#I mean I’m 23 so it’s not that weird or anything but I’ve sort of made it weird by constantly calling my friend a baby because he’s 2 years

[starkidlabs]

I need to get out more and maybe start trying to date again. I keep crushing on any boy that’s nice to me and seems fun which is probably not a good thing.

[dylanisdazed]

so yall know i got an online job. well its online but its also local and today i had to meet with the boss man. he's like 65.

i went in there late cuz i had the kids and stuff so i waited until parker was home to watch his brothers.

so i walk in his office and he closes the door.

he says you drink? you look like you like to party.

i kinda laugh. like idk what this old man means. im 23. yeah i do like to party.

so i say yeah, i like to drink.

he says what do you drink?

i say pretty much anything but i really like bourbon.

he has glee in his face. "BOURBON! my boy! that's a man drink. that's awesome, it'll put hair on your chest! I've got bourbons I'm sure you've never had."

so he tells me to sit down. he pours half a glass of bourbon in the office. i drink it with him. then he pours another. he asks about my major and my life and i tell him about adam...

he's been married to a woman for 40 years and they have 3 children.

He talks about being a teen in the late 70’s/early 80’s. Honestly the conversation wasn’t too bad but as he talks about all the exploring he did…with marijuana, other drugs…and sex…he shifted his eyes and was staring into my soul.

Then without asking he pours a third drink. And moves over closer to me. I should have just said I didn’t want anymore but there really is something to the whole power dynamic that I just drank it. I felt so uncomfortable. I’m alone with him in his office and he’s got the door closed (no one else was at the office it was 6 pm) and I’m drinking a third glass of bourbon with this guy.

He watches me sipping the bourbon and says “I have to say, you’re a beautiful boy” normally I would be flattered hearing that and I just can’t describe why but it’s like I instantly felt how millions of girls must feel everyday when an old man in power is trying to take advantage of me. But I’m also polite and southern and idk so I smiled and said thank you and to help my nerves finished the drink.

He goes “you must really be a good time Dylan, you can hold your alcohol. I’m gonna have to use this whole bottle on you”

And that’s when I really felt weird and scared. Not to mention I had accidentally left my cell phone in my Jeep.

I sorta laughed and said I’ve got to drive home and I have eaten much today. He goes “Come on we’re just getting started”

I say I really need to go, my kids are waiting on dinner and he replies “you’re just a boy yourself, it’s interesting hearing you say your kids. It makes you even sexier.”

I laugh and say thanks but I need to go. I started to stand up and he put his large hand on my thigh (he’s like 6’5) and sort of held me down.

He said “you’ve got to have at least one more drink with me, an ending drink.” I just felt kinda helpless and didn’t have my phone and I was getting pretty drunk at this point so I said okay. He said “good boy”

He pours a last and stronger drink. I sip it as he stares into my soul and talks about how his wife is in Arizona and he’s pretty lonely and reminiscing on his youth and fun sexual explorations. He put his hand back on my thigh and started rubbing up towards my cock. I feel kinda dumb because I just sat there. I was scared and shocked and drunk.

He told me I had a pretty mouth and began unzipping his pants.

Then. THANK GOD. His office phone rang. He looked defeated. He picks up and I hear his wife. “Why are you still at the office? Your phone pinged you at the office.”

“Yeah honey, I’m just finishing up reports, I’m in no hurry with you out of town.” Blah blah blah

I finish my drink. Stand up and head to the door. I wanted to get out of there while he was still on the phone because I could tell he wouldn’t stop me or say my name while his wife was on the phone. I just turn around and do a wave and pretty much bolt to my Jeep.

I start driving immediately, wanting to get away from him. Then I start bawling. Nothing even really happened and maybe I’m just over dramatic or more innocent than I thought but I felt dirty and scared 😭😭

I’m driving drunk and crying and I called my mom. She tells me to tell Adam and so I do but when I get home Adam is waiting for me and consoles me but…he’s the most calm, gentle hearted person I know and he’s like homicidal angry.

“GIVE ME HIS NAME. IM GONNA KILL THE MOTHER FUCKER”

I’m like no ur not gonna do anything like that…

He’s like I’m waiting outside that office and I’m gonna kill him.

😭 it was kind of scary but also very heartwarming and sorta hot seeing him that way 😂

Anyway……. I’m sorry for the long and poorly written story.

I’m okay and we’re taking care of the matter and Adam is also okay and didn’t kill anyone 😂💚

Thanks for the love and concern.

It’s been hard the last few days because I keep thinking about it and wondering what would have happened if his wife hadn’t called. I can’t help it, but my body starts to shake violently when I think of it. I’m shaking now writing all this. 😭😭

But just know overall I’m okay and things are being handled. 💚💚

I’m not gonna talk about this again, at least not for a long time because it scares me.

Please don’t ask me questions about it. 💚💚 I felt like I owed an explanation though and I appreciate all the concern and well wishes.

Now back to fun Dylie!!!

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for being mad that my girlfriend broke up with me?

So I (23 M) got with my ex (23 F) about 5 months ago— we met through a college program, and really hit it off! It was just friends at first but I pretty quickly caught feelings, because she was just so down to Earth with me I really felt like I could spend forever with her. I wasn’t gonna say anything yet, because I felt like we hadn’t really known each other for that long. But then, some stuff happened in my city (don’t worry we’re fine), and thanks to that we didnt meet up for a good while. I ended up finding out she went to the next city over to escape a bunch of riots (I don’t blame her) so I drove out to make sure she was okay. Which she was!

I took her back home after telling her about what she missed— she was originally going to go to her parents house, but with some convincing on my end she agreed to go back. After such a long couple of days, I realized she always made me feel safe and comforted in ways no one else could. So I confessed to her, which she accepted, and we started dating! It was really nice, and super romantic. I felt like I found the perfect person and I thought she did the same.

But less than a month or so into the relationship, she completely turned on me! Getting mad about how I moved on from the previously mentioned from the crazy stuff happening in my city, yelling about her living in my house now, and not wanting to date anymore. It was like she completely forgot our friendship and relationship all. And I tried helping her get back to where she was, and sometimes she’d wake up like her anger had never happened, but after a few days it wouldn’t stick and I’ve given up on trying to make her remember anything. At first she was sort of OK with dating but it quickly turned into a on-again, off-again thingy.

She constantly complains about things— she complains mostly about my hobbies (I’m really into gardening and botany, which she says is “weird”, and I don’t know what she means by that…?), and she also complains about our neighbor, who I’m on really good terms with (apparently my ex and my neighbor (41 F) had bad blood in the past, but I had no clue!!!) In fact, she complains about my other friends (23 F and 22 NB), saying that the former is a “self-absorbed prick” and the latter got “brainwashed” by me after we became friendly. I feel like I can’t spend time with my ex around my other friends anymore or even mention them because of how vocal her anger is.

She claims to have constant nightmares and blames them on our negative relationship, and I was getting really fed up with it because she just lashes out in anger instead of talking ANYTHING out with me. We got into an argument recently, and because I was so angry I had told her that I didn’t like her now and I wished she went back to how she was when we first started dating. She was really hurt, and I didn’t mean to hurt her that way, but she ran off before I could apologize. It’s been days and she still hasn’t come home, but she texted me and told me we’re through (if it wasn’t clear enough). I’m pretty frustrated she has just been lashing out at everything and not communicating with me. It makes me feel shitty and I don’t get why she acts like this.

I’m afraid I’m being a dick for being mad she left without ever talking things out, but I wish she gave us a proper chance! So AITA??

What are these acronyms?

[altschmerzes]

if anyone has cats they would like to send me pics of i would appreciate that a lot i am having a very very fucking weird one right now and don’t really know what to do with myself.

the short version is: my dad died today. the long version is..... probably an absolutely ridiculous overshare but. like i said. don’t know what to do with myself so i’m just. idk im talking out loud i guess, putting this Somewhere. it’s. heavy, sorry.

so the post i made recently celebrating seven years going no-contact with my abusive father who kind of ruined my life in a lot of really serious ways i am likely never really going to completely recover from? yeah. he had a stroke earlier this year that sounded like it was pretty serious and that was a lot to process and then i just got the call from my mom that he had a heart attack while fishing with a friend this afternoon and died. apparently it was fast, which is good. he was fifty-five and i guess he’d just hit two years sober.

my mom sounded really upset on the phone, and i guess she’d only found out less than ten minutes before she called me, she just told my sister, who lives with her, and my sister went off to take a shower (read: have a breakdown in the shower), and then called me immediately and said “your dad died” as soon as i answered with a hey, what’s up. they’d been divorced for twenty years and he was a fucking bastard but i guess your ex-husband and your kids’ dad who you’ve recently been reconnecting with and spending time with again dies and you’re probably gonna have some strong feelings about it. my sister is in pieces, they’d reconnected and were spending a lot more time together. in their text they said ‘i barely got any time with him and i’m fucking heartbroken’.

and because he has no other living relatives my 23 year old sister who is uh, in a fragile state on the best of days, is gonna have to deal with all of the paperwork and shit that happens when someone dies. and my sister and i’s relationship is like.... it’s complicated, to put it politely, they are very hard for me to be around for a lot of reasons, but i wouldn’t wish that on them and i wish i was able to take on that stuff if only because i’m almost through law school and i’m the least emotionally invested in the man and it just would be easier for everyone if i did the paperwork and whatever.

and then there’s my brother, because i have a brother, who i barely talk about because it hurts to think about him. he’s nine years older than me and he’s my half-brother by my dad and after my dad went to prison on drug charges i didn’t see him for thirteen years. and then a long time after a brief visit too. he’s got two kids now, and for a while there we were in sporadic contact, but i haven’t seen or heard from him since i was maybe nineteen. and my mom was just kind of rambling on the phone about how she had to find my brother’s mother’s contact information because someone had to tell him and because i’m all the way out here and i can’t DO anything else i told her i’d find her and tell her what happened and get everyone’s contact information for whatever’s coming next so. now i’ve texted my brother, who is a living wound in my life, for the first time in like six years. he hasn’t answered yet and according to his mother he’s ‘devastated.’ so.

i’m not. i’m not devastated. i don’t know what i feel honestly. once i tracked her down on facebook and dealt with all of that i just sort of sat at the kitchen table and stared at the wall for a long time. listened to the mountain goats song ‘pale green things’ and drifted in a weird numb void. i’m not.... sad. not about him anyway. i don’t know what i am. i have a very difficult time articulating my feelings on a good day, fuck i mean i have a hard time identifying my feelings on a good day. some combination of autism and cptsd and the sense that if i have feelings someone is going to die, maybe me, maybe someone else. if i have feelings, i get someone killed, is the thought process, which is a long story but. is extremely hard to work around, especially when i don’t see the point because taking active steps to make my feelings known and make them something someone else has to deal with is like. what’s the point. why do that.

so i don’t know what i feel. i feel strange and distant and not-sad and kind of angry at my sister and brother for some fucking reason and guilty and resentful and relieved. there’s some relief in there i think, because it’s like. i don’t know. i had the thought earlier, ‘oh thank gd’ which is. it sounds heinous but i now i’ll never have to choose between attending my sister’s wedding and not having to see him there, if i go back to my hometown and feel like there’s a monster stalking me from the shadows i can just tell myself the fucking monster’s fucking dead and he can’t ever hurt me again. nobody in my family is ever going to be able to pressure me to just talk to him already, just move on and let it go. reconcile, forgive, get past it.

(i don’t know how much any of them know. i have never discussed this with my parents or my sister and i never plan to. we’ve talked about some things in vague euphemisms and talked around it even more. when he got out of prison and then when he was done stalking us which he did for a while and got some help i guess and was doing a bit better my sister wanted to reconnect with him and i didn’t. i had panic attacks, i was terrified, i didn’t want anything to do with him and i didn’t want my sister anywhere near him and i remember all my mom had to say to me about that was ‘if it makes you feel any better, i could take him.’ i don’t know what to... i just don’t know.)

i dunno. i don’t know. when i visited my hometown and stayed at my parents’ house (my grandmother’s house, when i say ‘parents’ i mean her and my mom generally) i slept with a knife on my bedside table and a plan of how to get out the window because i’d heard that he’d started dropping by sometimes and i was too scared to sleep otherwise. he terrorized me. i have very few memories from before he went to prison and most of them are of being terrified for my life. of being chased through the house, staying above the garage because for some reason we couldn’t be in the house that night. sexual abuse that i can still barely handle thinking about. he haunts my nightmares regularly, even though i haven’t seen or spoken to him in seven years, didn’t see or talk to him very often before that. i have panic attacks in my sleep dreaming about him, enough that i have to be medicated for it.

he’s a person who was deeply troubled and sick and suffered unimaginably in his life and it’s just.... i know all of that and i just. i don’t know. i hope he’s at peace i guess. i know he never was when he was alive. i know i’m not at peace most of the time, largely because of the shit he did to me. i don’t know. i don’t know. my dad’s dead.

