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Man, I think the best and worst part of Knives’s character is just how compelling he is*
I get it. You get it. We all understand exactly how and why he is the way he is. So many people have put this idea into better words than I could. He witnessed an unspeakable horror at an incredibly young age. He knew he was different, that he was other, and a worry set deeply into his bones that humanity would reject him for being born who he is.
And he was right. It was so much worse than he could have ever realized. He was born to be an object for humanity to use as they see fit. All he wanted was love and peace for himself and his brother. And after seeing that? What they did so mercilessly to Tesla? Who can blame him for not believing in any future with humanity in it. Who can imagine a future without unbelievable strife and prejudice when you’re outnumbered and are seen as an item to dissect and toy with as you see fit
And yet
And yet
In his fear, in his need to control and correct, the cycle continues. The abused becomes the abuser. He assaults his brother multiple times. He takes away Vash’s autonomy and manipulates his body without his consent. Hell he happily experiments with/tests and uses Vash’s body while unconscious. He says he loves Vash while refusing to hear a word coming out of his mouth. Because, if he has a moment of doubt, any hint of weakness, all of that anger slips away and he becomes that boy again--afraid and weak and alone
In his fear, he takes plants. He strips them of their independence and will, denying them their souls. Again, he uses the bodies of his siblings against their will. He displays their corpses to keep him angry instead of putting them to rest. He kills and breaks apart the body of his sister so that he doesn’t have to die, so that he can be reborn. He willfully denies the thoughts, dreams, and pains of his sisters and instead absorbs them, impregnates them, tries to kill them in the “right” way
In his fear, he drove humanity into hurting his kind more. He forced their hand into injuring and killing more plants than they’d ever dreamed of harming. He’s the one that put Vash into a constant position where he’s gaining mountains of scars. (His brother who, on the opposite end of the spectrum, has let the cycle of abuse continue while using himself as a shield instead of breaking free from the pattern.) He uses and discards the humans near him no matter the kindness and devotion they shows him
The same behavior Knives shows everybody and everything else
He’s awful. Absolutely sick and perverted and so stuck in his own mind that all he does is hurt and hurt and hurt
And yet
I get it. I’ve been traumatized to the point where all I want to do is cause pain in return. To feel that justice can exist and will come to pass, no matter the cost. To be so afraid that anger is the only safe emotion you can cling to. It’s what makes him one of the most compelling antagonists I’ve ever seen. Kudos to Nightow for fucking me up about Knives and his pain more by the day, honestly
*Except for ‘98 Knives lmao, that man is fabulously unhinged and overly dramatic about everything and I love him for it
#Trigun#Trigun Maximum#Trigun Stampede#Tristamp#Trimax#Trigun Meta#My Trigun Meta#Long Post#I did NOT intend for this to be so long#Maybe a quarter of this length at MOST#Ohhhh this didn't show up in the tag I'M VERY ANGY
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Alright, here's what we're going with. I'll polish all this later.
First, it's important to know that Meket tends to be matrilineal + matrilocal (except for the oldest son), but it tends to be sons, specifically nephews, who inherit. So say you have a nobleman. It is not his son who inherits but his nephew, specifically his oldest sister's son. If he has no nephews, then it goes to his oldest sister; if he has no sisters, maternal aunts will be favored, although his children will have a stronger case for inheritance if they choose to pursue it.
To put the matter as simply and concisely as possible, it is traditionally women who own land and through whom descent is traced. The oldest son is traditionally the executor and guardian of the family estate. The land belongs to the sister; the son administers it. Younger sons typically move in with their wife's family when they marry, but the eldest son will remain with his family. This does affect his marriage prospects; he usually marries someone who is a younger sister not expecting to inherit much.
Men and women do both own property, though. When couples marry, their assets remain separate. They may administer their affairs as they see fit, but it's not the norm for all their assets to merge or for one's property to automatically become the property of the other. The wife's property typically passes to their children while the husband's typically passes to his nieces / nephews.
There's always nuance when looking at different time periods, different social classes, different regions, but I'm already very off topic. The small details of inheritance and property rights are a discussion for another time.
What's important is that, in roughly 1368 DR, Serot had been reincarnated as Neheb: the son and only child of the reigning monarch. As such, he would never inherit. This was never an issue for him. However, much of the rest of the continent is patrilineal + patrilocal and practices a patrilineal inheritance. In short, sons inherit from fathers. Certainly this is the case for the Grand Caliphs. This is relevant for a handful of reasons:
Grand Caliph Khalil al-Assad al-Zahir believed a strong Grand Caliph was necessary and that Zakhara should be unified.
