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now that ur no longer working on a fic. u should read the poppy war
do u have an epub
#ask#I’ll try…#I haven’t read anything in so long#me trying to juggle gaming again and trying to listen to music again and keep up w fave artists again and watching shows again and#rewatching shows again#the world is my oyster but also randomly at certain points in the day I feel empty
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Another Otsutsuki?!
we’re messing up the timeline for this one. (I lost this crack idea but then it came back… the abyss stare back and I jumped in.)
anyways, now some kids meeting the new kid
Panel 1: There’s something wrong here.
Comic 1: Attention.
they’re both in the same boat
Comic 2: Day Off (with confusion.)
he just a little insecure,, (kakashi still told him to get it together)
back to the future now
Comic 3: What. (huh?)
Panel 2: very tiny.
#naruto#naruto fanart#kakashi hatake#obito uchiha#rin nohara#toneri otsutsuki#fanart#art#my art#sketch#drawing#digital art#creating silly posts pumps my brain#kid obito had immediately had distrust of the new kid#and couldn’t even explain why so he stood there glaring#obito looks at kakashi 20 years later after Toneri admits defeat with “I TOLD you he’s was weird“#kakashi after getting back to earth promptly puts obito in jail#ALSO when I saw Toneri for the first time his design is so neat!#I haven’t watched the movie so I read the description of the guy to have an idea of him#what I got is that Toneri is unhinged too ANYWAYS moving on#Toneri ends up noticing Kakashi white chakra and follows him with curiosity#Kakashi’s ends up choosing not to be jerk lets him stick around as long as he isn’t in the way#toneri takes a bit of insult because even if he’s missing eyes he’s definitely not weak#so showing some skills without destroying his disguise he ends up impressing kakashi#while kakashi talks with him and offering advice and asking him if he wants yo try anything else#he doesn’t know but Toneri immediately in his mind claims kakashi has his#this post could’ve absolutely gone from silly to psychological horror#like real quick haha#imagine the joke was just kakashi going through more issues 😭 the punchline is that there isn’t one
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okay I’ve seen a lot of posts about sterling just being crowley and. guys. the implications just hear me out 😭😭😭
bending lore slightly here BUT let’s say crowley’s body was once inhabited by a human and crowley is possessing the body (maybe he kills the initial inhabitant bc he doesn’t care)
but he still has the guy’s memories. he doesn’t bother keeping up appearances with his ‘ex wife’ because he is too busy building up his hell empire. BUT for some reason he can’t quite identify, he still feels something towards his ‘daughter’. he lets the divorce happen and doesn’t feel the need (or desire) to fight for custody, but he can never quite forget her, to cast her out of his mind for good
some hijinks ensue with the leverage team. it’s mostly because even a grind culture demon wants some off time every once in a while, and for him the insurance investigator stuff is more of a hobby. interacting with the leverage crew is very low stakes for him, and honestly, quite amusing. they aren’t on his level power-wise, but that ford character gives him the mental exercise he hasn’t experienced in, well, he can’t even remember
he can feel their frustration and anger when they learn he has become employed by interpol and feeds off it. it’s great, and relaxing in a way he is never able to achieve while conducting hell-related business
one year he gets wind that olivia is in a really bad situation associated with his ‘ex wife’s’ new husband. he’s selling vital hardware to terrorists, and while that might actually be the kind of chaos he would normally support or be entertained by as the king of hell, something feels wrong about letting olivia stay anywhere near that man
he calls upon the body’s adversaries. he wouldn’t admit it, even under duress, BUT he feels slightly fond of them. nate for the three dimensional chess they play, sophie for her ability to charm and disguise, parker for her chaos and slightly unsettling nature (it’s the autism swag and being bad with human interaction but he doesn’t know that lol), hardison for his unapologetic intelligence and eliot for his hardened violent past and take-no-shit persona (he’s fun to tease)
