#I need to dream of chemistry and math fucking

[whowebber]

I'm not even kidding guys, yesterday night I had a dream that Logan and Oscar is on paddock with a baby on Logan's arm and he is smiling and saying something to the baby that is carbon copy of Oscar with Logan's hair and eyes and Oscar is behind them smiling shyly.

I woke up immediately because what was that and saw it was dawn. IN OUR CULTURE THERE'S A LORE THAT IF YOU DREAM SOMETHING DURING DAWN IT BECOMES REAL.

Now 1☝️ question! How many years Do I have to wait to witness that in real life.??

And what is this loscar obsession of mine!! Like I am genuinely scared for them because of my weird Behaviour!

[nyashykyunnie]

//rant

Sometimes I wish people will just say it out right in my face I'm the biggest mistake they've ever made. I wish my parents would just say that I'm their biggest mistake.

???: You cant do anything.

Yeah. No I cant. I can't paint for the life of me. I didnt waste time for almost a decade trying to learn art. I didn't spend countless hours trying to learn what can make my art pretty that it can stand out and I can make a career out of it.

Yeah, I'm fucking lazy and stupid.

"You're smart, you just wont put in the effort"

No I'm not, you're just saying that just because I could fucking recite 50 scientific names of dinosaurs when I was fucking five doesnt mean I could fucking do math and chemistry. I'm fucking stupid why can't you just accept it?

"You're not doing what we want"

Because I dont want to fucking be a nurse, I don't want to pursue it. And I know it in my head I should because my art career is fucking out of the window because no matter how hard ai tried it's the same thing over and over, I'm pathetic and the fame I get only lasts for a few seconds and then it's back to zero. If I take nursing it means I've fully given up on what makes me a 'person'. If I do that, I'm the same as dead.

"You can paint, that's all you can do"

"You're not making any friends, why are you acting like you're anxious? Anxiety is for the fucking weak"

I do in fact have anxiety and I hate having to physically talk to someone verbally. I have a social battery and whenever I talk to someone in real life I just wanna fucking run away and be done with it. I'm not making any efforts to have new friends because I'm batshit scared it's as simple as that. Anxiety is for the weak? Then I'm fucking weak.

Shut up and just say what I make is trash don't fucking sugarcoat your words trying to make me feel better. You're already crushing my dreams mind as well shatter it even more.

"Do you even think about your future?"

Yeah, I fucking do. A lot. And what do I see? A lonely, delusional, pathetic asshole who cant function properly without the need to see made up people just so I can have a fucking reason to look forward to tomorrow. I think about how that future me is gonna be one of those sad and lonely bastards who are rotten to the core with depression. What do I see in that future? Just a fucking loser

"What do you even want for the future?"

I want to fucking die.

[blood-loving-leech]

uh, big tw for a rant abt my sui attempt and like complete detail so definitely don’t read it unless you’re in a good state of mind please ily all maybe don’t read it at all actually idk i just needed to get it out and pretend someone actually cares

also it’s very long

today last year i went back to school after a fantasy dream trip to California with my dad for sailing

i sat down in my math class and i realized i hated my school, i was failing at everything i used to be good at, i had lost all my friends, my ex had ghosted me for a week and a half, my teachers thought i was weird for bringing a teddy bear to school in 10th grade, and my parents were always dissapointed,

i was worth nothing to nobody, and i had pills in my backpack

so i sat through my math class, and my chemistry class, and then i went and sat in my hallway for lunch, alone

i sat there with my pills in one hand and my bear in my lap and i stared at them, and i stared at them, and i held my bear, but before i could let myself chicken out i swallowed em without even taking a sip of water and then my hand was empty

and i panicked for a minute

i thought about going to the bathroom and purging

but then i calmed down, i just sat there with my bear for lunch, and felt numb, id have cried maybe if i could, but i couldn’t

tbh i didn’t think there were enough pills to kill me actually i just was kinda hoping they would anyway but two periods later i could feel it

it was really cold, like ice, like slowing down, and i started thinking about my childhood, i wrote a story for my english class that day, 5th period, about a person drowning in an icy lake, remembering all the warm days they’d lived, and my tablemates loved it, they were asking question about like, what it was about, and i just told them i didn’t know

i spent 6th period trying not to pass out and failing, it was so cold even with all my sweaters, from the pills and all the weight i’d been losing, my hair was greasy and my clothes were dirty and i was slumped over in my seat in the very back of spanish thinking “maybe ill actually really die after all”

i went to drama club after school and sat in the crappy auditorium chairs and wrote two letters, one to my parents telling them i didn’t expect the pills to kill me and one to my ex, one i never sent, it’s still sitting in my room sealed in an envelope with two of his favorite teas, im too scared to read my desperation but i can’t throw it out either

i went home and i set everything up on my desk in case i really did die and i finished the day and went to bed not really expecting or at least kind of hoping i wouldn’t wake up, i didn’t even say goodbye to my ex, or anyone else, there wasn’t anyone else to say goodbye to anyway

but i woke up the next morning and on the walk to my bus stop i was furious, i was miserable, and i was numb, i watched the pine needles pass under my feet and i could only think about how fucking stupid it was that i was still alive, and i learned nothing from the previous days fear because i told myself that after school, after therapy, i was going to take the rest of my bottle that was in my room

and yeah

idk

i’ll make another post about the hospital cuz fuck

but like

that was a whole year ago now

i remember all of it

and now it’s this year

and i’m still alive but like

nothing has really changed and honestly? what the fuck

why does nothing change

why does nothing get better

why didn’t i get help? was i not sick enough? why have i had to try and fail over and over again to pull myself out of that hole with only a therapist who got fired and a therapist who quit and a doctor who said im too fat for an eating disorder?

i mean what’s the fucking point

[stargazeraldroth]

You can’t hear it but I let out the most disgusted sound at the thought of… Eugh. MATH. Just the thought leaves a bad taste in my mouth. Anyways, nothing wrong with laziness! It’s good to take some time to yourself to relax and decompress, if you need to- And hell, sometimes the executive dysfunction just gets to you. I know it gets to me.

Error sees Ink having a good time and decides that it can’t fucking stand while he’s around to Cause Problems and Wreck Shit. It’s definitely angst central for Ink either way, though- Never even got to confess, the poor guy. And hey, don’t we all need a little bit of therapy?

As you should have! Gin is a soft boy and a good guy, and I, for one, think even his visual chemistry alone with Ink is incredible… I love the two of them a lot, haha.

Mutually supportive Cross and Ink is my everything… I imagine that it really hit them that they’re healing from everything once Ink lends Cross his scarf (which is deeply important to him, what with all the things he’s written on it), or maybe even Broomie, and Cross let’s him wear his coat or his scarf and bundles him up like a lil burrito. Just. Soft Oreo bros owns my heeeaaart-

Oh, he definitely won’t be the best- Glitchy boy is awkward at best and wildly unqualified to provide comfort in this scenario at worst- But I’d like to think he gets an A for effort or something, you know? Even if he. Uh. Accidentally upsets Ink with Blue and Dream puppets.

Corrupted or Fallen Stars can be great… In theory. But sooo often they’re just flipped with the Bad Sans, and! That can be a fun idea in and off itself, if it’s in the concept of something that it blatantly a roleswap AU! But it normally isn’t, and it just ends up grating on me- Hell, off the top of my head, I can tell you semi-passable reasons for Secretly Evil Stars would be leaning so hard into positivity it becomes addiction and delusion (Dream), being tired of having his emotions invalidated and giving people the “real him” they apparently want (Ink), and being tired of being underestimated and desperate to stay with some of the only people who seem to take him seriously (Blue). That! Is literally just, I came up with it in five seconds! People don’t even give them the dignity of that, though, it’s just “They’re evil and my poor misunderstood murder babies are angels.” But like you said! How are they secretly misunderstood angels! If you’re going with “oh, they don’t WANT to hurt people,” why are they doing it- They aren’t necessary for the Balance, like you said. Is Nightmare forcing them so he can cause negativity? Is Error? Is something else going on??. And that’s not even getting into how all of that would wildly unbalance another set of Guardians- Reaper and Life. The excess death is their problem, now, the Bad Sans certainly ain’t sticking around to deal with the aftermath! Am I too passionate about this? Mayhaps. Shall I stop? Absolutely not.

And yeah, you’re definitely right about that- Outside pressure isn’t guaranteed to justify mass murder to the people you’ve affected with it. People have still lost their homes, and their loved ones, and so many other things- Why, exactly, does the alleged agony of being “forced” to do awful things negate the pain of the victims of those things? It doesn’t make sense at best, and it feels callous at worst. It feels… Really, really shoehorned in, for lack of a better term, just to make the “misunderstood favs” loved and adored by the masses, if that makes sense.

No issue with the ranting here! I quite agree with you, after all. And as for Ink… Well, it just makes sense! Like you said, he adores the Multiverse, so him writing off or ignoring something so, so vital for its survival just… Doesn’t make sense? Like, if you really don’t want him to know, it should be for angsty purposes- Fate, shielding his eyes and ears from it, completely cutting off anyone trying to tell him. Can you imagine how horrible to would feel, once someone was finally able to tell him? That would be a much better story arc, in my opinion- Someone prevents the Protector from doing what he’s dedicated his existence to, and the realization and healing that stems from that as they all work together to heal the Balance… Oh, and also- I see so many people calling him “Fate’s Favorite,” which, like. People. People know being the favorite of an abuser isn’t really a good thing, right? Even if there isn’t physical abuse, being the favorite can lead to some horrific things… Ahem. Moving on from my own rant- Yeah, Error definitely seems the most likely to not know or ignore the Balance, I think. Like you said, ignoring it even benefits him!

Hhh if you’re sure I’ll send a separate ask!!! Might take a bit, since I’ll have to write it all out… I should probably come up with a name, too. Just call me… Rainy Anon! Or Rain, heh.

Let’s be real, saving the brush is what Ink would want. And besides, if we save the brush, maybe we can use it to save Ink! Provided he hasn’t. You know. Gone insane from isolation and emotional overload. God only knows what having the emotional consequences of his entire existence hitting him at once would feel like. Quite frankly, I’m… Not sure he’d be able to process it. And would he even be Ink, once he got out? Would he start thinking it was all a dream he made up to comfort himself in an unfinished world???

I mean, to be fair, it could be seen as a response to everything in the AU. Ink is running, and the other Stars don’t know why!

He gives some much needed snark and sarcasm to some rather bleak situations. Also, he’d definitely be the sort to sarcastically narrate his brother’s fuckups.

🌧️ Rainy Anon 🌧️

AM HERE!

I believe I based his character off the mask I've seen him with, but I also kinda did it from memory?? Anyway, I made him "Kitsune Udon". He and Ink do have a connection, uh- they were like best friends until Ink got kidnapped/abducted LMFAO

If you wanna take the full Oreo bros into consideration, then we need to bring Reaper into the mix. I'm honestly kinda surprised no one talks about him in an Underverse setting. Being the God of Death means nothing to people these days smh. From X-Tale's destruction to Error committing a massacre against the AUs, Reaper's probably working overtime. He's definitely pissed about the situation. I think he would be interested in investigating the situation, which can then lead to him finding out about everything.

