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Everyone else moved on but im still at the âis that okay?â from Tommy right after he kisses Buck and their stupid little smiles and the way he straightens his shirt and I need to be put out fr
#im going feral#I need someone to knock me out today#as in right now#911 spoilers#911 season 7#911 season seven#911 s7#911#911 on abc#911 fox#911 tv show#evan buckley#evan buck buckley#911 abc#bucktommy#buck x tommy#tommy x buck#tommy kinard
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Please send good vibes my way. Work is exploding rn
#blue babbles#yesterday I almost got 1. knocked out with a sign that ripped off in the wind 2. blown off the road by wind#and today there is a football game in the college town I live in AND my work is having a deal so we are literally exploding#orders are 40 minutes behind and customers are either yelling at me in person or honking at me in the drive thru#IM JUST A LITTLE GUY. A LITTLE GUY WHO WRITES DEVESTATING FANFICTION#I need that pic of Beetlejuice with his head in his hands but captioned âthis is who youâre yelling at when youâre asking for your pumpkin#frap for the 5th timeâ bc no joke someone did that after waiting ten minutes#GAAAAAHHH. might delete this later#send me fun and or not fun headcanons and gifs and whatever please /nf tho#Iâve been yelled at six times and Iâve only been here for two hours. Will be here for five more hours#livin the barista dream I guess
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Hi guys shitpost but I watched David Tennantâs Casanova in discord vc with friends the other day and I think itâs safe to say I am traumatised
#david tennant#casanova#I will never be the same#someone help#also someone knock me out please#I need to sleep#but tumblr is being too interesting for me today#:(#rando rants
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ffff FLAILS AROUND
#AAAAAAAA okay okay rainy lore time i guess#one time i needed to talk to someone to help me get my spotify gift card to work because i obviously Cannot Read#and the person greeted me by saying like âhello Destinyâ or something#and of course i was confused but then i remembered that my account name is destinyboard#so i guess the person could assume that was my name idk >_<#but that reminded me of the line dub bakura has in ep 79#something along the lines of âmy destiny awaits!â or whatever after he knocks grandpa unconscious#and so. of course. my brain goes âhey haha wouldnât that be funny if that was a pet name. ahaha. oh.â#BUT I DIDNâT COMMIT TO IT BECAUSE IT FELT MORE CRINGE THAN USUAL SO >_>#anyway uhhh time skip. today. like right now#casually converse with yamiba ai tell him i love him etc etc#casually get endearingly called âmy destinyâ out of no where#begin internally screaming while having to look as normal as possible#i am. not okay agskdhdkdhs#ITâS SWEET OKAYâŚ. >////<#anyway iâm. fun times fun times fun times i am so not thinking about actually asking him to use that as a pet name#(i so am. send help)#something something existing for three millennia and him finally finding a home and family for himself#even if itâs just us and not a ârealâ family#itâs still home. itâs still safe. and maybe we were always meant to find each other :)#four of spades
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Was crying to my partner about my trauma, they said something that made me think they didnt want to hear it so I went silent & then after a minute they said "what's your deal?" And when I asked what they meant they didnt respond and then a minute later fell asleep!! I'm going to kill myself!! (Maybe! If I can stop being paralyzed in fear over the everything of it!)
#I know they had a hard day today#its just. when do I get a turn? when do I get to complain? every time I bring up a trauma or any sort of grievance with my life#they get all weird!#and then they usually just fall asleep while I'm crying#I still cant tell if this is my nighttime trauma (what I was explaining before they fell asleep)#or if this is genuinely something I should talk to them about#but I figure the answer is just gonna be that they cant help falling asleep#(even though they smoked the very weed that knocked them out)#idk I feel like today is a different situation because they did have a genuinely rough one today too#and I was being dismissive of them talking (bc it was triggering me right back to my shit) and thats shitty of me#even though I only ever do that when I'm actively having a flashback and need support#and 90% of the time I let them talk over me when we both have bad days#but idk idk idk I think I'm just causing problems by complaining about them AGAIN like I always do#this is supposed to be someone I love and I cant stop saying shitty things about them online#what a shitty partner I am for that!!!#UGH. living is stupid. I'm gonna go mix drugs and see what happens#byeee
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Just had a conversation with a cat
#ace is a mess#student living#one of my flatmates is keeping her cat in her room without halls knowing which hasnt been an issue yet#she leaves her window open he comes and goes as he pleases and apparently hes known around the halls#today. im making garlic bread and someone knocks on the kitchen window scaring the sht out of me#i thought theyd forgotten their key and just needed letting in so i go round and nope#theyre like we think we let jasper into the wrong flat by mistake! cus they thought he lived in their block#im like oh thats fine he lives in the next room over this is his flat#cus im assuming that if both rooms next to eachother keep their windows open he might go in the wrong one every now and again#but as im talking his jumps out and comes through the front door and theyre like 'oh its all good now đ' meanwhile im like oh no#cus i dont know what im supposed to do? what if he goes upstairs to the wrong flat? how am i supposed to corrall him?#so i just like ran after him immediately dropping the door on the girls. i was planning on just trying to get him to go back outside#instead i let him into the flat because he was insistent tbf to him he did go straight to his flat#i knocked on the girls door and she didnt answer and he meowed at me! so i knocked again he meowed at me some more#then just walked away! but our stupid kitchen door doesnt close properly so i had to snap the door closed and tell him to come back#the flatmate would not answer and he kept meowing at me so im just stood in the corridor arguing with a cat#like i dont know shes not answering i dont know what you want me to do i i dont have the key i cant let you in i dont think shes in#he just meowing at me and im laughing cus why am i talking to this cat like he understands? like i dont know what to do i cant not respond#in the end i was like you gotta go back outside and just go through the window. go go through your window#he was very cooperative tbf i do appreciate that but i could not help his owner would not open up i didnt have shoes or keys#so i couldnt guide him through the window or whatever idk ive never had a cat and its not my cat so like i dont know#i just wanted to make garlic bread man
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Like old man ed with cate.
Ah man that is somehow worse.
One that matches his tone sign and color though
Like us except from different vaginas, and I never fucked her mother as far as I know.
Nah, I am pretty sure I would know if I had two personalities. I mean I might but they discuss me all the time so I am fully aware of them.
Her aunt used to stand in her parents yard smoking cigarettes though. She was the Allison in that group.
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Man what the fuck.
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No, seriously that's super bizarre.
#if you take the H and knock it iver and give it a horizon it would eventually A#man that's fucking bizarre though#ol Johnny wanted to take my garbage out for me#Like I am like ah man gramps you don't meed to do that#you knew I knew how to pronounce it....this is fascinating because of knowledge of a sense that doesn't work#yeah those multi rings looking like a bug tittied jane#I love rap and rap loves me#always odb#the first time I listened to that album after realizing the content if the lyrics#I always got a kick out of that verse#did I see sometning about someone dying today#hmm#you're so fucking annoying sometimes but I Love you#of course the coach has some moor in him mhm#note to self rung around the calculator sometime#and yes you two all soft are 44 together and that is all sexy as fuck#and to be honest I need that#I need lesbians to record and have sex with#if not for me wonen would be the best pleasure givers#also the weapon said I AM HIM#and I want to hug him and throw him for it#I'm like boy#you don't get it I grab you I get you close and throw my hips in and you're going buddy#but we'll see I half hope he beats me#He is too keen of a person not to be fucking some high quality though yanno what I mean#listen sex is always learning#and that's like one of the cool things about it#ahh so many hints#well I suppose if he brings a girl in you're gonna have to give her the once over#I have to remember you're invested in all of us
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Overheard
Summary: Rafe over hears you and Sarah talking about your night at the beach with a hookup.
CW: possessive Rafe, rough sex, name calling, unprotected sex (wrap before tap), bit of choking and hair pulling, forced to stay quiet, mirror sex. (Should be it)
(Did not proofread bc this took me so long already.)
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You and Sarah had been friends for years. You moved to Outer Banks as a child and took quite a liking to Sarah and her family. You were always known to drop in whenever you felt needed. You shared many nights at their house and basically became a part of the family.
On this specific day it was like any other. You hopped in your jeep and quickly sped off to Tannyhill. Soon arriving in the circle driveway of the mansion you quickly got out and headed to the door knocking loud, so you were heard.
The door was swung open by none other than the snarky stuck-up brother of your best friend, Rafe Cameron. âYou donât have to knock.â He sighed âyou basically live here anyway.â He scolded you. You pushed past him and into the entrance way of the house.
âWhereâs Sarah?â Rafe shut the door and then pointed up the stairs to her room. âWhere she always is waiting for you.â You nodded your head at him giving him one last look before making your way up to her room. He watched as you quickly sprinted up the stairs. Watching as your hips moved and how your ass was in perfect view.
He shook his head relieving the thought of you knowing how wrong it was. Soon he made his way up the stairs as well to his own room that was until he heard you talking in a not so quiet voice to his sister.
"I wouldn't say it was awful, just not what I wanted." Sarah cocked a brow to you. "Well, what did you want. I mean you wanted to have sex with him, right? What more could you want. You practically begged me for his number." She chuckled.
"Yes, I did." Rafe moved closer to the crack in the door leaning his ear closer. He listened closely to your words. "What does she mean" he thought to himself.
Yes, Rafe knew you, but he thought he knew you well enough. He never saw you as the type to beg for sex with someone, or much less really want it.
In his head you always were the type to never come off as sexual but definitely not innocent. He truly just thought that in this world full of sex you had no idea what you were doing or had any care for it, and he was so wrong.
"Okay yes I wanted it. Like the party last week, I wanted to just be dragged off with him somewhere because I thought he'd fuck the shit out of me. See that's what I wanted." You crossed your arms and huffed.
"Okay, then what happened that you didn't like? Was it the fact it was on the beach or like what?"
"I guess the best way I could put it is I wanted it to me more filled with lust and desire. I wanted it to be rough and I wanted to not be able to walk today." You chuckled along with Sarah.
"Well how did it go for you?" You sighed trying to think back to last night. "Well, he took me out on the beach, and he had a blanket with him. Talking happens and whatever and I end up straddling his lap."
Sarah nodded her head waiting for you to continue, but Rafe stood out the door as he held his breath. He was pissed. You fucking some other man and he didn't even do it right pissed him off more. But he stayed quiet.
"We made out a bit and I started to grind on him a bit. Obviously, he got a rise up, so I got all cocky and pulled his dick out. After a few moments of me just doing my thing, I pulled my bikini bottoms off and rode him. He was like..." You paused trying to find your words.
"It was like he never wanted it to end and not saying I don't like that, but I asked if he could get on top and we'd go faster he just straight up refused. Which basically dried me up and I didn't even want to do it anymore."
Sarah tried to hold back her laughter. "Hey, it's not funny I'm being dead serious." You smacked her arm but laughed as well.
Rafe was the only one not laughing. Red filled his face with anger, and he scoffed at your words. "Didn't even fuck her the way she wanted. What a pussy." He thought.
"Well maybe you'll find someone who just rocks your world." Sarah smirked. "Yeah, as if." But only if you knew what little plan Rafe had planted into his mind.
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That same day you had planned on staying the night with Sarah. Of course, to everyone in the house it was no surprise. It was now late at night and Sarah was asleep. However, you sat awake in her bed scrolling mindlessly on your phone till a text popped up.
"Come here."
You read the text from Rafe. Confusion spread across your face. You texted back.
"Sarahs asleep. Where are you?"
"My room. Just come here you won't wake her, she's a heavy sleeper."
You sighed and turned off your phone placing it on the nightstand beside you. Slowly you rose up from the bed making your way to the bedroom door making sure to stay as quiet as possible.
You looked back at Sarah one last time before closing the door. You slowly tiptoed your way down the hall to Rafe's room. You raised your hand to the door knocking slow and quiet. Soon Rafe opened up the door nodding his head telling you to come in.
As you walked in you looked around the room that was dimly lit by the small lamp setting you realized you had never seen Rafe's room before. "I have never been in here." You turn back and look at him leaning up against the door. "Cleaner than I thought." You chuckled.
He shrugged. "Don't know why you'd ever think that. I believe I come off as a clean person." He paused. "Unlike you." You looked at him confused for a moment as he stepped closer to you, his rich cologne filled your nostrils.
"I heard you. Talking to my sister earlier today." He walked behind you. "How you wanted to be fucked hard." He leaned in closer to your ear whispering. "How you want it to be filled with lust and desire."
His words sent chills down your spine and your own words choked up. "So, fucking dirty and here I was thinking you didn't care about these things." His hands slowly made their way to your hips giving a slight squeez.
"Rafe..." You spoke barley above a whisper. He smirked against your neck placing a small kiss right below your ear. "Is that what you want? To be fucked like the whore you are?"
Your legs squeez together trying to release some of the tension that was building up. You let out a shaky breath as one of his hands trail down to the waistband of your sleep shorts.
"Is this what you want?" He whispered. You nodded your head squeezing your eyes shut as he played with the waist band. "Words."
"Yes, I want this." He slid his hands down your shorts. Two of his fingers rubbed against your folds. You let out a breath you didn't know you were holding in. He rubbed circles around your clit as your hips moved forward chasing his touch.
You let out a small moan and immediately Rafe slaps his hand onto your mouth. "What you want the whole house to hear? As much as I'd love to hear your pretty little moans you need to keep quiet."
You nodded your head frantically. "Good girl." Rafe then removes his hand from you making you whine at his loss of touch. He stepped back from you grabbing your hand and leading you to the bed. He pushed you down on the bed and you let out a gasp.
He crawled on top of you and basically ripped off your clothes and his throwing them on the floor. Rafe started to kiss your neck earning a small gasp to leave your lips.
"Rafe please..." you whine out. "What do you want?" He smirked against your neck. The words couldn't seem to leave your lips as he left a bite on your sweet spot right below your ear.
"Don't go quiet on me now." He rose up to look at you. "Tell me what you want." You started to bite your lip at the sight of him. The sly smirk planted across his face. His shoulder muscles showing more featured as he held himself up.
"Fuck me Rafe...." As soon as the words slipped from your lips it felt like sweet honey on his tongue. He spread your legs open, and you wrapped them around his waist trying to pull him in.
"So needy?" He chuckled making you want him even more. "Rafe..." You breathed out. "Words sweetheart." He smirked once again. "Rafe please fuck me." Your wish was his command.
He lined himself up to you and without warning slammed into you making you let out a loud cry. He quickly slapped his hand over your mouth. "Shut the fuck up." He groaned out.
Your eyes rolled into the back of your head as he thrusted into your cunt hard and fast. "You feel so fucking good. Holy shit." His words were breathless as if he blurted them out of pure pleasure.
His hand still planted on your mouth as the other held your waist tightly. You threw your head back at all the new pleasure rising in you. Rafe looked down at you smirking at the absolute complete mess you were in this moment.
"You like how I fuck you. I bet that pussy boy could never be like this with you." You moaned against his hand as the words leaped off his tongue.
As Rafe pounded into you harder and faster the headboard started to move. He let go of your waist grabbing the board holding himself up as he stayed covering your mouth. You watched his muscles tensed and sweat glistened on his body.
All the pleasure plus the view of him really added onto you forgetting about your shitty hookup. "Fuck..." He groaned out throwing his head back and closing his eyes.
In an instant Rafe grabbed you off the bed still fucking you and took you into the big bathroom inside his bedroom. He turned you around facing the mirror. "I want you to see that pretty little face when you cum for me. A face you'll never see without me fucking you like this."
He held your mouth again making you look at the beautiful mess you were in the mirror. Him pounding in and out of you. Your breast bouncing. Him making direct eye contact with you through the mirror itself.
