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essayofthoughts · 19 days ago

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it's a very human instinct, that desire to yell about how vindicated you are, but nothing is ever as important as knowing when not to.

crow about it in private if you must, but remember that people will feel you're looking down on them, whether you're crowing vindication over a positive book rec, or over being "right" about the bad vibes you got from something.

ultimately that sense of vindication is yours. don't make it everyone else's problem.

#ive loved books by authors before they broke into the public eye and wanted to yell my vindication #i've also bounced off media and then felt vindicated when it gets picked apart #or someone involved is revealed to be shitty #but #and this is the important bit #I do my best to keep it to myself #i might grumble to a friend or two #but there is NO NEED to be a public dipshit about your sense of vindication #you can discourage people who got to something late and thereby diminish what could have been a positive community #or you can irritate people who'd otherwise be happy to talk shit and kvetch #and. sometimes. you will hurt people.#because in crowing about your vindication - your sense of being right - you are implicitly saying they were hurt because they were stupid #and that is plain old shitty #don't do that #me myself and i #thinky thoughts #vagueblogging

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idontmindifuforgetme · 1 year ago

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i think i really need to learn how to cold quit things... one habit i have that really bothers me is checking my phone first thing in the morning bc it's "just for 5 minutes" "just to see if anyone sent me anything important" no bitch literally nothing on your phone requires you to check your phone first thing when you open your eyes!!! stop it

#i want to keep it cute and say i drink water or some shit but i check my phone THEN drink water guys it's true #i like to think i'm pretty productive / do well w my time bc i get to studying/errands pretty quickly #but sometimes i think about how those minutes spent on my phone could be spent reading the book i said i didn't have time to read #or doing a quick stretching exercise #or just getting myself together before a long day of studying idk. anything really #i need stricter regulations for myself ik it #i am doing good rn but what is good if u could literally be the best just by being off ur phone more

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phytsera · 6 months ago

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there’s a lot of beauty in doing the unpleasant parts of something so someone you love can just experience the best of it.

#i’ve had to stop myself from thinking about abigail at work bc every time i do i just become unable to work for like 15 min #abigail hobbs #will graham #hannibal #nbc hannibal #hannibal nbc #artwork #digital art #artists on tumblr #my art #art #hannibal fanart #sorry i keep changing the caption lmao i’m trying my best to put my thoughts on this piece into words :)

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bacchuschucklefuck · 7 months ago

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pygmalion and galatea for aroace people

you should tell your friends what I look like, riz gukgak.

#fantasy high #fantasy high sophomore year #fhsy #riz gukgak #baron from the baronies #fh class quangle #class swap babeyy! bard!riz that's whats goin on!#I really need tags for these now I think lmao #ask to tag #I feel like this should be tagged something. but I dont know what #in my brain after the initial kidnapping class swap baron's thing is every time riz keeps his story abt them up in front of his friends #they get a little bit closer. they send him pictures of where they supposedly are n stuff #theres a scene in my brain only of kristen and riz on top of the van and kristen is like everything kinda sucks rn can u tell me abt baron #cause what you guys have is so nice and beautiful. and riz almost doesn't but he ultimately can't deny kristen a little peace #lmao I feel like dipping into baron stuff with the class swap is like showing my whole ass online again I just. I'm a #horror person before all else... I cant stop myself. canon baron is Great and Cool but that is kind of the thing. for a horror thing theyre #Too Cool. I think cool is kind of the neutralizer of scary. when a monster is a certain amount of cool it overrides the scary #and now u just have a Cool Monster #its so fucked for bard!riz this year bc he doesn't have an office (he's mooching off the school wifi from the AV club room lol)#so there's no buffer between adventure and home life. so baron just shows up in the strongtower apartment lmao #sophomore year bard!riz looks like a slasher protag so I just leaned into it I guess. he gets a mr. x if mr. x is made up by leon kennedy #well. its worse actually. they can show up where he is at any moment theyve proven this. but they dont #they choose to punish him slowly as he lies to his friends instead. baron is mr. x if mr. x is made up by leon and also a bitch #I think its gonna pop up if class swap baron ever speaks in a comic I do but their voice comes from like. inside their hollow face #it sounds like it's a lot deeper in there than that skull should be #tbh what I have rn is kinda like a bag of loose pieces that Can fit together into something great but I dont have the energy to #really sit down with them yet lol. Im doing this inbetween other things #it comes or it doesn't! it's fine. funny how today's bad comic day also. I wont say this is for bad comic day bc all my comics are #flawless and beautiful and perfect and awesome and beautiful and the best #but u should. if u havent drawn a comic today or at all ever u should draw a comic

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 1 year ago

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Thank you all for voting in the poll to decide who was going to be the leader of the band! It turned out to be such a close race!