Error's trying! If anyone says anything about it, he gets defensive and says that they should be grateful he's doing anything for Ink in the first place! How ungrateful of them!

I remember once reading about how if we were to be realistic with the characters, Dream most likely wouldn't be as optimistic and friendly as he canonically is. But you're right, it's hardly ever as simple as being a roleswap AU; if anything, a personality swap AU might be more fitting of a description. I really don't mean to nitpick people's writing and stuff like this, I try to more encouraging when I can be, but these are things we need to consider when we want to make a story like this. Yes, characters who are evil and don't have the reason revealed CAN be interesting... but this isn't one of those cases, I don't think. I think I especially hate how they always make Ink the primarily evil one, the "root of it all", and the reason for it? He's soulless. Like... is that really the best you can do? You can use many reasons to make Ink the villain of the story if you really want to, and you target a condition he has? A condition he has no control over? Erm... kind of leaves a bad taste in my mouth. I vaguely remember seeing some posts that discussed this exact thing, and how using his soullessness as a source of evil for his character has tones of ableism. I only vaguely remember because I glossed over the posts, didn't feel like reading at the time, so I could be getting that wrong. If anyone has read posts like that and wants to give their opinion, feel free to do so.

And you're right about that- I NEVER, EVER see any of these stories address Life and Reaper's roles in the Balance. They're easily getting the most screwed over in this situation because the Gang's causing unnecessary death with their murder sprees, which is tipping the Balance... which is what they're against the Stars for??? They only focus on Error and/or Nightmare for some reason... stop leaving my Circle of Life babies out of stuff-

It's because even though they preach about how negativity is essential to the Multiverse and "Dream needs to understand that", they don't actually WANT negativity there. For example, they always question why Ink allows negative AUs or AUs with tragic stories to exist, such as Horrortale. Aside from the fact that Ink has zero control over what AUs are made, those AUs are basically counters to positivity-oriented AUs such as Haventale. They preach about how negativity has just as much of a right to exist freely... and then condemn its existence in ways they don't like. The thing is, Horrortale and Dusttale happened as a consequence of events; the CORE shutting down led to the disastrous conditions in the Underground, the constant RESETs and Genocides led Sans to become Dust, etc. These are all examples of NATURAL negativity and how life works; it isn't meant to be pretty. And if you think about it, isn't this exactly how they make Dream think in these stories? Negative AUs shouldn't exist. BUT WAIT! Dream's in the wrong, don't forget that! Just ignore the fact that the Gang antagonizes Ink for the existence of these AUs! Dream's the bad guy, the Gang has no faults! And you wanna know the most fucked up part about expecting everyone to forgive Error and the Gang? The ones who don't are frowned upon and treated as unreasonable, in my experience. Which makes zero sense??? It's like being asked to forgive someone who murdered your best friend, family, and/or pet because they were forced to... like that doesn't change anything??? Like maybe you'll get some pity, but you sure as hell aren't getting forgiveness anytime soon!

Ngl I keep forgetting Fate and Destiny are in these AUs because I don't use them. I don't really like the concept of them, I just stick with the Creators... they pretty much have the same role. But that one's just a personal preference, it doesn't really change much about the contents of the story. And you are absolutely right, being an abuser's "favorite" isn't a good thing. That mindset is concerning. That's like saying it's a good thing to be a groomer's "favorite", like... no it isn't. Oh, but by their logic, it's okay because it's Ink! Any possible negatives of being Fate's favorite are ignored because Ink just can't be a sympathic, dimensional character! Nope, nope, nope! He's evil, through and through, and anyone who tries to look deeper than the surface is blind and being manipulated by him! Like... did the Gang hire y'all to spew this propaganda? This feels like propaganda. This reminds me of something I saw where someone listed what Sans AUs are green flags, and they put Error there. Like... do y'all know anything about Error's character? This is the genuine question.

I'm so sorry if I sound kinda bitchy in this rant, but I just can't find the logic. I try not to nitpick at individual writing styles, but literally everything I have read that deals with FGOD and this roleswap dynamic has been one-dimensional and lacked depth. Again, that probably sounds ignorant, and I don't mean for it to, but the sheer amount of "Gang good, Stars bad" and nothing more has essentially ruined the entire concept for me. This is probably why I prefer FGOC, because the characters at least have some depth beneath the surface. Dream is like one of the nicest and most compassionate characters in canon, why you gotta vandalize him like this?

Alright! You shall be the Rainy Anon!

Long live Broomie! The worst part about Ink's situation is that he's surrounded by people who are... blank. Just like when he doesn't have his vials. And he hates when he gets like that. He's probably overthinking and everything. Love that for him, you know?

Nightmare's absolutely RELISHING in the negativity! It's just so, so good! And it's even better because Dream- goody-two-shoes, wouldn't-hurt-a-fly Dream- is the one who caused it. I can picture Nightmare laughing evilly and kicking his feet while stuff goes down.

[hallo-anon]

I say this nicely and with love. HOW DARE YOU GET ME HYPERFIXATED ON A BAND AU THAT HAS ALMOST NO CONTENT! again this is not a bad thing. I love the idea -Sune Anon

I DID THIS FOR YOU!!!!

141!College/Band Au Part 3

C/W: one mention of abu$e

Since part 2, I've been working on Alex and Farah, so there here now.

Here are my totally original ideas on how everyone knows each other

Quick note, I am American, so that'll be the system I'll be using. This will also probably be very confusing but this is how my brain works, enjoy!

Gary and Simon have known each other the longest. They met when Simon was 7 and Gary was 9. I haven't figured out the whole story yet, but it's in the making!

Then Simon met Price. Price and Simon’s father were friends. QUICK NOTE, most abu$!ve people are extremely manipulative. Price had no idea what Simon's father was doing. When Simon was 10, his father was investigated and arrested. Price then fostered Simon, going on to adopt him when he was 13. So original, I know.

Now here’s my best at making this chronological…

Going a little back in time, Kyle met Alex in highschool. Kyle was 16 and Alex was 18(Simon would’ve been 12). I don’t know if y’all's schools did this, but we would do collaborative projects with higher grades. During a science collab, Alex and Kyle were paired, and Alex was pleasantly surprised when he seemed to get the only competent student in the class.

In the same highschool is where Ghost, getting his nickname in 9th grade, met Kyle. Ghost was 14 and Kyle was 18. They met in band class, and Kyle took it upon himself to protect the odd freshman who always wears a face mask. Kyle and Roach, getting his nickname in 10th grade, were pretty much bound to meet,  Ghost rarely went anywhere without Roach. Roach was already in the highschool guard, so he knew of Kyle and Kyle knew of him, but this is how they actually met.

When Simon was 16, he was introduced to Nik. A year later, Price and Nik got married. That's how Simon met Laswell, who is actually the dean of the college. Funnily enough, Nik only goes by Nik and not Coach Price or something with his last name. Almost none of the students know their married. In fact Ghost is the only one that knows.

Now we’re moving into college. Sharing a public speaking class, Gaz, getting his nickname sophomore year, met Farah, who goes by Karim. Karim actually has no requirement for the class, but she had dreamed of trying to change to world for the better. Gaz would help Karim in perfecting her English. Kyle then introduced Karim to Alex, who was in an Arabic class. The two now study together, Karim helping Alex with his Arabic, and Alex helping Karim in her English. Shipping potential???

Kyle met Soap, given his name back in 10th grade, in their shared chemistry class. They knew of each other because of band, but here is how they fully met. It’s actually a funny story. Gaz, a criminal justice major, accidentally enrolled in the advanced chemistry class. When he saw a familiar face, he very quickly asked for help. I believe the words “Fuck, shit, fuck, shit, help me.” were said. Now Gaz, Soap, and Roach, being in a medical lab tech program, study chemistry together. Roach and Kyle then start studying biology and forensics together.

Next was Soap and Ghost. Ghost is a psychology major who was forced to take a math class for credits. He’s not really known for his math skills, so Gaz thought it was a good idea to introduce Ghost and Soap to try and help Ghost. It did not work. Ghost was too shy too proud to ask for help. But, it just so happened that Soap needed help in his literature class, and him being much more sociable, asked Ghost for help. Soap invited him to his and Alex’s, being a linguistics major, study group, and by the insistence of Roach, Ghost joined. Ghost never really talked, just sat there quietly and marked important notes and mistakes. This lead to Ghost joining Soap’s math study group with Roach and Karim, an engineering major. That’s how Ghost and Karim met, and they bonded quickly for Ghost standards. Ghost, once again, never really talked much, just listened and took notes.

Ghost and Soap actually became closer through the campus coffee shop. Each would stop by and one time, they synced. Ever since then, Soap would chat with him in the mornings even if Ghost didn't chat back, and sometimes give him one on one tutoring. That's how Soap found out that Ghost was just embarrassed and not an asshole.

Just to make everything clear: 

Ghost is a psychology major totally not to become a therapist to help other not go through what he did all alone and is the youngest(19) and has been in college for 2 years. He graduated early. He only goes by Ghost and barley anyone knows his actual name. He plays percussion, mainly the drums.

Soap is a chemistry major and is the second youngest(21) and is 3 years in. He also graduated early, but he took a gap year. Everyone just knows him as Soap, so he just accepted it. He is the color guard captain.

Roach is enrolled in a med lab tech program and is the same age as Soap(21). He is also in his 3rd year. He prefers Roach rather than Gary, so everyone calls him Roach. He is in the color guard.

Kyle is a criminal justice major and is 23 and has been attending for 3 years. He went to a community college for 2 years first. Kyle is half and half on Gaz, that's why I switch between Gaz and Kyle. He plays the french horn.

Karim is an engineering major and is the second oldest(24) and has been attending for 2 years. She is a transfer student from Urzikstan and had gone to college for 2 years there. Unfortunately, her credits did not transfer. She just goes by Karim. She's in the campus's Track and Field team.

Alex is a linguistics major and is the oldest(25) and is 1 year in. Before he enrolled, he served the US Military for 5 years. He doesn't have a nickname except the obvious ones, like Gimpy, Pegleg, shit like that. He's one the campus basketball team. It took a while for his teammates to trust his ability to play due to his prosthetic leg.

Price is the band director, but he also teaches Arabic, political science, and tutors Russian totally not just to be in Nik's classroom. He goes by Mr. Price, and is a retired veteran. Little head canon, any time he makes a joke, a student always says "Priceless".

Nik coaches the color guard, but he also teaches Russian, aviation and aerodynamics, and aerospace engineering. No one really knows what he did before he started teaching. He's has multiple rumors about what he's done, almost becoming the campus cryptid.

