#I feel like kids need to be forced to read The Hunger Games

[tearueful]

I'm sorry, what.

...what the fuck do you mean he doesn't deserve to be charged?

He gunned down a man in cold blood in the street.

You have lost the plot if you're trying to make this man a hero. No one gets to have a little murder as a treat.

No one needs to shed one tear for a murdered CEO, but don't pretend like the act itself isn't deplorable.

Please do highlight how fucked up and greedy UHC is, please do continue to circulate and promote the injustice they've caused. Please do continue to highlight how America's private health care system is utter garbage.

-but if you're justifying murder? You're not on the good side. That man didn't kill that CEO for a GLORIOUS REVOLUTION. He killed him for attention and he did it effortlessly because we live in a nation seeped in gun violence.

well, they found him. and unfortunately, he’s a bit weird. posted a bunch of stuff on X. politically extremely hard to pin down. i just want to remind you all—standing united against megacorporations should not be, and does not need to be, a political position. we can disagree with the suspect on other issues and still believe he doesn’t deserve to be charged. let’s demonstrate that this issue transcends other political squabbles

say it with me, everyone: “I’m not interested in engaging with the Culture War. I’m interested in engaging in the Class War. We can argue about that other, petty stuff once multi-billion dollar companies aren’t allowed to kill people indiscriminately under the law anymore.”

[libertyybellls]

finnick odair + black!district 11!reader?? thank you and happy holidays 💓

SEA AND THE ROCK BELOW !

pairing; finnick odair x f!black!district11!reader

summary; you and finnick mentor your tributes before their games. yet only finnick can understand your unease.

contains: ANGST/FLUFF, comfort. mentions of death (it’s the hunger games babe)

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being back at the capitol is bittersweet, the smell of roses overwhelm you in each room your in but you know you’ll find exactly who you’re looking for here.

mentoring two unsuspecting kids- to send them into a battle they’ll likely lose- it haunts you. you could do it millions of times ams yet even then you will not be able to shake the feeling of grief, of failure.

finnick knows where to find you- he maps you out in his heart and finds you in an isolated end of the hotel hallway.

you’ve just sent your tributes off to bed- you’ve given them all you know. they ask how you won your games, how you came out okay.

and you lie through your teeth. i didn’t come out alright. in my mind- i lost my games. you think that anyone who died in your games had won, atleast they’d left with their dignity.

he finds you at the right moment- before you can lose yourself in your mind. finnick pulls you into the most forceful yet endearing hug you’d only ever felt from him.

his love, his trust, his understanding- it all seeps into you. there is only adoration seeping from his pores as he looks at you, as he breathes you in.

you can’t remember the last time you’d seen him, there’s very few times you can cross districts unless it’d been unpleasant visits to the capitol.

you look at him, you can’t find the words.

“i know.” he holds your face, so soft you almost melt. putty under his touch.

you think about your tributes, a thirteen year old boy and a sixteen year old girl. what do they know? they’re babies, someone’s baby, someone’s little boy and girl.

you want to scream, you want to yell, you want to throw things.

“it’s not fair finnick.” you repeat this over and over. you begin to grow hysterical.

your hands go to cover your eyes, your tears spill with each passing breath.

“i can’t do this. every year-“ it takes a piece of you, you want to say.

every year i lose two kids from my district to a cash-rich spectacle for the upper class. for their viewing pleasure.

each year you lose faith. faith that finnick rebuilds each year, faith that he works to restore.

he holds you now, keeps you steady in his arms. kissing your forehead.

“when this is over we’ll be long gone, far away from here.” he speaks into your hair “how many kids do you want? two? eight?”

you laugh, “four.”

“a nice little house by the sea. i can fish, you can lay in the sun, read to me like you always do. our kids will play in the water.”

you can only manage to let out a small mhm of understanding through your smiles- your cheeks still wet.

“but for now, we have to get through this. and i need my girl to be okay. none of this is your fault.”

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a/n; happy holidays babe and ofc. i tried my best but there’s so few places that ppl from two separate districts could get to know each other ykwim 🙁 but i hope u like it.

[goblins-riddles-or-frocks]

Do you mean Katniss Everdeen?

The original tag was @susandsnell’s but I assumed it was about Katniss Everdeen.

At least personally, I don’t think her getting guilt tripped into marrying Peeta and having children with him is a fulfilling ending for her whatsoever. I guess unpopular opinion, but her feelings for him always read to me as more platonic and that the romantic angle was more being forced on her. And she literally starts out the series explicitly stating that she never wants children!

I understand the thematic thing Collins was trying to do, where by suggesting that Katniss feels safe enough to have children, it illustrates that the games are like well and truly over and they live in a society that’s safe for children now. But I don’t care lmao I don’t think the protagonist’s wants and desires need to be crushed in order to make that theme happen. In the first book we also see how resentful Katniss feels about being forced into the role of a caregiver, and just, nothing about her suggests that, after All That Trauma, she’s somehow going to be more amenable?

If Collins really needed to make that point end it with her be a fucking school teacher idk. Or give one of her few still living friends a kid and note that she’s feeling optimistic about it. The entire nuclear family set up just felt truly gross and forced on her to me— and the emphasis on how traumatized she still is just read to me like she’s all around unhappy with her life. Like obviously trauma does not magically go away but it truly felt like the book was sacrificing all chances of personal happiness for Katniss to make that ending happen.

And even then, if the execution was good, if it was completely believable that that is what happiness looks like for her by the end of the story, I still dislike it narratively. Why must marriage and a baby be the only way the story telegraphs success and happiness for its female protagonist?

If the main point is about the future of the children of Panem, Katniss is herself a child, the epilogue’s timeskip notwithstanding. Why isn’t it enough to focus on her security and future without making her a mother?

The white picket fence ending feels like an especially bizarre choice to me next to the way the series also presents Snow trying to force an idyllic narrative on her for the Capitol audience. Like consider the framing of the showy wedding dress and fake wedding planning, Peeta claiming that she’s pregnant to try to garner more audience and therefore donor sympathy, or even the propaganda video they try to film in the third book where they try to make her look glamorous and it entirely falls flat, and they end up doing a candid video instead. The narrative keeps making a point of how Katniss is idealized and romanticized in this very traditionally feminine way and how alien that feels to her. And then… the series ends with her framed in the exact same way?

But then, that’s always been my main problem with the Hunger Games in the first place. It’s far too enamored with the pageantry it’s also trying to critique, and it ends up undercutting its own purpose. So yeah, I guess, it isn’t surprising that the toothless series has a toothless ending but shfhff doesn’t mean I have to like it!

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[nebulablakemurphy]

Just read all your shit with Haymitch in it and

A) I’m obsessed with it omfg no one writes for Haymitch AND THAT FACT THAT ITS SO WONDERFUL AND WELL WRITTEN?!?! god it has my heart

B) Y/N going on her fucking Tablets after their first time is so funny for some reason to me, like Haymitch is drowning in his sorrow and she’s just being a lil ipad baby. Like she’s the kind of chick that when their finished to roll over and play clash of clans💀

C) Y/N is sooo mirrorball coded. “I'll show you every version of yourself tonight” the way she forces Haymitch to constantly self reflect that makes him realize how much he admires her selflessness. The chorus is them trying to keep their love something secret and just there’s. AND DO I EVEN NEED TO EXPLAIN THE BRIDGE OMG

D) Not to be a sadist but god I love Haymitch’s internal conflict about feeling so guilty for everything. Also correct me if I’m wrong but him being her highest bidder so she wouldn’t get sold to some creep…my heart💔

anyways the new movie has me back in my hunger games faze and yours fics are all I think about.

I’m not kidding I was zoning out thinking about Lavender Haze today and didn’t slowdown while turning and thank god there was no traffic or else I would have caused a fucking collision

Screaming thank you! Haymitch deserves all the fics, his character has always been so interesting to me.

