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Christmas event :D

Rosinate x reader chocolate

Reader where she's just cooking with little law while waiting for Rosi to arrive from his marine duty and then do Christmas stuff and sitting and cuddling in the fire place while drinking hot choco( OMG this is so cute just thinking Abt it 😭❤️ ) and then in the morning Rosi tells law to open his gifts in the Christmas tree and holy shit imagine the kids adorable smile ❤️😭🥰

Thank you for doing this <33

My darling you made me the happiest person alive by requesting this. My perfect life would definitely look like this if I ever got the chance to ask for something. THANK U for requesting this, thank u so much. I hope you enjoy!!! Happy Holidays! 💖

Chocolate

Rosinante x Gn! Reader ft. Little Law

Day 10: Our First Christmas Together ~

tw: none. excess of cuteness. Law is 7 y/o as always when I wrote for him as a child.

a/n: the notebook is inspired on the canon fact that Law drew himself his jolly roger while living at Mr. Wolff's. (You can read the novel here) (yeah I draw them to look like crayons and let's pretend that's Law's handwriting pls hahaha)

wc: 1333

White spots cover little Law's face…

This time is not from the amber lead, but from some powdery sugar.

Sickness turned into sweetness. Rosinante and you, Law’s beloved protectors. Law’s second chance in life, Law’s first Christmas with Cora and you.

He is standing on his special yellow booster to reach for the kitchen countertop, and both you and him, are baking some gingerbread men. It was surprising Law liked them, since he doesn’t like anything bread related, apparently cookies were an exception.

“How do you want to decorate them, Law?” you ask, searching for some sprinkles and chocolate melts. “Uhm, I think I want to add a smiling face. Let me show you, I’ve made a few drawings…” the little bean of joy says and runs up to his room.

“Law! you are gonna get sugar all ov…. Never mind”

Law is as methodical as a grown up, but still a kiddo. There is no way you could scold him, he wants to show you something he drew, you will have time to clean afterwards. Plus this is your first Christmas together…

The tanned skin, crystalline grey eyes, cute kiddo shows you some designs out of a yellow notebook.

“Law!! How pretty!!” you joyfully tell him, because they are indeed really cute. “Do you think Cora would like them? They are inspired by…” he stops himself; a light dust of crimson invades his cheeks. “Are they inspired by daddy's smile? I can see it clearly! He would love them. I tell you what, prepare the page because he will surely want them in his office” you tell him, cleaning some of the sugar off his nose.

Law’s smile widens, and his eyes shine with a special sparkle. He is well aware, despite being so young, how Rosinante’s actions have allowed him to keep on living. Law sees him as the representation of life. And you, you too. There are no gray clouds that could opaque the sunlight of Cora’s smile. He is your sun, Law’s sun.

“Let’s finish them before he is home!” he says, rolling up his sleeves. “Sure! Plus we need to do some more for Santa tonight”. Law gives you a side look, he is at that age some of his friends tell them Santa doesn’t exist but he still wanna believe he does. In any case, Rosi and you have decided to keep with the “lie” as long as he tells you to stop. A little bit of fantasy and magic never hurt anybody, right?.

Law managed to create a special bowl with milk for Santa, that he left next to the tree for the old guy to indulge after leaving the presents. He didn’t ask for anything, Law indeed never does, but he will get many presents this year…

Both of you get so into the decoration of the cookies and preparing the dinner table you don’t realize the time passes by faster than expected. Soon, a huge thump could be heard outside the house.

“DADDY'S HOME!”

Law seems more excited than ever, he even forgot about his characteristic “bad mood” and it’s jumping all over the place -until he notices you are looking at him- but even though, it’s always heartwarming to see him so happy.

Rosinante shakes the snow off his shoulders and hangs his white Marine cape. The shift at the base is over, and the night is settled to have a wonderful warm Christmas family dinner. Law runs to Cora’s arms, being lifted by him (almost hitting the kiddo’s head against the ceiling).

“Hello, my dear husband~” you purr, smiling at the sweetest image of him holding your little ray of sun. Rosi comes closer and kisses your lips softly and lovingly, while Law is crushed against you two since he has them on arms.

“AHHHHH” Law shouts. “A sandwich of loveee!!! Law, you are being trapped by the love bread!!!” you shout, snuggling him with pure love and sweetness. You all laugh at Law’s cheeks being squeezed and after that you head to the dining room.

Christmas decorations, delicious food Law helped you to prepare and arrange, and carols playing (Law was against playing them, but still). Rosi and you enjoy the delicious food, while listening to Law speak about the new operation the read of. You are not disgusted of course, but Rosi, who is absolutely grossed out by blood, tries to endure through the details of the procedure Law is commenting on.

You suggest for them to go sit next to the fireplace to have some cocoa and cookies. Law fidgets on his seat because he knows those are gonna be his cookies. The bean is anxious to show Cora his creation, and to see if he notices.

You were absolutely sure he would notice, but you decided to send him a message earlier just to tell him…

You > Love, your son is making you cookies. He drew the designs himself and are inspired by your smile. I���m sure you will notice, but just in case. Oh, did you get the Sora figure?” Hubby ❤> Oh I’m gonna hug him so tight, you have no idea!” Hubby ❤ > 📎sent an attachment:

Hubby ❤ > And I did, it’s on the trunk well packed with yellow paper 🙊

You three chose to wear the special pajamas you bought. “Mx. Noel”, “Mr. Noel” & “Little Santa Helper” embroidered on the front of them. Pillows scattered in front of the fireplace with the three boots hanging from it, of course.

“So, here are the stars of the night, Law's sweetest creation, smiling cookies!” you cheer bringing three cups of cocoa, escorted by the kiddo bringing a batch with the cookies. Rosinante, of course, sitting on the floor -because he was banned from moving, just to avoid any unwanted accidents-.

Cora starts screaming, scaring Law with the shouts and the excitement, but making him laugh shortly after. “Excuse me little guy… that’s my…?” he asks, ready to attack Law with a million kisses. “UH… YOUR SMILE” he says, up and straightforward, hiding under his hat after because of the intense embarrassment.

But the hat didn’t last longer over his black spiky hair, because his dad had already knocked it off in a kisses and hugs attack. “AHHH DAD!!!” Law shouts, while you watch the fight next to you, and there is nothing else you could ever ask in your whole life. You were the richest person in the whole world.

After some story reading, you sitting in between Cora’s legs and Law sitting in between yours, drinking hot chocolate and enjoying the lovely cookies, Law finally fell asleep. “Oh he is asleep” you whisper to your hubby. “Right, let’s take him to his bed”

Rosi and you carry the little bean to his bed, tucking him and kissing his forehead goodnight. “Sleep tight, son” Cora whispers, and you, on tippy toes, reach for his cheek to kiss him. “What a wonderful dad you are, babe”.

Before going to sleep you two enjoyed the cookies and milk “for Santa” and arranged the presents all around the tree. Rosi also used a little bit of flour to simulate Santa’s snowy boots footprints.

Cora wasn’t able to sleep until no more than 6 am on Christmas day. He was so excited he had to go and wake up Law to go see the gifts. And of course, cause “like father, like son” (even if they weren’t connected by blood) the two of them go downstairs running.

You, still with a sleepy face and messy hair, used your den den mushi to record the reaction. Law was on the verge of crying while opening his gifts. Tears of joy. He isn’t a consumerist child; he didn’t even ask for a gift in his letter to Santa. But the love he received was, for him, the most precious gift he could ever have gotten.

Oh, and the Sora figure.

He even slept with it for many many years. 💖~

[mysteriousxmidnight]

Ooh, do you think we could have some more Kleinphy headcannons for the OTP thing?

OKAY! Sorry this took so long but I really wanted to put some thought into it. SO: 

1) Who rocks the Ferris Wheel seat and who flips out and begs them to stop? Jared’s scared of heights, but he’s never admitted that to anyone. So Connor jokingly rocks the seat and Jared FREAKS OUT HARDCORE, and Connor is like “omg, I’m so sorry,” and just pulls Jared into a hug for the rest of the ride

2) Who is always horny and will have sex at any time, at any place and at any time? For all his sex jokes, Jared’s actually really scared to be THAT vulnerable/naked/etc in front of someone. And Connor’s like, meh, we can do other things. He’s had flings and fooled around, but it’s whatever to him. So, I guess the answer is neither is really all that into it. They try it eventually and it’s fun once in awhile, but they prefer just cuddling and kissing and hanging out together.

3) Who is more into taking showers/baths together? Who tries to make it relaxing and who tries to make it sexy time? See above. I think eventually they’d get comfortable seeing each other naked, but they like their space and privacy, so they wouldn’t shower together.

4) Who likes to walk around the house naked and who tells the other to go put some clothes on? Neither

5) Who sleeps on the couch when they get into a fight? Neither. Because even when they fight, they still sleep better cuddled up together. Especially Connor. So they’ll fight and then Jared will be like “I’m still mad at you, you dummy, but come cuddle with me.” And Connor’s like “Shut up, I hate you right now, but ok.”

