#I cannot wait to shower
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Plumber is here to replace my element ✌️
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I was just camping in the desert for four days man this next shower is going to feel so glorious
#I am not a big camper at ALL#(contamination OCD yall woo)#but my bff wanted to go on a camping trip with all her friends#so I flew out to go camping with her#and man… I’m dusty… dirty… stinky….#I cannot wait to shower#it’s honestly been a real challenge to keep my cool what would try the compulsions#but the sun was beautiful and so was the desert#maybe I’ll post a few of the pictures we took bc they’re good#also it stormed TWICE while we were out there and one of them was a hailstorm#I was in my tent trying to wish myself home#and LET ME REPEAT!! I DO NOT CAMP!! I WAS ALREADY GRINNING AND BEARING IT!!#but it was actually fun and nice#and I loved all of her friends we all really got along
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im going to lose it when they finally meet each other in tristamp. ik everything's gonna go downhill but also we'll have mILLY!!!!
#milly carrying a drunk meryl back to their inn after a too many drinks#and vash looking at ww expectantly and ww just giving him an unimpressed look#THE GANG'S GONNA BE BACK IN S2 and i cannot wait#trigun#milly thompson#meryl stryfe#I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THEIR SHIPNAME IS#i looked it up and people dont seem to have reached a consensus#just know that im also very very very soft for them#ik millys like 6 ft but i want to hold her and meryl in my hands and shower them with all the kindness love and affection in the world
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took 2 days but my power is finally back :''')
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good morning loves, HAPPY WEEKEND to you all, js spent a couple hours out in the sun (⌐■◡■) !! <3
edit: omg i looked in the mirror & i have a lil natural blush now i think it’s so cute hehe
#₊˚ ಇ reverie rambles#lol it was so hot 😞 but it was for a lil event i went to & i had fun#but i cannot wait to shower now my bangs r all over my face
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SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I have to SHOWER.
#one more shower with my long hair. and then i'm getting it all CHOPPED OFF and i CANNOT WAIT#personal
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having social anxiety on tumblr dot com is so fucking frustrating cause like. i'll see a post i like and want to reblog but i do it with so so so much embarrassment because my brain's just thinking "oh god oh fuck im being so stupid right now what if op sees it and thinks im annoying" but like. they realistically would either not care at all or be happy about someone reblogging their post so like what the actual fuck am i afraid of??? but here's the kicker. the reason i have social anxiety in the first place is because i HAVE experienced these comically horrible social experiences of being judged and insulted for no reason before. multiple times. recently. the possibility of this happening is not a 0 chance. i have legitimate reasons to be afraid. and that is. actually horrific
#even on tumblr dot com (the neurodivergent website) i'm not safe from being ridiculed like my anxiety prophesises#the worst part is that the reason this has happened is because i'm autistic or i misinterpreted something. and i can't just-#-stop being autistic because that is impossible. so the ridicule could actually strike me at any time for no reason at all and that is-#-really scary.#i remember this one specific time i misinterpreted a post months ago and a couple people left sorta sarcastic snide replies on it-#-atting me and i literally did not know what i did wrong and was like ''hey wait i think i might have misinterpreted this. someone explain'#and luckily someone did and it was fine. but like. that was actually horrifying for me.#i was relatively new to tumblr at the time and i legitimately thought people were going to like dogpile me or something. i was that afraid.#and that sounds really stupid but you need to understand that 1. these people did not bother to say what i did wrong and were really vague-#-so that left no room for me to actually like. know what i did. and 2. being mocked and made fun of for not knowing something is something-#-i have gone through many MANY times and people dogpiling others for miniscule reasons is very common online. so like.#it was really fucking scary for me because my brain takes a light shower and turns it into a raging thunderstorm and i literally cannot-#-control that.#also slightly off topic but i hate when there's a misunderstanding or argument online and people are just snide and sarcastic about it-#-and won't bother to explain for no reason. stop being vague and just tell me already!! i don't want to play mental charades with you!!#anyway. yeah i hate having social anxiety it sucks.#social anxiety#vent#this is also the reason i rarely reblog or reply to others in my fandom. i promise i'm not being rude or cold! i literally-#-physically cannot bring myself to reply a lot of the time because i'm absolutely petrified to. i'm frozen with unimaginable fear.#so liking posts is my way of showing i appreciate everyone :)
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Alear: "Ivy?"
Ivy: "Yes?"
Alear: "Would you still love me if I were a worm?"
Ivy: "What?!"
Alear: "Would you still love me if I were a worm?"
Ivy: "I-"
Alear:
Ivy:
Alear: "Would you-"
Ivy:
Bonus:
And then they all died. The end.
