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angry that your parody has a degree and you don't, victor
#back on my classic horror shit again#frankenstein#jekyll and hyde#rocky horror picture show#frank n furter#victor frankenstein#henry jekyll#edward hyde#dracula#van helsing#OK SO-#the j&h characters here are NOT Historian and Eddie- theyre the ones from the original novella-#while Historian and Eddie are meant to be modern parallels to them??#the original j&h did everything wrong in life while their modern equivalents are choosing to be kind instead???#theres an immortal character in their story whos like 'it scares me how much you two look like them' (referring to the og mad scientist)#and of course you got victor and the creature from the AU featured in the 'monster' animatic i made last october#they COULD be the original ones here and be mean to each other....but i do not want do that :'<#you can't sit with us#classic horror#my art
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Home after 13 (14) days of animation competition
#Ha-ha-ha... oh god I mean I liked it...#I will still need to ride back to that city in the first of October for the award ceremony (Only god knows if I even got any place pffht)#But experts seemed to like the gag I did put in when no one asked#(Basically I got back yesterday but oh god I've spent all day on resting recovering and eating and today on sleeping and staring nowhere)
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So as gauche as it's gonna be, I'm gonna be back to posting & boosting preorders despite everything :[ Like especially because I have all these amazing guest artists who put their hard work into designing for this set & have entrusted me with their artwork.. I don't want to let them down by having the collection fall flat. I wish I'd chosen different timing for these preorders but unfortunately there wasn't realistically any other time that would work since we'll be moving early next year. I hope you'll all understand that I've gotta keep trying to push forward. Thanks as always for your support, everyone 🖤
#for today i think i'm just gonna go offline#tomorrow i suppose it's back to work#thanks for understanding#also i haven't decided yet -i'll see how things are looking after the weekend- but i might end preorders early so that i can#consolidate to one fulfillment wave and just get everything out in january#it's looking like the amount coming in will be low enough to handle in one wave#originally things were looking like they'd be on a trajectory to match last year's jester x wizard october drop & preorders#but this time it's just the initial drop that did that well and preorders have dried up as the election approached#i'm not surprised at all and blame no one that zero preorders have come in today - given the election it's what i expected to see#but if no more are gonna come in then i might as well just close them up & be able to have earlier fulfillment for everyone that's ordered#we'll see#witch vamp#text post
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It’s a Bepo! A friend 3D printed him for me and then I sanded and painted him myself!
This is how I found out that my spray primer sort of melts 3D filament?? Or mixes with it?? I kept spraying him with white primer and it kept turning him pink 🙂↕️







#my customs#Bepo#one piece#I did this back in October when I had Covid#but I couldn’t find them posted on my blog anywhere#and I finally made a tag for all my custom figures lol#so I’m just cleaning a little
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You are expendable. You are not expected to return.

Hoping Tumblr compression doesn’t bite me in the ass
I know I’m very late for Halloween but shshshshshhhhhh
It’s Halloween in Mouseford, and well… let’s just say a hyperfixation was the cause of this group theme.
Cosplay breakdowns and BTS below ^^












Heehee
#geronimo stilton#thea sisters#thea stilton#my art#art#artists on tumblr#halloween#halloween 2024#pressure#roblox pressure#pressure fanart#roblox#i started working on the project back in october 21st lord save me#my ipad knows the horrors of being turned up to its brightest setting in school without a charger to save it#mainly for the subtly colored lineart#this was the first time i've toyed around with differential lineart sizes too hopefully it looks good#i drew the urbanshade logo by hand#i mean i did have a circle ruler in medibang but i had to measure and draw the details myself#so you better appreciate the one you get to see in full on paulina's tracksuit >:[ /lh#i hope i made each of the monsters recognizable with how i designed their cosplays haha#the goal was to make them look like them but not like in a way that would be unrealistic cosplay-wise#if you're looking and find a roblox doors reference#hah#hahah#hahahah#:]
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Encanto Popstar Au !!
meet dolores madrigal!
dolores is the leader of the group! though it may not seem like it from the outside looking in, she is responsible for the formation of las milagras! dolores is studying literature but in her free time prefers songwriting! she got the idea to form a group and asked the other girls if they were interested! and so las milagras were born! dolores is known for being especially cryptic in interviews, social media or general interactions with fans! she’s very secretive about her writing material and will opt for using riddles or codes to hint at announcements, often confusing just about everyone with it! though not the most open in person, dolores writes with such a passion and vulnerability that really connects with the fans! her absolute favorite songs to write are ballads as she pours her heart out on stage! dolores is leading in all the business and creative decisions regarding the group and the other girls will often go to her for advice on just about anything! dolores is insecure about her stage presence compared to the others as whilst she’s the lead vocalist she feels overshadowed by the likes of isabela who seems to captivate everyone. dolores loves bringing out her guitar for the slower songs and will often just sit on the stage taking in the moment! the hardest part is keeping all of this a secret from her (not so smart) boyfriend, mariano! having the popstar name dolores when her real name is delores doesn’t seem the smartest move but somehow mariano has not caught on. like at all.
ta da! last profile for popstar au!! dolores was one of my fave designs to work on and I’m lowkey super happy w how she turned out!