Y/N is an iPad kid, she’s definitely the type to be like “look, Haymitch.” Whenever she reaches a new level on her games. But the way she whips open her notes app whenever something is wrong it’s like girl, what if Snow hacks the iPad 😂 But on a more serious note, she respects the tablet and understands that it can retain a lot more information than she can especially when it comes to helping her tributes.

Mirrorball is an EXCELLENT representation of Y/N and their relationship.

Haymitch obviously feels so bad that he has to marry Y/N to keep her safe from being sold and then ultimately has to participate in her “working” for the Capitol anyway. He wanted to completely save her but all he can really do is soften the blow.

You’re so real for that, I’m glad you didn’t crash

[ofmermaidstories]

merm...bkg hunger games au....

okay so here are my initial thoughts:

1) im actually probably way too into the hunger games to be having this discussion lmfaoooo. im too into it, it’s too perfect, i love it too much. it is basically the pinnacle of all YA and i will fight literally everyone on that.

2) so with the first point in consideration, are we talking like a strict 1:1 AU? Setting it in New America/Panem? Districts with distinct specialities? Commentary about reality TV and modern entertainment entwined with like, the trauma that comes with war and trying to break free of generational curses and etc etc etc? RE: reality TV, I do think we could probably modernise that just a teeny weeny little, to include like, idk, some bullshit about how we’re always under constant surveillance and how we no longer have the time/option to be unavailable (because we’re so connected!). and since we’re like, apart of an actual fandom, maybe we could throw in some stuff about how our more privileged/sheltered audience members would engage in like, stan culture about all these dying kids, LOL. Shipping wars that ends bitterly because one half of the pairing like, idk, clubs the other to death LMAO. Real People Fanfic and the culture war that would come from that (people having a problem with RPF of the tributes bc they’re real people, but like also conveniently like… forgetting they’re real people who are being forced into a death match). would we throw in a line about Reader and/or Bakugou discovering self-insert Gamefic? lmao no wait i made myself snort, we’re absolutely keeping that LMAO. anyways im gonna cut myself off here bc otherwise i will ramble on, but that brings us to point numero-threeo—

3) i recently rewatched Battle Royale (a “random” class entered wins a yearly lottery then dumped on a remote island where they have three days to murder each other—all in the name of keep the status-quo, etc etc, also this is somehow a solution to sky-high unemployment rates etc etc etc.). if we kept the Quirks then like, you could spin it as a dystopian AU where people are fearful of quirks being too powerful, so then ya death-match children are pulled from hero classes and we make Reader end up in there accidentally or something, and oh no! they’re also quirkless (and defenceless hehe).

4) idk. i know i was like hehe i like war! but like, i don’t know how to emphasise how much i love the hunger games LMAO. and how that love sort of translates into the same fierceness i feel about BNHA, when it comes to fanfic—that the canon characters have certain inevitabilities you have to honour. just like no matter the universe, we are always going to need a Bakugou who’s centered around his friends (Deku, always, in any capacity. Kirishima, the first equal he had. Shouto, his frustrating Bestie <3), to me the hunger games works as well as it does because it’s war through the lens of relationships. Gale as the danger of unhealed anger, Peeta as choosing peace—like… that’s the magic of THG to me, and i just…… like…… what are we gonna do with the relationships, with a BNHA cast? 🥺 What would Bakugou be? Do we start with a Bakugou who’s still in Bastard Mode? Has he gone through his canon growth by the time he and Reader meet? If he has, then how was that facilitated in our new world? Did he and Deku end up in the same game? Survive together somehow? How many of their peers and friends do they lose, or does that come later on? How do we fit Reader into that dynamic naturally? the romance in THG happens through like, a need to play the game, play it up for the cameras, but it’s born out of Peeta’s very real feelings for Katniss, that started when they’re kids, and I’m not a childhood friends-to-lovers person (writing wise). The “romance” (if u can call it that) in Battle Royale is probably more culpable to what i do (vague awareness of each other/one-sided crush, grows as they prop each other up) but… idk!!! idk!!!! we could just write up Bakugou and Reader sharing a cave and making out over a festering wound but like…. idk!!! i believe in earning our kisses. 😌 show me the build up in the war-torn society first, and then maybe we can have a kiss later on, lmfaoooo.

[hesitantlyhopefulspren]

Sorry for the odd question:

Do you have a favourite book?

Normal question I think.

But difficult to answer.

RAMBLED A LOT, REALISED ANSWER IS NO. But. I can't delete the ramble.

To start with. Since I was a kid I devoted myself to hp. Went along with a few comics (Asterix, Tintin, Geronimo Stilton ✌🏾). Jk Rowling stuff made me crash and stop reading for a while. Because. I'd put a lot of eggs into that basket, and suddenly the basket made me feel incredibly bad carrying it.

Started thinking more about the reasons I want to care about books.

Always have a soft spot for magnus chase series because made me realise I'm bi. Rick Riordan books are good in general.

Love artemis fowl.

Read bunch of the fantasy books. Tried out sci-fi, classics, thrillers, mystery, wasn't too interested. Liked hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy a lot, though I didn't understand a lot then.

Hunger games, lotr, bunch of standalone books as I started to realise there are good non-fantasy books which are not a series.

Then stopped reading since lockdown started.

THEN started reading again towards end of 2021. Starting with Cosmere.

Stormlight archive is more of a favourite than other Cosmere books, because kaladin. Also extremely good mental art from that whole series. Also plenty of fanart.

Good omens.

Recently started Discworld, finished guards! Guards! yesterday. have to actively force myself to stop reading because I know i have work. BUT ITS GREAT and I'm loving it. And I'll start Earthsea at some point. So.

Yeah. Which is a lot to say that I don't have a favourite. Different books occupy different shelves in my heart because they ended up being what I needed at the right times, I think.

[thealwayshungrygames]

through peeta's eyes

the 74th games through peeta's eyes! ♡

[ chapter 1 ]

I hate today, granted I can't think of a single soul in panem who enjoys reaping day, excluding the capitol of course.

District 12, being on the outskirts of panem and as far away from the capitol as possible, is usually lifeless and dejected but every year on reaping day the whole place feels like its at a standstill, it's so quiet all throughout the district. There's never usually any customers on reaping day, maybe a few after the reaping is finished and sometimes a couple of kids trying to trade what they've hunted that morning for some bread. I don't like the silence in the bakery, there's nothing to distract my disquieted mind, all I can do is try and get ready while Effie Trinket's speech repeats in my head over and over again like a broken record, "may the odds be ever in your favour," I can't help but imagine her reading my name through that microphone, knowing that I more than likely wouldn't see my district, my family, my home ever again it terrifies me every year. I've managed to escape the hunger games for the past four years, I'm luckier than most kids in my district, I'm the baker's son. My family, despite having three kids to feed, has never really struggled for food therefore I've never had to take out any tesserae and get my name put into the reaping lottery more times than its required in exchange for a years supply of grains and oils. I know majority of the kids in my class and all around the district are forced to take out tesserae as it can be their only chance at survival, I could never imagine being in that position.

The constant thoughts of what would I do if my name was called out wont stop, I know my chances aren't as high as the other kids in the district and technically I'm in a better position than majority of the other boys but nothing is impossible and hearing "Peeta Mellark" could switch from an imaginative scenario to my reality. I need to stop, I can feel my hands getting sweatier and I need to cool off. I sit on the front steps of the bakery despite my mother telling me not to so I dont ruin my nice clothes. I just sit and watch the dust and leaves get taken by the hot wind, there's no kids or parents outside this morning, they're all inside trying to scrape up their nicest clothes and fixing themselves up for the reaping. I'm drawing little doodles in the dirt with a stick when I see these big, very worn boots standing in front of me.

"Is your dad home?" I look up and standing over me is this very muscular and big boned brunette boy, he hasn't gotten changed into his 'nice' clothes yet and he's holding a dead squirrel by its legs. I recognise him, his name is Gale Hawthorne, I don't know him awfully well apart from the fact that his dad was a miner and died in the big mine explosion that happened and ever since then he's hung around with the skinny girl with the brunette braid who sings from my class, even though he's a year older than us. They both see my father regularly trading all sorts of animals that they hunt and kill for food such as bread.