6) Who takes photos of the other while they sleep? Jared did it once as a joke but Connor got REALLY upset about it, so Jared never did it again.

7) Who said “I love you” first? and who ends their arguments in a fight with “Because I love you”? Jared, by accident, and he tries to cover it up by being like “I love youuuu..rrrrrr shirt, cool band, amirite?” and he nervous laughs. And Connor rolls his eyes and he’s like “You’re a dork, you have no idea who this band is, and I love you, too.” Neither is very good with expressing emotions and feelings like that, but they’re both so paranoid about screwing things up that they BOTH end the fight with “Because I love you” so the other knows they aren’t ACTUALLY mad, just kinda hurt 

8) Who likes to wear the others sweatshirts? Jared loves wearing Connor’s sweatshirt so much that he literally will just unzip it and yank it off him, and Connor’s like wtf are you doing? But he also thinks it’s adorable so he doesn’t even care, he just pretends to be annoyed by it.

9) Who wakes the other up in the middle of the night to tell them a cool dream they had? Who has the most nightmares, and who sings them back to sleep after? Jared wakes up from a cool dream and WANTS to tell Connor about it, but Connor is FINALLY asleep after waking up from ANOTHER nightmare, so he just snuggles closer and vows to remember the dream so he can tell Connor about it in the morning. And, without opening his eyes, Connor is like, “You wanna tell me about your dream, don’t you?” And Jared’s like “OMG YES CAN I?”

10) Who is more likely to cheat? Neither. I explained why in my Conguel OTP hc.

11) Who makes fun of the other for having a crush on them, and who has to remind them that they are in a relationship? I think Jared would both tease Connor about his crush AND also be the one reassuring Connor that they’re in a relationship and that’s not going to change

12) Who starts a food fight in the kitchen? Neither. Connor likes cooking too much to waste food and Jared likes eating too much to waste food. BUT when Connor bakes, he likes to swipe a finger in the batter and plop it on Jared’s nose so he can lick it off and Jared BLUSHES SO HARD but loves it

13) Who initiates duets? and who is the better singer? Neither can sing but they both love belting it out in the car and they don’t hold back because they feel safe with each other

14) Who starts the hand holding? Who grabs the others butt? Who slides their arm around their waist? Who likes to put their fingers in the belt loops? I guess I’m a sucker for Connor hating PDA but loving hand holding because he initiates the hand holding in every ship I’ve done this for, hahaha. Jared would totally pinch Connor’s butt. Also, Connor is ticklish so when Jared pinches his butt, it tickles and Connor lets out this little squeal/yip noise that Jared MELTS over. Connor wold definitely be the one to slide his hands around Jared’s waist AND pull him in by the belt loops.

15) Who likes writes the others name on their wrist? I guess I’m ALSO a sucker for Connor having pretty handwriting and writing Jared’s name over his wrist scars because I did that with my Conguel ships too. OH WELL I LOVE IT SO YES HE DOES THAT

16) Who is more seductive when they are drunk? and who is louder in bed? Jared is just a messy, goofy drunk and he TRIES to be seductive and Connor just laughs at him and it makes Jared pout and Connor is like “it’s okay baby, u still cute.” Neither is super loud in bed. Also again, it’s not something they do a lot, anyway.

17) Who is more protective? Connor will GROWL at people who he thinks are upsetting Jared. And Jared is like “He bites, too.”

18) Who talks to the other while they are sleeping? Neither. Jared refuses to do anything that would wake Connor if he’s FINALLY fallen asleep. Connor is the same but mostly because he has so much trouble opening up to people, and he’s worried Jared will wake up and hear him say something he didn’t actually want Jared to hear.

19) Who drives and who has the window seat? They take turns, but usually Jared because he’s terrified of Connor’s driving.

20) Who falls asleep in the others lap and who carries them to bed? Okay so I answered this already but I’m gonna copy that answer in here so all my answers are together. SO: More often than not, Connor falls asleep in Jared’s lap because insomnia is a bitch, but Jared doesn’t have the heart to wake him. And Connor wakes up hours later and is like ?? Why didn’t you wake me? And Jared just shrugs, so Connor gets up and scoops Jared into his arms and carries him up to bed, but Connor is still sleepy and groggy, so they kind of, like, tumble into bed and Connor lands on top of Jared and they laugh and kiss and snuggle before finally falling back to sleep.

21) Who cuts the others hair? Jared WANTS to cut Connor’s hair (not super short, just, like, clean it up). And Connor is like NO WAY YOU’RE NOT PUTTING ANYTHING SHARP NEAR MY HEAD.

22) Who is super bad at sexting? and who sends them encouraging messages throughout the day? They’re both AWFUL at sexting, omg. They try anyway but they SUCK AT IT SO BAD and they make fun of each other for it, too. They both also TRY to send encouraging messages but they’re SO bad at expressing feelings, etc, that it ends up sounding like cheesy platitudes and then they each try to outdo each other in the cheesiness department.

23) Who thinks they are not good enough for the others love? and who’s more afraid of loosing the other? Who thinks they keep messing up, only for the other to tell them they don’t need to worry? Oh, they’re both SO insecure, neither thinks they deserve the other. 

24) Who starts random slow dancing with the other in the kitchen? Who holds the other just above the ground and kisses them? Jared tries to get Connor to dance, but Connor’s like “omg stahhhppp.” And Connor lifts Jared for the kiss but Jared feels awkward and shifts in Connor’s arms and Connor loses his balance and they fall and Jared stares down at Connor and he’s like “heh.. hi...”

25) Who says shitty puns and sex jokes just to see the other giggle and blush? Jared, for sure. He likes making Connor roll his eyes and blush

26) Who kissed first? They tried to go in at the same time and knocked teeth and Jared’s glasses. So they laugh it off and try again, slower this time.

27) Who orders take out at two in a morning? and who wakes the other up at three in the morning to go downstairs with them to get a glass of water because it’s too dark? This also seems to be across the board for me and my ships, but definitely Connor cause insomnia, and Jared wakes up and joins him

28) Who writes poems/stories and love songs about the other? Do they sing the songs the write for them? Connor writes them but he refuses to show them to Jared because he thinks Jared will tease him, but Jared has seen them and loves them. He pretends he hasn’t though because he knows it will embarrass Connor. He just hopes Connor feels comfortable showing them to him one day (spoiler: he will).

29) Who does some crazy stunt to try and impress the other and who ends up driving them to the emergency room after it backfires? Jared totally would.

30) Who is embarrassed when they have to wear their glasses and who thinks they look super cute? Neither would be embarrassed. Jared already DOES wear them and has since he was a kid. And Connor only needs them to read but he doesn’t mind wearing them in front of Jared. Jared was teased a LOT for his glasses as a kid (the whole “four eyes” thing), and he’d never do that to Connor.

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@hiccoras  //  @asphaltkissed  love  u  both  xoxox

                              it’s  harder  than  he  thought  it  would  be  .  how  do  movies  and  tv  shows  manage  to  make  this  look  so  easy  ,  like  the  words  are  able  to  just  flow  from  the  pen  ,  and  yet  here  dongsub  sits  ,  a  second  away  from  banging  his  head  against  the  table  as  words  refuse  to  form  in  his  mind  .  ‘  just  start  again  ,  ’  is  whispered  into  the  air  of  his  empty  room  ,  belongings  already  packed  away  into  his  suitcase  ,  door  locked  .  HE  LEARNT  FROM  THE  LAST  TIME  ,  ‘  this  is  your  only  chance  to  do  this  ..  just  start  at  the  beginning  ...  

                                                           DEAR  ...   

