#taurus season is apparently not here to save me? idk
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had a day that made me think oh that was a bit heavy on the symbolism, wasn't it
#j. talks#went to visit my brother in his uni city and also connected it with an event there#I know this event because I went there once with a uni course that of course was with my fave former prof#so I know she's usually there but it's a bigger city and Friday and there are a lot of things at different locations#chances are not zero but I thought come on if anything it will be casual running into her#well as I was waiting with my brother and a whole crowd of people to be let in who do I hea#and see :))) yeah it's my fave prof. and I told my brother and he told me to go and say hi but there were so many people already talking to#her and also going there and saying hi so I simply couldn't. I literally froze our shoulders were nearly touching but she wasn't even facin#me and taking and I just followed my brother and he was like???#what was that?? and I didn't know. and he asked my why I looked so shameful out of all the emotions I chose shame#and I don't know. I don't know why shame I consuming me no matter where I go. but she was busy and imagine I go up and she has no idea who#am anymore. they had to burry me right there and then. so that was that :) now#the name of that street of the location burned into my memory as I was facing the wall well it's the name of [redacted] who I never really#get over and it's been 10 years now soon. and we had a similar experience in December :) where I would have loved nothing more really than#to talk (in Decembar definitely also other things that I miss on some days very much) but I barely got a wave#so yeah :) I actually had a great day but I am more than overwhelmed. I feel like crying and hiding#taurus season is apparently not here to save me? idk#is this all about wasted potential and shame stopping me? maybe. but how the fuck do I get it out of me
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Hello there! @thesadboisguidetolife tagged me in another one of these so here I am again! Apparently it’s 20 questions w/ 20 mutuals and I don’t know if I have that many but I’ll see what I can do!
Name: Ricky
Pronouns: He and him
Zodiac Sign: Taurus
Height: the official consensus is now 6’0”
Time: currently it’s 11:54pm on a Thursday which I’m thankful for because the weather finally decided to cool down a bit
Birthday: May 8th
Nationality: Mexican-American
Fave bands/groups: Music kind of questions are kinda tough for me because I like sooooooo many (especially because I’m more someone with favorite songs as opposed to favorite artists I think) but off the top of my head- Paramore, Panic! At The Disco, Pierce the Veil, Mayday Parade, The Academy Is..., Waterparks, The Dresden Dolls, With Confidence, Fall Out Boy, Florence + The Machine, Sleeping With Sirens, No Doubt, MUNA. Note: weirdly enough the majority of these are from when I was younger and I’m not sure why I don’t really listen to like bands now as an adult
Fave solo artists: SZA, Beyoncé, Lizzo, Mitski, Adele, Amy Winehouse, Rina Sawayama, Janelle Monae, FKA Twigs, Ryn Weaver, Lana Del Rey, Lauryn Hill, Patsy Cline, Aretha Franklin, Mary Wells, Halsey, Willow Smith, and I’m sure there are plenty others I can’t recall at the moment
When you made your blog: oof hell if I know. I think it’s pretty old though? Like maybe 8 years or so? That’s just a guesstimate, I could be totally wrong though but I feel like I first joined this site at like 17ish.
