#I don't want to be a part of that
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my dreams have grown smaller and kinder and far more difficult
#robin processes emotions on main#(calm with rage. oceanlike. I hate the American system. 大嫌い)#I'm currently thinking about jobs and how I really just want to work in the local independent thrift store or somewhere similar#even though I know my grandparents want me to seek prestige and the white middle class#I don't want to be a part of that#not that I probably COULD be part of that. not with my useless college degree and my autism. but anyway#living with my parents for cheap rent might enable me to spend some years working part time and not destroying my own soul#but I don't want to be dependent on my parents forever#I want to have a home to share with others I want to be a host#also my parents and I have some quite different views... simply put I'm closeted and I want to live in a house not a closet#but is that achievable? time will tell#time will tell!! and I will do my best to live kindly and fully even if I never make it to where I want to be#even if I make false starts and have to start over. even if there's periods of stagnation I will keep standing up and going on#as long as I can
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Yeah, I guess I do. But like, what even is a star beam, you know? Now, a lead pipe to the shins? That's just reliable, baby.
PRETTY PRETTY PLEASE I DON'T WANT TO BE A MAGICAL GIRL Kiana Khansmith / @kianamaiart (2025 Pilot Animatic)
#idwtbamg#i don't want to be a magical girl#dailyanimatedgifs#dailyanimatedpoc#extremely fun that the part i wanted to gif most anyway was the part that was fully coloured and animated#what a delight of a pilot ep also <3 loved the concept for a while and it is soooo fun seeing it come to life#i am normal about magical girl media so. big fan#mine#flashing //
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The Olympics but high fashion by Wisdom Kaye
#a very long post#bcs i don't want to part them#wisdom kaye#is a treasure#fashion#olympics#also the way he added palestine#and not the other#;)
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because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.
you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.
you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.
don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.
if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.
you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:
how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!
aren't you happy yet?
#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail''#ah tumblr...#writeblr#warm up#idk . having trouble writing rn#ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum#i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for#i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" .....#no.... not really.....#idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography#like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days#furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing...#this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey.#idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me.#i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will#actually ever happen#ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum
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GET LOVED, IDIOT
GET LOVED SO HARD YOUR KIDS HOLD HANDS AND POWER-OF-LOVE YOU BACK TO LIFE
sorry guys, this is just my brain now. this is going to be the only thing I think about for the next week at least.
oh and also this
FIVE YEARS IN AND IT'S FINALLY CANON 🎉🎉🎉
WE DID IT
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 13 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 13 spoilers#oh my god it had everything i wanted AND MORE#...except the hook for 8 which ironically was the only one i was 100% sure was guaranteed to happen#well whatever i am too busy floating in this pool of delicious diasomnia tears#SO MANY TEARS#malleus' voice acting was absolutely 🤌 delectable 🤌#him and silver both are usually so reserved you don't even notice until suddenly FULL-ON UGLY SOBBING#IKANAI DE KURE LILIAAAAAAAAAAA#god. i have so much i need to draw. malleus in his little royal outfit...#ENDLESS MELEANOR F O R E V E R#(ah...meleanor and the knight of dawn are holding hands... :) you've reconciled... :) how lovely...)#(oh...and bauru is here too...)#can't believe poor sebek got 'and also you're here'-ed even at a time like this#that rhythmic was SO cute i'm gonna die. he's your son so it should be ✨PINK✨#ugh this update has spoiled me absolutely rotten. i'm so happy#though i kept waiting for that silver vanrouge and finally decided it wasn't going to happen#then got the 'there is one thing...but it's not a gift that malleus-sama can give...'#and THAT'S WHEN THEY DID THE HOTFIX UPDATE AND I GOT BOOTED#and then i KEPT GETTING ACCESS ERRORS DUE TO HIGH VOLUME 😭#twst NO i didn't need that tension to be heightened thank you#on the other hand when malleus started his proclamation with 'in the name of the draconias...' i did have a second#where i was briefly convinced they were going to do the funniest possible thing and make silver draconia canon after all#anyway i'm out of tags so we'll have to discuss malleus' absolutely bonkers-cuckoo choice of party venue later#now i gotta get back to constantly rewatching the moment he realizes he's accidentally killed lilia. his weeping is my sustenance.
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YES YES I NEED THIS SIGN IN EVERY SINGLE PARK PLEASE
This is my daily struggle, I had so many arguments with people with off-leash dogs (in a mandatory leash area!!!). Thanks to this behavior I'm struggling with Kim being anxious/aggressive with other females as she often gets involved in unpleased interactions with free females while on leash. And every single time that I ask for the dog to be at least recalled, I'm being called names and insulted of course.
Also 9 out of 10 their dog isn't really that friendly at all.
#dogblr#dog#dog training#petblr#the most unpleasant part of owning a dog is having to deal with awful dog owners...#the richer the neighbourhood the worst are the owners#but of course the only park that isn't a hour-long drive from home it's full of this kind of people#I want to live in a city where there is enough space to actually walk without meeting anyone if we don't feel like it
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"no one told me back then that i was in the glory days."
