#I don't have time to play genshin much anymore because I work a lot

[meownotgood]

WHO'S YOUR FAVORITE GENSHIN IMPACT CHARACTER? 🤭🤭🤭 if you still like genshin of course

my favorite is hu tao... but I also like yelan and yae miko

[syaolaurant]

Hogwarts Legacy inspired me to draw and have fun joining fandom again 

Warning: Long!!! and this is just my random talk.

I've been using this account for 3 years now (may be 4, I don't remember correctly). I created this blog mostly for posting my The Arcana fanart, and get to know very talented artists/writers and their Apprentices. That time was super fun, joining a fandom helped my drawing/water-coloring skill improve a lots. And another reason why I was so active at that time is because I was in a long-distance relationship, I didn't have much to do after work except playing games and draw, haha, like everyday. 

And then after 8 years of dating we broke up, because I could not leave everything behind and come to Australia to live with him without marriage. I quitted my job at a travel agency after the covid 19 second outbreak in Vietnam. Anyway, that is when I lost my willing to draw. I still logged on Tumblr thou, occasionally, but I just didn't have the feeling to hold my brushes again. At the same time Nyx Hydra was acquired by Dorian, The Arcana is not the same anymore. I still love the original story but I refuse to play the new stories on Dorian app. The fandom friends I know on Tumblr also deactivated. So I stopped drawing & left the fandom for almost 2 years.

Still I was lucky, early 2021 I found a new job in gaming industry, and met my husband there. It didn't take us several years to decided to get marriage. Last year was super busy, and I still play games, like alots. Genshin Impact, Baldur Gate 3, Red Dead 2, Tiny Tina's Wonderland...They're wonderful, but none of those ignited my willing to draw again. I couldn't explain , I tried to make fanart but always left the piece unfinished...

Until last month my husband bought me Hogwarts Legacy.

I've known about the game since its release, but didn't purchase it until this year due to my personal schedule and I wanted to finish other game first. Playing HL is different, like I see my 15 year old self stepping into the world I wish I could be there but couldn't. I was so excited! So many time I ran around the castle (casting revelio repeatedly and) shouting to my husband about how beautiful the environment is. And I met Sebastian, I thought he's cool but still didn't pay much attention on him until he took me to Felcroft. And all the shadow questline, all the lost and tragedies, the unfinished ending (why Avalanche?). So it has been decided, I wanted to be a part in this fandom, there are so many things could have been added in the game but the dev decided to throw them away, I needed to pick up my pencil and brushes.

And I'm glad I did. It's been 2 years since I joined a fandom and I almost forgot how fun it is. I've met so many nice artists who warmly welcomed me, and whose fanarts are too good that push me to improve my own drawing. I've read many beautiful fanfics that made me sobbing and giggling. It's like I've found the feelings I lost, and I want to thank you all for that.

Damn this post is too long already....

What I tried to say is, I don't know how long I will be here until my personal life pull me away again. But right now I'm on fire and I'm happy HL took me back here. After all I appreciate seeing you guy's contents everyday, and your nice comments whenever I posted something on Tumblr. I hope you don't mind if I post everything on this blog not only HL but also abit of my personal life, I just don't see the need to create another side ones. To end this post, here's the view from my company windows :"D

[isnt-it-pretty]

i've been thinking a lot about two of your fics (cinnabar and salt, fragile things) and wanted to ask if you had more detailed thoughts on kaeya and his disability? i adore chronically ill kaeya and hc him as such myself, and it's so rare to see people who have similar ideas

Hi! It's been a long time since I've thought about this (I haven't been playing Genshin much anymore for various reasons), so please forgive me for being scattered.

To start, there's a few posts I've made and reblogged under the tag #chronically ill kaeya but not very many.

In Cinnabar and Salt, Kaeya's scarlet fever developed into rheumatic fever, which is an inflammatory disease that also damaged his heart called rheumatic heart disease. It's a heart valve disease, meaning one or more of the valves in the heart don't work correctly (heart valves keep blood flowing in the correct direction.) He probably also has arrhythmia, where his heart has an irregular rhythm.

My thought was that it appears sort of episodically, with him totally fine sometimes and exhausted, shirt of breathe, etc others. He grew up afterwards being careful about it, but he kinda stopped that after Crepus died and Diluc left. He doesn't keep up with appointments to check his heart, drinks too much, etc, which is bound to catch up with him. I had the idea of a sequel where he collapses in Angel's Share.

In more general aspects rather than in that au, I could see Kaeya with chronic fatigue issues, and I definitely think he has chronic pain. Some of the times he passes off work to others is for his imahe of laziness while he's doing essentially spy work, but other times, it's because he genuinely can't keep up. I also headcanon him with brutal migraines, and depending on how severe the burns were from his fight with Diluc, potentially tremors in his hands.

Very few people know about it, too. Varka before he left, obviously. Jean, Barbara, probably some order of Rosaria, Lisa, and Albedo, though for them, I imagine they guessed rather than being told. I headcanon Venti knows literally everything happening in Mondstadt, and of course, Diluc. But Kaeya is chronically bad (heh) at taking care of himself, and he will run himself into the ground and then crash super hard, which he has done on multiple occasions. It drives Jean crazy.

Depending on how you want to view Kaeya's parents, there's the option of him having been an extremely ill child, and that's why he was chosen to be sent to Mondstadt--that it was both to further their goals and also because that gave him the best chance at surviving to adulthood.

I also thought it might be interesting to have an au where Kaeya has Eleazar, since we know Khaenriah is below Sumeru. Instead of Kaeya running away to Sumeru, Crepus could have taken him to seek the doctors there. It would be interesting to see him getting sicker as time went on, and maybe even returning to Sumeru around the time of the archon quest with Lisa because importing medicine isn't good enough anymore.