[iwannawritelots]

BE: Aesthetically Pleasing

Originally written May 2023

AO3 - I usually post here first!

Part 1 Part

Human AU Masterlist

Characters Active: Simeon (23), Asmodeus (16), Satan (1)

Ship(s): pre-established Simeon/Barbatos

Trigger/content warnings: none

Headcanons/notes from the author: hehe…

Brief Blurb: Simeon can’t get their mind off of the pretty goth that keeps showing up at work.

Taglist: @graveswrites

“Simeon, is everything okay?”

The person in question snapped out of their trance, giving Asmodeus their full attention. “Whatever do you mean?”

“You’re twirling your hair around your finger and spacing out. I don’t think I’ve ever seen you do that before.” Asmodeus rubbed Satan’s back when he began to whine, and resumed bouncing him on her hip.

Simeon quickly took their hand away from their hair, face growing hot as they began to feel silly about it. “I… haven’t really had my hair this long before, so that’s probably why. Sorry.”

Tilting her head, Asmodeus asked, “Wait, why are you sorry?”

“I… don’t know. I thought maybe you were pointing it out because it was bad.”

“No, of course not.” Asmodeus waved away the thought, then quickly returned her hand to Satan’s back to soothe him. “I thought maybe something was wrong since you are so spacey.”

“Nothing’s wrong.”

After a moment of quiet, Asmodeus asked, “Then… what is it?”

Simeon snorted and shook their head. “You’re nosey.” They glanced at the pot on the stove, then added, “I guess it wouldn’t hurt to tell you, but you can’t tell Lucifer.”

“Ooh, keeping secrets from Luci?”

Rolling their eyes, Simeon told them, “Sure.” Asmodeus switched the hip Satan was resting on, then leaned against the counter. Suddenly more nervous, Simeon began to fiddle with their hair again. “That wealthy regular brought a friend with him yesterday.”

“Oh…?”

“Yeah. A really… intimidating and pretty goth person. They were really aesthetically pleasing, so I’ve been thinking about them a lot.” Simeon huffed and crossed their arms. “Then he brought them with him again today too. The beautiful goth is just… so polite, too.” They shifted their weight and averted their gaze, realizing how weird it probably sounded when they talked about it. “I dunno why I’m so infatuated. It’s strange.”

Asmodeus giggled and shrugged. “Knowing you, it’s probably not going to become anything romantic. Maybe you just have a squish.”

“Probably.” Simeon sighed and stared off for a moment. “They’re so pretty. I really don’t want to stare at them like some sort of weirdo, but just…”

“Yeah, that’s how I feel about Solomon.” Asmodeus rolled her eyes when Satan screeched with protest at her taking her hand away for a second to push her hair out of her face. “I mean, I doubt you’re being creepy on purpose, if at all, but you tend to be pretty obviously nervous when someone is attractive to you.”

Simeon frowned and turned away to focus on the food they were cooking. "I do not."

“Uh huh. And I don’t go to parties.” Asmodeus walked to the dining table and set Satan in the high chair, sighing when he shrieked and sobbed with displeasure. “I hope you try to befriend this person. They obviously interest you.”

Flustered, Simeon told them, “Th-That’s probably unlikely, since it’s an employee-customer situation.”

“If you say so,” Asmodeus sang out, petting Satan’s hair. The baby simmered down a bit from his fit, crying turning into sniffles. “Do you think Satan will calm down if I give him some crackers?”

“Maybe.” Simeon left the stove for a moment to dig around in the snack cupboard. “Does he still like the strawberry ones?”

“Yeah.”

Simeon passed the crackers over to Asmodeus and returned to their cooking. They couldn’t help wondering if she was right… As they stirred the food and stared into nothing, Simeon thought maybe it wouldn’t hurt to seek friendship from the pretty goth.

[joonberriess]

okay so, I’ve never fingered myself I’ve only ever had an orgasm through clitoral stimulation. Idk I’ve just never tried it, im still a virgin because although there’s a roster of guys that wanna fuck I just don’t want to. I’m not that naive that I think that my first time will be all sweet & romantic like the movies (at the same time im a firm believer of if he wanted to .. he would) but I just want to have romantic feelings for the guy I choose to have sex with yk? I feel like I’ve waited too long to just give it up to a random yet at the same time sometimes I do have the urge to do just that bcs im 23 & I feel like it’d be so awkward to meet a guy at my age & be like yeah im a virgin. I’m not cocky at all but I know im not ugly, so when I confide in the few people & tell them im still a virgin .. they look at me like im lying or somethings wrong with me. I literally did not mean to go into that much detail but I feel like some background would be good to my actual question😭so today I was masturbating (only rubbing my clit) & im wet obvi💀 & I know it sounds like a lie but my finger sorta just went there & I was shocked because I’ve never had that happen. So then I move away but then I go back bcs im a curious little shit so I go in like a knuckle deep & I was feeling around & im just there like okay this is new 😵‍💫 I managed to get my middle finger in & sort of feel around .. then im like shit im already here so I start thrusting my middle finger in but tbh it didn’t feel that great?? I have pretty small fingers & I’ve never had anything inside of me before, this was literally my first time so idk if im doing it wrong or is this normal?? I tried to go as far as I can go & I stopped as soon as I felt some uncomfortable pressure. Idk why but I expected that this would be the moment I squirt bcs I’ve never squirted before but after I cum I always have this urge to go pee (im a rookie but I’ve always thought that meant you could squirt pls bare with me) I do get creamy sometimes idk if that puts me under the category of a creamer or if that’s only determined through sex with actual penetration AJDHDHRK im so glad for anon I sound like such a fucking dweeb💀💀 this was very detailed so pls ignore if you feel uncomfy I just remembered that time everyone had girl talk & it felt like a safe space & I thought I’d ask for some advice. Idk if it felt weird bcs it was my first time doing that, I did it wrong? Or maybe it’s just not for me

aaaaa it actually just depends tbh, some people may not enjoy penetration and others do. it’s nothing wrong with you or anything, just try again next time and take things slow. try buying lube it could help who knows? ofc it’s only ur first time so ofc it isn’t gonna come out like perfect or anything but take the time to get to know ur body as u explore new things!

[roguewallenthusiast]

Second blog masterpost

So I’m finally using the second blog for something, my main has cemented itself as the fandom chaos blog so here’s where I’m gonna post more personal stuff like my art and fursuiting pics

Main blog: @snackhouse

Other stuff:

Also keeping this place way more organized with tags so here’s the main ones you’ll be seeing and what they mean

#snackary’s mind random thoughts and personal posts

#fursuiting fursuit pics and videos

#reblogs from main posts from the main blog

#friend art!! art by my friends!

#fandom containment breach fandom posts from the main fandom blog that ended up here anyway

#art commissions art I’ve commissioned

#oodles of doodles my own art

#buggy bois pictures of bugs

#my leggy babies pictures of my bugs

#misc reblogs random things I reblog

#obligatory cicada repost posts about cicadas that I’m legally required to reblog because I’m The Cicada Furry

Various character tags posts with those characters in them, can be art, fursuits or lore info. Example: #imago the cicada

I’ll probably add more as time goes on so keep an eye out here

Warnings:

I raise, keep, and work with insects, arachnids and other creepy crawlies. While all bugs posts are tagged please be aware you will see animals like spiders, centipedes, scorpions and cockroaches on this blog!

While I never make/reblog anything more then (very) mildly suggestive stuff in regards to sexual stuff, I’m a big fan of things like body horror and sometimes include it in my art.

DNI

This should go without saying but this is a TERF and nazi free space, this blog is run by a queer Jewish woman with no tolerance for bigotry. This is non negotiable, hate is not welcome here.

People who say stuff like “ew squish it” or “kill it with fire” on pictures of people’s bugs. It’s completely fine to be uncomfortable/have a phobia of bugs and creepy crawlies. This is NOT an excuse to joke about killing people’s pets. Most of the bugs I post here are the animals I personally keep and raise, they are my babies and joking about harming them will not be tolerated. I will happily educate people about these animals or help people with their fears but please be respectful.

People who hate on furries. You are not funny, grow up.

DO NOT FLIRT OR MAKE SEXUAL COMMENTS ABOUT ME EVEN AS A JOKE!! I’m a sex repulsed aromantic asexual and I’m NOT comfortable with any sort of sexual/romantic advances! Please respect my identity.

A little about me!

Hello! I’m SnackHouse but you can also call me Snack, Snackary, AJ or by any of my sonas! I do not use my real name online.

My main sonas is Marianas the sea monster and Leah the cockatrice. Peʁes the bearded vulture and Imago the cicada are also sonas.

My pronouns are she/her/hers

I’m a 23 year old aroace jewish woman from Colorado who’s very active in the local fursuiting scene.

I’m a writer who’s spent the last decade building a massive world in my mind that I someday hope to share!

I’m a newbie fursuit maker who someday hopes to do commissions, specializing in weird and uncommon species.

I work with both birds and bugs! Keeping chickens, finches and all kinds of insects and arachnids.

I’m most well known for my primary fursuit, Imago the cicada, I have yet to encounter another cicada fursuiter and I heavily encourage anyone who’s interested to make/get bug suits and join the small but tight-knit ranks of bug furries!

[reasonablerodents]

Who even is this guy?

I’m reasonablerodents, hotchreid truther and general purveyor of depravity. You can call me whatever you like as long as it sounds cool.

I basically only write pure pwp because apparently I’m unhinged about these guys. So if you’re under 18 then this is your warning: there is truly nothing for you here, I implore you to leave.

Basic Info

-23

-He/Him

-Writer seems too fancy for the things which spew from my hands but I write shit I guess

-Please talk to me about my favourite fictional fbi men/send ideas and requests/shout at me for corrupting the internet idk <3

-You can find me on Ao3 here!

-Drabble request event post here!

Writing stuff and tags under the cut!

Tags

#he squeaks- posts I���ve made

#asks- unsuprisingly, asks

#puppy my love my life- puppy spencer content

#my fic- what it says on the tin

#my art- you’re never gonna guess what this is

#unreasonablerodents- hard kink/dead dove/etc so you can blacklist it easily. or find it all in one place lmao

Feel free to request mini fics/blurbs if you have a hotchreid idea on your mind! If you’re here I assume you already know the sort of things I like writing, but I’ve put some things I will absolutely write and things I won’t at the bottom if you’d like to check!

Over half my writing is mean Hotch bc it’s fun, so uhhh… always remember to check the tags bc sometimes it gets weird. Sorry Spencer I love you really xxx

I’m working on making a fic masterlist over here but I’m lazy. For now, here are the links to my kinktober weekly roundups:

Week 1

Week 2

Week 3

Week 4 (TBA)

Things You Will See Me Writing: PWP, mean Hotch, A/B/O, dom/sub, most kinks tbh, emotional whump via smut, soft silly established relationship fluff, trans characters (my love my life <3)

Things You Will Not See Me Writing: Pregnancy (including in A/B/O), underage anything, SH, reader x fics, dom/top Spencer, parenting/raising kids, heterosexuality, p much any other ship unless it’s background/past

(If you’re looking at this because of my 100k words request post- I will write other ships for that! Check the post for more detail <3)

(None of these are explicitly triggers for me but I either feel uncomfortable writing them or I have 0 interest in writing them.)

[talenlee]

Decemberween ’23 — The New Music From This Year

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How do you listen to new music?

I understand it’s really common for most people to listen to music in their cars or using systems like Spotify, which I don’t like and don’t drive. That’s right, I don’t like cars and I don’t drive Spotify. I listen to podcasts when I travel, usually, and I listen to music while I work at my computer, because I want something that affects my mood while I’m doing, like, this work.

