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[iwannawritelots]

BE: Aesthetically Pleasing

Originally written May 2023

AO3 - I usually post here first!

Part 1 Part

Human AU Masterlist

Characters Active: Simeon (23), Asmodeus (16), Satan (1)

Ship(s): pre-established Simeon/Barbatos

Trigger/content warnings: none

Headcanons/notes from the author: hehe…

Brief Blurb: Simeon can’t get their mind off of the pretty goth that keeps showing up at work.

Taglist: @graveswrites

“Simeon, is everything okay?”

The person in question snapped out of their trance, giving Asmodeus their full attention. “Whatever do you mean?”

“You’re twirling your hair around your finger and spacing out. I don’t think I’ve ever seen you do that before.” Asmodeus rubbed Satan’s back when he began to whine, and resumed bouncing him on her hip.

Simeon quickly took their hand away from their hair, face growing hot as they began to feel silly about it. “I… haven’t really had my hair this long before, so that’s probably why. Sorry.”

Tilting her head, Asmodeus asked, “Wait, why are you sorry?”

“I… don’t know. I thought maybe you were pointing it out because it was bad.”

“No, of course not.” Asmodeus waved away the thought, then quickly returned her hand to Satan’s back to soothe him. “I thought maybe something was wrong since you are so spacey.”

“Nothing’s wrong.”

After a moment of quiet, Asmodeus asked, “Then… what is it?”

Simeon snorted and shook their head. “You’re nosey.” They glanced at the pot on the stove, then added, “I guess it wouldn’t hurt to tell you, but you can’t tell Lucifer.”

“Ooh, keeping secrets from Luci?”

Rolling their eyes, Simeon told them, “Sure.” Asmodeus switched the hip Satan was resting on, then leaned against the counter. Suddenly more nervous, Simeon began to fiddle with their hair again. “That wealthy regular brought a friend with him yesterday.”

“Oh…?”

“Yeah. A really… intimidating and pretty goth person. They were really aesthetically pleasing, so I’ve been thinking about them a lot.” Simeon huffed and crossed their arms. “Then he brought them with him again today too. The beautiful goth is just… so polite, too.” They shifted their weight and averted their gaze, realizing how weird it probably sounded when they talked about it. “I dunno why I’m so infatuated. It’s strange.”

Asmodeus giggled and shrugged. “Knowing you, it’s probably not going to become anything romantic. Maybe you just have a squish.”

“Probably.” Simeon sighed and stared off for a moment. “They’re so pretty. I really don’t want to stare at them like some sort of weirdo, but just…”

“Yeah, that’s how I feel about Solomon.” Asmodeus rolled her eyes when Satan screeched with protest at her taking her hand away for a second to push her hair out of her face. “I mean, I doubt you’re being creepy on purpose, if at all, but you tend to be pretty obviously nervous when someone is attractive to you.”

Simeon frowned and turned away to focus on the food they were cooking. "I do not."

“Uh huh. And I don’t go to parties.” Asmodeus walked to the dining table and set Satan in the high chair, sighing when he shrieked and sobbed with displeasure. “I hope you try to befriend this person. They obviously interest you.”

Flustered, Simeon told them, “Th-That’s probably unlikely, since it’s an employee-customer situation.”

“If you say so,” Asmodeus sang out, petting Satan’s hair. The baby simmered down a bit from his fit, crying turning into sniffles. “Do you think Satan will calm down if I give him some crackers?”

“Maybe.” Simeon left the stove for a moment to dig around in the snack cupboard. “Does he still like the strawberry ones?”

“Yeah.”

Simeon passed the crackers over to Asmodeus and returned to their cooking. They couldn’t help wondering if she was right… As they stirred the food and stared into nothing, Simeon thought maybe it wouldn’t hurt to seek friendship from the pretty goth.

[obeythedemons]

I'm afraid a very serious thing has hit our apartment. Stardew Valley fever has hit @iwannawritelots and I. It's serious, I'm afraid.

[pavl0v3]

!!!!

i’m tagging @iwannawritelots @princelink @quierd-kitten @stonnefree @whitenoizmp3 hope you don’t mind the tag! :3

Blorbo Poll

Rules: make a poll with five of your all-time favourite characters and then tag five people to do the same. See which character is everyone's favourite.