#encanto#encanto disney#disneys encanto#disney’s encanto#encanto fanart#encanto art#encanto popstar! au#dolores madrigal#dolores encanto#dolores fanart#dolores madrigal fanart#jacarandaaaasart#encanto au#the more glitter the better is my motto with this au#I did this one back in october !#see I did not forget about my own corny self indulgent au#I’m actually drawing them as the spice girls because why the heck not#yayyyy I love self indulgent art#encanto popstar ! au profiles#shoutout to a moot on instagram for the group name I’m obsessed currently designing a logo#love combining my major w my special interest
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AFTER A MILDLY INTENSE WEEK OR SO OF DRAWING THIS MAN LIKE TEN TIMES A DAY. I HAVE FINALLY GOT THIS YELLOW ASSHOLE TO 1000 IMAGES.
more road to 1000 doodles under the cut !!
#long ramble after the maintags if you wanna read my thoughts#yellow addison#deltarune oc#addison oc#deltarune addisons#addisons#oc#art#casinos ocs: sale#casinos sonas: Ye01#casinos art :]#sale's road to 1000#so for those unaware i have had sale for three(3) years now. i made him back in october 2021.#i have gone through a lot of phases having this man. between hating him . using him as a scapegoat . and his progression into .#one of my most important and beloved characters ive ever owned#ive been very fond of my own characters before. of course i have im an artist#but sale is like.#hes Different.#he means so much to me. even if i um. may or may not put him through the meat grinder for enrichment like all the damn time#over the last few years he has developed a lot as a character. i have drawn and written him Literal hundreds of times#radio and i have more aus than i can count where hes significant#he has suffered. so much. he has recovered . he has gone through so much and he keeps living and he keeps living and#i love him. i love him. he means so much to me.#so yeah. 1000 images. a testament to how autistic i am about this asshole. i love him.#heres to me drawing him a billion more times i fucking guess#and happy new year. thanks for reading this ramble if you did
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#one piece#sanji#black leg sanji#everysanji#punk hazard#ch658#so today was my first day at my new job up in the mountains#its absolutely gorgeous up here btw its already snowing out here in mid october#but anyway we did the normal like. orientation go over the handbook stuff#and then we got sent with our supervisor for back of house and.#me and one of the other new guys struggled so hard to build a shelf#TBF the guy said 'leave a space on the bottom for the big pots'#so i didnt think we should get the bottom shelf on there. uhm.#we had to put two layers on sideways and its probably not the best shelf out there#BUT IT WORKS.#anyway after we finished that i got really dizzy so i had to go sit down#i've been at higher altitudes but u do really gotta take it easy for a bit#anyway i hope i'm more serving food to people than cooking it. which is still part of boh#i just dont want to be a line cook entirely...#but i can grill burgers and shit i just. prefer to do other things#i always preferred to do like assembly when i was boh at the a&w. and fry station was fine too#i just like interacting with people though
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Melotober - Day 28 - Flame
What do you think you can do?
#Melotober#In which I pull a sketch I did back in July and finish it#Rune Factory 2#RF2#Rune Factory#Rune Factory Kyle#RF Kyle#Rune Factory Fiersome#RF Fiersome#I have OPINIONS on dialogue we should have had with Terrable and Fiersome. ESPECIALLY gen 1 Fiersome.#I also have so many thoughts on what his dang motivations would be; yes yes- fire- destruction- etc- but. Fiersome could have SO many point#restart the world. Well. Runes are depleted. His sibling is dying. The humanoid Empires are warring too gravely.#Let him restart things. Let him get things going in a better direction...#(But is he telling the truth? Or is he just spinning a tale to be let free?)#It felt good to finish this after it's been sitting for so long#also this is super late in the day because AAAAAAAA THAT WORLD SERIES GAME $#I slept through the 1st inning on accident and THEN it was so GOOD. AAAA. WORTH IT#Margot's RF Art#Also feels like a nice callback to one of my favorite pieces from the original 2020 october. That Kyle and Fiersome. Still fond of it
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I’ll be honest, for as many years at I’ve seen October art/writing challenges (and art challenges the rest of the weeks/months of the year), I’ve only attempted a few and never finished any.
