#I guess I should tag this as him. bc of the ppl who want him blacklisted 💔💔

[lunarharp]

scribbly first date type affair (continuation of my modern au stuff)

[sh5]

I’ve been trying not to cry pretty much all day. a girl stopped me when I was walking and asked if I was crying, if I was okay. and I played it off but I was like. GOD. but it’s like. whatever. I had a good day in hot prof class at least

[dreamerlynx]

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[coridallasmultipass]

TW for my usual unhinged stance on puppets, if you're following me, you know. If you're not, I'm sorry (not sorry). ((If you're the author or narrator, I'm actually sorry.))

Okay, so because I'm allowed to be freaky on main about puppets on this site, I just wanna tell everyone, because everyone should know that creepypasta narrator Lighthouse Horror just posted a story (by author Alonso Solis) about an evil puppet show a few days ago, and I just listened, and I loved it.

Now onto freaky business:

Headcanoning the main char as a puppetfucker bc c'mon, that bromance, the way he lovingly describes Mr. Smiley's appearance, what he does before leaving the old studio towards the end... Just... Mmmm... *chef's kiss* love this kinda content. I'll sleep soundly dreaming I could have someone like that. Y'know? Big, glassy eyes, big grin, secret evil laugh, mildly self-animate...

[blueiight]

whew this conversation on misogynoir and claudia. if there's one character where there's no legitimate reason to hate her it's claudia. she's literally the embodiment of has never done anything wrong in her life. i hope someone (not me 😩) explores the childism angle wrt to claudia. because people be hating children and wanting to dominate them.

the fun of claudia's character is that she isnt a good person by any real life morals. by way of her youth, she could not develop enough understanding of complex moral codes [which is even more prominent w/ claudia being turned @ the age of 5 in books but even then.. ik at 14, i was hardly the pinnacle of morality and maturity, i was reckless & destructive, and did not understand consequence until it kicked my ass]. the moral dilemma of the actual brutality of vampirism is something shes certainly better at disassociating from than louis simply bc she was too young to understand right & wrong.. as iwtv novel said and the title of ep4 is, it is the reckless pursuit of blood w/ a child's demanding in ep4 that leads claudia to killing & disposing of bodies recklessly, a hurricane hitting lifting the bodies up, and her leaving. even tho shes a 20 something woman, lestat x louis tried to give her a second [or her first] childhood, and most importantly, her brain is permanently metasized w/ the thought patterns & responses of a poor 14 year old girl who came out of a fire on the verge of death. she leaves bc she cognitively is unprepared for & does not want to deal w/ the consequences that come with exposing this household of interracial gay dudes w/ a creole chid during the jim crow days to heightened police scrutiny. the question w/ claudia [& armand, and all these creatures] is that can u recognize their capacity for cruelty, the tragedy & loss of agency/life done upon them and still sympathize with them? for claudia, people already had a 50/50 view of her in vc fandom for 'getting in the way of the ship' esp w/ her oedipal [mutual] dynamic w louis, but in amc show, the relationship's certainly changed on louis's end. i cant say amc louis has the capacity to long after any woman much less claudia in that way, but there is a sense of [co]dependency on a black girlwoman thats much more interesting here. i got a post on that somewhere lol. im not sure what childism means but im guessing it refers to the denial of humanity children face by adults, and i definitely find that true. lestat and louis both want to keep claudia preserved in their memory as their little girl, lestat even moreso when claudia begins to question & challenge his authority as the patriarch.. louis picks & chooses when to regard claudia as a grown woman [saying shes almost 33 to lestat when she comes back, and when she cooks up the plan to kill lestat, evening himself out to be merely one of lestat's creations when he asks "can the children kill the father" to ease his guilt for his love and his hate for their maker, their abuser, his husband, alladat] and when to regard claudia as his child [even in the modern day when he talks about her, being protective of her diaries in the face of the white interviewer/audiences]. fans saying 'yea lestat, claudia should stay out of ur lovelife' is hilarious cuz lestat dragged claudia back into their lovelife in the permanent role as their child, when she wanted to leave in ep6, and made her to keep louis attached to him [cuz he thinks louis couldnt keep loving him otherwise]. shes a rhetorical device in the marriage: lestat loves her cruelty, louis loves her innocence, bc those aspects of claudia remind them of [how they see] themselves. misogynoir & childism, as u word it, may play into fans’s disinterest but also favoring an interpretation of claudia within the lines of their preferred party btwn lestat x louis, which is also why i giggle to myself when ppl tag claudia w/ either one of their surnames

[shovson]

🔥 how do u feel about Logan Sargeant

uh oh

Send me a “ 🔥 “ for an unpopular opinion. (bonus points for a topic)

Okay. Gotta just say. Obviously some of the treatment Logan has gotten....been kiiinnndddaaa questionable. Even beyond the nuanced explanations about Australia this year and also all the rumours and speculation about everything within that team. I'm sure there's a lot that goes behind the decisions of JV but from an outside perspective....the emotional intelligence isn't really there. The fact I needed someone else to show me the James quote after the Carlos signing of him saying it was awesome of Logan to be on the team etc. etc...you know doesn't bode well. I feel like everyone has really said everything that needs to be said: really unfair treatment, thrust in too early into an F1 seat, etc. etc.

