#I can't believe I let this happen
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Update: Thank you to everyone who has helped me out and supported me in my struggles. I just wanted to say that I've reached my goal! So thank you all, so so much.
It's really hard for me to ask for help, I have bad experiences with it, so this is all very bewildering and amazing to me that things actually turned out when I did. Honestly, I can't thank you all enough 💖 Even those who could only send kind thoughts, it was genuinely comforting and I hope you all know how much I appreciate you.
I'd like to ask that anyone who has reblogged this post please delete it, now that it's served it's use, I don't want to mislead people after all.
Again, Thank you.
Is anyone out there willing to do $10 for a commission? 😔 Because I've just found out that I'm going to be very short on bills this month, apparently...
So, long story short: I've very recently and very suddenly moved into a new place and it came at a lot of cost, both financially and personally for me, as the house I'm living in now previously belonged to my sister, before she passed away this September.
Funeral costs, moving costs, and everything on top of that aside, I have always struggled financially as a persons with disability.
But, I had thought I had finally evened that all out at last this month, unfortunately I was wrong. Some last minute bills sprang up on me and made one of my more expensive bills bounce - now it's got charge fees and is already up to $325 and I only have $65 in my account. So I'm a bit stressed right now 😭 to say the least...
Anyways. I'm absolutely willing to do a few coms on the cheap if that'll help pay the bills even a little bit 🙏 if anyone is willing to help me out, I'd be so thankful. Any little bit at the moment will be a step forward.
If you would like a commission, please dm me here or you can also contact/support me through my Ko-Fi page. Otherwise, if you could share this post, that would help me out too. Thank you.
#iwrite posts#art#commissions#support#help#boost#please boost#signal boost#art commisions#commissions open#coms open#art coms#please help#need help#ko fi support#buy me a kofi#artist on kofi#olba#our life#artist#artists on tumblr#donations#please donate#god I feel so stupid#I'm just sitting in the corner#head in my hands#I can't believe I let this happen#and right before christmas#I'm so gd stupid#I feel so terrible asking for help like this I'm sorry guys
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time for skeleman
with the lack of any other info yet, all I can focus on are those Charles Lloyd-looking sunglasses. they are absolutely sending me. I feel like we're gonna fall through a tree or whatever and this stitched-up boney gentleman is gonna pop out from behind a gravestone and start serenading us with some smooth jazz on the saxophone.
or should I say...the saxoBONE???????
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#doot#i drew this so fast i'm so sorry#god. we don't even have an event name yet what do i tag this with.#the only thing we know about him so far are 1) glasses#2) ~*wagahai*~#(is wagahai a jack thing because that's incredible)#(hold on i gotta look up the japanese dub)#i have zoomed in and i THINK he's got orange eyes but the pixels are defeating me#anyway excuse me for a moment while i vibrate so intensely that i start phasing through the floor#nightmare event is nigh!!!!#this is the number 1 event i have wanted most i can't believe it's real and it's actually happening#i've been dreaming of halloweentown boys for forever i am SO excited#slightly bummed it looks like there's not going to be a sally too but we can't have everything i guess#(unless...? 👀)#stream on the 29th let's GO#and for once it's not at like 4 AM my time thank you for small mercies twst#i wanna see my guys in fancy halloween suits!!!!
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"it's so embarrassing you like that popular thing" "oh ew that geeky/strange thing is so cringe lol" "oh it's kind of weird you get excited about that harmless shit"
dude i love how ironic and jaded you are and that's so cool and sexy of you. and i am so so glad to tell you - you won!! we all had a meeting and we decided that you won, and we are writing your name on the inside of a burger king crown. the marker smeared, sorry, but we knew any form of real effort is ugly to you. but anyway. congrats! you are officially the coolest, most ironic, most jaded person in-the-world-right-now. we would throw you a party but you would think it was totally boring - and besides, we're weird so we wouldn't have been coming. we would have brought our love of beetles and of baking and of little canapes. we would have brought our artsy videogames and pages of writing. we would have written a poem with you, our hands covered in ink, and spread out a canvas to dance on, the night so lurid and pink.
