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malachitezmeyka · 3 days ago

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I think That Woman is genuinely trying to kill me

#you know what she said to me today?#'well. since you suck at writing essays and I'm sure you don't want to write a test. how about a creative assignment?#remember that project idea you suggested? do that. right now. sit and rewrite a chapter of War and Peace in your reimagining'#and like... first of all. bold of you to assume I remember any particular chapter well enough to rewrite it #even all separate events mashed together. because that's what happens when YOU MAKE ME READ 1200 PAGES IN THE SPAN OF THREE WEEKS #but okay. fine. I was allowed to look up references. maybe any other person could have managed something #but second of all. my only reference for the vibe I'm supposed to be going for is ONE BOOK THAT I READ TWO DAYS AGO #PLUS I HAVE ZERO KNOWLEDGE OF THE ACTUAL HISTORICAL EVENTS BECAUSE WE SKIPPED OVER IT IN CLASS #AND THIRD OF ALL. THE WORST THING. IS THAT I CAN'T JUST SIT DOWN AND WRITE #NOT WITHOUT PREPARATION. NOT WITHOUT AT LEAST A VAGUE IDEA OF WHAT I'M GOING FOR #AND NO. 'IMAGINE NATASHA ROSTOVA AS A KOMSOMOLKA' ISN'T AN IDEA. IT'S SOMETHING I COULD DRAW WITH REFERENCE PICTURES #BUT NOT WRITE. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT KIDS DID IN THE KOMSOMOL. THE VLKSM WAS DISBANDED BEFORE MY MOM COULD BE A PART OF IT #and I know it's stupid. I know I shouldn't be upset over not being able to do something I wasn't prepared for #and it's fine!! I was allowed to take it home!! I can come up with something in the privacy of my apartment #where That Woman won't be hanging over me. judging my every move #it's fine. it's literally fine #I know it is. so why am I so damn upset??#I guess.. failing at writing has become such a huge trigger for me that even when it comes to tasks absolutely nobody–#could manage without prior preparation... I just break down if I fail #it took everything in me not to break down crying in front of her. even though I really really wanted to #because first of all I do not trust her at all and don't want to be vulnerable in front of her #and second of all. how could I possibly explain 'oh yeah failing at writing makes me extremely suicidal bc I'm fucked in the head'#'and yet I won't quit because I'm s fucking masochist who likes being miserable apparently'#and I was doing so well writing wise before this... NSND is almost 16k words long and I didn't have a fit over it once #I managed over 8000 words over the weekend translating Tomorrow was the War and actually ENJOYED doing it #I don't enjoy writing. it was.. almost thrilling. to like the process #now I don't want to do anything at all #what's the point if I can't even handle a simple school assignment?#it's not her fault I'm a fucking crybaby who can't indulge in a hobby without becoming hysterical #I should've quit writing after AIDIB like I wanted to. maybe then none of this would've happened. maybe then I wouldn't feel like such a POS

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bonefall · 6 months ago

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I understand being upset by the moonpaw dog post but i dont think talking about some random teen publicly (on a pretty big fandom blog) as opposed to like, dming them about it, is a very nice thing to do? Would recommend keeping that kinda gossip in dms going forward personally.

??????? "That kinda gossip???"

Saying that it's fucked up that a publicly posted incest joke about how deformed she should look went to the top of the Warrior Cats and Moonpaw tags, is gossip???

TRENDING TAGS?? GOSSIP?

I'm not talking about "some random teen," I have not even dropped a username and been VERY clear I don't want harassment of anyone. During this discussion about wider ableism against Moonpaw, I've directly answered two anons about the contents of a post that was/IS extremely popular to the tune of nearly a thousand notes.

One of those two asks was an anon who only stumbled in to say that the post was funny in a display of SHOCKING tonedeafness, while I was talking about how shitty it is to compare people who are the products of incest to unethical dog breeds, especially in the context of WC. The other was an actual XX/XY chimera who expressed that the extremely popular post hurt their feelings, and when they tried to express discomfort to someone, got told they "probably killed their twin in the womb."