"Inside, decorating a cake I think, why?" Although I know exactly why, he's hoping that my father will trade this squirrel for a loaf of bread, maybe even more because its reaping day and maybe my father will feel compassion for him, I certainly would, I heard his name was in the lottery over 40 times, his age and hunting ability made him the main provider for his family after his father's death and he's had to take out tesserae under his name for each of his 3 younger siblings. Selfishly, seeing him standing in front of me with the squirrel and knowing his need for tesserae calms me down, knowing his name is in there so many more times than mine makes me realise how little my chances truly are compared to a lot of other boys.

"I want to trade this squirrel with him." He says.

I tell him i'll be right back and take the squirrel from him. As I'm walking inside with it I notice that it's been hit right in the eye, I knew he was a good hunter as he's often around the bakery trading something with my father but I hadn't ever seen such a clean shot on his animals. I give the squirrel to my dad and he gives me a loaf of bread and four fresh cookies, one for him and each of his siblings, out of the fresh batch he had baked just this morning. My dad usually bakes a big batch of cookies every reaping morning, his attempt at lightening the dampened mood in the household.

"Here." I put a half smile on my face, my own attempt at lightening the mood. "Good luck." I say, god knows he needs it more than I do.

"Yeah, thanks." He broadens his shoulders and walks away as if he's trying not to succumb to the mournful feeling in the air. As I watch him walk away, already taking a bite from one of the cookies, I think about what his chances of survival would be if he got reaped, they certainly would be a lot higher than mine.

I go back inside and try and fix my hair, the heat has made me sweat and it's starting to show in my hair. Mum slicks it back with some gel and then tucks my blue shirt into my shorts. Before I know it it's time to leave, I stare at myself in my mirror for a second and think to myself 'will this be the last time I see myself in these clothes?'

The town square is packed to the brim with nearly the whole of district 12. Every child aged 12 - 18 is here waiting to find out if they live or die. The same video from the capitol that plays every year before the reaping is playing, the video is glamorising the hunger games and trying to convince us that they aren't as cruel as we believe and are purely a result of the districts own actions from 'the dark days', a war that ended 67 years ago. It truly frightens me how cruel a whole population of people can be, so cruel that they find forcing innocent children to fight to the death every year as a spectacle, they celebrate it likes it some sort of holiday while families in the districts are being torn apart and peoples whole worlds are being turned upside down. Instead of watching the video I find myself looking around, looking at all these people I know and wondering if this will be my last look at them ever, my classmates, my brothers, even Gale. Maybe even myself.

The video stops and Effie Trinkets heels click across the stage. Effie Trinket is district 12's capitol escort, she is sent by the capitol to present our reaping day and accompany the two tributes to and through the capitol. She dresses in such bizarre and boisterous clothing I can't help but giggle at her huge wigs and crazy outfits. Effie tries to start her small speech before the reaping but Haymitch Abernathy, district 12s only alive victor, stumbles across the stage and steals the microphone from her, in a drunken rage he starts yelling sentences that nobody in the crowd can understand before collapsing and being dragged back to his seat, watching him always makes it clear why he is district 12's only victor since the 50th hunger games, because he is meant to be our mentor, that drunk mess is meant to guide the tributes through the games and teach them how to win.

Effies face slowly loses the bright red colour that Haymitch caused her as she tries to steer the reaping back on track and save district 12 from being the laughing stock of the capitol, once again.

"As always, ladies first." She makes her way over to the bowl on the right with all the young daughters of district 12s names in it, she waves her hand around before picking one piece of paper and reading it to the crowd, before sending one girl to die.

"Primrose Everdeen." Her voice echoes through the crowd, silence. I look up and see Gale put his head down in sorrow, the only time I have ever shown him truly let his guard down. I look to my right and I see little Primrose desperately looking around as if she's silently begging for someone else's name to be read out instead, I truly don't understand how someone can be so unlucky, she was only twelve years old and had never taken out tesserae, her name was in the lottery once and only once.

Primrose slowly starts walking out of the pack of girls and through the middle walkway, still looking around praying that this isn't real. Suddenly my head snaps around as I hear another voice yelling "Prim! Prim!" Her sister, Katniss Everdeen, the skinny brunette girl who sings at school. I have never properly interacted with Katniss apart from once, a few years ago, during a thunderstorm I noticed her sitting, leaning, against the big tree out the front of the bakery whilst I was baking more bread. She looked so lifeless, she couldn't even stand up properly, a result from constant starvation. I had noticed her around school before that and started growing curious about her after hearing her sing in the schoolyard, she captured me with her brown eyes and I wanted nothing more than to get to know her properly but why would she ever like me? I was the baker's son, for all she knew I had never struggled, her and I were in no way similar, I never stood a chance. After seeing her hunched over at the tree, so colourless and torpid, I burnt the loaf of bread I was meant to be baking, this angered my mother as food was scarce during the wintertime and we could barely afford to eat the food that we sold. She hit me over the head and pushed me out the front where she yelled at me to feed the burnt bread to the pigs and hit me one more time before storming inside. I noticed Katniss just staring at me, watching the whole encounter, I got embarrassed that she witnessed that. I started tearing off a couple of pieces of bread and threw them to the pigs, I looked over to the tree and she was still just watching me, I looked back at my bread and threw her the rest of the burnt loaf, she finally lifted her head and slowly moved towards the bread, she looked at me disoriented and puzzled, charity was not well known in district 12, in a world like ours it's all about self preservation.

"I volunteer! I volunteer as tribute." Katniss cries out. A volunteer? District 12 has never seen a volunteer in the whole 74 years of the games.

When the shock of Prim's reaping dies down Effie walks towards the bowl with all the boys names, I can't look up, every year I can never look up.

"Peeta Mellark!"

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yay! finished chapter 1! this is lowkey so embarrassing if nobody reads this lolllll but oh well! here's a link for a tag list just incase anybody does read this and wants to know when I post a new chapter! (i hope it works, soo awks if it doesn't)

ps! I've finished and uploaded this at 3:22am so please if there's any grammar and/or spelling mistakes ignore themmmmm!!!!

[kikipops117]

Book reports, anyone?

(I've gotta give some loopooong context first so skip this block of text if you wanna get to the action of my words or if you dont want your opinion of me to sour cuz im gonna be brutally honest and not mince words about what drove me to this point :.)

Because of my crusade to spend less time on the internet, I read more books in 2024 than I have cumulatively in years. And it altered my brain chemistry. In a good way. Maybe "healed" is a better word for it.

I know I am not alone in the camp of people who got out of high school and suddenly became starved for the drive to read. Devouring books as if I needed them to breathe was a hallmark of my childhood, and it was scary how easily I just fell into quitting and didn't even notice it. As a kid, I would finish a book and felt as if I'd lost a limb until I found another story to jump into. But I stepped out of my childhood bliss and into grown-up care, and it's like one day I woke up and didn't need to breathe anymore. I became an adult without holding on to what used to be a load-bearing facet of my life. Sure, I'd occasionally re-read the classics (LOTR and Hunger Games mostly), but I didn't pick up anything new, and I didn't want to. All the while, my screen time crept higher and higher.

The only thing that opened my eyes to what was, by all evidence, a phone addiction, was the sudden realization that I could no longer be content inside my head. I needed overstimulatuon to feel at ease. I needed tiktok on in the background while I ate, worked, exercised. I started writing again, and when I instinctually reached for my phone and told myself no, I got irritable and fussy like a smoker being cut off from their nicotine. I would watch movies on my phone and during slow moments I would literally swipe up on habit, trying to get a hit of dopamine from something shocking and fast, only to realize what I'd done and feel all kinds of shame and embarrassment. Something needed to change.

