#I don't deserve good things
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the men and boys are innocent too.
we cry "the innocent women and children" to appeal to the masses, to try and force their sympathy, but the men and boys are innocent too.
I have seen sons crying out for their mothers, their fathers, their siblings. I have seen them break down at the loss of their families. I have seen them cling to their dead and grieve.
I have seen fathers cradle their dead children, seen them kiss their faces and hold their little hands. I have seen them faint with grief when asked to identify the dead. I have seen them carry their sons and daughters. I have seen them fasting to provide what little they can for their families.
I have seen men and boys digging through the rubble with just their bare hands, I have seen them comforting strangers, playing with children, rocking them, hushing them, even if the face of such imminent danger. I have seen them cry, seen them grieve, seen them break down into each other's arms, seen them be selfless, beyond selfless, becoming something I don't have a word for.
I have seen the men who are doctors refuse to leave their patients, even when they have no medicine or supplies to give them, even when they're threatened with bombings. I have seen fathers who have lost all their children pick orphans up into their arms and proclaim them their child so they are not alone. I have seen men and boys digging pets out of the rubble.
the men are innocent too. the men and boys are being hurt and killed too. the men and boys are grieving too. the men and boys are scared too. the men and boys are fighting to save their people too. the men and boys deserve to be fought for too.
#I don't have words to describe how I feel for the men of Palestine#the things I have seen them do after everything they have been through goes so far beyond selfless#what do you call this? this prevailing goodness and willingness to give everything they have and more? what word even touches it?#I don't think there is one#islamophobia has conditioned us to see these men and boys as evil and dangerous#we see this in how we speak about Palestine#and we need to uncondition ourselves#they're just as innocent and of value and good as the women and children#so fight for them#they don't deserve this any more than the women and children#free palestine#palestine
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i should be working on my commission sheet but i feel like complete shit mentally and physically.
#everything hurts#i'm basically a complete monster because i had a meltdown and made my mother scared and angry#i don't deserve good things
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I recently had to do a project in one of my psych classes, and man, I knew that CBT was used for every little thing, but seeing over and over, "do CBT! CBT is the best for every mental illness!" was so jarring. I'm absolutely biased because of my own experiences, but I just don't think it's as universal a treatment model as it's touted.
If you didn't benefit from CBT, it's not because you're lazy or didn't try hard enough or lacked intelligence or foresight into your own needs. Frankly, it's a therapy model that (I think) shouldn't be the only readily-accessible model and among the only therapy models covered by insurance. Some of us should not be treated in a CBT model and that's okay. It's not a sign of poor character or unreasonable demands, and if you don't think it's a model that works for you, then it's your right to express that!
#mental health#mental health advocacy#it was just so annoying because every resource i could access for this project often ONLY recommended cbt and#that just doesn't seem helpful for a good chunk of people#because i know i never benefitted from that model of therapy#obligatory: i am not against this therapy. me having a negative experience with it is not indicative that i believe it should be abolished'#if it works for you: KEEP DOING IT. cbt is not inherently harmful for MANY people and it's a good and valuable tool for many#but the overemphasis of cbt as the Only Therapy Model You Need sends this message that YOU failed...#...if you don't miraculously recover with that therapy model. it often feels like you'll Fail Recovery/Therapy and you're now a Bad Person#i've tried for over a decade to stick out cbt with a dozen therapists to boot. so i think i know a thing or two about my experiences with it#and overall its an unimpressive model (for me) as someone whos had a history with abuse and miscellaneous mental knickknacks rattling around#it's also frustrating because i genuinely like psych and i love learning about people#it's just. i'm tired of only being exposed to cbt (because i hate it honestly)#i feel similarly about cbt as i do with sigmund fucking frued#anyway i just want other insane people (affectionate) to remember that they deserve to not beat themselves up over this#if you're an insane person reading this: i love you i love you i love you i love you#i will share a slice of cake and homemade bread with you <3
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I'm a doctor, not a miracle worker.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wen ning#wei wuxian#wen qing#jiang cheng#Truly Massive disclaimer here: I am a Jiang Cheng enjoyer. I like his character. I enjoy that he is very flawed and volatile.#This episode of the audio drama has a lot of great breakdown scenes featuring JC - and they all deserve a feature.#But underlying this comic is a small meta comment of 'ah man I have too many comics of JC just wailing sadly'#My goal is to draw 6-8 comics per episode - I sometimes have to truncate and cut good scenes out.#Especially when a large majority is just different flavours of trauma and toxic relationships to your self-worth.#I would also like to make a note here that just because you lose the ability to do something that is very tied to your core identity-#-does not mean your life is over. It will feel like the end of the world. It will send you into a spiral of grief. It will hurt so badly.#Sometimes we do not realize how tied up our identities can be in certain things until we are cut loose.#You don't lose yourself. I promise the pain will fade in time. I promise you will find other things to tether you. I promise you will be ok#Life moves forwards. Time moves forwards. You move forwards.#Ego death just means an opportunity for ego rebirth. You are never committed to being the same person forever.#To wrap this around to JC: Yeah I love the twist with the core transfer but man I would have loved to see JC accept the loss.#Obviously it happens for a reason (story) but I can have my AUs. I can have these 'what-ifs'.#described in alt text#I'm trying it out! *please* give me feedback - I want to eventually Add image ID to all of these comics one day
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Frame redraw! Salim saving Jason from the spear.
