#I haven’t seen much of it here yet idk if some of the blogs I follow that posted it became inactive or are still catching up

[littlenim]

new succession has me feelin insane

[rookfeatherrambles]

hey so for the angle that cries ink ive been wondering how jon like got under the institute in the first place and how similar he is to the jon the know, the character from TMA. like before he was trapped was he our precious little guy who read statements and then immediately disagreed with him or is he more like an OC with a completely different backstory. i don’t know a whole lot about fics in general or how much youre willing to share about this one in particular but i would love to know some things about jons backstory if you could share? idk a whole lot about much of anything rn or if youve shared anything yet that I just haven’t seen so idk this is your sign to tell me as much as you want whenever you want to ig

long story short: would love to know some about jons backstory :)

considering I haven't written anything but chapter 1 so far... and I did yell about this on my blog before, I don't consider this a spoiler. Jon was put under the Institute by Jonah Magnus! You could say that the Institute was built because of Jon, but that's not quite true. However, the place Jon resides and has for like idk 150 years of his 200 that he's spent on this earth was made to be a home for BOTH of them. That, obviously didn't happen, and now its Jon's prison. As for if Jon is the same... yes and no. Yes, he was canon all the way up until the finale, spoilers for mag 198 and 199 and 200, but he went kinda crazy, if killing Jonah, becoming the pupil and then going through with his plan to burn out the fears is crazy. I think its real sensible! (that's a joke). Anyway, mag 200 didn't go according to plan. the panopticon didn't blow, and Jon set about his villian era. I have no idea how I'm gonna write it but he basically waged war, being marked by all fears, he could puppet them (thanks web) to a degree, and he pitted them against eachother to the death. The world burned. He BECAME the Extinction, do you get me? And he kept Martin by his side until, well. He was caught in the crossfire. The End doesn't barter its dead, even to God. Martin was gone, and Jon quickly destabilized and was deposed. I'm pretty sure he was draged kicking and screaming (and cursing) to hilltop house and the rift and thrown into it. Thus, the web's plan was ultimately fulfilled, it just took like a century. In the void between millions of realities, the fears (mainly the web) reshaped Jon. As punishment for him trying to escape the strings he'd been dancing on, he was remade in a mockery of the savior he had tried to be. Markless, beautiful and ethereal, connected to every fear, a harbinger, an angel. They took his voice too, his only weapon. Jon was brought to an almost identical world, but 200 years into the past, and given directly into the grasp of one Jonah Magnus who was just dipping toes into the supernatural. Jon's punishment, is to be immortal, and to be the reason every single person he cares about or so much as knows, falls to the fears. he is the reason they are here, after all. So yeah. That's Jon. He's been alive for 200 years, and all he wants to do is see Martin again, and apologize. Only, his Martin is dead, and this world's Martin has no knowledge of Jon's feelings or even his existence.

[phantomram-b00]

Imma use my hottake post to explain it since I felt I should give more context with this take to explain myself why I have this opinion on the topic of this.

For those who don’t know or don’t wanna look back with the link, it basically that my hottake is that I don’t like the theory of what Crowley’s angel name was/could’ve been. I know this might be a bit controversial since I think everyone in this fandom (not to assume ofc), and whilst I get the curiously since Crowley almost never talk about his time over at heaven, mostly for valid reason that I’ll get to. Before I get into this, I know it been month but I wanna still give that this haunted blog/post does contain heavy spoilers so if your planning to watch good omens or haven’t seen season two yet go watch it and come back here, or you can still read— what can I say, I’m only a phantom that have lot to say about good omens and making it everyone else’s problem. But still spoiler warning ahead! So without further or do,

let get into it and talk about our favorite snake demon and a good old fashion lover boy/girl/enby—

So, okay, seeing Angel Crowley, that’s cool and honestly wholesome— despite the poor trauma he’s going to endure and will sauntered vaguely downward for. I remember hearing the theory about how his name could be Raphael, seen some AO3 tags of Crowley used to be Raphael or just people buzzing what his name could’ve been (even some saying it could be Castiel or Cassiel). And while the curiously of it all is cool, for a while I couldn’t really pin it at first as to why I personally didn’t like it. And Idk if that make be boring or a bitch for not wanting to know, it just to me, I felt why does it matter if Crowley himself don’t even want to remember about his time at heaven?

Sure season 2 when he didn’t even say it might have been what spiked it, but i think the whole point about him is the fact that he clearly moved on from it. Does he still hold resentment? Of course, why wouldn’t he be? And from unfair circumstances too:

But, as we’ve seen from most of the flashback, he moved on from it. He using hell as long as he can (lonely? Yep, which is a perfect parallel to how Aziraphale following heaven—), he doesn’t want to remember the angel he is before, he even said it to Aziraphale when he tried to stop him from killing Job’s kids. But I think of how he’s dealt with is how his trauma grew seeing how he doesn’t want to be considered nice or kind; I feel it goes deeper than just because he’s a demon now, I believe (and this is just my observation), he rather not remember the kinder side he was once before because of how the “light” casted him away and how heaven runs things. So why would he want to be associated with those word when it remind him of his time, he rather not remember it (or in a case run away from heaven as much as he can), he rather associate himself from being mean or remember himself as a demon now rather than an angel he once was. (Even though, he is very kind and I wish to hug him. Don’t start-).

Plus, he more comfortable with his new name now, that’s why he even changed it back at the flashback of the crucifixion of Jesus as his named used to be Crawly (which honestly real.) and changed it to Crowley (now technically he changed it again to Anthony J Crowley, but we hardly heart anyone even Aziraphale say it outside from the blitz flashback, so I kinda wanna count it but I’mma not just incase, but I like the name tho-), and since then, he’ve wore that name proudly and never look back, and Aziraphale an ally he is suppose him and call him by his prefer name. That is him saying “I’m not whoever I was before, so I’m going to change my name to move on from my past”, and honestly I stand, I love the fact he want to move on from his time as an angel/move away from his deadname to be the person he is today, proud of the wily serpent ^v^

“But phantom, that still doesn’t explain why you dislike it?”