Frustratingly, just because it’s usually there and ad-free, I let Youtube throw mixes at me. Then when I’ve noticed I’ve done that enough that some songs are part of my personal lexicon, I go and acquire those songs some other way, whether bandcamp (in the case of small bands) or

I want to nakedly recommend an mp3 collection to you. You don’t need special software to manage it. You can just dump all your music in a great big heap and use the search function on any mp3 player you like to find the songs you want. You have paid for music, you have paid for the right to use it in different forms, spotify subscriptions are not paying artists and they are rent-seeking on things you can buy directly, or in many cases have already bought.

Anyway, here’s the stuff that I added to my mp3 collection this year.

The Lads are a Christian band from New Zealand I listened to as a kid. I re-found them on Youtube this year. They’d had a song that stuck in my head, an idea that I’ve been trying to stick to, which is if you need a reason to make a change in your life, anything will do. Why not make a big change on Arbor Day, a day you probably had no idea was a day on your calendar?

Arbor Day - The Lads // Arbor Day

Watch this video on YouTube

I mean this isn’t amazing music, but I like having it on hand, you know? The detritus of what we are. Not all of us were influenced by absolute bangers. Sometimes the idea that ���you can make changes to your life for any given arbitary reason’ is a good thing and it doesn’t matter that much that I got it from a band of dorks who moved to Nashville to sing songs to megachurch kids (which is their spot now).

Sub-Radio - Stacy's Dad (Full Video)

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Next up, a parody song. Stacy’s Mom is a banger of a song about having a crush on an older woman (and the song doesn’t, like, go anywhere with it). Then we get a delightful genderswapped version here, which I hesitate to call a ‘parody’? It’s the same song, basically, it’s just a different orientation with the same comedy bent.

One thing I do find a little awkward is, now I’m starting on being ‘in my forties’ (man that feels weird to say), hearing someone talk about ‘is he learning about the Civil War’ like – so what?! So what if that’s a thing that interests me!? How did I get read like that?

AJJ - "Brave As A Noun & Survival Song" (KVRX Library Session)

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The band Andrew Jackson Jihad, for, perhaps sensibly obvious reasons, changed their name recently. This meant they made an announcement on Youtube at some point and I noticed that (‘AJJ on their name announcement?’ what did AJJ mean?) and that meant I listened to some of their music, annnnnd I like it! I’m told they make Folk Punk, which sounds to me like nonsense but I also am firmly of the opinion that there’s nothing quite so punk as making very specific categorisations that everyone around you must adhere to, right?

BANG! - Last Life AMV

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Thanks to the Last Life Youtube series of Minecraft Hardcore Lets Plays –

What are you laughing at –

I wound up listening to some cool music that was made as part of animatics by cool fans of the series, too. And while sometimes that meant learning about something cool like the band AJR (who are not the same thing as AJJ, thanks file sorting),

Curses - Last Life Animation

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Or something interestingly indie and creepily jazzy, like The Crane Wives (and I’m sure I’ve shared this before, surely it was in my list of new music last year),

W.I.T.C.H | Double Life SMP

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Or maybe even something else normal people like like Devon Cole’s WITCH, it did also mean I wound up appreciating a song…

Sharks | Life Series Animatic

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By Imagine Dragons of all people.

Animatics are great. They recontextualise songs and the recontextualisation means that now I have a story for these songs to be about and not just, like, Imagine Dragons’ latest car ad.

The Killers - A Pirate Looks At Forty (Jimmy Buffett Cover) HQ

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I think I shared this earlier this year too, but it’s the Killers cover of A Pirate Looks At Forty. I may be a bit overly maudlin about anything to do with Jimmy Buffett this year, since this is now the point at which I know that he’s had to leave the party.

Yofukashino Uta

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Also, this year I listened to a bunch of Anime OPs, because I was watching more anime this year. And the anime this year that I liked just happened to have OPs that I think are great, so I added them to my list. In the vein of ‘sounds like just cool music you might seem international and interesting for listening to,’ there’s the band Creepy Nuts! They do Japanese hiphop and, in addition to the songs from the Call of the Night anime soundtrack, you should also check out Song for the Prodigies.

Summer Time Render - Opening | FULL HD [1080p]

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The opening of Summer Time Render sounds to me like jangly folk rock? I think people call it College Rock? Problem here is I don’t even know this song’s name. It’s just The Opening To Summer Time Render, which is my favourite anime of the year, like it just absolutely whips ass, so I hear this song and I remember how that show makes me feel, from its first embarrassing opening of boobs and butts to its astoundingly sweet conclusion.

"Mobile Suit Gundam the Witch from Mercury" Textless version of opening "The Blessing" by YOASOBI

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The opening to Witch from Mercury has a similar effect, but I really like the way it has this, like, descending step effect? The staggering of it, it sings like dancing, and I love the way it feels like it’s responding to its own anxieties.

I have no idea what this song is saying.

TVアニメ『リコリス・リコイル』ノンテロップOPムービー｜ClariS「ALIVE」

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I think that the opening and ending of Lycoris Recoil whip ass. There’s this thing the opening does which I think anime openings love doing, which is this sort of crooning that turns into a high, wide arc and then abruptly stops and regathers its footing?

Paripi Koumei Ep5 ED

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Perhaps obviously, Ya Boy Kongming, an anime about music in Shibuya District, has nothing but bangers in its soundtrack. Everything, even the song by the Evil Bad Band That Sucks are good, but I especially like this cover of Kibun Jojo for the ending that adds instrumentation and a rap verse as the series progresses.

Shikimori's Not Just a Cutie - Opening | Honey Jet Coaster

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On the other hand, Honey Jet Coaster is just… like, energetic sugary pop music, it feels completely artificial and I have no reason to recommend it. Much like everything to do with Shikimori’s Not Just A Cutie you kinda have to get something out of it on a very superficial level, because there is nothing going on here.

(That’s a lie, the song is voiced as if it’s a boyfriend singing about Shikimori, but the vocalist is a woman who sounds like Shikimori, and it describes how Shikimori is a ‘better boyfriend than him’ but you know, so what.)

The Truck Got Stuck - Corb Lund

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Now a hard swerve from songs I absolutely cannot sing to songs I absolutely can. I learned about Corb Lund this year! He’s a Canadian country musician, who I learned about after a comedian who appeared on Behind The Bastards told a story about how one time, a racist on a neo nazi website reviewed his set he did opening for Corb Lund, and was so upset he realised that Corb Lund might not be racist enough for him.

Anyway, truck got stuck.

Roll Northumbria (Loud Version)

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Continuing Canadian songs I can sing along to, The Dreadnoughts dropped an album late last year, lot of good songs but especially good is this version of Roll Northumbria, which is a song I already liked, but this time rendered as a big loud stomping song.

Sidle Up

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Also, something that a lot of bands I like have in common is how good they get when they say, turn forty and stop carrying around a focus on high school. That’s what happened to the Littlest Man Band, which is actually a spinoff band from Reel Big Fish, a 90s Ska Band One And A Half Hit Wonder. I have liked Reel Big Fish all through the years, but on a few tracks, as a gag, they let their member Scott Klopfenstein just do a wholly soulful rendition of a totally different style.

And uh, then he went and made his own band that just does those songs and they’re great.

blink-182 - ONE MORE TIME (Official Video)

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Talking about things from the 90s that got better as they matured, Blink 182 have a single this year. Apparently it’s part of an album I have no interest in listening to, but this single, on its own, phew. Just fantastic vibes and a real improvement on their baseline sound. It’s Blink 182, but with just a lot more musical competence and fewer mangled half-rhymes.

I thought after I was done with single paragraph summaries I’d go back through the article and bulk it out with more details, to get up to the word count I wanted. Turns out I’m at one and a half times my word count, oops!

Check it out on PRESS.exe to see it with images and links!

#Decemberween2023

[stiricidewrites]

The Damage You Do: ch 23, pt 6

Hey look! I finally got to the yoga part of the arc named "I don't think this is a legit yoga pose" after like... tens of thousands of words...

Anyways, I decided to keep this as the same chapter, it'll just end up being super long. Also, the next week or two of updates will be shorter, because I have yoga regrets. So. Much. Research. And trying to make sure I'm describing movements in a sensical way ._.

It has been a time.

I did my best with describing the poses and using the proper terms, but I'm not promising I didn't mess anything up!

Enjoy!

Previously

~

“Have you done yoga before?” his dom asked, somehow managing to grab them both mats without releasing his hand.

“Huh?” wwx asked, watching that huge hand manhandle the mats. “What? Oh, uh… a bit? I had a friend who was into it when we were teens?” nhs had been ridiculously into it, actually. Still was, as far as wwx knew. He wouldn’t be surprised if the little pimp was able to do all the fancy moves… positions? He felt like there was an actual word for them? What was it…

lwj’s hand tightened around his for a moment, drawing wwx’s eyes to their clasped hands. His were tiny, compared to his dom's. Cute and petite. They would be almost girly, if he took care of them. He didn’t. Even just a few days after his mani-pedi they were already in need of some love. Broken nails and cuticles he’d ripped off. Calluses and a weird dry spot on the top of one. He supposed that taking care of his hands was technically part of his job now. lwj obviously wouldn’t want to be groped by someone who didn’t have baby soft skin everywhere! He had the money now, so maybe he should make himself an appointment?

“So, I guess I have a little experience? I might fall over, though, just so you know.” He smiled down at his dom as the man arranged their mats. “But, I mean, if you do this often, I’m gonna suck in comparison… What were you doing, before I arrived, I mean?”

“I have a standard morning routine.”

“Oh?” wwx had never had a routine. They gave him hives—not that Wen Qing believed him when he said so. More, he just got itchy inside? Which was totally hives adjacent, if you asked him. It was like all the monotony of the routine was rotting his insides. He had a bit of a schedule now, with his kid, but he was always throwing in whatever spontaneity he could. Even then, his schedule wasn’t his, it was A-Yuan’s, and that alone was enough to calm his twitchy brain down. To make it chill and enjoy the randomness of the things he could control.

lwj hummed, listing off his routine. Get up. Weigh himself. Get dressed. Drink some sort of fancy, healthy green juice. Go for a short run. Exercise his brain—that one wwx was interested in, and the first few minutes of their exercise comprised of lwj listing off the puzzles he played every morning as they relaxed into the mat and opened up their chest… or had the other man said back? Hips? wwx had already lost track.

“I eat breakfast after that. Sometimes, I plan my day, other times I go straight into exercise. The exercise varies day to day. Today, I was doing calisthenics.”

“So—” wwx broke off in a groan as his Cat-Cowed himself, back rounding and arching as he moved. Fucking hell did that feel good. He didn’t stretch nearly enough, man. “So, in other words, I’ve completely messed up your schedule, Mr. Lan?”

The man hummed as he pushed himself gracefully up, motioning for wwx to stay down. “It is fine,” he said as he leaned over his body, positioning his arms and legs, his hands and feet, into a slightly different configuration. “Flatten your hands. Balance your weight equally between your limbs.”

“Alright,” wwx squeaked as he tried to flatten out his palms, tried to ignore lwj’s weight hovering over him. They wanted to resist, his fingers slowly dragging upwards before he had to remind them to stay on the fucking mat.

[marksarmel]

What I’ve been consuming 02/28/23

Winter refuses to let us go so we refuse to let go of our remotes! Pull up your quilted blanket dear reader and cuddle up for another episode of What I’ve Been Consuming.

TV:

The Last of Us - Boy oh boy oh boy! This show is just delivering in every sort of way. Episode 7 is another excellent episode, but a somewhat quieter one. While  it doesn't share the wild emotional swings of fear and sadness as Episode 5 it still manages to strike a powerful chord. Young love is hard to capture in a realistic way, but the show creators as they’ve shown before, are more than capable of building out a strong relationship in a short amount of time. Ellie and Riley are both navigating a friendship that may be growing into something more and the fear and hope and yearning that comes along with this is so deftly handled by both actors that it almost makes me yearn for that time again. (Can I skip the heartbreak though?) As most game players know this romance will never see a natural end, but it’s the journey that matters most here. Quit reading what I’m writing and just go watch it.

Deadwood - I’m finally getting back to rewatching/finishing this series. I had started watching it years ago when it was originally airing, but never finished it. Then I tried to watch it again when the movie was coming out, but I was once again unable to. After recently finishing Episode 8 of Season 1 I finally feel like I’m on a roll here. This show is such a fully realized and unvarnished Western that it quite possibly erases any romanticism about the Wild West. That time was dirty, merciless and filled with more cursing than a high school bathroom. Deadwood is not a nice place to live and I barely want to visit, but seeing how there is a small spark of soot-covered goodness here, I’ll pop my head in just to see who survives and what’s left of their moral fortitude once the dust has settled.