I know @faelynny headcanons chronically ill Kaeya as part of his Khaenriahn (? Spelling, ugh) curse--or at least they did, we haven't talked about it in a while.

Fael, anything to add on this headcanon? I'd also love to hear anybody else's thoughts!

[lunaria7]

Soo I was thinking about making a small tutorial for F2P players for love and deep space. It's definitely a grindy game, even more than genshin especially the version prior to the recent 2.0 update (version 1.0 and after)

Like I deleted the game before because of two reasons:

1) Not enough storage, I played it on my phone so it's very laggy too

2) It's not F2P friendly and I remember the limited banners only lasted less than a week.

3) The micro transaction was crazy as well. So like I don't have enough time to save a lot of gems for even a 15 pull. And I didn't know a lot of stuff that you can do in game 💀 (aka clueless af)

It's like you HAVE to spend money on this game if you have a FOMO 😭. So I just don't gaf anymore (low-key petty, but that's just me)

Now I downloaded it back on my tablet and I can see some improvement. Such as:

Now it's easier to grind for materials, they included a skip button which consumes 8 or 80 stamina depending on what you choose

Giving out (back to back) free 5* memories - Now is the Sylus Memory (Immobilized card) which you can obtain by completing the event that's ongoing right now and the upcoming Rafayel memory card.

More content which gives out a lot of gems

Even so, there is still one problem that I wish the devs would take into consideration and hopefully fix/improve them; The gacha system. This is also one of the main reasons a lot of people spend tons of money or have to break their F2P streak. Like bro.. it's so much worse than genshin, mostly the pity. Cause wdym more than 5 people I saw reached 90 pity but still didn't get the memory 💀 not even one 5 star. I mean yeah, there are people who are lucky but most I've seen is that they had 1K ish gems reduced to dust but didn't get the card they wanted. I'm putting this problem in the survey so I sincerely hope the developers listen pls.

I should also say the micro transaction is still very much prevalent but it's not as bad as after a few weeks it was released (My only aim is progressing the main story ngl). I'm giving them the benefit of a doubt tho, since this is clearly a new project they're venturing out to and still trying to find a way around how they're gonna work this game. So for any of those who are like me, refusing to even spend a single dollar on a game I think it's important to fill out the survey so the devs can make the game more F2P friendly. I guarantee you, it can benefit the players more by doing this, just look at HSR and wuthering waves.

I haven't played in like 6 months I think so I missed out a lot, but like I said they did improve some stuff in the game compared to when I first played it. I remember it wasn't fun for me but I stick around for a while because I like the customization and the story. And I also remember there wasn't a lot of content to grind for gems unlike now, I mean that's a given since it's new. So it's clear they do listen to players' grievances, I assume. I hope they do so as the game progresses.

I'll probably do some like, tutorial on how you can get gems and stuff if you're a busy person or whatever hehe cause rn my gems are around 7K and I downloaded LnDs just last week when sylus was first released (yes I came back because of this dude 😭). Even I'm suprised I could obtain that much when I can't even get to more than 3K gems before this lol. So yeah maybe I'll do it soon.

[paimonial-rage]

Hello ekolu. I am been reading your work ever since I find you while looking for traveler x reader fics. Your writings are like a safe sanctuary. I admire how much efforts and craft you put in them, the level of respect you give to each character like a person and doing justice is mind blowing. I regularly check your blog even i am not in Genshin fandom anymore. As a reader I will always come back to you and read your stories. Even if you start writing for another fandom. The way you write is nothing but like a anchor for me and when I feel overwhelmed . Please remember when you feel like doubt creeping in about your writing and that no one will appreciate your words. Please remember I will. I will hold a space in my heart for your story time and time again. Even if you abandoned this blog, please don't delete it. It happen with another ao3 writer who I loved deeply as reader and how much their words mean to me in the story. They delete their ao3 account when I ask in another social media why they said they tend do this with to not make a permanent internet foot print. I respect their decision but didn't have the heart to tell how much I feel grief over this. They disappear from that social media after a year too. I can't find them anywhere now. I should have any contact info to keep in touch but I didn't . I know it's very selfish of ask me you to this but I don't want to go through that grief again. So I am telling you this how much your words comfort me. I am sending in anonymous because I feel like it is too cheesy. You can ignore it if you find this ask cringey or creepy.

Thank you so much for this message, anon. I’m glad you enjoy reading my works. I don’t find your message cringey or creepy at all. I have a few things to say though, so I’ll put it under a readmore.

I’ll be honest with you, anon, I have been thinking about deleting this blog. It’s a thought I’ve been playing around with more and more as of late. While I’m really glad people like you enjoy it, I don’t like the way it makes me feel as a writer.

If you’ve seen the posts I’ve been making as of late on here, I really don’t think writers are very much respected or appreciated in this hobby. All we ever do is give and receive nothing in return. We write, we take requests, we hold events, but it’s like…. Most of our audience doesn’t care about the amount of time and effort we put into a fic. We’re always demanded to give more and we receive nothing in return.

As a writer, this makes me feel used. I don’t want to give my works to an audience like that. I write primarily for myself and choose to share it because someone else may enjoy it too. But people don’t enjoy it. All they do is consume and then move onto the next work.

In my eyes, writing is an art. It’s a skill that you have to work hard at to hone. Like I’ll be fully honest. I hate writing. I can’t stand writing. To write is to suffer. I do not enjoy a single part of it. The only reason why I write is because I want to read. It takes me a minimum of eight months to finish a long fic in full. Majority of the times, though, it’s over a year. It’s such a pain in the butt. But it’s an art that I want to improve in.