#finally normal shower thoughts#behold the divine wyrm#you cannot escape the pepsi gummy#alear#ivy fire emblem#doodles#hortensia fire emblem#Alivy#what else do i tag#food poisoning?#wait isnt alear a type of snake?
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#thought of this while i was in the shower and cant stop laughing#currently reading a star for a summer's day#aka the fic w bartylus fake dating#and i just got to the second arc#I CANNOT STOP LAUGHING#THAT'S WHAT U CALL KARMA HAHAHAHA#i literally had to stop reading cause i didnt wanna consume a good fic too quickly 😭#now eating dinner (at 2 am yes)#and cant wait to go back to reading#anyway yes best friend's brother#still remains to be one of my top fav jegulus fics#and im guessing this fic im reading now will join the rank soon 🤭🤭#jegulus#starchaser#wolfstar#best friend's brother#love u bizarrestars
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also did jing yuan not sell well where the heck did his rerun go why are we on blade and kafka's...
#snow plays hsr#I'M JUST ASKING NOT BC I WANT HIM#i was just like 'huh. wAIT A FUCKING SECOND THAT MEANS IL RERUN SOON THEN?#well so much for trying to get any new characters#i mightve tried to get ruan mei bc i think shes pretty (also the bio references got me intrigued)#but sighs#oh this fuckers going to eat all my stellar jades (dan heng)... stop it....#other news: they revealed sunday's voice aND I SWEAR I HAVE HEARD THIS VOICE BEFORE#IT IS PAINING ME THAT I CANNOT TELL WHO IT IS....#moment he spoke i was like 'ohhh.... oh i am so fucked lmao'#i cant tell who.... its bugging me and i'm going to have to put his voice on repeat now to figure it out and slowly go insane by doing so#if anyone has an idea who the va might be...please.#eugh. and now i have to go back and write. and clean. i feel so dead adsjfasljh#nvm i think im just gonna go shower and rest in bed i shouldnt push myself and should get better over the weekend orz
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New Transmission The fucking Scientific Instrument Class Pseudocons apparently developed what they're calling "Hetero Sapience" and are corrupting the brainmodules of the non-Pseudo 'cons around them by using annoying xenophilosophy words. Soundwave tells me they're 'Greek' and 'Latin' words, apparently. Cool, I guess? Anyway, if you see any SI Class 'cons causing... issues, just try your hardest to turn your brainmodule off before you start getting infected with their weird lingo, alongside all the other issues pertaining to letting the SI Pseudocons transmit data into your brainmodule in their own weird ways. Thundercracker, on a bet with Starscream, tried to get into an argument with one of them and his head literally exploded when it started talking about Alpha Trion's "Mythological Origins" in its weird dialect. He's mostly fine, CR Pods are working at 'peak' efficiency, but the facial reconstruction is apparently impossible due to some kind of corruption. I thought it was just some weird prank but there weren't even any scorch marks or anything. Just exploded. So yeah, just avoid optical contact and auditory contact to the best of your ability and you should be fine. Otherwise, try to force-shutdown your brainmodule if you can. Shockwave is working on a cure right now, mostly because I know he had something to do with this in the first place so he's going to be the one to fix it. He probably wanted a greater justification to do that weird data-transfer idea he mentioned previously. But it also explains the weird Thunderwing hypotheticals he's been asking me lately... Can I go one fucking cycle without someone trying to "Perfect Thunderwing's Work" or whatever other idiotic drivel that I keep finding our limited energon reserves siphoned into?? It's not even a Shockwave thing, it's like every damn Cybertronian these days thinks they have the "Missing piece of the puzzle" or whatever. In fact, Shockwave might be doing this as a weird threat against the other R&D 'cons to cement himself as the one and only Decepticon "Allowed" to have resources wasted on projects like that. Ugh, now that I think about it, that's probably a correct assumption and he's probably gonna expect me to thank him for it later. Ugh, and he's probably literally right. Ugh. At least his repairs both to himself and to his lab seem to be mostly complete so further research into the SI project should hopefully come along a little faster. Both Shockwave and Soundwave think the SIs could potentially be used as some kind of specialty weapon, but we'll have to see how they work on sparkless lifeforms, like biological lifeforms or xenomechanical lifeforms. The SIs don't seem to corrupt each other, but Shockwave keeps reaffirming that they're not "Sparkless Lifeforms" because they "were never lifeforms to begin with"... but I think he's trying to hide something. Usually Soundwave is the one to pick up on that kind of technological obfuscation, but he actually agreed with Shockwave and offered to send Ratbat to try to work out exactly what each "sapient" SI is now capable of on a personal level. We could have just had regular Cybertronians aboard to fill the role SIs fill. I would've preferred K Class to fill any role an SI could fill in all honesty!! But no, constructing cold wasn't enough, we just had to try to learn how to "Construct Frozen" and the "Absolute Zeroes" just had to be put on my ship. Whatever. I've probably said too much already. This was supposed to be a warning for my ship crew, but it's looking like it'll end up being transcribed on the golden disk as well so when this new Scientific Instruments of Destruction project backfires in some absurdly bombastic way there will at least be something remaining that says I was right. End of Transmission