One-Punch Man - I recently finished up Season 1 and found myself pleasantly enthralled by the eponymous character. At first I found him somewhat annoying, but I gradually came around to him. For me the real power of this series is in all the amazing characters. They’re all just so distinctly drawn and designed that I can’t wait to see what new quirky characters show up next. This is why I love anime, the weird crazy characters that always show up in these strange far away worlds. More of this please!

Movies :

The Good Nurse - Man was this just a scary movie. It’s not a horror movie by any means, but by the ending text crawl your pretty shook at the absolutely cold hearted corporate overlords that are running hospitals. Eddie Redmayne plays the titular “good nurse” with a dark cloud of dread hidden beneath a cheery helpful facade. Jessica Chastain is also the titular good nurse. She is also the brave overworked mother who ultimately exposes him. The movie is dark and slow moving, but you can’t escape it once it begins. It’s all just so simple and sinister. And as the closing supers reveal, the ultimate horror is a lot more than one “good” nurse.

Night Teeth - This was a decently fun vampire movie. It doesn’t really bring anything new to the genre, but it is slickly produced and uses its money well. It seems more focused on the love story that develops throughout the movie and thereby  less interested in what the movie is supposedly about, which is vampires. There’s the typical genre tropes;  a truce between humans and vampires that is under threat of breaking, a hidden vampire underworld and warring factions of both human and vampire. It looks slick, but I found myself more interested in some of the side characters who are portrayed by more magnetic actors in Sidney Sweeney and Megan Fox. Alfie Allen also appears, but feels underused. It’s good to see Debby Ryan here, but she is underused as well as she is stuck with playing a lovelorn young vampire. Lucy Fry, (who I completely did not recognize from Bright) does well here as the vampire BFF who is nothing but trouble. Overall a decent vampire flick that had potential to be a lot better.

Slayers - Am I on a vampire kick here? It’s looking that way. I stumbled across it while browsing around Hulu and it caught my eye when I saw that Thomas Jane was in it. I didn’t have high expectations for this one and boy was I proven right. There’s a lot of seemingly good ideas going on here, but other movies do it so much better. Fun video game style supers? Go watch Scott Pilgrim. A grim depiction of modern day social media obsessed teens? Go on Tik Tok! Or Twitch or Only fans! A haunted vampire hunter on a mission of revenge? Watch Vampire Hunter D: Bloodlust. Or Blade, hell even the third one is better than this. Ugh I feel bad that Thomas Jane got suckered into this one.

Ant-Man and the Wasp Quantumania - Whoo what a fun ride this is! It’s good to be back with this crew. I do miss Scott’s regular crew and although Michael Peña’s Luis is hilarious I missed David Dastmalchian’s Kurt the most, but bonus he does voice a new character for this movie. I’ll leave it to you dear reader to find his voice. Paul Rudd is consistently good in this role, but he does get a bit of a backseat here as Michelle Pfeifer and Jonathan Majors do steal the show. Majors does wonders with what is a thinly written character. Pfeifer also makes lemonade out of almost nothing here, but her constant reluctance to talk about the Quantum realm quickly gets tiring. For me the real meat of this movie is in all the minor characters and the world design. From the amazing looking rebels to the world itself I was absolutely enthralled. I know people are divided on Modok’s design, but for me his humorous and honestly sad arc somewhat made up for it. He’s a tough character to recreate in live action and while it wasn’t great, it was more than good. The story moves briskly and never really lags. It does suffer somewhat from not giving Kang much of an introduction or purpose other than world (or in this case multiversal) domination, but again Majors is such a good actor that he makes it all seem worthwhile. This is a fun movie very much in the Marvel style and one that keeps the Marvel train chugging along for better or worse. I personally don’t need all my movies to be masterpieces of the genre. Sometimes a good movie is just that, a good movie.

The Knock at the Cabin - As has been for awhile, an M. Night Shyamalan movie is always a toss-up. You’re either going to be caught completely unaware by the twist and love it or be left completely underwhelmed. I actually fall somewhere in-between where I don’t ever really hate his movies. (I never watched Avatar as I believed all the reviews and given that it wasn’t his own concept I didn’t feel the need to see it anyways. I also have yet to watch Old.) This one I was pretty hyped for as I love me some Bautista! This movie sets an uneasy mood from the start. Slow dread seeps into every frame. Once we get inside the house, the dread comes with us and doesn’t let up until the end. Bautista is indeed good and the three other strangers, Rupert Grint, Nikki Amuka-Bird and Abby Quinn are also all good. They represent a group trying to save the world, but to accomplish this must force a family of three to make a decision that seems drawn from an especially torturous Twilight Zone episode. While I don’t want to give away the ending, you’ll either love it or you won't, which, as I said, is par for the course. See this movie for the masterful way Shyamalan builds dread and fear and wonder. Your mileage may vary on everything else.

[phoenixofthestars]

1. lesbian

2. currently hyperfixated on Harley Quinn and Harley Quinn x Poison Ivy

3. nope

4. I’ve got two holes in each of my earlobes, good enough for me tbh

5. cabin in a forest. or just a forest. I’m tigerkin lol

6. two. technically. we ignore the first one.

7. rn anyone with hair long enough to braid 😩

8. Vox Machina, Harley Quinn, Avengers Assemble (literally just the episodes with Natasha and Clint lmao, if it doesn’t have them I get bored)

9. no

10. sort of?? it’s unadvertised on my main, but I have my main url listed in the bio

11. depends on if I can bring someone with me. if so, then teleport me and my gf to a forest. if not, just to wherever she is <3

12. I daydream a lot about something I’m really scared of, always with Nat, Clint, and my gf featuring heavily. there’s probably a lot of other psychology bits to it, but at the base of things, I know that I consider Nat and Clint very good friends—my gf even more so—and they make me feel safe, which helps.

13. no

14. I genuinely have not a clue

15. yes!! my gf, as I’ve already mentioned lol

16. no

17. no

18. ohh, a sleeve. maybe even both sleeves!! lots of purple and black, Wicca vibes, probably my tigerkin somewhere. hh pretty pictures <3

19. already done!! that’s private though

20. uh… well, Nat’s definitely one of my special interests. I don’t think I’m obssessed with anything though? other than what I mentioned in #2

21. she’s my gf lmao. she’s quiet, funny, forgiving. she’s AUDHD like me, which can often make it hard for her to communicate when she has a problem. if I got stabbed, she would hunt them down without question, and it would be very hard for me to convince her otherwise. she’s possessive, but well below the level of toxic, which is honestly very hot

22. I don’t know the appearances of anyone on here so @bloodbird2024 (what my gf’s username would be. can you tell that I Fucking Adore Her)

23. Imagine Dragons, Neoni, Faun

24. forest.

25. halfway through! at home with my gf watching a movie, or maybe exploring a forest if it’s nice out

26. spring! I don’t have any allergies, and I love watching the leaf and flower buds come out :) plus it’s warm, but not summer hot

27. people who use So Much perfume/cologne

28. I’m going to do the Thing. my gf. she’s also a writer, but while we’re both good at generally everything when writing stories, she’s really good at coming up with the most absolutely random shit during our roleplays. it trickles over to IRL too, which means that every time I see a seagull, I laugh, thinking of Jeff the Killer

29. uhh

30. uhhh

31. paper books. it’s just… a better Book Experience, you know? and I know e-books are so much more transportable, but I don’t have the money to pay for e-books, or anything to read them on

32. uhhhh

33. pretty much just what it is now lol. more baggy clothes though

34. I don’t really order coffee, I mostly make it at home and bring it in a travel mug

35. does my gf count

36. I don’t have any exes

37. no :(

38. nope

39. yep

40. if my gf were on tumblr, would she count?

41. 57!!

42. please see #21 and #28 lmao

43. honestly?? indulging my weird scary daydreams and writing scenes out

44. I’ve read romance, and I’ve read romance with sex, but I don’t think I’ve read erotica

45. none yet!

46. 235 😳

47. a) I’m demisexual/demiromantic, b) i consider my gf to be a celebrity :3

48. please see #42

49. uhhhhh

50. foggy if I can stay inside where it’s warm. if not, sunny lol (but not hot!!!)

Be nosy

1. What’s your sexual orientation?

2. What are you obsessed with right now?

3. Ever done any drugs?

4. What piercings do you want?

5. How many people have you kissed?

6. Describe your dream home.

7. Who are you jealous of?

8. What’s your favorite show to binge?

9. Do you watch porn?

10. Do you have a secret sideblog?

11. If you could teleport anywhere in the world right now, where would you go?

12. What’s one of your fantasies?

13. Do you have/would you get your nipples pierced?

14. How would you spend a million dollars?

15. Are you in a relationship?

16. Do you follow porn blogs?

17. Are you angry with anyone right now?

18. What tattoos do you want?

19. If you could change your name, would you? What would you change it to?

20. What is something you’re obsessed with?

21. Describe your best friend.

22. Tag someone you think is hot.

23. Who are five of your favorite bands/musical artists?

24. What are three places you want to travel?

25. Describe your perfect Friday night.

26. What’s your favorite season?

27. What’s your pet peeve?

28. Who is the funniest person you know?

29. What’s the most overrated movie?

30. Tag someone you want to talk to but have been too shy to message.

31. Do you like paper books or ebooks better?

32. If you could live in a fictional world, what world would you pick?

33. If money was no object, what would your wardrobe be like?

34. What’s your coffee order?

35. Do you have a crush on anyone?

36. Do you still have feelings for any of your exes?

37. Have any tattoos?

38. Do you drink?

39. Are you a virgin?

40. Do you have a crush on any of your mutuals?

41. How many followers do you have?

42. Describe the hottest person you know.

43. What’s your guilty pleasure?

44. Do you read erotica?

45. What’s the worst date you’ve ever been on?

46. How many people do you follow?

47. If you could marry any celebrity, who would you pick?

48. Describe your ideal partner.

49. Who do you text the most?

50. What’s your favorite kind of weather?

[catboii]

← Part 4 - Part 5 - Part 6 → Full Thread

[Excerpt taken from Agent 23's personal diary]

[Day ####]

Oh wow. I’ve missed a few days here. A lot has been happening at home and I had to take a few days off to focus on non work things. 

My dog Macy had a stomach ulcer, but the Vet gave me some medication for her and wrote up a new diet to put her on, which will work better with my work schedule. Now she has a special dry food left out all the time, which is measured out on scales, and she gets wet food before I leave for work, and when I get home, even on the days I’m not working, just a better routine to back up the better food. I was always feeding her just whenever when I had a day off. It sounds a little anal, and the food is more expensive, but I’d do anything for her. I can’t imagine waking up one morning and her not being there laying at the foot of my bed, awake but patiently waiting for me to get up, to go make coffee, and have breakfast together. 

She’s seemed fine since the medication, and I think the better schedule is good for her. It’s only been a few days but she’s already getting used to the new times. And the food seems to make her alot less gassy than the old cheap food I used to get her. 

I had started to fear the worst, but I was trying to keep it out of my work life. I think I was focusing so much on work, that I didn’t give my home life enough thought. Although maybe I was subconsciously trying to keep it out of my mind because I didn’t want to think about it. 

But enough about that, this is supposed to be my WORK journal. 

Even though I don’t HAVE a home journal, I don’t have time to sit around and write at home, and I have other more interesting things to do if I even did. I just write this in my downtime at work, once I’ve finished up all my tasks for the day. They still pay me for being here, so technically I get paid for writing this! This is the best job ever. 

… There I go again.

Back at work, I checked with my Overseer if anyone had taken over my place with that crow looking creature, but no one had! At first I felt bad, because that means it’s been left alone all this time, but part of me was kind of happy? Because that means that I’m still the only person it’s been talking to.

… That’s a weird statement huh. ‘Its been talking to’, it’s not talking to me! I’m just talking to it. Although it feels like we’re kind of communicating? In a way. 

I went back today and it turned slowly to the sound of the intercom, like it did the first time I spoke to it, but then when I said who I was, it seemed to perk up. It sat there for a bit, and when I started telling it I went to see the vet and that my dog was going to be alright, it stepped forward and sat facing the door. I told it that she’d started seeming like her old self again, and it sort of… fluffed up. It almost looked… happy? 

