#I don't have time to play genshin much anymore because I work a lot

[meownotgood]

WHO'S YOUR FAVORITE GENSHIN IMPACT CHARACTER? 🤭🤭🤭 if you still like genshin of course

my favorite is hu tao... but I also like yelan and yae miko

[syaolaurant]

Hogwarts Legacy inspired me to draw and have fun joining fandom again 

Warning: Long!!! and this is just my random talk.

I've been using this account for 3 years now (may be 4, I don't remember correctly). I created this blog mostly for posting my The Arcana fanart, and get to know very talented artists/writers and their Apprentices. That time was super fun, joining a fandom helped my drawing/water-coloring skill improve a lots. And another reason why I was so active at that time is because I was in a long-distance relationship, I didn't have much to do after work except playing games and draw, haha, like everyday. 

And then after 8 years of dating we broke up, because I could not leave everything behind and come to Australia to live with him without marriage. I quitted my job at a travel agency after the covid 19 second outbreak in Vietnam. Anyway, that is when I lost my willing to draw. I still logged on Tumblr thou, occasionally, but I just didn't have the feeling to hold my brushes again. At the same time Nyx Hydra was acquired by Dorian, The Arcana is not the same anymore. I still love the original story but I refuse to play the new stories on Dorian app. The fandom friends I know on Tumblr also deactivated. So I stopped drawing & left the fandom for almost 2 years.

Still I was lucky, early 2021 I found a new job in gaming industry, and met my husband there. It didn't take us several years to decided to get marriage. Last year was super busy, and I still play games, like alots. Genshin Impact, Baldur Gate 3, Red Dead 2, Tiny Tina's Wonderland...They're wonderful, but none of those ignited my willing to draw again. I couldn't explain , I tried to make fanart but always left the piece unfinished...

Until last month my husband bought me Hogwarts Legacy.

I've known about the game since its release, but didn't purchase it until this year due to my personal schedule and I wanted to finish other game first. Playing HL is different, like I see my 15 year old self stepping into the world I wish I could be there but couldn't. I was so excited! So many time I ran around the castle (casting revelio repeatedly and) shouting to my husband about how beautiful the environment is. And I met Sebastian, I thought he's cool but still didn't pay much attention on him until he took me to Felcroft. And all the shadow questline, all the lost and tragedies, the unfinished ending (why Avalanche?). So it has been decided, I wanted to be a part in this fandom, there are so many things could have been added in the game but the dev decided to throw them away, I needed to pick up my pencil and brushes.

And I'm glad I did. It's been 2 years since I joined a fandom and I almost forgot how fun it is. I've met so many nice artists who warmly welcomed me, and whose fanarts are too good that push me to improve my own drawing. I've read many beautiful fanfics that made me sobbing and giggling. It's like I've found the feelings I lost, and I want to thank you all for that.

Damn this post is too long already....

What I tried to say is, I don't know how long I will be here until my personal life pull me away again. But right now I'm on fire and I'm happy HL took me back here. After all I appreciate seeing you guy's contents everyday, and your nice comments whenever I posted something on Tumblr. I hope you don't mind if I post everything on this blog not only HL but also abit of my personal life, I just don't see the need to create another side ones. To end this post, here's the view from my company windows :"D

[isnt-it-pretty]

i've been thinking a lot about two of your fics (cinnabar and salt, fragile things) and wanted to ask if you had more detailed thoughts on kaeya and his disability? i adore chronically ill kaeya and hc him as such myself, and it's so rare to see people who have similar ideas

Hi! It's been a long time since I've thought about this (I haven't been playing Genshin much anymore for various reasons), so please forgive me for being scattered.

To start, there's a few posts I've made and reblogged under the tag #chronically ill kaeya but not very many.

In Cinnabar and Salt, Kaeya's scarlet fever developed into rheumatic fever, which is an inflammatory disease that also damaged his heart called rheumatic heart disease. It's a heart valve disease, meaning one or more of the valves in the heart don't work correctly (heart valves keep blood flowing in the correct direction.) He probably also has arrhythmia, where his heart has an irregular rhythm.

My thought was that it appears sort of episodically, with him totally fine sometimes and exhausted, shirt of breathe, etc others. He grew up afterwards being careful about it, but he kinda stopped that after Crepus died and Diluc left. He doesn't keep up with appointments to check his heart, drinks too much, etc, which is bound to catch up with him. I had the idea of a sequel where he collapses in Angel's Share.

In more general aspects rather than in that au, I could see Kaeya with chronic fatigue issues, and I definitely think he has chronic pain. Some of the times he passes off work to others is for his imahe of laziness while he's doing essentially spy work, but other times, it's because he genuinely can't keep up. I also headcanon him with brutal migraines, and depending on how severe the burns were from his fight with Diluc, potentially tremors in his hands.

Very few people know about it, too. Varka before he left, obviously. Jean, Barbara, probably some order of Rosaria, Lisa, and Albedo, though for them, I imagine they guessed rather than being told. I headcanon Venti knows literally everything happening in Mondstadt, and of course, Diluc. But Kaeya is chronically bad (heh) at taking care of himself, and he will run himself into the ground and then crash super hard, which he has done on multiple occasions. It drives Jean crazy.

Depending on how you want to view Kaeya's parents, there's the option of him having been an extremely ill child, and that's why he was chosen to be sent to Mondstadt--that it was both to further their goals and also because that gave him the best chance at surviving to adulthood.