Why you chose your URL: I’m horrible at making like usernames for anything whether it be social media or like video game tags, etc. but at the time I wanted something unique that included my name and it just sounded neat to me at the time. Also I think it was the only one available that I had wanted haha
Last show you binged: So in the last ask game I got tagged in that asked this question, I said it was Yasuke on Netflix but I’m not sure if it counts really because although I watched it in one sitting, it was rather short overall so I’m gonna go with season 4 of Infinity Train, which is a great animated show so if you like cartoons or would like to watch a really cool one then I highly recommend it
Following count: no clue and I’m too lazy to check haha
Follower count: same as above and think the majority of them are bots, like I’m pretty sure the majority of them are bots
Average sleep hours: hmm I wanna say it’s pretty much usually around 6-8 give or take if not less. Due to my sleep schedule being all out of whack since last year, I usually stay up until 4-5am and then wake up at around 12-1pm
Other/side blogs: so I won’t mention their names but I did have a couple. I know I had one that was dedicated to like neon pictures since I think like neon tech, signs, etc. are really cool and nice to look at. I also had one that was dedicated to like poetry and music lyrics I liked that I would then edit into “aesthetic posts.” And the last one I had was a NSFW blog. It was kinda hard trying to manage all of them and I would get confused sometimes about which one I was logged onto which then would result in some reblogging and posting of content that didn’t fit haha so eventually I kinda just only became active on my personal blog but who knows, maybe I’ll revive them especially because I kinda want an art blog but we’ll see. For now I’m okay with just having this and my NSFW-ish Twitter haha
Last thing you googled: reference photos for drawing because I’m trying to work on this piece for MerMay and I cannot draw bodies off the top of my head haha
Lucky number: hmm I wanna say 3 if not 5
Currently wearing: this black button up with like a neon sunset and palm tree and some pink shorts. I know clothes are just clothes but sometimes I wanna wear stuff that says “not straight” and I think this counts, I’ll add a pic of it at the bottom although keep in mind I’m tired and in need of a haircut haha
Instrument: Piano, barely some guitar, and even less some ukulele. I took classes in the first two and even did like a year or so of choir as a bass but the only one I kept up with really was piano and some singing for like fun. I can’t read sheet music to save my life though but I’m good at following YouTube tutorials haha
Dream trip: answered this one before which was pretty much Japan or a cross country road trip somewhere by car or train. The other trip that sounds nice right now is like maybe a good week away in a cottage or cabin near a body of water. Idk just some place with some quiet and a really nice view
Fave food: ooooooh I can’t just pick one so instead I’ll mention like a favorite food type I enjoy so like anything bite sized is really nice I think so like sushi, dumplings, chicken nuggets, etc. are all pretty great
Fave song: ughhhh yeah I like way too many but one of my faves of all time that come to mind is “The Origin of Love” from Hedwig and the Angry Inch because aside from being just really beautiful in my opinion, it really builds as it goes on (which I enjoy) and the lyrics are really great and I love how its built around a creation myth. Other songs that come to mind as being favorites are “A Case of You” by Joni Mitchell, “Song to the Siren” by This Mortal Coil, and “No Me Queda Mas” by Selena. As you can tell, I’m kind of a sucker for love songs haha
Top three fictional universes: The Last Airbender (I’d probably live somewhere in the Earth Kingdom), Steven Universe (Beach City is pretty and Little Homeworld looks cool), and BioShock (Rapture and Columbia seem pretty neat and would’ve probably succeeded as societies were they not led by white men, js)
Thanks for tagging me again @thesadboisguidetolife since this was also fun! I think I’m just gonna tag the same people (sorry if I’m bugging you with these!) from last time since I don’t think I have that many mutuals so apologies and definitely no pressure and no rush to participate!
@kaminaepicwin @songswordsfeathersbirds @vidibit @mrbearloover @midians-world @psyrinn @legendaryherooftime @mainbstaysgold @directlyindirect @traviskduran
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EPISODE 8: I ASKED LIKE FOUR DUMB QUESTIONS - JEV
Rip Queen Renee
Renee if you're reading I'm deeply sorry for not being able to do anything or just me being a sissy on making a move. I really did want us to work together but I couldn't do much because I didn't have the numbers or the balls to save you.
Okay... Now it's time to get my shit together...
Sidenote: I've been addicted in sending gifs since we lost that challenge so whatever...
Anyway here's some refreshing tea. So yeah before the vote I was talking to Nick and I brought up the possible advantages that the remaining OG Matterhorn have and he said to me that he thinks Abel has it since he was quick to pin the idol on Daisy. Nick then said that if Daisy did have an idol then she would have used it to save her allies, BUT wait here's the most interesting part. After like hours I back read my convo with Nick because I was bored and I noticed that he removed the message where he specifically said Abel's name. That's alarming and I promise I am not making this shit up! I know he dropped Abel's name.