Meket is one of only a few places that does not owe allegiance to the Grand Caliph.
The two groups have warred in the past.
Makin al-Mutrattab, the Grand Caliph's chancellor + cousin + closest friend, was possessed by an agent of the Yikarian Empire with the intent of infiltrating + destabilizing the court. This has gone unnoticed.
Meket has also warred with the Yikarian Empire.
The Grand Caliph has only two children as of 1367: daughters Janya and Dalia.
The plan was simple. Makin, or rather the entity possessing him, proposed they sow discord in the Meketi royal family. They planned to manipulate Neheb into marrying one of the Caliph's daughters and challenging his cousin's right to the throne. But, there was no ambition, discontent, or discord upon which they might prey. He could have been talked into a political marriage with one of the Caliph's daughters, but he had no desire to rule, let alone war with his kin.
The more this conspiracy failed, however, the harder it tried to succeed. Meket was experiencing civil unrest during this period exacerbated by this conspiracy which took every opportunity to destabilize the country. The Spellplague hitting them like a freight train in 1385 DR made matters worse. All of this enabled the conspiracy to drive a wedge between Neheb and his family, causing him to pull away from public matters as well. He claimed illness and isolated himself.
Then it became known that he was a reincarnation of Serot and that the only way to activate the failsafes Serot has built was for him to sacrifice his life as Serot had. An unforeseen complication when those failsafes were built over a millennium prior. Neheb ultimately agreed. This sealed the necropoleis until the end of the Spellplague and overall protected the land from the worst of its ravages, but the damage done to the ruling family was irreversible.
Their popularity had been in decline for some time, again exacerbated by outside forces. When it came out Neheb was an incarnation of the Saint Eternal, people accused the Monarch of knowing all along and simply allowing the country to suffer. Some even whispered the Monarch / the royal family was the cause of the Spellplague; that Serot had been reborn into their line to lead back on the proper path but they'd been heedless of this gift, alienated him, and so brought divine retribution upon the whole country. Worst of all was the sacrifice itself.
Neheb had not wanted to die. He had been no more than twenty at the time. He had estranged himself from family and friends, gave up all he could, isolated himself to preserve peace with his kin and thus within his home. He loved his family. He loved his home. But, he did not want to die. He begged the Anactaci, the priesthood, the court, his family to find another way. He begged the Monarch as their subject, and he begged the Monarch as their son. But, the devastation was worsening; the death toll was mounting. There was no other way, they insisted. They would not find one in time.
They would not kill him. That would be barbaric. But if he should see fit to draw slit his throat and wash the land in the mercy of his blood, they would supply the knife. Neheb had to laugh.
In the end, he agreed. Really it was more resignation. He wanted to be remembered as someone who died with dignity, who had sacrificed his very life for his home. He would not be remembered as a ram dragged to slaughter. He was adored and honored for this. His family, the priesthood, the Anactaci less so. The grief and shame sent the Monarch spiraling as well as tearing the family apart. The people of Meket, already dissatisfied with their rule, turned on them within a handful of years. The following coup was not the blood bath their neighbors had hoped, however. There was no civil war, only a forced abdication to a unanimously chosen noble.
Now how does all of this link to Mystic Carrion? Meket was far from unknown on the continent of Faerûn, but tales of what happened during the Spellplague ensured they were on everyone’s lips. Someone thought to take advantage of Serot’s Neheb’s bond with Refhremmit for their own purposes. I have not decided exactly who. End result is this person went to great pains to steal Neheb’s mummy and canopic jars. They used these to resurrect him as a mummy lord, but they proved incapable of controlling him. His bond with Refhremmit makes him atypical.
On top of that, they were only able to snatch and corrupt fragments of his soul. The rest continued to be reincarnated. Always drawn toward Mystic Carrion, always meeting a tragic end, but reincarnated nevertheless. Meanwhile Mystic Carrion remembers little of his life. He carries mainly impressions of Neheb’s darkest moments further amplified by the corruption necessary to make a mummy lord. As Mystic Carrion’s power grows, the more of his soul is corrupted, and the more of Serot / Neheb is lost. Refhremmit is negatively impacted as well. One more reason to bring Serot back as a reborn than reincarnate again and one more reason to bring him back in Faerûn rather than Zakhara. I’ll decide on his options when confronting Carrion later but here’s to facing off against the embodiment of some of your traumas.
