#I did my epq on this

[marcusagrippa]

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[talknerdytome18]

Ranking All Books by Holly Jackson

Since I've read all of Holly's books, I'm going to rank them! Disclaimer: This is my opinion. If we don't have the same opinion, then respect that. Let's go!

Warning: this may contain spoilers for all books published by Holly Jackson. If you don't want to be spoiled, then scroll away.

6. Killjoy (2021)

I found this story cute! Very fun and fast-paced. I loved seeing how it all started and loved seeing the friend group's dynamic again. I just found this to not be the best out of all of Holly's books (granted this is a novella, but it's not my fave). Also, too much Ant Lowe in my opinion. I would have preferred more Jamie Reynolds. Also, I personally think Connor and Zach should've kissed but oh well.

Overall, fun book! If you wanna go back to where it all started, then this novella is worth it.

5. Five Survive (2022)

Guys... I have a reason why this book is ranked so low. I'm going to start by saying that I did not hate this book. I found the story intriguing and was engaged once the action started. For her first standalone, this book was really good and exceeded my expectations. My main problem with this book was that I found that I could care less about the characters. Personally, I found Red Kenny to be a weak protagonist in comparison to Pip and Bel and, not to mention how I could care less about Red and Arthur. Red and Arthur are cute, but honestly, I could care less if they got together or not.

Again, I don't hate this book. For Holly's first standalone, it was really good. However, I found that I didn't really care for any of the characters.

Overall, good book! Wish I connected more to the characters because the premise is incredible.

4. Good Girl, Bad Blood (2020)

All books in the AGGGTM series are five star reads in my opinion, but I find this the weakest book in the trilogy. Honestly, I love this book with my whole heart. Coming from being Connor Reynolds's biggest fan, I love how much he appeared in this book and how he aided in finding Jamie.

I think this book suffers from what I've dubbed "Sequel Slump" - meaning that the first book is so good that the sequel "slumps" in comparison. In this case, A Good Girl's Guide to Murder is so good that this book just "slumps" in comparison, and I think it's because it takes a while for the mystery to officially begin, since we're taken through a quick recap over the previous book's events and then the memorial.

Also, I personally think that Connor and Zach should've kissed. Connor going to Zach's house to play Fortnite after the memorial? Very fruity to me (joking... or am I?)

Overall, love this book. Wish it got more recognition in the fandom.

3. A Good Girl's Guide to Murder (2019)

LOVE THIS BOOK. This book is fast-paced, thrilling and mysterious. It has a healthy dose of mystery and romance, along with characters I truly felt interested in. Pip's an amazing protagonist who fought hard to prove Sal innocent and find the real killer under the guise of her EPQ, all as she got the guy (Ravi Singh) in the end.

I loved that this book kept me guessing until the very end. I was suspecting everyone (Max, Jason, Naomi, Elliot, etc) and was genuinely surprised finding out Elliot killed Sal. Holly had written him to be such a likeable person that I couldn't believe he would kill Sal just so he could frame him as Andie's killer. AND BECCA? Never would've guessed it. Holly Jackson knows how to write compelling thrillers and I love that for her.

My only real complaint is again, Zach and Connor should've kissed. Connor honey I get that you liked Pip, but Zach Chen is literally right there. You boys are soulmates and I pray that the show recognises that (along with LauCara).

Overall, AMAZING BOOK. Deserves all the hype!

2. As Good as Dead (2021)

AHHHHH I LOVE THIS BOOK SO MUCH. THIS BOOK IS HOW YOU END A TRILOGY GUYS. From the beginning, I was hooked by the mystery of Pip's stalker. This book broke my heart with Andie's email - poor girl was so scared of her father and died trying to escape him. I really like how this book doesn't give Andie a full redemption arc, rather it explains her actions. It really humanises Andie - a girl who grew up in a toxic environment and died trying to save herself and her sister.

My heart shattered when Pip broke up with Ravi. AND HIS SUGGESTION WAS TO MARRY SO THEY COULD GET SPOUSAL PRIVILEDGE??? RAVI FUCKING SINGH WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME???

The ending? EVIL. FUCKING EVILLLL BUT I LOVE HOLLY EITHER WAY. In my heart, I believe Pip got back together with him and they married. They also got another golden retriever in my mind after they got married.

