#I need them both so bad they are my toxic yuri

[khalixvitae]

Crawling out of my hole in the ground to tell everyone that now that I have electricity again I’m rewatching JJBA part 5 and once again I need Bruno and Abbacchio to take turns hitting me over the head with a shovel

[arolesbianism]

Remembered Wendy exists. Explodes.

[yet-another-wlw-shipper]

Meet Mate the series and its protagonists

*minor book spoilers*

I think the casting of Mate the series did an excellent job when they chose Grace Budsarin and Oaey Ponchanok as the leads. I don't know their prior work, but from what I've seen on the show and behind the scenes clips, they are perfect for their roles.

Grace Budsarin as Gen

She's an arrogant "princess" who comes from a rich family and has dated men in the past, but no one has captured her interest…until she reconnects with a girl who once gave her lice at school.

She falls for the now grown-up childhood friend almost immediately when she sees her without her glasses.

She is surprised to find that she actually has a softer side that is almost exclusively reserved for Aoey.

But what frightens her and makes her keep her distance from Aoey is her inner conflict - what she would like to be (thinks she has to be) vs. who she really is (= gay for Aoey).

So she tries to suppress her feelings, but on the other hand she gets jealous if someone gets close to Aoey.

She even gets a beard (i.e. a gay man) to pretend to be her boyfriend to send a message to Aoey, but it just ends up hurting them both.

Oaey Ponchanok as Aoey

Aoey suddenly enters Gen's life (for the second time) when she travels to Bangkok and asks Gen to meet her (for old times' sake). At first, Aoey seems like a naive country girl who doesn't know how to survive in the city (she wants to sleep in the temple if there is no other place for her).

Eventually, Gen invites her to stay and sleep with her (not like that, you perverts! 😜).

And after rescuing her "stray dog" from sleeping in the temple when Aoey suddenly took off, Aoey practically becomes her wife maid.

Aoey is sweet, kind, and wears her heart on her sleeve, but she's not afraid to show her mischievous side too.

She also harbors a dark secret that she's not willing to reveal.

At first, Aoey seems like a green flag character, but when Gen starts playing jealousy games with her, Aoey starts mimicking her bad behavior.

After some events (I don't want to spoil the plot here 🤫), Aoey has learned to play the jealousy game very well and shows Gen that she can be quite ruthless if needed.

Expect toxic yuri and angst

As I said here after reading the book, if you're a toxic yuri fan, buckle up because you're in for one hell of a ride. If the show more or less follows the book, this series will break your heart over and over again until it heals it.

Since I'm a sucker for angsty GL stories, I know this show will be my next obsession, just like Affair (which has similar themes).

[butchreg]

the category is niche regressor hcs ( i have more .. feel free 2 ask abt them ໒꒰ྀིᵔ ᵕ ᵔ ꒱ྀི১ )

in order : allison mcroberts ( kevin can f**k himself ) , alexis rose ( schitt's creek ) , fallon carrington ( dynasty ) , keeley jones ( ted lasso ) , dani clayton ( thobm ) , cindy berman ( fear street 1978 ) , bess marvin ( nancy drew ) , emily dickinson ( dickinson ) , love quinn ( you ) , rhiannon lewis ( sweetpea ) , guinevere beck ( you ) , mabel mora ( omitb )

been thinking a Lot about kcfh && dynasty again recently which inspired this... i NEED to rw && finish both ( i was super duper hyperfixed before s2 of kcfh && final season of dynasty came out && life got so hectic i haven't had time 2 watch when i realized it was out :C ) ... pattison toxic yuri forevrr .. they plague me so bad i tried 2 edit them in 2021.. i wrote anon regressor!allison fics on ao3 back in da day ... && one baby!fallon one ermm ... && some regressor!keeley i sigh.. shall i post them here ? lmk tehee >__< i used 2 watch dynasty as it was airing && omg the season finale where fallon nearly you know whatted ... waiting 4 that next episode made me insane... also i was ahead of my time with kamanda i was a shipper since the beginning && prophesized they would get together tehe.. also i was TERRIBLY firby brained && i miss them all so baddd waaahhhh /. i never finished ted lasso bc family cancelled apple tv ( also why i never got to finish dickinson aka my biggest loss ) but err...

also sorry 4 the long yap but i am Not normal about fear street ( autism so bad i got sent to the psych ward ermmm :C ) .. && i headcanon Most of them as regressors so htgjes hehe , unfortunately an abuser has made my love for it more complex but if you would like to hear about my headcanons for it i am open to trying to publically indulge in it again :33 ( i'm cindy && sam !!! )

enough yapping 4 now.. eye have MANY thoughts sorry

[silliest-heartaches]

Ohh my god DRINKKK!! Dude I love them sooo muchhh. I just love imagining them being head over heels for each other yet constantly denying their feelings, because of how they view themselves, yet still finding comfort and solace with each other. They are so. YES. PERFECT. AUGH.

SHARE MORE ABOUT THEM PLEASE!!!

And I love how you use they/them for Ink and she/her for Dream!!

