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mycptsdstory · 3 months ago

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The mistakes that I made makes me want to commit suicide.

The people I hurt in the past, I wronged them and I bet you, they want me dead. Rightly so.

I should be perfect.

I should be kind at all times. I shouldn't be rude. I shouldn't be condescending. I shouldn't put others down.

I have to be perfect.

I don't feel like I will never good enough.

I should be a good friend all the time. I should be understanding at all times. I shouldn't be rude.

I have to be perfect.

Mistakes is a bad thing and I'm not worthy when I make them.

I have to be perfect.

#cptsd #c ptsd #cptsdhealing #living with cptsd #cptsd vent #cptsd problems #cptsd thoughts #actually cptsd #just cptsd things #tw cptsd #actually ptsd #cptsd tag #i have to be perfect

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shrubsparrow · 8 months ago

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It's in the eye of the beholder

#comic #birds #my art #I've had this idea for a while #after a lecture that talked about how traits we consider cute are traits found in babies #I feel like birds would have a very different definition of cute from us #anyway after making the bird tutorial I feel the pressure to draw perfect bird anatomy #but tbh I still just wing it a lot of the time!!#hehe “wing it”

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mod2amaryllis · 3 months ago

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i love being married to a straight guy. this morning we were parallel chilling and i glance at his computer and he's watching a drill fight tournament. as in, guys attaching drills to the same rod and turning them on until one breaks. to find the strongest drill. jose noticed me staring and rolled out of the way so i could see the screen. he knew every drill brand and told me their quality and price. i watched the whole thing without comment. the violence was enchanting. i never would have found this. he's a vector to an entirely alien, often beautiful, world.

#m2a #i reek of bisexuality so hard that multiple people have said we have bi couple energy #and I'm always like you don't understand. i have never met a more heterosexual human than my husband.#he's perfect.

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bakerstreet-and-beyond · 11 days ago

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There seems to be a general malaise on most of Tumblr about TikTok getting banned in the United States.

I understand the problems, "brain rot", whatever but- A government banning a social media app that opened the world for many people is legitimately scary and upsetting. Say what you want but, there are MANY global and local issues that would not have gotten the same traction, recognition, and outreach without TikTok.

And then add to this that Meta/Facebook was one the largest lobbyists working to get TikTok banned... Like- I think folks should be more concerned about the implications of what this means, especially since the ban goes into effect the day before inauguration.

#Its more than “a silly dance app”#Gave Americans and others a first hand look into international issues such as Palestine and Ukraine #TikTok was a HUGE part of the BLM movement in 2020 #luigi mangione #We saw things happen in real time we wouldn't have known as much about without everyday TikTok users posting and reporting on things #Further censorship like this is REALLY scary #If they can get rid of TikTok for the reasons theyre trying what happens next #tiktok #tiktok ban #2025 #I know what I'm saying isn't perfect but just I'm worried and upset

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 9 months ago

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Expertise can't help you here.

#dungeon meshi #kabru #laios touden #falin touden #Happy Thistle Thursday once again. Have I been holding on to this comic for several weeks? Sure have!#I forgot how long it takes for Chimera Falin to come into play.#I still really love my 'better drawn' art of her - unfortunately it was several weeks too early for the anime only folks.#Slowly getting the hang of drawing Laios. I don't know why I struggle so much but I am getting...somewhere.#Meta time: God damn I love how the chimera shows off the expertise and gap between Kabru and Laios.#The truth is: they are both *right* and they are both *wrong*.#This creature is a combination of monster and human and they only have the skillset to deal with one of those.#Kabru goes for all the human vitals - but she isn't human.#Laios tries to approach her as a monster and is struck down by the humanity he sees in her.#She is something new that defies what they *both* understand about the world. And that makes her such a perfect antagonist.#The damsel was the dragon all along!#...She is really so cute though. Terrifying! But adorable. I am so excited to see the boom of fanart for her.

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humming-fly · 2 months ago

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I love how Gerald was trying to keep Shadow from spoiling anything about the future meanwhile literally everything Shadow says and does around Maria is the biggest death flag ever

#in fairness i’m sure both past robotniks just assumed her illness would be what killed her h a #sxsg #sxsg spoilers #sonic x shadow generations #shadow the hedgehog #maria robotnik #ark siblings #sonic #comic #my art #doodles #so this was pretty much entirely done 24 hours ago #but ironically was distracted from posting earlier by playing sxsg #and then watching snapcube play it cause her delight is addicting #i’m missing 2 chests and 2 bolts and I wanna see if I can pull it off without a guide haha #anyways now I’m thinking about the fact that maria and gerald probably went back to their time assuming maria would die of her sickness #and how that would change their respective behaviors #i bet gerald would be holding out that maria would still live a bit longer #just cause shadow inadvertently revealed he’s from at least 50 years in the future due to having met black doom before #(which rewatching cutscenes to remember this quote he Did try to play off a little bit with some sort of #‘oh what do you think the alien squid meant by ’this time i’ll beat you’ that’s so crazy’ comment)#so hey maybe it wasn’t a perfect cure but she managed to live another 10-20 years at least?#all the more reason to press harder surely!#meanwhile maria is coming to terms with her mortality at age 14 or whatever she is #frankly I bet she came to terms with it long ago the way she seems to be written #okay back to snapcube

