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Okay I need to talk about this:
I wasn’t considering making sweet girl a virgin. But after getting some asks about people in their 20’s feeling like they are less than others because they are still inexperienced, it made me decide to go ahead and do this.
I think it’s important to talk about this. To normalise people with no sexual experience that are already into their adulthood. It’s nothing to be ashamed of. I know sexual experience is very sexy in fanfiction, but so is learning, and the prospect of trusting someone enough to let them be your first. To guide you through your insecurities and doubts. To be there when no one else was.
That can be so cathartic.
Hopefully, I can write it in a way that feels realistic and respectful, while delivering a good story in the process 🩷
#ruby rambles ‧͙⁺˚*・༓☾#sweet girl ˚ ༘♡ ⋆。˚#I hope I don’t disappoint anyone#I know some of you are expecting her to be playing Miguel and actually being experienced#but#I think it’s important to do this
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So…here’s one reason why I’m continuing to be optimistic about the Tech situation. Yeah, there’s the fact that Tech coming back around eventually is what makes the most sense to me for a variety of reasons, but another reason alongside everything else? I refuse to be depressed about this.
The reality is that this isn’t a situation we can control. That leaves me with a choice about the current situation; I can decide the current situation is permanent (something which seems unreasonable to me given how easily recontextualized everything is) and spiral about it, drop it, or I can poke at the text and theorize about how the situation can get better. And since I don’t feel like spiraling and my brain won’t let me just drop it, option three is what I’m going with.
Tech means a lot to me, and, despite the fact that I remain highly critical of the finale in the context of there not being anything afterwards, The Bad Batch generally does as well. So let’s say I’m wrong, because I very well might be. Let’s say that there are not only no plans to follow up on any of this, but that no one ever picks up the threads left behind, and no one ever grabs the grade A catnip that bringing Tech back would be. At least I’ll have had fun theorizing in the meantime, and will come out the other side with a bunch of ideas on how to finish things off myself.
#the bad batch#tech lives#part of me wants to make a series of posts#that’s just detailing all the in-text reasons why I’m optimistic#I haven’t gone into that because I actually worry#about getting anyone’s hopes up besides my own#listen I bounce back from disappointment really easily#throw me at a wall and I will zing right back#and that’s not true for everyone#maybe I’ll start doing it anyway but put huge disclaimers in the tags I don’t know#but anyway another thing#another thing is#that like#in the even that I’m wrong?#okay fine Tech and the Bad Batch are ours anyway#Tech means the world to me so WHY#would I let a dumb decision someone else made that all of that away?
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dead to the rpc , matter of time before i’m dead to the world … i’ve gone for more than 30 hours without sleep twice in the span of less than a week
#// i’m not intentionally ignoring anyone i just … don’t have the energy physically and mentally recently#// bursting into tears at the awkwardest timings but still gotta keep going#// missed you guys … hope you miss me too#// but i’ll still disappoint so … lmao#*╱ mun speaks
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tagged by ko @tofumilanesa for wip wednesday! big shout out to writevember for making me feel like i can actually call any of these works in progress… your guide to my emoji code under the cut
wip!
🪻🐈⬛ - the doc title is still just. YOWLING but i am like 7/8 of the way done with omega yamo fic and hopefully salem isn’t reading this so i can just drop it over a year later with no warning <3
🫃2️⃣ - DEWEY^2 P2!!!! she is almost done (i am lying) but she is so close i can almost taste it. sorry to my pwp that grew its own feelings baby
😇🤭 (🕒 -> 🕜) - rip i’m not telling you about this one until it’s posted but it IS complete aside from being ao3 formatted and the eight billion edits i inevitably do right before full-sending it
☁️💧 - cloud petey fic, which exists mostly as an embarrassingly large tag on a different blog and is condensing into a narrative about as well as water at 30° N/S. the time loop fic also falls under this description
eternally in progress (short list)
🌑🐕 - tyler borzoituzzi exists… there is an index of scenes/plot points… it plays like a movie in my head…
💯❕- fantastic! ‘verse
👁️👻 - stevie brandon seeing ghosts au, which has eight different (now nine i guess but you haven't seen the mustache adam post yet) plots. sorry
just. rotating like a microwave
🍎 - because they didn’t have a pomegranate emoji, this is what i used for the fic that feels like it should be a 50k connor bedard character study hanif abdurraqib/cathal kelly thesis about legends and mythmaking in sports and eating your young. yes i know pomegranates aren’t actually pomes and apples are but it’s fine
🦈 - the one cat da fuck they doing over there meme but about the sharks just like. in general. more on this at five
tagging @colap1nto, @songsandswords, @whitenikes, @gordiemeow, @acheronist, and anybody else who wants to share!!