they perform exactly as he expected, right into his carefully crafted plan. and then olivia is under his care and things get more complicated. he keeps her FAR, FAR away from anything related to the supernatural (heh). no one can find out about her, ESPECIALLY not those imbecile hunter brothers (if for nothing else than the embarrassment in revealing he has a weak spot)
not sure how to work it into this post but I also want to add that somewhere along the way he develops feelings for nate and sophie. the frame up job is near and dear to my heart and you can’t convince me that isn’t fighting as flirting behavior. his interpol persona is more of a side hustle so to speak, but he finds it fun (relaxing, even) to fill that role. there aren’t any obligations of other demons, bothersome hunters, or anything like that. nate and sophie are low stakes, except, they aren’t, really. they make him feel things he can’t ever really remember feeling. his heart beats fast when sophie sat in his lap and cradled his face, his hands sweat when nate gives him that certain smug look. he’s exasperated by the way they can run circles around him like no one else has ever before. they annoy him and get under his skin in a way no one else can and it’s infuriating. but also not, at the same time. maybe he likes it
and then the long goodbye job happens
hear me out and suspend your belief here for a second, because I can’t remember if crowley supernaturally knows when ppl die/are dead or not.
so nate is in interpol custody and the interviewer is obviously out of her depth. (most people are, when it comes to nathan ford.) he walks in and pours the man a drink, but he’s fuming. somewhere along the way he came to care about the team. hell and suffering is literally in his (official) job description, but he can admit (only to himself) that he admires what they do. it’s not for him, not anything close to where his passions and interests lie, but he respects their drive and purpose. he is also aware enough to acknowledge that they are a family, a group of misfits that never belonged quite anywhere except to each other.
and nate fucking blew it up, ruined it, because his vice is being so obsessed with the end game that he is apparently willing to let his team, his family, the people that anchor him to reality, die because the ends supposedly justify the means.
not this time. not to sterling crowley
he is enraged. he can admit within the confines of his mind that he cares for nate, for sophie, even for the other three (though nate and sophie have somehow made it a hierarchy where they are more important to him. which he will dissect later in private. maybe.)
nate let them die, he let sophie die, and for what? the black book? hell below, crowley would have made things easier somehow, if he knew that this was where nate’s sights had lied. he would have prevented this somehow. he wants to have prevented this. he doesn’t want any of them dead and is too afraid to check and verify because that would make it real. the idea of sophie (or any of them) somehow making it to hell instead of heaven would probably break something in him he might not be able to reapir fully.
he yells at nate- he’s angry. hellfire burning in his heart because everything is ruined. the deaths aside (however hard it is to set them aside in his mind), nate will not recover from this, not ever. this will be the start of the end, he is sure. a miserable, guilt-ridden existence where he drinks himself to death and nothing will save him. it plays out in crowley’s mind in a thousand different ways that are beyond painful to conceptualize, even in theory.
the story starts to unravel and there is a game afoot. a solemn, miserable, infuriating game because the con is still in session because parker is alive and in the building- which sets another fire alight in his chest. ‘parker even know you got hardison killed?’ he rages for her grief when she finds out. he knows it will double when she finds out eliot has perished, too, because he isn’t fucking blind.
but nate is a brilliant man, lest he forget too quickly. they are all alive, and somehow still the entire crew slips through his fingers. he’s not even angry (he never would have been- he doesn’t actually try too hard to catch them. it’s about the game, not the consequences). he lets them keep the black book because he’s fucking exhausted and honestly, they more than earned it.