Also some other news I think this vote strengthened my bond with Brett maybe?? Idk if he was just telling me all this stuff to not let my emotions overturn my vote since he was telling me about how I'm his favorite takeaway from this season, how I'm so like his boi Keegan and how I'm so calm when playing the game.
Me? Being calm in this game? Does he even know how I have been this last day?! I was like this.
Now that we got this challenge, we ABSOLUTELY MUST WIN THIS CHALLENGE!!
I have a feeling I'm channeling Brittany for this challenge cause I have no clue about survivor players. I have barely watched any full seasons!!!! Oops !!! Google to the rescue!!!!
EPISODE 8
I went out on Day 19 of Tumblr Survivor: Myanmar. It is now Day 20 and I have officially surpassed my previous self in length of stay--just not quite in placement yet. What can I say? Trevor was super hard for double tribal councils. I still have to survive 3 more tribal councils to beat my placement.
I am now a part of two alliance chats--one of my choosing and one that I sort of got roped into. My first alliance is with Ashley Sarah, Ian, and the kidnapped Tyler who may or may not survive the next vote if we win. Then there's an alliance I've been thrown into with Dom (whom I adore), Nick, and Benjamin. If we lose this upcoming immunity challenge, I am going to be a fat cat desperately trying to squeeze through a fence. It's not going to be cute and I stand to lose the most.
The immunity challenge was Guess Who: Survivor Edition. I am very familiar with this challenge because in my last Survivor game (the Facebook main), I went out on a final 4 tiebreaker on this challenge. My opponent and I tied for the best average in the ORG's history, but since we had tied, it came down to time--mole style, and I was slower by a few minutes. Oh well. At least I won Player of the Season. Anyway, I volunteered to take the lead in this challenge. I did this for two reasons:
1. I'm easily the most methodical person (NOTE: not the smartest, but the most methodical) on this tribe of teenagers and Ashley Sarah.
2. I can't trust these goobers to play this smart and I don't want to go to tribal council.
Nick, Dom, and Benjamin were also available to do the challenge with me, but I made absolutely certain that I was in the driver's seat--it was a risk in terms of people perhaps perceiving me to be bossy or think I'm smarter than others, but when weighing that with the possibility of going to tribal council, I erred on the side of keeping everyone safe instead of just myself. We'll see if it was the right decision long-term.
Our team had great luck in the initial wearing down of the roughly 400 options. In the end, we nearly always floundered at picking the right person in the last 2-3 options. We were the worst. And I was fearful because if Monte Rosa had some good luck juju, we would be going to tribal council with me leading the march as the captain of the challenge. Yikes. Fortunately, we won by 3 questions, defeating Monte Rosa!
I'm definitely worried for Tyler's well-being. I don't see them voting out Logan because Logan collaborated with a lot of those goobers in the demise of Trent, Daisy, and Lily, so I can't see why they wouldn't continue to work with him. Hopefully they see Maximilian as an unfriendly, antisocial booger and send them to the curb, but that would just be wishful thinking, wouldn't it?
I'm so mad at myself, I asked like four dumb questions during the challenge and we pretty much lost because of that. Now I'm worried that I'm going to be in hot water with the rest of the tribe because they might blame the loss on me. 2/3 of the people who helped me with the challenge I am aligned with or have previously been aligned with so hopefully they don't blame me and I'll survive this vote. Wish me luck :(
So... Me, Luke and Zack are talking about the vote and we are all in agreement that we want to take out Max or Logan this round. Personally I feel like the smartest move would be to take out Logan as I worry he has quite strong social connections with a lot of people in the game, while Max is just kind of there and blends in with everyone, so not much of a threat to us right now.
I'm going to keep both options in mind for now, but if this round goes the way I want it to then Logan will be the one getting snuffed.
So I wake up at around 6AM to see that my tribe had already done the challenge lol and we ended up winning!! Woo amazing!!
So hopefully Tyler remains alive on the other tribe and a merge comes in after this round. I don't know what's gonna happen at Monte Rosa's tribal so I'm praying Tyler survives. I'm worried since the information I got from Renee (I MISS YOU!! PLEASE FORGIVE ME!!) is that Abel and Zack are close. Abel and Luke have been together from the beginning and they could very well include Jev because he's OG Matterhonr and Logan could stick with Luke. Hopefully Tyler uses his connection with Zack to survive. Ideally I'd like another OG Matterhorn to go but I don't see that happening.
