#I can’t stop thinking about this shit

[felrott]

I’m going insane bc like, I didn’t even mean to start watching supernatural, I tried to watch it years ago and thought it was kind of Shit and overhyped so didn’t bother

And then I just put it on recently for some background noise while crocheting. And then had to stop my work bc wtf is happening on my screen.

Like my entire knowledge of SPN for the last DECADE has been about fkn Dean/Castiel, and the vague shit I knew about wincest was so minor, I assumed it had just come about bc there was no one else to ship in the show, like I figured it was all fandom and completely unfounded, and by the posts on my dash, Dean and Castiel were just eye fucking every episode or something

And then I watch a couple of episodes and these two brothers are on some next level fucked up devotional codependent crawl-into-each-others-bodies type shit, and they’re getting mistaken for a couple on screen, and the messy daddy and mummy issues are so thick you can taste it and they’re just. Like That. They’re Fucking insane. They’re making ME insane. I don’t have the words to describe this I’m just. What the fuck.

[area51-escapee]

I keep saying that I’m going to fist fight my dr on Tuesday if they give me some bullshit reason for denying my medication but realistically I will probably just start crying.

[otto-doctavius]

wade wilson body worship. can anyone hear me

[caramel-cream50]

Dude it is so interesting to me how different husk and angel are treated by their soul owner.

Also like, Husk has seen how Valentino treats Angel, he’s not only had a first hand experience but he has seen how fucked up angel seems when he gets back to the hotel after work.

But Angel has seen nothing but Alastor occasionally telling Husk what to do. Like he knows that Husk can relate to him and he thinks Alastor is freaky as fuck but he’s never seen to what extend Alastor has control of him.

Which we can’t blame him for obviously cause we didn’t even see how bad it was until episode 5. Alastor does treat Husk like a pet and i’m so curious why he left husk alive after killing almost every overlord he faced??

I really hope we get a scene of angel asking husk to go into more detail about what happened to him or maybe Alastor threatening husk in front of the others and everyone is kinda like “what the shit”

Like look at him. He’s absolutely terrified

Alastor clearly has a firmer hold on Husk then it seems and I feel like it’s gonna prevent husk from keeping up with the others

[river-of-wine]

[deadscell]

[edwinisms]

it’s actually so wild to me that this fairly quirky YA type show gave both of its main characters deaths that can, in one way or another, solidly be considered hate crimes. they were both flat out murdered as a result of being A) gay and effeminate or B) brown (south asian, specifically) and you could argue whether or not those kids thought of it that way in the moment or whatever but the bottom line is that they would not have been in the situations that killed them if they weren’t of their respective minorities. like legitimately that is a ballsy choice for this kind of netflix show, let alone for the two Main Characters, and i respect it big time

[lexalovesbooks]

I love chosen one characters and I love characters that are overpowered as all shit. I love characters with one-of-a-kind powers and I love characters who seem like they’re Just Some Guy until they do something that should be impossible and you’re struck with the realization that. oh. I don’t think this character is human. I love characters so strong they’re basically untouchable and I love characters who are slowly crumpling under the weight of being the only person who can keep the world safe but can never show it and I love characters who spend years hiding who they truly are until circumstances force them to reveal themselves and now they can never go back to who they were before. I love characters who don’t even know exactly how much they’re capable of and aren’t sure they want to find out. How powerful can you become before you stop being a person?

[rynli]

doodle from a fanfic-length DE dream I had that I can’t stop thinking about (in which Harry has a panic attack trying to walk through the doors of his precinct, flees into Jamrock, investigates a booby-trapped corpse, fails to explode, has a low-morale depression episode, and makes a shitty ceramic bowl to cope) (it tells him positive affirmations)

[houseswife]

I cannot believe this fandom has dubbed taub the normal one. while house was doing surgery on himself like a common plebeian edgelord, taub (enlightened and bespoke) was screening his calls for help because he was too busy trying to get executed cartel-style by a stripper

[elendsessor]

tbh every monster-centric series should have a spin-off where you play as the monsters. i mean stuff like pokemon mystery dungeon and yokai watch blasters. let me beat the living daylights out of monsters while i make friends with other monsters as a monster. please.

[sp00kymulderr]

Drive Fast

Dieter Bravo x Stuntman!Frankie Morales

At nineteen, I was the king of the dirt down at the Remington draw

I liked the pedal and I didn't mind the wall

'Midst the roar of the metal I never heard a sound

I was looking for anything, any kind of drug to lift me up off this ground

Drive fast, fall hard, I'll keep you in my heart

Don't worry about tomorrow, don't mind the scars

Just drive fast, fall hard

Drive Fast (The Stuntman) by Bruce Springsteen

[dykedvonte]

why do you hate Joshua Graham or Honest Hearts so much?

