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black-suns-rim · 6 months ago
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I am the Lorax, I speak for the trees
draw Resh oiled up or I’m snatching ur knees
/j/silly
I am gonna go die in a corner now
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WHY DID I COMMIT SO HARD TO THIS?! IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A SHITPOST 😂😭
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thrucrax · 10 days ago
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the veilguard curse.....i just want to play older bioware games; ALSO small rant where i really started losing hope in the story
I HATE GAMES....that make you go through a dialogue tree only to leave you with only ONE option to choose. i am thinking of one conversation with solas where rook's final and only option of dialogue is "I will do whatever it takes" or whatever and UGHHHH
I HATE THAT especially when i'm trying to run a character that would NEVER say that???
ugh i love roleplay games that make you play a character you didn't at all make /sarcasm
this is just an excuse to make a post about how rambert would never "do whatever it takes", he won't lie even to save face or earn trust.
#OOC.#thinking of ME...the loyalty missions that actually had choices in them!!!! AAAAAA#datv spoilers#dav spoilers#anyway im pushing myself to finish it; and i THINK? im almost to the 3/4 or halfway point idk its hard to tell with this game#but i already am struggling to see what replay stuff i could do if i chose to go back through the game.#the only time so far a choice has felt like...impactful is the the treviso and minrathos choice and that was like 10+ hours ago for me#AND I WANT TO EXPLODE#i hate games that are like 'here's an option for what your character will say' and you pick it and its not what the option was at all (:#anyway veilguard makes me thankful for the cheaper games out there and i pray for EAs downfall#tbd#veilguard critical#dragon age critical#UGHHH i dread opening up veilguard just to finish it cause#yippe ill have one quest then get 10 new quests from my companions and do them and have shallow conversations with no effect to the story a#AAAAAAAA#i just struggle with this cause this is the first game i bought at the full $70 price#and it REALLY feels like such a waste of my money that should have been saved and spent on bills but thats on me#i shouldve vetted the game more but the combat looked fun and people were seemingly only hating on the diversity of characters#but now playing it i feel like i'm beta testing a game that'll be ready in another year#and damn is it a good game in beta! the combat isn't too bad. it removed a part of how dragon age combat used to function though so#thankfully i enjoy Mass effect's style of combat or this would be different.
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pianokantzart · 1 month ago
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This time around I'm using the Quick Leveling bonus first to see how far that gets me.
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woodchipp · 9 months ago
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I've seen some OMORI fans talk about the "Sunny and Mari's parents were abusive" fanon and this discussion really fascinates me because like. They were certainly not abusive in the game proper because the story doesn't care about Sunny's family enough to elaborate on what kind of people his mom and dad were. I can also agree that a LOT of stories tend to make the main characters' parents abusive as a quick and convenient way to explain their issues, so it's an overused cliche by now.
At the same time, however, as overused as it may be, abusive parents still are quite a solid reason for a kid to end up with significant mental issues. And what OMORI's story lacks is just that - a solid reason why Sunny and Mari were the way they were. Trust me, you don't grow up with low self-esteem or into an overly uptight perfectionist by eating watermelon on the beach, building a treehouse and partying at your besties' birthdays lmao
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katyspersonal · 1 month ago
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I've had a strong crying fit and aggressive paranoia episode for the first time in a very long while, and that same night I've saw an elaborate dream about him. Attracted to my misery like a moth to a flame, isn't he?
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lady-grinning · 5 months ago
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I had a first driving lesson and it was.. bad.