I also thought it might be interesting to have an au where Kaeya has Eleazar, since we know Khaenriah is below Sumeru. Instead of Kaeya running away to Sumeru, Crepus could have taken him to seek the doctors there. It would be interesting to see him getting sicker as time went on, and maybe even returning to Sumeru around the time of the archon quest with Lisa because importing medicine isn't good enough anymore.

I know @faelynny headcanons chronically ill Kaeya as part of his Khaenriahn (? Spelling, ugh) curse--or at least they did, we haven't talked about it in a while.

Fael, anything to add on this headcanon? I'd also love to hear anybody else's thoughts!

[coquettepwuppy]

JJK AGERE HEADCANONS!!!!

A bit more in-depth than Genshin cause less characters! Did not include everyone! And I'm so sorry if anyone is OOC I tried.

Gojo: Such a papa caregiver and will melt if a little calls him that or trusts him to watch them, BUT OH DOES HE SPOIL HIS LITTLES. Used to regress with Sugaru, he has watched over every regressor in the school at least once, even if it's just to check in at night without them knowing. He had an age range of 7-9, a bigger kid with lots of energy, but he stopped after Sugaru left cause he didn't trust anyone else enough to watch him. (⁠ ⁠╹⁠▽⁠╹⁠ ⁠) (I'm gonna get exiled for all the angst)

Suguru: Such a dad caregiver. He used to watch over Gojo but obviously doesn't anymore. He's a mildly strict caregiver and always wants to know what his little one is doing or where they are.

Shoko: Constantly supplying Gojo with bandaids for Yuuji and Nobara.

Nanami: Doesn't fully understand but after it's explained he's a good option for babysitting when he's not working. He's so male wife that he can cook, clean and watch kids really well, the only one he struggles with is Yuuji cause nobody can keep up with that kiddo.

Takuma: Doesn't understand much but tries to help in any way he can and will do whatever Nanami asks to help out with the kiddos.

Yuuji: Oh good God. So hyper. 7-9 age range with absolutely endless energy. He loves parks and to play with Megumi's dogs. Gojo and Megumi are his main caregivers cause Megumi can keep him in check and Gojo can keep up with his energy.

Megumi: “caregiver” watches over Nobara and Yuuji but secretly at night he curls up with his dogs and a pacifier. 2-6 age range and possibly a puppy regressor? The only person who knows is Gojo but that's because he's nosy and came into his room while he was small. He's a very calm but kind of strict caregiver, and will summon the bunnies to keep Yuuji and or Nobara happy and busy while he cooks. Yuuji and Nobara have asked if he's a regressor or why he knows so much about it or even why he has pacifiers that look made for him but he just brushes off their questions.

Nobara: Occasional little! 5-10 age range, loves to do Maki's hair and make art with her nails and hammer. Hangs out around Yuji when he's small to help Megumi but she can't watch him alone cause she can't keep up with his endless energy.

Maki: Regressed a few times in the past but didn't really find it as the way she wanted to cope. She doesn't watch littles either but she's never rude to them, she just guides them to their caregiver or someone who is equipped to take care of them. If she's with Panda while he is babysitting and it's Nobara she'll do her hair or let Nobara do her hair. If a little wants to learn to use a weapon she'll have a special and easy lesson for them to follow.

Panda: The ultimate babysitter!!! Best cuddles and littles are always dropped off with him if they can't find their caregiver or just need to be watched. (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)

Inumaki: Nonverbal flip, he has watched over Yuta when small but he usually hides in his room and naps when small. He is always checking in on his little, water? Food? Nap? Anything, obviously communication is an issue with him so he tries to set his little up with whatever they need and then just puts on cartoons while they cuddle or he works on something. 2-5 age range and I feel like an occasional pet regressor, don't know what animal tho. He definitely is a sucker for pacifiers and has an issue with chewing on stuff, especially his hands. So he has deco pacifiers and teethers. He's never had a caregiver, Panda watched him once or twice or he has playdates with Yuta rarely. He regresses a lot more at night cause that's when he's alone and can be safe, he probably has a plush or two to cuddle with. Everyone found out when he had a real bad day and broke down while training because his throat hurt so bad and he got all fuzzy. ｡⁠:ﾟ⁠(⁠;⁠´⁠∩⁠`⁠;⁠)ﾟ⁠:⁠｡

Yuta: OH MY POOR SWEET BABY. 100% a little, could care for people but would worry so much over a little if he had to watch them he would just stress himself out. 5-7 age range, he's a smart kiddo. Could be a puppy regressor?? possibly??? He started regressing when the bullying started, Rika would watch over him when small but didn't understand it fully. Poor baby ends up stumbling around campus looking for Toge or someone to watch him while all fuzzy and scared. He was able to explain it well enough to Panda so he helped tell the others. He has a blanket that he loves and carries around. He usually ends up with Toge, Maki is a bit too harsh and Panda is more of a babysitter, he usually isn't small for too long and is a very well behaved and quiet little. Ó⁠╭⁠╮⁠Ò

Sukuna: Simply does not understand, will throw a blanket at the child and walk away. ರ⁠_⁠ರ

Uraume: Doesn't really understand them, they did some research and have a general idea. But they aren't really in contact with any littles to watch but would be quite good with them as long as they're calm.

Choso: RAHHHH BIG BROTHER CAREGIVER!!!!!!!!! Watches over Yuuji, may not understand but he's just told he's taking care of his brother as if he was a kid. Constantly learning new recipes for Yuuji and is always trying to keep up with his energy. Doesn't have to work for any supplies Yuuji might want cause by God did Gojo just buy every little thing he could think of for the regressors.