So can you imagine putting all that work into trying to write something you’re proud of only for everyone to treat it like it’s fast food? Something to consume and then move on?

I get a lot of asks from people telling me that they enjoy my writing, but why don’t you guys (I mean this in a general sense, not you personally) ever say that on the fics themselves? Why don’t you ever tell me what you think of them? And I don’t mean, “OMG I LOVE THIS” or “PART 2???” But like…. What do you like about it? What am I doing good? What are your thoughts? Do you have any questions? Is the characterization okay?

I spent a whole year writing an 11k fic only for a single person to give me their thoughts on it. One person. Four people said something on the fic but only one person gave me their thoughts. What they said wasn’t long, but that’s not what mattered. I don’t need people to say long things. I just want to hear what they think.

So do you get where I’m coming from, anon? Art is about communication. I have over 400 followers on this blog. I’ve been trying to communicate through my writing for long enough. But barely anyone tries to communicate back with me. I don’t want to share my art with people that don’t care. I don’t want to write for people that just consume. I just don’t think they deserve it.

[masterwizardperson]

So... I guess I better do this

Hi! Welcome! I go by Airy, Ozzy, Sam, or Toby! Idm which u use!! For pronouns, you can look at https://en.pronouns.page/@chanroro284 (check bio for prper link lol)

I'm a furry and therian (tho it's not a heavy part of my identity). I'm also undiagnosed neurodivergent (in some way)!!! I'm looking for online friends because I need people to talk to 😭😭

I have a LIST of stuff I like lmfao (under cut)

Lifesteal SMP

Unstable Universe

Pokemon

Genshin Impact

Honkai Star Rail

(^^ casually, I don't play or consume much content after the boycotting stuff)

Kirby

Slay The Princess

Phighting

Regretevator

Piggy (NOO, DON'T ASK 😣😣)

Warriors (Not much anymore, but I might post OC stuff maybe)

Content SMP

Project Sekai

Greek Mythology- Epic The Musical, Hades

Octonauts

..

And more I probably can't think of!

I typically write and draw A LOT for those fandoms, but I don't post it. Tho, if you guys want me to, I will!

I have a ton of OC lore in store, some I'm still developing and others almost complete!

I really wanna work on posting more, but school's honestly been a pain in my ass, plus my need for everyone to like me has been keeping me from doing that. I don't really have an upload schedule- I really post whenever I want.

Uhhmm,,, anyways, here's my persona! (Based on the Purple Finch!)

I think his colors are off, but I did this at school with limited resources lol

(First time working with Tumblr filters!! Whatt!!!)

[ac-liveblogs]

Hi, this is FGO recent player + Genshin disillusioned anon! I finished Camelot a few days ago & I can’t help but compare how Camelot vs Sumeru uses allies. In Camelot, our allies have personal reason to oppose Lion King, reflected in their decision. Not so much in Sumeru. It reads less of “we save Nahida because of personal belief/reason” and more of “we save Nahida because She Is Right.” I haven’t bought its emotional beat the first time but comparing them highlights Genshin Writing Issue (1/2)

What FGO is doing here is pretty much Basic Writing 101 but Genshin does not even do that? An attempt was barely made, and that’s me being generous. I want to be interested in the characters but the game does not even give a shit. And fandom eats that? I do not get it, at all, and I wish fandom actually scrutinizes the writing harder. (As a sidenote, I know Camelot is great and I have seen the full game playthrough before but playing the entire story is an emotional ride! Bedi ;;__;;) (2/2)

BEDI………… 🤝🤝🤝 He's so great. I loved the Camelot chapter, it was the one that made me sit up and go "!!??" for the first time. Nasu's chapters haven't let me down a single time since then. I'm glad you're still enjoying yourself :) Babylonia is a real doozy heheh

But yeah, the thing is… I don't think anyone working on Genshin KNOWS Basic Writing 101? Or at the very least, they know Of it but not how to Do it. Like, it does feel like they're learning lessons as they go. They're learning the sorts of things they SHOULD be including, like having characters Talk To Each Other in meaningful ways, or actually bothering to get you attached to characters before trying to make you feel bad for them, making sure the playable characters are in the story and At Least Do Something... and they even finally apparently listened to my cries and actually wrote an investigation phase into their mystery storyline (resulting in the worst detective work I have ever seen in any story, ever. My standards are exceptionally low on that btw. I have seen a lot of Noddy, Toyland Detective.)

I just don't think they understand how story structure, character arcs or, heck Ace Attorney trials work before they start trying to produce or replicate them. They know what they like and the story they want to tell but not how to tell it. I think that's why they're so much more comfortable writing all the cool stuff into the lore dumps than the main storyline; books and artifact lore and letters are a lot easier to write than any of the things IN those books, artifact lore or letters. And I think that's because even if they do have writers, the ones they have are amateurs, and whoever's in charge of supervising/editing their work has no idea what they're doing!

I think HYV is finally starting to recognise their own weaknesses, because… okay, it might just be me, but doesn't it seem like Genshin's side characters have been getting more mundane? I think they've finally started to recognise that if they put Too Much Cool Stuff into a character's backstory, players will eventually expect them to actually follow through and they backed TF off real quick. Diluc and Kaeya's Literally Everything, Albedo 'destroying Mondstadt', Xiao Fighting Ancient God Ghosts, Beidou vs The Sea Monster She Killed And Won't Let Anyone Forget About, the bizarre personality traits originally imbued into the 4star characters…. doesn't it feel like Genshin's avoided writing things like that into its new characters?