It's not just one rando weenie little blog the minute half of the Tumblr space is openly laughing at a joke about deformed incest kids and hoping Moonpaw dies because she's so "gross." Not nice?? Your feelings are hurt? OTHER people's feelings were ALREADY hurt.

NOTHING about this was "nice" to begin with!

Difference is, when YOU cry me a river, you can build me a bridge, and get right the fuck over it. A person who's the product of incest cries and has to go right back to every shitty banjo-hunchback-hapsburg joke they've heard before, just feeling more unsafe about a space that PRETENDS to care about the abuse they experienced. If you feel guilty about that, maybe you should!

If you were under the impression I was ever "nice" about bigotry, you were mistaken. I don't appreciate calls for ME to be more polite when I'm at a trend of fandom ableism and calling it fucked up. I've named NO names. Sounds like what you ACTUALLY want is for people like me who have a platform to shut up.

#btw that person WAS contacted privately by someone and I did see the 'apology' they posted as a result.#Which was not an apology. They called people being upset 'virtue signalling'#I'm SO fucking sick of the parade of idiots coming into my inbox trying to tell me that none of this is a big deal #REAL fucking question actually; why are you people insisting that victims of incest be ENDLESSLY charitable towards open fucking mockery?#''What if they didn't mean it like that'' and ''oh maybe they just didn't know it was ableist to joke about inbreeding deformities''#I'm gonna be BRUTALLY honest with you because I'm this close to just gutting you all like fish instead; It feels like being gaslit #Half of these idiots come in here to say ''well maybe you interpreted it wrong maybe these other unrelated things are what you mean''#And then when I AM specific and AM targeted in a very particular thing I'm talking about #I get shit like THIS telling me it's mean to be so direct. Even if I was NOT very direct at all #I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't. Like I'm crazy for reacting with anger.#So forgive me for not being as sweet and as patient as molasses pie #mooncourse

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itspileofgoodthings · 3 months ago

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when will Catholic Instagram influencers realize they can’t “sis you are infinitely worthy” their way out of everything

#laksksksksjsjsj so sorry I’m back on my criticizing the Catholic social media influencer culture again #but damn do they ever let a thought breathe and exist for one second #(Anne Marie thecatholichypewoman don’t listen to this you’ll make a reel about letting our thoughts just ✨breathe✨ sometimes)#but like actually. the reels are turning cannibalistic #every thought and half-emotion is endlessly dissected to point to the Great Conclusion #and it’s like girl. yes God loves us just as we are. flaws and all.#but when you’ve said it once why are you not just repeating it to yourself as needed and/or saying it to your friends #WHEN APPROPRIATE #why are you trying to teach at every opportunity #as someone also cursed with the desire to teach you know where that instinct belongs????#A CLASSROOM #as my siblings remind me daily #anyway like. sorry it is so upsetting to me because I think a lot of hearts are in the right place!#though where money is involved I WILL be cynical #but also like. you can’t make the pain go away through endless processing/rationalizing #yes God speaks in the silence. so let Him speak! why are we trying to speak for Him at every opportunity #ANYWAY GO TO BED MARIA CHALLENGE #I am doing what they’re doing BUT TO THEM SO It’s NO BETTER BUT——-#S TILL #when will they REST

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dragonsasastronauts · 5 months ago

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Bioware was so real for this

#not the biggest fan of the comics but I have enjoyed most of them #hated when Fenris was all like #What did having a team at Kirkwall ever do for me and as soon as they didn't need my powers I was no use to them #like bruh what was that #don't do my man and the Kirkwall gang dirty like that #y'all chose to scatter after don't act like they kicked you out or something damn #also did not like the explanation for why he felt this way from the Blue Wraith author #your experience with college buddies is not the same as 10 years just to end in a multi year rebellion and subsequent world ending situatio #like you can say he was hurt and lonely and angry about these feelings he wouldn't have normally had he not become friends #but don't equate growing apart and being upset about that to the point of feeling used?? to a literal war forcing them to scatter #be so fr right now #i am so mad about it #and I am not even coming from a romanced fenris pov btw because I know romances aren't a part of bioware “canon” for the books/comics #can't tell me that man would feel used and discarded after everything that happened before the rebellion #i've said my piece... for now #dark fortress #marius #fenris #dragon age