‘now we’re even. tell sophie to drive carefully’. they will never be even, not really. crowley would never admit or agree that being human is the superior state of being, but that have made him feel human in a way he doesn’t actually mind. they keep him on his toes and match him in a way unique to them, they remind him that there are other things than the realm of hell. not necessarily bigger than hell, but maybe just as important in a different sense.
watching the van drive away, something inside him settles. when he walked into the interrogation room that day he thought this was the beginning of the end. it’s not the end at all, not an end to anything. it’s a continuation of their story. maybe, he thinks, a beginning to a new era in it
#before anyone says anything YES I KNOW HOW SPN LORE WORKS I WATCHED IT FOR MANY YEARS#I am just making this silly post for my own (and possibly your) amusement#I’m not digging too heavily into spn plot because I haven’t watched in forever and don’t trust my memory to make accurate commentary lol#also I know it’s probably layed but lied looked better somehow don’t worry about it#sorry this is so long I wasn’t sure where to break it to a read more bc all of it was too important to me 😭💀#tell me in the comments if you’d prefer a read more and where you think it should go#I haven’t been into spn for years HOW DOES THIS AU HAVE SUCH A CHOKEHOLD OVER ME#eliot spencer#parker#alec hardison#leverage ot3#parker x hardison x eliot#(background)#nate ford#sophie devereaux#jim sterling#nate x sophie#nate x sophie x sterling#crossovers#leverage x spn#leverage x supernatural#supernatural#crowley spn#crowley supernatural#crowley#leverage#mine#not even queueing this I need it posted immediately. instant gratification#pls like rb comment etc I need the validation#I ended up putting a read more for the long goodbye job
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i think i’m entering a new hyperfixation and oh man it’s fucking bridgerton
#i wasn’t immune to polin#no i wasn’t!!!!!!! oh god but this is such a weird feeling#i guess that ever since i watched 911 and buddie happened for me there hasn’t been anything new#thats too long… but now i feel so weird idk why lajdjdjf it’s like wow. wow i want this to consume me in such a way….#i’m rewatching part 1 .. i read the book this weekend… and I’ve tried finding fic but haven’t had any luck as of yet#earlier I thought that maybe i still need to understand their dynamics better so i can understand what i feel like reading#like. i need to realise what it is about them that makes me ‼️‼️#i believe it’s the colin of it all . he’s just so …… anyway yeah#just wanted to share. it’s a weird feeling but also. exciting!!#bridgerton#polin
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whew i just finished rereading my ulu reading thread so you know what that means….last time ever doing this for the like us series (🥳)……nobody like us reading thread starts now!!!
#i’m sacred#reading the thread actually wasn’t even helpful i forget Everything so wish me luck#i did really good with avoiding spoilers. i haven’t seen ANYTHING#and since this is my last time with a like us book and probably my last hale content for a long while 💔💔💔 i will not be searching anyone’s#names. and i mean it this time!!!!#mine#juli reads nlu#like us series#bad time to start this because of the grammys tonight but i have nothing to do in the meantime#reading threads
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Hi 👋🏽 I’ll be going on an indefinite break that may (or may not) be for good.
Writing fanfiction was an escape for me these past 2 years. It was a way to express my love for the tannies in how I wrote them as comfort characters, and it was a way for me to make sense of my own experiences and emotions. These fics have always been very personal, with a bit of me in every OC, my pains reflected in their stories, and words I wish someone told me growing up expressed in the dialogues. And I’ll always be so thankful that many of you related with them, found meaning in them, and found comfort in them. That will always be my favorite part 💜💜 stories are so powerful! They’ve allowed me to connect with so many people and make memories in this (mostly) lovely part of the site.
But the process of writing has also been draining, not as cathartic as it used to be, and not as fulfilling. So much as I find myself going back and forth with the numerous stories in my drafts, I can’t bring myself to continue with them. Not anytime soon, at least. Maybe one day the itch to write will be so intense, or JJK1/KTH1 drops and I’ll lose my shit (Untitled and Belong were born out of Indigo and D-day after all), or after rereading my stories, I’ll miss writing so much. The thing is, I’ve never loved BTS as much as I do right now; perhaps I’m content with screaming about that love to myself in the meantime.
