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sammysammer · 6 months ago

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*throws this at you* GET BUNNYDOLLED MUAHAHAHHAHA

au belongs to @justwantswafflefries! they made a really cool au, check it out!! <333

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mattodore · 23 days ago

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when i say they'd act like this in public too...

#river dipping #matthias evanoff #theodore doe #a burning house to live in #echthroi #ts4 #ts4 video #minus the kissing! theo would allow neck kisses but that's it. spins them around. my emotional support ocs..................#currently recording some animations because i want to update the gif that's on my page theme #i might just redo the old gif actually. but i'm testing a bunch of other animations out in the meantime #i spent forever working on updating their skinblends yesterday and troubleshooting a lot of issues i'd just been ignoring w my game #i think i fixed most of them? but i still have weird black dots that show up along the horizon line of my screen sometimes. shrugs.#found a really funny glitch tho which is that when i have the outdated cas columns mod in matthias’s dick doesn’t work lmfaooo #i use a new model that’s still in a testing phase and somehow cas columns screws with it and matthias can't get hard #the erectile dysfunction cas columns glitch <3 #also been decorating theo's apartment a bit more. i have so much build cc and YET i'm struggling to find clutter it's agony #his apartment is meant to be a bit messy and full of old furniture and random things he's just picked up over the years #and dead flowers everywhere but alas... there's no cc for that so i've just been putting live plants down instead </3 #also this couch isn't meant to be in his apartment lol it's just that this animation only works with this couch so. too cute to pass up.#anyway #sharing this and then getting back to it

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supahstarrr · 2 months ago

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don't get me wrong i do like the jentry chau vs the underworld show, but there is something deeply annoying about there managing to be a "black disposable girlfriend/partner" trope sneak in a show that actively attempts at having good diverse representation. it was so unnecessary to introduce a girlfriend in the background for like 2 episodes just for the male lead to cheat on her with the main girl. and the audience is supposed to gloss over that a random black girl's whole existence is to be seen as annoying for being "in the way" of a romantic dynamic that will be soon established, and to push the most obvious main canon ship ever?

#jentry chau vs the underworld #jcvtu #jentry chau spoilers #spoilers #and yes i can definitely tell the audience was suppose to find *this* girlfriend specifically annoying and a threat #because jentry did not have this much hatred for stella when she was his girlfriend... but suddenly its a bigger problem #when micheal has *her* as his girlfriend lol #and also with this trope they had to use the “love interest cheats on current background partner with MC with show how much #they *love* them" trope which is to me very annoying as well. and such a weird way to frame the act of cheating #i just wish brown-skinned love interests (especially black girls) didnt have to be treated like this constantly #sunny's thoughts #sunny.txt

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nerves-nebula · 4 months ago

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always remember to take white ppls opinion on ur gender with 10000 grains of salt. they Do Not Know, even if they're tryna be nice

#nnstuff #rambling #when i was tryna find a gender label as a teen i wanted one coined by a black person #tho i didnt know why. i just didnt relate to a lotta the other gender labels. thats how i ennded up with maverique #but i do know why now!! i know why after reading other black trans peoples wriitngs!!#also: maverique is just infinitely better than most gender labels #a lot of them were weird. they didnt work in sentences the way that maverique does #you can say im a man/woman/maverique. you cant say i'm an aporagender #the issue i had with so many of them was that they ended with Gender and like. thats not how i wanna use a word for my gender #i wanna have 1 word that means the thing like man/woman. so maverique is pretty good. also its sounds best #and the flag colors are good i like them #what was my point? whatever

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lizmitches · 2 years ago

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careful there, howard. lying is a sin.

