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It's just guys night talk! Don't worry about it!
(Read Tiger Tiger and shake this man awake so he can finish that thought!)
#tiger tiger#remy bonnaire#jamis arlesi#Comics I meant to post a week ago but I have been...extraordinarily sleepy.#Remy is the ultimate yearner and he is about to explode...these last few updates have had the Tigers discord in a vice grip.#We all knew he was going to say something that would devestate Remy.#But this??? This near confession? “I wish you would look at me like that?”#If I was Remy...well yeah I probably would also just lay in bed. Awake. Pondering and internally exploding.#But ough...the agony...his heart had settled on loving this man from afar and now...now he wonders. If it doesn't have to be so.#The boys are fighting (internally and with themselves).#If you haven't red Tigers yet but are reading this: What else must I do to convince you? Draw more men's tits?#God! If I must [I shake my head at an empty audience] I can't believe I'm being forced to do this!
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Chiho Saito's Illustration Collection artbook is the highest-quality visual media in the Utenaverse. Oversized, single-sided, heavy pages with extremely high quality printing. It is the first artbook I ever scanned.
In 2001, the average screen resolution was 800x600, and I delivered a 1250px wide collection that for a while, took $60 A MONTH to host, because no normal website was hosting images of this ludicrous size. It took my scanner almost an hour to capture a third of each page. I spent months piecing the scans together in Photoshop. It was one of my first true Utena labors of love, and the result is that for decades, these copies have been the definitive copies of Chiho Saito's artwork on the internet. For a very long time, even kinda now, if you see these images, they're probably my scans.
But decades have passed, and I've never been happy with these results, because they couldn't capture the fine details, the paint spills, the sketch beneath poking out, the brilliant use of gradients of dark color to pop the image but drive me insane. What I am finishing up now is a true, archival copy of the artbook. One that delivers such high resolution, that these can print posters larger than the originals, and thanks to some truly brilliant descreening tech, (Thank you Sattva) I've been able to dig up fine details in the work that the printing obscured, but undeniably included.
It's been over 20 years, and it shows. 1250px? Nah, my archive copies are 15,000px wide. I can't wait to finish this and share it with the world. <3
#utena#revolutionary girl utena#empty movement#chiho saito#it's actually insane how much has changed#I can't believe I'm still here doing this shit lmao
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Captain Francis Crozier, at Furthest North.
#the terror amc#francis crozier#my art#can't believe it took me 2 rewatches AND getting refs for this to realize it's the hungarian state opera house. girl i was there last month#anyway yeah i was looking at gifsets of the last shot of the show and feeling nauseous with emptiness etc etc when#the thought struck me that it looks an awful lot like the tableau vivants from the ep1 flashbacks in its stillness#i have no idea whether that was an intentional reference (a sort of twisted mockery of how that scrubbed and polished portrayal of history#contrasted with the deeply sad and inglorious reality#or some sort of meta about storytelling itself. i'm not really smart enough to say lol) but i made this anyways. enjoy#pattern recognition go brrrrrrrrrrrrrr#i bent over backwards trying to make this symmetric and harmonious. it isn't but if i don't post it now i never will
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it's hard loving yourself
#i can't keep lying to myself#how do you love something that is so unlovable#i'm poison. i come from poison. i have poison inside me and i destroy everything i touch. that's my legacy.#i pour alcohol into the gaping hole inside my chest. it does not heal. not today. maybe tomorrow. maybe it wont heal ever#smoke fills my chest . empty it can be#yet so full of your absence#im nothing but an empty husk of what I once was#and a big part of me was already forcefully ripped away from me when you left#hello hi im back with ghoap angst#can you believe its been a whole week since i drew them#anyways#gummmyart#doodle#simon ghost riley#john soap mactavish#soapghost#ghostsoap#angst#implied mcd
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Like all of tumblr, aparently: we 💜 love ✡️jews✡️ and we would 👊 punch nazis and we reblog five 5️⃣ different haukkah 🕎 posts a year we are like so progresive 💁✨️
Also all of tumblr, aparently: death to all jews 🚫✡️ if you're a jewish person who lives in IsNotRaEl then you're an evil 👺 bad jew and you deserve to be raped and murdered ☠️☠️ what? You fled to israel because we were murdering you by the millions??? Well you should have all died lol ☠️☠️ happy hanukkah btw 🕎
#jewblr#op is pissed off#ישראבלר#jewish#antisemitism#i/p#i/p conflict#antisemitism is so real both on this app and in general leftist communities#and I used to side with these people#if there was an attack on people based on their sexuality; gender; race; religion ect I like to believe I would have cared#that I would have shows campation to your loss and understand your pain#instead of actively be part of the bigotry againsts you#i don't trust so many of my mutuals right now because I now know that if there was a nazi uprising they wouldn't hide me#they would cheer at my death#THIS is why jewish people can't trust you guys#YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT JEWISH LIVES#there was a really good article that explained this really well and how so many people have and will lose jewish friends#because we now know that you aren't there for use. and that you were never there for us#'punch a nazi' and 'never forget' are just cute little slogens to you but they actually mean something to us#it used to mean safety; used to mean that we could trust you; now it's empty wprds ringing with betrayel#never forget#jewish lives matter#hamas#palestine#israel#bring on your hate I don't care y'all are a bunch of privliged fucks anyways who would have rallied behind hitler like a bunch of pigs#noa's jewish talk
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I imagine Bakugo to be very lightweight and Deku to be very good at drinking. Will surely piss Bakugo off 😂
One more days to go and bnha will officially be over guys :') how are you guys feeling?