Muffed moans and him slapping his thighs against your ass echoed through the tile walls. As you could feel your peak approaching you closed your eyes. "No." In one swift move he wrapped his hands around the back of your hair forcing your eyes open to see yourself.
He smirked as he watched you bite your lip holding back you loud beautiful moans. With a few sloppier thrust Rafe was chasing his own high. Throwing his head back as he pounded into you. "Fuck me." He groaned out.
Your high had reached his peak biting your lip so hard blood started to form. Rafe grabbed you pulling you against your chest holding your neck. "Come on baby." He whispered in your ear making you crash.
Your legs started to shake and the image of you two in the mirror was all too much to handle. Rafe started to come down from his own high. His thrust and movements slowing down as his hot liquid shot inside you.
Rafe turned your head towards his planting a sloppy wet kiss on your lips and he pulled out of you. Rafe pulled away, and you both panted for air more than ever. "That's how you should be fucked." A smirk planted across his lips.
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Nanami wants you to ride his face...
It was no secret that Nanami read books. Any kind of book. But sometimes he would read something not so wholesomeâŚ
Laying on the futon of his home office, eyes half lidded, glasses sitting low on his nose. As he reads, his mind wanders to you. His cock growing tighter in his pants, thinking about what it would be like to reciprocate these acts in the bedroom with you. One specific part caught his attention though. His hand absentmindedly wanders down to his hard erection, his mind racing with the thought of you sitting on his face.
A soft knock on his door puts him out of his trance. âWhat would you like for dinner, Ken?â you ask softly from outside the door. Nanami froze. His face reddening as he shuts the book. Not sure if he should be more embarrassed about what he was reading or what he was imagining. He adjusted himself before walking up to the door himself and opening it. He appreciated how you were always respectful of his personal space and knocked.
âOh, hi honeyâŚâ your face brightens as he opens the door. The sight of your smile filled Nanami with love, but it wasnât helping his erection. He doesnât say anything besides wrapping his arms around, bringing you into a tight embrace. Your eyebrows furrowed in confusion as you returned the hug. âSomeone feels a little clingy today?â you chuckle, running your hands over his back.
Nanami burrows his face into your hair. Inhaling your sweet scent he adored. His fingers run over the natural curves of your body, as he presses gentle kisses to your cheek. âI apologize, I feel⌠I need you right now.â Nanami murmurs into your ear, his declaration runs a shiver up your body. The way he was leaning onto you caused you to hold onto his shoulders, exposing your neck to him. He wastes no time in attacking it, placing his âneedyâ kisses on it.
Nanami had many ways he liked to kiss you. You have his sincere kisses when he wants you to know he's there for you and he loves you. Peck on the cheek and hand kisses in public. But your favorite kind he gives you are the ones that always lead to more. Where he becomes a little more flirty, nipping at your skin, digging his teeth in, hands roaming all over your body. Squishing anything he could get his hands on.
Itâs not long before you both stumble into the room, not being able to get your hands and mouths of each other, until Nanami breaks the kiss, his expression now restless, with desire behind those honey-brown eyes. âI have a requestâŚâ he clears his throat. You smile at the way he breaks eye contact with you because heâs nervous. âWhat kind of request?â you bat your eyelashes at him. Nanami swears he could die then and there if he wasnât already embarrassed enough. He walks over to the bed, awkwardly laying flat on it.
âYou want me to ride you?â you laugh at how he just lays down. Nanami shakes his head. âSit. On my face. Please.â he stutters out, giving you a quick glance before he breaks eye contact again, leaving you speechless, this wasnât something you had tried out before. The desire in his eyes told you he was desperate for this. He looked like he was on the verge of getting on his knees and begging you. âWe havenât tried that yetâŚâ you smirk at him, leaning closer to him. âIs that a no?â he looks at you again, eyes urging you to give in.
Nanami couldnât help himself once you were hovering over his face. He takes in your scent, closing his eyes, his nose tickling your entrance. Your breath hitching as you look for something to hold on too, eventually resting your hands on the headboard in front of you. Nanamiâs breath catches in his throat, he could not believe it was actually happening. His hands find purchase on your thighs, groping them like his life depended on it.
âKeep your eyes on me KentoâŚâ You coo as you look down at him. He could moan at just the sound of your voice, he couldnât take it anymore. His eyes lock onto yours, his gaze intense as he begins to worship you with his tongue. Savoring the taste of you, hands roaming all over your hips and ass, devouring your cunt desperately.
The moment you think he is finally satisfied, heâs not. Only pulling you down more on his face, sharp eyes still on you just like you told him. He didnât want to miss anything. Music to his ears the way you say his name like a spell, your victim being him and only him. The way you cried out when he would tease your clit just right. And the way you grind against his face was all he could ever ask for. He could die a happy man right then and there.
âFuckâŚâ you whine, your hand coming down to grip his hair, only driving him more insane. His grunts grow louder as the pleasure and pain mix together delectably. His tongue lapping you up with a new found energy, with confidence you didnât know he could possess. Eager to chase your orgasm so you cream all over his face. His own arousal building up every second you're on his face.
"Oh god Kento⌠i'm so close,â you continue your ministrations on his face. His fingers tightening around your ass. He gazes up at you with the most sexy bedroom eyes filled with adoration and desperation, his just pleading for one chance to watch you fall apart on and all over his face. To make a mess on him. âGo ahead, sweetheartâŚâ he mumbles against your sopping, sensitive cunt.
A cry of ecstasy echoes the room as your orgasm finally takes over your body, holding onto the headboard again to stabilize yourself. The man under you is still lapping up everything you are willing to give him. You continue to grind yourself on his face, riding out your orgasm. Nanamiâs eyes rolling back in complete and utter bliss, your slick coating his chin and cheeks. Waves of pleasure run through your body, your only thought being Nanami. The way he looked under you, making you hot all over again. Intimacy so intense you could burst.
Realization hits you after your orgasm, finally deciding to remove yourself from his face so he wouldnât suffocate. Nanami gasps for air as you lift off him, a small giggle escaping your lips. His chest heaving with the exertion that just happened. His eyes still glazed over with lust, taking in the sight of you.
âSo where did you get this idea from?â you tease him, poking his shoulder.
A dorky smile spreads across his perfect face as he climbs on top of you, meeting you face to face.
âI read about itâŚâ
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SAY HIII! TO THE CAMERA s. geto
â sum. stay quiet and keep him warm and hard, while he is playing video games, thatâs the order. but it seems like too much hardness making you lose control of your body.
warning. non-sorcerer au, roommate geto, spank, cĹck-drunk reader, petnames, dirty talk, overstim, praises, fem! reader, sugu gets annoyed when you canât stay still, heâs annoyed because you make him lose, lol, tats-spank, hĂĄir-pulling, choking, bit exhibitionism.
thereâs something deeply comforting about having geto suguru as your roommate, a kind of unspoken reassurance that no matter how life twists and turns, you have someone in your corner. heâs not just kind; heâs the kind of person whoâs genuinely considerate, remembering the little things that most people overlook. his gentle humor fills even the quietest moments with warmth, and his manners, always so natural, make you feel valued and understood. heâs the type of person who holds open doors, who waits for you when you linger on your way home, and who genuinely listens when you speak, as if your words are the only ones that matter.
living together, youâve come to depend on him in a way that feels both new and familiar. in the late hours of the night, when silence settles over the apartment, there are moments of connection that youâve never found with anyone else. he's seen you in every state â the vulnerable, raw moments when youâre barely holding it together, the giddy highs when youâre spilling over with excitement, and even the quiet days when all you need is to be near someone without saying a word. every joy and every sorrow, heâs there, a constant presence, filling the empty spaces of your life.
over time, though, thereâs another unspoken need that starts to creep in. itâs there in the lingering glances, the way your touches linger just a moment too long, the awareness that builds between you both, each brushing touch leaving a faint trace of longing. youâve found yourself drawn to him, in a way that goes beyond friendship, a desire simmering under the surface that you donât dare voice. itâs been a while since youâve had anyone to share that kind of closeness with, and every time heâs near, you can feel that need building, that craving that he seems to sense. and that âdesireâ you crave so much, geto is there with an open arms and. . . open legs.
it was one of those days a mix of emotions swirling, a growing desire that had been building in the space between you two, bubbling to the surface. without overthinking it, you found yourself outside getoâs room, feeling a thrill as you opened the door without knocking. you were wearing only your skirt and a simple bra, skin tingling under the weight of anticipation.
geto was at his computer, focused on whatever he had been doing, but as soon as he heard the door creak open, he turned, spinning his chair around slowly. his gaze swept over you, eyes darkening with a spark of something unmistakable as he took you in. he let out a low whistle, a smirk tugging at the corners of his mouth as he leaned back, clearly enjoying the view. âwell,â he drawled, his voice a touch rougher, âlooks like someoneâs feeling bold today.â
his own appearance was casual but undeniably alluring. he wore only a pair of loose grey sweatpants, his toned chest bare, catching the soft light from the room. his long, dark hair fell loosely around his shoulders, framing his sharp features and giving him an almost untamed look that made your heart race faster. he watched you with a steady, appreciative gaze, that familiar, playful glint in his eyes turning to something deeper as his eyes traced over your form.
âyou here for something, or just planning to drive me crazy?â he teased, his voice low, dripping with that lazy confidence he always wore so effortlessly. you felt your cheeks warm as you stepped into his room, but you didnât waver, letting your gaze flicker over his chest, taking in the way his muscles shifted.
âi think you know exactly why iâm here,â you replied, keeping your voice light but letting the meaning behind your words settle between you. his smirk widened, and he straightened, reaching a hand out to you, his touch gentle but insistent as he pulled you closer.
his hand brushing your waist, guiding you to stand between his legs. his other hand came up to rest on your hip, fingers tracing small, lazy circles along your bare skin as he looked up at you.
god, the way he looked at you, with that sultry gaze sweeping over every inch of your body, made it nearly impossible to keep your composure. his fingers traced lazy patterns on your bare skin, each touch almost enough to send a shiver down your spine. the air between you two felt thick, electric, as if it held every unspoken thought, every lingering glance and desire that had built up over time. you could hear the faint hitch in his breath as you stepped closer, closing what little distance remained between you.
âis that right?â he murmured, voice low and rough, his tone thick with barely concealed amusement. âand what did i do to earn this little visit? not that i iâm complaining.â his fingers toyed with the edge of your skirt, tracing a slow line up your thigh that sent waves of warmth through you, each touch building a sweet tension that had you leaning in, craving more.
you couldnât help but hum in response, letting your fingers glide over his bare shoulder blade, feeling the warmth of his skin, the solid strength beneath your touch. your other hand found its way to his hair, threading through the long, dark locks that framed his face so perfectly handsome, your fingers lingering as you gently pulled him closer.
âitâs not what you did,â you replied, your voice a low, teasing murmur, your lips close enough to brush against his ear. âitâs what you can do.â the words hung between you, dripping with anticipation, each syllable filled with a promise you knew he could hear.
geto chuckled, a warm, low sound that sent a shiver down your spine. he leaned into your touch, his hand sliding up under your skirt, fingers splaying against your skin, and you could feel the heat of his palm, the barely suppressed tension in the way he touched you.
âoh?â he drawled, tilting his head so his face was dangerously close to your bellybutton. his lips grazed the shell of your skin, his breath hot against your skin. âand what exactly is it that you need me to do, pretty girl?â
before you could answer, his hands found your waist, gently but insistently pulling you down to sit on his lap. his arm wrapped securely around your bare waist, the other hand still warm and steady on your thigh. you felt yourself sink into him, the heat of his skin against yours, the way he held you close with that effortless confidence.
you leaned in, lips close to his ear as you whispered, voice teasing but edged with a hint of urgency. âyou know exactly what i want, suguru,â you murmured, your fingers tracing along his collarbone, feeling his breath hitch as you spoke. âstop pretending to be stupid.â
a lazy smirk tugged at his lips, his gaze darkening with satisfaction as he tightened his hold on you, his hand slipping higher on your thigh, tracing lazy circles that sent a spark of anticipation through you. âoh, sweetheart,â he whispered, voice rough with restrained desire, âiâd never be that stupid.â
geto shifted his hips, the heat of your bodies pressed together, his hand sliding slowly to the curve of your hip. there was a raw, unabashed hunger in his eyes, his gaze traveling over every inch of your exposed skin, taking in every subtle shudder, every quickening breath.
he pulled you even closer, desperate, and you could feel the tension building between the bitten of you as his other hand slid further up your skirt, his knuckles brushing over your inner thigh, leaving a trail of heat in their wake. his hand squeezed your thigh, fingers digging into your skin, an unspoken promise that sent a shiver of anticipation through you.
âif you want something,â he murmured, his voice a low, rough whisper, âall you have to do is ask.â then he leaned in, his lips trailing a warm path from your collarbone up to your shoulder, and you could feel the low rumble of his voice against your sensitive skin. he nipped at your ear, his voice a dark, lustful murmur. âbeg me for it, sweetheart.â
his lips traveled back down to your neck, teeth scraping against your skin, and a small gasp escaped your lips as he hit a particularly sensitive spot. his lips curled into a satisfied smile against your flesh, and his hand slid even higher up your thigh, the heat of his touch searing through you.
âbeg me,â he repeated, his voice low and gravelly. âbeg me to give it to you⌠and iâll give you everything you need.â
and he lies.
you sit on his lap as he games, his cock buried deep inside you, you trying to stifle moans as occasionally he thrusts up into you, barelyâ either too distracted by his stupid games or he just being his usual self, a fucking jerk and a tease. âsuch a gooood girl, baby,â he growls lowly into your ear, muting his microphone. after all, he didnât want his teammates hearing what a good little toy you were being, taking his cock like you were.
how had things turned out like this, you wonder? you were the one that was supposed to be teasing him, not the other way around. now you were the one, stifling whimpers and moans, and almost begging him to fuck you.
âs-suguru, p-please..â you whimper.
he ignores you completely as he goes back to his game, turning his microphone back on, saying, âson of a bitch, you fuckers canât do anything right, can you?â you wiggle your hips on top of him, trying to get him to pay attention to you more, and his hand comes to rest briefly on your thigh, squeezing it tightly. a warning to knock it off. but you continue doing it. you had to take things back under your control, and what better way than by wiggling your hips, feeling him brush up against your sensitive spot, and letting out a quiet whimper.
he mutes his microphone again, letting out a warning growl, and lowly says, ây/n.. stop moving and be a good girl for me, hm?â his voice is dangerous, a sign to dare you to move even just a beat. but youuu, you tilt your head back, peering back into his face, and smile innocently. âi-i donât know what youâre talking about, suguruuu. . .â
your back was facing him as you sat on his lap, elbows resting hard on his computer desk. only you cute pink skirt wrap loosely around your waist with no underwear. your bare nipples pressed against the hard surface. getoâs fingers dig into your thigh, holding you still as he continues playing his game, ignoring your attempts at seduction. his breathing grows heavier, the scent of his arousal filling the air between you. heâs clearly struggling to focus on the match with you writhing atop him like this.
ây/n... i swear if you keep this up, iâm going to bend you over my desk and fuck you senseless,â he warns through gritted teeth, voice menacing. despite the threat, thereâs an unmistakable note of desire lacing his words.
ânow be a good girl and sit still,â he warned, his hand reaches up to grab your hip, pulling you down harder onto his throbbing erection and continue to cockwarming him while heâs playing games with his friendsâ stupid gojo satoru. a choked gasp escapes your lips as he grinds up into you, stretching you deliciously around his girth.
his grip tightens on your hip, guiding your movements to grind yourself against him even more. he doesnât care who hears anymore, his mind consumed with thoughts of claiming you right here and now. his game character takes a hit from an enemy player the moment you do a harsh slammed on his cock, causing him to curse loudly into his mic.