Tagged by @powersuitup. Probably very predictable picks for anyone who knows me but whatevs.

NP tagging @tweetthang96, @coolnerdyrn, @kayliemalinza, @raaorqtpbpdy, and @thephilosophersapprentice.

[ruewrites]

We’re blooming together!! For the ask game!!

Ask Game is Here!

Okay so I actually wrote this fic before I played the game. This fic also only happened bc I sent an anon ask to someone about the beginning concept of them as kids and they responded to it saying they really wanted to see somekne write it. Thus WBT was born!

It is my baby. I adore it.

[sakura-chan-25]

Nicknames I would call the boys!

Nicknames I'd call the boys, except I'm terrible at nicknames! :D (Part 1)

Dateables' nicknames here

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Lucifer:

Luci (duh)

Lulu

Lu

Mammon:

Mams

Mon-Mon

Leviathan:

Levi

Lev

Levi-chan

Satan:

Tantan

Catan

Tani

Asmodeus:

Asmo

Azzy (by @iwannawritelots)

Beelzebub:

Beel

Beeli

Bubu

Belphegor:

Belphie

Bel

Bel-Bel

Belph

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A/n: I'd probably use some of those nicknames outside as well as in little space. I hope you enjoyed and have a good day/night! ^^

[belphieslilcow]

drew cinna!! @iwannawritelots I hope they turned out okay!! ^^

[iwannawritelots]

Butterfly Effect: First Sight

Originally written May 2023

AO3 - I usually post here first!

Part 2

Human AU Masterlist

Characters Active: Barbatos (25), Diavolo (26), Simeon (23)

Ship(s): Barbatos/Simeon (not together yet)

Trigger/content warnings: none

Headcanons/notes from the author: I am totally normal about this ship… uh huh… so normal.

Brief Blurb: Barbatos visits Diavolo’s new favorite café for the first time.

Taglist: @graveswrites

The café was quiet, mostly taken over by studying students and bookworms. With a chuckle, Barbatos gazed at his best friend. “You weren’t kidding. It’s very quiet here.”

“Yes. It’s nice, isn’t it?” Diavolo kept his voice low and added, “Not to mention, the tea is very good.”

Barbatos raised an eyebrow. “Really?”

Shrugging, Diavolo told him, “You’ll have to try it for yourself.” The two got in line, and Barbatos couldn’t help stealing glances around himself. How had he not been here before? It seemed like the kind of place his father would like.

Once they got to the counter, Barbatos felt his face heat up almost instantly. Fuck, the barista was cute. He glanced at their name tag, then their pronoun pin. The barista finally turned their attention to the two of them and halted their actions with wide eyes. After staring for a moment, they put on a mask-like smile. “H-Hi there, Diavolo. Will you have your usual order today?”

Barbatos looked away, trying to ignore how much his mind was racing. Their black coils pulled into a ponytail, freckles all over their face that could just barely be seen… the kindness in their eyes… a gentle, calm voice accompanying it all… “Barbatos, hey…”

Oh shit.

Fortunately, Barbatos wasn’t staring at them, but spacing out was humiliating anyway. Clearing his throat, he weakly laughed. “Excuse my inattentive behavior. I would like a medium strawberry iced tea, please.”

“O-Of course!” Simeon tilted their head at him. “Anything else?”

“A… slice of the vanilla cake, please…” Barbatos attempted to hide his face in his bangs, “with the strawberries.”

“O-Oh.. that one is good.” Once they finished putting in the order, Simeon asked, “Together or separate bill?”

“Together.” Diavolo paid with his phone before Barbatos could even process what was going on. “Thank you.”

“Thank you.”

“Of course! W-We’ll call it out to you when it’s ready.”

Diavolo lead Barbatos to a booth, chuckling when he exhaled upon sitting down. “You okay?”

Groaning, Barbatos felt his cheeks to reassure himself that he was no longer blushing. “I am just fine. I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

A loud, joyful laugh escaped Diavolo as he sat across from his best friend. “You only act like that when you find someone attractive.” He watched Barbatos’ face flush bright red once again. “You’re blushing.”

“I most certainly am not.”

They heard the barista call out the order, and Diavolo raised an eyebrow at Barbatos when he didn’t budge. “You’re usually scrambling to get our things.”

“It’s under your name.”