but do not worry. we will not throw the party. we will just get you a ringlight and that crown i mentioned. it is a nice crown, except for where one of us dropped it.
the vote was a really hard one because we had so many cool ironic people to pick off the shelves. all of you have hands that rot fruit, how strange is that - you can't look at something without destroying it for other people. you like it when you can squeeze a person into a pinpoint - all us small ones scampering our little feet around our ugly joys. the vote was also a hard one because we kept our voices down because you don't like it when we talk too loud. you were on your phone at the time, talking to people other than us. you are a ghoul of every moment - half in, half out, you resent us for being here without shame or embarrassment.
so good news! we have invented an island for people like you. you get to go there and speak into the air things like if you still like watching harmless twitch streamers in 2023 you're fucking boring. you will say things like liveplay podcasts are fucking ugly and it's kind of awkward they try to make everything gay. on the island we made you, all of your words will have weight. they will form in the air like icicles, large white behemoth letters that will crumple in anvils around your feet. maybe we will send someone there once in a while to sweep, but honestly you might be there for a while, alone, waiting. we are busy being outside looking for mushrooms and flapping our hands and humming. we are busy kicking our little heels while we watch cringey tv. we are busy - sorry! as an apology, we have pre-filled the island with every bland, mediocre, unscented thing we could find. the island has the texture of american cheese. the island has an ocean that never gets angry. the island is perfect for you, trust me. you will be so happy there - as happy as you can be, ironically.
we want to say we are sorry for doing harmless things that you find annoying, childish, or unappealing - but we are not sorry. we thought we could help you, because we don't mind laughing at ourselves, but it turns out you are allergic to color and noise and atmosphere, so this is the best that we can do for now. we are all making a big shirt that says i voted in the ironic monarchy. we got you one that is just a fast fashion buttondown. i am so excited for you and this island and the big life you have won. you have a cool jaded grey life and miles of irony to roam. i love you! be well.
now leave us alone.
#spilled ink#writeblr#slam poetry#i started this as a joke and ended up taking after#the poem about all the women in the world meeting in the bathroom#i can't find it to link it directly i've been googling for like 15 minutes if someone can remember#turns out frantically googling the only lines like ''women meeting in the bathroom''#''secret womens meeting you always believed happened" is not useful for . to search??? help :(#also the reason this says harmless so many times is bc like#this is 100% about like#yeah man when ppl are mean about ppl enjoying things like. fuckin lady gaga#like this is so obviously about ppl who steal ur joy for no reason (i WILL steal ur joy if ur a bigot btw)#also yes it's bc someone was like ''liking the mcelroys in 2023 is cringe''#and im like. dude what the fuck literally just let people like things it's LITERALLY not that deep.#like i dont like centipedes theyre one of like the 2 bugs im squicked out by ... but like.#if u really like centipedes. im like so happy for you. i hope you can put socks on ur centipedes#so they can speedclean ur floors. that would be fun and cool!!!#i love u i hope all of you have a weird passion i love you i hope that passion fills your life like soap bubbles
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When you read PJO when you were 13 and now you're almost 20 and new books are still dropping
I love it.