#what i find so interesting is that she always falls back on the descriptor of perfect #when she could choose literally ANY other word #because human perfection is something that is biblically! impossible!#but she functions in such a black and white world that there is either failure or perfection #she does not–cannot–exist in the inbetween #because barbara howard? doesn't have a weird thing about her #she uses words like bible and blessing and BLAMELESS #she does not succumb to the fire and she's fine. just fine #please write that down

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puppyudderly-dreamy · 5 months ago

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transmascs stop pretending that transfems are untrustworthy sources for transfeminism challenge impos- fuck i didn't even finish and you already complained about our terminology

#i really hate the expectation to know theory in these shit communities #they're barely communities it feels like on here trans people are unified by strict categorization #constantly infinitely expanding definitions but treating them as immutable and emergent from the core of reality #rather that words used to describe things we experience or the positions we are placed in my transphobic society #we're unified by who is mean to us more than wether or not we actually like each other #and so we must always be ready to litigate our position in these spaces #because they must be Definitionally justified rather than just having a real community where we're treated like human beings #i wish we still had our elders... i wish we weren't so adverse to learning humanly #i wish i could escape the weird black and white fandom thinking but it worms it's way into every community here now #this is why i keep lamenting old t4t spaces #we weren't there to argue theory #we weren't opposed to learning it in fact it was useful and joyful to share with each other #to help describe our experiences and understand where we've been placed in the world #but that's not why we were there #we were there for community to be kind to each other #now it's nothing but a bunch of teenage fandom tme people arguing with fake versions of trans women they invented in their heads #while we just hide in the background wondering if the word community means something different now #or if we're really just so evil to our very cores that we were foolish to think we could have community in the first place #sorry just #needed to vent this shit has been in my head for a while #i wasn't in a place to go to gay bars or trans events when i was first here #i couldn't have local community so finding one here with transfems who loved each other #it was so important to me #and learning that i could cater to that small but kind audience in my sex work is what made me finally love doing it #before then i'd been doing it purely cuz i couldn't get any other job #and before that because i was forced to #there's a lot of trauma wrapped up in my work for me but i healed from it largely because of my sisters i found on here #but i don't know when it went away but it did #and now it feels like we're left in a massive crowd of screaming voices #and i don't recognize any of them anymore

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belovay · 23 days ago

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anyways as a general note / reminder, yelena is also not a s.h.i.e.l.d. agent.

#i tend to place her at an in between of fashion model / owner of a modeling agency and vanguard operative.#more entrepreneur than active operative #( except for the parts where black widow training comes in Real Handy when it's time to get ahead in the game. )#but now and then she does take up with the old gang long enough to do something that someone might describe as good.#( grinch vc : tell no one. )#anyways just think it's a really weird decision to make her a shield agent actually #during a period of her life when she's currently trying to find herself and her place in the world #after realizing that she's been used and manipulated basically her whole life?#joining shield is the absolute last thing she'd want to do imo #probably be more likely to toss her hat in with the avengers god help her.#&. * ooc. › general.#tag.

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supercantaloupe · 2 months ago

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i am not immune to marketing gimmicks (<- just bought limited edition cocoa flavor online)

#sasha speaks #they're having a big sale rn to clear out their overstock and leftover limited edition flavors from the past year #nearly everything is sold out already especially most of their flavored blends #but they had a medium roast from an origin i haven't tried before #and the unflavored single origin medium roasts are my favorite! so i ordered a bag for 35% off #plus a bag of my usual favorite...in fairness i also meant to bring some back home with me from my apartment and forgot completely #the other day when i was packing #so having a couple bags of cocoa arriving at home for me in a few days will be a nice treat #it's just roasted and ground cacao beans but you brew it just like coffee #the end product really is a lot like black coffee (bitter and strong lol) but it's quite lovely with a bit of sweetener #i used to take it with some cream but actually now my favorite preparation #is cocoa grounds + big pinch of salt + a few green cardamom pods + just enough maple syrup to make it *barely* sweet #makes a wonderful hot beverage. it's so cozy...#anyway looking forward to that. i hope the new flavor is good. the last limited edition medium roast i tried was fine #but i didn't like it more than their regular ones #unfortunately most of their varieties these days are either dark/french/ultradark (spanish) roasts or they're flavored light roasts #and i don't much go for those. i mean occasionally a flavored light roast #but i find them disappointing more often than not. light roast isn't chocolatey enough for me and the flavors are usually weak or stale #(the strawberry one is good but it's a summer limited ed and it was out of stock already by the time i saw the overstock sale)#and the dark roasts are just too dark for me. i want to taste the cacao bean and origin not just the roast #so the medium roasts are the sweet spot for me. roasted enough to taste really chocolatey and strong #but not so much that they're overwhelming and lose their character #actually weirdly i've noticed recently that on some of their limited ed and flavored blends they aren't listing the roast level.#it's very strange #for the flavoreds i just assume light roast but it's weird when they don't tell you on the package or the online shop page