In 2023 I decided to try to read more. It went okay, I was able to finish 2 or 3 books, but I didn't cut off my internet addiction. I was living alone in a house with no wifi. My only connection to the internet, my friends, news, was social media. My screen time got worse and worse as I packed my reading ajd writing so tightly between my scrolling sessions that I had little time for anything else, and my brain was asphyxiating.

In 2024, Akane and I moved into a house together, and because she needs internet to function, we got wifi. A first for me in almost 4 years. Up until that point, all of my writing had to be done on my smartphone. I had a little Bluetooth keyboard I'd hook up to it, and I literally wrote two rough drafts for novels purely on my phone. So to be able to write from the comfort of my laptop with my phone on silent across the room felt liberating. As if I'd written the prior two novels under the oppressive thumb of an abusive overseer who so graciously allowed me just enough free time to think for myself so long as I paid my dues by scrolling for hours on end once I was put of steam. I was so codependent on short-form content and staring at my phone. My cell was like my only lifeline to my faraway friends (during the pandemic I was forced to move somewhere remote and at least 300 miles in any direction from any friends). It was also my only key to my greatest passion, which is writing. I couldn't just turn away from it! That would be like asking a fish never to breathe water again, but leaving him in the tank to tread with his gills above water.

Encouraged by my newfound freedom from my phone, I decided this year to do something drastic. I had a tiktok page (not the one you will find under my name now, btw,) that was like my video journal to all the hoopla that goes on in my life. I had a few thousand followers and a few million likes and views. It was doing really well and it was on the up. I decided to delete it. (I'm ashamed to admit that it was only this past month that I found the courage to remove Instagram from my phone as well once I found myself sneaking back into reels in order to get to short-form content. I'd kept Instagram because I told myself that I needed to keep up with the lives of my friends. Then I realized that I already spoke every day to my closest circle via text and I was kidding myself if i thought I needed insta to stay close to them.)

With the section of my brain usually devoted to processing endless tiktoks suddenly freed up, I found myself pondering a new writing project. This was unlike anything I'd worked on before, and it was the first concept I'd had in years that sparked such intense excitement and passion. I began writing and found the process easier than ever. But as I went, I became acutely aware that I had ZERO comp-titles for this project that I wished to someday query. (For those who don't know, a comp title is a preexisting book or work that is comparable to your project. When you are looking for an agent or publisher for your book they want you to give them a list of comp titles so they know what your target audience is going to be and how best to market it.)

I didn't have any comp titles because I hadn't read anything in years. And years. How could I dream so much about entering the space of authors when I'd neglected that world for so long? That would be like Ariel wishing to walk on land all of her life but never exploring ship wreckage or breaking the surface to talk to Skuttle.

Additionally, I found myself writing in a way that felt repetitive. Why did everything sound the same? Why was I leaning on a handful of descriptors and metaphors? Because I couldn't remember how books were supposed to feel. I believe it was Stephen King who said that the best advice he can give to authors is to read? Well, I knew then that I needed to read.

But I felt intimidated.

I'm not into "spicy" reading, and the only exposure I'd had to the literary space for the past several years was what I occasionally brushed up against online on Booktok. It was hard not to feel like the entire culture around reading had turned into fairy porn while I was away, lol. Which is not bad! But that's not what I want to write about or read. So I was uncertain where I should start. I can't exactly remember what I did, but I an pretty sure I Google something stupid like "best fiction novels of the past 5 years" and decided to start there. I got my hands on Project Hail Mary, Tress of the Emerald Sea, and This Woven Kingdom.

People often use an analogy to express how easy it should be to pick up where you started on a hobby. "It's like riding a bike! You just don't forget!" Well, I've never related to that stupid analogy because it took me forever to learn how to ride a bike, me being an anxious amd clumsy kid, and after I finally figured it out when I was eight, two weeks later I shattered five bones in my foot while tripping over a dog and had to spend the summer in a hard foot cast. By the time I was finally free, I'd completely forgotten how to ride a bike and had to start the whole scary and traumatizing process all over again.

That's kinda how I felt this past year. In a fit of binging, I tore through Project Hail Mary and Tress, and went on to Yumi and The Nightmare Painter and it was so stinking hard! Even though I was obsessed with the story, I still had to put it down for long periods of time and it took me a while to finish it. It wasn't until this past summer when my sister came to visit and suggested I read, of all books, Twilight, that something finally clicked into place.

Okay. I know what you're thinking. Please don't judge. Hear me out.

I've never read Twilight. My sister was obsessed with them when we were girls but I was into other things. But the movies were a regular occurrence in my house and I went with my sister and mom to see all of the movies in theaters (except for Breaking Dawn part 1. I didn't see that one, so when I went with them to see part 2 I was MAD confused the whole time lol)

When my sister came to visit this summer, she wanted to do a Twilight movie marathon and I was all in. The movies remind me of simpler times, and we had a ball watching and laughing as adults with fully developed frontal lobes and a soft spot for nostalgia.

When she left, she told me I needed to read the books so we could better commiserate and I finally folded. I hopped on Thriftbooks (not a sponsor but I ADORE thriftbooks and would love for them to hmu someday lol) and I was able to get all 4 books for like, $20 with one of the sales they put on.

I read the first book and wow. I will withhold my opinion on it for now (you'll understand why later). I didn't want to jump right into the second book, I needed a pallet cleanser. But I was really loving the nostalgic feeling I got from Twilight. It kept me reading so avidly because the story was not intimidating and there was a sense of comfort and familiarity mixed with the newness. So I decided to pursue that line of thinking and read something that would give me the same feeling.

ENTER THE HALO BOOKS.

If you've found my trashy side blog, then you know by now how obsessed I am with the halo video games (CE, 2, 3, ODST, Reach, and Red vs Blue specifically). My sister read a few of the books when we were kids but I never did. I have dyslexia, and it was REALLY bad for me when I was little. It took me until 5th grade to start reading for fun, and I decided as a kid that I didn't want to deal with all of the science stuff in the Halo books when I could be reading about drsgons and wizards and junk.

So I'd never read the books despite my adoration of the games, and the series felt like it would be the perfect mix of nostalgia and intrigue to get me into it.

I was not anticipating the sorrows™️

I read the Fall of Reach and was devastated, of course. But I was obsessed and had to keep going. So I read The Flood next. Also heart wrenching. I needed a break from all the sadness and read New Moon (twilight 2) and once again, mixed with so much nostalgia and frustration with the characters lol.

This brings us up to the present day.

In search of something that wouldn't be so heavy as the Halo books and so infuriating as the Twilight books, I decided to read Interview with the Vampire this past week, with zero context about the content or tone of the book. I chose it simply because I love vampires and the book I'm writing is about a vampire and when researching the best works of fiction about vampires, Anne Rice's works are in the top list of contenders.

I cracked open my Thriftbooks copy of IWTV on Wednesday, and I finished it late last night. I couldn't put it down. I. Am. Obsessed. The prose. The story. The way that it made me uncomfortable at times, the way it totally should, and made me just swoon with how stinking pretty the writing is. I love the introspection, the exploration of morals and purpose. I am going to digress here because the purpose of this blog post is not to review IWTV but suffice it to say, I loved.

I finished reading late last night and felt the feverish need to share my feelings with SOMEONE. obviously I'm a little late in the game for this book though. It came out in the 70s. But I couldn't shake the feeling that I needed to put my thoughts on what I'm reading somewhere. I am an avid journaler, but I give her a play by play as I'm reading. The eloquence of IWTV felt almost like I was reading a book for a literature or philosophy class, it was so gorgeous and explored such themes. So naturally, my train of thought arrived at the conclusion that I needed to write a book report.

That is why I wrote this long blog post. Because I am here to tell you that I am going to start writing little baby book reports on what I read! Because I want to!