#percy jackson#wrath of the triple goddess#percy jackson fandom#annabeth chase#percy jackson and the olympians#uncle rick#riordanverse#new books#new release#sequel#walker scobell#aryan simhadri#leah sava jeffries#thalia grace#solangelo#percabeth#heroes of olympus#trials of apollo#screaming#i can't believe we're getting a new book#is this actually happening#kdjsjshshsbsnbdnab#lets freaking gooooooo#i am so happy right now#emotional#tyson pjo#books
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not to be insane but
#I'M SORRY.#it's been bothering me since i watched the episode.#they can't just get away with evoking the victorian episode of sherlock i won't just stand by and let that happen#i really can't apologise enough to be honest#loki#loki season 2#loki season 2 spoilers#lokius#bbc sherlock#johnlock#i can't believe i just wrote johnlock in the year of our lord 2023
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#ryuuji suguro#blue exorcist#ao no exorcist#ryuji suguro#cram school#rin okumura#manga ryuuji#suguro ryuji#suguro ryuuji#bon suguro#lewin light#lewin lightning light#chapter 70#so ryuuji is impulsive and that gets over looked a lot#this is a hot headed boy really driven by his beliefs and emotions#and it gets him in trouble#but also means he's quick to defend what he believes and who he supports#and this time it leads him to going after what he thinks he needs#something that will make him feel like he has a purpose because he's been floating around without one since part way through Inari#but it's been longer than that#he just noticed it was happening in inari#he throws himself fully into this option and hope he sees#and prostrates himself in front of a brilliant mess of a man who has already laughed and toyed with him multiple times in a very short time#who clearly can't clean worth a damn and has made it already obvious he doesn't do his own work#who lied blatantly and obviously#who doesn't blink to summon or kill demons#who is one of the most powerful exorcists#and ryuuji throws himself into the deepest bow he can because he doesn't let pride stop him from his goals#and his goal has just become to get a drive and lewin might be the answer#and lewin i think genuinely at this point doesn't want to deal with what he sees as a smart but directionless kid
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Here he is!
The one
The only
Husband and Romance Partner to Cody Walsh himself
LOOSE BARON!!!
he's not exactly how I planned but I'm not going back to change it now lol
made sure to add the oogie boogie tattoo that made Cody fall inlove with him too lmao
#is this cursed? definitely!#but ngl so was the chaos of the 2nd London live show! i can't believe i actually saw it!!! (IT WAS SO GOOD!!!)#my friend who is completely new to d20 but came with me as my emotional support tall guy also thought it was awesome!!!#(tho he had absolutely zero clue to what was happening besides kinda knowing the fh characters)#but anyways i just had to draw our dear loose baron bc holy shit i love him guys#he is so weird and pathetic#so perfect for Cody#the battle to save Calorum from slowly turning into Pinocchio via punching the nightmare king to let Cody have Loose Barons hand in marriag#was honestly quite thrilling#loose baron#time quangle#time quangle live#time quangle spoilers#loose duke#baron from the baronies#dimension 20#d20#same emotional support tall guy will be so disappointed if he finds out forgot to make dinner bc I was drawing this and it's now nearly 6am#so now i shall make dinner - so if you've read the tags this far thankyou and good night :D
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i do hate how much acotar discourse revolves around trying to pretend the story isn't plotted like garbage. the entire second book of this series is a giant retcon and characters are constantly changed on the fly. anytime someone tries to defend this series as if the characters are real people capable of making decisions and as if the plotting is at all organic i just can't take that seriously.
#maybe if it was better written i could but acotar is a series where you can really see the guts and wires#there's no suspension of disbelief if you don't just accept whatever the narrative tells you#even if it actively contradicts prior information#i can't believe this is one of the most popular and influential book series of the past like. decade. how did we let this happen.#the smut scenes aren't even good#i started reading acosf again and i'm straight up not having a good time. but i have to see it's grubby little hands in every other fantasy#series right now so i've earned the right to bitch about it.#anti acotar#anti sjm
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yes i'm rooting for m*leven breakup because byler is neat but mostly? i'm rooting for m*leven breakup for the sake of el and mike.
to me, their romance was always a puppy love born out of a combination of social pressures, naïve curiosity, and a lack of true understanding regarding intimacy and romantic love and what it really is. it was real in that they do truly, deeply care about each other and they are close friends, maybe even shared an attraction, but a maturing romance is so much more than that. they've grown up and out of being boyfriend/girlfriend, and that's okay! i think television/film needs to show more often that most of us don't have definite "soulmates" or first childhood loves that we spend our whole lives with. it doesn't mean these relationships meant nothing and didn't impact us, it just means they've run their course and that something else is in the cards, and this is part of life!