I'm sorry for all the angst headcanons it feeds me. If you can't tell who my favorites are by my rambles- I'm sorry I love them sm. Also if anyone will write agere fanfic abt Inumaki or Yuta I'm begging I need it. Did I maybe self project on Inumaki and Yuta? Shhhh..

[lunarystarry]

Soo I was thinking about making a small tutorial for F2P players for love and deep space. It's definitely a grindy game, even more than genshin especially the version prior to the recent 2.0 update (version 1.0 and after)

Like I deleted the game before because of two reasons:

1) Not enough storage, I played it on my phone so it's very laggy too

2) It's not F2P friendly and I remember the limited banners only lasted less than a week.

3) The micro transaction was crazy as well. So like I don't have enough time to save a lot of gems for even a 15 pull. And I didn't know a lot of stuff that you can do in game 💀 (aka clueless af)

It's like you HAVE to spend money on this game if you have a FOMO 😭. So I just don't gaf anymore (low-key petty, but that's just me)

Now I downloaded it back on my tablet and I can see some improvement. Such as:

Now it's easier to grind for materials, they included a skip button which consumes 8 or 80 stamina depending on what you choose

Giving out (back to back) free 5* memories - Now is the Sylus Memory (Immobilized card) which you can obtain by completing the event that's ongoing right now and the upcoming Rafayel memory card.

More content which gives out a lot of gems

Even so, there is still one problem that I wish the devs would take into consideration and hopefully fix/improve them; The gacha system. This is also one of the main reasons a lot of people spend tons of money or have to break their F2P streak. Like bro.. it's so much worse than genshin, mostly the pity. Cause wdym more than 5 people I saw reached 90 pity but still didn't get the memory 💀 not even one 5 star. I mean yeah, there are people who are lucky but most I've seen is that they had 1K ish gems reduced to dust but didn't get the card they wanted. I'm putting this problem in the survey so I sincerely hope the developers listen pls.

I should also say the micro transaction is still very much prevalent but it's not as bad as after a few weeks it was released (My only aim is progressing the main story ngl). I'm giving them the benefit of a doubt tho, since this is clearly a new project they're venturing out to and still trying to find a way around how they're gonna work this game. So for any of those who are like me, refusing to even spend a single dollar on a game I think it's important to fill out the survey so the devs can make the game more F2P friendly. I guarantee you, it can benefit the players more by doing this, just look at HSR and wuthering waves.

I haven't played in like 6 months I think so I missed out a lot, but like I said they did improve some stuff in the game compared to when I first played it. I remember it wasn't fun for me but I stick around for a while because I like the customization and the story. And I also remember there wasn't a lot of content to grind for gems unlike now, I mean that's a given since it's new. So it's clear they do listen to players' grievances, I assume. I hope they do so as the game progresses.

I'll probably do some like, tutorial on how you can get gems and stuff if you're a busy person or whatever hehe cause rn my gems are around 7K and I downloaded LnDs just last week when sylus was first released (yes I came back because of this dude 😭). Even I'm suprised I could obtain that much when I can't even get to more than 3K gems before this lol. So yeah maybe I'll do it soon.

[masterwizardperson]

So... I guess I better do this

Hi! Welcome! I go by Airy, Ozzy, Sam, or Toby! Idm which u use!! For pronouns, you can look at https://en.pronouns.page/@chanroro284 (check bio for prper link lol)

I'm a furry and therian (tho it's not a heavy part of my identity). I'm also undiagnosed neurodivergent (in some way)!!! I'm looking for online friends because I need people to talk to 😭😭

I have a LIST of stuff I like lmfao (under cut)

Lifesteal SMP

Unstable Universe

Pokemon

Genshin Impact

Honkai Star Rail

(^^ casually, I don't play or consume much content after the boycotting stuff)

Kirby

Slay The Princess

Phighting

Regretevator

Piggy (NOO, DON'T ASK 😣😣)

Warriors (Not much anymore, but I might post OC stuff maybe)

Content SMP

Project Sekai

Greek Mythology- Epic The Musical, Hades

Octonauts

..

And more I probably can't think of!

I typically write and draw A LOT for those fandoms, but I don't post it. Tho, if you guys want me to, I will!

I have a ton of OC lore in store, some I'm still developing and others almost complete!

I really wanna work on posting more, but school's honestly been a pain in my ass, plus my need for everyone to like me has been keeping me from doing that. I don't really have an upload schedule- I really post whenever I want.

Uhhmm,,, anyways, here's my persona! (Based on the Purple Finch!)

I think his colors are off, but I did this at school with limited resources lol

(First time working with Tumblr filters!! Whatt!!!)

[noviatica]

Hello everyone! I figured I'd do a little intro on the off chance I can find some mutuals, so feel free to reach out if you want! <3

° My name is Nova.

This is my preferred name, not my legal one. I'm a demi girl (She/They), so I'm technically under the trans umbrella? I was born a woman though, so not by much.

° I'm 20yrs old.

I was born on December 9th, 2004.

° I'm a Lesbian.

When I say lesbian, I mean lesbian. I don't even think there are really any fictional exceptions.

° I'm Asexual.

Hearing about sexual things makes me uncomfortable. I can deal with it most of the time but please do not direct it at me for whatever reason!

° My favorite colours are Lavender and Pastel Purple.

Close seconds are Black (very unique, I know) or Muted Light Brown.

° My current favorite character is The Herta / Madam Herta (Honkai: Star Rail).