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lovethatlaiduslow · 6 months ago

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Finally met all 3 of my housemates and the sich is looking more dire by the second

#one is a total slob. like was living in filth in the house this summer before I moved in and cleaned everything #there was a ton of black mold in his bathroom apparently?? and I cleaned out his cat’s water fountain and found an INSANE. like #insaaane amount of mold. it was disgusting. and he’s so bad abt keeping the litter clean. like are u fuckinggg kidding me #I don’t want to clean after him but I can’t fucking stand people no taking care of their pets. what is wrong with u #one has an insane amnt of pets and has been describing their sex life in detail unprompted to my asexual roommate and is making her super #uncomfy #and one said a transphobic comment to me today. which is insane bc they use she/they pronouns #like it wasn’t malicious. more just bc of carelessness but it rlly rubbed me the wrong way #idk. weird situation. one of my roomies pulled out last second and we had to find some rando to move in and I just met her yesterday so.#ig I shouldn’t be so judgy buttt. the vibes r weird now. hopefully everything turns out ok #I was feeling fine abt it yesterday when we finally all met but now I’m feeling sooo anxious ugh. like my lease goes until July

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aromanticasterisms · 8 months ago

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bomb group chat is the funniest thing in the world to me. ratio really said you guys can figure this one out yourselves

#personal stuff #seraph plays star rail #OH OKAY HE IS HELPING. HE JUST LEFT THE GROUP CHAT THE MOMENT HE HEARD WHAT WAS GOING ON. REAL.#wisely. i would not want notifications of Literally Every Playable Character From Penacony blowing up my phone either #hiii sparkle. loving the adapted monodrama theme they're using for this #also aventurine who is not on penacony and dealt with his share of bullshit already going lol. have fun with that #argenti and boothill gay moments.#BLACK SWAN JUST SHOWING UP. HI.#oh. okay. that was kind of anticlimactic #everyone's supposedly rushing to the bomb site but then we get a long ass conversation with firefly. then everyone is just chilling out #was everyone in on it?? was i the only one who didn't know?? why was i the only one heading to the fucking bomb abt to go off come on #anyway aventurine just hanging out in the spot where he almost died was funny. king shit #also kind of weird that the screen was still damaged even though we did a whole event to fix it. what was the point of that then #a lot of weird inconsistencies with this quest idk if i'm liking it #like. kind of weird that we had that whole sidequest with robin asking us to find sunday only for us to know where he is the whole time #anyway my favorite parts were the aventurine mentions and when aventurine showed up alive and friends w boothill. also ratio #OOH WE GOT A BUNCH OF VISITORS TO THE EXPRESS WOO.#but no aventurine :(#like boothill black swan sparkle robin and argenti yaay woooo #no acheron i can understand. but no aventurine......

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dbphantom · 9 months ago

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maybe i should have gone into practical effects instead of computer science...