That being said. I cannot stand this woobification babygirlification he's just a sad puppy losing dog stuff any longer. Annoying as fuck. I feel there's kind of always been this narrative around him of his isolation which is just...I don't know man. I really have so much feelings about it I'm losing my mind a little but I never really understood this. There are so many other drivers with the same "foreign place, had to move and migrate to push my F1 career." Doesn't make it right. But I can't imagine being let's say Zhou or Checo in a similar situation.

Also there is (was, I guess now he's got a foot out the door) so much to talk about with the fact I've seen people try to co-opt social justice language to make him seem like his treatment is worse than it is is pissing me the hell off. Man oh, man.

In terms of fandom/fan reception, OBVIOUSLY can't control fans yk etc. etc. BUT i do think it does affect my perception of drivers sometimes. NGL I haven't looked in the James Vowles tag in so fucking long bc everyone thinks I want to read the haterism about JV and how he's mistreating Logie and how he should get his revenge on that middle aged man. And beyond that, I don't think the Alex heads who have probably more of a community around them don't want to fucking see the shit talking about their guy and would rather live in peace too (not to mention...wtf did alex do to deserve that huh? why are u in that space?). People can say this is just a general community thing but also...yeah I mean fucking seeing the same guy in the wrong fucking tag would make me insane too. Especially when ppl r like "look at how logan OWNS and alex is LAME AS FUCK -> #alex albon".

In my complex nuanced mind, I think it's easy to bring up the European treatment (loose) of American Racing (loose) as lame, lacking history or interest, basically dirty poor ppl shit. I think this is also part of why people are so protective about Logan. And while I do think this is such an ignorant take on Racing in the US (and America's presence in F1 period), I think ppl are really using this to dismiss the amount of privilege Logan has.

My ass getting tired you know I've ranted about this in DMs and also voice call but like...Logan got a chance. I hate that it didn't work out. But also, you know how many people don't get a chance? That's just the reality of the sport. And it sucks balls.

[noahtally-famous]

So I’m thinking abt watching the new td season. I’m prob gonna split it into chunks bc it’ll be my reactions to all the episodes plus pre & post thoughts of the season, so if you wanna know my thoughts, just go to the 'total drama revival episode rambles' tag

Firstly, let’s start off with some pre-watching thoughts. These are just bullet points based on the trailers and promo pics I’ve seen. (I’ve only seen part of one trailer—I forgot which one—and some of the promo pics.)

I know most of the major details of the season bc of spoilers but I’ll try to pretend like I don’t lmao though there might be some occasions when I reference smth—I’ll put those in brackets ( [ ] ).

Now onto my thoughts!!

PRE-WATCHING THE TD SEASON:

PRIYAAA!!! [ A lot of ppl on here initially brushed her off as the Nice Girl, but I was with her from the frigging start and wanted her to go far in the season! ] As a desi female, I was so so happy to see desi rep AND her name is Priya!! It’s so pretty and ties into cultural heritage, and fgdgdgdgd I’d already hc her as bi fyi (yeah it could be me projecting on her, that’s okay. That’s f i n e. She seems like such a bisexual though)

Axel should be a lesbian. It’s what she deserves

Tbh I never rlly vibed with Ripper. Sure he seemed cool and ppl kept calling him the ‘nowen child’ but he’s pretty meh to me

I didn’t rlly try to guess who the gay couple would be ngl. But I lowkey wanted one half of it to be Chase bc it would’ve been so funny if the one person most ppl labeled as The Token Straight was n o t like imagine how many mouths that would’ve shut 😂

Chase & Zee would’ve been a v cute pair. Plus the shipname Chazee is adorable hhfgdgd if they don’t end up canon, it could be a good noncanon ship 🤷‍♀️

Chef and Chris eyeing each other in the promo pics like come on. Gimme some of that chref content

Julia and Nichelle would be so. amazing. together.

I think I’m the minority who believed that the Hockey Duo wouldn’t end up together. Idk they give off a bros/bromance vibe, and that’s it lmaooo

I’m so so interested in Scary Girl and how her character will be like!!