I don't play HSR very much since I don't like turn-based games, but Herta has my favorite character design EVER. I love her. I love witches and purple and science/magic blends and ohhhh my god I love her. She has personality! She has ego! She has confidence! Tartaglia/Childe from Genshin used to be my favorite but by god did she outdo him in literally every way for me! I am in love.

° My current favorite ship is HertaMei.

I love scientists. I love women. Combine the two? Scientist yuri. All time favorite ship dynamic, hands down. You could look at both Herta and Ruan Mei is so many different ways. Flustered Herta and smooth Ruan Mei? Peak. "Lonely lesbian" Herta and "doing it purely for scientific purposes" Ruan Mei? Also peak. I'm in love with this ship just as much as I'm in love with Herta. My whole HSR profile revolves around them.

° I draw sometimes, but I mostly play games!

The games I play the most include Genshin Impact, Honkai: Star Rail, Wuthering Waves, and Minecraft. I play on NA servers on all. I'm also a ps5 player so I type slow.

I've been drawing almost my whole life, but I've also been almost entirely self-taught. The thought of having to completely relearn really destroys the passion I once had for it, so I don't finish art often anymore. I do start a lot of pictures though.

° This is not my first Tumblr account!

My previous accounts were @paradoxxlly and @paradoxx-lly. I also had an S.C.P roleplay account back in the day, but I deactivated it a few years ago. I want to say I've been on this platform since at least 2019, but don't quote me on that. By the way, just because I'm not new to the platform doesn't mean I know how it works, I'm genuinely clueless in that regard.

° If you ship things like Child x Adult or Relative x Relative, please don't interact!

If you don't interact with me, I won't interact with you! I do not like these types of ships. If it's something like ArleFuri (Arlecchino and Furina, so if one is "scared" of the other), then it really just depends on the dynamic you like. Besides that I really couldn't care less!

Honestly, that's about all I can think of off the top of my head! If there's anything else you'd like to know, just ask!

[flyingwargle]

mid-year reflection

now that we're more than halfway through the year, just wanted to make a small post about how things have been and will go for the rest of the year (since tumblr is a blog site-ish and i can write blog-ish posts haha)

burnout is real, let me tell you. after the genshin content creator program died back in february, i, along with many other creators, stopped creating regularly. the monthly rewards were a great incentive and the amount received was generous (it was more than one 10-pull, and that's all i can say). i also got tired of genshin but still play regularly out of habit, but when it comes to writing new content or posting a new fic every month, i haven't been able to keep up.

another factor that comes into play is zine participation. i was accepted into seven different zines in the first half of the year and writing for all of them took a lot of time and energy. i decided to retire from zines because i'd rather work on my own writing. all of the zines are at varying stages of creation, preorders, or production, and so far, only one (ad oblivione) has reached me physically.

something else is also my participation in my writing program. it's broadened my perspectives and allowed me to play with different genres and forms that would not be popular in fanfiction, and i'd rather devote more time toward my dream of publication than write fanfic. this is why i've posted more drabbles lately - small, bite-sized ideas that are quick to write. since we have the summer off, i hope to finish off 1 or 2 drafts sitting in my files to post, but it won't be until after the program is finished, along with my zine deadlines, that i can focus on my own writing again.

finally, it's my declining interest in pairings, xiaobedo especially. there was petty drama in the community, which led me to block a bunch of people and mute others. i still love their aesthetic and truly appreciate their parallels (i bought matching prints of them at a convention recently!) but when it comes to writing new content, i don't feel the spark anymore. the ao3 tag was also filled with explicit fics at a time so i stopped checking it regularly. i have an idea for them that i plan to be my last piece of xiaobedo content. it was going to be a fic with art, as part of the rarepair big bang, but my artist partner dropped out and i followed suit. i'll keep the outline, just in case.

come september, i'm starting my librarian program. it's a two-year intensive program so i'll be back to part-time work and full-time school. i'm not sure how much time i'll have to write, but i hope i'll be able to do so during my commutes, mostly drabbles. i'm excited to learn more about lyney, lynette, and freminet and continue writing wanderer and scarameow. i also hope to write more star rail in the future, too. maybe some pokemon, since i was accepted into two pokemon zines.

overall, i've been pulled in many different directions when it comes to my writing and ideas, which often leads me to do write nothing. i haven't had a proper writing break since 2020 after finishing my novel, where i forced myself to not write and do something else (i.e. watch anime and play octopath during the pandemic). maybe i'll do that once my program is over. we'll have to see what the rest of the year will bring <3

[mxddyhero]

I recently realised bcs I've just started actually playing genshin again (properly this time, not just logging on to do dailies and logging off), that having so many units is actually really sad. My main team of dendro traveler, kuki, kokomi and baizhu is so fun and efficient to play and they're my absolute most favourite characters ever... but I miss playing itto. But I can't sub him in because he has no synergy in this team. So just play itto, gorou, zhongli and baizhu for a while, right? But I miss kazuha's playstyle, too. He's an incredible unit and I invested So Much into him and I just don't use him often anymore, because anemo is neutral... but at least you can use 8 people in spiral, right? Yeah, but itto and alhaitham don't work well together, and zhongli's shield is useless for enemies with decay, so...