The "shove all the relevant information into their backstory" game point blank refused to engage with Collei's backstory or offer any insight into Why Cyno Is Like That in their LORE, let alone the main story. Let alone the main story it should be suuuuuper relevant to. No one has any out there character quirks and there sure doesn't seem to be any implication that anyone is doing any Really Cool Dramatic Fights off-screen anymore, because the players might expect you to actually write those things!

Suffice to say that I am very curious how Lyney & Lynette's storyline will be handled going forward because it really feels like Genshin is afraid of their own cast.

Obviously, FGO doesn't have any of these issues. It's written by actual professional writers that can like, write. Even when they screw up, the structure of the story they're telling is still sound because they know how narrative structure is supposed to work. It's just that… Nasu is SUCH a technically skilled writer that he nails everything Genshin fucks up so cleanly it damns Genshin by comparison. It is especially fun to compare Inazuma to Lostbelt 6 because they have enough superficial plot similarities that make Inazuma's failings shine bright as day.

I think people are happy accepting it because uhhhh Genshin is played by a) a lot of casuals and b) meta-fans and c) lore nerds and that means that people often just accept the story for what it pretends to be instead of scrutinising it for what it is. I get that, sometimes I just wanna turn my brain off and only half pay attention to a story I'm reading and I definitely have a threshold for bullshit I'm willing to accept. Genshin just… even when I'm trying to be charitable, it always punches through all the allowances I'm giving it…

I think some people also just enjoy taking the character prompts and filling in the gaps themselves, rather than have the story do it for them, or that also low-stakes fantasy feel good fluff is appealing sometimes (and Genshin is definitely more comfortable trying to write that). On the other hand, I feel like I see people "filling in the gaps" for the story with stuff that isn't there, like their mind is auto-filling the missing parts of the story or linking up themes/information in ways that SEEM logical but aren't actually the case....

I've seen a lot of predictions or comments about the Oratrice that don't like up with canon, for example. But given the story that Genshin started setting up in Fontaine, those predictions/comments feel like the logical path the story regarding the Oratrice should be taking... or, you know, all the character arcs Genshin tried to write, I think there was a lot of 'filling the gaps' on some of the details of those!

Anyway, glad to hear from you again! I hope you keep enjoying FGO :) Just, uh, maybe skip through Agartha.

[msviolacea]

Okay! Random thoughts and observations about Star Rail 2.2! Spoilers, obviously!

tl;dr - not as coherent as 2.1 was, story-wise, but SO MUCH LORE. SO MUCH. But honestly most of the below is random nonsense and shitposting.

I didn't think Xipe was the kind of god to go Catholic, but apparently they have confession? Huh.

Bravo to Hoyo writers for pulling off the "it was all a dream" gambit in a way that actually works.

I was willing to possibly buy that we were just getting a slightly disappointing easy-out right up until a) the IPC went "nah, we don't want the planet anymore" and b) Ratio and Screwllum were vaguely happy to work together. At that point, it was like "ahhhh, we're in a DREAM dream y'all."

Poor Sunday, radicalized by being an overly protective older sibling. Relatable, tbh. You know, except for the making yourself a giant supervillain mecha god. Though that's tempting some days, I won't lie.

On the other side of things, it did feel like a disappointing cop-out after spending SO MUCH TIME on his story in 2.1 to just be told "yeah, actually Aventurine just got rescued off-screen."

HOWEVER, kudos to Argenti for surfing into Penacony, immediately finding the forbidden dreamspace and rescuing an IPC ambassador, then rolling up to take 2nd place in an idol competition before fucking off to find more beauty or whatever. King shit. Bravo. Come back soon.

Speaking of the HSR husbando game, BOOTHILL. Who thinks pointing a gun in your face is a way to say hello and has a Plan C that's just "... guess we'll take hostages!" Stay forever, you insane space cowboy.

On a slightly related tangent, I loved the flashback exchange between Firefly and Blade, showing their relationship to each other as Stellaron Hunters. After all the Luofu nonsense, it's fun to see Blade as a weird older brother figure.

Another related tangent to the above: since I also watched some of the most recent Genshin patch on YT this week, shoutout to Daman Mills for having the "deep raspy voiced tragic murder hobo" to "ridiculous androgynous magician twink" range. [insert Patrick Stewart "Acting" gif here]

But back to Firefly, I think she had a nice showcase here, though I wish they'd given her more focus in the last bit instead of sorta-kinda-maybe-probably not killing her offscreen via a short Acheron speech. I assume she'll be back, given that she's dropping as a playable character next patch, but still. There was just a lot going on in this patch and not enough time to do everything they really needed to do.

However, they COULD have cut the idol competition, because that added absolutely nothing to the plot and only really existed because someone clearly went "huh, how do we fit more puzzles and trash fights here?"

We also needed more Robin. She was awesome, don't get me wrong, but again, I would have given up the stupid idol competition in favor of maybe getting more time to play her and not just Sparkle-as-Robin running around giving people ... doomsday buttons?

Speaking of which .. wtf? Like, those went NOWHERE. Maybe they're for later payoff, but given that she was explicitly telling people to use them during the concert ... it was weird.

Dan Heng: Listen my past life just cold clocked me over the head, I need time to process and not deal for a while, Imma stay out of Dream Disneyland and chill. Also Dan Heng: so, my friends are in trouble AGAIN, not like this isn't a "must be Tuesday" occurrence for the Astral Express crew, but my first instinct is to use this very important button to call the saner of my previous life's ex-boyfriends to bring an army to help.