That being said, I think what I’m going to do for my umpteenth attempt this new October is to just.. do. Just do something every day. Any challenge, any prompt, any event, even if it’s mixed and mismatched. Doesn’t matter if it’s finished, though I will try for it. A few well-typed sentences, a sketched drawing, an unfinished study, I’ll still label them a success. I want my goal for this month to be to make improvements in my art and passions and to make an effort. Not bogged down by perfectionism or despair or lack of motivation or whatever else may stop me. I want to make the challenge of this month for me to live my life thoughtfully and love and respect what I bring into it again.
#ghost posts#i did officially join one challenge#and that’s going to be my main focus which is definitely out of my comfort zone#but I’m trying to make it a goal to work on my art/writing in general again#and just using the start of the month as a kick off I guess lol#I’ve already spent the first two days working on sculptures and thinking about writing ideas#it’s been a long time since I’ve loved my art so I’m hoping to work towards that this month#and not be so caught up in my own head and fatigue#obvs only so much I can do if I have a fatigue episode#but then I make that time into rest/audiobook time#and start back again when I wake up#anyway yeah this is my own challenge for challenge month lol#i keep trying to find little ways to improve my life and I’m hopeful#going to try to work on my fitness and diet too 💪#balanced diet I don’t do that trend stuff#also above all working on my faith. scriptures and sermons#move over New Years resolutions this is October makeover
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#I'm still waiting for the formal offer letter but let me tell you how i got this job#a hiring manager reached out to me on LinkedIn asking if I'd be interested in the team he's building#so i was like yeah I'll throw my hat in#i had an easy coding screen with him (valid palindrome lol)#then i had a screen with another manager around QA practices#then i went through four more interviews as part of a 'final loop'#one was a more difficult coding question. one was design a test framework. one was QA-behavorial#and the other was communication + collab behavorial#each of those six interviews was a 45 minute video call btw#this all took like. three months lmfao#then a week after that i heard back that they didn't want me for that role#but that one of the guys i interviewed with is a hiring manager on an adjacent team and he really liked me#when i looked back at my notes sure enough that guy is the one who ended our call with 'i hope i get to work with you!' lol#so they wanted to put me for this other slightly less technical role#and i was like yeah sure why not i liked that guy too lol#so the next day i had one final interview with a senior leader asking about my priorization and conflict resolution skills#which makes sense since this is a more cross-functional communication role with lots of talking to developers#and that guy was awesome and definitely someone I'd work for#so a few days later i got the verbal offer!#i will also add that during all of this i also went to the final stage for a different team at the same company#but was plain out rejected from that one lol#plus i did beginning screens for two other roles as well and didnt make it as far#all this to say i did like... over a dozen interviews with this company since October lol#and i studied like CRAZY. i spent hours on leetcode and hours putting together stories from my experience#i worked very very very hard and it finally fucking paid off!!!!!#back in october i said to my wife 'i want to get a job at (company). i think that will be my goal now.'#and she was like lol ok. but i kept getting interviews and studying for them#working harder than i ever did in college even lmao. and she was like oh wait you're really serious#and then she helped me sooooo much by taking care of the kids while i studied and stuff like that#but yeah i did it. i put my mind to it and i fucking did it!!!!!
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how life feels when chenle is back at the top of your ults list
#bro did the impossible and dethroned kim mingyu#and then jeno also dethroned kim mingyu just by existing#cause where chenle goes jeno follows#in terms of my bias line at least#but now chenle's back at number one which hasn't been the case since october of 2023 which is CRAZY#it literally doesn't feel that long but i guess my time as a jake ult is also almost all repressed memories so...#like in my mind my ults went johnny -> chenle -> mingyu -> chenle#but there was just a whole nother guy for a HUGE chunk of time#that's crazy#but genuinely that picture is how life feels as a chenle ult#like- that is my guy#i was put on this earth to ult chenle#my life has aligned again#the timeline has straightened#the universe was just waiting and then like- right at the new year i gave in#and now here we are#with two chenle fics in the works LMAO#isa-rambles
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Follow up to goofy Erik. Here's the Squirrel Girl podcast where he keeps calling in to relay messages to Charles. Evenadamas2 and I have HC'd that it's the same Erik that appears in the Longshot mini 😆
YAYAYA I LOVE THE SQUIRREL GIRL PODCAST SO MUCH !!!!!!!
#snap chats#COULD be the same erik ... he got retired grandpa energy in that podcast i love it so much ...#i wish they did more episodes but also not ... cant have too much of a good thing it was a cute run while it lasted !!!!#ive been meaning to make a magneto compilation for it ever since i listened to the last episode like. back in october. 💀#its not hard to do i just have to record his segments and edit them together but i wanted to subtitle them#and even if i love typing for some reason my brains just 'thats a lot of work we're not doing that'#one day ill stop being lazy... i need all my erik clips together ..