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catkin-morgs-kookaburralover · 1 year ago

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#tw suicide #no seriously heed the tw this is probably upsetting i just. i need to say it somewhere and i will not say it to my family.#puddleglum hours #personal #its just i was thinking.#tother day the doctor asked: do you regret it? about the suicide attempt tuesday night.#and i said something that i still feel: if i regret anything about it it's that i didn't succeed.#they're talking of discharging me tomorrow or something and im just.#what do i need to do to be kept in for longer?! damn it all i *know* how i could kill myself in here.#but i don't want to. i need them to save me #because i can't save myself! if they discharge me tomorrow i think it very likely ill be dead before the end of the week! or at least in #hospital from another attempt! this new med has made me more numb but the thoughts haven't gone away just muted. and then.#at times like this im perfectly wild about it! i cannot keep myself alive i need them to do it for me!#but when ive seen the doctor each time its been when im exhausted and numb and i don't care but that is not the case always.#i don't know. i don't see a good outcome any which way.#hopefully tomorrow the doctor sees me at a time when im feeling like this i think.#because i think i need to tell them. but i don't know how or even if it matters #and sometimes i just want to die.#im so tired of living guys. why #editing to add i am still on hiatus and if you want to contact me and know my discord contact me there #so i will not be responding to anything here for this moment at least

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13reasonstoeatthatcake · 6 months ago

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Has anyone read Fourth Wing translated into another language and did you agree with the Violet/Violence nickname translations in said language? Because I'm reading through the Bulgarian version rn and they. Fucking transliterated it??? With a FOOTNOTE??? Explaining what Violence means in English??? Even though it's not a one-time thing but a recurring nickname and the use of Sudden English Word in-text in what's meant to be flirty, charged and tender moments later is fucking jarring??? I am Shaking With Rage.

#fourth wing #the empyrean #like okay I get it translation is subjective and localising puns and other wordplay is nigh impossible #and even if you localize the terms there will always be a portion of the readers upset with you for 'changing it'#but that's the nature of translation. because translation is also a type of Fucking Art #you could have done something clever with it! something playful and sweet and a lil mocking and flirty #and then if you're so damn upset about losing the Violet/Violence thing just put THAT in a FOOTNOTE #explaining the intentions of the original text and why you've chenged it #this is like if in Harry Potter and the chamber of secrets voldemort rearranges his name for Harry to spell out #'I am Lord Voldemort' but use his English name so the letters don't fit and then in a footnote explain that #oh well IN ENGLISH IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE- like stfu??? are you or are you not a translator?? do you or do you not know #how to use creative liberties when faced with a phrase that doesn't have a direct translation from one language to another???#wtf are they teaching you in class how to become google translate??? don't translate the words translate The Vibes! The Rhetorical Devices!!#istg this is fucking ridiculous I almost quit the damn book over this I will never psychologically recover

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secretsimpleness · 1 year ago

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I've got problems with whomever designed Thane's fingers. Thane, Shepard / Mass Effect 2 (c) Bioware

Anyone remember that poll I posted in July? I shall share the results:

I did manage to produce two comics during my summer holiday but both were for Dragon Age, haha ha.... So there were delays for our second winner. But here it is! Thanks to those who voted :)

#thane krios #commander shepard #mass effect #mass effect fanart #comic #bioware #thane #shepard #custom shepard #dough scraper #never do I crave a dough scraper as much as when I look at thane's fingers. do people know about dough scrapers? whatever.#why do the fingers have to stick together? just give him one less finger if it's so damn important.#regarding the poll: sucks for everyone not voting for pathfinder as that game probably has the biggest backlog rn.#I don't know why I find that so funny. it just makes me giggle thinking about it.#anyway so I have been sick. I actually thought I would escape my summer sickness this year but alas. it arrived.#and at the worst possible time. every year my town holds this large and free culture festival and I was really looking forward to it -#but then the fever rolled in. I am still so upset. I'm crying over the spilled milk here. betrayal of the year.#it's fine. there will be more chances etc.