You’re right, it still doesn’t so imma explain it a bit more, I just feel it shouldn’t matter what his name was, it really up to his (or Neil’s but this is Crowley we’re talking about) own terms, it him that should be able to say his deadname. And if it never reveal, I wouldn’t care since Good Omens from both season shown, Crowley moved on from his angelic past even if he have the grudges he have now after 6000 years he rather accepts his life now and hopefully with the Angel that have supported him and stood by him. And I know the finally is making it seem like Azirapahel want to change him, but like I said here that I don’t think that the case, I don’t think he would ever want him to revert back to the person he was once before, he could never ask Crowley to do such a thing knowing the progress he made. Like I said and will say again, I think this was Azirapahle (in a poor way given the situation and that their communication is the equivalent of a ghost (invisible as fuck)) to give Crowley a change to fix the broken and toxic system heaven been running on since the dawn of time, to give Crowley the chance to fix what need to be fixed with Aziraphale, and Crowley said no, and I think rightly so in his point of view, heaven did treated everyone especially Crowley poorly and is the main source of his trauma, so I’m happy he said no, it not his place to fix the one thing that in his eyes was broken and have always been. So good jobs Crowley for standing your grounds.

But I’m getting ahead of myself, my point is that, Crowley have moved on and it shouldn’t matter what his deadname was, I think we should all respect that when it come to not just his but everyone’s deadname. Crowley clearly doesn’t have to remember his time on heaven, and I gotta respect that. Because if I was in his shoes, I wouldn’t neither if I was a bit braver than he was.

“But phantom what if it was revealed anyway?”

Again I wouldn’t care, like the commenter said (I don’t know how they feel about tagging so I won’t just to be respectful) and I do agree, if it had to be revealed it should be on his own terms. And I do agree, it is up to Crowley, he should be able to say it as it could garner the impactful moment, especially if he does say like “I’m not *this name* anymore” or whatever he’ll say in season 3, (which please let it be greenlit, I’m begging atp).

And honestly, I don’t doubt it really, it seem it might be revealed, which, fine, this is Neil’s work so gotta respect. Just I hope it on his term, and that no one else say it, I don’t even want aziraphale to say it. Just him. He deserve it.

But that’s my take on it. That’s my spew on this. Might be boring or lame to not be curious, but honestly like I said, he’ve going down a path away from heaven and accepted what happen to him. May not be in a healthiest way but regardless I love this demon and I am happy he moved on and I can’t wait to see him again in season 3, David Tennant a perfect Crowley and I wouldn’t have it any other way ^v^

But I hope you enjoy my yet another insane ramble of this show, frankly this show is becoming my life atp and I don’t hate it. I love this show, it my comfort, I’m happy to have this show; if you want to ask me any other questions you can in the AMA box or comments, but also tell me what do you guys think of this theory? Do you love it? Have qualms with it? Or anything? Tell me in the comments or reblog. As always this is phantom, imma go haunt somewhere else.

[multiplicity-positivity]

hi!! So, I'm really confused, and you're the only blog I know of to ask-

So, I'm the host, I discovered my system some months ago, when in my headspace, i can either only barely make out my own appearance, or I'm vaguely "me" (p much like the body), it's a little hard for me to visualize myself usually

Within the past week or two, upon trying to interact in headspace, I now can clearly see myself, however everytime I look like a v specific design of a character from my current hyperfixation, not even my favorite or a character I kin, it feels random?

So, my first thought was maybe we have a new fictive, but I only just watched the source recently and I haven't had anything too bad happen lately asides from stress, tho I don't know much about how splits work in my system yet-

My second thought is maybe this is just bc of being autistic? And being hyperfixated? But again I feel like if that was the case it would be the character design I'm hyperfocused on?

Idk, sorry this is rambley, I've been trying to figure this out and have gotten v confused and think I need a second opinion !! Thank you in advance ^^;

Hiya! Um, we’re not sure what kind of system you are, but we can say that many systems develop headmates for a huge variety of different reasons!! It’s not unheard of for a system to develop headmates due to their special interests, hyperfixations, or as a result of their neurodivergencies! :3

But like, if your system is traumagenic (whether fully or mixed origins), it would probably be a good idea to rule out trauma as a potential origin for this new headmate rather than just assuming they formed due to a hyperfixation. And it’s possible for both trauma and a hyperfixation to play a role in the formation of a new headmate!!

And, they may not be a headmate at all! If this is how you view yourself in your headspace, that may just be what’s happening, without being more complicated than that! Headspaces are visualization tools of fantasy and imagination, and what’s seen in the headspace doesn’t always have to be an indication of some deeper inner-system workings!! If that makes sense? Sorry if that sounds weird >_<

But like, within our paracosm, some members of our system appear as Jedi (from the Star Wars universe)! They’re not actually Jedi, and the presence of these alters as Jedi doesn’t mean we’ve obtained new fictives in our system… that’s just how these members present themselves when they’re engaging with the paracosm! Sorry if that doesn’t make much sense. Our system has a headspace that’s separate from our paracosm, but other systems may find these two things are one in the same! Basically it’s up to you to choose how you appear in your headspace, and just because you look different in the headspace than you do in real life doesn’t necessarily mean a new system member is around. Although it could mean that?? It’s really up to you and your system and how y’all choose to explain and define what you’re experiencing! :3

Sorry if this reply is all over the place or doesn’t make much sense! We haven’t been feeling well, but we wanted to at least try and explain what we think could be happening here. We definitely don’t have all the answers though! >_<”

💚 Ralsei and 🌸 Margo

[agentnatesewell]

hey there! generally speaking I'd come off anon for this but it's been a while since I've properly been on tumblr and I'm too lazy to recover my login info lol. but anyway, I just wanted to say that I really enjoy your blog and it's always a pleasure to read your thoughts and theories about N, as a fellow N mancer! hence why I'm sending you this ask, I haven't seen anyone bring this up yet so I'd love to know your thoughts!

but to get to the actual point of the ask, I've been replaying the N route in book 3 and exploring different choices and picked up on something interesting, I think. 👀 so when you're on the "no one learnt about the supernatural" branch, if you're sober when you come back to the warehouse, you can kiss N. and it really piqued my attention because the text describes the kiss as tasting metallic, which I feel was definitely an intentional choice of words. especially because from what I've noticed, Mishka generally doesn't often include descriptions of how the detective's LI "tastes" when describing kiss scenes and usually the descriptions focus on other sensations and emotions. in addition to this, the other aspect that really made me go hmm here is also the fact that if you ask N what they've been doing while waiting for the detective to come back, they ofc deflect the question and turn on the charm/suaveness and say something along the lines of "even a vampire has to have secrets".

so both of these little things combined really makes me wonder wtf they were doing?? now of course I'm not trying to jump to any nefarious or malicious conclusions or anything like that lol. but it's still definitely something to think about. like idk I wonder if they were drinking blood or doing something with blood?? it could be nothing ofc but I just can't seem to let go of the description of the metallic tasting kiss, it's been on my mind since I read that scene and it definitely feels like a very purposeful hint for something, I just don't know what. now I feel mildly unsettled lol, who knows what N route, X tier related angst Mishka has in store for us!! but idk maybe I'm also just focusing on it too much and overthinking stuff haha.