So, if you're interested to know what I'm reading these days and how i feel about it, then you're gonna be fed because I'm cooking. I have found more lasting dopamine and joy in reading books this past year than I ever did scrolling or posting on tiktok. I've felt a stronger connection with my sister, mom, and friends as we talk and gush about what I've been reading. I finish a reading session, and I feel like my mind is invigorated, not numb. I'm inspired to imagine and think and create, as opposed to the bitter addiction that scrolling trapped me in that kepy me hungry to consume. Never ending. I can chronical my entertainment with narrative start and finishe, which satisfies and inspired in a way that hours and hours online can never replicate.

If you're looking for a sign to do as I've done, then please consider this it. And consider me an ally along the way, because it was hard. But so so rewarding.

That's all! :) thanks for reading

[downtherabbitholewithauntieblegh]

For educational purposes only.

Earlier I made a post about Charlotte's Web being a banned book and it got me to thinking.....

Have you ever seen the list of banned books? I have and some of the books on the list have no business being banned. These books were banned by guess who? OFFENDED PEOPLE, with no respect for people that think differently they do. Banning books to me equals the dumming down of Americans.

Here are just a few other books other than Charlotte's Web that are on the banned books list. I will throw in some thoughts here and there. Here we go....

1. The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini (It follows the journey of Amir, a young boy from Kabul, and is set against the tumultuous background of Afghanistan's history, from the fall of the monarchy through to the rise of the Taliban regime. Think the summary tells you why they banned it, imo.)

2. Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins (I read Catching Fire in one day because it's so good! Why is this banned? Maybe the rich of our country want to turn us into a real life Hunger Games.)

3. The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky (this is one of my favorite books/movies. There is profanity in the book, as well as LGBTQIA+ undertones in the book. But nothing worth banning over.)

4. To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee (I have read this book countless times. A California school district forbade teaching “Mockingbird” after parents alleged it was racist for its use of the n-word and portrayal of Black people. Lee's novel made the American Library Association's top 10 list of most challenged books in 2009, 2011, 2017 and 2020. One of the most recents trials for banning this book happened in Biloxi, MS)

5. Of Mice and Men by John Steinbeck (Of Mice and Men by John Steinbeck is regularly on the banned books list put out by the American Library Association. It has been banned because of vulgarity, racism, and its treatment of women. The challenges don't seem to go away as time goes on; even in the twenty-first century, the book is still being challenged. In reality, women are mistreated still today in 2024, so that argument is invalid.)

6. The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn by Mark Twain (The NAACP in the '50s lodged the first major complaint about the novel's use of the racial slur over and over and over — more than 200 times throughout. The most recent and most sustained argument against Mark Twain is, “how can a white man write about racism?" Honestly, I'm on the fence about this ban because I get this complaint.)

7. Goosebumps ~ yeah, you read that right. Goosebumps has been banned. Why you ask? The Goosebumps series was banned by parents who felt that the books were too graphic and scary for their children. Many parents wanted to protect their kids from the element of fear; however, some teachers felt that Goosebumps helped students manage the feeling of being afraid. And I agree with the teachers on this. If we do not teach our kids how to handle any type of fear, we are doing a misjustice to our kids.)

8. The Color Purple by Alice Walker (The book was banned for its sexual content and situations of abuse and domestic violence. This book is a historical fiction about a 14-year-old African American girl named Celie, who writes letters to God because her father abuses her. Celie's father forces her to marry a man who she does not know. My take on this is similar to why Goosebumps was banned. Parents want to do their best to protect their kids. Heck, even though mine are grown, I want to protect them to a certain degree. But on the other side of this double-edged sword, I'm saying this, kids need to read books like The Color Purple. They need to know the reality of this fiction as it actually happens to girls.)

9. Anne Frank : Diary of a Young Girl by Anne Frank ("The Diary of a Young Girl" is more than just an artifact of the Holocaust. It is a tender and intimate coming of age story. Why are people trying to erase real history?)

10. The Catcher in the Rye by JD Salanger (Critical readers have accused it of being blasphemous, racist, misogynist, and ableist. Many parents have worried that the overwhelmingly negative content of Caulfield's stream of consciousness will be a bad influence on their children. Again, here I go asking you to look at the opposite side of the coin here. Why wouldn't you let them read it? We deal with misogynistic people every day. We deal with ableists every day. Don't even get me started on people being racist. It all exists in 2024.)

These are just ten books on the banned book list. Trust me, there are many more. There are some books on the list that I do understand why they were banned. But a book like Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher should not be on this list because our kids are actually exposed to situations like this every day at school. Kids bully. Boys assault girls (that's the decent way to put that so Facebook doesn't flag me). And the schools do nothing to intervene and help.

Did you know that the Bible is considered a banned book? The banning and censoring of the Bible has a long and multifaceted history that continues to this day, and although it is not typically included within popular lists of banned books, it is safe to assert that the Bible is the most banned and censored book in history.

I welcome healthy, respectful conversations on this subject. Chime in below!

[dkehoe]

OK, I can’t believe that we are already in the month of May. This year has gone by so fast! My TBR just keeps growing and I know there are not enough hours in a day/month/year that I can tackle all of the books I want to read. Despite that growing list, I’m going to pick the 5 books that I’m most excited to see being released in May. These five will definitely be on my TBR and hopefully I’ll be able to crack open a page. #5 BOOK RELEASE This is the second outdoor adventure competition romance that I’ve seen coming out in May. They both look cute but this one edged out the other since it’s an adult contemporary. Looks like a fun and easy read and should be put in your carry on for the first beach vacation of the year. Synopsis: Orie Lennox has spent her entire life prepping for her happily ever after — and now that she’s graduated, she’s low-key wondering, when the heck is it gonna hit. Her love life, her new job, her relationship with her sister: none of it is quite what she envisioned it to be. One evening, on a whim, she applies for a reality show where she’ll be stranded on an island, with a bunch of strangers, to play a game of human chess for a shot at a million dollars. What better way to force herself to break up with the things that aren’t bringing her joy, than to abandon them all on short notice to live off the grid on a beach in the South Pacific! Orie’s shocked when she ends up cast in an experimental romantic edition of the show: and even more surprised to find that her old high school crush, Remy, has been cast as well. Orie’s one of ten contestants, set to compete in formidable challenges, while speed dating, in the wilderness: without deodorant, toilets, shaving cream, or showers. (How!?) She finds herself tied up — literally — in a game of risky alliances as she navigates ever-growing feelings for her one that got away, alongside an exciting array of budding new relationships. Click this link to purchase this book!* Attached at the Hip #4 BOOK RELEASE When Nora has one of her romantic suspense releases I want to immediately snatch it up. This one seems to be more sinister than normal. yeah! Synopsis: As they do each June, the Foxes have driven the winding roads of Appalachia to drop off their children for a two-week stay at their grandmother’s. Here, twelve-year-old Thea can run free and breathe in the smells of pine and fresh bread and Grammie’s handmade candles. But as her parents head back to suburban Virginia, they have no idea they’re about to cross paths with a ticking time bomb. Back in Kentucky, Thea and her grandmother Lucy both awaken from the same nightmare. And though the two have never discussed the special kind of sight they share, they know as soon as their tearful eyes meet that something terrible has happened. The kids will be staying with Grammie now in Redbud Hollow, and thanks to Thea’s vision, their parents’ killer will spend his life in supermax. Over time, Thea will make friends, build a career, find love. But that ability to see into minds and souls still lurks within her, and though Grammie calls it a gift, it feels more like a curse—because the inmate who shattered her childhood has the same ability. Thea can hear his twisted thoughts and witness his evil acts from miles away. He knows it, and hungers for vengeance. A long, silent battle will be waged between them—and eventually bring them face to face, and head to head… Click this link to purchase this book!* Mind Games *Amazon Associate- if you purchase one of these books through a link on this blog I’ll receive a small stipend. #3 BOOK RELEASE I have just recently discovered Elle Kennedy’s college hockey series. If you like your romance a bit raunchy and characters with a lot of heart, you need to reach for one of her books. She was recommended to me and I’ve gobbled them all up. Synopsis: Diana Dixon has a lot going on this summer. She’s rehearsing for a ballroom dance competition, juggling two jobs, and dealing with an ex-boyfriend who can’...