“That hasn’t stopped you before.”

Barbatos squinted at Diavolo for a moment, then sighed and went over to the counter. The barista nervously smiled at Barbatos when they accidentally caught eye contact, but despite themself couldn’t find words. “For Diavolo?”

“Y-Yes…” the barista gestured to the tray, and Barbatos noted the black ring on their finger. “If you need anything, don’t be afraid to ask.”

A bit calmer than before, Barbatos nodded and averted his gaze. “Right.” He grabbed the tray, then gave them a gentle smile. “Thank you very much.” When they beamed back at him, he felt like he was going to explode from attraction panic. He wanted to say more, but — despite the thrumming in his chest — decided against it and returned to Diavolo. After all, it was only physical attraction. There wasn’t much to say.

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[tragedytells-tales]

𝑪𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒐𝒓 𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒄𝒊𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒎𝒐𝒏𝒕𝒉

[ horrid sketches of MCs/OCs/Sonas/Scenes ]

MCs / Sonas / OCs

Day 1 - Sapphire

( @/rainiishowers )

Day 2 - Petunia

( @/i-slept-for-13hours-ohshi )

Day 3 - Hanako

( @/eternallydaydreaming2015 )

Day 4 - Himiko

( @/absolutepokemontrash )

Day 5 - Cherry

( @/macherise )

Day 6 - Reko

( @/ril-rarely-writes )

Day 7 - Daikon

( @/moemoemammon )

Day 8 - Bee

( @/beels-burger-babe )

Day 9 - Chris

( @/kitsune-oji )

Day 10 - Free day: Eli

( @/spadecentral )

Day 11 - Theo / Demon Theo

( @/etcrow )

Day 12 - Sandy

( @/asmo-ds )

Day 13 - Yuki

( @/littledemo0n )

Day 14 - Nana

( @/strawberry-cowmilk )

Day 15 - Aster

( @/astershere )

Day 16 - Noelle

( @/amistytown )

Day 17 - Levi

( @/leviathans-watching )

Day 18 - Cinna

( @/iwannawritelots )

Day 19 - Riri

( @/dicetheroll )

Day 20 - free day: Teen!MC design

( @/lancermylove )

Fic Scenes

Day 21 - devildom drinks

( @/symphonicmetal101 )

Day 22 - Avatar of Chaos

( @/books-and-catears )

Day 23 - MC with a brick

( @/waylonwrites )

Day 24 - Liliths painting

( @/lorkai )

Day 25 - STEAL HIS HAT-

( @/im-not-a-simp-i-swear )

Day 26 - Liliths Vengeance

( @/forevermore-quoth-the-kitten )

Day 27 - I SAID SIT.

( @/fickleminder )

Day 28 - fight the therapist

( @/princessozera )

Day 29 - A kitchen covered in baking

( @/obey-me-stuffs )

Day 30 - Free day: Ghost MC

( @/demonfamilytherapist )

[belphieslilcow]

his tail got skinny =w=

no pressure ofc buuut @iwannawritelots is who I'll tag (psps anyone can rb and do it from me tho)

Obey me Demon Mc Picrew!

I saw this Picrew and thought "Why not do Nightbringer Mc!"

"Demon" Sheep Lux

Lil Ceb with me in human puppy form!~

link to BOTH Picrews!

Tagging @lemonandlime22,@asmobrim...Or anyone really who wants to join!~

[garoujo]

Hi...I followed you a long time ago when you wrote a bit for Obey Me. I dunno if you still write for it or are interested in it, but there's some authors that have series that are pretty good. @/iwannawritelots has a human au that's really good and @/with-love-fron-hell has a few series that are amazing. I dunno if you follow either of them but I figured I'd give you the recommendation. (I'm on anon because I'm a bit shy -~- I admire you and your writing so much and you got me interested in si many other fandoms!! Thank you <3)

omg hi nonnie ! ! ! yes yes i’m still interested in obey me don’t worry ajhajaka fank yew sooo much for these recs omg i can’t wait to look at them more when i get home from work ( ˊᵕˋ ) u are soooo very kind i rly appreciate it ♡ sob and ur so sweet crying i’m so glad u like my stuff!!! thank you for being so lovely,, i hope u have a great day today ^o^

[belphieslilcow]

hehehe =w= kigu time ft. cinna @iwannawritelots

[iwannawritelots]

Lilith

Originally written May 2023

AO3

Human AU Masterlist

Characters Active: Beelzebub (5), Belphegor (5), Lucifer (16), Lilith (4), Mammon (13), Leviathan (11), Asmodeus (8), Adam

Trigger/content warnings: death (abuse-induced murder), child abuse, panic attack depiction

Headcanons/notes from the author: As of now, this is being put under the “one-offs” of my human AU. If I get enough motivation to write more of the stuff that happened before the Morningstars moved I might put them into their own sub series. Due to it jumping right in, there is no before the cut paragraph.