Hello friend!! If you ever do log in, please drop me a message! Thank you so much for being so lovely and nice! So happy you like the blog - crying about N is seriously one of my favorite things to do.

Going to put my answer being a cut since it’s long + spoilers

It’s so cool that upon replaying and trying the routes, that there are all of these pieces that really start coming together to create this multifaceted story. I’ve only done the Verda dinner with N, Tina dinner with A, and Verda/Tina with F (so, will be a similar scene to what you got! Curious how it’ll go with F). Luckily, a friend had sent me some screenshots of your detective comes home drunk so I do have some context!

I like where you’re going with this, I do the same thing - look at anything for a clue to what their tier x power is. And definitely see where you’re going here!

It seems to me that the detective caught N post-meal (and maybe slipping a bit, blood tastes differently to them, like something pleasant vs the more metallic taste the detective tasted). And N’s kiss was described in the beginning of the book but you’re so right, the way the kisses taste isn’t necessarily a feature of the scene. So, I think you’re also right that it’s deliberate - that usually N tastes like nectar but in this scene, they taste metallic.

With N’s whole … discomfort of being seen/known as a vampire, their wish for humanity and to be seen as human, I can see how maybe they’d not want to being up that their dinner was actually what is necessary to sustain them - their half ration of blood (they were hungry!). Now, we did have the breakfast scene but I’ve never noticed how N drank their blood (tell me where I’m missing it though! Just haven’t seen it!) … F is made to put it in a glass, A in the wine glass, M out of the pouch, but N? Idk!

And I think it pulled into their whole conversation about being a mystery and having their secrets (if you got that in your version!) … something they’re just not ready to fully commit to and share with the detective YET. Which is a parallel to speaking with Verda and Tina about it at dinner time. Since they were asked, and they were willing to answer the really uncomfortable questions to help the detective and their friend.

All such good thoughts!! Thank you so much for sharing them with me! It was really fun to think about. Let me know or you have anymore things to discuss! Hope you’re having a great day!

[succstosucculent]

Okay, I binged half of Netflix Avatar The Last Airbender last night, so here are my thoughts so far:

One: if you’re gonna compare it to the original the whole time, you’re gonna have a bad time. If you go into this with the idea that it is an adaptation, a retelling, a kind-of-it’s-own thing like the movie remakes they do every twenty years or so, then it is bearable. Note how I only said “bearable”. The following criticisms are (instinctively) made because I’m subconsciously comparing it to the original, but I feel like I’ve gotten the main points down to “this would be a problem even if it were a stand-alone show.”

Two: niceties are over, time to get into the crit part. Even if you treat it like its own thing, you’d still find faults in it. The pacing feels way off, other fans seem to say the same thing, though this is probably the consequence of today’s super short, eight-episode seasons. It just feels rushed, like, would I have rather they cut some story arcs for time instead of cramming 3 to 4 disjointed ones into the same episode so that nothing goes to waste? I don’t know.

Three: as a consequence of the whole thing feeling rushed and haphazardly condensed, we don’t really have time to appreciate these characters. Like, I know I should like Katara because she was one of my faves from the original, and I know I should like her because of her kind heart and the way she herself grows as a bender along with Aang, but idk, I haven’t been able to connect with this version of Katara yet, and thus I can’t say whether I liked her or not yet. This could be said of nearly every main character we’ve got to meet so far.

(TBF, I did say I watched half of the series last night; maybe the other half will change my opinion on her, and the rest of the cast?)

Four: along with the art of pacing a story, we have lost the art of subtlety. Not everything had to be explained to us, even if we had never seen the original Avatar. We didn’t need to be hit over the head with the revelations we could’ve figured out for ourselves, if we just had the time to process them all. There have been crit blogs that have written about this much more eloquently than I could, so I’m just gonna leave it there.

Final assessment is it’s okay, but just okay. Netflix Avatar is plagued by most issues of contemporary shows, like short seasons, haphazard pacing, lack of developed characters, and the complete loss of subtlety. That being said, it is a feast for the eyes, and if you watch it alone at night like I did, be sure to hit that pause button and take in the views ❤️ Let’s just say though, that I would not be surprised if there wasn’t a Book Two/Season Two.

Oh and also, Jet still hot 🥵

[philhoffman]

Watched A Most Wanted Man (2014) for a special Monday Philm this week—since last March, I’ve been rewatching all of PSH’s films in chronological order and this one completes the cycle (I know, the Mockingjays were released later, but I grouped The Hunger Games films together for my own continuity).

To be completely honest I spent most of this rewatch counting how many cigarettes Günther Bachmann smokes throughout the film (keeping a real pen-and-paper tally in my movie-watching notebook)—the answer is about 22. Real ones, the herbal cigarettes Phil said he was smoking all day anyway. There is much to be said about the cinematic value of smoking cigarettes—and I plan on writing more about that at some point!—but man there’s no doubt not many people (if anyone) do it better than him. It’s so much a part of Bachmann, of Hoffman—his breath made visible, hanging in the air. Cinema!

“We find them. We become their friends, their brothers, their fathers, their lovers, if we must.”

Still one of my favorite films, even more so since I read the book a few months ago. Surprisingly high rewatchability factor, especially if you’re like me and generally do not know what’s going on in espionage stories ever. I think I’ve finally caught up to this one—but the tension is so thick, I still find myself half-hoping, half-begging, “Maybe it will go right this time, maybe it will end differently, maybe he will not walk away.”