#i regret to inform the public (beloved mutuals who read my tags) that we have hit the doldrums re: creativity.#got SO excited because i had no prep for tomorrow and got out unreasonably early and proceeded to do nothing 🤩 zero motivation/inspiration#anyway. being a big baby. have looked at dewey^2 for too long and now hate it which makes me sad because i was on SUCH a roll solving plot#and really i just need to pick something else from my (looks at smudged hand) 10000 other documents but none of them are calling my nameeee#maybe i’ll ao3 format 🕒 -> 🕜 or maybe i’ll read wandering stars (did finish a book this morning) and then hope something strikes me#preferably very aggressively like with the force of a train? OHHHHHH YOU GUYS MAYBE I COULD MAKE SOMETHING FOR HOLY JUMPING MACKEREL FEST#because you know what DID hit me upside the head like a 2x world champ coming from behind with the steel chair WAS BERGY & JOE GUESS WHO#joey first of all did not deserve to lose those games and second of all i am SO immensely delighted i don’t know if it’s on here yet i am#so sure at least one of my beloved drw moots (beth and nik are likely culprits but all of u would) has it on here yet BUT THERE’S SO MUCH#BERGY VERY BLATANTLY CALLING JOE A NERD BC HE KNOWS ALL ABT HIS TEAMMATES &LOVES THEM!! BERGY NOT KNOWING A SINGLE FUCKIN THING ABT ANYONE!#the absolute unsurprised yet still heartbroken disbelief & disappointment of joe saying ‘he uses black tape!’ oh that’s rent-free forever#anyway.#liv in the replies#p.s. it's fic friday now don't worry about how late i am#as always ask away ask about anything in post tags y'all know i love to yap u are always welcome in the inbox or dms#i was trying to be slightly less mysterious about all of these but i am a secret-keeper sorry and also you need to live inside my brain#in order to understand half of what i'm referencing sometimes. sorry.#also there are some un-hockey fic projects i want to do but i have. so little time in my life for anything sometimes that we will make do
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good morning
#🧚🏽♀️ — luxe chit chat#so I’m going through a friendship breakup and I really struggling#I’m in so much pain#I’m super anxious I just feel downright terrible to be honest#I know I have requests and stuff and I do want to continue writing but I hope you can all offer me some grace and patience#I’m having a terribly hard time and I’m just devastated to be honest#I’m feeling really sad and worthless and I just don’t know what to do#I don’t know if a hiatus would make me feel better or worse#I don’t know if writing will be a good distraction or make me feel worse#Kay came over last night to comfort me so at least I’m not alone but I’m just not doing good in the least#I’m really sorry guys I love you all a lot I don’t want to disappoint anyone
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What’s the barrier for the psychological horror tag, do we think? I’m trying to decide if the next chapter of unworthy warrants it, but I don’t want to oversell it.
#Might just add the dead dove tag to the parasites and body horror tag and hope that suffices#I don’t want anyone to be disappointed if the psychological horror is just mildly disturbing themes
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a lil note about muses on here!! i’m going to reduce the amount of muses on my roster, removing characters i rarely use. this may include muses that we write together, but please don’t worry!! i’ll still write these muses with my partners who currently have dynamics with them; they will just no longer be available to the general public and will not be listed on my roster.
i’ll be honest and let y’all know that my focus has drifted away from kny a great deal, and that will be reflected when i edit my roster. most kny muses will be moved to the tertiary list, removed, or reworked for another fandom. i apologize bc i know this will be disappointing for some of you, but i need to make some changes so this blog feels neater and more accurately reflects where my interest lies. i don’t think this comes as a surprise tbh? but still i know it’s not what some people want to hear.
all that said, i do understand if you want to break mutuals — no hard feelings whatsoever!! but i hope we can figure out new dynamics and continue having fun smushing our dorks together if you stick around 💜
#i’ll probably start editing when i get home from class#but i’m just giving y’all a heads up first!#like i said there’s nothing to worry about if i write certain muses with you already bc i’ll still write them for you#but i just want my roster to be cleaner and to be more accurate as to where my interest is#which is fantasy and jjk and general modern verse stuff#and there’s just some muses i hardly ever get to use so it’s like?? why keep them here honestly uvu#i end up forgetting about them myself bc no one requests them/i don’t reach for them first#and really i’ve been thinking about this for a long time so i just!! need to do it!!#i hope y’all understand and i’m sorry to disappoint anyone!!#get ready to ramble | ooc
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Bro why tf is it that I leave the furry fandom for like 2 years and then come back and hella fursuit makers turned out to be fucked up and do fucked up things and my favorite fursuit dancer of all time is a fucking zoo???