#note to self#I did NOT intend for this to be so long#it was just supposed to be a collection of notes for me to build on later#joke’s on me#EDIT: I rewrote the Mystic Carrion plotline but the Neheb stff still applies
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first meeting, but make it Sauron's perspective The Rings of Power 2.01 "Elven Kings Under the Sky"
#the rings of power#tropedit#rings of power#galadriel#sauron#halbrand#ropedit#tolkienedit#middle earth#s2#trop#haladriel#saurondriel#2x01#*mine#ch: halbrand#sauron x galadriel#galadriel x halbrand#requested by anon#ch: galadriel#ch: sauron#i did not intend for this to be so long my bad#gonna make a shorter one too lol
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Maybe a Bit High (DpxDC)
Really, Danny shouldn't have been there. He had so many other things he should be doing. He wasn't even supposed to in Gotham!
Danny wished he could be safely tucked in bed right now. Or having another fight with his mom. Or dealing with another one of Sam and Tucker's squabbles.
Truly, anything was better than this. Then, being on the run, in a completely different state. Not recognizing anything anywhere and having to somehow find his dad somewhere in this city.
So yes, with Danny's luck, he had assumed the commotion by the docks had something to do with his search.
And of course, with Danny's luck, it had absolutely nothing to do with him.
Maybe things got a little out of hand. Really, Danny wasn't equipped to deal with a drug bust. His experience with crime tends to be of the ghostly nature.
Really, how do people even do these without getting a little bit high?
Was he even high? Could halfas get high? Was the powder he accidentally ingested the drugs? The one he got a giant mouthful of? Or was it the strange purplish liquid that coated like half his body?
Really, Danny wasn't in the frame of mind to try and figure all that out. It sounded more like a Jazz and Sam question.
God, Sam was going to be so bummed out for missing out on Danny's first trip. Not that Danny could even tell her what drugs these were...
Maybe he should go to a hospital?
Or maybe he should mess with this crane. Like, it looks fun! Wait, but people aren't supposed to use heavy machinery when high...
It's fine... probably. It's not like Danny was that high. Right?
Yea, he's fine. Besides, he's a halfa! He's like ninety percent sure he couldn't even get high. And Tucker would be so on board with his idea.
Hold on, the storage units look more fun. Danny couldn't help wanting to find out what was hiding behind all those walls.
Oh, but the sky looks so pretty from here! Even with the city lights and the light smog, Danny could make out the twinkling stars.
Maybe he should go for a fly. Even if he was high, technically, that would be fine, right? Flying is like walking for him. And it's not illegal to walk high! Just to be high...
Okay, okay, a flight it is. It'll atleast keep him away from civilians, and then he'll find his dad. Yes, Danny still needed to do that.
He couldn't lose his objective. He just needed to take a breather, and then track down his dad. Track him down somewhere in this large, bustling city.
It'll be fine, totally fine. Danny was totally not panicking. His current trip was truly not going downhill.
Was he forgetting to breathe? Wait, no, Danny was still Phantom. He didn't need to breathe, he's fine. It's fine...
Unless it wasn't. What if it was all in Danny's head? What if all this halfa stuff was all just a part of his really weird trip? What if he tries to fly and just ends up drowning in the river?
Okay, okay. Focus Danny, focus. He just needed to find his dad. That's it. His dad would know what to do. His dad could fix this.
Oh, and there he is! It was a little hard for Danny to focus his vision, but he knew the silhouette anywhere! It had to be his dad! Jack has such a distinct shadow!
Danny wasn't sure if he called out Dad or not. He also wasn't sure when he had decided to move. Did he fly or did he run?
It didn't matter. His dad knew, anyways. All Danny was focused on was the feeling of hugging his dad again...
And the strange armor his dad was wearing? It must have been something Jack rigged up to protect himself during these dire times...
But god, Danny couldn't tear his focus away from the texture of it under his fingers. Zeroing in on that alone.
It's fine. Even if he was high, Danny could just explain it to Jack. His dad would understand! Danny was just trying to be a good hero. It's not like he was doing drugs for fun!
Besides, being curled up on his dad's shoulders feels too good right now. Whatever that pointy thing on Jack's head was wasn't a big deal. It was something a little intangiblity could fix!