#bnha#bakudeku#bkdk#mha#bakugo#izuku#bokunoheroacademia#I can't believe after this week I will never have to wait for another bnha chapter again#I'm feeling such an emptiness :')#But at the same time the ending doesn't seem like an ending 🙂
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Oh dead female character haunting the narrative save me... Save me dead female character haunting the narrative.... Save me
#empty thoughts#mara she ra#She ra mara#Rose quartz#Pink diamond#Honerva#<- technically#There are more I just can't think of them right now#Leaf plantar#Yes I know and understand female characters being fridged is bad but also#When done right it fucking slaps#Edit- can't believe I forgot my girl#laura vanderboom
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ZOO TIME! 🦗 🐔 🐍 🐂 🐖 🐐
#ai's random art#hirogaru sky precure#hirogaru sky pretty cure#precure#pretty cure#battamonda#kaiserin undergu#minoton#kabaton#wonderful precure#skearhead#KINDA NOT REALLY BUT his tag is empty and I'm like half of the active audience#caprikon#bc I love her#ANYWAYS I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY'RE HAVING A FUN NICE DAY AT THE ZOO I JUST KNOW THERE WERE SHENANIGANS#the garugaru appears and they're all simultaneously 'alright guys who was it? not me for sure'#i was looking forward my girlie and suddenly had EVERYONE having a cameo 10/10 feeling. still riding that high
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How it feels like being a Niki fan at this point
#enstarsposting#niki shiina#i don't even remember the last time his character was treated as more than a comic relief/punching bag.#it's beyond me how empty and full of nothing the stories lately are considering there are characters that still didn't get much developmen#also can't believe they erased the already little crumbs of involvement he had in favor of a random npc we never saw and won't see again#i'm still so mad about what the new event did to his character
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and now i can conclusively say it. none of season 15 makes any goddamn sense. at all
#it's just not cohesive it feels like a frankenseason of different episodes and themes and forced callbacks all stuck together#and chuck amara jack billie the empty all of it makes no sense#why are any of them doing what they are doing? unclear. except for 'chuck is manipulating them' ig???#but adding 'they were being manipulated' at the end doesn't retroactively make everything make sense#i can't believe i'm longing for the s13 or even s14 plot but at least those were coherent#season 15 is BAD yall. it's bad#spn
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Anyone else just not feeling like a real person much lately?
#'lately' he says#as if he's not been feeling this way for the last 28 years#idk man#maybe it's bc I'm getting older and so are the people i hang/chat with#but it feels like everyone else has a real life and real interests and experiences and things to say#and I'm some kind of hollow scarecrow person just full of memory loss and sadness#i feel very stupid and very boring#which i know is too harsh. and i know i should be kinder to myself bc life and covid and shit can't have helped the brain situation#and i should absolutely believe my friends when they say they wanna hang with me bc it's mean not to take them at their word#but I'm still like... why though?#genuinely what's the appeal of being around me. my head is empty i have nothing to add and I'm not interesting or that funny#it's been creeping up on me. this feeling like i just genuinely have nothing to offer.#i don't even know who i am#except for a person who like. lives vicariously through fictional characters experiencing feelings I've never had cause to feel#i can relate to emotions SO vividly except i myself haven't even felt the half of them#i just sort of quietly exist somewhere on the spectrum between content and discontent#with occasional drops into the despair zone#and even if the stuff i think is keeping me here went away tomorrow. like if mum stopped being an issue and i was free#like... what would i even do?#i don't even know how to want something#anyway. this has been morning mental breakdowns with newt#I'm going to go make some made up guys live the life i haven't now#mr. bees speaks#negative
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It's the most important part, the trying, 'cause who ever really succeeds in the end?