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it occurred to me not everyone might know the reference im making when i keep calling my remix character the "hot pink bitch named breakfast" so... here. perceive breakfast.
#warcraft#timerunning#im finally getting back to remix!! havent done anything since last time for no reason beyond uhhhhhhhh#have you heard of the hit animanga bungo stray dogs. bc i sure did last october. and it has yet to release me. unfortunately.#so getting myself to play games has been a slight endeavor despite enjoying the time i DO spend on them#her in game name is brekky bc breakfast was taken and also yk what? brekky is kinda cute. dunno what i'll do w/ her after this though#cant believe i have THREE pink paladins. well 2.5 bc one of them isnt NORMALLY pink but i think its funny. alas.#im SOOO chatty today btw. hi#brekky#in game#mine
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it's still wednesday where I'm at if your clock is 30 minutes off so here's my wip wednesday post for my day 1 @bylerween2023 fic!! ghosts my beloved
#“day 1 bylerween fic” <- implies there are other bylerween fics. there are not#RUSHING to get this done cause I started it at the LAST FUCKING MINUTE LMAOOOO#(had to delete tiktok again and I'm not allowing myself to get it back until this is done. I will beat procrastination by force)#me after deciding 2 weeks into the month of october that I want to participate in bylerween:🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡#it's so funny too cause like. I would've thought I would've participated in one of the gorey days#would've written some cannibalism or slashers or blood drinking or smth#but NOPE! listened to halloween by naoh kahan had a breakdown went ooh byler fic where will did actually die when he disappeared#or well. not technically. I have like. thoughts about this but the body in the quarry was still fake cause I'm making this all#unnecessarily convoluted. lmao#also I actually kind of don't like this that much but I wanted to share something. so. reminding myself that's what editing is for#anyway I have like a week to write all of this everyone pray for me#cause I really do want it done to share I made a fun little graphic?? photo edit?? too and I can't share that on its own#cause it's like. not a byler thing its just a will thing and everything about will is inherently byler to me#but it's not actually byler. and this is bylerween#stranger things#byler#my writing#wip wednesday#miwip wednesday#bylerween2023
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Griddlebone Playlist

This playlist is meant to outline the complex (and fundamental) emotion of love, and the pitfalls and joys of chasing after something grand that requires another to reciprocate the affection.
More specifically for this set of songs, the want for love while having the feeling that something is not quite right, either with the other individual involved, or within your own mind. Through isolating oneself into hollow emptiness after heartbreak, and due to feeling devoid of being wanted, it is hard to be vulnerable and let anyone back into a place of emotional attachment.
Did you ever actually feel what 'love' was? Are you really deserving of being loved? After everything, wherever can you find it?
川��雅代 (Masayo Kawaguchi) – Melty
ROMY – LOVE コマーシャル (Love Commercial)
越美晴 (Miharu Koshi) – 恋はファニー・フィーリング (Love Is A Funny Feeling)
宮原芽映 (Mebae Miyahara) – 悪魔のように微笑んで (Smiling Like A Devil)
いしだあゆみ & ティン・パン・アレイ・ファミリ(Ayumi Ishida & Tin-Pan-Alley-Family) – 私自身 (Myself)
麗美 (REIMY) – シャドー・ブレイ (Shadow Play)
竹内まりや (Mariya Takeuchi) – プラスティック・ラブ (Plastic Love)
工藤順子 (Junko Kudo) – 夕顔姐さん (Ms. Yugao)
Meow Meow & Thomas Lauderdale – Hotel Amour
Tracks 1 and 2, 3 and 4, 5 through 7, and 8 and 9, are meant to represent different sections of time in the life of the Queen.