I don’t know…

[Day ####]

Sometimes the Anomaly reacts a lot, sometimes not much at all, but it still always turns and seems interested in the greeting speech. It seems to like hearing me talk about animals. I only had my dog to talk about because I don’t get out much, but I got permission from the Overseer to bring in a book about wildlife from the foundation fibrary to read to it over the intercom (they don’t call it a library, it’s a multi something depository~ but it’s full of books, so it’s a library to me, even though there’s lots of other things there). After the initial greeting, I told it this, and read out the intro in the book. It walked off as I was reading the boring parts, I guess, it didn’t want to hear about the habitats or how hard it was to photograph any of the animals, so I skipped ahead to an article on red foxes. It perked up partway through and came closer to the speaker. As I was reading through a section on birds it put it’s wings out and flapped, as if saying, “that’s me!” I skipped through until I found another bird entry. It seemed to like those. 

Tomorrow I might ask if I can go inside.

Just inside the first door, maybe.

So that it can see me. 

[mrsbsmooth]

Scripts - S7 - Episode 23 (Part 1 of 2)

Your LI's apology

NARRATOR: Aww, looks like {0} is finally ready to chat with {1}.

NARRATOR: Phew! I was scared for a while, they’ve only been married for a day.

NARRATOR: Wait, what? They don’t actually get married during Snog, Marry, Pie?!

NARRATOR: Next you’ll be telling me the babies in the Baby Challenge aren’t real?

NARRATOR: What??!! Plastic??! Let’s get on with it, shall we?

PLAYER_IDLE: So, you’re ready to talk?

{0}_SAD: Sorry I’ve been aloof today.

{0}_IDLE: I just needed time, {1}.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: And space to think about things, you know?

{0}_IDLE: It’s not easy to have that in here.

{0}_IDLE: But I want to chat and clear things up.

{0}_IDLE: Get it all out in the open.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: No rumours, no secrets.

{0}_IDLE: Just you and me, and the truth.

{0}_HAPPY: What do you say? Ready to chat?

I don’t like how you handled things

PLAYER_IDLE: I’ve actually felt so confused by this whole thing.

PLAYER_EMBARRASSED: The lack of communication here is not the one.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: I don’t want to do this here.

{0}_IDLE: I’m not saying I don’t agree with you.

{0}_IDLE: But can we take this somewhere more private?

Yeah, let’s resolve things

PLAYER_IDLE: I wanna get this sorted.

PLAYER_SAD: It’s been playing on my mind and I don’t like all the uncertainty.

{0}’s face softens.

{0}_IDLE: I know. That’s how I feel.

{0}_IDLE: Let’s go and talk properly.

I suppose so

PLAYER_IDLE: I mean, I guess so.

PLAYER_EMBARRASSED: This has all been really weird.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: Yeah, I didn’t handle this very well.

{0}_IDLE: Can we please go somewhere and talk in private?

PLAYER_IDLE: Where are we going then?

{0}_IDLE: Daybeds? Shade, privacy, comfort.

PLAYER_IDLE: Let’s do it.

You and {0} walk over to the daybeds side-by-side.

You settle on one of the daybeds, stretching out your legs. {0} sighs heavily and flops down beside you.

PLAYER_IDLE: So then.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: So then.

PLAYER_HAPPY: ‘Sup?

{0}_HAPPY: Stop making me smile already, this is serious.

PLAYER_IDLE: I’m just being myself.

{0}_IDLE: That’s the problem.

PLAYER_HAPPY: Huh, how’s that a problem?

{0}_IDLE: I like you too much.

PLAYER_IDLE: Oh?

{0}_IDLE: First thing’s first, I want to say I’m sorry.

{0}_SAD: I should have chatted to you earlier.

{0}_IDLE: Instead of moping off and sleeping outside without checking facts.

It’s ok, I get it

PLAYER_IDLE: You didn’t know what went on, you needed some space. I get it.

PLAYER_IDLE: I won’t judge you for that.

{0}_SAD: That’s all it was.

{0}_IDLE: Thanks for getting it.

Yeah, it was immature

PLAYER_EMBARRASSED: I was embarrassed for you, like check the facts first.

PLAYER_IDLE: That’s the least you could’ve done.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: I fully accept that.

{0}_SAD: That’s what I’m trying to do now.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: I know it might be too little too late.

I wasn’t bothered

PLAYER_IDLE: I’m unbothered by it. I’m trying to stay in my lane.

PLAYER_HAPPY: What you do is your business.

{0}_SAD: You don’t mind what I do?

PLAYER_IDLE: You’re your own person.

{0}_IDLE: I was just trying to process the stuff I’d heard.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: So, I’ll say it again…

{0}_IDLE: I’m really sorry for handling things badly.

{0}_IDLE: So I want to do what I should have done from the start.

{0}_IDLE: And hear your side of things.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: And explain why I reacted that way.

{0}_IDLE: We’re fresh and new, don’t feel like you owe me anything.

{0}_IDLE: But I figured things were growing between us.

{0}_HAPPY: I think it’s best to be honest with each other.

{0}_IDLE: We’re fresh and new, don’t feel like you owe me anything.

{0}_IDLE: But I figure the best way to start a relationship is with honesty, right?

{0}_IDLE: With our history, I feel like we need to get it all out there.

{0}_IDLE: With our history, I feel like we need to get it all out there.

{0}_IDLE: I know we’re not an actual couple yet, don’t feel like you owe me anything.

{0}_IDLE: But I figure the best way to start a relationship is with honesty, right?

{0}_HAPPY: Then we can build something beautiful.

PLAYER_IDLE: I guess I should explain what happened then.

Tell {0} apologetically

PLAYER_EMBARRASSED: Ok, here’s how it went down.

PLAYER_IDLE: {0} pulled me aside, right before the dumping.

PLAYER_IDLE: He said it wasn’t really about Uma…

PLAYER_IDLE: It totally was though.

PLAYER_EMBARRASSED: For a chat that wasn’t supposed to be about her…

PLAYER_EMBARRASSED: He name dropped her constantly.

{0}_IDLE: Because he really likes her.

PLAYER_IDLE: Exactly!

PLAYER_EMBARRASSED: That’s how I could tell that he was pretty torn up about all the drama between them.

PLAYER_IDLE: Then he kinda switched things up on me.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: Uh-oh.

PLAYER_SURPRISED: I wasn’t expecting it really.

PLAYER_EMBARRASSED: He got a bit flirty.

PLAYER_IDLE: Said he’d always had a thing for me…

{0}_EMBARRASSED: Really?! That’s wild.

{0}_SAD: I wouldn’t expect that from Alex, honestly.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: He’s such a stand-up guy.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: Maybe I should’ve expected that from Bryson.

{0}_IDLE: He’s the flirty one.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: Well, I don’t know him too well.

{0}_IDLE: I guess the guy owes me nothing.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: I wish I knew him enough to be angry.

{0}_IDLE: But I guess that guy owes me nothing.

Tell {0} nonchalantly

PLAYER_IDLE: It really wasn’t a big deal.

{0}_IDLE: I’d still like to know.

PLAYER_IDLE: Sure, whatever.

PLAYER_IDLE: Long story short, {0} pulled me before the dumping.

PLAYER_IDLE: He went on and on about Uma.

PLAYER_IDLE: Then tried to get his flirt on with yours truly.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: Oh…

{0}_EMBARRASSED: Did you flirt back?

PLAYER_IDLE: I mean…

PLAYER_EMBARRASSED: I did, a little bit.

PLAYER_IDLE: Yah, I did. Just a bit.

PLAYER_IDLE: And that’s when {0} saw us.

{0}_SAD: So she was telling the truth.

{0}_SAD: Why were you flirting though?

I was flattered

PLAYER_IDLE: It was flattering, we were having fun.

PLAYER_HAPPY: It was nice to have someone put in the graft.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: I guess I can’t argue with that.

{0}_IDLE: I wouldn’t ever want to stop you having a good time.

{0}_FLIRTY: I guess I just want to be the one to flirt with you.

{0}_FLIRTY: I suppose I better up my game.

I don’t know

PLAYER_IDLE: Yeah, I’m not sure why.

PLAYER_IDLE: Still wondering myself, if I’m honest.

{0}_IDLE: That makes me feel better, kind of.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: I just didn’t want to lose you.

It was a spur of the moment thing

PLAYER_IDLE: I think it was just an impulsive thing.

PLAYER_HAPPY: Flirting is fun.

PLAYER_IDLE: It didn’t mean a thing.

{0}_FLIRTY: Well, I’m sure I can flirt rings around him.

PLAYER_SURPRISED: Oh can you now?

{0}_FLIRTY: Maybe I can flirt rings around you too.

{0}_HAPPY: Whilst it stings to hear, it doesn’t change things for me.

PLAYER_IDLE: What do you mean?

{0}_HAPPY: I love spending time with you, {1}.

{0}_IDLE: I regret not having this chat sooner.

PLAYER_SURPRISED: No! I didn’t do anything.

{0}_HAPPY: That’s great to hear. I didn’t think you would have.

PLAYER_EMBARRASSED: Then stuff got really awkward.

PLAYER_IDLE: That’s when {0} saw us.

PLAYER_EMBARRASSED: And started spreading all these vague rumours.

{0}_SAD: I’m so sorry.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: I shouldn’t have let her get in my head.

{0}_IDLE: Especially after everything she’s done in the past.

{0}_SAD: I didn’t want to cause any more drama.

{0}_IDLE: So I was laying low for a while.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: Wrong decision.

{0}_IDLE: I love being around you so much.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: But, I do owe you a proper explanation. For how I acted.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: Sleeping outside last night, and not explaining earlier today.

{0}_IDLE: I guess I’ve always known that you’re in a league of your own.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: You could have anyone you wanted.

PLAYER_SURPRISED: Really?

{0}_FLIRTY: Absolutely. And I’m not complaining, obviously.

{0}_FLIRTY: I’ve always felt super lucky to even get a chance with you.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: But part of me has always worried that you’d realise that.

PLAYER_IDLE: Realise what?

{0}_FLIRTY: That you’re a ten out of ten worldie.

{0}_HAPPY: And I’m a nine at best.

{0} laughs, but you can sense the emotion and truth behind the words.

{0}_FLIRTY: Like I say, you could have anyone you wanted.

{0}_FLIRTY: I’m still on cloud nine that I’m getting this time with you.

{0}_IDLE: And cards on the table, full honesty time?

PLAYER_HAPPY: Full honesty.

{0}_FLIRTY: I’m starting to catch feelings for you. Like I haven’t for a long time.

{0}_IDLE: And it kinda scares me.

PLAYER_SURPRISED: Scares you? Why?

{0}_EMBARRASSED: I had a wobble last night anyway.

{0}_SAD: Stressing how much it would hurt if you didn’t feel the same way.

{0}_SAD: What if you lost interest in me?

{0}_SAD: What if you met someone you felt a better connection with?

{0}_EMBARRASSED: What if I fell for you even harder and you broke my heart?

{0}_EMBARRASSED: I guess I was doubting myself.

{0}_IDLE: And I was scared by how good this is.

{0}_IDLE: How good we are.

{0}_SAD: And that’s when {1} said you and {2} had gotten closer.

{0}_SAD: And my head went to all the worst case scenarios.

{0}_SAD: And even though I trusted you. Trusted what we have.

{0}_SAD: I knew you wouldn’t have flirted with him.

{0}_SAD: I realised how much it would hurt if you did move on from me.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: If you did realise just how out of my league you are.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: So I tried to get some distance. To think it through.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: Check that I was ready to open myself up to potentially being hurt.

PLAYER_EMBARRASSED: And are you?

{0}_HAPPY: I’m so ready for everything with you!

{0}_HAPPY: I know what we have together, and I’m not scared anymore.

{0}_HAPPY: I’m ready to face things head on.

{0}_FLIRTY: Lay it all on the line for you.

{0}_FLIRTY: And I just hope you feel the same way.

{0}_FLIRTY: So, where do we go from here?

Make a romantic gesture like Travis suggested

You think back to the advice Travis gave you, to be spontaneous and romantic.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: I’m glad you asked. I actually wanted to lay my heart on the line.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: Make a romantic gesture to show you how serious I am about us.

{0} shifts a little on their feet, intrigued.

{0}_SURPRISED: For real?

{0}_HAPPY: You wanna make a romantic gesture for me?

PLAYER_HAPPY: Yeah, why is that so surprising?