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softshuji · 8 months ago

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Any men out there wanna pretend to be my bf to get my parents off my case about marriage? I am so so serious right now.

#my mom gave me a really really lonf lecture and upset me because her and my dad want me to start thinking about settling down ans getting #married. again. cos this comes up all the time. ans I reiterated that i do wanna marry and have kids. i know im 26 years old why do they'#think im also not aware of this??? like i suddenly forgot my own age and have my head in the clouds all the time. and i got so heated cos i #said they only believe in that in theory. in reality neither of them have accepted the idea od my leaving home or the idea of mw being with #a man. and they start freaking out if they even find out i talk to them so to say they want me to get married is so fucking naive #ans when i mentioned this and that they're more than ok w mt brothers talking tp women she said that if i wanted to settle down she could #talk to dad and they could “go about finding someone for me” and I've never been so pissed #i got so upset. why does everyone keep saying this to me. as if anyone my dad knows could ever be a half decent man #and the truth is they don't care if im in a happy marriage they've accepted that i won't be they only care that im gone and saving face in #front of family. that's all. it's always reputation it's always “what will people say?”#not once did love come up. not once did shw even imply that i should marryfor love #or that they hope i love someone and marry them. because they're more happy with the idea of me marrying for the sake of it than #they are at the idea of me finding genuine lovw #im not a fucking broodmare im not here to push out babies for the sake od reputation.#and then i said nor being married isn't the end of the world and she said “it's important that you settle down”#and i said im unwavering in my principles. she can call mw high maintenance like she loves doing but I'm not wavering on the #kind of man i want to be with and when i do marry him i want it to bw genuine. because be loves me and vice versa not because im ticking off #somethin from a damn checklist to appease them. and if being unwavering on my principles means staying unmarried then so be it.#my obligations are to god and myself and that's it #and y'know what??? i am in love with a boy already #and yet they don't care that i wanna be in love at all. no im just a puppet to follow a certain narrative in life live according to evergone #else has and that's it.#im done.#and then she tried to apologise by getting me a slice of cake and that somehow made me feel worse.#i dont want an apology. i want to be heard and actually listened to for once. i want someone to ask what i want. to actually give a shit #and love me cos it's me. not cos im some thing to further an agenda. or some toy or puppet that does your bidding.#is it so much??? to just want to be loved in return? to marry and live according to how i want to?? ans not want anyone to make these #decision's for me?#ruined my whole day.

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maeamian · 1 year ago

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I wish there were better ways to discuss outrage that didn't rely on the same language we use for surprise. It's very tiring to complain about something horrific or that sucks wicked bad and get 'and this surprises you?'

My outrage is not dependent on surprise, it is dependent on my moral code being violated, which happens often enough that I do not find it surprising, but also, I refuse to be numb to my morals.

#Like the way that it implies the only smart way to be is completely shut off #I get the world isn't fun but damn we can expect better without being naive #IDK it's just such a frustrating conversational trope #That you can't be outraged except if you're so naive to have never encountered the problem before #I actually am mad because I know a lot about this not because I know nothing about it #For all sorts of values of 'this'#It is SHOCKING it is UPSETTING but it is not SUPRISING #And I don't know how to communicate the former in a way people won't mistake for the later sometimes #Like to drastically lower the conversational stakes but maintain the parallel:#Suppose I told you I was sad my baseball team lost and you said 'why are you surprised even the best teams lose 50 games a year'#Like yes this is true but surprise was not the central emotion going on and focusing on that would be missing what I was trying to say #My preparation for an eventuality at most blunts the emotions from its passage it doesn't remove them

