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I know that this is about Pedro, but, Bella is so warm and sweet, she is like an angel and I've only seen her in interviews. 😍
Hiiiii Here is my request
Reader meets Bella and Nico bc she’s dating Pedro and it’s just cute. Oh and Gabriel (he plays tommy in tlou) and they are in an age gap (u choose) and it’s so cute and fluffy
Where Family Meets Family
Pairing: Pedro Pascal X Fem! Reader
Summary: you get to meet the people Pedro calls family.
Word Count: 1.6k
Content Warning: fluff, insecurity from reader. Implied age gap, reader is late 20’s Pedro is his current age (48).
Note: I love this request stop it 😭😭🫶🏼🫶🏼 thank you sunny ☀️
“Are you sure they won’t mind me being here? I don’t wanna impose on anything.” You fidget nervously with the sleeve of your jumper, picking at loose threads to distract yourself from the nerves that clawed at you from the inside, desperate to get out.
Pedro stops walking with you and your legs come to a halt, figuring maybe he’d changed his mind, that he’d send you home. Instead, his large hands cradle your face, it looked so small in his big hands, “baby, they’re dying to meet you. I promise they’ll love you.” You huff out a breath of exhale and look up at him through your lashes, “okay.” His eyes lightly squint as he smiles, “okay.” He affirms, letting go of your face and holding your hand, stopping your nervous fidgeting.
The set was incredible, you’d never think it could be this realistic but it looked very similar to the show, a lot of hard work had been put into making this series, you admired it, that Pedro was apart of this, making it happen.
His fingers rub your knuckles, as he leads you to the dressing rooms, props out for filming you have to weave through, careful not to step or bump into anything. You weren’t paying attention in front of you, your eyes coming up from the floor when you see it a foot in front of you; a clicker. You scream, “fuck!” Let go of Pedro’s hand and push him in front of you towards the man in the special effects make up. Your adrenaline is high as your heart hammers, Pedro turns to you with a raised eyebrow and the man behind him starts bellowing in a laugh that echos through the building.
You kneel over yourself and set your hands on your knees, catching your breath, and trying to steady your breathing. You flinch when a hand meets your back and you look up to see Pedro. “It’s just me honey, you’re okay.” As much as he finds the situation amusing, he wants you to be okay.
���You scared the fuck out of me man, Jesus.” The man throws his hands up in defence, “I’m sorry about that, we hang around like this on set so they don’t have to do the make up again, it takes hours. I’m Mike by the way, so nice to meet you.” You reach out and shake his hand, introducing yourself. “We better keep moving, got some people to see, see you later Mike.” Mike nods, “good to see you Pedro, see you later.”
Pedro’s hand is on your lower back guiding you, “good to know you’d toss me to save yourself.” He jests, pouting at you. You immediately feel bad, lip opening and closing, you must’ve looked like a deer in the headlights with your big eyes wide as you’d realise what you’d done. “I’m sorry I didn’t mean to shove you I just-“ you’re cut off by Pedro laughing, “don’t apologise sweetheart, you know I’d keep you safe anyway. You ready to meet them?”
You’d stopped outside the door that had “cast only” and shuffled uncomfortably, “are you sure I’m allowed to be in here.” You gesture to the sign, “we’re not filming today, I let them know they said it was fine, just don’t take pictures of the set.” “Okay, sure.” Not like you’d planned on it anyway. Pedro doesn’t even knock, just swings the door wide open and he’s met with a room full of smiling faces all rushing to greet him. You stand awkwardly as you shuffle into the room, shutting the door behind you.
“This is my girl, she’s a little nervous aren’t you baby?” You stare dumbfounded, nodding, you reach for that thread to fidget with when Bella comes up and pulls you into a hug, they’re awfully strong for a nineteen year old. You wrap your arms gently around her, accepting the warm embrace.
“I’m Bella, so nice to meet you. All Pedro does is talk about how incredible you are.”