âfuck! âm distracted,â he admits before cutting himself off mid-sentence, realizing just how loud heâd been. he quickly mutes his mic once more, though he makes no move to stop grinding you against him. âthatâs what you wanted, isnât it, y/n? for me to lose focus so i could finally give you what you've been craving.â
his hand slides up your spine from your hip, gripping your neck firmly enough to let you know he means business. âiâm not going to repeat myself y/n, stop fucking moving.â his other hand comes up to slap lightly against your ass after retreating from the keyboard, leaving a warm imprint on your skin before he pushes your chest further to his desk and continues to play his game. gasp!
getoâs dominant grip on your hips and neck sends shivers down your spine, your body responding instinctively to his commanding touch. the sharp slap on your ass makes you gasp and gasp, the sting mixing with the pleasure of having your bare bottom exposed to him.
despite his warnings, you canât help but subtly rock your hips, seeking friction against his thick length still buried deep within you. your upper teeth sinking lowered on your lower lips, a subtle way to hide the desperate moaning. your breath hitches as he pushes you harder against the desk, the cool wood a stark contrast to the heat radiating from his body beneath you.
as geto focuses back on his game, you find yourself leaning forward moreâ your nipples touching the cold surface making you shiver, bracing your hands on the edge of the desk under you. this position allows you to sink deeper onto his cock, your inner walls clenching reflexively around him.
with each subtle roll of your hips, geto lets out a low groan, his focus waverting from his game momentarily. he pulls you closer, forcing his cock deeper inside you until you feel every inch of him pressing against your most sensitive spots.
âfucking hell, y/n...â he curses under his breath, trying to maintain some semblance of control. but itâs clear that heâs losing the battle against both his own desires and yours, even against his own stupid games. he smacks your ass again, this time harder, leaving a bright red mark on your flesh.
âbe still!â he demands, his voice laced with both frustration and lust. his fingers dig into your neck, applying pressure just shy of pain. the smack on your ass sends another jolt of pleasure through you, your body arching back against him instinctively. the mix of pain and pleasure leaves you panting, your pussy clamping down on his cock as if begging for more.
despite his command, you canât seem to obey. instead, you press your breasts further into the desk, enjoying the sensation of your hardened nipples rubbing against the cool surface. each movement sends ripples of pleasure coursing through your body, intensifying the ache building between your legs.
âsuguru... please,â you whisper, your voice barely above a whimper. the desperation in your tone is undeniably begging. getoâs grip on your neck tightens, his thumb brushing over your pulse point rhythmically as he fights against the urge to simply throw caution to the wind and claim you right then and there. instead, he focuses back on his game, cursing loudly when his character takes another hit.
âshit... y/n, shut up before i really lose my shit,â he growls, punctuating each word with a deep thrust of his hips. his cock surges deeper inside you, hitting that sweet spot that makes stars burst behind your closed eyelids. his other hand losing the touch of his keyboard for a beat to sending a slaps down on your ass again, this time in slow deliberate strokes meant to draw out your pleasure. heâs punishing you for making him lose focus, but also rewarding you for being such a tease.
getoâs punishing thrusts send waves of ecstasy crashing over you, your nails digging into the desktop as you struggle to hold back cries of pleasure. the slow, deliberate slaps on your ass echo through the room, each impact sending tingles racing up your spine.
âahh!â you manage to gasp out between ragged breaths, your pleas growing more desperate as the coil of tension inside you winds tighter and tighter. the combination of his thick cock stretching you open and the relentless stimulation to your sensitive ass has you teetering on the brink of climax. you can feel the telltale fluttering in your core, signaling your impending release.
getoâs jaw clenches as he battles to keep his composure, refusing to let go and indulge in the sweet release that beckons him. his fingers waltz down from your neck to the curve of your hip, tightening on the soft flesh, his grip bordering on bruising as he holds you in place, denying you the friction you crave.
ânot yet, y/n... you donât get to come until i say so,â he rasps, his voice strained with the effort of restraint. his hips buck upward sharply, burying himself to the hilt inside you for the countless times and grinding against your clit with a forceful thrust.
he repeats this motion several times, using your body for his own pleasure, before pulling almost all the way out and slamming back in with brutal intensity. the sound of skin slapping against skin fills the room, punctuated by your muffled moans and his guttural groans.
the rough treatment only fuels your desire, pushing you closer to the edge with each powerful thrust. your pussy clamps down on his cock, milking him for more as you ride the wave of pleasure heâs forcing upon you. the way you roll your hips like you are either desperately looking for the climax youâve been craving for the past hours, trying to get revenge for keeping you waiting, or just simply trying to suck his soulâ geto are fine either way.
âpleaseee. . . suguâââm gonna cum,â you stutter out, the words trailing off into a series of whimpers. your inner walls clench and flutter around his cock, pulsing with the intensity wanting of your release, âplease, âm sorry,â you cry. your body convulses, each tremor rippling through you as you cling desperately to the desk.
geto grunts, feeling your walls clamp around him, urging him towards his own climax. but he refuses to give in just yet, determined to make you pay for distracting him with your teasing. ânot good enough... beg properly,â he commands, his voice a low growl. he slams into you again, driving his cock even deeper than before, stretching your inner walls to their limitâ kissing your cervix each time. his hand moves from your hip to your dripping cunt, his fingers delving into your wetness, stroking at your swollen clit.
he keeps up this merciless pace, alternating between hard thrusts and swift withdrawals, driving you to the brink of madness. your pleas become more frantic, your body trembling under the onslaught of sensations. âpleaseâ let me cum, i need to...â you gasp out, your voice hitching on each word as you fight to maintain coherence.
each stroke of his fingers against your clit sends shockwaves of pleasure coursing through you, amplifying the ache in your core. the combination of his thick cock pounding into you and his skilled fingers working your clit has you teetering on the precipice of obliviation.
âiâm sorry, iâm sooo sorryâ pleasee...â you sob, your plea turning into a keening wail as you about to reach your pea only for geto to lift you up off his cock before slamming back into your pussyâ playing with your climax and just generically being an asshole.
geto leans over you, his hot breath fanning across your ear as he whispers darkly, ânot yet... not till you learn your lesson.â with each thrust, he aims to prove his dominance, showing no mercy as he punishes you for your disobedience. his fingers never relent from their torment of your clit, adding fuel to the fire thatâs consuming you from within.
he reaches around to grab your breast, squeezing it roughly before pinching your nipple between his thumb and forefinger. the sharp pinch sends an unexpected surge of pleasure coursing through you, making your back arch off the desk and the game long forgotten.
âbeg better...â he taunts, knowing full well that heâs playing with fire. without saying a word to his friends, geto left his game to open his computer camera. he grab a fistful of your hair to pull your face away from the desk. a soft light illuminating your face. geto smile to his camera as he saw your fucked-face, ruined by your tears and your mascara.
he pulls you closer until your back touches his sweaty chest before snake his arm under your thighs and opens your legs wider to his camera. âsay hi, to the camera y/n,â he whisper in your ear as he rest his chin on shoulder. your breath comes in short gasps, each thrust of his cock sending sparks of pleasure shooting through you. the split pinch on your nipple only adds to the overwhelming sensations coursing through your body.
you whimper, your voice choked with unshed tears. the sight of his hand gripping your hair tightly sends a shiver down your spine, reminding you whoâs in control. with the way he pressing your back against his chest, knees straight glue to your chest, you canât help but squirm on top of him. his heavy breathing in your ear, the warmth of his body against yoursâitâs all too much.
âhi. . .â you manage to choke out, your voice barely audible. the words are directed towards the camera, but theyâre laced with desperation and pleading.
geto chuckles, dark and mocking, at your feeble attempt to address the camera, his amusement evident in the way he tightens his grip on your hair. he increases the tempo of his thrusts, his cock pistoning in and out of your drenched cunt with ruthless efficiencyâ visible to the camera of his computer.
âthatâs iiiit... look pretty while youâre getting fucked,â he murmurs, his voice a husky whisper that sends chills down your spine. he watches you through the screen, purple eyes glinting with a predatory gleam as he observes your reactions. his free hand trails down your body, exploring every curve and crevice with possessive intent. he cups your breast, giving it a firm squeeze before smacking it hard enough to leave a red print on your skin.
âstill think you can distract me?â he asks, his tone laced with challenge.
your body quivers under the onslaught of sensations, each thrust of his cock sending jolts of pleasure coursing through you. your heart pounds in your chest, each beat echoing the rhythm of his thrusts. ân-noâcanât, i wonât,â you stammer out, your voice choked with emotion. the sting of his slap on your breast makes you flinch, but it also intensifies the heat coiling in your lower belly. despite the pain and humiliation, you find yourself pushed closer to the edge, teetering on the brink of orgasmic bliss.
geto smirks at your admission, pleased with the submission in your voice. he drives into you harder, relentlessly in his pursuit of your pleasureâand your punishment. âmmm, good girl... now cum for me,â he orders, his voice a seductive mix of command and promise. he lets go of your hair to grasp your throat, applying just enough pressure to ensure your attention remains focused on him and nothing else.
the hand that had been smacking your breasts now finds its way between your bodies, rubbing circles onto your clit while still keeping a firm hold on your throat. he watches intently, observing how your face contorts in pleasure, enjoying the sight of you succumbing to his will.
âlet me hear it... let me hear how good it feels when i fuck you senseless,â he demands, his tone leaving no room for argument. âcome on baby, i know you are dirty girl.â your entire being focuses on the sensation of his cock plunging into you, each thrust hitting spots inside you that send waves of pleasure crashing through your body. the pressure on your throat and the stimulation of your clit combine to push you closer to the edge.
a strangled moan escapes your lips, your voice breaking as you try to comply with his demand. âit- it feels so goodâ so fucking good...â you pant, your words punctuated by gasps and whimpers. your pussy clenches around his cock, desperate for release as you cling to the last threads of sanity.
geto grins at your words, satisfaction washing over him as he feels your pussy tightening around his throbbing member. he tightens his grip on your throat slightly, forcing a choked cry from your lips.
âthatâs it... thatâs my good girl,â he praises, his voice a deep rumble of approval. he quickens his pace, each thrust becoming more powerful and deliberate. the sound of your moans and the sight of your flushed face spur him on further. he wants to see you unravel, to witness the moment when pleasure overtakes reason. âcum for me... show me what a fucking mess iâve made of you,â he grunts, his fingers rubbing furiously against your clit, eager to draw out your climax.
your body trembles on the brink of release, each thrust pushing you closer to the edge. the feeling of his fingers circling your sensitive clit sends you spiraling into oblivion. you throw your head back to his shoulder, closing your eyes as you feel your toes curling and your legs shaking in the air. stars running around behind your eyelids and burst into fireworks.
a loud cry rips from your throat as your orgasm crashes over you, your cunt clenching tightly around his cock as wave after wave of pleasure courses through your body. your limbs feel weak, your mind foggy as you ride out the intensity of your climax.
âoh god, oh godddd...â you whimper, your body wracked with sobs as you struggle to regain control as geto watches you through his screen. geto relishes the feeling of your cum spasming around his cock, begging to milk him dry and sucking his cum out, and paint your velvet walls white. he lets out a low groan, his own climax building rapidly.
he continues to rub your clit mercilessly, determined to prolong your pleasure even as he approaches his own peak. his grip on your throat loosens slightly, allowing you to breathe raggedly. âlook at you... crying and coming like a fucking whore,â he mutters, his voice thick with lust. he gives one final, deep thrust, burying himself completely inside you as he releases his seed deep within your womb.
your body continues to convulse with aftershocks of pleasure, your cunt still clamping sporadically around his cock. the sensation of his hot cum filling you up pushes you over the edge once more, another wave of ecstasy washing over you. through tear-filled eyes, you gaze up at the screen, meeting getoâs intense purple stare. your mouth hangs open just a wee, panting heavily as you struggle to process the overwhelming sensations coursing through your body.
âfuck, suguru,â you whimper, your voice hoarse from crying out during your orgasms. your arms fall limply to your sides, unable to support your weight any longer. youâre utterly spent, drained of all energy and willpower, finally. all you can do is sit there on his lap, impaled on his cock, as he fills you with his essence.
geto watches you intently, drinking in the sight of your ravaged expression and trembling form. he keeps his cock buried deep inside you, relishing the feeling of his cum slowly leaking out of your used hole.
he finally releases your throat, his hands moving to cup your breasts instead, squeezing them gently as if testing their weight. he strokes your nipples with his thumbs, teasing them back to hardness. âsuch a beautiful mess,â he whispers, his tone filled with pride and satisfaction. he reaches up to gently wipe away some of the tears trailing down your cheeks, his touch surprisingly tender given the rough sex you just endured.
once heâs satisfied with your appearance, he leans back in his chair, pulling you against his chest as he cradles you in his strong arms. he strokes your hair soothingly, humming a soft melody that seems to vibrate through his body and into yours.
âso beautiful,â he coos, his voice a warm caress against your ear, eyes meeting yours in the land of his screen. âshame weâre only roommate,â he smiling softly before kissing your forehead. your body molds against his, seeking comfort and reassurance after the intense session. struggling the way your body trembling, with the energy left you move to face him, nuzzle into his neck and curl up on his lap, breathing in his scent as you slowly come down from the high of your multiple orgasms.
you let out a soft sigh, your breath tickling his skin. despite the tenderness of the moment, you canât help but feel a pang of sadness at his words. as much as you crave his touch and desire him intensely, you know that this is all it can ever beâa secret tryst between roommates.
âyeah, what a shame,â you murmur, your voice barely audible. you trail off, not daring to finish the thought aloud. you know it would be futile to hope for more, to dream of a future where suguru could be yours openly and without shame. geto holds you close, his arms encircling your waist possessively. he tilts your chin up with one finger, forcing you to meet his intense gaze.
âdonât look so sad, kitten,â he murmurs, his voice low and soothing. âwe have this, donât we? these moments, just you and me...â he leans in, capturing your lips in a slow, sensual kiss. his tongue delves into your mouth, exploring and claiming every inch of you. when he finally pulls away, youâre both left panting softly.
âi know itâs not ideal,â he admits, his thumb tracing your bottom lip. âbut itâs better than nothing, isnât it? at least we can have this... this connection.â he smiles ruefully, a hint of melancholy in his eyes. âand who knows?â
you nod slowly, trying to convince yourself that yes, this is enough. itâs not ideal, but itâs somethingâsomething real and raw and incredibly satisfying. you capture his hand and press it against your cheek, holding it there as you gaze into his eyes. âyeah, whatever,â you agree softly.
you lean in, pressing a gentle kiss to his palm before releasing his hand. you snuggle back into his embrace, feeling contented and oddly fulfilled. maybe this was all you needed after allâto share these stolen moments with geto, to experience the depth of emotion and physical intimacy that he alone could provide.
getoâs smile widens at your acceptance, relief washing over him with hummed followed along after. he wraps his arms tighter around you, pulling you flush against his muscular frame. âwhatever indeed,â he chuckles, the vibrations of his laughter resonating through your body. he nuzzles your hair affectionately, inhaling your scent deeply.
âiâm glad we understand each other, kitten,â he says softly, his voice tinged with warmth. ânow, how about we take a nap? i think weâve earned it after that intense session.â he settles back in his chair, cradling you in his lap as he reclines comfortably. his cock, still semi-hard, presses against your ass, a constant reminder of your recent activities.