#poorly drawn mdzs #better drawn mdzs #mdzs #madam lan #A-qing #Band AU #(Reminder that Madam Lan's design inspiration goes to Qourmet!)#Madam Lan may have been the winner per vote count but there were so many strong advocates for A-Qing!#I played around with a few versions of what the 'poll winner' art was going to be and ultimately decided I wanted them both.#As any good theater love knows though - The battle for leadership was a ruse. They *all* get a chance to be featured.#Cooperation was the real end goal! However I do think these two have the best frontman energy of the group.#Or at least 'crowd favourite' energy. I also really loved hearing what people thought their vocal styles would be like!#This was probably one of my favourite polls to do and I love drawing these characters a lot B*)#I'd love to spend a bit more time in this AU so count on me bringing it back.#One thing I keep feeling like I need to redeem myself on is Madam Lan's Translucent skirt. I have *not* done the concept justice yet.#It is such a crack-platonic ship but I want to think Madam Lan and A-Qing would enjoy each other's company.#Possibly also with JYL as well. They can be like mutually beneficial therapy dogs to each other.#Madam Lan never got to see her kids grow up into teenagers after all. She only had sons. Never daughters.#Even if she saw her kids once a month we do know she treated them with so much love and kindness.#She would bite the shit out of YZY for yelling at JYL. What a sight to see. A-Qing would also start biting (for fun).

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dizzybizz · 6 months ago

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some doodles

#i meant to put the balor one in the previous post but i forgor 😭its in a diff file from the sketch dump i was coloring in so it just didnt #exist in my mind at all. i felt like smth was missing as i was posting it but i couldnt place what hlep #adeline and eiland have been driving me insane lately. expect more of them. probably.#dont minf the last two guys. some concepts for future farms 😋 (pls mind them im crazy abt all my farmers even if they technically dont -#exist yet. pls ask abt them or smth pls im nroaml i can be nroma l i prommy)#fields of mistria #fom balor #sona #im gonna start tagging that i think.#fom eiland #fom adeline #fom elsie #fom farmer #my art #guys can i just say that im so happy that balor is silver n not gold cus otherwise i would have to confront a part of me im not proud of #we shouldnt talk abt it but like yeah jjust know i like his silver and his whole deal #have such a softspot n bias for characters who dont settle anywhere. who never lay down their roots or whatever. who keep their past secret #like oughh hes hitting so many marks #i like hawthorne a lot. hes more developed in my head. and also i like his dead look and hair bows. i have so many ideas abt him man it hur #i promised myself i wouldnt make a new save file til i reached y2 w rory but apperantly errols bday is cursed bc the game has frozen twice #sorry if you read all of these tags. go to my askbox w fom stuff or smth. ask abt my farmers plsplspls pl s jk haha unless. maybe even #gimme drawing reqs for fom in general. ok tyvm ly sorry for yapping. its what i do best

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ahollowgrave · 1 month ago

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-- mistletoe. pt i.

(feat. the very handsome Ryss of @oneiroy)

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hinamie · 11 days ago

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#we had to put my cat down today after 17 years ive never felt such helpless grief before #we'd taken her to the vet early jan and got her on medication that was working for a while but she just started declining so quickly #she wasnt eating she'd gotten so frail and lethargic and her joints were so weak she could hardly support her own weight #so i know it was for the best i know shes not in pain anymore i know she lived and died loved but that was my best friend that was my girl #i loved that cat more than myself what am i supposed to do without her #i get that this is an inevitable part of pet ownership but this is my first she was my first #i keep hoping i'll wake up and hear her and see her happy and healthy and back to normal #ill be fine but right now it all just hurts

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alectoperdita · 23 days ago

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Crimson blossom, verdant forest

Part 20 of Lure

Fandom: Yu-Gi-Oh! Duel Monsters (Anime & Manga) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Jounouchi Katsuya/Kaiba Seto Tags: Alternate Universe - Yakuza, Crossdressing, Jealousy, Explicit Sexual Content, Master/Pet, Degradation, Feminization, Sex Toys, Minor Exhibitionism, Humiliation Kink, Praise Kink, Clothed Sex, Cock Warming, Anal Sex, Barebacking, Year 2

Kaiba finally makes good on his threat to dress Jounouchi up as his personal courtesan. 万緑一紅　（ばんりょくいっこう） [banryokuikkou] (n) one red flower standing out in a sea of green vegetation; one item of quality standing out among many; one woman among many men

Read on AO3 Series Masterlist

A fic for art exchange with the lovely @inamax. Check out the beautiful art of the Lure boys. Since one of the prompts I received was "Lure Jou in drag," I decided to take this chance to write an idea that had been percolating in the back of my brain last year. I hope you enjoy it!

