled at his words, and his body itched to comfort her, only the kid beat him to it. Grogu touched her right cheek with his clawed, three-fingered hand as if to agree with Mando, and Alaina sobbed. Mando’s left hand came to rest over Grogu’s on her right cheek. “I’m not using you, Alaina,” he murmured, resting his other hand over her heart. A simple action she’d done to him so many times. Her touch always grounded him.

Alaina opened her eyes to look up at him as tears continued streaming down her cheeks. His chest itched and tugged him to be closer, but he stayed put, silently pleading for her to understand what he was trying to tell her. After another moment, Alaina placed the hand not holding Grogu over his heart, and he thought his heart would burst right out of his chest.

Once the three of them were connected, his mind supplied the word he had been trying to come up with—Forged—Only, even that word didn’t seem to describe what it felt like he was doing. He wasn’t making her into something new, he thought, staring into Alaina’s eyes. What he was doing was more delicate than that.

“Alaina, I’m not using you,” he repeated more confidently. “I’m restoring you, and when I’m done, you’re going to be even stronger than you were before.”

Alaina’s hand rested over his, sandwiching his larger hand and Grogu’s tiny hands between her hand and her cheek. Whatever he said must have been right because Alaina closed her eyes and nuzzled her cheek into their hands.

The three of them stood in the hold, and for a brief flitting moment, Mando swore he could feel his companions. But the moment was fleeting and gone, and he decided he was tired. Mando was just about to suggest that they all turn in for the night and get some sleep, but when he opened his mouth to speak, Alaina’s eyes opened to look directly at him, and time appeared to stop around them.

Black.

Gone were the emerald green orbs he often found himself getting lost in, and in their place was an ominous black. The blackness appeared to be moving and growing, bleeding into the whites of her eyes at an alarming rate.

Mando tried to speak or shout, but all of the air in his lungs escaped him, and his hand felt as if it were glued in place to Alaina’s cheek. When he tried to inhale, his chest refused to cooperate, and in a panic, he took the hand on Alaina’s chest to pat his chest, checking for the wound or gash he was sure was there. When his hand couldn’t find an obvious wound, he looked at his companions and found Alaina’s eyes closed again. She was also struggling to breathe, but Grogu was the picture of contentment.

“What are you doing?” he finally was able to choke out but immediately regretted the loss of what little oxygen he had.

Alaina’s eyes snapped open, and his chest clenched when he saw that even the whites of her eyes were now all black.

“Alaina—” His voice came out more of a wheeze than a shout when he tried to snap her out of it.

Lightning flashed, and he closed his eyes in relief as oxygen again filled his lungs, making them burn.

Alaina and Grogu remained frozen in front of him. Grogu’s eyes were closed, reminding Mando of how he looked when he practiced meditation in the afternoons with Alaina, but Alaina… Alaina’s head dropped unnaturally to the side at a painful angle, and in combination with her blacked-out, unseeing eyes, it was a disturbing picture.

In slow motion, he watched Alaina tap the center of her chest before reaching across the space between them to gently tap the center of his chest with that same finger.

The action itself was delicate. He barely felt her finger graze his chest. It was so light it almost tickled. However, what came after was anything but that. His chest exploded, feeling as if her finger split him in two only to have her reach inside, grab onto the cord that had lived inside for months, and pull it right out of his chest.

The last thing he remembered was the sound of their bodies as they fell to the floor before everything went black.

.

.

.

Mando startled awake in a panic, gasping for air and frantically clawing at his chest, convinced that there was some gaping chasm there, which was why he could not breathe. It took several slow, agonizing seconds for him to realize that his gloves were slipping and sliding over his armor, that his chest piece was, in fact, not suffocating him or damaged, and that he could breathe normally.

He froze and blinked as his brain struggled to catch up, and his hands patted his chest to confirm that he was somehow dressed in his armor. He hadn’t been wearing his armor earlier. Hell, he wasn’t even wearing a shirt… Mando lifted his gloved hands to his helmet and sat up the rest of the way to see that he had somehow been redressed in his full armor and flight suit.

“What the—”

“Patu!”

Mando jumped when he felt the kid beat his tiny hand against his side, trying to get his attention. When his helmet settled on the womp rat’s irritated face, he felt relieved that he wasn’t alone.

“Hey, kid,” he exhaled in relief, reaching down to grab the toddler to inspect that he wasn’t injured. Even the kid was dressed differently. He wore a tiny grey robe with a hood instead of his regular burlap sack. “I don’t suppose you have any idea about what is going on?” Grogu answered with a string of irritated spitting noises, and Mando nodded along with him. “I’m glad we’re on the same page,” he grumbled sarcastically.

He held the kid tightly to his chest, almost afraid that if he let him go, he would disappear, leaving Mando alone… wherever they were.

Mando struggled to his feet so he could try to make sense of what had happened to them. He looked around at his immediate surroundings, frowning at the decayed, crumbling stone. 

They were in a vast room that he imagined was quite an impressive sight at one time, but now… Now, the stone floors had cracks and crevices of various sizes running across the floor. Huge, arching windows lined the sides of the room, with broken glass looking out over a dreary grey sky. The stone steps behind him were in the front… or maybe the back of the room and were centered in the middle of the long hall with cracked, chipped steps in shambles. There were still a handful of floor-to-ceiling columns left standing, but those left had huge chunks missing out of them, while others lay on the floor in huge, broken pieces.

His mind raced with questions: where, how, what was next? It was evident they were no longer on their moon, but Mando couldn’t see far enough outside through the grey fog to determine exactly where they were. Also, if the kid was here, it would be reasonable to assume that Alaina was here somewhere as well. He only hoped he found her before this room, hall, or whatever you wanted to call it caved in.

Grogu squirmed and tried to get out of his arms, but Mando held firm, not entirely confident that the room wasn’t about to come crumbling down around him. The kid grunted and banged his hand against Mando’s helmet. “Bah!” he yelled, waving his hand behind them.

Mando turned to see what had gotten the kid all riled up and—

His mouth gaped. 

There, at the top of the imposing, crumbling staircase—was Alaina. She was seated in a monstrous stone—throne was the only word that came to mind. Dressed in a striking red dress, her posture was stiff and rigid as she sat upright, gripping the edges of the cracked armrest, staring unseeingly at the deep hall before her.

“Alaina?” he murmured as he ascended the stone staircase slowly, one step at a time.

Alaina didn’t respond or acknowledge him at all. He continued to climb the stairs, treading lightly so his heavy boot steps didn’t echo so loudly in the empty space. He clutched Grogu tightly to his side, and the kid half-buried his head into his chest but kept one eye focused on the climb.

“Alaina?” he spoke again as they reached the last few stairs, but the blonde remained frozen in her spot in the stone chair.

Mando stopped at the third stair from the top to reevaluate the situation.

His view at the top of the stairs only amplified the deterioration of the room below them. It almost looked as if a battle had occurred here, and the hall had been left to waste, only to be forgotten over time. Looking over the room left his chest with a sense of emptiness and dread. Because wherever they were now… Whatever had happened here before… he doubted anyone survived.

“The foundation survived,” Alaina said, making him swivel back to look at her in surprise. Her words were flat and monotone, and she still had a vacant stare, but finally, she said something. Mando would take it as progress.

He cocked his head at her words. “It maybe survived, but not without significant damage,” he replied, pointing to a fissure that ran up the staircase.

“Damaged,” she murmured, and now that he was close enough, Mando could see that her eyes were still engulfed in black. “Damaged, but still standing.”

Mando took the last few steps to join Alaina on the top platform. She still didn’t move or acknowledge his existence. Her black eyes stood out starkly, making her already pale face appear sallow. Her hair was half up in a strangely intricate braid that wrapped around her head, almost like a crown, while the bottom half of her curly hair struck the chair seat. However, up close, what really drew his attention was her dress. It was a stunning, blood-red color that appeared to flow around her. The bust was tight and accentuated her delicate curves. The neckline was a deep ‘V’ lined with delicate flower embroidery. The middle section of the dress was cut out in a diamond shape, exposing most of her midriff, and lined with the same floral pattern. The rest of the dress just flowed until it covered her feet. 

If they made it past… whatever this was… he was going to have to find a tailor to recreate this dress for her exactly down to the exact shade of red—

“Vermilion,” she supplied flatly like she could read his mind.

His heart pounded against his armor at her description of the color. “What about Vermilion?” he whispered, stepping to come toe to toe with her. Mando caved to Alaina’s earlier request to drop his question about Vermilion, but if he could glean any information about it, even from Alaina when she wasn’t… Alaina... he would do what he needed to do to find what was supposed to save her.

Suddenly, the room seemed to glitch around them. The image of the decaying throne room flickered around the three of them, cut in with images of different places: a village street bathed in the sun, a street that he recognized as one near the cantina on Nevarro, and a darkened tunnel with flickering lights. One by one, the images flashed around them in jarring quick cuts.

“Ahhhh!” Alaina screamed and slumped forward in the stone chair, clutching her head. Her scream made the flickering stop and returned them to the room he had woken up in.

Mando dropped to his knees to grab Alaina by her shoulders to help hold her up. Alaina's eyes snapped open when his hands gripped her shoulders, and he pressed his forehead into hers at the return of the familiar emerald orbs. “Alaina?” he whispered.

“I’m sorry,” she cried, slamming her eyes closed and painfully clenching her teeth in pain. “I can’t hold them back. I can’t—” 

Alaina gasped and cried out again as the room began to flicker again. With a final scream, the flickering slowed, and when it came to a stop, her body slumped out of the throne and into his arms.

“Alaina!” he yelled, shaking her to get her to wake up. Alaina moaned in his arms and looked pleadingly to Grogu, but the kid just stared at his friend, clutching one of the flowing panels in his grip.

Sounds filtered through his helmet, and Mando looked around, confused to find that the destroyed stone hall they had just been in was gone, and they were now kneeling in the dirt. His helmet swiveled as he analyzed the new environment. They were in an alley lined by worn buildings, bins, and crates. People walked past them in the main thoroughfare, talking and laughing as they walked by without a glance.

He knew this place. This was Nevarro City.

“No,” Alaina mumbled in his arms. “No. Not here.”

“Shhh,” he tried to soothe her, stroking her hair with his glove. “Don’t try and move, you’re hurt.”

Alaina continued to struggle until he let her go. She looked around the alleyway, panting like she’d run a lap around the lake. The only telling signs she was still in pain was the way the corner of her eyes and her forehead creased slightly, but at least her eyes were green, and she seemed more aware. 

“Not here,” she mumbled as she struggled to stand up.

Mando gripped her arms and helped her up, keeping her from falling when her feet got hung up in her long dress. “Alaina, what is happening?” he asked, keeping her elbows clutched in his hands.

Alaina continued to look out at the main drag with wide, panicked eyes, shaking her head. “Not here,” she panted. “Not here, please not here,” she begged.

Mando looked down at Grogu, who looked just as confused as he did. “Alaina, what is—” he started to ask but abruptly stopped when he heard a familiar voice.

“What spurred the change of scenery? Is this some kind of test?”

He looked at Alaina in her red dress because that was most definitely her voice, but it wasn’t her speaking.

“No tests, I promise. I just thought you’d enjoy the fresh air,” another male voice answered.

Mando watched in shock as Alaina and Penn fucking Pershing strolled into the mouth of the alley the three of them were currently standing in. His gaze turned to look to his Alaina in her red dress, who was silently crying and shaking her head at the sight of her other self and former friend.

The other Alaina abruptly stopped in the middle of the alley’s opening, forcing Penn to stop with her. The other version of Alaina was dressed in black tights, black flats with holes on the side, and the same green sweater she had worn when he tracked her down five years ago.

“I’d enjoy not feeling like a prisoner,” the other Alaina growled, lifting her wrists to reveal a set of cuffs linking them together when the sleeves of her sweater slipped down.

“Lainey,” Penn sighed, “you know I can’t remove those.”

His Alaina growled, and Mando watched as her eyes began to darken. “I said not HERE!” she screamed, slamming her palm against the building wall she was leaning against. The instant her hand struck the building, they returned to the decaying throne room.

Mando blinked, disoriented by the sudden change. He looked around the room to find it exactly how they left it, and Alaina’s eyes returned to black bottomless pits.

“Alaina, what is happening? What are you doing?”

“Returning to the foundation,” she answered flatly, staring off into nothing.

Mando sighed and shook his head. “I hate to break it to you, but this place is one gust of wind from toppling down on top of us,” he told her, moving his helmet to be in her direct line of sight, but her black eyes appeared to see straight through him.

Grogu squawked and pointed up at the ceiling, and when Mando looked up to see what the kid was looking at, he was stunned to see snow beginning to fall from a cloudless ceiling.

“Alaina!” he snapped. “Whatever you are doing, cut it out!”

“The foundation was built to withstand loss of limb and life. It will hold,” she said cryptically, looking up at the snowflakes descending around them.

“What are you talking about?” he demanded quietly.

An eerie smile slid across her face, and Alaina’s head dropped to fixate on him with her black eyes. “Don’t trust the moon; she’s always changing,” she whispered.

“Alaina—”

“This is simply a room,” Alaina continued, staring him down with her black eyes. “Simply a room that you’ve been allowed to enter because you are all connected now,” she said, bringing her hand up to rest against the side of his helmet.

“I don’t understand,” he whispered.

“You’re not meant to understand the innermost thoughts of another,” she answered.

He frowned, “Innermost thoughts? Are you trying to tell me that we’re inside your mind? Alaina, look at this place,” he growled, pulling her hand off his helmet to force her to look at the crumbling stone around them. “This place is falling apart!”

“Damaged,” she answered hollowly. “Damaged but still standing because the foundation was made strong enough to withstand loss of limb and life,” she repeated.

“Stop saying that!” he yelled, turning on her.

Her black eyes slowly washed away like the tide until, eventually, her green eyes returned. The moment her emerald irises came into focus, her eyes filled with tears. “I’m sorry,” she whispered.

“Alaina,” he exhaled, reaching to cup her head between his gloves. “Alaina, can you hear me?” Her blonde head nodded, and he responded by nodding his helmet back at her. “Good. I’m not mad. But I need you to snap out of this—”

“I can’t,” she cried. “I don’t understand—” she broke off, and her breathing began to pick up.

Mando used his hands, pulled her to rest her head in the center of his chest, and wrapped one arm protectively around her head and the other around her chest. “Shhh,” he murmured, stroking her hair. “It’s okay, we’ll figure this out. Just stay with me,” he pleaded.

“I don’t understand. I don’t know how I could have done this,” she mumbled into his chest. His armor slightly muffled her words, but he could still understand her.

“Well, at least now, when I wonder what could possibly be going on inside your head, I have a little bit of a better idea,” he idly commented, looking around the room. “It’s homey,” he teased.

He smirked when Alaina half laughed, half sobbed into his armored chest and clutched her tighter to him. Grogu grunted and banged his fist against his boot, demanding to join the adults in their intimate moment.

“Come on,” Mando sighed, leaning just enough to scruff the womp rat by his clothes to pull him up so he could hold him in one arm and Alaina in the other. “Better?” he asked the kid, who responded by patting Alaina on the top of her braided head.

“The foundation is constructed by four pillars,” Alaina said. His heart sank at the sound of her hollow, monotone voice. He knew she had once again lost the battle, and her blackened eyes had returned. “The pillars are linked together, bound by the strongest substance in the galaxy. Because of that, this room remains standing,” she murmured.

Mando let go of Alaina, keeping Grogu in his free hand. Alaina’s black eyes stared into space, and the kid stared at him with a massive smile as if he knew the answer to his unasked question. With a sigh, he looked back to Alaina to find her black eyes fixed on his helmet, patiently waiting for him to ask his question.

“What is that strong?”

Alaina’s hand came to rest in the center of his chest, and both she and the kid were looking back at him with black eyes and smiles.

“Love,” she whispered. Mando scrunched his face in confusion at her answer. “Love is the foundation.”

Her black eyes suddenly disappeared, and the room around them began flickering again with the same places: the alleyway on Nevarro they’d already been to, a darkened tunnel with ominous, flickering lights, and a strangely familiar village bathed in golden sunlight.

Alaina’s scream echoed around them, and she clutched her head as she crashed to her knees. The moment her knees hit the ground, the spinning wheel of images stopped, and Mando looked around at the bright lights surrounding them with a frown.

Naturally, they couldn’t have gone to where the sun was shining, but as he looked around the thousands of bright lights around them, he didn’t recognize this place as Nevarro or the dark tunnel, but he did know this place.

Once again, the trio seemed to find themselves in another alley. Grogu squealed excitedly in his arms and pointed to the alley's opening, but all Mando could see were hundreds, if not thousands, of different BARCs and speeders flying in through the open lanes.

“Ugh,” Alaina groaned, holding her head. Mando knelt to examine her, and Alaina gave him a weak smile. “Where are we?”

“You don’t know where we are?”

Alaina shook her head. “I can’t keep you two out of my head. It’s taking all of my power to try and keep our memories separate, but you guys are so loud it’s making it hard. This isn’t my memory.”

“What do you mean you can’t keep us out of your head?” he asked, cupping her face with his free hand.

Alaina frowned, “Can you not feel us too?”

Mando looked between Alaina and Grogu’s confused faces and shook his head.

“Oh,” Alaina started sadly. “I just thought… I could feel it—I could feel us. You didn’t feel us back on the Crest?”

“I couldn’t breathe,” he began, trying to think back to the event that led them all here, but found it difficult to remember it exactly. “My chest hurt.”

Alaina deflated some at his answer. “I thought this… I don’t know—It somehow connected us with that invisible string or cord. I don’t know how else to explain it, but I can feel you both. I can feel you,” she whispered, placing a hand in the middle of his chest.