GOD YEAH I LIKE THEM SO INCREDIBLY MUCH... tbh the main reason i started liking them was bc i was thinking abt them and how doomed yuri coded they were and. The worms Wormed in from there,,,,

I actually use he/they and she/they for ink and dream respectively but!!!!!! I love all hcs and interpretations of them for REAL. nonbinary people who are gay as fuck for real,, very inherrently queer ship regardless of how u see either of them i think...heart seeing them as t4t transmasc and transfem forever personally though so thats what i see em as hehe,, also in my head theyre both aroacespec (though the specifc kind varies from au to au though i do consistently see ink as ace and dream as demiaro :>>)

Im not sure how long these will be so...hcs under the cut lol

- okay well while in my mind while error is technically the First Entity ink sees that isnt just a normal entity, dream is like their First. Friend. you know. Like when error first saw him he was screaming and crying for the hills bc it was also his first time seeing another outcode so. that reaction BUT with dream she was more filled with gentle confusion... this is a bit after she unstoned in the apple incident but still was new to au hopping and naive to most danger so they became friends!!! Questionably so.

-to elaborate, when they first meet dream is still stuck on the ideals of toxic positivity and pushing through hardship no matter what... i think this is something they eventually grow out of and dream will eventually learn to see the need for balance eventually but one of their first disputes happens when ink is running low on ink and most of whats left are the Negative Emotions within him alongside the especially strong panic that he usually feels when they get like this... dream would try to comfort him and try to say that itll work out in the end no matter what and that they just need to push through and that itll be okay like normal comforting words because dream is an empath and can sense feelings right,,i feel like its comforting in some cases but when things get Really Bad and especially when the main reserves of feelings that ink has are Negative, they heavily override his normal sense of self and i imagine they get a lot more. Snappy.... theres also the additional hc thingy of ink also really overexaggerating his feelings and overplaying them a lot for the sake of trying to feel more intensely (doesnt work, just drains him faster and will never truly feel natural to him...personally think that ink feels a lot of disconnect from his feelings) which could be considerably offputting to dream (though before adding swap to the group she thought it wass normal because she had only seen the fake pretend nice joy of the village influenced by her aura and not Genuine Feelings)

I think eventually through the years they would learn a lot from eachother...like with ink learning to be more naturally charismatic and dream learning to see past toxic positivity and have his perception on emotions change for the better (ie in learning that having different emotions are okay, so long as there is a balance)

id do alot more hcs but tbh what it boils down to is: toxic codependent yuri. intensely up and down relationship where theres an insane amount of love and attachment but also a lack of self from the both of them because they are only able to see themselves as a Thing to the other. Also exes who turned out to be besties. Thry got together and broke up wayyy before blue (they casually tell him stories about it and for the parts that he does know about he is horrified for.) Oh and they share hobbies and do parallel play alot. dream is more music oriented and can play the cello and flute. ink can play the ukelele but hes more familiar with drawing and painting duh. Also they have a garden. they love growing flowers but their favourites are sunflowers. Also have writing sessions together. Also may/may not also have beautiful princess disorder. (The both of them)

im so sorry this is so incoherrent but erm. yeah im very normal abt them (half of this stuff comes from oc projection the other half is like. Mental illness while in the shower tbh)

[blaithnne]

ok i forgot that goldie isnt canonically 5'1 on a good day so i have to restructure this ask

1) thoughts on short goldie

2) is heron short also

3) (contingent on answers 1 and 2) thoughts on scrooge and beakley both falling for tiny evil women

1) & 2)

I think the toxic yuri polycule height chart is something like this—!

They all wear heels so it’s not exact (also I whipped this up in like 5 minutes lol)

Huifen is tall, she’s a black heron after all, and though they’re not the tallest birds ever they’re still pretty long! But she looks short standing next to Beakley, because everyone does (also I undersized her a little bit in my first human drawing by accident, whoops). Goldie is a short queen LMAO, she’s not minuscule, only slightly shorter than the average person, but she looks tiny next to these two (she might be slightly shorter than I drew her here, idk, I struggled to scale her LOL). Scrooge, for the record, is around the same height as Goldie!

In terms of their builds btw, Beakley is, obviously, very muscular! Though she might seem like a tank, she’s actually very soft — big ol squishy teddy bear! Heron on the other hand is a gangly mf, long, skinny, and sharp. Goldie is sort of in between them, an hourglass build like Huifen, but with more muscle on her (not half as much as Beakley, though).

3)

Heron might not be tiny but Beakley treats her like she is, picks her up like a feral cat when she’s being too much 😌 Scrooge and Goldie only have a very slight height difference, but I think he’s very smug about it lol

Also, my funniest headcanon ever is that Beakley has a thing for bad girls, and she HATES IT. She’s so embarrassed about it and fully intends to take it to her grave. This also leads to her hating the aforementioned bad girls even more, bc she’s so frustrated with herself for liking the in the first place. So Beakley can spend 24 hours a day ranting about how much she hates someone, and be blushing the entire time. All this to say, Beakley might not technically have a leg to stand on when it comes to criticising Scrooge’s relationship, but that doesn’t stop her.

I think they’re both massive hypocrites about it, bc they wanna protect eachother despite the other really not needing the help. They’re also endlessly frustrated with eachother’s toxic Yuri partners. Beakley to a much bigger degree because she definitely has a thing for Goldie, which only makes her hate her even more. Scrooge is more annoyed by Beakley and Heron than anything else bc he just does not understand what the hell is going on there, but he’ll also occasionally be all,

In conclusion, Beakley and Scrooge being a disaster sibling duo is my favourite thing ever. Scrooge is practically immortal, nothing can take him down. Beakley is a walking tank, she could walk off a bullet. They looked at eachother and went “that idiot needs me to protect them from their own love life” and they were kind of right??