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zenithpng · 6 months ago

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#god im so sorry for vènting so damn much there is something so wrong with my head right now #every bit of positive attention ive gotten recently or even just attention in general sometimes has made me want to shed my skin #and on top of that there are Things in my head and i am worried it may be ********* but im too frightened to do any sort of research into i #but also hooo boy do i feel like im faking because like jet come on thats a trauma thing. you just kinda got yelled at SHUT UP YOURE FINE #and thats probably the biggest thing fucking me up right now because like im probably wrong but what if im right. dear fuck what then.#ànd also im scared to talk about it with anyone that does experience ********* because i feel so shitty insinuating that i went through #something like that when i know damn well i didnt #like oh wow you had a weird childhood ok jet get fucked everyones got a weird childhood #anyway. i need to like #talk to a stranger with ********* so im not so grossly embarrassed maybe #fuck #also lìke i just wanna stop talking to everyone but i started a zine and i cant abandon that and its upsetting me #like i need to fade into nothingness but i cant right now :/#anyway . desr lord why am i like this. what is inside me. what is going on.#delete later #jet maybe you need to get hit real hard by a car and that will do a hard reset and everything will be ok #vent #ALSO MY PARTNER IS GŔADUATING AND I CANT FUCKING BE THERE.#was litèrally sobbing over that this morning. i am so proud of them and they look so happy but also i cant be there #all i want is to hug them and congŕatulate them in person and give them a big bouquet of flowers but NO.#anyway. UGH.

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notorioushiphopcrew · 8 months ago

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also i sent an email i kind of regretted. but also feeling that a large part of that was formed by the very intense emotional state i was in where i was experiencing crazy anxiety and doubts and shame about the way i acted and i felt like everything i wrote in that email was so terrible and also i felt so emotional and so ashamed of it and so sure everyone who knew it woild judge me and know how irrational i am and i could tell logically it probably wouldnt be a big deal but couldnt feel it and like. i feel a bit awkward now but ive fully calmed down and honestly? it was kind of fine actually. its just been a while since ive been UP THERE in that kind of state and i guess it kind of does give you perspective on how your emotional state really affects you so deeply and your perception of things. and like yeah i might retract a few things or be like "eh not mt best move" on some things but realising overall it doesnt matter and i can FEEL that. it is really crazy how many problems exist in your head and you can understand logically its not rational but you just have to bear it for a bit

#but thankfully i calmed down #but damn its been a while since ive been like that #wondering if this also ties into experiences in fhe past and fears about not being taken seriously or being seen as overly emotional #for no reason #that definitely played a big part in things #idk why im oversharing on the internet just felt like maybe i should start postinf all my random thoughts #and experiencing a bit of emotional clarity like after you reach a more balanced state ans go “damn i was strugglin”#but yeah....#ig my fear and anxiety really was #that i would be seen as so overly emotional and illogical and i wouldnt be taken seriously #and also in addition #the fear about thinking i have not communicated well how others acted torwards me and unneccessarily painting them as villians and using #language that was emotional to describe their actions #and my emotions were so strong i couldnt even handle to remember what i had wrote #but honestly i set clear boundaries and have explained my side of the story and although i dont know if i expressed myself perfectly #yes others did upset me and in my opinion act badly no i dont think its a long term issue and yes i will be taking distance from that happe #ing again #sometimes writing down your thoughts really makes them properly observable to you for the first time #and i am thinking about this writing this post

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apollo-zero-one · 9 months ago

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Man I can't believe I had the chance to go to a performing arts school up through middle school and I fuckin quit after 6 months just because I got bullied. BRO YOUR HOMEWORK WAS POETRY!! YOU HAD TO PRACTICE DANCING TO COTTON EYE JOE AS YOUR BIG UNIT TEST. GYM CLASS HAD A CIRCUS UNIT!! YOU HAD A WHOLE DAILY CLASS ON IMPROV!!! YOU FOOL!! YOU ABSOLUTE IMBICILE!! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN A YOUTUBER!!! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN ONE OF THOSE TWEENAGERS GETTING LOADED BY MAKING SHITTY YOUTUBE SHORTS IN 2008-14!! But noooOoooOOOoo little miss Noellie (who WANTED TO GO!! who worked SO HARD and sent in an application essay and did an INTERVIEW to get in!!) couldn't handle disruptive classmates or little scuffles and petty grudges and general Attitude of the other students and cried to mommy to put her back in public school. I am EATING MY HAIR over what Could Have Been. I COULD BE SOMEONE'S ANNOYING YOUTUBER!! I could be a DISGRACED DISNEY CHANNEL STAR!! I could be an America's Got Talent winner! A mild to moderately successful comedian! I could be making short films!! But no no no precious thin skinned baby me heard a few new cus words and watched a teacher get heckled and begged to give up The Dream in favor of?? Quiet math tests?? I am such a fucking quitter I quit everything the second it gets too hard I always take the out as soon as it's offered what's my fucking damage.....