[sun-ni-day]

OK, so this is just me doing the math in my head

Variable 1

- Shanks said so himself that he dreamed of working with RDA and that's why he fought like hell to get the role of Daniel Jackson

- they hit the bullseye from the get go, chemistry is insane and they unabashedly roll with it, going full on married couple on screen

- slash fiction explodes, naturally

- show's creators freak out and basically forbid showing of affection between the two

- it doesn't work, slash is still going strong, so creators change writing and basically disintegrate Jack and Daniel's relationship

- Michael says fuck that and leaves

- he meets Lexa, gets together with her and comes back to the show

Variable 2

- on numerous occasions at cons Michael would bring up slash fiction unprompted. Mostly he would feign displeasure, but it's very clear he is not being sincere

- on one occasion while the show was still on air, at one of the cons Michael was at with Lexa, after she left the panel earlier than him, he - again, unprompted - brought up slash fiction and started saying something along the lines of "I get that their relationship can be viewed as" and right about as he was going to say "homosexual" he was stopped by panel's host; he tried to continue but host kept insisting he stops, and only upon hearing words "orders from the missis" Michael dropped the topic for good

- at a con couple years back during panel with RDA and Michael both said that they played relationship as gay

My take away from this is this: I think Michael is bisexual, and homophobia from show's creators is what drove him away first time around. Having met Lexa, who I also think is bi, he got the support enough to feel able to come back, but also she clearly is the one with business drive in this couple, and with planning to have a family they needed the money so Lexa could have maternity leave. She convinced Michael to cool it with producers but at the same time prompted to push for his vision of the character so he could have satisfaction from his work. In time homophobia clearly subsided (as evident with the writing) so he stayed on till the end.

[gaydinosaurbananamilkcarton]

++ Basic info: I'm from Chicago, you can call me astraeus. I'm currently 16. (Born in 2007. Probably won't change this post ever again so if it says I'm 16 in 2026 don't assume I'm stupid or a creep. I'm just lazy)

++ Socials: I have Twitter and Pinterest but who the fuck wants to follow someone on Pinterest? My username on Twitter is @narkahticks

++ Rules: (that will probably be ignored cause I do it all the time) If you're racist, homophobic, misogynistic, transphobic, basically if you're a piece of shit don't try to talk to me. I don't really give a fuck if you follow me or not.

++ Interests/More info/Brain Dump: Anime: Demon Slayer and Naruto. My face characters are Inosuke and Shinobu. I hate Tanjiro and zenitsu, and have a love hate relationship with sanemi and obanai. I hate obamitsu. Naruto: I like Sakura, Sasuke, Shikamaru, Ino, Guy, Neji, and Obito. I hate naruto. I spend most of my time reading, I'm in varsity marching band (trombone/baritone), I play electric guitar, I like science (specifically physics), I fucking hate drawing, math, chemistry, and the Beatles, I love music and I will make a career out of it one day (honestly I should've been started cause I do have the talent), I hate school, but my favorite subjects are physics and history. I listen to jazz, rock music, and pop (kpop counts obviously), my favorite bands include AC/DC, Paramore, Deftones, Limp Bizkit, Evanescence, Pantera, Slipknot, Limp Bizkit, Pierce the veil, Black Beil Brides, Bring Me The Horizon, Bon Jovi, the who, cream, and some others that I'm too lazy to type out.My favorite guitarist of all time is Angus young, Malcolm young, and Stevie Ray Vaughan. My favorite kpop group is SHINee, my favorite musician of all time is Frank Sinatra, and my favorite songs of all time are: dancing in the dark by Bruce Springsteen, and Sweet home Alabama, in the mood, come fly with me, love ballad, get ready, dream lover and runaround sue, and won't get fooled again. My favorite song to play in marching band is currently candy rain, fire, and neck. I want to go to the air force one day (maybe when I get tired of music and I'm in need of a break), My favorite colors are red, black, and orange. I fucking hate yellow. My favorite dancer is Bobby Brown, I love dinosaurs. My favorite is a triceratops, a T rex, or a brachiosaurus. I love to fight but hate the attention, I also want to start my own circus. I love fast cars and motorcycles (I also love working on them), I love to argue, and I tend to have very different opinions on things, I like to build things. I want to go to MIT for physics, mechatronics, politics, and bioengineering. My favorite holiday is Christmas. My least favorites are thanksgiving and new years. I like to dance and tap dance. My favorite guitar is the gibson sg. My favorite rhythm guitarists are Malcolm young and James Hetfield. My favorite guitar strings are the d addario pro steels. My favorite drink is orange kool aid or banana milk. I don't like chocolate. My favorite food is candy. I only like grape taffy or gummies. My favorite book is poison study by Maria V Snyder, or five little monkeys bake a cake.

[vayneoc]

15 Questions

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Hi kleff (｡･ω･)ﾉﾞ

1. Are you named after anyone?

Either no or I am not aware of it.

2. When was the last time you cried?

Can't really remember. Maybe this winter?

3. Do you have kids?

No, thank you.

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Sarcasm is a passive-agressive witty. I prefer not-needing-a-therapist witty, also called "irony".

5. What sports do you play/have you played?

Surprisingly, there is a list.

Handball at school for a few years. Mostly used it to travel, since we as a team have been to Moscow, Saint-Petersburg and some other places (lol no, we weren't that good, but still had some competitions, for an unknown to me reason).

Some track-and-field. Left after a month, i guess. Just did it because my school teacher told me to try. The vibe was off.

Aikido. Got a new girl to our class, she was into it. Went with her for a couple months or so. Was fun but not my thing.

And like 3 years of gymnastics around age of 6-7. The funniest part, because I don't remember these 3 years at all, it's only that my mom said it was whole 3 fucking years. I have only like 3 core memories about it and genuinely thought it was about 4 months total at most.

6. What’s the first thing you notice about other people?

Actually, nothing at all. I just vibe and see if it feels okay. Leave, if it's not.

7. Eye colour?

Gray.

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

Happy endings. Life in today's society is one big drama anyway, give it some fucking sense with my happy fluffy stuff.

9. Any special talents?

Sometimes insanely adaptive.

Make not working shit work, even if at the beginning i have no idea what it is.

Speak like 3.5 languages, if it's any special.

10. Where were you born?

Northern Russia.

11. What are your hobbies?

Obviously gaming and VP. Also drawing, learning languages, coding, some calisthenics, some guitar. And I play D&D sometimes.

12. Do you have any pets?

A cat at my parents' place. Not quite "I" have it tho.

13. How tall are you?

170

(5'6/5'7 something, dunno, not american)

14. Favourite subject in school?

Math, Arts, Chemistry.

Math is cool. Love it.

The last one is here only because the teacher let me make tea in a cup at her lab and drink it during the class. Love her.

And my arts teacher taught me how to use a tattoo machine at the housekeeping classroom after school (yeah, i know, fucking awesome. ao3 worth tier of awesome. which is a lot). Shout out to her, she's cool.

15. Dream job?

Hanako Arasaka's sugar baby is a job, right?

Right.

If not, just a cool software engineer with cool tasks and architectures to project would be neat. Don't forget the high ass salary.

Tagging @bnbc and @soul-invictus because I can. And no one can stop me.

Join if you feel like it. Or not.

[byhees]

good morning vi!! how is your day going far?? it's treating you well right? or else just tell me i'll make it even better ^^ umm, my day was kinda of okay because i don't know what to think but my dad got admitted to (dental) hospital because he has some infection and his jaw swelled a lot.

he's okay now and my mom will go later, after cooking lunch for us (me, my sis, my bro and granny) and then later that night i complete writing three words for three subjects each and my hand is paining right now :(

i guess i started writing at 9:50 pm and ended it at 3:15 (#_<-) that was the first time i completed my work, all satisfied and tofay i'll treat myself with chocolate or ice cream <3

w_w, you dance?? c'mon i need to have a dance with you vi :( that's so nice — what kind of dance did you learn, i leant bharatanatyam since young and i stopped learning it in 8th grade and due to that my body is so fucking stiff whenever i try to dance to other genres ヽ（≧□≦）ノ

and i think i don't know much about myself, my likes or dislikes but i surely have a few?? i like to sleep ^^ and i used to take singing classes but i stopped because while i was going to my class, a dog came running back at me and bit my frock (i was safe, it didn't bite my ass, lmfao) and i was so traumatised for life — i didn't step outside my house since that day 😭😭😭

but i find that memory so funny because i ran crying, "mummy!!!!! hhaahahahha" lmfao, i can't stop laughing at myself. so embarrasing :) and i like cats, hamsters and hedgedogs </3 i thought of using 🦔 for myself but since you were already using it, i thought i'd use my fav flower.

and i even like biology (my dream was to be a gynaecologist, but everything shattered because of a diabetic doctor 😒) and physics, math. no no no for chem because it's all shit and what are those names?? iupac?? common names?? wtf !!

i don't think there's more about my liking because i'm often confused about myself and i don't know what's right or wrong for me, hehe!! well, this got pretty long. but thanks for appreciating my mindset, i'm trying to improve myself as time goes by. gotta be a hot/baddie ceo of a company (in the future)

i'm currently studying in grade 11 so my boards are totally near (march 15 😭😭😭) there's a lot to study but it's frustating :/ but i'll try my best to study but my mom wants full marks .😔🙏🏽i just woke up an hour ago and writing this for you <3

i'll have to write one more chapter for physics and i'll be fucking done with the records and watch a web-series (in my mother tongue ^^) see you later vi!! hope it goes/went well with you!! *muah (i like you too [platonically] 💘💘)

— 🌼(and this got long, hehe)

hii 🌼! sorry for the really late reply, i just got back from school ㅠㅠ but my day’s been pretty okay, just a whole lot of assignments but i guess that’s normal… and, oh no.. that’s really sad to hear :( i hope your dad’s feeling better now, sending him all the well wishes <3

make sure to take breaks, okay? i wouldn’t want you injuring yourself! i had a pretty nasty hand injury recently because of all the continuous writing i’ve been doing, and i definitely wouldn’t want that happening to you :(

congratulations for finishing your writing, take a well-deserved break anonie <3 are you planning to publish it anytime soon? if so, i’ll read it, for sure :)

and yeahhh i dance keke ^^ have been for a super long time, since i was little! i mainly do hip-hop, but i don’t pride myself to be very good JEKEOWJ

++ i like to sleep too ^^ and singing classes?? that’s so cool! always wanted to go for a singing lesson, but i’ve never found the opportunity / time to do so. and i’m sorry for what happened to you, that’s so scary ohmygosh ㅠㅠ and and, you like hedgehogs too?! this is the first time i’ve met someone who likes hedgehogs as well; they’re just so cute— also, i’m so sorry about the emoji claim &/¥@

no way, i LOVE biology and maths too! one of my two fav subjects fr <3 and i hate chemistry… so i support you on this! and yes~~ be that ceo, i 102882% believe in you <3

my nationals are coming up in a few months and i’m stressing (hahah….) so i completely understand ++ claps for your hard work ^^

really late, but see you later anonie >< enjoy your web-series :)

[lunarticxenia]

Moon Signs Pt. 2

Hi guys here’s part 2 of the moon sign series! After I post this, I’m going to be focusing more on answering your questions, I have a lot to answer. Thanks so much for all the support! Without further ado, here’s Libra through Pisces moons! 

