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Sketch of another one of these bc who knows maybe I’ll slowly build a collection
#persona 2#p2#baofu#kaoru saga#smt#megaten#wanted to depict some flowers too#I dont quite like it but I think it may work#the fulbright one is my fave as a bookmark lmao aaaa
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dragon meat, you, and me
#marcille donato#falin touden#farcille#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#tw blood#tw body horror#tw gore#as a normal farcille fan this revival has been on my mind since i first read it and getting to watch it is like yippee!!#like messy revivals are everything - the consequences that will haunt u for the rest of the time they are alive#the initial hopeful moments where it all seemed well but quickly descend to That not being the case - losing not only the bit of evidence#evidence that your dream may work out but also someone you deeply care about in the process… marcille my Beloved#ofc wholly thruout the journey - at the forefront of it - getting falin back was the most crucial point but so wuickly :(( it was lost#on the other end its crazy to think about the compoments of falin now - human - dragon (dungeon) - marcille’s magic and desperation#the food the crew cooked (digested) - she is made of many parts!!#also i did not realize how medical it feels to draw smth like this. i dont usually explore the inner parts or use a lot of blood#in my work so rendering everything and looking up refs it felt quite magical (?)#ruporas art
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anyway HIIIII!!! i'm sorry for going inactive out of nowhere! i missed u guys, and i hope every1 has been doing well :> to be honest, i've realized this site makes me really anxious so i likely won't be coming back or being active like i used to be. i'll still keep my blog up, and might pop back in every now and then to say hi, but i probably won't post consistently or anything like that :<< however, i srsly love and value all the connections and friends ive made via this blog so much, all of u are so lovely, and ill miss u lots 💘 i am (embarrassingly) active on twitter, so if anyone has it, dm me and id love to be your mutual there! :D fair warning i talk a lot about my selfship, but i find that for whatever reason im just more comfortable there :} ((OH AND DISCORD. IF ANYONE WANTS TO EXCHANGE DISCS MSG ME!))
sooo yeah!! ueueue i dont know how to end this... wishing peace and love and f/o kisses for all my moots
#.mei’s chatter ˚༘⋆ ๋࣭ ࣪ ˖#SOB...#slim chance i might make a new blog or something in a few months if i feel better... so if you see me around say hi for sure! :D#but for now im probably just sticking to twitter... its quite fun there#but truly i wish i could give a better reason for leaving - it's nothing that happened or anything like that !#its just an anxiety thing i dont even understand myself... it may be negative associations/memories or something - i can be pretty sensitiv#i think blocking n muting on here doesnt work as well as id personally like it to LOL.#but again it was rly just a culmination of things.. ive also gotten a job + been rlly busy at school !#so ya.... farewell for now!!!! xoxo
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girl who just so happens to be a giant hare 🐰
#pestilence#oc tag#fnaf#hastag hoemer#dont know if i wanna make her look sillier r keep her like. hare🐰#need to work on her fit tho i like the formal look but i want to differentiate it more at least a little :3#ALSO okayyy okay i have ideas for what he looks like w/o the suit too tho n i think its acktually quite clever 😁#okay so the head and neck r furry n normal. so are the lower arms and a lower portion of her legs too#BUT the other bits of her arms and legs r skinned and just raw muscle. the chest has a small bit of muscle directly under the fur but it#dissipates and then its just bone around the bottom of the ribcage and the abdominal cavity is open concept 😋 n u can see her organs n shit#thai is a visual callback to springtrap and also representative of williams inner.... evil so to speak. like he puts on a mask a gentlemanl#fascade but underneath hes still the same old rotten corpse<3333333 yaay<333333333333#may r may not draw that next but just know i have BIG PLANS 😁😁😁😁😁
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YIPPEEEEEEEEEE it is technically my birthday today. but not for most of yall because of timezones. wait until its actually the 26th please. goodnight
#i'll think of a funny post tmr#also gonna be real i dont understand how birthdays work im not quite sure what i'm supposed to be doing#birthday parties are only a thing if you have friends and also responding to birthday wishes feels strange as shit#because like people say it out of obligation and then by thanking them it feelslike being presumptuous and i may be overthinking it#im realllyyyy eepy today
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hello my friends :) curious about your thoughts on this doll. there are more pictures if u scroll past the description but heres one
#i think i didnt like him when i first saw him. but then every time i looked i was like... no wait... maybe...#i did end up ordering him back in may lmao. or his head anyway. the fullset wasnt available (& i usually order blank anyway)#& i want to try a hybrid with a different body. if it doesnt work out ill probably just get his default one eventually#hes still on layaway... but also the order hasnt even come in yet. i expect itll probably be around when the layaway ends anyway#maybe a little sooner but i dont think ill be able to pay him off early so ill still have to wait until its fully paid to get him#but i wont be able to customize him until spring anyway so i dont really mind#i dont want to make him look quite the same but i think im going to try to keep the vibes similar at least
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I'm sorry I gave everyone the impression that I was gonna be active allie when I first joined this fandom 😔🙏🏿 I planned on it but I should have warned the masses that my life often loves to backhand me away from my interest.