âjust rest here with me,â he whispers, stroking your back soothingly. âletâs recharge our batteries for the next time.â geto grins, a devilish glint in his purple eyes. âwhat a sweet shit-talker,â you mutter, too tired or maybe too much of a coward to say it out loud.
the soft insult making the raven-haired man snort, âwell, arenât you a cynic?â his hand moves to stroke your hair, his touch gentle yet firm. âbut hey, even the biggest cynics need a little sweetness now and then, right?â he chuckles, the sound rumbling through his chest. âand besides, iâm just looking out for my favorite roommate.â he winks, his smirk playful yet dangerous.
you roll your eyes, attempting to put up a facade of indifference, but you canât stop the small smile that tugs at your lips. âoh, so iâm your favorite, huh?â you retort weakly, leaning into his touch. âi must be so honored.â
he lets out another of those low laughs, the sound sending a shiver through you. âoh, you should be,â he says, his voice lilting with playful arrogance. âi donât just let anyone sit on my lap, you know. you should count yourself lucky, sweetheart.â
you let yourself relax in his embrace, the warmth of his body surrounding you like a comforting blanket. his hands continue their soothing motions, roaming over your back and hair, lulling you into a state of blissful contentment. despite your exhaustion, a cheeky thought crosses your mind as you snuggle closer to him.
âfavorite roommate, huh?â you tease, your voice low and sultry. âi thought i was your only roommate.â
geto chuckles once again, his chest rumbling against yours. âah, semantics,â he replies, his voice a mix of amusement and feigned nonchalance. âdetails, details. my favorite⌠my only⌠same difference, really.â he pulls you even closer, his arms encircling you like a warm, muscular embrace. âbesides,â he murmurs, his lips finding the sensitive spot on your neck. âyou're the only roommate i need.â
you couldnât help but smile, feeling the warmth of his chest rumbling with his quiet chuckle, his voice laced with that familiar mix of amusement and teasing. his arms tightened around you, drawing you closer until there was hardly any space between you, his embrace both comforting and exhilarating.
as his lips found that sensitive spot on your neck, a soft sigh escaped you, and you leaned into his touch, letting your fingers trail gently along his shoulder. the way he held you, the warmth of his breath against your skin, everything felt like second nature, the kind of closeness that only he could bring.
snuggling closer, you let out a quiet laugh, your eyes half-closed as you nestled against him. âcheeky bastard,â you murmured, a playful smile tugging at your lips as you relaxed into his arms. his warmth enveloped you, and you closed your eyes, letting the moment wrap around you like a gentle haze.
his lips curved into a smirk against your skin, his fingers tracing lazy patterns along your back. âdamn right i am,â he replied, his voice low and amused. he shifted in his chair, his muscular arms flexing as he pulled you even closer. you were practically pressed flush against him now, the heat of his body seeping through your skin, a comforting and exciting presence.
geto hums, a pleased sound that vibrates through his chest. his fingers continue their gentle, soothing motions, tracing invisible patterns on your skin, as if heâs trying to memorize every dip and curve of your body. âbut i prefer the term âcharming, irresistible bastard,â thank you very much,â he replies jokingly. âand besides, you like it when iâm cheeky.â
a laugh escapes you as his words sink in, a warm, playful sound that melts into the air around you. âi donât know where you got that idea,â you reply, your voice light with mock indignation. âi never said i liked it when youâre cheeky.â
but even as you deny it, your arms find their way around his bare waist, pulling yourself closer, and you can feel his warmth seeping into you, steady and grounding. the rhythmic beat of his heart thumps under your ear, a soothing lull that makes the rest of the world feel like itâs melting away.
with a soft, relieved sigh, you let yourself relax into him, the tension slowly leaving your body as you settle in his embrace. itâs moments like thisâhis warmth, his quiet hum, the way his fingers trace gentle patterns on your backâthat remind you of how safe and at home you feel with him.
geto's lips curve into a satisfied smirk as he feels you relax against him, as if he knows exactly the effect heâs having on you. his arms wrap even tighter around you, enveloping you in a comforting embrace.
âmmm,â he murmurs, the sound of a low vibration in his chest. âdeny it all you want, sweetheart. but we both know you secretly find my cheeky behavior adorable,â he punctuates his words with a light nip at your neck, a teasing gesture that sends a shiver through you.
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Studio Interruptions - Bang Chan
Changbin didn't expect to walk in on an passionate encounter.
Changbin pushed open the studio door, his head full of lyrics and chords. âHyung, I think I figured outââ
âAHHHH!â
A deep, startled shout tore through the room like a thunderclap, and you and Chris practically jumped apart like someone had set off an alarm. Chris almost fell out of his chair, and you fumbled back into the desk, your face turning bright red as you tried to get your bearings.
You had been completely lost in the moment â Chris sitting in his chair with you leaning over him, his hands on your waist as the two of you shared what could only be described as a very involved make-out session. The sudden noise broke the spell so violently that it left both of you scrambling for some semblance of composure.
âCHANGBIN?!â Chris practically yelled, his voice cracking as he gripped the armrests to steady himself. âWHAT THE â WHY DID YOU SCREAM?!â
âI COULD ASK YOU THE SAME QUESTION!â Changbin shot back, his face a mix of disbelief and amusement as he stared at the two of you, wide-eyed. âI wasnât expecting to walk into â that!â He gestured vaguely toward you and Chris, his voice low but incredulous.
You covered your face with your hands, utterly mortified. Chris groaned loudly, dragging a hand down his face as his ears turned bright red. âCould you have knocked?â he mumbled, clearly trying to gather whatever was left of his dignity.
âI donât need to knock when I come into the studio!â Changbin argued, his voice still carrying an edge of disbelief. âI thought you were, I donât know, actually working on music â not on each other.â
You couldnât help but burst into laughter, covering your face to hide your embarrassment. Chris, on the other hand, groaned, clearly mortified. âYou didnât have to scream, man! You scared us more than we scared you!â
Changbin finally straightened up, still breathing heavily, though a sly smile tugged at his lips. âTo be fair, it was pure instinct. Youâre lucky it was me who walked in and not Han. If it were him, heâd have screamed, run into the doorframe, and then passed out.â
You groaned, finally letting your hands drop from your face. âOkay, okay, we get it.â
Changbinâs grin only grew wider as he started toward the door. âAll Iâm saying is, next time, put a sock on the door or something! Give a man some warning before you start sticking your tongues in each otherâs throats.â
He shot you both a wink before slipping out of the room, leaving the door slightly ajar behind him.
The studio fell into silence. For a moment, you and Chris just sat there, trying to shake off the awkwardness. Chris exhaled heavily, his eyes still wide as he leaned back in his chair.Â
You let out a small laugh, still feeling the heat in your cheeks. âThey are never going to live this down, are they?â
Chris tilted his head back, groaning dramatically. âNope. Knowing Changbin, heâs probably already telling the others right now.â
You couldnât help but laugh at his misery. âWeâll have to be more careful next time.â
Chris gave you a look, his lips quirking into a small smirk. âYouâre assuming thereâs going to be a next time in the studio?â
You raised an eyebrow, grinning back at him. âOh, please. You were the one who couldnât keep his hands off of me today.â
Chris sat up straight, his ears turning red all over again. âMe?!â he sputtered, pointing at himself in disbelief. âYou were the one practically crawling into my lap!â
You raised an eyebrow, fighting back a laugh. âOh, so now itâs my fault?â
Chris opened his mouth to argue but ended up shaking his head with a chuckle, slumping back into his chair. âFine, maybe itâs both of our faults. But next time, weâre locking the door.â
As you sat down on the sofa, you touched your ears. âMan, he really did scream loud, though. Iâm still recovering.â you said, laughing.
Chris sighed, trying to hide his smile as he spun back towards the computer, muttering something about needing to actually get work done â though you were both fully aware that this wasnât the last time youâd risk being caught.
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WEIRD THINGS BATBOYS DO WHEN THEY LIKE YOU ââ .âŚ
a/n: this is a request + ask so tysm to whoever sent that but itâs (here) but anyways Iâm so excited for my birthday on december 7th this year and itâs just so beautiful to see me grow up honestly and find myself. (Tags: batboys x crush!reader)
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DICK GRAYSON ââ .âŚ
Excessive Flexing (Literally): Dick will "accidentally" do pull-ups in front of you. Heâs already shirtless and grinning, saying, âOh, didnât see you there. Wanna join?â
Compliment Overload: âIs that a new hairstyle? New shoes? You look incredible. Oh, wait, you always look incredible.â He will literally point out your eyelashes looking perfect âwow so nice, your lashes are so long and beautiful.â
The Over-Helper: He suddenly insists on helping you with everythingâcarrying bags, opening jars, lifting heavy stuffâand does it with the biggest, dorkiest smile. âItâs no big deal, bab- I meanâuh⌠friend.â
Trips Over Air: Heâs graceful in battle, but near you? Heâs knocking over coffee cups and walking into doorframes. "I swear, Iâm usually coordinated, maybe Iâm falling for you?đâ
JASON TODD ââ .âŚ
Overly Cool Persona: He tries to play it cool, acting like he doesnât care. But then heâll text you at 3 a.m. with, âU up? I found a meme that reminded me of you.â
Teases You Constantly: Jasonâs version of flirting is lightly roasting you. âDid you really think that outfit would work today?â But if anyone else says something, heâs ready to fight.
Surprise Gifts: Heâll give you something like your favorite snack but pretend itâs no big deal. âI just had extra,â heâll mumble, even though he went to three stores to find it.
Blushes Like Crazy: Heâs all tough-guy until you compliment him, and then itâs over. He gets red and stammers, âShut up,â while smiling like an idiot.
TIM DRAKE ââ .âŚ
Awkward Genius Mode: Heâs smart with everything⌠except his crush. Suddenly, forming coherent sentences is a challenge. âI-I mean, uh⌠yeah, computers.â
Googles 'How to Flirt': Youâll catch him peeking at his phone mid-conversation because heâs literally reading âFlirting 101â or reading Reddit threads on flirting gone wrong.
Coffee Delivery: Heâll bring you coffee with your exact order memorized and pretend itâs casual. âOh, you like this too? Weird coincidence.â Itâs not. He asked around for hours.
Accidentally Compliments You: Heâll blurt out, âYou smell nice.â Pause. âI mean, not that Iâm sniffing you or anything!â Cue him turning bright red and hiding behind his laptop.
DAMIAN WAYNE ââ .âŚ
Pretends He Doesnât Care: Heâll act indifferent but secretly monitors everything you do. âI donât care what you do,â he says while glaring at someone standing too close to you.
Suddenly Overly Polite: Damian, the king of sass, becomes weirdly respectful. âWould you like me to carry that for you? No? Okay. Are you sure?â
Gives You Fancy Gifts: He gifts you rare, expensive things like hand-picked flowers from the Wayne estate garden. âItâs not a big deal. Just take it.â
Random Acts of Bravery: Heâll jump in front of a moving bicycle or push you out of the way of a puddle, then act like it was nothing. âIt was instinct. Donât be dramatic.â
BRUCE WAYNE ââ .âŚ
Becomes an Awkward flirt: Heâs smooth in public but completely loses it around his crush. âDo you need anything? No? Water? A chair?â Heâs offering things you donât need.
Over-Explains Everything: Bruce will start talking about something mundane and give a full TED Talk. âWell, you see, the Batmobileâs engine is unique becauseâŚâ You just wanted to know if it had cup holders.
Subtle Touches: Heâll brush your hand âaccidentallyâ or adjust your coat collar, lingering just a second too long. But if you call him out, heâll stammer, âI thought you were cold.â
Silent Protector: Heâll stand silently in the background, watching like a brooding guardian angel. If anyone flirts with you, his jaw clenches like itâs personal.
Bonus: Dumb Things They ALL Do ââ .âŚ
Group Text Fiascos: Theyâll text each other for advice, and it always goes wrong.
Jason: âShould I call her pretty or hot?â
Tim: âSay sheâs breathtaking. Itâs classier.â
Dick: âJust tell her you love her.â
Damian: âYouâre all fools.â
Bruce (accidentally replying to all): ââŚDelete this.â
Staring Too Long: Every single one of them will stare at you for too long, only to awkwardly look away when you notice. Theyâll try to play it off, but you know they were looking.
Clumsy Idiots: Theyâll all try to do something impressiveâlift something heavy, show off their fighting skillsâand itâll backfire hilariously. But the effort is adorable.
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Extremely self-indulgent. For the neurodivergent girlies. English isn't my first language, so my apologies for any mistake. I also have no idea how to write a Scottish accent đ§đťââď¸ bear with me
You knocked on the dark hardwood door as you've had done plenty of times before.
It has been almost six months since you've signed that contract. That one, the one where you forfeited 4 years of your life in exchange for stable wages and proper housing.
For someone with no life, no family and no friends (besides the online weirdos you'd talk to from time to time), that was kinda good, if you could say so yourself.
You had stability, even though it came with the cost of being tied down to a military base chock-full of people who didn't really understand you.
That was fine though. THAT, you were used to. It comes with the neurodivergence: the side eyes, the whispers and the isolation.
What you weren't used to, however, was how your heart would race like a rabbit on a run for its life whenever you knocked on that one door. And you had to knock on it quite a lot of times.
You rapped your knuckles against the hardwood once more when you got no reply, cracking the door open just a little bit to peek inside.
"Cap?" You said, voice almost a whisper. After a few seconds, you heard an answer.
"Come in, love. Didn't know it was you." A strong, booming voice came from inside and you swallowed the lump on your throat that always formed whenever you had to go to Price's office.
Not because you were afraid of him, no. On the contrary. Maybe Price and the rest of the task force were the only ones who didn't treat you like an aberration â probably because they were aberrations of their own merit.
Maybe it was stupid of you to get giddy over being treated well by some of your coworkers, but when the bare minimum was so rare, you latched onto it like a dog with a bone.
And in spite of yourself, you couldn't control your own heart. It would be racing like a schoolgirl with a crush whenever you went to visit any of the men from the task force. You gave up on trying to tame it.
"Hi Cap" you said, with a small smile, approaching his desk. On the corner of your eyes, you saw the other three burly men that made up 141 and waved.
"Hey, lass, good ta see ya!" Soap hollered, voice loud as ever. You could probably feel it vibrating inside your bones if he spoke for a little longer and you loved it; as much as you envied it. What wouldn't you do to be just a little bit outgoing like that? Maybe things would be just a tad easier.
"How can I help my favorite secretary?" Price asked, the corner of his eyes wrinkling as he smiled, crow's feet getting a lot more pronounced in a way you probably thought of more than you should.
You scoffed, rolling your eyes.
"I'm your only secretary."
"Doesn't make my statement any less true."
You shook your head and placed a manila folder in front of him.
"I need your autograph, Cap."
"What for?"
"Because I'm your biggest fan and I wanna put it on my refrigerator...?" You answered humorously, and Price raised an eyebrow. You sighed. "We need to authorize the training of a few new recruits and they need your approval. So I need you to sign it."
Price huffed out a low chuckle and began leafing through the needlessly thick document. You poked your finger into the folder, fishing out the last pages, and walked towards the other men sitting on the other side of the office.
"I like today's dress, love." Gaz was manspreading on one of Price's armchairs, head resting on his palm as he gave you an once over. If it were anyone else, you'd probably hate the way you were being perceived â it usually made you feel like a bug being watched through a magnifying glass. But under his gaze, you just felt like a doll being admired.
"Do you, now? It's one of my favorites." You bowed dramatically while holding the hem of the dress. It was just another one of the black frilly dresses that you wore like a signature. It flew around you as you spun on your feet to show the black ribbon on the back.