#series: Lure #yugioh #puppyshipping #violetshipping #kaijou #my fanfiction #i tried not to be too wordy but ended up with a 5k fic anyway lol #trying to do my best to get myself under control for these other exchange fics #that's 1 out of 5 done now #I'm going to keep plugging away at these when I can #thank you to the people who are doing these exchanges with me for their patience! <3

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sunlit-mess · 9 months ago

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how delusional can you be as if it's disrespecting

#messyr #ok? is there something wrong with how I cope in media bro #look- if this is about the whole aroace thing- I DO respect it- I'm cupio myself. But this is fiction-#realistically speaking there is no harm. they don't feel. they are NOT REAL DAWG #the community can cry about it but who are we really entertaining here lol #im probably missing smth but I try my best not to draw much intimacy or any seggsual stuff at all or that I keep it to myself or #private media #I'm just trying to enjoy things and Ik im not hurting nor disrespecting anyone. let's not make it a bigger problem- ight?

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inkprovised · 3 months ago

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I was sketching when my graphic tablet died on me...

#also I really need to kill my laptop it won't last much longer I fear #It's probably full of malware by now....#but It's win7 I'll lose my free 10 upgrade😱#I'm so scared it's useless after that #i can't even make a backup #last time i did this csp lost a lot of the brushes bcs they were taken down already #AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH #what to do #doggos surgeries took all the savings I had for new tech 🥲#sorry I'm a little nervous about this #I'm not gonna buy 10 when they take it down next year #maybe just keep using that thing and hope for the best.#ranting #willing to open my gt and try to fixit myself

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bubmyg · 4 months ago

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296/547 posting a picture every day until jeongguk is home

#i do think it’s probably best that I keep my thoughts to myself #days of jk #jeongguk #jungkook #jk

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pansyfemme · 3 months ago

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i have been a ball of depression lately as well as my physical health worsening pretty severly this past week due to stress and so my friends have been. trying so hard to get me to get out and do things and its very sweet but i feel bad because the whole time i’m just a total mess

#they say they dont mind but i need to really. stop #im stuck.#and i know it’s hard on my friends to see me like this since i’ve been doing a lot better and now am back to my old habits #but i felt bad because they took me out shopping and to dinner tonight and i just had a headache and was limping and couldnt stop talking #about the recent death in my family and all the stress from classes and socially and how lost i feel #and i just wanted so bad to just. enjoy myself but i couldnt #but my friends know about how severe my depression is and are all very used to it #its in fact more normal than not. but i was really. feeling at my best for several months so the crash back down to not eating and sleeping #and being unable to fully tidy my room and all that stuff has been. difficult for me as well as those around me #it’s been normal for me for so long to live terribly that taking care of myself for a while and then losing the drive to has been. hard #im trying to get better but i slide back down #i need to work on my constant self loathing but i keep walking around just. conviced im such a burden and being sad makes it even worse #i just. am always overcompensating for my lack of #ability to love myself with just. constantly showering everyone around me with love and its. hard for me when i dont have the energy to do #even that anymore. its hard to let people take care of me when i just want to take care of them all the time

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lesbiangiratina · 2 years ago

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Hi do you like images. I love images. Heres a little over 100 guilty gear trading cards from the early 2000s. Every character up to xx is accounted for… some more than others. For now. But the average is probably 4 or 5 cards per character. Nearly all of the art is original. Okay have fun :)

#i hope anyone thinks this is as neat as i do.#oh yeah! also scanned the booklet. a little messy but its fine. so theoretically you could learn how to play. if you can read japanese #i tried not to let my perfectionism consume me too much with this. but know if anything looks off hmm 90% chance its the card's fault.#some arent in the best condition and the printing isnt the best to begin with on some of em. but i tried to pick out the best when i could #theres only 1 zappa and robo-ky. very sorry.#complete coincidence that testament has the most cards… well tied with dizzy. and they arent even on 2 of them so dizzy wins actually.#ill probably keep lookin for more cards but i should ummm. pace myself. smile.#the kat goes meow #guilty gear #gg #show up in the main tag... please

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deoidesign · 7 months ago

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I'll either succeed or I'll learn trying

#I wanna REMEMBER THIS!!!!!!!!#its helpful for me to keep in mind #not failing. learning #learning. learning makes failures into something worthwhile #grimacing as I repeat this to myself #text post #delete later #idk saying it cause it made me be like heh. nice #so idk might make someone else be like hm... nice #so LAMGOMSAGKLSAJGALKGJASLKGMSALKGJ #there is not much thought behind the things I post there's just not really much thought in general #honestly that is not true #I overthing everything. on account of the anxiety #but it's all good #speaking of the doc gave me an anti anxiety med on top of the adhd thing #so that's cool #seems to be working though..#she told me I could up the dose and I might do that in like a week if it feels like hrmm #I asked for all the instructions about starting stopping upping lowering or changing the time I take things #cause yknow. those things matter and I like to experiment to figure out whats best for me #this has nothing to do with the post #also they messed up my order again #i only got 180 books #bro theres 120 more #where are they #give me my books!!! please!!!!!!!1 #I'll wait til tomorrow #its possible they just didnt fit on the truck. thats completely reasonable

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m4rs-ex3 · 6 months ago

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tdp s6 really said this one's for all the daughters out there. stay safe girlies

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