I’m gonna kms istg
Anyways if anyone knows any good and cool fursuit makers lmk especially if they specialize in cartoony suits(though im definitely not financially secure enough to get one rn I’d still like to keep tabs on some fursuit makers for the future👀)
#furry#furry fandom#also if anyone could explain to me what autumn fallings did I’d really appreciate that<3#I looked them up and people were talking about refunds not happening but I couldn’t find anything on what actually happened#I am EXTREMELY disappointed in Teryaki#like oh my god#he was literally my favorite dancer of all time#such a fucking waste of talent#also morefurless#I was hoping to commission them one day#saw dhc did some shit too#what is haaaappeening broo#I’m glad we’re cracking down on these mfs but why do they have to do this shit brooo#just don’t be a fucking zoo#go to therapy#don’t mess with animals#it’s that easy🤩#don’t get me wrong#I loooove this fandom#been here for years#but it hurts so much when someone turns out to be fucked up:(((#hate this shit
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ah. i see. tumblr are just gonna get rid of the one thing that make their site nice to be on just like that huh.
#i’m not mad just disappointed#like people are here BECAUSE of no algorithm!! the people who wanted this as a Twitter replacement aren’t here anymore!#making the dash have an algorithm is just gonna piss people who use this site off whilst not attracting anyone else#I really hope this is a misunderstanding and that they don’t roll this garbage out#reimblimg
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I am finding that the more I learn about and understand and even like myself, the less palatable I become.
It’s very hard. To know what to do.
I am making sense to myself for the first time in years. I am proud of who I am finding out I am. I am relieved to be making peace and headway. But even when I find relief in acceptance of something I was ashamed of before, I cannot un-hide it from the world. It was buried for a reason.
I am not afraid of the other parts of me, or ashamed of them. I’m glad they’re with me. I am not ashamed of being them, but I am afraid of what other people will think and do if they know. I cannot make them feel the way I do.
I like the parts of me I am discovering and making peace with, healing.
But they were broken for a reason.
The more of them I fix and find, the less of myself I can share with anyone.
It’s hard.
To be more okay and more awake. To dig up parts you buried. And then brick them up in the walls.
#I think you can’t understand this if it’s not what you are. and it’s not always the same. sexuality and romance were not as hard for me#because they weren’t something at play every second of every day of my life. they’re part of me. big parts. but they aren’t /me/.#I think trans people do get it. certain mental illnesses. personality disorders. things that are never gone. always you always there always#screaming to be known and acknowledged and let out. you can’t imagine how hard that is#how it is not to want to hide something or be ashamed of it. to want it to be known and grown and loved. and have to hide it in the walls of#your head so it doesn’t discomfort the people you love. so they’re not sad. or too worried. or disappointed. or because you’re scared. of#all the new ways people from laws to loved ones could and would hurt you as soon as they caught wind#for every choice to talk even a little to be a balancing act potentially with the rest of your life.#you cannot begin to know the rage and the pain and the hopelessness of that and knowing the situation will /never/ change#it’s not sometimes it’s always. always you want you you like and know to be known and loved and supported and helped to heal and grow. to#get to just /be/ at all. to get to be alive instead of always hiding in the shadows jumping at noise#and having no hope you will ever get there at all. even with just ten people for the rest of your life#to have pieces click into place for the first time in decades and the machine starts and you are proud and relieved and joyful#but you have to hide it for the rest of your life because it would be too painful for people who love you and it’s selfish to cause pain#why? it’s not fair. it shouldn’t cause pain. I’m not ashamed or scared. people who love me shouldn’t be either. why is it wrong to openly#be who I am to people who love me? why is it right to brick myself up again? why doesn’t anyone say ‘no you’re wrong#don’t brick it up.’ why can’t I either? I know the situation. I know you have to put survival first#that does not. make it fair#poetry#痛い痛い痛い痛い痛い#don’t ask me what this is about. if I can’t talk to my own family I sure as hell am not going to talk to a stranger about it
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#im seeing so many “get over it” posts about dream not being in this event#i completely understand that excessive doom posting/projecting in someone’s inbox is not productive in any way#but i also don’t think we should invalidate anyone for feeling disappointed????#especially considering the hype around the event announcements#i think there’s just a balance :/#also im not saying he wont still make it!!!! im still hoping for the best <3
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I tried to roll 10x in the Regular Departure Warp gacha after gaining 10 tickets for reaching Level 35 and while I don’t have anyone new except for Tingyun's E1, I got this sweet card instead!