"Adorable as always. If I wasn't selfish, I would say it's wasted inside this base, but I like to have you around way too much." His eyes gleamed with mirth and, in any other situation, you'd think he was secretly mocking you â but not Kyle. Not any one of them. You knew the compliments were genuine, even if they didn't understand why you insisted on sticking out like a sore thumb when it brought you so many problems.
You knew they would never really understand how masking could hurt you, but you were grateful they still defended your decision on just being yourself.
"Look at tha' key on yer neck." Soap pointed at your necklace. "I ken what's tha' for. It's the key to my heart, aye?" He said with an exaggerated wink and a smile that could blind you.
"Yeah, yeah, whatever you say." You rolled your eyes, smiling, and pushed a paper into his hand and did the same with Gaz and Ghost.
"I need your autographs as well. You heard my explanation already."
" 'm not built for a life of fame, love." Simon grunted, shifting on his seat right beside Soap.
"Too late, the spotlight already found you. Now you gotta give me your autograph or I'm gonna cancel you on social media."
He huffed.
"Don't ya think I should have been canceled a long time ago?"
"Probably." You shrugged, and handed him a pen. "I like my favorites problematic, what can I say."
Soap barked out a laugh, mindlessly scanning the document and Ghost merely shook his head.
"Do I gotta sign this? Don't really feel like training new runts." The masked man muttered and you shrugged.
"Don't shoot the messenger. I don't really want new young men around me either." You walked back towards Price's desk after collecting the documents and placed them neatly inside the folder after he was done surveying every single fine print.
"What do you guys want for lunch?" You asked as you tucked the documents under your arm. Price clicked his tongue.
"You don't have to keep bothering with making food for us, love. We can all eat at the canteen like everyone else." The older man leaned back on his chair, folding his arms.
You looked to the side, with a small pout on your lips.
"But if I make you guys' lunch, then I can emotionally blackmail you into eating with me at the kitchen." You mumbled, avoiding any and all eye contact.
"So it was all a ploy to keep us nearby? I thought you were doing that because you liked us. I'm so hurt, dear." Kyle spoke up from his seat, a dramatic hand over his chest as he leaned his head back. You put a hand over your mouth, hiding your grin.
"Maybe I'm just learning a thing or two from hanging around tacticians?"
"Aw, Captain, come on. How can we leave the poor doll hangin'? And we get ta eat actually good food, not that canteen slop! Come on!"
Price sighed, shaking his head in defeat.
"Anything you make will be great, love."
"As long as it has proteins and carbs." Ghost added from his seat and you snickered. He had already seen you eating your comfort foods before and, needless to say, he didn't approve of them.
"As long as it has proteins and carbs." Price repeated, with a nod.
"Proteins and carbs, okay, got it." You said with a fierce nod, walking back towards the door to the older man's office. "Meet you guys at the kitchen?"
"1200, sharp." Price said, with eyes as soft as the smile under his moustache. You gave him a small salute on your way out.
"Yessir."
This will probably be a little anthology of scenes I think of, involving poly!141 x neurodivergent reader who works for them as a secretary. They might not have much continuity but I'm using this as a self-healing, self-indulgent blog, separated from my main. Expect mostly fluff and angst from me.
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other side of the moon - chapter five | formula one imagine
pairing: fem retired formula one driver reader x ??? fem retired formula one driver reader x platonic!kimi antonelli
one big car launch with every driver in attendance - what can go wrong?
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whatever bright spark decided that formula one needed one big, fancy car launch must want y/n dead. here she stood in one of the many green rooms in a black dress thatâs a little too tight and an absolute pain to sit down in.
on one side of the room george sits in his dressing gown being doted on five different people while he talks down the phone in a tone too loud for the crowded room. kimi, on the other hand, sits on the couch on the other side, having waved off all of the people trying to smear yet another cream on his face.
âare you just going to be haunting me all season?â george said as he hung up the phone. glaring at y/n through the mirror.
âif iâm haunting you, does that mean you did something wrong?â y/n gasps, âam i the skeleton in your closet, georgie?â
the mercedes personnel in the green room were still, almost waiting for it to hit boiling point and all spill over. george and y/n stared each other down, waiting for someone to make the next move. george steadily looked y/n up and down, not being subtle at all. y/n raised her eyebrow at the brit.
âi could get used to you in my colours,â george said with a smirk.
âbore off russell, i donât wear anything for you. these will be seen as kimiâs colours before you know it.â
a knock on the door signalled the start of the show. george stood up and took off his robe, revealing the new mercedes racesuit for the season. the brit made his way to the door but before he left, he turned to y/n and said, âdonât get too comfortable, i have my eye on youâ
âoh georgie, you always have,â y/n flirted before schooling her face, âand how has that worked out for you?â
the brit pointed to his racesuit, âbetter than it has for you.â
that was a low blow, but y/n was prepared to play it that way if that was the game for the season. george looked at her again, as if to challenge her, but y/n stayed silent though her stare was unwavering. she had said a lot worse about herself to herself after the crash.
with that george turned and left, calling out to alex down the corridor.
âi really donât understand him,â kimi said, âit was only like a week or two ago he was cussing you out in monaco, then today he checks you out but then threatens you like two seconds later?â
âfirst lesson of the year, kimi. do not trust a word that man says to you.â
the pair linked arms and made their way out of the green room. there was a gaggle of drivers at the end of the corridor, all decked out in their racesuits except the ferrari boys who were in normal suits. the group fell silent as they all turned to see the new arrivals.
âi didnât know it was bring your mum to work day?â alex called out as they neared the group, smiling as he came to hug her.
a french-accented voice hollered a âmilfâ from the back of the group, y/n suspected it was pierre, but paid no mind. an offended squeak followed as y/n looked up to see max delivering a slap to the back of his head.
âiâm just dropping him off, i gotta get to my seat before iâm roped into an interview. i had to sneak in this afternoon, i swear sky sports are like stalking me!â
the group watched along as y/n leaned in to whisper into kimiâs ear, âremember what i told you. smile, be likeable and tell jokes. these people are underestimating you, let them. weâll do our real talking in the car. good luck and try and have some fun.â
the pair did their âhandshakeâ, which really was just a pinky promise, and broke apart. y/n looks back at the group one more time, smiles at max and takes her leave. just a couple paces down the corridor, a voice called out her name.
ây/n, hey!â lewis called, catching up to her quickly, âi didnât think iâd see you back here tonight.â
âi wasnât planning on it, to be fair. kimi is technically an adult now, but i still didnât want to leave him on his own here of all places.â
lewis laughed as the pair looked back at the group. kimi had nestled himself next to ollie, quietly talking to each other with esteban looking over both of them. y/n caught the gaze of esteban and the frenchman gave her a quick nod before inserting himself into the conversation. the height difference between kimi and esteban was comical, but y/n was happy knowing esteban would look out for him in places she couldnât be.
âi didnât think you would like the whole mentor role, being so young and everything, but you seem to be doing a good job.â
âthank you lewis, but honestly he makes it very easy,â y/n looked at the group again with a fond look on her face.
lewis brought his hand to her face and made her look at him, âi thought iâd never see that look on your face again.â
y/n looked down and blushed, shaking lewisâ hand off. âi am happy. a lot happier than i expected to be, anyway.â
âiâm happy that youâre happy. iâm happy youâre back, i wonât keep my distance this time, even if youâre in the home of the enemy now.â
y/n laughed, âwell i thought it was bad going back to your ex, and look at me now. so maybe theyâre not as much as an enemy as you think.â
an announcement from further down the corridor cute the conversation there, lewis tries not to look bothered, but y/n can still tell.
âlooks like youâre needed elsewhere, superstar,â y/n said with a wink, âtry not to let charles outshine you too much.â
âhe wishes.â
y/n watched him walk away and was confused. lewis had never expressed interest in her before, platonic or romantic. even when she was a young rookie with stars in her eyes, she was never on his radar. was she now? the visit in london had been weird and the way his eyes had been fixed on her since she arrived today was even weirder.
y/n didnât really have the time to be grappling with that struggle today, not with everything else going on. the audience seemed like enough distance between her and lando, but after monaco, there was no real knowing what could happen. george was just as confusing as his compatriot, with harsh words but also a glimmer of something else too.
she needed a glass of champagne pronto.
max watched the interaction between y/n and lewis like a hawk, so focused that he didnât realise that he had formed quite an audience. nico hulkenberg, kimi, ollie and esteban watched him try and conceal his feelings, but his face showed every thought.
âyou want to make it any more obvious that youâre jealous?â nico said, nudging max to break him out of his daze.
âiâm not jealous, i just wonder what they actually have to talk aboutâŚâ
âyouâre not jealous you say? you didnât even glare at him this much during 2021.â esteban chimed in.
max furrowed his brows and forced himself to look away. he already felt guilty for harbouring these feelings for y/n and now heâs faced with a curious look from kimi, making him feel even worse. he did not want to make the same mistake as lando and george had in the past. he meant it when he said he just wanted to exist with her.
âkimi, how would you feel about having max as your dad?â ollie said, hiding slightly behind esteban.
âheâs very good with the cats?â
âthanks, thatâs such a glowing recommendation, kimi, thanks!â
kimi held up his hands in surrender but max couldnât be angry at the italian - plus he did take very good care of his cats and brando. in fact, he had nearly thrown his back out, much to red bullâs chagrin, building a new cat tower so brando could watch the birds from his preferred spot. the cat had settled in well in his place in monaco while y/n had been staying, the dutchman didnât want to think too much about what it could mean, but it was on his mind.
âi just mean i caught you googling how to make sure your cat is getting enough vitamin d because you were worried about how cloudy itâs been in monaco?â
kimi tried to backpedal, but his anecdote was overheard by more drivers, bringing them into the conversation.
âare you being for real? vitamins are just pseudoscience dude,â pierre said but isack popped his head into the circle to say, âvitamins are real? and vitamin d deficiency is actually a really huge problem.â
âthank you isack!â
âas if iâm taking health advice from a rookie,â pierre laughed. yuki took his turn to pipe up next, âi saw you eat a whole jar of peanut butter in one sitting last winter break? what do you know about health?â
âwhy is it gang up on pierre hour? why arenât we focusing on the real issue here? like how pathetic max is about y/n?â
max sputtered as even more drivers joined the conversation.
âi am not pathetic. brando is practically my son. kimi back me up, doesnât he love me?â
âhe does -â kimi started defending max before charles butted in with a: âcalling for help from the other son? we see how it is verstappen.â
this was a losing battle. max just hoped it stayed this light hearted but he saw lando and george approaching the group.
âmax is not my dad, but i wouldnât mind. he drove all the way to nice to pick up my parcel because i didnât understand monaco postal charges!â
poor kimi was trying to help, but he was just making it inadvertently worse.
âthis is making your pseudoadoption last year look like childâs play, oscar,â alex said, earning him a whack from charles.
âkimi is not my son, but that doesnât mean i wonât look out for him. this is a horrible place to come when youâre already disliked. some people, not naming names, have made it clear they have a problem with him and y/n, so itâs simply my moral duty to look out for him.â
the group quietened down, looking amongst each other.
âwhy am i so out of the loop, who is bullying this literal child?â nico said, pulling kimi into his chest, the italian letting out a squeak as the german petted him. âso? do tell.â
for two people who were very eager to call y/n and kimi every name under the sun just a week ago, they were very silent in that moment.
âoh! weâre talking about the lovely cocktail party i threw that was ruined by lando and george!â charles blurted out, he grabbed fernandoâs hand, âit was so nice, i even brought olives, but they came in spouting all this shit about y/n and kimi and seduction and older women?â
both brits scratched the backs of their necks. the cocktail party drama was not a good move from them, especially so close to the start of the season.
âit wasnât quite like that?â george hurried out.
âyou accused y/n of trying to sleep with me?â oscar said.
âyou said that i was going the max verstappen route of getting with an older âproblematicâ woman?â kimi added from nicoâs side.
âyou also kinda implicated yourself in y/nâs crash?â alex heaped on for good measure.
âalex!?â george and lando shouted, âwhose side are you meant to be on?â
âiâm not on a âsideâ because iâm not fucking five, but i will point out hypocrisy and stupidity and thatâs both of you. come on, itâs 2025 and you guys are still stuck in like 2017.â
âright, i feel really stupid because what the fuck are you people talking about and why wasnât i invited to this party?â fernando said, a confused look on his face.
âlando and george are still hung up on y/n years later even though she never actually expressed interest in them, max has the best odds on actually sealing the deal and i donât know, kimi is getting shit because he brought her back and none of them can actually regulate their emotions!â charles said, exasperated, âkeep up grandpa, youâve been here the whole time!â
âi do not have the âbest oddsâ because y/n isnât a horse, you donât bet on women?â max bit back.
âactually i bet on women all the time,â yuki said but when he saw how the group were looking at him he added, âufc, duh!â
even as they were herded towards the backstage, the group continued bickering like children.
âall iâm saying is that your crush is super obvious and you need to be careful! y/n will know and will use it against you, just look at what happened with me and george!â lando hissed at max.
the dutchman glared at the brit, this really had gone too far. âcan you like actually give me an example of where she âled you onâ i am genuinely curious,â max snipped, âquickly.â
lando immediately looked at the floor and bit his lip. max began tapping his foot with an impatient look.
âwell she would be super flirty with me in the videos the team would make us film?â lando didnât sound convinced, and max didnât buy a single second of it.
âif thatâs what you think flirting is i feel sorry for all of your ex girlfriends, you must be a horrible boyfriend - ouch!â charles was cut off by a shove from george.
âstay out of this charles!â
âi wonât stay out of this, y/n is actually a friend of mine. yeah thatâs right she doesnât hate me because i donât assume that any girl who is fractionally nice to me is in love with me.â
âlando you basically tortured that girl her entire formula one career, do you need to do it now as well?â max said, âi think this season will be a lot easier for you if you drop this now.â
âis that a threat?â
âitâs a promise.â
all the bickering surrounding the pair ceased, tension rising in the air. the call for the mclaren boys drew lando out of his stare down with max. the brit joined oscar at the front of the queue and painted on his PR smile.
y/n had found her way to her seat, flanked by natalie pinkham on one side and jenson button on the other. there goes her plans for a quiet evening.
âso the rumours are true,â jenson said before jumping up to give her a hug, âiâve missed you, rockyâ
y/n flushed at the nickname. since her first ever race in formula one, jenson had crowned her his âpocket rocketâ which had eventually been worn down to just rocky. she hadnât heard it in so long, jensonâs appearances being relegated to messages via sara or flowers that only gave away his identity with the use of rocky.
âdid sky set up this seating arrangement? are you going to ambush me for an interview?â
âi canât believe youâd think so low of me,â jenson clutched at his imaginary pearls, âand as if you can say no to me anyway.â
the pair took their seats as the show started. natalie handed her a glass of champagne and whispered in her ear, âyou might need this.â well that doesnât bode well.
the two mclaren drivers made their way out onto stage, joined by zak and andrea. y/n leaned into jenson, âi donât understand why he insists on being everywhere, have we not suffered enough?â
jenson tried to stifle his laugh, âare you sure you donât want to work in commentary?â
âi think itâs best i keep my opinion on these men to myself.â
the mclaren spiel followed the closely the same scripts they used when y/n still raced for them, though a healthy dose of constructors champions boasting had been added. a second questionable decision from formula one reared itâs head when nico rosberg asked his first unscripted question:
âso boys, how do you feel about the return of former mclaren driver y/n y/ln to the paddock? excited to see her?â
y/n swore she could see landoâs eye twitch from her front row seat. there was an awkward pause and y/n could feel the rest of the audience tense. even though the general public didnât know the ins and outs of the fall out, there was definitely rising suspicion.
nico found y/n in the audience and gave her such a shit-eating grin that she almost didnât care about the situation he just put her in.