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liverpool-enjoyer · 1 year ago
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the wasted potential feelings are hitting SO ESPECIALLY hard tonight i need to go to sleep
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grmpgm · 8 months ago
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ok executive dysfunction is kind of ruining my life actually
#i have an incredibly time-consuming project i NEED to finish and i genuinely don’t know if i can#i’ve started which is good but i’m horrifically behind where i need to be and i’m just so overwhelmed#i technically have enough time to finish it i think? but it’s my final project so i literally cannot miss this deadline#my professor is really cool + likes me but it’s already been so long w/out me bringing it up#and wtf am i supposed to say? yeah. i WANTED to work on it. i just chose not to????? like wtf#it’s just so humiliating and i’m so behind i don’t know wtf i’m gonna do#it’s worse bc it’s an animation and it’s gg related and i really really wanted this to be good and i wanted things to be different this time#kind of funny bc i’m actually mid getting an adhd diagnosis rn but it’s just so fucking awful because i do this constantly#it fucking sucks so much i feel so helpless and i don’t know wtf is wrong with me. i’m so tired of letting everyone down constantly#it’s so bad rn i literally cannot do anything. it’s humiliating like WHY can’t i just be a functional normal person#it fucking SUCKS because i KNOW if i had any self control or work ethic whatsoever i could be really fucking successful but i don’t.#so i won’t be i guess.#and i KNOW it’s tied into a bunch of different stuff too but like gd i DO NOT care i just want to be functional#worst case scenario i have an A in the class so if i completely blow it i’ll at least pass? hopefully?#i might be able to talk my prof into an extended deadline but it’s so embarrassing bc i didn’t need one in the first place.#i have literally no excuses#it just makes me so upset because i just keep doing this over and over and i don’t know how to stop it or how to get better#and LOL sorry for posting this here i just feel weird talking to anyone personally about this (+ currently avoiding responding to messages!)#it’s just like. man if i can’t get a fucking grip i will literally waste my entire life. Oh Well! LOL
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God, how much salt can I have over a stupid manga ending and when does it end!?
(Or: I have finally processed that BNHA 431 exists and stopped laughing about it in favour of actual critical thinking)
(Or: or: A mid-ass manga ending that somehow pissed me off enough I can't stop thinking about it months after got more pages and none fo them amused me more at who knows O'Clock god I need a new hyperfixation)
"Turn off the cameras", "three endings", my ass, you just didn't want KT/IZ shippers breaking down on your doorstep.
Idk, I've laughed on the day because of how ridiculously worse it got (and maybe that was a cry for help because I don't want to be in the building anymore), but something really, really bitter in my mouth to hear the author said "nah this last chapter ain't mine, just an optional extra" after the ship wars over KT/IZ and HM/CK vs. IZ/CH makes me hit my head so much. Which isn't to say you shouldn't care about it, mourn it in disappointment, pop the bottles and celebrate, that's your right.
(Seriously, congratulations to IZ/CH fans, and for HM/CK fans, you deserved better.)
But I'm a little bit frustrated that the story could've chosen to do something for the villains, like bringing them closure, show they've been vindicated by the Saviour Trio, have something significant in the system change in their name... but apparently it was more compelling to make IZ/CH canon than actually do something about the LOV.
(because let's be honest entertaining 4-6yo children into playing with their Quirks for a month and dipping doesn't replace therapy or calling child services no matter how much Ochako wants to believe it somehow does.)
Idk, Himiko being used to reinforce a IZ/CH moment for the second time in a row (bury your gays for a F/M relationship), Touya getting one panel after getting his moment taken over by Endeavor in his last chapter ("Bad" Victim dies and dies painfully but who cares), Tomura's last words being used so Deku can get together with his highschool crush (how do I even qualify this one???), Spinner got an extra illustration of him sadly brainstorming a comic, Kurogiri, Mr. Compress and Twice got nothing... and AFO still gets to be right while none of the characters have a single cell of self-awareness the story has that this ending just doesn't connect to the rest of it all.
And I'm supposed to just. Care about whatever the fuck Deku's doing? Fine, here's my thoughts: I wished Katsuki and Kirishima crashed the car so I wouldn't see that empty shell of my former favourite character smiling at the end. Alas, my MC fully flatlined the second punching OFA to Tomura was a thing and I regret ignoring that sign. I tried to be nice before when I posted my thoughts for 430, hell, I held out hope for every epilogue chapter, but now, the hopeful superhero manga, you gave me this: REGRET FOR HAVING HOPES UNTIL THE END.