[selkies-world]

Can I just add that when you're a "YA" author, you're essentially walking a tightrope with those golden weights from Mulan tied around your wrists?

If you write younger content / stuff with 12 - 15 year old protagonists dealing with first crushes / first kisses & which is aimed at kids who are just starting to outgrow childrens' books? That's for 10 - 14 year olds, but it'll still be marketed to older teens & adults because it's "YA". In turn, that'll make older teens feel alienated because they don't want to read about someone younger than them, and it'll likely go over a parents' head unless their child specifically points it out to them.

If you write more mature content, featuring drugs, alcohol, relationships, sex and trauma, with a 16 - 21 year old protagonist? That's for older teens and adults, but it'll still get marketed to 12 year olds because it's "YA". In turn, this will make the 12 year old think they're mature enough for adult content (not always true), and it'll make adults buy it for themselves rather than for their 17 year old.

Writing YA means trying to juggle mature themes like sex, drugs, relationships & alcohol in a way which makes parents approve of, teens relate to and tweens get excited about, all while trying to put in subtle indicators (in the cover, in the language in the blurb, etc) for which area of YA you're aiming for, even though this will not matter in algorithms. It'd matter in a bookstore or a library, but not online stores, which is where a large amount of people are getting their books now.

What I'm trying to say is that "YA" means 12+ & centres around characters aged from 13 to 21 but will likely be read by 10 year olds and 40 year olds alike. "YA" seems to be more practical to use to define content and themes (coming of age, first time experiencing something which separates your life into "before x" and "after x", majorly life-altering events which force you to grow up very quickly when you don't yet have the skillset required to be a functioning adult, young heroes taking down corruption) rather than age. More and more "YA" books are focusing on adults who read it rather than the teens / young adults it's named after.

Small detour, but it's relevant:

I think there's a lot of similarities between the YA market for books & Marvel / Disney.

Marvel & Disney tell stories about fairies and superheroes and children and magic. So that is aimed at children... right? BUT then, to appeal to a wider demographic, it'll make the attitudes of the characters appeal to teens - cue the moody anti-heroes and the relatable villains and the traumatised heroes entering the scene. THEN, to get the parents to agree to watch it, they'll make the cast a few years older than their characters and more attractive in an adult's eye than a child's. They'll throw some adult jokes and comments into the promotional material to catch the adults' attention while they go over the childrens' heads and make the teens feel grown-up when they understand them. THEN to keep the adults engaged, they'll throw in mature themes like politics and family responsibility, fidelity, etc., but they'll twist it just so, in order for the teens to empathise with it and for the children to feel empowered by it even if they don't fully grasp it - because they don't need to grasp anything other than the layer aimed at them.

Suddenly, its magic and superheroes aren't just for little kids anymore. Suddenly, they're able to be marketed towards every age group at the same time.

And THAT is what is happening to YA. On the surface, it looks like it's just 13 - 17 year olds reading it, because aren't they young adults? Isn't that who is supposed to read YA books? But then it's loved by 10 year olds and 50 year olds alike, because it has layers which appeal to wider demographics than just teens.

Potter, Hunger games, Twilight & Divergent all became popular because of how they united the age groups consuming them. An 8 year old, a 13 year old, a 24 year old and a 45 year old could all talk about the same book and understand each other and feel listened to and have their views appreciated - which is the exact same reason The Avengers are popular, because you'll have all those age ranges dressing up as the same character and being excited about it.

(Also, the fact most successful YA books are actually YA franchises which allow the reader to grow up with the protagonist, is the same logic used by Marvel / Disney in the sense that continuing to make Avengers movies and spin-offs and giving each individual character their own sub-franchise within the collective franchise will continue to pull fans back because they can see themselves growing up and maturing with their favourite characters.)

YA is the one "group" of books which allows adults to feel young again, and that is what makes them popular - they're the only ones which tell adults in their 40s and 60s and 80s that it's OK to sometimes still feel as awkward as a 13 year old or as out of your depth as a 17 year old at the same time and that's not a bad thing. THAT feeling, that feeling of being young again, of being understood, of being rebellious in the face of authority, of being the only one standing your ground... THAT is the thing that sells YA books.

So, like, the thing you have to understand is that prior to the mid-2000s, the "Young Adult" genre as we now know it didn't exist. The expectation was that you would graduate to the adult aisle of the book store at, like, 13-14. This worked because the only people still reading long form novels into their teens were precocious bookworms who were better read than their parents.

Harry Potter changed all this. The success of the Harry Potter books convinced the publishing industry that selling full length novels to normie children was a business model. The thing about the Harry Potter books, though, is that at least for the early books, the target audience was a bit younger than what we think of as the YA demographic; tweens, rather than teens. Now, the publishing very much wanted to keep all these normie kids buying books into their teens and beyond, but the previous model of treating teens as functionally adults for marketing purposes would not work; there was simply no way that normie parents were going to let their normie kids read fully adult novels where the characters, like, do drugs or have unprotected sex and stuff. So, in order to be allowed to market to the teen demographic, the YA genre was created.

However, teens have an inherent interest in reading about sex and violence and drugs, and so authors who are able to incorporate these kinds of themes into their YA novels in a discrete way such that it flies under the radar of the moral guardians are met with success. But this is a precarious tightrope to walk. Not enough "mature" themes and the teens will loose interest, to much or to blatant and the teens won't be allowed to read it. And so, it should come as no surprise, that the first person to successfully navigate this tight rope was a Mormon housewife with a vampire fetish.

[alanfromrochester]

TBOSAS book review

Suzanne Collins, The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes

Incredible Hunger Games background

The movie coming out inspired me to finally get around to the book and I went though it very quickly. That's the sign of an engaging story generally, and one thing I like as an adult reader of YA is straightforward prose making a good story a quick read.

This was a great prequel for background on the main timeframe - as such it works best if you already know the original series as a basis for comparison. I feel Star Trek Enterprise was also like this with the Star Wars prequels being more standalone (though enriched by knowledge of the original)

I figured President Snow took a hard line against rebels because of his family suffering in the first rebellion including his father being killed, canon agrees and expands upon this - material suffering due to the rebel siege and much of the Snow family wealth being in District 13. It also seems like a sort of abused becoming abuser dynamic. For example, antizionists tend to feel Israel is using antisemitism as an excuse to mistreat Palestinians. (That example probably comes to mind with Gaza being major news in late 2023)

Old money falling on hard times seems not uncommon in nobility fiction, so does conflict with new money. Kid not interested in the family business is also an old story.

Dr. Gaul being a mad scientist seems to push him further to evil. Near the start of CF, Snow tells Katniss the Capitol needs to maintain its grip else what follows will be worse; in general, the events surrounding the 10th games really stuck with him over six decades later.

We see a lot of the rest of the Capitol elite - many names are familiar, including a Flickerman who sounds much like Caesar. We also see how the Peacekeepers operate, including on the job training for common recruits rather than a centralized boot camp. Some of Snow's barracks life feels like general parts of military fiction. Coriolanus and Sejanus doing better in training than lower-class recruits made me think of ASOIAF/GOT when Jon joins the Night's Watch. Much of what we see of District 12 life is quite familiar as well.

I also suspected the pomp and circumstance of the Games developed over time and this was confirmed as well. People uninterested in the Games because they recognize the brutality of it showed decent human nature corrupted by being cajoled or forced into watching it, in contrast to Gaul viewing the species as violent and in need of control. In general, I feel THG is a great combination of distract-with-luxury dystopia in the Capitol and brutal suppression dystopia in the Districts. This fits with Suzanne Collins' inspiration of flipping between 'reality' TV and Iraq War coverage.

Since the nature of the Games changed over time, other elements of the Capitol of the main series timeframe might also be different.

Apparently the average Capitolite, even the upper class like young Coriolanus, is not aware of the true fate of District 13.

