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can i just say. and this is probably a niche hill to die on. that i am so gobsmacked every time someone vaguely hints at the idea that jotaro doesn't care meaningfully for the other crusaders, usually particularly kakyoin and joseph, when those two actually tend to be the ones he reacts to being hurt the hardest
like he cares for his loved ones!!!! that literally plays into his character motives in every single part he shows up in!!! stop lying to me!!!!!!!
#me.txt#jjba#i'm going to ramble in tags actually. excuse me#ok. rereading sdc and so confused at the general perception of jotaro and his friends/family. he's not NEARLY as flat or as dickish#i understand that the anime (particularly the dub) tends to slander him but even then he still clearly cares for them! i'm confused#i also understand that a lot of people dig against jotaro and kakyoin as a dynamic because 'they're popular' and that generally disliking#popular things across media is a thing that i've seen consistently everywhere but the discredit to them simply as a DUO and not even as a#pairing is so..... odd..... like they're considered to be a duo that clicks for a reason. i enjoyed them even before i got into the fandom#every time i see someone say jotaro is overrated/dull i take a shot and assume they're an anime-only or only read the manga like once btw#joseph and jotaro also have a neat dynamic and they obviously both love and care for each other. like they're not going to go around loudly#or anything but literally the entirety of the lovers and the prelude to the dio fight IS jotaro being worked up over joseph getting hurt#equally i don't know if it translates to the anime as much but joseph is VERY complimentary when it comes to jotaro. like he sings his#praises so often and reminds everyone that he's his grandson so frequently (d'arby the gamer is a good example of this). either way it's so#peculiar....... there's not enough avdol and jotaro content btw (also in canon) because jotaro obviously looks up to him and avdol jokes#around with him on the occasion they interact after their intro which doesn't start very well. it's very cute#i do think an important thing to note about jotaro's character is how he acts AFTER his intro because he's so drastically different. early#jotaro and later jotaro aren't the same character and i do not mean this in a character development way. excluding the jail incident he's#completely different and probably shouldn't really be taken into account (especially considering the amount of slapstick in araki's intros)#and i think that's really???? what people center on for his character? Which sucks balls bad!#anyways. i could ramble more about this if asked i have so much to say but sigh. jotaro cares so much for his friends and family he's not a#flat fully cold asshole character regardless of whether you watch the anime or ova or read the manga. you just have poor media literacy#i wouldn't recommend watching solely the anime for his character though. the dub also changes a lot so it's... questionable#i love the anime and it's still important for him though. also adds neat stuff. i need to stop myself. i have many thoughts on the matter#jotaro kujo#joseph joestar#noriaki kakyoin#adding in case anyone sees: i am not saying that he is perfect about this. in fact he is very ass about it with jolyne and holly and that's#very important. he also is in fact an asshole sometimes. NOT as much as you guys are making him though!#please don't get me started on how much of a dick etc people make kakyoin to veer away from the 'woobified' characterizations of him#in fact i think that's bad if not worse because it CLAIMS to be in character. hes a prim asshole at times but not that angry or dishevelled
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Hands are too shaky these days
#this is old art from july that i never got around to posting. think of it as a surprise treat :)#i wish i had the energy or the creative drive to draw more them i am still insane about them but idk idk#drawing things that are at least canon adjacent is taxing. idk. would you guys like if i went off the hook with it?#oh btw dw bout me guys I'm alright and when i say stuff like this^^^ im not like forcing myself to draw or anything#I've got a healthy relationship with these stuff i like to think. nust helps when there's extra motivation#anyway you didn’t ask for this rant uhhhh loss of fine motor skill post revival (re: disability) my beloved#hope you're doing swell and that you enjoy <3#dsmp fanart#cwilbur#cquackity#my art#ctntduo#fennec.art
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I wish I could tell the original artist that this drawing permanently changed the entire direction of my life in 2009. I want to shake their hand, look them in the eye, and admit I would not be who I am today if this drawing didn’t exist.
EDIT: Original artist is @ivynajspyder !!!!