#when i was in middle school i used to use red and black pens + spit for blending to make it look like the backs of my hands were torn open #i can't believe it's almost 4am. i just spent 5 hours typing up an essay about MM's erik that i just fuckin privated bc i was embarrassed #AND I STILL NEVER SPELL HIS NAME RIGHT THE FIRST TIME AAAAAAAA #i was right but im going to save all my points for the fanfic im currently planning out and promptly NEVER GOING TO ACTUALLY WRITE #I say shoving my plans for my h2o s3 rewrite off the table #yes i skipped from s2 to s3 i had a BRILLIANT idea [season 3 h2o spoilers ahead be wary my mutuals who are still watching]#okay so you know how lewis goes to the american institute of marine bio in the middle of 3? since this is tied to my s2 rewrite fic i wante #to actually finally reasonably re-introduced dr denman to the story because i never liked that she just fucked off at the end of s1 #despite WITNESSING the moon pool magic. so i made it so she runs into lewis while doing a presentation for the college and they have a chat #(because her JAW paper plays an important part in my s2 rewrite bc i imagine lewis is the kind of guy who SAYS he deleted every copy of #it... but ACTUALLY he secretly printed himself out a copy to study in private to compare to his own notes bc #[lewis voice] come *on* guys just THINK of the progress that he could make with this! [grabby hands in front of chest])#so yeah they have a chat and Linda kind of gives Lewis the opposite dilemma in s3 that Louise gives him in s1 about science and magic #since SHE knows about the moon pool and has been biding her time and she knows Lewis knows and Lewis is like ah... uh oh.#it will eventually tie into the idea it's not about forcing science and magic together or separating them #its abt respectfully and responsibly utilizing both to see their fullest potential. which lewis learned in s2 and Linda has... not.#BUT #later on she gets a call from 1 (one) ryan who is like 'hey so i heard u did environmental studies on mako for dr bennett a couple years ag #and i was wondering if you've seen anything weird there as im currently doing a-' and she's immediately like 'YOU SON OF A BITCH IM IN'#and he's like 'wha-' and she's like 'i have already booked my plane tickets we're going to have a great time we have lots to talk about :)'#and wheeee now they have someone who knows about mermaids on their team and it's the perfect way to bring lewis back to relevancy in s3 :D #it also gives me reason to have two bad bitches (linda and sophie) meet and get to know each other which is not a dynamic ive seen in #any of the H2O fics i've ever read so im very hyped to delve into how they'll play off each other #also charlotte is there so technically three bad bitches (only in my au Charlotte never lost her tail and is part of the gang she just move #because she felt like she needed to leave to really be able to find herself without being in her grandmother's shadow but she comes back bc #well... it's season 3 mako is sounding the fucking emergency alarms everyone is showing up sdkghkfjhg)#im also so so so hyped to show u guys who's coming back in the s2 rewrite because it ISNT denman and i think everyone thinks it will be :3c #(i said she when telling ppl to look forward to a familiar face... but can u blame me for getting hype she's one of my favorite characters!#i love u H2O #cruddy rambles

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margle · 10 months ago

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it's genuinely mind boggling to me how someone can make a list of their favourite musicians/artists/authors and not include a single woman. how?? i just dont understand. you have to be actively avoiding them at this point.

#i just remembered a video i watched where this youtube animator recommended like 50 other animators and didnt include a single woman #so weird #its not like there arent any #i battle with myself about this because it's not like you choose what you like #and theres not any kind of inherent moral failing in happening to like only male musicians or whatever #but it puts me off a bit #because i feel like it means they dont value women highly enough to actually try to connect with our art?#or that they view us as lesser creators #same thing as when people who avidly listen to loads of different genres but dont listen to any black people #its just weird #its most prevalent within comedy i think #because i think in order to find people (purposefully) funny you have to give them the benefit of the doubt in regards to their intelligenc #and i think the reason why lots of ppl dont think women are funny is because they are more likely to think a woman is acting a fool than #being purposefully funny #its dehumanising i think #the extreme of this is when people cant even comprehend that women (or the excluded group - this happens with race & class as well) have #inner lives #anyway its 3am i need to sleep

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lizard-dumbass · 2 years ago