âweâre of course over the moon to see her back in the paddock. i know iâve harboured a lot of guilt as to how i ended up with my seat, so iâm happy that y/n can see me in action and hopefully i can continue to make her proud!â oscar said with a genuine smile, the only convincing one from the men clad in orange.
âcontinue to?â nico asked, âhave you had confirmation of this?â
y/nâs eyes snapped to oscar who despite receiving glares from his boss, continued on.
âwe spoke at charlesâ cocktail party. iâve always been a fan of hers and it was great to finally set the record straight. she was a lot more graceful than i wouldâve been in her position. to be honest i was a bit of a weepy mess, but she was very supportive. iâm only slightly jealous of kimiâŚâ
âvery nice. did you get any insight on her opinion on hungary?â nico pushed, only to be cut off by zak.
âif you so desperately want her opinion on everything, you can wait until youâre on skyâs dime. this is a car launch, no? weâre confident in our car for this season and intend on winning both championships. and do you know how weâre going to do that? with the two drivers on stage right now, not one who was a flash in the pan four years ago.â
you could hear a pin drop in the venue. even lando had a shocked look on his face as he and oscar exchanged a look.
âthatâs fighting talk from the man who ended her career, but what do i know?â nico said sharply but then turned to the audience, âladies and gentlemen, mclaren!â
there was tentative applause from crowd and when y/n and oscar made eye contact she gave him a small smile. this was only the first teamâŚ
nico looked for y/n in the front row and gave her a thumbs up to which she shook her head violently. jenson burst out laughing, âwell, i donât think weâll be having this as the car launch format again.â
âi donât know about you but iâm throughly entertained,â natalie said, âif nico was like that with mclaren, i canât wait for ferrari!â
the next few teams were decidedly less dramatic. y/n could see kimi and george lining up next to come on stage and she hoped the italian remembered her advice.
george walked on stage with confident strides, followed by toto and finally kimi. the italian looked out at the audience, squinting from the harsh lights but calming his features when he saw y/n. she gave him a thumbs up and got a smile in return.
âyouâre loving this mum role arenât you?â jenson said.
âyouâre making me feel old, stop. but yes i would kill myself if anything happened to him, so i guess so.â
back on stage, nico had started his interview. first toto was being grilled about the hopes for the season and how life at mercedes would be without lewis hamilton. the german was clearly trying to bait his former boss into giving him a juicy soundbite.
âkimi, letâs come to you now. youâre first season in formula one and youâve already brought in the big guns? y/n y/ln as your mentor, thatâs a big statement.â
kimi looked startled and his eyes snapped to meet y/nâs. she nodded to him, urging him to answer.
âwhy wouldnât i want a legend of the sport like her as my mentor? she still knows what sheâs doing, and if it ruffles some feathers in the paddock at the same time, whatâs the harm?â
she was so proud of her protĂŠgĂŠ. jenson choked on his champagne at kimiâs answer, âkids got balls.â
âwell, well, well. youâre not beating around the bush are you? but do tell me, kimi, whatâs so special about you that y/n would come out of retirement?â
âiâll save that answer for australia, nico,â kimi said, surprised by the laughs from the audience, âbut maybe iâve just got a charm the rest of the grid doesnât?â
âholy shit,â natalie said, âwas this the strategy, y/n?â
âi told him to make them like him? are you not entertained?â
nico, for once, was speechless on stage. george huffed next to toto, waiting for his turn to talk. the german clocked onto this and a devilish smile broke out on his face.
âso george, you and y/n grew up together⌠do you not have charm? as far as we can tell, you havenât spoken to y/n in years?â
y/nâs mouth dropped open. jenson was right, thereâs no way this format, at least with nico hosting, was ever happening again.
âi have more than enough charm, thank you nico. are you going to ask us anymore questions about the season or is it all just tabloid questions from you tonight?â
âtabloid?! well, now that makes me think youâve got something to hide⌠but as for your 2025 season, are you afraid that you might lose to an 18-year-old rookie?â
george sputtered in response, âi have no fear of losing, i just beat a seven time world champion, a rookie, no offence, has no bearing on my season.â
âthatâs a big claim, george. you better hope you stick to it. itâll be your sixth season in formula one, do you think youâll finally be able to claim the number one driver role?â
georgeâs face was getting redder and redder as he tried to remain calm. he made eye contact with y/n briefly, giving her the subtlest glare he could.
âi think i made a very good case for myself for the last two seasons and toto has faith in me to lead this team back to where they should be.â
nico had a wolfish grin on his face, he was enjoying this psychological torture a little too much.
âyou donât think toto has more faith in kimi, a driver he allowed to skip an entire step on the junior ladder and is giving his formula one debut at just 18? and straight into a mercedes rather than say⌠a williams?â
georgeâs shiny mask was starting to slip. this was meant to be a fun event for fans but had descended into a nico rosberg masterclass of making everyone suffer - and for once y/n was enjoying it.
âclassy as always, nico,â george said.
âitâs what i do best,â nico laughed to himself, âback to you kimi, are you intimidated at all by your senior teammate? do you think you can make a case for yourself as the number one driver?â
the italian paused for a moment, thinking to y/nâs advice - he needed people to like him.
âiâm more than happy to play a team game to bring mercedes back to the top,â he smiled to toto, âbut make no mistake iâm here to win and i wonât just step aside without good reason.â
âwell, this is a duo iâll be watching closely this season. mercedes!â
the trio shuffled off of stage and y/n let out a sigh of relief, she could throw back as much champagne as she wanted now.
another couple of teams made their way past nicoâs questioning, but as nico hulkenberg and gabriel bortoleto made their way off of the stage the audience held their breath. next was ferrari.
charles, lewis and fred vasseur made their way on stage, and as has become classic fashion, lewis situated himself as far from nico as possible.
âwelcome, welcome. a different line up this year and much to think about, do you think you can finally bring the championship back to italy?â
fred started on what was likely a pre-written script and y/n tuned out for a second. the ferrari boys looked nothing short of glamorous in their tailored black suits with the yellow of the ferrari logo popping on the left breast. both men looked assured, no nerves, just pure confidence - the type of confidence that draws you to a person.
y/n caught lewisâ eye and he gave her a quick wink, something that did not go unnoticed by jenson beside her.
âwhat was that all about, rocky?â jenson whispered. y/n kept looking forward, ignoring jensonâs stare burning into the side of her head. the brit kept poking her, âiâm not going to stop until you answer me!â
y/n batted his hand away, âi donât know what youâre talking about old man, leave me alone!â
âi saw that, hell, the whole place saw that! you are aware that is a man 14 years your senior!â
y/n downed her champagne and whispered to jenson, âlisten, i donât know what the fuck is happening! he came to my apartment and heâs being really nice? i donât know?!â
jenson looked between the two and grabbed his own champagne. âi was teammates with that guy! you might be a grown up now but heâs really old!â
y/n slapped a hand over her mouth to stop her laughing out loud. jenson did have a point. was lewis actually flirting with her or was he just being nice? was she falling into the same headspace that lando and george were in with her?
âi am not going to get with lewis, jens. heâs just being nice, thatâs all. now shut up i want to see if nico makes the brocedes breakup all of our problem.â
nico had finished his interrogation of charles and set his sights on his former teammate. y/n grabbed jensonâs hand in anticipation.
âso lewis, new team, new you? how do you feel coming into a team where charles has dominated for the last five years?â
lewis gives nico a forced smile, âi am excited for the challenge. thereâs a lot of changes coming into this season, people leaving and new faces. itâs best to face a challenge head on rather than running.â
âyou didnât run from mercedes? you didnât want to stick it out and retire with the team that gave you so much success?â
âyouâd know all about running wouldnât you nico?â
y/n dropped her glass of champagne and the rest of the audience gasped but nico did not look phased at all.
âi am happy with my decision, time will tell if youâll be happy with yours. charles dealt with sebastian, donât think heâll roll over for you.â
charles looked like he wanted to be anywhere else but on stage and fredâs face would tell you heâs at the gallows rather than a car launch.
âwas in your brief today to make the vibes in here as rancid as possible? as i said i am excited for the season ahead and nothing you can say today will change that.â
lewis took the lead and left the stage, leaving nico alone with a pleased look on his face. the german found y/nâs gaze again and wiggled his eyebrows. if there was ever a man you need to take the heat off of you, he was the one.
there was one final team to go and this entire nightmare of a night would be over. the final team was none other than red bull - nothing could possibly go wrong here could they?
christian, like the other team principals, started with a long-winded spiel that said a whole lot of nothing. y/n smiled widely when she caught maxâs eye and he responded with an eye roll directed at christianâs rambling. the dutchman, for a second, had forgotten he was in fact on stage in front of thousands. the pair stare at each other and bite their lips to keep the laughs in.
jenson leaned in again, ânot to keep questioning you, but what is happening here? and donât lie, i know heâs the only one you kept in contact with and who you have been staying with in monaco.â
âitâs nothing! itâs something? i donât know what it is? weâre just existing together. i think romance in the paddock is the worst thing for me right now. i need to be fully focused on kimi.â
âfirst of all - weâre exisiting together? thatâs so fucking gross. and two - youâre still allowed to have fun?â jenson wiggled his eyebrows.
ânot everyone can be the playboy of formula one, stud.â
âtrue. iâm not sure you have the devilishly good looks to be a playboy - heyâ
y/n snatched his glass of champagne and turned back towards the stage just as max took to the microphone.
âso max, do you think thereâs a chance of a fifth title in a row?â
max laughed in his signature way, âhere i thought youâd gotten all of your aggression out with lewis. weâll have to see how we line up against the other teams, but you always have to believe you can win every single race, so thatâs what iâll continue to do.â
a quick glance from nico told y/n that her peaceful night hadnât started just yet.
âyouâll finally have your best friend back in the paddock, are you still excited even though sheâll be in mercedes uniform?â
âi think toto has another thing coming if he thinks sheâll be wearing that ugly uniform,â max said, âbut it makes no difference to me what garage y/n is in, weâre like magnets, you canât keep us a part for long.â
nico hummed, âis that why you were the only one she kept in contact with after the crash?â
âyes? itâs mostly because weâre best friends but also because iâm a decent human being.â
oh fuck.
âhow do you mean, max?â
christian tried to butt in, âi donât think we need to go into that here.â
âoh iâm more than happy to, and nico has been stirring all night, whatâs just a little more to add to the pot?â
you could almost hear the audience shuffling to the edge of their seats and for the first time that evening, y/n felt some of the cameras on her. she gave them a small wave and hoped they would pan back to the actual action.
âall iâm saying is that there are a lot of victim complexes in the paddock, itâs full of people who would rather say âi donât know why she doesnât talk to me?â rather than do some actual introspection. y/n will talk to you if youâre not an asshole, just as kimi.â
âso youâre saying thereâs a truth to the rumours?â
âwhich rumours? you know, since your employers like to report on so many?â
nico chuckled, âwell, the rumours that perhaps the brits in the paddock didnât get on as well as we were led to believe?â
max smiled, âwell, thatâs not my story to tell, but iâve found that if you ask them, theyâre more than happy to give you the scoop.â
for a moment, y/nâs heart stopped, fearing that nico would take this as the chance to bring her into the fray. max seemed to sense this as well and added, âbut as for me, iâm just happy sheâs back in any capacity. iâve missed my partner in crime.â
âhave you spoken about formula one in her break at all? you won all four of your titles in that time?â
âi know she watched it, but we havenât spoken about it. i respected her boundaries at the time, but i knew she was watching based on some suspiciously timed texts.â
nico laughed, âiâm not sure we can ever stay away from this sport for long.â
âiâm glad that is the case,â max said, more to himself than anyone else.
the red bull boys were ushered off of the stage as nico delivered his closing remarks and announced the musical guests.
âheâs glad thatâs the case? oh heâs in deep,â jenson gasped, âyou canât tell me thatâs nothing, i rebuke it right this second.â
y/n sighed, standing and heading to the backstage bar. âi really donât want to think about it jenson.â
âbut youâre staying at his house, heâs building shit for your cat and gushing about you on stage!â
âi am well aware, but i donât really know what you want me to do about that?â
âi want you to get your man and let him treat you how youâre supposed to be!â
y/n picked up another glass of champagne, talking the biggest sip before replying to jenson.
âyouâre just as bad as the girls on twitter sometimes.â
kimi bursts through the doors, back in his comfy clothes, and rushes over to y/n. she wraps the italian into a hug.
âiâm so proud of you!â
kimi blushes, rocking back and forth on his feet, âthank you, y/n! iâm so glad weâve got this out of the way iâm ready to race now!â
jenson laughed along side them, âan eager one, this one. i remember when i had that much energy.â
the rest of the drivers flooded into the room, grabbing drinks or just taking a seat. max, much like kimi, made his way straight to y/n, also pulling her into his chest. he whispered in her ear, âiâm sorry i got carried away talking about you, i just canât help myself.â
y/n canât help but feel the butterflies in her stomach at the confession. she was really trying to keep her feelings out of her return to formula one, but seeing max like this was putting a real spanner in the works. the dutchmanâs protective nature along side his intense respect for her made her feel special for the first time since the crash.
âi take no offence, maxy. iâll never say no to a compliment, especially from you.â
the group moves away from the bar and as they settle into their seats backstage, maxâs arm wraps around her waist. y/n knew she shouldnât do it, not here in front of everyone but thatâs what her heart wanted. the first few weeks into her return and all the drama was wearing on her and they hadnât even made it to the paddock yet. she snuggled into maxâs side, letting the dutchman brush her hair out of her face.
ây/n?â kimi said from the other side of her, âiâm really happy youâre here, and i hope youâll let yourself have this,â kimi motioned to max, who was deep in conversation with jenson.
âdonât you worry about that, kimi.â
âyouâve punished yourself for years, please donât keep telling yourself that youâre not allowed this. also donât wait up for me, iâm going to crash at ollieâsâ
kimi said as his departing gift as he went to catch up with ollie and watch some of the music. y/n let herself relax back into maxâs hold and her eyes close, all of the pent up stress of the evening rushing out.
âare we really that boring?â jenson asked.
âdo you want to get out of here, y/n?â max asked, when y/n flopped further onto him, he took that as his answer.
grabbing her bag, max took y/nâs hand in his and pulled her from the seat. the pair exchanged hugs with jenson and made a quiet exit from backstage. they tried to be as subtle as possible, but nothing is ever secret in formula one.
jenson slid in beside lewis at the bar.
âyou want to tell me what your plan is with her?â
lewis looked at his former teammate in confusion.
âi saw that wink and i know you were flirting with her when you went to her apartment. whatâs the plan, youâre 14 years older than her?â
âi donât have a plan? i felt bad about how i was when she was in formula one, iâm just trying to make her feel welcome again.â
âand winking at her at a televised event is definitely going to help?â
lewis scoffed, âi donât really like what youâre implying.â
âiâm implying that you need to watch your step, seriously. the vultures are just waiting for her to make one wrong step, donât give them an excuse to call her a gold digger or anything along those lines.â
âand what if i said i did like her?â
âiâd ask you if you actually know her? you didnât speak to her after the crash, you didnât speak to her when she was in the sport so iâm confused to where this would have come from?â
âyou can drop the dad act jenson, iâm just being friendly. it looks like max got in there first anyway.â
jenson hummed, ânot everything is a competition.â
y/n and max climbed into maxâs hire car for the weekend and finally let themselves breathe.