#‘but jojo’ you ask. ‘that seems a little ridiculous’#‘don’t you think that’s a little much?’#no. NO. IT IS THE TRUTH.#little baby middle schooler jojo had just gotten squeak squad. the first kirby game she ever owned.#and she loved it even tho there’s a lot she didn’t understand#like who dedede was supposed to be or why copy abilities existed#I asked for the game because my roommate at swim camp had it and she told me the plot of the game when I looked over her shoulder to watch#(the plot she told me was completely made up btw she said kirby had to save the dimension from dark overlord and did not mention the squeak#and said stuff about meta knight being a bad guy idk I realize now she was just weaving a tale of her own haha)#SO I WAS NOT AWARE OF THE LORE. I had only played the one game and it’s the one people don’t like the plot of#but meta knight completely intrigued me#what was this blue sword wielding little kirby dude doing here??#so I’d replay his boss fight over and over again just to get that glimpse at his face#and I’d sit and wonder what it all meant. who was this mysterious swordsman??#and the boss fight was hard!!! it cost me to beat it at the time but I’d still do it to see his face#AND THEN AFTER LIKE A YEAR OF THIS it occurred to me that there was a kirby wiki online#so I found all the pictures of his face and my little fangirl-raised-by-deviantart mind ATE THIS UP.#and then I look up that one fateful google search……… the one that changed me#meta.#knight.#maskless.#and this drawing was towards the top of the results#I went feral about a fandom related topic for the very very first time#I lost my MIND. HOW can a character be so cute AND COOL??! I was a changed child.#I consumed the hoshi no kaabii anime like it was the only piece of media on earth#I drew comics about him. I made my first kirby oc ever to go on a grand adventure on him.#I filled my notebooks with kirby art to the point my mom was like ‘jossie. you REALLY need to branch out. these are just orbs.’#and now I am the kirby artist I am today. so yes. YES. this drawing did change my life.#thanks for reading. and thanks to the original artist. I tried to find them to link but nothing. so if you know pls tell me#THE END!!! and remember! your art makes a difference in people’s lives even if they don’t say it to your face!!!!
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HIHIHI!!!! I just found out abt ur acc and u are so cool ⭐️⭐️⭐️
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how long have you been drawing and h what do u use for ur art (you’ve probably been asked this one a billion times)
Hello !!!! And welcome!! My posts are kinda infrequent lol just kinda depends on what I'm able to do and what I'm interested in at the moment,,,
I've been drawing ever since I was like, 5, and went with traditional paper and pencil for the longest time (my Undertale obsession helped me improve the most here), so I usually favor those mediums! If you're wondering about my art program for digital art, I use FireAlpaca ! Thanks so much for the compliments and asking!!
#I like when you guys ask me stuff btw :]#I also like using alcohol markers a lot...#if you wanna see my non-osc art (aka mostly undertale stuff) check out my main: crystallizedcheese#ive kinda resorted using this blog for object stuff... if you guys dont mind me posting undertale here.... ;P yknow#lemme knowww !#ask#key answers#therandomcreechur
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I should be allowed to attack customers like actually
#text#some guy came in and tried to sell me a bag of rusty spoons cuz “theyre antique!!” and when i was like oh no we don't buy from people#he thought i was lying and was like well who here does?? and i was nobody.#then immediately after some ladies came in and asked if i could give them a discount on a picture and i was like um no and then they#got weird and left#and our store is in a window display contest so we can't sell anything out the window until after Christmas and people think im lying when#say I cant sell stuff out the window they're like well. can you ask? and im like NO i can't ask she told me mot to sell it already!!#you aren't the exception to our stores rules oh my God!! im going to attack you!!!#haven't sold a single thing today btw#rant#sorry lol
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question !!! can people you block interact with your blog ?
#camera talks#im so serious right now btw#very very genuine ask#i think this is a stupid stupid question#but i keep getting a ton of notifications/notes that dont show up (like 3 notes but if i look at who liked it i can only see 2 people)#and im a fucking paranoid guy#and i think im overreacting about it but i makes me super uncomfortable to think that a certain person i blocked Could look at my stuff#and its not the same as when people like then unlike btw. if they do that i can see in on my phone notifs but this doesnt show up there..#sorry guys. your local silly guy is spiraling sometimes#anyways. if yall actually know i'd kinda love an answer#love you guys <3
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#Sorry but since I am on year 6 of running this blog I have little patience for people being weird at me here now#and im too tired for it and going to block you if i feel like you continuously make my blogging experience uncomfortable#I like reblogging the art and memes and seeing what's going on but not fielding the weird stuff so I'm turning asks off and also#I don't want to answer ask-like questions in private messages either but I can't turn them off completely#or else I would turn them off too... so not trying to be mean but please don't send me any more#if I didn't answer you there the last time. I'm saying this bc I like interacting w most of yall but at this moment I want it to be#not as an ask blog... but just chilling next to you as some guy looking at memes if that makes sense#I might turn asks on again sometime later on if I actually have new stuff to talk about#like when duff note finally comes out#This is not directed at most people here but just a couple btw thx!#p
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I miss that brief golden era from like 2012 to 2016 when the online witchcraft community was actually good and full of open minded people looking to learn more and share what they know plus maybe the occasional vampire middle schooler instead of the situation now where it's been taken over by capitalist tiktok transphobes who like to come up with ways to shift to hogwarts via their inherent magical vagina powers and then sell coated quartz to cure cancer instead of seeing doctors.