                              HAZEL  .  i’m  sorry  for  everything  i’ve  done  that  has  ever  caused  you  to  feel  hurt  or  upset  .  you  have  every  right  to  hate  me  and  i  bear  no  ill  will  towards  you  because  of  it  ,  in  fact  i’ve  started  to  understand  where  you  have  been  coming  from  .  my  interactions  with  blair  have  never  been  with  malicious  intent  nor  with  intention  to  manipulate  him  ,  i  never  asked  him  to  concern  himself  so  heavily  with  my  problems  ,  in  fact  more  often  than  not  i  would  beg  him  not  to  get  involved  ,  but  i  understand  where  your  concern  for  him  comes  from  ,  and  i’m  glad  you  voiced  it  ,  it’s  helped  me  to  reflect  on  what  kind  of  person  i  truly  am  ,  and  as  much  as  the  truth  hurts  ,  i’m  glad  someone  was  honest  enough  to  let  me  hear  it  .  blair  is  very  ,  very  lucky  to  have  you  ,  i  know  you  can  take  care  of  him  well  and  that  you  also  take  care  of  yourself  .  i  wish  you  nothing  but  the  best  and  i  hope  you  continue  to  enjoy  your  political  science  degree  !!  ((  that  is  your  major  ,  right  ??  blair  mentioned  it  once  ,  i  hope  i  got  it  right  ..  ))

                              GRAYSON  .  i’m  sorry  i  didn’t  tell  you  about  this  ,  but  i  didn’t  tell  anyone  until  now  ,  now  that  i’m  far  enough  away  that  no  one  can  catch  me  and  talk  me  out  of  it  like  the  last  time  .  this  is  just  something  i  need  to  do  ,  and  i’m  so  sorry  i’m  leaving  you  alone  .  all  i  can  do  is  beg  for  your  forgiveness  ,  though  i  know  i  don’t  deserve  it  .  i  can’t  imagine  my  life  without  you  ,  you  have  been  there  with  me  through  everything  and  i’m  so  ,  so  sorry  that  i’m  doing  this  to  you  .  i’m  sorry  i’m  not  a  better  friend  like  you  deserve  and  i  hope  you  find  someone  who  isn’t  so conceited  and  evil  .  you  deserve  everything  and  more  and  i  wish  you  and  jonah  nothing  but  the  best  .  tell  him  that  i’m  sorry  too  .  hey  ,  do  you  remember  that  time  we  ditched  that  party  and  took  the  bus  to  the  beach  instead  ??  it  was  so  late  but  it  was  just  us  and  we  watched  the  stars  and  i  don’t  know  any  constellations  so  we  just  made  them  all  up  .  that  was  fun  .  haha  ,  i’m  sorry  if  the  writing  is  smudged  ,  i  just  started  crying  .  i  miss  you  so  much  already  ,  and  acting  like  nothing’s  wrong  and  like  i’m  not  going  to  just  leave  some  day  soon  has  been  hard  ,  but  i  know  it’s  for  the  best  .  maybe  we  can  go  to  the  beach  again  someday  ...  i’d  like  to  do  that  ,  if  you’ll  ever  want  to  see  me  again  .

                              BLAIR  .  it’s  you  that  i  should  apologise  the  most  to  .  haha  ,  if  i  was  brave  enough  to  do  this  all  in  person  i’d  say  it  on  my  knees  ,  begging  ,  even  though  you  always  told  me  never  to  say  sorry  to  you  ,  it’s  all  i  can  even  think  to  say  .  i  don’t  deserve  your  forgiveness  ,  especially  not  now  ,  i’ve  been  so  horrible  to  you  that  thinking  about  it  makes  me  feel  sick  .  you  didn’t  do  anything  wrong  ,  and  i  know  that  now  .  i’m  sorry  ,  i’m  so  sorry  that  i  even  thought  you  would  tell  seongwook  about  me  .  i  was  so  upset  and  embarrassed  and  it’s  not  an  excuse  ,  i  know  that  ,  and  i  know  you  deserve  so  ,  so  much  better  than  me  as  a  friend  and  that  everyone  is  right  :  i’m  a  bad  person  for  you  .  i’m  toxic  and  manipulative  and  it  took  time  for  me  to  realise  that  what  everyone  was  saying  was  true  .  but  i  hope  you  understand  that  i  never  ,  ever  ,  looked  at  you  as  someone  that  i  had  the  intention  of  hurting  ,  of  making  you  feel  like  you  had  to  deal  with  any  of  my  problems  for  me  ,  i  just  thought  i  was  ranting  to  a  friend  ,  but  i  understand  that  may  not  have  been  the  case  and  that  everyone  was  right  ,  maybe  i  was  unintentionally  manipulating  you  and  i’m  so  sorry  .  i  don’t  deserve  your  forgiveness  ,  i  know  i  don’t  ,  so  please  don’t  forgive  me  .  please  just  live  your  life  as  though  we  never  met  .  i  hope  you  find  happiness  ,  blair  ,  it’s  all  i  could  ever  want  for  you  ,  and  hazel  seems  to  make  you  happy  -  i  hope  you  hold  onto  them  ,  they  care  about  you  a  lot  .

                              DAEHWI  .  i’m  sorry  that  i’m  so  selfish  .  i  never  deserved  your  patience  ,  your  care  ,  any  of  it  ,  and  you  gave  it  to  me  anyway  .  you’ve  done  so  much  for  me  and  i  don’t  know  how  i  can  ever  pay  you  back  for  it  .  the  night  we  met  ...  do  you  remember  it  ??  i  do  ,  hahaha  .  i  was  so  drunk  and  scared  ,  i’d  never  been  to  a  party  before  ,  i  thought  maybe  it  could  have  been  a  chance  to  reinvent  myself  .  to  stop  being  the  dongsub  that  was  afraid  of  his  own  shadow  and  was  always  looking  over  his  shoulder  for  people  who  would  judge  me  or  think  that  i  was  wrong  in  my  existence  .  that  didn’t  happen  ,  as  you’re  definitely  aware  ,  but  it’s  what  i  wanted  .  and  you  came  and  spoke  to  me  and  you  were  so  nice  ,  i  know  that’s  a  terrible  word  to  describe  it  but  y’know  ,  no  one  had  ever  spoken  to  me  the  way  you  did  .  and  i  know  you  were  just  flirting  ,  and  i  didn’t  know  why  you  picked  me  ((  i  still  don’t  ,  but  i’m  glad  you  did  ))  maybe  it  was  fate  because  i  fell  completely  head  over  heels  for  you  from  the  first  sentence  .  you  wouldn’t  believe  that  from  how  i  acted  ,  maybe  you  still  don’t  ,  but  it’s  the  truth  .  i  was  just  scared  ..  terrified  ,  really  ,  i  was  always  told  that  liking  other  boys  was  disgusting  and  wrong  and  that  i  should  be  ashamed  ,  and  i  was  ,  and  i  guess  i  still  am  ,  that’s  really  what’s  brought  us  here  isn’t  it  ??  i’m  not  embarrassed  by  you  ,  i  promise  ,  i’m  embarrassed  by  myself  .  and  you  keep  telling  me  not  to  be  ,  and  i  know  that’s  what  you’re  thinking  reading  this  ,  if  you’re  reading  this  ,  but  i  can’t  help  it  .  being  ...  gay  it’s  ...  i  don’t  know  why  i  think  it’s  okay  for  everyone  but  me  .  but  i  can’t  get  it  out  of  my  head  that  it’s  wrong  for  me  to  even  look  at  you  sometimes  ,  it  feels  like  i’m  disgusting  .  like  you  think  i’m  disgusting  or  like  some  predator  or  something  and  i  can’t  handle  it  sometimes  .  and  now  everyone  knows  ,  and  now  every  time  someone  looks  at  me  they’re  going  to  think  i’m  evil  ,  some  kind  of  wicked  pervert  or  something  .  and  i  can’t  handle  that  ,  and  i’m  so  sorry  .  it’s  getting  late  while  i’m  writing  this  ...  and  i’m  crying  haha  ,  can  you  tell  ??  you  said  my  handwriting  gets  more  neat  when  i’m  upset  because  i’m  trying  to  switch  my  attention  to  focus  on  something  else  instead  of  what’s  bothering  me  ..  you’re  always  so  observant  ,  maybe  that  means  you  saw  this  coming  .  or  maybe  not  .  you  know  ,  i  almost  ditched  my  plans  to  leave  that  night  we  danced  in  my  kitchen  ,  you  made  it  feel  like  we  were  the  only  people  alive  ,  like  no  one  could  touch  me  or  think  bad  things  about  me  because  it  was  just  me  and  you  and  we  were  in  love  .  i’m  still  in  love  with  you  .  that  felt  really  nice  to  write  down  .  i’m  saying  it  out  loud  now  and  it  feels  even  better  .  i’m  in  love  with  you  ,  kang  daehwi  .  only  you  .  and  i  think  you’re  it  for  me  .  but  i  want  you  to  be  happy  too  ,  so  i  have  to  let  you  go  ,  don’t  i  ??  you  deserve  someone  who’s  not  selfish  ,  who’s  not  a  ...  a  whore  .  who  can  be  better  for  you  than  i  ever  will  be  because  let’s  face  it  ,  i’m  a  mess  .  i  know  you  probably  think  i’m  being  over  dramatic  but  i  really  need  to  do  this  .  i  need  to  get  away  from  everything  and  everyone  .  everything  around  me  feels  like  it’s  shattering  and  i  don’t  feel  like  i’m  even  in  my  own  body  anymore  .  it  feels  like  no  matter  who  i  turn  to  i’m  going  to  hurt  them  and  i  can’t  do  that  anymore  ,  it’s  not  fair  on  anyone  .  but  i  want  you  to  know  that  i  love  you  .  i  know  it’s  not  ...  it’s  embarrassing  that  i  was  rarely  brave  enough  to  ever  say  it  to  your  face  ,  but  it’s  all  that  consumed  my  thoughts  when  i  ever  saw  you  .  i  love  you  ,  daehwi  .  i  love  you  .  i  love  you  .  i  love  you  .