#I had SO MUCH POTENTIAL and I SQUANDERED IT!! weak ass third grade PUSSY! Your life could have been SO SICK!!#or you could at least be addicted to cocain or something interesting like that!! Boring ass goody two shoes always just staying home doing #NOTHING bitch make a REAL FRIEND go to a God Damn PARTY live a little instead of just hiding in the closet eating saltine crackers for years #waiting for it to be quiet outside before you ever even toed the line #mentally ill self-isolating motherfucker #you could have shrugged it off you could have GROWN A PAIR and FOUGHT BACK but you just ran and cried for mommy #victim complex little bitch baby always whining and exaggerating and making shit up fucking LIAR I am you and I KNOW what you did and I know #you knew it wasn't the truth and you regretted it the moment it came out of uour mouth but once you'd said it you just swallowed it back and #doubled down incriminating or discrediting others with your lies. For why? Because you didn't like them? You could have ruined someone's #life you wouldn't have hesitated mayhe you did and don't even remember because you cant keep your mouth shut with your pants ablaze #manipulative little shit and to WHAT END? Pity? Sympathy? Attention? Entertainment?? What was even going on in your stupid ugly head?#This is a callout post for my third grade self that possessed demon ass evil nine year old. That kid drowned anthills in olive oil and #poisoned a wild animal once. That kid cut plants just to see if they oozed. That kid modified her whole ass personality on a dime for a boy #she had a crush on. INSTANTLY dropped a LIFELONG CULTURAL ALLEGIANCE (thats what football teams were like back then in our town) because he #said he had the opposite allegiance??? What the fuck? girl had NO integrity none zip zilch.#No empthy either that kid looked at everyone else on earth like they were friggin space aliens and she was the only one with Real feelings.#bitch literally thought like 'I have Feelings they just have Reactions' bitch what the fuckkkkk #that nine year old was fucked the hell up!!!#and for literally NO REASON!! No cause!! Just born fucking evil and weird. jesus fuck.#Evil ass bitch caused her autistic brother months of nightmares and then laughed about it and wrote poetry about how evil he was because he?#was a kid??? Normal sibling rivalry taken way way way too far defamatory ass statements #and this girl had NO CONSEQUENCES because she could lie and manipulate her way out of ANYTHING she had the baby eyes and the helpless charm #and played dumb soooo well . read people like some calculative evil AI scanning their faces for microexpressions and overanalyzing each word #choice like holy shit. its not That Deep. pretentious shit trying to play 5D chess on a checkers board.#Manipulating shit just to see what happens?? zero awareness?? no asking just skipping straight to testing for yourself??#'What happens if I step on this' it fucking breaks 'what does that taste like?' it's not fucking yours to mess with 'if I hit this person #how will they respond?' they'll be upset use your goddamn judgement you are NINE not TWO do you even care a little about any other person??#Are you just living in some other reality???#callout post for the fucking demon child inside of me #im so goddamn problematic I'm so so so deeply mentally disturbed and broken for no reason