He stiffened nervously at her words, “So you and the kid can what? Hear my thoughts?”

Alaina rolled her eyes, “No, I can just feel you. You don’t have powers like Grogu, and I do, so maybe that makes it harder for you to feel it. Close your eyes,” she instructed. 

Mando sighed, and she gave him a pointed look. “Fine,” he grumbled.

He closed his eyes as she requested and waited for some kind of sign that felt anything like what Alaina was describing. He took a deep, annoyed breath when he didn’t feel anything different, but as he exhaled, he felt something in his chest itch. Mando’s face scrunched in confusion under his helmet as he tried to explore that feeling more and was surprised to feel warmth. It was faint, but it was there. Two different golden strands of warmth pulled him to Grogu and Alaina.

“You feel it, don’t you?” Alaina whispered. When Mando nodded, she continued, “I don’t think it’s as strong for you because you’re not like us, but it’s there.”

He opened his eyes and looked between his two companions. “What does this mean?” he asked quietly.

“I think it means you’re stuck with us,” Alaina teased, giving him a soft smile. “But, I don’t know.” Her face turned somber as she looked up at him with tear-filled emerald eyes. “I don’t know how this happened if I’m doing this, or if he’s doing this. I don’t know how to stop it. I don’t even know where we are or which of your memories this is,” she finished, crossing her arms nervously over her exposed midriff.

“I can answer at least one of those questions,” he said, nodding toward the alley opening where most of the lights were. “We’re on Coruscant.”

“Coruscant?” Alaina frowned. “I’ve never been to Coruscant before.”

He frowned and wracked his brain to try and remember the handful of times he’d come to Coruscant to hunt down a quarry, but he didn’t remember this location.

Grogu squealed excitedly again and pointed to the alley’s opening.

Mando and Alaina turned to see what he was so excited about.

A BARC speeder flew in before either of the adults could say anything. Before the vehicle came to a complete stop, a dark-skinned man in robes leaped out of the speeder and charged at them.

Mando pushed Grogu into Alaina’s arms and shoved them both behind them. He cursed when he patted at his sides and realized he didn’t have a single weapon, but the stranger in robes didn’t appear to pay them any mind when he sprinted by them. 

Another speeder stopped at the opening of the alley, and two Stormtroopers jumped out, firing off several shots at the dark man.

The three watched in silent awe as the man in robes gripped something from his hip, and a beam of light came to life. The robbed man used his laser sword to expertly hit the blaster bolts, sending them back to the troopers who tried to fire at him, killing them instantly.

Alaina’s elbow dug into his side, and she nodded at the man. “I think we found out whose memory this is,” she whispered, looking down at Grogu in her arms before looking back up at the man who had another Grogu tucked away under his robes in the arm that didn’t have the laser sword. “So, we know where and who… that just leaves us with when,” Alaina murmured, looking up at his helmet.

Grogu shrieked and babbled excitedly, pointing to the other version of himself and the man protecting him. Neither appeared to hear or see them. Grogu’s protector only appeared interested in confirming that no more troopers were about to come down the alley before he started searching the wall behind him.

Mando stepped closer to them, but Alaina’s hand shot out to stop him. “Wait, what if we’re supposed to stay hidden? Grogu showed me that Jedis had trained him in the past, and seeing as how no one thinks they exist anymore, I’m willing to bet we’re in the past.”

“And?” he prompted, keeping his helmet on the robbed man holding Grogu as he kept searching the wall for an opening.

“Haven’t you ever watched a holo-drama or read a book?” she asked, squeezing his arm painfully. “We’re in the past. What if we do something that affects the future? Like, we meet these people, which sets off a chain of events, and the future as we know it no longer exists? Or, maybe the galaxy implodes if our Grogu meets his past self?”

Mando cocked his helmet at her, and turned back at the other Grogu and his protector and yelled, “Hey!”

“What are you doing?” Alaina seethed, slapping his arm.

“Look,” he nodded to the others, “they didn’t even flinch. I don’t think we’re actually in the past. You said you were struggling to keep our minds separate. I’m willing to bet that this is one of Grogu’s memories that slipped through the cracks. I think we’re just observers in his memory,” he finished, nodding to Grogu before taking off toward Grogu’s memories.

He heard a dramatic sigh come from Alaina as she followed him. Mando stayed poised, ready to strike, but the other Grogu and the assumed Jedi protecting him never paid them any mind. Once he made it within arms reach, he stuck his hand out and went to tap the man’s shoulder, but his hand slid straight through the man. He turned to give a pointed look at Alaina, which only earned him an eye roll.

“There it is,” the Jedi muttered, kneeling on the corrugated metal flooring to grip the hidden hatch. With one last look behind him, he took the other Grogu and went into the hatch.

The hatch stayed open as if the man were waiting for them, inviting the trio of observers to follow.

Mando followed first, ensuring the coast was clear before he waved up at Alaina to follow. Alaina scrunched her nose and slowly passed him Grogu before she gathered her long dress up to climb down the ladder. Once she was within his reach, Mando grabbed her by the waist and helped her down the rest of the way so she would trip over the long, flowing material on the ladder’s rungs.

Once they were all underground, they followed the Jedi and the younger Grogu down the darkened tunnel. Mando recognized this spot as the darkened tunnel he saw during the alternating locations he saw back in the stone hall. Something small scurried along the tunnel wall, and the Jedi spun at the noise, looking for any sign that he was being followed. The other man’s quick movements made Alaina tense and cling to his waist nervously.

“It’s okay,” he said softly, gently squeezing the arm still wrapped around her waist. “They can’t see us,” Mando reminded her, waving his hand in front of the Jedi.

Their Grogu started cooing excitedly and making grabbing motions at Alaina, so Mando handed the toddler over to her. Now that he knew they couldn’t be seen, Mando relaxed and began walking around the darkened tunnel, looking for clues about why Grogu’s memory would bring them here.

“I know, I can see him,” Alaina told Grogu, and he could see her cringe out of the corner of his eye when the kid latched onto her hair and tugged at it. “Grogu, stop. I’m looking. I’m seeing exactly what you are.”

“It will be okay,” the Jedi said, startling them. “It will be okay,” he repeated, and Mando could detect the uncertainty in the man’s voice and wondered which one of them he was trying to reassure. “Help is on the way. I hope,” he added quietly.

“What happened here?” Mando asked, looking at the kid still yanking Alaina’s hair. “Cut it out and pay attention, Grogu,” he told the kid, using his name to show the kid he was being serious. “What happened here?” he asked again, then followed up with, “Is this your memory?”

Grogu squealed and looked up at him. Usually, that would have been enough of an answer, but Mando’s chest warmed, and he didn’t know how to describe it other than—

“He said—”

“Yes,” Mando whispered, keeping his helmet locked on the kid’s smiling face. “I can feel him,” he told Alaina, keeping his voice at a whisper.

Alaina smiled brightly at him and grabbed his hand in hers to give him an excited squeeze.

Mando gripped her hand back but was prevented from saying anything by the sound of boots echoing off the ladder. His helmet looked back at the way they came and instinctively tugged Alaina and the kid closer to him, even though he was still (mostly) confident the trooper couldn’t see them. One of his eyes tracked the trooper while his other watched the shadowy area of the tunnel with the Jedi, and the other Grogu had melted into the darkness. The Stormtrooper completely ignored him, Alaina, and their Grogu as he stalked past them. The white armored trooper was obviously searching for the other Grogu and the Jedi hiding in the shadows.

“Okay,” Alaina grumbled, and Mando watched as the kid kept hitting her cheek. “What is your problem?”

“He wants you to look,” Mando murmured, trying to visualize further into the tunnel. If this was truly one of the kid’s memories, then Grogu knew what was coming. The only glimmer of relief that came with knowing they were merely guests in this realistic memory was the fact that Grogu was here with them in the now, which meant he survived whatever happened here.

“I know,” Alaina glowered, and he had to try not to laugh at the sight of Grogu smooshing her cheeks while he was trying to get her to look. “I am looking.”

“Freeze!” The trooper ordered, aiming his blaster at the hiding spot where Grogu and the Jedi were hiding.

The Jedi stepped out of the shadows with his hands raised in defeat. “I’m alone,” he lied. “Please, I was just trying to lay low until this blows over. I promise I will never show my face again. I will go into hiding—”

“I have orders,” the trooper cut him off, raising his blaster slightly higher, aiming for the Jedi’s chest.

The Jedi nodded and closed his eyes as he filled his lungs with what Mando assumed was about to be his last breath. “I understand,” he replied calmly. 

Alaina moved toward the trooper as if she meant to help him.

“They can’t see us,” Mando reminded her, cocking his head when he watched Alaina’s hand swipe straight through Grogu’s memory of the trooper.

She scrunched her face in confusion. “Why isn’t he doing anything?” Alaina asked, looking between his helmet, their Grogu, and the apparently meditating Jedi.

The man's eyes opened as if he had heard her speak, and he gave the trooper a calming smile. “But sometimes… sometimes orders are meant to be broken,” he whispered.

Something shot out of the darkness, and Mando held his breath as he grabbed Alaina by the arm and yanked her back into his chest. The three of them held their breath as they watched the small object spin and sail through the air until it struck its target. The weapon pierced the trooper’s helmet in the perfect dead center of his helmet, easily sliding through the protective gear into the trooper’s skull. 

Alaina gasped and jumped when the trooper fell backward, his head falling at her feet, dead.

Mando’s helmet swiveled to look in the dark for the marksmen, but no one came forward. 

“Mando…” Alaina whispered with shaky breath.

With a frown, he returned his helmet to look at the fallen trooper, and his frown deepened when he saw that Alaina was pointing to the deceased trooper. “Alaina?” he questioned when he saw her arm tremble in a way he’d never seen before as she pointed at the weapon.

His eyes fell to the weapon—a dagger… His hand gripped Alaina’s arm as his eyes widened at the two small emerald gems glittering in the low, flickering light.

The dagger that landed the killing blow was a silver dagger with a hilt of a fanned rawl that had emerald eyes.

“I remember a time when you didn’t think it was quite so fun to break orders,” a woman’s voice from the darkness said, and Alaina’s head snapped in the direction of the voice.

“Yes, well, it doesn’t tend to reflect much confidence in the Master when his Padawan can’t follow an order to save her life,” the Jedi said with a smile and turned around.

The marksman emerged from the shadows, dressed in black. The woman was of slight build, wearing an overly large black cloak that, with the hood pulled up to cover their head, hid most of the person’s features from view.

“I wasn’t sure you would come,” the Jedi whispered, hanging his head sadly.

The shadowy figure walked quickly to the Jedi and threw their arms around the man’s neck, allowing the hood to slip to reveal a bright head of blonde curly hair.

“Mama,” Alaina whispered in disbelief before she thrust the kid into his arms. She became a blur of red as she pulled herself from his grasp and ran toward the woman, the red panels of her dress flowing behind her.

“Alaina!” Mando tried whispering to get her to stop, but she didn’t turn around. With a growl, Mando clutched the kid in his arms and chased after her.

The woman, Alaina’s mother, let go of the Jedi, and Mando sucked in his breath. Maker, they could almost be twins. Alaina’s mother’s hair was slightly brighter, and the curls slightly tighter, but their eyes… They shared the same emerald eyes. He watched as those eyes hardened right before her hand shot out to slap the Jedi.

Alaina’s eyes widened in shock at the slap. The sound from the force her mother used to strike the man's cheek echoed around the small tunnel while her mother’s emerald eyes glared daggers at the man.

“I suppose I deserved that,” the Jedi grumbled, rubbing his cheek.

“You deserve more than that, Beq,” she snarled and stomped past him to yank her dagger out of the trooper’s head. Mando raised his eyebrows as he looked between mother and daughter, smirking when Alaina’s mother used her cloak to wipe the blade clean while Alaina looked rather disgusted.

“I see you found a new weapon. The dagger suits you. You always did well with them in training,” the Jedi, Beq, tried to strike up a casual conversation when Alaina's mother remained silent.

“Kinda had to when they kicked me out and took my lightsaber away,” she growled.

“What’s a lightsaber?” Alaina asked, even though her mother couldn’t hear her. 

“If I were to take a guess, it’s what that guy's laser sword is,” he shrugged, and Alaina’s mouth dropped open. “I’m guessing you didn’t know,” Mando commented, moving to stand beside her.

Alaina turned to give him a gaping, irritated look. “Mando, if my mother would have told me that she was a karking Jedi,” she paused after her voice finally reached a decimal pitch that rivaled a tea kettle before she tried to calm herself down. She huffed and looked back at her mother while she tried to wrap her mind around this new information. “No, she didn’t tell me. If she did, I would have introduced myself to people saying, Hi, my name is Alaina Corra, and my mother is a fucking JEDI!”

“Alright, alright,” Mando grumbled. He reached out to place a comforting hand on her shoulder, but Alaina shrugged him off.

Alaina’s mother flipped her dagger up in the air before she said, “I think this is the part where I get to tell you that I —Told—You— So.” Her dagger perfectly fell back into her waiting hand at the end of her sentence.

“Can we do this later?” Beq sighed.

“No,” she snarled, bearing her teeth at the Jedi. "Your Masters sent me undercover, and they didn’t like the information I brought back for them.”

“If I could go back—”

“Well, you can’t. I tried to tell them. I tried to warn them, but they just wanted to keep their heads buried in the sand. And instead, they tried to silence me, and when that didn’t work, they went around and got the Younglings and the other Padawans—my friends—to start calling me a snake,” she growled, coming toe to toe with the older man. “They convinced everyone I was a snake who defected to the Empire and got everyone to turn against me. That was hard, but you know what was worse?” she growled out her question. Judging by how her former Master turned his head in disgrace, Mando knew the other man already knew what she was about to say. “The worst part of the whole thing was that my Master—the one who trained me and I looked up to for years—believed them over me.”

“I’m sorry,” Beq whispered, hanging his head in defeat.

“When I got your message, I debated not coming. You deserved whatever hell you and all of those robed idiots had coming your way. But you trained me better than that. Of course, I wouldn’t let our issues get in the way of saving children. It’s not the kids’ fault that they put their faith into a bunch of old assholes,” she finished her dressing down, squaring her shoulders to stand tall in proud in front of the other Jedi.

Beq gave Alaina’s mother a soft smile, “Well, this old asshole is glad you came.”

Her mother smirked, “Yeah, well, someone told me something once that made me realize that I had to come.” She paused, and her smile relaxed into a softer, warm one identical to Alaina's current smile. “I had a teacher once who picked me because he liked that I kept going, even when I repeatedly failed tasks as a Youngling.” Beq’s smile warmed at her words. “And the first time I messed up as his Padawan, he put a hand on my shoulder, looked me in the eyes, and told me that Corras don’t give up.”

Alaina’s smile vanished, and her face crumpled as the tears came. She sniffled and turned to Mando’s side to hide her tears. He placed a comforting arm over her shoulder, pulling her tightly to his chest.

“Grogu,” Beq called, and both future and past Grogu’s ears perked at their name, “come meet my Padawan.” The younger version shuffled out of his hiding spot and looked between the other adults. Beq bent down to pick him up and looked back at Alaina’s mother with a proud smile. “Grogu, meet Iliana Corra, my Padawan .”

“My friends call me Ana,” she told Grogu, giving him a slight bow.

“And now, Ana—”

“I said friends,” Iliana… Alaina’s mother corrected Beq with a pointed look before breaking into a smile, giving Mando deja vu because he’d seen that smile so many times from Alaina.

The man raised his eyebrows and blinked at his former student, and she just tilted her head as if to challenge him. “And now, my former pain in my ass is going to get us out of here,” Beq told Grogu with a smile.

“Come on,” Ana sighed, nodding toward the shadows she had come from.

Mando stayed back, rubbing his hand over Alaina’s arm. “We don’t have to follow them,” he murmured.

Alaina sniffled and wiped the tears from her cheeks. “What else are we going to do?” she questioned before following her mother into the shadows. “I can’t believe she never told me,” she whispered. “I can’t believe you knew my mother!” Alaina exclaimed, looking at Grogu with wide eyes.

Grogu lowered his ears and sunk into Mando’s arms.

“She’s just surprised, kid,” he told him, patting the top of his wrinkled head. “She’s not mad.”

Alaina huffed, and Mando gently shoved her shoulder. “Fine,” she exhaled. I’m not mad, per se, but we will be discussing this later,” she told the kid with a point.

“Let’s see this dagger,” Beq commented, returning their attention to Grogu’s memory. Alaina’s mother passed him the weapon, and the older man held it reverently, appreciating the silver dagger. “You really went all into the whole snake theme, didn’t you?”

Ana pursed her lips and tried to hide the smile from her former teacher, but the man lifted a questioning eyebrow at her expression. Ana shrugged her shoulders, “I guess you can say I did.”

“You guess?” Beq asked, and Ana shrugged her shoulders again. “You must have a little bit because this is gorgeous. The craftsmanship alone…”

“It better be karking gorgeous,” she said, snatching her dagger back. “It was my engagement present.”

Beq paused, and his mouth dropped open in shock. “You’re engaged?”

“Oh, no,” Ana laughed, waving him off. “I’m married now.”

“Married?” the man gaped.

“A lot has happened in two years,” she defended.

“Apparently…” Beq tapered off. “Maybe I’ll earn your trust back enough for you to tell me about it.”

“Maybe you will,” Iliana whispered, keeping her head focused ahead.

When they reached the end of the hall, Beq stopped to look around. “I had hoped more would have made it,” he said sadly, clutching Grogu tighter.

