#I hate feeling anxious for no reason

[rosicheeks]

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[gilgil-machine]

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[silly-lil-scribbles]

geesussss can my brain chill out maybe like at this point people arent even doing anything im pretty sure its just pretending something is off so i can start panicking about if someone hates me and im not enough and they will leave and i am the worst person ever because of this. why. dude. please. nothing happened. why do you even do this. and worse why the fuck do i still believe you every time no matter what

[msmk11]

A moment of transparency:

i’m struggling to be on this app at the moment, if I’m being totally honest.

I love to write and typically enjoy what I’m writing.

But as my account grows and I make mutuals/get more followers, I’m feeling all this (internal) pressure to be good, a well liked page, etc.

The comparison game makes it worse.

Don’t get me wrong, I feel so grateful but!!

I started this account to write, and now I’m feeling the pressure of it being more like social media. Do people think I’m funny/interesting, do they want to hear what I have to say, am I being annoying, does x mutual actually like me?

And like I’m just a validation-seeker and people pleaser so ik I just need to get my act together, but until that happens, all I can do is rant and be stressed.

If anyone has tips too that’d be appreciated !!

[pardonmydelays]

the funniest thing that always happens to me is that every time we have a customer who doesn't speak polish and they ask me if i speak english i'm like "no, i don't think i do" only to realize a few minutes later that i do, in fact, speak english

[evangelistofmurder]

Why can't I get over this?? /Hj

TLDR - I'm kinda just typing this out bc my source memories are stressing me out and I can't find a proper outlet to cope

(Source memory venting under the cut)

Feel free to ask more since I don't mind talking about DMs

Everytime I get extra content, it's just bittersweet. (dramatic irony at its finest I guess?) Honestly my existence in source is just a sardonic joke. Like I want peace, I get my peace and it's taken away from me.

I mentioned this in a previous post but the novel really hits the nail in the coffin for me.

Waiting for Yuma was FOUL for this:

"If someday. If someone were to appear who could give Vivia some peace. If only someone could bring him out into the light when he was stuck in the dark. '...It would be pointless to hope for something like that.'"

The DLC ties into this with:

"Perhaps the peace I desire can be found there."

I don't even want to quote Chapter 4.

All the peace I thought I could find in death is gone. If I died someday it be lonely without Yakou if anything, and dying means losing him. I don't want that to happen. I think the only person in source who would understand my grief would be Yuma considering the labyrinth and conversation about the letter. We all saw how that turned out considering Yuma's also just gone (he left on his own accord) but still the one other person you could rely on for support not being there is also just devastating.

I'm upset that the other detectives thought I didn't care— I understand why so I won't fault them for it. I just stood there doing nothing and then the one thing I did do didn't even matter anyway.

In source postcanon, I kept visiting him in the restricted area. It takes me out mentally everytime but I did it anyway since I just wanted to see Yakou. I have no idea if he took the dlc pill or not, plus I wasn't told about said pill in the first place.

I'm under the impression that everyone else moved on and I can't move on at all and it's really getting to me.

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I honestly don't know why I'm posting this but I don't think anyone's up right night so I didn't feel like bothering someone this early in the morning as of writing this. I'm sorry (I feel guilty writing this somehow).

[lucky-rabbits]

was taking screenshots from the livestream that happened but i started feeling weird again but jfdkljklfjk i hate this man

[rosesradio]

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[tvsoftboi]

When the ✨~thoughts of inadequacy~✨ kick back in and you start to wonder if you should go back to socially isolating yourself

[tankgotstuckinthecircusgate]

designing graduation albums must be one of the cringiest thing ever kids im sorry i know if u'd see it u'd feel sooooooo cringe

[floralovebot]

i think i've said this before but i used to really not Understand or like timmy and helia being best friends but it really grew on me over time. obviously their main bestie is tecna and flora respectively, but specifically for just the specialists, i really like them now.

i just tend to think about timmy being this really self-conscious guy who is constantly being looked down on by his peers and even his crush, who is so committed to being a specialist but starts to doubt if he's worthy, who wants so badly to have a Special Someone who understands him,,, being put into this team where two of the members are already best friends and have an insane amount of history and loyalty to each and you can't just Get in the middle of that and the other guy is really, really stuck in his I Don't Need Friends They Disappoint Me Stage. like,,, the loneliness? the loneliness of not having a Best Friend on the team? then he finds tecna but even she starts to look down on him?

like,,, the toll that would take on someone is,,, not fun to think about. while they may not have a lot of scenes together, timelia being best friends is honestly so cute and makes so much sense. timmy had to put up with so much bullshit from the specialists (affectionate), finding someone who isn't going to look down on you, or doubt you, or always think of you as a Secondary Friend is So Important and that's such a big aspect of their friendship. timmy really trusts helia! and you can see this especially in the comics when he gets so mad that helia leaves. he's literally never acted like that with any of the other specialists! in the show or in the comics, timmy may get a little sad, but he never gets that angry and that desperate to contact whoever left. it just,,, says so much about him,,,

like timmy gets painted a lot as this nerd who only cares about tecna (and like. yes. true) but more than that, he's a very sensitive and caring guy who yearns for deep, trusting relationships. tecna is 100% his best friend and special person, but the friendship that timmy builds with the specialists and even the other winx is so important. he craved close relationships so much,,, and it's so nice that they didn't go into the loser lonely nerd trope.

i just really like that timmy was able to find friends that truly respect and love him. and specifically timmy being best friends with helia makes so much sense when you stop thinking about their interests and personalities, and instead think about how much the two of them craved people they could trust, people who would never make them feel less than, people who wouldn't treat them like backup friends, people they could actually connect to. it's just,,, they're so important to me actually <3

[undistortedworld]

i think if i go to work today i may actually explode or turn into a puddle of mush or some other sort of physical manifestation of a mental breakdown

[clivedovelover]

what's wrong

I feel insecuuureeeeee about ppl liking me or not

Lol

What!! Who said that

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[broke-on-books]

Keep getting pissed off & frustrated and now my stomach hurts

[pixlmonkeys]

with no exaggeration being hyper empathetic is one of the worst things to happen to me

[michameinmicha]

Hate my anxiety stopping me from doing things i need to get done, but the worst part is that it completely paralyzes me so i can't even do anything else instead either, wtf is the point of this feature