#dc x dp#dp x dc au#dp crossover#dp x dc crossover#dp x dc prompt#dp x dc#dpxdc#batman#dcxdp#dc comics#dc universe#I don't think I should be writing while sleep deprived and in a pain haze#but I saw a post (and lost it so if anyone knows what I'm talking about lemme know) where Danny calls Bats Dad#and everyone thinking “yea that checks out”#this came out more all over the place than I intended#but I guess it works out with our little guy being high#man I don't even know what this is#did you know going too long without sleep can affect your body in the same way being drunk can?
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Can't tell or won't tell? Sooner or later, you'll have to tell me everything anyway. You can't hide anything from me.
Sailub Hemmawich as OAB and Pon Thanapon as PLAWAN THIS LOVE DOESN'T HAVE LONG BEANS (2024)
#this love doesn't have long beans#oabplawan#oab x plawan#sailub hemmawich#pon thanapon#sailubpon#userspicy#userrlaura#rintrack#userbon#user25shades#esmetracks#userlinnea#userrlana#userpharawee#raemakes#s:tldhlb#this scene is truly THE SCENE™#so it needed its own set#and yes i did it#i put the clips in order the way the ql gods intended
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wake up babe new best friends dropped
#across the spiderverse#hobie brown#pavitr prabhakar#spider punk#spider-man#miles morales#across the spiderverse spoilers#fanart#my draws#this took..............way too long. i did not intend for this to be such a big post lol#i think hobie/spider punk is my new fav thing to draw hes sooo much fun#anyways theyre my faaavesss i love them both so much ;w;
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sticker of shame on top of my head that says "i turn everything i love into a monster hunter au". some boys that bite just dropped
#i think this is the first time ive drawn what is intended to be zack fair with like something close to his canon design#every other time it's been the very specific self indulgent version of zack i like to draw. oups#zack fair#cloud strife#ff7#monster hunter#mortifying ordeal of tagging btw. like look at this random shit i doodled. sorry#also they did not Just drop. ive had this cooking for a little too long i just want to figure out how to structure things....#i promise cloud is actually weirder than he looks and also teheres a lore reason why they didnt get cool ears#sorry if this is all this blog becomes . i still need to redo it so bad#ff7 monhun au
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The possible explanations for why the fuck Barry could've felt the need to open that scene with "are you afraid?" have been analyzed by this fandom for basically ever since the Red Robe identity reveal, and a lot of people have brought up good theories that I've adopted bits and pieces of from each. But one thing that I haven't actually seen proposed as a factor is this:
Talking to Tres Horny Boys through the facade of the faceless "Red Robe" might've just been Barry's backup plan. Plan A was, quite possibly, to sneak Junior's ichor out of Lucretia's private quarters, be able to actually inoculate THB, and actually have them recognize him. (A proper reunion, with no cryptic warnings. With no dancing around static — just Barry and Tres Horny Boys, actually trusting each other innately.)
Why do I think this is plausible? Let me clarify the timeline a little: at the start of the Petals arc, before THB leave the Bureau, all is normal with their soon to be ex-roommate Pringles/Robbie (Ep. 18). Upon return, THB are informed that at some point during their (overnight, so 24 hour-ish?) absence, Pringles was thrown in the brig (Ep. 28).
It's eventually revealed by Pringles and Barry, in The Suffering Game and Reunion Tour respectively, that Barry possessed Pringles to do "reconnaissance" on the Bureau, specifically on where to find the second Voidfish (ie, Lucretia's private office, which is where Pringles "woke up" and was "arrested summarily").
I will note that Barry describes this as just recon — implying information gathering, and not necessarily a Voidfish ichor heist. However, this was an explanation he gave through a recorded message in the coin, where he was likely choosing his words carefully to confuse THB the least amount possible. And moreover... I just find it hard to believe that Barry wouldn't let himself hope, leading up to and during this infiltration, that he could make it out with the ichor he so desperately needed.
After all, Barry may be Going Through It during the podcast, but he definitely knows that as much as he needs information, it's going to be a lot harder to pull off his eventual heist if Lucretia catches him in the act, and winds up knowing that he has that information. Barry also chose to make his infiltration attempt while the Bureau was distracted, monitoring the Gaia Sash — in a lot of ways, this might've seemed like not just his first chance at the ichor, but also his best chance at it.