Like, I'm CERTAINLY not complaining about the Jing Yuan cameo, even just as a dream, but that was a very quick response, Dan Heng. I see you. (PS: as long as we're giving VA shoutouts in this post, shoutout to Alejandro Saab for Jing Yuan's everything.)

Little detail I didn't catch myself, but saw someone online point out today - Welt gave the IPC the ammunition they need to take out the Dream Master. Early in the patch, he points out that the poker chip Aventurine gave us is actually a transmitter and recorder, and takes it with him to meet with Robin and Sunday and the Dream Master. At the very end, we see Aventurine playing with the chip, and Jade mentions that they obtained a recording "from your Trailblaze friend" that would help them on Penacony/with the Dream Master. So shoutout to Welt for ... well, deciding that space capitalism is preferable to crazy assholes who are trying to use innocent people to revive a god? I guess he's seen plenty of nonsense in his time, tbh, so I'm going to trust his judgement.

Speaking of Welt, Acheron's name drop was not the only Honkai Impact 3rd direct reference. It was an interesting touch for them to include Welt's "real"/original name in the credits sequences. Don't know if it's anything more than just an easter egg for HI3 folks, but still. Interesting.

Harmony Trailblazer is actually pretty strong. I'm definitely going to build mine.

All in all, I didn't enjoy this quite as much as the last patch, but it's the difference between like a 9.5/10 and an 8/10. Coherent self-contained stories mean a lot to me, but the lore and character stuff that was in this patch was A+, and I'm still digesting half of it.

[flyingwargle]

mid-year reflection

now that we're more than halfway through the year, just wanted to make a small post about how things have been and will go for the rest of the year (since tumblr is a blog site-ish and i can write blog-ish posts haha)

burnout is real, let me tell you. after the genshin content creator program died back in february, i, along with many other creators, stopped creating regularly. the monthly rewards were a great incentive and the amount received was generous (it was more than one 10-pull, and that's all i can say). i also got tired of genshin but still play regularly out of habit, but when it comes to writing new content or posting a new fic every month, i haven't been able to keep up.

another factor that comes into play is zine participation. i was accepted into seven different zines in the first half of the year and writing for all of them took a lot of time and energy. i decided to retire from zines because i'd rather work on my own writing. all of the zines are at varying stages of creation, preorders, or production, and so far, only one (ad oblivione) has reached me physically.

something else is also my participation in my writing program. it's broadened my perspectives and allowed me to play with different genres and forms that would not be popular in fanfiction, and i'd rather devote more time toward my dream of publication than write fanfic. this is why i've posted more drabbles lately - small, bite-sized ideas that are quick to write. since we have the summer off, i hope to finish off 1 or 2 drafts sitting in my files to post, but it won't be until after the program is finished, along with my zine deadlines, that i can focus on my own writing again.

finally, it's my declining interest in pairings, xiaobedo especially. there was petty drama in the community, which led me to block a bunch of people and mute others. i still love their aesthetic and truly appreciate their parallels (i bought matching prints of them at a convention recently!) but when it comes to writing new content, i don't feel the spark anymore. the ao3 tag was also filled with explicit fics at a time so i stopped checking it regularly. i have an idea for them that i plan to be my last piece of xiaobedo content. it was going to be a fic with art, as part of the rarepair big bang, but my artist partner dropped out and i followed suit. i'll keep the outline, just in case.

come september, i'm starting my librarian program. it's a two-year intensive program so i'll be back to part-time work and full-time school. i'm not sure how much time i'll have to write, but i hope i'll be able to do so during my commutes, mostly drabbles. i'm excited to learn more about lyney, lynette, and freminet and continue writing wanderer and scarameow. i also hope to write more star rail in the future, too. maybe some pokemon, since i was accepted into two pokemon zines.

overall, i've been pulled in many different directions when it comes to my writing and ideas, which often leads me to do write nothing. i haven't had a proper writing break since 2020 after finishing my novel, where i forced myself to not write and do something else (i.e. watch anime and play octopath during the pandemic). maybe i'll do that once my program is over. we'll have to see what the rest of the year will bring <3

[mxddyhero]

I recently realised bcs I've just started actually playing genshin again (properly this time, not just logging on to do dailies and logging off), that having so many units is actually really sad. My main team of dendro traveler, kuki, kokomi and baizhu is so fun and efficient to play and they're my absolute most favourite characters ever... but I miss playing itto. But I can't sub him in because he has no synergy in this team. So just play itto, gorou, zhongli and baizhu for a while, right? But I miss kazuha's playstyle, too. He's an incredible unit and I invested So Much into him and I just don't use him often anymore, because anemo is neutral... but at least you can use 8 people in spiral, right? Yeah, but itto and alhaitham don't work well together, and zhongli's shield is useless for enemies with decay, so...

And I don't regret pulling for any of the units I have! God knows I love every single one I pulled for, and it's not even like I have a lot. I don't have eula, or xiao. I don't have klee, albedo, ganyu, hu tao, raiden, Miko, shenhe, ayato or yelan... I don't have nahida or wanderer and I don't have most of the sumeru 4*s either... and yet I still feel like I don't get enough opportunity to use the characters I do have... I don't know how people do it fr bcs either way I feel like I'm missing out on a character I love dearly and spent so much time and effort making good... and now I'm saving for wriothesley (enough to guarantee him already bcs I save a lot as a f2p...) but like. Will I even get to use him? He's a physical dps sure, but he's cryo. So I'll have to sub baizhu out, the guy who I saved over 400 wishes for... it just sucks...