“More did,” Ana confirmed, squeezing Beq’s shoulder. “You didn’t think I came by myself, did you?”

Beq’s face lit up in hope at her words, “You brought reinforcements? But… who?”

Ana grabbed her weapon by its blade and waved her dagger in front of the older man with a raised eyebrow. Mando was still struck by how similar Alaina’s expressions were to her mother.

The fanned rawl’s emerald eyes glittered, even in the dark tunnel, but Beq still seemed confused. Ana used the hilt of her dagger to tap the door three times before telling her mentor, “I went home.”

The door flew open at that moment, and Alaina squeezed his middle tightly as a small armada of soldiers greeted them with blasters raised. Mando smiled, instantly recognizing the soldiers, and gave Alaina a comforting squeeze, encouraging her to look. “Where’s your mother from?” he prodded, stroking her hair.

“Naboo,” she whispered, confused by the question.

Mando nodded to the soldiers, lowering their blasters. “That’s an entire squadron of Naboo troopers,” he told her.

Alaina’s jaw dropped at the sight of the soldiers parting ways, allowing Iliana and her fellow Jedis to join them.

“Come on,” Ana said, motioning for Beq and Grogu to follow her. “Let’s get out of here.”

Beq beamed down at Grogu with a proud smile as he followed her to safety.

They went to follow them, but the darkness began to close in around them, and no matter how fast they walked, the door Alaina’s mother walked through became farther and farther away from them.

“No,” Alaina cried, reaching out for her mother, only for the room to go black.

When Mando opened his eyes next, he found that the three had returned to the crumbling ruins of the large stone room they had previously occupied. The snow continued to fall while they were in Grogu’s memory, and now, the room was dusted in white, making it look decayed and cold.

“The foundation is constructed by four pillars.” Alaina’s flat, monotone voice had returned, and he hung his head. She turned to look at him with black pools filling her eyes, and he wished he knew what triggered the vacant Alaina so he could prevent her from returning. “The pillars are linked together, bound by the strongest substance in the galaxy. Because of that, this room remains standing,” she murmured.

Grogu cooed and stretched his arm to pat the bottom of his helmet.

“I just want her back, kid,” he murmured, looking down at the green womp rat to avoid looking at the black, lifeless eyes, wishing for bright, emerald orbs.

“You’ll find her at the end of the road,” Alaina answered cryptically.

“Stop saying things like that!” Mando roared. Grogu cried out as his angry voice echoed in the hall around them, but the black-eyed Alaina remained unflinching and unblinking at him. “Just stop. Stop saying things like The end of the road, or, This place was meant to survive the loss of your life! Just stop!” he seethed. Mando sighed when Alaina didn’t respond. “This is your mind, Alaina. You can’t say things like that. Not to me. Not to your fa—Not to the people who care about you,” he corrected at the end. “I’m tired of you giving up. Wake up and fight.”

A sly smile slowly spread across her face, and with a sharp tilt of her head, Mando felt the world pull and spin rapidly. Once it righted itself, Mando had to shake off the disorientation. With a sigh, he found they had, once again, returned to the alleyway on Nevarro.

“I guess it’s my turn,” Alaina grumbled. Her body was slumped against the wall, and exhaustion radiated from her green eyes.

“What happened here?” Mando asked, ignoring the passersby as they walked past the alley they were in, oblivious to the trio from the future.

“What spurred the change of scenery? Is this some kind of test?” the other Alaina’s voice filtered from around the corner, and Mando tilted his helmet at her.

Alaina sighed and closed her eyes to lean her head back against the wall before saying, “You.”

Mando frowned at her answer but stayed a distance away just as Alaina and the mad scientist, her former friend, Penn Pershing, strolled into the mouth of the alley.

“No tests, I promise. I just thought you’d enjoy the fresh air,” Pershing tried to reassure her, but the other Alaina didn’t look quite as convinced.

Once again, the other Alaina abruptly stopped in the middle of the alley’s opening, forcing Penn to stop with her. She was still dressed in the green sweater, black tights, and black flats she’d worn when he first captured her, and Mando realized, sadly, that she likely didn’t have other clothes.

“I’d enjoy not feeling like a prisoner,” the other Alaina growled, lifting her wrists to reveal a set of cuffs linking them together when the sleeves of her sweater slipped down.

“Lainey,” the scientist sighed, “you know I can’t remove those.”

“Why are we here, Penn?” she pushed, refusing to move.

Her friend sighed and looked around as if he were nervous about someone following them. “I wanted to discuss something with you. In private,” he finished, shuffling nervously.

Green sweater-wearing, Alaina looked at her friend blankly, reminding him more of her black-eyed counterpart. “Soooo, instead of staying indoors at the compound, you brought us out in public? Remind me which one of us is the doctor,” she scoffed.

“There are fewer ears out here,” Pershing groused, eyeing the people around them like a scared animal, expecting someone to leap and capture them.

“The cantina is literally right there,” Alaina countered, nodding to the run-down bar across the road from them.

Mando recognized it immediately. The guild ran out of the dingy cantina. He’d been doing business there for years. Well, he had done business there for years. He supposed he wouldn't have a reason to return there now that he had been ousted from the guild.

“Lainey, would you stop being stubborn and just listen to me?” Pershing chided.

Alaina rolled her eyes, “Go on.”

Pershing froze, obviously scared to tell Alaina whatever he had brought her out here to tell her. When Alaina lifted a questioning eyebrow at the doctor, Pershing nervously shouted, “Marry me.” The words tumbled out of the nervous doctor’s mouth so fast that Mando had to double-take to ensure he heard him correctly.

“Excuse me?!” Alaina scoffed before she doubled over, cackling at Pershing’s proposal.

Mando’s helmet slid to his Alaina, in her red dress, watching the scene unfold.

The other Alaina somewhat got herself under control, but little spurts of laughter still broke through her next question. “I’m sorry… Let me get this straight… You became obsessed with me because of my powers, sicked a bounty hunter after me just so you could get me, and now that you have me, you’re using me like a lab rat, and you have the gall to ask me to fucking marry you?!”

“Lainey… Alaina, you can’t be so stubborn that you haven’t realized I haven’t had… feelings for you? Because I think you know that I have for some time,” Pershing countered, trying to catch Alaina’s attention.

The other Alaina looked down, trying to avoid his gaze. “We’ve been best friends for so long—”

“Alaina—”

“No!” Alaina stopped, stomping her feet. “No. Penn, you were my best friend. I was never interested in you romantically before. You can’t be so idiotic to think that after all of this,” she paused to lift her fisted cuffs, “I would even entertain the idea of marrying you.”

Pershing took a step closer, and Alaina looked away from him, but the weasel grabbed her chin and forced her to look at him. “The paperwork is already done,” he whispered. “The rest would just be a formality—”

“What?!” Alaina screeched, making some of the nearby pedestrians take notice of them. “What do you mean the paperwork is already done?”

It was Pershing’s turn to look admonished. “They filed the papers before I arranged the bounty,” he told her, flinching when the petite blonde snarled at him. “They wanted to make it look legitimate—”

Alaina scoffed, “So if we’re technically married, why even bother asking me?”

His Alaina’s face crumpled as she let out a sob, watching her past unfold in front of her, and Mando crossed the distance between them in two steps to come to hold her hand in his free hand that was holding Grogu to his chest.

“Lainey, hear me out, please,” Pershing began, grabbing the other Alaina’s hands. “You know that the initial trials… have not been going… well—” Alaina barked out a defeated laugh, but Pershing continued without missing a beat. “I have some concerns.”

“Concerns?” Alaina asked with a raised eyebrow.

Pershing pursed his lips and looked down at the ground before returning to his alleged friend. “I’ve been studying your brain scans, and I have some concerns,” he started over, giving his most pleading look to the blonde woman who was currently his prisoner. “Alaina… I worry… I’ve done a lot of research into this. Granted, you’re my first living test subject with any connection to the force, but there is data from years passed—”

“Spit it out already,” she growled.

“I worry that… I worry that not only have we not made any progress, but we’ve backtracked with the loss of your abilities. I feel as if we should have made some progress. Lainey, I worry that if we continue, you’ll die,” Pershing replied flatly.

Alaina nodded, scrunching her eyes as she tried to process what he was trying to tell her. “And if you marry me… that will, what? Magically cure me?”

“No,” Pershing said, shaking his head. “But it might free you,” he whispered.

“What?” Alaina whispered, taking a step back, but Pershing kept her hands clutched tightly in his, preventing her from going too far.

“If you agreed to marry me, I think I could get you out of the testing,” he murmured, stepping closer to her. “It wouldn’t be so far out of the realm of possibility to tell the Moff that our current test subject is no longer viable. He already has a lead on another being with a midi-chlorian count higher than yours. I mean, it’s all just rumors at this point, but it’s something. We could focus all of our efforts on tracking down that child—”

“Child?” Alaina gasped, and Mando recognized that look of malcontent as he’d been on the receiving end of that same look a few times himself. 

“It’s… it’s complicated, but yes. If you agreed to be my wife, I would get you out of the testing. I know we weren’t successful, but we still learned valuable information. I at least have a new starting point once we find the new trial subject. Lainey, please, I’ve loved you since we were children… Alaina Corra, marry me so I can save your life,” Pershing pleaded.

“Just so I understand, my options are continuing to be your lab rat and likely dying or agreeing to karking marrying you, which would then put the target on an innocent child,” Alaina asked, emerald eyes wild with rage.

Pershing’s eyes implored her to consider his proposal. “Lainey… please don’t be stubborn about this,” he murmured, inching closer to Alaina.

Mando watched Penn lean in for a kiss in slow motion like a speeder accident he couldn’t look away from. His Alaina bumped her head into his shoulder and nodded across the street.

On Alaina’s cue, the door to the cantina slid open, and Mando watched… himself walk out of the Cantina. It was odd to see his former self in his rusted old armor set as he stalked down the Nevarro street, utterly oblivious to his former quarry.

While his former self didn’t notice the marriage proposal happening across the street from him, Alaina’s former self most definitely noticed her old captor walking out of the cantina. The other Alaina’s eyes slid to watch the Mandalorian stalking the streets, and her cheeks blushed at the sight of his former self. He watched as her eyes shifted back to rage as she turned her attention back to the man before her, stopping him from kissing her at the last minute.

“Penn?” she whispered. Penn blinked up at her with hopeful eyes and gripped her hands tighter. “If you think that I would even entertain the idea of marrying someone as deceitful as you… I don’t think you ever really knew me at all. And if you think for one second that I would marry you just to save myself and put some innocent child in harm's way… I have two words for you.”

“Lainey—”

“Fuck—you,” Alaina snarled before rearing back and slamming her forehead into her former friend, turned mad scientist's head.

Mando couldn’t help the proud smile that spread across his face as he watched the other Alaina sprint down the alley past them.

“The concussion was worth it,” his Alaina smirked.

“The kid—” Mando started. “They had already heard about the kid,” he finished, looking at Grogu.

“They were probably looking for him before they got their hands on me. I just spared him a couple of years,” she shrugged sadly. “And I can’t take all the credit for stepping up to Penn that day,” she continued, turning to look at Mando with those huge, emerald doe-eyes he’d become so fond of. “Because if I didn’t see you walking out of the cantina that day,” she stopped to laugh to herself. “I wouldn’t have been reminded how much I absolutely loathed you and wanted nothing more than to see you one more time so I could tell you what a terrible person I thought you were.”

Mando chuckled and squeezed Alaina’s hand tighter.

Alaina smirked, and some of the sadness left her face when she said, “What I really wanted to tell him though was I felt more attraction to the bounty hunter that caught me and had even gone so far as to straddle him—naked, in his ship just to get out of being turned in… but I don’t think that his heart would have been able to take it.”

“Pity,” Mando deadpanned.

“Mando…” she tried to start, but a slow, steady breath leaked from her. “You’ve saved me more times than you know.”

“Get us out of your head, and we’ll call it even,” he teased, nudging her head with his helmet.

Alaina smirked and rested her head on his shoulder. “Don’t think that would be very fair,” she commented, letting go of his hand to loop her arm in his. “Someone hasn’t shared his memory yet.”

Mando sighed, “Alaina… I’ve done some terrible things in my life—”

“Oh no,” Alaina interrupted. “You’re not getting out of this that easily. Besides, Grogu showed that he knew my mom and revealed that she had an entire secret life that I had no idea about. I showed you that I did have it in me to fight back… you hold the last card.”

His helmet looked down at the ground to avoid looking into her eyes. What Alaina didn’t understand was that while both she and the kid had been through and survived extraordinary things… Mando had been the cause of Alaina’s and hundreds of others' suffering. “What if what you see… what if my memory is something that makes you hate me?”

“Mando,” Alaina tutted and shook her head at him. “You’re forgetting that I already hated you for five years of my life, and despite that, you somehow managed to almost have your wicked way with me up against your spaceship before you had to go and open up your mouth—So, really, I think this is all your fault.”

Mando chuckled and shook his head at her words, thankful he had a helmet to hide his blush.

“Okay,” he murmured. “How does this work?”

“Close your eyes,” Alaina whispered.

Mando tugged Alaina closer to him, afraid that if he let her go, she wouldn’t be there when he opened his eyes next.

His helmet was helpful for many things (aside from hiding his embarrassment from Alaina). It helped him track down quarries with different settings on his display, protect his head if he took a hit, and one of the bigger pluses it had was it could filter out smells.

But no matter how long he’d been away from home, he’d never forget how it smelled. He’d never forget the way the sun warmed his skin. He’d never forget the sounds.

Din Djarin didn’t need to open his eyes to know where his memory had taken him.

“I don’t see anyone here wearing armor,” Alaina commented, still latched onto his arm by his side.

He didn’t need to open his eyes before he said, “That’s because no one here does.”

When Mando opened his eyes, he was greeted with golden sunlight he had only seen in dreams. He looked around the village, unable to believe his eyes at the sight of adults and children alike wearing red robes as they went about their daily routines.

“Mando?” Alaina whispered, looking up at his helmet for an explanation. “Where are we?”

“Aq Vetina,” came his murmured answer. With a deep breath, he resituated Grogu in his arm and grabbed Alaina’s hand with his other, gripping her tightly for support. “This was my home before…” he tapered off, unable to complete the sentence.

Realization dawned across Alaina’s face, and she gripped his hand tightly between hers. “Are you okay?” she asked, emerald eyes staring up at him, searching him for any reason he might not be.

He took a deep, steadying breath through his nose and nodded. “I never came back here after—I never came back,” he rasped.

“It’s okay,” Alaina reassured him. “It’s okay, we can go back. We don’t have to stay—”

“No,” Mando stopped her, shaking his helmet. “You brought us, or I brought us… one of us brought us here because we were meant to see something. The kid showed you that the two of you shared a connection before you were even born. You showed us that you stood up for yourself to give the kid a couple of years… even if just a glimpse of me filled you with the rage you needed to do that.”

Alaina snorted and rested her head against his arm.

“I can’t imagine why we’re here. I was ten when the droids came, and the Mandalorians took me in…”

“Then let's find out. Together,” Alaina finished in a whisper, gripping his gloved hand tightly.

With her hand clutched in his, Mando began to walk through the old streets of his village. Everything was exactly as he remembered: the school, the shops, the people. All the people were happy and carefree, completely oblivious that their lives were in impending danger.

“What is that delicious smell?” Alaina asked, looking around.

Mando’s heart lurched in his chest—

“What?” Alaina questioned, coming to a dead stop in the street to fix him with a searching look. “Don’t lie to me,” she warned him. “We can feel you now.”

He sighed and smiled weakly when Grogu tilted his curious head at him. “That would be the bakery,” he told her, his voice unable to raise above a whisper. “My mother’s bakery.”

“Mando—”

“It’s okay,” he reassured her with a nod.

“Do you… Do you want to visit the bakery?” she asked him quietly.

“I—Maybe,” he settled on, unsure if he could handle going there and risk seeing his mother after all these years. Thankfully, Alaina understood his hesitation and held onto his hand, offering her silent support as they continued walking through his old village.

The three explored the streets of his old village. People milled about, and children laughed and ran through the streets. Mando couldn’t decide whether to laugh or cry.

“Everyone seems so happy,” Alaina whispered.

He nodded in agreement as they turned the corner. Mando’s boots were on autopilot, taking him through his village to his mother’s bakery, when they turned a corner and crashed into a couple.

Mando and Alaina startled, sharing a panicked look.

Because they ran into someone, they hadn’t done that yet.

“I’m so sorry!” Alaina apologized, recovering before he did. “We were just admiring your beautiful village, and we weren’t paying any attention to where we were going—”

“There is no need to apologize.”

Mando’s breath caught in his chest, and it took everything in him not to reach for the couple in front of him.

His parents. 

They found his parents.

Dressed in their usual red robes, his parents smiled warmly at Alaina, but their smiles faltered slightly when their eyes landed on the armored Mandalorian towering over them. However, they seemed to relax when they spotted the green toddler he held, waving and giggling at them.

“Still,” Alaina continued, staring at him, confused as to why he hadn’t moved a muscle. “Still, we should be paying more attention to where we were going,” she apologized, none the wiser that she was conversing with his mother.

“There is no apology necessary,” his mother said again, smiling warmly at Alaina. “We remember what it was like to be young and in love—”

“Was?” his father teased, and Mando had to take a step back, unable to deal with casual the moment.

Alaina looked at him, narrowing her eyes and trying to figure out why he was inching away.

“I’m kidding,” his father joked, tossing a wink to his wife.

This sound of a humming—or a buzzing—or a…

A red blur streaked around them, and Mando closed his eyes because, of course, this had to be the moment his younger self had to make his appearance, making… pod racing noises.