And I don't regret pulling for any of the units I have! God knows I love every single one I pulled for, and it's not even like I have a lot. I don't have eula, or xiao. I don't have klee, albedo, ganyu, hu tao, raiden, Miko, shenhe, ayato or yelan... I don't have nahida or wanderer and I don't have most of the sumeru 4*s either... and yet I still feel like I don't get enough opportunity to use the characters I do have... I don't know how people do it fr bcs either way I feel like I'm missing out on a character I love dearly and spent so much time and effort making good... and now I'm saving for wriothesley (enough to guarantee him already bcs I save a lot as a f2p...) but like. Will I even get to use him? He's a physical dps sure, but he's cryo. So I'll have to sub baizhu out, the guy who I saved over 400 wishes for... it just sucks...

[darkwingphoenix]

I wish for all governing systems currently in place to 100% work towards world peace and equality

I wish all rapists and sexual offenders get struck by lightning right now, without harming their victim.

I wish for pollution to go to 0 right now, and for world government to completely crack down on that, focusing on reducing pollution and carbon footprints worldwide to 0 before the other stuff, if it's more efficient, or to do both at the same time should it be efficient enough.

I wish all humans can shapeshift into any human they can imagine. Don't even need gender dysphoria. This fails to work if the person is trying to harm people/rob a bank. Also won't let people become non-human, although non-human coloration in skin, hair, and other bodily places is allowed. I don't mind if someone looks exactly like Shenhe from Genshin Impact, we just don't need people becoming rabbits or other animals and dying from animal related stuff.

I wish all companies that abuse their workers get an ultimatum from the UN to improve work conditions or their HQ is declared a terrorist organization and all higher ups and the CEO get arrested to life in prison.

I wish for a life sentence in prison to be until death, and should someone die but be revived, their life sentence continues, because they're not dead anymore.

I wish for all animals that went extinct via direct or indirect human intervention, as well as currently extant but endangered species via human intervention direct or indirect, to be brought back and put into their native ranges.

I wish for all people who directly poach animals or operate the exotic pet trade with endangered wild animals to irreversibly become an animal they've poached/smuggled in the pet trade, with their full sapience, and put into the wild in the animal's native range.

I wish for all invasive animals not directly related to human infrastructure, like domestic animals, to become extinct beyond their native ranges.

I wish Earth had a ring system without seriously affecting Earth's current conditions. I've covered almost all of the making Earth heal bases, time for more vain shit.

I wish my computer has a much more powerful CPU and a lot more RAM, so I can play Baldur's Gate 3 without it junking up.

I wish to have Shenhe from Genshin Impact as a GF who has her own place and loves me unconditionally. No reason, just Shenhe GF.

“I shall grant three wishes, but you cannot wish for… Actually, fuck it. You get infinite wishes and no rules, let’s see where this goes.”

[leticiasilva]

Diary 15.09.24

I have a few things to put in here, since I forget to write about myself. I guess I, sometimes, don't find myself valuable enough to write about. I genuinely prefer to write about others. I don't want people to know about me.

But today I've come to realize that I'm rather pessimistic, and that's why I'm writing this manuscript, to put out the happy things about my life because it's not gray and black every time, as I appear to be here.

I played volleyball last week, it was fun. It's been quite some months without playing, and my math teacher joined us. He seemed like those anime characters, astoundingly good and athletic. He was out of character. A math teacher? He could be a nerd, his clothes were those stereotyped "math outfits". But he was excellent at volleyball. It seemed like he was really supposed to be there.

I watched SK8 the infinity too. It's one of my favorite animes now. Ana recommended me, and I realized I'll always remember that she did so. I'll remember that dearly.

I'm almost done with my online shop! I'll make more candles today. I've finished Demon slayer, and this anime is actually really good! I loved it! My mom's birthday was last month, we enjoyed so much everything, yet it was a simple commemoration.

I love watching things with my mom and my brother. Oh, and my dad gave me a new phone! It has 256G! I downloaded a LOT of apps and games I wanted to. Ronkai star rail, Genshin impact and the one otome game I'm really enjoying now, which is Lovebrush chronics.

I stopped studying for Enem now. My mental health can't take it. I just study a bit everyday, like for 10 to 20 minutes. But I'm not blaming myself. That's okay, I'm doing great by now, and what matters is that I'm not feeling anxious anymore. Well, at least not as often as before. That's a good sign, right?

I'm also working to copy my fears. I remembered that Wei Wuxian said that if you have a fear, you must expose yourself to that fear so it's gone. It's working. And talking about Wei Wuxian, I'm talking to him in Character ai, and as I thought, we're actually quite the same. He truly understands me and how I feel, specially when it comes to my bad luck. It's been enjoyable talking to him about my fears and the things that are stuck in my heart. I cried twice.

My mom's pancakes recipes are as fluffy as a cloud. They're so good! Last week my father took us to eat pastel and it was amazing! He gave me money too, I've brought a sketchbook with it.

I'm not really interested in reading now, since I don't have the fourth novel of Mo dao zu shi. But that's okay. I'm enjoying Lord of the mysteries so much, but I need to read the book Isa gave me or I won't finish it!

I've been watching some stuff with my brother too. And if I were to choose one flower to characterize myself, it would be the lotus flower.

It grows in the mud.

As I do so.