I’ll be lurking around here, maybe pop in every once in a while (so plagiarists, keep off my work, pls). My stories will remain here as your comfort 😌 and I’ll do my best to put out the PLM drabbles I promised! Other than that, all the stories are complete for you to enjoy (sorry to those waiting on TLA 😔 I hate that I’m unable to continue). I also have Twitter (jmimi_mi). I’m also just a lurker but say hi if you want! 😊 we can talk bts and fics and whatnot over there (I’ll try, I promise).
Please give love to the authors who are still lovingly putting out work for the community! 🥰
#tl;dr I’ll be on an indefinite break bc the writing just isn’t working for now!#and I love BTS#and thank you so much for appreciating the stories!#PLM drabble will still come some day!#++ I know I’ve had multiple breaks but srsly now my brain is too fried to write like#I have so many ideas that stay in my head and it’s so frustrating that I feel like unless I say I’m taking a break from writing#for a longer period this time then I’ll just keep pressuring myself to write something and it’s winter break and I don’t want pressure#especislly if it’s coming from me! lol also all the stories in my drafts are meant to be LONG and I might not have the energy to finish it#and you guys know I don’t put out anything unfinished so yeah 😔#it also sucks that I haven’t read in SO LONG so yes tumblr u are losing me I’m sry 😢#i also just wanted to say all this if this is for good so yes THANK U and UR ALL WONDERFUL#mimi things#mimi rambles
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I taped a sword to my hand when I was younger. This is an argument about goals.
Logic Richard Siken
India, 2013/ Malaysia, 2013/ India, 2013/ Abu Dhabi, 2010/ Abu Dhabi, 2010/ Germany, 1995/ Maranello, 2014/ Germany, 2018/ Maranello, 2014/ Maranello, 1997
#sometimes you read the line there is rarely any joy in a frictionless place and start screaming in agony#richard siken x f1 beloved#sebastian vettel#ferrari seb#i put this together v quickly. it isn’t gorge but i haven’t /made/ anything in so long#long post#kinda
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autistic character who blow things up yall.
#wylan van eck#hazel callahan#leo valdez#my beloved !!!#idk if leo actually blows things up bc i haven’t read anything canon in so long but…
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I had to draw Hello some time and I chose now to be that time so here’s doodle of him! @strawbubbysugar
I also haven’t drawn anything in a while so I hope he looks somewhat decent to the eyes of others
#doodle#astra art#so(u)l fanart#I haven’t read anything in a long time so forgive me#hello#hello so(u)l
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I might actually open my inbox for the first time in [undetermined specific amount of months] there’s over 500 unread asks in there ;-; I’m rly touched so many people have been reaching out to me even when I haven’t been here
#I was thinking today how it always used to help me when I’d ask for F/O reassurance and I’d get a flood of nice asks#an anon told me Luke would carry his butterfly knife on him to make me feel safe. and I never forgot that#that sticks with me dude I think about that EVERY TIME I see Luke#it makes me feel so safe with him in a way that I felt incapable of feeling safe with him before#another anon said Colt’s lovestruck expression towards Jody is how he’d look at me. and it helps me feel better 🥺😭#and I think about my signature anons and all of my friends and just generally really nice bloggers who follow and send support#and I miss that. receiving nice asks genuinely always helped me feel so much calmer during the storm#or turtle anon and clover anon going into depth about how Ken is built for love and not violence. and all the stuff they said based on that#it helps! everything people say to me helps me feel so much better with my F/Os#fic anon my beloved guardian angel in my inbox literally writing whole entire stories for me#<- btw fic anon if you’re reading this. I didn’t forget about my promise! I’m gonna doodle you something special#idk if you’ve sent anything recently I haven’t opened my inbox in a few months#but yeah anyone out there who’s ever sent me a nice ask. thank you so much#it helps me hold on a little longer if I think about all the nice things ppl say to me#orange heart anon and maple leaf anon my beloveds#sunflower anon the literal ray of sunshine that you are#anyone who’s ever left me nice messages I always remember and look back on them#esp because I spent SO LONG trapped with someone who would tell me how my F/Os would find enjoyment in hurting me solely bc they love me#and I learned that I’m only loved thru violence. and it’s so. hard. to try to unlearn that#but reading people telling me otherwise helps me a lot. and I need to get back into that#woof