[enden-k]

Oh yea i didnt mean it in a personal way that was just badly phrased sorry. (Realising after typing it out that "why i need that hug" is only making sense in my head. Or maybe it doesnt make sense in english how i mean it sorry again)

I just like the concept so much of Vika and Saran. The drawing how he gets craddle knowing that he will get eventually eaten but they are so fluffy and healthy and tearing at the boys because AAAAHHH. Im so obsessed with this concept right now, maybe its my sick brain needing something to cling too. Tenderness in a darker concept.

And keeping it short. Do you get the concept of liking a character a certain specific way but everyone else i want to talk with about the character is just like "yea he is hot, yea he looks cool" but they never go into deeper character analysing ways and then i dont want to talk with them at all about that character.

-🐉

kjasbk its ok its ok

i like to think vika and sarans relationship is like this whole "dark love" themed, but in a consensual, non toxic way as i usually like AHHA (toxic yaoi/yuri my beloved). the super early super first idea was to go into toxic iirc but as i fleshed out their dynamic, saran turned so soft and gentle with vika and i like this so much better. it feels like its supposed to be like this with them: love and tenderness in a gloomy/dark setting

theres genuine, tender, healthy love for each other, both being right there when the other needed it the most. all vika wants is to look into sarans eyes and bask in these feelings and sarans love he finds there, yet every look costs him minutes of his life. their love is literally eating at him but its what he willingly chose and what brings him happiness. and he knows even when his time comes and he will be devoured completely, he will be with saran beyond death. all they do, its all mutual, its all consensual, its all tender.

im aro but whenever i draw them im like whoag this must be what love feels like. my hearts so full haha

overall im kinda trying to give them this "it looks like this but you have to look deeper to properly see" thing like. from the outside it looks like saran trapping vika in his hold and gaze and not letting him escape ever while in truth, its saran keeping him safe and cradled. or whenever saran babbles. the ambiguous meaning?? fooling ppl on first sight?? "look deeper or properly, its not how it seems at first." idk how to describe. maybe i also suck at conveying it AHHAHAHAHKAJSBCKJ

anw im rambling, idk where i wanted to go wtih this. i rlly cant shut up abt them LMAO sorry. im really happy to see how you like them and whats going on with them tho, this means a lot

ALSO I UNDERSTAND THAT SO WELL. i have the tendency to study a character under a microscope if i really really enjoy them and when i tried (i dont talk much to ppl anymore so its all in the past) to talk abt them to ppl who claimed to love them as much as i and then it turned out it was just superficial/surface level, i could feel my excitement shattering and just didnt discuss character studies or lore etc anymore. ofc ppl can like character how they want, im not saying its bad. i just always felt a bit alone/disappointed/embarrassed whenever it happened so im just keeping to myself now. so yeaa i get that

[ggirlflop]

hallo my friends ! ヾ( ‘ – ‘*) received two asks about my maddiecaitvi headcanons which i replied to this morning ! it was in the very wee hours and i was running on yuri pills and a dream so i messed up the tagging so it flopped Hard.. : \ i wanted to delete and repost it in hopes that more people see it and i can spread the maddiecaitvi agenda even further. ( ˋ⁻̫ˊ) Ψ reblogs welcomed and appreciated ; )

anyway without further ado i bring you part one of my maddiecaitvi headcanons ^_-

oh my yes !! rubs my evil paws together (｀∀´ #) i was trying to respond to the other ask and i think i accidentally deleted it because i can't find it anymore ( (－‸ლ) ) but thank you to both of you for asking , i was so super excited to receive your asks !! i will probably have more thoughts soon and definitely more after act three so keep yer eyes peeled ^_^ erm toxic yuri and nsfw warning.. (；´∀｀) don't expect a lot of horny headcanons from me but this is an exception i suppose.. minors dni . not proofread so have mercy on me. t4t bt dubs ( as god intended ) — tfem ! maddie and caitlyn with tmasc ! vi.

maddiecaitvi headcanons

their relationship is messy and complicated and quite a bit toxic but there's something addictive about it.

you have caitlyn who initially couldn't care less about maddie , only using her as a toy , taking advantage of her lack of experience and her obsession with her. she cares so much for vi yet she views vi and her attraction to him as her biggest weakness. he's not her first lesbian relationship but he's her first butch and she feels out of her depth.

you have maddie who would do anything for caitlyn no matter how despicable if it would put a smile on her face. maddie's a bit dumb , a blind and devoted follower. she doesn't ask questions being one of those people who would rather be willfully ignorant than knowingly causing harm. she's caitlyn's little mutt , she has low self esteem and just needs to feel needed. she puts herself in bad situations because she feels its what she deserves and admittedly she has a bit of a savior complex. she's attracted to people who are more broken than her so she can make herself useful and attempt to fix them or make her feel better about her own flaws.

and then you have vi. vi is slowly losing himself in an attempt to make positive change. all he wants is to be good and take care of his family but no matter what he seems to cause hurt. caitlyn makes him feel whole , no matter what he tries he can't get past the pain of loving her. when he finds out about caitlyn and maddie he's not sure if he's amused or heartbroken. this little girltwink catches his eye though , she could be fun.

at first vi views maddie similarly to the way caitlyn does : as a plaything. he teases her and is mean to her , enjoying the power he holds over her. it's nice to be with someone he doesn't really have feelings for when his feelings for caitlyn nearly ruined him. something about the way she looks to caitlyn for approval and is so sickeningly down bad for her kind of changes that though. he's jealous of her , he starts wanting to be her in some kind of fucked up way which is ironic when maddie herself is trying to emulate vi.

