#I hate being 27!!!!!

[roguestarsailor]

Idk but I am getting extra emotional about the concept of Barbie and the context surrounding Barbie since I saw the movie! For me it bring me back to my childhood and being a girl and still having this sense of wonder and possibilities. I feel like these days I’m boggled down by the idea of a future but it HAS to be “realistic” or feels like I have to “settle” or “compromise” and it wrecks me.

I see everyone around building a life with someone or adamantly trying to and I’m still not there…idk if I’ll ever be tbh and it’s like oh I have to be ok with being by myself? Be ok with friends no longer prioritizing our friendships? It’s like be ok handle my one household income situation? And then thinking about the steps it takes to find someone, learn about them, and make decisions with that person in mind ALL THE TIME, and stay and be in LOVE someone for a very long time is absolutely insane.

When I was still playing with Barbie, she was anything and life could have been anything. Now it feels like I’m questioning what I want, what matters and societal expectations. I know people say don’t give a fuck and *I* am the only one who thinks this way but when everyone is doing this I can’t help but wonder why I’m so different and this anticipation dread of when I’ll slowly lose my friends to their romantic relationships and feeling like I have to figure out how to get human connection as they trickle away.

Besides romantic relationships, it’s that I have to compromise on my dream house/apartment to something that fits in my budget (which is very low) rather than make me feel good to live in. Besides that it’s like I want a good community of people who genuinely care about each other and the environment around us, I want walkability, I hate depending on a car (I hate the suburbs!!!), I want things close by and it’s ALL affordable.

I’m so stressed by my financial situation and it’s like I feel guilty buying things I want yet it’s the only thing that brings me a sense of excitement that feels in control and like the feeling that this is going to change my life for the good (a little bit)! I stress about my health all the time because getting older means I cannot eat whatever I want nor really do what I want physically, AND I have to watch my body and be hyper conscious about it aesthetically and presenting myself in an acceptable way where people will be nice and can respect me. I spend so much time having to find clothes that compliments my body type and hide the “bad parts” and then despite working out three times a week and walking close to 10k steps a day, I still look the same and I still not happy visually (to some degree PLEASE MEN I know I shouldn’t but come on it’s a complex situation). I want to play sports and feel that adrenaline but my knees aren’t great and it’s physically hard to do those things with my body type (even with the help of very very expensive and specialized sports bras and leggings) and it’s upsetting.

Barbie could be anything and I projected a lot onto her! Like in the movies, she was a white Barbie and she’s skinny and can be athletic and she’s got Ken, she got friends everywhere, she’s got homes in a walkable community and it’s what I want! There’s cultural trauma there too and being surrounded by very privileged folks puts a huge lens on the things I missed out on because I didn’t grow up that way and how everyone seems so far in life because they either already went through what I am going through or they never had to wonder what making the “right” decision means, or the fears that guided the choices I made and never having this sense of anxiety about the future, about myself, about myself in the context of the rest of society and even this sense of shame by not having and not participating in what’s common…it’s a lot!!!

[izel-scribbles]

just finished malevolent relisten. needless to say the obsession has been rekindled tenfold its previous magnitude

[ratatatastic]

congrats to these three fucking idiots! truly! i hope you people are happy with yourselves!

i cant believe we got bogo on cats penalties in fucking preseason you guys are unfuckingbelievable really can you people not handle the scawy penalty box all by yourselves? you have to use the buddy system?

they did not think of the logistics of the bench when they committed those penalties huh

florida panthers @ tampa bay lightning | 10.2.24

[eugeniedanglars]

if you ever feel like you’re bad at your job just remember that joe jonas’ own pr team managed to turn the internet’s view of him from completely neutral to public enemy number one in the span of 48 hours

[bottomvalerius]

Guys I have a job interview today and I’m trying to be so normal about it LMFAO

[batsplat]

also I’ve seen some (well a lot) photos of dani & sete together and like were/are they friends? obviously I know about the honda connection + them both being spanish but not much more then that. kinda hilarious that dani was/is friendly with both of them……

time to bring back the world's funniest photo

this is a genuine work of art. quite possibly one of the greatest photos of all time. I'm in love

yeah dani hired sete in 2017!! that's what gives us that great moment where valentino forgets about jerez 2005 with sete in the room - like that's why sete is even attending pressers in the first place. this is what sete had to say about it start of 2017:

honestly this is one of my fave sete interviews, I've had it in my drafts for a while to discuss but I might as well throw it in here. so yeah, him and dani have known each other since dani was a kid!! which will have been partly due to the honda link - they were also both gresini riders in 2004-05, if in different classes

plus they had the spanish link, back when that was like. something a little more noteworthy. they've regularly trained together for years!! dani had already asked sete to be his coach for two years!! they have a "great relationship"!!