Bowie’s style is odd but funky—10/10, love it!! Def gives me gay vibes

Caleb seems like a Justin. Plus of c o u r s e his name is Caleb smh (no offense to ppl named Caleb)

Chase was only in the trailer for like less than five seconds but if anything happens to him, I’d kill everyone in the room and then myself. Idk man, he seems like Such A Guy, I just know he’ll be one of the ppl on the show I’ll be fixated on. Plus I love the name Chase.

[ I saw a post calling Chase a ‘boyfail’ and cryinggdgd lmao ] [ Chase overall seems to have mixed reactions among fans, so I’m gonna tread lightly around him. I just hope he doesn’t end up like Dave. I adored Dave when I started PI, but then…all that happened and he’s hated so much. Genuinely hope Chase doesn’t end up like that, pls pls pls I’m counting on you buddy. Don’t fuck it up *cue that one meme I know you guys are thinking abt* ]

Chase & Priya seems like such a popular ship. Ngl their dynamic interested me too-

I saw a post comparing Zee to Shaggy from Scooby-Doo and I’m like :0 fr though?? makes me love Zee even more!

So where exactly will this take place? Camp Wawanakwa?

Am I forgetting anything? Idk but these are my thoughts! Now onto watching the season—idk when that’ll happen but you guys will know when I post my thoughts :D

[inchidentally]

tricky asks below to keep out of tags!

ok so full disclosure I do still ship them in an rpf way from their season together lasgfjlsaghfjl but absolutely, in reality I fully agree their dynamic was big brother and baby brother back then. they're definitely friends in an equals way now and I do like that Lando exerts a lot of confidence now and isn't just Carlos' satellite.

and no worries at all about me leaving the ship I'm honestly just not engaging for a while until pls god the larrying calms down. before Oscar that was my main hardcore rpf ship and I also love the real life friendship Carlos and Lando have. but if ever there was going to be a ship to cause a Kraken-type upset in F1 it's carlando. there's wayyyy too many ppl who are loudly convinced it's a real thing and about the same amount of ppl who think Lando's friendships should be ranked in order of "importance" to him. which would leave only Max F at the top so I guess by their reasoning carlando was fucked before it even started lmaoooooo

oh babe don't bother trying to bring logic into this!!!

I... don't know what this is supposed to be referencing bro? the quote was that people shouldn't assume that guys are friends just bc they're teammates so he didn't like, say that Charles and Carlos aren't? also this was all to do with the personal beef he has w Esteban so I think if he was deciding to say that Carlos and Charles hate each other it would've made waves??

and I gotta remind folks that galex seem to be the only two drivers who are friends the same during the season and off of it. I haven't looked crazy deep into the other friendships but pretty sure none of them really hang much in the off season?

fr I do not get them going after Oscar the way they did Luisinha and now Rebecca (and I'm assuming Isa). it's one type of crazy to hate on real life partners over delulu shit but to start doing that to a guy in another rpf ship??? poor Oscar is just standing there not doing anything and they're alternating between him being carlando ship captain or saying he will NEVER be Carlos to Lando.

oh my goddddd

like

how can someone want their fandom experience to be constantly getting enraged at reality intruding on a ship that I swear to god never had the remotest plausibility anyway???? considering they stopped existing to each other for the winter months apart from a little press during covid and Carlos was practically engaged to Isa the entire time like ???????

your ask and another I got (but won't post) was from today/yesterday so I'm guessing it was them seeing Carlos and Rebecca apartment hunting in Monaco has set off some fireworks. I saw a cute photo of Carlos and Rebecca chatting w Lando at the Netflix Cup thing and the comments were calling Rebecca the Steve in the situation. Lando literally is talking to the real life couple and that ain't enough to break the delulu.

anyway folks, that's why we look after Lily's remote presence in fandom. gotta keep the shit flying around trying to stick somewhere else lol

[cairoscene]

N for DC! (also would love to hear about batlantern so i guess that's a Z?)