New Transmission Okay so I was right, but so was Shockwave and Soundwave. Or, well, they were right just enough to make sure the backfire is postponed for at least another handful of cycles. Ratbat is still in CR from the investigation, but the cure Shockwave developed seems to be effective and Thundercracker is out and aiding the repair effort. Shockwave is now in contact with one of the SIs digitally and the other few are... integrating due to the personal efforts of Soundwave. I suppose now would be pertinent to mention not all the SIs developed the "Hetero Sapience" condition, many of them are safe for interaction. Soundwave is also currently monitoring their presence, Ravage is tasked with the regular SIs and Laserbeak is tasked with the "Sapient" SIs. Shockwave probably knows exactly what caused this event but he is preoccupied with the one he no doubt is either indoctrinating or ruthlessly interrogating. Report to Soundwave if you see any suspicious behavior, he has been working very hard to ensure the SIs have their purpose clearly defined (And closely monitored). And, Starscream, stop trying to convince the SIs that you are the leader of this ship. Not only have the majority of your efforts been wasted on subsentient automata, the only one you have actually found who possesses the ability to truly listen to you immediately came to the bridge to complain about you. They were the first sapient SI I communicated with directly and it was because they felt the need to complain about you. I almost feel embarrassed for you. Come back to the bridge so you can apologize to it or so I can teach it how to laugh at you. It's practicing right now actually! This moment of chaos should hopefully be largely under control now, the actual "population" of Scientific Instrument Class Pseudocons was actually quite fewer than initially expected due to an indexing error incorrectly labeling certain shells as SI class. At the very least, we have some more specialty warriors because of it all. End of Transmission EOF
#yippie peace through tyranny!!#nemesis posting#Decepticon High Command Slice of Life rambles#Matrix Visions#I like this “chat” font I think it's cool#spacebridge still needs more time in the oven unfortunately#I'm also procrastinating on that because I can't seem to wrap my head around guestmount but do not want to send backup files one at a time#wegh. It'll get done. Eventually.#I'll have so much more bullshit once I actually finish the damn comic my wife radically altered my life with hehehe#I cannot wait to start posting about Alpharius Trionicon. He's the fucking worst if you couldn't tell by name alone and I love him so much#Anyway I just had a very specific joke/pun in my head in the shower then it turned into a whole *thing* like it usually does.#I usually don't explain shit but the shower idea centered around getting the SI acronym to work for hyper specific jokes.#Still can't decide if I want to lock in on “Scientific Instrument” because it fits *so well* for *so many reasons*#But “Synthetic Intelligence” is more generic in a more understandable way... Eeh.. It's a little *too* generic. “Instrument” is cooler.#Once my wife helps me understand her lil fucker more I'll come up with an even shitter joke using “Y/N” so I can do Y/N x SI x SI bullshit!#Oh! The matrix triune project is coming along slowly as well!! I think I mentioned that microphone project once or twice now hehe#I'm gonna make so many shitty covers of songs once I get the soundproofing to start focusing on vocal training stuff#It's been quite a fun time aboard the nemesis!! There's so much to “Blog” about that it's hard to really know when to start *or* stop hehe!#And the fact that all these projects are all interwoven is so fucking wonderful!! I FINALLY feel able to fully grasp my own focus!!#My brain is like a particle collider for certain interests now. I can reliably just.. Spit things out and tie it into the other interests!#It's sometimes exhausting but in such a new way. Like a relieving exhaustion?#Still figuring that part out!!#Anyway that's enough personal project vagueposting I should really be getting back to work hehe this was fun
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I woke up at a reasonable time I contacted my realtor I picked out houses to look at this weekend I set up an appt with my mortgage person I did my dishes I did my laundry I took out the piles of trash/empty boxes/etc I decluttered every surface in my apartment I dusted I picked up so much junk that was on the floor I put clothes away I shoved a lot of stuff into boxes and put the boxes in a closet/corner/etc I cleaned my water bottle I cleaned the bathroom I cleaned the window and window sill that I use for late night moody gazing time I fed myself I reviewed my finances I brushed my cat
and I finally feel 72% less overwhelmed by life than I have in ages