Only complaint was WHERE WAS ZACH CHEN? CONNOR AND HIM SHOULD'VE KISSED WTF. Not to mention Lauren and Cara... Love my girl Steph though. Hoping that Lauren and Cara are a thing in the show though since we don't know much about Steph.

Overall, BEST BOOK IN THE TRILOGY GUYS.

The Reappearance of Rachel Price (2024)

HOLY FUCKING SHIT.

THIS BOOK... I WILL ONLY SAY ONE WORD: BRILLIANT.

When Holly Jackson said that this book was her favourite, I can see why it is. While I struggled to get into it from the beginning, once I read past 100 pages, I was hooked. Bel Price is such a complex protagonist that I could find myself relating to. All the characters were just so complex and you truly don't know who's lying until the very end, when we find out (spoiler alert) that Charlie (Bel's dad) had ordered his father to kill Rachel.

Not to mention how insane the sibling plotline was??? I NEVER WOULD HAVE SUSPECTED THAT CARTER WAS RACHEL'S BIOLOGICAL DAUGHTER. My heart broke when Rachel spoke about how Patrick took Carter away from her when Carter was only two weeks old. The Price family are truly disgusting - Rachel, Bel and Carter deserved so much better.

Also, I preferred the romance between Ash and Bel over Arthur and Red. Ash is such a fun character and I was genuinely sad when him and Bel weren't endgame. I believe that one day, in the near future, they reunite and get together officially.

Overall, LOVE THIS BOOK. If you haven't picked this up yet, then do so now!

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That's it! If you wanna talk, then my inbox is open :) - Em

[lil-tumbles]

Okay it's finally done.

Hello, people of Tumblr! Please, please spread this survey. Send it to your kids, your classmates, your niblings. Help me out here. I need people who did their GCSEs in 2022 in England to do this survey on the impact of COVID on GCSE results. It's for my EPQ. I need 100 respondents. Please, Tumblr... The fate of my grade rests in your hands.

Here is the survey: https://forms.office.com/e/tYkks2UfHe

Also, if you got this far, here's some GIFs from superwholock below the cut.

Also, I know y'all like polls, so here.

Listen: Sam Winchester may not have been able to complete his education, but he'd want someone else to complete theirs and do well, so do this for him:

And for you Lockers? You know your guy Sherlock is smart and autistic, like me. He'd want another smart autistic person to succeed and get into a good uni (did I mention this EPQ is my big grab for a top university?). Then I can become a top detective or whatever idk I didn't watch the show I'm sorry but if you do this survey and tell me you're a Sherlock fan who saw this in the tags then I swear, I'll watch it. For you. And my grade. Please.

Finally, doctor who, my beloved fandom. I love you all so much- well, maybe not all of you, but I appreciate the fandom as a whole for everything you've done for me. The word count of ff I've contributed to this fandom (AO3: z_in_a_blue_box for proof) should tell you all how much I love this show. Here, have gay people, and go do my survey. Please. I'm begging you.

The Doctor would say to always help people when you can. This can be your kind act of the day. "Always try to be nice, never fail to be kind". Please.

Thank you, fandoms of Tumblr. I appreciate you all.

[chriscrosswallflower-blog]

Alright, I have finally finished watching a Good Girl's Guide to Murder and I collected my thoughts as I went. Overall I really enjoyed it, though some of the plot changes weren't my favorite.

Spoilers below for the TV show!

Things I Loved

How awkward Pip is - I don't think we get a good look at this in the book since it is mostly through Pip's eyes, but I love how goofy and awkward she is!

Pip's friendship group! I love how much closer they seem in the show and how they accept Pip as the weirdo she is without a single thought, especially since she is different from them in so many ways. I also love seeing more of Connor and his funny personality

I love that we get to see more of Cara and Pip's relationship - they are precious and you can tell how ride or die they are for each other

Lauren - she adds so much to their friend group and I just love her so much. Ant, stay tf away from this baby!

The PipRavi sleepover - my heart couldn't take it!