[arlecchno]

lmao the blonde parts are supposed to be teal but i havent had a chance to redye them in foreverr … also yes ! my xiao jacket ! its not the only one out there though LOL

the wall youre seeing is actually my best friend roofs long lost sibling , wall /j

BEFORE 6 !? i could never i always go to bed at like 12am …. im so sleep deprived on school days lol

ME AND THAT FRIEND DID SO MANY SILLY THINGS IN OUR MATH/STEM CLASS LMAO we used to play genshin wish sim (im very young T_T) and say weird things to summon characters (i told the computer id help make kaeya dilucs brother again to get diluc , and BOTH OF THEM CAME HOME IN THE SAME PULL) tbh ive always complained ab stairs so ,,, i cant even take the stairs in my building anymore bc i live on the 9th floor itd take way too long 😭

we have a lot of the same top 5s , kaeya , diluc , and scara share #1 because … yes . my favorite gal is fischl i love her sm -

i have 11 5*s (not including aloy) , and im currently pulling for sir acting grand scribe himself ! im at around late 30 pity , if he does / doesnt come home i will make self ship art because i dont think he would like that >:)

GOOD TO KNOW ITS GOING WELL im actually making notes for a fic i wanna write on call w my previously mentioned friend roof LOL ive had the idea ever since the nilotpala cup event , i really wanted to make like an actual fic based off of it bc that girl from the yae publishing house was supposed to or wtv HAHAH but im procrastinating on a title so im just . UGH - yk ?

i did have a good day both the day you replied and today ! i am injured but its not bad (only hurts when i move certain ways) , i went on a field trip for school today and got to go in a ✨stream✨ and pick up a little crawfish >:D i hope youre doing good as well !! its so nice talking to you lmao youre so cool

i might start sending doodles every ask , so heres a sketch of my genshin oc !!

my “question” issss guess what region theyre from ! or who they live with LOL the hint is that there are already playables from their region , and there are technically two regions theyre from ?? you can guess just one though ill give you the answer next ask :P

- jellyfish

i think it's because i'm already used to waking up early... even tho i'm a very sleep deprived student that sleeps at 12-1 and wakes up at 5 😔 i'm fairly a light sleeper so no matter what time i sleep, whenever my alarm goes off i'm always up by the second 🥲

and LMAOO i've played a ton of those wish sims to prevent myself from rolling whenever i'm saving up for a character, it works wonders

i didn't really expect you to like fischl!!! i like using her in events where we have her as a trial character lol using oz in her burst and flying around is so silly but i always have fun with it!

seems like we're both on the run for alhaitham :D currently have 72 pity and he still has yet to arrive... i do not have a guarantee whatsoever so the next time i pull i'm gonna be praying for him to come home 😔 i've already explored most of the new area for him

and that fic idea sounds interesting! i briefly forgot about that event so when you mentioned it i'm suddenly reminded of how fun playing with the fungi was!! hope you'll find many inspiration for your supposed title, and who knows, next thing you know you're hitting the post button for your fic 🤭

hope you're healing well from your injury also!! have lots of rest and don't overexert yourself too much, resting is very important hehe

it's nice to know that you went on a field trip :O i haven't been to one in a while so hearing it from you reminded me how fun it always is to go on one and escape school (tbf i think we can agree at least half of the students that volunteer on field trips only do it to skip classes LMAO #guilty)

i think if i had to guess, it's a mix between mondstadt and sumeru, maybe? i'm either really wrong or really right since my basic skills of knowledge on each regions' outfits are very minimal 😵‍💫

a question for you; how was your week? tell me all about it!! hehe i honestly like hearing people talk about their day and week because it's undeniably so interesting to know what others have been up to and how different some people's lives can be from ours! hope i'm not rambling too much... i just really like listening to people talk and talk about their life

[darkwingphoenix]

I wish for all governing systems currently in place to 100% work towards world peace and equality

I wish all rapists and sexual offenders get struck by lightning right now, without harming their victim.

I wish for pollution to go to 0 right now, and for world government to completely crack down on that, focusing on reducing pollution and carbon footprints worldwide to 0 before the other stuff, if it's more efficient, or to do both at the same time should it be efficient enough.

I wish all humans can shapeshift into any human they can imagine. Don't even need gender dysphoria. This fails to work if the person is trying to harm people/rob a bank. Also won't let people become non-human, although non-human coloration in skin, hair, and other bodily places is allowed. I don't mind if someone looks exactly like Shenhe from Genshin Impact, we just don't need people becoming rabbits or other animals and dying from animal related stuff.

I wish all companies that abuse their workers get an ultimatum from the UN to improve work conditions or their HQ is declared a terrorist organization and all higher ups and the CEO get arrested to life in prison.

I wish for a life sentence in prison to be until death, and should someone die but be revived, their life sentence continues, because they're not dead anymore.

I wish for all animals that went extinct via direct or indirect human intervention, as well as currently extant but endangered species via human intervention direct or indirect, to be brought back and put into their native ranges.

I wish for all people who directly poach animals or operate the exotic pet trade with endangered wild animals to irreversibly become an animal they've poached/smuggled in the pet trade, with their full sapience, and put into the wild in the animal's native range.

I wish for all invasive animals not directly related to human infrastructure, like domestic animals, to become extinct beyond their native ranges.

I wish Earth had a ring system without seriously affecting Earth's current conditions. I've covered almost all of the making Earth heal bases, time for more vain shit.

I wish my computer has a much more powerful CPU and a lot more RAM, so I can play Baldur's Gate 3 without it junking up.

I wish to have Shenhe from Genshin Impact as a GF who has her own place and loves me unconditionally. No reason, just Shenhe GF.