#me my mine#TMI i joined therapy again recently and it's taking up all my mental energy and im trying not to quit it 😩🤞🏿#when i die the first thing im gonna do is rip god's throat out with my teeth for giving me all these PROBLEMS 🤣#shower thought of a (culturally) christian#also my name is not allie i just wanted the alliteration#i actually dont mind giving out my real name if i havent already but i feel like people would be uncomfortable with it#for reasons that are too long to tag but anyways im 99% sure ive said my actually name here at least 7 times#also in case it wasn't clear im not really christian#i grew up as an evangelical yes but it's been so long since me and my family have been active in religion#my dad likes to call us “spiritual” now#you may be thinking “user cloudbells whu do you overexplain so much when you're inactive for more than a coupoe weeks?”#and to that i answer “still working that out”
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Resisting the urge to carve myself a distaff from one of the evergreen boughs ive dragged home and learn medieval in-hand distaff spinning. Do i need to do any of this ? No. Am i happy with supported spinning ? Yes ! Am i probably gonna do it anyway ? ... also yes
#we talk a lot about the rabbit hole of fiber arts#but i dont think we talk enough about the rabbit hole of different spinning tools and techniques...#so far id say ive gotten proficient in drop spindling wheel spinning and supported spinning with russian style spindles#really want to get into either tahklis or charkah wheels#bc im gonna be visiting my wonderful fiancé in india and hes still gonna have work for most if not all of the time im there#so my plan is to spin a LOT. hoping to get really proficient in cotton spinning bc ive always really sucked at that#and then i really wanna learn medieval style spinning as well#if i was an academic i could easily see myself devoting my life to writing a book about spinning tools through the ages#i am so endlessly fascinated by it#but also really bad at research and have a pretty crippling case of dyslexia#i wanna try. all the tools#it always feels like the way to get closer to the past is to spin like them#since that has been THE constant human activity since quite possibly pre-homo sapiens times#i dont know how much cloth the neanderthals wove or if they were more inclined to use animal skins#but we do know they made yarn and they were good at it#sadly my hands cant do cordage. fucks em up in about a minute flat#but iirc we've found stone spindle whorls which may have been used for spinning#stone whorls can also be used for hand drills and fire starters and things like that so idk#anyway. i just want to know SO badly#spinning
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Did you fully take that "both of them want to bottom" comic from popular furry artist skunkes or ????