I like the introduction of the da Silva siblings backstory. In the books they seemed pretty estranged so it's not as obvious why Nat is upset about Pip accusing her brother. Obviously that would bother anyone to an extent but with the introduction of how close they are/were it will make a lot more sense moving forward

Max (and Dan honestly) seem creepy from the start. I swear anytime either of them came on screen I got a terrible feeling - though Dan did begin to seem more good intentioned after talking to Pip in the police car (still creepy though)

Name drops of characters that will be important later - non-readers won't think anything of it but it's funny to hear Stella and Jamie name dropped so casually

It's interesting to see Mr. Ward acting so normal and casual - he does the same thing in the books but seeing it is so unnerving. I think the plot line of him forcing Pip to change her EPQ really adds another layer to his character too

BARNEY'S FUNERAL AND THE TENNIS BALLS!!! 😭 the "why didn't anyone help him" almost broke me.

Ravi being the one to suggest that they call off the investigation hits so damn hard. He feels so hopeless and trapped but the only thing he cares about is protecting and reassuring Pip

Since we have a more objective POV, I love seeing the little signs of how smitten Pip is with Ravi from the beginning - much more than she ever acknowledges in the book

Pip going in the junk yard scared the hell out of me - she got wayyy too close to DTK there.

Becca and Andie being close makes her death so much more tragic

Cara has a TRACKER on Pip?! "Maybe she's not as smart as she thinks she is," man I cackled!

OMG Sal and Andie talking about running away together hurt so bad - seeing how much they loved each other makes the whole story so much more heart breaking

Regardless of if it's in the book or in the show - Mr. Ward talking about how he talked to Sal about Cambridge so he would die thinking about something good will always turn my stomach. That man is such a disgusting mfer

Pip threatening Max at the very end is so amazing. That little pat on the shoulder? 🤌🤌

Things I disliked

Pip seems a lot less informed in the show - like seriously, book Pip would be horrified. You broke into the Bell's house without GLOVES?

I think this is partially because we don't see Pip's POV and much about her suspects - the only two people she really seems to suspect are Dan and Jason and that really only comes into play at the end. I wonder if people who just watch the show will even guess that she suspected Naomi, Nat, and even Howie throughout most of the book

I think we all mourn for "real men wear floral when trespassing" ���

Honestly, the storyline with Pip's dad might be my least favorite thing. I loved their cute, playful relationship in the book and how she ardently defends her blended family, but in the show, even before the cheating thing, it seems like she didn't really like him? That made me so sad! (Also, does he call her chicken in the UK edition of the books? I really liked Pickle as a nickname!)

Nat's storyline is strange, like I understand to an extent why they did it but book Nat would have a fit if she figured out she was supposedly friends with Andie 😂 I think she loses quite a bit of her character building when we leave out how much her nudes getting leaked affected her (it seems like almost a minor thing in the show) and her act of violence while trying to go to college that put her on probation. Especially since it's a large reason why Pip suspected her in the first place (her reasoning seems pretty weak in the show)

Where the heck is Stanley?! He's pretty important for season 2; of all the characters to cut you wouldn't think it would be him!

I really miss the scene where Ravi and Pip recreated the timeline to prove Sal's innocence - it was such a potent moment!

I miss hearing Naomi's backstory - we get a bit of it implicitly by the way she acts and her confession, but I think it adds a lot to her character to know more about her anxiety and depression and how it caused her to drop out of college

We miss some of Pip's bad ass moments! Again, this is possibly because we are seeing things from an objective POV and we can't see inside of her head, but I loved reading about how knowledgeable she is about true crime, how much research she did, and how much that informed her actions. I also missed seeing how much she defended the Singh family and Ravi specifically. That scene in the grocery store where she told off the cashier for being so rude to Ravi is one that I dearly miss

Pip accusing Max of raping Becca doesn't hit as hard when she did it over the phone and I hate that he didn't truly confess like he did in the book. And they didn't bring up Nat's rape at all (or Nat in general very much). Her confronting Max and Naomi was such a badass moment for Pip and I'm sad that we missed it

Becca's wig in that flashback. Yikes.

Becca taking Pip to the well (or whatever it is - I feel like it was called something else but it's not coming to mind) made her seem less sympathetic to me than when she just drugged her without much of a plan. "Now I'm going to have to put you in there with her," was so freaking sinister

Things I'm not sure about

In some ways I like the addition of Pip seeing Andie and Sal after they obviously argued - the guilt she felt after that and how that would motivate her to look into the case makes a lot of sense. However, I think I prefer her only looking into the case because she trusted and believed in Sal because of how kind he was to her. I think that the fact that she rarely doubted Sal in the books was really compelling and we lose a lot of that when Pip is concerned that she might have played a part in Sal finding Andie after their fight, therefore possibly contributing to her death

