#I never will be

[allnerdythings]

THE WAY HE TASTES HIS LIPS AFTER😭😭😭😭

Joyce & Hopper

[mar-is-talking]

i don’t believe the false narrative they’re trying to shove down our throats that anderperry is fanon. it’s not. it’s very much implied in the looks, their lines, the “neil not being accepted by his father” storyline, the walt whitman analogy, them taking care of each other and supporting each other, the fact that even the poets knew todd needed more time recovering than any of the others, their LOVE. peter weir you absolutely knew what you were doing.

[evilbookworm]

No I’m not getting over the gay clown movie and you can’t fucking stop me >:(

*broken sobs*

[queen0fm0nsterz]

some very mixed feelings and ages brought to you again by yours truly

[llama-sidekick]

What if I cried bc the dads now have a picture of me and my favourite phannies with our names on it

[children-of-moss]

Listening to the final problem acd ver, we playing the game: will I cry because of the same story a third time? More likely than you think

[asexualenjolras]

Ryan Kopel as Evan Hansen is one of the most incredible casting choices made in the world of theatre, and I need to talk about it.

Before I start, I want to preface by saying that I understand that Evan is a complex autistic-coded character. That being said, though, I really do see parts of myself in his character ... and especially in Ryan's portrayal of him. As someone that also has pretty severe anxiety and is autistic, it was really refreshing to see someone similar to myself, and my struggles, on the stage played with so much care and delicacy.

Ryan's Evan stims, he walks on his toes, he struggles with eye contact, he stutters over his words, he doesn't pick up on Jared's jokes and he looks visibly lost whenever he can't think of the right thing to say (or anything to say). And the thing that I found most interesting about his portrayal was the mask that he gave Evan whenever he spoke to the Murphys. He forced himself to speak even when he was struggling, and his voice would change to a deeper, more socially acceptable tone. His posture would change entirely, his stimming would become more subtle (little tugs at his shirt or strokes of his fingers) and he'd appear more confident, even though we, as the audience, know that he isn't.

Masking is something that I rarely see portrayed right, but Ryan as Evan did it so well. And I cannot get over it. I will not get over it.

And then there's the overstimulation that we see Evan Hansen go through: he puts his hands up over his ears, with his eyes darting around the room for an escape while bouncing on his toes and flailing around. His 'Words Fail' was on a whole other planet - the desperation in his voice and the genuine pain as he screamed the words. Oh. My. God. I'm never recovering.

I think my favourite thing, and the most important message that I've taken away from the show, is that Evan Hansen doesn't mask in the final scenes. He's completely himself. And that's okay. That's absolutely okay. You don't have to lie or change yourself to live and you will always be found.

Anyway, thank you to Ryan Kopel for (once again) taking so much care with the characters that you play. It really did make me feel found.

[the-13th-battalion]

I'll be chilling and then I'll remember the way Nico Robin screamed "I want to live" and then oopsie I'm on the floor sobbing, completely overcome by hope

[oc-character-development]

Today marks one year since the end of my second favourite tv show.

One year since Endeavour ended.

One year since I cried my eyes out as my parents poked fun at me for crying over a tv show because I never do that (as far as they know) and I had to accept there will be no more (official) Morse stuff anymore.

I still am not over it and I still love the show to pieces so to mark the occasion and the fact I’m never going to be over this damned show, here’s a poster I made a while back for fun:

[speakofthedebbie]

sorry bout that last one gang

[moonspirit]

MAPPA. We've seen it. Now we need more of it.

COLLARBONES.

[gunsatthaphan]

:((((

[kugiscki]

throughout the day i randomly remember that nobara is alive and nobara antis across the globe are suffering because of that and i just can’t help but smile

[addictt-with-a-pen]

no one is ever going to want someone as broken and defective as I am, I will never be loved or cared for.

[made-my-peace-with-all-the-bad]

Notebook au Marbit is literally all I can think about and the yap urge is reaching its highest point