instead of talking about it after an argument they just fuck it out.... vi and caitlyn angrily fucking the shit out of maddie who is just happy to be good for something. caitlyn and maddie both pounding vi at the same time with their girlcocks. caitlyn is big and maddie's small so cait and vi gang up on her a lot. :\ freak secretly gets off on it.

maddie is actually the biggest loser... she'll try to talk dirty or say something degrading and act all dominant but she's crying like a baby , whimpering , begging caitlyn and especially vi to go easy on her. she talks big game but she cannot match it , she's the biggest baby. despite not having any feelings for her initially there's something so pathetic about maddie that caitlyn finds herself growing attracted to.

maddie calling caitlyn commander and vi sir...

baby trapping vi.... maddie self destructing , worried that vi is going to leave. caitlyn's horny ass just wants to breed him.. both of them topping vi desperately because they need him they just need him. vi ending up pregnant but they don't know whether it was caitlyn or maddie who knocked him up. was this on purpose ? maybe ;)

vi getting penis envy from his girlfriends. his little tdick is nothing in comparison even to maddie's. he gets angry and dysphoric and has episodes where he refuses to engage with either maddie or caitlyn physically or even at all sometimes. they never talk about it vi just comes back like nothing happened and is more rough for a little while wanting to be in full control.

both maddie and vi get off to being called faggot and mutt.. caitlyn's not sure how she feels about that...

on a less freaky note , maddie and caitlyn vs both being obsessed with vi's top surgery scars. maddie traces them with her fingers whenever she has the opportunity and caitlyn's always begging him to go shirtless so she can admire them. maddie's not good with needles but caitlyn helps him with his T injections as well.

[sinsmockingbird]

Five threesome pairs I want to be apart of. They'll be listed from the pair I want to be in between the most of, to the I still want to be in between them but not aching for it. For @sea-lanterns.

✧ GENSHIN IMPACT

1.) Raiden Ei & Yae Miko. I love these two, I love the ship (for the most part) and love their dynamic. I just know being in bed with them both is fucking crazy, and I want to experience that. Miko teasing the hell outta me and Ei, while the Archon is just getting a sweet tooth off me.

2.) Beidou & Ningguang. How can I not want to be with these two!? Lesbians, I love them, I want to witness their banter in bed while they pleasure me. You know Beidou is more rough and sloppy while Ningguang is slow and precise (great with her tongue).

3.) Arlecchino & Furina. Yes, a more toxic pairing with pretty dead dove themes, as deemed by the fandom. I don't fully ship them, but I just want to ruin Furina with Arlecchino. I want us both to make her cry and beg from our teasing, we'd be good cop bad cop.

4.) Ningguang & Ganyu. I'm sorry, but Ningguang has made it up here twice, because fucks sake I want her. I want these two to be slow and gentle with me, particularly after a hard day. We can take a warm bath and then after have loving sex.

5.) Shenhe & Yelan. Being tied up by Yelan and just having Shenhe all over me is.... yeah. I'm not too into Yelan, but goddammit, I am very into Shenhe.

✧ HONKAI STAR RAIL

1.) Black Swan & Acheron. The only reason this is number one is from that YouTube video. The two at, 2, were originally here, but it's changed. I want to be fucked hard by Acheron and become traumatized with Black Swan. I'll be the one to bring these two back together.

2.) Kafka & Himeko. I don't think much has to be said as to why, I mean... the chemistry between these two and the obvious history. Plus I want Kafka to ruin my pussy while Himeko is there comforting me, and allowing me to suck on her boobs. Best therapy fuck, right here.

3.) Stelle & Firefly. Let me please dominate and tease these two!! Oh my god I want to make Stelle squirm while I jerk their cock off and make sure she gets to the point of release before stopping. Then making Firefly a flushed mess while she watches, touching herself until I go between her legs-!!! God I want them.

4.) Jingliu & Yukong. My tragic old yuri women. Deranged Jingliu fucking me hard and in heat Yukong- yes I want to be bred and knocked up. I don't want to leave that bed until I'm filled with their cum, okay!! Plus, they both just need love.

5.) Serval & Natasha. This is a rare pair between two old women I love so much. We need Natasha to heal Serval's broken heart, the one Cocolia left her with, she is a doctor after all. And if getting into bed with them will start that? Then 100% we're doing that.

✧ PATH TO NOWHERE

1.) Zoya & Angell. After that fanart I saw with them both, and that thirst I wrote as well, I've never wanted to be between two women more. I want them to try and stake claim on me, fighting over me even as they fuck me dumb. I don't care how many bites and scratches I have on my body after.

2.) Shalom & Rahu. I want Rahu fucking me raw, like a dog in heat, while Shalom watches and praises us both. I also want to participate in endlessly teasing Rahu and making her unable to cum until Shalom gives her permission. It's a coin flip with them both for me.

3.) Deren & Raven. Give me these two creative ladies and let me pull them into bed with me. Just knowing Raven would be very high energy with a low energy Deren is amusing, but it works. Raven is doing most of the work, not that she minds, while I lazily jerk Deren off. It's fucking heaven.

4.) Cabernet & Kelvin. Intimidated but aroused Kelvin, having her thighs pinned down on the bed with Cabernet eating her out. Then I'm on the side, teasing her nipples and marking her neck, praising her. I want it.