Ciao!
[5/14/17, 11:42:04 PM] Abel: you’re a taurus
[5/14/17, 11:42:11 PM] Abel: i’m a leo
[5/14/17, 11:42:13 PM] Daisy (Bahamas Host): yeah!
[5/14/17, 11:42:15 PM] Daisy (Bahamas Host): oh cool!
[5/14/17, 11:42:33 PM] Abel: no not cool tf our signs hate each other!
AND WE DID HATE EACH OTHER
So after the first swap I was the king. I had my whole tribe eating out of the palm of my hands. They were sheep being led to slaughter. I was running the show I knew that much. And then suddenly everything changes. I picked Zack and allowed for his clique of home of sexuals to be on my tribe because I figured it would be safe. And while I do feel safe I'm not necessarily happy with this tribe. I'm back to being Zack and Jev's bitch and now they have Tyler so unless Luke has a change of heart it looks like Logan and Max are fucked. Max seems nice but idk much about them. Logan on the other hand is a gem and I feel so bad that he's in such a sticky situation. I honestly am not scared of Logan and his friends at the merge? Like I think I've built enough relationships in enough places that regardless of what happens at the merge that I'll be going pretty deep.
Whew that was close!!!! Thank the lord Brett and nick know their survivor players and guessing tips!!! Mvps!!!!
TRASH. ZACK AND JEV ARE TRASH. SO OUR IMMUNITY STREAK OF 1 HAS COME TO AN END BECAUSE THEY WANTED TO MESS AROUND DURING THE IMMUNITY CHALLENGE LIKE THE FUCKFACES THEY ARE AND NOW WE'RE GOING TO TRIBAL BC THEY WANTED TO THROW THE CHALLENGE AND KILL LOGAN
Okay so... apparently Luke and Zack have decided that the vote is going to be Logan tonight... without really consulting me?? Like I'm down to do it but I wish we were talking more about it rather than Zack just being like "Jev you do this, Luke you do this and such and such will do this" Like... does he not realise it could possibly go wrong?
The whole plan is for Me/Luke/Tyler/Abel to vote Logan while Zack throws a vote at Max just to be safe, but if Logan pulls out an idol then it could be a tie between Max and one of us if he's on to it at all. I'm just so STRESSED because I don't want this to bite any of the three of us in the ass.
At this point in the game, I know I've been super fortunate to have TC #8 be my first! And to be very honest you would think I would be upset that we lost but I'm really not.
From the start, Logan has always been nice to me to my face. But what he doesn't know is I know what's gone on before this game started. I know that he has a friend who I've once played with almost a year ago in another side org and he hates my guts. Logan wanted to vote me out the first second he got once we ended up together on original Monte Rosa. So I've just been WAITING for this moment to strike back before he's able to give me. The soul reason I even chose Logan over Ben in the tribe swap was because I wanted to vote him off the first second we lost an immunity just to retaliate. It's sad that I have to base this vote off of something that happened before this game started, but I have to protect myself at all costs. Not to mention he's in the same friend group as Dom and Nick! Which is just a nightmare waiting to happen if the 3 of them get back together. So I'm ready to get this tribal over with in all honesty because there's a new force to be reckoned with in Switzerland.
Hey so i just wanted to make a quick confessional. Nothing has happened for us but if we don't merge or swap after this, ian is probably going to be the one going. but i hope we merge wooo
This round has been by far the messiest to date, I've heard things about the possibilities of idols, ties and even rock draws and I don't think I've ever felt more paranoid in a game ever. I've ended up putting down Logan's name and I feel sO BAD ABOUT IT because now he's telling me how he really wants to survive this round because he got 13th in his original season and now I'm going to feel awful if he leaves.
Btw Logan, jsyk this really wasn't my idea and if you leave I am so so sorry that this is how it turned out for you. You deserved better.
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