🌵Libra Moon: You guys LOVE attention, and you don’t even try to hide it LMAO. One of my good friends is a Libra moon and he literally loves to say outlandish things just to get a reaction from us and to get attention from us if we’re not talking to him enough in a conversation. Libra moons also love relationships and if underdeveloped they may feel incomplete without one. They can also be very dependent on their partner for happiness as well. However, they are romantic and in love with love. They’re also extremely sensitive and are very feminine. Even in men, it gives them a more feminine touch to their personality. They also hold their morals in very high regard. They have their set morals and won’t change them for anything or anyone. They also tend to hate conflict and usually shy away from confrontation. They’re also too nice, WAYYYYYY too nice. You guys need to be more assertive LMAO. They’re also extremely optimistic and if they don’t believe in that particular way they at least try to be optimistic with others. They’re always reminding you the glass is half full. Also, Libra moons are mad clingy. Even with those they’re not dating LMAO. My Libra moon friend whenever I try to leave the FaceTime Call, he’s like “Don’t go... :(”. They just love to be around the ones they love. They’re also in love with beauty, and all things beautiful in the world. They’re lovers of music, art, film, and literature. Libra moons also have a softness in their eyes, I can’t describe it. This girl I used to like has a Libra moon and her eyes were just so soft. They’re also extremely indecisive, they tend to flip flop between who they wanna be and what they wanna do. They also aren’t shy when it comes to compliments, they will compliment TF out of you. They’re the best hype man. They also put others before themselves a lot, and can be very shy upon first meeting them. However once they feel comfortable around you they open up. One last thing, I feel like they tend to like anyone who’s nice to them...don’t attack me. LMAO.  

🌵Scorpio Moon: I feel like Scorpio moons have about ten different playlists relating to their emotions and still won’t open up to anyone about how they feel. Scorpio moons I feel have such intense emotions that they just don’t deal with them and they tend to implode after a while. I relate to them a lot in that respect tbh with my Sun square Moon, because that’s how I am. You guys are also super passionate and super creative. Every Scorpio moon I’ve met has been really creative in some way whether it be makeup, fashion style, or artwork. I’ve also noticed that this is a very alluring placement, there’s this intriguing way about them, and like Aries Moons, they have a fire in their eyes. Their gaze is INTENSE. They’re also very selective with who they let close to them, they don’t let just anybody in. They’re also very good at reading other people and seeing people’s true intentions. They have an extremely good intuition. If underdeveloped this can be used to manipulate other people, as well as being compulsive liars. Scorpio moons are also very protective over the ones they love. If you mess with anyone they care about, they will kill you. End of story. Also I feel like every Scorpio moon I’ve met has been through the wringer, like they’ve really had some hard experiences, it’s so sad to me. Scorpio moons are also extremely stubborn, remember this is a fixed sign. Scorpio moons ain’t playing, once they’ve settled on something, they’re not budging. Also, can we just say, masters at investigating people. These are the friends you want stalking your ex’s social media. They will find out everything. They’re also really good psychologists as well, almost all the Scorpio moons I’ve met are actually Psychology majors LMAO. They’re very good at finding the root causes of people’s issues. I also feel like Scorpio moons undergo a lot of transformations in their lives. I’ve known a Scorpio moon for about 10 years now and he’s undergone so many different transformations in his life. Mentally and physically. They’re also extremely sarcastic and have a tendency to be pessimistic. They’re also mad scary when angry. I’ve seen them angry before, as an Aries moon, even I get a little scared.... love y’all tho. 

🌵Sagittarius Moon: The funniest people ever. Sagittarius moons always have me laughing my ass off. Their sense of humor is very diverse. They tend to stick with sarcasm and like to say outlandish things to make people laugh. Also, I feel like Sagittarius moons tend to go for science/math oriented careers or at least have an interest in those subjects. I know four Sag moons, and they’re all in STEM it’s actually crazy. They’re also extremely blunt and honest, especially when it comes to people they don’t like LMAO. They make it very clear when they don’t like someone, it’s so funny. They’re also just so much fun, like they’re genuinely so much fun to hang out with. I feel like I’ve never not had a good time hanging out with a Sagittarius moon. I feel like Sag moons however tend to struggle with asserting themselves a lot of times, until they get really fed up.  They’re very much go with the flow kinda people, and this can be to their detriment especially with the ones they love, they don’t wanna rock the boat. However, they also make really good mediators and are good at settling arguments. They also really like to travel, and likely have traveled a lot. All the Sagittarius moons I know have traveled to at least 4+ countries. They love traveling the world, and I’ve also noticed move or want to move far away from their childhood home. They wanna explore everything the world has to offer. My cousin who’s a Sag moon left her parents’ house to move a few states away and my other friend who’s a Sag moon wants to move to the other side of the country. These individuals also tend to like foreign culture as well. I’ve noticed Sagittarius moons tend to like foreign music or foreign tv shows. I feel like they also tend to ignore their emotions when they get sad and just don’t like to deal with their emotions. They also don’t like to talk about how they feel and will brush sad things off because it’s just too upsetting for them. However, once the emotions boil over, just like their anger, they will blow up LMAO. I’ve also noticed that they’re really good at teaching people things? Like my Sag moon friend explained this Chemistry equation to me I couldn’t understand and I got it after 10 minutes. Natural teachers. 

🌵 Capricorn Moon: Guys, it’s okay to open up. You don’t have to pretend to be so strong all the time, you’re not weak for showing your emotions. Anyway, Cap moons have high expectations for people, and will not tolerate any bs from people. I seriously commend them for that. I feel like Cap moons struggle with how their points are being expressed, they can say one thing, but it’s seen as something else. While Capricorn moons may struggle with expressing their emotions, I haven’t found them to be closed off or cold when meeting them. Every Capricorn moon I’ve met has warmed up to me very quickly and have been super nice. I feel like they’re very friendly and once they have a conversation with you they’re really warm and kind. Also, they’re not afraid of anything?? Except for showing their feelings maybe. But like, they’re so open to trying new things like scary rollercoasters and aren’t afraid to fight for themselves if they have to. Also, super fucking ambitious. I wish I could be ambitious. These people will really have like three jobs, be in school, and tend to household responsibilities. I don’t know how you guys do it. Now everyone says Capricorn moons are just analytical and systematic when confronted with conflict, and I personally haven’t found that to be true. If they feel wronged?? Nah. They’re not going to be systematic or logical or anything. They will go off. As for personal challenges, yes they’ll be more analytical. But I feel like everyone boils down Cap moons to emotionless and machine-like nerds, which I find to be very untrue. Capricorn moons are very soft once they’re vulnerable with you, and genuinely feel like they’re bothering people when they show their emotions and feel weak for showing them. Also I’ve noticed that their mom is a big motivator for their success. Their moms always push them to do their best in work and school. If poorly aspected, they could feel too pressured by their moms to do well. Also, they’re so underrated for being funny. They have a really dry sense of humor and it’s well developed. I also feel like they get overlooked for putting others before themselves, when it comes to the people they love they’ll do anything for them. Brb gonna go give my Cap moon friends a hug. 

🌵Aquarius Moon: You guys are just so unique. There’s something unique about each and every Aquarius moon, whether it’s a quirk or a hobby. These people are literally the best to talk to. It’s so easy to have a conversation with them, they really can talk about anything. I’ve also noticed that Aquarius moons tend to be interested in astrology and tarot and things of that kind. Every Aquarius moon I’ve met has been really interested in it, and even involved in it. I feel like they also have big dreams, and have big plans for themselves. Aquarius moons also love to get lost in their music and tend to use it as an escape. This can be a problem because they tend to avoid dealing with their feelings. They also go between reacting to things really heavily vs not reacting at all. It just seems like it goes back and forth. They speak up with things are unjust however only to their friends or online. They just don’t like to deal with face to face conflict in that regard. They also give really great advice. My best friend is an Aquarius moon and she always gives me the best advice. She knows me better than I know myself tbh. I feel like Aquarius moons relish in being unique LMAO. I’m 99% sure they had an “I’m not like other girls” phase. I feel like this placement always tends to space out and daydream a lot. They also aren’t the types to just lash out at people, their anger is more subtle (unless they have other placements of course). I feel like Aquarius moons also have a lot of friends but they tend to have a small group of friends that they tend to be super super close with. They’re also...really charming? I don’t know what it is, but like every single one I’ve met has been really charming and likable. They also have a really goofy sense of humor and love to do wild shit to make people laugh. I feel like some downsides of Aquarius moons are that they tend to be too analytical and rationalize things too much, and they inadvertently invalidate other people’s feelings. Aquarius moons are also super open minded to all opinions. I have a friend who I tend to disagree with on certain issues but they’ve always been open to hearing my opinion. They also love to travel too. I’ve noticed that as well. 

🌵Pisces Moon: To think, I was almost one of you guys. No seriously I almost was, if I were born four hours earlier I would’ve been a Pisces moon LMAO. Anyhoo, Pisces moons are just so sweet. I don’t know how else to start, they literally are the sweetest people and give off this mystical type of aura. They’re very otherworldly. Also, these people daydream 24/7. They put Aquarius moons to shame in daydreaming. This girl I like is a Pisces moon and I always catch her daydreaming LMAO. They’re also extremely sensitive too and feel things so deeply. They try to hide how they feel from people, but you can see it in their eyes. I can always tell when my Pisces moon friend is upset just by the look in her eyes. They also tend to be introverted and it takes a while for them to warm up to someone. My co-worker is a Pisces moon and it took 2 weeks for her to finally start talking to me LMAO. They also have really vivid and wild dreams too. I feel like my Pisces moon friend is always telling me about some wild dream they had like that they were in a castle or in an ocean. They also can be really moody, they can be fine one second and then get really sad out of nowhere. Their emotions are like the ocean. I feel like another downside of Pisces Moons are that they can be very manipulative however this is really with any underdeveloped water moon/sun placement. I also feel like they tend to be escapists a lot. They don’t like to deal with reality a lot, and they see the best in everything and everyone even if it’s to their demise. They’re also super friendly and are nice to everyone they meet, even if they’re reserved they’re still very sweet. They’re also extremely creative too, I feel like every Pisces moon I’ve ever met has some sort of creative hobby. My co-worker who’s a Pisces moon is working on becoming a photographer and her stuff is AMAZING. I think that’s because they see the best in the world and the beauty in everything; and they know how to show that in their work so others can see the world like they do. They’re also super empathetic and are really good listeners. You can talk to them about anything and feel understood. :) 

So this wraps up my moon sign series! I hope you guys liked it! Again, don’t take offense these are just my opinions on each moon sign! Hope you guys enjoyed, and if you don’t see your moon sign here it’s likely in part one. 

[katt-astrophiic]

YEAAAAHHH ASHLEY LORE!!

Everything is under the cut!

Sorry for any mispellings

okay okay, starting off with some backstory!

She is the older twin between her and Zane, being older than him by 2 minutes (although she is the shortest out of the two)

When she was younger, she was bitten by a chipmunk because Garroth told her that, in quotes, “Baby sister, look! It’s Alvin!” And thus she has a bite scar on her hand.

Also, this applies for MCD too, Ashley is naturally blonde and looks like a girl Garroth even though she’s Zane’s twin. So that adds so stuff later!

Anyways carrying on— to Phoenix Drop High!