Feud: Capote vs. The Swans – ‘It's Impossible’ (dir. Gus Van Sant)
#feud fx#feud: capote vs the swans#naomi watts#this was a phenomenal episode for babe paley#i still can't believe ryan murphy managed to get#gus van sant#to direct this show#and what a beauty he created#the way he managed to capture that ornate emptiness#of the nyc high society in 1960s#but evoking such longing at the same time#before this episode i actually found the writing a bit tiresome#but the dialogues were great in this one#the last 5 minutes especially#cinematography#feud#my edit
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Me desperately trying to find this so-called "bias" it often feels like a solid two thirds of this fandom claim that the HotD producers/writers have towards Rhaenyra when literally every single change to other characters has fundamentally come from minimizing/obfuscating/or otherwise reducing her narrative and overall characterization and character.
Yes, I'm sure this woman who they have invented continual bad decisions, internalized misogyny, blatant disregard for the people closest to her, ineptitude, blindspots, and blatant, borderline unbelievable public disdain for in their adaptation of her character; who's background as a victim of child abuse, of continual misogynistic psychological and eventual physical violence, who's love of both other women and her own womanhood, infamy in her charm and popularity and continual attempts (and yes, often failures) to rise above the positions she was forced into they have also ERASED...is actually someone they're going out of their way to portray sympathetically?
Oh, but they favor her because...idk they haven't shown her being violently raped or repeatedly physically abused? Because you believe they actually think that making her seem like an idiot who never knows or thinks about what she's doing is somehow favorable?? Because it seems like ANY of these changes have actually endeared her to the fandom much less the show's general audience??? I literally cannot explain it most of the time, it baffles me.
I know I shouldn't be because why should any of us ever be shocked by misogyny in media anymore? By the portrayal of a woman for a mass-media (and heavily desired male) audience that's reductive and hollow?? But it's simply unreal to see how so many people somehow believe that this was done out of some sort of benevolence or favoritism. That so many people believe any of the changes made in the opposite direction of, and often active opposition to Rhaenyra's portrayal in Fire and Blood, were made out of some sort of desire to make her a tangibly more sympathetic or broadly understandable character, is something I'm not sure I'll ever be able to fully understand.
Except, of course, in the view that I really hope not everyone who says this sort of thing actually believes; that a self-confident woman who exercises her own agency is such an affront that even an unsympathetic, inconsistent, reductive, and idiotic cardboard cutout of a character is still a more respectable alternative.
#hotd#house of the dragon#asoiaf#a song of ice and fire#rhaenyra targaryen#anti hotd#anti house of the dragon#hotd critical#house of the dragon critical#anti ryan condal#anti sara hess#anti show rhaenyra#anti show rhaenyra targaryen#hotd meta#asoiaf meta#idk guys I really just *do not* know#this is one of those perspectives I WISH I could understand but don't think I ever really will#and it's so incredibly popular I almost want to understand it just so I can understand other people's meta better??#because I really want to believe that there's something more here than just misogyny#I want to believe this is more than just an internalized belief that suffering is fundamental to being a woman#I want to believe people aren't *that* reductive even after two years of this nuclear wasteland fandom#but I'm really coming up empty#I've been trying to reconcile sexism and misogyny in media for a decade of my life now#but I think this might be one of those questions I just *can't* answer for the time being or maybe ever#“I believe women are people” I may not always agree with you George but we need more of this sentiment atm
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Logically, anyone has bad days.
But they’re not obvious. Or they don’t look as bad as you might think.
Tony absolutely knows how to be in that place.
But he finds himself on the other side, too.
No matter the rain, the snow, the fog, Peter is a ray of sunshine that will always have so many things to say to Tony. Even in his quieter days, he still has a whole starry sky in his eyes.
Tony is so focused on the stars themselves that he doesn’t pay attention to the void between them.