Signature song with playlist: Meow Meow & Thomas Lauderdale – Hotel Amour
Track One: 川口雅代 (Masayo Kawaguchi) – Melty
“ううん・・・ ・・・・何でもないけれど 少し 不安になっただけ" ("Ugh... ...It's nothing, but I just felt a little anxious") 知られた分だけ わたしから 冷めてゆくのが こわいから (I'm afraid that the more you know, the more you'll grow colder from me) "・・・そうよ・・・” (That’s right…”) すき間もない程に 昨夜 ひとつになったの (Last night we became one, with no gaps between us) しがみついたら 微笑うけど どうしていいのか わからない (I smile when I hold on to you, but I don't know what to do) Melty 手を引かれて 溶かし溶かされ 充たされるはずなのに (My hand should be pulled away, melted, melted, and filled up) Melty つかめないの どうしてかしら? 肩すかしされた 気分 (I can't grasp it, why? I feel like I've been ignored) 何にも言わずに 抱き寄せて (Without saying anything, I hold you close) 朝の光が あなたの景色変えないうちに (Before the morning light changes your scenery) “いやよ” ("No, no") ・・・言いかけてやめるのは うまく 言い聞かせるつもりね (...I'm trying to convince you to stop when I say it) 困らせたいの! (I want to embarrass you!) "お見通し” ("Foresight") 小悪魔ぶっても かなわない (Even if I act like a little devil, I can't compete) Melty 手を引かれて 溶かし溶かされ 充たされるはず充たされるはずなのになのに (My hand should be pulled away, melted, melted, and filled up) Melty つかめないの どうしてかしら? (I can't grasp it, why?) 何かが 違ってゆくの 何も言わせず 抱き寄せて (Something is going to be different, don't let me say anything, hold me close) めかくししてね ちぐはぐなこと 言わないうちに (Before I get too confused and say something foolish) Melty 手を引かれて 溶かし溶かされ 充たされるはずなのに (My hand should be pulled away, melted, melted, and filled up) Melty つかめないの どうしてかしら? 肩すかしされた気分 (I can't grasp it, why? I feel like I've been ignored) 何も言わずに 抱き寄せて (Hold me close without saying anything) めかくししててね (Please cover your eyes) 朝の光で 見えないうちに (Before you can see it in the morning light)
The initial apprehension of being more intimately involved, emotionally and physically, with another person comes with the realization that she felt nothing when it happened. She should be able to feel a deeper connection, but something is not right, and instead pretends and acts accordingly like everything is fine.
Track Two: ROMY – LOVE コマーシャル (Love Commercial)
指の中で タバコふかし 何もないのに 愛にまみれた (I smoked a cigarette in my fingers and was covered in love, even though there was nothing there) 気にするコトが 自分以外の あの人に対する 愛の神経 (What I worry about is the nerves of love for someone other than myself) いつか見た あの人はいない 私の人には ならなかった (That person I saw someday wasn't the same person I was) 私はなまけて ただならぬ犬より (I'm better than a lazy dog) ただの人を 選んでみただけ (I just picked a person) 私のコントロール あえてコントロール こわくてコントロール あえてコントロール 心に 私まかせ コントロール (My control, dare to control, I'm afraid to control, dare to control, leave it to my heart to control me) 頭の中で おもいふかし 何があるのか 夢のざわめき (I wonder what's going on inside my head, The buzz of dreams) ただならぬ人だから あえて こわがって あの人に対する 愛の恐怖 (Because he is an extraordinary person, I dare to be afraid of him, and the fear of love towards him) 抱かれる日は 心 うきあし もうひとりの私 かくしきれない (The days when I'm held in your arms, I feel happy, and I can't hide my other self) 私のコントロール あえてコントロール こわくてコントロール あえてコントロール 心に 私まかせ コントロール (My control, dare to control, I'm afraid to control, dare to control, leave it to my heart to control me)
A reflection on not feeling love when, or to the level, you think you should, while worrying how it will affect your partner. There is a comfort in being together with someone, but that surface level connection will eventually face the challenge of it being something more for them, and she is not prepared or ready for that.
Ultimately, it is up to Griddlebone to move forward in the best way that makes sense to her, and that path is one alone.
Track Three: 越美晴 (Miharu Koshi) – 恋はファニー・フィーリング (Love Is A Funny Feeling)
彼は時間に遅れて 私は指輪を忘れた だけど ゴメンも言わずに つまらぬ言い訳ごっこ 空は春 時は今 幸せですと言わんばかり だけど 二人の心は ちぎれ雲 (He was late and I forgot my ring But we don't say sorry, we make boring excuses, And the sky keeps saying that we're happy now in spring but our hearts are torn apart by clouds) 恋はファニー・フィーリング かまわず回る 恋はファニー・フィーリング 慣れっ子 だけど (Love revolves around funny feelings, but love is used to funny feelings) 彼は口笛吹きながら 私 ため息つきながら 通り過ぎる 街角 小鳥の歌だけ響く (He was whistling, I pass by with a sigh, Only the song of a small bird echoes on the street corner) いろんなことが あったけど みんないい思い出ばかり だから ここらでピリオド それがいい (A lot has happened, but we all have only good memories, So it's good to have the end around here) 恋はファニー・フィーリング 手を振りながら 恋はファニー・フィーリング 深刻ぶらず 歌いながら 笑ってサヨナラするわ オー ファニー オー ファニー ファニ ファニ オー フィーリング オー ファニー オー ファニー ファニ ファニ オー フィーリング (Love is a funny feeling, while waving, Love is a funny feeling, don't take it seriously, I'll laugh and say goodbye while singing Oh Funny Oh Funny Funny funny oh feeling Oh Funny Oh Funny Funny funny oh feeling)
In a goal to subside the loneliness and longing to feel proper love, Griddlebone moves through relationships over time to find the elusive 'love' she believes is out there. Scared of getting too involved with someone she holds minimal emotion for, she breaks off any connection before feelings develop from the other party, and plays it off as something lighthearted.