Like. I still prefer to ignore canon, especially after spending... What, May to August hoping the LoV would turn out to be miraculously alive, only to get that ripped to shreds and still be mad about it months after (and I've never been this fucking angry about a shitty finale). It's just irritating, these extra pages could've been a way to show the villains actually impacted the hero society.
And instead all we get is a job rejection treated like a breakup (seriously, why was it drawn like a rom-com shot?) and a push from the canonically bi character to the implied romantic F/M handshake that's gonna fuel the ship wars for the next month.
But I can at least say it was in character for 422-onwards Izuku. I mean, killing a guy and proceeding to never think about it is in character with making another one waste eight years for a dream that was never gonna happen.* I guess "not being the author's chapter" makes it alright for almost everyone else though. Whatever, at least Shoto got an actual good ending and is finally chilling in his life and Katsuki's getting an IRL statue since the manga wouldn't do it (I don't like the billboards existence, it literally caused half of everyone's problems in the story but if I'm supposed to care: Number 15, really man?) I guess.
*Seriously now, fandom's proving why a timeskip in BNHA was never a good idea: yes it's OOC Izuku would reject Katsuki like that... If he was the 16 year old Izuku who actually gave a fuck about saving people and being a hero no matter how. It picked realism over the themes, and this is the end result. It's not unnatural or anything, it's just what happens when you got a last-minute timeskip this huge: You miss on character development and it feels sudden, this is how we get the fandom in-fighting. In eight years he changed careers, if he doesn't want to be a full time hero, then he doesn't, and considering how the other option turned out for Tomura or Tenko or whatever you call him atp, I'm sorry but for me it's a relieved "thank fuck" which means the chances of another's guy getting killed by him are lower.
But hey. Who the fuck cares, Izuocha vs. Bakudeku is the most important part of this, right? I mean, I'd take it if the LoV was fine so I wouldn't feel rage at the main character, but again. Who cares?
... I swear I don't want to hate the ending but fuck's sake I just wanted it to mean something.
Whatever, the story's over, all of that is canon because unfortunately it's on the published paper for the entire audience to see, and yet, I still hate the ending, not gonna stop shipping the stuff I ship, and *grabbing Midoriya Izuku pre-412 by the neck* I've already drew the line at this. Life of denial where LoV is still alive, thriving and the beginning of a new era for a reformed hero society and they throw away the hero billboard concept as a whole and heroes are more akin to social workers and not the same celebrity cops from Chapter 1, instead of stopping at installing a one-month counseling program for kids and saying "FIXED". This chapter changes jackshit about it, if anything it reinforces that resolve.
With that said: "Story of how I become the world's greatest hero" Midoriya shut the fuck up and just pay up the money wasted by twenty people on that suit since you're not even gonna commit to it, you useless empty shell.
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balkanballad · 8 months ago
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had a day that made me think oh that was a bit heavy on the symbolism, wasn't it
#j. talks#went to visit my brother in his uni city and also connected it with an event there#I know this event because I went there once with a uni course that of course was with my fave former prof#so I know she's usually there but it's a bigger city and Friday and there are a lot of things at different locations#chances are not zero but I thought come on if anything it will be casual running into her#well as I was waiting with my brother and a whole crowd of people to be let in who do I hea#and see :))) yeah it's my fave prof. and I told my brother and he told me to go and say hi but there were so many people already talking to#her and also going there and saying hi so I simply couldn't. I literally froze our shoulders were nearly touching but she wasn't even facin#me and taking and I just followed my brother and he was like???#what was that?? and I didn't know. and he asked my why I looked so shameful out of all the emotions I chose shame#and I don't know. I don't know why shame I consuming me no matter where I go. but she was busy and imagine I go up and she has no idea who#am anymore. they had to burry me right there and then. so that was that :) now#the name of that street of the location burned into my memory as I was facing the wall well it's the name of [redacted] who I never really#get over and it's been 10 years now soon. and we had a similar experience in December :) where I would have loved nothing more really than#to talk (in Decembar definitely also other things that I miss on some days very much) but I barely got a wave#so yeah :) I actually had a great day but I am more than overwhelmed. I feel like crying and hiding#taurus season is apparently not here to save me? idk#is this all about wasted potential and shame stopping me? maybe. but how the fuck do I get it out of me