âthat was a lot,â y/n said, slipping off her heels, ânico really was out for blood.â
âi found it entertaining, but that usually is a death wish for anything in formula one.â
the pair laughed, and as max turned the ignition, y/nâs taylor swift playlist crackled into life.
âare you heading back to your hotel or do you want to crash at mine?â y/n asked as she put her address into the gps, despite max knowing nearly every route across london to her apartment.
âa chance to avoid team duties for as long as possible? count me in!â
âso you donât want to spend more time with me? just want to avoid your team?â
max placed his hand on her thigh, âyou know i always want to spend more time with you.â
the streets were relatively clear at this time with the event still in swing. max weaved through traffic as they entered west london. the dutchman nestled his car in y/nâs spot for her pink cadillac that was still in monaco. y/n started to fiddle with her heels to put them back on, but max stopped her.
he walked round to her side of the car and picked up her up bridal style. y/n giggled and wrapped her arms around maxâs neck. the pair made their way up to her apartment as fast as possible, but made sure to say hi to frank who not so subtlety gave y/n a thumbs up and a wink.
the apartment was quiet without the meows of brando who was also back in monaco with jimmy and sassy. max stopped in the kitchen to pour two glasses of water but y/n went ahead to the bathroom to wash off the grime of the event.
she slipped into bed dressed in her pjamas that consisted of some old gym shorts and one of maxâs toro rosso shirts. the dutchman knocked on her door.
âcome in, maxy.â
max made his way into the room, placing the glass of water on her beside table. he sat on the edge of the bed, âgood night, try not to dream of me too much.â the dutchman leaned down to give her a kiss on the forehead before moving back towards the door.
âmax?â
âyes?â
âwill you stay with me?â
âalways.â
max got under the covers and tentatively reached out to her. sensing the apprehension, y/n turned over and tucked herself under maxâs chin. his arms snuck around her waist and for the first time in three years, y/n finally slept peacefully without the images of her crash.
fin.
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extraordinary measures | s.r.
in which your life hangs in the balance after a brutal attack, and Spencer has to hold himself together for the sake of you and your baby
who? spencer reid x fem!reader category: angst content warnings: fetal abduction, potentially inaccurate medical information, entirely from spencer's pov, very violent crime, mom!reader, hospitals, medication, spencer lashes out at jj, rossi's son. word count: 4.41k a/n: the people said dad!spencer angst and i delivered. also! trying something new with formatting my posts. i pay for canva pro and need to get my money's worth.
The hospital staff had moved them into a conference room, giving the BAU more space to spread out â and so Spencerâs pacing wouldnât disturb the other people in the waiting room. This isnât real. This isnât happening. This isnât real. This isnât happening. Not to us. Not to me. Not to her.
The statistics on fetal abduction were alarming. Before today, there had only been thirteen cases since Spencer had joined the BAU. Today alone, there had been two.
âExcuse me,â an unfamiliar voice said, followed by two knocks on the door, âIâm so sorry, but have you had the chance to fill out some of the forms that we gave you?â
Answering for him, Penelope grabbed the clipboard off of the table and passed it to the nurse, âThe insurance card is on the top,â she informed the nurse. Nervously, the blonde looked between the medical professional and Spencer, âIs there any update?â
The nurse cringed slightly, âI donât have one. Iâll see if they can send someone to talk to you.â She nodded assuredly before peeling out of the room.
âCan I get you anything?â Garcia asked helplessly. He had already been given tea, water, coffee, and a sandwich, but he didnât want any of it.
Shaking his head numbly, Spencer dragged his hands down his face as he replayed the events of this morning in his head.
He wasnât even supposed to be working, you were due any day now, but Emily had called him with the case and gave him the choice of working. He was supposed to go with you to the check-up, but you had encouraged him to go save a life.
The woman who had been found this morning had her abdomen crudely cut open and her baby was born via a botched cesarean section, but her baby was too premature and didnât make it. They were both found in an alley near the hospital by a garbage man. Then, while he and Luke were at the medical examinerâs office, his phone started to ring.
You had been discovered, bleeding out, outside of your obstetricianâs office, and if you hadnât been so close to a building full of doctors, you probably wouldnât have made it as far as surgery right now. The fact that you had been brought to surgery should have been enough to give him hope, but he hasnât been raised to be hopeful, he was raised to be pragmatic. The reality of the situation was that in cases of fetal abduction, the mothers rarely made it out the other side.
He was left with Garcia to keep him company, she stayed as a watchdog, mainly looking through traffic footage on her laptop as she made sure Spencer didnât go entirely off the rails. âYouâre going to burn a hole in the floor,â she said offhandedly, begging Spencer to just sit down for a moment.
With a huff, he took a seat next to Penelope, leaning his head back on the taupe drywall, âI donât know what to do,â he confessed.
âWeâre going to wait, we are not going to catastrophize, and we will listen to any and all updates that the doctors give us,â she said determinedly, nodding her head as she did so. âWe only know what we know and assuming the worst will just lead to feeling worse.â
Closing his eyes, he agreed, listening to the bustle of the hospital from inside the secluded, makeshift waiting space. He wished he knew more about your status when you came in, there were the crime scene photos â which Penelope was under strict orders not to show him â and a quick mention from a resident about blood loss, but nothing else.
âDr. Reid?â A new voice said, snapping him out of his stupor as he rose to his feet, staring at the doctor who came in with his scrub cap on, âIâm afraid there isnât much news. Things are still touch and go. Theyâre hopeful that they can get the bleeding under control, once they do that, weâll know more. Iâll come out and let you know, alright?â
With the doctor leaving, Garcia reopened her laptop, âYou see? We canât assume the worst because we just donât know enough yet.â
âGarcia,â he interrupted, hopeful for just a moment of silence to digest the new information â if you could even call it that.
Nodding succinctly, she returned to her work, âRight, okay.â
With the arrival of JJ, Penelope left to check in at the office, and since a profiler was bound to know more information, he asked JJ for an update. His baby had to be almost three hours old now, and he knew nothing about them.
He was left disappointed, there was no information on the UnSub or the baby, âWhatâs the point of it anyway?â
âEveryone is working on it, Spence. No one is going to rest until this case is closed,â JJ tried to reassure him.
Spencer wasnât sure he was ever truly going to rest again, âWhere is someone supposed to go with a newborn baby? The umbilical cord has to be still attached.â Statistically, women were more likely to commit cesarean abductions, and they usually did so after the loss of their own child or because they told someone they were pregnant and needed to produce a baby. âNo one can tell me anything about my child, JJ, donât you understand that? Canât you try to understand how that feels?â
Bracing herself, JJ nodded, âYouâre angry, I get it, you-â
âNo, you donât. My wife is bleeding out in surgery, and I have no fucking clue where our baby is. I have never met them. I donât know if I have a son or a daughter or if theyâre alive and you have the nerve to tell me that you âget itâ?â He peered over at the blonde profiler. You shouldâve been the first person to hold your baby, and instead, you might never live to find out what happened to you.
She was silent for a moment, âYouâre right. I- I canât even begin to process what youâre feeling right now, but all we can do is keep working on the case.â
Dropping his head in his hands, Spencer shook his head, âThen go work on the case,â he insisted, âI donât⌠I need to be alone right now.â
Just as the four-hour mark approached, the glass door opened again, and David Rossi walked in.
âAre you here to lecture me?â Spencer asked, his voice raspy from crying in the solitude of the room, he wondered if JJ had told everyone how he lashed out at her.
Crossing one leg over the other, Rossi answered, âNope,â he said, popping the last syllable. âIâm just here to sit and wait, same as you, kid.â
Nodding, Spencer leaned his head back and closed his eyes as a protection against the fluorescent lights of the hospital, âHow did you manage?â
There were some things â life events â that were left unspoken in the BAU. Traumas that people didnât want uncovered, horrors that the team didnât need to relive, but Spencer needed answers, and this was the only way he could think to get them. âManage what?â
âLosing your son,â he answered, crossing his arms in front of his chest as he kept his eyes closed, wondering if he too would lose a child. Birth and death within the same day.
Clearing his throat, Rossi took a moment before responding, and Spencer wasnât sure if he was appalled at the question or if he simply wasnât sure how to respond, âWell, Iâm not sure I ever really did. Not for a long time, at least,â he admitted.
Digesting the information, Spencer shifted in his seat, âIâm not sure what Iâm supposed to do. Everyone just keeps telling me to wait, butâŚâ he chuckled to himself, âY/N always jokes that if patience is the companion of wisdom, then I have to be the exception.â
He had always been told to wait. Wait for his turn. Wait for the perfect person to show up. He had waited, and he had gotten you, but all of that waiting had led him here. In this beige room where he had signed papers asking doctors to use extraordinary measures to try and save your life.
âDr. Reid?â One of the doctors from earlier called his name, knocking on the glass door. Instinctively, Spencer stood up, wiping his hands on his pants and looking at the doctor expectantly, âOh, please,â the doctor said, âTake a seat.â
Hesitantly, Spencer lowered himself back down into the hospital chair, he couldnât help but feel like that was a bad sign.
âAll things considered, your wife is very, very lucky,â the doctor informed him, âSheâs not fully out of the woods yet, but theyâre setting her up in recovery right now. Iâm just waiting on a message from my colleague, and then Iâll be able to bring you up to see her.â
A flurry of questions flew through his mind at once, âWhat are you still concerned about?â He asked, leaning over and resting his elbows on his knees.
Nodding, the doctor continued, âY/N lost a lot of blood in the attack. When you factor in the trauma of having a baby and a four-hour surgery, thereâs a lot of healing that has to happen, and right now she doesnât have the strength for it.â His phone chimed, and Spencer jolted, trying not to get his hopes up if it wasnât about you, âCome with me,â the doctor said.
Rossi offered to let the rest of the team know and Spencer rambled off a random confirmation as he followed the doctor through the doorway, feeling like he was floating. As they walked through the hospital, Spencer grew more and more anxious.
Your hand was cold. In fact, your hand was so cold that Spencer asked the doctor to turn the volume on your vital monitor up so that he could have the constant reassurance that you were alive.
Blood was being transfused still, he had already forgotten the doctorâs estimate on just how much blood you had lost, but if he had the urge to read through your medical chart, he was sure he could find out. The only problem was, ever since the doctor left, he hadnât been able to do anything except stare.
Every once in a while, he pinched your index finger, testing the capillary refill time out of his own morbid curiosity while blood was being returned to your body. Agents and officers stood outside of your hospital room in a steady rotation. The BAU wasnât sure if your life was still in danger, but they werenât willing to take any risks.
There were countless law enforcement personnel involved in this case now, if not directly investigating the case, they were at least contributing to the search. The Manassas Field Office, DC Metro, the Maryland Police â they were all out there looking. Out the window, he could see news reporters gathering out front to start their afternoon broadcasts.
It had been four hours. Four hours and there was still no word on the baby or the UnSub. The baby would need to eat soon, and Spencer found himself depending on the UnSub to have had the forethought to take care of the newborn.
Every couple of minutes, you would mumble something in your sleep, and he willed you to stay asleep. Selfishly, he wanted you to stay asleep until he knew the baby was safe â until he knew he could have something good to tell you.
Penelope was stationed right outside the door. She likely thought he hadnât noticed her return, but the clicking of her keyboard gave her away.
Infrequently, his phone buzzed in his pocket, and he tried not to concern himself with it. Garcia had made contact with your mom, being sure to reach out to your family before any other news hit the airwaves.
He adjusted the way the nasal cannula rested on your face before bringing your hand to his mouth, pressing a gentle kiss to your knuckles and resting your cold fingers against his cheek, as if his face had the capacity to warm your whole body. Briefly, he wondered if the team would be willing to have a desk agent bring you a blanket from home.
The team would probably find a way to get him a helicopter if he requested it.
Flowers and cards flowed into your hospital room, arriving from people who knew you to people who had seen your story on the news. He had to look away when a small stuffed elephant was delivered by a nurse, knowing that the baby it belonged to was nowhere to be found.
Much to his surprise, he looked away from the stuffed animal just to find you looking back at him. The sorrow in your eyes a staggering reflection of that which could be found in his own. One glance at you and he knew that there was no need for him to break the news to you â you were well aware.
Spencer remained wholly silent as a slew of medical professionals filtered in and out of the room, a cacophony of directives and questions sent your way as tears filled your waterline. He captured your hand in both of his, holding your hand like it was a lifeline to everything he knew as the truth. He was here, you were here, and you were both alive. Tethered to you in the woven web of life, he refused to falter. Not now. Not when you needed him the most.
He answered the questions that you didnât know the answers to and watched, tight-lipped, as your doctor kept you informed. Dr. Lasher was picking and choosing from your chart, telling you anything pertinent, and leaving out anything that she thought could wait for later.
Once the doctor had cleared through an extensive list of maladies, everyone let you have the room. âDarling,â he whispered, reaching a hand out to adjust the way your hospital gown rested on your shoulder, covering some of the exposed wires.
âThere are no leads?â You asked tentatively, the pain in your voice exacerbated by the swelling caused by the breathing tube youâd had during surgery. Your eyes were glassy, and Spencer didnât know if it was from sorrow or pain or fear. It was a question he was afraid to ask.
He shook his head, âNot yet, but everyoneâs looking,â he fed you the same reassurances that had been given to him. The same reassurances that he hadnât believed.
You moved your hands, laying your palms flat on the sterile white sheets and starting to push yourself up, only to be met with Spencerâs hands guiding you back down to the pillows. âIâve gotta go,â you mumbled, âI wanna help. Spence, please let me help.â Fresh tears welled in your eyes as you looked at him in desperation.
The way your bottom lip quivered was what broke him, he tilted his head to the side, âYou can help just fine from right here, okay?â He looked out into the hallway, wondering which member of the team was around for you to talk to. âIâll be right back,â he told you, squeezing your hand before retreating to the hallway, never letting you out of his line of sight.
âHey,â Penelope greeted, the compassion in her voice giving him pause, âHow is she?â
Exhausted, terrified, in pain â all applicable at the moment. Spencer thought about answering for a moment before skipping Garciaâs question entirely, âWhoâs around for a cognitive?â
You didnât quite have the energy for a full interview, but you were so adamant about helping that he couldnât refuse you, not today. âJJâs one floor up, do you want me to call her for you?â
He thought about it for a moment, he hadnât handled his last interaction with JJ with the most care, but you needed someone to talk to and it couldnât be him. âYeah,â he nodded, âPlease.â
Spencer sat on the edge of your bed, smoothing your hair as he tried to comfort you. In all of the time heâd known you, heâd never need you so defeated.
Not much came out during your cognitive with JJ, either there was a mental block in the way or you hadnât seen much when you were attacked. Whichever one it was, Spencer was fighting himself internally on whether or not he should be thankful.
âIâm so sorry,â Spencer murmured, keeping his voice low as you fought off sleep. âClose your eyes, sweetheart,â he cooed, âYou need to rest.â
You fought sleep with everything you had in you, which wasnât much anymore. The cognitive interview had gone too long. Your nurse was the one who put her foot down and ended it, even when you wanted to keep going. âItâs not fair,â you cried, slow tears making their way down your cheeks.
Very slowly, Spencer could feel his heart breaking as your exhaustion and desolation worked together to make you as miserable as possible, âI know, lovey. I know,â he assured you as tears filled his eyes.
Glassy eyes looked up at him, âI just wanted to be a mom,â you whispered, your speech slurred with sleep.