Her first day was very eventful! Like, she met her two best friend Travis and Aphmau in her homeroom and also managed to piss of a girl and get herself a bully! And it turns out! The bully was a girl name Cadence who was part of the Shadow Knights(who was also dating gene and is Laurance’s older sister)

So yeah, she had the shadow knights on her ass, getting the nickname “Bunny” because of her timidness and prey-like demeanor. Yeah she’s a lot more polite and reserved in highschool. Well, freshman year at least.

Oh yeah! She had hero complex!

At the last hour of the day, it turned out Cadence was her partner in chemistry so she had to deal with that.

Skipping a little bit, Ashley and Cadence are in the bathroom, Ashley hiding in a stall and Cadence going after her. Yeah, Ashley slammed open the door on Cadence’s face.

Cadence and the shadow knights give her some hell for a while but we’ll get back into that later.

Ashley and Travis plan for an arcade “hangout” together and that’s when she realized that “Oh my! I like this dork!” And She won him a cat-erpillar plush. It’s a cat that looks like a caterpillar.

For a science project, Ashley has to go over to Cadence’s house to work on it. After doing half of it, there’s some questioning on why Cadence is in the shadow knights because “I’m here and I want to help you” Ashley kills the mood. She gets kicked out of the house. Ashley!! Stop trying to help your bully dumbass!!! GODDD (Cadence gets better dw)

Oh yeah, you remember that episode where Aphmau comes over to dinner at the Ro’meave’s and Zane is making those comments about Garroth and Aph? Well Ashley sort of joins in too.

See, she always hated the fact that her only friends before were only there to get with Garroth, so the one time Ashley gets a friend (Aphmau) that seems decent, Garroth is already hitting on her. She’s really tired of his shit.

Cut to the next school day, Ashley sees Cadence run off from the Shadow Knights during lunch and debates whether or not she wants to follow because “she has to do something. She should help.”

Anyways, she ends up finding Cadence in the bathrooms at the end of the day and also finds out the Cadence quit the Shadow knights and ended up being yelled at because “I DONT NEED YOUR HELP! JUST SHUT UP!!”

so yeah.

She goes home and cries because she feels worthless because she can’t even help someone.

Zane ends up coming in to help her, even though he said he wasn’t good at helping. He did. Like a lot.

Anyways

The next days are slow.

But one day, during math class, she is given a note from the girl that sits next to her.

She learns that the girl is named Lucinda Whitewitch and holy shit is she Ashley’s bisexual awakening. I am not kidding. I’ll go into that later.

They make it a thing to pass each other notes during class it’s so cute fhdhfhfh.

She then goes to her last class with Cadence and- the girl is actually being nice to her?

And she apologizes???. What the hell?.??

Okay

She passed out for half of the period because she woke up at 5 am that day.

Oh yeah, Aphmau invites her to her slumber party

And Ashley goes through like three stages of grief

Because the girls talk about her “so cool awesome hot dream boat brother” and she’s all “man why the fuck am I always in his shadow”

Get good grades like your brother

Be polite like your brother

Be more like Garroth

It’s awful

Especially considering that before the first day of highschool, Ashley looked like /garroth’s/ twin sister.

Do you know how much that would suck?

Anyways, when Eric barges into the party with his “OH YEAH!” Ashley deadass thought the cool aid man was there.

And then she danced with Lucinda <3

The school days roll around and so does Ashley apparently because Gene is royally pissed because “What did you do to Cadence? Why did you make her leave?” Bullshit.

Ashley is not having it and yells back at him just to almost get punched in the face.

But then Cadence stopped Gene! :D

And then she kidnapped Ashley to her house.

And Ashley says her first curse word at her house! Which is actually a core memory for her because she was able to hear Cadence’s genuine laugh.

But when she ends up getting back home, she doesn’t tell Garte about what happened with her bullying and stuff because that was a reason why Zane got pulled out of elementary (not canon but I’m world building. Jesson didn’t even give half the cast last names fuck off)

She also wants to make plans for the girls to go on a trip because, aside from a few plushies and anime posters, her room is very empty.

She ended up falling asleep behind her door and Garroth fucking slammed it open on her. Mf apologized so much.

Ashley and Luci talk before she goes back to bed again

I’m going to post the chats hold on I love them

OH YEAH!! TRAVIS GOT INTO ROMEO AND JULIET PLAY! as Romeo of course.

So Ashley and Aphmau are fucking stoked and when Travis and Ashley are like almost holding hands out of excitement, she points out how long Travis’ fingers are compared to her.

They’re “pretty”

I haven’t finished writing that part, but Ashley goes and sees him smooch the person in the play and ends up like, imagining it was her and also ends up wanting to distance herself from her crush on Travis

And then prom rolls around

Lucinda and Ashley talk about going at some point in their school years and stuff.

But then when science rolls around, she gets told something very important.

Cadence couldn’t go because of the fact that she was held back and not in the right grade to go and also the Gene was her date and they were broken up.

She had a dress and everything.

So Ashley brings up the idea of just dressing up and eating at a froyo place

At home, Ashley puts on one of Zianna’s old dresses and ends up taking Cadence to a froyo place called Minty-Swirly where she gets Neapolitan froyo and Cadence gets pistachio. Cadence is crying a lot over Gene and stuff and Ashley is there for comfort

OKAY SEASON 2 LETS GO!!

Okay so nothing really happens for Ashley in season two, but there is the development of her relationship with Blaze and the fact that Ein is Ein and fucking hates Ashley for breathing next to Aphmau

So he confronts her

To which he gives Ashley two new scars going down from the inside to her elbows and almost to her wrists. He threatens to do worse to her and her friends if she ever told anyone because he would most definitely lose Aphmau that way. He leaves and that leaves Ashley very fucking confused and crying and bleeding.

Blaze ends up finding her and picks her up!! We love a best boy!

He breaks through the window into the nurses office and that’s all I have written for season two

MORE PHOENIX DROP STUFF

in junior year, she joined in Zane being part of his Jury and went through her emo phase.

She doesn’t talk about it anymore.

OKAY TO MYSTREET!!

Ashley moved in during the Romeo and Juliet audition episodes. She was supposed to move in with Zane when he moved into Mystreet but didn’t want to hassle him with stuff so she waited until she had enough for herself to move out.

She ended up getting the role of Juliet’s nurse thing

Then she meets up with Lucinda who also moved back in and they hangout! (Because Luci went through her break up and company always helps)

Then there’s the valentines date where she challenges Travis to a rematch at air hockey and ends up walking Michi out the door for talking shit about Zane.

There’s not a lot of plot points in early mystreet so it’s just shenanigans.

Ashley got turned into a cat because of Lucinda

Love~Love~Paradise is where she finally managed to get that she was jealous over Katelyn and Travis, but also mad because Katelyn fucking sucks and is abusive because Jesson SUCKS.

She ends up ranting to Zane about it and he gives her some pep talk. Also Cadence is there! She wasn’t there in mystreet so it’s been like 11 years since they last saw each other

Then they end up watching My Little Horsies

Lovers lane hasn’t been written yet, but it’s like with mystreet. Not a lot of plot to go with so shenanigans

Oh!! Ashley and Cadence move in together

And then there’s emerald secret.

Yay /s

It’s starts off normal you know how it goes, in canon Garroth and Zane were going to with, but Zane didn’t go so Ashley did instead. That’s why she’s there

Ashley ends up flirting with Liochant at the store (reference to her relationship with him in MCD)

And then Zane gets napped

And then Ashley gets napped!

But not potioned!!

No no no, Cadence did! She’s there too! She didn’t come with but she ended up crashing there anyways!

And Ein got her!

Nooooo!!

And she’s back to her shitty highschool self!

Fuck!

Ein leaves to get Aphmau and Ashley has to relive highschool again trying to stop Cadence from stabbing her!

Sorta works

She gets stabbed in the shoulder though.

New scar!

Ashley has four prominent scars

Nice

Cadence is saved btw

But anyways, Ashley goes with Garroth to save Zane. Zane gives his whole spiel about Garroth, about how he and Ashley were so sick of living in his shadow. Never being able to compare to him.

Then yeah yeah whatever

Ein “dies” Aaron fucking dies

Yeah

Starlight Wonderland is startlight wonderland

Ashley is able to meet up with Blaze and romance ensues.

They almost date

Almost.

When angels fall

Ashley cut her hair in order not to be recognized

She’s so fucking hot with short hair idc

Blaze fucking died

She doesn’t know that

Aphmau tells her when they start planning for the canon though

Cut to the canon

Yeah

GARROTH PUNCHED HER ASS OFF OF IT!! OKAY BUT I WANT TO JUST IMAGINE HOW FUCKING TERRIBLE GARROTH FFELT

MF “KILLED” HIS BABY SISTER

THATS SO TRAUMATIZING

but she lived by being saved by “something” before she hit the water

She ended up drifting to the beach where Lucinda landed after she teleported everyone.

She sees Ashley and helps her up.

Ashley’s hand is broken from the fall

She survived but that doesn’t mean it didn’t hurt.

After being bandaged and shit, Zane finds her with a loud “SIX!” And they hug and cry because he thought his twin sister died

And then Garroth fucking tackles her and is like

So fucking upset

With himself and everything

Because he thought he killed his baby sister

And the Ro’meave siblings are just crying.

And yeah

I’ll do mcd later but there you have it! Ashley Mystreet lore!

[ruhrohimrorny]

What Subjects I Think LOK Characters Would Teach:

Lin: PE, obviously. Dating Kya and all the kids are happy cause there’s a noticeable shift in Lin’s mood once they start dating. She no longer forces kids to run a mile every day and instead does it once a week now, so the kids are hoping her and Kya stay together. She also coaches Golf and Lacrosse.

Kya: Waffled between MILF Math teacher, MILF Science teacher, and hippy/chill Music teacher, but decided on MILF Science Teacher. Getting strong Biology vibes. Very fun labs and not strict at all. Her and Zhu-Li are super passionate about leading the Science Bowl team. Seeing these young people be so passionate about STEM and helping their fellow teammates makes her hopeful for this young generation.

Tenzin: He kinda gives math teacher vibes, but a large part of his character in the show is about him keeping his history alive, and teaching others abut learning and respecting history, so I feel like he’s a History teacher. His class is a lot of notetaking but he plays quiet music and does a five minute meditation in the middle of class to encourage kids to relax, so students really like him and actually listen to him. Also, he’s kind of gullible so they make up fake trends to tell him. He once spent a week addressing people as “brony” cause students told him thats what people say now instead of bro. Kids got a good laugh out of that one. Him and Pema are another favorite teacher couple.

Bumi II: Def gives off eccentric/unhinged English teacher vibes. Very interesting and informative conversations in his class, but things get off topic very quickly. Whenever kids ask about Bum-Ju, he gets distracted and will talk the entire rest of the period about what to dress Bum-Ju up as for Halloween. Probably plays a lot of videos. And students don’t worry about if they read the books Bumi II assigns cause they don’t think he’s even read the books he assigns. When having discussions about the books in class, sometimes kids will make up stuff and say it’s in the book and for the most part, Bumi II goes along with it cause he doesn’t know what actually happens in the books.