                              WOOJIN  .  i’m  writing  this  while  you’re  asleep  in  bed  and  i’m  sitting  on  the  sofa  .  i  hope  you  can’t  hear  me  crying  ,  you’d  always  wake  up  and  be  there  before  i  ever  noticed  if  you  heard  me  so  much  as  sniffle  .  i  miss  you  being  with  me  already  .  i  had  to  write  this  one  last  because  i  know  if  i  wrote  it  sooner  and  still  had  to  face  you  ,  i  would  have  stayed  .  but  i  need  to  go  .  i  know  you’re  going  to  hate  me  for  this  and  i  deserve it  ,  i  know  that  too  .  you’re  going  to  think  i’m  a  coward  for  running  away  and  you’re  going  to  be  mad  at  yourself  because  i  didn’t  tell  you  what  was  bothering  me  .  see  ??  i  know  you  as  well  as  you  know  me  .  so  that’s  why  i  wanna  tell  you  to  not  be  angry  at  yourself  ,  to  be  angry  at  me  if  you  want  to  be  upset  with  anyone  ,  i’m  the  one  that’s  eighteen  and  can’t  deal  with  my  problems  .  i  can’t  tell  you  where  i’m  going  because  you’ll  come  and  look  for  me  but  it’s  somewhere  safe  ,  i  promise  .  it’s  somewhere  that  wooseok  isn’t  going  to  look  for  me  and  it’s  only  temporary  before  i  can  find  somewhere  to  stay  on  my  own  .  maybe  once  i  have  my  own  place  i  can  tell  you  where  i  am  ,  i’m  sorry  i  can’t  tell  you  now  ,  but  i  don’t  want  to  be  looked  for  because  i  don’t  want  to  be  found  .  it’s  ...  the  only  thing  i  had  any  control  over  in  my  life  has  been  stolen  away  from  me  ,  it’s  gone  and  i  just  need  ...  i  need  to  feel  like  i  have  a  hold  over  something  ,  anything  .  i  love  you  ,  woojin  .  i  hope  one  day  you  can  forgive  me  .  i’m  sorry  i’m  such  a  terrible  brother  .

[themimsyborogove]

G I A N T . C H A R A C T E R . S U R V E Y

[ tagged by ]: @eloquated

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G E N E R A L

[ name ]: Catarina Loss

[ nicknames ]: There has been no avoiding Cat as a nickname, but I prefer to be called Catarina.

[ birthday ]: September 9th

[ birthplace ]: Spain

[ age ]: 396

[ eye color ]: Blue naturally, brown glamoured.

[ height ]: 5’4

[ weight ]: 112 pounds, last time I checked.

[ nationality ]: Spanish, I suppose, though my mother was Moroccan.

[ astrological sign ]: Virgo

[ location ]: Magnus’s living room for this silliness.

[ siblings ]: None.

[ pets ]: I don’t have the time to keep a pet. I can come visit Chairman Meow if I need to hold a cat.

[ in the morning i’m ]: In desperate need of coffee.

[ all i need is ]: The ability to help people.

[ love is ]: Something to be treasured.

[ i’m afraid of ]: Needles. No, I’m kidding. I’ve seen a lot, and I’m not afraid of much.

[ i dream about ]: Work, usually.

H A V E . Y O U . E V E R ?

[ pictured your crush naked? ]: He does look very nice naked. And he turns such an interesting color when he gets flustered. Like right now.

[ used someone? ]: No.

[ been used? ]: Yes.

[ been cheated on? ]: Not that I know of.

[ considered cheating? ]: Never.

[ been kissed? ]: Yes.

[ done something you regret? ]: Yes. Everyone has regrets.

F A V O R I T E

[ food? ]: Anything with a lot of spice and garlic.

[ fruit? ]: Melons.

[ candy? ]: I’ve always liked hard candies, through they’re terrible for your teeth.

[ color? ]: Haha, I would have to say blue.

[ number? ]: I can’t think of one.

[ animal? ]: I’ve always liked dolphins.

[ drink? ]: Coffee, wine, wheat beers

[ soda? ]: I don’t drink soda much.

[ book? ]: Hmm, I’m not sure off the top of my head. I like reading, but I don’t have much time for it. The books kind of blur together.

[ room? ]: The bedroom. I don’t spend much time at home.

[ movie? ]: I did like those Lord of the Rings movies.

D O . Y O U ?

[ have a boyfriend/girlfriend? ]: Ragnor, though he’s always complaining about how childish of a word ‘boyfriend’ sounds.

[ like cleaning? ]: No.

[ have a tattoo? ]: No.

[ have any piercings? ]: My ears, though I don’t bother to wear earrings much.

[ cheat on tests/homework? ]: No. You don’t learn if you cheat.

[ drink/smoke? ]: I drink occasionally, but never smoke.

[ swear a lot? ]: Not usually. It loses its impact if you overdo it.

[ like watching sunrises or sunset? ]: I like sunsets.

[ pray? ]: No.

[ go to church? ]: No.

[ have secrets? ]: Yes.

[ have a best friend? ]: I’m lucky to have Magnus.

[ like your own handwriting? ]: I haven’t thought about it. But usually I can read it. Ragnor, why are you laughing?

A R E . Y O U ?

[ obsessive? ]: I don’t think so.

[ excited? ]: Not right now.

[ bored? ]: No, watching Ragnor answer his questions is hilarious.

[ happy? ]: Yes.

[ missing someone? ]: Always.

[ confused? ]: Not usually, no.

[ tired? ]: Always.

[ mad? ]: Rarely.

[ sleepy? ]: Always a little. I work very long hours.

D O . Y O U . E V E R ?

[ wait around just to talk to someone? ]: I have, yes.

[ write about those ‘special’ moments? ]: I’ve tried before, but I can never seem to keep a regular diary.

[ wish you were a member of the opposite sex? ]: There have been times in the past, when women didn’t have the rights that we do now. I lived through some bad times.

W H O . W A S . T H E . L A S T . P E R S O N . W H O ?

[ you talked to? ]: A coworker before I left the hospital.

[ you hugged? ]: Ragnor.

[ you kissed? ]: Ragnor.

[ sent you a letter? ]: Ragnor left a sweet letter on the nightstand before he left for work a few days ago.

[ you sent a letter to? ]: Simon Lovelace.

[ you laughed with? ]: Magnus and Ragnor.

[ slept in your bed? ]: Ragnor.

[ you shared a drink with? ]: Ragnor and Magnus.

[ you went to the movies with? ]: Ragnor.

[ yelled at you? ]: A patient. I try not to take it personally.

[ you called? ]: I don’t remember. I don’t talk on the phone much.

[ you kicked? ]: Ragnor. He did deserve it.

[ you saw? ]: Magnus and Ragnor, again.

W H O . I S ?

[ the most handsome person you know? ]: Oh no, they’re both staring at me. And Magnus is going to make a scene when I say Ragnor.

[ the weirdest person you know? ]: Magnus and Ragnor are both too weird for words.

[ the funniest person you know? ]: Magnus.

[ the loudest person you know? ]: Also Magnus.

[ the quietest person you know? ]: Jem, I think.

[ the sweetest person you know? ]: Ragnor, he just buries the sweetness deep down.

[ the most serious person you know? ]: The Silent Brothers as a whole.

[ your best friend? ]: Magnus.

[ the person you hate the most? ]: I have lived through many years and many evils. I couldn’t name the one that was the worst.

[ the person you see most? ]: Ragnor.

[ your soul-mate? ]: I don’t think people have a single soul-mate, or that soul-mates are necessarily romantic. Magnus is my soul-mate as much as Ragnor is. 

W H A T . I S ?

[ the first thing you thought of when you woke up? ]: How long I could stay in bed before I was late for my shift.

[ the song that best describes you? ]: I don’t know. Magnus could probably answer that better, I don’t pay much attention to lyrics.

[ your best feature? ]: You would have to ask Ragnor.

[ your most treasured memory? ]: Holding my son.

I N . T H E . F U T U R E

[ what is the age you hope to get married? ]: I’ve seen people murdered for their spouse’s crimes. I don’t think I could get married.

[ number and names of kids? ]: One. Cecil.

[ where do you see yourself at age twenty? ]: Hahaha

[ describe your dream wedding? ]: *shudders*

[ when and how do you want to die? ]: I don’t want to die. If I have to, I hope it’s to save someone else.

[ what are your career plans? ]: I’m a nurse. It’s not a career plan, it’s just what I am.

[ some place you’d like to visit? ]: Ragnor, we should take a trip to Loch Ness and start those monster rumors up again. Oh, don’t make that face.

L A S T . T I M E

[ last time you went out of state? ]: A week or two ago, I think.

[ last time you were outside? ]: On the walk from the hospital to Magnus’s apartment.

[ last time you had a snowball fight? ]: When Ragnor and I went hiking last month. I won.

[ last time you were listening to music? ]: Magnus is playing something to wind Ragnor up. It’s working.

O T H E R

[ how many people would you say are good friends of yours? ]: There are a handful.

[ what hurts the most, physical or emotional pain? ]: Emotional.