N. Name three things you wish you saw more or in your main fandom (or a fandom of choice)

well if i'm being selfish, i wish there were more fics about newly adopted jason, or jason with bruce and alfred before the adoption. i'm so deeply interested in that vague window between the tire-stealing incident and the adoption, and i want a million fics of it. i personally headcanon that bruce doesn't immediately rush jason into being robin and instead focuses on giving this kid a safe place to live, so i'm always thinking about that

for superbat and ghostbat and any bruce ship really, i wish there was more content of bruce being like, deeply romantic and intent on making it work, rather than the prevailing fanon of him being so suspicious of happiness that he sabotages the relationship or doesn't even realize someone's in love with him. i love to think about a bruce who very much wants to love someone and will do what he can to make that happen

and i think for fandom in general, i wish there was more tolerance for fanon? even in my chill perusal of the tag it's hard to avoid ppl disliking certain fandom interpretations of characters or holding up the comics as the only true source of characterization. we all have interpretations that we like, and personally i think it's really fun that there's so much room for different takes on characters. we all have things that annoy us that we bitch about in private chats, i get that, but sometimes fanon is fun and even dare i say it, more interesting than canon. but yeah ppl get really tied up in what's canon and what's fanon and i think you should just let people have a good time. don't be a hater lol

Z. Just ramble about something fan-related, go go go

ooh okay for batlantern well. first of all go read all of FabulaRasa's fics bc they're very entertaining and engrossing and very very compelling. but yeah i love batlantern bc they offer such a different dynamic from other bruce ships where bruce becomes so, so petty in response to hal being The Pettiest person on the planet. please watch justice league war if you haven't already. i was also just explaining to @burins last night that hal is the wettest most pathetic blorbo of a character. he's always one bad day away from death or homelessness or joblessness or illness. he reminds me of nancy drew in that seems like he gets hit over the head and dragged around a lot. don't even get me started on the parallax thing. i love a pathetic man. anyway what i really enjoy about batlantern is the dynamic where hal is such a deeply good, decent person doing his best and yet his life is falling apart to such a degree that bruce wayne, known fuckup of epic proportions, is the one to be like "christ let's get you some help. jesus." for bruce to be like, actually really competent and normal and functional by comparison, but also very compassionate and loyal. and i love the expectation that hal thinks bruce is a freak and then gets a peek behind the curtain and discovers....that bruce is deeply domestic. that delights me to no end. ALSO for bruce to have this giant messy but loving family that he cares so much for and for hal to be essentially on his own entirely, for hal to see that family and want desperately to be part of it but not feel like he's worthy of joining it. that's some good pangs right there

send me ABC fandom asks

[ghostlylicious]

heyy ik this is out of my usual and prob out of the blue but fsr i rlly wanted to share what i think abt what kind of songs the becile bots would fit into or listen to for the SPG and CFE fandom so here it goes 😭 :3 👉👈

(i'm obsessed w the designs of the characters and the idea of them but i *accidentally* made my own world of it and i can't get out of it help mejshskns. i even made redesigns of hare and jack if i should post them here cuz they're on my insta, thinking abt it. but anyways is this an au of an au? hhhmmm)

(also don't think i don't know the epic blog @ask-the-becile-boys) (it's a lil embarrassing tagging them but oh well lol😭)

tl;dr: i hc hare liking house of wolves by mcr, dig by mudvayne, and (sic) by slipknot. and the jack liking smells like teen spirit by nirvana, misery business by paramore, and blood by mcr (i also hc the jack as mansplain and manipulate). nothing for skull sorry bby </3 ☹️

HARE 🔥🔥💥💣 (he's a mad rodent that's sensitive and luvs when things go his way but better watch out when things don't. he's also a macho trans masc /canon yay)

house of wolves by my chemical romance because:

dig by mudvayne because:

and (sic) by slipknot because:

THE JACK 🤪💥🥰🎸🐓 (i like his lore in the blog, but personally i like his personality a bit differently (bc i gave myself too much free time))

what i made him become in summary: he's insane, a maniac, probably a pyromaniac, but he's free, he's cringe but is free, a bit of a fan of patriarchy but lost interest when he found it wasn't abt horses /ref, manipulates ppl just for the thrill of it, diagnosed antisocial personality disorder somehow as a robot, but still v social, he just likes to be silly and ruin ppl's day without getting in trouble bc of hare, he's spoiled bc of hare, the company is afraid of hare, he likes pranks, likes grunge, and thinks kurt cobain is jesus and will one day return from the dead to save the robots)

ok here's the songs: smells like teen spirit by nirvana (who could've guessed) because:

also bc of the vibe

blood by my chemical romance because:

(oh, and he will also rip your guts out for fun and also drain you of your blood to give it to dying ppl in need if you're not careful)

and misery business by paramore because:

not bc he relates to stealing a guy from a girl (or maybe he does idk) but bc 1. the song bangs, and 2. it's abt manipulation and he luvs being a lil prankster. he prob ruined a relationship just for fun and his excuse was: NO DATING AT WORK.