I don't think the video to lure the killer out was necessary but I think they did it to move the story along quicker. I wish we could have seen more of Pip's notes since that is what they wanted in the books when they kidnapped (dognapped?) Barney

I think I prefer them finding Andie's planner over the note in her bunny - it seems to make more sense than just a random note and I like how it gives us a small look into her life (her struggling to read the Revengers was a cute little detail and showed us that she is still a teenager). That being said, the note does the job and it feels a bit nit picky, so I'm not super upset by it

Having Isla tell Pip about Sal's murder was interesting - I'm not super mad about it but it definitely changed a lot, especially since neither of them think she's Andie and he keeps her captive to further hide Sal's murder. Somehow it makes Mr. Ward even more sinister

Having the plot line of Ravi leaving, coming back, and then him and Cara track her down was definitely different. I can decide which way I prefer it. Ravi leaving seemed really random and rushed but I did like that Cara had a part in her rescue (see the hilarity of the tracker above)

Though I enjoyed seeing PipRavi get together by the end of the season, I will miss their awkward tip toeing around each other as Ravi tries to ask her out!

All in all I really enjoyed it - I think it's one of those that I'll also get a lot out of after rewatching it. If you got this far, first off, I'm impressed! And second, let me know your thoughts!!

[moonslesbology]

spoilers for agggtm show ‼️‼️‼️‼️

i think people need to realise that a good girl's guide to murder is going to be different bc it would be boring for us to just see pip typing her epq. as someone who legit wrote an epq, the process isnt fun. the changes made suited the adaption onto screen. yes i know the edits arent consistent with the book, but they add so much more.

for example, isla jordan not being mentally disabled and just finding out what elliot did to sal and him hiding her away adds an emphasis that elliot knew what he did was wrong and adds to how fucked up it is.

my point is, a book adaptation isnt a copy of the entire book, it takes elements and reiterates them. holly has been so heavily involved, she gave us what we deserved in a show that received budget for 6 40 minute episodes.

my main complaint is how underused nat was in the show. she shouldve had a more prominent role in my opinion. however we all know if we get season 2, she'll defo be in it

but the show gave us so much more. pip still had her charming awkwardness, ravi was fleshed out so well in terms to his love for his brother, sal and andie's relationship was so visible to us. not to mention they've foreshadowed the next two books. if we get an entire three seasons, watching people connect each season is going to be so satisfying.

[agirlandherquill]

love and amentia - a bitter concoction

inspiration hath struck again, and struck hard i've concocted a little story - something wicked, something dark, a fitting thing i think given the fact autumn is steadily drawing in - can a story be autumn inspired? maybe, can i also be inspired by a single word? yes, yes i can

(and this may also have something to do with the fact i started ahs asylum - and the knowledge i have from studying victorian asylums as a part of my epq - so, inspiration has come from all over the place, but the final nail in the coffin so to speak was learning the latin translation for madness - amentia - and the story came to me from there)

so, here's the opening snippet, everything i have so far - and a fitting promise of what's to come, i hope

“Let me out.”

Three words.

A whisper.

An order.

A plea.

Three words were everything she had left to say to him.

“No…” The smile that twisted his face was as gruesome as the crimson stains blackening his sleeves. “I think not.”

“Let. Me. Out.”

“When I have a much better use for you? Why would I do that?” His fingers wrapped around the bars, he leant forward, pressing his forehead against the metal that sought to cage her in. She threw herself against the bars, fingers reaching for his throat. She clawed her nails against his skin, seeking blood, pain, any source of weakness that could get her freedom.

“What do you want from me?”

“The greatest thing of all. What will be my masterpiece.” He took her hands from his throat, clutched them between his and brushed his lips against the inside of her wrist. “Love.”

“I will never love you.” The words were as cold as the metal digging into her front. She had never spoken with such loathing in her life.

“That is the experiment, can’t you see? The greatest experiment of all. That is why I brought you here.”

He did no such thing. He took me. While I slept. He followed me, he watched me, and in the end… He took me. 

“You are a mad-man.” She fought to get her hands free of his grasp, his mere touch sickened her every nerve.

“Perhaps I am, perhaps I am not. We are in the best place for it, no?”

His words startled her into ceasing her efforts of escape. Where… Where am I? He saw the question in her eyes. His smile softened. “The House Of Amentia - Or as you may know it… The Asylum, cherie.”