Despite her efforts, she cannot find someone who fulfills her inside the way she thinks love should be.
Track Four: 宮原芽映 (Mebae Miyahara) – 悪魔のように微笑んで (Smiling Like A Devil)
罠をしかけ待ってるん 悪魔のように 微笑んで (I'm setting a trap up and waiting for you, smiling like a devil) さあ ドアを 叩いて ドアを ひらいて (Come on, knock on the door, open the door) 泣きまねの 電話 かけて 街灯り 胸はずませ (I made a phone call imitating crying, and the street lights made my heart flutter) あの人を 呼び出したの (I called that person) 数えては 時間をかせぐ (Counting the time to buy myself some) 優しさを 言い訳して 赤い血が 流れる前に (Kindness, before I make excuses and red blood flows) 嘘をつく ずるいあなた 忘れてよ あの娘の事は (Forget about lying You're so cunning about that girl) 罠をしかけ待ってるん 悪魔のように 微笑んで (I'm setting a trap up and waiting for you, smiling like a devil) さあ ドアを 叩いて ドアを ひらいて (Come on, knock on the door, open the door) 待つだけの 女なんて さよならよ 今夜こそは (Say goodbye to the woman who only waits, tonight) 愛の 糸 足にからませ あの人を もう逃がさない (I'll let the thread of love entwine around my legs and never let that person slip away again) 罠をしかけ待ってるん 悪魔のように 微笑んで (I'm setting a trap up and waiting for you, smiling like a devil) さあ ドアを 叩いて ドアを ひらいて (Come on, knock on the door, open the door)
A new connection with someone shows promise, but she discovers that her partner is a cheater, something that hurts Griddlebone in a way that she has not experienced before. Not used to being treated as a second thought, and feeling like she is not worthy of love if made so inconsequential, she plots to destroy and expose her partner for what they have done to her.
All the joy and hope that she felt in locating a person that is right for her is now crushed, and she vows to not let herself be taken advantage of ever again in the pursuit of love.
Track Five: いしだあゆみ & ティン・パン・アレイ・ファミリ(Ayumi Ishida & Tin-Pan-Alley-Family) – 私自身 (Myself)
ひとりソファーに寝ころんで 恋の歌聞くでもなし 歌うでもなし (I lie alone on the sofa and listen to love songs, but I don't sing them) 私は日暮れを見つめています (I'm staring at the sunset) 部屋の窓には東京湾の 船の灯が小さく揺れて (In the window of the room, the lights of the ships in Tokyo Bay sway slightly) 一人ぐらしに疲れた時は 結婚なんか考えてます (When I get tired of living alone, I think about marriage) 夜汽車で旅に出る時は 色のない写真のように 素顔のままで 東京駅から出かけています (When I travel by night train, I leave Tokyo Station with my bare face, just like a colourless photograph) 幾度か恋にこの身を灼いて 歌を忘れた私だけれど (I have forgotten how to sing because my body has been burnt by love many times) 淋しさだけを心に積んで 今日もぽつんと歌っています (But today, I sing alone once again with only loneliness in my heart) くちづけ交す恋人にさえ 私の気持は言えないでしょう (I can't even tell my feelings to my lover who kisses me) 人に知られず流した涙 (The tears I shed without anyone knowing) 私は今日も歌っています・・・・ (I'm still singing today...)
Moving on from her heartbreak, Griddlebone refrains from being involved with anyone else for a lengthy period of time, as that means she cannot be hurt once again. However, she cannot help but feel that the emptiness inside her continues to grow as time passes, even if she tries to remain strong willed. Her thinking is that she does not need anyone to sustain her happiness if she keeps the love she has to give tightly held internally.
Track Six: 麗美 (REIMY) – シャドー・ブレイ (Shadow Play)
淋しい笑顔と 言われるのに馴れても (Even if I get used to being told that my smile is lonely) 真夜中の鏡 覗けばつぶやくの (When I look into the mirror in the middle of the night, I whisper) Say, Love is the shadow play, shadow play Love is the shadow play 恋しても (Even if I fall in love) Love is the shadow play, shadow play, shadow play ひとりぼっちじゃ怖い (I'm scared of being alone) 街角の華やかさに 気がつけば急ぎ足 (If you notice the glamour on the street corner, hurry up) 片思いのままなら 恋も失くさず済むでしょう (If you keep your love unrequited, you won't lose your love) Say, Love is the shadow play, shadow play, shadow play Love is the shadow play, 密やかに (Secretly) Love is the shadow play, shadow play, shadow play 遠くあなた見てる (I'm watching you from afar) 気づかないで (Don't notice) darling 壊さないで (Don't break it) wow wow Love Love Love Love Love Love, darling, Love Love Love Love is the shadow play
Her loneliness begins to swell to a point of action, and Griddlebone cannot ignore it or remain dormant for much longer. She is unhappy being completely alone, and wants to feel any form of connection with another, but does not want to be hurt again.