[ jojamart mockumentary #14 ]
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#stardew valley#stardew valley fanart#sdv shane#sdv sam#jojamart mockumentary#my art#this was inspired by an anonymous ask i received saying:#“Do you have any art of Shane outside of work? Maybe with the hens more in his element?”#and naturally my brain popped up with this idea#of shane at work and also not with the hens#:(#but it made me reflect on the other aspects of shane that we know about#i wish i knew more about his time as an athlete#also!!#the reason i made that poll a few days ago is that the school semester is starting up#i am a part time student in addition to having a full time job#so i'm not 100% sure if i'll have room to make new art#but i don't want to stop posting (at least that's how i'm feeling at the moment)#so it might be fun to highlight my process!!
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INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE 1x1 In Throes of Increasing Wonder
—However misshapen they may be, your brother has no shame in sharing [his thoughts]. —You sayin' I got shame? —The lie you told about leaving the opera house early.
#I have many feelings about Louis almost crying at the opera#and Lestat being the only one who gets to see Louis be emotional like that#in this same conversation Lestat also says “you don't need to defend yourself to me Louis”#and I feel like that's a big part of why Louis wanted to spend time with Lestat#for the first time he doesn't feel judged#amc iwtv#iwtv#iwtvedit#amc interview with the vampire#loustat#Lestat de Lioncourt#louis de pointe du lac#my gifs#my iwtv gifs
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You don't wish your disability was worse or more visible, you wish your disability was taken seriously. Please stop confusing the two, I guarantee you would not get the support you need JUST by being more severe or more visible. Please listen to visibly disabled people when we tell you it isn't better on our side
#m/cc#mine#I tried extremely hard to word this nicely because I KNOW people don't mean bad and often even know there are unique challenges#and believe me I know the challenges of invisible disability too!!#I have invisible disabilities!#but as someone who has also been at least visibly 'off' since they were 10 I am SO SICK of invisible disabilities being hailed as like#a unique extra oppression that us lucky visibly disabled people don't have to deal with#there are challenges to invisible disabilities that visibly disabled people DON'T have to deal with!#but you need to understand that *the reverse is also true*#there are MASSIVE benefits to being able to lie about your disability for example#or not dealing with the overt ableism that comes with your disability being obvious to everyone#*I do not have the option to pretend I'm not disabled.* that is never an option I have#I walk weirdly. I use a mobility aid now. my speech and face are 'off.' I lean to one side#for a long time I wore sunglasses 24/7 and often didn't make sense. I sometimes can't speak or won't react to others#for the most part people will always know that at the very least something is wrong with me#and more obviously I have people telling me they'll pray for me; telling me I can't do things I'm already in the process of doing;#wanting to shake my hand to tell me I'm an inspiration for not killing myself; giving me dirty looks for existing in public#and yes. I'm aware that this is very much an in-community issue. I know the average abled person doesn't know invisible disabilities exist#that's why there's so much awareness happening for it#but as a visibly disabled person I get SO TIRED of constantly hearing 'I wish my disability was visible :'('#it's just 'I wish I had your disability!' but from other disabled people
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in desperate need of a superhero who has every conceivable superpower...but isn't "overpowered" bc they're mediocre at everything. flight? i mean yeah they can fly. with all the grace of a drunken butterfly, bumping into multiple surfaces in the process, but yeah technically they're flying. super strength? sure with super butterfingers built-in, but it counts. laser eyes but their aim's for shit. they've saved the world as many times as they've endangered it by making a bad situation worse. the "good guys" and "bad guys" are equally apprehensive of having this person on their team
#telepathy but it also picks up static and pop radio stations that can't be filtered out#visions of the future that average 33% accuracy#telekenisis but again dangerously bad aim#teleportation but occasionally you end up in the middle of the pacific#superhearing but they can't choose what they're hearing#x ray vision that induces car sickness#pyrokinesis but I don't need to spell out why it's gotten them banned for life from multiple jurisdictions#can freeze time but can't reliably restart it at the correct speed#the worst part is they're versatile enough that having them on your team is still better than nothing#it's just a huge headache that everyone (including them!) wants to avoid at all costs
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I've seen "I don't know how to play with toys anymore" a few times lately and just wanted to point out-
Playing with toys looks different for everyone, even actual children!