Barry's both an incredibly determined and opportunistic, calculating guy. I don't think Barry would've left Pringles' body unless/until he was absolutely cornered; no hope left of getting out with the ichor this time. He wouldn't pass up a chance to restore his family's memories — because of his deep, deep emotional and practical stakes in restoring those memories, first and foremost — but he even feels kinda bad about possessing Pringles (calling it "unfortunate collateral damage"), and would certainly prefer for his unsavory tactics to be, you know, worth it.
So when Barry fails? When he comes away from his mission he's no doubt been planning for weeks, waiting intently and single-mindedly for his chance with the right Relic-based distraction — and it turns out he has information, but no ichor, to show for it? When he fails, Barry's left on the back foot.
He'd dared to hope it might turn out better than this. He'd dared to hope this might be a turning point, and the world might remain in danger, but at least he'd have his family back. He'd dared to hope he might be able to speak to them, in his right mind, with his memories, and be recognized for the first time in a decade.
So when none of that comes to fruition? When he knows his boys won't recognize him yet, no matter what he does? Yet he still needs them on his side? He still needs them to be prepared for the horrors coming?
Well, he just fucking improvises.
"Are you afraid?"
#taz#taz balance#taz balance spoilers#barry bluejeans#taz meta#this is actually a conclusion i reached while working on a fic recently!#but this topic is buried right in the middle of mostly non-barry pov; so it deserved its own post for visibility#disclaimer that i don't actually think griffin intended this explicitly - but i think it's a very powerful read on barry's character#and writing-wise barry's motivations were spun together on the fly so much anyways that i think i'm allowed to extrapolate#what was griffin doing if not extrapolating from his own previous writing choices anyways? (i'm so glad he did. i love barry)#long post
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Trying out a post for Repostober!! and idea by @marlowedobbeart!!
The top one was an old FFXV post I'm honestly still quite proud of! The second image is actually one I never got around to posting. I thought it needed more work/that it wasn't good enough. Looking at it now tho I think it looks fine aldskfjLSKDJGSD. So sharing it now :D -NO ROMANCE INCLUDED-
#Repostober#Final Fantasy xv#ffxv#ff15#final fantasy 15#prompto argentum#noctis lucis caelum#ignis scientia#gladiolus amicitia#isa's fanart#insertsomthinawesome#October2023#Art created in like 2019 or 2020 not sure which#I need to replay this game so bad. its been so long alskdfjLKSDJSGD#I'M SO BUSY RN MAN#Its kinda nice to be able to look back on these and not care about the flaws :D Gives me some hope for the perfectionism I struggle with no#and I really do think these are both neat#I was originally intending to at least one more with the boys in the Ceremonial uniforms#alas. it never happened#but i'm still glad for what i did :)#Maybe if I get in a mood I'll redraw them all.#but honestly i have a long list right now lasjdFLKSJDFLKJSDG#I don't think I ever posted the original version here? I could be wrong and if so oh well SDLKFJSDLKFJSLDG
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There is currently a rather large discussion ongoing about the RW fandom behavior, drama, etc. I am not going to talk about the specifics of whats happened for a number of reasons. But what I do want to say is that if at any point you've harassed people over it, whether that be through anon asks or public posts- you did nothing but damage the ability for people to correctly process what is happening. You contributed nothing but harm to an already delicate situation. It does not matter what "side" you were on and I will not tolerate further interaction with me or my work if I found out you did such. If you let your personal hate for anyone boil over into threats, wishes for long term harm and petty comments meant to contribute nothing but slander or mental distress for the individuals involved who were already distressed (or acting irrationally) you did nothing but make it harder for people to process their emotions, thoughts and behaviors constructively. Regardless of who you think was in the right, who fucked up, whatever. It doesn't matter if they deserved it, or earned it, or if its an eye for an eye. Its difficult enough as it is to think clearly when presented with any kind of stressful situation and heckling people does nothing but make it worse and harder for them to explain themself in any capacity. I don't want you anywhere near me if you think that is an acceptable way to act.