i've always felt el was at her best and most confident self when broken up with mike, discovering who she was and what she liked alongside another girl her age instead of just relying on mike for mentorship on how to live in the real world. she deserves more of an opportunity to find herself, her autonomy, and her independence, and to love who she is, and she's made it clear she's felt insecure in the relationship with mike because she isn't being loved and understood the way she wants, needs, and deserves from someone who is her partner.
also, it's okay if mike doesn't love her in "the way he should". he is not obligated to love her romantically and stay in a relationship with her just because she's a girl, because she "needed someone", or because he cares about her a lot. he shouldn't be pressured into a romance if it's not truly coming from his heart. he deserves freedom to find out and honour who he is, too, instead of just staying in his non-functional first relationship — one he got into as a child, essentially — and defining himself that way because it's what's expected when a boy and a girl are close. he loves her in some way, yes, but it's okay if he doesn't feel comfortable or secure being her boyfriend anymore, for whatever reason that is. he's felt insecure too, and that's valid and it matters.
they are their own people and are steadily growing and changing every day. they need time to figure out who those people are, and it's become clear (at least in my opinion) that those people aren't meant to be a couple at this stage.
they deserve freedom. they deserve to grow up and be authentic to themselves and not feel like they need to lie for the sake of a relationship. they deserve to move on from this version of their relationship that isn't making them happy and rekindle the best part of their bond: their strong, beautiful friendship. they don't have to be a couple if it doesn't make them stronger and better and happier people.
i think it would be healthy and wonderful for a show, especially one consumed frequently by young adults, to show a relationship starting, progressing, and ending on good terms in this way. sometimes things don't work out, and that is okay.
#eve text#elmike#stranger things#byler#only tagging byler because i feel like yall will like this take lol#tagging tagging tagging WHAT ARE EVERYONE ELSE'S THOUGHTS#god i can't believe i'm making a post about stranger things. this feels like poking a bear#i'm not particularly anti m*leven but like... they'd have to do something pretty special at this point for me to feel like it's viable#i'm seeing the bts of s5 and it's got me Having Thoughts#elmike friendship is something i am so passionate about#even before i ever liked byler (didn't ship at all until s4 even though i knew it was a thing before) i've felt this way about elmike#i always believed they were close friends at heart and needed to break up#the romance part of them felt very distinctly young and very much “he was a boy she was a girl” to me#and it hasn't deepened into anything more mature and i don't see how it could based on the current state of the writing...#the fact that lumax exists — a young relationship that is actively maturing and is healthy — makes that clear to me#and the “love confession” in s4 and how disingenuous and miserable it felt was just the nail in the coffin#also the fact that will (who is IN LOVE with mike) was instrumental in making it happen? ... uh... okay... interesting choice…#fucked up and reductive if they make it another queer unrequited love sacrifice for the sake of pushing the heterosexual agenda YUCK#so i really hope the speculation about a m*leven breakup is real!! i think it just makes sense for their characters but who knows#i don't believe in the notion of love at first sight or one true love and i think the writers don't too???#love to me is an accumulation of experiences and we inevitably choose it at some point rather than fall into it... but idk#tv is so fixated on keeping couples together... sometimes it's just not reality guys especially with young people... LET IT GO...#like i said though i'm not 100% sold that they're going to give up their “golden couple” LMAO#stranger things hasn't historically subverted too many tropes if i'm being honest#anyway i seriously need this season to come out quickly... i'm so bored and getting my master's is crushing my soul#i need frivolity#ALSO btw i won't respond to hateful messages about this so please don't bother. it's not that serious. this is a netflix show
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#tua#tua s4#tua s4 spoilers#the umbrella academy#five hargreeves#lila pitts#lila hargreeves#five x lila#five/lila#am I the only person posting these scenes?#i still can't believe it#i still can't get over it#how did this happen#what's truly unhinged is I think diego let lila go in the end telling her sees her and gets that they loved each but ultimately didn’t fit#lila taking five's hand in the end was her acknowledging that she loved him too that her CONTINUING to wear his bracelet showed that#she CONTINUED wearing his bracelet! we know what that means!