The small red blur tripped and crashed into Alaina. The blonde recovered quickly, grabbing the younger boy and preventing him from falling to the ground. He couldn’t help but notice that his younger self’s red robe matched Alaina’s red dress.

“Djarin,” his mother half-scolded him. She picked him up and fixed him with her patented, all-knowing look. “Apologize,” she ordered.

The younger version of himself mumbled a half-hearted apology before burying his face in his mother’s neck.

Alaina smiled at the boy, and then he watched as an idea sparked in her emerald eyes as she studied his younger self with his parents before her head slowly turned to him with a knowing smile.

“You’re very pretty,” his younger self said, grinning at Alaina before tucking his head back into his mother’s neck.

“And that is our cue to leave,” his father interrupted, grabbing the younger Djarin from his mother, nodding at them as he passed.

“Sorry about him. He’s like his father when it comes to beautiful women,” his mother joked, giving Alaina a little wink. “How long are you visiting? I own a bakery around the corner. You should come and have breakfast tomorrow. On me,” she added on. “It’s the least I can do for my entire family running into you.”

Alaina looked at him and then back to his mother. “Oh, I really wish we could, but I think we are on our way out,” she apologized.

“Next time, then,” his mother said, giving him a nod as she left to follow the rest of her family.

Mando was frozen as long-buried emotions began rising, threatening to overtake him. Why here? Why did they have to see his parents? Why could they interact with them when Alaina couldn’t with her own mother?

“Are you okay?” Alaina whispered, bringing a comforting hand up to rest on his chest.

He stayed silent, unable to answer that question. Here he was, inside Alaina’s mind, or wherever they were, given the opportunity to interact with his parents again… and he just… froze. As a boy, he used to dream about being given one last chance with his mother and father. He used to dream about what he would say to them… what he would tell them…

“Go on,” Alaina whispered, motioning her head in the direction his parents went. “It’s not every day you get a chance to say goodbye,” she said, smiling through her tears. “Djarin,” she added, sniffling through her tears.

His panicked breath caught painfully in his chest as he watched his parents walk farther away. Alaina reached and grabbed Grogu from his vice-like grip before she nodded down the street, silently telling him to go.

His heart rate spiked, and he leaned down to lift his helmet just enough to place a quick, thankful kiss on Alaina’s cheek. “Wait!” he called after his parents once he righted himself before taking off down the street for them.

His parents stopped and looked back at him. They shared a look of confusion, likely wondering what the armored Mandalorian wanted with them. His father set the younger version of himself down. The younger Din Djarin stared up at him with awe-filled dark brown eyes. Children’s laughter could be heard from around the corner, and his father pushed his younger son to join his friends in their games, leaving them alone with the imposing stranger.

“Is everything okay?” his father asked, looking back at Alaina behind him.

“No—Yes—It’s complicated,” he rambled nervously.

His parents chuckled.

“Women usually are,” his father teased, wincing when his mother dug an elbow into his ribs.

“I just—” he started strong and then cut himself off, nervous to say the right words. “I just wanted to say thank you. For everything,” he finished in a hushed whisper. 

When his parents shared a confused look before looking back at him, Mando reached for his helmet and slowly lifted it over his head. His mother was the first to move, taking a cautious step toward him as she looked deep into his eyes, and the spark of recognition that flashed in her eyes made him relax. 

“Thank you,” he repeated, unable to keep a tear from sliding down his cheek. He offered a hand to his father, who accepted it with a confused shake, but his mother had a suspicious, knowing smile. She looped her arms around his neck, and at the age of… thirty-seven? Thirty-eight? Hugged his mother. 

“Your family is beautiful,” his mother whispered in his ear. “Are you happy?”

He returned the hug, savoring the gift he’d been given. “Yes,” he whispered with a smile.

“Good,” his mother nodded, giving him one last squeeze before letting him go. “You should get back to them,” she nodded at Alaina and Grogu standing where he left them. “Until next time,” she whispered, bringing her hand up to briefly cup the side of his face.

“Until next time,” he repeated, picking his helmet off the ground.

He watched his mother walk back to his father. Hand in hand, they continued walking down the street, turning the corner to where their son had disappeared minutes before.

He smiled when he felt a gentle hand rest in the middle of his back. The gentle touch let him know that Alaina and the kid were behind him, supporting him yet still giving him privacy since his face was still uncovered.

Din Djarin took one last look around the Aq Vetina streets, basking in the warmth and contentment that radiated from inside him. When he placed his helmet back over his head, he found they had all returned to the stone throne room, now completely covered in a dense layer of snow.

“At least it doesn’t look as worn down when it’s covered in snow,” Alaina commented from behind him.

He turned around to stare at his companions, thankful that Alaina still had her emerald eyes and wits about her. “So how do we get out?” he asked.

Alaina shrugged, “Your guess is as good as mine. I was sort of hoping that once we all shared our memories, we would wake back up.”

“That’s what you get for watching too many of those holo-dramas,” he replied sarcastically, earning him a smile and an eye roll from Alaina.

“Well, I don’t see you coming up with any other ideas,” she deadpanned, looking around the snow-covered room.

Mando looked around the stark white room, looking for any other potential clues they were missing. “The end of the road,” he sighed, shaking his head when he came up empty.

A gentle breeze swept through the room, disturbing and blowing around some of the snow that had settled. When his gaze landed back on Alaina and the kid, he smirked when he saw the kid was watching the snow blow around him while Alaina’s attention was on something on the floor.

“Clean slate,” she whispered, focused on the snow-covered ground.

“What?” Mando questioned, looking from Alaina to the ground, but didn’t see anything about snow.

“We’ve been given a clean slate,” she said, finally bringing her eyes up to look at him. When he tilted his helmet in confusion, she continued. “Our memories—I didn’t understand the pattern till we saw yours. Mando, except for finding out that Grogu knew my mom, I don’t think they were trying to show us how we were connected. I think they were showing us our beginnings.”

The snow continued to blow, slowly uncovering the small circle they were standing.

“We saw Grogu get rescued and was given a second chance at life,” she continued, smiling at the womp rat in her arms, “and set him down the long, arduous path to us,” Alaina smiled, poking the kid’s nose with her finger. “And I know it didn’t look like it, but that moment with Penn in that alley on Nevarro woke me up. That was my beginning. We were months into Penn’s trials, and I had given up. That was my first time actually fighting Penn and the Empire back, and it wasn’t my last. I stayed alive long enough because I kept fighting and didn’t give up that day. Until I ran into you.”

“Literally,” he joked, earning him a smile from the blonde. His brief smile faded when he recalled his memory and his parents. “But… my memory wasn’t a second chance or a new beginning… it was just another day,” he finished quietly, directing his attention back to the ground and frowned in confusion when he saw some kind of pattern begin to make itself known as the wind continued to push the snow around.

Alaina stepped forward, closing the distance between them, and took the hand that wasn’t holding Grogu inside his helmet to rub his scruff-covered cheek. “We learned the most valuable lesson from yours.” When she paused, Mando tilted his helmet curiously when he saw her green eyes spark in amusement. “We learned that you think I’m very pretty,” she teased, reminding him of what his younger self had told her in his memory. Laughter rumbled in his chest, and the two shared matching smiles before Alaina’s turned serious once more. “It might have just been another day for you, but it was just another day in your actual beginning,” she whispered. “Mando, your parents loved you, and that love gave you a strong enough foundation to survive. Imagine the person you would be now if you’d never had that?”

Mando turned his head to kiss Alaina’s palm. He’d never considered that before. He’d always contributed his strength to the Mandalorians, and while part of that was true, he knew deep down that Alaina was also correct.

Alaina’s thumb swiped across his cheek, and he left his lips pressed into her hand. “My mom told me something once when she was sick and near the end in the hospital that stuck with me. She said, ‘You will always be connected to us by an unbreakable bond because nothing in the galaxy is stronger than love,’” she whispered.

Mando grabbed her wrist to pull her hand out of his helmet to entwine their fingers together. “The foundation is constructed by four pillars.” Alaina’s black-eyed self had said between visions. “The pillars are linked together, bound by the strongest substance in the galaxy. Because of that, this room remains standing.”

“I don’t know how to explain any of this, Mando. But I think that the three of us have been connected all this time… and I don’t think this is the end of the road,” she finished, looking around the snow-covered decaying room.

Mando gripped her hand tighter in his as the three of them slowly turned around the room, looking at it with new eyes.

“Cin vhetin,” he murmured. When Alaina looked curiously at his helmet, he nodded to the snow. “Your mother’s opinions about snow are similar to a Mandalorian term, cin vhetin,” he explained. “We use it as a term for a fresh start—a clean slate,” he paused to squeeze her hand. “The literal translation is a white field or virgin snow. It’s used to describe how our past is erased when we become a Mandalorian. When we’re given a new beginning,” he whispered, looking at the snow-covered ground.

Finally, Mando could make out the pattern carved into the stone surrounding them. Now that the snow had cleared, he could make out the distinct pattern of the now familiar, fanned rawl. The serpent formed a circle around them, and with its fanged mouth opened, ready to attack, it looked as if it were eating its own tail.

“I don’t think this is the end of the road,” Alaina said confidently, looking at Grogu before they both turned to look at him. “I think it’s just the beginning.”

Mando closed his eyes, unable to process his emotions at the moment. The three of them had gone through trial after trial to end up here. Together. In a few short months, he’d gone from being alone... to… to learning what it meant to have a family again.

The sound of distant thunder rumbling made him open his eyes, and he sighed in relief when he found that all three of them had finally returned to the Razor Crest on their moon.

Unfortunately, returning to the present meant that he was lying on the cold metal floor of the Crest, wet and half-naked. Exhaustion flooded through him, and his gaze finally focused enough to see Alaina and Grogu sprawled in unconsciousness across from him. He reached to brush some of Alaina’s wet hair from her face and frowned when he noticed a small trickle of blood coming from her nose. His limbs felt heavy, and he wasn’t sure he could stand just yet, so he used his thumb pad to swipe the blood from Alaina’s nose off her face.

Alaina’s eyes fluttered open at his touch, and her bright, emerald orbs were still there but filled with the same exhaustion he felt. She gave him a tired smile and mumbled, “I can still feel you.”

His chest warmed, reminding him of his new… whatever you wanted to call it with the woman and still sleeping toddler lying across from him. “Me too,” he whispered back.

He looked behind him at the alcove with their bed and blankets, then behind Alaina to where her cot was still tucked into the corner, and sighed, deeming them both too far away. Mando reached and leaned to gather Alaina and Grogu up in his arms and pulled them into his chest. Alaina burrowed herself into his bare chest and wrapped an arm around him, pinning Grogu between their bodies.

His eyes fell closed in exhaustion, but he smirked when he felt Alaina smile into his chest. “You think I’m pretty,” she murmured bleerily.

“Alaina?” he grumbled sleepily, pulling her closer to him. When he felt more than heard her hum of acknowledgment against his skin, he continued. “Go to sleep,” he said before finally closing his eyes to go to sleep.

“Mmmkay,” Alaina mumbled as she drifted to sleep in his arms.

Distant thunder rumbled again, but the three occupants of the Razor Crest were oblivious to the storm leaving or the soft pink light of the sunrise as it began to illuminate the hold of the Crest. The light from the sun bathed the sleeping occupants of the Razor Crest in light and warmth as they clung to each other while they lay sleeping on the metal floor.

Together.

Author's Note #2: First—I'd been struggling with where to put Alaina's mom's backstory, and I am so excited to fit it into this chapter. I did my best to weave my storyline with Grogu's canon storyline backstory. Obviously, Iliana Corra was not Beq's padawan, but this is fanfiction, and it's my story. Second—I hope that this chapter reads as jarringly smooth as it is meant to be. I really love the weird dream/prophecy type sequences, and I had fun doing that for almost an entire chapter while still filling in and connecting some story plots. Third—I know that several of you have expressed concerns in regards to the welfare of a certain smut monster. I just wanted to update everyone that he is doing quite well. He is getting more regular walks, and we've come to a truce. I even let him take a look over the next chapter, and he became so excited that he started drooling. So, no one needs to worry about him. He's doing just fine.

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it takes a village, epilogue

Title: it takes a village Fandom: House MD Ship: James Wilson/Gregory House Rating: T Chapters: 3/3 Word Count: 1.5k (chapter), 9.4k (entire work)

Spoilers for Season 8/Post-Series!

Fic summary: 

“We go back to Princeton, then” House suggests. “You’ll be among friends. They’ll look after you until I get out.” [...] “Okay,” he hears himself say before he even consciously makes the decision. “Okay. We’ll go back to Princeton. I’ll get treatment there.” Wilson changes his mind about treatment. House goes back to prison. It all works out fine, in the end.

Read the new chapter on AO3 here, and the first few hundred words from it below the cut. Also, consider following my House blog @drhedicalhalpractice, it's fun I promise.

“For Christ’s sake, sit down, ” House snaps, visibly annoyed as Wilson gets into his personal space for the third time in fifteen minutes because he changed his mind about the wine he wants to serve.

“One second, let me just-” Wilson tries, but House grabs him by the shoulder and physically pushes him over to the couch. “Hey!”

“You’re being a nuisance. The place looks fine, none of them are cultured enough to appreciate whatever you’re trying to do with the wine, and there’s not even a speck of dust to be found anywhere in this place because you deep-cleaned literally all of it. Nothing left for you to do but sit and wait for everyone to arrive.”

“Oh, sorry, I forgot you’re the only one who’s allowed to be a nuisance,” Wilson snaps. “You could at least let me help. I like cooking.”

House doesn’t like cooking, not the act of it anyway. He just hyperfixates on it because he’s incapable of being normal about anything, and he happens to be unfairly good at it.

“But I’m better at it. Now shut up and let me work my magic.”

Wilson sighs but stays put. They’ve been over this, in great detail, numerous times. It was his idea to invite everyone who’s helped him through his cancer treatment for dinner, so he should be the one to cook.

And, really, it is kind of stupid to be fussing this much. Those people have, against all his efforts, seen him at and through his worst. Maybe that’s precisely why he’s trying so desperately to leave a perfect impression now. Look at me, I’m not a mess, I still have my shit together, I promise.

House doesn’t want to hear any of that, though. Volunteering to cook is just one of the things he’s been doing the past few weeks that make Wilson itch to shove a thermometer under his tongue and check for a fever.

Between the invasive surgery for tumor removal and the several months of chemotherapy, Wilson is still very much recovering. His sternum is held together with wire, and he’s still in physical therapy for recovery from the sternotomy. The chemo all but obliterated his appetite, his cheeks are only just starting to fill in again. He tires quickly and he sleeps a lot, and his hands often ache with lingering neuropathy that may or may not disappear eventually.

It’s a slow and frustrating process, and House… well, House is trying his best. In fact, he’s being almost ridiculously careful with Wilson. He still insists on checking the incision on his chest every day even though enough time has passed that the risk of infection or other complications is almost nonexistent by now. He keeps trying to feed him high-calorie foods until Wilson tells him to stop trying to fatten him up like a turkey before Thanksgiving, damnit. And he sits in on every single one of Wilson’s follow-up appointments with Brown, even though Brown seems one snide comment away from punching House in the face at this point.

And really, the sentiment is sweet. It’s kind of nice in a weird way, being on the receiving end of House’s poorly hidden concern. Even when it starts to get too annoying, Wilson tries to remind himself that it just means that House cares about him, loves him, and that’s usually enough to let him suffer through it with just enough complaining to keep up appearances.

But with neither of them back at work yet – Wilson because he’s still far from being cleared for work, House because he hasn’t yet decided what he wants to do now – they spend a lot of time together, and by god does Wilson sometimes want nothing more than to push House down a flight of stairs and claim it was an accident.

See, officer, he never was very stable on his feet. He walked with a cane, you know, yes, it’s all very tragic. And with his unfortunate painkiller addiction, well, accidents do happen awfully fast, don’t they?

House wouldn’t even let Wilson carry the damn grocery bags for the first couple weeks after the surgery, which meant that they were severely limited in how much they could buy in one trip, because House does not possess enough arms to carry more than one bag and use his cane at the same time. This, in turn, meant that they had to make more frequent trips to the store, something House also objected to because “You’re still immunocompromised, you absolute moron!”, which was countered by “Well if I could trust you to buy anything other than chips and candy, I wouldn’t have to tag along now would I?” and ended with Wilson donning a surgical mask to the grocery store until his immune system was back online.

Point is, House is overly cautious and it’s sweet until it isn’t, and today they’re decidedly heading into isn’t territory because Wilson is absolutely itching to do something and House won’t let him.

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Read the entire fic on AO3 here.

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In Breakable Heaven CH1

It's @ladrienjune yall!

And I know what you're all thinking

But I finally wrote something! One chapter of a thing. For now, but more will be coming, I promise! As I mentioned previously, I am moving for the next couple weeks, but I will hopefully have some down time to write here and there. I also still need to plan the ending for this fic, but shhhhh that's future Cat's problem ;) Anywho, here's the beginning of a Ladrien secret-dating adventure. Enjoy~

This chapter covers days 6, 7, and 8 (social media, jealousy, and biggest fan respectively).

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Rating: G

Summary:

When Adrien wins a contest on the Ladyblog, he catches the attention of Ladybug herself and scores more than just an opportunity to hang out with her. Caught in a fever dream high, the two lovebirds try to navigate their budding relationship away from the public eye and find that keeping secrets is a lot harder than they anticipated. Devils roll the dice, angels roll their eyes, what doesn't kill them makes them want each other more, and they'll do whatever it takes to stay in breakable heaven.