Watching all of Phil Hoffman’s films in chronological order was supposed to give me some kind of insight into his development as an actor, the various periods and patterns of his career, his artistic growth. But really, pretty early on, I kinda forgot I was supposed to be thinking about that. I just loved being surprised by what was next on my schedule, seeing him for a few extra hours each week. Lately I’ve been thinking about how Phil made watching films very easy on us, the viewer—he is so good, it’s so natural, you can forget you’re watching PSH the actor and instead witness a real soul brought to life from a screenplay, he suspends your disbelief for you and you go willingly—and also so very hard—how does someone breathe life into a few lines on paper like that? why do I see myself in this character I’ve been told to hate, to be repulsed by? why can’t I look away, why is this painful, why am I still thinking about it days and weeks and years later? He always delivered, from that youthful (over)exuberance, a palpable excitement like static on your screen, to the quieter, more mature gravity he found later in his career (The Master, A Most Wanted Man). His entire life he gave it 110% and then some.

The first time I watched his filmography through, I did it in random order, whatever I felt like that week. This time was (mostly) chronological. I’m not sure what I’m going to do next, except I know I’m not ready to give this series up quite yet. It’s been over two years now and it’s hard to imagine not having something to look forward to on otherwise bleak Monday nights. And no, as my family and friends have asked, I don’t get tired of them. The volume of his work is so extensive and the material is so wide-ranging, there’s always something I’m craving or haven’t seen in over a year. Tbh I’ve missed the 90s lately—it’s been months since I’ve sat down to watch almost any of them, I miss that buoyancy and his babyface.

I’ve been thinking about doing a little less in these posts—collecting and editing the stills and writing the reviews is time-consuming (and sometimes emotionally taxing) late on a work night and how much, really, can I say about Patch Adams (my beloved)? But, idk. “And the zen master says, we’ll see.”

Over two years of Monday Philms and this blog, which I kinda started as a place to put these reviews, has a couple hundred followers now. Thank you for being here for this journey. But I can’t take much credit for that—I think, I hope, most of y’all are here because of Phil, his work, his life as a brilliant artist and a sweet, handsome, generous person, all the ways he’s inspired and understood you. I like to think we have a nice little community built around that shared love. For me, I am forever indebted to him. My life is changed in every way—fuller, better, more loving and relentless—because it’s now intertwined with his. Thank you Phil so much for everything I love you <3

[smolcinnamonchipmunk]

Okay okay sorry for barging in here unannounced (jk not really-) but like HOLY SHIT!! I got my Damm ass dragged into yet ANOTHER fandom like JESUS FUCKING CHRIST ON A STICK LET ME HAVE PEACE!

I got dragged into the deadplate fandom. Deadplate is a game about a guy, Rody, who gets a job at a well known restaurant who is owned by the this guy/Head chef, Vincent. I haven’t seen much of the game since I was fed info out of order but I do know this game has canabalism in it plus some other dark shit bc I find it ironic how the game puts the player in the situation of a RESTAURANT with a FUCKING CANABAL?!?!? I would say that imo the fandom would have hella fear play gt vibes HEAVY HEAVYYYY angst potential and lots of ✨ T R A U M A ✨.

10/10 would not like to be in that world if I was reincarnated thank you very much!

That’s my daily rant bc why not??? Anyways hope you’re doing well and staying hydrated bc if not I will come through your walls to give you water.

Bye bye~ !!!!

- 🌽 anon

(Ps: I’m trying to gain the courage to either come off anon or maybe drop my blog in (in private maybe) so then you can put a blog to this amazing anon teehee. So far I have no balls to do so)

I was about to say "I have enough on my plate without adding on a deadplate", but then you described the game and I was just like "THIS FUCKING SHIT"

I actually gushed about this slightly to an online buddy four months ago but, uh, turns out they don't really like cannibalism stuff. Known them for years, had no idea. Although, I don't THINK Vincent is exactly a cannibal. He talks about how he was going to feed the dish to Rody, but Vincent also eats his ear way too easily, so idk

But yeah, we talked about how fascinating/neat it would be if it was used with an actual pred chef and prey worker. Like, the pred has traveled the world in culinary pursuit to taste ANYTHING and somehow this poor prey worker is essentially ambrosia to them. SO much angst potential with a yandere/possessive pred that refuses to let them go after finally tasting/feeling something other than nothingness

Would I want to be in that world? No. Does it compel me? Absolutely

(You're welcome to use your account or not! I like to think of my place as safe and comfortable to everyone (with obvious exceptions like pedos and shit), but you'll always be Corn to me ngl)

[silvermoon424]

Hi, I’m Looking for anime recs. A bit of background: I’m 24, I’ve been “meaning to get into anime” since I was a kid. I love the art style and I love a few shows and I love following anime blogs, but I generally haven’t seen much, y’know?

I love Madoka Magica. It’s the only anime I have rewatched a bunch of times. A billion times, that’s a conservative estimate, I love it so much. But idk, every other anime I’ve seen I usually just find it “okay” to “pretty good.” Madoka Magica touched some intimate part of me that no other anime has ever done. I would just like to find another anime I could love almost as much. Please recommend me more anime.

Some other anime things I’ve seen

>Little Witch Academia (saw the whole thing once, enjoyed it)

>Ghost Stories (the dub, not the sub, though usually I prefer subs. I thought it was fucking hilarious)

>Darling In The Franxx (watched the whole show when it came out, it was okay)

>Bleach (watched the first season and a few episodes of the second, lost interest eventually. This was my first anime, I watched it dubbed)

>This Ugly Yet Beautiful World (saw the whole thing when I was young, it was pretty bad. I only saw it because at the time streaming services weren’t everywhere and this was available to watch free)

>Neon Genesis Evangelion (watched a few episodes and got caught up in other things. I keep meaning to watch it all the way through, but I haven’t finished it)

>K-ON (same as Eva)

>Cowboy Bebop (same as K-ON)

>Steins:Gate (watched a couple episodes and thought it was kinda cool but the main characters annoying and I dropped it)

>Death Note (started the first episode but never finished)

>One Punch Man (started the first episode but never finished)