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Amphibia is proof that the best character writing tip is to make everyone at least a little bit problematic
#this is why all of my OCs are horrible people in one way or another#this goes for relationships too#lum1ty is cute and all but nothing about it ever destroyed me nearly as much as even the most tame scene between any members of#the calamity trio. and ik it's because the relationship between those 3 is what drives the story while lum1ty is a romantic subplot and all#but my objection is: that's precisely the problem#it's supposedly meant to be the fluff amongst the angst. a refuge from everything else that happens in the show#plus it's not the MAIN main relationship of the show - the main relationship is between Eda Luz and King#but... i genuinely believe divorcing lum1ty from the rest of the story does them a disservice. imagine how could it would have been if#they let amity be a little bit worse. deeper into the emperor's coven or something. with a more intense rivalry w luz#characters in toh just need more Drama imo especially luz's friends#hunter is great *because* he's Dramatic#this isn't toh bashing. i love toh. i just can't help but feel it's an example of characters being too... *nice*#cant remember who said that the only thing worth writing about was the human heart in conflict with itself and#im sorry but you can't convince me a character like gus or willow is just as much in conflict with themselves as like. idk. hop pop.
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YOU MANIFESTED THE TWEEL CARDS CONGRATS
YOU'RE WELCOME EVERYBODY!
seriously though I was probably like. 60-80% thinking we'd get at least one tweel for chapter 10. but I was NOT expecting it so soon! both of 'em! in August! a shame we're not getting a Coral Sea event after all...but I guess I can be resigned to that and ALSO excited for getting shiny sparkly glowing(!!!!) mertwins along with Azul fighting his inner demons and going right for the eyes! AHHHH I CAN'T WAIT
(also heeeey I recognize that rowboat... 👀)
#art#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 10 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 10 spoilers#omg they're real#hey twst as long as you're pandering directly to me#che'nya card for riddle's chapter??????#it's not going to happen. but. WHAT IF#anyway i suppose they could get this one out a bit faster since the tweel sprites already exist#let's hope for a non-ob octozul cameo too! 🤞#as much as i want to see him though i do think it would be extremely funny if his dream were just#everything's the same in the coral sea except he's in human form the entire time#no real reason he just feels like it#chapter 10 though! the hype!#floyd is one of the characters i can't even begin to imagine what his dream might be#(the other one is ace) (i got a couple theories for him but floyd i just have NO idea)#i know it might just be for the diptych but i am VERY intrigued by the implication that the twins might be having the same dream#they're both dreaming about the time they teamed up to ruin some couple's cute rowboat date#and you know what. i believe it.
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anyone interested in talking about the iconic 2000's middle-grade-bordering-on-ya book series gallagher girls??