Chapter 1

“You Play Stupid Games, You Win Stupid Prizes”

“Alright, Bugheads, now onto the big announcement! With summer holidays coming up, I thought it would be a fun time to host a little contest, and ask the question: How well you know our resident superheroine? I’ve created a quiz that only the most die-hard fans will be able to pass because the stakes on this one are high. The person with the highest score will get to spend an afternoon with Ladybug! And don’t worry, this was approved by the head bug herself! Details for entry are listed below. Best of luck to all of you, and don’t forget to stay connected!”  Alya’s cheery lilt ended on Adrien’s computer screen, and he leaned back in his chair.

“A whole afternoon with Ladybug?” He swooned.

“What’s the big deal? You already spend every afternoon with her.” Plagg hovered over Adrien’s head with a wedge of cheese.

“Yeah, when we’re fighting bad guys,” Adrien said pointedly. “She never wants to spend time with me outside of work. This could be my chance to finally see a movie with her.”

“What’s the appeal of seeing a movie anyway? You just sit next to each other in silence for several hours. The only plus is the buttery popcorn with its salty, crunchy, oily goodness...” Plagg shoved the cheese into his mouth and chewed thoughtfully for a moment. “On second thought, why don’t you and I go see a movie? I’m much better company.”

Adrien rolled his eyes and clicked the leaderboard in the comments of Alya’s post. Someone had already gotten a decently high score on the quiz, only a few points away from perfect. A few scrolls down, the same username popped up again, and Adrien’s grip tightened on his mouse.

ladybugsfuturebf: Good luck beating my score! Only Ladybug herself could score higher. Can’t wait to spend one-on-one time with her on our date!

“Who does this guy think he is? A date? Ladybug’s future boyfriend? Before me?” Adrien scoffed.

“Need I remind you, the contest is to win a chance to hang out with her, not date her,” Plagg said.

What kind of flowers do you think she likes? Oh, wait! I already answered that on the quiz! She’s gonna be so impressed she’ll forget all about Chat Noir.

Adrien’s teeth ground together. There was no way such a boastful, arrogant person was in the lead. And forget about him? Please, he was Ladybug’s best friend! No one knew her better than him. He could ace that quiz in no time.

“What are you doing?” Plagg sighed as Adrien clicked the entry form.

“Oh, come on, Plagg. I can’t let that guy win! If anyone is going to win a date with Ladybug, it’s me! I know her better than anyone,” Adrien said.

Plagg floated down in front of his face. “And you don’t think it’s going to be a problem if you get a perfect score? Let’s just broadcast to the world that you’re Chat Noir!”

“I’m not that dense, Plagg.” Adrien waved him out of the way. “I’ll sign up with a fake email and username. No one will ever know Adrien Agreste won.”

Pursing his lips, he tapped the keys of his keyboard in thought on the account creation screen. He needed something inconspicuous, but not too mysterious. Something that wouldn’t be surprising when Chat Noir revealed himself as the winner, but also, not something that would be a dead giveaway that it was him. He didn’t want Ladybug to disqualify him for cheating. Besides, he wasn’t really cheating. There were no rules that her best friend and partner couldn’t enter…

He’d keep it simple but on brand — thecatsmeow had a nice ring to it, and it was surprisingly not taken. Now that his account was squared away, he just had to pass the quiz. 40 questions? Piece of cake.

What is Ladybug’s favorite color? Easy, pink.

Favorite musical artist? Jagged Stone.

Eye color?

It was almost sad how easy the questions were, and before he knew it, he’d finished. Adrien sat back as the site tabulated his score, and Plagg came to a rest on the top of his chair. A perfect score flashed on the screen, and Adrien shot up with a whoop.

“Yes! Take that ladybugsfuturebf!” he cheered.

“Don’t you think Ladybug is going to be mad when she finds out you won?” Plagg asked.

“Oh, come on. If anything, this just proves how much I pay attention. She’ll be impressed that I know her so well,” he said. At Plagg’s skeptical expression, Adrien sat back down. “And she’s not going to have a choice because I won fair and square.”

“You’re delusional.” Plagg floated off.

Adrien shrugged it off, smiling at his username at the top of the leaderboard. He was finally going to get that movie date with Ladybug! Nothing was going to sour his mood.

***

The next day, Adrien arrived at school as usual, shutting the door to his silver town car without a second thought. After winning the date with Ladybug, he was on cloud nine, imaging how romantic it would be in the dark theater. Maybe he’d pick a horror movie and hold her when she got scared. Oh! And their hands could brush as they both reached for popcorn at the same time! Entering the contest was the best idea he’d ever had.

“There’s no way it’s not him. Chat Noir totally won the contest,” Alya said as he entered the classroom.

Adrien stopped in his tracks. Okay, maybe not his best idea, but it was fine because he used a fake account. There was no way they traced it back to him.

None of them paid him any mind as he took his seat beside Nino, who was tapping his chin in thought.

“But why would Chat Noir need to enter a contest to spend time with Ladybug. He spends like the most time with her out of everyone,” Nino said.

“It’s so obvious. He’s been trying to get her to go to the movies with him for like ever, and now she has to say yes,” Alya said.

“Shouldn’t that be against the rules or something?” Marinette asked. “I mean, they spend so much time together, of course he’d know all the answers.”

“I’m willing to allow it because I think it’s really funny, and I don’t mind being Chat Noir’s wing woman.” She shrugged.

“Alya!” Marinette gasped.

“What? I want them to get together. Sue me.” Alya giggled.

“Hey, didn’t all the contestants have to have valid accounts to enter? What’s the name on the email address for the username that won?” Nino asked.

Adrien stiffened.

“Way ahead of you,” Alya said. “I looked right after the results posted, but the email is registered to an obvious alias, which further proves that it’s Chat Noir. He wouldn’t use his real name. He may not always look it, but he’s a smart cat.”

He wasn’t sure if he should be offended by that statement or not.  

“Dang, would have been cool if we learned who he was,” Nino said.

Adrien breathed a sigh of relief when they let it drop. Everything was fine, and Alya wasn’t going to disqualify him. He could already taste the popcorn!

“Ya know,” it was Max who spoke up, having stopped midway up the stairs to his desk upon overhearing their conversation, “if you’re interested in knowing who the account really belongs to, I can track the IP address.”

Adrien’s heart shot up to his throat.

“Wait, for real?” Alya perked up.

“That would be totally awesome!” Nino added.

Maybe it would be fine. His father paid for crazy firewalls to protect his design secrets. No way anyone could get through them… Right?

“I recently upgraded Markov’s tracking capacity. I can crack a low-grade military firewall and find an address with pin-point accuracy,” Max said.

Most of the time, Adrien was amazed at Max’s genius, but today he was terrified of it. Plagg was right, entering the quiz was a surefire way to get him caught!

“Guys, that’s an invasion of privacy! Besides, don’t you think it will be dangerous if it is Chat Noir? I mean, exposing his identity will lead Hawkmoth right to his door. You’re practically handing him his Miraculous,” Marinette, his sweet pig-tailed savior, said.

Adrien cleared his throat and turned around, “Yeah, Marinette’s right. I think it will cause more trouble than it’s worth.” For him specifically.

“Chill out, I’m not going to post it online or anything. I just think if we knew who he was we could help him. I can be the girl on the ground, and I can also give him tips to fix his pitiful attempts at flirting with Ladybug,” Alya said.

Pitiful! Oh, she was definitely getting snubbed next time she asked for an interview.

“Alya, it’s dangerous and wrong. Even if he entered the contest for selfish reasons, that doesn’t mean you can invade his privacy like that.” Marinette chided. “Promise me you won’t look into it. It would put all of you and him in danger.”

Alya pursed her lips, exchanging glances with Max and Nino before slumping in her seat.

“Fine, I won’t look into it,” she said.

“Good,” Marinette said as Mlle. Bustier entered and called for everyone to find their seats.

Adrien turned back around, breathing out a ragged sigh. That was close, but it had all worked out in the end. He’d have to stop by the bakery later and buy a caseload of chouquettes to thank Marinette. Her level-head really saved his hide.

As the day wore on, Adrien pushed the morning’s conversation from his mind, though he had a feeling Plagg would give him an earful about it later. It would all be worth it when he and Ladybug finally went on their date. Could he get cherry blossoms this time of year? They were just barely out of season, but he could probably pull a few strings.

He pulled out his phone to check as he entered the library, and he’d almost found a promising listing when he rounded the corner and found Alya and Max crowded around a laptop at a table. Ducking back behind the bookshelf, he strained his ears to listen.

“His firewall is surprisingly good, it may take me a while to crack,” Max was saying.

“But you can definitely get around it?” Alya asked.

“Of course, what do you take me for?” Max scoffed.

They were going through with it after all! Adrien’s heart sped up, his palms growing shaky and sweaty. He should go over to their table and call them out for going back on their word, but would it be suspicious if he got onto them? Why would he be so bent on keeping Chat Noir’s identity secret unless he was Chat Noir? This was bad! What should he do?

Adrien bolted from the library, peering out over the railing at the courtyard below. Marinette was sketching quietly on a bench, and he raced to her side. She looked up at him with wide eyes, recoiling back with a nervous smile, probably in response to how desperate and deranged he looked, but there was no time to worry about that.

“Marinette, we have to stop Alya and Max. They’re in the library trying to crack Chat Noir’s firewall right now!” He panted.

“What?” She abandoned her sketchbook on the bench and took the lead back up the stairs to the library.

She burst through the doors and stormed over to their table, and Adrien did his best to look supportive but not too panicked. Alya winced when she saw them, and Marinette placed her hands on her hips.

“So, you were just going to go behind my back and do it anyways?” She scoffed.

“I’m sorry, girl! But think of how much good we could do if we could team up and help him!” Alya said.

“Think of how much danger you’re putting yourselves in! If Hawkmoth finds out you know his identity, he’ll come after you and your families. What if one of you gets akumatized? You could get hurt. Chat Noir could get hurt or worse!” Marinette said.

“She’s right. You guys shouldn��t go through with this,” Adrien added.

“I’m almost through the firewall,” Max said.

“Call it off, Max!” Marinette ordered.

“Keep going! We’re so close!” Alya pleaded. She turned to Marinette and pressed her palms together. “Look, I know it’s risky, but what if we can help take down Hawkmoth? That’s worth the risk, right?”

“It’s not our job! We don’t have superpowers, and it can put us and the people we love in danger!” Marinette placed her hands on Alya’s shoulders. “Please, stop.”

“Girl, I know you’re scared for me, but I promise I’ll be careful. ‘All that’s necessary for the triumph of evil-”

“That doesn’t apply here!” Marinette shook her head.

“I made it through the firewall!” Max said. “A few more seconds, and I can tell you exactly where he lives.”

Marinette and Alya were at a stand-off, and every clack of Max’s keyboard was a nail in Adrien’s coffin. He didn’t have a choice, but if they were going to find out it was him, he was going to do whatever it took to convince them he wasn’t Chat Noir. He just hoped Ladybug didn’t think he was a total freak afterward.

“It’s me!” He blurted. When Marinette and Alya turned to him with quirked brows, he let out a sigh. “I’m the one who won the contest. I’m thecatsmeow.”

Max’s keyboard went silent, and he turned the screen to face them where Adrien’s home address was flashing. “He’s telling the truth.”

“Whoa, so you’re Chat Noir?” Alya grinned.

“No!” Adrien held up cautioning hands. “I’m just, uhh, I didn’t want my father to know I entered, so I used a fake profile. There’s no way he would have let me go if he knew about it.”

“Why didn’t you say anything sooner?” Marinette asked.

Adrien rubbed the back of his neck and averted his gaze. “I guess I was just embarrassed. I didn’t want any of you to think less of me.”

“I don’t think less of you!” Marinette assured him. “I-I mean, you won the contest fair and square, and you had every right to enter.”

Alya’s eyes narrowed, and Adrien shrank under her gaze.

“I’m still not entirely convinced. Ladybug and I made some of those questions crazy specific. How would you know she doesn’t like anchovies on her pizza, or that she likes lemon in her tea?” Alya crossed her arms over her chest.

“I… have a lot of money and free time.” He shrugged. “I got a bunch of drone cameras and spy equipment, and I watch her and Chat Noir all the time.” When everyone stared at him with wide eyes, he quickly added, “Not in a creepy way! I just admire her.”

“…You don’t know her identity, do you?” Marinette asked.

“No, of course not! I’d never do something like that.” Adrien shook his head. “I’m just…her biggest fan.”

Alya looked him up and down, her skeptical expression giving way to a smile. “You could have just said something. I mean, you know how freak-crazy I am about all of this. I would have understood.”

“I’m sorry. I’m just used to keeping a lot of my interests a secret because I have my father’s brand to consider — and my father to consider. If he knew what I was doing, he’d put an end to it immediately.” Adrien traced his thumb over his ring behind his back.

“Well, you don’t have to worry about us. Your secret’s safe.” Alya placed a hand on his shoulder with a wink. “Though, I may need to borrow your drone from time to time as payment.”

“Alya,” Marinette said in a warning tone.

“We’ll discuss the details later,” she said. “And if you ever want to talk Ladybug, I’m always here.”

“Thanks.” He smiled, letting his shoulders relax.

“Though, I am still a bit confused on your logic. I mean, you won the contest, so you were going to have to reveal it was you eventually to claim your prize. What was your plan there?” Alya quirked a brow.

“Uhh, wear a disguise?” Adrien said with a wince.

Alya threw her head back with a laugh. “Well, congrats on winning. I’ll pass the message on to Ladybug that you’re the winner, and we’ll arrange your prize soon.”

“Thanks,” Adrien said.

When the bell rang, Alya and Max packed up, and Adrien breathed a sigh of relief as they headed to their next class. That was way too close, but somehow, he’d managed to convince them. Plagg was going to scold him later.

Marinette fell into step beside him, tugging at her blazer.

“Um, congrats on winning,” she said. “I-I think it’s a good thing you won instead of some weirdo. I mean, if I was Ladybug, I’d be happy you won because it means we’d get to spend time together, and who wouldn’t want to spend time with you?”

Adrien smiled at her. “Thanks. I’m looking forward to hanging out with her. I admire her a lot,” he said. “And thanks for your help earlier.”

“N-n- Mmmhmm.” Marinette nodded.

She fell back to link up with Alya, and Adrien bit back a smile. It wasn’t exactly what he’d planned, but he still got to spend time with Ladybug either way. And who knew? Maybe there would be advantages to her going with Adrien Agreste instead of Chat Noir. At least this way, she couldn’t scold him. Besides, it didn’t matter to him which side she fell in love with, so long as it was him. He couldn’t wait for their date!

[scribesbyd]

~Just my love for writing ang Enhypen combined

~ This is a work of fiction

~ May contain grammatical errors✌️

~ Cross published in Wattpad, AO3, AFF and Quotev

Title: Blossom Series | False Impressions| Book 1 : Lee Heeseung

Genre: Contemporary, Realistic

Characters: Lee Heeseung, Female Lead, Enhypen

Category: F/M

Status: Ongoing

Chapter 1: Not A Fan

The lemonade she had made tastes nasty, so as her face. Choi Aerin's face immediately turned sour, not alone the lemonade, but after hearing what her friend and work mate, Hyeon Jiah, had said.

"Enhypen? Are you kidding me?" Aerin's eyebrow quickly raised.

"I'm serious. And if not with this stupid fever I won't ask you to do it in behalf of me. Hybe wouldn't allow people that are unwell to be near of the members, much more interviewing them."

Aerin, stubborn as she is, shook her head in disagreement. "No. I'd better finish this one hell of a lemonade than talking to them. Thanks but no thanks."

"Not all. Only one member is allowed to be interviewed. He's the male rising star for the month of September. He's undeniably famous but still needs to steal the spotlight, so you also need to do the best write up."

Aerin sighed and throwed herself in the couch. Jiah is persuasive and she knows she can't say no. But still she's not feeling it.

She's on probation and needs to step up her game. She's a staff writer along with Jiah, but on her part is a different story. She had bunch of rejected works, and a big scoop is what she needed at the moment. 

But Aerin finds it hard to hit that needed break because she writes the opposite of what the netizens want. She hates K-pop and everything that comes with it.

"This might be the needed break you've been waiting for. I told you long time ago, join my team. You're life will become easy, like, seriously."

"I know I can do it. Sports writing is something I find interesting. It's just that people are so lazy to read about sports and other stuff."

"Because that's old news, Aerin. We live in Korea, home of K-pop and K-dramas. Those things are ruling the world right now. That's a fact. And if you will continue being stubborn about it then you will definitely lose your job."

Aerin stood silent. It's not everyday that Jiah hit her hard emotionally. Losing her job is the one thing that scares her. She'll end up coming back to her abusive mother with her drunkard new man. That wouldn't happen anymore.

"Which member?" she finally gave up.

Jiah's face lights up. She frowned even more.

"Please tell me it's Kim Sunoo. He's the only one that I think I can be comfortable with. Among the seven members I think he's the most geniune. Don't give me Lee Heeseung. Please. Don't even think about it."

Jiah bites her lip upon hearing it. "Well, Aerin-- The thing is, we writers don't have the right to pick whoever we like to interview. Our editior in chief chooses him not us--"

"So, it's Lee Heeseung?!"

Jiah nods slow. "Yes. Unfortunately?"

Aerin slaps her face in disgust. "God! Why?"

"What do you mean why? And why do you hate him so much? He seems nice. And he's handsome. No debate on that."

"Eeww. Are you turning yourself to be one of Lee Heeseung's delulu fans now?"

"I cannot understand where the hate is coming from, Aerin. You don't know him personally so stop slandering him with your twisted tongue."