>Battle Angel Alita (started the first episode but never finished. I enjoyed the live action movie though, saw it multiple times)

>Miss Kobayashi’s Dragon Maid (started the first episode but never finished)

>Angels Of Death (started the first episode but never finished)

>Gurren Lagann (started the first episode but never finished)

>A Place Further Than The Universe (started the first episode but never finished)

>Yu-Gi-Oh (saw a bit of the dub as a kid)

>Pokémon (same as Yu-Gi-Oh)

>Night On The Galactic Railroad (watched the dub a few times as a kid, watched it again recently as an adult and still enjoyed it)

I’d say if we’re to list the main appeals Madoka has for me, it’s

>the surreal/psychedelic animation in the witch rooms and in flashbacks. I like funky animation. I like the unique visual experience. Not anime, but my favorite movie as a little kid was Yellow Submarine, and I still love that movie. I also like the internet animators David Firth and Jakiv Burov. Ralph Bakshi is pretty good, I love Fritz The Cat. That stuff always appeals to me

>the fact that they’re all cute girls, I like cute anime girls and that’s why I so want to get into anime despite not having seen much

>the emotional depth of the show

>the fact that everything wraps up in a satisfying way

>that no time is wasted, there’s no filler episodes, it’s 12 episodes and each one is important and progresses the story forward

Hello!

Based on your perimeters, I think you would really enjoy Princess Tutu and Revolutionary Girl Utena. They're magical girl anime like Madoka Magica (although Utena kinda straddles the line) that are much more psychological than what is typical of the genre. I will say that both series are longer than PMMM (Princess Tutu is 26 episodes and Utena is 39 episodes) but from what I recall most episodes are heavy on plot/character development.

Yuki Yuna is a Hero is another series you might like; it's another magical girl anime quite similar to Madoka Magica and the first season is only 12 episodes (and it stands alone quite nicely). There are follow-up seasons but they're also only 12 episodes each.

Also, I recommend making a post on the r/Animesuggest subreddit! Just copy-paste what you wrote here. If any of my followers have suggestions, please leave them!

Oh, and I definitely recommend finishing Gurren Lagann. It's one of the best anime I've ever seen.

[f0point5]

Hi, sorry to add my two cents as well into the Kelly conversation you had today on your blog.

Let me be honest I really don’t like her either. For the things she said and did herself. And I totally get that you don’t want to talk about politics. But let me just mention that she is/was really outspoken about women rights (abortion and rape and about what was happening in the states especially) and yet she supported bolsonaro (who is pro Israel and openly admitted he would have raped members of his own parliament if they would have been pretty and who calls having girls as kids a weakness) when Kelly herself has a young kid, just because he gave money to the piquets.

Also her saying she had a magical night not only with 18 year old max but she was also already dating daniil at the time (or was just like 2 weeks shy of dating him).

But what really triggers me are her fan pages (and rumoured she herself) making it out to be that max is ps father and her allegedly not allowing daniil to see his daughter (until maxs intervention)

And she also apparently used to talk to her fam pages about her and maxs sex life and it is confirmed that she shared sensitive information about her, ps and maxs whereabouts with her fan pages.

And the way she always talks about/to max is really not making her shine in a good light. She acts more like a mother to max than her own kid. Remember she denied having a nanny multiple times, yet she was photographed with the nanny (by the paps she or her agencies called and payed for)

I’m not even going to touch that whole first paragraph lol I’ve got to stick to my apolitical values.

I will say that the “Max girl dad” narrative comes from his fan pages as much as hers because I’ve seen some very extreme stories/narratives around that and I don’t follow Kelly fan pages, it’s Max fans putting a lot of it out there as well. All you have to do is read what Max himself says to disprove that. So idk what to say about that.

On the nanny, no one should even be asking her that that she should have to confirm or deny. Idk why she would be ashamed of that but she shouldn’t be. Whatever works for her as a mother should not be judged and it’s sad and stupid that we live in a world where having help is something people think they have a right to comment on or even have actual opinions about.

At the end of the day, you and everyone else is allowed to feel however you like about her. You haven’t come in here with misogynistic nonsense so fair enough.

I really don’t have much to say here

[pick-me-up-im-scared]

Get To Know Me(-ish)

I was thinking I could answer some typical “get to know me” questions, if anyone’s interested in reading them. If not, I’ve just done it for myself, I guess. Anyway, I’ve found these on Google. Let me know if there’s someone to credit! (prepare for me babbling on about completely useless stuff)

What's your name? Julianna (but I´m open for any nicknames, especially "my little ps5 cooling fan")

How old are you? I turned 23 this year. Yep, I´m having an internal crisis

What's your sexuality? I will say bisexual for now. But there´s a VERY high chance I'll change it to 100% lesbian. Like, right know girls are the only thing that interests me.

What I love the most about myself? I´m very kind and loyal. It could be seen as something bad, ik. But I´m trying to not let people use it against me. I also believe I'm a good listener, which is somethings I'm proud about. I'd also like to think I could make a boring task funny, like grocery shopping or doing the dishes.

What I dislike the most about myself? I have a pretty bad temper, I blame it on my dad. If I'm pissed, don´t even bother trying to calm me down. Just give me a few minutes to myself and I'll be back. But that leads me into the next thing I hate about myself, I hold onto things for waaaay to long. If someone did something bad 5 years ago you better believe I still think about it. I´m also stubborn and think about other people´s opinion SOMETIMES, but let's not focus on that. I like to believe I just need to find "the right person" to pull me out of that mindset...

What are your favorite movies? This is suuuuuch a hard fucking hard questions for someone who enjoys movies like I do. And I’m not saying it in a “I like to watch movies like every other fucking person on this planet”, I mean I’m like sooo invested you wouldn’t even want to go see a movie with me. There’s no such thing as talking while the movie is playing. I even pay attention to the small things the actors do to make their role more “truthful”………yeah, I’m a maniac.

Anyways, I won’t even try to list all the movies I like or else we’d be here for YEARS! But two movies I can rewatch the second the credits starts to roll is either Once Upon A Time In Hollywood or The Dark Knight. But I also enjoy kids movies a little than I should…….but that’s a whole other story.