“Oh, does he now?” Your cheeks flush red as you turn to Pedro who has a shy grin on his face.
“Alright scoot it’s my turn to meet the “woman that makes me the luckiest man alive.” The young girls impersonation of Pedro makes you laugh. She pulls you into a soft hug and her beautiful hair tickles your cheeks, “I’m Nico. Pedro’s other adopted child, I guess that makes you our mum.” The lopsided grin has your cheeks starting to hurt from smiling so much. “I’ve always wanted kids, the more the merrier.” You cheer.
A man approaches you, one you recognise as Tommy from the show, he’s handsome you admit, but he’s got nothing on Pedro. His teeth are baring as he smiles at you, pulling you into his broad chest and you hug him back, he lingers for a few more seconds than you would’ve offered but don’t protest until he pulls away. “I’m Gabriel, so nice to meet the lovely lady.” He kisses your hand and you feel the heat crawling up your neck as he does so. “Trying to make a move on my girl Gabriel?” The amusement in Pedro’s voice is evident, and Gabriel laughs, “you know I can’t help it, I’m a ladies man, they love me.”
“I’ve only got eyes for one man, sorry to disappoint you Gabriel.” Your kind voice makes Pedro blush, the comment sweet as it is a firm statement.
You’re watching alongside Gabriel as Pedro and Bella dance. Pedro guides her movements softly and twirls her into him, their laughs contagious to each other as they move swiftly. “You know how much he loves you right?” You turn to Gabriel and he’s watching them, just as you were before turning to you, seeing doubt in your eyes. “I know he loves me, I just don’t feel like I’m worthy enough for him sometimes.” Gabriel frowns at this, he sees and hears every comment he makes on set about how perfect you are, showing them pictures of the two of you, explaining the story behind it.
“What makes you say that?” You sigh, you’d have to talk about it at some point, you didn’t want to talk about it with Pedro yet; he didn’t know how bothered you were by some of the hate you’d been receiving in regards to your age gap. “People are always commenting on our age gap y’know. Just makes me wonder why he chose me. He could have anyone he wanted.” Gabriel’s face softens, the wrinkles in his face are now gone. “I’m sorry people are sayin’ that about you, but he did chose who he wanted, it’s you. You’re it for him.”
You turn back to watch the two of them twirling once more, the song coming to an end, “you really think so?” Gabriel laughs, gaining Pedro’s attention, you send a small smile his way and he notices somethings not quite right. “Yeah, I know so.”
“Thanks Gabriel.” He puts a hand on your shoulder supportively, “anytime.”
Bella and Pedro seperate and she walks up to you, crushing you in another hug, “it was so awesome to meet you, I hope I get to see you again. Maybe we can hangout sometime?” The hopeful look in her eyes nearly makes you cry, “of course, it was great to meet you Bella. I would love that.” “Okay dudes, I’m going home. Remember to wrap it we don’t want any babies, or do we?” Bella shoots you two a look before leaving, the laugh that escapes your lips is out of your control.
“Hey sweetheart.” Pedro presses his body against yours, warm and sweaty from dancing. “Hi baby.” His lips graze your forehead, kissing you softly. You fall putty in his hands as he holds you by the waist, “you gonna tell me what made my girl so upset before? It wasn’t Gabriel, was it?”
You shake your head no, feeling guilty that you had vented to Gabriel before coming to Pedro with this problem. “I just-sometimes I don’t feel good enough for you.” Pedro wants to speak, to reassure you but he listens, because he knows you’re not finished. “A lot of people comment on our age difference and it gets to me sometimes-the things they say.” You bite your lip, wishing you would just be unbothered by things like this.
“I’m sorry, I should’ve come to you first but, I-I was so embarrassed and I didn’t want you to worry about me.”
“Oh honey.” Pedro pulls you into him, the warmth is welcome as you melt into him, feeling like you’re coming closer after your confession. The weight off your shoulders makes you relax into him. “You never have to apologise for that. People are cruel and they say mean things. But we’re strong, I love you because everything about you is everything I’ve always wanted.”