{0}_EMBARRASSED: Well, no one has ever done that kind of thing for me.

{0}_IDLE: Sounds really nice actually.

{0} looks at you with wide eyes as you clear your throat and prepare your romantic gesture.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: So, what I wanted to say was...

Make a poetic and heartfelt speech

PLAYER_IDLE: {0}. This is a name that meant nothing to me a few weeks ago.

PLAYER_IDLE: Which is strange because now it means so much.

PLAYER_IDLE: It means warmth. And a sense of belonging.

PLAYER_IDLE: It means a smile when I get into bed and a cuddle when I wake up.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: It means a shoulder to lean on and a friend to rely on.

You stop and look into {0}’s eyes. You’re both unable to hide your smiles.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: For a while today, I felt like I’d almost lost you.

PLAYER_SAD: I thought maybe {0} was a name that would disappear from life.

PLAYER_SAD: Almost as quickly as it arrived.

Make a fun and jokey speech

PLAYER_IDLE: I came to this villa looking for a responsible, fun and sexy partner.

PLAYER_IDLE: So I’ve already failed on that front, obviously.

PLAYER_HAPPY: But maybe there’s something to be said for you, {0}.

PLAYER_HAPPY: If today and yesterday have taught me anything.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: It’s that, when we’re apart, it doesn’t quite feel right.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: Like when you make a sandwich in a hurry and forget to butter the inside.

{0} laughs along as you keep going.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: And I think I deserve butter on the inside of my sandwich.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: I think I deserve someone who makes me smile.

PLAYER_HAPPY: Who makes me excited to see them each day.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: Maybe not someone who infuriates me at times... But we can work on that.

You take a step closer to {0}, holding intense eye contact.

You’re both unable to hide your smiles.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: So all jokes aside, I want you to know something.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: Today, I thought I might have genuinely lost you.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: And it was the worst feeling, {0}.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: I’ve spent all morning running around the villa trying to find you so I can explain.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: That I want to see where things go with you.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: And I’m willing to fight for that.

{0} gives you a round of applause, cheeks blushing red.

{0}_FLIRTY: That genuinely got me. Wow.

Write a romantic letter like Evan suggested

You think back to the advice Evan gave you, to write {0} a heartfelt letter.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: I’m glad you asked. I was actually on my way to write you a letter.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: I wanted to write you something sweet and romantic.

{0} shifts a little on their feet, intrigued.

{0}_HAPPY: For real?

{0}_HAPPY: You wanted to write a letter for me?

PLAYER_HAPPY: Yeah, why is that so surprising?

{0}_EMBARRASSED: Well, no one has ever done that kind of thing for me.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: Except for my family. It’s a really nice idea.

{0} looks at you with wide eyes.

{0}_FLIRTY: Well, why don’t you tell me what would be on the letter?

{0}_FLIRTY: I’ll close my eyes and pretend you’re reading it to me.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: Sounds like a plan.

You clear your throat ready to read your imaginary letter as {0} closes their eyes.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: Dear, {0}. I’m writing this letter to say...

Make the letter poetic and heartfelt

PLAYER_IDLE: A few weeks ago the name {0} meant nothing to me.

PLAYER_IDLE: Which is strange because now it means so much.

PLAYER_IDLE: It means warmth. And a sense of belonging.

PLAYER_IDLE: It means a smile when I get into bed and a cuddle when I wake up.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: It means a shoulder to lean on and a friend to rely on.

You hear {0} breathing excitedly, eagerly awaiting your next words.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: For a while today, I felt like I’d almost lost you.

PLAYER_SAD: I thought maybe {0} was a name that would disappear from life.

PLAYER_SAD: Almost as quickly as it arrived.

Make the letter fun and jokey

PLAYER_IDLE: I came to this villa looking for a responsible, fun and sexy partner.

PLAYER_IDLE: So I’ve already failed on that front.

PLAYER_HAPPY: But maybe there’s something to be said for you, {0}.

PLAYER_HAPPY: If today and yesterday have taught me anything.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: It’s that, when we’re apart, it doesn’t quite feel right.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: Like when you make a sandwich in a hurry and forget to butter the inside.

{0} laughs along as you keep going.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: And I think I deserve butter on the inside of my sandwich.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: I think I deserve someone who makes me smile. Who makes me excited to see them each day.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: Maybe not someone who infuriates me at times... But we can work on that.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: So all jokes aside, I want you to know something.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: Today, I thought I might have lost you.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: And it was the worst feeling, {0}.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: I’ve spent all morning running around the villa trying to find you so I can explain.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: That as sure as the ink on this page is black.

PLAYER_HAPPY: I am sure that I want to make this work.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: And I’m willing to fight for you.

PLAYER_HAPPY: P.S. Don’t run off again.

PLAYER_HAPPY: P.S. I’ll write you an actual letter as soon as I find some paper.

{0} gives you a round of applause. Their cheeks blushing red.

{0}_FLIRTY: That genuinely got me. You should be an author.

PLAYER_HAPPY: Glad you enjoyed it.

Propose a couples workout like {0} suggested

You think back to the advice {0} gave you, to propose a hot workout.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: I was actually gonna propose that we have a couples workout together.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: I think it would be great fun.

{0}_HAPPY: Shut the door! I’ve literally always wanted to do that!

{0}_HAPPY: Just never had a partner who was up for it.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: You’re looking at a partner who’s up for it.

{0} beams at you.

{0}_HAPPY: If you’re serious about this, I’ve always wanted to do Acroyoga.

{0}_HAPPY: It’s this acrobatic form of yoga…

{0}_HAPPY: Where two people balance on each other in various positions.

{0}_HAPPY: This guy with a manbun is always doing it with a girl in my local park.

PLAYER_HAPPY: Well, why don’t we give it a shot?

{0} takes a look around before lying down on their back.

{0}_HAPPY: There’s enough space here I reckon.

{0}_HAPPY: Right, very slowly, put your hips on my feet and your hands on mine…

You slowly lower yourself onto {0}’s hands and feet.

They hold you in the air so you feel like you’re floating.

{0}_HAPPY: Now, I’m going to spin you. Ready?

PLAYER_HAPPY: I guess?

You have to tense your core as {0} spins you around with impressive strength.

Then they flip you back around so you’re facing each other.

You see {0}’s beaming smile.

PLAYER_HAPPY: Having fun?

{0}_HAPPY: I am! Your core strength is unbelievable!

{0}_FLIRTY: Think you can go for another flip?

PLAYER_FLIRTY: Only one way to find out.

{0} gets their sweat on as they flip you not once but twice! Catching you in the air with their hands and feet.

They go for one more but slip and you fall into their arms on the floor.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: Whoops! Looks like we need some more practice.

PLAYER_HAPPY: You sure you didn’t drop me on purpose?

PLAYER_FLIRTY: So we could have a cuddle on the floor?

{0}_FLIRTY: Maybe…

{0}_FLIRTY: Feels good to have you in my arms again.

{0}_HAPPY: Thanks for doing this with me.

PLAYER_HAPPY: Anytime.

Make {0} jealous like {1} suggested

You think back to the advice {0} gave you, to make {1} jealous and up their grafting.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: If you ask me you’ve got some grafting to catch up on.

{0}_SURPRISED: What do you mean?

PLAYER_FLIRTY: While you were playing hide and seek and avoiding me…

PLAYER_FLIRTY: The others were getting their graft on with me.

{0}_SURPRISED: The others have been flirting with you?

PLAYER_FLIRTY: Yep. We are on Love Island, remember!

PLAYER_HAPPY: Let me tell you, they really upped their game.

PLAYER_IDLE: You’ve got a lot to live up to now.

{0}_FLIRTY: I hear you loud and clear, {1}.

{0}_HAPPY: Just let me get my grafting boots on.

{0} mimes slipping on some boots.

They strut over to you, looking deep into your eyes.

{0}_FLIRTY: A girl like you deserves someone who will go the extra mile.

{0}_FLIRTY: From now on I’m not going anywhere.

{0}_FLIRTY: Maybe I didn’t realise just how lucky I am before.

{0}_FLIRTY: To be with someone as funny, intelligent and gorgeous as you.

{0}_FLIRTY: But I won’t be making that mistake again.

{0}_FLIRTY: So let the others flirt, but I’m going to fight for us.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: That’s more like it.

Be mysterious like {0} suggested

You think back to the advice {0} gave you, to be mysterious and keep {1} on their toes.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: That’s for me to know and you to find out.

{0}_SURPRISED: And how do I find out?

PLAYER_HAPPY: You should know that by now.

{0}_FLIRTY: What would you like me to do?

{0}_HAPPY: Get my graft on? Give you some space?

PLAYER_FLIRTY: Both.

{0}_HAPPY: How am I supposed to know?

PLAYER_FLIRTY: You just have to know.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: If you want to be with me, you’re going to have to keep on your toes.

{0}_FLIRTY: So mysterious. I don’t know what to think! I love it…

Kiss {0}

You lean in and give {0} a quick smooch.

They blush with pleasant surprise.

{0}_FLIRTY: Now I’m even more confused.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: You’ll figure it out.

{0}_HAPPY: I hope so.

Squeeze their cheek

You gently reach over and pinch {0}’s cheek playfully.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: You’ll figure it out.

{0}_HAPPY: I hope so.

Say nothing

You stare into their eyes and say nothing with a flirtatious intensity.

{0}_HAPPY: I have no idea what’s going on but I’m obsessed with it.

You continue to stare, not saying a word.

Ignore their advice

PLAYER_IDLE: Erm, well.

{0}_IDLE: What are you thinking?

If Uma and {0} can do it, we can…

PLAYER_IDLE: If Uma and {0} can get back on track…

PLAYER_HAPPY: I feel like we should be fine.

{0}_IDLE: You’re so right. We can totally do this.

{0}_IDLE: I’m ready to put in the effort, for you.

Let’s focus on us

PLAYER_IDLE: We should focus on us.

PLAYER_HAPPY: Plain and simple, no more obstacles, no more misunderstandings.

{0}_HAPPY: I like that idea.

{0}_HAPPY: I’m all in with you, {1}.

I’m not too sure

PLAYER_IDLE: I don’t want to make all the decisions.

PLAYER_IDLE: What do you think?

{0}_IDLE: I think we’ve got something too special to let something like this ruin it.

{0}_HAPPY: I’m all in with you. I want you to know that.

PLAYER_HAPPY: Ok. I guess we will see how it goes!

{0}_HAPPY: Let’s put this in the past and see where the summer takes us.

If Uma and {0} can do it, we can…

PLAYER_IDLE: If Uma and {0} can get back on track…

PLAYER_HAPPY: I feel like we should be fine.

{0}_IDLE: You’re so right. We can totally do this.

{0}_IDLE: I’m ready to put in the effort, for you.

Let’s focus on us!

PLAYER_IDLE: We should focus on us.

PLAYER_HAPPY: Plain and simple, no more obstacles, no more misunderstandings.

{0}_HAPPY: I like that idea.

{0}_HAPPY: I’m all in with you, {1}.

I’m not too sure

PLAYER_IDLE: I don’t want to make all the decisions.

PLAYER_IDLE: What do you think?

{0}_IDLE: I think we’ve got something too special to let something like this ruin it.

{0}_HAPPY: I’m all in with you.

{0}_HAPPY: Let’s put all of this in the past.

Your phone pings, snapping you and {0} out of the moment.

PLAYER_SURPRISED: Oh, I’ve got a text.

{0}_FLIRTY: Read it out!

LITEXT: Islanders, it’s time to get ready for your next couples challenge, prepare to get messy in Piece of Cake! {0}FrostyOrSweet {1}BringThatCake

{0}’s face falls.

{0}_SAD: A couples challenge, gutted.

PLAYER_SURPRISED: Why? Think of the cake!

{0}_FLIRTY: Oh trust me, that’s all I can think about right now.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: But I’m gonna have to watch you and Travis, remember?

PLAYER_EMBARRASSED: Oh, yeah.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: But I’m gonna have to watch you and Vicky, remember?

PLAYER_EMBARRASSED: Oh, yeah.

{0}_IDLE: I’ll just have to be a gent.

{0}_FLIRTY: But I’ll be missing you.

{0}_FLIRTY: Being a good boy isn’t my strong suit.

{0}_FLIRTY: I can’t promise I won’t swoop in mid-challenge.

{0}_FLIRTY: We can just catch eyes across the cake…

{0}_IDLE: Can’t promise I won’t create a little cakey chaos.