What's your favorite song? If the previous question was hard, then this is on fucking Viagra. I listen to sooo much music with such a variety. Like I listen to every genre there is! But I’ll give you three songs I haven’t grown tired of yet, even though I have them on repeat 24/7:

José Feliciano - California Dreaming

The Strokes - Repitila

Justin Bieber - Hard To Face Reality

What are your hobbies? I´m trying to make myself busy with literally anything. I can't stand the thought of not being productive (doesn't stop me from laying in bed, watching youtube for hours!). So basically anything productive. Drawing, some sculpturing (nothing professional, calm down), very rarely write (obviously, I haven´t been updating this blog for like ages!). Recently I've been trying to learn how to play the piano AND electric guitar (ik, you can give me your number after the show).

Do you plan your outfits? Yeah, way more than I think anyone who sees me thinks. Idk how many nights I've spent, planning out in my head the outfit for the next day. Even if you see me wearing sweatpants and an oversized t-shirt you better believe that t-shirt wasn't the first one I tried on. Even if I´m going to the fucking hospital I can´t wear socks that doesn't match with the rest of the outfit...

The meaning behind my username? Tbh, I just started thinking of random stuff, like "sayings" that doesn't sound too...cringe? Then the Patrick meme of him in a knitted sweater with the writing "Mom, can you pick me up? I´m scared" (or something like that) popped into my head. I rephrased it a little before checked if it was taken, and it wasn't.

Any addition? Vanilla Coke or/and Dr Pepper (apart from my huge cocaine addiction), like I´m obsessed. Ik it sounds sooo dramatic, but if I had a no limit access to either of those sodas I'd die of diabetes in a week. If you want to get in my pants, just buy me a can and I'll get on my knees and propose to you.

Turn ons? I could say something like "eyes" and "hands", but I'll say some features I don´t think are AS common, but I go craaazy for. One of them would be scars. I can't explain to you how fucking kneebendingly HOT I think scars are. Idc if it's from acne, self harm or an actual injury. It's. So. Fucking. Attractive! People who's self contious about their scars, hit me up!

Second thing I find really attractive is backs, idk why but I just find them so ecstatically pleasing especially filled with scratches of my nails.

Turn offs? People who's playing hard to get or think they're hot shit! I've spend too much of my teenage years chasing those type of assholes. And people who think people like that, wtf is wrong with you? I'd have a nerdy sweetheart everyday of the week! These fuckboy-type of behavior needs to be stopped, istg. If you like me, tell me that! (also, I need that clarification every now and then, otherwise I'll think you despise me...)

What skill would you most like to learn? To be able to comprehend any social situations without wanting to blow my brains out. I´m the worse when it comes to socializing, like overall. Doesn't matter if it's my relatives or complete strangers, I'll dig my nails so hard into palms inside my pockets. People who can start having a random discussion with someone on the streets, or blend in with their partner´s family first time they meet them PURLEY amaze me. I wanna be like them sooo bad.

Favorite ice cream flavor? I will say just plain vanilla, CAUSE if a brand is good the flavoring doesn't need to be so complicated (to slap). The brands who has these crazy flavor combinations are usually doing it to try and conceal their shitty ice cream *cough* Ben & Jerry *cough*. But if I wouldn't choose that I'd probably be something super childish, like "rainbow bubblegum cotton candy confetti".

Dogs or cats? I know the lesbian community will throw me out, but I 100% choose dogs. Idc what you say, cats are satans creation!

Favorite quote? "When you're having a bad day, don´t forget you're ugly too"

Favorite sport? I´m not really into sports. I was never an athletic kid. But whenever there´s pingpong on tv, I'm in a trance. Like I'll spend HOURS watching that shit without even knowing the rules.

[kpopper]

hi!!! mouse anon here

sorry it's been so long :3

how are you? I hope you've been doing good!

I've been pretty busy with work and I didn't have a lot of energy to watch the kdramas I had on my list but I've been reading a lot on my commutes lol im past my goal of 50 books for this year!

I did watch good detective season 2 which was honestly pretty good!! I didn't remember too much of the 1st season but they gave enough flashbacks that it seemed familiar idk if you watched it but every character except for the dad character was good. I kept getting reality checks of this is just the problems of the top 1% in society so I couldn't relate or care at times -_-

I had save me on my list for so long but I'm so hesitant to start cause I heard it's kind of a lot 😭 I just know the religious schtick of the cult would make me pissed like you said. I've been wanting some lighter shows lately but I'm not taking it off my list!

I still haven't gotten past the 1st ep of 2521 because of the finale!! how can I sit through a cute relationship only to get that ending 😭😭😭 you're so right, we're over relationships in kdramas! I need a good plot and found family and I'll be satisfied (extraordinary attorney woo had such a good couple even if we'll never know taeoh's backstory 😌)

omg I'm glad you liked the killer's shopping list! it's such a weird mix of genres but I think they handled it very well! (cafe minamdang is also on my list! ooh I'm glad it's similar!)

I've had to skip through many scenes of itaewon class :| the writing was just so weird but ahn bo hyun was done dirty by that show! that dye job/color was just so bad 😭

I'll start big mouth ASAP then! I kept seeing super cute gifsets but then people would comment and say the show's actually dark and emotional lol but I like a good mix of happy and sad (just not too sad)

I still haven't resumed dark too 😭 I haven't been productive at all 😭

my mom watched little woman I think and she liked it and I love the cast! it's also really short for a kdrama so it could be another short and good show!

from the new releases, I've heard cheer up was not what people were expecting and i saw mixed reviews so idk if I want it on my list. I do want to watch rookie cops and I heard glitch on netflix is very lesbian coded so it'll be up my alley! I'm also planning on starting law school soon even though it's been so long since you recommended it! I also heard somebody on netflix was good but I didn't hear as any people talking about it so I'm just basing that off of the 2 reviews I've seen lol

sorry I couldn't give you as any recs as I wanted to but I hope all the good recs find you anyway!!! <333

Mouse anon my beloved!!!! Didn’t think I’d hear from you again after changing the url on this blog actually, hi I hope you’ve been well!!!!