“Even if we don’t have kids?” Pedro pulls back slightly, taken aback by your comment. “What do you mean?” Your cheeks are bright red, “well I mean, would having kids be such a bad thing?” Pedro grins, kissing your lips gently. “Maybe it wouldn’t. We can talk more about it in the car, cmon. Let’s get home.”
“Thanks for the great day. They’re all wonderful people. The connection you have with Bella is really beautiful.” Pedro’s orbs are watching you, your face showing nothing but love and affection for him. “I need her more than she needs me, she’s helped me through a whole lot that kid.” “I’m proud of both of you.” You muse.
“I love you so fucking much.” His lips are frantic on yours, conveying his love and warmth to you, reaffirming his last words to you. You, wordlessly say you love him too.
#pedro pascal#pedro pascal x reader#pedro pascal tlou#tlou set#pedro pascal fanfiction#pedro pascal x female reader#pedro pascal imagine#pedro pascal x y/n#bella ramsey#english is not my native language#so forgive me if I misused Bella's pronouns🙏🏼😭#I know that she identifies as nonbinary#but....my english sucks
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Thinking about Weird Barbie and how she's the very obviously queer outsider of the Barbie world, she straddles the lines between Barbie and the Real World. She's the most aware of the performative nature of it all. She supports Barbie while also gently mocking her panic at losing the hyperfeminine perfection. Her weird house is also home to the discontinued reject weird Barbies, the outcasts (including very gay earring Ken) who never fell into either the original matriarchy or the Kentriarchy brainwashing.
The other more classically heteronormative and beautiful Barbies both pity and fear her, and at first the narrative pities her as well. She's the vessel of girls going weird and crazy and feral on their dolls and that's amazing. Weird Barbie is aware of who she is and how the world sees her and she loves it. She's Weird Barbie and She Owns It.
#i couldnt identify with a lot of the Barbies Feminine Crisis on as deep a level as other women i know#but holy shit did i see what they did with Weird Barbie aka Queer Barbie#GOD this movie did such a great job capturing the feeling of#gender is fake and but also its real#ive been having gender thoughts#mostly about how im so goddamn ambivalent about gender that i can't even identify#with the idea of thinking about What Is My Gender enough to say its nonbinary#my gender is Sure Okay#she/her yeah fine its whatever#barbie
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asking people their pronouns is the bare minimum of trans acceptance and it's something we've had to drag cis people kicking and screaming into doing. where the fuck do you get off throwing all that progress out the window because you like it when people are mean to you actually
#atlas entry#I can't be the only one who remembers when contrapoints got in hot water for this exact same thing#blaming nonbinary people for the concept of cis people asking you your pronouns because now people can't just “tell”#as if trans liberation ever involved people being able to “tell” your gender by looking at you#how are you going to say you support nonbinary people and then advocate for people to misgender them because you think people should assume#your pronouns based on your appearance. sorry my preferred pronouns are they/them and if you call me she because you think I look like a#woman you are misgendering me. again I just don't get this whole “no one can know I'm trans” thing#you know there's a difference between someone seeing a tall woman and thinking “that's a trans woman” and someone seeing a tall woman and#thinking “that's a man”. I feel like so many people treat those like they're the exact same thing and it's like hm why do you view someone#identifying you as a trans woman as identifying you as a man? sounds like you have some internalized shit to deal with babes#in the meantime don't make it everyone else's problem by bullying cis people into reinforcing gendered norms surrounding appearance
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this show is kind of making me have a bit of a gender crisis. if i may be real
#but no matter what i know my name is jack#idk its hard to determine if im nonbinary because im nonbinary or because i despise the roles automatically assigned to me as a woman#but if i try to escape womanhood because i dont identify with its societal role am i affirming the role of women in its current place#yet i know i truly do not belong with 99% of the women that i interact with in real life regardless of their success in acting socially#acceptable as a woman. i feel a rift between me and a cis butch even if she is more traditionally masculine than i am#i do not view myself as a man but as a child before i knew of transgenderism i sobbed whenever anyone reminded me i would go through female#puberty and immediately rejected gender roles as soon as girlhood implied more to me than dancing in a glitter princess dress#do i have the right to attempt an escape from myself or should i fall into agony as my role as woman#simply so i exist as proof that women can be like me?#my deadname is extremely feminine and represents something delicate and pure and innocent.#it has disgusted me since i was a child. i remember being 8 and going by different names to try to escape it. no matter what i know my name#is the true control over myself. i dont know if i can escape the body i was born with but i do know i can destroy the labels i was given#along with it.