(only one of many times these two save each other)
https://ko-fi.com/rhysuje
#house of ashes#jalim#jason kolchek#salim othman#dark pictures anthology#the sword and the shield#art#hello HoA fandom I might be coming up with more#it's a freecam angle but it was so pixelated i had to draw over it#also that spear hits different#i mean for a death#it feels so bad with this one because Jason comes back to save Salim which is already redeeming#and if he gets speared it's like this poetic justice he would see fit to repent for his crimes#but it's like honey no#you don't deserve death it's your demons talking#so that's why Salim saving him here feels especially strong for me#because he's going against that negative justice and Jason's negative believes#i mean if this was an action movie it would be so easy to write jason off like that#but Salim fights for him so adamantly both physically and emotionally#again another instance of Salims presence pushing Jason towards much higher shelf of self development#thats why i love these two because it doesn't stop on simple Soldier-saving-Soldier thing#it goes so deep into their psychologies#MHM MHM MHM!! good shit!!!#rhysuje
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Listen, I know we're all exhausted, but we gotta get better about adding image descriptions to disability related stuff. Everyone should be IDing everything anyways, but there's a particularly cruel irony in disability related stuff not being accessible to folks with low/no vision.
#disability#actually disabled#you can ask people for help if you don't have the spoons or aren't good at it#Also in case anyone reading this says “hey you don't ID everything” I know I'm so tired. But if everyone on this site IDed as much as I do#I'm pretty sure we'd collectively get everything#Also I try my hardest to make sure anything disability related is IDed bc of the particularly cruel irony#(But also I do things that are funny or interesting bc low/ no vision folks deserve to enjoy the fun stuff too!!)
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I actually think Dorian and Orym should fight more.
Remember when their slowly building tension over and entire episode (full of passive aggressive remarks and blame throwing) led to threats? And how after, Orym thanked Dorian for handing over the crown sadly because he knew Dorian would be mad at him? And Dorian couldn't even look at him because he was legitimately hurt, thinking Orym was disappointed in him for doing what he thought was right? That was peak.
The fact they went from that to their current closeness and trust is the best part of their entire dynamic. Their relationship was hard fought and still will be. They will fight for it because they respect and care for one another deeply, and their disagreements don't change that, only improve it.
#critical role#cr3#orym#dorian#dorym#text post#cr discourse#'dorian deserved that actually and is being stupid by agreeing with ludinus'#'orym was too mean and needs to be quiet about his trauma'#just say you don't understand their characters#or that they are characters#you don't have to agree with them. they can make decisions you wouldn't make and disagree with#its good tv regardless#dorian didnt deserve that and orym was too harsh#dorian needed to be reminded of the consequences of indulging those ideas and viewpoints and orym is tired of this discussion happening#these things can coexist#neither of them have the whole picture here. we can't judge them based off of what we as viewers know#dorian didn't see first hand what the ruby vanguard has done. only what the spider queen did so thats on his mind more than anything#orym didnt see first hand (nor hear many details) about opal and cyrus. only what the vanguard has been doing to them for months#let them bicker and argue#its the best part#only going near the discourse because i have been waiting years for more of this and bitches on twitter are complaining about it#and often from people who don't even like orym (or sometimes dorian). go back to ignoring them and let me enjoy this moment in peace#i know i am adding to the discourse but i needed to find other people who want more dorym relationship drama before we get more fluff
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"More than 800 records of service members who were kicked out of the military under the “don’t ask, don’t tell” policy were recently upgraded to receive honorable discharges, Defense Secretary Lloyd Austin said Tuesday.