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knitmylove · 5 months ago
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gahhh
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bumpscosity · 3 months ago
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I started playing pokemon diamond! i've been meaning to play it for ages so im super excited to jump in and finally play a 2D pokemon game, though i dont know if i trust either of my rivals yet.... I've only ever played pokemon games where you get exp share pretty much at the start so remembering to individually level up my whole teams gonna be a bit of a learning curve but im always up for new challenges
Naming my starters has always been important to me, it took me a while to come up with her's but i ended up picking Mori, after the japanese word for forest and a city in hokkaido, the island that's the partial inspiration for sinnoh :)
#i looked it up and apparently you can get exp share after registering 40 species of pokemon but that's still wild to me#like i don't just get it at the beginning??? how am i supposed to evolve all my Guys?????#i don't know why i'm so weary about my rivals especially lucas but there's something about them that's screaming villain arc to me#i don't want any spoilers nobody spoil anything#also why do they show the gym leaders on your profile even before you fight them??? the surprise of what they look like has always been#rly fun to me. i only glanced at it bc i didn't want to be spoiled but even then i feel like ive Seen Too Much#i caught an abra too it's just not on my team and oh my god that took like a half hour#why do they only know teleportttttt i wasted so many pokeballs#circling back to the rivals i think what's throwing me off abt barry is that he chose the starter with the type advantage#idk if that was normal in the older games but in all the ones i've played your rival picks the weaker one. it's just sus idk#anywho it's 1 in the morning i'm gonna go to sleep but woowee i'll having fun#OH RIGHT I LOVE THE WAY YOU GET YOUR STARTER IN THIS GAME#like 'whoopsies i found you in a random guys briefcase! we're bonded for life now.'#i've already characterized Mori to she 100% is a spoiled little princess who#learned how to do big sopping wet sad puppy eyes to get what she wants#and id fall for it every time she'll still be my itty bitty baby even after she evolves#sassy speaks#pkmn#pkmn diamond
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poyitjdr · 3 months ago
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every breath you take is a victory
every time you buckle up in the car, or eat a good meal, or smile at the sun, or talk to your loved ones, or laugh
those are victories
those are all things that help you feel better and the fact that you do those things proves that some part of you knows that *you are worth taking care of* and that you deserve happiness
even in times where you fail to do those things, you still breathe. you’re still *alive*. you’re here because you haven’t given up yet. just because you’ve failed before doesn’t mean you’re a failure. it doesn’t mean you’ll never succeed.
you will always be worth taking care of
you will always be deserving of love
so just breathe
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this-isajokerjoke · 2 years ago
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pt 2 of dudley and his attempt at redemption
he goes to therapy after he moves out. he comes to the realization that he was part of the problem
he didn't talk to harry potter for years
he didn't talk much to his parents either
but he still talked to them
he got a girlfriend, broke up, got a girlfriend, broke up
he missed the way that sweet sweet girl made him feel
but that time in his life is over, even if that wonderful girl will always hold a place in his heart
but he meets someone through a friend
she's beautiful. she has short black hair and grayish brown eyes, she has a square frame and a long hooked nose
dudley’s stomach flips pleasantly
she is kind and funny, she loves hiking and moths and can't draw to save her life, she hates tea and coffee and fizzing drinks but loves water and milk and tomato juice, she likes dark chocolate and is allergic to bees, she has four sisters and a little brother who is in junior high, she is 5’10” and wears heels everywhere, making her even taller 
it took a while for him to ask her out, but he does, and she says yes (dudley is shocked, but his friend tells him he's selling himself short)
they go on one date, then another, and another 
the woman, asks him to make things offical. of course, he says yes
they get married after 4 years of dating
they have two little girls
and the first has unexplained disasters. she's wild and once dudley could have sworn he saw her flying. he has a funny feeling about that. 