Honestly we’re IN SYNC cause I haven’t had the energy to watch a lot of things lately. And I think it started cause I, too, went on a reading binge since September / October of last year that completely shut off my brain for television. What types of books do you read? Is it the same investigation detective streak as your personal taste in tv? I’d love to talk about it

I haven’t watched good detective 2 yet for the reasons mentioned above…… I’ll def have to read about the plot of season 1 first because even with flashbacks I need to know I’m keeping up with the story as it is. It’s on my list for a unforeseeable future.

Yes save me is a lot honestly. I have an overbearing catholic mother so it was. A difficult series to swallow but for some reason I couldn’t stop watching it. It def awakes some raging feelings in you though, I believe even if you don’t have a strong feeling regarding Christianity in the first place like I do.

Bahahahaahahahha about2521 I FEEL YOU. But it’s also so incredibly in touch with the human experience of love and loss and life. It’s more brilliant because it’s over honestly, it sets the show apart from usual romantic dramas. But it’s still a heavy weight in the chest and something lodged on your throat so I get it if you can’t finish it

I never finished big mouth actually T-T I dropped it off by the few last episodes I believe…. It did got a bit dark by the end but the medical improbabilities of it kind of threw me off. It coincided with me dropping television altogether basically so there’s that

(Honestly it’s been so hard for me to enjoy a tv show lately. I kind of fell down the Thai tv rabbit hole and have occupied my mind with that. Some of their shows are really good. From kdrama I think the last one I truly enjoyed was weak hero class 1. The characters are layered in a way that they feel like book characters, it’s something I don’t usually feel when I’m watching television. It was honestly very very good. I’m trying to distract myself with reborn rich now. It’s better than most things in the sense that I can watch perhaps two entire episodes without exhausting the reels feed on my instagram)

Little woman was good!!! I kept up with it as it came out so I think that’s why I managed to get thru the entire thing. That and my love for Kim goeun. Wi hajoon was his usual extremely charming self also.

I didn’t know glitch was lesbian coded but I can assure you from the 2 and a half episodes I watched of somebody, that one Is heavily lesbian. I’ve also started a few episodes of awaken (Netflix) and it sounds like the type of show you’d like. Not even midway thru tho so I can’t promise it’s gonna be good to the end.

I hope you had a good end of the year and that your job treats you kindly. I also hope that you see this <3 and that maybe I can hear from you again <3

[gimmethatagustd]

hii, i’ve seen the fic asks thingy and so here i am. decided to go for 3 qs to not accidentally write an essay lol

1. atm it’s christmas warfare, i read it recently when i was in need of a sweet story and christmassy exes to lovers REALLY hit the spot. i feel like that kind of dynamic can be difficult to write bc of all the background/context that needs to be there for the story to feel real, but i think you nailed it!! really enjoyed it:)) oh also yoongi made me laugh out loudddd

5. ohts. it’s been on my list for a while but i haven’t had the chance to read it yet (bc life) and i keep seeing ppl going mad over it sooooo 👀👀 needless to say i am really looking forward to that one

8. i really like how you write dialogues! they feel natural and imo that’s super important for how the story flows and how easy it’s to read, so it stood out to me in your fics:)

omg hello! first can i say i love the photo you used of tae and hobi on your blog. the bucket hats 😂

ngl i was SO nervous about christmas warfare! it wasn't my usual ~vibe~ and therefore i thought i might totally fuck it up lol but i'm glad it could give you some comfort 💜 writing the scene where yoongi is driving mc home after the party was probs my fave thing to write lol

and OHTS !!!!!!!!!! oh my god. "going mad" is the nice way to put it lmfaooo that series has a cult following and tbh it had originally was only supposed to be a small drabble. it kinda got away from me, but i think in a good way? idk. very different than the stuff i write now, but i do enjoy it and i have 2 drabbles to add to the series soon~ i hope you like it! if you're up for it, lmk what you think about it! i'm always curious about people who are new to ohts lol

thank you so much for your kind words 🥺 sorry i think maybe i wrote an essay jsdhkfjs

share some thots with me maybe?

[any-apples]

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i’m A or apples, she/her/they/them, biracial white presenting (indian/a lot of german/various european countries), i’m either a first or second generation immigrant from india i think (dad is from there, i was born there, my mom is american), not straight (bi + acespec), I speak limited hindi and can read/write some latin.

a whole bunch of other things about me under the cut ⬇️

i’m in high school!

born and raised a flyers fan, somehow turned into an avs bruins and canucks fan. time zones are a bitch so i mostly watch flyers and bruins and the other two when the games aren’t at unreasonable times!

also getting into pwhl hockey but i didn’t watch the whole first season so i haven’t picked a team to support. fingers crossed for expansion closer to where i live but right now nyc would be my local team!

I also enjoy phillies baseball but i don't know any baseball names if they aren't on the phillies, and i don't follow the whole league. (i picked it up because i missed hockey and wanted a sport).

I climb regularly with a team and i love watching bouldering (+ sometimes lead) events. i’ve been watching the olympics when i get a chance (time zones) i haven’t been watching the world cups this year live but i watch them when i can. climbing is my favorite sport (second favorite to watch, only behind hockey).

During the regular season this is like 80% a flyers/hockey blog and 20% other things (climbing, phillies, i might get into the eagles if my cousin convinces me idk, i also enjoy musicals, archery (not to watch, i just like to shoot sometimes), and planes so other stuff like that shows up sometimes)

Tags I use frequently:

#apples reports for when i occasionally repost/post about news i’ve seen somewhere (usually when i haven’t seen it on tumblr yet)

#apples not hockeying for when i occasionally post about or reblog something not hockey related, since this is a (largely) hockey (+ other sports but during the hockey season it’s pretty much just hockey) blog and anyone who sees my stuff regularly is here for hockey!

#apples yaps for when it’s a long post with my thoughts, or just a long text post in general, or sometimes things are just me yapping.

#hockey sillies for hockey jokes, things i find funny, and things relating to hockey not posted in a serious light that are meant to be taken as a joke

#baseball sillies for that but baseball ^

#apples climbs for when i’m posting about climbing world cups/ the olympics OR if im for some reason posting about my own climbing/team/practices

#really cool things this ones only for reblogs really but it’s for when i find something i think is super sick! and i wanna categorize it and be able to find it later as something that is super sick!

#sam appreciation hours! for when i’m posting about sam ersson (yes, he gets his own tag).