Asylum. The word ripped the strength from her bones. Her knees gave out. He released her hands so that she could catch herself and slide to the floor, weeping fitfully, silently. No tears would come. She was too distraught, too angry, too devastated to let them out. 

“Why?” She asked, fighting with her voice to birth speech.

“Why, what?” His tone held a shadow of sympathy, it sickened her all the more.

“Why me?”

“That is the greatest question, no? I still wonder at it myself. Perhaps you and I can discover the answer, together?”

At her silence he drew away, sweeping a hand down the front of his dark waistcoat. He shook his head, sighing. “I will give you this night to adjust, tomorrow our work begins. We will make history cherie, you will see.”

He rubbed a hand through his tousled brown hair, turning away. She watched his shoulders rise and fall, as though his breathing was laboured, as though every breath was a struggle - a struggle of which he knew nothing, not like her - “They will all see.”

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[bookish-soup]

hey wahg if i said that. ilobe you. and that youre a really good froend and you mean everything to me and ghat if it werent for you id be dead and thank you for like. alaays being so patient with me even though i know my impulsivitu causes hou a shit tonne of anxietyu. i lohve you a lot bro !!!!!!!!!!!!!! im really tiredd but also im so glad we're frienfds. i acyially have somewhag of a plan for the next couple yearts and i know that k wanna go to oxford wirh you and be science people and pretend to be women in stem even though neither of us are strictly women. sorfy for the ramblr yknow thats what im best at anyways i love youuuueujrhrjjrd. best friends !!!!!!!!@@@@@

sorry thid is incoherent its cuz ive had too many sofy drinks + im exhausted from running around shops + eepy oh did i tellyou thay um dressing up as gerard.

anyways i love y0uuuuuub gonna go sleep at 4pm i miss youuueujrjriru. take me to rowes one day pls i want pasties theude yummny

– mior :P

AAUTHGHW

i love you. so much

OF COURSE IM FUCKITN PATIENT WITH YOU YOU HAVE NO IDEA

one day we will be tumblr best friend mutuals of legend when we have our stem jobs and four phds and slay ass dorm. even though by the time you start uni ill be in my own flat i realised??? so maybe you wont have to endure the horror of student accommodation????

yes you Absolutely Did Tell me about gerard way. drink water that is technically still soft because yeah you dont have the horror of hard water in london do you i dont think but yeah hydrate and anti high sugar in soft drinks because im writing about consumption right now in preliminary epq research????

I LOVE YOU YES YOU DO THAT SLEEP!!!! i must warn you though youll wake up at lke. three

i will take you to rowes but only if you make a solemn bet with me about rowes v greggs because i have to profit off of this.

-🌿🫧 (evem though you probably know since you uh. asked )

[the-romantics-guide]

Tuesday college roundup #1

• Kicked off the morning by listening to Adrianne Lenker and Ethel Cain on the bus

• Read The Picture of Dorian Gray until lesson time

• Had my first EPQ session and neeked out over my topic

• Completely panicked in a fire drill (I do not do well with loud noises)

• In tutor, my teacher asked if anyone was getting to college at half eight and staying till late. I have to because of the bus times so I nodded and she looked me right in the eyes and said “how did I know it would be you.” Honestly taking it as a compliment

• Neeked out in lit over poetic metre. Seriously I love that stuff. My teacher jokingly challenged us to write a trochaic poem- more on that later.

• As I was leaving lit my teacher stopped me on my way out to tell me that my essay was really good?! I get the feedback tomorrow and I’m genuinely so excited.

• Spent lunch in the computer rooms with my friend finishing our graphics assignment

• Then had a free period so I sat in the cafe, ordered a croissant and gingerbread latte and wrote that trochaic poem.

• Emailed said poem to my lit teacher who said I’d not only taken on the challenge but beautifully too. What an ego boost.