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What if I told you that pronouns don't mean anything when it comes to gender.... what if I told you that you can be a cis girl and use they/them or even he/him pronouns JUST BECAUSE YPU LIKE THEM. Pronouns are not an identity they are not linked to one specific gender they are just words and can mean anything!!! Stop putting barriers around words that anyone can use to make themselves more comfortable!!!
#my boyfriend is nonbinary and uses they/she pronouns even though she does not identify as anything womanly and that's okay#when I first met her my first thing was to ask if she was transfem or if she just liked she/her and she said that she just likes she/her#and even as a gay man I feel comfortable calling her that because I know there's no woman behind those words.#so yeah#pronouns don't equal gender
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While we're talking about how using they/them on binary trans people who don't use they/them is misgendering can we also acknowledge that using they/them on people who use it/its pronouns and/or neopronouns is also misgendering? Thanks.
Like I get it's important to discuss when this happens to trans people who use he/him or she/her pronouns to degender them, especially trans women, and we should not stop that discussion, but let's not forget about the people who have this happen to them who are nonbinary, that have it done to them by many other queer people, and who aren't taken seriously because "'they' is still gender neutral" or "you're asking way too much"
#this post exists because of reddit#someone posted on r/lgbt that they/them can still be misgendering#and I said “this is still true if they use it/its or neos regardless of how comfortable or easy it is for you”#OP agreed but I got downvoted#you don't have a right to be uncomfortable using it/its on people#just like you don't have a right to be uncomfortable calling a trans woman who doesn't “pass” by she/her#“normal” pronouns are not more deserving of respect#nonbinary people's identities are not less deserving of respect than binary trans people's#you know who's usually uncomfortable with the way someone else identifies? transphobes#you think and act like a transphobe
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Not my manager complaining to me about my coworker telling her that they’re nonbinary and don’t wanna be called a girl
#sid rants#ma’am i have. uh. bad news for u#i mean i don’t identify as nonbinary at work i’m not an idiot it’s just easier#to go by my agab and name and pronouns#but she was all like ‘well i only know boy and girl what does she want me to call her? thing? it?’ ma’am. come on.