5.) Tetra & Pricilla. These two would be beyond teasing in bed, and you know what, I'd take it all. I want to their prized gem that they worship and love.

[ravenclod]

DISC: this 'essay' is NOT hating on madohomu, or hating on people for shipping them. nor is it hating on Homura, or implying that her actions should be changed. It is simply an opinion from someone who loves Homura's character who also ships Madohomu, and just wants to rant about things i feel are ignored by the fandom. Please read the full thing before reblogging or replying with your opinions so i dont need to repeat myself.

Maybe I'm just a hater, but I don't understand how people can look at Homura and just excuse everything she’s done, especially in regards to Madoka, because she "actually loved everyone!” and "Is traumatised" and "It’s just toxic yuri!". It feels like a complete ignorance of her character and disregards the complexity and depth of her writing.

Now, obviously, I don't mean when people make jokes about it, I get that, but it’s when people genuinely don't acknowledge how madohomu is unhealthy and homura is a bad person. That is quite literally the whole point.

I'm aware that she does care about the other girls, which is why she didn't try to kill Mami in rebellion, and just acted like the others didn't matter throughout the show because she was all out of hope and had to concentrate on the one thing keeping her sane, which was Madoka. But that is exactly my point. That obsessiveness, that reliance on one singular person [ who is also largely unaware of the reason for said reliance ] is incredibly unhealthy. It is unhealthy. It is toxic. I'm not saying homura is abusive, like some people have, because she absolutely is not, but she is obsessive to the point of being unable to see madoka in a negative way. Even when she criticises her it’s from a "you're so stupid you can’t tell that people love you/you’re so stupid for doing this you're gonna get hurt" point of view, rather than the view of "oh you are genuinely naïve and mess up like everyone". [1] This in turn harms both of them, as she is putting her on a pedestal which Madoka will feel guilty for being on and worry about upholding, and it ruins Homura as she will simply spiral further into this unhealthy mindset.

She takes her [ Madoka’s ] word to the extreme, the word of which has no form of context and is speaking from the equivalent of the naïve Madoka that we see in the first episode. Homura then uses that to justify what she goes on to do during Rebellion, which in turn harms Madoka. when she rips Madoka from herself, I understand it's to avoid the incubators getting to her, and it is very in character, but she still actively harmed Madoka, and went against her wish to save all magical girls [ from becoming witches ] at least, in part.

Her obsessiveness does then leech off and affect everyone else, because she is also friends with them and does care for them. They begin to lose respect and gain upset over Homura, as she is now a girl who has one goal and throws them to the side to achieve this, not attempting to make genuine connections and discarding those which she does have - namely Kyoko in the show. This behaviour affects the other girls in the obvious sense of they die quicker and more frequently as Homura is no longer attempting to intervene; affecting Madoka too, as she ends up getting stressed about her friends not getting along, before then having the trauma of seeing her friends die. [ This is not to put the blame on Homura as it happens regardless, but the point is for everyone else, it will seem like Homura could have helped, even if it was out-with her power.] This will harm Homura as a result, for it will plague her how she treats her friends like this, and will only cause her self-esteem to plummet further than it already has.

Additionally, there are points where she could be argued to be manipulative, which is up to personal judgement, but it is worth noting. Obviously, it would not be from her own awareness or intention, but it is still a plausible outcome of her actions - i.e., the way she speaks to Madoka in the show, almost threatening her before then sobbing over her and acting like she is the most important girl in the world, [2] which, keep in mind, will be weird for Madoka as she barely knows this girl. This isn't to say Homura's actions aren’t understandable, especially in the show, but that doesn't remove the negative impact that they have. Homumado may be cute, and it is cute, especially pre-timeloop, but the reality is, even now, it wouldn't work without years and years of couple therapy.

I also am going to mention kyosaya, as they are also unhealthy, and I know someone may try to bring up how I love them so much in spite of this fact. They are definitely not the most healthy relationship, literally trying to kill each other in a fight in the first episode they met. It is practically impossible to ship characters in this show and have a healthy relationship [ with maybe the exception of madosaya pre-timelooping ]. However, the difference between kyosaya and madohomu is my general issue altogether, which isn't that the ships are unhealthy, but rather the way the fandom treats them in regards to them being such.

Kyosaya is known for being enemies to lovers, its known for being unhealthy and its known for being liked in the theory of "oh this is what they could have been, had they been given more time to understand each other.". It is also an equal relationship, there are no forms of power dynamic between the two, both are equally vulnerable; both hate the other at the start, and respect and care for one another at the end - as seen in rebellion. Even when Kyoko is stronger than Sayaka, that's cancelled out by Sayaka's determination and healing properties.

Homumado, on the other hand, are known for being equally doomed, but in the sense of "Oh Homura will never save Madoka, Madoka will always die, they can never be together.". There is never that acknowledgement that they wouldn't work, even if by some miracle the looping ended. There is simply too much that has happened. The only possible scenario is arguably one in which Madoka stays as Madokami, and Homura stays as the devil, for at least both have equal memories of all that has transpired, but even that has huge issues due to Homura's abandonment issues and obsessiveness toward madoka. There is also, unlike in kyosaya, a large power imbalance, which goes both ways at different points.

In the main show, this is heavy on Homura, as she knows so much about Madoka, she's seen her at her best and worst, and she knows all that will happen. She is also stronger than her, as for the most part Madoka is not a magical girl, and is unable to do anything to prevent her friends’.