I HAVE NOTHING FOR THE MAFIA AESTHETIC SKULL YET. I'M SORRY BBY </33 but i like his thing in the blog too (it's just the jack i changed fsr) and i hc he knitted clothes for poor women and children during the great depression. idk if he was doing anything that time but yes. he's kind under all that rough, metallic exterior.

so yeah, this is my au of an au and yes this is a heavy metal/metal rock band 😭😭🥰🥰 i didn't include the other characters bc these r the 3 i'm obsessed with.

if u actually read this that's impressive. i mostly made this bc ig i just wanted my idea to be out there even tho it won't get that much attention i wanted to speak out lolisjdk anyways

[puppy-phum]

10 Characters

tagged by the lovely @i-got-the-feels​​ ♥ thank you a ton! am trying to keep this short (and not too serious so forget about cool character analysis for now sigh) bc tumblr crashed. or my old laptop crashed? when i started this the other night but i won’t be giving up so here goes.

(my love for my blorbos is overflowing so placing all of it under a cut to spare ppl who do not care! but please do know i care about all of your blorbos a ton ♥)

so tagging in return: @dimpledpran @i-am-just-a-kiddo @ashenlights @psychic-waffles @s1utspeare @talaypuens @laowen​ @snimeat @luna-lina @machikeita​ @eohachu ♥

Fah (Mek Jirakit) Sky in Your Heart

- if i had to pick a (fictional) doctor, this would be the guy ♥ - deserves care and understanding more than anything else, so happy prince is giving that to him (communication! my biggest kink!) - an overgrown puppy on the inside, fighter on the outside - will charm you, your mom, and the whole of your friend group. with one smile. - will be a brat about it

Puen (Jimmy Jitaraphol) Vice Versa

- living his missed childhood in the other universe as he should bc he deserves to be himself for a moment - actually the gentlest man alive - owner of the puppiest puppy eyes you've ever seen, pls don't tell him no - unhinged, horny, and absolutely insufferable. i’m obsessed. - loves taking care of others but is actually a baby ♥ (- jimmy my beloved, i adore thee)

Nam Seonho (Woo Dohwan) My Country: The New Age

- my poor little meow meow. pathetic. broken. doer of evil deeds yet forgiven and loved ♥ - looks absolutely fantastic tortured and wet. i apologize for saying this (not) - his smile is his greatest weapon, be glad he doesn't get to use it too often (which is to say: give him happiness or else) - i would go to war for him, guess me and hwi have something in common - i would also kill his father for him so. idk. hwi take good care of him or i will replace you?

Riku (VA: David Gallagher/Mamoru Miyano) Kingdom Hearts

- i know maybe 10% of his whole story but he's my blorbo by choice - the emo boy of my heart ♥ - cool hair my dude, glad it's smaller now - i cry every time he's on screen while i play kh3 bc he's just So Good - did i tell you he's a cliché emo boy antagonist(?) bc he totally is

Cha Siwon (Kang Eunbin) Blueming

- never will move on from his story arc and all that happened there - he just really gets it. he really gets how hard it is to be loved in the wrong ways, in the ways you cannot enjoy, and then trying to accept the right ways, the ways you can enjoy ♥ - one of the best bl characters i've ever had the pleasure of watching - no one is allowed to hurt him - cradle him and tell him he's good the way he is, i beg

Bai Choufei (Liu Yuning) Heroes

- i have never ever before been this angry for a fictional character - like yeah i know he's The Worst but he deserved better (from the writers) and i will fight about that - he loves wang xiaoshi so much it's making me want to howl - the prettiest ♥ like pls if evil why so sexy - catch me talking about his final "it hurts" line even when am 80yo and in a retirement home, that shit hurted (- liu yuning the man that you are ;; ♥)

Tin (Tae Darvid) Triage

- now i feel bad about picking fah as my doctor guy bc tin's here too but ER is different i swear - the character development for him? phenomenal - someone who loves cats cannot be a bad guy - goofiest and the most endearing smile, i love he ♥ - his willpower so strong i bet it would've brought him back from the dead even without tol

Kan (Neo Trai) The Eclipse

- there are parts of me in this boy and i hate staring into the mirror every friday - but at the same time all i wanna do is pick him apart bc he's Me - if i could collect his smiles into a jar and keep that for the dark days of winter i would - he is so soft it's driving me insane ;; like who hurt you, i will fight them - never thought i'd love a neo character like this, yet here we are ♥

Five (Aidan Gallagher) The Umbrella Academy

- my fave 15yo grandpa, an absolute icon for us old souls - the best humor ♥ - so young, so old, so tired of this bullshit we call life. why must we remain - the oldest brother yet gets zero respect in that household - i actually adore how smart he is yet he's also just So Dumb (but does this family even own a braincell? questions for the universe)

Theo (Book Kasidet) Enchanté

- when we ignore the ending of this show, he truly is my beloved ♥ - theo losing his faith to love hit me like a truck. i never recovered. - i am so happy he got his own love tho, happiness looks so good on him ♥ (and so does marriage! thank you vv for that ;; new forcebook series when????) - the maker of chaos, the doer of tiny evils. cat behavior i'd say - his closet is to die for

thank you once more for tagging me and thank you for reading! let's see again, maybe next year, with yet another random assortment of characters :'D 

[hoochieblues]

15 Questions

tagged by @highwayphantoms tysm <3 idk if i have 15 mutuals who wanna do tag games rn, sooo YOU. YES YOU. you're jumped in if you want to be :)

Are you named after anyone?