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Hi btw being trans does not automatically grant you supernatural understanding of all esoteric trans knowledge. You actually need to put effort into learning or put effort into keeping quiet about things that don't pertain to your specific experience
#my cishet brother has a better grasp of transgender theory than my transgender bisexual sister because he like... did some basic research#meanwhile my sister confidently told me 'oh youre nit trans youre neutral' the ither week and i almost slapped her#miss maam i am nonbinary and i have been out as some kind of trans for ten years i will politely ask you to shut up ONCE#also in no universe am i 'neutral' but even if i WAS by definition i would not be identifying wholly with my assigned sex#WHICH WOULD MAKE ME TRANSGENDER ANYWAY#apparently shes been portraying herself as the only trans in the family despite the fact that ive BEEN OUT FOR A DECADE#like ms maam when i came out you were TEN YEARS OLD. i taught you what transgender meant! i know for certain i taught you better#i DEFINITELY taught you better than to TELL PEOPLE WHAT THEY ARE#like okay i guess if youre not into research and history and you just wanna exist without having yo be an expert that is fine#but DO NOT present yourself as an expert. you are an expert in YOUR BODY and YOUR EXPERIENCES#like. shes got severe 'no one has ever done it like me. i am the weirdest girl at the party' syndrome#while also having the personality of an edgy piece of toast#i love her but i have. been very angry at her and i cant even say anything about it#like. baby girl you are a very generic case of autism and transgender and bisexuality. youre not the most random unique case#'how could you understand?!' meanwhile im sitting there wildly neuridivergent and transgender and i got eldest daughter/third parent trauma#like hmm yeah i wonder what id know about it. i wonder how i could possibly understand. i wonder how i could possibly offer relevant advice#i give up#shes a fucking edge lord and our mum feeds into it rather than being like 'some of your experiences are actually universal'#anyway rant over#my brother is an angel and i eould die for him. worlds best ally#he has never once misgendered me or made me feel weird about it. unlike some other siblings who demands i punch her if she gets it wrong#like... no? stop being weird about it youre making me more uncomfortable than using the wrong pronoun did#mums like that too 'oh i messed up hit me!' like no#how old are you?#grow up im not gonna hit you back why would hurting you make me feel better? does hurting people make you feel better?#cause that sounds like something you should see a licensed professional about. i dont care if its a therapist or a bartender#just do it away from me#rant#personal#delete later
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guys help i accidentally made Gwent interesting to myself
I think they're mid as FUCK in Island and obviously the way their break-up was handled in Action was. You know. Awful, and i wished Trent just had a fucking conversation with her instead of the whole 9 thing, but...
I love the idea of them as friendly exes, these two teens that did have feelings for eachother while they were both figuring themselves out and how their breakup was a result of a lack of communication (ideally on both parties) and teenage mistakes and that came from the stresses of Reality TV and retroactively not knowing what their feelings for the other were or the source exactly of their issues, and being able to confide or at least seek advice from someone who they once considered their romantic partner is just. Sweet, i guess.
Like especially post Action, Trent and Gwen are both in pretty unique positions with Trent being the lead guitarist in a popular Boy Band and Gwen being a content creator on a late 2000s early 2010s internet having Internet slap-fights with Heather, and both of them being considered big celebrities due to their roles on this super popular reality show in canon. I doubt they would have many people that they could trust in that way, while relating to their own struggles.
TLDR i like the idea of a friendship between two teens who are going through it™ but find solace in eachother and learning to communicate properly in their relationships, platonic or romantic.
#cheese posting#also didn't know where to put it in this post but Trent being aromantic and Gwen being nonbinary would add to this#not just in terms of them both having to figure themselves out but also finding the root cause of their issues#like how Trent had a very specific idea of romance formed through the media he was exposed to#and lead him to assume his feelings for Gwen were romantic#while for Gwen she had to work through her own relationship with feminity and womanhood and realising she doesn't identify with it at all#while also not identifying with her 'other option' in the gender binary and feeling lost in that#and eventually finding an answer that made sense to her and not being sure that people would understand or hear her out on it#and neither would Trent think others would understand his own identity either#but they're able to listen and understand and accept the other#and fuck did i just project onto them a bit? oops#td gwen#td trent#gwent#tagging it for blog organisation reasons sorry gwent fans#total drama
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have y’all seen that tweet that’s like “i’m probably nonbinary but i have a job so idrc about that rn.” that is so heavily kakyoin coded
#/ tbd#i don’t mean to insinuate that nonbinary people over 40 don’t exist because ofc they do and i know some of them lol#but i will say that if kak had been born 10-20 years later he would definitely identify that way jdhshehdvdn and that’s just bc#growing up in the 70s-80s in japan there just was not a lot of information available about gender diversity and kak was already#going thru it realizing he is gay and like. while he was never ashamed of being gay it was def smth he didn’t like#openly talk about until he was in his 20s & just stopped giving a fuck#and once he learned about nonbinary people he was kind of misguided in thinking like . oh that’s only for people who#have dysphoria/don’t identify with their assigned gender at all#like he probably didn’t realize it’s actually a spectrum until he was already married and had a child and a stable career#and by that point he was just like idk whatever JTHSHSVSVSDWFWGQS#being nonbinary myself and not really realizing it until i was already in my mid twenties and also working in education#i’m kind of in the same boat in that like . i kind of just let people misgender me because it’s just too much work to frequently defend#my identity and also i’m like not super mad when people she/her or ‘miss’ me even though it does make me a lil uncomfortable lol#ultimately my portrayal of kak is a cis man and identifies as one but like . also he might be nonbinary actually . idk it’s hard to explain
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bruh apparently my roommate fell down the terf pipeline this summer and proudly told me she is a terf tonight. uh. babe what the fuck do you want me to do with that.