I almost didnt want to answer this bc u got their whole government name out here without slashes; I dont want them to look up their own name and see this silly blog 😭😭
I think take is an AWFUL strong word where nothing is even remotely traced or copied 😭😭😭 I like their art alot and I when i was thinking about this specific scenario i was like ‘i am so sure someone did a comic w this exact vibe 🤔’ I love them but um. I do not think he owns the concept of ‘two men want to bottom and they are unable to communicate that easily’
#answered#chattin#i didnt want to like#tag them or their art! i dont want them linked back to me somehow 😭#i drew it for a discord and even put the link back to that lil mini comic in there!#its a silly untagged comic! for a silly ship in a silly fandom 😭#AND its like their oc content#they dont need to see this nonsense waugg..#ive followed them for years; this is like QUITE literally what happens when you absorb art like that almost nonstop#nothing is original; everyone is inspired etc etc#i guess it just sucks bc the ask is so accusatory but this is so common?#i literally reblogged art someone did where they used expressions i drew and i thought it was cute !#and the dialogue for their comic was very clearly ‘person a does not bottom EVER and is making an exception’#but like the text is literally text i always use; and the art is literally just sketches ive always done?#being like ‘hey this comic made me laugh ALOT and the layout would work well for what im thinking of’ and at most mimicking the vibe-#-of one character is not. taking a comic 😭😭😭#i may delete this (current post) just bc their name is in the ask but like#:(#its just mean. i make comics all the time and oc art in my free time#but i reference a silly lil comic and its like ‘! did u STEAL this did u TAKE it this person is POPULAR do u think ur slick ???!!!!’ like???#please unlearn the idea that inspiration = mimicry and that mimicry = theft#um#do not message me off anon again bc i will just delete it. i only posted this bc im sure others thought of the same artist#but unlike u; was not weird about it
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I kinda feel like I'm falling apart
#woke up to get shouted at over dishes#and now im kinda having a crisis#i guess this is left overs from the other night#idk what im going to do#this last month or so ive been in a constant state of overwhelm#it feels like so much is happening always#and i can't relax#towards the beginning of last month i was having financial issues with school#i decided to work extra hours at work to pay for it#i eventually got those bills paid#but now im being expected to maintain that schedule on top of my schoolwork#every time i try to redo my schedule to where i get a fucking day off from school and work#i get fucking guilt tripped into just doing the same thing#which leaves me with very little energy to work with for my schoolwork#im barely scrapping by with my two classes#im terrified to find out what this next semester is gonna be#i have 5 classes in the fall#i may have to see if i can afford to quit my job to focus on school#otherwise it feels like i might just fucking die#i dont think my mom realizes the strain this shit puts on me on a daily basis#or maybe she does#and she just doesn't give a shit#idk#im pissed and im fucking scared#i dont know what im doing#and i don't know what im going to do#all i know is that im gonna have to start cutting things out of my schedule#otherwise it feels like this is going to kill me#personal#rant
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22 isn't very much at all, I think.
#5am rambles#anyways ignore this as per usual im just thinking in a post that i'll delete soon. i just worry and writing it helps.#you ever wonder when you'll “grow up'? and then realize youre not even fully grown?#that theres still more to learn in life and that the mistakes you make are just that? mistakes?#that you are still so very very young in a world that is so very very old?#im almost 23. barely a quarter of my lifespan. im still a child in a way- my brain not fully formed.#you ever wonder how many mistakes you can make before you figure something out?#I dont know much of anything really. that's the sad part. and the adults who were supposed to help me learn... didnt.#i was failed. and now im a failure. at almost not quite 23 years old. Maybe i wont be a failure in another few years.#i still have a while to go before I die. I'm not going to waste time thinking about it. im just going to try my best.#I have time. I can learn. Grace and patience are not endless but damn if i dont try to figure things out#first step though is meds and therapy tho. we're done with the pity party. some things you just have to accept are okay#cuz my whole life i was taught that being emotional is a weakness. its pathetic and stupid to be upset or angry about anything.#any time i wanted to show i was upset or angry i was 'wrong'. i was 'selfish' and 'dramatic'#so i suppressed and pretended i was fine. that i wasnt weak and pathetic. that i was good and not an annoyance or burden.#i am not weak. i am not pathetic. i am fine i am fine i am fine you dont need to worry about the inconvenience at your door.#sometimes the shame is so much that i cant look at myself or even think i deserve help. that therapy is for people with real problems.#that i feel like ill just be told im like this for attention or dramatics. that im such a disappointment and selfish too.#ive been a “problem” my whole life to the point i dunno if i CAN be fixed. that anxiety eats me alive every day.#therapy is supposed to give you methods to cope#i dunno if it'll work though. I forget my appointments a lot. i struggle to talk sometimes. i may be autistic but its hard to get diagnosed.#emotions are so hard to figure out.