• Saw a deer on the bus ride home and lost my crap

• Made myself a stunning Caesar salad for lunch tomorrow

• Did some more EPQ research and wrote in my journal

• And because we all love a bit of cyclical structure- finished the day with reading The Picture Of Dorian Gray

[trixierosewrites]

Would you ever write nonfiction? (Assuming you had access to materials/any documents you might want or need for it)

Yes! Yes, I would! Either on the Franklin Expedition, something I am deeply and inextricably obsessed with, or on something classical; I write essays on the history, so it'd be fun to make it a book. If I had the time I'd interrogate either the fall of the Western Roman Empire or the rise of the empire (ft. Caesar's assassination, Mark Anthony, Octavian, and all that good stuff) or perhaps analysing what we know of Minoan Knossos (which I did my EPQ dissertation on, when I did it, and still sits in my files as a beautiful 10,000 words). I still have a dream that I might one day decipher Linear A myself, and then I'll have to write something non-fiction, see? There's also Roman lead poisoning. I love Roman lead poisoning. Or Pompeii.

Alternately, it could be fun to write nonfiction on British politics, but I had the misfortune of living through them, so I could just end up with a raging headache.

...Then again, I am also a huge fan of both Victorian English and Commonwealth England, so those are also options,

Thanks for the ask! This was fun to think about :3

[yourstrulyarrow]

i'm gonna get no responses to this but if anyone reads this and likes giving advice PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

so i just finished my GCSEs, and i can't decide which school i want to do A-levels at (for non-brits: did qualifications after turning 16, U minimum grade, 4 pass grade, 9 max grade. i can't decide what school to go to for my pre-uni qualifications). doing psychology, biology, maths, and further maths.

OPTION A: my current school. i'm pretty out about being trans, and although i went around asking teachers to use different pronouns for me 2-3 years ago, most don't because they keep forgetting (i don't pass, and the picture of me on the school register they see every day is when i was 11 and very fem-presenting). i have 1 teacher that uses they/them for me (i only use he/him pronouns, they/them is ok because it's not she/her, but i don't like it much). they were okay with my name change, but my school email has my deadname's initial since you can't change an email. i haven't gotten a response yet about whether i can have a new email for sixth form (i'll update when i do). they have zero clue what a trans person even is, they "officially" think i'm non-binary (i'm not, i'm a binary trans guy) but zero teachers were informed of this hence the issue with pronouns. my head of year didn't know i'm trans, and he was awkwardly trying to not offend me by "not assuming" i'm trans. i've been there 5 years and i generally have not had a very nice time, BUT they did let me use the disabled changing room rather than forcing me to go with the girls or the guys back when PE was mandatory (in year 11 they let everyone change in the toilets/whenever during lunch, so no issues there). they're understanding and sympathetic i think, just a bit ignorant. they refused to let teachers sign my deed poll to avoid "getting between [me] and [my mum]", despite using my preferred name in all correspondence anyways (so if there was a problem they would know... ironically all correspondence misgenders me). they give year 12s/13s detentions (which i disagree with... if a sixth former is late or doesn't do their homework that is THEIR PROBLEM and they should be left to deal with the consequences. if they're not responsible enough...), don't let sixth formers attend only for lessons (i.e. 8:30am start even if you don't have lessons until 9:50am or 11:30am, can't leave if you don't have a lesson. can leave for lunch but not break, and only once you gain permission). their school counsellor found about about my mother's abuse of me, and decided to get a social worker called to my house, creating huge problems for me, and when the social worker decided the situation was "resolved", she decided to send the document with EVERYTHING I SAID ABOUT MY ABUSIVE MOTHER... *TO MY MOTHER*. it was hideous. i really really like the maths teacher here, the way he explains things is top-tier, but i'm not guaranteed to get him. i'm attached to the psychology teacher (and she's very lovely, i've had issues with splitting where i swap between "she's my mother" (positive, as in "i wish i was her kid") and "she's the worst teacher and a backstabber i hate her". but after some careful analysis i was greatly overreacting, she's amazing). i like my biology teacher (also not guaranteed to get him, he's very nice though and he likes me and is supportive of me being trans!!). they also have 1 trans teacher (i think he does maths) who could be helpful to me when i do my EPQ, as i'm definitely going to do it on some kind of transgender topic. i'd also have already-established friends, i'm okay with most of the girls with my year but a lot of the guys don't like me much (trans and i was very annoying when i was 11 and they never forgave me). the guys who are chill with me are mostly going to option c school :(