#i made a joke about how the people i like to be friends with aren't her kind of people#referring to the fact that i like my little gaggle of loser and weirdos (affectionate) and she likes loser and weirdos (deragatory)#but she thought i was referring to the fact that i'm mostly friends with queer people and she was like#“omg yeah ur friends are going to call me a terf!! 🤣”#and then she told me she's on terftok and how she identifies as a terf#which this is a totally new development btw. in like june she told me she thinks she's getting indoctrinated and falling down the pipeline#but we had a long conversation about it and we've had a couple since and i thought she like changed her opinion#slash kept it the same as before she started falling down the pipeline#but i guess not?#and i guess she thinks it's funny?#idk lads i just know im gonna have to be real careful about who i bring around my apartment#unfortunately#i know she'll like be respectful if im around bc she doesnt want to upset me but i just dont want to have to deal w/ anything#she also was calling bella ramsey by every single set of pronouns in the world except for they/them bc i guess that was funny to her too?#and she was doing it for a nonbinary classmate of ours too#this all came about recently too like she used to respect pronouns and reject terf talking points?#ive heard her argue against them before what happened 😭
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@ my ocs (please imagine in the meme format from Up)
allow me to bestow the highest honor I can give to an OC
*gives them my exact gender*
#my post#Oc tag#congrats to Aki and Molly#Who funny enough both use she/her (at least for a significant amount of the plot) and present feminine#For those who know more of my ocs#Atsuko is pretty close but probably has more active discomfort with gender and is thus a different gender#Egg (who I haven’t really introduced but is a major oc) has so much trauma wrapped up in being gendered female#That their gender is basically “not a woman” and if they had words would probably be somewhere between agender and demiboy#This will change as they get older and process their trauma but I don’t know what they would use#Btw the highest honor I can give a character I didn’t make is Autism headcanon#Which is very strange because I feel like in the trend that would suggest I am Autistic but I am not.#Oh more OCs: olive is a girl and a creature and both are equally important to the gender.#Liana is close enough to woman to not identify as nonbinary (she is trans!). Myris is very cis and not thought about gender.
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This is neither here nor there but it does get on my nerves somewhat that one of the most popular nonbinary headcanons in Kingdom Hearts fandom is just a degendering of Xion, the I Saw The TV Glow of Kingdom Hearts characters
#she's a person who was made to be a boy but creates her own sense of self as a girl#where all the aspects of herself that others would identify as 'male' are things she didn't ask for and wouldn't have if she could choose#freely#and are literally parts of other people's identities who are not herself#she only succumbs to being part of Sora when she thinks she has no other choice#her truest self as presented by the narrative is just a girl stuck unfairly with all this other bullshit#her best friend has to correct people who want to dehumanize her to call her she in the English version#in every way narratively she is a girl forced by others to be a boy and then some of you go 'wow gender fluid icon' or whatever#Xion get behind me!!#let Roxas be your genderweird nonbinary headcanon. i like that one#but you know uh. no hate i guess. i know she's not real
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Rambling post
#kinda want to change my pronouns at least here to she/they#i know it's mostly used for non-binary people and I'm not nonbinary but for some reason#but with asking for pronouns and stuff being more common#it really makes me feel weird having to affirm that i identify as a girl because#because that part of me means not very much to me#like it is and sure i look like a girl was assigned at birth as a girl#funnily they didn't know what gender i was for a while lmao#because my sister's position in the womb pregented them from being able to easily tell lmao#but like when people use exclusively female pronouns for me online it makes me feel so weird#and sometimes it's nice too when people refer to me with more masculine nouns too really depends#sorry for rambling#when i get tagged in posts like#oh councilofbeetroot is a blog she does content with eastern europe#it's like that reminder of gender makes me feel weird#fuck writing feliks makes you really question your gender identity sometime#fuck
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Random thoughts about gender headcanons.