#Please do not ask for me details- I am not involved#I am not the person to ask.#I very intentionally stay out of wider fandom circles because i want to keep enjoying things i like (lol)#But i have seen some absolutely vile behavior both openly and on alts or anon#even from the 'anti harassment' side because of course they also just want a justified target#to hurt or slander but this time under the guise of 'well they did it first!'#Its a pathetic display on all sides in terms of behavior long before for you even try picking a part who fucked up and where#and its not surprising that many artists have felt uncomfortable with it long before it boiled over into this. It would have been a problem#even if there had never been an actual incident because people were simply behaving in uncomfortable and offputting ways in regards to how#they treated creators here. fandom has a problem in general with that but it was particularly public and open#Anyway Im not leaving the fandom or anything im comfortably on the fringes of it for a reason and dont intend on digging in any further.#But this issue has been cooking for months for frankly and with this its gotten even more openly hostile. And yes- even those#'anti harassment' types are very happy to harass when they have their own reason for it. so im not giving them an inch#But beyond that and this particular incident people have just been way too comfortable being cruel openly#and letting their personal dislike of things bleed into how they act.#Also one more thing: If an artist deletes or leaves and takes their art with them the bear minimum of respect is to honor that choice#save what you want when its there and keep it but if they want their work gone than god respect that dont set up entire archives#for shit people choose to wipe. If they delete it that should be honored no matter how you feel about it#t.extpost
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part 3, they’re back to being silly idiots
(part 1) (part 2)
#ah the mind reading crystal saga#i did Not intend to make multiple parts but whatever people enjoyed it so i kept going#they’re.so stupid i hate these guys#(affectionate)#the tone shift between each part’s been like 📈📉📈#gravity falls#stanford pines#stanley pines#gravity falls fanart#my art#rystiart#the stwins just can’t stay emotionally vulnerable for long
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"To live a life of regrets and remorse... that's not what I teach my students."
1. ada limón 3. ve schwab 5. may sarton 6. haruki murakami 7, 10, 14. mary oliver 19. nikki giovanni 20. mary oliver 22. unknown
#i did not cut it in half in fact i added more I WILL MAKE A TRULY MUSHY WEB WEAVE IN THE FUTURE#listen listen. it's about taking loss and crossing out the s's and making the word love instead#bnha#aizawa shouta#mha#bnha web weave#mha web weave#shouta aizawa#shota aizawa#my hero academia#web weaving#compilation#my webweaving#long post#trying to remember how i tagged these like#i'm sorry it's apparently sadder than i intended but i liked the beginning so much i kept it#i will make a truly warm and fuzzy one some day#q
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Fanfiction is so goated actually
No monetary incentive, just writing in one's free time. Some incentive for like kudos and comments, because who doesn't want to hear that someone else enjoyed what they wrote. Just writing a story that is good and/or enjoyable, no real-life pressure to keep it going because god forbid you and other people are depending on it financially.
Writing a story because you want to write a good story, so you can write what they want the way you want, at a pace that is realistic for you, with exactly the plot pacing you want there to be.
#c*rny posts#thinking about this after the my h*ro academia leaks lmao#i have read barely a few chapters of the manga and then kept up with it through tumblr osmosis#i was interested in how its gonna end#and after reading the leaks i was like 'well its up to the fanfic writers to write a good ending now'#cause. it was kind of underwhelming. like some stuff made sense and some things were just done badly#which is realistic considering h*rikoshi is apparently burned out to hell#and i was thinking. man. if i had to write AND illustrate a story for like ten years straight. because its my bread and butter#and there are other people depending on the story doing well to make money#it would 100% get to me. i would rather end it all lmao#which is why i think fanfic is so great#just writing a story that you want. that makes sense to you. that has elements you want. that is exactly as long as you want.#and there isnt even a possibility of really monetizing it so there is no drive to make is 'succeed' or make it as long as possible#this could be applied to just writing a 'regular' story also that is not intended for publishing#also kinda makes me think about h*ikyuu#i kinda do feel the timeskip and the ending were a bit rushed#but like. if it was me. i would have rushed it too lmao#after so many years of working on one thing and one thing only i would have been so done. just so done#and h*ikyuu ending to me wasnt even bad. it was good with good resolution of everything. with characters evolving and achieving their dreams#not necessarily volleyball related (like tenma)#the progress made realistic sense#but it did feel a bit rushed#anyway#fanfic and writing for yourself is great#and manga authors face way too much pressure from people dependent on them. from fans. even from society in general
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thinking about how essentially every relationship john locke formed in the early seasons of lost has completely disintegrated by the time of his death.