{0}_FLIRTY: Just so I can make you laugh.

{0}’s face falls.

{0}_SAD: Couples challenge? Gutted.

PLAYER_SURPRISED: Why? Think of the cake!

{0}_FLIRTY: Oh trust me, that’s all I can think about right now.

{0}_SAD: I’m gonna have to watch you get all cakey with Vicky.

{0}_FLIRTY: Maybe I can sneak in and distract her with some sprinkles…

{0}_HAPPY: Then I can whisk you away, <i>whisk</i>.

{0}_HAPPY: Get it?

PLAYER_HAPPY: Oh, wow. That was bad.

{0}’s face falls.

{0}_SAD: A couples challenge? Gutted.

PLAYER_SURPRISED: Why? Think of the cake!

{0}_FLIRTY: Oh trust me, that’s all I can think about right now.

{0}_IDLE: I’m gonna have to watch you get covered in buttercream with ol’ Travis.

{0}_FLIRTY: I’ll just have to dazzle you with my cake decoration skills.

{0}_FLIRTY: I’m an artist after all.

{0}_FLIRTY: This challenge is gonna be hot.

PLAYER_HAPPY: If you say so. Aren’t we about to get covered in cake?

{0}_IDLE: I hope so! Or maybe we’ll just be decorating.

{0}_FLIRTY: Either way, I wanna see you with that cute look of concentration on your face.

{0}_FLIRTY: Then I’ll dab a bit of frosting on your nose.

{0}_FLIRTY: I think this challenge will be hot.

PLAYER_HAPPY: If you say so. Aren’t we about to get covered in cake?

{0}_FLIRTY: Cake is my favourite.

The side of his mouth curls into a little smirk.

{0}_FLIRTY: I’m sure we’ll make the best one.

UMA_HAPPY: Was that a text?

PLAYER_HAPPY: Come and read it!

The others rush over to read it.

UMA_HAPPY: A cake challenge!

{0}_HAPPY: It says prepare to get messy?

UMA_HAPPY: Even if I’m getting covered in cake I still want to look good.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: Always.

UMA_HAPPY: Dressing room time, girls!

UMA_EMBARRASSED: I really hope this won’t be too messy.

BONNIE_HAPPY: Literally or figuratively?

UMA_SURPRISED: I meant literally, but actually… Both.

{0}_IDLE: Same.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: Feels like I’ve caused enough drama recently.

She glances over at you.

That’s putting it lightly

PLAYER_IDLE: You’ve definitely been scattering that drama left, right and centre.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: You really have a way with words, {1}.

{0}_IDLE: But yeah, I won’t deny it.

Let’s forget it for now

PLAYER_IDLE: We’ve got other stuff to focus on, we don’t need to be bringing it up.

PLAYER_HAPPY: It’s challenge time! That’s what I’m thinking about.

{0}_HAPPY: Yes! May the best girl win.

{0}_FLIRTY: And by that I mean best baker or decorator, or whatever.

We both bring the drama

PLAYER_IDLE: The drama does seem to follow both of us.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: But would it even be Love Island without a sprinkling of drama?

{0}_IDLE: Ooh. Couldn’t have summed it up better.

UMA_HAPPY: I feel like we should touch base on where we’re at in our couples.

UMA_EMBARRASSED: It’s been a bit all over the place recently.

BONNIE_IDLE: Yeah, feels messy already!

UMA_SAD: The double dumping really put things into perspective for me.

Uma turns to you and Bonnie.

UMA_HAPPY: I wanted to thank you both again.

UMA_EMBARRASSED: For helping me and {0} figure things out.

UMA_IDLE: You’re both the best girls I could ask for in here.

Uma turns to you and Summer.

UMA_HAPPY: I wanted to thank you both again.

UMA_EMBARRASSED: For helping me and {0} figure things out.

UMA_IDLE: You’re both the best girls I could ask for in here.

Uma turns to you and Daphne.

UMA_HAPPY: I wanted to thank you both again.

UMA_EMBARRASSED: For helping me and {0} figure things out.

UMA_IDLE: You’re both the best girls I could ask for here.

UMA_HAPPY: I’m committed to making it work.

UMA_IDLE: No more making each other jealous.

UMA_EMBARRASSED: No more dragging other people into our mess.

PLAYER_EMBARRASSED: Thank goodness.

UMA_EMBARRASSED: I’m not good at all that.

UMA_IDLE: You girls know me.

UMA_IDLE: I just want to be direct, and I want someone to be direct with me.

VICKY_IDLE: You really like the guy, don’t you?

UMA_IDLE: I do. So I’ll stop being stubborn about it.

Cuties!

PLAYER_HAPPY: Aww, you’ve got it bad, girl.

PLAYER_IDLE: Every relationship has bumps.

PLAYER_HAPPY: It’s how you get through it that matters.

Be careful…

PLAYER_IDLE: Just looking out for you.

PLAYER_EMBARRASSED: I don’t want to remind you…

PLAYER_EMBARRASSED: But if he’ll flirt with me, maybe he’s not closed-off.

UMA_EMBARRASSED: I know.

UMA_SAD: But I did start all that drama.

BONNIE_IDLE: Well, me and {0} are very much friend vibes at the moment.

BONNIE_HAPPY: But that’s ok. We’ll have a ball in the challenge.

BONNIE_FLIRTY: Without the added pressure of being a couple.

BONNIE_FLIRTY: We’ll just watch all of you and judge quietly.

VICKY_FLIRTY: Keep your eyes on me and Evan then, we’ll school ya.

VICKY_HAPPY: If it’s cake decoration, we’ll ace it.

BONNIE_HAPPY: Ooh, I’ve got no doubt.

BONNIE_FLIRTY: Be a shame if someone sabotaged you though, eh?

VICKY_SURPRISED: You wouldn’t dare!

PLAYER_HAPPY: Fighting talk.

UMA_IDLE: How are you and Evan doing though?

VICKY_IDLE: Hmm, it’s a slow burn, which I don’t mind…

VICKY_IDLE: But I can’ help feeling like he’s not all in.

Her eyes flick over to you.

VICKY_IDLE: And that’s totally cool, he’s a lovely guy.

VICKY_IDLE: I’m not necessarily feeling the romance either.

VICKY_HAPPY: I’m happy to just see how things play out.

Uma grins at you.

UMA_HAPPY: You and Travis are a dream team though, {0}.

UMA_FLIRTY: I bet you’ll smash the challenge.

Yeah, get ready to watch us win

PLAYER_FLIRTY: We’re definitely a dream team.

PLAYER_HAPPY: We’ll leave you all in our dust.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: Or should I say icing sugar…

UMA_HAPPY: Ooh, that’s gonna make me sneeze!

UMA_FLIRTY: Love the confidence though.

We’ll just have to see

PLAYER_IDLE: I’m not sure how we’ll work together as a team.

PLAYER_HAPPY: Especially with cake involved.

UMA_HAPPY: I think you’ll be fine.

UMA_IDLE: How are you feeling though, {0}?

UMA_IDLE: Travis isn’t really your one is he?

UMA_IDLE: Doesn’t mean you can’t smash the challenge though!

{0}_IDLE: Weaker couples never do.

I wish I were doing it with somebody else

PLAYER_IDLE: Yeah, I can’t lie.

PLAYER_IDLE: Travis wouldn’t be my first choice to do these challenges with.

UMA_IDLE: Your time will definitely come, {0}.

UMA_HAPPY: I can feel it.

Who you calling weak?!

PLAYER_IDLE: Weak? Focus on your own couple maybe.

PLAYER_EMBARRASSED: At least Travis is actually into me…

{0}_IDLE: I didn’t mean it like that. We’re doing it again.

PLAYER_IDLE: Doing what?

{0}_EMBARRASSED: Beefing. Sorry!

We’ll smash it anyway

PLAYER_HAPPY: Yeah, we still make a great team.

PLAYER_HAPPY: We’ll leave you all in our dust.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: Or should I say icing sugar…

UMA_HAPPY: Ooh, that’s gonna make me sneeze!

UMA_FLIRTY: Love the confidence though.

BONNIE_IDLE: Well, me and Travis are very much friend vibes at the moment.

BONNIE_HAPPY: But that’s ok. We’ll have a ball in the challenge.

BONNIE_FLIRTY: Without the added pressure of being a couple.

BONNIE_FLIRTY: We’ll just watch all of you and judge quietly.

SUMMER_FLIRTY: Keep your eyes on me and Joyo then, we’ll school ya.

SUMMER_HAPPY: We’ll bring those sexy baker vibes.

BONNIE_HAPPY: Ooh, I’ve got no doubt.

BONNIE_FLIRTY: Be a shame if someone sabotaged you though, eh?

SUMMER_SURPRISED: You wouldn’t dare!

PLAYER_HAPPY: Fighting talk.

UMA_IDLE: How are you and Joyo doing though?

SUMMER_IDLE: Electric chemistry as per.

SUMMER_IDLE: But I genuinely think there could be something more.

SUMMER_EMBARRASSED: That’s why it hurt when I thought you and him were having a thing.

UMA_EMBARRASSED: Don’t think twice about that, it was such nothingness.

DAPHNE_FLIRTY: Keep your eyes on me and Raf then, we’ll school ya.

DAPHNE_HAPPY: We’ll ace it. Especially if it’s decoration related.

DAPHNE_HAPPY: I literally decorate people’s faces for my job.

BONNIE_HAPPY: Ooh, I’ve got no doubt.

BONNIE_FLIRTY: Be a shame if someone sabotaged you though, eh?

DAPHNE_SURPRISED: You wouldn’t dare!

PLAYER_HAPPY: Fighting talk.

UMA_IDLE: How are you and Rafael doing though?

DAPHNE_IDLE: Hmm, we’re ok.

DAPHNE_IDLE: We’ve sort of hit a wall though, I’m not sure what else we have.

UMA_EMBARRASSED: I hope I didn’t cause that.

DAPHNE_IDLE: I don’t know, something just feels a bit off.

Uma grins at you and {0}.

UMA_HAPPY: At least we all know that you two are a dream team.

UMA_FLIRTY: I bet you’ll smash the challenge.

Yeah, get ready to watch us win

PLAYER_FLIRTY: We’re definitely a dream team.

{0}_HAPPY: Oh yes, preach.

PLAYER_HAPPY: We’ll leave you all in our dust.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: Or should I say icing sugar…

UMA_HAPPY: Ooh, that’s gonna make me sneeze!

UMA_FLIRTY: Love the confidence though.

We’ll just have to see

PLAYER_IDLE: I’m not sure how we’ll work together as a team.

PLAYER_HAPPY: Especially with cake involved.

{0}_HAPPY: We’ll do great, as long as we listen to each other.

UMA_HAPPY: I think you’ll be fine.

UMA_IDLE: How are you two feeling though, {0}, Vicky?

{0}_IDLE: You’re not really a strong couple right now, are you?

{0}_EMBARRASSED: And weaker couples don’t normally win challenges.

We might struggle

PLAYER_IDLE: Yeah, I can’t lie.

You turn to Vicky.

PLAYER_IDLE: We might struggle a bit.

VICKY_EMBARRASSED: I sense that.

VICKY_IDLE: We can still have fun though.

Who you calling weak?!

PLAYER_IDLE: Weak? Focus on your own couple maybe.

PLAYER_EMBARRASSED: At least Vicky is actually into me…

{0}_IDLE: We’re doing it again!

PLAYER_IDLE: Doing what?

{0}_EMBARRASSED: Beefing. I’m sorry, I didn’t mean anything by it.

We’ll smash it anyway

PLAYER_HAPPY: Yeah, we still make a great team.

PLAYER_HAPPY: We’ll leave you all in our dust.

VICKY_HAPPY: Yes, preach!

PLAYER_FLIRTY: Or should I say icing sugar…

{0}_IDLE: Good for you.

VICKY_HAPPY: What’s the update on you and {0} then, {1}?

{0} rolls her eyes dramatically.

{0}_IDLE: It seems his head is turned to someone else at the moment.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: That would be me.

UMA_IDLE: Think we figured that one.

{0}_IDLE: But yeah, I think we’ll be fine. In the long run.

{0}_FLIRTY: He’s still got time to change his mind.

{0}_IDLE: Well, his head was with someone else.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: That would be me.

{0}_FLIRTY: No way! Really?

PLAYER_IDLE: My sarcasm detector just went off.