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numbknee · 2 years ago

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South park fan

#alas….unfortunately I am #ask #anon #tag edit: oof yeah probs shouldn’t have rambled in the tags about writing sp fics on that prev post op got mad at me :(#in all fairness I used to be the exact same way and then I actually watched the show #and then begrudgingly had to acknowledge the writing was actually good #the show has a lot of shitty ppl who are fans but the reasons they like the show #like using Cartman’s antisemitism to justify their own bigotry #are 1000% NOT the same reasons I like the show #it’s very hit or miss and some eps are absolutely vile but the ones that hit #have some damn good writing. there’s a reason why trey parker is so prolific. the guy knows his shit #not only in tv writing but songwriting and writing the book of mormon #which won best musical so. you have to admit he’s talented at his craft even if some of the shit he writes makes me wanna throw up #because he specifically wrote it to make the audience uncomfortable. he and matt stone are provocateurs #but if you listen to the commentary or see the show beyond a surface level you’ll see it has a surprising amount of heart #I know that’s shocking for a non-fan for me to acknowledge that but. idk man don’t harass me over it you can block me if you’re #that uncomfortable #ok tag ramble over #FUCK TAG EDIT AGAIN: yeah I deleted my reblog op was getting upset and I don’t wanna invite harassment towards myself or him #I’m not about to fuck with anti sp ppl esp minors I don’t have a death wish

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magnificentposting-fabrizioart · 2 years ago

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Back with some Episode 12/13 commentary

Ngl, Ibrahim meeting his father was genuinely emotional until we saw Niko being awkwardly greenscreened over the beach, at that point we all burst out laughing.

Hürrem finally starts controlling herself, at which point literally anyone else who complained about her TRIES to get her to make a scene.

Also the childishness of Ahmet Pasha is hilarious to watch, as usual.

#magnificent century #muhteşem yüzyıl #magnificent tumblring #magnificent memes #sultan suleyman #ottoman history #damn manolis wtf you're a jerk #poor Niko #yeah dad I'm glad you consider me the worst son #I sure am happy I stayed here fishing with you for years now #I wanted to join the circus #ahmet wtf are you thinking #quick come up with some other bs #...I guess Ferat bad?#why I am even here #you know if you guys are so upset about converts having careers you should stop kidnapping people maybe?

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running-in-the-dark · 11 months ago

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okay thank god, it's over, I can stop talking about this stupid interview 🙃

#it's just... so damn annoying. like he seems super sweet sometimes. and then he's just. gross. like he thanks the interviewer ten times and #is so sweet and everything #but he harasses women. and he makes gross comments about women. and he's friends with lots of men who are shitty to women.#so like. nope #I just can't #still love the characters he plays etc.#but I'll keep not watching anything that's just him being himself. it genuinely upsets me 🤦#which is so stupid. he's just some old guy. why did I expect him to not be like that? I don't know. I shouldn't be disappointed but I #really am.#ugh. shitty people shouldn't get to play great characters because I'm a stupid baby and it makes me sad 🙄#personal #ck

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asfdhgsdkjhgb · 1 year ago

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i dont think ive ever gotten a "she uses he him pronouns" but i have actively twice now in the exact same circumstance just a different year gotten "they use he it pronouns"

#people at school stop they themming me when i actively introduce myself with he/it challenge (IMPOSSIBLE)#just me rambling again #its better than being she her-ed but. still not correct. still misgendering and making me uncomfortable #ive expressed this to friends IRL but now im thinking about it again so yall get to hear #i think people immediately they them me (people at my school at least or other queer people) because there's Enough about my #appearance to be able to tell that i am trying to not be a girl. but i also do not pass at all and am constantly perceived fem #so people just assume ah. Girl Lite. i know what that means that's what non binary is i should refer gender neutrally #NO!!!! I AM A BOY #I AM A BOY I AM A MAN I AM A GUY #OBVIOUSLY GENDER IS A BIT MORE COMPLEX THAN THAT IM ALSO A CREATURE BUT LIKE #I AM A BOY WHY DOES NO ONE EVER SEE ME AS A BOY rgh i did not realize how upset i was about this #I've been out for 3 years now and im so fucking exhausted of being trans sometimes it is so beautiful and divine but god #im so tired of never being perceived correctly #i have the privilege of going to a very queer school that tends to be much more accepting and supporting of queer identities than others #but god damn. i am so tired. stop preaching support while still not listening

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