“Just over a year ago, I announced that the Department would, for the first time, begin to proactively review the military records of former Service members discharged during ‘Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell’ because of their sexual orientation who might have been eligible for upgrades to the characterization of their discharge or changes to their reason for separation but had not yet applied,” Austin said. “After a year of exceptional work, the Military Department Review Boards directed relief in 96.8% of the 851 cases that they proactively reviewed.”"
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#destiel meme news#destiel meme#news#united states#us news#us military#armed forces#military#us veterans#look i know we hate the us military on this site but this is a really good thing for queer people#gay rights#queer rights#don't ask don't tell#pentagon#and those soldiers deserve to reap the benefits of their time serving this country#a dishonorable discharge stripped them of their rank and benefits so by changing it these veterans become eligible for all sorts of things#like college grants and housing assistance and healthcare#finally some good fucking news
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Your ZZL design means everything to me, I love it so much!
you can't say these sorts of things around him, he's not used to it! and if you're not careful, he might decide to repay your kindness...
#thanks so much (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ)#zhuzhi lang#zzl#svsss#scum villain#i love him so much... sweet snake boy... he deserves hugs#character embodiment of ''he's a little confused but he's got the spirit'' much to sqq's dismay#i'm still only on book 3 so i don't know how his character arc will progress but at the moment i'm having SO many feelings about this guy#i want good things for him#my art#...actually this might be my new header because i never draw pictures that are more horizontal than vertical and i've been needing#something new for AGES#congrats zzl
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Episode five and six of Happy of the End dealt with the aftermath of the death of Keito's Haoran's mother, so this Black Brooder is completely dark now.
He sits in the dark contemplating his life and how much he hates it.
And even though Chihiro brings light to his life (as well as food), Haoran remains dark.
However, Chihiro is the perfect person to lift Haoran out of this darkness because no matter how shitty Chihiro's life is, he continues to be colorful.
His family has disowned him. He gets fired from his job. Yet he is still light.
Kaji, who he considers a friend, is rude to him and belittles his relationship with Haoran, yet he stays light.
And that's why when he gets the slightest indication that Haoran needs his help, he quickly reaches out to him.
He takes Haoran from the dark into the light as they walk around the city from the night into the morning.
He gives him a gift, not only of warmth in his moment of coldness.
But also the gift of color.
And because of this one moment of warmth in Haoran's cold existence, this moment of light in Haoran's dark life, this moment of color in Haoran's black world, he believes he can die now. Is it because he has finally had a moment of joy? Is it because he thinks he will never experience it again?
It isn't clear, which isn't a problem because either way Haoran has settled into the idea that death is a suitable outcome, but Chihiro is more than willing to die right next to him, which is a problem.
Because Haoran doesn't want Chihiro to die. He doesn't want to dim Chihiro's light. He wants Chihiro to live.
And that's what gives Haoran the will to live.
Haoran isn't living for himself anymore because he isn't alone anymore.
He still has the darkness.
But he doesn't seem to be afraid of the light the way he was before. He tells Chihiro he likes him. He tells Kaji they are boyfriends.
He cries because he realizes he has something to lose, but that also means he has something worth keeping.
So even though his darkness pops up when he argues with Chihiro because he hasn't revealed his past,
Once Chihiro appears next to him in his confrontation with Maya, that color reemerges.
And he finally bares his soul and body to Chihiro and tells Chihiro how truly dark his past was.
And a shift happens.
For the first time since Haoran was a child, he is light.
Even as he is forced to run away from Maya again, he has someone to run with him. Even though his world is still dark, he sees the light.
So it's no surprise that Maya decides the easiest way to bring Haoran back into the darkness is to kill the light.
#happy of the end#happy of the end series#the visual narrative is wrecking me#but this show is so good!#it feels right#the colors mean things#color coded boys in love#I finally got the epitome of a Black Brooder#and I've never wanted someone to experience light so badly#he deserves the light#so don't squash it Maya!
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Full three minute-long clip of David on the Reasons to be Cheerful podcast talking about Pride Month and gay/trans rights. Truly heart-wrenching to hear him get so genuinely emotional/choke up as he keeps going. Notable moments:
David: "When I was at school, calling somebody gay was like the worst thing you could be called in the playground, and now we celebrate it...[choking up] and it makes me a little bit emotional. That it just gives people a chance to be seen and celebrated and to be just--combating some of that snide nastiness that is...when Target have to...[trying not to cry] when Target in America have to take down their displays because people are so intolerant, I think we all need to put up our rainbow flags and we need to march and shout and--[crying] I didn't expect this to get me this emotional, I'll be honest with you, but--you just want your children to grow up in a world that is kind, and you want your children to be kind and you want your children to be accepted for whoever they are. Whatever they want to be. They should be allowed to be whoever they want to be." David: "When you look at it--when you take a step back and see how far we've come, it does give you hope. Because sometimes when you're right in the middle of day-to-day you think, 'Where are we going guys, come on?' Ed Miliband: "We were in the era of Section 28 and all that stuff. But it has to be fought for." David: "Yes, we can't take our foot off the gas, that's the thing. And we can't expect that we will always travel in the right direction toward acceptance. We've got to--we've all got to be fighting that fight every day."