#hal rambles#saying controversial things tonight i guess#btw i have done astral projection and at first when i heard about shifting i was like#'oh basically a different name for the same thing?'#then it turns out these guys are just lucid dreaming and thinking that takes them to an entire other universe#like fine enough i don't want to be mean about someone's beliefs#And then i find out about some of the dramas involved and I'm just like o_O#pls use your critical thinking skills#This is way more important when it comes to stuff like herbology though#because not checking side effects dosage etc can legitimately KILL YOU DEAD#and I've seen. So many incredibly stupid things. only to ask for a source and they send me a link to a tiktok...#This is vagueposting about certain friends#Like tiktok 'witchcraft' is completely counter to all the good I've seen in the community last decade#It's ABOUT thinking critically and learning#It's ABOUT exploring ideas that are not the most popular and not taking mainstream beliefs for absolute granted#And so much more!#Yes it can also be about belief and intuition but you have to use that responsibly#Think about why you are tempted to something#Is it actually from your subconscious or some sort of sign or did something online suggest this to you#And that's not to say all internet knowledge is bad - sometimes people do make original and useful observations on here#or compile existing resources/knowledge#But you've got to THINK about it#Same with stuff in books and from people. I'm not the 'it's published so it's automatically legit' type#Sorry for the rant#I'm up a bit too late and i was thinking about it#Time to go dream about killing someone for the Aesthetic and Drama (my favorite lucid dream series)#(and you see - I'm not going into another universe and murdering people via lucid dreaming about it)
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OKAY. SO. i'm going to be directly pulling from the wiki + ttrpg text & abridging some of it. here we go. little bowl of seeds for u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so. the circumstances leading up to the trigger event influence the power granted. half the state of mind, and half the scenario that they're in. taylor was in a situation where she was isolated, blind and powerless and felt like everyone was conspiring against her-- either directly (planning for fucking weeks to get her into the locker) or indirectly (ignoring her inside, not letting her out) etc. she triggered as a master, someone who can see everything and control so many things so exactly and specifically and she has something (her bugs) there for her, in some sort of fucked up companionship, in response to that. the overview is as follows!!
^this is the gist of it!!!!!! the ttrpg also goes into more in depth on many of these-- i won't send u 1 billion screenshots Now (spoilers in the gdocs u r Not allowed in there) but. here r a couple irt the nhw for flavor :}
also holy shit now i can be so so so fucking annoying about Why i gave the nhw the powers i did... i kind of got into it w/ the trigger events. but like. still..!!!!!!!!!!!