Brief Blurb: Lilith dies, and Lucifer does what he needs to do.

Taglist: @graveswrites

The yelling had finally stopped. Their father had left the room. Beel, shaking as he pushed himself up onto his hands and knees, called out for his mother. “M-Mommy?”

No response. He patted around the floor, finding Belphie’s arm almost instantly. He shook his twin, crying weakly. “W-Wake up…” When Belphegor didn’t wake, he crawled towards Lilith’s direction and patted around the floor to find her as well. Tears rolling down his cheeks, Beel desperately called out for his mother again before finding Lilith’s leg and shaking it. “Lilith… Wake up…”

The one who had heard Beel’s pleas for his mother rushed to his side. Lucifer enveloped him in his arms, violently trembling but attempting to somehow seem calm. After all, how could Beel feel comforted if he was crying too?

“D-Daddy… he…”

Lucifer hushed him and pet his hair. “I-I know, I’m so sorry. I’m sorry I wasn’t here, little one.” He rubbed Beel’s back and rocked him. “I’m here now. That… Th-That..” Words died on his tongue as Belphegor began to squirm beside them. Lucifer wasted no time pulling the small child into the hug, tears rolling down his cheeks. “I’m here. I’m sorry. I took too long. I’m so sorry.”

“L-Lilith won’t wake up…”

With the little strength he had, Lucifer stood up and took his little siblings up with him. They weren’t very heavy in his arms, but he felt like he was going to topple over. Hurrying down the hall with them, Lucifer found his way back to the spot Mammon and his other siblings were hiding in. “W-We need to leave. Right now.”

Mammon kept Levi and Asmodeus’ ears covered as he asked, “Where are we goin’? What happened?”

Lucifer shook his head, blinking out tears. “C-Can’t say.”

“So…” Mammon glanced at his little siblings, then behind Lucifer. “Where are we goin’?”

“Simeon’s. M-Miss Peugeot will understand.”

Mammon carefully let his siblings out of his arms, then helped them stand up. “‘kay.” He took Belphegor from Lucifer, and Levi’s hand. Asmodeus clung to Leviathan’s side, holding their bunny plushie in their arm. “W-We’ll have fun there. Miss Peugeot is nice, remember?” He squeezed Levi’s hand, and the child nodded.

“We h-have to be quick.” Lucifer hurriedly ushered them all to the front door. He checked through the front windows and peephole, then slowly opened the door in hopes it wouldn’t make a sound. After the others exited, Lucifer heard the stairs creak. He froze, heartbeat increasing as the steps got closer to them. He set Beelzebub on his feet, then told him, “Hold [Azzy]’s hand.”

Wide-eyed, Mammon asked, “What are you doing?”

“I need y-you to take them there. I’ll make sure he c-can’t catch up.” Lucifer wanted his body to stop trembling, but it wouldn’t. Voice low, he insisted, “[Mammon], you need to go now.”

Sniffling and nodding, Mammon lead the children away from the house. Lucifer closed the door, and ran into his father’s chest immediately upon turning around. “What do you think you’re doing?”

“D-Daddy…” Lucifer backed into the door, shaking and wiping off his face. “I… I didn’t do anything.”

“Lying won’t get you anywhere.” Adam grabbed Lucifer’s chin and forced him to lock eyes. “Who were you talking to?” Despite his situation, Lucifer couldn’t help being relieved. He didn’t realize what was going on… so they would be safe. “I know Evelyn won’t be home for another hour.”

“Th-The neighbors were asking about the noise. I told them th-that we w-were playing.” Adam narrowed his eyes, then let go of Lucifer’s face. “That’s all. I-I swear.”

“On your life?”