I wonder who that man is in the card btw? He looks hot 😳
#rubi’s post#honkai star rail#it’s disappointing that I don’t have anyone yet#but this card made my heart flutter a little#I hope we can meet this guy soon
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Not to derail how absolutely abhorrent, bland, and full of military ass kissing shit biden’s literal speeches are, but I wanted to also take the time on the post to point out how shitty Israel is!
here is an article about how israel treats the actual Holocaust survivors it took in. yk. the whole reason israel was supposed to have been created in the first place. they've been withholding these peoples' benefits and many live under the poverty line. all holocaust survivors are going to be dead by 2025. it's a huge disgrace.
how israel changed the historic names of palestine's cities to sound more "hebrew" and therefore jewish. to make it sound like they were "reclaiming" the land. it started when "israel" was first established. everything in "israel" should be in arabic, not hebrew. bc time passed. and a whole civilization was literally already there when they got there. so most names in "israel" are arabic that looks more english/hebrew. it’s erasure of the literal history here.
instagram
some more proof I have found of how i*rael treats holocaust survivors if anyone wanted further proof of how deeply fucked up this state is. these are the posts/articles that genuinely broke any semblance israel had any worth even within itself, and ofc the focus should be on palestinians but in case anyone needed that final peg of colonialism worth knocked out like I did. there are Zero redeeming qualities.
and last but never the least and in fact the most important, links to help palestine.
first is arab.org, my personal favorite, that uses the click money from an ad to fund donations to palestine. great way to help if you can’t donate now! anything always helps, even just spreading posts is doing something great.
second is a list of companies to boycott that helps me out a lot when I’m shopping. it even has alternatives, the reasons not to buy the product, and a very handy search function. it is consistently updating!
third is an Amazing list by @sulfurcosmos of ways you can help Palestine. includes how to write letters of protest, calls to make, donation organizations, and is regularly updated.
free palestine. from the river to the sea palestine will be free. 🇵🇸🍉🇵🇸
The Most Progressive President In History, on the genocide of Palestinians: "They're animals. They're animals. [...] They're a brutal, ugly, inhumane people, and they have to be eliminated."
#I'd like to highly recommend his other speeches so far that are so far military ass kissing bs and how much america loves israel#aka how much a colonizer country loves its baby colony that's murdering millions and laughing abt it#genuinely such a disappointment. but honestly any other president would've done the same. they're all military ass kissers.#I mean yeah they’re the military heads but like fuck em honestly jesus fucking christ#anyways thank you for reading so far <3 take care of yourself first and never lose hope for gaza ! o9#share share share posts abt palestine on social media anything and everywhere it will help#save a ton of stuff and take screenshots and recordings in case they get censored or taken down too that is also important#free palestine#free gaza#OH and research research research!!! look for so many resources to learn more abt gaza’s history#and the violent colonization of their land by america and europe and the absolute divorce it has from actual jewish people#theres so many protests and people speaking up and it does make a difference to keep talking about it#the only way to fail is to forget#all my words are inspired by the words of palestinians themselves from instagram I will happily share if anyone wants#I just don’t know if overloading a post with links can hurt it#anyways !!!! keep working !!!! it will be a long term effort !!!!!!#ceasefire now#from the river to the sea palestine will be free#gaza genocide#antisemitism#Instagram
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i hate being negative but does anyone else read books that are wildly popular & you’re like ‘….i must be reading a different version bc… why are people raving over this’