OHHHHHHHH MY GOD. HOLY SHIT. YEAH UR RIGHT I WAS THINKING ABOUT IT FROM THE WRONG ANGLE. OH MY GODDDD DUDE . THIS IS SO FUCKING TASTY. MY MIND IS GOING ABT A BILLION MILES AN HOUR RNNNN ohhhh god this got so long i gotta out it under a cut. im having so many thoughts dude
i would LOVE the essay about each of the nhw triggers btw. i can SEE your vision i can FEEL your vision. william feeling so fucking isolated in his hometown leading him to have master powers. his. idk weird relationship with ghosts/monsters/death coupled with his EXTREME near death experience manifesting in his breaker powers. UGHHH thats so good. TRUMP POWERS BEING CAUSED BY DIRECT INVOLVEMENT BY ANOTHER CAPE IN THE TRIGGER EVENT. VIRION WATCHING HIS DAD SLAUGHTER THEIR ENTIRE PARTY/FRIENDS/FAMILY. dakota being lost in the crowd after losing his parents, knowing something bad is happening but not knowing exactly what, catching glimpses of the fight and the blood and the horror but still not fully understanding, not knowing how or if he'll ever find his parents again and that manifesting in his thinker powers. also that zone/quick/farsight thing holy FUCK thats so failsafe. "loss of autonomy, being situationally restricted/overwhelmed" manifesting as sensing people in his immediate environment. "results from tunnel vision in views/character, incorrect perceptions" (can we say dakota damascus hero worship!) manifesting as powers that go beyond the usual senses (fear/pain sense!). i honestly think the Quick part would come more from his second trigger, which is what gives him the Mover powers right? "panic, frantic inability to solve problems, rushed errors" <- not being able to catch katori in time, making the split second decision to fall after her, manifesting as his mover/thinker powers. being able to make those split second decisions midair and Actually Accomplish them, but by the time he triggered they were already too close to the ground and he couldnt save her anyway (<< and theres the tragic irony)
ohhhh i didnt mean to go off so much about failsafe but that just gave me a lot of feelings about his triggers :( ANYWAY THINKING ABOUT ASHE NOW. GOD. OKAY. right now. how are we feeling about Shaker/Breaker. ok ok im having a lot of thoughts here bear with me. idk if u have a more clear trigger for him in mind but the thing ive been thinking about all day since u sent me that first ask is. the call going out to evacuate because simurgh is coming. ashe's mom has to go get him from school and its a mad rush with all of the other parents trying to do the same thing. instead of immediately leaving, they go back to the house for some reason (she forgot something important? maybe her phone so she had no way to contact mark/see if he was okay? idk i havent worked that out yet.) and shes just. running around frantically grabbing things getting ready to leave and ashe is standing in the doorway not knowing what to do or how to help. and its like an earthquake hits. (i just keep thinking about chris's death and how fucking. sudden and brutal it was it has stuck with me for some reason). something big or heavy falls on her and just . immediately crushes either one or both of her legs. totally unable to move. and ashe starts panicking and shes obviously panicking but trying so hard to keep it together not to scare ashe anymore than he already is. and she tells him to go, tells him to follow the other people who are leaving, maybe find one of their neighbors and go with them. (side note here. if she got her phone. i want her to text mark here and tell him to come home. something really short and terrifying and panic inducing that breaks him out of his hesitation. "need help, come home, cant leave" something like that. worlds most miserable man these are the last words he has of his wife aha) ashe doesnt want to leave his mom! hes just a kid he doesnt know what the endbringers are or why theyre so scary or why THIS ONE IN PARTICULAR is so bad!! she keeps telling him not to worry, that dad will meet him there when hes safe, ashe immediately asks something like "but what about you?" and its very. disney movie parent dying level of tragedy. he triggers when she eventually cant hold it together anymore either from the pain or the panic and just starts. screaming at him. ashe you need to go you cant stay here you need to leave me im not coming with you etc etc etc.
ANYWAY. ALL THIS TO SAY. shaker powers come from environmental/ambient danger. i.e. a literal endbringer attack. maybe the house isnt structurally sound anymore but he doesnt want to leave his mom. breaker powers come from . well this is more of me maybe forcing the issue but i want the trickster to be a separate form or something. the abstract stressors here being. he knows something bad is happening but he doesnt know exactly what. he knows his mom cant move but he wants her to be able to so she can leave with him, shes yelling at him telling him to go, he doesnt know where his dad is, he doesnt want to go by himself. etc etc do you feel the vision here. taking this directly from that last paragraph about breakers too but like "knowing a situation is dangerous but not wanting to leave" yknow!!!!! i dont know exactly how this would manifest yet but goddd just. imagining it as something like. his shaker powers are the ones he can actually control and use normally but the trickster/breaker powers is what he turns into in situations similar to his trigger, where someone he loves is in danger. but the irony of it is that he cant really control his actions as the trickster and he just kind of. goes berserk on whatever is around him. absolutely brutal, maybe a little sadistic; its kind of perfect for situations like overlord where they do actually need to kill someone to get out of the situation, but with things like his trigger. well. the only living thing around him was his mom. so . wasnt pretty. is this anything . im in so much pain about this