but yeah obviously we do have to address the valentino of it all. "in recent years [dani's] dropped a little, as a result of bad luck. when you try many times and don't succeed, your enthusiasm and motivation are less" uh huh...? like, say, when someone puts a curse on you and however much you try and try and try again, you can no longer win another race? it would be horrible if that curse gave you all manner of ill fortune, yeah? that sure would sap your enthusiasm and motivation, wouldn't it?

note too that the phrasing for what sete's attempting to give back to dani echoes what he says valentino still has: enthusiasm and motivation. the joy and the will. sete believes nobody should attempt to become the 'anti-marquez' - the very phrase implies a single chosen challenger to finally take down the sport's current king. focusing too much on that person can only come to your own detriment. you'll eventually become your own main rival... eventually, you'll defeat yourself, and your enemy won't even have to raise a hand. dani/sete parallels isn't the sort of thing you'd necessarily arrive at yourself, so it's always kind of the involved parties to do your work for you. what valentino and marc never lost was their 'inner spark' - and the two of them can cause the kind of misfortune for others that gradually eats away at their 'enthusiasm and motivation'. if you've been marked out to defeat one of them... well, beware

and. of course. "we've always had a great relationship, given that we've shared so many great moments together" buddy WHAT are you talking about. ALWAYS??? sete has a funny habit of acting as if he's like, worked very hard to repress everything that happened to him between 2003 and 2005 as some kind of weird ass curse-induced trauma response. but it's actually the "I've never done any interviews in which I've talked badly about valentino" that's the most revealing - which is a) kinda debatable, but at the same time b) ... well, yeah, sete has been awfully restrained in what he's said post-2005! which has always been super annoying to me, as someone on a fact-finding mission about that era, but it's also... it makes perfect sense, doesn't it? of course, sete was still committed to managing the image of that rivalry. so determined to be respectful that he's avoided giving his side of the story. and sure, you can take him at his word that he's let bygones be bygones, that he really only remembers the positives of that time, but... it's complete and utter bullshit! he's finally started talking about THIS decade (transcribed for the sete post):

if there's one good thing that came from him going on that bloody three hour australian podcast, it's in him opening up about how obviously extremely not Over It he is:

if you think that valentino has had a lasting negative impact on the sport, that he made it more dangerous, that this is something that can directly be traced back to what he did to YOU... then why are you NOT 'talking badly' about valentino? why didn't you complain about the overtake at the time, publicly rather than feeling frustrated with race direction in private? but that's sete all over, isn't it... casey, for all his sins, has not exactly been quiet about valentino post-retirement - and while I'm also not going to ascribe any especially altruistic motives to that, while he does also obviously sell a very particular version of their story, you at least don't get this kind of blatant disparity between his stated principles and his public output. it's like when commentators were talking during assen 2004 about that magazine cartoon, the one with the gag that valentino just had to put a mirror on the back of his bike to defeat sete. (which is obviously very mean-spirited, yeah, and there's plenty to critique in how sete was portrayed as this vain foppish pretty boy.) sete has always, always cared too much about appearances and it was always going to be what killed him in that rivalry. he truly is the perfect foil: valentino manipulates image to his own ends, while sete is a slave to it. and that's how we've somehow ended in this situation where both parties have been perfectly willing to let the facts of that rivalry dissipate into obscurity over time. valentino erases sete from the narrative of his career as an act of punishment, whereas sete lets himself be erased because he does not wish to be associated with something so very ugly. and thus the story sinks over time towards oblivion

anyway. sorry. uh, back to dani. reportedly that was quite a close partnership he had going with sete:

a rich kid with a fancy bike collection to the last. here's a joan instagram post about said training:

and here's another interview sete gave about dani - unsurprisingly he's once again very complimentary:

"we have noticed that the machine is developing in a certain direction" uh huh? something about riding for honda, who you believe are geared only towards making one of your rivals succeed? must be tough, eh

probably a complete coincidence, but as it happens 2017 was the closest dani and valentino ever really got to a public spat - over valentino's sturdy defending in aragon. "if he's not happy, he has to race alone" indeed. obviously, dani did not end up winning a title - though 2017 is still the closest he'd gotten since 2013. he was very much in that title fight, pretty much until the wet race at misano, even if as the fifth of five contenders... so 13 of 18 rounds in, not bad. (incidentally, that's also the race that ended valentino's title aspirations by dint of missing it entirely.) and when dani was pushed out of honda and decided to call it a day in 2018, here's what sete had to say:

more recently, dani's spoken about the advice sete gave him late in his career:

"in my last years" does make it sound like he's being put down, eh. so yeah, a rider coach, but probably more importantly a friend. wonder if they're still close

[what-aboutno]

Ship chart things (original)

[mudwisard]

ive said it before but this is the last time: gonna get my drivers license this semester

[guinevereslancelot]

for the first time in my life i was just asked if i have kids instead of if i'm in college yet. the years start coming and they don't stop coming huh

[hiroshotreplica]

actually my favorite number being 27 is some cruel irony that an author would force onto their character. i considered my unlucky number to be 3 for the longest time because of some Shit that happened in 3rd grade and other unfortunate developments that happened because of something happening 3 times

anyway, 27 is:

the product of 3^3 (3 to the power of 3)

the product of 9 x 3, which, again, is 3 x 3 x 3

3 away from 30

and, slightly unrelated: it was how old my mom was (in years, of course) when she had me (i did not know this until last year. im a little stupid)

i literally despised the number 3 as a child. like, beyond petty hatred- i genuinely thought if something came in 3s it had the ability to kill me. yet, my favorite number shares so many roots to it. was i stupid? yeah i think so

[gideongrovel]

I HATE LIVING IN THIS HOUSE!!!!!! I HATE BEING FORCED TO LIVE WITH PEOPLE WHO DONT GIVE A SHIT!!!!!!!!! THERE IS ALWAYS ELECTRICITY AND PLUMBING PROBLEMS AND WE HAVE FUCKING PEST!!!! AND NOTHING EVER GETS FIXED!!!! LIKE ISSUES NEVER GET FIXED AND GET WORSE AND WORSE OVERTIME AND THEN PEOPLE ARE ALL SURPRISED PIKACHU FACE WHEN ISSUES THAT WERENT FIXED GET WORSE OVERTIME!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHH

[londyboobs]

the bird app is once again making me want to justify myself so here we go

first of all let me say that i’ve always been into gore stuff and the pandemic forever changed the way i perceived pieces of media. the boys was one of my favorite shows from day one. literally everything i love in one single show. but since the pandemic i do my best to always find a spark of hope and good in everything i consume. and gen v is literally that. unlike our messed up supes and non supes in the boys, these college students are still full of hope. marie accidentally killed her parents and lost her sister maybe for good but she still has hope and wants to be a hero. jordan has been invisible their entire life and everyone who really saw them wanted them to be half of themselves or was taking advantage of them. cate was treated like a monster by her parents and then manipulated by dean shetty to the point she ruined the mind of a boy she cared about and then she had to erase the mind of the boy she loved and all her friends, but she didnt kill herself, she still has hope. and it all means so much to me.

i love the boys, starlight has always been one of my favorite characters. because even with all that freaking mess she still had a spark of hope in her. and theres also kimiko, my favorite girl, who lost her brother and like cate and marie were treated like a monster for so long but still was a good person.

so yeah, i really like gen v because these college students remind me so much of my favorite characters from the boys.

and its okay if you dont, we all consume things in different ways and its okay to like different things.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[cowardlycowboys]

my parents die I'm blowing my brains out I don't see what's so hard to comprehend with that

[derryallergy]

guys reddie's dynamic is so cute and fun in theory but it's not so cute and fun when you're living it. especially when you're the richie.

[acesammy]

Do you ever think about how sheltered Sam and Dean were from the realities of hunting as kids, but like in a bad way?

like they weren’t sheltered from the killing and the violence but they were kept from knowing. John never told them about vampires. They didn’t know that werewolves weren’t cognizant of the shift. Of course Sam was never told of what he was, and the 2 of them (especially dean) seem to have rarely had to confront the fact that many monsters are just people. They do what they do to survive or they do what they do for their loved ones. Or sometimes they don’t even hurt anyone but they’re still ‘monsters’ to be hunted.

idk it’s just wild to me that Sam and Dean have so many years of knowledge under their belt when we meet them in the pilot (deans /26/) but all of that knowledge is so surface level.