#I do be yapping

[planetjumperrz]

the contrasts between soukoku and shin soukoku are so obviously on purpose and they make me wanna scream

dazai and chuuya have been THRU IT together, both experiencing major loss, chuuya with the flags and the sheep, and dazai with ango and oda, they both understand the hurt and grief and i think while chuuya was pissed that dazai just up and left, i think he gets it on some level, he understands dazai’s soul, he knows dazai could never stay after all that

their experiences and understanding dictates their relationships, chuuya and dazai have known each other, they basically clicked immediately, but atsushi and akutagawa have to work at it, the have to put effort into understanding each other AND THEY DO

atsushi and akutagawa understand each others past, they’ve been through the same relentless abuse, atsushi’s was logically worse, it lasted longer and it was everyday, all day, while akutagawas wasn’t as often but still as bad, abuse is abuse, they both feel the need to prove themselves so they can be allowed to live, atsushi now understands akutagawas motivation, and it’s eerily similar to his own. atsushi lives to prove that he’s good enough to live, to prove that the headmaster was wrong, akutagawa lives to prove to dazai that he’s good enough to live, to prove dazai wrong. the only difference is their perception of what they need to do to prove themselves.

while chuuya and dazai don’t need to prove themselves to each other, atsushi and akutagawa strive to be better than the other, subsequently improving themselves in their efforts, only a diamond can polish a diamond

[hoe4hotchner]

One thing to know about me is that if I see something I want I will 100% use my fbi fangirl “research” skills to track it down

Exhibit A: Greg Montgomery’s Harvard shirt

[hotchslittleprincess]

This account is pretty much gone inactive so I made a new one fresh start so I hope you’ll follow me on there

@beahotchner I took three months off in needed a break but I’m back just with a different account. That I’m more active on..

@ssamorganhotchner @ssaaaronmontgomery @kiwriteswords @hoe4hotchner @honeypiehotchner @aureatelys @alinathinkstoomuch

Kris 💐🌺💐🌸 that’s all I came here for say

[robotmechagirl]

Painted my nails today

They look good UwU

Skirt fits just right and is comfy

I feel really connected to and present in my body. And bonus is that I look really cute, despite not putting in a lot of effort today. Which is pretty shocking to me because this is a long step away from even a year ago.

A year ago this skirt didn’t fit. My legs weren’t as thick, my hips were weren’t as wide, and it didn’t caress my waist area like it does so perfectly now. I hadn’t been wearing it because I remember it being too short, but the length doesn’t seem to bother me now. Nothing indecent seems to be showing and I can move around quite comfortably. Was I just insecure about my legs before???

Even in this loose fitting, red flannel, button up top tucked in I can still trace the curves of my sides and my chest. The softness of the skin and the painted nails makes my hands look so flippin’ fem.

I didn’t put makeup on my face today and it still looks good. I have a very androgynous face right now and fortunate enough to have clear skin. My hair does a lot to shape my face. Its length reaches to just below mid collar bone.

On a psyche level I feel like I’ve found my inner witch. I feel powerful. My vibe has been butterflies, dragonflies, and flowers. I feel a little more creative in decorating my space. I feel safe and secure with my partner and able to trust my own ability.

I’m feeling joy in day to day rituals and things. I’m feeling very open and communicative. I feel like I have a greater depth and range of emotions in general. My sadness is a bottomless well filled with chilly, dense water. My rage boils my blood and bloodlust. It is also utterly exhausting and painful. I can feel so much love that my heart bursts at its seams and is overflowing.

If you’re still reading I feel like I can be more vulnerable and more human. This has let me feel more comfortable with having a sexuality and let me open up to others a lot more. I don’t feel like I have to cross a canyon to get to these parts of myself anymore. This has been so freeing and definitely brought me more connection to other people. I feel like I can now access the whole human experience where before I felt very isolated from it.

I experience much less disassociation with myself and my surroundings. Things feel a little bit more real and weighty. I can feel pain again. No more numbness or desensitization. It’s put me on a more even keel with my mood.

[xpau-official]

Hihi, don't mind me popping in with another question. (If this count as a inquiry? Apologies if not-) But for the XPAU's sweaters designs, all of the characters, that is. How did you decide on the colours and details? Or well, the general designs for all of them

Hi! That counts as an inquiry, yes!

Designing the sweaters kind of came along as I drew them, though I did spend quite a bit of time planning out the words. There were lots of changes made throughout the whole process. Lots of research, lots of puns, lots of pictures.

You probably recognize that the designs somewhat match CPAU too! I tried keeping that clever simplicity so they can still be considered ugly but aren’t a pain to draw lol. Everyone is still from the CPAU timeline, hence the references. However, most of the designs were made on the spot without a ton of thought behind them.

Colour wise… Some people had colours planned, most didn’t. The sweaters were the easiest, but the rest like the pants? I just slapped random existing colours lmao colouring designs has never been my strong suit but I’m learning!

Of course, I kept everyone’s personalities in mind when making them. I tried to make them fit their character as best as I could while still making it silly, perhaps a little dumb! Many details have a bit of backstory to them (like you’ve seen with Dust). I definitely have more stories for everyone else!

Sorry for the ramble! I love talking about these little things haha

TLDR; No thoughts head empty only ugly chrimmas

i think ink’s sweater was designed in 15 seconds

[digitalfreak0ut]

(I’m not good at animation so bare with me lol.)