Feeling unworthy of being loved due to her faults, her past pursuit of love becomes less of a task to complete and more of a buried burden she has to carry.
In order to protect herself from emotional suffering, she develops a cold façade to protect herself with.
Track Seven: 竹内まりや (Mariya Takeuchi) – プラスティック・ラブ (Plastic Love)
突然のキスや 熱いまなざしで (With a sudden kiss and a passionate gaze) 恋のプログラムを 狂わせないでね (Do not cause a malfunction to the love program) 出逢いと別れ 上手に打ち込んで (Type in encounters and separations well) 時間がくれば終わる (When the time comes, it ends) Don't hurry! 愛に傷ついた あの日からずっと (Since the day I was heartbroken, I've been having a life) 昼と夜が逆の 暮らしを続けて (That's been reversed between day and night) はやりのDiscoで 踊り明かすうちに (While dancing the nights away at the popular disco) おぼえた魔術なのよ (There is a magic I've learned) I'm sorry! わたしのことを決して 本気で愛さないで (Never love me seriously) 恋なんてただのゲーム 楽しめばそれでいいの (Love is just a game, all I need is to have fun with it) 閉ざした心を飾る 派手なドレスも靴も (The showy dresses and shoes decorating my closed heart) 孤独な友達 (Are my lonely friends) わたしを誘う人は 皮肉なものね いつも 彼に似てるわなぜか 思い出と重なり合う (The men who flirt with me are Ironically always similar to him for some reason My memories with him are overlapped) グラスを落として急に 涙ぐんでも わけは尋ねないでね (Don’t ask me why even if I drop my glass and suddenly glisten with tears) 夜更けの高速で 眠りにつくころ (When I fall asleep by the highway at dawn) ハロゲンライトだけ 妖しく輝く (Only halogen lights are mysteriously shining) 氷のように冷たい女だと ささやく声がしても (Although somebody is whispering that I’m an icy cold woman) Don't worry! I'm just playing games I know that's plastic love Dance to the plastic beat Another morning comes
Relationships become more of a pursuit of pleasure, rather than meaningful connection, for Griddlebone. A cycle of one night encounters to keep her company before the new day begins and she starts over again with someone new. Her self-worth starts to become tied with being seen as attractive and desirable by another person. She has convinced herself that this lifestyle will quell the void inside of her, although she knows in her heart that she is still painfully lonely. The isolation does not cease, no matter how many individuals she crosses path with.
Maybe one day she will not feel this way, but she believes it is her fault that everything turned out the way it has to this point.
Track Eight: 工藤順子 (Junko Kudo) – 夕顔姐さん (Ms. Yugao)
夕顔姐さん 部屋には 夏でもね (Yugao-san, even if it's summer in your room) こたつが置いてある 束ねたコードを つついてる 退屈な 白い猫が家族 (A bored white cat is pecking at the bundled cords next to the kotatsu table) 今夜のお座敷 長過ぎる いつもなら (The tatami room tonight is too long, as normal) 帰ってる時間 (Time to go home) お勝手の隅の 猫メシは 山盛りで (In the corner of the kitchen, there is a mountain of cat food) とても食べきれない (I can't eat it all) 明かりは点いてても 時計の音ばかり そろそろ聞こえて来る はずなのに (Even though the lights are on, all I can hear is the ticking of the clock) 夕顔姐さんの下駄の音 (The sound of Yugao-nee’s geta) 夕顔姐さんの下駄の音 (The sound of Yugao-nee’s geta) 夕顔姐さん 来年 数えでね 六十三になる (Yugao-san, I'll be turning 63 next year) 近頃男はダメだね 粋じゃない それが口ぐせです (Men are no good these days. It's not classy. That's what they say.) 衣ずれの裾は 萩の花 つい昨日 かけたパーマネント (The hem of my clothes was like a clover flower, a permanence that I wore just yesterday) 西に傾いた 大きな お月様 帰りを急がせる (The big moon leaning to the west hurries my return home) 浮かれ足の男 物欲し気な女 (A playful man, a wistful woman) 若いネオンの街に カラコロと (In a young neon city, colourfully) 夕顔姐さんの下駄の音 (The sound of Yugao-nee’s geta) 夕顔姐さんの下駄の音 (The sound of Yugao-nee’s geta) 細い路地に入ると 犬達が吠えだす 待ちくたびれた猫は夢で聞く (When I enter a narrow alley, the dogs start barking, and the tired cat hears it in a dream) 夕顔姐さんの下駄の音 (The sound of Yugao-nee’s geta) 夕顔姐さんの下駄の音 (The sound of Yugao-nee’s geta)
Years removed from the emotional low point of her life, the empty hedonism to fill the void inside her, Griddlebone has taken up residence with an older, single woman that has mirrored her own experiences in the search of love. The familiar sounds of geta beckon the arrival of her human home to Griddlebone, and her days are spent resting in the sun and keeping busy through the house, all while reminiscing of a past of incomplete love. She has become accustomed to a quiet, uneventful life where she is loved by Ms. Yugao as a Swing pet and taken care of like the beautiful Queen she is.