#fnafhs#further thoughts: meg and deuz are/were so t4t you can't change my mind#owynn is weird about his gender. he doesn't fully know if he's nonbinary or just a gnc guy#he goes back and forth on it a lot during his life. gender is confusing#chica identifies herself as demigirl/boy because she sees herself as half girl half boy#he could just go by bigender but he feels like that doesn't fully represent how he feels#golden doesn't have a specific label. they have a lot of gender thoughts™#fred is in a weird situation. he's always been very toxic masculinity™ but then freddy came out as a trans girl#and that kind of turned his world around in a lot of ways tbh. it made him revaluate everything#he and freddy talked a lot about how transition would affect him and how they could compromise to both be comfortable in the body#it led to him reconsidering his own identity a lot#onnie... is more complicated. I have a lot of incoherent thoughts on him#and some are. weird. so let's save them for another day
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been thinking a lot about womanhood lately
#like. i don't exactly identify as being a woman. in contrast i do have a strong nonbinary/muunsukupuolinen identity#yet i do feel and acknowledge that in most contexts i AM a woman#not only because that's what most of the world sees me as but that's also consecuently how i move through the world#there is no one set way for women to experoence the world but i do feel like my experience is one of those. because i am gendered as a woman#it used to make me uncomfortable and dysphoric and i'm not saying that now it never does#but i have made my peace with it? like. i feel like i have “let womanhood in” as a part of my identity#and i have also realized that it's not actually being seen as a woman that makes me uncomfortable but being seen SOLELY as a woman#like my friends calling me a woman or my partner calling me their girlfriend doesnt sting usually#because i know they also see the other parts of my gender identity#but when a coworker refers to me with she/her or includes me in “ladies” it stings. because i know that's all they see#like YES i can be a woman. if you acknowledge that i am a bit of a weird woman.#i can be a woman if you acknowledge that i am a gnc woman. a bisexual woman. a queer woman. a woman who is sometimes bit of a man.#if you see and acknowledge that we can talk#however i am NOT a nonbinary woman. i am nonbinary AND a woman. which to some people is the same thing#but to me it's an important distinction. being nonbinary and being a woman are both parts of my gender identity but in very different ways#and very distinctively. lumping them together as equal parts of my identity as i feel the term “nonbinary woman” does doesn't describe me#i am enthusiastically nonbinary. i am begrudgingly a woman. i'm a woman with a long footnote explanation. woman¹#“nonbinary woman” also doesnt feel like it accommodates the way i relate to manhood or boyhood. but that's a whole another tedtalk#i'm not a man but i like how it looks. and i'm not a man i'm just borrowing parts of it for genderfuckery reasons#idk how to explain it in english...#in finnish i would say that en oo mies mut joskus lainaan tai iahn vaa ihailen asioita mieheyden kuvastosta.#but because in social situations and In Our Society That We Live In you mostly can just choose one gender and it's either man or a woman#thennout of those i would rather be a woman. legally. with strangers. you know. not a woman but kind of yes because i relate to other women#if i could be seen only as nonbinary i would. but then again my nonbinaryness does encompass some parts of both womanhood and manhood.#so i guess people would have trouble seeing it as “only nonbinsry”#idk man. it's complicated and also changes emphasis multiple times a year#ask me again a month from now and the gender landscape will be interpreted completely differently#gender#nowe talks
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