This DLC and character represents a bigger issue with fandom spaces I have but particularly fallout fandom in general.

Fallout tends to tackle a lot of topics controversial and not. The first two games it’s heavy cause they are the most satirical and direct with how anti-war, nationalism and etc… they are. 3 loses this as it’s very clear once you play or learn about all the games that Todd and a bunch of guys at Bethesda just liked the 50s post apocalyptic aesthetic and refuse to actually critique the ideals of the time period like the earlier titles.

New Vegas is the game that really gets back into it a degree it almost seems like it’s taking too much on. There are things done exceedingly well while other things are done horribly wrong . I’ve made posts about it before and plan to make a big series of posts (it’s a lot of writing) but my biggest gripe is with Honest Hearts and all the gross and white savior esque depictions it has of indigenous peoples. The entirety if FNV does not do the injustices faced by indigenous people correctly on any count. My two biggest complaints are with the Khans and the tribes in Zion but I’ll talk about the former on a different post.

Both characters of Daniel and Joshua are the most accurate depiction of white saviors I’ve seen and I hate how the DLC tries to justify and defend them. The DLC treats Joshua like this man who has repented for his past actions when he is just retracing his steps after his cruelty bit him in the ass. He was one of the worst parts of the Legion and it is all but explicitly stated that if you don’t force him to be non-violent he will turn the tribes of Zion into the legion 2.0. The Dead Horses and the Sorrows are horribly infantilized by both Daniel and Joshua who both use them for self serving purposes guised by religious duty. The White Legs are the horrible stereotype of violent and savage indigenous and I personally think a lot of their interlinking with Ulysses, his hair and Ulysses character in general are distasteful and very telling of how BIPOC or POC where involved.

But outside of the game it’s the weird obsession people have with these characters ideologies and trying to make them seem more interesting/philosophical than they are. Tumblr is an echo chamber and many fans of Fallout are not the people on this site. Many people are not educated in the issues these characters convey and how poorly they do or used these characters as a poor introduction for their takes. Contrary to what a lot of people believe in, fallout has a prediomeny white cis male fanbase. More importantly a large portion of the fanbase is white.

You can joke how FNV made you trans or see the numbers on post/fics or diverse headcanons but these are kiddy numbers compared to the millions that consume the franchise and aren’t in those more aware spaces or don’t engage in the spaces the same way someone like me does/has to. Their views shape a lot more than people realize and it’s exhausting to be in a space where people don’t correct the more subtle yet toxic aspects of it but also adopt them into some weird quirky view point on the characters or issues. Some people don’t realize and some people don’t care.

My main issue is just the idolizing of these sort of thing in this fandom space and people try to acts like a game like fallout whose tagline is “War never changes” and has never had a game not revolve around political or militaristic factions issues isn’t that deep or doesn’t relate to real issues. I think it’s mainly caused by how over powered you can become and how you can strong arm your way past these learning moments as majority of people who play this game do play it as a power fantasy where they can do so as they please (which of course, go ahead it’s fun) but never take in parallels or lessons in the story as if it was just another first person shooter.

Also like another personal gripe is Cazadores spawn like hell whenever I’m there and I have not found a mod that works to mod them out so I have to play Indigenous Racism the DLC while getting jumped by giant wasps WHILE helping Mormons. Like I cannot catch a break.

[lesbianaelwen]

thinking about how, in calamity, time and distance weigh on the narrative like how evandrin haunts it, but just like how evandrin isn’t dead—“the ritual didn’t work. what’s the most logical explanation?”—the docking into cathmoira every seven years is not the only way to see these family members. but the narrative is weaved in such a way that it isn’t until we’re in the thick of the finale, and people are vivisecting on teleportation pads and overcrowding airships and fleeing through portals in trees—and then patia teleports the orb and library, guaranteeing her end. loquacious turns down the offer to return through the gate. nydas does not leave on a ship or his dragon, and zerxus does not leave on tempest, and cerrit does not leave with his kids (although he does leave for them time and time again). it’s never even a choice for laerryn. and it all matters, and it truly was never an option to begin with—“we all go down with the ship”—but that’s not what I’m talking about.

there’s all these ways to get around, it’s the age of arcanum after all. if you can’t do it yourself, you surely know someone who can (for a fee or a favor, of course).

so, to follow to a logical explanation,

nydas never visited his brother, his family?

zerxus never went to see his son?

how many times do you think patia or laerryn offered to teleport for a visit? how many times did zerxus almost ask?

[deadscell]

where is my friend?

[fridayiminlovemp3]

i’m so serious i need these lyrics tattooed on the inside of my eyelids