[aeryssickfics]

I can confirm, I am also obsessed with certain characters, and I'm sure all your readers understand XD I don't usually go out of my way to read anything about Diluc and Kaeya, I'm kind of neutral on them, and I absolutely ATE UP your fics of them!! I was binge reading some of your stuff a couple of days ago and I had a lot of fun with it, I won't deny that I'm very excited for more to come! XD

Also on a separate note, I reallyyy liked the late caretaker fic! I clicked on it as soon as I saw it was out hahaha, I think I'm starved for some good hsr content! I really love the way you portrayed Stelle and Kafka's relationship (I have a soft spot for motherly Kafka)

I'm glad you enjoyed the undesirable caretaker prompt! Toying with Kafka and Stelle's relationship is really interesting to me because like obviously Kafka's done tons of not good things, even to Stelle, but it's still obvious she really cares??? Dying for more on what the fuck is going on there because Of Course her companion quest gave some really interesting bits but they can't Go anywhere because they're stuck in "not everyone saw this" hell and im >< but I want to see Stelle react to it, I want to hear her talk to other people about Im- going to have to find fanfic eventually.

Anyway, digressing a little, something about that concept and dynamic is just so much fun. Kafka, constantly hiding things, definitely incredibly dangerous, and how soft she can be towards Stelle/Caelus. I'll probably write more in their direction eventually. But Kafka's voice is ... something. I'll have to decide where to go with the next one.

as for the first part! it's funny bc like I obsessively read every cynari (etc) fic that crosses my space anymore and want more so like I'm well versed in "I want more like this but Slightly Different" but any time I find myself writing too many versions of the same arrangements I'm like "....... oops people are probably getting annoyed by now"

on the other hand this IS more or less what I expected when I started doing Hoyoverse for the event prompts because I resisted genshin specifically for actual years (because the Fandom did and still kinda does scare me) but like with the dull awareness from people I follow that I would absolutely adore the Diluc & Kaeya dynamic based on what I absorbed by osmosis. And then I started playing star rail and slowly just started collecting hoyo games (glances at HI3 and Genshin ... -shrugs-)

But! I'm glad you're excited! The thought of someone who doesn't normally read the characters reading mine kinda made me alksdfjalsdjfkasldkfj that's so kind of you to say ><

I've been slowly making my way through your modern au and im man the amount of work you put into these to string together a genuine plot through the whole thing is Incredible btw.

[moldybonessmell]

How do you feel about waifugaming in genshin?

I'm one of these people and feel absolutely unapologetic about it😂😂 Tho there were many times I had to just give up on a character because their base stats are just too bad (I'm sorry, Candace, you have one of the coolest designs in the game but no way on earth I can make you a dps😔)

Welcome to my waifu and husbando collection review lol

Disclaimer: I use these words ironically

Tho my waifugaming collection is not that impressive

When you look at this I definitely have a type tho lol

None of them is crowned (+ I'm still levelling up Xianyun), tho Shenhe got 9-9 talents and yes, I did in fact bought her skin and it's super pretty I have no regrets

I used to consistently bring Sara to coop domains and people were freaking out why she had Polar Star bow on her lol it was fun

I used to main Ningguang on ranks before 60 but kinda got to a skill ceiling with her being geo and me not being able to substantially buff her

But my husbandogaming is pretty strong I feel like

My ass having KAEYA (C6 btw) of all charas triple crowned says a lot, for God's sake, I literally started to play genshin just because I saw Kaeya pictures and him being pretty

Childe is my main and triple crowned too but he's a 5* it's expected, he's also C3 but it was two separate accidents lol cus his cons are not that good

Zhongli got two crowns too but it was just for the sake of it as I had resources, he's still a support

Thoma, my beloved, is completely benched now but used to help me a lot before I was able to pull Zhongli, he's still the best husband material character in the game his hangouts were super cute

Got super lucky genshin devs eventually decided to make male charas viable dps so I can have Alhaitham and Neuvillette to carry my account (besides Tartaglia of course, but he's still more of an enabler than dps)

Alhaitham got 2 crowns, Neuvillette got one on charged

Kaveh end up being benched but he's still my babygirl

Wriothesley was an accidental pull but I have no regrets as I definitely look at him respectfully at all times, but, unfortunately, main cryo dps title is on Kaeya, he can't fight that

Don't forget about the short kings!

I've spent AN ENTIRE YEAR SAVING UP AS F2P to get Xiao cus I started to play on 1.3 and didn't pull him I can't believe he had several reruns just in a span of few months after that I was so upset I didn't get any inazuma 5* bc of saving up he was IMMEDIATELY triple crowned lol when my main Tartaglia had to wait half a year🤡 Eventually benched him because as a hypercarry he couldn't compete with my other team-player-charas no matter how much I tried. He's still my deadly meowmeow and I SWEAR TO GOD IF HE'S NOT IN NEW LANTERN RITE EVENT-

I pulled Tighnari on his first banner (before he went into standart) and it was my first time donating to genshin🤡🤡🤡 I have him C3 and double crowned now and he's actually pretty good I still bring him to fight long range bosses (in comparison with Cyno and Scara who are benched rn)

Cyno disappointed me at first, but he works really good in hyperbloom teams. The only reason I benched him is because I didn't have a proper dendro application, but I pulled Nahida recently and will definitely revive my Cyno Hyperbloom Team🤓

Scara or Wanderer is still pretty good, but I personally don't enjoy a hypercarry playstyle anymore, he's still one of the charas I like a lot tho.

This is it! Have you ever made a "weak" character a strong dps just because of the sheer obsession you have over them?