The haphazard original nature of the Games highlights the Quell cards seeming like a later embellishment rather than original plan including the 3rd being rigged to re-reap Katniss.

Snow did snitch on Plinth, but Sejanus being outspoken was bound to get him in trouble anyway, and I understand Snow not wanting to be dragged down with him. Snow planning to knock some sense into him is helping in a way and assuming daddy would just throw his money around again was a tragic misunderstanding. Sejanus' righteous but foolish hotheadedness does sound something like Gale. No wonder Lucy wants nothing to do with him after that, like the final break between Gale and Katniss at the end of Mockingjay - to whatever extent it is or isn't his fault, she understandably is emotionally offended.

[hankwizard]

Pieces Of Media I Consumed Recently

because i have accepted i cannot, for the life of me, do this in an organized fashion lol

CHAINSAW MAN('s anime)

I read the manga obsessively the moment I heard the premise. I grew up in the era of self-referential, masturbatory, whedon-istic media where no show or comic could just be unapologetically itself without getting weird and "haha isnt it DUMB we're making this?" the whole time. A manga about a guy turning into a chainsaw that is absolutely about a dude who turns into a chainsaw fucking appeals, okay?

Anyways. This is about the anime. The anime almost feels like a film at times- the characters move very.. Realistically. Very on model, which worked in some ways but made it a bit less expressive in others. It didn't have the punk charm of the manga, but otherwise? Steller presentation. I like how the anime further emphasizes that Denji is a kid- giving him more childish mannerisms (such as the infamous scene with himeno) that really hammers home the point of his character- that he's just a manipulated kid who wants some kind of normalcy and, most of all, love.

CHAINSAW MAN('s manga. part 2)

It makes me feel like the absolute joker watching how well thought out Asa is as a protagonist. Traumatic experiences can strip us of our identities- make us feel like all we've done is survive, and therefore, that's all we can do, so watching Asa fret over being a bore and be unable to connect to others without worrying about how things will crumble down is just a delight. I love her. Denji is also great so far! He's just so tired. This part's art has so much subtle improvement and once again Fujimoto is delivering bangers. Yoshida is never beating the yaoi allegations.

FEAR AND HUNGER: TERMINA

The fun thing about autism is that it forces you to enjoy things in the most "yeah this is my life now" of ways, which is fine when your interests are something normal you can explain to people like "dungeons and dragons" or "sailor moon" and not Termina, a game that makes you genuinely debate not if you should sever your enemy's leg, but which one.

Termina is crazy. A survival horror rpg where death is punishing, limbs can be lost AND trans women can do necromancy? It's great and it's terrifying. There's literally an entire area that I avoid because it freaks me out so bad so I GENUINELY take the long way everywhere to avoid it every time.

It's one of those games where any enemy can not only kill you, but maim you in ways that fundamentally change how you play the game. Dealing with enemies is a puzzle: how do you approach them? Do you deal with them now so you never have to deal with them again? Do you run around so you can wait until you're stronger? Do you shoot them from afar or save the precious ammo for something even worse?

It's a special kind of satisfying, but definitely not a game for everyone. I'd recommend reading the content warnings, as it's a dark fantasy with dark fantasy themes. It's also a game for adults only, no exceptions. Feel free to message me if you want to know about any content in the game that isn't listed out in the warnings on the store page. I might make a larger blog post about it later.

SHAMELESS

Ok, at first I really liked it! It's very funny, the characters are very well written, and it's very captivating... But I'm going to be real, the amount of Leering Shots Of Teenage Girls in what I watched of this show is enough to drive me bananas. I don't want to look up the sixteen year old girl's skirt, netflix, I'm ambiguously in my mid twenties. The show's insistence on making me look at karen naked ruined it for me. It didn't even feel like it was saying anything? It just kept happening!!! Anyways, tl;dr, shameless is not for me.

VELMA

So, listen. I need to admit something: I've been deep in the Western Cartoons Discourse Trenches since I googled "My Little Poney Forums" as a young teenager. I never really participated, but I'm aware of the cycle of Discourse that happens whenever a show Like This comes out- a show with marginalized characters that isn't very good, or at least is perceived as such.

I watched Sacrificial Trash and you should too

What generally happens is an outpour of outrage and criticism that's 10% warranted, 30% nitpicky and 60% literal actual bigotry. You end up with a lot of video essays of Yelling Men With Glasses that makes me, a contrarian hipster, really interested in proving the internet wrong and actually Enjoying The Thing.

After watching all of Velma, my verdict is:

I Enjoyed Watching It But Would Not Recommend It To Most

The show is funny! It's visually incredible! It has a fun plotline! It has a lot of nods to older Scooby Doo cartoons that I, as a Child Born After 1960, Enjoy! And I like basically every main character and most of the side characters...

Except... It has two massive, glaring issues in its writing. Two major themes that not only make the show nearly unrecommendable to most people, but also revolve around the worst character in the show, Velma herself.

To start, this show has a massive, gaping problem with self-hating anti-indian racism.

Every time Velma's ethnicity is brought up, it's made out to be a gag!! It's to make fun of her!! She's called an ugly gorilla constantly!!! She's made fun of for being hairy!!! And it's never addressed!!! It's just a running gag that Velma hates being Indian and so does everyone else. It's very uncomfortable. I was hoping it'd tone down but it doesn't. The show doesn't even seem all that aware that her self hatred about her own culture and her ethnic features is... a bad thing? It's very strange. I know a lot of south asian people who refuse to watch the show or didn't continue past episode one because of this and MAN. I get it.

The show also has a bit of a misogny problem, which is weird because it tries to be feminist at times? With Fred learning to appreciate women for more than their appearances, which was nice, but the amount of times femininity and appearance gets conflated with being dumb and vapid is... a lot. And the show seems half aware that this is bad while also just. keeping on doing it. And Velma is usually the one being misogynistic throughout the show, and while they kinda try to develop her past it, it doesn't feel like the show takes it seriously as a theme.

Anyways. If you watched and went "man, this show was very well produced and beautifully executed in its visuals!" like a huge nerd, please know that Amy Winfrey, creator of Making Fiends and a director for both Tuca And Bertie AND Bojack Horseman was the supervising producer and I highly advise checking her out.

PS: Glenn Howerton should do more voice work

[summertimesadnessirl]

No.

She was talking about how poverty in the majority of the world is actually just a bullshit social construct and the only reason we do it is to traumatize people who might otherwise get ideas above their station into both rebellion and hating one another instead of fighting their oppressors and that the rich very much see the desperate flailing attempts of those in poverty to better themselves via the only means available to them such as careers in the entertainment industry, which is unregulated in many ways and rewards people willing to do stunts to suffer for attention as well as those who are successfully able to turn their trauma into a relatable feel good rags to riches story for people who have never experienced anything like that to oooh and ahh over.

I saw a video I can't find now. There was this kid who went to Harvard. He made a video about how his job there was to bring cultural enrichment to other students at Harvard by introducing them to people from first generation immigrant families, he and another student agreed that they were regularly expected to underscore how traumatic things were in the country where they were born and play up the story to get grants and opportunities.

I read this book about how they used to stage romances for film stars. Not just to hide them being gay or whatever, back when the whole thing was un regulated and predatory they would just force people to date and get married as marketing for a specific image. A lot of those people were first generation immigrants expected to hide their background or turn it into meaningless local color as well.

Everyone is supposed to do it.

Even you. You go to a job interview and you have not had a job in months and you skipped dinner last night and breakfast this morning and washed your suit in the sink and you smile big and pretty, refuse a free pastry because you might get something on your fingers, you cross your legs like a beauty pageant contestant, you smile and you tell them getting laid off from your last job and getting offered this one that pays half as much is a blessing, no, no, you bike to work because it helps you keep fit and makes your legs toned and relaxes you. You're so happy and grateful to work 60 hour weeks during the holiday season so you can buy lots of Christmas presents for your family!