{0}_IDLE: But now, I’m not sure.

{0}_IDLE: It definitely feels like I’m putting in more work than he is.

{0}_IDLE: It’s whatever though. We’ll be fine.

{0}_FLIRTY: He’s still got time to swivel his head back round to me.

UMA_HAPPY: I think this challenge could go any way really.

UMA_IDLE: Maybe it’ll make some couples…

{0}_IDLE: And break others?

UMA_EMBARRASSED: Erm, even I wasn’t going to be that blunt, but yeah.

UMA_SURPRISED: Ooh, {0}, you’re not dressed yet!

UMA_HAPPY: Show us your look!

PLAYER_HAPPY: What about this?

VICKY_HAPPY: Actually glorious.

BONNIE_FLIRTY: That’s perfect.

{0}_IDLE: You look so good. Respectfully, I hope you get cake on you.

PLAYER_IDLE: This one is good.

UMA_IDLE: Is it because you’re worried about getting cake on your outfit?

UMA_HAPPY: Don’t! Let’s go all out.

SUMMER_FLIRTY: Yeah! Who cares, clothes can be washed.

DAPHNE_IDLE: Yeah! Who cares, clothes can be washed.

{0}_HAPPY: We have to look better than our cakes, that’s a rule.

Let me see again

PLAYER_HAPPY: How about this?

VICKY_HAPPY: Actually glorious.

BONNIE_FLIRTY: That’s perfect.

{0}_IDLE: You look so good. Respectfully, I hope you get cake on you.

PLAYER_IDLE: I’m sticking with this one.

UMA_HAPPY: Nice.

I’m sticking with this

PLAYER_IDLE: I’m sticking with this one.

UMA_HAPPY: Nice.

PLAYER_HAPPY: Challenge time, girls?

You all head downstairs and out towards the challenge stage.

The boys are already waiting for you on the challenge stage.

You look out and see that there are enough tables for each couple to work from.

There is also another large table laden with layers of freshly-made cake, frosting bags and decorative supplies.

{0}_HAPPY: Girls! Phew…

{0}_HAPPY: I was about 0.2 seconds away from consuming that entire table of cake.

BONNIE_SURPRISED: Dude, I know you’re into your carpentry but please.

BONNIE_FLIRTY: Eating tables is too far.

{0}_IDLE: Funny, funny.

{0}_HAPPY: I’d say you could be a comedian but you’re too <i>wooden</i>.

UMA_EMBARRASSED: Oh dear.

BONNIE_SURPRISED: Dude, I thought wood was Alex’s thing.

BONNIE_FLIRTY: Eating tables is an issue.

{0}_HAPPY: Ooh, she’s bringing the banter already? That’s my job.

{0}_HAPPY: I’d say you could be a comedian but you’re too <i>wooden</i>.

UMA_EMBARRASSED: Oh dear.

PLAYER_HAPPY: So what do we have to do?

{0}’s phone pings.

PLAYER_HAPPY: Right on cue!

{0}_HAPPY: Lemme read it out.

LITEXT: Islanders, it’s time to couple up and start constructing and decorating your very own wedding cake…

PLAYER_SURPRISED: Wedding?!

{0} continues reading.

LITEXT: Whoever completes the cake in the fastest time with the best decoration and teamwork, wins. {0}HereComesTheWinner {1}CakeChaos

SUMMER_HAPPY: You hear that, Joyo??

SUMMER_FLIRTY: We’re getting married!

JOYO_FLIRTY: You would look gorgeous in a wedding dress, to be fair.

RAFAEL_HAPPY: Well, I do wanna be married before I’m 30!

RAFAEL_FLIRTY: What do you say, Daph?

DAPHNE_HAPPY: I say, aww.

DAPHNE_EMBARRASSED: And also, no. Too soon!

SUMMER_HAPPY: You hear that, Joyo??

SUMMER_FLIRTY: We’re getting married!

JOYO_FLIRTY: You would look gorgeous in a wedding dress, to be fair.

RAFAEL_HAPPY: Well, I do wanna be married before I’m 30!

RAFAEL_FLIRTY: What do you say, Daph?

DAPHNE_HAPPY: I say, aww.

DAPHNE_EMBARRASSED: And also, no. Too soon!

{0}_FLIRTY: Building a wedding cake with you, already…

{0}_HAPPY: I’m pretty excited!

PLAYER_HAPPY: Oh, interesting to know.

You and {0} stand behind one of the tables, the rest of the couples follow suit.

{0} quickly pulls you aside.

{0}_IDLE: {1}, I don’t wanna watch you do this challenge without me.

{0}_FLIRTY: I’ve just got to take the leap and ask you to bend the rules a little.

{0}_IDLE: I’m sure {1} understands?

{0}_EMBARRASSED: It’s up to {1}. She knows that.

PLAYER_SURPRISED: What about {0}?

{0}_HAPPY: She can go with {1}.

{0}_EMBARRASSED: Urgh, whatever. I guess I owe you one, {1}.

PLAYER_SURPRISED: What about {0}?

{0}_HAPPY: He can go with {1}.

PLAYER_SURPRISED: What about Vicky?

{0}_HAPPY: She can go with {1}.

{0}_HAPPY: The only names I want to see on a wedding cake are {1} and {2}.

{0}_HAPPY: Would you join me for the challenge?

*Yes!

PLAYER_HAPPY: There’s nobody I’d rather build a wedding cake with.

{0}_HAPPY: My thoughts exactly.

{0}_FLIRTY: I won’t be able to focus though. My eyes will be stuck on you.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: Maybe this isn’t such a good idea…

{0}_FLIRTY: It’s the best idea I’ve had so far.

No

PLAYER_IDLE: I don’t think that would be wise.

PLAYER_IDLE: I should probably stick with {0}.

{0}_FLIRTY: You don’t have to though, {1}.

{0}_HAPPY: I wanna be building a wedding cake with the person I see a future with.

{0}_FLIRTY: And that person is you.

{0}_HAPPY: After everything we’ve been through today it would mean a lot to me.

{0}_FLIRTY: So, do you wanna do the challenge with me?

*Ok, let’s do it!

PLAYER_HAPPY: There’s nobody I’d rather build a wedding cake with.

{0}_HAPPY: My thoughts exactly.

{0}_FLIRTY: I won’t be able to focus though. My eyes will be stuck on you.

PLAYER_FLIRTY: Maybe this isn’t such a good idea…

{0}_FLIRTY: It’s the best idea I’ve had so far.

No, not a good plan

PLAYER_IDLE: No, I don’t think it’s a good idea this time.

{0}_IDLE: Aww, ok.

{0}_FLIRTY: I’ll just have to eye flirt with you from over my cake tower.

You and {0} stand behind one of the tables, the rest of the couples follow suit.

[myownthoughts0902]

4/16/23

My first post. Originally I was writing. But then I realized that keeping up with a notebook isn’t easy. Plus I can do this anywhere. Also, I will be able to look back at this whenever. I couldn’t do that if I lost the paper/notebook. Plus, not being limited to a page is nice. Always felt weird writing more than one page. Anyways.

Sunday scaries.

I realized that my version of sunday scaries is different. Most people get Sunday scaries because it’s the last day before their week starts. It’s the stress of the upcoming week. All related to work.

Mine are different. Sunday nights are different for me. I sit there and realize that it’s one more week of me being a failure. Of me not being able to do anything for myself. I have been trying so fucking hard to figure something out. To do something for myself. And I just can’t. It’s not happening. Every time there’s a chance or something feels right I find myself getting happy or excited and I’ve just been let down over and over again. It sucks. It’s a scary fucking world. Feels like I’m stuck and idk what to do.

My mom told me that she’s willing to get a new place in a couple months and if I wanted to live there I could. That sucks to hear. Everyone has these lives they’re building but look at me. It’s embarrassing. Im an embarrassment.

I spend everyday looking for something to do to feel some sort of value. To feel like there’s some sort of purpose. And to be honest, there’s a lot of days where I do it. Saturday was one. It wasn’t so much that I found a way to feel that. But the environment I was in forced it upon me. Honestly one of the best days I’ve had in recent memory. It was so mindless. Waking up and going to Waffle House turned into us performing the Cupid shuffle for everyone. Then going to the arcade. The talk of the raffle. Me calling my shot. Chris saying that there’s nothing he wanted more than to win. Then him being picked on the very last draw. I remember saying in the moment that it was poetic. Dinner at Nancy’s was a blast. After dinner not so great with Chris’ truck breaking down. But got it fixed and had a good time that night.

And now here we are. It’s Sunday night. I feel lost. I feel helpless. I feel useless. I feel like a waste. I’ve said it before but I end up feeling like I have no purpose.

The one thing that’s nice is that my mom is out of town for two weeks so I can always go there to get away for a bit if I need to. It’s nothing against Kylie or Chris. I am starting to feel like I need to be alone is all. I need to be able to figure my shit out because it’s bad. When I say that it for every step forward it feels like I take one backs this is what I mean. Things go well and then auto go back and it’s bad.

Why does this happen to me. Why do I end up feeling awful about myself. I need to find a way to discover some sense of self value and importance. Because the lack of it leads me down a path of scary thoughts.

[navycat305]

Hello.

23, 13, 33, and 43.

Helloooooooo :D get ready for all the guys ever, in the world!

13. Do you have any troublemaker OCs?

Depends what you mean by trouble I suppose. Some guys are straight up evil, like Ray (guy from my Kingdoms story) who just killed all his own fictional but actually real people. Some of my earlier guys were a bit more mischievous, I had a couple orphans that escaped their children’s home leaving all sorts of trouble in their wake (their story was never that interesting so I got rid of them rip). I also had a wacky lesbian detective who got into a lot of trouble (some else I abandoned…oops). Honestly, I think most of them just make trouble by accident (back to the killing people/getting themselves killed thing) rather than it being in their nature. I should probably make some more mischievous little guys. I guess the Tedverse was full of troublemakers and Briarridge kind of is too?? Maybe I make more troublemakers when I’m collaborating, idk.

23. Introduce an OC that has changed from your first idea concerning what the character would be like

I know what to answer for this one because I’ve been thinking about it lately! So I have a story called Refuge where 10 kids with powers from across history are brought together to do…something, I never quite figured it out. One guy, Thomas, is the illegitimate son of Henry VIII and ends up strangling someone with the vines he can produce. I originally wanted to have him as a really terrible YA love interest kind of guy that’s aloof and brooding and not actually a very nice person despite the MC’s infatuation with him, but recently I’ve decided that I prefer the idea of him as an actual rounded person rather than a stereotype. He’s a lot more panicked about the whole killing someone thing than you’d think and the persona is just an attempt to distance himself from everyone. I think he eventually sorts out his shit (hopefully, either that or his girlfriend makes him). The thing that hasn’t changed is his general edgyness, but more the way it develops and his character as a whole. Thomas my guy Thomas he is so traumatised (all of them are please help them).

33. Your shyest OC?

Alright, time to talk about Refuge again! One of the other characters is Silence, a Puritan girl from Cardiff in 1655. She’s also not had a very good time with her family (who don’t like her speaking to ghosts) but I think even with her aversion to people in that sense, she’s just pretty shy in general. She doesn’t speak much (although even if she did her accent is so thick people would have trouble understanding her) and she’s only really fully comfortable around one specific person. Poor girl gets ghost-communication powers when she can’t stand people. Dan (guy from 1972 who can make shields from air!) is kind of shy too but I think that’s more from the fact that people regard him as weird so he’s learned to be cautious around people. All things considered, Dan and Si get along quite well for two people that don’t like people :)

43. Do you have any certain types when you create your OCs? Do you tend to favour some certain traits or looks? CONFESS!!!!

I think I do? I’m quite partial to a stupidly edgy guy (looking at some of my warrior cats OCs and like 2 of the Refuge guys- actually that’s not bad out of 10). I think the old saying of “write what you know” also applies because I usually go for nervous and/or academically smart people (see Amica - my DND character - and others including MORE warrior cats OCs, several of the Refuge gang and you know what basically anything I’ve ever written has at least one). I tend to go for the tragic too, so there’ll be some tragedy in everyone (my poor guys need help I subject them to too much). Usually they get a lot sillier when my friends are involved which is nice :) a lot of my motivations for doing things are “because it’s funny”. Which I think is a good way to go about things :)

Woowwww I wrote too much, thanks for indulging me in my rabid ramblings :)