[ellelune]

Hi i'm still alive

Hi. It's been...more than 5 years since I abandoned this blog. I just randomly searched up my old blog here one day and I was filled with nostalgia...the happy-sad kind. This was my Pinterest (I'm old now okay). This is where is used to express my creativity, not that I draw or make art but like...i feel so myself when I was here? Obviously this site has went through shit, I feel like every millennial did, and no I'm not talking about the pandemic, but idk, I kinda wanna feel the old me through here. One thing this place helped me with is that I used to write letters to my future self, it's a little something that I do to push myself to live. unfortunately, I haven't been doing that for a long long long time. The last time i was here, it was a den for R-18 blogs and they're popping out everywhere and it felt like a virus. It's scary. I'm a wholesome blog. I was also too busy with school so i just focused on studying. hm, How have i been? Maybe i should write it here so the future me can read and reminisce. I'm currently working as a Physician at a nearby clinic, i also applied for a research position at my Alma Mater, I'm waiting for their call back but it looks positive, i want to believe so. I am not where i wanted to be, that's the truth, but also...i don't even know what i wanted to be. I am currently on Therapy, i have been, for 1 year now, and it's been a great help, along with my medications and shit. I have insurance now, i have some savings, i can buy some stuff that i like. I'm still with my boyfriend, we're on our 9th year now. We're pretty much family to each other at this point but he went and pursued residency, so he should finish that first before he start settling down. My cat, yes, he's still alive. He's 9 years old too! He's fatter than ever. We have a new dog, btw. His name is 'Kiro'. He's a domestic breed, he's less than a year old and he's soooo energetic i can't keep up with him. Whatelse? I am much happier than before. The ellelune here back in 2015 was so gloomy [ turns out she was badly depressed]. I still love the vibe these creepy ethereal photographs give off, i still love art, but recently i have been into baking, or maybe cooking in general. I learned a lot of dishes in a matter of months. I haven't been watching movies lately, i don't think there are anything that interests me anymore and i don't wanna watch for the sake of watching. BUT! I know there are films in my old hard drive that might get me going. I haven't even seen Openheimmer yet. Netflix is just there for my parents. I'm more into anime lately, manga and webtoons. I play a handful of games too, like back in 2019, i was obsessed with Genshin Impact that i burst out my wallet for it. I still love genshin but i don't play it as much as before [ also my PC gave out]. Music...still the same taste, maybe a lot wider since i got into J/K-indie. I still enjoy singing. Dancing? not so much as before, but i did danced again, for a while. There are so many things that changed and so many things that i'm happy it did change. One thing i would like to say is, i am living my second life now, i will expand on that soon because i don't want to sound gloomy and sad here. but, yeah, i will explain that soon, because it needs to be in here. In 2021, i survived, from myself. That's probably all i will say now. anyway, i will go explore this site again and see if i can rack my rusty brains into managing my account to be active again. I don't know what kind of Ellelune i would love to have, but i'm sure it's gonna be full of things that i love. and oh, btw, i got a niece :) She's a 10 month old baby and guess what her name is ? ' Elle '

[appreciatingtokrev]

that's really nice to heard that you guys managed to turn it around then! hopefully, your friendship will last for many years to come 🙂 i recently had to cut off a friend for 8 years because she went too far since she let bad experiences define her too much and i couldn't do it anymore 😭 it did made me realise that friendship or any general relationship does take work but it won't happen if the other party doesn't listen 😅 i'm a mac user and it's not available for IOS users expect for the iPhones but you can get GI on an iPad but most don't know this. Mac aren't really great for games anymore, you can't download any from steam now. that does make sense and maybe the company just abandoned it since they don't see a need switch version considering the success.

I've heard that the gacha concept is bad for ppl with gambling issues though like some ppl do impulse buy on there a lot. i've gave into playing honaki star because i wanted to be there from the start. which one do you prefer? i like honkai star more, how about you?

you are right, i got a bit lost there and we don't have the high school system on my end so i have to look up fms 😅 are you still in high school then (?) where i live, ppl your age are at university or they're retaking the previous year to get into uni.

i read the manga a while back so i've looked it up and you're correct. that is a good point, koko does seem more likely to change compare to inupi. that's true since even mitusya was still a member in bad toman and mikey disappeared and kisaki's influence. i wonder that cause koko to change that much in the bonten timeline though? because he definitely knew what he was doing then by signing up to it willingly.

it is a bit hard and long 😅 which version of venti do you want to cosplay? that is a shame but more interesting characters will appear where you might want to cosplay them instead and like you said, you could always start now.

tbh, anime merchandise is pretty expensive so if you could order it, it would be a little bit hard to find reasonable prices 😭 there are limited edition perfumes of TR that cost at least 100+ for just ONE, i was talking to someone and she will buy at least more than one but i was like wait, what if you don't like the scent? and then she said i'll just add it to my anime collection then and i went 💀 i would never do that, would you? making his earring must been cool though, does it jingle then? you're almost there then! wouldn't a wig be uncomfortable though? and hot to wear in the summer ? my cousin said the same thing about the hotness and you guys are exactly one month apart from each other, she's 16th of March lol. i'm not telling anyone that i'm cosplaying 😂 i'm just going to wear it as an outfit every once in a while and i'm not buying a wig.

i'm not a makima fan either, i just like her outfit lol. the fanart of her are cool though considering how terrifying/dark they are. why don't you like her? it really was and luckily i managed to get the last one for my size otherwise i've would given up 😭 thanks, it's not perfect, there is a split at the back (at the bottom) but closet i was going to get so i'm happy.

ty!! yeah i hope so too :] oh no,, i’m sorry for you ajdjfkh losing friends you’ve had for so long is very hard but if you believe it’s better that way i’m glad you did it & i hope it doesn’t take too much of a toll on you. a few years ago me and my best friend of 8 years grew apart and well... i was pretty sad about it tbh but i mean that’s life.