Even Aerin couldn't point out where the hatred is coming from. Maybe it's because Lee Heeseung is the coolest man she had ever seen. She hates cool guys. It's like they are born to be heartbreakers and are no remorse about it. She knows idols act like they are the nicest person in the whole world but in reality, they are masked puppets corrupting girl's minds leading them to delusion.

"Don't let me answer that. I don't want to go to jail because of cyberbullying."

"Is it because Lee Heeseung is a cool guy like Kang Minho? Geez, Aerin. Not all guys are like your stupid ex boyfriend--"

"Jiah, stop." she cuts her fast.

A moment of silence covered them both. It was so awkward and Aerin was guilty by her sudden bitterness. She don't mean to get frigid so easily.

"When is it?" she finally asked.

Jiah bites her lip not to let go of that scream. She knows Aerin hates being giddy, or any idea of it, not after what happened a couple of months ago. 

"Tomorrow. Hybe Building, Room 204. 11 AM sharp. Please wear something nice."

"Nice? What kind of nice? We are wearing corporate attire like everytime. Are you trying to tell me to dress up like those phantasmagorical fans wearing skimpy skirts and spotting on wigs and the heaviest makeup just to face an idol? No freakin' way!"

"I don't mean to say it like that. You need to be a little more exciting you know. Like you need to let go of that oomph, if you know what I mean. Do you want me to curl your hair, Aerin?"

"Stop! Like seriously. You're disgusting, Jiah!"

Jiah laughs hard and it freaks her out even more. It was a long time ago when she got a chance to interview an idol and it doesn't go well as planned. 

She was an intern, a normal girl with big dreams, and a silent kpop stan. Aerin put her best foot forward and was ready for the scheduled meeting but was cancelled without a warning because the singer wants another presenter, a male to be specific. Aerin overhead her making statements about interns and female writers, that they are brainless and the most biased journalist she had ever encountered.

On that day, she promised herself not to have any encounter with an idol on her entire writing career. She focused in sports writing and current events and struggled for years. Those categories are male and senior dominant fields and she finds it hard to fit in.

"I need to call Hybe you're doing it instead of me! This is it, Aerin! Who knows this is the needed break you always been dreaming of!" Jiah exclaimed.

"Entertainment writing? Worshipping idols just to make them more famous? Not the break I'm trying to get. Thank you very much."

She didn't know where the stubbornness is coming from. She was once an optimistic girl with full of dreams but her life turned into something different and far enough from what she imagined it to be, hence the pertinacity appears. It suppressed her. Controlled her for years. It was her healing emotion, a protection from any more ill-treatment, trauma and harm.

Some say, life is wonderful and live it with gratitude. Aerin finds it hard to agree for she cannot see eye to eye the truth in it. It's just an opinion that is overused and betrays everyone. 

Life sucks. And that's reality.

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[kittytl]

[HRH] Flower Fine Festival - Chapter 3

Faith: I think it's a good idea to choose a flower based on its symbolism.

Dino: Yeah! In that case, we should go for one that symbolises "Love And Peace"!

Keith: I knew you'd say that too...

Junior: I just checked and there's no flower with this meaning.

Dino: There isn't... Then, a flower with a positive meaning would be nice. The cold winter finally ended and made way for the warm spring, I want everyone to enjoy it to the fullest.

Junior: Then, what about the gerbera daisy? It means "to cheer up" and you give it to someone you want to feel better. Each colour has a different meaning but they all seem positive.

Dino: "To cheer up"... ♪ It's perfect for spring.

Faith: Since there are different colours, it could make for a very pretty and colourful scenery.

Junior: Alright! Let's go with the gerbera daisy.

Dino: Keith what do you think?

Keith: What? Ahh, no objection.

Faith: Great. The groundwork is already laid.

Keith: On my side too, the cookies are ready. The only thing left is to bring them to Marion. Ahh~~ What a pain~~ If only someone could do it in my place...

Junior: Me! Memememe! I will do it!

Keith: Oh thanks, you're a big help.

Junior: Leave it to me! Dino, lend me your pizza delivery bag!

Dino: Of course. I'll get it for you.

Faith: You know how to make good use of him.

Keith: He gets to talk with Marion and I get to relax. It's a win-win situation.

Flower shop clerk: In this store, you will find all kinds of flowers. Please feel free to ask me if there is something you wish to take a closer look at.

Dino: Then I'll go straight to the point, where can we find gerbera daisies?

Clerk: The gerbera daisies are this way. They exist in various colours.

Junior: Ohh... Like I thought, they're even prettier in real life.

Faith: The real thing can give quite a different impression than in pictures, just like Keith. It reminds me of Valentine's day. You looked quite sharp, like a totally different person.

Keith: Oh, that... Even now, people still ask me who's in that picture.

Junior: Hey! Stop slacking off and help us!

Faith: Yeees...

Junior: We have to choose them together! Achoo!

Keith: That's a big sneeze. Hay fever?

Faith: You're allergic ochibi-chan?

Junior: Who cares about that now! I said that I'll do my best. I guess, if you don't want to do it it's fine...

Faith: ?

Junior: So, if I don't want to do it, it's fine too...

Keith: What're you talking about?

Dino: Achoo!

Faith: You also have hay fever Dino?

Dino: Hey, did you know? Every flower is unique. So, it's okay to just choose whatever, right? Everyone, just choose the ones you like...

Keith: Hey, what's wrong?

Clerk: *sigh* I don't want to serve costumers anymore... I'm closing for the day.

Faith: What?

Keith: I don't know but, It's kinda strange.

Jack: Emergency, emergency! Substance was detected near Canary Street. All available heroes should head towards the location.

Faith: It's close.

Keith: I've a bad feeling about this. Let's move.

Faith: Understood.

Junior: Wait... Walking is tiring... Running is even more tiring...

Dino: Ugh~~ My feet feel so heavy~~ Isn't Canary Street way too far from here?

Keith: It's starting to look like something really happened.

Faith: Agree.

[bevioletskies]

for you i’d wait (‘til kingdom come) [chapter twelve]

summary: Quiet, gentle, and driven more by their emotions than their duties, the twin princes of Ayutthaya turned out to be nothing like what their people imagined. Now eighteen, they’re both expected to be engaged in a year’s time and married in two, despite their lack of marriage prospects. However, when Tinn falls in love with the singing voice of a servant boy he’s never actually met and Heart finds himself unexpectedly confronted by the boy’s twin, they both end up spellbound in more ways than one, and must choose between what they want and who they need to be. a/n: This fic takes place in a magical alternate universe set in 19th-century Thailand, where it’s instead known as Ayutthaya. For more information on the historical and magical lore of this world, check out this reference page. Fic title is from the song ‘Til Kingdom Come by Coldplay.

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“Honestly, I promised to spoil you rotten once you returned. I’m not doing a very good job, am I?”

“You’re here with me, aren’t you?” Tinn gently kissed Gun’s forehead, one hand still cradling the back of Gun’s neck. “That’s all I need.”

“So sentimental,” Gun said affectionately before he tilted his head and pressed a soft, lingering kiss on Tinn’s cheek. Heat instantly flooded Tinn’s face, which only made Gun laugh and do it again and again and again until Tinn was laughing, too.

They lapsed into comfortable silence soon after that, content to enjoy each other’s company as they drifted in and out of sleep. Neither stirred until they heard the front door open. By the time Tinn and Gun stumbled out of bed, bleary-eyed, and crossed the corridor to Li Ming’s bedroom, Heart and Li Ming were already in a tangled heap on the bed, kissing. Gun snickered while Tinn averted his gaze, embarrassed.

“So what did you tell Madam Chidchanok, exactly?” Gun teased.

Li Ming responded with an unmistakable hand gesture before reluctantly parting from a dazed-looking Heart. “That Ma’s fever returned.”

Gun’s eyes widened. “What? Ming, that’s horrible.”

“Like you wouldn’t have done something similar,” Li Ming said airily before glancing between Tinn and Heart. As though it had been simply waiting for everyone’s attention, Heart’s stomach let out an impressive growl. His face reddened while the others attempted not to laugh. “Has Gun not offered you anything to drink or eat the entire time you’ve been here? Gun, that’s horrible.” Gun returned Li Ming’s earlier gesture without hesitation.

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[randomshyperson]

Wanda Maximoff Needs a Hug - Chapter One

Summary: Since joining the team, Wanda Maximoff has captured all of your attention, even if she has no idea about this. In a six-part story, you'll do your best to give her everything she needs and maybe she never thought she deserved it. Along the way, you two might end up realizing you were in love with each other the whole time.

Warnings: (+18), Friends to lovers, smut in the last few chapters, slow burn, conversations about self-love and individual worth, mentions of anxiety, past trauma, avengers being a family, canon-fix, a lot of magic. Words: 3.484k.

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Chapter One - Wanda Maximoff needs a friend

You had a cold.

It was unusual, given your abilities, so it made sense that you insisted that the Avengers do not change the mission schedule because of this, and consequently made you more vulnerable on a mission that should have been easy.

The result was that you now had a cold and a bullet mark on your waist. Everyone was extremely worried, but you assured them that you were fine and that none of them needed to worry about someone literally unshakable, and this alone explained why you had a high fever all by yourself in a tower.

Well, all alone was not correct. There was another avenger, the new recruit, who was not yet on the mission list, and well, she was the one who found you stumbling around in the kitchen at dawn.

Wanda was sure that you hated her. It was a very forward first impression, of course, but she couldn't help but assume that you had some sort of problem with her by the way you behaved around her. Because of this, even though you were sick, she hesitated to approach you.

"Are you okay?"

You hum, forcing a laugh and ignoring all the pain that was spreading throughout your body like needles. "Of course. I just wanted to get something to eat." It was not your intention to be harsh, but the response made Wanda lower her gaze.

"Right." She murmured, her gaze watching your clumsy movements as you moved to get some water. "Are you sure you...?"

But her question was interrupted by your momentary loss of consciousness. 

There was something else about Wanda that she hated - her powers. And you couldn't understand why, since that scarlet energy was warm and prickly on your skin and sure was more comfortable than slamming against the counter or the kitchen floor. Her magic held you upright, and suddenly there were soft hands on your face. "Y/N! Hey! sranje (shit)! You're burning up with fever." You heard her words loosely, not having the strength to resist even a little being carried to the couch in the living room.

Wanda used her powers to lay you down, and you only blinked away the fever when cold towels were placed on your head.

"Maybe you should see a doctor." She suggests clearly concerned, but you giggle.

"They wouldn't know how to treat a god."

Wanda snorts softly. "Is that what you refer to yourself as? So presumptuous." She teases, and you smile with your eyes closed, the attempt to shrug makes you whimper in pain and brings a worried expression to her. "I'll call Thor, maybe he'll..."

"I'll be fine, Wanda." You interrupt her, with difficulty, bringing a hand up to her wrist that holds the towel against your neck. "It's just a cold. I haven't caught one of those since childhood, that's probably why I'm so miserable." You explain, and Wanda gives you a small smile.

You struggle to stay conscious with the high fever, and Wanda takes advantage of these moments to call Natasha.

"She's burning up with fever, Nat. I don't know what to do, is there any medicine in this place?"

The widow sighs on the other end of the line. "Damn, I swear she is the most stubborn person I know. I think there's something in Bruce's lab, made for her. Look up her name."

"Thanks. Good luck on the mission. Come back safe." The widow smiled affectionately, saving the teasing about Wanda's gentleness for another moment before muttering her goodbyes.

Wanda gave one last check on your figure - your face covered by a wet towel as you grumbled in pain - before leaving the room. She didn't linger long in the lab, and also took some aspirin from Tony's cabinet. 

But when Wanda tried to make you take the meds, you pushed her hand away.

"Oh, oh, what's that?" She rolled her eyes impatiently at your question.

"This is to ease your fever and pain. You need-"

"I'm not taking any pills." You retort seriously, and when she sees almost the panic in your eyes, Wanda hesitates. 

"It's just aspirin..."

You force yourself to sit up, complaining a little. "I don't use medicine. Leave me alone to die."

She chuckles incredulously. "That's so dramatic for a god." She teases, but you pout. Wanda thinks it's unfair that you look so adorable.

"I don't need medicine." You insist. "I just need a good night's sleep and food. I'll be brand new."

But once you got back on your feet, your body failed you again. Wanda sighed in a complaint, scarlet magic working on instinct and keeping you from falling to the floor before bringing you back to the couch.

"I'll get blankets for you." She mutters to your delirious figure, before leaving the room.

When she returns, you have taken the aspirin she left on the table, and it makes her smile slightly.

"Here, dorogoy." She says as she covers you, and you blink tired eyes at her.

"That's sweet." You say, to which Wanda mumbles confusedly, "The nickname. Natasha taught me Russian, you know."

Wanda can feel her face heat up, but she manages to laugh it off. "Sorry." She murmurs, and it's your turn to look at her with confusion.

"For what?"

Wanda sighs lightly. "I shouldn't...I don't know. You and I, we're not really... close." She tries to put it into words, it's a bad job, and maybe that's why you're so indignant.

"What? What are you talking about?"

Wanda huffs impatiently, feeling her face warm up even more. "You don’t need to be nice about it, I know you're not exactly a fan of me." She blurts out then. "I understand. It took everyone a while to trust me after Ultron."

You ignore the pain to sit up straight, gesturing in denial. "Wanda, that's ridiculous. I think you're the coolest Avenger here! Excluding Nat of course, otherwise, she will break my face." You declare, and she widens her eyes in surprise.

"What...? Really?" She asks unsurely, and you give her a reassuring smile.

"Where did you get the idea that I didn't like you?" 

"B-because you're always tormenting me! And you're so...direct..."

"Yeah, I'm sincere!" You retort with a laugh. "I'm sorry if I... come off as too abrupt for you. I don't have a very good social cue. War veterans don't care much for it, and Tony, well, deserves to hear some raw truths. I'll try to be sweeter with you. And well, about tormenting? You're too easy. And I do that with all my friends."

Wanda giggles nervously, twiddling her fingers. "Do you see me as a friend?"

You chuckle again, raising an eyebrow at her. "And how else would I see you?" You tease suggestively, and she feels her face warm. You chuckle at her shyness. "See, too easy."

She huffs, pushing you away gently, and grimaces apologetically at the grunt of pain you let out. But you laugh it off, assuring her that you're fine. 

"Now that we've made it clear that we're friends, can you put on something for us to watch? I've been dying to invite myself over to watch sitcoms with you but you've been avoiding me..."

Wanda blushes at the attention and clears her throat. "You could have joined me whenever you wanted. I wouldn't mind...I would have enjoyed the company. Vision does that sometimes."

You grimace softly. "That nosy old can."

She chuckles confusedly. "What's your problem with Vision?"

You make a grumpy face. Adorable, Wanda would say.

"He's annoying, that's all." You say. "I don't trust machines. You wouldn't trust them either if you had been raised by one."

Wanda bites her lip hesitantly. Everything she knows about your past-all the Hydra experiments and your unusual childhood with what was once Dr. Arnim Zola - came from reports and television. You were more than Captain America or the Winter Soldier ever were. You were the Hydra's Angel of Steel. Unyielding, unstoppable, and immortal.

The last part, Wanda wasn't sure was true. Especially since you are burning up with a fever on the couch.

"Vision is not like Hydra. He's not like anyone I know really." Wanda comments, but your grimace increases and she doesn't understand why.

"Okay, I get that you and he are super friends." You sneer, and she laughs, shaking her head.

"I wouldn't say that." She mumbles suddenly half sad, looking down at her lap. "I wouldn't...I wouldn't say I have any friends."

You frown immediately. "What, but what about the Avengers?"

She chuckles humorlessly, looking at you with a certain irony. "We're co-workers, Y/N. We barely know each other, and I'm only here because I literally don't have a home country anymore. I think it's all more out of convenience, or pity."

"It's not pity." You insist by shrugging. "You're young, but you're no innocent child. No one feels sorry for someone as strong as you. It would even be disrespectful. I think everyone is kind of grateful and relieved that you fight with us and not against us."

Wanda stands thoughtfully over your words, an indecipherable expression on her face. You haven't lied, you really are sincere. She appreciates that. You shudder briefly, the fever still lingering.

"I think you need friends, Wanda." You murmur then, half drowsy. Wanda thinks it's the medication. "I would be your friend if you wanted me."

She smiles warmly. "I would love that." She murmurs, and you smile with your eyes closed. But you struggle to stay awake, and your hand searches for Wanda's on the couch.

"Keep me company. Put something on the TV, to entertain you."

"You're kind of bossy, aren't you?" She teases, and you chuckle lightly, feeling exhaustion catch up with you. But Wanda only releases your hand when she's sure you're completely asleep.

–//–

When you wake up, it is morning. 

And you know that Wanda has slept on the couch next to you from the blankets and pillows. There is a sitcom paused on the living room television, and the smell of food invades your senses all at once, effectively waking you up.

"Good morning, Wanda." You greet her in a gruff tone, in a half yawn, and she would have been startled if she didn't have telepathy and couldn't feel you awake from the first second.

She turns her face away from the stove and smiles at you. "Good morning, Y/N. How are you feeling?"

You shrug, moving closer to see what she was cooking. "Better, I guess. A little sore still." You murmur, leaning over her to spy the pan. "Hmm, that looks good. And it smells wonderful." You rest your chin on her shoulder. "So does the food." 

Wanda drops her spoon in shock, completely flushed, and you burst into laughter, stepping away at once to get juice from the refrigerator while muttering "too easy."

Her face remains hot for a good ten minutes. You pay no mind to it and thank her for the food when it is ready.

"I think I'll go back to sleep, my head is hurting."  You comment, and Wanda nods.