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I swear to god teenagers have some sort of telepathic superpower they use to reach into your mind to find things about you to make fun of because how else would that random ass boy have known that i like rock music and then started mocking me for it

#lizard-dumbass talks about stuff #text post #no seriously #i was in the library after school last week and there were no empty chairs anywhere so i leaned against a wall close to a group of kids who #were also hanging out in the library after school hours #i was legit just minding my own business‚ looking at my phone‚ headphones on‚#when this random boy comes up to me‚ does the devil horns hand sign‚ and mockingly says 'dark side!' while headbanging #he did this several times too during the circa 20 minutes i was in that library‚ each time getting closer in my personal space #i just ignored him cuz i didnt know what else to do #but what confuses me is how the hell he knew that i like that type of music #i wasnt even dresed particularly goth/punk/emo/whatever #maybe it was the fact that i was wearing all black and had headphones on #but i kind of think he just telepathically looked into my mind to find out what music i like /j #he pulled that same shit again yesterday #he saw me walking outside and said to his buddy ''hey its my friend!'' (the use of 'friend' obvs being sarcastic) and shouted DARK SIDE at #me while headbanging and doing the devil horns hands #idk man teens are weird #and mean #so very mean

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im-with-nasa · 2 years ago

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why??? did almost everyone i knew from my high school turn to some sort of extremism when we graduated??? was it the pandemic??? being chronically online??? COLLEGE??? i just wanna know omg

#rant warning in these tags bcs i am so SHOCKED #using this as a way of documenting my thoughts about this so i can look back on this and be just as shocked #literally some of them are now hard right republicans #my former best friend is STILL with this guy after YEARS AND YEARS OF HIS WEIRD RACIST BEHAVIOR???#one is trying to transition to be a BLACK WOMAN??? this is a TRANS RACE THING #this person also dropped out of college for being an alcoholic too like YIKES OMG #my ex is now some sort of spiritual “u make ur own happiness” people that is two steps away from cult activity #if i had a penny for every time someone said this to me when i was trying to reach out for mental health help i would be a billionaire #i check up on these people for the first time in OVER A YEAR and this is what i find #lol let me use these tags as a societal analysis of life after the pandy #happy with the people i kept/let into my life now because THESE ARE COMPLETELY DIFFERENT PEOPLE LMFAOO #maybe its just... over self analysis?? self-consumption?? narcissism?? that drove them to this #i know people change and all but damn there go all the happy memories with them lol #kinda the closure i needed tbh #ramblings

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autism-corner · 1 month ago

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always remember that i am soso cute

#new hair yayyy!!!!#the purple was cute sure but its not. me. plus it faded fairly quickly and bleghghhg #i can deal with growing roots making coloured hair look bad but i can NOT. deal with muted asf colours. sorry.#SO!. were back to something KINDA new.#ive had the lowest layer of my bangs red. ive had the lower layers ALL-ROUND bleached once and red another.#rn we haveee: bleached bangs into bleached sideburns!! but thats it.#rest is brown =w=bb i was so scared i couldnt find the brown i previousely liked but they just. decided to switch the main name wth #ok!!!#its cuteee i thinkkk whenever i look back at my halftoned hair i miss ittttt #not when i did the black and red one but that mightve been bc the cut (ugly trying to grow it out by just not cutting it-style)#=w=bbb #sillyposting #i did a weird shape to divide the bleach and brown so now they overlap on my bangs kindaaaa weirdly but. i know how to fix that next time!!#i just really like how relatively low maintenence this is compared to full-purplee etc #when i had it with red bangs even it was still just.... dye the roots whenever but thats ittt #PLUS!! it looks 'alternative' while being both 'normal' colours which i likey #if i didnt kinda fall in love with full-bleach i wouldve maybe gone back to red but...... i just miss the yellowy blonde too muchh T-T #im excited to like how i look again. unforts the full purple really didnt do it for mee which i did know but still find really upsettingg #OH also. i dont like conditionerrrr........ it feels unnaturally smooth and im not used to ittt #if my hairs smooth it doesnt fall the way i want to (which is messy. im a hastag guy.)#when i was in canada it made sense to use conditioner bc their shampoo made my hair feel ROUGH. like it-feels-like-sand rough.#and. im not sure if thats the case for everyone?? bc its never been like that hereeee.#idk its weird. i dont like conditioner me thinks erm #=w=bbbb new hair me so cute lets gooo!!