when she was eleven, a letter came along with an old woman who explains that his daughter was a witch (dudley isn't surprised)
it took a lot of digging to find harry, but he was determined and even if it took him three months
his wife took it well, or as well as she could. she just started laughing when dudley admitted to being cousins with one of the most famous wizards of their century
meeting harry is weird. he's grown and has a beard and a leaner body, but he's the same height and still has scars littering his hands and arms. 
but harry is kind, and he helps him 
he explains things to dudley, gives him recommendations on books and tells him that he was apart of a war and the wizarding world is still healing, so to be careful
so when his eldest daughter is sent to hogwarts with harry’s children, she is ready
his youngest never receives a letter
but he makes sure to not favor either. he doesn't call anyone a freak or stupid or evil or unworthy of magic. he makes sure they're both included in everything. 
and his daughters grow up happy
dudley dursley is 37 when he apologizes to harry potter.
dudley dursley is 37 when harry potter tells him that even if it's not excusable, he’s willing to give him another chance
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enslaughts · 1 year ago
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no i'm sorry i'm not done because every SINGLE post about claire be it spiteful or pitying still somehow misses the point of her place in the plot entirely. she wasn't there to 'fix' carmy. she wasn't there for his escapism. she doesn't represent carmy's past and she isn't a mary sue and she isn't even there to contrast syd!! she is someone who knows and loves carmy just like anyone else in his life who he continues to sabotage any true vulnerability with!! if she contrasts syd, it's not even in a way that richie doesn't also, or natalie, because these are all people who care for him that he refuses to meet halfway the moment any vulnerability is required of him. for better or worse, claire's function in season two is about carmy's dysfunction, and how no matter how good his life can get or how many good opportunities come his way, he will ALWAYS blow it until he sorts his shit! as long as he refuses to process this hovering feeling, this anxiety, this waiting for the other shoe to drop, HE will drop it himself!! he will look at a perfect situation and ask is the other shoe gonna drop and not wait for an answer because the hope of even asking is too dangerous and painful to indulge in. if he stays in the hustle and the stress and never allows himself ANY amusement or enjoyment, it can't be something to lose. the point of claire is that it wouldn't even matter if it was syd or her, or anyone in carmy's life who dares ask of vulnerability from him (re: the big red button are you okay asked at a berzatto family function, hello), because as long as he remains where he is, he will blow it either way.
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gildedmuse · 2 years ago
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So, I just know all of Tumblr was wondering, "hey, you remember that really weird ZoLaw fan with the annoyingly overly stylized post? I wonder if she's seen this and if she has any theories or thoughts, an observation or two?"
Well, allow me to set your wandering mind at ease, fictional Tumblr fan. The answer is: No. No, I really don't.
I have like three hundred.
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[I also spent time just trying to track down as many translations as possible. Is Tera A Criminal's Daughter or The Daughter Of Thieving Bandits! These are CLEARLY separate things and can ENTIRELY change how her utter nonpresence in Zoro's life shaped him! Though I can take comfort in knowing that, regardless of what kind of crimes her father was committing they were more important than anything his daughter ever did in her entire life.]
And, hey, as might as well jump right into that whole mess.
1. Wait, Zoro's mom is dead? Thank goodness, I was worried Oda forgot one!
(AKA: Stop. Murdering. Moms.)
I'll go first, I don't mind saying when I was wrong. True, in the past I may have suggested that the vast majority of female characters in One Piece come off as ever so slightly, "leaning into sexist tropes with unadulterated joy; it's the misogynistic tropes equivalent of a child running naked through a grocery store. It's right there, everyone sees it, yet people shut up and continue shopping in part because, well, these days you just expect most people to cover that junk! What would you even say? And if you DO speak up and call out the inappropriate, be prepared for blank stares and tantrums; but THEY don't mind! THEY don't think it's wrong! You're just being mean!"
More or less a direct quote.