"Take more meds, they help with the fever." She instructs, but you grumble. She raises an eyebrow. "Please?"

That makes you smile. "Since you asked so nicely." You tease, grabbing the medicine box her magic brought to you. Wanda twitches her nose and hesitates softly before asking.

"What's your problem with pills?" You lick your lips, taken aback by the question. She swallows dryly. "Sorry, I'm being nosy."

"No, don't worry about it." You say quickly, smiling at her. "It's just that Zola used to keep a strict pill diet with me. No real food, you know? I was a weapon, a soldier, not a person to them. I don't like the feel of swallowing pills, it reminds me of... those days."

Wanda reaches out for your wrist, stroking the skin lightly. "I'm really sorry, Y/N." She says, and you nod. She feels the need to confess something, too, and murmurs, "I don't like needles these days. Because of Hydra. Before, I couldn't wait to turn eighteen and get tattoos. But now, just the thought of piercing my skin reminds me of their tests, and I just-"

You interrupt her monologue by raising her hands to the height of your face. Her breath hitches as you kiss her palms, staring into her eyes.

"They took a lot of things from us, but we got something powerful in return." You murmur, kissing her left palm again. "I'm really sorry for all the pain they caused you, Wanda. But this here is a beautiful thing about you now."

She knows you are talking about her magic, and she feels her ears chatting fire like her cheeks. Her instinctive action is to retract her hands, but you firm your grip gently. "I don't see it as a blessing." She mutters, avoiding your eyes. "I just... hurt people."

You interlace your fingers, and Wanda swallows dryly, looking down. You don't look away from her. "Hurting others is what they taught us, but we are more than that. You need to trust that you can be more. I see that you are already."

"I'm not sure about that." She confesses in a soft snort, but you don't shy away, holding your hands together.

"It's okay, I can show you." You assure her with a soft smile. "That's what friends are for, right?"

She relishes the possibility of not being alone anymore but somehow feels that her smile is almost forced. She doesn't understand what bothers her. It's nice to have friends.

You let go of her hands suddenly, because you both hear the sound of the quinjet outside the Compound. 

Offering a farewell wink, you leave the room to go rest as you promised, and Wanda is left to explain about the sketchy of a slumber party in the living room to a curious black widow that came back from a mission.

–//–

You feel better in a day or two and are annoyingly charming when you brag about your quick recovery to the team. Wanda doesn't back down and jokes around about seeing you whimpering in pain on the couch, eliciting a few laughs from the other members.

You do not mind - You are happier to see her comfortable and friendly with the rest of the team to care about the teasing.

Wanda's training is different from yours, her powers are more unstable, and she lacks confidence in using them. And since you are the stronger member to take the damage, you offer to practice together.

"That's not a good idea. I don't want to hurt you." She declares with training gloves and an unsure expression as you appear in the outer courtyard, dismissing Natasha with a nod as if the whole story has already been talked over between you two.

You chuckle indignantly. "That's quite unlikely, darling. Relax, take a deep breath, and bring it all on. I want to see how much power you hold back."

Wanda looks at Nat unsure, but the widow shrugs, nodding in encouragement and taking a few steps back to stay out of range. Good thing you guys are on the outside.

"Come on, Wanda. I trust you." You say looking into her eyes, a few feet in front of her, waiting for the impact.

She swallows dryly, trembling hands raised toward you. "That's a terrible idea." She murmurs again, though she throws a small blast against your chest. It makes you chuckle.

"It tickles." You comment smugly. "Come on, Maximoff. You can do better than that. Again."

She sighs and tries. It's bigger, but still, you don't get out of place. And to irritate her, on your next attempt, you hold the energy ball with one hand. 

"You call this an attack, princess? I'm almost disappointed." Wanda knows that you are just trying to get to her, and you are succeeding because the next one is strong enough to shake the yard and make curious Avengers leave the building to watch the training.

You, however, just adjust your feet on the ground. Her power has hit you hard, and your eyes are the same color as her magic.

"Damn, that was... better." You praise with a breathless laugh, and Wanda swallows dryly, adjusting her position. You let her magic flow through your body until you are controlling it in your hand as well. "If I give it back, would it hurt you?"

"I don't think so."

"Get ready then." You ask, and she takes a deep breath, nodding in permission. You strike, returning her energy, and Wanda braces herself for pain, but it does not come. Her magic doesn't hurt her, even if it comes from you.  It makes you smile. "Lovely. Are you taking notes, Nat?"

The widow, who Wanda had forgotten was present having been so wrapped up in the training, rolls her eyes slightly. She has a tablet in hand. "Of course I am, boss." Ironizes Nat, making you laugh. 

"Wanda, your power doesn't hurt you. That's interesting because it could mean that it's not purely stone magic like mine or Vision's. If we get hit by our energies, we get hurt. Maybe your abilities are innate, and the stone just has awakened them. It's too early to tell, however."

Wanda shifts the weight of her feet, half uncertain of what to say. She is honestly, quite surprised that simple training provided such an important insight. Natasha whistles impressed.

"Sometimes I forget how smart you are, Y/N. It must be because you're a pain in the ass most of the time." Teases Romanoff, receiving a giggle and a middle finger.

"Fuck off! " You retort laughing before assuming a fighting stance again. "Wanda, how about you try to take me down now?"

She sighs, fists in the air. "You may be annoying, but I still don't want to hurt you." She taunts, managing to make Nat laugh and you let out a cute gasp of exclamation.

"See, Nat? She likes me." You scoff, and Wanda knows she's blushing, so she forces her magic against you, this time at your feet. You lose your balance, but only for half a second before you effectively absorb her spell. Wanda finds the scarlet color in your irises oddly attractive but pushes the thought away immediately. "No, no. Use the setting to your advantage, Maximoff. Knock me down, without bewitching me."

She sighs but looks down at the ground. Her next attack is on the ground, but just when she thinks you are going to fall, you float before using the rubble as steps and spin majestically in the air before falling in front of her, standing up.

Natasha rolls her eyes. "Show-off." She mutters, but You don't pay mind to her, giving Wanda's shoulder a gentle pat.

"Great move, Wands, but your response time is bad." You say. "I made all my way to you and you kept looking at me with that cute little face. You can't do that on the battlefield, yes?"

She blushes, but she giggles and pushes you away gently. She's not thinking about the nickname, and she's not thinking about the compliment, she's not. 

She tries to fight for real after that, following your instructions and ending up out of breath with her hands on her knee after almost three hours of training.

You are sitting on the floor now, as sweaty and out of breath as she is, but with a proud smile on your face that makes her stomach churn with anxiety.

"You're a talent, Maximoff." You compliment her sincerely. "We'll make you an Avenger yet."

"I'm already part of the team." She recalls stubbornly, only to see your expression twitch adorably. 

"You know my point."

"I think you're being a bit of a patronizer. Don't you agree Nat?" 

The widow hums in agreement immediately, only to torment you as Wanda is doing, both of them reveling in the almost desperate expression on her face.

"What? No, I'm not!" You defend yourself indignantly until you realize it's a joke. "Ha-ha, very funny. You two are hilarious. I'm here being a good teacher and you're making fun of me."

Wanda chuckles, dismantling your whole moody posture as she helps you stand with a tug and doesn't let go of your hand, face way too close for someone with an audience.

"Thanks for the help, detka. I really appreciate it." She thanks you by looking you in the eye, and you swallow dryly, nodding stupidly. All too aware of the proximity and Nat's presence with a teasing smile for the scene.

Wanda gives you a wink, muttering something about lunch before letting you go. You barely register her words, scolding yourself for noticing how pretty she looks in her training uniform.

Stupid thoughts, honestly.

[dreamwritesimagines]

Enamored [2] - First Impression

A.N: Thank you so much for your amazing feedback my loves!❤ I hope you’ll like this chapter as well, and please don’t forget to tell me what you think, thank you! ❤

Summary: First impressions are important.

Warnings: Mentions of death and sickness, Regency era society and social rules.

Word Count: 3k

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Your first night at your father’s house was quiet.

You knew it would be. You knew that when the night came, you would find yourself staring at the ceiling surrounded by the silence, already dreading tomorrow. Getting used to living here wasn’t going to be easy, especially since you were pretty sure that you weren’t welcomed by your father who had decided you were illegitimate all because of false rumors about your mother.

But it wasn’t like you had anywhere else to go now.

You huffed out and tossed and turned in bed before you kicked off the covers and got off the bed. It was pretty clear that you wouldn’t be getting any sleep tonight, and you figured perhaps a glass of milk could help so you put your dressing gown on, tied the silk rope around your waist then opened the door to peek your head out. It was completely empty as you assumed it would be, so you made your way downstairs and after spending almost five minutes wandering along the hallways, you finally found the kitchen.

But as soon as you stepped in, you saw the man inside who looked over his shoulder upon hearing your footsteps, then a gasp fell from his lips.

Oh.

The Duke.

He looked exactly like his portraits, that was how you recognized him. He was just a little older, and the stern look he tended to have on his portraits was gone from his face as he stared at you in shock, your mother’s name leaving his lips and you snapped out of your thoughts before you stepped into the light and dropped a curtsy.

“Y/N,” you corrected him. “Your Grace.”

A silence fell upon the kitchen and he blinked a couple of times before pulling himself together.

“Yes—” he said, “Yes, I know. For a moment I…you look just like your mother.”

And nothing like him, which you assumed was one of the many reasons why it was so easy for him to believe you weren’t his.

“Yes, people say that,” you managed to say in a murmur. It was strange to see him in person rather than his portraits and even if you wanted to curse at him, you knew your mother would never want it.

She’d had you promise her when she was sick.

And thinking about your situation from a different perspective, you didn’t have any other choice but to be civil with him. Your mother was gone and you only had some extended family on the other side of the country, all your friends and your mother’s friends were in France and you were—

You were alone, except for Elias. Elias was your only rock in this whole mess, and he was also the only person you trusted, but you didn’t know if he could do anything if your father ended up changing his mind about you being there.

His voice snapped you out of your thoughts.

“Welcome to London.”

“Thank you for having me,” you replied drily and he let out a bitter laugh.

“Of course,” he murmured before he downed his glass of water and you walked past him to get the milk on the counter, then filled yourself a glass. You took a big sip, trying to ignore his gaze on you.

“Your mother—” he spoke after a moment. “On her…on her last days, how was she?”

You pressed your lips together, trying to keep the unpleasant memory at bay.

“Fever makes a person see things,” you said after a beat. “That’s what the doctor said. Towards the end, she was sure you were in the room, my lord.”

That made him shut his eyes for a moment as if the weight of your words was too heavy on him but you couldn’t find it in your heart to care about that. It was highly likely that the duke did not have a guilty conscious anyway.

“I shall leave you to your peace,” he said and put down his glass. “Elias says you have your own maid but tell Mrs. Greene to assign someone to take you to the modiste, and whatever else you need. I assume you need new dresses and jewelry for the season, there will be many balls and gatherings.”

You frowned slightly at the implication of him expecting you to attend all of those things as if he wasn’t ashamed of the rumors, but you dropped a curtsy.

“Thank you, your Grace,” you managed to say even if all you wanted was to tell him you didn’t want his help, not after everything.

Perhaps you didn’t want it, but you needed it. You needed his help, at least until you found love and got your happily ever after, which you hoped would be soon.

Then you could put everything else behind you and be happy and free. You were sure that he wanted you elsewhere as well.

“Good night,” he said and walked out of the kitchen, leaving you there almost restless and you heaved a sigh, then downed the milk.

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You were woken up by a knock on the door next morning. You scrunched up your face before opening your eyes, and turned your head as Lucie stepped inside.

“Bonj— good morning, my lady.”

“Good morning,” you said with a yawn, then sat up in bed. You could see the folded paper in her hand but even without that, the guilty look on her face was more than enough to make you realize that something was happening.

“What is that?” you asked and she lingered by the door for a moment, then walked to pull open the curtains, making you squint at the bright sunlight filling the room. You rubbed at your eyes, then tilted your head.

“Lucie?”

“The breakfast is ready if you wish to eat it.”

“What’s that in your hand?”

She shifted her weight and bit at her lip.

“I couldn’t decide whether to keep it from you, but I gathered you would want to see it.”

You frowned, then patted the spot beside you. She heaved a sigh, then sat down to the edge of the bed, looking down at the folded paper.

“Is it a letter?”

“No,” she said. “But…your brother mentioned a lady called Whistledown yesterday, do you remember?”

You nodded. “Of course.”

“Well apparently she’s this influential figure in the ton, do you remember Madame Picard back home?”

“Oh how could I forget about Madame Picard?” you said, making a face. “She ruined Edith’s reputation, she had to marry that man because of her rumors.”

“Yes well, apparently London has its own Lady Picard under the name of Lady Whistledown, and it make it worse, her rumors are both accessible and on paper,” she said and placed the small paper in your lap. You picked it up, skimming the lines.

Dear Reader,

It seems that this season is bound to become much more interesting with the arrival of Duke of Avon’s alleged daughter Lady Y/N in London.

For those of you who are not informed on the scandal that took place years ago, Duke of Avon divorced his wife and sent her to France after accusing her of having an illegitimate daughter with her paramour who happened to be his best friend. The former Duchess, may she rest in peace, vehemently denied those rumors.

It seems as if the Duke has had a change of heart, or is now convinced that Lady Y/N is his own flesh and blood. This Author can’t help but wonder the reason behind this sudden change.

Is it possible that deceased former Duchess was honest from the start?

And dear Mademoiselle Y/N, allow me to welcome you back to London. On behalf of the ton, we can’t wait to see you at the next ball.

Lady Whistledown’s Society Papers.

You stared at the paper in your hands, then crumpled it up and tossed it aside, your jaw clenched.

“Of course my mother was honest!” you said, “These wretched rumors, they didn’t even—no one even knows her, they keep lying about her!”

Lucie shot you a sympathetic look and you gritted your teeth.

“Does she have a lot of readers, this…Whistledown woman?”

“I’ve heard the servants say the whole London reads her papers.”

You slipped a little in bed. “Oh, how wonderful. So the whole London knows I’m back and has already heard about my parentage issues.”

“I’m sorry, my lady.”

You shook your head, crossing your arms. “I have half the mind not to attend the next ball now that I’ve received such a cold, plotting welcome.”

“Well…” Lucie trailed off, “Is it possible you’re forgetting one important thing, my lady?”

“What is it?”

“Your mother would never let you sulk at home when there’s a ball happening.”

A small burst of laughter escaped from your lips and you ran a hand over your face.

“She would give me hell if I proposed such a thing,” you mused and Lucie nodded, with a smile on her face.

“Besides, the nearest ball is a week away. All this buzz should die down by then.”

“For some reason, I doubt that.”

She thought for a moment, “Even if they don’t, you still have to attend.”

“Because my mother would want me to?”

“There’s that of course, and…” she trailed off and stole a look at you. “Aren’t you a little bit curious about the gentlemen of London?”

You gasped, pretending to be shocked. “Lucie!”

She stuck her nose in the air. “What? I’m just saying, I’ve heard things downstairs.”

You sat up straighter, a fire sweeping over your cheeks. “What have you heard?” you asked but before she could even say anything, someone knocked on the door.

“Chérie?”

“I’m awake!” you called out, and Elias opened the door, then stepped in as Lucie stood up.

“Good morning, dear sister,” he said and flung himself on the bed dramatically, “For a minute there I thought you’d sleep forever.”

“Hey!” you exclaimed, pushing at him. “Travelling takes its toll on me.”

“Mm hm,” he said and the crumpled paper caught his attention, so he reached out to grab it, then shot you a look.

“I take it you’ve already seen it?”

“And I take it you were planning to keep it from me?” you asked back and Elias turned a little on the bed, propping his head up on his fist.

“Maybe.”

“It’s vile,” you said. “Lucie tells me she has a lot of readers within the ton.”

“Try everyone,” he muttered. “Not to worry. She should be distracted once you mingle with the crowd.”

“Or the opposite.”

“I forgot how cheerful you are when you wake up,” Elias pointed out, making you poke at him. “Ouch! Fine, alright— we have so much to do today young lady, you can’t stay in bed all lazy.”

“Like what?”

“We’re going to the modiste,” he said and you tilted your head.

“Today?”

“Yes, you need a new wardrobe and she is the best at it.”

“I brought a lot of dresses with me Elias.”

“I know, but some of them might need fixing to fit into British fashion rather than French, so lay them out and I’ll have people come to the house today, they will get them and fix them.”

“So then we’re going to the modiste because…?”

“It’s a new season,” he said. “Father wants you to have around, I don’t know, fifty new dresses minimum so that we can distract the public from the family issues. Give them something else to talk about.”

“I want a black ribbon,” you said after a beat. “For my mourning. I expect that the Duke will not let me wear anything black, but I’d like to have something to symbolize it.”

Elias squeezed at your hand and offered you a small smile.

“A black ribbon and sixty new dresses.”

“I thought you said fifty.”

“I’m going to go up the longer you stay in bed.”

You let out a small laugh and pushed him out of the bed. “Fine then, I will be downstairs after I’ve had my bath. Happy?”

“Delighted!” he called out as he walked out of the room and you shook your head, then turned to Lucie, still smiling.

“Could you please have someone draw me a bath?” you asked her as you got off the bed. “Thank you.”

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By the time you were ready, you could hear the butler announcing someone but you paid no mind to that. You didn’t want to socialize with the Duke’s guests, and you had plans for the day; Elias had promised you that he would take you to see some sights after you were done at modiste’s. You had picked a lavender colored gown for the first half of the day, appropriate for your mourning but also for strolling around the city.

Your mother would’ve been proud.