final FINAL side note. i know we have mark as a cauldron cape but even if we didnt i think both his classifications working so fucking well ESPECIALLY tinker "solutionless problems over long periods, resulting in a crisis moment" what is more of a solutionless problme than knowing you and your son have been marked by the simurgh and deciding that instead of following protocol youre going to say fuck it all and get the two of you out of there by. nuking your entire lives and faking new identities and struggling to bounce back from somehting like that all while knowing the inevitability of. the fact that youve BEEN MARKED BY THE FUCKING SIMURGH. (also striker "results from an immediate threat, usually a single object or individual" hello? coming home to find your son in some demonic berserk state and your wife a bloody mess on the floor all while theres this overbearing scream/singing in your head ??? okayyyyy)
#GOD. THIS IS SO MUCH. TO BE FAIR I DID WARN YOU I WOULD BE SO INSUFFERABLE ABOUT NHW WINTERS FAMILY WHEN I GOT TO LEARN ABOUT THEM.#I DID WARN YOU. HI. I LOVE THEM. IM THINKING ABOUT THM SO MUCH literally all but one of my FOUR current wip fics involve either ashe or mar#i love them so much. guck#new haven wards#hiiiiii ros. hi. ohhhh my god. oh my god. oh hhhh my god dude. okay enough of this im going back to reading about noelle FUCKING FINALLY#YIPPPE#asks#friends!!!#wormposting#intertexts#also side note not important but you DID ask me the other day what i think my powers would be in worm. i AM still going to say#changer because ayyyyy transgenderisms and appearance issues for Basically My Whole Life#BUT IM SO MAD . I WOULD PROBABLY ALSO BE A MASTER. THE ONE THAT SCARES ME THE MOST. GOD DAMN IT.#I MEAN MASTERS ARE REALLY COOL BUT IM A GUY WHO HAS WEIRD RELATIONSHIPS WITH PUPPET IMAGERY. AND THE MOST TRAUMATIC MOMENT OF MY LIFE HAS A#LOT TO DO WITH BETRAYAL AND ISOLATION AND ALIENATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#<< this is slash silly btw i fucking love thinking abt stuff like this because im an insane person
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It's wild seeing how much disdain people have for Ian Flynn like my only beef with him is that he doesn't like dark sonic other than that he's okie 👍 yet some people are reaaaaaaaally reaching saying how he tarnished this series like that was a different Archie writer not Flynn lol
i dont care if people like ian flynn or not, or if they like the comics or not, i can think of some parts of both archie and idw that i dont really like, some of which ian flynn was responsible for. and also my opinions and taste in media are not universal. so people disliking idw sonic or ian flynns writing and criticizing it is fine. my problem is when people who clearly hate the comic and arent even having fun hatereading it just keep reading it and never shut up about it and find the tiniest things to get unreasonably mad over (like the art style being too cute or amy being strong or funny expressions being used or song lyric references in the dialogue. yes those are actual examples), flood the idw sonic tags with these kinds of posts, act like anyone who likes idw sonic and is tired of hearing from these types of people just has bad taste and cant handle hearing other peoples opinions (if anything the kinds of people im complaining about are the ones who cant handle hearing other peoples opinions), or they criticize the writers and artists in a way thats genuinely hateful like the person saying they hope ian flynn dies or whatever. like please just calm down and read something else
#also the way some of them will put their idw sonic hate on random peoples posts ??#ive literally had to block people because every time id make a post about idw sonic#they would respond with everything they hated about that issue or panel#flood my notifications by having a conversation with other idw haters on my post#and whenever i would go ''um can you guys talk about this somewhere else'' they would get mad at ME#and act like i was the one being rude or doing somethign wrong#asks#also i know that last part might be a bit hypocritical of me to say when i make fun of ken penders a lot#but the difference there is that ken penders actually deserves it.#and while i do genuinely dislike ken penders as a person most of my making fun of him is just silly light hearted jokes#not ''i wish ken penders would die tomorrow. i mean this completely seriously btw''#and im also saying all this stuff on tumblr. a site hes not active on. so theres a very low chance he'll ever see my posts#meanwhile theres twitter users saying horrible things about ian flynn as a person when hes active on there and can see their tweets#he publicly acknowledged the person saying he should die so he IS seeing some of this stuff
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I want to strangle this DJ for playing Reckless Love at an 80s party (not 80s inspired or glam in general, whole ass actual 80s along with ZZ Top, Cinderella etc)
#like hell yeah great that you're playing reckless love but i hope you get stoned by the elders who were actually around in the 80s#and can name every obscure band whose tapes they own and will immediately call you out for mistaking a song for released in the early 90s#i'm not actually at the bar btw i just saw the posts on their stories but dude please this is basic knowledge in your field#whatever i'm currently hunting for concerts somewhere near me so i can avoid my ex workplace unless one of them explicitly invites me#i bought tickets for tailgunner in selb without even knowing how exactly i'll get there and back lmao but it's in september so still time#i planned to stay at a hotel for the night because the car ride is hell even during the day and i'll probably only get out after midnight#but they're all so expensive or another half an hour away or in fucking czechia which i don't wanna deal with in the middle of the night#because i'd cross the border and if there's Stuff and i just want to Sleep after a long night uhhh not this time#if i wouldn't leave my sister by herself and the guys weren't driving a completely different route to their next show the following day#i would probably ask them for a ride tbh lol at this point i have no shame when it comes to flirting with bands#since i was asked to hop in the touring van by a swedish band i had just met half an hour ago why shouldn't it work with them too?#anyway i'm in desperate need of gig announcements but just like last year my depression's gotta last a bit longer until march at least 💔#mel talks
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Hi, I absolutely love your work and was wondering if you ever take commissions? 🥺
Oh my, I'm so flattered!!