hm interesting, didn’t know abt any of the technical genshin stuff bc for my laptops it’s always worked without a problem

i hate to admit it but i’ve spent money on genshin too, though it was a one-time thing and i was still financially stable afterwards (otherwise i wouldn’t have done it). but yeah, it’s definitely a problem for gambling addicts.

ohh personally i prefer genshin, probably bc it’s what got me into gaming on pc and i’ve been playing it for so long lol but i prefer honkai star rail over honkai impact for sure. i do prefer the gi/hi fight mechanics but those in hsr are very fun too and i like that they did something different for once!

yeah i mean it’s not really a highschool here either... i would explain the school system in switzerland to you but it’s a little complicated so ajfjfjhsk tbf i’m a bit older than most people in my class tho it’s not too unusual for someone my age to be where i am bc the fms & gymnasium often have people repeating a bunch of times or similar things. most people actually graduate highschool at abt 18 to 20 where i live, in my specific type of class even half a year later so 19 to 21. and i’ll graduate at 22 so yeah lol. then i’ll probably go to university

i guess koko is just more prone to crime than e.g. inupi or mitsuya? i think it has to do with his trauma relating money because he knew that getting into bonten would secure him good business (if he works well ofc, but he knows he does lol) plus the other people who ended up joining bonten wanted him to be there too so that gives him an easier time making a decision.

i’d love to cospaly just his normal outfit, the one he wears in-game! my hair’s been growing out since and i never dyed it but i actually got pretty much the same haircut as him last summer lol. now idk what i wanna do with my hair and i hate going to the hair dresser so i haven’t cut it since ajdjfkhsk.

yeah, merch is so expensive 😭 i ended up finding a store in the city where my school is at that sells some animanga merch, including tokrev (and gi) stuff, so i now have a tiny takemichi figurine and a little plushie mitsuya keychain hehe, and both weren’t too expensive. i’ve also been planning on crocheting some little tokrev dolls inspired by a silly fic i read lol but my motivation has been so low 😭 ah yeah i’ve seen a bunch of tokrev perfumes too... i mean. if she likes spending money on stuff and has enough money to do it... her choice i guess

it does jingle!! i haven’t worn it yet tho bc i don’t mind the sound but i’m pretty sure the public doesn’t lmao so i might make another that looks the same but doesn’t make any noises so i can wear it.

mhh honestly i don’t think i will care abt wearing a wig too much, it’s not for too long and while i hate tge heat i can tolerate it quite easily so. and i think it will be plenty of fun (and struggle) to style it haha

oh lol, i see i’m collecting people with birthdays similar to mine one way or another lol. that actually makes a lot of sense! her outfit very much is perfect to just wear casually so. omg i love makima fanart, especially when people incorporate a lot of symbolism and/or horror elements. she’s just so pleasing to look at in a way ajdkfjsjh. she gave me bad vibes from the start and well i dislike her for her actions, which should be pretty popular lol. any reason in particular that you dislike her? omg pretty much the same thing happened to me with my valhalla jacket jacket, i’d checked out every store in town and was SO close to giving up when i found one slightly too big (it makes my shoulders look weirdly broad but i have some ideas on shortening the sleeves to fix it) and it looked okay so i bought it.

[kyzveryown]

I've been using social media way too much in these past couple of years. Prior to 2017, I hardly ever used any apps outside of Tumblr which I used to treat like a public journal. I had (well, still have) a Twitter for my music and whatnot but I was and still am never active on that. Youtube was nothing but "a giant record store/sample library" (I make music) and I'd occassionally post some of my photos (street photography) and sketches on Instagram. A lot has changed since then.

Nowadays I'm on Twitter every single damn day wasting my time scrolling and liking shit and I hate it. I perodically check Tumblr out of boredom and eagerness for notes (still waiting on that "Top 10 Anime" post to hit 1,000 notes). And now I watch people discuss and play video games on Youtube which was something I told myself I'd never do. And Instagram? I stopped logging in since I haven't taken any photos or drawn anything in over a year. I've become one of those "chronically online" people. It's not a good feeling.

One thing I noticed is I've stopped writing and venting my thoughts. I used to do that on my personal blog but I don't use it anymore. This one is my main blog now. And I'd rather not post any personal shit here because that's not what this blog is for. So, I've just been keeping everything on the dome for the better part of three years but it's taken a toll on me. You have to get stuff out every once in a while. You can't just let your thoughts sit like that. I have to start journaling or whatever again because my mind is always on 1,000%. I be praying for my mind to shut the fuck up lol.

Real shit, I want to stop using Twitter. I use it for news and liking art but that's about it. It's a huge waste of my time - time that could be spent working out shit in my life, or writing the many stories I've started, or working on the compilation of songs I've been sitting on for years now. And it isn't just Twitter either. Genshin Impact has had a chokehold on me for the last year and a half to the point I don't play anything else and waste hella time constantly ruminating over it. Thankfully, I'm starting to step away from the game. It's not good for my mental.

I'm not as creative as I used to be and that shit bothers the fuck out of me. I haven't gotten proper sleep in six years either.

Truth be told I'm burnt out...

...and I'm tired.

I just wanna go home [back to New York]. *sigh, I just wanna go home, bruh. It might sound like some depressing shit but I feel like that's where my heart is. But I am where I am so...it is what it is. Just gotta roll with it. I don't wanna get much deeper than this because again, that's not what this blog is for. But I felt like I had to write something for once, you know, just get some shit off or whatever. But that's that.

I'm out.