Flip that to when Madoka is god however, and she is now the topheavy one, as she is fully aware of everything that has transpired. and Homura is so obsessive. If madoka were anyone else, it could very quickly turn bad with Madoka manipulating Homura's infatuation - which obviously isn't an issue as madoka is so nice, but you get my point.

It is a point though that homura still has power over madoka, especially considering her removal of "Madoka" from "Madokami". She technically has a part madoka all for herself, and has relative power over that for the time being. No one is able to do anything. It’s almost like she’s controlling a doll, except the doll is a piece of madoka she’s refusing to let return to the rest of her.

This is what I mean when I say there is no form of permanent equity between the two, while kyosaya are a yin and yang of give and take, madohomu are simply always off balance. Which is why they're so unhealthy.

Again, that doesn't mean they're not a good ship. That doesn't mean they're not cute, and they don't deserve to be together. It could 10000% work out, just as kyosaya is also toxic but could still work out. My issue isn't with the ship, the writing, or the characters, but rather the disregard to the discussions surrounding it.

To paint Homura as a "cute girl who's a bit obsessed” is a disservice to the complexities of her actions and her humanity, as again, she is a heavily traumatised 14 year old girl. Her actions are realistic, her actions make sense. But her actions aren’t good. This is not a critique on Homura, but a critique of the denial that she has done these bad things. denying as such waters her down and mischaracterizes her. It defeats the point of her as a character.

After all, she is the devil. She’s not intended to be nice.

[1] - "How stupid can you possibly be" - episode 5

[2] - fountain scene, episode 8, where she breaks down in front of madoka

[crguang]

rain burst and flora unfurl are finally back !!! hope u enjoy ‘em sat because they’re CRAZYYY in the best way possible. my biggest interest in how you’ll interpret these events is if you’ll become a sharahu advocate or a chief x shalom truther like me /j /lh also would love love love to see you psychoanalyze my number 1 little meow meow lomi… i literally love her to so many pieces like she is the kafka to my sat and i miss her so bad i have nearly 200 pulls saved to try and get her at MINUMUM s3. need her carnally but also in my life to give her all the loving she deserves !!! anyway enough yap from me, enjoy the gayest event in ptn comrade !!! 🫡🫡🫡

I HAVE FINISHED RAIN BURST. OHHHHHH MY GOD SEV. SO MANY THOUGHTS. they’re all over the place rn and i can’t even begin to organize them i need to take a step back before i dive into flora unfurl but WOW. first of all… was no one going to mention how garofano would change my life in this event. did not expect to love her more than i already do but she totally blindsided me i am ENAMOURED i cannot stop thinking about her oh my god, the garden are my family and very likely my favourite faction in the game so far which was totally unexpected. that’s why i think flora unfurl will be the event for me, i can’t wait to see more of shalom and coquelic i’m shaking in place rn

….i am not a sharahu advocate unfortunately because while i get the appeal and, by all means, they should have changed my brain chemistry, i’m not that into rahu 😭 righteous characters are nice but i don’t gravitate towards them; i admire her loyalty, determination and strength, and i think she’s hot but other than that… i love toxic yuri but if im not into both characters a ship won’t appeal to me at all </3 i know the whole of the ptn fandom loves them and i understand why honestly, it’s just not really for me 😞

shalom though……. *shaky voice* she’s neat. obsessed with her. i need more. now. one thing about me, a frigid composure is gonna lure me in. she’s so calculating!!!! so meticulous!!!! so cold on the outside!! i just shuddered thinking about her. i finished chapter 12 of the main story before starting the event and thank god that anon told me because i recognized her voice at the end of it and things are starting to make sense. obsessed with her perception of herself. obsessed with this contradiction of being a replaceable tool and wanting to live anyway. recruiting rahu assured her safety yet she seems to have accepted that she will die for paradeisos one day. she admires nature for its freedom. she’s not as unbothered as she looks and i need to dig into her like she’s a mining site SHOW ME THE GOLD!!!!! she’s so delightful. the way she looks down on rahu for not being as manipulative and cold as paradeisos is… so intriguing. how much did being created as a weapon for paradeisos’ selfish goals fuck her up i wonder. she takes the objectification in stride but there was clear longing in the way she talked about the villa’s garden… im so excited to learn more about her and even more for chief to come back to see their dynamic (im so worried about my chiefy wtf is going on??? somebody check on nightingale STAT) i need to split her brain open and i hope now that things are getting serious with coquelic more will come out about her since this was more rahu’s story. i’ll have a proper post to make about her once i finish flora unfurl, i cant believe i still have to wait for her interrogation but shes within reach… hoping you get two shaloms back to back so u get to s5🙏🏾

also “shes the kafka to my sat” really was the easiest way to make me understand how much she means to you and that made me laugh so hard😭😭 i get you fr

[stanheightis]

ok im done yellowjackets and i have a LOT of thoughts! (MAJOR YELLOWJACKETS SEASON 1&2 SPOILERS!!!!)

- why do yall hate travis sm?? like i KNOW he said some shit in s1 that was unfavourable, but hes not THAT BAD??? had me thinking he was gonna be evil NO!! hes a CHILD!!! on top of this, why is travnat like shunned in this fandom, i dont think its THAT bad, but im not their biggest fan

- i dont get the hype over lottienat.. 😓 i think its js cause i dont really like lottie that much and i LOVE nat like shes so me but i dont get it truly (i take it back lfmao, lottie is NAWTT my gal)

- JACKIE. FUCKING. TAYLOR. i love you, you died too soon queen rip ✊ jackieshauna u will always be famous

- I WILL BE A D1 SHAUNA DEFENDER IDCCC when i watched the first episode like last year i didnt rly like her WHAT WAS I DOING i love u shauna shipman u deserve BETTER.