I picked my own. :) It's inspired by trees and - if you translate it - also works as a stripper name. Just in case!

When was the last time you cried?

A month or so maybe? I did get a lil misty watching foster dog run around like a normal canine last week, especially when he put weight on his wonky leg. He's had a lot of PT and it's paying off!

Do you have kids?

Nope.

Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Me? Perish the thought. /s

What’s the first thing you notice about people?

Probably always kindness, whether it's online or in person.

What's your eye color?

blue/gray I guess?

Scary movies or happy endings?

Why not both? I like both, but I'll rarely turn down a horror movie. I'm still evangelising about Death Bed: The Bed That Eats (1977) to anyone who'll listen, bc the world's a better place when you can watch weird artsy indie trash with friends.

Any special talents?

ummm… I'm going to say weighing ingredients accurately without measuring, but that may more likely be practise and recklessness rather than talent.

Where were you born?

Within the same 30 miles that half my dreadful fambly have lived for literally 500 years, but we left before I was 18 months old and didn't go back for over a decade and then I escaped again. The next time I move will be #26, so it's fair to say I've bounced around.

What are your hobbies?

In no particular order, reading, writing, movies, knitting/crochet/fiber thingies, growing stuff, fixing stuff, animal rescue/welfare stuff, painting/sketching, music (listening/playing… poorly), photography (mostly analog; I love my shitty Soviet cameras and Polaroids), hiking when I can. Poking around thrift/antique stores/museums in places I haven't been. If I collect anything per se, it's recipes and myths/folklore.

Have you any pets?

No permanent residents rn, but two foster dogs, one short term (hopefully; she just needs to complete leash training and get a little clearer on the difference between Inside and Outside, otherwise she's a sweetheart) and one long term project dog. In his defence, he came to me semi-feral and had been through a particularly brutal kill shelter. He has a lot of scarring both internal and external. Took 6 months+ to touch him, and now he'll walk on a slip lead for me (sometimes) and (gasp!) voluntarily snuggle and ask for pets. If he can get over yelling at and/or trying to defensively herd anyone who isn't me, he's got a shot at a new home, at which point I will ugly cry but be so, so happy for him.

…I like talking about my fosters. Rehab project tax (Chance):

What sports do you play/have played?

I preferred weights n stuff when I was younger bc I detested team sports, but tennis, badminton, swimming etc are fun. I used to ride whenever I could with the fleeting ambition to one day do point to point and dressage, but a) equestrian shit is a time-consuming and expensive hobby (even if you know ppl with horses) and b) I had an argument with a fence post and broke bits of myself, and by the time that all healed up I'd developed unrelated chronic fatigue. Mostly I hang out with horses on the ground now, but I'd get back into it if I could.

How tall are you?

Five eight, billed height. Probably a bit less, idk. I stoop and I don't do all the pilates for my back that I should.

Favorite subject in school?

I was a horrible, horrible theater kid. Not even in the three a.m. Denny's way (I can't sing). The black turtleneck and Brecht way. Yes, I am still ashamed.

Dream job?

I'm very fortunate, so more or less what I do, but with less freelancing to stop up the gaps and more writing things I'm proud of in genres I love. I'm trying to move more towards that at the moment. Oh, and a lot less proofreading. Grammer iz hurd.

[elmaxlys]

This was a super weird dream, in a good way? Like it was super interesting in a way I can't really describe. It was a new CSM chapter somehow (that I lived, not read), involving a character named Hyuun who WASN'T drawn in the CSM style and rather looked like he belonged in MDZS (I say that because Wei Wuxian made a guest appearance). Hyuun (also known as Sakizawa Shoto by his former owners, bc he was a slave) was an assassin of sorts. When he was a kid, he was, as I said, a slave to some guy he both loved and hated who looked like if Shou Tucker had a soul and a wife still (I say that because Edward Elric made a guest appearance).