Varrick: Also gives off eccentric/unhinged English teacher vibes, but because he’s a businessman/war profiteer, I’m gonna have to say he teaches Econ and gives students lots of unsolicited financial advice. Also supervises the Engineering and Robotics Club.

Zhu-Li: Science teacher, probably Chemistry. She’s very good at explaining and getting kids to follow her instructions. Not only is she a co-supervisor for the Science Bowl team, she helps Varrick run Engineering and Robotics Club, cause if it were only Varrick running it, no kids would come. His intensity and eccentricity scares them.

Iroh II: He’s definitely the young Math teacher everyone has a crush on. Very chill and doesn’t give a lot of homework. Kids love when he shows pictures of his dog to the class and eventually he brings in the dog cause admin think the dog is too cute to say no to.

Tonraq: Resident DILF History teacher. Kind of a hardass but also a nice dude so most everyone passes his class. Probably that History teacher that is also a football coach, so during fall he doesn’t give a FUCK about whether anyone actually turns anything in. Him and Senna is the teacher couple that seems like opposites but actually are pretty similar and balance each other out.

Senna: That English teacher that every mentally ill student becomes emotionally attached to. You know what I’m talking about. She’s so sweet, funny, and chill so all the kids love her class. Tries to include memes in her presentations to seem “with it” but they’re like, doge memes from 2014. But the kids appreciate the effort.

Pema: Definitely the sweet English teacher that occasionally has a mental breakdown when the students test her patience. Otherwise very chill. Also teaches the Childhood Education and Development class. Her, Senna, and Bumi II run the school newspaper.

Bataar: Drafting. Pretty chill, very skilled, and def smokes on the weekend. Also, him and Suyin are that teacher couple that everyone likes.

Suyin: Dance. Super nice and always has like to of those smelly plug in things going so her room smells good and has a “good vibe that evokes emotion”. Always plays EDM or weird 80s rock to get the kids moving. She runs the school dance team. When Bataar has prep period, he sometimes drops in to see Su dance, cause she’s mesmerizing to watch. All the kids think that, coupled with the fact that they eat lunch together every day, makes them the cutest couple ever.

Amon: Drama. He loves directing kids on how to totally live a role. If you can imagine, he sometimes gets a little overdramatic about drama, forgetting that these are just highschool kids, not Oscar winners, but his passion makes the class more enjoyable. Runs Drama Club with Tarrlok.

Tarrlok: Probably Physics. A difficult class, but he’s pretty good at explaining so most kids don’t struggle too much. His main focus is running student government, which he takes pretty seriously. Sometimes too seriously.

Unalaq: Teaches Psychology. The most pretentious teacher on campus. It’s literally so bad, that even other teachers avoid him. Amon abandoned his coffee still being brewed in the machine in the staff room cause Unalaq walked in and he didn’t want to be in a room with Unalaq again after he said that Amon’s outfit “looked like something stolen from the lost and found of a funeral home”. Unalaq sees it as “telling it like it is”.

Zaheer: Government and Politics. Tries to teach the class very well but also injects his own opinion into teaching a lot. The students find him scary but some also kinda think he’s hot. Also does Yearbook. Him and Senna run Mock Trial. Replaced the old Government and Politics teacher Hou-Ting after she retired. She was that one old teacher that made it a hobby to harrass students and constantly reminisced about when you could smack students.

P’Li: Math teacher. Much scarier than Zaheer. Plays her trash ass music very loudly while the kids work. Def yells at kids. She’s kind of funny when she’s in a good mood tho, and when she roasts kids it’s really funny cause it’s usually dead on. Her and Zaheer are those teachers that flirt a lot and you know they’re sleeping together.

Ming-Hua: Art. Loves drawing and, you guessed it, watercolor painting. Very chill and plays soft music but lets you listen to your own music. Super sarcastic and all the students eat it up. Literally a universal favorite. She runs Art Club and Fashion Club.

Ghazan: Guitar. Pretty cool teacher that definitely has some weird stories. All the students know he has a crush on Ming-Hua cause they flirt constantly, but he denies it. Runs E-Sports Club. Idk why I think that, it just feels right. Him and Ming-Hua are also the kinds of teachers kids become emotionally attached to.

Kuvira: Government and Politics also. Seems calm and reasonable, but is a total ass. Makes kids give up their phones, allows almost no talking, gives out more detentions a week than most teachers do in one year, and doesn’t allow for much discussion. Everyone wants her class cause she’s hot but most drop within the first week, to the point that counselors have to say no to some kids so they don’t have to get rid of the class altogether.

Bataar Jr.: Computer Lit teacher. None of the students respect him so they’ll play Minecraft the whole time or play inappropriate videos really loud. Doesn’t really put much effort into teaching, which for some kids is a dream, but for others is an annoyance. Him and Kuvira are the teacher couple that makes everyone say “wtf”. Literally no one knows why they’re together.

Izumi: Secretary/Attendance. Pretty much remembers everything and is super organized. She is the glue that holds the school together. Most students don’t know her name though cause she’s super quiet and works mostly behind the scenes. Whenever Zuko sends anyone her way though he reminds them of her name and to say thank you cause he recognizes how hard his daughter works to keep everything running smoothly. Izumi catches on to this and always manages to thank her dad with a nice tea and a hug.

Toph: Vice Principal. Scary as fuck. Doesn’t ever call kids’ parents cause she efficiently scares the shit out of every kid, so they never do whatever bad thing they were doing again. When she has to work dances, Katara always tries to get her to dance with her. She resists every time, but she always gives eventually. She’s happy to though, cause although she’ll never say it out loud, seeing Katara this happy at her old age warms her heart.

Katara: Health Clerk. Very sweet and everybody loves her. Sometimes kids pretend to feel sick just to talk to her. She doesn’t mind though cause a kid that has a tummy ache and a kid that needs to talk are both kids that need help, and she’s happy to offer whatever support she can. She also always offers to supervise dances when the school has them and always manages to bust a move.

Zuko: Counselor. Wants to be to students what his uncle was to him. Aang and Sokka were counselors too, some years ago. And while they could give some good nuggets of advice and offered the kids amazing support, they also would totally fuck up student’s schedules by accident cause those numbskulls were exactly that- numbskulls. So usually Zuko would have to fix that. He misses fixing their messes and, more importantly, he misses them (they aren’t dead, just retired). He hopes to retire soon too, cause he’s getting too old for this, but he secretly doesn’t want to retire just yet cause working at school allows him to see and spend time with Izumi. Since they’re both working, it’s not like they have too much time together, but even just her popping into his office to bring him tea or check in on how he’s doing that day brings a smile to his face that doesn’t leave for the rest of the day.

Raiko: Principal. After Toph stepped down cause she’s “too old for this shit” (her words), Raiko stepped in. The students aren’t a fan of him but he’s not terrible. And since Toph is still Vice Principal, she keeps him in check.

[ardentalley]

hi darling! i'm putting your questions and my answers under a read more to cut for length! i don't want to spam ppls dashes haha --

HOW ON EARTH DID YOU GET INTO THE INDUSTRY?! I'm imagining you knew some people who knew the path to get there because this isn't the kind of industry they tell you how to get a job in when you're in high school or university.

i kinda stumbled into it! :) the first job that i had out of college was coincidentally an internship at a place that made custom ambient scents (so fragrances for fashion shows, hotel lobbies, high end designer stores, etc) and things just went from there!

What's your background? Did you go to university or did you like work at a perfume shop or??? Did you do chemistry?! Is that even relevant?

i did neither! LOL i went to uni for literally literature haha -- i have a degree in comparative literature of all things, so it's pretty far from the traditional chemistry/math majors that would feed more naturally into the industry, but a fragrance house is so much more than just perfumers and chemists, right -- there's marketing, sales, operations, like if you have soft skills? then you can conceivably work in a fragrance house :)

Do you speak French?

i do NOT speak french, but a lot of people in the industry do! i will say that it's very useful to speak at least one other language if you wanna work in fragrance -- if it's french or italian or spanish, good! but recently, the fact that i speak chinese and also japanese have been huge helps bc the industry is rapidly globalizing!

You listed so many old perfumes on that post! How do you know them when some are older than you or me!!! Do you have a database that you just punch notes into and it spits out records of related perfumes?! DO YOU JUST KNOW THIS SHIT BECAUSE IT'S YOUR FUCKING JOB?! Because that would be so cool.

a combo of all the above actually! LOL so there's a weekly "class" that is offer at my office, and it's just called "fragrance training" thats open to anyone in the office who wants to learn. it's a way to educate the ppl who aren't perfumers/evaluators on the industry, it's history, etc. so we work through the history of perfume, smell market products like mitsouko, jicky, shalimar, and then l'eau d'issey, with the boom of calone (tm), etc. and then after that, you learn raw ingredients broken into families! so we'll smell like the most common citrus notes one day, and then go through maybe some white flowers the next time, and the market products that feature those raws. we also have a giant product room that's constantly being updated with the latest big launches -- so the new billie eilish, the latest coach fragrance, the new j'adore, and we're all encouraged to smell them when they come in. this way, you've got your finger on the pulse of the way the market is trending, and you can kind of track consumer tastes and it'll make you better at your job, no matter what your specific job is!

How many of your own perfumes have you crafted?

since i'm not a perfumer or an evaluator, i haven't actually made any perfumes, but because i'm in sales, i do get to handle the projects as they come in, and i basically get to touch every part of the process, and sometimes even help with the creative bits! so a few ones that i was actually really proud of: all the ledda fragrances, tsu lang yor by troye sivan, all the hp frags by house of sillage, most of the michael malul stuff, papaya isla by abbott

i actually don't wear perfume anymore asldkfjas mostly bc ur not allowed to wear fragrance to work; you're asked to keep your skin "clean" just in case we need "skin" to smell on for stuff that people are working on, so LOL

What is your goal/dream job five or ten years from now? I know being a nose is EXTREMELY difficult, but I don't know what the periphery jobs in the industry are so I can't imagine what comes next in your career.

yeah, i don't think i have what it takes to be a proper perfumer/nose; i do think i want to become an evaluator (which is like the translator between sales and the perfumers) but also, i like sales a lot! i like the client-facing aspect, and i'm still young, so we'll see where life takes me! but i do know that this is where i wanna work, and that i'm very happy where i am :)

i think the common misconception is that the ONLY job in the fragrance industry is like... to be the one making the fragrance, but that's totally not true! like... we are a company, at the end of the day -- and perfumers, while they are the heart and soul of what we do, they're like... maybe 1% of the actual headcount in a fragrance house -- we have ppl in r&d, ppl in the labs, ppl in the factories, ppl who do innovation, so there's so many other ways to get into the fragrance industry! :D

What is the most difficult scent to extract in terms of litre to ton ratio? I know it takes something like a LITERAL METRIC TON of jasmine to get one litre of pure oil. This blew my mind. And so did the old extraction method of sticking the flowers on animal fat between two sheets of glass to extract the scent. That was so cool to see!

yes -- so that animal fat extraction is called "enfleurage", and it's very ancient. it takes a lot of time and effort, and produces good effects, but in the year of our lord 2023... we've got bigger and better ways haha! i think the most expensive raw on the current palette pound of pound would be orris, which is derived from iris root. i would def suggest looking it up! it's a gorgeous ingredient and i am OBSESSED lol