- taivan… my beloveds taivan… you are too beautiful for this i love you so much taivan. doomed yuri at its finest

- i saw someone said travnat is just straightified toxic yuri and i cant unsee that lmfao

- do people hate callie??? if so, i will be her BIGGEST FAN IDCCCC im that entire families n1 defender ok like they deserve betterrrrr omfggggd like callie is just a teen!! shes a KID!!! she wanted to HELP!!!

- if this show ends up being a supernatural type show i might deadass drop it, like i think it would be SO much more interesting if it was psychological instead of supernatural

- LOTTIELEE!!!! lottielee my babies they were just the first 2 to go insane and found solace in each other and laura lee haunts lottie!! i am a sucker for haunting other characters

- what ben did was justified i understand him cuz i KNOW their asses were gonna eat him next

- okay i might be wrong but if they had actually been MOVING in one direction since the start of the show, they wouldve had to have found civilization by that point. ik theyre deep in the canadian wilderness but people still live somewhere up there/people wouldve been up there during summertime, they were bound to find SOMEONE but NO!! they stayed in one spot and resorted to eating each other. i dont wanna say its their fault but..

- this one might be a little controversial and contrary to my previous posts, but i found the adult storyline more entertaining a few times as opposed to the kids one.

- misty.. i have such mixed feelings on her, i dont think a character has ever pissed me off while simultaneously rootinf for her sometimes ever wtf what an amazinf character

- i think jeff was unironically the funniest character in the show soley due to his line delivery

- shauna going from protecting javi to having to be the one to cut him up 🙁

- actually, i think ill forever hold a grudge against all them (besides nat and shauna) for WATCHING JAVI DIE??? man fuck the opps fr

- ok i see people sayinf that 8 people survived the wilderness but whos the last like ks the 8 ppl thing fake?? cuz ik shauna, nat, misty, tai, van, lottie and travis all survived then whos the 8th?? (hoping its ben🙏)

- we need more confirmed sapphics

- last thing i think but whats up w tai and the “other one”?? cuz i looked up if it was DID, and it was confirmed no (rightfully so, that would be a HORRIBLE stereotype) but im so confused on what it COULD be 😭

- OKAY ONE LAST THING the alive ones always talk about “what they did” in the wilderness, and how they dont want the secret out, but was it actually confirmed on what it was?? cuz it doesnt rly make sense if it IS the cannibalism because i dont think people are that stupid, and probably just ASSUME thats what happened. is it the cult maybe?? it could be HOW they went on deciding who would be eaten next maybe, cuz thats probably not how others would decide??

- speakinf on the choosing scenes, both had me STRESSINGGG

[theneighborhoodwatch]

Serious question, not trying to start a fight: If you're aware of the possibility of Wally and Home's relationship being like that of family, and you've made it clear you don't ship incest, why risk shipping them together at all, even if it's in a "toxic yuri" sort of way?

traffic was so bad that i was an hour late to class so now you all get to watch me poke this bear. response under the cut for discussions of familial abuse, incest, and a brief mention of csa.

serious answer: the home that exists as a representation of a past that never was/never will be again, or as a representation of The House Of American Suburbia Fame built with the intent of superseding the need for/being directly responsible for all of its inhabitant's other relationships (platonic, romantic, familial, etc.) existing, and the home that exists as a representation Specifically of an abusive family member, exist in two separate planes of reality to me. these planes are not above each other, i think. they are on the same level of plausibility. but they do not overlap, and the fact is that i am simply much more interested in the former than the latter. i realize that "i think the more popular fanon interpretation of them as parent and child is boring" is kind of a flippant answer to a question as heavy as this but, well. i do think that interpretation is pretty boring lol. also probably doesn't help that i see it get used to infantilize wally a lot. a mutual obsession whose end goal of total social supersession can never be fulfilled without coming at a great cost to one or both parties is something i find much more compelling, and gives much more agency to both parties.

in the hypothetical event that these two realities Do end up intersecting, however - even in the event that they intersect in a way where i could interpret their dynamic to be that of incestuous abuse - well. i would simply no longer be comfortable calling it a ship! that does not mean i would no longer be interested in analyzing their relationship; horror is all about exploring the Unpleasantries of life, after all. but the approach and the language would change; i would no longer be comfortable exploring it through the lens of shipping, i personally find that pretty distasteful. i believe that just because it is A lens through which people have analyzed that type of dynamic before does not mean it is the Ideal lens - far from it, in my experience as a (former) child with sexual trauma who grew up on the internet. but i digress. the fact of the matter right now is that nothing has happened that would cause such a shift in behavior for me. ergo, i intend to live it up for as long as i can and declare that wally and home's relationship is both one that cannot be defined by paltry human terms and one so intense and passionate that it will also go up in flames bright enough to make fleetwood motherfucking mac collectively fall to their knees and weep.

also, a funnier but still serious alternate answer: i spent nearly my entire adolescence as a husk of a person, and what ultimately got me out of it was getting into smile for me at age 18 - and subsequently, the rest of yugo limbo's work. i was reborn and reshaped in the objectum trenches. this did not necessarily make me objectum in turn, but i feel i owe something to that crowd as a result.