Playing with toys can look like: 🧸🪁🚂
Taking pictures of your toys and writing captions for them
Brushing or grooming soft toys or toys with rooted hair
Ordering or sorting your toys by colour/species etc
Making up stories, poems or comics about your toys
Dressing or accessorising your toys
Imagining your toys talking to you or each other, forming opinions of their own, etc
Drawing your toys
Taking your toys for a walk outside, even in a backpack or pocket if you don't want to carry them openly
Making lists of the toys you have and where you got them etc
Feel free to add your own ideas
#removing the agere part of the original text to make it more general but it still stands#since I saw at least one 'not agere but-' on this and wanted to make it more broad#Hester rambles#I don't know if this will be relevant to any of you but just in case#let's tag this why not#plushies#stuffies#toycore#kidcore#plushcore#agere#sfw agere#agedre#age dreaming
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Just your average male living space.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wen qing#lan wangji#A-Yuan#wei wuxian#(***Content warning for me talking about unhygienic living conditions in the tags today***).#The worst part of drawing this comic is that I've seen so much worse. This is a livable space.#I've helped out friends and family who were struggling and let me just say...I have seen some pretty dysfunctional living spaces.#Hell I've *lived* in some very dysfunctional living spaces.#Hording dishes under the bed was always something that grossed me out but it's unfortunately something I've seen people do way too often.#The horror everyone has upon walking into WWX's 'living' set up is so consistently 'Mate how are you living like this?'#It's honestly so integral to me that WWX's 'just left home for the first time' house/room be a depression/dysfunction pit.#You can learn a lot about someon's state of mind from how they keep their living space...and this guy is oozing 'deep depression'.#I don't think he's eaten anything but foods that classify as a struggle meal in a year.#Everyone is trying to stage an intervention but he just isn't in a good enough place to help himself.#By the way: I want to steer away from shaming people who have messy homes/rooms because life *does* hit hard sometimes.#My love language is coming into your home to do your dishes and do some housework. Don't apologize for the mess king.#Nothing could top some of the places I've had to help my older siblings out of.#I'd be okay with my flatmate having a severed limb and a blood pool at this point.#As long as he lets me take out the dishes from under the bed - We're good! My standards are so low at this point.
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It's so funny to me when people said that Damian is the only BatFamily member that Bruce didn't choose/want/was forced into caring as if we didn't watch that boy tried to leave on multiple occasions only for Bruce/the other BatFamily chasing him down and dragging him back kicking and screaming
#Also Bruce leaped with joy when he found out about Damian#That man wants his baby let's be real#everyone else looks at Damian one (1) time and goes 'little brother'#Stephanie saw him and thought 'You're a funky funny lil guy' and brings him to a bouncy house#We've seen four separate occasions where Damian tried to leave#and the BatFamily losing their shits because of it#like damn#if the people that ressurect me act like they don't want me I'd assume I'm in a hostage relationship#Not accounting Maya and Duke btw#“I may not be part of this fuckass family BUT the youngest is my horonary little brother”#Damian is so little brother coded that the entire universe sees him as such#also Dick wanting to adopt Damian#need I say more??#damibin#good dad bruce wayne#damian wayne al ghul#damian al ghul#damian wayne#damian al-ghul wayne#batfamily#bruce wayne#tim drake#jason todd#dick grayson#cassandra cain#duke thomas#stephanie brown#barbara gordon#maya ducard#dc fandom
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IF YOU GO NOW TO SILVER'S PROFILE IT SHOWS "SILVER VANROUGE" I AM!!! NOT OKAY!!! WAUGH
OH MY GOD 😭
like...it wasn't even just "oh we'll call you Silver Vanrouge now", they just straight-up made the adoption official, under the statute of Malleus Says So. he's legally recognized as Lilia's kid! I'm so happy for them!
this may take some getting used to though
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 13 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 13 spoilers#the vanrougening continues#look a lot happened in the finale but i refuse to stop obsessing over this part#lilia being like HA HA WHAT no you don't want my dumb stupid name it's bad#i always thought you'd find yourself a way better name someday#and anyway your REAL parents --#(sebek crashes through a wall koolaid man-style) LILIA-SAMA JUST ADMIT HE'S YOUR SON#malleus says they're family no takesie-backsies#malleus: now this does mean we're going to have to make some adjustments to your taxes#lilia:#lilia: taxes...uh...right#lilia: i have definitely absolutely been paying those for the last 400 years#lilia: unrelated but have you already told the government that i got better from being dead...or....
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saying “visual style" because, for example, if you would swap your current wardrobe for an identical, ethically made counterpart, there would be no visible change
#bearer of the curse#polls#I said a lot bc I don't wear a lot of what I enjoy due to sensory stuff and also like ... ethical considerations#btw I made this post bc I really don't like how some people think that people 'dress boring' simply bc theyre boring#like. fashion is not as accessible as it should be! to most people!#so i wanted to see how people felt#also fat people I love you I know a massive part of this inaccessibility is fatphobia in the fashion industry
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HYUNJIN | "ATE" JACKET MAKING
#hwang hyunjin#hyunjin#stray kids#skz#bystay#createskz#staysource#a9gifs#*gif#*ccarly#*hyunjin#*carly:hyunjin#me deciding i don't like the sharpening on these after i've gotten 80% thru coloring and can't go back anymore#whatever .#i want to gif more of this but also i don't if u know what i mean. KLJDLKFLSKGSD#this was the most important part to me we'll see if u get another set from me#*hits
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