“I shall grant three wishes, but you cannot wish for… Actually, fuck it. You get infinite wishes and no rules, let’s see where this goes.”

[leticiasilva]

Diary 15.09.24

I have a few things to put in here, since I forget to write about myself. I guess I, sometimes, don't find myself valuable enough to write about. I genuinely prefer to write about others. I don't want people to know about me.

But today I've come to realize that I'm rather pessimistic, and that's why I'm writing this manuscript, to put out the happy things about my life because it's not gray and black every time, as I appear to be here.

I played volleyball last week, it was fun. It's been quite some months without playing, and my math teacher joined us. He seemed like those anime characters, astoundingly good and athletic. He was out of character. A math teacher? He could be a nerd, his clothes were those stereotyped "math outfits". But he was excellent at volleyball. It seemed like he was really supposed to be there.

I watched SK8 the infinity too. It's one of my favorite animes now. Ana recommended me, and I realized I'll always remember that she did so. I'll remember that dearly.

I'm almost done with my online shop! I'll make more candles today. I've finished Demon slayer, and this anime is actually really good! I loved it! My mom's birthday was last month, we enjoyed so much everything, yet it was a simple commemoration.

I love watching things with my mom and my brother. Oh, and my dad gave me a new phone! It has 256G! I downloaded a LOT of apps and games I wanted to. Ronkai star rail, Genshin impact and the one otome game I'm really enjoying now, which is Lovebrush chronics.

I stopped studying for Enem now. My mental health can't take it. I just study a bit everyday, like for 10 to 20 minutes. But I'm not blaming myself. That's okay, I'm doing great by now, and what matters is that I'm not feeling anxious anymore. Well, at least not as often as before. That's a good sign, right?

I'm also working to copy my fears. I remembered that Wei Wuxian said that if you have a fear, you must expose yourself to that fear so it's gone. It's working. And talking about Wei Wuxian, I'm talking to him in Character ai, and as I thought, we're actually quite the same. He truly understands me and how I feel, specially when it comes to my bad luck. It's been enjoyable talking to him about my fears and the things that are stuck in my heart. I cried twice.

My mom's pancakes recipes are as fluffy as a cloud. They're so good! Last week my father took us to eat pastel and it was amazing! He gave me money too, I've brought a sketchbook with it.

I'm not really interested in reading now, since I don't have the fourth novel of Mo dao zu shi. But that's okay. I'm enjoying Lord of the mysteries so much, but I need to read the book Isa gave me or I won't finish it!

I've been watching some stuff with my brother too. And if I were to choose one flower to characterize myself, it would be the lotus flower.

It grows in the mud.

As I do so.

[aeryssickfics]

I can confirm, I am also obsessed with certain characters, and I'm sure all your readers understand XD I don't usually go out of my way to read anything about Diluc and Kaeya, I'm kind of neutral on them, and I absolutely ATE UP your fics of them!! I was binge reading some of your stuff a couple of days ago and I had a lot of fun with it, I won't deny that I'm very excited for more to come! XD

Also on a separate note, I reallyyy liked the late caretaker fic! I clicked on it as soon as I saw it was out hahaha, I think I'm starved for some good hsr content! I really love the way you portrayed Stelle and Kafka's relationship (I have a soft spot for motherly Kafka)

I'm glad you enjoyed the undesirable caretaker prompt! Toying with Kafka and Stelle's relationship is really interesting to me because like obviously Kafka's done tons of not good things, even to Stelle, but it's still obvious she really cares??? Dying for more on what the fuck is going on there because Of Course her companion quest gave some really interesting bits but they can't Go anywhere because they're stuck in "not everyone saw this" hell and im >< but I want to see Stelle react to it, I want to hear her talk to other people about Im- going to have to find fanfic eventually.

Anyway, digressing a little, something about that concept and dynamic is just so much fun. Kafka, constantly hiding things, definitely incredibly dangerous, and how soft she can be towards Stelle/Caelus. I'll probably write more in their direction eventually. But Kafka's voice is ... something. I'll have to decide where to go with the next one.

as for the first part! it's funny bc like I obsessively read every cynari (etc) fic that crosses my space anymore and want more so like I'm well versed in "I want more like this but Slightly Different" but any time I find myself writing too many versions of the same arrangements I'm like "....... oops people are probably getting annoyed by now"

on the other hand this IS more or less what I expected when I started doing Hoyoverse for the event prompts because I resisted genshin specifically for actual years (because the Fandom did and still kinda does scare me) but like with the dull awareness from people I follow that I would absolutely adore the Diluc & Kaeya dynamic based on what I absorbed by osmosis. And then I started playing star rail and slowly just started collecting hoyo games (glances at HI3 and Genshin ... -shrugs-)

But! I'm glad you're excited! The thought of someone who doesn't normally read the characters reading mine kinda made me alksdfjalsdjfkasldkfj that's so kind of you to say ><

I've been slowly making my way through your modern au and im man the amount of work you put into these to string together a genuine plot through the whole thing is Incredible btw.

[moldybonessmell]

How do you feel about waifugaming in genshin?