A few tears rolled down Lucifer’s cheeks. He swallowed and nodded fast. “On m-my life.”

“Good.” Adam walked towards the kitchen, and Lucifer’s body tensed. There was a moment of silence. “[Lucifer], come here.”

Lucifer joined his father in the kitchen, legs feeling like jelly. “Y-Yes?”

“Where are the twins?” Adam demanded, grabbing Lucifer’s arm. “You swore on your life, so tell me.” Lucifer whimpered and flinched when he was pulled closer. “Where are they? Tell me.”

“I-I don’t know.”

“You don’t know? I have a hard time believing that when those little shits cling to you and Evelyn every chance they get.”

“I-I said I don’t know.”

Adam threw Lucifer to the floor, and his head hit the refrigerator. A weak yelp escaped him, and he held the spot that hurt. “I’ll deal with you after I get rid of this.” Adam kicked Lilith’s body, and Lucifer both wanted to kill the man as well as run for his life. “Can’t believe she didn’t get right back up. You always did.” Watching his little sister’s body lay limp, Lucifer could feel a sob in his throat. How could he not care less about his own daughter? His little toddler… who he just murdered not even ten minutes ago…

Lucifer could see Adam digging around the cupboards in the corner of his eye. Attempting to keep his labored breath minimal, he silently crawled to the counter and used it to help him to his feet. When Adam said nothing, he began to look for something to attack with. He grabbed the frying pan hanging from the above head counters. He’d accidentally hit his head on it a thousand times before, and it hurt, so surely if he used enough force it would do something…

As quiet as he could, Lucifer stayed on his toes and stepped towards his father. With no reaction from the man, Lucifer swung as hard as he could and banged the pan against Adam’s skull. He fell to the floor, knocked out cold. Lucifer realized he was lightheaded and leaned back against the countertop, beginning to hyperventilate. He looked around the kitchen again, eyes landing on the knife block. Somehow he felt like the knives were calling to him, wanting him to use them.

If he killed Adam, none of them would ever be hurt again…

He stared off, imagining it, wondering what the consequences would be, would he be able to live with it…?

Sniffling, barely breathing, and crying, Lucifer hurried upstairs to his room. He grabbed his phone from his parents’ bedroom dresser, hid in their closet, and dialed for the authorities. He felt like he was going to pass out, and couldn’t get himself to slow his breathing…

By the time the police arrived, Lucifer was curled up in a tight ball and sobbing. A police officer had found him quickly, and she escorted him out of the house. “You’re safe now.” Lucifer wasn’t registering anything she said, too focused on the panic overwhelming his mind and capturing his body. “We’re taking your father away. You’re safe now, so let’s try to simmer down, okay?”

[belphieslilcow]

fav color: pink!!

last song: I had to look but it was volo's final battle theme from legends!!

currently reading: uhmm nothing atm I don't really... read anymore.... (except when I bother to read manga, and fics ig)

last movie: NO IDEA I don't watch movies, but it might've been the first diary of a wimpy kid movie I rewatched with my brother months ago

sweet/savory/spicy: oh absolutely savory!!

currently working on: theres a fic I've semi written that I might finish of cass and belphie taking a bath together

uhhh I'll tag @sakura-chan-25 and @iwannawritelots but as always anyone can do it from me

Tagged by @theinsouciantknitter! Thanks, love!

Things to know!

Favorite Color: Pink! Then olive green, then black~

Last Song: Rock On!!

Currently Reading: Uhhh...Whatever Dabi fic I can get my hands on?

Last Movie: Real Genius, because my lovely spouse decided that I needed to watch it and I got really invested and now it's a comfort movie.

Sweet/savory/spicy: Yes? I love all?

Currently working on: My BNHA x OM crossover universe. I'm working on a little oneshot for it and...fuck. I am not proud of the things that I have done. But also, I understand the smut writer's dilemma of having to pause while writing. 🙈

Tagging: @sassykattery @yourboyhack @jeschalynn @attic-club-sandwich and whoever else would like to play!

[obeythedemons]

MC Monday Prompt #14

MC! Monday Masterlist  

He pauses as he looked inside his wardrobe, closet, or pile of clothes on the floor. He’s missing something. His mind thinks of what could have happened to that article of clothing. Did MC take it?