[ have you felt this recently? ]: Yes.

[ what do you wear to bed? ]: Nothing. To sleep in at least. Ragnor, are you okay?

[ when’s the last time you slept with a stuffed animal? ]: Not since I was a child.

[ have you ever used a ouija board? ]: Goodness, no.

[ how many rings before you pick up the phone? ]: I usually don’t even notice that it rang.

[askguyslikeus]

((answering questions under the cut!))

i do actually plan on a little story! nothing too huge ahah but i do want this to be mostly run as an askblog! i might leave yall hints in the tags of important storyish posts but for the most part just sending asks should keep the ball rolling

eastern time zone! i have a weird work schedule and usually get out by 10 am - 1 pm or have weekdays off so my posts are kind off all over the place aha!

legit whatever strikes my fancy TBH haha sometimes i get asks that i love but i cant think of anything for them and i save them for some other time if something stikes my inspo. but usually if i can think of something that has more than one word answer and makes me smile i pick that one! sometimes i even come back to an ask i didnt wanna do cause i RANDOMLY THOUGHT OF A GOOD SCRIPT or somehting hahaha

ahhh i love exploring characters different from myself!! i mean i love writing these awkward boys who use silly lingo cause i too am super awkward and use silly lingo BUT i dont play overwatch or listen to the smiths or wanna major in music theory but i feel like michael would like all these things sooo,,, its been fun exploring new things because i want to know more about them for this blog specifically. i dont want to settle on something being their fav just cause i know about it i guess and im having fun with it

it also is nice to explore thingS ive dealt with myself through these boys in a healthy way using what ive learnt about myself and others. i deal with dependency issues and i always read michael as having them as well? but i didnt deal with them in a healthy manner for a while and ive learnt how to be better about it. and just ,,, being able to help these fictional boys in a way i struggled with is really refreshing and helps me a lot

aaa sorry i mostly just, enjoy exploring issues that i can grow in myself while also trying to get a grasp on these boys if that makes any sense?

at the moment no, i already reached out to a few people to ask them to do asks, and i do have a kinda story i wanna get to so,,, at the moment im all set on guest artists! i might do another round a little later tho!

i have not been intentionally but i have a lot of friends on the spectrum and am all for headcanons for michael and jeremy as well! i base a lot of my scripts and way of speaking and how they deal with situation on how ive seen friends of mine and myself react so!! i myself am not on the spectrum but i can see both jeremy and michael being autistic !! rock on anon

usually around an hour or two since i do multiple panels ahaha but if its one like the michael in the bathroom one or the childhood one i defs spent three or four hours on those bad boys,,,, i chose a very easy to do art style for this blog so i could work on my expressions and scripts and poses and get them done quick without worrying too much about how finished things look and hoo wee go past me cause ,,, i would not have as many posts as i do now slash i PROBs would have gave up 3 asks in hoooo boyyy

ye lol

like,,,, only a month ago woops i saw a cute shippy headcanon and i was like oh wait fuck these boys are cute. then i listened to the musical and was very blindsided by the entire plot omg but!! im glad im here!!

mostly because i wanted u to be able to tell who was talking! soemtimes my handwriting is small or my pic is big so jeremy ans michael will talk like this back to back

i ate a big corndog the other day HE SURE DID why do u sound proud im the one who ate the big corndog IM JUST A SUPPORTIVE BRO

and when they talk like that i needed a way to show who was speaking? aaaa i made theirs contrast the most since they are in the most asks together! as for everyone else i kinda just do whatever im feeling hahaha

i was gunna do something like a winky face or be like maybeee~ but imma just say ye man. i love boyf riends and im workin on a little plot to get these boyos together and happy!

ALSO I DIDNT GET AN ASK ABOUT IT BUt peopl have dmed me their headcanons or post ideas and im going to say it now in bold and caps

I DONT DO ANGST FOR THE SAKE OF ANGST if i end up posting sad things its because its what the boys are feelin in a story line but for the most part this is a happy happy blog. i have a lot of shit going on in my own life and i know some people use their ask blogs or art to draw out their venting and that is very good and healthy usually and i support you! but that isnt my way of coping and this blog will not have angst. dont prompt me for angst homies and stop trying to throw triggers out there to make me make a sad post. there are a lot of good blogs than can fill ur bmc angst needs!! 

AND LASTLY CAUSE YE IMMA POST A BUNCH CAUSE THEY MADE ME SMILE :

I am SO OVERHWLEMED AND EMOTIONAL ABOUT ALL THE SUPPORT IVE GOTTEN ON THIS BLOG,,,, i went into this fandom in a really bad place and really lonely and really hating my art and idk it wasnt good but!!! making this blog is helping me grow a lot on my own as an artist but also everyone else enjoying it as much as i am ??? i die every timeee aaaaaa yall what th heckkkkk,,,,, 

THANK U SO MUCH EVERYONE I APPRECIATE U ALL A LOT??? im glad ur enjoying my silly askblog idk im emotional im sorry aaa

hope i keep u guys entertained and u enjoy where i take these two!

there were some asks that were sent to me that i plan to answer soon in the form of asks so i didnt answer them but thank u for sending me questions guys!! 

[franeridart]

*hugs you very tightly* love u fran♥

Thank you!!!!!!! Oh my gods!!!!!!!!!!! *hugs you back*

Anon said:are you eating well? having a good night sleep? please take care! xoxo

I am!!!!! Thank you so much for the concern!!!! Are you taking care of yourself, anon? I hope you’re doing great!!

Anon said: *☆*Bonjour*☆*

Anon said:god bless your brain, your hands, your eyes, your everything, love u

SO SWEET!!!!! Thank you SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!! *O*

Anon said:In the last picture of you sketch post what is Kiri saying to Kami after "C-Come on man"? I can't read the word after "don't" it just looks like "3i". I know this is probably dumb, but my eyes are pretty bad. Sorry. Love the blog and everything you do!!! ❤️

Ahhhh don’t worry it’s not your fault my handwriting is pretty shitty when I don’t make an effort on it hahaha he’s saying “don’t be a kid”~ and thank you!!!

Anon said:Fran can other people hear what the contestant are talking about in Sport Festival ? Like after TodoDeku match the viewers are wondering if Izuku want to win or lose and in Tokoyami-Bakugou match people are shocked that Bakugou figure out Dark Shadow weakness ? sorry for bad english

This is something I’ve been wondering since I first I read that arc too! I think they can’t hear them unless they’re yelling, but there’s no actual canon answer to this as far as I know!

Anon said:OMG I Love your Shindeku so much!!! I didn't think I'd get to see them in your style, but as expected it's amazing and adorable. Love the blog; can't wait to see more of everything you do!!!! :D

THANK YOU!!! and I’m glad you liked the floofy haired kids!!!!!!!! :D :D

Anon said:Fran do you think Endeavor hero name is reference to his goal to be the number 1 hero ?

I think so, yeah! Horikoshi probably picked it thinking about how he’s trying to reach a goal and he’s just. Not getting there. Ever. Good.

Anon said:Did I ever tell you how proud I am of you for going from barely drawing bnha because you struggled to put the characters in your style to flawlessly drawing them all the time?? It's so lovely I'm so proud of you. You're doing so well!

What’s up with all these sweet sweet anons today!!! Oh my gods!!! Thank you so much ;A; I’m crying a bit haha

Anon said:Hi! It's the anon who asked about splitting 1A into bakusquad and dekusquad! I just wanted to say I love how Uraraka is in charge of Deku squad XD

LMAO I feel like she’s the only one in Deku’s squad who’d actually consider the “whose side would win” conversation as much seriously and with as much spirit as Bakugou would hahaha

Anon said:Tfw you realize there are only two episodes left but you're so not ready for season 2 to end 😭

But the anime isn’t ending, anon!!! :O we’re getting 25 episodes this time around!!

Anon said:'Kirishima-kun please get out' I'm crying your tags gave me life

Anon said:Your tags on the kiribaku art you just posted made my day omg XD

Hahahahaha I’m glad my silliness is entertaining for you guys as much as it is for myself lol

Anon said:Was the bakushima fight everything you dreamed for and more?

Would have liked it to be longer because I’m like that so I can’t say it was more, but YES it was everything I realistically hoped it to be! So much goodness in just a few minutes hahaha

Anon said:Um, at the anon regarding diversity and color...I don't know why anyone would say that about your art when you're churning out a comic per day and they're all full of clean lineart and great + creative content... and anatomy-wise most artists don't? really? bother? with detailed anatomy at all since it's such a stylized choice to detail every goddamn muscle (I imagine that might be a bit difficult)... and yeah I love your art and the content that comes with it, you're one of my favorite artists.

