The tenth chapter of my first long AU fic is now posted on AO3.
Read the 10th chapter here!
I’ve never done that before and for the ambiance I thought about which one could be played (I have 4 songs for now). I’m thinking about doing this on Spotify, even though I don’t really use Spotify, so if you have any advice I’ll take those willingly.
Summary: THEN: Dean got closer to Cas and Cas was the one who initiated the thing. So, it's a win. Charlie asked him if he was in love with Cas.
NOW: Dean and love is a complicated thing. He is not used to say that word concerning people, but he loves pies though. He might be heading that way for Cas too.
The tags: Alternate Universe ; Summer Vacation ; Summer Love ; Feelings ; Pining ; Pining Dean Winchester ; Possibly Unrequited Love ; Fluff ; Light Angst ; Dean Winchester Has Self-Esteem Issues ; Beach Holidays ; Charlie Bradbury & Dean Winchester Friendship ; POV Dean Winchester ; Other Additional Tags to Be Added ; Attempt at Humor ; Alternate Universe - summer holidays ; Poker : Football | Soccer ; Humour ; but like dean's humour ; well kind of mine since I'm writing it so don't judge please : Self-Esteem Issues ; Dean Winchester Has a Crush on Castiel ; Dean Winchester Has Feelings For Castiel ; Jealous Dean Winchester ; Dean Winchester Dreams about Castiel ; Texting ; Trampolines ; Thunder and Lightning
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fwb scara........ modern college au,,, the two of you are paired up for the semester project, so at first you're only meeting for the sake of the coursework. scara would rather do it alone but, seeing as that's not an option, he deigns to trudge through this project with you in the best way he can. despite how bitter and annoying he can be at times, he is quite intelligent. he's just an ass about it. T_T he gripes and groans, but he (begrudgingly) pulls his weight.
you and scara aren't very academically compatible. where he prefers to work alone and without distraction, you procrastinate and party, claiming that these things help "boost your morale." you think scara doesn't have many friends here, but in his mind he's not going to uni to make friends. he's here to get his degree and graduate. yet somehow, for some strange reason, scara (who normally never budges and has no reason to budge for a classmate he hardly knows) allows you to talk him into going to a party.
there has to be some sort of post-nut clarity but for the aftermath of a grueling study session. there's no way he was so exhausted from working on the project that he willingly agreed to accompany you to this upcoming party. orz he must be losing his mind.
and he is because he hooks up with you at that party.
scara can't even blame it on liquid courage. neither can you, even if the both of you were just a little buzzed. perhaps it was the atmosphere? perhaps it was stress? he thinks so because, oddly enough, he feels so peaceful after the fact. as if all it took was a round of sex to momentarily numb the troubles brought on by a group project. weirdly, he doesn't regret it.
scara can't do love. even though he may occasionally contemplate how wonderful it must be, it's a troublesome thing. to love would mean to trust. to be vulnerable. to be open and honest. and not just with himself and his own feelings, but with another person as well. things scara is so unaccustomed to doing and being. but this... this is good. this is just physical. no pesky emotional attachments like love. just lust. just sex. he can do that. besides, once this project is over and the two of you go your separate ways, you'll never have any reasons to continue to meet up. this arrangement might be over by then. who can really say?
but you're both in agreement. managing the stress of this project by having sex... genius. it's great because he doesn't have to commit to anything or open any wounds. none of this means anything. he can fuck stress, annoyance, sadness, and more away. <3
so then why, months into the arrangement and on the cusp of finals, is he feeling much more than he intended? why does he feel so annoyed when you go out to parties without him or when you bring that irritating guy (ajax) along? why does he, who claimed that this was only ever loveless and physical, want it to be more than that? in spite of everything, scara hopes for the one thing he fears.
and he's not used to it.
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*appears in your inbox* HELLO! I have been directly invited to talk about I was a teenage exocolonist!!
I'm rn like halfway through year 18 so I am very close to the end of my first game I am very hyped!!
Thoughts on nomi? They seem sweet but unfortunately all of my social stats are SHIT so I can't really interact with them beyond. Giving them gifts occasionally. Whenever I do a run and work on my social stats I'm def gonna try n be friends with em
Rn my two best friends are cal and tangent, though rex also as high as it can be with my like. 50 engineering and him only being around since year 15 haha
Uhmmm other than that? I am soooo intruiged by what is going on in this game, like I only just got to the ridge when exploring and I'm so mad it's taken this long. Also I think this run has gone so bad oh man I killed tammy age 10 and then we had a famine in which killed flulu, and then got the stuff I needed for the shimmer cure the day before geranium died and I'm so mad I still haven't figured out how to use the stuff I find while surveying to progress plots and agrh I'm mad. And so I'm currently at war with the planet and have no idea what to do about it aha
If u want me to kindof liveblog the ending of my run then 👀 I am sitting patiently in your inbox until I finish the game later today hehehe
RAHHH SCREAMING SORRY THIS TOOK ME SO LONG BUT!!! I JUST GOT A BIT BACK INTO MY EXO CRAZE SO LET'S TALK ABOUT IT :DDD
omg i hope that your first playthrough and second if you've finished it was AMAZING and that you continue to play. because i adore the replayability of this game so much.
NOMIIII yeah it's actually kinda hard to get 100 hearts with the helio kids if that's not your goal
cal and tang are so <33 they're the silliest!!! i love them both and they have such amazing arcs i think. rex is also very cool he makes me happy :)
(nomi and rex forever they're best friends even if they end up dating in some endings <333)
dwdwdw for the deaths, actually do worry they made me cry too, but you can save all three!! there's usually stuff about your past lives to help you, and once you do it the first time it's super easy to keep on doing it. YOU CAN DO IT SAVE THEM ALL!!!
good luck with nature though. not much you can do about that after it happens.
also please ik this is late but please update me about your adventures!!
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Yume!! First off, hi!! It’s been so longggg 😭
I miss you girl! Come talk to me if you need wanna 🩷
Second off, did you ever have to run a mile for a class? Just asking because some of my irl non-American friends didn’t know that lmao
No, I don’t think so.
I hate running, my right hip starts to hurt if I run too much.
Ok- story time with auntie Yume; In elementary, my p.e teacher would make the whole class run/jog around the gym for a certain time and you were allowed to walk, but you had to run/jog and one day she asked why i wasn’t running and I told her it was because my hip hurt because I ran too much and she told me my hip was hurting because I wasn’t running enough. Excuse me? What kind of logic is that? I know damn well my hip was hurting because I ran too much. On a side note, when I run my hip hasn’t recently started to hurt after i run for a while.
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Struggling with fictive identity feels doubly worse when the body is under the weather.
As if my identity problems were not already often agonizing to the point of physicality, now I have to deal with feeling even less like a human being and more like a person-shaped mass of malaise?
Setting down the burden of being Aidel Rayarvol-Spillbaum, of this new identity I have tried to build (much less of being in any way connected to my source) feels less like I am shedding a heavy baggage and more like I am shedding the weight of body parts.
Although...I suppose, out of the entire system, only I would word things in such a melodramatic manner as that, to say nothing of the fact that I am really the only one of us who fusses about capitalizing the initial letters of sentences in informal communications.
All the same, what a lousy birthday.
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that was my first funeral. and i cried. alot
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