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I have started to accept I am a bit more (re a lot more) psychologically unstable than I thought for a long time and man…. I’m tired of it
#I was in a relatively good mood today#work hasn’t been too bad and I get two days off starting tomorrow#(it’s rare for me to get consecutive days so I’m excited!)#plus my time off request for a weekend in may got approved and I’m super excited for the plans that are happening on that weekend#and then my roommate messaged me bitching about my cat and now I’m spiraling#hate everything hate myself anxiety levels skyrocketed feeling the intense need to upend/annihilate my entire life and start from scratch#questioning anyone who has ever said they care about me etc etc etc and it’s like wow! because of one vague text message!#this is not a normal response haha! and now that I’m aware of that#I’ve become a lot more intensely aware that these insane mood drops actually happen quite frequently for me#issue is to do anything about this I need to see a psychologist (which I’m trying to work on anyways)#but the only diagnosis I have is for adhd and idk how to go into psychiatric care like#PLEASE PUT ME ON MEDS PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PUT ME ON DRUGS AND I DONT MEAN LIKE 10 MILIGRAMS OF PROZAC TYPE SHIT#GIVE ME MOOD STABILIZERS OR AN ANTIPSYCHOTIC OR SOMETHING I AM BEGGINGGGGG I CANT FUNCTION LIKE THIS ANYMORE#I’m also mildly concerned (being afab) that if I go in pursing certain diagnoses I’ll get slapped with a bpd diagnosis#(and obviously I don’t mean that in the sense of bpd bad or I could NEVER have bpd or anything like that)#(I just mean I really don’t think I have bpd and I don’t want to be approached from the angle of needing treatment for that cuz I don’t#think it will help. if I have ANY cluster b disorder it’s def aspd lol. lmao.)#but. yeahhhhhhhhh. I’m tired of this and I’m tired of having no treatment and being in medicated#I’m tired of pretending I can function like this forever cuz obviously I can’t lol#and eventually (probably soon) it’s gonna burn me out and I’m gonna crash so hard and uh. bad things are gonna happen 😭#kaz rambles
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I might change her outfit later bc I’m not sure if this has Skylor vibes, but. Movie Skylor
#im happy w how her hair looks though#i dont knowwwwwww how to make up outfitsssssss aaaaaaaa#lego ninjago#tlnm#the lego ninjago movie#lego ninjago skylor#skylor chen#tlnm skylor#stellar tlnm au ♡#stellarart ♡#OH WAIT you know what i should do for outfits? look at lego minifigures + work w that#or not the minifigures. i meant the pieces. like the torsos + legs and just make up an outfit based on ones i like together#anyways you may be able to tell im thinking alot abt my movie au today :)#thinking about how to fit in various characters from the show. ive wanted neuro to be in my movie au for quite a while now#ive figured out some stuff for him; but i still have to make his design
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could cozy up to me- ahem
#ash rambles 💚#i love him soooo much! i know i get stubborn about it sometimes but he really does have my heart#him and ash get together post-game so i love writing him and his development and him learning to be a better person#theyre not together during the game. theyre enemies during the game. theyre also both kinda immature late teenagers/young adults#(i just wanna make it clear that there's nothing weird there going on!! he and ash have had mutual attraction to each other since they were#kids but they dont get together until theyre adults and he is an adult in canon!!!)#but back to what i was saying#his development with ash is sooo goooddd! they spend a little while doing mercenary work together! ash has quite long hair and man ajsjajsh#the way he learns how to take care of her hair always makes me soo warm and fuzzy inside! he may be a bit of a meanie but he is a#surprisingly affectionate bf! f.f8 s/i probably also straightens her curly hair like i do and he just likes helping and stroking her hair#there's a lot of playful bickering though! lots of matches of triple triad too! whoever loses does the dishes LMAAOO#man.. he's so handsome and strong... i love how he's always so dedicated to being a knight and a protector... i know he uses that as an#excuse to like. do horrific things in the game but!!! in the mobile game you can see him develop and i really do like his redemption arc#from mean ass bully to kinda mean ally that'll protect you no matter what. his character is so good especially when you consider that he's#literally been forced into training since he was five. lots of things to analyze and think about there#but back to the knight thing!! he always says he's ash's knight! makes my heart flutter hehe! though he is very well-aware that ash could#kick his ass... and he loves it! he's not big on using her beloved guns (shes very picky about who touches her sweethearts too) but he does#like watching her epic gunslinger gf in action hehehe! okay yeah i think thats enough rambling for now#i got sick 😔 i'm okay and it'll pass but expect a lot of half-asleep f/o rambles LMAAOOO#okay yeah. tldr: i <3 s.eifer a.lmasy#your knight until the end 🤍