You decided to go downstairs to look for Elias, murmuring a song to yourself but as soon as you passed by the drawing room you stopped dead in your tracks and held your breath, your heart getting faster for some reason.

It was the gentleman you had seen from afar when you had first got to London, Elias’s best friend you had heard so much about.

Anthony Bridgerton.

Your eyes hadn’t deceived you earlier, he was very handsome. That had to be the reason why your heart was beating in your throat, and your stomach did a little happy flip when he seemed to notice your gaze on you because he lifted his head from the newspaper he was currently engrossed in and turned to you, a look of—

Surprise?

No, it couldn’t be right. A look of acknowledgement it must’ve been – crossed his face and he stood up from the chair while you stood still by the doorframe, the hallway busy with the servants coming and going.

“….Good afternoon,” you managed to say after a beat and he bowed slightly.

“Lady Y/N.”

Of course. He had to have heard of your name, if not from Elias, then from that wretched woman’s society papers today.

“Mr. Bridgerton, I suppose?” you said with a bright smile and he gave a curt nod.

“Lord Bridgerton.”

“Oh right,” you said, trying your hardest to distract yourself from the way your heart was pacing. You looked behind you, then turned to him again, rocking back and forth on the balls of your feet for a second.

“Are you here to see Elias? I can send someone for him if you’d like?”

“I have already sent someone my lady, thank you.”

You lingered at the doorway, stealing a look at him and bit down on your lip. His dark gaze slipped down there but only for a moment before it snapped up again and you swallowed thickly, still unsure of what to do.

And why on earth was your face on fire all of a sudden?

“I…” you trailed off, checking behind you again to make sure there were servants in the hallway that could see you standing there, and that you two weren’t alone. Reaching out to grab at the doorframe, you picked at the wood with your fingernail just so that you could do something with your hands, seeing that his presence was making you nervous. “I’m afraid your traditions are much different than what I’m used to, so I have no option but to shout at you from the doorway.”

A ghost of an amused smile caressed his lips and he took a small step towards the door, the distance still present between you two but not as much as before. Although he was still in the room and you were by the hallway, you couldn’t help but think this was as close as possible without you shouting at each other, given the circumstances. Out of the corner of your eye, you could see Lucie stepping into the hallway and you shifted your weight from one foot to other.

“Less shouting,” you commented, a bright smiling lighting up your face and he tilted his head.

“Seems to be the ideal amount, wouldn’t you agree?”

“Oh certainly,” you played along. “And I suppose this is where I thank you for your hospitability.”

He tried to repress a small smirk threatening to pull at his lips. “My hospitability in your own house?”

“No, in London,” you stated. “At least now I know it’s not customary to yell at people from doorways. It should make blending in at the next social gathering much easier.”

“Much easier?”

“A little easier, considering the situation.” you corrected yourself, then shot him a smile. “But one can hope, after all.”

“Chérie, who are you talking to?” Elias’s voice carried out into the hallway and your head whipped around to see him approaching you. When he caught a sight of Lord Bridgerton over your shoulder, a look of realization dawned on his face and he slapped his palm over his forehead.

“I forgot!” he told Lord Bridgerton, making him let out a small chuckle.

“Oh I could tell.” he commented, his dark eyes flitting from your brother to you and you could feel nervousness crashing down on you, leaving you unable to even meet his gaze. Elias’s brows pulled into a frown and he cleared his throat.

“Sister, could you excuse us please?”

You wetted your lips and nodded fervently.

“Of course,” you said. “Um— it was a pleasure to meet you, Lord Bridgerton.”

“An honor, Lady Y/N.”

You lingered on your steps only for a moment before you turned around and made your way to Lucie as your heard the drawing room door close. You let out a breath, pressing a hand over your chest to feel your fast heartbeat and Lucie tilted her head as you leaned back to the wall.

“My lady, are you alright?” she asked as you tried to calm yourself down.

“Yes,” you managed to say, fanning yourself with your hand, “Yes, I just… let’s go out to the yard and take some fresh air, shall we?”

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Chapter 3

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MHA Chapter 301 Analysis

“The Wrong Way to Put Out a Fire: Part 1” 

  ***SPOILERS AHEAD***

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Who was Rei Todoroki comparing her children to and which child did she see peeking through the door that day?

Chapter 301 is incredibly revealing and shows that a flashback based upon a single character’s point of view is not and cannot be read as the full story. 

What we knew of the Todoroki family - specifically Enji and Rei - mainly came from Shouto’s flashbacks during the Sports Festival and what we essentially overheard the family discuss when the focus is turned on them. 

However! It isn’t the full story! It can even be misleading! 

That is a mind-blowing way to write in a series like this. Just 100% good use of double-meaning and reread value. Horikoshi is honest-to-goodness impressive.

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Chapter 301 reveals at least the first half of the downfall of the Todoroki family structure and life. 

We have a marriage built upon an agreement. 

A man with growing power and influence marrying the daughter of an old-money family that had lost its prestige over time. Both parties understood that they had their part to give. Enji gives Rei’s family a continued connection to power, influence, and money while Rei offers her ice quirk to create the kind of child Enji Todoroki wants.

Enji as the Hero Endeavor has at this point already given up on becoming Number 1. He’s seen the gap between himself and All Might and judged that he comes up short. He simply isn’t able to bridge that gap, but he believes a child of his can - given the right quirk combination. 

Enji and Rei have their first child, Touya, and have a second, Fuyumi, to be his companion and support. 

Enji told Touya what he was going to be, built up the expectation (and pressure) that he’d teach him to be the Number 1 hero. But Touya’s body and quirk don’t match. His quirk harmed his body. At no fault of his own, Touya was judged as incapable of fulfilling Endeavor’s vision. 

All Touya wanted was his father’s attention and affection. He pushed himself to prove he still could be a great hero with his quirk, and hurt himself trying to get the attention he needed as a child. 

Enji, being an extremely well-written flawed character, wants two things: 1) to continue his vision and 2) to get his first child to stop hurting himself. So, he does what he believes would solve both problems. Continue pushing for the successful mix of quirks. His thought process likely being: If Touya could see that he couldn’t bridge the gap and wouldn’t have to, surely he’d stop. 

But to Touya, he’s being replaced. Left behind. Erased. 

Being cast aside and told to try something else only fuels his desperation to prove himself. It fuels his anger too. He continues to self-destruct. 

And he lashes out. 

Where was Rei during all of this? 

Rei, meanwhile, had been upholding her end of the marriage arrangement. Having child after child put her under more and more strain, exhausting her. Maybe she believed that Enji’s plan would get Touya to stop. Maybe she believed that they all had their part to endure to be in this family. 

Then, Touya lashed out at her and the infant Shouto with his flames. 

I think this will be continued in the next chapter, but this is what we already know:

Touya lashed out at Rei and Shouto when Enji pushed him away

Shouto lived mostly separated from his siblings for the majority of his childhood, including Touya who was still present

Enji put Rei in a mental hospital when she poured boiling water on Shouto

Touya’s “death” occurred shortly after Rei was sent to the hospital

If Touya lashed out only once, there wouldn’t be a need to separate Shouto from him for so long. It’s likely Touya lashed out more than once. As sad as it is, it is also possible that he was not put through proper therapy and instead was sedated or punished. 

If Touya wasn’t getting the help he needed and he lashed out with his fire more than once?

How do you stop your child from burning you, your other children, or himself? 

How do you put out a fire?

You pour water on it. 

You use whatever water is nearby. Over and over for as many times as he ignites himself. 

That was Rei’s job as Touya’s mother. When he was upset and burst into flames, she said it herself: “We have to cool him down!” 

So when Shouto overheard her talking to her mother in his flashback, what he understood was that he was being compared to Endeavor and his mother couldn’t stand to raise him anymore. 

But what did Rei see? Who?

She saw Touya as he was when his hair was still turning white. Her baby boy, Touya, overhearing her compare the children to him and rejecting him. Saying she shouldn’t be the one to raise Touya because she can’t help him when she can clearly see he needs help. And in that state of extreme stress, she thought Touya had come to lash out again. 

So she grabbed the water she had on hand and poured. 

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This chapter is incredibly revealing and just the title card itself seems to point in this direction. 

“That’s why I’m here.” Rei is stepping up again to put out a fire. This time hopefully the right way. 

Enji was a terrible father, but not just for the reasons we believed we knew. He never let go of his vision and expected Touya to give up for the same reasons he did. Endeavor pushed Shouto to succeed not only for his vision but also to save the life of Touya whose drive he couldn’t understand. He was and is an extremely flawed and desperate man. 

Rei hurt Shouto, but not because he reminded her of Endeavor. She was scrambling to put out Touya’s flames, trying to do what she could with what little support, mental stability, and options she believed she had available. Pushed to the brink, she slipped up and mistook Shouto for Touya. 

Enji and Rei are both incredibly well-written flawed parents. We’re only now seeing the fuller picture.  

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This is in part a continuation and expansion of this post. 

This post is based on my real-time realization discussion on the Toshinoumu discord manga chat page. If you want to read the Toshinoumu AU/ “I Am...” Series, check out our @toshinoumu blog for more information. 

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Additional fun/sad fact courtesy of @aoimikans​: Rei’s favorite flower is a blue lily. Lily roots and bulbs have been used for medicinal purposes. They were boiled into teas to treat stomach disorders, fevers, and assist women in labor. They have also been used topically to treat sores and burns. The essential oil is used to help treat depression. 

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ALSO I SEE YOU DOCTOR YOU CAN’T HIDE! 

[xinxiaogato]

— live to tell the tail

summary. you unfortunately lived in a universe where general gorou had found out ms. hina was… himself. and just your luck: gorou’s first impression of you was a crazed devotee of the ms. hina fan club, but you had only been in the wrong place at the wrong time. will you live to tell the tail?

love interests. gn!reader x a watatsumi general, an inazuman vagrant, the balladeer, and the kreideprinz.

warnings. infinite pet puns, referenced character death, weapons, swearing, blood, alcohol, harassment, and mentions of war.

word count. 1,150

chapter twelve ⌇ drop the cattitude

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“sir, how did the meeting go?” you inquired gorou, fighting tooth and nail with your flushed skin.

with a cross of his arms over his chest, gorou bypassed the question and put you in the hot seat. “did you leave because you were feeling unwell, reader? you seem like you have a fever.”

“do they?” kazuha piped up with concern, approaching from behind and lightly pressing the back of his hand against your forehead.

gorou’s tail instinctually shot upright at that, and he blurted out, “reader, can you spare a moment?”

“...o-of course,” you sputtered, stepping away from kazuha and politely nodding to him as a mild form of bowing.

you thought that was the end of your conversation with the roaming samurai, but the impish smile traced across kazuha’s lips spoke a thousand words that could be summed up with “i believe in you, reader”, as he saw this as a golden opportunity for you to get some alone time with gorou.

could the ground of teyvat not swallow you up any sooner?

in complete and utter silence, you and gorou meandered past several dummies used for target practice and some lances on the ground that were neglected during the fort’s restoration. you stooped down to pick them up, which elicited a quick directive from gorou to leave them alone.

when you returned to his side, a wave of guilt washed over gorou, just like yesterday when he was ministering to your cuts and abrasions.

life on the battlefield called for a general with an ironclad heart, but it still hurt each time he lost a familiar.

a soldier that fell while under gorou’s command was a man with a significant other and children waiting for him at home. a man with unparalleled allegiance to protecting his nation’s citizens. a man who had ambitions, hopes, and desires—his own form of a vision despite not being an allogene.

gorou still couldn���t get used to it no matter how much he had witnessed during his time as a fighter, and had kazuha not been alerted of your life in peril the day before… 

“what did you want to talk about, sir?” you queried in a courteous manner, drawing his attention to your slightly dilated pupils.

gorou wasn’t so sure of the answer himself. the blood that rushed to his head at the height of a battle had randomly surged forward when he purloined your company from kazuha… which was really uncalled for.

“i wanted to know your opinion on… m-mountaineering,” gorou finally quavered. he immediately bit his tongue after, but the words had already tumbled out of his mouth.

i’ve gone insane! he brooded over shamefully. it was ridiculous for the adroit leader of a military force to pull you over for something so trivial.

mild bewilderment commingled with a trace of uncertainty that flashed through your eyes. if you expressed a dislike toward mountaineering, would things just get worse before they could’ve gotten better between you and him?

you stifled an awkward laugh behind your hand. “um, general, i don’t know if you could tell during our trip to yashiori island, but even a flight of stairs in the city winds me…

“i think mountaineering really suits you though!” you appended, partially to kiss up to him.

an unexpected warmth climbed into gorou’s heart. “what makes you say so?”

gorou couldn’t say he was the most confident about his figure. sure, he maintained tip-top shape and worked up a sweat during the daily routine of exercises he crafted for optimal results…

…but no matter how many deadlifts, planks, and squats gorou did, he couldn’t get himself to have a similar build as that of the other men in watatsumi’s armed forces. when they would go to the aisa bathhouse after a long day of training, one could find their revered general a bit scrunched up in the corner, bashful about his physique.

caught off guard, you maundered, “well, mountaineering isn’t easy. my old friend from mondstadt gave it a shot, and then he had his unconscious body hauled back to the city by the branch master of our adventurer’s guild. it takes a lot of physical effort, so you look like you fit the bill, sir."

you explained this in a long-winded way as you did your absolutely damndest not to make eye contact with gorou’s very bare stomach. it was as clear as day that the guy worked out.

gorou’s lips quirked up into a little grin. typically, his associates didn’t hesitate to take playful jabs at his small frame. even her excellency treated him like a child for his not-so-impressive height, rubbing the spot on his head between his ears whenever she had the chance.

peering over gorou’s shoulder, you noticed that the sun was sinking into the horizon where the land met the sky. 

i haven’t written in that stupid notepad today! you agonized with a bitter taste in your mouth. you still couldn’t believe kazuha hopped onto the gorou x reader train without a second thought.

“it’s late, so i won’t keep you for long,” gorou said, sensing the urgency in your shaking eyes. “best to turn in for the night, and rest well. your training begins tomorrow.”

“looking forward to it,” you couldn’t help sarcastically drawling as you twirled around to head for your tent. “see you in the morning, general.”

on the spur of the moment, gorou stepped forward to clasp you by the hand, making your heart do a somersault. you and gorou dropped your gazes down to your touching fingers, as you both weren’t expecting that to happen.

gorou’s furry ears laid tightly against the top of his head, uncharacteristic of their usually alert stance.

“reader, i’m… i’m glad i got to talk to you today.”

seeing the corners of gorou’s lips lift, you felt the hairs on the back of your neck rise and your eyebrows arch upward. for a second, you thought you imagined his words.

he was glad?

you weren’t the type of person to blush at the drop of a hat, but there was no mistaking the heat creeping up your neck and into your face. your relationship with gorou had gotten off on the wrong foot, so…

“i’m glad, too,” you spoke gently, slipping your hand out of his. “um, good night.”

without looking back at gorou, you scurried away like a little rat and burst through the flap of your tent, shaken by the tingly feeling still dancing on the palm of the hand gorou grabbed.

your eyes fell on your notepad that you had stowed away under your pillow. all you wanted to do was just hit the sack, so you hoped the divine priestess didn’t mind that this entry was basically a filler.

day three — my stomach feels weird, but, like, a good weird. is that normal? the general must be so popular.

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I have a bunch of WIPs right now and I think maybe rambling about them will help me finish one or two? I don't know. Give me input if you'd like on any of these. Do these sound interesting to you? Any requests of your own?

Chapter 23 of BTDT - I have a rough outline. I know what I want to happen and we're finally getting back to the smut portion. Like, this is the start of smut that's gonna last 3 to 4 chapters. I just need to get this beginning out of the way and I'm not liking how it flows. I need to get Savage out of the house and Halfbite (though I think she might show up in later chapters too) that way the reader can make a call

Pegging Savage Headcanon - That's basically all this is. It was inspired by a tiktok and the subsequent conversation I had about it with a friend. But it's exactly what it sounds like. Reader asks Savage if she can peg him and Savage gives an enthusiastic yes. It's just that being a zabrak and a force user- he's able to outlast you even when he's on the receiving end lol

Savage sensing you through the force - Inspired by an idea sent to me by a friend. Savage is stuck in a meeting with Maul and his advisors while you're down below in Savages rooms, in his bed, thinking of him. And Savage can't keep his mind from straying from the meeting, watching as you touch yourself to thoughts of him.

Sparring with Maul - the reader is a force user with no master. Obviously Maul is interested in training you but you're doing just fine on your own. Maul decides to test that theory by challenging the reader's skills and is more than impressed with what he sees.

Maul Saves You From The Cold - I think this is going to have to be a long-form fic. It's soul mate based and filled with smut. What happens when Maul finds his soul mate half-dead in the frozen tundra, surrounded by bodies, while his target gets away. Not outlined, and only a couple of paragraphs written. This one.... will probably need to wait I think. At least until after BTDT.

Savage Smut - Just a sex scene I have planned out for Savage. I could probably just make this part of the earlier fic with him that I mentioned. But it's just very detailed in what Savage likes. Specifically watching you, and forgetting to take care of himself because he's too wrapped up in memorizing your every detail.

Quicky in the Archives with Anakin - It's like 90% written. I could post it as is but I think it needs some more substance added to it. Typed it all up on my phone in a fever dream so I think my sentence structure and grammar is too repetitive and needs to be fixed. I could probably get it ready in an afternoon but idk if I like it anymore. I just think that angsty Anakin is so hot. Animated series and Episode 3 Anakin are just wonderful and I want to ruin the man. I think it could be 2 or 3 chapters of smut, all of it exploring Anakin's issues with attachment.