#okay incoming rant about this series#i read the first book when i was 10 or 11 and i was absolutely obssessed with it. i read it so many times i had the entire story memorized#the issue was that i could not find the rest of the series anywhere. it was either sold out or out of stock#and then i found out that only the first 3 books had been translated into my first language so at that point i kinda gave up on them#anyway#flashforward to a couple of weeks ago#i was re organizing my bookshelf and on the back i found LYKY (is this how y'all are abreviating it??)#and remembred how much i loved it#and since i'm now fluent in english and was stuck at home recovering from a surgery i decided to download the entire series and read it#to find out what the fuck happened afterwards#long story short i read all six books in 4 or 5 days#and i haven't stopped thinking about them since#it's actually so funny how little information we have in the first book#i went all of these years thinking it was mostly a silly series about a boarding school for spies when actually SO MUCH happens afterwards#i can't believe i went all of these years unaware of zach goode's existence#truly character of all time#but also i can't stop thinking about how interesting it would have been if zach had come to hate the circle and his mom during the series#rather than before#make it a true enemies to lovers#and have us witness that portion of his character developement in real time instead of being told about it#like him slowly realizing through cammie and his time at gallagher that maybe what they were doing is wrong#i think it would have been very interesting to read#although let's be real it took me until halfway through book four to trust him and he was fully one of the good guys so..#but yeah i have a lot more to say but these tags are long enough#gallagher girls#okay i just want to add another funny anecdote about my experience with this series#my copy of LYKY has an age warning in the back recomending that readers should be above 13 yo to read it#and i distinctly remember finishing it and thinking the warning was kind of dumb bcs besides a few mentions of death and other heavier topi#nothing really happened#and now i realize it was a warning for the rest of the series not just the first book because jesus fucking chirst everything after
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I need them to sit on a beach together and Owen falls asleep and Curt buries him in the sand and just leaves him there to suffocate and then forgets where he buried him, so Owen is buried under sand for an hour as Curt desperately tries to dig him up
#spies are forever#tin can bros#tin can brothers#owen carvour#agent curt mega#curtwen#this happened with my sister once#poor girl#can't believe she survived#(it's my fault tho i buried her)#my dad let me though so really it's his fault
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NoooOOOOOOO MORVAY NOT AGAIN!!! Two haloween s?? When will you be freee!! 💦💦💦
MR FATHER PLE AXSSE
#poor morb. glutton for punishment. and aster's just giggling elsewhere#tryna stick candy into Dante's mouth#bAFFLED by this character combination#how did dante get lured into the torture chambers with the 3 old men?#why is the eiden doll stressed?#is this a We Don't Know How to Deal With Our Burgeoning Feelings of Love session#so they all beat on an effigy of their target#in an effort to sort out their complicated feelings about eiden#or is eiden. like. legit trapped in the body of a plushie#just for this one experience. you know. like experiencing all the horrors and pains of getting stabbed by flaming scissors#but not actually experiencing harm to your real physical body#that's sufficiently spooky for a hallows eve brouhaha is it not?#-evil words by ancient fox man#did they just steal one of Blade's eiden plushies. inject it with eiden's soul#then start smacking it like a pinata#topper would never let that happen!!! I'm sure actual eiden is not trapped in the doll! probably!!#can't believe this is the only time rei and kuya are cooperating with each other...#bunch of tsunderes beating up an eiden doll...#ok BUT WHERE IS THE BLOOD FROM#turns out they were all just butchering an entire wild boar together#um. new sleepover activity i guess
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something very horrifying about the concept of Thor but not Loki being told that Loki is Jotun when the brothers are old enough to understand the importance of the secret
#so he gets to watch Loki be unfavoured or try to do things and HE KNOWS WHY#but Thor can't SAY anything about it bc he's not supposed to#and Thor obviously has no way to reconcile that Loki is Jotun which means Jotun can't possibly be plain monsters#so Thor and Loki both keep badmouthing the frost giants#Thor gets to watch Loki hate on the frost giants while knowing Loki is one and idk something about that doesn't sit right with him#Thor basically gets to watch Loki fail at things and to Thor it's like 'oh yeah of course he's not as good or doesn't fit in'#he gets to watch and learn bad war stories and that's just how they learn about how horrible the Jotnar are#and i think occasionally Thor would stop to really process that fact#but most of the time Thor is just like. yeah that's a thing but it's not like it matters#even tho Loki being Jotun totally IS an important thing#he's just used to ignoring that it's not since he'd been told pretty far back#and it was apparently never relevant to their parents to inform Loki so *shrug*#ALSO ALSO Loki finding out so long after and being devastated and ''they told you of my parentage did they not?''#but make it Thor 1#make it happen when Loki goes to Earth to visit Thor too hjsvfdsh#Loki: I have reason to believe I'm not related to any of you by blood.#Thor: uh well that'd be a little hard wouldn't it#Loki finds out that Thor knew he was adopted/Jotun before him too#lets get that breakdown moving along
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