Do you know the Fragonard house full of art that the perfumery is named after?

sadly i do not :( i've never heard of fragonard :(

Rain. RAIN. I AM GOING FERAL!!!!!!!! ARE YOU A NOSE? DO YOU WORK WITH NOSES??! HAVE YOU EVER BEEN TO GRASSE??!! CAN WE BE BEST FRIENDS PLEASE OMG I'M DYING IVER HERE TO TALK ABOUT FRAGRANCES WITH YOUUUUUU

LMFAO OMFG!!!! i didn't know you were so passionate about fragrance!!! but to answer your questions:

no i'm not a nose u__u

but yES i do work with noses (perfumers and evaluators, both can be called noses, but i'm assuming you're talking about the people who actually write the formulas, in which case -- perfumers)

i have not been to grasse (yet!) but our company has a villa and an r&d facility out there so the next time i'm in europe, i'll def be able to visit!

yes! we can def be bffs! <3

[thoi2020]

u have advanced??????? wow. tips to qualify mains please??? help me with my modules.how do i solve them?????????

hnnng idk bestie here's some short tips n like if u want something more specific u can send another ask or dm me?

pay attention in class. sit in the front. listen out for what things the teacher puts an emphasis on. ask questions. yes, even the stupid ones. especially the stupid ones bc those are fundamentals u cannot miss bc a shaky foundation leads to a shaky building. also pay attention to ur teachers. theyve been doing this since before u even knew about jee they know what theyre doing. most of them want whats best for u, and if not specifically that, whats best for them n their institute which are usually similar things. im not saying blindly trust them without criticism but have some faith. dont dismiss them they prolly know better than u. if id followed my teachers instructions i prolly wouldnt have had to drop (but thats a discussion for another day lol).

revise notes on a regular basis. like. the day u studied it in class. then the next day. then a week later. then 2 weeks later. then a month later. google the curve of forgetting for more accurate time stamps. use flashcards for formulae n stuff that u have to memorise like inorganic chem.

analyse past papers. recognise the most important topics. but also there are some small chapters that are quite easy and some people skip them thinking there wont be any questions from them. ive given 4 papers of mains, and i can confirm that is utter bullshit. 1 question each from units and measurements, mathematical reasoning, stats, chemistry in everyday life, polymers, are guaranteed. u can easily secure at least those marks by spending just a little bit of time on them. esp for jee mains its relatively better to cover a wide range of topics with medium depth instead of just some but with deep understanding (the latter works well for advanced tho).

make a friend or two whos in the same boat as u, preparing for jee n try to keep each other accountable. tell each other everyday what ure going to study that day n then check back the next day. remind each other hlep each other out. also be friendly with the class toppers sometimes they can solve ur doubts better than teachers just bc something they explain clicks better. whenever i get confused about logarithms i think back to what my 9th grade classmate told me when i asked him to explain in 1 sentence n had him repeat it slowly to me multiple times. its burned in my memory and helped me so much. 

practice tests. set the proper 3 hour limit and solve them. be honest w urself ure doing this for u. no point scoring 256/300 to impress ur teacher if u cheated bc on the day of the exam ure going to be screwed. in the beginning try out different strategies, different ones work for different ppl. like for me, math is my favourite and i find it easier than the other 2 so i do it first and it gives me confidence. then i move on to physics and then chem. some people look over the entire paper n solve the easiest from every section first, then the medium ones, then the tough ones. experiment in ur practice tests n figure out whats best for u n ur test taking. after the test, analyse. see what u got wrong, why u got it wrong. clarify doubts. mark problem questions to revise and solve again later. no point in solving more n more questions if theres no retention or learning.

for solving books specifically under the cut bc this is getting too long lol:

stick to 1 or 2 books max per subject. make them ur holy books and swear by them. if ure doing coaching then the modules provided by them are a very good option bc theyre specifically for jee and will cover what u need. coaching teachers will have a lot of experience with them too so u'll have an easy time with doubts clarification. if u choose other books tho, still consult with ur teacher and ask them to tell u what's relevant and what isnt and dont waste ur time on whats not. it might make u look or feel smarter to be solving questions on stuff thats beyond the scope of the exam but u literally dont need it and the syllabus is already very vast so ure just going to waste time and brainspace. like sure if ure interested study it in ur own time but dont make it an Important Must Do thing.

ok now that u have ur book with everything relevant to jee, make sure u devour them. study the theory alongside ur class notes. solve a few questions of corresponding topics the day they are covered so u dont have so many questions lined up at the end of the chapter. like if i studied friction in newton's laws of motion today, i'll solve the questions relevant to friction today itself. or u know this week. like,, keep it current. then while solving, speak out loud and explain the problem to urself like ure teaching someone else (or better yet, find someone to teach them to. stuffed toys, younger siblings, ur classmate, grandparents, online friend, whichever works). mark all the questions that took u longer than 5 mins or u cant solve at all. dog ear the pages. try them again the next day. then again a few days later. take the ones u still cant solve to ur teacher. try n ask for just a hint once and try again. and then if u cant then ask for the solution. DO NOT go on the internet. ur brain doesnt have to work for it then n u think u got it but u dont got it. make ur brain work for the solution so it'll remember. 

now that uve given a good shot to every question and figured out where u stumble. analyse a bit. find a pattern if theres any: like a certain concept that is weak or something ure not understanding. read the theory for it if u have to n ask questions to clarify. then solve these problem questions again and again until u know every question well enough to be able to explain to someone. skip over the easy ones u dont gotta do them again n again, focus on the ones u stumbled on. theyre the weak spots. no use strengthening whats already strong enough.

and uh keep a notebook of the solutions of the questions u solve so that u dont have to go crazy searching for them in an emergency. like ur paper is tomorrow and u cant figure out this question that uve been trying for 1 hour then its a good time to review ur previous solution and refresh ur memory. often if uve practiced enough n its just exam stress etc thats making ur mind go blank then just a hint will be enough to remind u.

also this is more general but just. be consistent. small consistent efforts over multiple days instead of a big one in 1 day. u’ll retain better and ur brain does better with multiple small chunks spread out over an interval than a lot of stuff in a small one. and its ok to to have an off day dont kill urself over academics ur health is more important always. not getting into ur dream college might fuck u up but itll heal but ur health is more precarious and not getting enough sleep or food will def fuck u up and the consequences are a lot harder to deal with. dont think about the big picture or u’ll freak urself out just think about the next small step u can take. getting 99 percentile feels impossible but solving 10 questions for it does not. dont get disheartened by test results if ure working hard n smart u wont fail. even if u dont get into ur dream college u’ll have an excellent work ethic that’ll take u places u never thought of in ur wildest dreams. more than anything, be kind to urself and work n play hard.

[chubbyybunnie]

So I just need to get this off my chest because I finally I guess I'm coming to terms with this. I just have always operated on the pretense that 1 day I'm going to kill myself. I have had this belief since I was about 10 years old. I have always thought that 1 day I'm going to snap whether it be from sadness or anger or just pure hopelessness and I'm going to kill myself so nothing matters.

And if I'm being honest I didn't really think I was going to make it past 18. And now here I am at 25 and I feel like I've been thrown into the deep end of the pool with no floaties.

I have been struggling for the past 5 years to get my associates degree which makes me feel like a loser. No one told me how hard it is to be a chemistry major when you already struggle with math. No one told me what a soul crushing sense of failure you feel when everybody else including people that are younger than you are going on and graduating and getting their degrees what I am struggling so hard to get mine.

No one mentions how hard it is to be a partner to someone and take care of another person when most days I can't even get myself out of bed and shower.

It is a whole bunch of life that has just hit me all at once and that has been hitting me all at once and it's a whole bunch of life that I never really expected to live.

I'd never had a plan and now I feel like I'm forced to come up with one on the fly and as far as college goes I feel like I'm just clinging on to the only fragment of a life plan that I could think of. I just feel really lost sometimes and truly when I look back on my life it feels like I was in a dream and all of a sudden one day I woke up and I met my mid twenties with no fucking clue what's going on.

[rowanwhitethornisbae]

Faking It Ch 2

A/N: Thanks for all the love on chapter one! I’m defiantly going to make this at least ten chapters so buckle up haha. TW: Language 

Aelin couldn't remember when she’d lost count of the number of shots she’d taken. All she knew was that the alcohol coursing through her veins offered temporary relief from the breathtaking pain. The pain that had her sobbing so hard that she vomited her guts up each and every night. These pointless high school parties were her only escape from reality. Her parents were dead. Who gave a fuck about anything. Stumbling a little, Aelin made her way over the kitchen sink, prepared to vomit if need be. 

“Are you okay?” A low voice asked from behind her. 

“Fine.” She muttered and leaned against the counter for some semblance of balance.

“You don't look it.” The stranger said kindly. 

“Well isn't there some saying; Don’t judge a cover by its book or whatever.”

The mystery man laughed and Aelin finally lifted her head to look at him. He was handsome. So much so that if she hadn't already been leaning on something she might have swooned. His eyes were green, the colour of a pine tree in the dead of winter. The sleeves of his white shirt were rolled and a tattoo crawled down the length of his arm and decorated the edge of his collarbone. 

I like men with tattoos. She thought. 

“Thanks.” He said, laughing awkwardly under his breath. 

Oh shit. She avoided meeting his eye, instead landing her gaze upon his silver hair. 

“Do you dye your hair.” She asked casually. 

He seemed slightly taken aback, but smiled all the same. “No. Do you?” 

She gasped as if it was the most preposterous thing he could've said and ran a hand through her long blond hair. 

“I’d sooner eat snakes.” Aelin grinned.

“People all over the world do that voluntarily.” The green eyed man mused. 

An image of someone eating snake popped into her head and Aelin suddenly felt bile rise in her throat. Before she could vomit on the perfect stranger, she bolted from the kitchen and into a vacant bathroom. Gagging, she fell onto her knees and was violently ill. 

So gently that she barely even noticed, her hair was pulled back from her neck and shoulders as her stranger eased himself onto the cold tile beside her. When Aelin had finished vomiting, she wiped her mouth on the back of her hand and slumped against the wall. 

“Thanks.” She said, tying her hair into a messy bun with shaking hands.

“I’m Rowan.” He answered, extending a hand. 

For the first time in weeks, she felt a smile tug at the corner of her lips. 

“Aelin.” 

“Miss Galathynius are you even listening.” Her math teacher’s voice snapped her out of that very unwelcome flashback. 

“Do you want me to lie to you?” She asked, earning a few laughs from her classmates and an elbow to the ribs from Aedion. 

“Take a walk.” He snarled, and Aelin breathed a sigh of relief. She needed fresh air anyway. 

The hallway was practically empty, save a few students on their way to the bathroom, and Aelin started towards the side doors to the parking lot. She passed a locker that had been decorated for someone’s birthday. Streamers flowed down from the top, framing the collage of photos perfectly. The girl in question looked to be a freshman, with a bright smile on her face and eyes that screamed innocence. The things Aelin would do to go back to freshman year. To live with that lack of knowledge and trauma that she so desired. But she couldn't. 