OPTION B: school near-ish me with same sort of grades as current school. they're about the same grades-wise and in terms of oxbridge offers (i want to go to cambridge). their psychology spec is the same as my gcse psychology spec, which you'd think is a net positive but oh dear lord it is so boring. i don't want to re-learn some gcse content. we had our induction day and i don't like the psychology teacher :(. also i got called out for being autistic as fuck (not diagnosed, but peer-reviewed) in our induction day session because she made us do a thing about recognising facial expressions and i got it completely wrong. it made me feel really shit and stupid because i'm not diagnosed or anything ://. i also don't really vibe with the biology teacher, the maths teacher seems chill though. this school is a LOT bigger than my current, and they have a whole separate building/cafeteria/etc. for sixth formers. good because it means i dont have to see the little kids but also there's wayyy more people, kinda scary :/. also i have 1 friend who says she'll go to either option a or b depending on where i go so we can be together (if i choose option c, she'll go to a as one of our other friends is going to a). they have really good lab facilities for the sciences though so i'm not sure?? also public transport is better to there, but distance is similar to option a. big thing for me driving me to consider this school is they have a "transition policy" for trans kids, they know what transgender means, they have a whole system, they understand having the wrong name on exams and stuff can be distressing, etc etc.

option c: amazing school, slightly far. ok so omg i REALLYREALLY want to go to c but the problem is my first mock grades weren't good enough :(( 999988876 + L2D (btec is in business). in last mock, i got 999999996 + L2D. also a distinction in english speaking. so clearly i'm academically capable enough to go there, right?? the 6 is in art, i recently got my raw mark back and it's an 8 (1 mark off a 9). my coursework for business i got 107/120, that's not amazing but i think i can maybe maybe get a L2D* in it anyways? they don't have a very casual atmosphere, it's very much study study study, but i don't mind because the school gets such amazing grades. really good maths department, but they make kids learn all of maths a-level in year12 and then all of fm a-level in y13 (if doing both), treating it as 1 combined a-level. routinely 20+ oxbridge offers every year. a few of my friends are going to option c as well, including a guy who got about the same grades as me in the first mock but lives closer so he got n offer :(. no policies on trans kids so i don't know how they are in this regard. i don't have an offer for this school, i'm on the waitlist, but ppl who got rejected were told if they email on results day with much higher outcome grades than their application, they can get in (subject to spaces left). so there's a small chance if i get all 9s and an 8 or something maybe i can go there??? i'd have to basically get on my knees and beg though.

so anyways, option a, b, or c, and why??

[reallyneedsalife]

as someone who also did an EPQ and it was also the bane of my existence I relate to Pip on a spiritual level

however, mine didn't almost kill me. though I also didn't solve a 5 year old murder soooo

[incorrect-pipravi]

LauCara (Lauren x Cara) headcanons

Since I finally came out as a LauCara shipper (that’s what I decided to call them) and I’m currently addicted to writing headcanons (because 1. it’s fun and 2. I’m too lazy to write anything else rn) here’s some hcs

Cara had always thought that Lauren was adorable ever since they first met in middle school (I think that’s when they met?), not only was she extremely beautiful and gorgeous, but she had a good personality.

Lauren was sociable, funny, not afraid to show her real emotions or thoughts and very charming. She was a natural attractor of the spotlight.

However, Cara’s crush only started developing into something more than an admiration for a friend when Lauren dyed her hair red and Cara was like “Oh. Oh no.”

Cara had told Naomi immediately, panicking.

“I’ve known her for years, Naomi! She has never expressed an ounce of interest in girls. Oh god. I’m doomed. And she’s my best friend! What will I do?”

“First of all, please stop pacing and take a seat.” Naomi had told her. “Second of all, even I didn’t know that you liked girls until you told me and I’m your older sister. You might have a tiny chance, but still it’s a chance. If she doesn’t then you’ll eventually get over it. And besides you’re totally perfect. Any girl would be lucky to have your attention and love.”

Pip, of course, didn’t need to be told because she noticed the lovesick looks Cara had been giving Lauren when she’s not looking.

“Yeah. You caught me red-handed, Detective Pip. I really like Loz. I’m fucked, am I not?”

Pip had hugged her and told her that whatever she decided to do she’d do about her crush she’ll have her unending support.

Lauren was still oblivious to Cara’s pining and to top it all off, she started dating Tom.

“I’ll never have a chance. I’m truly pathetic.” She had told Pip on the phone whilst crying.

Six months later, she got a call from a crying Lauren and she had immediately left whatever she was doing, bought chocolate and other snacks and headed to Lauren’s house.

After Lauren’s breakup with Tom, Cara was always there with Lauren comforting her and listening to her.