All of this is stuff that has been needing done for a long while and somehow I’m supposed to manage these things while also working every day? I’m never going to manage that man I’m going to have to build in “get my life together” staycations into my work time off from now on which is. A bit annoying as that means I have less time off to use for fun things like ACTUALLY GOING ON VACATIONS and doing fun things but I will adjust my life as I need to remain sane because I will love myself and meet myself where I’m at instead of trying to force me to be a way that I’m not 😙
And now. It is 5PM. I have worked enough today. It’s now edible + sudoku + bob’s burgers time baybeeeee 😎
#starlight personal#I just wanted to pat myself on the back for getting so much done today when it’s mid-PMDD luteal phase hell#so this is a bit of a humble brag I’ll admit that but I am genuinely proud of myself for knowing my limits#and working with my brain instead of against it#if I need to take time off for this stuff then I’m gonna do it because I deserve some ease#I don’t have enough time-energy-stamina to do this type of cleaning and also work and a weekend isn’t enough time to recuperate and get -#on top of things - and I’m balancing self-care (self-indulgent) and self-care (practically helpful)#I did things that were good for me (made my living space habitable and crossed things off of todo list)#and now I’m doing things that are good for me in a fun way (getting fucked up and doing puzzles)#I wish I had a jigsaw puzzle FUCK that would be the only way to make today better#self love and self compassion is hard and I feel stupid and silly BUT THAT’S OKAY it’s worth it!!!!#I cannot wait for the edible to hit so I can take a shower with spiritual significance#that’s the best part of weed tbh it’s getting to a nice level of high and then taking a shower and remembering that life is magical#high showers feel SO good and refreshing and it’s probs one of my favorite experiences in life
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whew i’m fuckin ready to get these drains out goddamn
#they’re just kinda itchy#everything is progressing as intended though! on track to heal fine#my post op is tuesday#i cannot wait to take a shower though i am so Greasy lmao#like body wipes only do so much i guess#punktalk#the surgery tm
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Iwtv EP 5 made me feel so insane that I had to vacuum and mop my entire house to get my mind off of how it ended
#twist rambles#sorry i have 2 be obnoxious about tv but#dear godddd louissss claudiaaaas#i cannot wait 2 wrap up s1 after i get a shower
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vacation selfies :)
#cannot wait to eat walk back to my hotel room take a hot shower and crawl into bed :)#i might watch another movie and the another movie :)#i am FREEEEE!!#also i did get a jo malone fragrance jejeje#i wanted to get margiela but nowhere sells it physically#and i wanted to test a few scents before deciding#there was another scent i liked more but it faded instantly#but the guy working there gave me two free samples of it :3
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I got a packet from the social security people I have to fill out and have sent back in--by mail--by the 26th. I got it on Friday. And I haven't looked at it til now, bc I was so stressed out about my dog being sick and i feel so overwhelmed. They want all my medical records from the last year, which I don't have, because I've only started keeping that stuff since I had my complete mental breakdown and she took me out of work. And there's so many pages and so much information they want. They have to nitpick my whole fucking life, before they can decide I deserve health. Being disabled in this country is a fucking nightmare. Instead of trying to hep, the just look for reasons to disqualify you. Because they don't want to help us; they just want us to go away
#america is a trashfire#i can't even leave my house alone#i literally have been in tears every time they call me#bc taking on the phone to strangers gives me that much anxiety#i can't function#i can't remember anything longer than a few seconds#i can't focus or concentrate on anything#i have to set alarms just to remind me to do things like eat or take meds#i forget to shower sometimes. others i'm too tired to bother#i literally went an entire week without showering recently. bc i didn't remember to do it#i am not well#and i just need help long enough to get well#but how am i supposed to get it? if they make you wait 200+ days just to hear if your claim is accepted#how am i supposed to survive until then?#I can't work bc i can't leave home with having panic attacks#i can't file for unemployment bc to do so you have to be actively looking for a job#and to get disability i have to prove that i can't work#i could probably work if i found a job i could do from home that payed enough to live off of#not to mention they want me to list any income from may-july#which i didn't make any working. but my brother lives me and gives me money to deposit for the bills#that are all in my name bc he hadn't established credit when we moved in. and my credit was better back then#bc i couldn't afford to leave home until i was 28. so my credit was literally based off my student loan payments#and they were pretty low bc i did the income based thing#i'm getting my parents to come help me with the paperwork#not bc i can't understand it. but bc i literally cannot remember something i read 30 seconds ago
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