[atla-confessions]

I'm too shy too put this on my blog and gods does this blog need some multi shipper bullshit, as a multi shipper I like putting all my ships in one universe and pretending their either one big polycule or a long list of ex's for my otp so here's Zuko's long list of ex lovers;

Song x Zuko, Zuko did NOT know she was hitting on him.

Jetko, they weren't healthly in anyway and broke up on bad terms.

Jinko, maybe in another life.

Maiko, lavender marriage, I personally think they stay together just to get Zuko an heir after he becomes Fire Lord.

Zukka, Zuko divorces Mai after they both realize that their madly inlove with their best friends.

(In the event of Zukka, Sokka & Suki just simply fell out of love and broke up on good terms and are still good friends)

alternatively, Zukki where Sokka and Zuko are dating and Sokka and Suki are dating but Zuko and Suki aren't (yet).

Mailee, Mai gets with Ty lee after Zuko & her divorce

alternatively, Maizula where Azula learns how to express her emotions in a healthy manner and slowly but surely rebuilds trust with in Mai (and Ty lee) and they go from toxic Yuri to healthy midlife Yuri

There's some divergence in the timeline to fit in some ships I don't want in the same universe bc they clash too much but most of them fit pretty nicely into one universe :3

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[danggirlronpa]

It's Mikan's birthday! Do you have any Mikan headcanons? Or perhaps your favorite ships with her? What about platonic relationships you like with her? I'm interested in any Mikan thoughts you have!

Now that I've said I don't often ship Mikan, let's talk about the ships I do have!

My absolute favorite Mikan ship is actually Mikan/Twogami (which I'm justifying talking about on this blog because you COULD choose to interpret it as sapphic. I personally don't, but you can!). This is one of my favorite ships in the entire series, and I'm working really hard to restrain myself from writing multiple pages of meta right now. In essence, I think they're two caretakers who both aren't used to being cared for, and their interactions in DR3 are exceptionally sweet and show that they complement each other incredibly well, along with sharing body dysmorphia issues. I think they'd be a very caring & supportive relationship!

The next one is Junko, who causes those issues. I Have The Range. I've waxed poetic about this before so we don't really need to get into it again. Toxic yuri...can be Good

The first time I played SDR2, I remember REALLY liking Mikan/Ibuki. Which I feel like is probably the most common Mikan ship! They just complement her really well. And Ibuki Loves Boobs. I feel bad for not talking about the F/F Mikan ships as much but like. Gestures to blog. You know the gist. I Love Them

And this is another one with a lad. But since you brought up friendships, my Mikan brOTP is absolutely Nekomaru. Firstly: MLM/WLW solidarity. Secondly: I think that, since their work would easily coincide as they develop physical therapy and nutritional plans for athletes, and Nekomaru has such strong memories related to his time in the hospital as a child, they could have a really nice, low-pressure friendship! (Not to imply that a Nurse, a PT, and a Nutritionist are all the same. But DR proper doesn't draw a distinction, so it's probably fine!) I think Nekomaru also has exactly the kind of open, friendly personality that would put Mikan at ease, and that his work helping athletes would put him in a really good position to encourage her to be kinder to herself.

[real-total-drama-takes]

back on my gwourtney bs. time to speak my truth. tdas sends very mixed messages about how gwen feels about courtney but in both interpretations it makes perfect sense.

if gwen is actually truly sorry for kissing duncan: BEAUTIFUL!! they finally make up and get a chance to retry their friendship. they get closer over time and eventually realize that maybe they want to kiss too. what about it. maybe they're girlfriends. it's adorable and it's sweet.

if gwen is NOT sorry (think when she references "you can't steal a boyfriend if the boy is free" etc): ALSO BEAUTIFUL!! this could be a VERY SPECIFIC BRAND of enemies to lovers. i plan on rewriting tdas one day and i am honestly leaning towards this. this makes more sense with tdwt. listen. in tdwt, gwen really does not give a shit and she's actively gunning for courtney's elimination (courtney would've gone home in episode 16 if not for cody being bad at everything) which is totally fair cause courtney was being kinda crazy and also her relationship with duncan was super toxic at that point. anyways my point is it makes a lot of sense for gwen to be on tdas and just hate courtney's guts. or at the very least dislike her. we know courtney doesn't like gwen either. if the writers of tdas weren't COWARDS they could've put gwen and courtney in a lot of situations that forced them to be together (e.g. them being on the same team from the start/earlier on, callback to the wedding challenge [pairing them together in a silly lil duncney reference], leaving them as the only contestants in a cabin or in the hotel or something) which would've caused them to start crushing on one another cause it's 2023 let these ladies be GAY!!! it's the most beautiful toxic yuri ever. and even better they can develop into nontoxic yuri. let them move past d*ncan into a beautiful era of lesbianism.

the second type of tdas gwourtney is specifically fulfilling for the duncney shippers who really just want to see courtney be mean to someone and make out with them (let's face it who DOESN'T want to see that)

but if you like the wholesome sweet relationship they can have, GWOURTNEY GIVES YOU THAT TOO!!

gwourtney is the superior courtney ship it's everything you would ever need in a lesbian couple. they can love each other. they can hate each other. they can bond over hating one specific man. they can bond over their excessive knowledge about the history of the city of london. it's so perfect

if anyone read this entire rant please for the love of god MAKE SOME GWOURTNEY CONTENT. write them. draw them. make silly headcanons about them. encourage others to do the same. SPREAD THE GOSPEL

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