Still, there is an unshakable feeling that she has missed out on true love in her life, despite her current, content happiness.
Track Nine: Meow Meow & Thomas Lauderdale – Hotel Amour
Fun fact: Meow Meow played Griddlebone in the 2019 movie!
I looked for Love in the beautiful cities I looked for Love up in the air I looked underground though I knew that I shouldn't And still, no Love was anywhere I went to the place they call Heaven I went to the Hotel Amour I sat still and wrote Love some letters But Love doesn't read anymore I sang Love into my stories And I danced Love into my dreams But Love didn't find me Let alone blind me Love is nowhere it seems I looked for Love by pretending I wasn't I looked for Love close to the bone I fixed up some wings and I bought all the permits So Love could take flight when it was grown I followed the maps, I read all the signs I bought Love a building called "Home" I filled in the forms and I paid all the taxes Still, Love left me alone... My heart's still jumping out of my skin I've nothing to keep the feeling in I've nothing to do to make Love stay I've nothing to keep the darkness away You're all in the grandness of little things A leaf that's shaped like a heart A simple breeze, a feather Morning light, evening star And I'm singing to you my stories And I'm dancing with you in my dreams... Love... Love is everywhere... it seems
Throughout her life, Griddlebone has done everything she thought was correct to find and feel a form of love that made her feel complete, but could be deemed as unsuccessful in that pursuit.
Although it never manifested for her as love with another, she has felt the unconditional love of someone that cares for her as the most important thing in her life.
Looking back on her life now as a senior Queen, Griddlebone comes to a realization that love can now be found all around her. It was never her fault for not finding the idea of 'love' that she felt she needed, and there may never have been an instance where she felt that she had found the prize she was after, but love was always with her in the little things of life.
@the-cat-at-the-theatre-door I am not sure if you are still interested in these after all this time, but in case you are, enjoy :).
#CATS Musical#CATS the Musical#CATS Playlist#Griddlebone#Happy Valentine's Day#What better day to celebrate the Cat that (I think) represents love more than any other#And whom I love very much :)#Does any of this writeup make sense? I hope so#It was created with a specific vision in my mind that can be hard to explain to someone not familar with what I mean or the songs I chose#If you subscribe to it#There is an unmentioned theme here in that Griddlebone is somewhat aromantic#But she does not really understand that and thinks that something is wrong with her for feeling the way she does#This idea has been building for quite some time and it is finally complete#Hopefully the drastic(?) shift between the first eight tracks of decades old Japanese music and the recent Meow Meow is not too much#But this playlist was built on the foundation of Hotel Amour as the so-called 'signature song' and everything developed from there slowly#I always wanted to do a playlist that is strictly (aside from the last song) made up of Japanese songs from the late 1970s into the 1980s#As that era of music has really grabbed hold of me and I have made a point of importing and archiving many albums from Japan#From that time period that certainly cannot easily (if at all) be found in North America#Each one of these songs (aside from Plastic Love) was lovingly transcribed and translated by me from the lyric sheets found in each album#The translations may not be 100% accurate for exactly what the Japanese lyrics best translate to but it should be fairly correct#This all started with the album 'Cat' by Mebae Miyahara#And if you look up the album cover you will know exactly why I thought it was something I needed immediately#Next came Junko Kudo's album and then Masayo's and then the next until I now have well over 100 records from the best era of Japanese music#Fun to see that some of the albums I have imported have actually been reissued#While others become increasingly hard to find and more valuable#Interesting to think that I have gone well over three years since posting a playlist#I never did finish the writeup for Munkustrap (half-way done and then I never went back) or Grizabella#Not to mention I have a full 'double album' for Coricopat and Tantomile that has been sitting in my drafts since October 2021#And technically a fully realized playlist for at least three other characters that I could post if I wanted#They will eventually see the light of day
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