of course there's his relationship with jack, which starts tense but manageable and culminates in jack pointing a gun at john's head and pulling the trigger. but even his smaller, less narratively prominent relationships either implode or drift apart. he bonds with walt in season one but then walt leaves the island, which is itself a severing of their bond since it was mainly based on being the only two people who wanted to stay. still, he goes and visits walt off the island so this is probably john's most successful relationship. I dont think i need to explain how he fucked up with boone, "the sacrifice that the island demanded." charlie viewed john as a mentor and claimed to trust him more than anyone on the island, but after the events of fire and water, that trust is destroyed and charlie despises him. at the same time we get john bonding with claire and having a pseudo-paternal dynamic with her, but their closeness basically drops off the face of the earth as he gets less and less involved with the other survivors.
his arc in the series is essentially a gradual distancing from everyone around him. it starts when he abandons hunting (providing for the others) in favor of trying to get the hatch open (it's extremely clear his primary motive isn't any survival applications but getting answers to the mystery). when they do open the hatch, he spends more and more time inside, underground, cut off from other people. he spends more and more time interacting with ben, a human mystery box that he's obsessed with cracking even if it gets him killed. he follows the proverbial white rabbit deeper down the hole and leaves his connection to humanity behind. the island and its mysteries become more important to john than anything or anyone else.
then in season three we get him claiming to go undercover with the others only to unceremoniously tell sawyer that he's actually going to join them. and it doesn't feel shocking, it feels inevitable. because john has spent the entire series becoming less and less connected with the people he arrived with. in that sense he actually makes a fascinating foil to juliet, who is introduced as one of the others and yet never really fits, she's increasingly sympathetic and kind in a way the rest of them aren't, her redemption arc feels so natural that she actually starts referring to her old people as "the others" like she's been one of the crash survivors from the beginning. her and john basically have inverse arcs, which is probably accidental but very neat.
in season five john tries to convince everyone to go back to the island, and fails spectacularly. and of course he does, because he was so consumed by obsession that he stopped maintaining his relationships, and in many cases actively alienated people (this is also basically what happened with helen) and now he can't wrap his head around why they're all so hostile to him. i am forever obsessed with the scene where he confronts kate and she brutally calls him out for wanting to return to the island because he doesn't love anyone. it actually struck me on rewatch how well the two of them got along in season one, and how badly their relationship has degraded by this point. john repeatedly casts aside interpersonal relationships in favor of his obsession with destiny, so when said destiny actually involves persuading the people he once shunned, he's at a loss. this is because john treats purpose as a supplement for connection, destiny as an alternative to love.
as an aside, this aspect of john's character kinda ties into my opinion that several lost characters can be read as allegorically neurdivergent under a certain lens. i know this was absolutely not intended, but as an adhd former gifted kid who struggles socially, there is something uncomfortably familiar about a character who allows their relationships to burn around them because of a single-minded obsession, especially as a result of being promised the fickle status of "special."
tl/dr: john locke is a doomed idiot and i love him
#i swear i did not intend for this post to get so long#i could've said even more#like how he latches on to the concept of destiny because it both vindicates his own suffering and exempts him from needing love/affection#because he needing those things is what made john keep returning to his father and he never wants to feel vulnerable like that again#if you never get attached to anyone then they can never leave you etc.#unfortunately destiny is also. a fickle bitch#ARGHHHH I NEED TO WRITE AN ESSAY#i have so many thoughts and so little time/motivation to write#i still need to finish my fic it's so close to being done#but productivity abandons me#just like destiny....#sorry#john locke#lost#lost 2004#lost abc#lost tv show#lost tv series#ben linus#jack shephard#charlie pace#boone carlyle#claire littleton#kate austen#juliet burke#character analysis#ig?#mini essay#walt lloyd#my silly rambles
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#snailblings#grian#geminitay#hermitcraft#mcyt#hermitcraft s10#hermitcraft season 10#hermitcraft smp#Ive meant to post these for so long and i never did#but i found them both today#i got them from a sticker wall like eight months ago#and ive intended to post them for so long#and never did#so HERE#hermitblr#TAKE THEM :D
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i saw a fanart on pinterest when i decided to change my entire phone theme and i can’t get it out of my head.
the art was just after the zuko and ozai agni kai. zuko was knocked out, iroh was getting ready to take him and leave, and azula just came in and said “i took care of it”. if anyone knows what i’m talking about and has it saved or knows the og artist pls lmk!!
anyways. it got me thinking about an expansion of this au (that i will never write because i have neither the patience nor the time to do that) that (unsurprisingly) results in disasterlesbian!azula
so hear me out on this one. there would need to be an entire plot. like. what’s aang going to do??