#apples watches baseball for baseball posts etc

i tag the team city and and the team name always, and sometimes just the team name as well. i’m not super consistent but 😬 i guess. players i always tag first and last name. if there are alternate spellings of a name/someone goes by two names, i usually tag both (etc matvey vs matvei michkov or cam + cameron york). i don’t always tag reblogs, but i do for the most part if it seems relevant.

for anything relating to carter hart (although this is largely irrelevant after he was not qualified, it is on my blog from awhile ago), it is tagged #tw sa and/or #tw sexual assault

nhl teams tier list:

goes left to right as favorite to least favorite. subject to change at my discretion. (boston might drop after all those trades but i'll have to see how they play first). OILERS WILL DROP AS SOON AS I GET THE CHANCE TO CHANGE IT.

fuck the blackhawks and their stupid logo and organization (except bedsy).

i’m a sam ersson apologist and a huge frostbee enjoyer. i love most flyers players (name one and chances are i love them) but there are exceptions sometimes.

[lets-talk-spirituality]

Hey , Happy to hear you are happy and content with your life that is a blessing.

I want to ask your opinion about something. what could be a spiritual reason for a block in a person's life? l don't know if you have experienced this or seen it.

for example a person always has trouble finding good jobs, or even a relationship. I know about personal accountability but sometimes no matter how hard you try for better it doesn't happen. it feels like you are always stuck. if you have seen it, you know what I mean.

Thank you so much for saying that. I honestly feel so mind blown sometimes, and it’s taken me so long to get here.

I mean yeah I’ve experienced it. I haven’t found my happily ever after with love yet. In my experience, the block was that my energy wasn’t in the vibration to support new things. I remember sitting in my office at my last job, listening to Phil Good while I prepared annual reports to mail out to different community members, and him saying if you’re miserable at your job, it’s not the job you need to change but yourself. You are still a vibrational match to that job so until you can change your vibration you cannot attract what you want.

I’ve said this a lot on the blog but it really is energy first, external second. And idk how to explain it beyond how I am but at some point it will click with what that means for you. I say that because like I’ve read spiritual stuff for a long time and while I knew it mentally it didn’t click spiritually.

The block is your own energy. You have to shift your energy. What do you think a good job will provide you with? Money? Feeling successful? How can you live in the feeling now? That’s the secret to clearing blocks. You want romantic love, fall in love with yourself and your life, fall in love with your mission and purpose. Live in love. When people yearn externally it means they feel a lack internally and addressing that lack is how you clear the block.

You are blocking your own abundance and what the universe wants for you because you haven’t generated the feelings you seek from within. You still think something externally will give you that. Thats not to say you don’t need anything externally, it’s a balance but everything starts within and balloons out. You have to heal whatever inside you feels like it’s lacking.

I hope this makes sense and helps! Feel free to reach back out for clarity if you need it.

[euphoricfilter]

I would never have guessed that you consider Smut as one of your weaker points, bc for me it was really good while I was reading it, means that once you are more confident about it, Babe you'll kill it.

YES blowjobs are better when you are reading them than seeing them, but for me it applies to majority of things in sex lol. The pegging HAHA sorry it's something I have seen its usual on pet play.

But after reading that I'm excited to see you experiment with those new themes you talk about. The request sounds interesting Lmao, take your time tho, wouldn't want you to stress because of it. Gonna be stalking your page until then.

Also the title is perfect haha <3

i’m gonna cry, thank you 😭

writing in itself is still relatively new for me so there are definitely areas i can improve on. i ‘started’ this blog at the end of january this year (i’d had it for a while i just never uploaded) with DTIK and i literally uploaded the first chapter like a week after i wrote it and that’s where it all started and my experience is like the last 10 months. i had written in the past when i was like 13-14 but it will never see the light of day, it was very much the unrealistic, mafia bangtan but i was convinced to write an empowered woman that didn’t need men, which they don’t, but my writing was so crusty i can’t read it now without giggling. i have 60 something drafts of wattpad 😭 of crusty old fics.

i think the first time i wrote smut was 4 months ago? maybe? it could be 5, i know i was still in china at the time because i remember i’d said i wanted to add smut to the last chapter of TBAH but then i was like yeah idk how to write this in part 9 and then an anon was like “i think it’s time they fucked” and i was like yeah you’re probably right. and i remember sitting there thinking what the hell am i supposed to say, this is kinda awkward and i was stupid and thought an ot7 fic would be a good place to start. writing smut for 8 people is so freaking hard so i had to split it up into subunits 😭 and then i started writing “smut” in DTIK but they haven’t actually had sex yet so it doesn’t really count and then helping hands came along + rope bunny and that basically all my experience so i’m happy i seem to be good at it 😭

my skin crawls when a bj post comes up on my twitter, i scroll past them so quick THE NOISE I ACTUALLY HATE IT 😭 it’s so much better when you read it 😭 i’ve read some out-there smut, and i think ‘wait that’s kinda hot’ and then i think logically in real life what that would be like and i want to cry because it would be foul

don’t be sorry about the pegging 😋, it’s actually not something i’ve thought about putting in a fic before but also it reminds me of that rumor that prince william is into pegging so i can’t take it seriously

IM SO CLOSE TO FINEIHINF THE REQUEST. i’ve edited to main part, and it’s like 50/50 it’ll come out tonight if i could just hurry up and write the sexy lil smut scene but also i have ptsd from wattpad smut so i always try to make sure it’s nothing like that and there’s a decent amount of detail to fuel the reader’s imagination 😋

i always think about, what if someone stalks my page because recently i went through a few of my old posts and it’s kinda crusty ngl, the other day someone liked a post i made months and months and months ago that literally only had the tag of the au so only people that followed me at the time could see it and i was like oh someone liked that but they would have had to have scrolled so far down, i don’t post a shit ton on here but they would have been so deep into my page i wanted to cry because i can’t remember half the stuff i post and there’s definitely some dark stuff crawling in the depths of this blog but that au was cute so i’m glad they liked it 😭

while we’re on the topic of my writing weaknesses, titles. i’m so shit at naming my fics it’s awful 😭 i changed “open” like 3 times before it became that name because i cant name my fics for shit it’s so bad 😭