I actually have taken a commission or two before, back in my earlier days as an artist and realized that I was wildly unprepared haha
There's a lot of legal stuff to look into if I plan to make it a regular thing (taxes, contracts, who owns the rights to the image, etc.)
So I don't have all the details worked out yet, but I might look into it again if more people are interested!
In the meantime, I plan on hosting events/activities in the near future and opening up a shop or a kofi (both?) :)
#ohh now you got me talking#thank you so much for the ask btw!! I just love hearing from you guys 💙💫✨️#questions like these also give me an idea of when is a good time to start doing stuff like commissions or opening my dream shop!#so don't be shy!! 💙💫✨️#ask <3
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Today at work our order was delivered. By the time it was delivered I was the only one there which is fine, I've done it before. But before she left my boss said, "You've got it all, right? Except for the fruit. Get Daniel to life the heavy fruit for you."
And I was immediately possessed by an elementary school girl who just heard her teacher say, "I need some strong boys to help me life these chairs."
I lifted all of that fucking fruit by myself.
#at every job ive had my strength has been underestimated#and ive been told to let a male coworker handle it#'are you sure you want the cart puching shift? thats normally the shift that the guys do'#'are you sure you can lift this? (the item in question was five pounds)'#'let the guys put away the order so you dont have to try and lift the heavy stuff'#at my first job (grocery bagged) an old woman asked me to get her three 25 pound bags of birdseed#birdseed was far away from the register and indidnt want to have to carry 75 pounds from one side of the store to the other#so i was about to grab a cart until the cashier said 'austyn you should probably get a cart for that'#then i was determined not to#so i carried 75 fucking pounds of birdseed in my arms. from one side of the store to the other. without stopping#stubborn? yes. stupid? a little. but im stronger than i look#and i dont like when people immediately tell me to get a man to do something#i lifted that fruit with ease btw. i didnt struggle. not once did i consider asking anyone for help
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when I was around twelve I used to sit at the family computer and send hatemail to a white french dude named Jacques who was a self proclaimed communist on Tumblr. This was back in the day when you didn't need a blog to send anon hate. I had no real beef with him but I just didn't like his tone. used to send him "SHUT UP Jacques" periodically. and he'd answer every single one of my asks like "who is this?? show your face or I'll fucking kill you" and I'd be like "now now, that doesn't make sense, jacques" all haughty and he'd get so fucking mad at me. One time he posted a selfie and I sent him an ask claiming I was a psychologist and that his hair parting suggested that he wasn't a communist at all. and he took it deliriously serious and went off on a 2,000 word rant. I can remember going to stay at my grandparents over that weekend, so I didn't even respond to the rant until I came back. I could've chosen to end it there, but when I returned, I sent him another ask which was like "psychologist here again: if you were a communist your hair parting would be in the middle. evenly distributed. All behavioural signs point to someone who doesn't take their own values seriously." and he went ballistic. really swearing at me. all caps type beat. he never turned the asks off, btw. which always made me wonder if he didn't know how to, or if he didn't want to cause he was convinced he was fighting a war, and this action would ensure he lost it. anyway this went on for weeks until one day I completely forgot about him like he was some kind of childhood imaginary friend I'd conjured up in my loneliness. but yesterday I happened to recall the whole scenario, because my buddy was like "remember when you were twelve and I came over to your house, and you showed me on the computer how you'd been terrorizing this random French guy for days on end. And you were laughing like fucking crazy. and I said it wasn't funny because he probably had problems, and you were like 'oh.' and you looked a bit guilty for a second, but then you went and got a grapefruit from the kitchen and threw it out of the second story window at my kid brother, who was playing in the street, and then you started laughing again?" Well. when she put it like that, needless to say I felt bad. so Jacques if you're out there I'm sorry I was such a little shit. you had totally normal hair, and you only wanted people to share stuff. If it's any consolation I know every day of my life that I'm probably going to hell for the sick things I have done
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oh so crazy my coworker friend was asking about my date and we’re discussing that i mention the location another coworker jumps into the discussion starts talking at length about his old job there so i talk to him about that for a bit and then go back to my original coworker to talk about my date he comes into the convo again showing photos of said job and it was like uh? oKay????