However, I see now that I rushed to judgement and the reality of the situation is far more nuanced. With that in mind, I was just wondering if someone could help answer some of the questions I have.
Like: Why does Oda believe that it's illegal for (maternal) female characters to survive other character's backstories?
More importantly, why hasn't someone just reached out to explain the misconception!? It can't be that difficult. If nothing else, just have a lawyer or judge or other expert in censorship on hand. Or is the one of those cases where back in highschool his friends made something up and then kept pretending it was real to see if he'd believe you and not only did he fall for it, it took over 20 years before he learned that, what, no that's not illegal. That would be crazy if it were an actual law. Cause you know, after the first 10 years I think yeah you have to just lean into it. Pretend it's a creative decision on your part and definitely not because you were terrified of being sentenced to a slow and humiliating public death.
Just to be clear that's definitely what's up, right? I mean, I'm struggling to think of another reason....able excuse why a story that I really enjoy keeps playing the same old sexist tropes cards again and again to the point of absurdity. It would just help if I had a valid excus- explanation. I almost mistyped the word explanation.
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So I imagine it went like.
"That's the third mangaka they've had to Publically Execute this week!"
"They've started taking this law way more serious lately."
"This one really deserved it though! I heard his main character has a mother in her late forties!"
"That does seem old to have your first child."
"No, he's the middle of three and 22 years old. The story even has flashbacks of defining moments in his childhood and never once did she try to sacrifice herself for him, get murdered by his enemies, or die in meaningless unrelated accidents."
"Damn, that's cold to be there for all the protagonist core moments and not die and help him develop and grow a character? They must have a very antagonistic relationship. Is she actually the villain."
"Not that we know, and when they asked about this being a possible plot twist since - obviously if she's evil no laws are being broken."
"Well, of course, that's the whole reason Statue 2-dash-57 exists; if creators can show they have consistently been building up to a surprise twist then the female character in question can continue to live so long as she continues to be unrepentant and unlikable until the resolution of her arch by the protagonist."
"That's the thing! Under oath not only did man present no evidence to support her identity as a secret villain, he went on the record stating he wanted to depict their relationship as one of a normal modern 20 year old and his mother."
"That can't be true! What publishing company would even print that!?"
"It gets worse. I told you he was a middle child? Well, according to those who've read the actual manga, his younger sister was really sick as a child."
"Oh, well, at least-"
"It was just a fish allergy. She's perfectly fine."
"Sometimes I feel this law is unnecessarily harsh but.... Then you hear stories like that, and you realize that some people really are monsters."
#So this was going to be one post three parts (because obviously) then I remembered even people who have purposefully followed me hate that#I took into consideration that not everyone wants a unmountable wall of Zoro meta analysis on their dash so now its gonna be 3 post style#keeping in mind I've already written it all up and will just be posting them one after the other so effectively the same result#only with the illusion of my empathetic nature#I do have a lot of thoughts on what amounts to a very small amount of scribbled lines and a couple doodles#he literally didn't even bother giving Kuina's mom or grandmothers a name like they didn't even have a identity#In fairness there wasn't a need for them to have any kind of identities or individuality or identifiable features#everyone knows only one trait really matters when it comes to adult females: they go down#into the ground....as a corpse. After ensuring that their death would be the best way to help their children grow. As characters.#I'm joking cuz its funny. It's obvious why Zoro's mom got a name & description: she gave birth to a protagonist and not a human sacrifice#But have considered why those specific qualities are what he chose to define her by - she's fictional he could have made up anything!#I'll have to talk about it in the other posts I'm wasting precious tag room#one piece#roronoa zoro#one piece meta#one piece sexism#this post is not for everyone; actually its pretty much just for me#conversations with fictional people#more opinions than anyone asked for about subjects they don't even care about#Oh! I found the blogs new subtitle!#author gets sassy then preachy then sassy again and then swerves sharply to the weird#oh these tags are way too much#Zoro's backstory#Zoro family history#amusing musings#why am i the way that i am#three post style: part one!
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