Their reunion is a little crazy. Aldrich sees her helping a soldier in battle and corners her. One thing leads to another and she’s disappeared into his empire (and his arms let’s be so for real.) As I’ve said it’s not kidnap if you’ve been trying to run away for months.

(oc’s: Aldrich + Odessa)

[dolcinos]

Kinda related to the conversation we just had under your post but I thought this would be better as an ask lol. Do you think there’s *any* possibility for Arthur to motivate Alfred into losing weight by promising him sex if he manages to get to a point where that’s like.. comfortably possible on a physical level? Like *real* sex, penetration and everything. Alfred even gets to choose if he wants to top or bottom or both, Arthur would mobilise all his stamina for his love hehe

i think the main thing that would finally make alfred put real effort into getting into shape, would be arthur genuinely sitting him down and saying his weight is affecting their sex life way too much. not even arthur being snarky, or trying to grill him, but genuinely and seriously having a talk with him about it, because that is what scares alfred the most. has him gulping and sweating a bit when it happens, honestly.

after that, he probably considers the state of himself. how he hasn’t been able to see his buried dick in years, how he hasn’t jerked himself off in even longer, how he definitely misses getting to penetrate arthur and getting fully penetrated by arthur. these options have not been on the table for years at this point.

something definitely switches in his brain that day, a lot of it being an ego thing that he needs to be able to brandish his american sausage again and also needs to be able to satisfy his partner. he just needs to get to the point where his fupa and overhang don’t get in the way and swallow everything, where he can actually manage to get his dick in arthur. and he just needs his ass cheeks to shrink enough where arthur fucking him is possible. no aiming for numbers on the scale, he’s just solely focused on doing those things, working out to regain his stamina and slimming down the high-fat areas of his body. that is a much greater motivator for him than quantifying pounds.

[plumefeline]

It’s not that I reject love, magic, or whimsy—I think I just struggle to believe they apply to me. I don’t see myself as pessimistic, but maybe I’ve grown too jaded, too accustomed to reality as it is, rather than as it could be. Maybe part of me feels unlovable, undeserving, or simply incapable of experiencing that kind of wonder. I don’t know if it’s something I can unlearn.

I truly try to be softer, happier, laugh more. But despite all that, I still feel as though I lack something essential, as if those qualities aren’t meant for me. The hardest part is that I don’t think losing weight, getting fitter, or improving my health would change how I feel about this. Wherever you go, there you are, right?

you should really get comfortable believing in love and magic and whimsy or you’ll continue to live a half-life for the rest of the time you have on earth

[taxideermied]

I hate 2 say it but being a part of a “weird” subculture does not meaningfully inoculate you against a conservative moralizing impulse. You gotta unlearn that. Saying “cringe is dead” is not enough, you have to actually be okay with things that discomfort, perplex and/or disgust you.

[midnight-stormm]

Omg I just got an essay in my inbox and I thought it was for this account. I got so nervous, I'm over here thinking I said something wrong😭😭

[hoe4hotchner]

I’ve never blocked anyone faster than when I just saw someone on tiktok say that:

“Hotch has no good stories and was always uptight and mean”

We ride at dawn besties!! Someone needs the biggest slap to the face that we can collectively give

[alpirsoahpp]

I just remembered how I somehow convinced myself that in the show gelphie is still canon

lemme explain:

glinda is telling the story to the munchkins right, and she saw how strongly they reacted when she told them they were only friends so she decides to keep up her public image she's already sacrificed so much for by leaving their gayness out of the story she tells

HOWEVER the songs are not something she's telling them and are instead a glimpse into the actual thoughts, feelings, and dialogue of these characters (example: the wizard and i is what elphaba was truly feeling and thinking in that moment, and not part of what glinda is telling the munchkins)

so that means we see their actual feelings in the songs:

"in what is this feeling" they're like really in denial but are totally crushing on each other;

in "dancing through life" they do the sappho dance together at the ozdust;

in "popular" they actually act that gay;

in "one short day" they're no longer in denial but agree to hide it in front of the wizard ("we're just two friends/two good friends/two best friends");

and in "defying gravity" when elphaba sings "kiss me goodbye" to glinda it's fr an invitation to kiss and later when they sing the "unlimited" part and she says "together we'll be the greatest team there's ever been/glinda, dreams they way we've planned em" it's confirmation that they are canonically a power couple of uhaul lesbians

I won't get into act two bc I don't wanna spoil that for anyone bc it's soooo good and I think everyone should go into it blind if they can

so anyways ik its a stretch and it doesn't really make sense but that's just me holding space for lesbians in denial

[cryptic-arr0w]

Why is there no Indian representation in like anything that isn’t kinda offensive

[sleeqymoon]

cutest sunshine in the entire universe, space, and beyond 🗣️ 🌺

[strawberijasper]

so... some people on tiktok have been making sibling swap stuff, except a lot of them feel like either color palette swaps/miss the entire points of these characters so I decided to make my own because I was being autistic about it. so now I have an entire au :3c

I have more of these designs in the works but have these two for now

[limbcom]

"Holding your hand doesn't have to mean that I accept your friendship," the liar said to the truthful, trying to lie in front of the only person who understands his intentions.

He knows, of course, that the liar did not lie. For the liar is also the truthful.