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intomybubble · 4 months ago

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I’m still playing Sims 4 and so I made a household with a Sim of myself so I can try doing a bunch of different careers (for the items lol)

I ended up romancing Don Lothario and accidentally had his kid after downloading and trying out the WW mod (we had 1 date prior, and I asked for him to live in with me afterwards).

I wasn’t paying too much attention to his name (since this was my first time playing Sims 4 since mid 2010s and I don’t know characters or lore), and used the random name generator and named our daughter, Dawn. I did not realize I basically named her after him lol.

As things are now

We’re partners and “soulmates”

I go out to work (currently doing the spy career), while he’s basically my househusband

He was a creative freelancer when he was added to my household so he makes A LOT from paintings, and sometimes music

I gave him an variation of his default everyday outfit to give him glasses (bc I’m into glasses, but “lorewise” he spends more time at a screen for work so he started to need them)

I used a mod to change his “non-committal” trait into being a family man, and bc he’d still get tense from being “non-committal” (despite trying to get rid of it) I got a “carefree” potion from the rewards store RIP

I don’t 100% remember before changing it, but he was a decent dad beforehand. Now, its super cute seeing him chat and play with our daughter

My Sim wants to marry him, but I’ve been worried about him potentially refusing so I’ve just stuck with being “partners”

I did do a wedding on a different household (OC marrying Liberty) and that was a mess especially since I have no idea what I’m doing

I do now have actual venues to use in the future instead of the ugly base game park 👍

I did give my Sim the same necklace that he wears as a sorta “promise ring” in her outfits (I think its cute lol)

Bc I’m stuck on leveling stats, we don’t leave the house that often. But the WW mod has kept things… spicy without actual dates lmao

I think I’m going to try proposing and just having an incredibly long engagement soon…

#desiree talks #desiree plays #i would like to ignore any of the lore he actually has bc he’s mine now lol #also these are definitely not his kids but Katrina Caliente had two kids?#they’re both black so I’m certain that it was an auto generated NPC before I cleaned up the households #aka moving families back in their home finding stuff in the gallery to upgrade their homes etc #and editing the stories mode settings so they stay and stop having babies #and deleting auto generated sims that were ugly or had too many bad traits #so RIP i won’t know who the dad is and same for Dina and her kid looks asian #our daughter dawn isn’t undeniably cute (she got her eyes and looks like she has no lashes so it’s a bit weird #HIS EYES not mine #im so sorry sweetheart i love you and i’ll max your stats again before making you a teen #like i want to age her but i also want to buy dlc (when on sale) so we can make more memories aka the growing together dlc #also another thing about the WW mod i have to test it so NPCs don’t be doing the nasty in public #i saw one of my OC sims getting railed at the bookstore i placed and I was traumatized #like i have to triple check and test my settings #i also feel like a degen for having the mod and using it a ton on my sim and don but i dont hate it lol #like don is hot af after the design refresh #he got the best of it in comparison to the caliente girls #i saw his early sims 4 design and he looks like barely 20 with a incel podcast or just a listener #and his designs from past games make him look like a 40 year old divorcee #currently he looks like he’s around 30 and I’m getting closer to that age anyway #there are some cute animations either from WW or kawaii’s SoL mod (idr but its probably WW) and they’re really cute #god i want an actual relationship but i need a job and some personal security first before i feel comfortable putting myself out there #i tried the mod with my ocs and it felt more wrong than it being a sim of myself and my basically husband #hang on this is going in an actual post

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