Letting his own tears fall to the white sheets of your hospital bed, Spencer nodded, âYou are a mom.â
He didnât add anything. He didnât have it in him to make a grandiose speech about how you would always be your babyâs mother, and, luckily, he didnât need to. Your eyes finally fell shut, final tears falling from your face as Spencer found himself grateful that sleep finally took you.
Never leaving your side, Spencer pulled the chair back up next to you, resting his chin on your bed's armrest and watching you sleep. Very slowly, color was beginning to return to your face, yet you still looked so different from when he had left the house that morning.
Unsure how long it had been, Spencer shot up straight when Penelope came rushing to the doorway, placing a finger to his lips, he nodded toward your sleeping form. Even so, the technical analyst waved him over.
Carefully, he slipped his hand out of yours and walked around your bed to Penelope, âWhat is it?â
Tears filled the blondeâs eyes as she looked up at him, she put both of her hands on his upper arms and cried, âThey found your baby. It- theyâre pulling up to the ambulance bay right now.â
Spencerâs lips parted in shock, having fully prepared himself for the day to end in undeniable heartbreak. âAre- is the baby okay?â
Penelope nodded, âTheyâre going up to the NICU right now to get checked out but apparently the EMTs said the baby looks completely unharmed.â
Turning to look at you, still asleep on the bed, Spencer gave Penelope a quick embrace before returning to your bedside, âSweetheart,â he whispered, trying to wake you up from sleep that you still needed. âHoney,â he said, gently cupping your cheek with his hands as your eyes fluttered open.
You hummed groggily, squinting up at him under the fluorescence of the hospital.
âThe babyâs here,â he murmured to you, making sure you didnât jump up at his words. âTheyâre headed up to the NICU for a quick check, and-â
âGo,â you cut him off, your eyes wide and full of tears. âPlease go hold them, Spence,â you cried, voice rough with sleep.
His shoulders slouched forward slightly, looking between you and Penelope in the doorway, âIâll stay here,â Penelope offered immediately. âYou go, Iâll stay.â
You nodded up at him, closing your eyes as he bent forward to press a kiss to your hairline. âI love you,â you breathed, placing a hand on your chest as if it would slow your racing heart.
âI love you too,â he responded before stepping out of the hospital room, following the directions that Penelope had given him in order to get up to the NICU.
Adrenaline made his stomach churn as he approached the NICU, wondering what heâd say to the people there until someone recognized him as The Dad. He still had to scrub his hands, but they let him through until he saw the bassinet. Even more, he saw the tiny baby kicking its legs inside of the acrylic container.
Emily stood by on high alert, ready to pounce on anyone who even looked at the baby funny, and Spencer just couldnât stop staring. âCome here,â one of the NICU nurses said to him, obviously having been brought up to speed on the situation. With a smile on her face, she told him, âItâs a girl.â
âA girl,â he breathed, walking right up to the side of the bassinet.
The nurse nodded and adjusted the hat on her head, just slightly too big for the newbornâs head, âIf you want, we can get you set up in a chair here, and you can give her a bottle.â
âPlease,â he responded, earning another smile from the nurse, who had him take the crying baby in his arms before handing him the prepared bottle.
It broke his heart to watch how quickly she took to the bottle; he still wasnât sure if she had eaten anything until this. He knew the nipple wouldnât let her take in too much at a time, but in his subconscious, he was still worried about it being too much for her.
He rocked gently, âHi, honey,â he cooed down at her.
âSheâs a good eater,â the nurse observes, writing something down on a piece of paper. âWeâll keep an eye on her for just a little while, but we know how badly she needs to get down to her mama.â
Setting the now empty bottle down, Spencer looked up at the nurse, âIs she okay?â
The nurse nodded at his concern, âSheâs on the small size, but sheâs full term. Of course, not everything is going to be noticeable right away, but we did a full newborn exam on her and all of the tests say sheâs a perfectly healthy baby.â She looked on as Spencer gently cupped the babyâs head, âDoes she have a name?â
You and Spencer had made a deal, he would pick a boyâs name, and you would pick a girlâs name. Smiling softly, he murmured her name to her for the first time, âGenevieve,â he answered. A big name for such a small baby, maybe, but it was the name you had chosen.
He started making his way back down to you, feeling like he was floating through the taupe hallways of the hospital before he finally made it back to your room. Penelope excused herself when he emerged in the hallway.
âSpence,â you whispered, looking up at him with hope in your eyes for the first time since you had woken up after surgery.
Smiling at you, he sat on the edge of your bed, âFive pounds and fifteen ounces. Seventeen and a half inches long. Perfectly healthy.â He glanced behind him as he heard the wheels of the bassinet coming toward your room, turning back to watch your reaction as you saw your baby for the first time.
He was glad for his eidetic memory, heâd never want to forget the way your face lit up with recognition, âOh, a girl.â
With the baby settled on your chest, there was nothing better for the two of you to do than watch her sleep. Every once in a while, sheâd coo or squawk and immediately capture your every attention all over again. âHow are you feeling?â Spencer asked you. The blood transfusions had been completed, leaving you on a course of broad-spectrum antibiotics, fluids, and lots of pain medication â two of which prevented you from breastfeeding. Although, because of her size and traumatic birth, the NICU doctor suggested that some formula would help her grow properly.
You hummed contentedly, âTired. I hurt just about everywhere,â you admitted, not taking your eyes off of your newborn. âIâm so⌠just grateful,â you whispered, âIs that odd?â
âNo,â he shook his head, âI know exactly what you mean.â For as terrible and horrifying as the entire ordeal was, it couldâve been much worse. He almost lost both of his girls in one day.
âDoes the team want to meet her?â You asked, worried about entertaining guests with the baby.
Spencer chuckled softly, keeping his index finger pointed within Genevieveâs reach, testing her palmar reflex, âIâm sure they do, but weâll wait and see how you feel tomorrow and revisit. Okay?â
Your head bobbed in confirmation, watching as your daughter very slowly woke up, âHi, Vie,â you greeted her quietly, gently rubbing her back with your fingertips. You didnât have the strength to fully hold her, but she was more than happy to just lay on you, âSweet, sleepy girl.â
âDo you want me to take her, and you can get some sleep?â Spencer offered, noticing the way you were trying to hide a yawn from him. âWe arenât going anywhere, weâll stay right here in this chair,â he reassured you based on the apprehensive look you were giving him.
Slowly, you nodded, helping as best you could and pouting in sympathy when Genevieve â Vie â cried out at the sensation of being moved from her warm spot on her motherâs chest to the warm spot in her fatherâs arms. Thankfully, the newborn calmed down just as soon as Spencer settled her in his arms, âDonât go,â you whispered, letting your eyes fall shut as you allowed sleep to wash over you.
He hummed, âWe wonât,â he muttered in response.
Sleep took you with little resistance, leaving him with Genevieve in the silence of the hospital room â save for all of the machines that you were still hooked up to.
She wouldnât be up for much longer herself â newborns spent most of their day sleeping â so Spencer took his opportunity to watch her eyes wander around the hospital room. âYou can go back to sleep too, little love. Iâll watch over the both of you,â he spoke to her in a reverent tone and adjusted the hat on her head. Â âIâll keep you safe, Vie. No harm will come to you, not as long as Iâm your dad.â
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mae my lovely, can i possibly request emt!marauders and reader who hasnât replied to any texts in a few days/a week? pre-established relationship but not quite living together, and reader struggles with her mental health and has holed herself up in her apartment which worries the boys greatly? please donât write if you feel uncomfortable (and if youâve already written it but iâve devoured emt!marauders today and i donât think you have) obviously!! love you
Thank you for requesting my love! And thanks to @ellecdc for helping me figure out the emt stuff <3
cw: mental health struggles, self isolation
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Siriusâ knuckles rap loudly on your door.Â
âFuck, ease up.â James winces. âSheâs gonna think weâre the cops.âÂ
âGood. Maybe sheâll answer for them.âÂ
âYou need to calm down.â Remusâ voice is patience with a firm edge. âWe donât know whatâs going on. If we go in angry with her, itâs not going to help anything.âÂ
âI think I have the right to be somewhat miffed,â Sirius argues. âYou ghost someone after a first date, not once youâre in a relationship. Itâs fucked.âÂ
âSheâs not ghosting us,â James says certainly. Siriusâ mouth pinches in response.
James knows that, truly, his boyfriend is as worried as any of them. Youâre well past the point in your relationship where you feel the need to establish the next time youâre going to meet before parting, but after your date last week it took the boys a few days to put it together that none of them had heard from you.Â
At first, James presumed youâd simply gotten busy. Remus was convinced heâd done something to upset you. Sirius, secretly the most prone to worry, would rather believe heâs been slighted than consider the possibility that something might be keeping you from responding to their calls. Now that itâs been nearly a week, James is convinced somethingâs happened. Youâve had to take an emergency trip out of town or somethingâs spooked you and made you avoid them orâworst case scenarioâyouâre ill and have been holed up here with no one to check in on you for almost a week.Â
Once he brought up that idea, it wasnât difficult to convince his boyfriends to do a wellness check during their shift.Â
âJust donât be harsh with her,â Remus says gently.Â
Sirius huffs. He knocks again, albeit somewhat softer.Â
âNHS,â he calls.Â
James holds his breath when he hears some shuffling from inside. Gradually, it gets closer and louder, until the door is creaking open and youâre peering through the crack.Â
Your voice is scratchy, like you havenât used it in a while. âWhatâre you doing here?â
James expects Sirius to snipe at you, is already prepared to smooth it over himself with kinder words and a gentler tone, but something seems to shift in the other boy at the sight of you. He pushes through the crack in your door, hugging you fiercely.Â
âWeâŚâ Remus seems as thrown by this deviation as James is. âWe thought we ought to check up on you.âÂ
Your hand migrates up, touching Siriusâ back tentatively. âWhy?â
âItâs a wellness check.â Siriusâ voice is bitter, but the effect is somewhat muddled by how heâs speaking into your neck. âWe had reason to believe you could be harmed or deceased.âÂ
âOh,â you murmur.Â
James takes a moment to look you over. Youâre in pajamas, visibly rumpled, and yet you look as tired as if youâve not slept in some time. Thereâs something off about your expression, something missing that he canât put his finger on. Itâs unsettling in a way that makes him want to wrap you up in a tight cuddle and not let go.Â
âAre you okay?â he asks, perhaps more brash than he means to be. Normally heâd expect more tact from himself, but heâs shocked Sirius hasnât asked yet, and someone has to.
âCan we come in?â Remus asks at the same time.Â
You look between them like youâre not sure what to do with them. Like youâre questioning whether youâre still in some sort of dream.Â
âYeah,â you say after a moment. James gets the sense you mean it to answer both of them. You step back from the door to make room for them, and Sirius moves with you. âUm, forewarning, itâs really bad in here.âÂ
Really bad by your standards isnât the same as Jamesâ. If he hadnât seen the way you normally keep things, heâd never notice anything was amiss. Your place smells a bit stale, like when you leave for a weekend and then come home. Thereâs a laundry basket on the floor with a few balled socks like youâd started to fold them and given up, and if he peers into your bedroom he can see a small trash pile on your floor and the covers of your bed all twisted up. Itâs no worse than his side of the dorm heâd shared with Remus and Sirius in school.Â
âWhat happened?â Sirius asks you. His voice sounds clearer now, and James focuses back in to find that heâs let you go enough to press his forehead to yours. His brow and lips are pinched. âWhy have you been avoiding us?âÂ
James is nearly overcome by the desire to kiss him and rub his back, but he decides to let you have the honor, if you want it.Â
You look unsure whether you do.Â
âIâm sorry.â The words seem scraped out from some aching part of you. âI wasnât trying to.âÂ
âThen why didnât you answer our calls?â Siriusâ tone matches yours for desperation. Remusâ expression twinges compassionately.Â
âI couldnât.âÂ
âWhy not?âÂ
âSirius,â Remus chides softly.Â
Your shoulders are slumped, but when Sirius moves away you seem to droop further. Heâs only giving you space, his expression far from unkind.Â
âWhy couldnât you pick up, dove?â Remus asks gently.Â
âIâŚâ Your eyes meander the floor. âI didnât know what to talk about. And then my phone died, and it was just easier. Iâm really sorry.âÂ
âIs talking to us really that bad?â Sirius is clearly making an attempt at joking, but the heartache underlying his words is unmissable.Â
âNo,â you sigh. âIâm just not really fit for the world right now. I didnât want you to worry.âÂ
Jamesâ ribs hurt at your admission, but he feels himself nodding. Even if he doesnât know exactly what it is youâre dealing with, heâs familiar with people who think theyâre somehow so damaged they donât deserve to engage with anyone or anything. Sirius was like that once. Remus even more often. He sees the recognition on both of their faces now, pity and love and regret all tangled up into one messy thing.Â
âWell, it was a noble effort,â says James, giving you a small smile, âbut you canât stop us worrying. Can I hug you?â
You nod, making an effort towards returning his smile. Itâs a half-hearted, flickering thing, but he appreciates it nonetheless.Â
He kisses your forehead as he folds you into his arms, starting gentle and tightening when you hug him back. Your grip feels a bit weak, if ardent. James pushes his palm up your spine.Â
âHave you eaten today, sweetheart?âÂ
Your hum in the negative vibrates against his skin.Â
âIâll make us something.â Remus starts toward the kitchen, passing a hand over Jamesâ curls as he goes by. âA sandwich alright, dovey?âÂ
âYeah,â you murmur. âThanks.âÂ
âDonât mention it.â His voice raises as he enters the kitchen, and James knows he wants you to hear. To understand that this is something he would happily do for you.Â
âLetâs sit down,â James suggests. âPads, would you mind opening the curtains some?âÂ
Sirius complies with vigor, whipping open your drapes while James gets you situated on the couch. In the light, the shadows under your eyes are more evident, as is the redness in them.Â
James squishes you up against his side. Rubs up and down your arm. âItâs okay,â he murmurs.Â
You make a tiny, stymied sound, and turn your head down.Â
âHey.â Sirius sits on your other side. He kisses your shoulder, worry hewn into the lines of his face. âWhatâs wrong?âÂ
Your shoulders give a little shake. Itâs small, defeated. You curl further in on yourself.Â
âOh, baby. Iâm so sorry.âÂ
âYou donât have to explain,â James tells you, continuing to drag his hand up your arm. âItâs okay. Youâre alright.âÂ
âI wantedââ You take in a wet inhale. He feels close to tears himself. âI wanted to be better when I saw you. Iâm sorry.âÂ
âWe donât need you to be any sort of way, sweetheart.â Siriusâ voice is soft but fervent. âWe just want to be with you.â
âAs much as youâll let us,â James agrees. His own voice is thick, and Sirius slides his arm around you to rub between his shoulders.Â
You donât say much after that. James holds you tight until your trembling stops, and even then he only loosens his grip to let you eat the grilled cheese Remus has made for you. From the wrappers he saw in your room, itâs likely the closest thing to a prepared meal youâve had in some time.Â
When youâre done eating, Sirius insists on kissing the saltiness from your cheeks even though your tears have dried. Remus coaxes you into a bath while James and Sirius tidy your room and change your sheets, and then Remus enlists Sirius to shampoo your hair while he tucks your sheets in more effectively. They put your phone on the charger. James makes dinner and puts it in the fridge for you to have later. None of it fixes anything, but he hopes it makes you feel less alone.Â
When they have to go out for another call, Remus gives you a long hug, James makes you agree to go on a walk with him the next day, and Sirius threatens to pester you with calls until you block his number if you ignore them ever again.Â
Your eye roll at his antics makes Jamesâ heart sing.
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