#david tennant#soft scottish hipster gigolo#reasons to be cheerful#podcast#this made me cry#because I don't think I've ever heard David cry before#the more i see him wearing that pin#the more convinced i am he isn't just wearing it for wilf#i hope david knows that he is lovely#and deserves good things#a talented actor and a wonderful human being#David and Michael are both tremendous LGBTQ+ allies#but i think they understand that pain on a personal level#happy pride month indeed#🌈👀#beautiful#discourse
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"Should I quit dark magic? Please, Terry. Tell me what to do. Claudia, I can't. Only you can see your own deep truth. Only you can decide the path you're going to walk. You won't be alone. I'll clear out the thorny brambles if I see them, I'll hold your hand as we trudge through wet, mucky leaves. But…you have to choose the way. What do you need to find your truth?" ↳ Terry and Claudia in THE DRAGON PRINCE - BOOK 6: "STARS"
#the dragon prince#tdpedit#animationedit#clauderry#giveusthesaga#gifs#my edits#they are one of those types of ships that don't really speak to me and I'd say I'm more intrigued by them as two different characters#still absolutely wanna know more about terry's character because he's sure one interesting individual#a devoted boyfriend material is basically the only good (and kinda bad when it comes to claudia) thing we know about him for the time being#I mean if I were him I'd be on the other side of the world far far away from claudia! xD#oh and I'm just loving when he does his earth magic!!! such a beautiful animation#poor boy doesn't deserve being this close to all the madness at all...especially now with aaravos by claudia's side#but their dynamic is still touching and even a little bit too intimate in s6???#still speechelss about the scene where terry washes claudia in the sea...#and all of those beautiful scenes from 6x03 where neither of them is saying a word with SUCH A MAGNIFICENT MUSICAL SCORE! DAMN
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I think loveless aros deserve a thousand dollars for every time someone claims that love is the meaning of everything or love makes us human etc etc
"by love we mean all forms of love, including nonromantic!!1!" You clearly Do Not understand. Return to start, do not pass go, do not collect 200 dollars.
There is no center of the universe, there is no unified meaning of everything, and there is no social or biological trait that "makes us human" besides the literal being humans thing, and any attempt to assert otherwise will other and alienate more people. There is no one emotion that you need to feel in order to be a good person or even a person at all
#i also think they deserve giant medieval spiked maces but y'all aren't ready for that conversation yet#i ain't even a loveless aro but man will I go to bat for them#such a big part of dismantling amatonormativity is decentering ALL love#to end this eternal pressure for people to feel and identify their feelings in the same ways as others#we don't all need the same outlook.... we don't all need to feel the same things in order to be good people#aromantic#i dunno man. i just Keep Seeing these stupid posts..... and I know people just don't even understand#but they should make the effort to understand!!!#i listened and I learned and I stopped talking like that! because I saw what that does to people and how much it hurts!
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silly little doodle of a special little guy
#glam deserves all the nice things#he's just a little guy#me? absolutely smitten with another fictional character???#what??? nooo i would never#don't look at the anatomy. this drawing took non of my logical brain#this was just good vibes and coffee#(drinking coffee at 2:30 am. i'm so smart)#doodles#metal family#glam metal family#ferngle art
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As an extremely traumatised child I remember being told a lot of supposedly comforting bullshit by adults like that I was more mature now because of what I'd been through or how I'd been through more shit at 12 years old than most people had in a lifetime and that had to be something right or how G*d gives his hardest battles to his strongest soldiers (ew) and that everything happens for a reason or whatever the fuck so here's a reminder I suppose that life can be really fucking unfair on this bitch of an earth and sometimes it is more than okay to be very angry about that. Like. At some point we gotta stop telling people to suppress their anger and instead go "yeah no you're right that does fucking suck let's go kill G*d together"
#I truly do not understand why we won't just let people be angry#I mean obviously taking your anger out on people who don't deserve it is never a good thing but like!!#a lot of the time people have good reason to be angry about shit!! can we normalise screaming every once in a while or something
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