azula killed ozai by electrocuting him. it’s the first time she discovers her lightning bending. it looks like he had a heart attack in his sleep. (don’t get too wrapped up in the details. azula’s a prodigy she can be overpowered for a bit)
why did she kill her dad? she’ll swear up and down that it was because “he really should have picked on someone with a better fighting ability than zuzu. honestly, it’s stupid he didn’t lose his honor after frying my pathetic firebender of a brother to a crisp.” it’s actually because she kind of sort of loves zuko. she will NEVER admit that.
iroh becomes fire lord, albeit a bit reluctantly. he spends the next three years attempting to end the war, stop the spread of propaganda in the fire nation, and deal with his niece and nephew bickering all the time.
so aang comes out of the iceberg. meets katara and sokka. katara convinces him to take her to the north pole because he’s the avatar, he still should probably master all four elements war or not. all of the traveling is the same (except zuko chasing them) until they get to omashu and king bumi is like “what’s up my dude, welcome back. we’re recovering from a war, so you should probably learn politics and how to not offend anyone while you master the elements!!”
(“there was a WAR?!?!!!” -aang, probably)
so now aang does a deep dive into all of the nation’s politics while also training. katara doesn’t really attend his meetings, but sokka’s a total nerd and is sat for every single one. first is waterbending at the north pole. insert canon things but add in a meeting with arnook.
this is where we introduce the REAL enemy, because the enemy can’t be the gaang attempting to learn international law at 12, 14, and 15 years old. during the full moon someone assassinates the moon spirit! (sorry yue, i love you but you still die in this au…)
so after mastering waterbending the gaang heads to the earth kingdom. they meet toph and she joins. they head to ba sing se, which, after trying to talk politics with the king, they realize is still completely unaware of the war. while in the earth kingdom, we get a name for the big bad. the dai li. after realizing that ba sing se is basically a military dictatorship, the gaang escapes and head to the fire nation.
that’s where zuko, azula, and iroh get reintroduced. aang and sokka consistently come back from meetings with the royals complaining about “oh my god, the princess is such a bitch. seriously, how is she allowed to help run this country??”
katara eventually goes with the boys to a meeting to get them to shut up. toph makes fun of her for being a people pleaser, but katara will do literally anything to get her brother and best friend to stop yapping about the same topic at her every. single. day.
azula (disaster lesbian) doesn’t say a single word throughout the entire meeting. sokka and aang walk out feeling like they were in the twilight zone. katara shows up to more and more meetings. why? definitely not cause the princess is sort of kind of somewhat cute intriguing.
insert azula’s gay awakening crisis here. she eventually starts talking at the meetings, but she’s only ever nice to katara lmao. katara does realize that azula’s an actual genius, though. she decides that the two of them could probably like, take over the entirety of ba sing se in a day if they tried hard enough. but of course that is purely hypothetical.
so one day a meeting gets interrupted by a literal dai li assassin trying to kill aang. he barely escapes the resulting fight.
so the dai li send more assassins. and even more assassins. until finally zuko gets fed up and is just like “alright i’m tired of dealing with these guys. can we please go kick their leader’s ass??”
that is how azula and zuko end up joining the gaang. and how azula can eventually lay siege over ba sing se (even if she reluctantly gives it back when katara tells her to).
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other misc key points:
- azula and katara get together right before they fight with long feng. it happens cause katara notices that azula is nervous (nobody else would be able to tell) and so she’s like “zula. you’ve got this. we’ve got this” and kisses her lmao
- toph and azula are best friends, to katara’s obvious dismay
- the second azula calls zuko “zuzu” in front of sokka he immediately starts rolling on the floor and laughing. katara has to make sure his lungs are okay afterwards
- zuko: “im literally not gay??” sokka: “yeah, and toph can see”
- toph regularly comes back to wherever the gaang is staying with bags of money. she knows how to find every single illegal fighting ring in the world.
- this is a loooooong term plot. since there’s no reason to worry about the comet it can take place over many years. which also means that katara and azula literally pine for each other until they’re like 20 and everyone around them, especially (and surprisingly) aang, is like “oh my god make it stop”
#atla#avatar the last airbender#katara#azula#azutara#kazula#sokka#toph beifong#zuko#zukka#i did not intend for this post to be so long#i’m sorry#i totally took like 45 minutes to type all this out oops
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