I'm one of these people and feel absolutely unapologetic about it😂😂 Tho there were many times I had to just give up on a character because their base stats are just too bad (I'm sorry, Candace, you have one of the coolest designs in the game but no way on earth I can make you a dps😔)

Welcome to my waifu and husbando collection review lol

Disclaimer: I use these words ironically

Tho my waifugaming collection is not that impressive

When you look at this I definitely have a type tho lol

None of them is crowned (+ I'm still levelling up Xianyun), tho Shenhe got 9-9 talents and yes, I did in fact bought her skin and it's super pretty I have no regrets

I used to consistently bring Sara to coop domains and people were freaking out why she had Polar Star bow on her lol it was fun

I used to main Ningguang on ranks before 60 but kinda got to a skill ceiling with her being geo and me not being able to substantially buff her

But my husbandogaming is pretty strong I feel like

My ass having KAEYA (C6 btw) of all charas triple crowned says a lot, for God's sake, I literally started to play genshin just because I saw Kaeya pictures and him being pretty

Childe is my main and triple crowned too but he's a 5* it's expected, he's also C3 but it was two separate accidents lol cus his cons are not that good

Zhongli got two crowns too but it was just for the sake of it as I had resources, he's still a support

Thoma, my beloved, is completely benched now but used to help me a lot before I was able to pull Zhongli, he's still the best husband material character in the game his hangouts were super cute

Got super lucky genshin devs eventually decided to make male charas viable dps so I can have Alhaitham and Neuvillette to carry my account (besides Tartaglia of course, but he's still more of an enabler than dps)

Alhaitham got 2 crowns, Neuvillette got one on charged

Kaveh end up being benched but he's still my babygirl

Wriothesley was an accidental pull but I have no regrets as I definitely look at him respectfully at all times, but, unfortunately, main cryo dps title is on Kaeya, he can't fight that

Don't forget about the short kings!

I've spent AN ENTIRE YEAR SAVING UP AS F2P to get Xiao cus I started to play on 1.3 and didn't pull him I can't believe he had several reruns just in a span of few months after that I was so upset I didn't get any inazuma 5* bc of saving up he was IMMEDIATELY triple crowned lol when my main Tartaglia had to wait half a year🤡 Eventually benched him because as a hypercarry he couldn't compete with my other team-player-charas no matter how much I tried. He's still my deadly meowmeow and I SWEAR TO GOD IF HE'S NOT IN NEW LANTERN RITE EVENT-

I pulled Tighnari on his first banner (before he went into standart) and it was my first time donating to genshin🤡🤡🤡 I have him C3 and double crowned now and he's actually pretty good I still bring him to fight long range bosses (in comparison with Cyno and Scara who are benched rn)

Cyno disappointed me at first, but he works really good in hyperbloom teams. The only reason I benched him is because I didn't have a proper dendro application, but I pulled Nahida recently and will definitely revive my Cyno Hyperbloom Team🤓

Scara or Wanderer is still pretty good, but I personally don't enjoy a hypercarry playstyle anymore, he's still one of the charas I like a lot tho.

This is it! Have you ever made a "weak" character a strong dps just because of the sheer obsession you have over them?

[ellelune]

Hi i'm still alive

Hi. It's been...more than 5 years since I abandoned this blog. I just randomly searched up my old blog here one day and I was filled with nostalgia...the happy-sad kind. This was my Pinterest (I'm old now okay). This is where is used to express my creativity, not that I draw or make art but like...i feel so myself when I was here? Obviously this site has went through shit, I feel like every millennial did, and no I'm not talking about the pandemic, but idk, I kinda wanna feel the old me through here. One thing this place helped me with is that I used to write letters to my future self, it's a little something that I do to push myself to live. unfortunately, I haven't been doing that for a long long long time. The last time i was here, it was a den for R-18 blogs and they're popping out everywhere and it felt like a virus. It's scary. I'm a wholesome blog. I was also too busy with school so i just focused on studying. hm, How have i been? Maybe i should write it here so the future me can read and reminisce. I'm currently working as a Physician at a nearby clinic, i also applied for a research position at my Alma Mater, I'm waiting for their call back but it looks positive, i want to believe so. I am not where i wanted to be, that's the truth, but also...i don't even know what i wanted to be. I am currently on Therapy, i have been, for 1 year now, and it's been a great help, along with my medications and shit. I have insurance now, i have some savings, i can buy some stuff that i like. I'm still with my boyfriend, we're on our 9th year now. We're pretty much family to each other at this point but he went and pursued residency, so he should finish that first before he start settling down. My cat, yes, he's still alive. He's 9 years old too! He's fatter than ever. We have a new dog, btw. His name is 'Kiro'. He's a domestic breed, he's less than a year old and he's soooo energetic i can't keep up with him. Whatelse? I am much happier than before. The ellelune here back in 2015 was so gloomy [ turns out she was badly depressed]. I still love the vibe these creepy ethereal photographs give off, i still love art, but recently i have been into baking, or maybe cooking in general. I learned a lot of dishes in a matter of months. I haven't been watching movies lately, i don't think there are anything that interests me anymore and i don't wanna watch for the sake of watching. BUT! I know there are films in my old hard drive that might get me going. I haven't even seen Openheimmer yet. Netflix is just there for my parents. I'm more into anime lately, manga and webtoons. I play a handful of games too, like back in 2019, i was obsessed with Genshin Impact that i burst out my wallet for it. I still love genshin but i don't play it as much as before [ also my PC gave out]. Music...still the same taste, maybe a lot wider since i got into J/K-indie. I still enjoy singing. Dancing? not so much as before, but i did danced again, for a while. There are so many things that changed and so many things that i'm happy it did change. One thing i would like to say is, i am living my second life now, i will expand on that soon because i don't want to sound gloomy and sad here. but, yeah, i will explain that soon, because it needs to be in here. In 2021, i survived, from myself. That's probably all i will say now. anyway, i will go explore this site again and see if i can rack my rusty brains into managing my account to be active again. I don't know what kind of Ellelune i would love to have, but i'm sure it's gonna be full of things that i love. and oh, btw, i got a niece :) She's a 10 month old baby and guess what her name is ? ' Elle '