So like, we're seeing a flashback, from street kid Hyuun luring customers to Owner's place bc they want one just like him. He takes them to the shop, and there are, like, only shops like that in the street and Hyuun hesitates to take him to another becsuse he doesn't like the guy that talked to him. But he still does his job, and when Owner and Customer talk, he's hiding behind some furniture in the far corner of the room. He can hear them talk, there's even Wife, but he can't see them.

Flashback over- back to present where Denji, no chainsaw head, only chainsaw hands, has his eyes wide and on his side there's one single flashback panel: they knew each other as street kids before Hyuun got taken. Hyuun also recognizes him and starts to back away and then outright flees. There's a chase scene on the rooftops until finally Denji catches up. But too late. Hyuun already bit a poison pill AND his tongue for good measures and collapses on the ground. (ground ground they're no longer on the roofs. why is it roofs and not rooves??) Denji screams for help and tries to make him spit the poison and then he notices the tongue thing and Hyuun's eyes are losing their light and Denji lies down on him, with his head in the crook of his neck and chest and the chapter ends there.

I read some posts about it, I make some of my own, which is why I remember it's CSM lmao I had to tag billions of spoiler warnings for that death. It was, specifically, CSM 149 lol. I was, like, pacing in my room and wanting to scream my lungs out (Hyuun was a favorite). I went to my DeviantArt page, which I was apparently still using, to look at some TG art and found very good Matsurie paintings in my own gallery (except that Matsuri didn't have his beard) and I was like??? I don't remember painting that.

Then scene change, back in the black and white world of Hyuun dying. Denji dragged Hyuun's body to his former Owner's place, as they were among the only ones not to have deserted the city and therefore they should have something to help. Owner wasn't there when they got there so Denji starts looking through things to get medicine. But then Owner gets back, not with Wife but with Wei Wuxian, as he was treating with him for... business idk. Denji has to fight the urge to fight or flight but gets in front of them like. I need help. And he leads them to Hyuun's body and Owner is like "Sakizawa?" and Denji answers back "his name is Hyuun" and Wei Wuxian gets close and both him and Owner say his life is gone.

Scene change, we're now outside, Denji still dragging Hyuun's body. He gets to the city place and looks up at the moon. Wei Wuxian is there and they don't exchange words but I'm pretty sure he proposed that he'd make him come back as a Wen Ning of sorts (sorry I don't remember the exact terms). Denji looks conflicted and heartbroken, but then guess who gets there? Edward Elric, probably summoned by the mere idea of bringing someone back from the dead. He has a foldable bike, don't ask me why. He folds it back and walks toward them and says something and I can still hear his voice but I have no idea what he said. Dream ends.

For the stats: first part lived through Hyuun's eyes. 2nd part, regular old me, only online so ppl called me elmax. 3rd part seen all externally.

[hologramcowboy]

I know this isn’t a Chris evans account lol, but am I the only one that gets the ick from his new relationship??? I mean, he’s 41 and she’s fucking 25. And I get that they’re both “consenting adults”, it’s not like I’m trying to claim he’s a pedo or anything like that, but it doesn’t erase the fact that he’s old enough to be her dad. Like the pap pics and videos of them together look like an uncle out with his niece or something. Also the fact that he’s a way bigger name than her, has more money/fame…it just makes it even more icky. I guess it’s not as bad cause this is the first time he’s dated so young, so it’s not like it’s a pattern with him, but still, it’s strange. I also hate the argument of “well he’s in the industry so it’s normal/fine”. Being “in the industry” doesn’t excuse it. Just imagine all the people he meets and gets to interact with on a daily basis through his work! Chris Evans could pretty much have whoever he wants. You’re telling me he couldn’t find ANYONE in their thirties or closer to his age to connect with or be with?! It’s such a red flag. And the fact that I know she’s 25…but she looks much younger than that , like 18🥴. And a lot of ppl have been saying “well he’s said he wants kids so maybe he just wants a younger woman to have kids with”…. as if a 30 year old can’t have kids??? Yes fertility starts to decline with age, but not THAT soon. 30 year old women are very much still fertile lmao. I also hate the argument of “well young girls/20 year olds fans online are constantly fantasizing about him, so they have no right to judge”. Like HELLO?! A young fan having a harmless crush on an older actor is not remotely comparable to said actor pursuing someone in real life that is significantly younger than them. That argument is so dumb. Anyway, I’ve been so afraid to say this stuff in the cevans fandom bC everyone will just be like “you’re just jealous that it’s not you!!” Which is not true at all. I’ve supported/been fine with all his other relationships, but this one gives me the ick. I’ve never like big age gap relationships, bC some of my friends irl have been in them, and they’ve not gone well. So I guess it’s a personal experience thing. I’ve always liked Chris, but I’m not going to lie, this has turned me off a bit and I’ve lost some respect for him. Pls don’t hate me for this lol, I just wanted a sage space to share my opinion where i know I won’t be ripped to shreds like the cevans fandom

No one should hate on anyone who candidly expresses their opinion. It's a diverse world and people have different perspectives. What makes someone happy might be someone else's idea of hell.