#it doesn’t happen super often bc i typically don’t go for books that are blowing up#but when i do i really have high hopes then i’m usually disappointed#this post is brought to you about fourth wing like… are y’all ok#my cousin said ‘if you’re gonna read fourth wing & throne of glass. read fourth wing first bc it’s good. then you read throne of glass &#realize fourth wing isn’t THAT good’#like girl i didn’t even get halfway through fourth wing to know it wasn’t good#i did finish it but it was a CHORE#fantasy is my fav genre but that… was not it#i started throne of glass while working on fourth wing & LOVED it im on the second book now#reading fourth wing made me realize that the most important thing for me when reading is likable characters#i gotta care about the characters to want to know what else is gonna happen#& the characters in fourth wing were so wildly unlikable like. nah bye#anyway i’m mostly angry bc i spent money on fourth wing bc i found it on sale & now i’m like anyone want a free book get this outta my house#the third book i’ve bought bc it was blowing up & i was horribly disappointed#that being said use your local library kids!#ok that’s all
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feeling bad again 😧
#egg boils#i was reading that japanese writers hoshimina stuff and they kept saying they felt burnt out bc of how small the audience was and like . Oh#my god i get it i get it nodding emoji bc there’s only so much you can write for urself…#i think at this stage i’m just so in my head . but realistically by now i should be accepting that kn8 anime has ended. no ones actively#looking for hoshimina stuff because they aren’t pushed past the tachikawa base raid anyway. so like. Stop Hoping#idk why i think people will keep reading or looking for hsmn (Or worse. nrmn) when there’s no reason for people to so#deep breaths. i’ll just do what i want to do.#maybe i should disable ao3 notifs#or just let it pass… i think maybe i should quickly upload all the chapters for nrmn instead bc i keep Expecting things and i don’t like it#bc i always end up with greater disappointment#:/#the thing is im rly clinging onto this hyper fixation and writing so much bc i know i won’t be able to when i land a job. and thats def#happening minimally in september#i hope so anyway#so i want to create as much as i can because very soon i won’t have time for Anything but#i’m just so sad#idk anymore ughhhhh#i did have fun. but maybe i should just let this go.#the worse part is that the hsmn fic im writing rn is genuinely! going! i’m not forcing myself or anything but idk i’ve really started#placing too much like. Emphasis on recognition i guess?#i need to remind myself that the reason i managed to churn out 43k for hsmn at first was solely for myself too#i never expected anyone to read it. so i need to maintain those expectations#i truly love all the people who consistently comment on my fics and new chapters but i don’t expect people to keep up with it especially#knowing kn8 isn’t a Big Thing anymore#so i’ll need to live with the fact that i will Not get new things new comments and whilst i love seeing them and replying to them. That’s#fine. because when i was writing for myself the only person who was reacting was myself#and that’s fine!!!!!!!!!#ugh#i can do this.#just until it naturally phases out. there’s so many things i want to create still
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i went to the hybe daydream believers exhibition in kuala lumpur & here are my thoughts (long story short: it is not worth it)
for some context, this is how the organisers described the event:
The exhibition is showcasing the portraits of 54 artists from 7 groups, along with their journey towards realizing their dreams. Fans will have the opportunity to delve into the backstage stories of BTS, SEVENTEEN, TOMORROW X TOGETHER, ENHYPEN, LE SSERAFIM, fromis_9, and &TEAM.
the exhibition mainly features framed headshots of these idols (many of which you cannot take photos of btw). yes you see their portraits (which literally means photos of them) but you don’t really get to experience the other part of “delving into their backstage stories”.
the exhibition in itself felt extremely underwhelming. it would be worth it if you were allowed to take photos but because you can’t in 4/7 exhibits, it just feels like a waste. i don’t really feel the need to just look at these idols’ face if i wasn’t able to take any photos of them.
if you are happy paying $46 to see pretty photos of your favourite idols then this exhibition would be for you. but for a casual fan like me who only went for seventeen and aren’t really interested in the other groups and was looking forward to more than just seeing their faces, i don’t think it’s worth your money and time.
#also this is my first kpop event i’ve attended and the number of fans who were disappointed in who they pulled was EMBARRASSING#but that’s a story for a different post#i hope they don’t consider themselves carats because god they are so fucking embarrassing#if anyone wants to know more about this lol feel free to send me an ask#or maybe i’ll post my thoughts when i don’t feel so angry about it anymore#seventeen#bts#txt#enhypen#le sserafim#fromis 9#&team#hybe#the daydream believers
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