SWEET!!!!!!!!!! SO SWEET OH MY GOD!!!! Thank you so much this ask made my whole week honestly - don’t worry tho! It’s okay! I mean, it’s not exactly okay because reading that ask didn’t really feel good, but if I’m not the type of artist anon’s looking for we can’t do much about it! I’m sure they’ll find someone who’ll satisfy them enough, out there in the fandom~ so many talented artists all around me haha feels intimidating now and again

Anon said:you make my day , everyday. man~ idk how you do it, you're just so??? good?? and pure??? your hcs and your tags and your art in general i just. it makes me feel wholesome. like, where have you been my whole life ? you know what to say and when and ahhhh. just thank you for being yourself ´･ᴗ･`

Anons today, trying to make me a puddle of goo on the floor, incredible, honestly incredible I’m??? so lucky??? thank you!!!! I’m so so glad you like my stuff!!! And also me?? seems like??? holy smokes !!!!

Anon said:It's 7am and I haven't slept but going through your blog was super fun;) I love your BNHA doodles, especially the KiriBakuKami~~~

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!! Try to sleep tho, anon!!

Anon said:hello! i just wanted to say that your account is my favourite account on tumblr! i love your doodles so much and they make me so happy! you're so talented and honestly i wish i could be as creative and artistic as you are! ^_^ you deserve so much recognition for your art and i fangirl whenever you post omg! i thought i would just awkwardly let you know, i hope you have a nice day! x

RIP me. Forever. This just killed me I’m dead and gone, cause of death: too much sweetness from my anons, put that on my grave I’m !!!!!!!!!!!! thank u

Anon said:DUDE you are AMAZING and your art is AMAZING and you've really made me love Bakushima even more than I already did and now the bakusquad are my LIFE and I just REALLY LOVE YOU.

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

I don’t know what happened you all out for my life today I’m so grateful??? Yes??? Yes. Bless all of you 

[antipigeons]

Survey Tag

@moodypastelzforasentimentalbitch​ thanks for the tag omg 💜 (love your url btw lmao)

ARE YOU NAMED AFTER SOMEONE? lmao no

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? i cry like every 5 minutes idk

DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? idk it can either look rlly neat and pretty or it can be illegible scribbles

WHATS YOUR FAVOURITE LUNCH MEAT? chicken?? i dont rlly eat other meat that often so yeah

DO YOU HAVE KIDS? bitch im like 12 

IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? oh hell no im the saltiest most annoying bitch ever i think i would probably kill me

DO YOU HAVE SARCASM? hahaha only like 6824% of the time

DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? yes lmao

WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? idk part of me thinks it would be cool but the sane part of me also says ‘leave the crazy shit to the white people bc somehow natural selection doesnt work on them’

DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? im lazy as fuck usually i just kick them off oops lol

DO YOU THINK YOU’RE A STRONG PERSON? fam im like 5′2

WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE ICE CREAM FLAVOUR? all of them. but idk like strawberry cheesecake? or oreo maybe

WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? honestly people in general are a no so i try to avoid them at all costs

RED OR PINK? like a darkish red idk? like for clothes def red pink looks weird on me

WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVOURITE PHYSICAL THING YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF? hahahahahahahaa too much to choose from where do i start

WHAT COLOUR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING NOW? im wearing pajamas with tiny hearts on them 😂 im lowkey ashamed of them but theyre also cute. im sitting in bed so lol im wearing purple socks

WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? cereal lmao

WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? ed’s new song lmao idk if i like it that much?? maybe it’ll grow on me lol

IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE? i would like to think i would be a pretty turquoise blue or something but i would prolly just be rlly rlly black haha to represent my personality 

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU SPOKE TO ON THE PHONE? my mom 😂 haha whats a social life????

FAVOURITE SPORT TO WATCH? i dont rlly watch sports but idk i watch cricket sometimes?? i feel like if ur brown you have to do that so yeah

HAIR COLOUR? b l a c k

EYE COLOUR? rlly dark brown lol fuck this

DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? i’ve have glasses forever so tbh at this point i just look rlly weird without them?? plus the whole taking contacts off thing is just gehurjfsknlakdsrgehuojfk whY

FAVOURITE FOOD TO EAT? haha everything. idk like pizza maybe? or spaghetti.

SCARY MOVIES OR COMEDY? comedy all the way bc im such a sissy i cannot deal with anything even remotely scary. *hides under blanket*

LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? i rewatched My Neighbour Totoro yesterday it’s so baee. Before that I watched hidden figures 💜

WHAT COLOUR OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? im wearing a dark blue hoodie lmao basically everything i own is varying shades of black, dark blue or grey 😂 i need some less morbid clothes hmm

SUMMER OR WINTER? summer bc i am 5ever cold and in the winter i basically hibernate

HUGS OR KISSES? hugs idk?? yeah hugs

WHAT BOOK ARE YOU CURRENTLY READING? I just started all the light we cannot see by anthony doerr. should be reading my fucking bio textbook but haha who has time to pass finals???

WHO DO YOU MISS RIGHT NOW? haha my sense of self worth? my motivation? my hopes and dreams?

WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? i have a laptop lol i dont use a mouse

WHAT IS THE LAST TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED? i’ve been watching You’re the Worst and honestly i love it so much the season finale killed me a little tho

WHAT IS THE BEST SOUND? hmm rain, or maybe like a crackling fire?? or like crunchy leaves? wow idk where all this nature shit is coming from i never go outside

ROLLING STONES OR THE BEATLES? the Beatles, bc i havent rlly heard a lot of the rolling stones

WHAT IS THE FURTHEST YOU HAVE EVER TRAVELED? umm I live in India so Switzerland?? or Australia lol

DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? haha what do you think

WHERE WERE YOU BORN? why u wanna stalk me????????????????????????????????????? lmao India

haha im new-ish on tumblr so idk whom to tag?? @mihtachawal we talked and you seemed rlly nice so 😂 @nyx-nox-11 @undertale-and-such idk you guys liked a bunch of my posts hi?? xD

[sanguinesprout]

Well, that sucked... uuuuugh it’s coooooold xwx (updates, some gloomy and bright feels and self pep talk)

Hmmmmmmm... so, long time no post-ish...kinda..! To put it simply I’ve been stressing real hard over this form to try claim benefits/financial help and expended all mental my energy on that aaaall these past weeks. I struggled and I avoided but I finally fiiiiinallly managed to do it and now the main source of stress has subsided temporarily until they contact me again for maybe a face to face meeting in which I’ll commence my super anxiety flailing. But I guess for now I have time to stress about the things I normally stress over and haven’t done yet. Pah!

So the form right, you have to fill in about your health conditions/disabilities and I reaaaally had trouble writing about things like that. I mean, writing on here definitely helped me with some parts of it, since it was stuff I had written before, but just not on paper and... writing it out irl is like... super difficult and uncomfortable and knowing someone has to read it and ugh damn... I had to write about physical things too and there were lots of things I kinda was unsure of and it went from me writing very little to me writing probably TOO much last minute xwx I mean, it’s better than writing too less, but maybe I went into more detail than needed, but maybe it’s enough info that they’ll skip me in the face to face part... plz plz plssss! ;3; No, no you’ll be fine, you can do it!

I seriously spent so much time staring at it and it was just so hard, there was this reluctance even though I wanted to get it over with so badly, it’s like there was a magnet pulling me away, my concentration level dropped to minus 10000000, my head hurt from forcing myself to try think, it was torture Dx It’s probably something so easy but I unconsciously chose to overthink it and get all ruffled by the prospect that someone’s gonna read it and judge me... mehhh. By this point I just hope they can read my handwriting lol it literally looked like some kids english homework, full of scribbling out and arrows everywhere hahaha *sob* I had my sis read over it before I sent it, I was really nervous about that, it’s like she’s seeing a big slice of this blog (which scurred me), but she said it was fine, it was good! She’s supportive of me even if we frustrate each other a lot, I’m really thankful for her help and encouragement ;u;

Anyways, whatever the outcome, at least I tried! I kinda succeeded in finishing something I would’ve just not even attempted usually and that’s great! I did good and if there is a next time, I’ll try even harder! The anxiety and irrational held me back and scared me away from trying, but maybe I’ll get over them much easier now that I proved to myself I could do it if I just really really reaaaally put my mind to it! Putting my pen to the paper, that’s another big thing that was needing to be done too lol. The race between doubt and determination was won by determination’s last minute spurt powered by encouragement from various sources (including myself and my fear of letting people down!) Yaaay~! sarcasm is no good booo!

Form aside, I had to do phone calls and make trips to the post office quite a bit lately too, I did them! Whooo! I also went out and had some nice shopping trips, even met some of my sis’ buddies and it was nice, it was pretty fun in fact! I wasn’t as anxious as I thought I’d be, though the times I were, I just... sucked it up and kinda went with the flow and it became okay after... I tried and I pushed forward and everything was alright *hugs self* c:

I have such less energy and brain cells left that this post probably sounds so half assed and pointless no, no negativity! silly, but I’m doing it, I haven’t abandoned my blog and it’s almost been a whole year... or at least 2/3 of a year, yay for me! Christmas is so soon, it feels kind of lonely this year compared to past years because of some things but it’ll be okay, as long as I have my family and finally get to spend some nice quality time with them like I’ve been looking forward to, I’m happy! ^^

I got a lot of materials to make some nice arts and crafty things lately. it’s kinda given me some more incentive to make some nice things and just have some fun. I haven’t done anything yet though, but I plan to... ack! Gotta make sure not to overthink things and put myself off, just go for it! I’m not abandoning my dreams of making some self motivational/self expressive or cute things or just learning to draw in general (lolol) just yet! I’ve just kinda gotten a bit doubtful and shy again (especially with just being online too), but Imma crawl back out this hole and do some things right naaaaooo!! *slips and tumbles* oof @w@” C’mon silly, keep going, believe in yourself! 