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Am I the problem. Do my coworkers hate me
#scrambling to restore my reputation so they can at least put in a good word for me when i switch jobs#it's like. it's hard bc all my experience with communication and emotions is terrifying for me bc of my trauma#so i act really irrationally and passively; occasionally passive aggressively and everyone has picked up on it and it's like#i cant just say i didnt go directly to someone and speak my mind bc i was afraid of violence. i cant just say i was afraid#oh also to be able to freely express displeasure with someone without the fear of debilitating guilt.. a theme for me#I'm just. i can only say i have a lot on my mind so many times before it just sounds like an excuse#there is so much effort involved in the masking process and i can only keep it up for so long before i burn out#i try to be a good person i swear on my life i do; i just struggle and feel like I'm expected to not let that become other ppl's issue#like let me be absolutely clear when i say that i was in the wrong and was being frustrating and annoying with what i was doing#I'm just sitting here like. why did we wait so long to say something. i dont know what my behavior looks like#not to express profound sadness on main or anything but. a lot of things feel quite difficult for me#and it feels like the best thing to do is to keep that quiet so i can meet everyone else's baseline#i think. i may need a new job for my mental health. and physical bc my joint pain is worsening with the pharmacy work U_U#hoatm rants
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now heres the thing is my rule is i have to live on my own for a year before im allowed to get a pet but also consider what if i had a little friend .
#in my heart i want a wawa so badly it hurts but alsoooo i worry quite a bit bc like. i work full time... so el wawa would be at home alone a#lot and one thing about the beautiful adorable majestic chihuahua is they have to pee every 3-4 hours. so i would have to have some way to#let them out OR keep them outside while im at work but another thing is 1. apartments dont generally have backyards#2. chihuahuas get cold very easily .... i could do some ssort of doggy daycare but i fear that would be expensive .... and i hate pee pads#and would prefer not 2 use them so i dont rly have much optionn 😭 but i want a chihuahua so badly.#but ALSO. a kitty cat.... i love cats i think theyre really quite sweetsies and also i think they could handle living in an apartment bette#esp since famously cats use the bathroom indoors. u may know.#so... i could potentially get a kitty..... but also i dont want to get one until im absolutely positive i could take good care of it and i#feel like i could esp now that ive got a system that works so well 4 motivating me to do my daily tasks yk. and also i think if i had my ow#apartment id feel a lot safer just like. being up and around the apartment so thatd be good... but also pets r expensive. but also the apt#i just applied to is rly quite cheap (like 1050 a month) its income restricted but i qualify by like a lot LMAO... n this would be perfect#bc 1050 is likee. not even a full paycheck i could pay rent with 1 paycheck and still have like 150 left over and then my other paycheck fo#the month is fully mine... so i could save up lots#+ wsg is included in the rent whichhh is insane. adn the apartment is cute and Trust . alarm bells were going off a bit bc i was like maybe#this is too good to be true we all remember the 800$ scam incident. but its a verified listing and i checked the propertymanagers and theyr#legit... its even got a washer and dryer IN UNIT and also a fitness center which is good bc i wanna try n start doing more cardio...#IT EVEN HAS A FIREPLACE i dont particularly need a fireplace but its cool 2 have one i could make smores right in my very own living room#AND ITS NOT A STUDIO its a 1 br...#grahhh i rly rly rly want ittt ik i prolly wont get it but :[
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