-- Who did MC steal from? What did they steal? What are they using it for?

Thank you @iwannawritelots for the prompt!

[iwannawritelots]

Heartbeat: Squish

Originally written April-May 2023

AO3 - I usually post here first!

Part 2

Human AU Masterlist

Characters Active: Solomon (14), Asmodeus (14)

Trigger/content warnings: none

Headcanons/notes from the author: I love writing about these dorks… -3-

Brief Blurb: Solomon meets Asmodeus for the first time in high school.

Taglist (feel free to ask to be added): @graveswrites

Solomon stared off into nothing, not knowing how approach anyone. He was often written off as the strange kid, and it seemed like high school wouldn’t change that very much. Everyone else knew each other already. He snapped his attention to the door when it loudly opened, and the thought he instantly had upon seeing the person coming through would haunt him for the rest of his life.

Damn, they’re tall as fuck.

He watched them sit down, not really realizing the entire time. Their backpack was bedazzled with jewels and pins. The skirt and high heels they wore complimented each other well. When the teacher called for attention, Solomon’s face flushed bright red. He finally registered that he had indeed been staring — at someone he didn’t even know! — for at least five minutes.

The teacher welcomed everyone and began to have students stand one by one to introduce themselves. When she began to call out last names starting with “M”, the tall person Solomon had stared at stood up. “I’m Asmodeus Morningstar.” They took a deep breath, smiled, then continued, “My pronouns are they/them today. I moved here with my siblings about five summers ago…” Asmodeus curled their hair around their finger, then uncurled it. “If I were an animal, I would be a bunny.”

Without another word, they sat down. Of all animals, a bunny? Solomon stared at his hands. What kind of animal was everyone else saying? Wait, what was he going to say?

Wait! They said they/them pronouns!

Solomon fumbled with his hands. He never wanted to be friends with someone so badly in his life. Another trans person, and someone who dressed so cool, and shared an interest with him!

Once introductions were over, the teacher told them to partner up. Solomon scrambled to Asmodeus. “Hi, Asmodeus.”

They flashed their beautiful grin at him. “Hello Solomon.” They hummed and inspected their nails for a moment. “Are you wanting to be partners?”

“Ah, yes.” Solomon nodded and grinned. “If that’s alright with you, of course.”

“I see no issue with it.” Asmodeus took the paper the teacher was passing out when she walked by. “We’re supposed to ask each other the questions on this list, it looks like.” They frowned at the bottom of the paper. “Some of these are going to show the ugly side of me.”

Solomon brought his hand to his chin. Having heard this, his anxiety simmered down a bit. “Oh? Whatever could be the ugly side of you?”

“Well… ‘something that bothers you’ is one of them.” Asmodeus gazed at Solomon for a moment, then set the paper down on their lap. “I suppose we’ll start with that one.”

“Okay.” Solomon raised an eyebrow. “What’s something that bothers you, then?”

Humming for a moment, Asmodeus stared off. “I guess… sand.”

Solomon snorted. “Sand?”

“Yeah. It’s coarse, and rough, and it gets everywhere.”

A fit of giggles erupted from Solomon, and he quickly covered his mouth in attempt to muffle it. “D-Did you just… reference Star Wars?”

“You have a Yoda keychain on your backpack. I thought you’d appreciate it.” Asmodeus bit their lip to stifle an obnoxious laugh, but it didn’t cover up the way they were beaming. “Plus… sand actually does all of those things and I hate it. Anakin has a point, y’know?”

Solomon nodded, unable to stop giggling. Maybe they wanted to be friends, too…

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[iwannawritelots]

Happiness After Adversity: Then Leave

Originally written April 2023

AO3 - I usually post here first!

Part 2

Human AU Masterlist

Characters Active: Lucifer (23), Ariel (24), Simeon (22), Satan (3 months)

Ship(s): I guess technically Lucifer/Ariel lol

Trigger/content warnings: couple fight, family issues, brief mention of previous abuse towards the end

Headcanons/notes from the author: heya! This is the beginning of the Lucifer/Diavolo focused line<3

Brief Blurb: Ariel tells Lucifer her feelings on being a parent.