And then some days, the stars aren’t shining much, and the darkness is taking over.
Peter often disguises it. Tony doesn’t want to invade his space, but some part of him feels bad for not doing something, either. He at least tries to reassure Peter that he doesn’t have to be all bubbly and excited, that he can just… be, y’know?
The kid apparently ignores that.
Until the storm is too much.
Literally.
And Tony gets a call in the middle of Peter’s school time.
Thankfully, Tony was already driving in town. It’s raining a lot. And Peter is trembling in the call.
He apologizes so much. Mostly for not handling school today.
“I woke up wrong,” Peter argues.
Tony is not angry, far from it.
So, quite hesitantly, Peter asks him if he can pick him up. Which Tony already planned by tracking down the kid’s GPS (either from the suit or the phone).
The thing is, Peter isn’t even in the suit to warm himself up.
Tony finds him outside of a flower shop. The poor thing is completely drenched. He looks like an abandoned puppy.
Peter sighs in relief when he gets in the warm, fancy car. Then he’s rambling about the car and school like it’s just a normal day, like he hasn’t run away from class crying.
“Peter.”
The boy gulps, expecting to get yelled at.
Tony sighs and… wraps his blazer around Peter.
“You hungry, kid?” He asks.
“Y-Yeah… I didn’t eat lunch, so…”
As the man imagined.
“Thought of getting burgers for you. But we’re going home, okay? We’ll get it in the drive-thru and you eat just until we get upstate.”
“S-Sounds good.”
Peter doesn’t talk as much. He does eat fast. Besides his metabolism, of course, it seems like Peter hasn’t even eaten breakfast. Tony leaves the lecture for another day, the kid is too miserable.
He doesn’t know how to approach it.
“... You wanna talk about it?”
Tony isn’t stupid.
That flower shop was near the cemetery. Nowhere near Peter’s school.
His smile, even the pretend one, fades away.
Right now, not a single star lights Peter’s eyes.
Tony wishes he could give him all the stars, his own even, to give him hope.
That’s not possible.
And he needs to pay attention to the void, too. Embrace it. Because it’s still part of Peter.
“Kid.”
Peter doesn’t look scared this time.
“... I really appreciate you calling me,” Tony smiles. “I’ll always be here to pick you up, okay?”
“Okay.”
Peter’s eyes grow deep the more his mentor gazes at him.
Tony swears he’ll wrap Peter in three blankets, give him all the hot cocoas in the world, let him pick the movie, and above all… Tony will smother him in hugs.
In days when the void prevails, it might be hard to believe someone could love you like that.
But they do. They will.
#lotus speaks#irondad#fics#my fics#drabble#death mention tw#(not rlly it's mostly implied in the fic)#i feel empty and drained today#i lost my grandfather#he lived in another state so i couldn't go to his funeral#and the last time i saw him in person was nearly 2 years ago#i got to videocall him a while ago at least#but i'm heartbroken#i feel angry and tearful and empty at the same time#it happened so fast that i still can't believe it#vent fic#venting in tags#personal in tags#grief tw#anti starker
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it’s me, hi, I’m the white witch, it’s me
#this was such a good episode I'm basically head empty no thoughts#can you imagine what jacob went through?? like...who's getting the award for most traumatized#the way home hallmark#that moment between nick and alice in 2007 was...interesting#their whole dynamic is interesting because it's so messed up! it's not romanticized or whatever it's just messed up and it messes them up!#I can't believe this is a hallmark series not just because they're including something messed up like that but also because they've made a#a series that lowkey makes me want to lie on the floor#also nick found the notes HE FOUND THE NOTES OH MY WORD#they really went there! I was wondering if they were going to do anything with him being back and that's where they went!#I never would've thought they'd do that#the way kat and elliot were prepared to just drop everything and go to london#and the way kat is always falling into water and bleeding out#I feel like there has to be more to what happened at that party? because what happened doesn't really feel proportional to the big deal the#made out of it? idk#anyway yeah I think that was one of the best episodes of the season#earl crow ramblings
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LUKE ! What the hell are you doing ?
#Bro you blow on a plastique lid !#this scene is so funny#i can't believe they were “yep it's our best shot”#now I know all the cups are empty and they just pretend#when you see it you cannot unsee it#luke alvez#criminal minds#adam rodriguez#remember when we think “oh why they always assume Luke is the dumb one” yeaaaah probably for that
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