I have a lot of ideas, and they keep piling up, but I’m having a hard time getting them out... I keep letting the anxiety, comparing, fear of judgement slip in and foil my plans. Things don’t have to be perfect, just try your best..! It doesn’t matter what other people think, as long as you like your creations. Other people have their own style and you have yours, be proud of it and let it shine. Practice makes... progress! You can do it!

I want to try and do more than one thing a day like most other people can like I know I have the potential to, like maybe do a little bit of art, a little bit of self care, a little bit of family time rather than just sitting around wondering which thing to prioritise or which thing is a waste of time to focus on and in the end achieve absolutely nooooothing .___. Baby steps, keep climbing, keep growing, don’t let your thoughts bring you down, you can achieve everything you want to, you just have to try with all your heart, ignore the mental obstacles, they can’t stop you, go go go!

With one of the other things I was stressing about a few weeks earlier, it was submitting a claim for a lost parcel, I struggled with that even, but I tried really hard and I did it and even though I was expecting nothing to happen, something good did happen! They fully reimbursed me! I was so surprised! Even though I was missing some information and thought it was going to be pointless and many weeks passed and I even forgot about it, my efforts actually paid off. The experience alone of just trying was a good lesson for me, but now I’m beginning to believe in ‘if you don’t try, you won’t know/nothing ventured nothing gained’ even more! This happened after I submitted my benefits application, I don’t wanna be too hopeful incase nothing happens here, but whether the result is something or nothing, I’m just glad I tried! c’:

I also received some praise about my packaging skill and service (I’ve been selling unwanted things and I always put in a lot of effort) and it was so sweet and kind and just lifted my sprits so much for someone to acknowledge it, I am so grateful ;w; For someone to take their time to write such a nice message and show their appreciation, ahhh it’s such a wonderful feeling..! I reached my goal of making at least one person smile! It was also another very pleasant surprise! I want to continue to chase this feeling and keep fulfilling this goal! I hope one day I’ll be able to feel this way with my creations ahhh cryyy ;u;

With my physical health woes and medication trials, it has only been a short period but it seems to be going alright, not very far, but it’s going somewhere and in a more positive direction. Once again I am so grateful to my dr, they are so amazing and kind and helpful ;u; Health is important! I want my family to be more healthy too, I worry about them a lot, because they don’t take care of themselves and they also avoid things and... uuu I’m sad :c I don’t want for them to be ill, time is short and I wish for them to be well and happy but it’s difficult when they’re so stubborn. I need to try harder.

A family friend passed away from illness very recently, it was extremely saddening... It must be incredibly hard for their family right now, I hope they will be okay Y__Y Life is unfair, life is unpredictable, it’s all the more reason why I need to get up and make the most of it right now. Spend as much time with loved ones as I can and make sure everyone is happy and healthy so we can have an even longer happier life together, reach for my dreams and so and so. Yolo... so try your hardest... time is precious ;^;

Well, um... that made things a little gloomy but I have to learn to face reality more seriously. Okay, for ourself and our loved ones, let’s make everyone proud and try our best! This life is my own and I’m going to take control of it, I’m gonna make it worth being happy about! Time is of the essence!

It’s been so cold lately, but because of this I’ve been able to see it snow! Although it’s not much, but it’s magical all the same and I’m happy to have been able to witness it, to go outside and enjoy the little but wonderful things of life, I don’t want to miss out on them anymore either! A new year is approaching, a new year where it will still be hard but I’ll continue to persevere until I’ve reached my goals! The post I left in my drafts, which I see every time I post here, the one with a long list of my dreams and things I’ve been wanting to do, I glanced at it and I think I managed to do a few of the littler things this year! I still have a lot to go, so I’m gonna aim to do at least twice as much next year! Yeah!!

Have a great evening (and a wonderful Christmas and New Year if I don’t post again before then), let’s go go! :D

[becauseeiloveyou]

1. First of all, what do you prefer to be called? shu

2. What is your favorite form of creative expression? words (poems, novels...)

3. How do you like your coffee OR if you don’t like it, why?: hmm I don't drink coffee often but I like my coffee black and without sugar/milk

4. What is the least desirable thing, in your opinion, to put on a pizza that you have heard of people actually eating?: olives zzz

5. Would you rather witness the beginning or the end of the universe?: actually, the end

6. Describe your favourite pair of socks: I like basic black/white socks

7. What is the current or last song you are listening/listened to, and does it have any special significance to you?: shadow of the day. yes it does, my cousin intro-ed it to me (miss u)

8. Do you prefer rainbows or stars?: stars

9. Describe the best day of your life NOT in terms of events, but in terms of your feelings: no particular date that I'm thinking of right now, maybe the day my future career was kinda set

10. Would you rather go to a planetarium or an aquarium?: aquarium

11. Do you know the reason that 11:11 is considered to be auspicious?: no eh

12. What decorations are hanging on your walls?: in my actual house, that would be polaroids and photos

13. What is your favourite planet in our solar system?: earth?

14. How do you express love?: acts of service

15. Do you consider yourself to be more spiritual or scientific?: hmmmmmm, maybe spiritual

16. If you had a lava lamp, what color would you want it to be?: dark orange/mustard/brownish?

17. Would you rather be able to revisit your past to simply re-experience a positive moment or revisit your past in order to change things and risk the consequences?: re-experience

18. Have you ever had a past-life regression or memory?: nop

19. What is your favourite holiday and why?: christmas!!! gud fud + family time + nice decorations + nice songs + (would have been) nice season + joyyyy

20. Are you better with remembering dates or names?: dates haha

21. What was your favourite book that you had to read for a class?: to kill a mockingbird!!

22. What is your favourite number and why is it significant to you?: 2, good things come in pairs HAHAHA

23. Would you rather explore space or the ocean?: oceaaaaaan

24. What prompted you to call the last person you called?: zz we were late for a birthday celeb 

25. Star Trek or Star Wars?: star treeeeek

26. Lord of the Rings or Harry Potter?: HPPPPPP

27. What is your favourite band and why?: THE SCRIPT

28. What colour best resonates with your best friend(s)?: yellowwwww

29. Where do you work and why do you work there?: still in school bruh 

30. Have you ever gone to a public karaoke facility, and what did you sing?: whats a public karaoke facility lmao idts

31. What animal do you feel most connected with?: wolves HAHAHA

32. Have you ever had “special brownies” or any other kind of “special” treat?: ummmmm how do u define this? can't think of anything atm

33. What book are you reading at the moment?: nothing, I was about to start house rules (Jodi picoult) but exams are coming boo. just finished “kind of cruel- Sophie hannah”

34. What is the funniest thing that you have done at a fast food restaurant? uh I can't rmb lmao

35. Do you enjoy listening to music that is sung in another language?: why not

36. Quote the last movie you watched: last watched the foreigner but I don't remember any quotes LOL

37. Do you know more than just your sun sign (like your ascending sign or moon sign etc.)?: huh no 

38. Do you have any jewelery on you that holds significance, and if so, what is it and why is it significant?: mm earrings are from a friend!!