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romanceyourdemons · 5 months ago

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local asian market reorganized its shelves. consequently when i went looking for my ve wong vegetarian flavor instant noodles i unexpectedly found myself in the Good Quality Cookware And Beautiful Dishes aisle, aka the aisle of temptation, face to face with a mug (my favorite dish) with a lid (my favorite thing for a mug to have) and a heron pattern (my second-favorite bird) at a very reasonable price (i’m on a budget and i literally do not have room for another mug on my mug shelf). it was like one of those fucked up tests they give monks in shaolin movies to see if they’ve really given up earthly desires. that mug is going to haunt the broken man that i am for a long time

#i have frozen things i need to get home but i’m genuinely considering going back there for the mug #god i want it so bad #it was the perfect mug shape too #taller and skinnier than most of my mugs. just the right sized handle. god #ryddles

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creekfiend · 5 months ago

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what's my biggest pet peeve well it's when someone makes a text post on tumblr dot com in which they are trying to romanticize the notion of the livestock guardian dog but they don't know the distinction between a livestock guardian dog and a herding dog and also they've never met a livestock guardian dog and do not realize what their attitudes towards the sheep that they protect actually are

#a livestock guardian dog does not desire to possess the sheep that it protects I promise that's not the vibe #a livestock guardian dog is biologically conditioned to guard thing. I have heard multiple stories of livestock guardian dogs who #somehow get lost and just decide to start guarding a random deer and her fawn #like hedging my bets found an ungulate. just going to guard it now #I LOVE LGDS THEYRE THE PERFECT ANIMAL.#gourd dog

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stemmmm · 2 months ago

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more people gotta try this shit where bill has not improved and will not change but he's just chilling so its fine probably. its great

#gravity falls #billford #bill cipher #stanford pines #gf nevermind all that #is this really for that? no but if its post canon bill on earth then it may as well be. makes it nice and easy to find later too #reread tbob because we just got our own (nicely water damaged) copy and i was like. i dont draw him cute enough #i will continue trying to do better #anyways stanley you are a butch woman. stanley transition now you dont even have to do anything youre already perfect #its just about the intent #every time i drew him for the last one all i could think was oohhhhhh my god you are a dyke. to me. please #in other news are there any burned out pushing-30s out there who havent drawn in years? i gotta say. i really gotta say.#get mentally ill about something its great. preferably alongside a few other people that you can use to create a perpetual cycle of insanit #gets you drawing again in no time and it feels great

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itsscaredycat · 5 months ago

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the truth is stranger than my own worst dreams

oh the darkness got a hold on me

#meet me in the woods is PEAK gravity falls vibes #and kinda perfect for billford #i have an entire billford playlist but that’s neither here nor there #gravity falls #billford #stanford pines #bill cipher #my art #if i put even one person onto this album from lord huron i’ll be so happy #seriously go listen to strange trails

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gayrudeboys · 1 year ago

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yesterday i was ringing up an old man at work and he asked if i wanted to see his pride and joy, pulled out his wallet, and in the place where you’d keep a picture of like your family he had this

#the conversation two minutes prior to this:#‘is that the senior citizen price?’#‘we don’t have a senior citizen discount’#‘just say it is’#‘that is the senior citizen price’#‘oh! perfect!’#i would drop dead to give this guy five more years

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youstolemyhead · 6 months ago

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In Deadpool & Wolverine, one of the Deadpool Corps members is dressed up as Hugh Jackman’s character from The Greatest Showman. This implies that there is an alternate universe where Wade has to sing The Other Side with Logan, to convince him to join the X-Men. In this essay I will-

#deadpool and wolverine #Deadpool and Wolverine spoilers #the greatest showman #Deadpool #wolverine #rewatching the movie and I can’t believe I missed this one #we got 2 greatest showman bits 10/10 perfect movie #now that we have Hugh Jackman back (until he’s 90) they *have* to make a musical #500 #1k #5k #10k #15k

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lavendervirgos · 9 months ago

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Wanna spend the day together? In bed, naked, watching movies, eating food and having sex three or seven times?

#text #mine #that would be the perfect Sunday #this could be us #but i have to work 😂#nsft concept #bd/sm community #submisive and breedable

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thirstywaffles · 12 days ago

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