Taglist (if you wish to be added, feel free to ask!): @graveswrites

After hours of classes, a longer commute than normal, and being drenched in rainfall for his half-hour walk to the house, Lucifer was ready to relax. Once he took off his boots and coat, he walked towards his bedroom. It was quiet, which was unusual for the house in general. Usually Satan would be crying, or his siblings would be causing chaos, or Simeon would be cooking dinner, or Ariel would welcome him home…

“Lucifer.”

The tone of Ariel’s voice stopped Lucifer in the doorway of their bedroom. “Ariel… is everything okay?” He glanced at the crib, which was empty. Attempting to mask his fright, he inquired, “Where’s Satan?”

“Satan is with Simeon.” She patted next to herself on the bed. “I need to talk to you about something.”

Despite his body screaming at him not to go closer, he did. This felt wrong. Ariel felt distant, and wasn’t looking at him. “Ariel, what happened?”

It was quiet for a moment. “I… don’t think I can handle this anymore, Lucifer.”

Burning anxiety built up in Lucifer’s chest. “Can’t handle what anymore?” Tears began to prick at his eyes, but he blinked them away. Had he done something? He was trying so hard to be more open with her…

“This… parent stuff. I can’t keep doing this.” Ariel tried to meet Lucifer’s eyes, but he refused. “Lucifer, please look at me.”

“No.” Lucifer muttered a swear as he wiped away an escapist tear. “How long have you felt like this?”

“A month, at least. I thought maybe I was just frustrated, so I didn’t say anything…” Ariel crossed her arms and sighed, then added, “I think I just got caught up in us being straight passing, and having a life I was told I needed to when I was younger.” Lucifer sniffled and rubbed his eyes, still refusing to gaze at the woman he loved. He wanted to hate her now. “The truth is, while I was excited at first… this isn’t a life I want. I’m selfish if I stay and selfish if I go.”

Lucifer shook his head, a wobbly, frustrated chortle escaping him. “I wish you would have told me that sooner.”

“Lucifer, I wanted to be sure before I told you anything.” Ariel blinked out a couple of tears, then cautiously wrapped an arm around her boyfriend. “I don’t plan on just leaving if you really want me to stay. It doesn’t feel right to keep it from you, is all. I know how much you value your family. I also know you wouldn’t want Satan to have a parent that… can’t give him the love he deserves.”

Of course, she was right. Lucifer wanted her to be wrong, and wanted nothing more than for this to be a nightmare he could wake from. He could feel his heart shattering, his body quivering, and every single expectation for his future falling apart. Everyone he loved hurt him no matter what he did. “I… want you to leave.” He squirmed away from Ariel and stood up, ignoring how desperately he wanted to cling to her a moment longer. “I-I want you to pack up and leave, right now. I can’t talk to you like this.”

“Lucifer—”

“I will not say it again!” Lucifer snapped, voice cracking. “You’re no longer welcome here!”

Ariel opened her mouth, then closed it and exhaled long through her nose. “Okay. I’ll leave.”

“Where the fuck is Simeon?”

“In their room.”

Lucifer scrambled out of his room and up the stairs, then burst into Simeon’s room. They jumped, eyes wide as they took in their best friend’s face. “Luci?” They adjusted Satan in their arms, then carefully approached him. “Lucifer, what’s going on?”

“D-Did you know that Ariel…” Lucifer grit his teeth and grunted as he wiped away his tears, “… Never mind. I want to hold Satan…”

Slowly, Simeon complied with Lucifer’s needs and passed over the baby. “Luci, tell me what’s going on, please.”

“A-Ariel isn’t welcome here right now. She’s leaving.”

Simeon furrowed their eyebrows and pressed their lips into a line. “I see. I’ll get her out.”

Before Lucifer could say anything, Simeon left the room. He sat on Simeon’s bed and cradled Satan, not knowing what to do. His mind raced, flashing back to his father’s abuse, his mother’s neglect, his siblings’ hopelessness… him being the only one that could take care of them despite it all. Was he just incapable of having the smallest bit of trust?

He looked at Satan’s sleeping face. He didn’t know anything. He wasn’t even able to talk back or do any damage yet. He was just a baby, not even half a year old, and Ariel decided she couldn’t do it. “I… We don’t need her. It’ll be okay.” He kissed Satan’s forehead and released a breath he hadn’t realized he was holding. “I can take care of you by myself.”

Lucifer was a fool to trust anyone with his family but himself.

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