I had no idea who Chris was dating so I went and had a look, she looks like a baby compared to him. People usually prefer to judge the women involved saying "oh but they are willingly dating these guys out of interest", while I am sure some do, some are young and in love and let's all put themselves in their place, I'll use myself as an example. When I was ridiculously young, I had the biggest crush on Jensen, let's use our imaginations now, let's say Jensen was into me and did everything in his power to sweep me off my feet. Him being my ideal, do you really think I wouldn't have fallen? Especially since he would have the advantage of being older and much less naive than me so he could probably manipulate me easily. My point is some of these women fall in love because those men were their ideal to begin with. So before judging consider your own celebrity crushes, just because you eventually become a celebrity yourself doesn't mean you become immune to your ideals.

So I don't judge these women without first finding out what they are all about. Because I know that when you are deeply in love with someone you can get blindsided and if they are anything like me and believe powerfully in love, they are probably just looking to find their "fairytale" ending.

I really hate it when people throw tags on women easily, sure some are gold diggers like Danneel Ackles but some are just young and in love.

I agree with you, relationships with huge gaps don't work unless there is true love there. Unfortunately, most people pat men on the back for always looking for fresh meat and call the women wh****. Older men are always looking for younger women and derailing their life.

That being said, I hope Chris is different and yes, his girlfriend looks much younger (she stars in Warrior Nun, I believe?) and, personally, unless there is true love there on both sides, I am deeply offput by men who seek out much younger women. Leo di Caprio is another example and people often like to blame the women. Not saying some don't date him for fame or whatever but this doesn't mean we should encourage sociopathic tendencies such as only viewing women as objects and discarding them once they "expire".

I know this is an unpopular opinion but it's my mine so feel free to ignore anything that doesn't resonate and thank you for being vulnerable. I am sorry to hear that even within the Evans fandom people try to police opinions. There's absolutely nothing wrong with having preferences and, at the end of the day, people should do what makes them happy. I could never, ever date someone younger than me, just as I could never trust someone older than me. That's just me, someone else might be completely different and that's fine. It doesn't mean we should ignore our intuition and reasoning so my advice is, if you are into someone older then please make sure that person truly loves you, don't derail your life over someone who's just looking to use you.

Sorry, Anon, I hijacked your post with my thoughts. 😊 Please know you are not alone in your perception, I look deeply into older men's motivations when I see them date younger women and I even have friends that married young to older men, it's a miserable path because that person gets your youth and the best of you and might not exactly be into you for all the right reasons. Not saying all relationships of that type are that way but we definitely should be balanced and cautious.

Sending you a big hug, sorry you had a not so ideal experience within the fandom.

[babycatlix]

It is I, resident ot8 SKZ stan (who is turning into a Felix stan and is proud of it), coming at you with a very important question, oh esteemed one.

Ever since I saw my first clip of Felix on Day 1 of the Seoul Concert - the first Maniac Tour Day - I have been calling him "Bambi" in my head. He's just so... deer-like? Splaying limbs? Dainty features and thin baby neck? Strangely strong shoulders and legs for his build? Sticks to the other Kids like a fawn?

Also, everyone wants a piece of him, lol. Innocent venison vibss coming in STRONG.

Jokes aside I think we should consider adding it to our lists of nicknames for him.

So????

Thoughts????

(I very honestly almost just made this post and tagged u for it for ur opinion. Did I chicken out? Yes. Yes I did.)

Anyway hope u have an excellent day!!! ❤️

hello anon! this is so cute 🥰 you should've made a post and tagged me! that way other ppl could give their opinions too! ... but i guess they still can on the ask 😂😅 but i get it! shyness sometimes gets the better of us! 💖

tbh, i've never thought of him as a baby deer 🤔 but that's probably bc in my head baby deer aren't the most graceful animals 😂 they're a little clumsy when they walk and felix is such a smooth dancer. BUT i will say his eyes are certainly very doe-like, big and innocent (when he's not dancing on stage lol)

i don't see any problem with calling him "bambi" i think it's cute and your reasoning is very solid! but he'll always be "sunshine" to me 🥰 i hope you also have a good day anon! stay safe out there and stay hydrated! 💖

anyone else have any thoughts???

[goldensunset]

please. pleeeeeeeease do not say unrelated negative and/or ship-related things in the notes and tags of my posts completely uncalled for. before you speak. read my tags and rediscern.