She was rounding the last corner when something made her stop dead on her feet. There, leaning against the wall in a way she’d seen so many times before, was Chaol Westfall. Still, it wasn't the sight of him that send her heart into a flurry. It was the girl fiddling with her hair opposite him. It took Aelin a minute to recognize her. Nesryn Faliq, they had advanced chemistry together. She laughed at something Chaol said and reached out a hand to brush his arm. Shivers ran down Aelin’s spine at that hint of a touch. Chaol smiled back at Nesryn and leaned in to whisper something in her ear. 

Unable to watch anymore, Aelin turned on her heels and bolted to the women's bathroom. She was breathing too hard, her heart racing much too fast to be healthy. God this was an awful time to have a panic attack. Slowly, she managed to calm her breathing enough to splash water on her face. 

This was bad. Really fucking bad. They’d broken up barely 24 hours ago and Chaol was already flirting with the entire female population of Terrasen High. Fine, maybe that was a bit of an exaggeration.

Clearly Lysandra had been right. Aelin slumped down against the wall and curled her knees to her chest. She needed a rebound, and fast. Aelin pondered names as she ran her fingers through the grooves in the bathroom wall. Name after name came forward and she found herself subconsciously shooting them all down. 

Nox, Fenrys, Sam, Lorcan, Sartaq. None sounded right. 

In fact, the only one she could ever see herself with was Rowan Whitethorn. The silver haired senior who’s heart she’d held in her hands sophomore year. Held and crushed. She deserved every ounce of the hatred he had for her. 

Still, he wasn't a bad option. She knew he found her beautiful, he’d told her as much. The only problem was that he would never go for her again. People tended to put up a guard after having their heart shattered. 

Flirting with him would be futile and unfair. The only way she could ever get him to date her was if she gave him something in return. 

“Holy shit.” Aelin swore, jumping up so fast that she nearly hit her heat on the sink. 

If there was anything Aelin knew about Rowan, it was that he wanted to play on the football team. He’d gone on and on about it before. According to him, he had been deathly ill during tryouts and had ended up vomiting off the side after one hit. He’d begged and begged the coach to let him try out again but it was four years later and Rowan still wasn't on the team. Lorcan, Fenrys, Vaughn, and Gavriel all were and Rowan was half miserable because of it. 

There it was. A plan. She’d get him a tryout, somehow, and in exchange he would help her beat Chaol in whatever sick game they were playing. With a newfound purpose, Aelin washed her hands and walked back to math class.

Lunch. She’d make her move then. 

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The cafeteria was mostly empty, a normal occurrence for Tuesday afternoons. The lunch provided was some weird crossover of meatloaf and mashed potatoes that had most students eating out. Unfortunately for Rowan, Fenrys had convinced them to eat in the cafeteria today in his attempts to stalk a blonde girl on spare in the lounge. 

Now, he was picking at his food as his friends discussed the football game tomorrow. Rowan was just beginning to think his day couldn't get any worse, when he felt a gentle tap on his shoulder. 

“Can I talk to you?” Someone asked from over his shoulder. He knew that voice. Had heard it in both his dreams and his nightmares. Rowan’s grip on his fork tightened and his knuckles went white. His foot began drumming against the floor as he braced himself for impact. Everyone else at the table was rapidly flicking their gaze between Aelin and Rowan. 

“No.” He said harshly, not daring to turn around. Rowan didn't think he’d have the will to deny her anything if he was forced to meet her eye. 

“Please.” Aelin pleaded. “I have something to say to you.” 

“Well that’s too fucking bad because I have nothing to say to you.” He responded, voice carefully exempt of any emotion. 

“Then just listen.” She begged. “If you don't like what I have to say than we can go back to ignoring each other like you wanted.” 

“I wasn't the one who wanted that.” He snapped before he could take it back. 

Rowan felt more than saw Aelin stiffen behind him. Lorcan was drumming his fingers on the table, as if prepared to hold Rowan back if called for. 

But it was Fenrys, the friend who was kind to everyone, who spoke. “I think you should go Aelin.” 

She swallowed audibly behind him. “Alright.” She relented. “I’ll be at the Starbucks during fourth for spare. Come find me if you want.”

Rowan didn't bother to nod. Instead, he gripped his fork harder, letting up only when the sound of retreating footsteps subsided. He looked up slowly to find all eyes on him.  

“So that just happened.” Lorcan mused. 

“Yes thank you so much for that observation.” Rowan sniped sarcastically. 

“Woah.” Lorcan replied, throwing up his arms in mock surrender. “You’re mad at Galathynius, not us remember.” 

“Whatever.” He mumbled and went back to picking at his food. After a few seconds he threw his fork on the table and let out a groan of frustration. 

“This food is the worst thing I have ever eaten in my entire life. It is terrible and horrible and fucked up and I have no idea what to do with it.” Rowan half-shouted. Heads swivelled in his direction and he ignored them. Judgement from people he didn't know was the least of his many concerns at the moment. 

“Is that supposed to be some sort of metaphor for your life?” Vaughn asked, dead serious. 

“Excuse me?” 

“Seriously Rowan. All I've heard for the last year and a half is Aelin Galathynius this and Aelin Galathynius that and now she’s finally speaking to you and you’re not going to do anything about it.” 

“I don't talk about her that much.” Rowan mumbled under his breath. Lorcan shot him a look as if to say “Yes. Yes you do.”

“I know I'm normally not one to get involved in deep shit, but Vaughn’s right. I’ve never seen you nearly as happy as you were for those few months in tenth. And honestly, what’s the worst that can happen. You hear what she has to say. You like it, great. You don't, fuck it and forget about her.” Rowan had never heard Fenrys speak for so long without sarcasm in his life. 

“To be fair,” Gavriel said, always the buffer. “We’ve also never seen Rowan as broken as he was after Aelin. Maybe the risk outweighs the reward on this one Fen.” 

Rowan didn't reply. He was too busy struggling to get the memory of those painful few weeks from his head. 

“Just talk to her man. Who gives two fucks it’s high school.” Despite being mainly in an attempt to end this conversation, Lorcan’s words made sense. It was just high school. In one more year he’d be out of this shit hole and hopefully across the world in Rithfold. Talking to Aelin was just one step along the way. 

“I’m going to.” He said, willing his tone to stay confident. 

“Great man.” Fen said, patting him on the back. He barely felt it though. Barely felt anything as the rest of the day passed by in a blur, his thoughts occupied by a beautiful blond haired girl. 

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It had been twenty minutes and Aelin was starting to think Rowan wasn't coming. In all honestly she should've expected that outcome from the beginning. Even though she understood, the way he had acted towards her at lunch had hurt more than she was willing to let on. 

Instead of wallowing in her own self pity, Aelin took a long sip from her coffee. It seared her tongue and burned her throat, the pain helping to ground her in a way nothing else ever could. She was picking at her fingernails, head down, when he arrived. 

A metal chair scraped against the cobblestone, a bird sung from a oak tree, a paper bag rustled in the wind, Aelin Galathynius blinked. That’s all she had time to do. One blink to compose herself before she was looking dead into the eyes of Rowan Whitethorn. 

She allowed herself a brief second to take him in up close. His high and defined cheekbones, perfectly crafted nose, striking green eyes, and silver hair had always made for a truly stunning combination. He looked the same as ever. Except he didn't. His eyes no longer possessed that unbridled joy and love that she’d seen whenever he looked at her. Instead he just looked done. Done with life and done with her. 

Aelin swallowed audibly and handed him a coffee. “Cream and sugar.” She smiled, trying to lighten the mood. 

Rowan’s hands tightened slightly. “You remembered.” It wasn't a question. After a brief moment of hesitation he accepted the coffee and went back to staring at the table. 

“What is this about Aelin?” He asked softly. Although his voice was gentle, his tone was hurt in a way anyone else would’ve missed. She hated that. Hated that now, even a year later she was still somehow hurting him. 

“So you know I broke up with Chaol. Or, he broke up with me.” She tried to keep the tremor out of her voice. Rowan nodded once, nearly imperceptibly, and she took that as a sign to continue. “Anyway, Lysandra says that I need a rebound and I need one first because Chaol is the one who broke up with me.”

Rowan’s eye flared with surprise and something else she couldn't place. “I won't be your rebound. Please don't disrespect me by asking.” 

Her heart nearly cracked open at the pain lingering in his words. “No no I would never.” Aelin paused for a brief moment to regain her bearings. “Here’s the thing. I don't want a rebound. I’ve been in a relationship for as long as I can remember and I'm in desperate need of a break. But, I’m also the most competitive person you'll ever meet. Like seriously it’s an issue, once -” 

“I know.” Rowan interrupted. “Once you sprained your ankle 8 km into a 10 k run and still finished first because you couldn't stand the thought of losing. You told me already.” 

Aelin just stared at him for a second, her chest unbearably tight. Rowan’s eyes looked her up and down and she could've sworn his eyes flashed in satisfaction at the pain written on her face. 

Not wanting to look at him anymore, she went on. “I figured maybe instead of me actually doing the whole dating thing, we could fake date.” 

She held out a hand as Rowan opened his mouth to protest. Begrudgingly, he restrained from commenting and gestured for her to go on. 

“That way I'd beat Chaol in whatever this is, I wouldn't have to answer everyone’s condolences on my being dumped, and I’d be saved from the whole post breakup dating fiasco.” 

Rowan’s voice was hoarser than before when he finally spoke. “What do I get out of this.” 

She took a deep breath in. “I’ll get you a football tryout.” 

His knee slammed into the table and Aelin couldn't help but flinch. His eyes were wide and lit up with hope. “Seriously? How the hell are you going to do that?” 

“I have a plan.” She tried to sound confident despite her growing doubt. 

Rowan let out a small laugh. “The last time you said that we ended up in the back of a police cruiser covered in raw eggs and paint.” 

Aelin’s face broke into smile and she began to laugh. For a moment she could almost pretend they were back in sophomore year, lying on Rowan’s lawn and watching the stars. Neither of them had known anything about constellations so they’d made things up based on what they looked like. By the end of the night, Aelin’s stomach hurt from laughing. She wondered when the last time she’d been that blissfuly happy was. 

Just as suddenly as they had arrived, their smiles and laughs died on their lips. An uncomfortable silence seized the air and Aelin began to play with the hair elastic on her wrist. 

After a few more seconds, Rowan cleared his throat. “I’ll do it.” He announced, although it sounded like he was still trying to convince himself.  

“Great.” Aelin smiled. “Why don't you come over tomorrow and we can work out logistics.” 

“Don’t you live with Aedion?” Rowan asked cautiously.

“Yeah but he’ll be at Ren’s place tomorrow for a project. I checked.” 

Rowan nodded slowly and rose from his chair. “Alright.” 

They stared at each other for a moment, Rowan standing and Aelin sitting. “I’m going to uh... go.” He said at last, severing the quickly brewing tension. 

Without waiting for answer, he turned and fled, leaving Aelin to do nothing but watch. So they were actually doing this now. What’s the worst that could go wrong? 

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