Around the time these books came out there were all these articles about squatters in big expensive neighborhoods. About how many empty houses there were and the ratio to people without housing. There were all these articles about how grocery stores were throwing out food. How people were sick of malnutrition and hunger but the stores didn't want the price to go down so they threw out the food and ruined it to keep it from being pulled out of the dumpster, even by their own employees.

I remember as a kid back when models would get picked for their slender physique from places where there were famines and imported to new york and fed drugs and have their photos taken in sexually suggestive ways. I have seen so many articles as a sex worker about the women who would get flown to Dubai expecting to do sex work they were comfortable with and then had no recourse when being abused or raped.

I remember the time some guy wanted to interview me for a job and I showed up and there was a bed in the office and he asked if he could fuck me for it and he did but he didn't hire me because I wouldn't let him take off the condom. I remember all the times when I had a boyfriend and my female boss tried to set me up with a rich man anyway.

The hunger games literally says "poverty is made up so that we can scare the shit out of certain people about ending up worse so they don't band together and overthrow anyone. Actually no one needs to starve." It says "the other part of the reason the wealthy do this to us is because they like watching us dance and beg, and admitting that we're actually incredibly close to post scarcity would interfere with that and close up the potential pool of victims, so we artificially generate poverty."

she saw you'll be glorifying snow and decided to drop another banger CUZ YOU ALL MISSED THE FUCKING POINT

[dontbesoweirdkira]

Toxic/Yandere Petta Mellark would include…

A/N: OkAy. I UNDERSTAND that Peeta isn’t really like this. I saw someone make a post saying we never talk about what our favorite characters would be like if they were toxic or had very negative traits about themselves. I recently rewatched the hunger games and was thinking about how patient and kind hearted Peeta was. He really never tried to harm Katniss or others despite his CONSTANT mistreatment. I thought,,,what if Mr. “if it weren’t for the baby” Mellark was actually toxic and used his cunning mind for his own benefits instead of others?? I’m mainly thinking about Mockingjay type Peeta when writing this.

DISCLAIMER: I do not condone real life yandere/toxic behaviors. I only write it for very specific characters. These are just scenarios I like to think about if the character was different. Nothing more, nothing less. I might not take requests for yandere, I don’t mind asking for continuations of ones I have already made. But my previous yandere requests made me super uncomfortable. I have boundaries 😭and I won’t do anything extreme anyways

-Definitely the “I’m just so freaking in love with you and I don’t wanna hurt you however I’m willing to play so so damn dirty to keep you.” Type yandere

-can you blame him? You guys were just kids, fighting for your lives. At any given second, he could have lost you. He can’t lose you. At all. No matter the costs.

-He wouldn’t let go of you, even when you guys won and the fight was over. He was scared, shaking, waking up in cold sweats about dreams of you dying or the capital ripping you out of his hands. Helpless.

-He's not the kind of yandere to lock you up, or beat you. Heck, he won’t even force you to do anything you don’t wanna do. Well…I mean it’s not forcing if he makes you think it’s your idea.

-We already know Peeta is very very manipulative, he can read and play on emotion very well. Even when you try your best to hide how you’re really feeling…he knows.

-he just wants you by his side. That way he can always be there if something goes wrong or if Snow tries one of his tricks. He can protect you. He knows that no one really wants to be with someone 24/7. Most people don’t even like being near themselves that long. Not willingly anyways. So he knows he has to make you think you NEED him by your side. You WANT him there.

-he’s not above staging a few incidents where you’re completely helpless and he always magically comes to your rescue. Basically “you’re weaker than what you think you are and that you actually need his strength to keep you safe at all times.”

-He mainly also does this because he learned about how Snow likes to pawn off his victors for services. He absolutely hates the thought of you being forced into something as such. As much as Snow hates to admit it. He’s threatened by Peeta's presence. He’s cunning like no other, the way he persuades the masses with a simple one-liner and cheeky smile. OH and especially if he hurts you or Peeta,,

“Capital ‘s most beloved lovers” Peeta could easily cause commotion in the capital by himself alone. Snow doesn’t want that.

-idk how the fandom really feels about capital Peeta but I hate to say it, that was my favorite Peeta look. Ugh the slicked back hair, crisp white fit. I’m in love so we're going with that.

-HE IS THE CAPITAL'S PET I SWEAR,,

-or rather it’s his pet. He most definitely has it WRAPPED around his fingers,,they just don’t know it yet.

-Definitely stays in the capital with you. He tells you,

-“Y/N. I know how much you miss district twelve but it’s not safe. Here you have food, water, no worries. Everything you want I can give you here.”

-absolutely bullshit. He has other motives. He knows how much of an image you and him are for the revolution. Revolution =Riots , Riots= Violence. You, his precious gem cannot be in the middle of that. You’ll get hurt. Besides, it’s always sunny in the capital, you’ll forget how things really are.

-He's not against the revolution, he definitely wants it to happen but just not you at the forefront. So he’ll push ideals on you about how bad the revolution is, how it’s going all wrong, how you need to stay away from it, blah blah blah. He even makes it public by making you pretend you’re clueless and say how ‘not so bad’ the world is. You just just want ‘peace and no violence’

-though he’s definitely cooking something up in the district's favor, he just needs the public to denounce YOU as a symbol.

-Let’s dive into peetas manipulations.

- He knows that you can see through bullshit almost as well as him so he has to constantly play his cards right. The way he gets you is that he makes it seem like there is profound logic behind it. He always mentions how you’re a team and how he’s never hurt you. Everything he does is correct and is a part of a bigger picture just like that ‘star-crossed lovers’ bit.

-you don’t do too well to puppy-eyed pouting so he has to genuinely act hurt when you disobey him. He needs to twist it into an argument, he’s going to get you heated and yelling and he’s going to stay calm and condescending.

“Y/N, why are you raising your voice? I just want to protect us.”

“Come on, you’re being irrational. I’ve never led us astray once, why would I do it now? Please don’t be so upset with me…I just wanna help.”

-sly fucker will even compare you to his mother when he’s very very desperate to make you seem like the bad guy. Sheds a few tears just for kicks.

“You’re just like her….you’re just fucking like her. Y/N, you lied when you said you believe in me. You don’t, you think I’m dumb, stupid, and worthless just like her. I-I’m just trying my best. I just want to keep us alive…why can you guys just see that??” *cue tears and dramatic walk off*

-HOW COULD YOU NOT FEEL BAD AND GIVE IN. He has the reputation of an absolute sweetheart. No sins in his file.

-loves to hold things over your head a lot.

-He also always pretends like you said something wrong in interviews even when you didn’t, or purposely gives you false information just to correct you in front of everyone. Another tactic to get you dependent on him. He kinda likes it when you constantly look at him for approval before saying something. It lets him know he’s on the * right* track.

-Also Peeta is a bit of an artist 👨‍🎨and most definitely learned from cinna,,so I have this headcannon that he likes to design your clothes and dress you up like a doll. He always runs his thoughts about these things with you first though. He wants you to feel comfortable with what you’re wearing. It’s all by your taste. But it’s kinda another thing you go to him for. Another thing for him to take care of for you.

-Same with your food. There’s TONS of food to go around here but never when you’re around Peeta. Seems like he’s the only one who cooks for you. The only trustworthy food to eat, He will make you absolutely anything you desire.

-He doesn’t force intimacy on you behind closed doors. In public you need to sit close, kiss, hold hands, ect. Picture perfect is his main concern for the public eye. You guys need to remain so lovable. But when it’s closed blinds he doesn’t mind if you’re not all down for that. Like I said he’s not the kind to force things you really don’t want on you. Not things like that anyways.

-violence is a definite no go. He seriously did all of this to protect you from it, why would he do that to you? Well that’s towards you. He definitely doesn’t mind hurting someone that even dares disrespects you.

-LIKE I SAID CAPITAL’S PET. He will blast and defame people who he doesn’t like. Will not hesitate. Do not flirt or mess with Y/N you will be SLANDERED