#I loved you then I love you still

[dhampiravidi]

I Loved You Then, I Love You Still (1/2)

Jason Todd did not like Jayn. And she was fine with that.

Jayn arrived at Wayne Manor with red-rimmed eyes. Despite her having flown from California to New Jersey, she had no luggage. She had nothing except the clothes on her back and a sealed letter that was addressed to Bruce. Alfred coaxed her out of the town car, and she was trembling, exhausted emotionally. He led her through what looked like a damn museum and she passed out as soon as she was given a bed to sleep in. When she woke up (still fully dressed), she used the bathroom and then went downstairs, following the smell of food. She hadn't realized that her mother's letter was gone until she saw it in Bruce Wayne's hand.

The letter was written to her, which she hadn't expected. But thirteen year-olds don't expect to telekinetically hurl water at a bully, or to be driven to the airport instead of straight home after school, or to watch their mother be escorted off of a plane and into a car while they're already seated. In the letter, her mommy apologized for lying. Her mommy told her that her father was Bruce Wayne, who used to be her boss and boyfriend thirteen years before. Her mommy explained how Jayn was a metahuman, and that the people who wanted the superhuman serum inside of her took her away. Jayn didn't react to the part that said her new father was Batman, because she was busy sobbing. It was too much. The boy her age, who sat at the dinner table, had an unreadable expression. Her father hugged her, but she wouldn't hug back.

He/Bruce/her father made sure she had lots of clothes in her size. Alfred helped her pick them out, because Bruce was busy working. It all seemed fake. She didn't want lots of clothes, or a bedroom in a mansion, or a new parent. She wanted her old clothes, and her room with the sunset that her mom's friend had painted, and her mother. Jayn went from sad to angry very quickly. Wherever she went, the room was cold. She hardly spoke to anyone.

And then Jason called her a bitch. In Spanish, her Mommy's language. Her FIRST language. Long story short, her punishment was to join Jason in the exercises he did as part of his Robin training. His punishment was just being there with her, apparently. But at least he got to be a hero. At least he got to have fun at school. Bruce wanted her homeschooled, so that the people who took her mom didn't find her.

Things changed when Jason broke his hand on patrol. Jayn told herself that she didn't feel bad for him. He was always gloating about beating her in the weightlifting and running drills, even though he was the one who had months of being Robin as an advantage. And with a broken hand, he was exempt from half of the exercises as it was. But one day, she was walking by the library and found him, struggling to push the rolling ladder. Bruce had told her and Jason that they weren't supposed to climb it by themselves, because they could easily get hurt (even with training, she was only 5'1" and Jason was shorter than her).

"Bruce told us not to do that," she muttered, stopping just because she'd rather lag behind than go start on her French homework.

"Fuck off." Jason actually cursed more than she did, but they both had to hide it from the adults of the house.

"Fine." She was going to leave until she saw how dangerous it would be for him, climbing with one hand--especially if he planned on carrying more than one book on his way down. "Ugh. Move and guard the hall." He hesitated for a moment, then did as she told him. "What book did you want?"

"Hamlet." Jayn grabbed the thing, along with a book that happened to catch her eye, and quickly scurried back down to earth, not wanting to be banned from any more of Alfred's baking (it was the worst punishment you could get, aside from having to run extra laps).

"Why didn't you just look it up and read it?"

Jason scoffed, but there was a little less venom in that than usual. He actually looked...embarrassed? "...GA's doing it for the winter play."

"Who are you trying out for?"

"Hamlet. Or Horatio."

"That's his best friend, right?" Jayn wasn't a big fan of Shakespeare, but she wasn't uncultured, either. Jason nodded. He walked off toward the hall, then stopped.

"What book did you get?"

"Sherlock Holmes. An anthology." His eyes brightened, even though he tried to look bored. "You can read it next week, when I'm done."

So they first bonded over their love of books and plays. He was mostly into nineteenth-century classics, like Jane Eyre, while she preferred modern fiction, but they found some titles that they liked to talk about together. She helped him prepare for his audition, and helped Alfred make Jason's favorite cookies so they were ready after school (despite Jason losing the role of Hamlet, he got Horatio). He showed her how to pick locks and do basic mechanical work, so she coached him in swimming and in Spanish (he also helped her learn French and his Italian).

The first time Jayn hugged Jason was when he (with Alfred's help) convinced Bruce to let her patrol with them, as Kestrel.

The first time she thought he was cute was when she'd had a terrifying nightmare after a breakout at Arkham and he'd stayed with her until she fell asleep (yes, he was still there in the morning, bedhead and all).

The first time she realized she was in love with him was when he got a girlfriend (they lasted exactly 41 days). Jayn may have created a thunderstorm the night of their first date.

They didn't have anyone they wanted to ask to prom (at least, that's what they told Bruce), so they figured they'd go together. They even chose to match, his tie to her dress.