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I have 357 pages left of this BOOK
#i haven’t finished anything in so long I wanna finish THIS#either will read sweetpea or no longer human (or both)#r reads
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it’s kind of wild that you don’t realize how depressed you were until you start feeling better
#does this make sense to anyone else#i’m like currently coming out of a funk#even my therapist told me the past 6 months is the most depressed she’s ever seen me (i’ve been seeing her weekly for 3+ years)#and literally these past like 2-3 weeks since i put my resignation in at my old job#i have had so much energy and motivation#today i walked both dogs and went on a walk with baby girl after daycare#i went to the local nursery and bought mums & pumpkins#i brought out the interior fall decor from storage and put it around the house#like obv i have extra time bc i have some time off before i start my new job#but like!!!! i haven’t *wanted* to do anything for so long#like i was just completely apathetic#i’m gonna cry thinking about it#but it feels so good to feel like i’m turning a corner#hi if you read this far ilysm i am kissing you on the mouth
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I started reading my hero academia after literal years of thinking “I should read/watch that,” and now I’m collecting out-of-context panels on my phone like little tchotchkes I would put on my desk.
footnotes:
- Aizawa’s 1st appearance made me laugh bc I too am a tired 30-something that struggles to take care of myself. and the thing in his hand looks like the children’s squeezy applesauce that I eat all the time in an attempt to get more fruit/veg, so I’m choosing to believe he does the same.
- I don’t wanna commit to faves bc I like a lot of the characters but I think Jiro might be my fave of the girls? she’s just very dry and snarky lol I like her.
#i haven’t actually read/watched much of anything in so long!!#and bc it’s complete I might actually be able to finish it lol#with manga I kinda have to inhale everything in one go or else I just. won’t go back to it later.#bnha#I should probably just make a reading tag bc I already have…many more of these#erin reads bnha
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I STILL think about Paper Girls honestly. That series rocked. Believable teenage girls who were also INCREDIBLY fucked up and time shenanigans. It’s been too long since I read it for me to really analyze it but I SHOULD reread it.
#The indie comics scene used to be INSANE and also VERY GOOD and I haven’t kept up with anything since covid#God. Paper girls occupied my mind in a similar way to the locked tomb for so long.#I should get back into indie comics. The last time I tried I discovered the reason I couldn’t find info on the series was a huge lawsuit#Like do you enjoy Fucked Up teenagers? Do you enjoy Time Shenanigans? Do you enjoy Strange Esoteric Wars? Do you enjoy lesbians?#I don’t think I actually ever read anything else that was from image. Paper girls was just that good#Paper girls#Wait actually. maybe. I think Isola was image but id have to have a volume on hand to check#this is kind of funny because they share an author and Saga was Hot Shit (hotter shit than paper girls) but I never actually liked Saga!#It was based on a interspecies het romance that I found deeply boring. It sucked in that standard way that het romance tends to#I hope they haven’t had the publishers bought out that would suck so much
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my writer’s block is so bad atm if you guys are wondering where i am the answer is that i am trying to read actual books and whatnot in the hopes that it helps reset my brain
#i haven’t read anything in so long because i always feel like i should be using my free time to either work or write#but i’m hoping a book or two will help me refresh and get back into the groove#m’s thoughts
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Oh the Makima/quanxi one shots are HITTING tonight
#I haven’t read ANYTHING even fic in forever#so I’m taking this and running with it#hopefully this is the end of my reading slump#I’m easing myself into it#maybe I will tackle some long fic after this#and then… AND THEN#I will read an actual BOOK#crazy I know#kaz rambles
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