39. What is your favorite kind of cheesecake?: not a fan of cheesecake, can't eat them anw

40. Why did you last feel warm and fuzzy inside?: been q long tbh

41. What band that no longer performs together do you wish would have a reunion tour?: DB5K HOLY FK

42. What band that IS still together do you wish would perform in your area?: THE SCRIPT

43. Have you ever been in a band, and what role did you play in it?: orchestra! 

44. What has been the single most frightening experience of your life?: confrontations omg I hate confrontations

45. Who is/was your favourite Spice Girl?: didn't watch this

46. Do you prefer free verse or poetry set in a form?: poetry

47. In a hotel, would you choose to go in the hot tub, the sauna, the workout room, or the pool?: POOL BRO

48. Imagine that you are exploring space. Who would you want with you and what would you want to explore, assuming you are not limited in any way?: bff actly

49. Have you ever astral projected?: nop

50. What is your favourite song by the group t.A.T.u?: whats this band

51. Describe what you envision as “paradise”: serenity, nature, natural sounds

52. What element do you feel most connected to?: water

53. What is a cause that you feel very strongly about and why?: that everyone deserves a shot at life

54. What was your favourite class from the last year that you were in school?: er, maybe physio

55. What is a topic that you study independently for your own interest?: um idk eh anything that interests me at that point in time I guess

56. Describe what you would want to wear if you were getting married, handfasted, or having some kind of “love celebration” or “commitment” ceremony between yourself and another? er, haven't really thought this out LOL

57. What song do you want played at your funeral?: uh yellow maybe

58. Would you rather alphabetize or put things in order according to numbers?: depends right LOL

59. What medication do you dislike the most?: not a fan of syrups

60. Would you rather write a story or a poem?: poem

61. Do you believe in non-physical entities, and if so have you ever communicated with one?: some I guess, and nope

62. What invention or discovery do you think that the scientific community should focus on?: cure for cancer

63. If you could go anywhere, where would you go and why?: everywhere

64. What skill do people often compliment you on?: nothing much hahahahah

65. What are three facets of your personality or thinking patterns that you want to improve?: I'm too lazy, too emotional sometimes and too idealistic uh

66. What is your favourite symbol?: star

67. Name an unusual shortcut or file that’s on your desktop: nothing uh

68. What do you smell like right now?: my shampoo I hope

69. You get to have a theme party of your choice, just for fun. What theme do you choose?: er geeks actually hahahahahah don't ask me why

70. Have you ever been in the depths of a cave?: yepppp

71. How do you deal with the dark side of yourself?: be alone

72. Name something that you can’t help but save: money HAHAHAHA

73. What is your addiction?: idk eh books?

74. If you could wish something for three people, but not for yourself, who would the wishes be for and what would they be?: huh don't make me do this, I'll just say happiness for everyone

75. Would you rather send a message in a bottle or on a balloon?: balloon

76. What did you dream last night?: lots of things I can't rmb

77. What is one of your most frequent daydreams?: exploring the world

78. What is your favourite stuffed animal?: duckkkkk

79. If you could have a conversation with any well-known figure of the past or present, who would it be and what would you want to talk about?: er can't rly think of one, but prolly an author

80. If you could bring anyone back to life, who would it be?: cuz

81. Are you affectionate?: not really eh  82. Name one thing that each of your best friends is really good at: LOL understanding me maybe

83. What are you a perfectionist with?: handwriting HAHA

84. Could you see yourself being able to carry on a long distance relationship?: I can eh

85. If you could be anything but human, including anything mythical, what would you be?: idk maybe I'd be a wolf

86. Have you ever meditated? If so, what is your method, and if not, what do you do to relax?: nope lel

87. What is something about yourself that you feel no one else understands?: everything hahahahah

[franeridart]

So Bakugou and Todoroki's hero names didn't get decided early on I think because they're each gonna get their own little mini arcs that get em to decide them, but I kinda wanted to know your opinion on what they might end up being? 'Course they'll probably be derived from future plot that we don't know right now, but I wanted to ask anyway!

!!!! I’ve never really thought about Todoroki’s, tbh? So I have no clue, honest, but as far as Bakugou goes I’ll keep on holding onto Ground Zero until Horikoshi officially and unequivocally tells me he 100% definitely scrapped it, my friend - it’s such a cool name??? I read it and I nearly cried when I realized that probably it’s not gonna be his actual hero name rip

Anon said:You need to draw Bok.uro more (i love them so much,(you to of course)

I’m sure you didn’t mean anything bad by this ask anon, but as I’ve said more than once I really, really don’t like the word need. I don’t need to do anything, no one’s paying me for this. When I’ll want to draw more bokro it’ll for sure happen, so don’t worry about that~

Anon said:Would you read Bobata x Terushima fanfics? Do you know any??

I would! But last time I checked there were none *sob* do you know any? °u° if you do I’m all ears!!

Anon said:asdfghjklajhsns mirit.ama is adorable thEY’RE CHILDHOOD FRIENDS AHHHH i love them a lot,,,

I K R they’re so soft and pure!!!! Such a good couple I love them so much !!!!!

Anon said:Since most of what you post is such simple arts, I find myself forgetting a lot that your a really skilled artist, and I sort of get this shock like ‘what the fuck Frans amazing’. I really got that when you posted that drawing with Monoma getting scared by kuroiro, the one you posted a while ago with witch Kaminari, and the recent tododeku fight one.

I’m ???? dying ???? This ask slayed me??? Oh my god thank you so much I’m not sure I deserve such praises yet but!!!!! BOI this just made my whole week!!! Thank you!!!!!

Anon said:idk how you feel about bakus.hin but pls read coffee can and energy drinks bc it’s super cute and convinced me to ship it also the characters are on point 👌

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh … sorry anon but I don’t ship Bakugou with anyone that doesn’t like him, and the one time Shinsou interacted with him he really didn’t seem to like him…….. #rip maybe one day I’ll try the fic, tho! Thank you for the rec!!!

 Anon said:I just wanted to say because of your wonderful art you have converted me to watching boku no hero academia!!!! (ﾉ^ヮ^)ﾉ*:・ﾟ✧

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hope you’ll like it, then!!!!!! *O*

Anon said:I definitely smile when reading Teacher Bakugou comic Fran XD i just like it very much like the kids went to being scared and go to adored him and i just like that the kids will defend him from others and the way he just casually broke the window just to get to class in time :) There this hc i read can’t remember where but it said that Bakugo will adress his student by insult like fuckmunch (?) and will change it everyday and like the kids will just remember it (sorry for the bad english)

Anon said:I’m dying because of Bakugou-sensei AU?????? IT’S SO AMAZING!!!! You always kill me with your AUs, so unfair hahahah I’m in love with the idea of Bakugou being a beloved teacher because I think he already suffers too much on the canon series (seriously, he needs a break and a hug ffs). Anyways, I just love it really much 💜💜💜💜💜

I’M SO SO HAPPY YOU BOTH LIKED IT OMG!!!!!!!!!!! *O* I know it’s a pretty unlikely possibility but he’s the only one in canon who actually took on the role of teacher at some point? And Kirishima did pass his exams so he can’t be too bad at it either!! The possibility of him actually enjoying it makes me so happy hahaha

Anon said:Your little note about “Maybe it’ll make you smile” under the teacher Baku is- I’m- I’m going through a bad depressive episode and it really did make me smile so thanks

*holds you* I’m glad I could make you smile at least for a bit, then! And I’m so so sorry you’re not feeling alright, right now ;-; I hope today’ll be a better day, for you

Anon said:ILOVEYOU

ILOVEYOUTOO!!!!!!

Anon said:Fraaan another AWESOME comic !!! Another baby doodle !!! just !!! my heart !!! can’ t take it !!! aaaaaah !!! they’re soo cute. Ashido just eating Bakugo hair and he just let her and Kirishima call him Bakuo and Jirou saying Bakusquad will cry if got taken from Bakugo and she just nonchalantly tell Bakugou he that he cares about them Aaaaaah !!! ♡♡♡♡♡♡ By the way is the Bandage (?) that Bakugo has because of the squad and do they remember Bakugo ?

Thank you for liking it!!!! Oh my gods!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It wasn’t a bandage tho, just baby Sero messin around! And yeah, they do remember him! They’re just deaged, time didn’t literally turn back for them - only being babies their thought process is way simpler so the most they know is that that’s Bakugou and he’s good and safe and they like him. That’s about it, nothing more complex than that haha

Anon said:u are like, 80% the reason why i started watchin bnha. i thought my fav would be someone from the bakusquad (kirishima maybe) because of ur art but somehow monoma is my fav, the jerk. i love him. why am i cursed to like side characters with barely any content.

Monoma’s great tho!!!! I mean. He’s an asshole. And a total disaster. And his inferiority complex is a seriously huge thing. But he’s great!!!!!!!!!! That’s an amazing pick as a fave character t b h I think we’re getting more of him (together with the whole 1B class) in the manga soon, so don’t despair too much about the lack of content just yet haha

Anon said:THE LITTLE SERO TAPES ON BAKU’S ARM I’M WEEEEEAAAAK

Anon said:Baby Sero putting tape all over Bakugo ’s arm made my study-full day a lot better, thank you Fran.

I’m!!!!!!!! Actually surprised by how many people liked Sero most out of the whole drawing??? But I’m GLAD he’s amazing please love my son as much as I do (or more) (if you can manage that) (the more love he gets the better)

Anon said:Is it in canon that Kirishima has terrible handwriting because I think it should be

I don’t know if this is terrible or not because I actually can’t tell good handwriting from bad in Japanese, but this is Kirishima’s canon handwriting!!

Terrible or not it’s definitely a sharp, STRONG handwriting, which is all that matters as far as Kirishima is concerned!! 💪💪💪💪 haha

Anon said:that bakukirikami art with the AU killed me

PLEASE DON’T DIE ON ME ANON !!!!!

Anon said:YES my emotions are from tododekus I’m just😭😭😭 I love Shouto so much!!!! I didn’t realize how much until just now tho??? Like how dare that episode honestly

!!!!!!!!!! he’s a super great character and honestly I like him way better after the sports fest is over and done with, he’s such a chill nice silly guy bless him and bless Deku for making his actual personality come out *deep sigh*