Jason Todd was killed seventeen days before Gotham Academy's prom. Jayn didn't go to prom. She didn't go to the funeral. She didn't go to Oxford, which both she and her best friend had gotten accepted to. To all outward appearances, she just disappeared.

[robyn-i-guess]

liking someone platonically is so embarrassing like. yeah i admire you. yeah i think about you all the time. yeah i look forward to every time i see you even if it's only for a minute. yeah it's all platonic and yeah i couldn't explain this because it'd sound romantic. fucking hell

[dendrochronologies]

maya angelou saying the funniest thing anyone has ever said about editing, which i can never let myself forget EVER AGAIN [x]

[churroach]

Full of Desires

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

License to Kitty.

[demaparbat-hp]

He's never happy

[noelledeltarune]

EVERY SINGLE DAY there are MILLIONS of characters in their late 20s who get falsely accused of being father figures to teenagers when in reality the description of "weird older cousin" or "step-sibling that moved out before you were born" is 1000000x more apt

[noodles-and-tea]

I don’t know if it’s just because of Alex’s personal voice quirks or whatever but Bill and Stan talk in quite a similar manner and my personal head canon is that Bill does it on purpose to mess with Ford :(

[dazzlerazz]

Screw terfs n all but are you normal about transgirls who don't want to medically transition? Are you normal about transguys with boobs who don't wear binders? Are you normal about the trans people who only want to socially transition because that's what's right for them? Are you normal about the transgirls with beards? Are you normal about the transguys who love their curves? Screw terfs, but are you normal about trans people?

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[dhampiravidi]

I Loved You Then, I Love You Still (2/2)

Valentine's Day had become one of Jayn's favorite holidays as an adult. Sex was an excellent part of it (not like she ever waited til February to fuck), but it was nice having friends and close family to share the day with, too. And she had Jason.

They'd started the day nice and early, with their "as long as we're not sick or injured" tradition: right at midnight, they jumped each other's bones. It was nice, waking up later that morning all naked and cuddly. She loved seeing his hair all overfluffed, and seeing him with a peaceful smile when she gently moved his signature white tuft out of his eyes. "Hey."

"Hey." They fooled around under the sheets, then a little more when they got into the shower. Jason cooked breakfast as usual, which the couple ate together before Jayn went off to work. Working on Valentine's Day wasn't her ideal situation, but it wasn't out of the ordinary, either. She continued to be in a good mood, spending most of the morning having coffee-sponsored conversations with Tim. He and she shared an open-concept office, which was basically one floor with just their two desk spaces a few yards apart (plus The Couch for Sleeping, a few art pieces, and Tim's $16000 coffee machine). As they worked on their laptops, they chatted about their bigoted board members, unique investors, and beloved R&D initiatives, sharing both groans and laughter. Then, hours and hours later, Jayn was done for the day.

She picked Jason up, and they drove over to Wayne Manor. Usually, the visit didn't last long, since they only went there to drop off some holiday cards and hug the members of their family who lived there. Alfred always checked the two of them for poorly-dressed wounds before handing them a Tupperware of leftovers and a reminder to come back for Sunday family dinner. But Jayn had another reason to visit. While Jason was in the kitchen with Alfred and Bruce, she went up to her old bedroom, making a beeline for the closet.

When Bats moved out of the Manor, their rooms were left untouched, mostly in the event that they had to sleep in there again for some reason. She ignored her high school-era posters and dug through all the stuff that hid Jason's gift. It was just the thing to mark their five-year anniversary (of dating)...an annotated copy of Hamlet. In fact, it was the exact same copy they'd used to help Jason train before he had his audition when they were teenagers. Jayn had reread and put comments in the margins, the same way her boyfriend did when he read novels. She'd put hers in a small gift bag that was stuffed with wrapping paper.

Anyway, that's what she was pulling out when something soft and cool brushed her neck. Jayn straightened up, bag in hand, to see what had come into contact with her skin, and froze.

It was the dress she'd never worn. The one she'd bought for prom. She hadn't bothered having a quinceanera, because her mother couldn't be there. A prom was gonna be her big, perfect dance, and she was going with Jason...even if they were just going as friends.

He ended up finding her curled up on the bed, hugging the gift bag to her chest. And then he wordlessly served as her big spoon. It wasn't like he'd gotten to go to prom, either.

[saelrum]

"Was I sweet once?"

[mrtequilasunset]

Listen man, you guys can't be like "you guys need to be normal about asexuality" and then turn around and get weirdly judgemental when you find out someone doesn't have sex by choice. Like that's weird that some of you do that.

[femmeofhearts]

i hope (know) this is how everyone who has ever fumbled me feels

[beebfreeb]

Louisiana Meshi!!!! Thistle will be at the crawfish boil.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Hey now, Let her cook!

[cowardlycowboys]

girl who needs to ask for reassurance would rather be stabbed than admit they have needs

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