"He made me feel worthless.” Lauren had told her about Tom.

“No. Hey, listen to me.” Cara turned Lauren’s head toward her, made her look into her eyes. “You’re not worthless. You’re the most wonderful girl I know. You’re anything but worthless.”

Something in their relationship shifted. They started spending more time together, especially since Pip was already busy with her EPQ and the boys were still away on summer vacations.

Cara’s presence, her words and her comforting touch became a constant in Lauren’s day.

Lauren started feeling something more for Cara and for a while she wasn’t sure what to do. She had never liked a girl before. This new feeling, it overwhelmed her.

She probably did one of those “am I gay?” quizzes.

Lauren’s mother had been a great help. She had helped her figure out her sexuality (which I hc her as bisexual) as well as aided her in accepting this new part of her identity and gave her some great relationship advice.

“Listen to me, my love. I know that all of this is overwhelming to you and I’m not saying that you have to go and tell everyone, but what I’m trying to say is that you should consider telling Cara about your feelings or else you might end up regretting it.”

“But what if she doesn’t like me and it makes things awkward and then that would mean I ruined our friendship for nothing?”

“Believe me, angel. It won’t ruin anything.” Her mom smiled all knowingly. “I’ve seen the way that girl looks at you. Just give it a shot!”

Lauren tries to do as her mother advised, but she backs down every single time.

Lauren and Cara finally kiss during the calamity party. They’re both a little bit drunk and are having a moment alone and with a drunken fit of courage, things finally work in their favor.

Both of them caught in the moment, leaning slowly towards one another and their lips finally meet.

They both panic and sit in complete silence for a few seconds, searching each other’s eyes for any reaction.

“I- I li-“ Cara takes a deep steadying breath before continuing. “I like you, Loz. I have liked you for a while.”

Cara then watches Lauren’s face for any expression or sign, but she can’t read her emotions very well at that moment and she starts to panic, but before she can do anything Lauren is pressing her lips against Cara’s, again.

“I like you, too.” Lauren whispers against Cara’s lips.

They talk more about it the next morning when they are sober. They decide to start dating, but to keep it a secret for a while until Lauren is ready to come out.

When they tell the group, everyone is happy and is supportive. (Everyone already knew because the couple had been anything, but subtle. Though of course they decided to respect the couple’s privacy and pretended like they didn’t have a clue!)

This is all for now, but I plan on writing more because I really enjoyed writing this!

[thetreeoutside]

28/08/2024

Except for the maths, I didn’t do a lot today. My EPQ session was entirely unproductive since I’ve run into a dead end for the time being, and I’m not sure how to get around it. I finished another maths paper and got an A because I didn’t freak out if I couldn’t do a question. Staying calm is the biggest battle for me when it comes to maths.

Things achieved today:

Did another maths paper and got an A.

Tried (but did not succeed in) working around the block I’ve got at the minute with my EPQ.

My EPQ deadline is a week on Friday, and I also need the first draft of my personal statement finished by then as well. I am not on track to achieve either of those things :)

Things to do tomorrow:

Make more progress on my EPQ so the day after (Friday) I am ready to start referencing my work

Go through the maths paper I did today

[luv4kokafox]

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day 002/100 of study!

< 23/01/2024 >

Hey!! How are you all? ❤️

I had a big biology test today, it was sort of okay? Some of the questions I wasn’t so sure about but you don’t know until you get the results back! My revision definitely did pay off tho,, a lot of my work came up as questions on the paper :)

Tonight I’d like to work on updating things I’ve already started and maybe try something new! I don’t have any homework left so I have a sort-of free night but only time will tell 🫶

[goals]

✔️ update DofE logs

✔️ start to write edited EPQ

✔️ start “Do No Harm - Henry Marsh”

mock countdown : 77 days!

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[fiuworks]

DRACULA ANIMATIC - LUCY: THE VAMPIRE.

Finally made it past results day! My animated short is now a Distinction level short film! (Alongside an A* in EPQ, which i'm incredibly proud of!) I'm eternally grateful to have studied Art Direction the past two years and use all my self taught skills in storyboarding to create this!

I produced, researched, casted and boarded this all myself! Four months of hard work finally- FINALLY. paying off! Enjoy <3

(Bonus self portrait I did for my portfolio for this...)

[chloeiswrong]

just lost the entirety of my epq section about a queer reading of saw (2004) what if i did something drastic