#personal#my friend coworker did not engage and left when he was showing photos and came by when he walked out but it was weird#like we were talking amongst ourselves about a specific topic he comes into the conversation and just dominates it with his thing?#and not to pull my autism card but pulling my autism card yeah that was off!!!#i want to like this guy but he pisses me off sometimes#like sometimes i’m at work with headphones in and he’ll start talking at me at length about something of his#which would be chill if we were hanging like that like i love a good dump session#but talks at you doesn’t rlly. expect real input? and dips#also complains a lot#oh and the other day i’m at my desk doing work with headphones on he comes up and is like hey graham#i’m like oh what’s up? and he starts asking questions about the printer and i’m like ? and answer them#which btw most questions where in regards to soemthing discussed in the teams chat#but i tell him and he’s like okay and goes and check to see if anyone is in line for the one working printer on the list in the other room#someone else comes to the printer i’m like woah hold up he’s checking rn but he was there#he comes by like oh hey no one is on the wait list! :) so i’m like okay? you. you can use it then?#and then him and the other coworker were looking at me and were like but who gets to use it first#and i should mention we all get paid the same and one of the two trained ME#so i’m like oh yall work that out and i put my headphones back in but it was weird#another dude in the office did something similar i was working on stuff with headphones in#he comes up to my desk like hey graham the specific machine is giving me an issue and i was like uh? i can take a look?#and he’s been here a minute before me#anyway i take a look and i do fix it for him but that was weird too like we are in the same position do you know this#the coworkers i eat with one was like have you guys noticed the white people at the office are like? a little helpless? and they are!!!!!
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if someone asks me questions about myself and my childhood does that mean they have a crush on me
#🧃#I was thinking about my crush and how that one time we talked about our childhood and spilled a little bit of low-key trauma I guess#I’m just thinking I don’t usually share stuff with people that easily and while I did with him I think I felt comfortable#but you know most people don’t ask me about that stuff is what I just realize right now so maybe…?#I honestly have no idea how to flag if someone’s attracted to me or not it’s a problem#once I was hanging out with her friend and they said that my energy is a type of energy that attracted to#They said they’re not attracted to me. They’re just saying that they’re attracted to that energy?#regardless I would have never even flagged that they would feel that way about me at all#and a closer friend from before said they also thought about kissing me…#Well that one I actually did flag because they straight up asked me one time but if they hadn’t asked me I would’ve never guessed#I wanted to kiss them too at first but then we became friends and the crush faded#We never did kiss but you know maybe someday in the future#I have a more fun crush now hehe he is pretty…..#he prolly don’t wanna kiss me tho cuz he’s 10 years older than me#I won’t hold it against him.. but imma keep liking him tho#Random topic change but I noticed I use repetition a lot when I speak#And I wrote a paper last semester about repetition and Caribbean creole languages and how it would be repressed#bc the whites thought their speech was inferior#I wrote about Mary Prince and one section was about her white editor#he would change her speech to make her more palatable to the white abolitionist audience#btw learned a lot about Palestinian political and government groups today#The problem is I always have crushes on unattainable people so then I never pursue it because it’s not really an option#The other crush I had was on my teacher for example and he’s 12 years older than me#I’m not sure how I feel about the age thing still#It just depends because the teacher is only two years older than the guy I like#But when I talk to him I feel more comfortable and like I’m talking to someone close to me#versus my teacher feels like I’m talking to a much older person#Don’t get me wrong the guy like knows a lot and he definitely exudes older energy#But I like he treats me as an equal. I guess he doesn’t treat me like I’m less because I’m younger.#omg almost forgot he signed my cast last week and I rested my arm on his thigh shsjsksjs
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